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I've just submitted my PhD thesis. I really don't know what to feel. Is that it? I spent four years working towards this document, and now it's completely out of my hands. Where do I go from here? Should I turn up at the office on Monday and start writing papers? How did you all feel when you submitted? | ebc40bf65adac0805659e0e1dc413ea85fc43f6e78986e78c82b228bf779d216 | [
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"content": "Congratulations! I felt exactly as you describe. It’s extremely common to feel that way when you reach a milestone you have been working toward so single-mindedly for so long. I encourage you to take a break, if you can, and reconnect with yourself and the things that bring you joy. Go sit in a park. Go for a bicycle ride or a hike. Watch a movie. Go on a trip. Hang out with a friend. Do anything except work on the next paper, at least for a little while.",
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"content": "Congrats! What a great accomplishment! I don’t remember how I felt when I turned mine in honestly. Just wanted to say make sure you take some time for yourself this weekend!",
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I've just submitted my PhD thesis. I really don't know what to feel. Is that it? I spent four years working towards this document, and now it's completely out of my hands. Where do I go from here? Should I turn up at the office on Monday and start writing papers? How did you all feel when you submitted? | ebc40bf65adac0805659e0e1dc413ea85fc43f6e78986e78c82b228bf779d216 | [
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"content": "Congrats! I think when I submitted mine, I went for a drink with my SO. The anxiety took probably a day or two to go away since I had been so focused, it took awhile for the brain to realize it was done. I didn't do much in the lab after that cause my paper had been submitted and I wasn't going to start a new project. Other than helping out some lab mates, I just cleaned my area up in preparation of leaving. But enjoy this time and take the time to relax and have some fun! Congrats again!",
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"content": "After submitting, I just went on to do my teaching prep for next term, took a week off and had my viva, went back to teaching and then worked on my corrections, then waited ages for feedback on my corrections and then, suddenly (!), I became a Dr.",
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I've just submitted my PhD thesis. I really don't know what to feel. Is that it? I spent four years working towards this document, and now it's completely out of my hands. Where do I go from here? Should I turn up at the office on Monday and start writing papers? How did you all feel when you submitted? | ebc40bf65adac0805659e0e1dc413ea85fc43f6e78986e78c82b228bf779d216 | [
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"content": "congrats! and here is a little tidbit you might not know. They wouldn't have let you submit the thesis if you were not going to pass the defense of it.",
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"content": "I submitted mine to my committee today too. I have to go in for data collection tomorrow :/",
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I've just submitted my PhD thesis. I really don't know what to feel. Is that it? I spent four years working towards this document, and now it's completely out of my hands. Where do I go from here? Should I turn up at the office on Monday and start writing papers? How did you all feel when you submitted? | ebc40bf65adac0805659e0e1dc413ea85fc43f6e78986e78c82b228bf779d216 | [
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"content": "I got blackout drunk after I turned mine in. Your mileage might vary.",
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"content": "I defended a month ago. Breathe. Take a day or a long weekend. You *deserve* to take a little time for yourself. Show up at work on Tuesday, ready to work. The days between document submission and defense can be some of the easiest productive days of your life. If experiments work, great! More to talk about. If experiments don't work, so what? You already have a defensible body of work! Be deliberate and take time to enjoy your last weeks/months, while still keeping projects on your plate. Don't languish without work to do, that can kill motivation for whatever follows. But don't obsess about work. Make it a 9-5 (or 12-5) job for the rest of your time and make yourself ready for the snake fight part of your defense.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses?",
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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"content": "`not doing it because I think I will make more money.` You will take a huge pay cut entering grad school from the position you currently have. `I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing` Do you have colleagues with PhDs in this field? You can easily develop those skills without leaving your job, taking a paycut, and potentially shelling money for your PhD. ​ I see you're passionate about your profession, and PhDs are huge accomplishments to achieve. At the same time, not everyone should pursue a PhD because of a multitude of personal, financial, extenuating factors. Its up to you to determine the pros and cons and whether its right for you. I always encourage everyone to pursue their dreams, but don't forget to grasp the reality of pursuing those dreams. Best suggestion is working/talking with someone who has a PhD in the area you wish to pursue and get their input.",
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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"content": "I don't think this is a good reason to go for a Ph.D. You can do everything you want on your own, technically. Do you already work at an academic institution with a grad program? You can grab syllabi of interesting classes, and then just work your way though the reading lists. You can do this without the pressure of assignments, comprehensive exams, writing a dissertation, etc. If you have broad interests within Lib & Info Sci, then a Ph.D. makes less sense because you'll be forced to narrow your idea down to that one small topic you are to become an \"expert\" in and write your dissertation on. Unless you are in a job that needs a Ph.D., or unless you want to be an \"academic\" and either teach and do research full time, I think based on what you've said here a Ph.D. might not be for you. Again, you can gain the knowledge you see by sending out some friendly emails to the right people, and doing the reading, without all the loneliness and stress that comes with a Ph.D. This is, of course, my $.02 and YMMV. Oh yeah, ANYONE thinking about graduate school really should read this excellent book. It will help you think about why and where to go (if that is your path).",
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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"content": "So in physics what I've heard over and over, and what my experience as a finishing PhD student agrees on, is: The years of PhD will be low pay and high intensity and stress. It almost never makes sense financially speaking, so you should only enter it if you're genuinely interested in the research and are willing to sacrifice more financial stability for it. So from your description, I'd say this is pretty much a hit---you should just consider the magnitude of the financial cost this will have on you. In the social sciencies I guess things can be a bit different, since \"low pay\" typically means \"no pay\". So you definitely want to give some thought to: \\- if your passion will make having high stress coupled with either a student loan or a side-job worthwhile (5 years is a long time!) \\- what job possibilities you'd have at the end of the PhD. How easy would it be for you to reenter the job market afterwards? (This is typically not discussed much in physics, but might be more relevant to your situation.) \\- if you were to have to drop out (financial trouble, or just too high pressure, mental health, etc), what would your job outlook be like? (Considering that you'd have been out of the job market for a couple of years.) In the physical sciences I know that this isn't a huge problem, but for us too it's something worth considering in the decision. So in summary: I think your reasons are perfect reasons for doing a PhD, but you should consider the stress and the financial sides to it. The professional satisfaction you'll get from research will come at a price, and it's a matter of gauging what that price is for your case and if it's a worthwhile price for you.",
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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"content": "The advice I have always given is this: If you can see yourself being happy without getting a PhD, you should just go that route. If you can only see yourself being happy after getting a PhD, well, it doesn't really matter what I think, does it? Even though I also left academia, I don't at all regret my mathematics PhD. Still, part of me wishes I could've been happy without it. It would've been a much easier path to take.",
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"content": "Could you do it without going into debt, and while being able to support yourself in some way? If so, then I say sure, go for it.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "Hi! I'm actually pursuing a PhD in LIS and it is great! My orientation is more on the theoretical/research aspects of the field, but in my experience of the field your situation and interest is very common and encouraged. I find that it tends to be a vocational field that attracts people with really diverse interests and backgrounds (information being honestly an overwhelmingly vast concept lol) who still have a fundamentally ethical component to their interest, in that they believe access to information to be a human right and even civic responsibility. LIS faculties tend to be quite professionally oriented, and I know quite a few librarians who have pursued their PhD alongside their work, often enriching their professional and personal experience of this vocation. So I absolutely encourage you to explore your options, and while academia always has drawsides and no doubt you'll face some challenges inherent to pursuing a PhD, I think you'll find it to be very much worth it! :) If you'd like to discuss further feel free to message me here.",
