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Go down, one after the other, after the other. | <0>3388<0>484<0>697<0>2594<0>2669<0>196<0>2004<0>543<0>614<0>1238<0>3783<0>653<0>2398<0>919<0>1346<0>780<0>3171<0>3370<0>3175<0>4008<0>3344<0>3180<0>361<0>290<0>3003<0>3003<0>3003<0>3762<0>1108<0>1748<0>1862<0>3472<0>493<0>234<0>234<0>361<0>2575<0>3981<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>39... |
Can't even imagine it, dude. Yeah, it's just, you know, it's, it's... They were good that day. | <0>3832<0>1710<0>1741<0>1924<0>566<0>644<0>3839<0>2187<0>954<0>3342<0>3348<0>819<0>2244<0>2187<0>1377<0>2187<0>2433<0>2187<0>1377<0>1377<0>1377<0>1377<0>648<0>648<0>838<0>219<0>3637<0>1771<0>127<0>2379<0>1231<0>3552<0>1777<0>2799<0>2682<0>3691<0>191<0>750<0>1961<0>3588<0>3494<0>529<0>118<0>118<0>118<0>118<0>118<0>118<0... |
They're about to surround everybody. So that's what they were doing. There was a trench and they were closing it. They were closing the gate. And, and we, that truck. | <0>1422<0>2410<0>3828<0>2471<0>3413<0>3447<0>3002<0>3809<0>3404<0>2864<0>3222<0>1329<0>648<0>744<0>2410<0>954<0>3999<0>1977<0>1587<0>3437<0>3447<0>819<0>2826<0>583<0>2775<0>3748<0>1793<0>3437<0>2471<0>3939<0>484<0>366<0>652<0>3377<0>2775<0>3880<0>2530<0>3377<0>404<0>334<0>1324<0>3773<0>2517<0>1973<0>1218<0>3943<0>1388<... |
And this was worse than any worst case scenario that I could've ever, ever dreamed up of. Of ever being in. It was the worst of any situation. | <0>2353<0>1022<0>2769<0>3002<0>3385<0>2799<0>3840<0>3898<0>3898<0>2517<0>3809<0>136<0>3234<0>374<0>2641<0>2594<0>2324<0>3968<0>324<0>2753<0>83<0>3181<0>809<0>2070<0>3002<0>3661<0>3187<0>3515<0>3877<0>3691<0>1878<0>1321<0>2488<0>3143<0>3143<0>1799<0>2099<0>1383<0>3447<0>1238<0>2799<0>492<0>3299<0>3189<0>1108<0>1108<0>21... |
I could've never sit here and you said, give me the worst thing you could just come up with, and I could've never done it. I could've never, I could've never done it. Uh, of just... | <0>465<0>3782<0>679<0>3748<0>335<0>147<0>1079<0>583<0>3377<0>484<0>3373<0>382<0>693<0>1828<0>693<0>1775<0>3466<0>1193<0>3433<0>809<0>809<0>3089<0>3377<0>219<0>1108<0>3143<0>1862<0>3741<0>1730<0>397<0>809<0>1321<0>3526<0>714<0>3288<0>2870<0>2398<0>3176<0>1800<0>382<0>2432<0>3180<0>1768<0>2517<0>2517<0>1773<0>509<0>3910<... |
I mean, you just, I mean, it's just like, I mean, I just felt like everybody was dying. Like, | <0>1031<0>1862<0>1800<0>1730<0>3176<0>22<0>2775<0>144<0>3359<0>3509<0>361<0>361<0>2437<0>1711<0>2433<0>3176<0>3637<0>2060<0>1802<0>406<0>746<0>648<0>2182<0>4095<0>133<0>3681<0>3762<0>3762<0>3466<0>3466<0>1108<0>3422<0>3422<0>301<0>387<0>3541<0>382<0>3695<0>679<0>1485<0>3002<0>2369<0>3150<0>2474<0>300<0>2875<0>3552<0>34... |
I mean it was just, I mean there were like literally there were bodies everywhere. I mean you couldn't turn around and look and there not be a body somewhere. | <0>648<0>1862<0>2641<0>2875<0>2989<0>3176<0>3637<0>3176<0>504<0>3114<0>3762<0>3762<0>1031<0>561<0>382<0>3377<0>1981<0>1265<0>647<0>3943<0>746<0>2092<0>1277<0>234<0>2258<0>3480<0>553<0>374<0>1526<0>493<0>701<0>3114<0>648<0>3443<0>2541<0>3972<0>1238<0>898<0>2813<0>1730<0>2161<0>919<0>1892<0>1108<0>3762<0>1108<0>1108<0>11... |
And you know, I walked in that day, and this just shows you how ignorant I was. Like when you talk about your buddy who was kinda like, puffed the chest up, right? That was me. | <0>1271<0>2152<0>2152<0>838<0>1842<0>652<0>866<0>898<0>3840<0>838<0>1730<0>3447<0>838<0>2379<0>3248<0>304<0>324<0>3299<0>2398<0>1414<0>3803<0>3803<0>543<0>2205<0>2205<0>648<0>648<0>2645<0>164<0>2230<0>1685<0>1719<0>3637<0>3155<0>2948<0>1777<0>807<0>3020<0>652<0>3845<0>237<0>1185<0>3408<0>1569<0>484<0>3691<0>1526<0>1321... |
I literally, I'm gonna tell you, I'm gonna just tell you how ignorant I was. I walked in that day and I, I, I, there was not a situation that I was ever gonna see that I couldn't get us out of. There wasn't one. There wasn't one. | <0>1989<0>1842<0>809<0>11<0>3713<0>3593<0>1517<0>3126<0>3437<0>3509<0>2815<0>1202<0>165<0>1213<0>1842<0>2799<0>151<0>83<0>2185<0>374<0>3791<0>3084<0>958<0>1214<0>2002<0>191<0>2775<0>1321<0>2758<0>2585<0>3976<0>404<0>3431<0>413<0>1819<0>1620<0>3224<0>3845<0>1620<0>2517<0>1777<0>1261<0>1862<0>1365<0>493<0>2633<0>895<0>23... |
You know, it was like God showing me just how small it was. | <0>3003<0>1441<0>3359<0>1981<0>3973<0>1862<0>277<0>374<0>3123<0>807<0>2008<0>3535<0>2116<0>2848<0>1338<0>2221<0>3144<0>3143<0>289<0>2398<0>543<0>3762<0>1376<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>1108<0>1108<0>1108<0>1665<0>2826<0>1587<0>2151<0>3791<0>611<0>1883<0>3150<0>1734<0>1620<0>1856<0>2904<0>182<0>290<0>2092<0>398... |
