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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'm not a therapist but i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'll ask a few questions to get us started and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "are you okay with this"
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"value": "yes"
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"value": "okay"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "so how are you doing today"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "quite well"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "feel good"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's good"
},
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "where are you from originally"
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"value": "los angeles california here"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "really"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "mhm"
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"value": "one of the few"
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"value": "um native born los angelinos"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "[laughter]"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "yeah"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what do you do now"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "i uh"
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"value": "home school my ten year old son and uh"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "i'm a home maker i have five children and married twenty two years"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "wow"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "mhm"
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"value": "do you travel a lot"
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"value": "so that's a full time job huh"
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"value": "do you travel a lot"
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"value": "uh somewhat we can we went to israel about two months ago um"
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"value": "for a pilgrimmage with our church yeah so i would say yes i've traveled a bit"
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"value": "i'd love to hear about one of your trips"
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"value": "uh well most recently we like two months ago went to israel for a pilgrimmage we were gone about nine days and"
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"value": "it was fabulous it was we spent the first five days in chorazine"
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"value": "which is near the uh"
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"value": "galilee"
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"value": "and in a place called uh uh"
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"value": "i mean the the name of the area is chorazine but"
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"value": "uh we stayed in a place called adonis galilea which is a um"
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"value": "a house for that welcomes"
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"value": "um christian uh"
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"value": "pilgrims as well as jewish pilgrims"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's so good to hear"
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"value": "what do you enjoy about traveling"
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"value": "um i i enjoy like really the most important thing i enjoy is like meeting the people and and of course seeing the the history i mean especially israel i mean it's the "
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"value": "it's totally ancient but um"
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"value": "most most i enjoy is is the the people i think to uh get a better understanding of how different cultures um"
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"value": "okay"
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"value": "do you consider yourself an introvert"
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"value": "no"
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"value": "not at all"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "why"
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"value": "just don't"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "i you know all my life i've always been"
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"value": "open and and uh willing to socialize and"
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"value": "i remember my younger brother always"
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"value": "um joking and saying that i i would talk to anybody and i will i'll talk to just about anybody"
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"value": "just because i enjoy learning about other people"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's good"
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"value": "what do you do to relax"
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"value": "um"
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"value": "most of the time like by the end of the day after i've cooked dinner and we've had dinner together as a family"
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"value": "um i there's a word game on the computer that i like to play for a little while and then"
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"value": "um watch t_v have a cocktail with my husband"
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"value": "and just relax that's what we do and you know"
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"value": "'cause we have a lot going on we don't stay up too late so"
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"value": "i like to watch crime dramas"
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"value": "nice"
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"value": "what are some things that make you really mad"
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"value": "um"
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"value": "really mad probably not a lot um"
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"value": "i get frustrated with for example my daughter does not clean up her room"
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"value": "almost ever"
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"value": "so that that gets me angry but um"
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"value": "in terms of like really um"
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"value": "getting like heatedly angry i mean other than like"
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"value": "little things that my children do to you know"
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"value": "especially my oldest child who's twenty one"
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"value": "you know he can be confrontational so"
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"value": "other than that nothing gets me like really angry"
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"value": "haven't i haven't haven't felt that"
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"value": "okay"
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"value": "what's the best thing about being a parent"
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"value": "um contributing to society helping uh"
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"value": "helping"
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"value": "to raise um responsible people i guess um"
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"value": "and of course the love and the affection and the um"
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"value": "the fun and the excitement that goes with it of all the stages that go"
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"value": "i mean like really right now i'm in a stage where my children"
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"value": "are either adults or teenagers i only have i have one eleven year old and the rest are all teenagers and adults"
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"value": "so it's really fun because we're able to um talk about current events and"
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"value": "all kinds of stuff that's going on in the world and you know have have uh"
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"value": "challenging discussions and that sort of thing"
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"value": "so it's it's a different level than when you're taking care of babies and"
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"value": "you know changing diapers and that kind of stuff"
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"value": "uh huh"
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"value": "what's the hardest thing about being a parent"
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"value": "the hardest thing is that it's twenty four seven"
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"value": "um"
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"value": "you're never not a parent"
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"value": "you know it's and so you have to accept that and that's i remember when i first"
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"value": "with my first child um"
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"value": "thinking you know when i brought him home from the hospital this is it i mean there's no going back you you cannot"
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"value": "um change i mean i guess you could if you did something horrible but"
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"value": "i mean under normal circumstances you can't change um that and it's a permanent thing and"
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"value": "it it it uh"
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"value": "in some ways it takes away your freedom but in other ways it give you a different sort of freedom"
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"value": "i see what you mean"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "there are always tradeoffs in life aren't there"
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "always"
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"value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life"
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"value": "i'm sorry"
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"value": "i didn't get what you said"
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"value": "what are some things you like to do for fun who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life "
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"value": "um some of the things that've been a positive influence in my life most importantly my church"
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"value": "um and my faith"
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"value": "uh but also my husband he's been a really um"
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"value": "he's kind of he's very"
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"value": "like logical thinking and very you know grounded"
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"value": "so when if i get emotional or i get upset about something he's always"
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"value": "we balance each other out likewise if he's upset about something i'm able to balance him out"
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"value": "it's been a that's been a a great gift in my life"
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"value": "how are you at controlling your temper"
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"value": "um i don't i i don't think i'd be categorized as somebody with a a temper"
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"value": "um occasionally i i occasionally i get angry but i don't like have like"
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"value": "rarely do i have outbursts um"
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"value": "i'm more more likely to you know to say what i feel not let it build up"
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"value": "so with you know like my husband and i don't"
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"value": "rarely fight like have"
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"value": "because i i like i said i'm more of a type of person that communicates on the spot so if i'm thinking something"
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"value": "i usually communicate it right away instead of letting it build up"
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"value": "that's good"
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"value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about"
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"value": "um usually i'm arguing with my older son because he"
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"value": "you know he thinks he knows everything"
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"value": "he's twenty one years old so he has the know it all mentality "
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"value": "and i'm just telling him that he doesn't know it all and"
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"value": "you know as life goes on he'll learn more"
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"value": "so that would probably be it the wisdom that you you achieve with age that"
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"value": "that makes sense"
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"value": "most proud of um"
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"value": "probably my family my my husband and my"
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"value": "that's great"
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"value": "through the years i've had a "
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "thanks for sharing your thoughts with me"
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"value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to"
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"value": "goodbye"
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