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"content": "So in physics what I've heard over and over, and what my experience as a finishing PhD student agrees on, is: The years of PhD will be low pay and high intensity and stress. It almost never makes sense financially speaking, so you should only enter it if you're genuinely interested in the research and are willing to sacrifice more financial stability for it. So from your description, I'd say this is pretty much a hit---you should just consider the magnitude of the financial cost this will have on you. In the social sciencies I guess things can be a bit different, since \"low pay\" typically means \"no pay\". So you definitely want to give some thought to: \\- if your passion will make having high stress coupled with either a student loan or a side-job worthwhile (5 years is a long time!) \\- what job possibilities you'd have at the end of the PhD. How easy would it be for you to reenter the job market afterwards? (This is typically not discussed much in physics, but might be more relevant to your situation.) \\- if you were to have to drop out (financial trouble, or just too high pressure, mental health, etc), what would your job outlook be like? (Considering that you'd have been out of the job market for a couple of years.) In the physical sciences I know that this isn't a huge problem, but for us too it's something worth considering in the decision. So in summary: I think your reasons are perfect reasons for doing a PhD, but you should consider the stress and the financial sides to it. The professional satisfaction you'll get from research will come at a price, and it's a matter of gauging what that price is for your case and if it's a worthwhile price for you.",
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"content": "Hi! I'm actually pursuing a PhD in LIS and it is great! My orientation is more on the theoretical/research aspects of the field, but in my experience of the field your situation and interest is very common and encouraged. I find that it tends to be a vocational field that attracts people with really diverse interests and backgrounds (information being honestly an overwhelmingly vast concept lol) who still have a fundamentally ethical component to their interest, in that they believe access to information to be a human right and even civic responsibility. LIS faculties tend to be quite professionally oriented, and I know quite a few librarians who have pursued their PhD alongside their work, often enriching their professional and personal experience of this vocation. So I absolutely encourage you to explore your options, and while academia always has drawsides and no doubt you'll face some challenges inherent to pursuing a PhD, I think you'll find it to be very much worth it! :) If you'd like to discuss further feel free to message me here.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "I want to add something field specific - I work closely with the librarians at my university's library as a student assistant and probably half of all of the subject librarians and most of the librarians in leadership have PhDs. If it is something that you are willing to pursue and finances are not a concern, it seems like a good career opportunity as well.",
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"content": "Hi! I'm actually pursuing a PhD in LIS and it is great! My orientation is more on the theoretical/research aspects of the field, but in my experience of the field your situation and interest is very common and encouraged. I find that it tends to be a vocational field that attracts people with really diverse interests and backgrounds (information being honestly an overwhelmingly vast concept lol) who still have a fundamentally ethical component to their interest, in that they believe access to information to be a human right and even civic responsibility. LIS faculties tend to be quite professionally oriented, and I know quite a few librarians who have pursued their PhD alongside their work, often enriching their professional and personal experience of this vocation. So I absolutely encourage you to explore your options, and while academia always has drawsides and no doubt you'll face some challenges inherent to pursuing a PhD, I think you'll find it to be very much worth it! :) If you'd like to discuss further feel free to message me here.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "Honestly, this is a lot more realistic than a lot of the students I see who are going into the PhD with expectations of getting an academic job. The fact that you’re not looking to go on the academic market will actually give you some more freedom. I’m assuming you’ll continue to work while doing the degree. Keep in mind that some programs expect you to be full-time while a student. So you’ll need to find a program that lets you work while taking classes and dissertating. If you’re looking at unfunded programs—which I think you said you were—they almost certainly won’t care. So the biggest issue for you is going to be making sure that you *can* do the work while also holding down a job. It’ll be a few years of classes, then exams, then your dissertation project. I’ve known people to complete a PhD while working on the side. But it’s difficult. And you really need to have self-discipline. If you think that’s you, then go for it.",
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"content": "Could you do it without going into debt, and while being able to support yourself in some way? If so, then I say sure, go for it.",
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"content": "Hi! I'm actually pursuing a PhD in LIS and it is great! My orientation is more on the theoretical/research aspects of the field, but in my experience of the field your situation and interest is very common and encouraged. I find that it tends to be a vocational field that attracts people with really diverse interests and backgrounds (information being honestly an overwhelmingly vast concept lol) who still have a fundamentally ethical component to their interest, in that they believe access to information to be a human right and even civic responsibility. LIS faculties tend to be quite professionally oriented, and I know quite a few librarians who have pursued their PhD alongside their work, often enriching their professional and personal experience of this vocation. So I absolutely encourage you to explore your options, and while academia always has drawsides and no doubt you'll face some challenges inherent to pursuing a PhD, I think you'll find it to be very much worth it! :) If you'd like to discuss further feel free to message me here.",
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"content": "So in physics what I've heard over and over, and what my experience as a finishing PhD student agrees on, is: The years of PhD will be low pay and high intensity and stress. It almost never makes sense financially speaking, so you should only enter it if you're genuinely interested in the research and are willing to sacrifice more financial stability for it. So from your description, I'd say this is pretty much a hit---you should just consider the magnitude of the financial cost this will have on you. In the social sciencies I guess things can be a bit different, since \"low pay\" typically means \"no pay\". So you definitely want to give some thought to: \\- if your passion will make having high stress coupled with either a student loan or a side-job worthwhile (5 years is a long time!) \\- what job possibilities you'd have at the end of the PhD. How easy would it be for you to reenter the job market afterwards? (This is typically not discussed much in physics, but might be more relevant to your situation.) \\- if you were to have to drop out (financial trouble, or just too high pressure, mental health, etc), what would your job outlook be like? (Considering that you'd have been out of the job market for a couple of years.) In the physical sciences I know that this isn't a huge problem, but for us too it's something worth considering in the decision. So in summary: I think your reasons are perfect reasons for doing a PhD, but you should consider the stress and the financial sides to it. The professional satisfaction you'll get from research will come at a price, and it's a matter of gauging what that price is for your case and if it's a worthwhile price for you.",
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"content": "So in physics what I've heard over and over, and what my experience as a finishing PhD student agrees on, is: The years of PhD will be low pay and high intensity and stress. It almost never makes sense financially speaking, so you should only enter it if you're genuinely interested in the research and are willing to sacrifice more financial stability for it. So from your description, I'd say this is pretty much a hit---you should just consider the magnitude of the financial cost this will have on you. In the social sciencies I guess things can be a bit different, since \"low pay\" typically means \"no pay\". So you definitely want to give some thought to: \\- if your passion will make having high stress coupled with either a student loan or a side-job worthwhile (5 years is a long time!) \\- what job possibilities you'd have at the end of the PhD. How easy would it be for you to reenter the job market afterwards? (This is typically not discussed much in physics, but might be more relevant to your situation.) \\- if you were to have to drop out (financial trouble, or just too high pressure, mental health, etc), what would your job outlook be like? (Considering that you'd have been out of the job market for a couple of years.) In the physical sciences I know that this isn't a huge problem, but for us too it's something worth considering in the decision. So in summary: I think your reasons are perfect reasons for doing a PhD, but you should consider the stress and the financial sides to it. The professional satisfaction you'll get from research will come at a price, and it's a matter of gauging what that price is for your case and if it's a worthwhile price for you.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "Honestly, this is a lot more realistic than a lot of the students I see who are going into the PhD with expectations of getting an academic job. The fact that you’re not looking to go on the academic market will actually give you some more freedom. I’m assuming you’ll continue to work while doing the degree. Keep in mind that some programs expect you to be full-time while a student. So you’ll need to find a program that lets you work while taking classes and dissertating. If you’re looking at unfunded programs—which I think you said you were—they almost certainly won’t care. So the biggest issue for you is going to be making sure that you *can* do the work while also holding down a job. It’ll be a few years of classes, then exams, then your dissertation project. I’ve known people to complete a PhD while working on the side. But it’s difficult. And you really need to have self-discipline. If you think that’s you, then go for it.",
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"content": "I want to add something field specific - I work closely with the librarians at my university's library as a student assistant and probably half of all of the subject librarians and most of the librarians in leadership have PhDs. If it is something that you are willing to pursue and finances are not a concern, it seems like a good career opportunity as well.",