You know, you gotta take, I mean, these Afghan soldiers, I mean, they're my buddies. | <0>3309<0>746<0>3084<0>3084<0>3910<0>2488<0>2269<0>583<0>1710<0>3783<0>3107<0>2555<0>2875<0>3176<0>1453<0>3526<0>3176<0>2978<0>940<0>2436<0>3086<0>1307<0>2269<0>3180<0>1094<0>3378<0>1587<0>2396<0>2745<0>1594<0>2396<0>1620<0>196<0>3691<0>1485<0>2185<0>1299<0>602<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>... |
Compared to when you got there. We got there in July, August, September. Yeah, so this is like two, three months into deployment. | <0>437<0>2972<0>3373<0>3447<0>3809<0>3809<0>3809<0>3486<0>3871<0>1129<0>1265<0>679<0>2748<0>3437<0>3589<0>1386<0>2578<0>2506<0>3642<0>3589<0>3150<0>652<0>1007<0>2875<0>1161<0>1805<0>207<0>1518<0>1777<0>839<0>607<0>2299<0>1587<0>1620<0>3420<0>653<0>1669<0>3447<0>3373<0>3180<0>1649<0>2087<0>1328<0>3987<0>1842<0>484<0>807... |
Yeah, and uhm, part of the problem was, we had just done the NATO transition, and they were using weapon systems that they weren't used to. That shoot a smaller round. Yeah. Yeah, a lot. But they weren't used to these weapons, they weren't even used to the M4s. | <0>3199<0>1324<0>1518<0>492<0>611<0>2051<0>304<0>1200<0>382<0>2883<0>374<0>144<0>3134<0>1277<0>3791<0>259<0>3535<0>1388<0>2327<0>898<0>898<0>2799<0>3972<0>1518<0>144<0>3373<0>317<0>9<0>3003<0>4095<0>1329<0>3003<0>3762<0>2646<0>561<0>1730<0>3637<0>1715<0>46<0>3413<0>3377<0>1231<0>3565<0>3593<0>484<0>2019<0>2638<0>3968<0... |
Oh, they, they were, I mean, they were, oh yeaah, I mean, they, you know, they would have something go wrong and they would just drop the magazine. I mean, I mean, they would just... | <0>2662<0>144<0>2543<0>298<0>2663<0>648<0>3509<0>954<0>3541<0>3798<0>2826<0>2733<0>3478<0>3038<0>3585<0>3184<0>1014<0>144<0>144<0>809<0>1800<0>611<0>3307<0>374<0>1800<0>1620<0>652<0>1240<0>3509<0>746<0>3945<0>3362<0>858<0>2558<0>3693<0>3176<0>3910<0>3447<0>3377<0>2471<0>2864<0>1335<0>1335<0>1108<0>1346<0>1480<0>3822<0>... |
So there was so like, like I'm telling you, if you say everything, like we had just, so we just hit Ramadan, so none of them were drinking water. None of them were eating. We had just, I mean you look at every factor to this, it was the perfect storm. We had just transitioned, this is the first mission, first or secon... | <0>2666<0>3377<0>3447<0>3285<0>3264<0>3791<0>3791<0>2429<0>652<0>3837<0>0<0>3324<0>118<0>3621<0>2716<0>2799<0>3927<0>374<0>3447<0>3968<0>2875<0>2064<0>3324<0>823<0>1730<0>2187<0>2161<0>2848<0>368<0>1355<0>3535<0>1693<0>1710<0>919<0>3837<0>746<0>3373<0>3447<0>318<0>3176<0>1587<0>838<0>3910<0>2129<0>1277<0>1675<0>3447<0>... |
With all NATO weapons. I mean, you look at all these factors, and it was, it was perfect. | <0>3180<0>1715<0>2516<0>3150<0>3791<0>3910<0>1800<0>3791<0>866<0>1777<0>2251<0>2010<0>3123<0>316<0>955<0>3620<0>1373<0>3769<0>1071<0>691<0>1800<0>1800<0>553<0>3593<0>3589<0>147<0>1730<0>3056<0>484<0>3150<0>2516<0>1171<0>698<0>3850<0>1737<0>1365<0>3377<0>1276<0>2142<0>2365<0>2105<0>2282<0>3492<0>1414<0>1800<0>3565<0>614... |
No, and uh, they got shut down so after the talk learned that it was Marines, they got shut down. All support stopped. | <0>2251<0>3592<0>3791<0>2799<0>1842<0>838<0>3299<0>374<0>144<0>1480<0>1575<0>1805<0>3018<0>1108<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>290<0>3693<0>374<0>3585<0>3791<0>1977<0>3181<0>3791<0>2176<0>838<0>898<0>2769<0>484<0>2813<0>2488<0>2799<0>1658<0>807<0>3873<0>1587<0>2516<0>3150<0>3791<0>2898<0>366<0>1862<0>1238<0>1685<0>3404<0>2799<... |
Quite a few vials of morphine, uhm, a couple needle decompressions, uhm, | <0>1883<0>2799<0>2197<0>2328<0>1800<0>3180<0>2799<0>898<0>3150<0>1526<0>679<0>2324<0>2365<0>2799<0>2578<0>3741<0>1862<0>361<0>1329<0>1335<0>4095<0>1748<0>955<0>3052<0>789<0>276<0>3762<0>4095<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>1108<0>614<0>1579<0>1579<0>1579<0>3299<0>3299<0>3299<0>290<0>648<0>2492<0>3003<0>3003<0>1346<0>1777<0>2799... |
Yeah, I mean, and he did that, like, you know, they were, so his commander, he was having problems with his commander. And the guy who was leading those birds, you know, cause they fly in two birds. And, uh, so the, but when I told him that it was Marines missing, | <0>1108<0>1645<0>2799<0>1649<0>1734<0>1862<0>1200<0>382<0>2870<0>2909<0>957<0>2851<0>2398<0>3894<0>1710<0>3585<0>1710<0>3176<0>1710<0>4003<0>3943<0>144<0>1710<0>212<0>382<0>1388<0>374<0>1862<0>2753<0>3980<0>1568<0>135<0>3535<0>2799<0>3892<0>1710<0>2060<0>3160<0>3509<0>3822<0>3565<0>298<0>3509<0>1730<0>3447<0>824<0>3413... |
Like, he dropped down and covered me the whole time. | <0>1890<0>631<0>2875<0>1376<0>3681<0>133<0>3015<0>2873<0>3585<0>2507<0>2799<0>2972<0>3003<0>3910<0>484<0>3404<0>3299<0>3973<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>2984<0>3143<0>2594<0>1277<0>718<0>361<0>2420<0>2348<0>229<0>3299<0>237<0>1579<0>866<0>866<0>1211<0>1331<0>1938<0>2669<0>3981<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068... |