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"content": "Honestly, this is a lot more realistic than a lot of the students I see who are going into the PhD with expectations of getting an academic job. The fact that you’re not looking to go on the academic market will actually give you some more freedom. I’m assuming you’ll continue to work while doing the degree. Keep in mind that some programs expect you to be full-time while a student. So you’ll need to find a program that lets you work while taking classes and dissertating. If you’re looking at unfunded programs—which I think you said you were—they almost certainly won’t care. So the biggest issue for you is going to be making sure that you *can* do the work while also holding down a job. It’ll be a few years of classes, then exams, then your dissertation project. I’ve known people to complete a PhD while working on the side. But it’s difficult. And you really need to have self-discipline. If you think that’s you, then go for it.",
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"content": "Great reasons to go for it. I pondered going for my PhD but chose not to. Because it wouldn’t get me any more money where I was working and I didn’t want to go into academia. To me, the work wasn’t worth the time or money. It would have just been a title.",
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"content": ">Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? A bit of both. I Set out with similar ideas after 8 years in frontline work (different field). I ended up loving the research so much that I couldn't imagine being back in the frontline work. You will either grow to appreciate and happily stay in your applied position or thrive and move beyond it. It is not an easy road but for me it has been worth it.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": "A bit of both, but you never do it for the money. Do it because you love it and don’t expect it to be fun because it isn’t and it shouldn’t be. The most valuable lessons and the best times of our lives aren’t the happy party times, they’re the struggles. So go forth and learn.",
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"content": "Despite some of the comments, I think your journey to a doctorate could be a joyous, rigorous ride. I went back and got mine after ten years with my Masters- it was hard, but was easy - I knew why I was there and what I wanted. Enjoy it!",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": ">Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? A bit of both. I Set out with similar ideas after 8 years in frontline work (different field). I ended up loving the research so much that I couldn't imagine being back in the frontline work. You will either grow to appreciate and happily stay in your applied position or thrive and move beyond it. It is not an easy road but for me it has been worth it.",
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"content": "A bit of both, but you never do it for the money. Do it because you love it and don’t expect it to be fun because it isn’t and it shouldn’t be. The most valuable lessons and the best times of our lives aren’t the happy party times, they’re the struggles. So go forth and learn.",
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Am I Being Realistic in My Reasons for Pursing a PhD? I am a librarian in the U.S. with a Masters of Library and Info Science. I love everything about librarianship, and with ten years of experience in the field, I am thinking seriously about pursuing my PhD. I want to pursue it in library science (technically communications and information science with a focus on library and information science) not to work as an academic. I want to go for it because I love this field and I want to learn more about it and share what I've learned through publishing. I'm not doing it because I think I will make more money. I want to hone my research skills - I work with researchers, and I would enjoy knowing more about the high-level research they do that leads to publishing, which I hope I would get in my grad classes. Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? | e847b00f5025c511443ccf66a43ec3b7ebf9b694509bef7c5dcb0b9c51501ecb | [
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"content": ">Am I being realistic or am I looking at a doctoral degree and the years of crazy work through rose-colored glasses? A bit of both. I Set out with similar ideas after 8 years in frontline work (different field). I ended up loving the research so much that I couldn't imagine being back in the frontline work. You will either grow to appreciate and happily stay in your applied position or thrive and move beyond it. It is not an easy road but for me it has been worth it.",
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"content": "Despite some of the comments, I think your journey to a doctorate could be a joyous, rigorous ride. I went back and got mine after ten years with my Masters- it was hard, but was easy - I knew why I was there and what I wanted. Enjoy it!",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "PhD student here (on my way out). Teaching from home was hard on my body. Working for 9+ hours caused referred migraines from my neck. It was quite debilitating, but I was able to get on top of it with more frequent breaks, stretching exercises, and appointments with a physiotherapist. If you’re concerned, I’d speak to a physiotherapist about preventative exercise and ergonomic practice. EDIT: I should probably flag that I’ve got an old injury in my back that may have aggravated the situation, so perhaps this outcome was unique to me. Nothing wrong with seeing a physio though.",
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"content": "Most campuses have a decent gym and places to go for walks. Don't feel chained to your desk. I was definitely guilty of spending too much time at mine. I got fat, got a bad back, and developed issues with my eyes. I decided to get away from my desk often and use the gym. I've admittedly been less productive but I'd rather be less productive and healthy than very productive and unhealthy.",
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"content": "PhD student here (on my way out). Teaching from home was hard on my body. Working for 9+ hours caused referred migraines from my neck. It was quite debilitating, but I was able to get on top of it with more frequent breaks, stretching exercises, and appointments with a physiotherapist. If you’re concerned, I’d speak to a physiotherapist about preventative exercise and ergonomic practice. EDIT: I should probably flag that I’ve got an old injury in my back that may have aggravated the situation, so perhaps this outcome was unique to me. Nothing wrong with seeing a physio though.",
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"content": "Uhm, I'm not sure if I already have long term problems (I guess not). For sure, I feel my arms or my back sore sometimes, especially if I stay for weeks in the office without field work.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "As a student in my early twenties, I ALWAYS regretted the times when I was \"too busy\" for exercise as it lead to back aches, fatigue, increased stress, etc. Over time, I found that regular exercise was beneficial for my physical and mental health so I highly suggest finding a good routine and sticking to it. Sometimes I go as far as prioritizing that over work because of the long-term benefits! Stay fit",
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"content": "Before I started grad school, I had perfect vision. One year in, I had to wear glasses in my mid 20s. The gradual worsening of my eyesight manifested in headaches and poor sleep. I noticed that I sometimes feel like having high blood pressure, like blood pulsing through my head/neck. I talked with an ortho; they suggested it was a referred migraine from upper back and neck muscles. My BP is otherwise normal. This sensation went away after I started exercising regularly biking and kettlebells. I prefer cycling over running due to lower back pain, knees, and compartment syndrome. I have an Uplift standing desk and Aeron chair so I'm good on ergonomics.",
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"content": "I used to have back pain from time to time. That got better when I did dedicated back exercises (there are great yoga instruction videos on youtube). Of course, the quality of the chair matters a lot. In the first days of the lockdown, I worked from a regular kitchen chair, which I regretted immediately.",
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"content": "Before I started grad school, I had perfect vision. One year in, I had to wear glasses in my mid 20s. The gradual worsening of my eyesight manifested in headaches and poor sleep. I noticed that I sometimes feel like having high blood pressure, like blood pulsing through my head/neck. I talked with an ortho; they suggested it was a referred migraine from upper back and neck muscles. My BP is otherwise normal. This sensation went away after I started exercising regularly biking and kettlebells. I prefer cycling over running due to lower back pain, knees, and compartment syndrome. I have an Uplift standing desk and Aeron chair so I'm good on ergonomics.",
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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"content": "Pretty sure I aged 5 years in the last year of my dissertation. Also pulled out my back from sitting so much, and did something to my spine when I switched to a standing desk. But at least it earned me, uh, unemployment and debt. \"Remedy?\" There are no remedies in this industry. Too competitive. Sacrifice everything and then sacrifice more. The CV demands more. Maybe, just maybe, with enough sacrifice I can finally have a standard living wage and healthcare. But probably not.",
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"content": "The amount of time you need to read and write grants and papers, edit, answer email and do computer administrative tasks is tremendous, plus lab bench work falls away as you mentor students. Add in microscopy and commuting and it's an early death sentence. I did fine at first when I swam, walked, or did exercise classes on campus in the middle of the day. As my duties increased, colleagues made comments about my absence for the lunch hour, and I started to believe I couldn't/shouldn't take time for myself in the middle of the day (no matter how late I worked), and my health collapsed. Exercise truly supports mental balance, energy levels, etc. Add in parenting stress and/or caregiving for your own parents, with no exercise, and you will age horribly in this job. Menopause also requires more effort, not less, to stay the same weight. Three joint replacements later and 70 pounds heavier, I retired early this year. I've never been happier, love the free time to exercise and create, but I wonder if I could have been happy and endured if I had kept up exercise during lunch at work. The culture of competitively giving your all to work is toxic. No one is going to give you permission to take care of yourself and balance work time. You have to carve that time out. Kudos to early risers and exercisers, but you also need a break to move about in the middle of the day too. Ironically, the sick time, surgery recovery time, and early retirement cost more time from a promising career than exercising consistently ever could have.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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"content": "Uhm, I'm not sure if I already have long term problems (I guess not). For sure, I feel my arms or my back sore sometimes, especially if I stay for weeks in the office without field work.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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"content": "I used to have back pain from time to time. That got better when I did dedicated back exercises (there are great yoga instruction videos on youtube). Of course, the quality of the chair matters a lot. In the first days of the lockdown, I worked from a regular kitchen chair, which I regretted immediately.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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"content": "Yeah, back was killing me after working at my kitchen table for 3 years on my PhD. Got a proper ergonomic setup (gaming chair, gaming table to raise my screen, etc) and I can now sit comfortably for a few hours a day. I try to stretch and get exercise in, but when my work and most of my hobbies are on the computer...I can't lie to myself. So I adapted my workstation to accommodate my lifestyle better.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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"content": "The issue I've had is a pretty severe case of carpal tunnel (had to wear a wrist brace for a while, but luckily no surgery!). So my advice is, even if you sit/type/etc. a lot make sure that your setup is good ergonomically.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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"content": "I absolutely have physical issues due to sitting on my arse too much and working from home during the pandemic has made it so much worse. I'm teaching online and telecommuting for my other job. Most days I'm in my office at the computer 6-7 hours. My bum, back, shoulders, neck...everything hurts all the time. My collection of heating pads, massagers, and various pharmaceuticals is truly impressive. I've tried chiropractors, massage therapy, acupuncture, dry needling and physical therapy. It all helps for a little while but never for long. I got a new ergonomic chair a couple of months ago that has helped some. I try to exercise every day but I'm not as good about it as I should be. I even set alarms on phone for every hour during the day to remind me to get up and move around but honestly I'm usually so focused on what I'm doing I end up turning it off without getting up. Bad habits are really hard to break.",
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"content": "A sit-stand-walk desk was the best investment in my health I ever made. I started with sit-stand which was cheaper than adding walk but still much better than sit alone. Back pain was the main driver then, gone now. You’ll see a lot of advice about how to make the fact you’re sitting so much not kill you so quickly, but the more direct solution is not to sit so much. You can do that without a fancy desk, but it takes away from all that time you “should be writing,” which makes it hard to convince yourself in the moment that a break is a good idea. Better solution is to find a way to keep moving while writing. Seems to help with concentration too! I generally walk 2-3 hours a day now (while writing, emailing, etc).",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "I'd say the experimental components of my work, like working under on lab bench or using a microscope kept me more physically active (good thing) than my later roles as a software engineer.",
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"content": "Uhm, I'm not sure if I already have long term problems (I guess not). For sure, I feel my arms or my back sore sometimes, especially if I stay for weeks in the office without field work.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "This last year has been rough because of all the digital teaching, but my general experience is that I have more time for fitness and exercise as an academic than in many other jobs. It helps to have my own office and decide my own hours.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "The amount of time you need to read and write grants and papers, edit, answer email and do computer administrative tasks is tremendous, plus lab bench work falls away as you mentor students. Add in microscopy and commuting and it's an early death sentence. I did fine at first when I swam, walked, or did exercise classes on campus in the middle of the day. As my duties increased, colleagues made comments about my absence for the lunch hour, and I started to believe I couldn't/shouldn't take time for myself in the middle of the day (no matter how late I worked), and my health collapsed. Exercise truly supports mental balance, energy levels, etc. Add in parenting stress and/or caregiving for your own parents, with no exercise, and you will age horribly in this job. Menopause also requires more effort, not less, to stay the same weight. Three joint replacements later and 70 pounds heavier, I retired early this year. I've never been happier, love the free time to exercise and create, but I wonder if I could have been happy and endured if I had kept up exercise during lunch at work. The culture of competitively giving your all to work is toxic. No one is going to give you permission to take care of yourself and balance work time. You have to carve that time out. Kudos to early risers and exercisers, but you also need a break to move about in the middle of the day too. Ironically, the sick time, surgery recovery time, and early retirement cost more time from a promising career than exercising consistently ever could have.",
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"content": "Pretty sure I aged 5 years in the last year of my dissertation. Also pulled out my back from sitting so much, and did something to my spine when I switched to a standing desk. But at least it earned me, uh, unemployment and debt. \"Remedy?\" There are no remedies in this industry. Too competitive. Sacrifice everything and then sacrifice more. The CV demands more. Maybe, just maybe, with enough sacrifice I can finally have a standard living wage and healthcare. But probably not.",
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"content": "Uhm, I'm not sure if I already have long term problems (I guess not). For sure, I feel my arms or my back sore sometimes, especially if I stay for weeks in the office without field work.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "I used to have back pain from time to time. That got better when I did dedicated back exercises (there are great yoga instruction videos on youtube). Of course, the quality of the chair matters a lot. In the first days of the lockdown, I worked from a regular kitchen chair, which I regretted immediately.",
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Does sitting for long hours on an academic job have made negative impacts on your health? Today more than ever people are doing desk jobs. I think academic jobs require a lot of desk work. Even as an undergraduate student of physics I have to sit for long hours. And I know there are several health concerns with that. However, I want to know in this thread if you have any personal experience of health issue due to sitting for too long? And what have you done to remedy those problems? | 4b046bcacc36d9abb57aab3a3d617b91d9e14dfdbe3c985808d90ab9a73c8766 | [
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"content": "Yeah, back was killing me after working at my kitchen table for 3 years on my PhD. Got a proper ergonomic setup (gaming chair, gaming table to raise my screen, etc) and I can now sit comfortably for a few hours a day. I try to stretch and get exercise in, but when my work and most of my hobbies are on the computer...I can't lie to myself. So I adapted my workstation to accommodate my lifestyle better.",
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"content": "The issue I've had is a pretty severe case of carpal tunnel (had to wear a wrist brace for a while, but luckily no surgery!). So my advice is, even if you sit/type/etc. a lot make sure that your setup is good ergonomically.",
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"content": "I absolutely have physical issues due to sitting on my arse too much and working from home during the pandemic has made it so much worse. I'm teaching online and telecommuting for my other job. Most days I'm in my office at the computer 6-7 hours. My bum, back, shoulders, neck...everything hurts all the time. My collection of heating pads, massagers, and various pharmaceuticals is truly impressive. I've tried chiropractors, massage therapy, acupuncture, dry needling and physical therapy. It all helps for a little while but never for long. I got a new ergonomic chair a couple of months ago that has helped some. I try to exercise every day but I'm not as good about it as I should be. I even set alarms on phone for every hour during the day to remind me to get up and move around but honestly I'm usually so focused on what I'm doing I end up turning it off without getting up. Bad habits are really hard to break.",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "Seems like you have the chance to have an amazing career in an interdisciplinary field in medicinal research or academia! You can look into systems biology or modelling of diseases or cells or whatever you like. There is a huge demand for this kind of researchers and there are so many interesting thing you can do. You can also look at scientists like for example Uri Alon who went from physics to biology and is doing very fun research . Would suggest you to finish your Medicine degree and then venture to academia, industry or bio-tec and the whole world is open for you. Don't worry, trust yourself and your feelings and you will be fine.",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :)",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "Can you apply for a PhD after your md? I don’t know about where you are but think this is pretty common in the US :) my husband is in a math PhD and biological math modeling is super popular these days",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "Can you apply for a PhD after your md? I don’t know about where you are but think this is pretty common in the US :) my husband is in a math PhD and biological math modeling is super popular these days",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "Could try data science, maybe a masters by coursework specifically focused on data science for healthcare. I know two doctors doing exactly that working for health insurance analytics/data science start up. There’s a decent bit of maths if you want to understand things, problem solving and stuff like that. Sounds like you might miss creative problem solving and research/developing your understanding more than maybe maths specifically. There’s lots of things that could get you there, like medical engineering too.",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "I love maths as well! And i do miss it being the nr 1. focus. However i don't think we have to give up on it! I'm done with bachelors and am currently in research year with some neuro/hemodynamics. There are so many great opportunities to do interesting math/physics in my lab. For me it was very purposeful that i chose medicine, in that although i might like to study maths or physics more in terms of the curriculum in and of itself, i wouldn't