Yeaah. Yeaah. Yeaah. He's incredible. I just seen him, uhm, I seen him like around Thanksgiving. | <0>2703<0>3871<0>1649<0>543<0>3132<0>1346<0>543<0>3803<0>3773<0>1579<0>1649<0>290<0>3018<0>1667<0>1108<0>4095<0>290<0>290<0>3593<0>2935<0>1835<0>3603<0>2258<0>1675<0>2251<0>3370<0>2004<0>911<0>1569<0>1902<0>43<0>1914<0>2409<0>3944<0>1710<0>1200<0>2940<0>490<0>697<0>196<0>229<0>2616<0>2875<0>3261<0>3509<0>3176<0>2826<0>... |
And I don't know how many, his bird was shot to shit. No kidding. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, it was shot to pieces. | <0>1614<0>3447<0>746<0>1842<0>1737<0>1303<0>1777<0>366<0>898<0>3797<0>3822<0>1938<0>1938<0>2343<0>290<0>3973<0>789<0>1649<0>789<0>1632<0>75<0>2187<0>3143<0>2335<0>2433<0>701<0>1041<0>1710<0>1773<0>3378<0>229<0>366<0>366<0>229<0>1442<0>1669<0>3475<0>409<0>3791<0>1618<0>1376<0>261<0>1713<0>2968<0>2167<0>2161<0>3561<0>168... |
You know, I just, I just remember his face. You know, and uh... | <0>77<0>1730<0>3592<0>1842<0>3176<0>2525<0>1196<0>2748<0>3176<0>368<0>3359<0>1862<0>1862<0>3972<0>2703<0>212<0>1830<0>3621<0>148<0>148<0>3506<0>1494<0>424<0>3762<0>4095<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>1335<0>701<0>294<0>3404<0>3972<0>611<0>1200<0>2594<0>361<0>1480<0>1675<0>1675<0>3798<0>602<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>... |
I mean, look, let me just state this up front. First off, I feel no remorse at all. Uhm, but I think it was at that point to where it humanized it. Does that make sense? Like, it humanized. | <0>3299<0>3968<0>3837<0>3224<0>3973<0>3437<0>898<0>992<0>1538<0>3018<0>3052<0>234<0>234<0>234<0>3592<0>2324<0>3854<0>3378<0>1449<0>20<0>3668<0>3438<0>1022<0>3791<0>1675<0>860<0>1857<0>725<0>1857<0>3447<0>2055<0>3413<0>3840<0>1777<0>746<0>858<0>2799<0>866<0>2396<0>1108<0>3762<0>2099<0>3592<0>2619<0>1819<0>3798<0>1289<0>... |
The look in his eyes. When he knew he was gonna die. And at that point, like, you know, obviously I didn't think of it then. But you know, when I still see that face, I still think about, you know, | <0>1022<0>1579<0>1645<0>2748<0>3143<0>2594<0>2506<0>3413<0>898<0>1240<0>148<0>3378<0>2036<0>4095<0>4095<0>3003<0>3003<0>4095<0>3003<0>3803<0>1214<0>2748<0>3585<0>3968<0>2594<0>1862<0>679<0>361<0>3299<0>3850<0>1418<0>2594<0>196<0>958<0>3246<0>382<0>365<0>4095<0>3762<0>1335<0>4095<0>1950<0>4048<0>3762<0>3762<0>2182<0>259... |
He was a father. There was somebody at home that wanted him to come home. Just as bad as somebody wanted me to come home. Uhm, you know, whether you agree with his beliefs or not, people don't agree with their beliefs, you know, but at the end of the day, he believed in his beliefs just as much as I did. | <0>322<0>1730<0>1730<0>1830<0>2420<0>1973<0>3150<0>2258<0>2555<0>3003<0>365<0>3003<0>3003<0>290<0>421<0>3377<0>3447<0>3421<0>382<0>3404<0>2488<0>3668<0>1319<0>2745<0>2594<0>3370<0>2864<0>2864<0>1852<0>2875<0>3299<0>3081<0>2420<0>3299<0>2864<0>2864<0>1095<0>1335<0>3097<0>1715<0>1715<0>2016<0>1579<0>2703<0>1800<0>1112<0>... |
Uhm, we're both human beings. We're both fighting for a cause that neither one of us can see, that we both just believe in. Uhm, and it had to be one of us. | <0>3132<0>327<0>1331<0>3299<0>1238<0>1007<0>2799<0>144<0>2775<0>770<0>361<0>3299<0>1214<0>3565<0>2594<0>3134<0>1095<0>2018<0>1335<0>3762<0>1108<0>3762<0>4095<0>3762<0>1335<0>1329<0>2989<0>1442<0>898<0>2799<0>2921<0>2199<0>3791<0>1275<0>2497<0>697<0>1777<0>1777<0>3791<0>3150<0>2769<0>1022<0>374<0>294<0>1710<0>2799<0>378... |
Uhm, it would have took him no time to get me across the border. We were right on the border. That's what he would have done. He would have took me across the border. He'd have sold me. | <0>9<0>1062<0>1277<0>2544<0>3541<0>2258<0>3798<0>2497<0>2840<0>963<0>2161<0>3541<0>492<0>151<0>2563<0>3447<0>1959<0>1862<0>1320<0>3972<0>3509<0>374<0>3541<0>1022<0>1730<0>2641<0>2578<0>2221<0>484<0>3385<0>1442<0>1238<0>1569<0>1981<0>746<0>1007<0>2748<0>746<0>2799<0>954<0>1575<0>3115<0>1579<0>2555<0>1667<0>789<0>2683<0>... |
Uhm, and he would have been a hero. He'd probably been promoted in whatever, you know, network he was in. I mean, he would have been the man. | <0>3762<0>3018<0>2864<0>2864<0>2864<0>2683<0>3968<0>3585<0>3968<0>1214<0>3509<0>553<0>1800<0>3509<0>1265<0>1265<0>1730<0>3837<0>2471<0>1696<0>361<0>3509<0>1328<0>1862<0>2799<0>151<0>3008<0>3894<0>2217<0>807<0>2753<0>1265<0>2044<0>276<0>290<0>4095<0>77<0>382<0>1777<0>1730<0>1819<0>2864<0>2324<0>3792<0>2155<0>1022<0>2594... |
Uhm, I was worth a lot more to him alive than I was dead. Yeaah. You know, but then on the back side, I mean, I've questioned it so many times, like, you know, was it that or was it, maybe he was trying to bluff me, didn't have bullets. I mean, I don't know. | <0>977<0>1095<0>3894<0>2799<0>2799<0>3798<0>3307<0>2875<0>2875<0>1213<0>3691<0>3373<0>691<0>2316<0>2441<0>3373<0>3594<0>697<0>1007<0>3447<0>3826<0>866<0>898<0>1902<0>1324<0>2989<0>3840<0>2705<0>1265<0>1575<0>3240<0>366<0>2471<0>1073<0>2447<0>3888<0>3146<0>840<0>151<0>2633<0>294<0>2398<0>493<0>2861<0>611<0>2780<0>2957<0... |