want to work in the fields/positions that would be open by simply having those educations. Frankly, i don't care much about what it is i am \"baseline\" studying. i consider my education *mine*. One thing that is helped by being a little bit older/experienced is that i don't see medicine as something that's going to define my life at all. I don't want to \"be a doctor\", i couldn't give two fucks about what label i have. I've been in the millitary a little, homeless for a while, doing stupid hard jobs for years. I'm *already* a nobody, and it's incredibly freeing. My education is not something that i feel i get from the curriculum. All educations need to be so broad that it is impoverished in depth no matter what you enroll in. University is about finding who you are and delving into what you want to delve into. \"med school\" just means that a future patient has a guarantee that i've done the breadth of medicine standard for docs, so they can rest assured i won't misapply the tools of modern diagnostics and medicine in their treatment. For me, med school offers something absolutely unique though! If i don't succeed in finding out something impactful to people in research, which is one thing i might like to do, i can always be of use as someones doctor and make a real impact in someones life. If i get tired of that clinical practice, it's always possible to either teach or do research. Even weird kinds of industry jobs is open. Of all the other educations i considered, none had this kind of breadth of *opportunity*. I use mostly online courses to study what i want on the side, and choose not to care *too* much about med school grades (there are also many phd courses at the university i'm at, but they mostly aren't *exactly* what want, so i go online - BUT aremember to see if they can give you merits at uni - i found out that if i had enrolled in one of these courses \"officially\" it could've counted towards my PhD body of work). Also be sure to try to find peers at your university with similar interests though, i find it makes the studying deeper. I just go to the maths department and strike up conversation... Since i've involved myself in research from the beginning of the run, i feel like doing a phd will be simple to get into if i want to, and in my country that and motivation is valued above grades when trying to get specialty positions, so there's really no future utility for going to stupid lengths wasting time getting perfect scores on every test, when you're going to forget 99,9% of those lists of side effects of anatomical mnemonics anyway. No other education would've let me do these things that medicine might let me. I couldn't enroll in physics and \"jump over\" learn some medicine and treat patients if i wanted to. IN the research labs i've been in, i feel like we as medics have a very fortunate position. if we want to involve ourselves in the math/Physics of it, we can. The folks on the other side can't really jump to our side and practice clinically. I guess what i'm mostly trying to say is that, there's absolutely nothing stopping you from learning mathematics and applying it to your life/work in any way you want. Perhaps you might consider sacrificing a few (potential) gradepoints for it.",
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"content": "5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :)",
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"content": "By the name of your username seems you enjoy studying infectious diseases. You could go into IM or Peds and then into an Infectious Diseases Fellowship and throughout your residency get involved in epidemiology and infectious disease modeling. If epidemiology/public health is not your thing, you can get involved in infectious disease genomics and computational microbiology. I find the latter field, fascinating given the our current circumstances (though I'm a neuro person myself). We certainly need more medical doctors with interdisciplinary skills that can go beyond just practising. So, I'd encourage you to combine your passions (same applies for art like-minded folks, just imagine if Sir Arthur Conan Doyle would've never written his books!). Disclaimer: I'm a medical doctor who also happens to be a neuroscientist (PhD), hoping to be a physician-scientist after residency.",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :)",
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"content": "Could try data science, maybe a masters by coursework specifically focused on data science for healthcare. I know two doctors doing exactly that working for health insurance analytics/data science start up. There’s a decent bit of maths if you want to understand things, problem solving and stuff like that. Sounds like you might miss creative problem solving and research/developing your understanding more than maybe maths specifically. There’s lots of things that could get you there, like medical engineering too.",
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5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :) | e57631f223676303fe91f7c26aa3a385ddb5bc262ba17bdc599f0126509d8c87 | [
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"content": "5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :)",
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"content": "Several UCLA faculty and alum in bio math and bio stat were former MDs or MD students who either never finished med program or never did went back to medicine. There’s certainty a group of people for whom medicine is just not that interesting and would rather work on hard problems. Safest path is to do a fellowship in a field heavy in math and if you love it just leave the MD behind. Or just go for it, you can always crawl back to MD somewhere but your capacity to do and learn amazing things will be higher now than five year from now.",
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"content": "5th year med student, I miss mathematics a hurtful lot Hello. I am not sure if this is the right place to write this, but here I go. I'm an Italian med student, currently in my 5th year out of 6, so I'll be graduating next year. I have a huge love for mahematics and I miss it so much. I hate that in medicine we're always seeking the smallest detail when studying, and I hate that studying medicine is not really intellectually stimulating as maths is. I feel like an excel spreadsheet being stored with information that if I forget I might put someone's life in jeopardy. I think it doesn't take much talent to be successful in med school, although in professional situations you can instantly tell the smart doctors who always asks himself or herself questions from the one that just learnt every textbook known to man by heart. I had a painful doubt when in high school about the choice of university. I loved mathematics, but I was afraid I wasn't goig to get any good jobs with it, much due to social pressure and my parents' pressure. I partially know that this isn't the case, but I still don't know much about the professional demand of mathematics. I quite liked medicine and i still do, but nothing here is as exciting as maths. I miss the creative thinking I used to do in maths, the frustration of not being able to come up with a solution that suddelny vanishes when you get there. I am in a good university after a very selective national test and I am doing pretty well because I am good at studying, so I am aware that many people would like to be in the position I am. I'm saying this not because I have any intention of showing off, but because I hate this argument that my parents threw at me countless times. I don't care how many people would like to be wheere I am. I just feel out of place. My parents have been really pressing especially in my first couple of years, but luckily they appear a little more supporting now. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seriously afraid of ending up in a job that i don't enjoy. I quite like infectious diseases, and I am doing an internship there, because it's quite close to basic sciences like microbiology and immunology, because it is broad as you can see diseases of any organ, and because it can open the way to epidemiology for me, where I might be able to jump into mathematical modelling. I'd like to use maths in my everyday job to solve problems, but I don't know how much doctors do and how much they leave to mathematicians to do, and I don't know how much I'll be able to study in order to do that kind of job. I don't know if maybe I am idealizing maths careers too much either. I'm sorry for the long post, it really was off my chest. Thanks to everyone even only for reading this. Have a great day :)",
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"content": "I love maths as well! And i do miss it being the nr 1. focus. However i don't think we have to give up on it! I'm done with bachelors and am currently in research year with some neuro/hemodynamics. There are so many great opportunities to do interesting math/physics in my lab. For me it was very purposeful that i chose medicine, in that although i might like to study maths or physics more in terms of the curriculum in and of itself, i wouldn't want to work in the fields/positions that would be open by simply having those educations. Frankly, i don't care much about what it is i am \"baseline\" studying. i consider my education *mine*. One thing that is helped by being a little bit older/experienced is that i don't see medicine as something that's going to define my life at all. I don't want to \"be a doctor\", i couldn't give two fucks about what label i have. I've been in the millitary a little, homeless for a while, doing stupid hard jobs for years. I'm *already* a nobody, and it's incredibly freeing. My education is not something that i feel i get from the curriculum. All educations need to be so broad that it is impoverished in depth no matter what you enroll in. University is about finding who you are and delving into what you want to delve into. \"med school\" just means that a future patient has a guarantee that i've done the breadth of medicine standard for docs, so they can rest assured i won't misapply the tools of modern diagnostics and medicine in their treatment. For me, med school offers something absolutely unique though! If i don't succeed in finding out something impactful to people in research, which is one thing i might like to do, i can always be of use as someones doctor and make a real impact in someones life. If i get tired of that clinical practice, it's always possible to either teach or do research. Even weird kinds of industry jobs is open. Of all the other educations i considered, none had this kind of breadth of *opportunity*. I use mostly online courses to study what i want on the side, and choose not to care *too* much about med school grades (there are also many phd courses at the university i'm at, but they mostly aren't *exactly* what want, so i go online - BUT aremember to see if they can give you merits at uni - i found out that if i had enrolled in one of these courses \"officially\" it could've counted towards my PhD body of work). Also be sure to try to find peers at your university with similar interests though, i find it makes the studying deeper. I just go to the maths department and strike up conversation... Since i've involved myself in research from the beginning of the run, i feel like doing a phd will be simple to get into if i want to, and in my country that and motivation is valued above grades when trying to get specialty positions, so there's really no future utility for going to stupid lengths wasting time getting perfect scores on every test, when you're going to forget 99,9% of those lists of side effects of anatomical mnemonics anyway. No other education would've let me do these things that medicine might let me. I couldn't enroll in physics and \"jump over\" learn some medicine and treat patients if i wanted to. IN the research labs i've been in, i feel like we as medics have a very fortunate position. if we want to involve ourselves in the math/Physics of it, we can. The folks on the other side can't really jump to our side and practice clinically. I guess what i'm mostly trying to say is that, there's absolutely nothing stopping you from learning mathematics and applying it to your life/work in any way you want. Perhaps you might consider sacrificing a few (potential) gradepoints for it.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "We're all feeling pressure like this; it's not just grad school. I haven't been in to my office or lab since March. I haven't seen coworkers since March. I haven't been able to travel for work since February (I'd had at least 4 trips including a conference in Barcelona that had to get cancelled, arghhhhhhhhhh). Most of my coworkers aren't even getting on Slack/Jabber/etc anymore because we're old and they're not as good at technology as younger people. Hardly anyone turns on their webcams at meetings anymore. Heck, my wife isn't even willing to eat food from a restaurant. I'm dying for a real piece of pizza, bowl of Pho, or some freaking schwarma. Times are brutal right now, but we have to recognize this is the best choice of what we can do right now. Chilling at home with my cats is better than my wife's job, where she's required to report in to her office every day, only to sit on WebEx calls all day because everyone else is still at home. If your school offers any sort of psychological counseling or support groups, definitely use it. Grad school, on its own, is really hard, and right now I'm sure it's even worse. I just wanted to let you know things aren't really any better in the \"real world.\"",
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"content": "First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem \"good\" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*...",
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"content": "We're all feeling pressure like this; it's not just grad school. I haven't been in to my office or lab since March. I haven't seen coworkers since March. I haven't been able to travel for work since February (I'd had at least 4 trips including a conference in Barcelona that had to get cancelled, arghhhhhhhhhh). Most of my coworkers aren't even getting on Slack/Jabber/etc anymore because we're old and they're not as good at technology as younger people. Hardly anyone turns on their webcams at meetings anymore. Heck, my wife isn't even willing to eat food from a restaurant. I'm dying for a real piece of pizza, bowl of Pho, or some freaking schwarma. Times are brutal right now, but we have to recognize this is the best choice of what we can do right now. Chilling at home with my cats is better than my wife's job, where she's required to report in to her office every day, only to sit on WebEx calls all day because everyone else is still at home. If your school offers any sort of psychological counseling or support groups, definitely use it. Grad school, on its own, is really hard, and right now I'm sure it's even worse. I just wanted to let you know things aren't really any better in the \"real world.\"",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "We're all feeling pressure like this; it's not just grad school. I haven't been in to my office or lab since March. I haven't seen coworkers since March. I haven't been able to travel for work since February (I'd had at least 4 trips including a conference in Barcelona that had to get cancelled, arghhhhhhhhhh). Most of my coworkers aren't even getting on Slack/Jabber/etc anymore because we're old and they're not as good at technology as younger people. Hardly anyone turns on their webcams at meetings anymore. Heck, my wife isn't even willing to eat food from a restaurant. I'm dying for a real piece of pizza, bowl of Pho, or some freaking schwarma. Times are brutal right now, but we have to recognize this is the best choice of what we can do right now. Chilling at home with my cats is better than my wife's job, where she's required to report in to her office every day, only to sit on WebEx calls all day because everyone else is still at home. If your school offers any sort of psychological counseling or support groups, definitely use it. Grad school, on its own, is really hard, and right now I'm sure it's even worse. I just wanted to let you know things aren't really any better in the \"real world.\"",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "Several years into graduate school here--Oh man, I totally forgot about the Sun! Just kidding. What you're experiencing isn't the norm, we're in a time of social isolation and you happened to experience both transitioning to quarantine and transitioning to graduate school at the same time. Why don't you set up a virtual study session with the other students in your classes? You might start by emailing the class list \"Would anyone be interested in starting a study group and doing the homework together?\" or reach out to your friends in your major and see if they'd like to do homework/studying together, even just hang out virtually with online pictionary or secret hitler. You can take some of your TAing online by offering your office hours in the form of zoom meetings, and dressing up for those. Anyway, not the norm, I would wait it out while trying to make friends during the pandemic so you're even better friends when you can actually hang out. Chances are your peers are feeling the same way.",
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"content": "I just started my MSc (and TAing as well), and I feel this so much. Since I have lab work I get a pass to go to campus sometimes, which helps to get me out of the house, but everyone is still working from home anyways, so the only person I see is my supervisor. I was so excited to start grad school and get to know new people, but it’s been pretty isolating. Also, not sure about you, but I’m in a city where bars/restaurants are still closed (Canada :( )so there’s not even somewhere you could casually get together with people (I mean maybe people are hanging out, but obviously I know no one so I’m not invited lol). It sucks cause everyone told me the department I’m in is pretty close, and in normal times they have events every Friday at the grad pub. Honestly I’ve lost hope and accepted that I’m a hermit now, my university has already announced that online continues in the winter. Do you really feel like you couldn’t continue if it stays like this? I don’t have anything else I want to do, so i don’t really feel like there’s any other option.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "> It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. Feeling lonely is fairly normal in academia, especially in humanities subjects as our research is quite individual, so even in a room full of people you can easily be the only person working on your subject (I'm in a niche within a niche so I certainly know how that goes). Besides we often move to brand new cities at ages in life when people don't usually make new friends. COVID has made things worse. I'm feeling similar things to you OP, I moved to a new city for a new job in November, and life has become a fairly monotomous routine, largely because there isn't much else to do, until recently I couldn't even go to the gym! As life returns to normal (and god hopefully it will sometime soon) things should improve, I'd also suggest trying to make friends outside of academia, perhaps try to make friends with other couples? Might be less scary to meet 'new people' if you're doing it with your boyfriend?",
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"content": "I just started my MSc (and TAing as well), and I feel this so much. Since I have lab work I get a pass to go to campus sometimes, which helps to get me out of the house, but everyone is still working from home anyways, so the only person I see is my supervisor. I was so excited to start grad school and get to know new people, but it’s been pretty isolating. Also, not sure about you, but I’m in a city where bars/restaurants are still closed (Canada :( )so there’s not even somewhere you could casually get together with people (I mean maybe people are hanging out, but obviously I know no one so I’m not invited lol). It sucks cause everyone told me the department I’m in is pretty close, and in normal times they have events every Friday at the grad pub. Honestly I’ve lost hope and accepted that I’m a hermit now, my university has already announced that online continues in the winter. Do you really feel like you couldn’t continue if it stays like this? I don’t have anything else I want to do, so i don’t really feel like there’s any other option.",
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"content": "> It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. Feeling lonely is fairly normal in academia, especially in humanities subjects as our research is quite individual, so even in a room full of people you can easily be the only person working on your subject (I'm in a niche within a niche so I certainly know how that goes). Besides we often move to brand new cities at ages in life when people don't usually make new friends. COVID has made things worse. I'm feeling similar things to you OP, I moved to a new city for a new job in November, and life has become a fairly monotomous routine, largely because there isn't much else to do, until recently I couldn't even go to the gym! As life returns to normal (and god hopefully it will sometime soon) things should improve, I'd also suggest trying to make friends outside of academia, perhaps try to make friends with other couples? Might be less scary to meet 'new people' if you're doing it with your boyfriend?",
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"content": "I just started my MSc (and TAing as well), and I feel this so much. Since I have lab work I get a pass to go to campus sometimes, which helps to get me out of the house, but everyone is still working from home anyways, so the only person I see is my supervisor. I was so excited to start grad school and get to know new people, but it’s been pretty isolating. Also, not sure about you, but I’m in a city where bars/restaurants are still closed (Canada :( )so there’s not even somewhere you could casually get together with people (I mean maybe people are hanging out, but obviously I know no one so I’m not invited lol). It sucks cause everyone told me the department I’m in is pretty close, and in normal times they have events every Friday at the grad pub. Honestly I’ve lost hope and accepted that I’m a hermit now, my university has already announced that online continues in the winter. Do you really feel like you couldn’t continue if it stays like this? I don’t have anything else I want to do, so i don’t really feel like there’s any other option.",