You know, there's so many times in this whole battle that I just wonder like... Like why? Why not me? | <0>2870<0>2435<0>2152<0>3592<0>1388<0>1579<0>492<0>1202<0>2081<0>374<0>1773<0>2143<0>3791<0>1463<0>2152<0>3637<0>3850<0>2488<0>3621<0>1944<0>386<0>2497<0>3359<0>1444<0>2923<0>3150<0>2062<0>122<0>652<0>2813<0>1819<0>1738<0>1073<0>932<0>237<0>1022<0>1355<0>1732<0>366<0>3177<0>2471<0>2799<0>2142<0>561<0>955<0>150<0>977<0>... |
That's what it is. You could have got, you could have got missed by a gust of wind. Literally. You could have, you could have been missed by the wind picking up. | <0>2185<0>3447<0>368<0>2641<0>3144<0>361<0>1214<0>3155<0>0<0>701<0>4048<0>4095<0>2875<0>1730<0>1230<0>374<0>3593<0>386<0>1696<0>94<0>3726<0>4095<0>77<0>3176<0>2161<0>2161<0>1730<0>701<0>3114<0>1580<0>2327<0>335<0>147<0>294<0>2488<0>611<0>2940<0>1200<0>2060<0>3937<0>2695<0>3466<0>3762<0>3762<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<... |
Yeah, it was frustrating. It was frustrating. It was frustrating that... | <0>2433<0>1200<0>2258<0>1245<0>860<0>3541<0>1707<0>860<0>1862<0>361<0>3299<0>365<0>3868<0>240<0>3055<0>1871<0>2729<0>4095<0>4048<0>4048<0>1108<0>3003<0>2433<0>1108<0>3726<0>1353<0>3897<0>987<0>1428<0>2589<0>1384<0>2525<0>1042<0>374<0>1715<0>1348<0>2735<0>587<0>1277<0>1639<0>1748<0>1376<0>1108<0>2343<0>1675<0>3551<0>316... |
It was frustrating. Every bit of it was frustrating. It was so, I mean every single bit of it was unnecessary and frustrating. | <0>3003<0>2052<0>114<0>2799<0>1880<0>1617<0>366<0>703<0>2915<0>3509<0>2187<0>2099<0>3762<0>1108<0>3762<0>2589<0>634<0>693<0>693<0>634<0>1050<0>1950<0>3437<0>2799<0>3299<0>2324<0>3002<0>3791<0>2191<0>1675<0>3592<0>3166<0>3782<0>3791<0>3181<0>3187<0>1959<0>361<0>611<0>234<0>3850<0>491<0>3791<0>3150<0>3840<0>2339<0>1284<0... |
Yeah, I mean, you know, usually, but, but at this point, you know, the only show of force ever works is, is, I mean, they had so much momentum at this time. I mean, it was like momentum, right? So it started out as fighters, like as fighters that came across the border. | <0>3741<0>374<0>374<0>3509<0>2875<0>3541<0>1329<0>1277<0>2799<0>1710<0>3592<0>484<0>3299<0>1012<0>3422<0>3024<0>3585<0>2161<0>1730<0>2152<0>368<0>1118<0>1517<0>1710<0>2875<0>543<0>365<0>1510<0>1510<0>1871<0>3354<0>955<0>1579<0>2092<0>2178<0>2348<0>1095<0>122<0>1685<0>3176<0>544<0>1355<0>1456<0>2883<0>3437<0>3585<0>3593... |
Everybody else joined in, you take, so you had the guys that showed up to fight. | <0>2092<0>3373<0>3943<0>1675<0>290<0>290<0>290<0>553<0>4009<0>1780<0>484<0>1773<0>2563<0>1696<0>3791<0>1993<0>782<0>3377<0>3176<0>809<0>1171<0>553<0>2152<0>1427<0>3480<0>1685<0>3020<0>3545<0>3422<0>645<0>3457<0>2027<0>1277<0>11<0>2395<0>2741<0>2543<0>147<0>3569<0>1013<0>3597<0>1730<0>595<0>2659<0>386<0>1116<0>3447<0>25... |
And then you have the opportunist of the villagers that turn into fighters instantly because they have the upper hand. And so they start gaining momentum of more people fighting you every single minute. Cause all they gotta do is pick up the gun off the dead person. You know what I mean? | <0>497<0>1598<0>1710<0>3002<0>553<0>746<0>3437<0>1944<0>2327<0>1022<0>2935<0>1842<0>1777<0>1480<0>679<0>807<0>2594<0>553<0>3002<0>751<0>3592<0>1388<0>2152<0>2152<0>3943<0>144<0>3155<0>1085<0>3673<0>3850<0>3674<0>2459<0>2488<0>898<0>3910<0>2875<0>746<0>934<0>3152<0>3564<0>1401<0>2223<0>3910<0>2152<0>3993<0>1587<0>3949<0... |
Rocket comes in, she drops a bowl, and it's full of grenades and ammunition. The women were running up and resupplying all these guys. | <0>1769<0>259<0>3443<0>1658<0>2353<0>3927<0>3413<0>1858<0>838<0>1587<0>382<0>324<0>3762<0>1108<0>1145<0>1145<0>1145<0>1335<0>2010<0>529<0>3155<0>1076<0>1850<0>898<0>3413<0>3264<0>1388<0>3150<0>3016<0>3956<0>327<0>1710<0>3713<0>2199<0>2769<0>2543<0>3840<0>746<0>1130<0>901<0>368<0>838<0>838<0>807<0>1685<0>2777<0>1206<0>3... |
You know, I might have not physically died that day, but I died. | <0>3414<0>3057<0>3609<0>919<0>1730<0>2594<0>327<0>1649<0>2052<0>2594<0>2594<0>3748<0>1295<0>180<0>1973<0>2921<0>2703<0>2506<0>1238<0>327<0>493<0>1645<0>1331<0>493<0>304<0>1688<0>1231<0>2745<0>493<0>290<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>290<0>196<0>1737<0>2488<0>3570<0>1136<0>1800<0>2029<0>180<0>437<0>6... |
Right there next to him. I mean, you talk about, you know. | <0>614<0>2013<0>77<0>3509<0>3386<0>3741<0>1023<0>648<0>611<0>611<0>3973<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>9<0>3003<0>3762<0>1108<0>1748<0>611<0>361<0>2594<0>294<0>1108<0>718<0>3552<0>2161<0>3109<0>1777<0>2221<0>2921<0>2864<0>1862<0>1973<0>1649<0>3018<0>1805<0>384<0>384<0>1287<0>955<0>955<0>955<0>955<0>955<0>3762<0>3762<0>3... |
I mean it's one thing to lose one person, but everybody, I mean it's- | <0>2987<0>3299<0>3552<0>1710<0>3545<0>2221<0>382<0>1526<0>382<0>679<0>492<0>2324<0>3894<0>1442<0>611<0>611<0>3541<0>2989<0>3832<0>1238<0>1277<0>290<0>1108<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3466<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>869<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>1277<0>3667<0>1295<0>294<0>2989... |
I mean that's the worst case scenario. You're livin' it. You know, I mean you're literally... | <0>3388<0>2594<0>3968<0>746<0>3637<0>2116<0>229<0>68<0>2864<0>3122<0>3478<0>3072<0>3741<0>304<0>2414<0>224<0>3275<0>2578<0>2035<0>611<0>1329<0>1748<0>4095<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>9<0>3003<0>1108<0>9<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>390<0>75<0>361<0>805<0>2178<0>361<0>... |
You don't even have anybody from your own team to put your dad on the bird. | <0>305<0>3038<0>691<0>2594<0>3741<0>2769<0>1862<0>2324<0>2875<0>1238<0>366<0>1261<0>1180<0>1862<0>2345<0>480<0>4089<0>294<0>3743<0>2875<0>361<0>1732<0>196<0>2099<0>120<0>3299<0>1641<0>2641<0>2029<0>4003<0>1730<0>1675<0>611<0>23<0>365<0>2051<0>3762<0>4095<0>3003<0>1277<0>3299<0>3246<0>3783<0>361<0>602<0>3981<0>2068<0>39... |
You know, and I, I don't know if it talks about it in the book, you know, after I did that with my teammates. | <0>701<0>2185<0>611<0>3434<0>898<0>3377<0>1108<0>1108<0>3466<0>1108<0>3762<0>114<0>1287<0>2952<0>2049<0>593<0>348<0>1862<0>2199<0>2049<0>934<0>1777<0>3404<0>2594<0>1620<0>958<0>1502<0>3299<0>614<0>3434<0>2178<0>1431<0>1523<0>611<0>611<0>2548<0>614<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>1108<0>3762<0>1989<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>... |
I went straight from there and I went to, uhm, so the Afghan side. And I did it with all their guys too. And usually what they do with their guys is they just call the families and they got so many days to come get them. | <0>2921<0>1500<0>3447<0>1862<0>2324<0>414<0>3390<0>811<0>4003<0>1501<0>2221<0>2594<0>1862<0>3877<0>1862<0>480<0>611<0>959<0>2036<0>3944<0>2641<0>3299<0>1649<0>3018<0>955<0>4095<0>1108<0>290<0>2004<0>1738<0>1738<0>1738<0>3973<0>365<0>2646<0>3802<0>1575<0>3174<0>543<0>1614<0>611<0>2864<0>2864<0>3973<0>290<0>3114<0>493<0>... |
You know, I didn't go, I didn't go start worrying about my stuff until we had taken care of all the, all the guys, you know. And it's just, it was, it was a long day. It was a long day. | <0>1108<0>3176<0>3143<0>1777<0>3822<0>2875<0>3837<0>2396<0>2641<0>2864<0>1734<0>614<0>797<0>3018<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>1108<0>1108<0>382<0>1730<0>611<0>2799<0>2705<0>3413<0>2697<0>1147<0>480<0>2916<0>2864<0>366<0>1639<0>3246<0>2594<0>1545<0>1738<0>1579<0>789<0>2099<0>1415<0>1675<0>3528<0>614<0>3762<0>346... |
Yeaah, so, I don't know if it talks about it in there, but they tried to put me on the helicopter with them to go back to Bagram. And then wanted me to fly home. To do the ramp ceremonies and wanted me to fly home with them. | <0>2353<0>1730<0>746<0>3447<0>468<0>1842<0>1777<0>3404<0>1442<0>3299<0>2572<0>2679<0>2572<0>3620<0>2679<0>2281<0>1057<0>3132<0>3132<0>348<0>2799<0>2102<0>3377<0>1238<0>561<0>3551<0>2799<0>1594<0>234<0>2813<0>838<0>2199<0>1240<0>611<0>1675<0>3614<0>374<0>1294<0>2875<0>484<0>716<0>2785<0>3377<0>368<0>1105<0>915<0>361<0>3... |
I actually put him on there and I told him I would be right back and I knew those birds had to take off because they weren't, the PJ's weren't going to sit on the flight line very long. And I just made sure that I knew that they took off before I got around anybody else because I mean they were dead. I mean I still ha... | <0>2663<0>898<0>1240<0>3668<0>3668<0>2488<0>3782<0>3143<0>312<0>207<0>1441<0>1294<0>77<0>2589<0>3422<0>115<0>2952<0>1732<0>1732<0>2589<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3973<0>1842<0>2748<0>1883<0>1007<0>3592<0>1862<0>3822<0>2578<0>3150<0>2799<0>2221<0>2221<0>2324<0>1238<0>2187<0>1862<0>1240<0>3389<0>382<0>2488<0>38... |
I just, you know, I knew my Afghan soldiers needed me. They needed to see that, that they weren't alone. They needed to see that, that we're in this together, you know, and that was what, that was what mattered to me. What the guys I still had left. | <0>1031<0>1800<0>3966<0>2116<0>3973<0>4095<0>4048<0>2875<0>2221<0>3377<0>361<0>361<0>611<0>3773<0>3773<0>691<0>2325<0>3968<0>2584<0>1331<0>1575<0>3392<0>1339<0>2875<0>1711<0>2641<0>2035<0>361<0>493<0>1200<0>1117<0>3854<0>2029<0>3457<0>1996<0>1711<0>2185<0>3180<0>1748<0>2589<0>2247<0>1900<0>1197<0>1950<0>911<0>2096<0>58... |
They did. I mean, I'm telling you, they are some of the most incredible human beings I've ever seen. You know, we come in and deploy. We're there for a certain amount of time. They live it forever. And, uh, they responded. I mean, they... | <0>648<0>1730<0>1730<0>548<0>493<0>2840<0>1950<0>1108<0>1108<0>1428<0>611<0>3509<0>1730<0>898<0>2799<0>690<0>898<0>1200<0>1238<0>65<0>1530<0>1214<0>648<0>1579<0>1800<0>2471<0>3832<0>1331<0>611<0>2191<0>3972<0>2081<0>1829<0>2295<0>958<0>1620<0>2396<0>2187<0>1356<0>2396<0>1711<0>361<0>2312<0>1867<0>3952<0>2406<0>2353<0>3... |