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"content": "I just graduated with an MA in English Literature, and I really felt what you say here. I was a TA for 2 years during grad school, and I also am a single father. I found my grad school experience to be very similar with what you describe the workload to be, and for me, I had to make sacrifices when I would get to the breaking point. The first thing to go was my studies - I stopped reading much at all...what I did was, I relied heavily on my knowledge of literary theory, and I've always been quick enough on my feet to connect the dots during in person class discussions to different theoretical lenses. So, I went a few years in grad school where I didn't learn much of anything new about literature. Instead, I learned about department procedures, academic networking skills, and I read student papers. When Covid became a prevalent issue and campus closed down in March, it seemed like my workload doubled. I knew that I had relied heavily on lectures for my teaching responsibilities, but I underestimated how much I had done so. I didn't know how to teach online, and I am still learning. I completed my comprehensive exam virtually. I've never been the most personable guy, and I didn't really have close friends, but when campus closed down in March, I lost any in-person contact that I had. I became very depressed. I think for the first few months I just escaped into art, and I completed my basic work/school obligations by force. Sorry, I don't have an answer to your questions. I just felt like I experienced something similar to what you describe. The Covid thing is what is the problem factor here for you - as it is for many. We are living through something that is rare, and unique sacrifices are being made. I think what you describe is natural to the circumstances, and I can only hope those circumstances are short lived. Good luck.",
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"content": "Several years into graduate school here--Oh man, I totally forgot about the Sun! Just kidding. What you're experiencing isn't the norm, we're in a time of social isolation and you happened to experience both transitioning to quarantine and transitioning to graduate school at the same time. Why don't you set up a virtual study session with the other students in your classes? You might start by emailing the class list \"Would anyone be interested in starting a study group and doing the homework together?\" or reach out to your friends in your major and see if they'd like to do homework/studying together, even just hang out virtually with online pictionary or secret hitler. You can take some of your TAing online by offering your office hours in the form of zoom meetings, and dressing up for those. Anyway, not the norm, I would wait it out while trying to make friends during the pandemic so you're even better friends when you can actually hang out. Chances are your peers are feeling the same way.",
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"content": "Look, I'm a person with a long-standing history of battling depression. I have a great job I love in neuroscience, and great friends, and hobbies I love too, but I also still have a problem with depression. I believe you are developing symptoms of depression. Consider reaching out to a therapist, because either they'll confirm or deny that idea. If yes, that's great because then you have a diagnosis and someone working with you to help make things better. If no, well, then maybe it is graduate school that's the problem. But right now you don't know. We academics must continue to seek answers and solve problems, it is our nature.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "I just graduated with an MA in English Literature, and I really felt what you say here. I was a TA for 2 years during grad school, and I also am a single father. I found my grad school experience to be very similar with what you describe the workload to be, and for me, I had to make sacrifices when I would get to the breaking point. The first thing to go was my studies - I stopped reading much at all...what I did was, I relied heavily on my knowledge of literary theory, and I've always been quick enough on my feet to connect the dots during in person class discussions to different theoretical lenses. So, I went a few years in grad school where I didn't learn much of anything new about literature. Instead, I learned about department procedures, academic networking skills, and I read student papers. When Covid became a prevalent issue and campus closed down in March, it seemed like my workload doubled. I knew that I had relied heavily on lectures for my teaching responsibilities, but I underestimated how much I had done so. I didn't know how to teach online, and I am still learning. I completed my comprehensive exam virtually. I've never been the most personable guy, and I didn't really have close friends, but when campus closed down in March, I lost any in-person contact that I had. I became very depressed. I think for the first few months I just escaped into art, and I completed my basic work/school obligations by force. Sorry, I don't have an answer to your questions. I just felt like I experienced something similar to what you describe. The Covid thing is what is the problem factor here for you - as it is for many. We are living through something that is rare, and unique sacrifices are being made. I think what you describe is natural to the circumstances, and I can only hope those circumstances are short lived. Good luck.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "> It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. Feeling lonely is fairly normal in academia, especially in humanities subjects as our research is quite individual, so even in a room full of people you can easily be the only person working on your subject (I'm in a niche within a niche so I certainly know how that goes). Besides we often move to brand new cities at ages in life when people don't usually make new friends. COVID has made things worse. I'm feeling similar things to you OP, I moved to a new city for a new job in November, and life has become a fairly monotomous routine, largely because there isn't much else to do, until recently I couldn't even go to the gym! As life returns to normal (and god hopefully it will sometime soon) things should improve, I'd also suggest trying to make friends outside of academia, perhaps try to make friends with other couples? Might be less scary to meet 'new people' if you're doing it with your boyfriend?",
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"content": "Look, I'm a person with a long-standing history of battling depression. I have a great job I love in neuroscience, and great friends, and hobbies I love too, but I also still have a problem with depression. I believe you are developing symptoms of depression. Consider reaching out to a therapist, because either they'll confirm or deny that idea. If yes, that's great because then you have a diagnosis and someone working with you to help make things better. If no, well, then maybe it is graduate school that's the problem. But right now you don't know. We academics must continue to seek answers and solve problems, it is our nature.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "> It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. Feeling lonely is fairly normal in academia, especially in humanities subjects as our research is quite individual, so even in a room full of people you can easily be the only person working on your subject (I'm in a niche within a niche so I certainly know how that goes). Besides we often move to brand new cities at ages in life when people don't usually make new friends. COVID has made things worse. I'm feeling similar things to you OP, I moved to a new city for a new job in November, and life has become a fairly monotomous routine, largely because there isn't much else to do, until recently I couldn't even go to the gym! As life returns to normal (and god hopefully it will sometime soon) things should improve, I'd also suggest trying to make friends outside of academia, perhaps try to make friends with other couples? Might be less scary to meet 'new people' if you're doing it with your boyfriend?",
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"content": "I just graduated with an MA in English Literature, and I really felt what you say here. I was a TA for 2 years during grad school, and I also am a single father. I found my grad school experience to be very similar with what you describe the workload to be, and for me, I had to make sacrifices when I would get to the breaking point. The first thing to go was my studies - I stopped reading much at all...what I did was, I relied heavily on my knowledge of literary theory, and I've always been quick enough on my feet to connect the dots during in person class discussions to different theoretical lenses. So, I went a few years in grad school where I didn't learn much of anything new about literature. Instead, I learned about department procedures, academic networking skills, and I read student papers. When Covid became a prevalent issue and campus closed down in March, it seemed like my workload doubled. I knew that I had relied heavily on lectures for my teaching responsibilities, but I underestimated how much I had done so. I didn't know how to teach online, and I am still learning. I completed my comprehensive exam virtually. I've never been the most personable guy, and I didn't really have close friends, but when campus closed down in March, I lost any in-person contact that I had. I became very depressed. I think for the first few months I just escaped into art, and I completed my basic work/school obligations by force. Sorry, I don't have an answer to your questions. I just felt like I experienced something similar to what you describe. The Covid thing is what is the problem factor here for you - as it is for many. We are living through something that is rare, and unique sacrifices are being made. I think what you describe is natural to the circumstances, and I can only hope those circumstances are short lived. Good luck.",