You know, they got their shit together, uhm, and, I mean, we were back in the fight three days later. | <0>9<0>2875<0>807<0>1117<0>1748<0>1414<0>2004<0>1575<0>701<0>2205<0>237<0>374<0>2096<0>3539<0>1669<0>3176<0>2769<0>2875<0>2549<0>1587<0>3968<0>361<0>2051<0>543<0>1108<0>1335<0>1376<0>1277<0>1579<0>1575<0>1738<0>3299<0>3307<0>1775<0>3132<0>1145<0>1197<0>2567<0>361<0>237<0>2398<0>3973<0>3114<0>1376<0>2398<0>3114<0>1057<0... |
You know, and they don't get, they don't get the resp- they don't get the support we do. You know, they don't get- | <0>701<0>746<0>898<0>2594<0>838<0>1777<0>3275<0>1710<0>1384<0>2062<0>374<0>1777<0>745<0>1938<0>382<0>90<0>3541<0>2284<0>9<0>2700<0>374<0>2197<0>2396<0>382<0>1919<0>1339<0>3117<0>1117<0>1819<0>2697<0>2345<0>648<0>43<0>1675<0>1675<0>1579<0>1346<0>2004<0>290<0>1748<0>977<0>977<0>3762<0>3762<0>1108<0>977<0>290<0>23<0>3552<... |
I mean they don't get anything we get, you know what I mean? And, and it's just, you know, but we, but we stuck together, you know, they helped me, they helped me get through it, uhm, and I hope I helped them, but I think the most incredible thing was it was at that point that, that they brought me into their, I was a... | <0>2641<0>3968<0>838<0>3377<0>3275<0>2875<0>1800<0>3561<0>290<0>1108<0>4095<0>2029<0>2152<0>2185<0>361<0>361<0>3024<0>2266<0>2035<0>954<0>3359<0>1265<0>1732<0>2594<0>2099<0>2589<0>2162<0>1900<0>1900<0>634<0>3179<0>114<0>3899<0>1501<0>746<0>746<0>2594<0>294<0>3003<0>2769<0>382<0>1800<0>3438<0>1710<0>1730<0>980<0>3802<0>... |
And that was probably the most rewarding piece of it to me, you know. Was that I, I had finally proven myself to them that, that I was one of them. | <0>2594<0>3968<0>3748<0>229<0>3133<0>3370<0>898<0>3180<0>3509<0>1238<0>2497<0>3180<0>3840<0>1098<0>3985<0>327<0>3348<0>3067<0>4008<0>1569<0>3155<0>2641<0>2641<0>227<0>3457<0>2666<0>1620<0>2416<0>963<0>2875<0>2924<0>1751<0>718<0>3370<0>2864<0>2700<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>2711<0>3540<0>3973<0>1... |
No, they ambushed them on the side of this and what they done, they blew the jingo trucks up and blocked the road so that, you know, they intertwine those jingo trucks in between the US convoy and it's so stupid. And so the jingo truck is blown up and it's blocking the road. So guess what happens to the rest of them? | <0>1238<0>3791<0>2799<0>382<0>1579<0>3668<0>3176<0>3681<0>1123<0>1598<0>954<0>3447<0>2525<0>3348<0>2703<0>2734<0>593<0>1217<0>374<0>374<0>895<0>3850<0>3299<0>1200<0>3972<0>1480<0>1200<0>2875<0>2799<0>3840<0>324<0>3791<0>648<0>1463<0>196<0>2799<0>1579<0>2185<0>3854<0>2641<0>3404<0>1575<0>1658<0>2471<0>2191<0>3660<0>3791... |
And you can't go around it because it's about a 250 foot drop off into the Kunar River. | <0>744<0>1710<0>1710<0>826<0>1800<0>2345<0>3840<0>1518<0>219<0>1777<0>1587<0>2345<0>3239<0>1857<0>3377<0>1526<0>3873<0>196<0>458<0>3593<0>3497<0>2848<0>229<0>2221<0>2594<0>3392<0>1261<0>718<0>3861<0>2191<0>3882<0>679<0>2221<0>1007<0>2669<0>3403<0>1331<0>1418<0>361<0>1238<0>3949<0>2594<0>2868<0>1569<0>1518<0>2365<0>2864... |
And I knew they were gonna get slaughtered. I knew that you weren't just gonna sit there. And they had buttoned up. | <0>745<0>2748<0>1800<0>587<0>2766<0>191<0>2365<0>2864<0>237<0>237<0>2903<0>327<0>1738<0>1579<0>2365<0>1748<0>1108<0>1632<0>1800<0>361<0>2324<0>983<0>3561<0>2187<0>2864<0>43<0>684<0>224<0>397<0>2641<0>3299<0>855<0>1318<0>648<0>2205<0>1862<0>1562<0>3894<0>3771<0>3854<0>493<0>2799<0>385<0>2398<0>2185<0>1587<0>2516<0>196<1... |
And, uh, I kept, I kept asking over the radio, you know, cause I could monitor. | <0>701<0>3968<0>1800<0>1800<0>3741<0>1329<0>4038<0>3691<0>3373<0>2799<0>3973<0>3621<0>2353<0>2826<0>3377<0>3973<0>3018<0>3671<0>746<0>2769<0>809<0>1338<0>3434<0>3621<0>3447<0>3832<0>2594<0>3783<0>1442<0>1575<0>1569<0>1741<0>1730<0>994<0>1734<0>1238<0>1632<0>4095<0>77<0>2594<0>1500<0>3143<0>2182<0>746<0>3791<0>746<0>329... |
And I kept asking over the radio, and I could see the smoke from where I was at. | <0>4066<0>1862<0>3497<0>1800<0>1031<0>1240<0>3480<0>2459<0>611<0>2324<0>1575<0>2578<0>1123<0>691<0>3143<0>368<0>3497<0>3278<0>3176<0>3176<0>1802<0>2762<0>3370<0>144<0>3898<0>3949<0>2221<0>3143<0>2363<0>691<0>2299<0>451<0>1549<0>3892<0>330<0>3606<0>2205<0>1481<0>23<0>3540<0>3981<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068... |
And I kept asking over the radio, it was a clip platoon. And I kept, uh, combat logistics platoon. And I kept asking over the radio, how many rounds have you fired? Cause I was afraid they were gonna get low on ammo. Zero. | <0>2366<0>3822<0>3968<0>1710<0>2799<0>3377<0>3437<0>3002<0>1386<0>3045<0>814<0>1683<0>1683<0>3089<0>1730<0>3968<0>2381<0>2016<0>1649<0>288<0>2666<0>1649<0>122<0>963<0>2875<0>745<0>2398<0>4095<0>3003<0>4095<0>3386<0>1849<0>974<0>1688<0>2594<0>3968<0>1306<0>2387<0>1748<0>1748<0>3691<0>484<0>2921<0>3377<0>954<0>2488<0>207... |
I would say if it wasn't, if I didn't go home, I, I would've never came home. | <0>2053<0>2799<0>2799<0>261<0>3850<0>583<0>3143<0>863<0>614<0>484<0>3791<0>2506<0>1007<0>3003<0>3762<0>3018<0>3762<0>4048<0>1108<0>1494<0>3837<0>1331<0>838<0>3968<0>2641<0>1777<0>1442<0>3947<0>1356<0>3434<0>2053<0>3246<0>390<0>2646<0>4095<0>1108<0>3466<0>1649<0>366<0>1620<0>327<0>3662<0>2497<0>1938<0>2864<0>1981<0>899<... |
You know, I was just getting well and tighter. And tighter. I mean, I was- | <0>4048<0>3854<0>3797<0>3404<0>1862<0>1285<0>290<0>3762<0>1649<0>366<0>368<0>703<0>3084<0>2830<0>2368<0>2053<0>611<0>1024<0>1777<0>958<0>2187<0>2221<0>2044<0>1108<0>1108<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>9<0>4066<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>1108<0>3762<0>1915<0>294<0>123<0>898<0>678<0>2578<0>587<0>954<0>911<0>1989<0>1376<0>4095... |
You couldn't tell me. You couldn't tell me I was not, I wasn't, I wasn't command, like you couldn't, you couldn't tell me what to do. You were out of control. I was, I was out of control. | <0>2875<0>3968<0>1857<0>1587<0>2594<0>2070<0>1777<0>3143<0>2594<0>648<0>4095<0>465<0>3762<0>1335<0>3003<0>3973<0>2924<0>745<0>3052<0>3246<0>1620<0>1682<0>2813<0>1777<0>958<0>1734<0>1620<0>276<0>1682<0>1441<0>2875<0>2875<0>2921<0>1777<0>2875<0>1329<0>3438<0>374<0>2221<0>2578<0>1938<0>2345<0>2488<0>1620<0>3840<0>294<0>34... |
I mean, you know, I wasn't doing anything, nothing, you know, immorally unethical, right? Like nothing, I was doing my job, but as far as like commanding me, you couldn't. | <0>1649<0>2178<0>2616<0>1031<0>348<0>1862<0>2152<0>104<0>1871<0>2194<0>2162<0>2558<0>746<0>898<0>3287<0>2543<0>679<0>3592<0>838<0>1710<0>3910<0>3143<0>3910<0>3552<0>3086<0>348<0>122<0>2436<0>3791<0>679<0>2152<0>3791<0>2769<0>838<0>382<0>294<0>104<0>2221<0>718<0>746<0>327<0>3143<0>2875<0>77<0>746<0>679<0>327<0>327<0>132... |
Yeah, absolutely. I mean, I was, you know, I was at the point to where I had no, I had no, uh, | <0>1938<0>1240<0>746<0>3621<0>770<0>2143<0>122<0>229<0>361<0>2187<0>1329<0>1414<0>3393<0>3359<0>1730<0>3413<0>2799<0>3691<0>1858<0>2223<0>2029<0>1730<0>2221<0>1857<0>1777<0>1118<0>746<0>1919<0>196<0>3180<0>2578<0>2353<0>1830<0>1883<0>827<0>1862<0>1862<0>2044<0>3288<0>1252<0>3288<0>2870<0>1071<0>746<0>2703<0>1240<0>1710... |
I didn't trust my command. I didn't trust anybody. I didn't trust anybody. I mean, it was a, I was a one, you know, not a one man, I was a three man operation, right? I mean, I was a, but I was a one man, I was a one man record crew, right? Like I was, I mean, I was gonna do, | <0>366<0>386<0>1710<0>2594<0>900<0>1777<0>3791<0>3592<0>3413<0>1386<0>3359<0>3910<0>2578<0>1200<0>2799<0>746<0>1386<0>294<0>1469<0>1777<0>3791<0>3594<0>838<0>2152<0>2799<0>3791<0>1710<0>374<0>1448<0>1580<0>1976<0>3791<0>3850<0>1800<0>3968<0>3377<0>3377<0>3592<0>3143<0>2422<0>3413<0>1260<0>2748<0>1800<0>746<0>3592<0>379... |
Yes, and we fought our ass off. The whole time. The whole time. It was, it was, we fought our asses off almost every single day and sometimes three and four times a day. | <0>648<0>895<0>2703<0>397<0>1862<0>2956<0>2703<0>151<0>2799<0>3404<0>43<0>490<0>382<0>679<0>1862<0>2769<0>3840<0>3150<0>2748<0>1129<0>2545<0>2488<0>2030<0>3691<0>2422<0>147<0>5<0>3973<0>1145<0>1335<0>3762<0>648<0>3899<0>1819<0>1518<0>2769<0>2799<0>490<0>3018<0>543<0>3873<0>3585<0>122<0>866<0>866<0>144<0>3413<0>3299<0>1... |
It keeps coming because right after that they overrun Keating. Right after, I mean it's all that, all of it, you know, they just built so much momentum and they were hammering us, I mean hammering us every day. And uhm, you know, it was, it was pretty bad. | <0>365<0>2433<0>2838<0>1730<0>2440<0>3377<0>1303<0>2641<0>690<0>3373<0>3592<0>521<0>838<0>1043<0>3370<0>234<0>940<0>3180<0>855<0>3515<0>2429<0>545<0>1819<0>1857<0>3143<0>1710<0>1710<0>289<0>3299<0>290<0>2589<0>1900<0>789<0>1414<0>3393<0>2748<0>1240<0>366<0>2136<0>43<0>3968<0>1800<0>1007<0>127<0>738<0>1331<0>2049<0>3061... |
No, it was, you know, I can't say that the PTSD center helped me, but what it did is it educated me. It educated me on why I was feeling the way I was and what it was and then therefore that helped me. | <0>382<0>3592<0>1675<0>2799<0>2769<0>2778<0>858<0>1871<0>2194<0>2194<0>3268<0>2558<0>3281<0>838<0>3621<0>2838<0>1710<0>850<0>607<0>809<0>3821<0>122<0>2560<0>3791<0>3018<0>290<0>2930<0>151<0>1526<0>1579<0>2136<0>3176<0>3585<0>1730<0>1710<0>2506<0>3096<0>3002<0>2594<0>219<0>1240<0>144<0>3898<0>3299<0>1579<0>2187<0>1335<0... |
It kinda like, you know, uh, you know, you know, kinda like how you know a diet that works for you. | <0>2185<0>553<0>2339<0>1579<0>1467<0>3073<0>2864<0>366<0>3929<0>701<0>2864<0>1214<0>3299<0>1238<0>9<0>1649<0>1649<0>611<0>611<0>3299<0>2099<0>2558<0>1713<0>75<0>3762<0>1335<0>3018<0>3143<0>3096<0>1730<0>3832<0>2488<0>3133<0>3791<0>3791<0>3585<0>1196<0>1730<0>366<0>1117<0>72<0>2821<0>659<0>2679<0>4048<0>4095<0>290<0>173... |