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"content": "> It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. Feeling lonely is fairly normal in academia, especially in humanities subjects as our research is quite individual, so even in a room full of people you can easily be the only person working on your subject (I'm in a niche within a niche so I certainly know how that goes). Besides we often move to brand new cities at ages in life when people don't usually make new friends. COVID has made things worse. I'm feeling similar things to you OP, I moved to a new city for a new job in November, and life has become a fairly monotomous routine, largely because there isn't much else to do, until recently I couldn't even go to the gym! As life returns to normal (and god hopefully it will sometime soon) things should improve, I'd also suggest trying to make friends outside of academia, perhaps try to make friends with other couples? Might be less scary to meet 'new people' if you're doing it with your boyfriend?",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "I just graduated with an MA in English Literature, and I really felt what you say here. I was a TA for 2 years during grad school, and I also am a single father. I found my grad school experience to be very similar with what you describe the workload to be, and for me, I had to make sacrifices when I would get to the breaking point. The first thing to go was my studies - I stopped reading much at all...what I did was, I relied heavily on my knowledge of literary theory, and I've always been quick enough on my feet to connect the dots during in person class discussions to different theoretical lenses. So, I went a few years in grad school where I didn't learn much of anything new about literature. Instead, I learned about department procedures, academic networking skills, and I read student papers. When Covid became a prevalent issue and campus closed down in March, it seemed like my workload doubled. I knew that I had relied heavily on lectures for my teaching responsibilities, but I underestimated how much I had done so. I didn't know how to teach online, and I am still learning. I completed my comprehensive exam virtually. I've never been the most personable guy, and I didn't really have close friends, but when campus closed down in March, I lost any in-person contact that I had. I became very depressed. I think for the first few months I just escaped into art, and I completed my basic work/school obligations by force. Sorry, I don't have an answer to your questions. I just felt like I experienced something similar to what you describe. The Covid thing is what is the problem factor here for you - as it is for many. We are living through something that is rare, and unique sacrifices are being made. I think what you describe is natural to the circumstances, and I can only hope those circumstances are short lived. Good luck.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "Hey, don't feel like you are alone in this. I just graduated out of grad school this year too and my sister is still in grad school in another country and is going through depression. This is a very difficult time for us, it is almost the end of life as we know it, and it's normal to feel anxious about these things. I would suggest that you focus on yourself and just make yourself feel better, maybe put yourself on a routine? That usually helps me.",
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"content": "Just FYI, one can have a great life and still suffer from clinical depression. I am not a therapist, but you described some classic symptoms here. Since you're a student, you probably have access to free Counseling Services. I recommend that you book just one appointment with a counselor and see if that helps.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "I’m starting to feel the same. Balancing my work with a long distance relationship, I end up spending most of my weekdays from morning until night at my desk in my room since my weekends are spent with my bf/family. I am not feeling entirely isolated YET. But damn I miss LIBRARIES. I don’t even realize how isolated I feel until I take my weekly grocery trip and it feels like an event. At first, I liked being on zoom (no commute, don’t have to pack lunch, etc.) but it’s definitely not sustainable to continuously work from home, at least not for me. I am gonna echo everyone else and recommend a therapist. It doesn’t always have to be for diagnosis related reasons. Sometimes you just need a third party to help you work out your thoughts. However, I think we are all doing the best thing for everyone’s health and for the world. It sucks, but we are doing our part during this pandemic. Good luck tho, we’re gonna make it through.",
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"content": "Hey, don't feel like you are alone in this. I just graduated out of grad school this year too and my sister is still in grad school in another country and is going through depression. This is a very difficult time for us, it is almost the end of life as we know it, and it's normal to feel anxious about these things. I would suggest that you focus on yourself and just make yourself feel better, maybe put yourself on a routine? That usually helps me.",
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"content": "100% go to therapy! I really think all grad students should!! Also it's really important to remember that grad school is a marathon not a sprint. You're burning yourself out already?? Danger!! If going outside is important to you, be sure to go outside for at least an hour every day!!! One of the most important things you can learn during grad school is how to sustainably work. Don't let yourself get to the point of breakdowns!!! Are you serious??? Take care of yourself friend!!",
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"content": "Hey, don't feel like you are alone in this. I just graduated out of grad school this year too and my sister is still in grad school in another country and is going through depression. This is a very difficult time for us, it is almost the end of life as we know it, and it's normal to feel anxious about these things. I would suggest that you focus on yourself and just make yourself feel better, maybe put yourself on a routine? That usually helps me.",
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First year grad student feeling alone in the pandemic... Does it get better? Am I the only one? I (23F) graduated from undergrad in May and am currently attending grad school at the same institution. I'm getting my MA in Spanish literature & language and pedagogy, expected to graduate Spring 2022. I also hold a TA position. Everything is operated over zoom this semester. I live in an apartment with my boyfriend that's walkable distance from campus. The first month and a half of grad school has been pretty tough. I am absolutely swamped with work and have many days where I don't see the sun, spending the entire day inside. I do allow myself breaks, but at the end of the day, the workload is very overwhelming especially since I am both a teacher and a student. I have been seemingly able to handle the workload (had my first breakdown last weekend... more to come), but I feel like my workload has been isolating me. Without my boyfriend, my daily interaction with others in person would be pretty much nothing. I talk (text in a groupchat) to two other girls from my program everyday because I know them from having the same major in undergrad. I am a little closer with the other one, and while it may seem "good" that I talk to other people from my program on a daily basis, it doesn't satisfy the void I've been feeling because I don't see them in person. My main problem is the online thing. I don't go out of my way to go to class or the language proficiency lab where I tutor and see smiling faces in the flesh like I used to before the pandemic. I don't get dressed anymore, a particularly important thing for me since I enjoy picking out an outfit for taking on the day. Especially living in the same area where I attended undergrad, I see undergrads on main street with all their friends hanging out, getting coffee, etc. It makes me sad because most people I know graduated and moved out of town, and I used to be very social. Feeling so alone in a town where I would normally be social and active has a particularly eerie sentiment. If you have not already, you must have at some point thought, *Why don't you see who is in town from your program and get together with them?* And this is a very good point indeed. Though counter-productive, I really can't see myself planning some type of social event with people I haven't met before. And yes, that is my fault and I am aware of this. *You're complaining about not being social but wouldn't wanna get those together from your program?* Yes I am, and from me to me: *tough shit*. I am not depressed. I have a great life. My boyfriend is the best, I am in a fantastic program while getting paid to do it. It's just that I've started to feel like a wind-up toy where I wake up in my apartment, do work on my computer all day, and repeat. As if being inside, doing work feels like my purpose for that day. I am starting to wonder if all of grad school is like this. I am even starting to wonder if I made the right decision. **So, after all that, to the experienced grad students of this subreddit,** ***does it get better?*** I assume (and hope) that it does. Because if it doesn't, I am not sure how much longer I would be able to handle it. This is the closest I've ever felt to misery in my short 23 years on earth. Some days I actually accept feeling miserable, though I really try to keep a positive mindset. **I cannot continue through the rest of my program feeling like this.** And to other students who feel the same way as me, you are not alone. And neither am I. Feel free to comment if you are in a similar situation, for that already helps me a little bit. <3 Good luck to everyone else who has an online semester. We can do this! Now, time to get back to reading *Don Quijote*... | 2b4c49745d072488b2d44a36b24ebe2dbae232b6ce70f94297d5559bcda09f19 | [
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"content": "100% go to therapy! I really think all grad students should!! Also it's really important to remember that grad school is a marathon not a sprint. You're burning yourself out already?? Danger!! If going outside is important to you, be sure to go outside for at least an hour every day!!! One of the most important things you can learn during grad school is how to sustainably work. Don't let yourself get to the point of breakdowns!!! Are you serious??? Take care of yourself friend!!",
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I really enjoyed my Master's. Is that a sign I should apply for a PhD? I did a 1-year Master's and really enjoyed it. I worked long hours, but getting to choose what to study and what to do research on was really fun. I especially enjoyed getting to do independent research with original data. It was especially a joy after having spent 10 years in the workforce, and feeling really ground down by the lack of intellectualism, the lack of rigour of thought and just plain repetitiveness that seems so common in office culture. But I suspect a PhD would feel different than a Master's, I'm just not sure exactly how. Can you give me any insight into how I would know whether I'd enjoy the PhD experience? | e877bef2765c87eb92a52a25317c52a6206a9cb00aed6b12888ecf2d69f08c35 | [
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"content": "The degree of affection on studying becomes progressively smaller and smaller as you go further. Bachelor, you love it. It's a lifetime of opportunity where you can study the unknowns and find the love of your life. Master, you enjoy it. It's an another notch up in the unknown and professors love you. It's because **you paid the tuition fee.** PhD, you'd either enjoy or hate it. It's because you'd get paid for the tuition fee and your advisor might abuse you. Postdoc, you'd definitely hate it.",
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