You know, like you can look in the mirror how you feel after you eat it, right? It's kind of the same thing, like it educates you on... | <0>3973<0>2875<0>3968<0>1862<0>1331<0>484<0>244<0>3143<0>2875<0>561<0>3143<0>2258<0>3943<0>2799<0>3143<0>2730<0>1384<0>3299<0>2578<0>1800<0>1862<0>366<0>2345<0>148<0>361<0>3868<0>3505<0>691<0>3585<0>3861<0>703<0>746<0>3791<0>3791<0>83<0>252<0>1641<0>3561<0>3585<0>2826<0>196<0>2471<0>3621<0>3585<0>1329<0>3274<0>1328<0>2... |
Why your body's doing this or why you're having this reaction, you know? And, and that it's normal and it's just, you know, and this is why it's doing it and this is how you help counter it, right? And that was kinda, that was kinda what it did for me. It didn't... | <0>2092<0>3840<0>898<0>3089<0>1238<0>2799<0>652<0>1730<0>3353<0>2594<0>2324<0>561<0>1938<0>729<0>1880<0>3404<0>1575<0>3404<0>2332<0>1730<0>3968<0>1850<0>1240<0>2864<0>2641<0>3433<0>361<0>2345<0>678<0>1197<0>1871<0>3303<0>3359<0>1214<0>362<0>3257<0>278<0>2870<0>1829<0>3968<0>2641<0>1295<0>3359<0>324<0>1171<0>1730<0>212<... |
I don't think it really, it didn't, it didn't fix anything. It just educated me on what the problem was. | <0>1746<0>3069<0>3592<0>1331<0>3143<0>2826<0>2875<0>2345<0>2221<0>809<0>1711<0>2187<0>3753<0>4048<0>648<0>2769<0>196<0>3114<0>3637<0>2826<0>2152<0>2985<0>1710<0>2734<0>3585<0>2161<0>2008<0>1356<0>2924<0>3307<0>4095<0>290<0>2435<0>1710<0>368<0>2588<0>3447<0>3038<0>3637<0>1741<0>2152<0>2578<0>2221<0>3898<0>3180<0>382<0>1... |
Yes, so I could identify the problem, I could identify why I was feeling this way. And then, you know, I could make decisions based of how I could... | <0>2875<0>3668<0>1007<0>3848<0>180<0>484<0>898<0>3968<0>1730<0>413<0>3585<0>746<0>3143<0>3404<0>2488<0>327<0>2231<0>3404<0>3150<0>1649<0>327<0>361<0>289<0>3437<0>493<0>374<0>3370<0>1777<0>1630<0>1575<0>484<0>898<0>3748<0>1200<0>1485<0>3123<0>1108<0>9<0>3003<0>1667<0>3377<0>1777<0>1715<0>3143<0>3592<0>3748<0>1480<0>2762... |
No, I mean, the facts of the facts are, like, here's, I get so frustrated with people who wanna like, I'm a factual guy, like, you know, I mean, everything to me is black and white, and I'm a back-based, like, I went in that day to go get my teammates out. I failed. | <0>744<0>3999<0>3447<0>3150<0>1265<0>382<0>1579<0>324<0>1388<0>290<0>464<0>1277<0>1575<0>3299<0>679<0>3894<0>3143<0>1842<0>580<0>1240<0>1487<0>1777<0>229<0>1830<0>3377<0>1850<0>1630<0>2015<0>3946<0>1439<0>3157<0>2813<0>3296<0>2826<0>1598<0>2716<0>2684<0>2152<0>1094<0>1102<0>2465<0>858<0>858<0>988<0>347<0>382<0>1729<0>8... |
I failed. There's no, you can't jump around. You can't, you can't ignore the facts of what happened. I failed. I failed miserably. | <0>1230<0>1730<0>3388<0>3437<0>244<0>196<0>3377<0>3020<0>679<0>1777<0>1777<0>3840<0>1265<0>3787<0>3055<0>539<0>2875<0>3176<0>809<0>583<0>3585<0>78<0>746<0>2748<0>484<0>3377<0>1240<0>1777<0>1730<0>2838<0>1730<0>3668<0>2152<0>3437<0>826<0>3585<0>289<0>3750<0>729<0>809<0>361<0>819<0>1883<0>1518<0>521<0>2176<0>3370<0>3377<... |
I failed. I was tested and I failed. And... | <0>2799<0>3592<0>3413<0>3782<0>2299<0>1277<0>977<0>1667<0>4095<0>1335<0>1335<0>3762<0>1805<0>2813<0>492<0>3850<0>2883<0>3045<0>2710<0>1485<0>1277<0>1777<0>1857<0>2868<0>1388<0>3918<0>234<0>290<0>290<0>1108<0>3762<0>1108<0>1938<0>3910<0>3910<0>1295<0>3143<0>3299<0>196<0>3263<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>2... |
Now I have to figure out what to do with that. And that's part of it. | <0>684<0>1800<0>3356<0>3782<0>1882<0>3373<0>3732<0>1730<0>3741<0>3377<0>229<0>3528<0>2938<0>3526<0>1238<0>3299<0>2938<0>2873<0>3052<0>290<0>3762<0>365<0>3762<0>3762<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>4095<0>3762<0>1108<0>1544<0>1938<0>1238<0>2578<0>374<0>3850<0>1255<0>484<0>2517<0>2517<0>229<0>432<0>3097<0>3981<0>206... |
You know, and that's where I get so upset about, like, you know, the counselors or whatever, right? No, you didn't fail. No, no, no. Like, as soon as they say that to me, I'm done. I'm done. Cause no, I'm not gonna lie to myself. I failed and now I need to deal with it. I need to deal with it. You know, I can't lie. A... | <0>2435<0>1710<0>3404<0>1777<0>2497<0>1938<0>2641<0>3748<0>3275<0>4022<0>1871<0>2162<0>2152<0>1842<0>3235<0>1020<0>898<0>3968<0>1710<0>2525<0>3751<0>1777<0>147<0>3850<0>3791<0>3593<0>3798<0>2441<0>1777<0>244<0>3791<0>3655<0>3029<0>289<0>1675<0>1277<0>290<0>2187<0>3002<0>2748<0>898<0>279<0>2016<0>2471<0>1112<0>1304<0>32... |
How, how I feel about it and the situation is, it would be like, | <0>347<0>355<0>2703<0>1365<0>3150<0>3150<0>234<0>504<0>406<0>353<0>1202<0>2703<0>2799<0>144<0>898<0>2703<0>3370<0>3370<0>983<0>229<0>484<0>4029<0>632<0>2498<0>2152<0>2710<0>2710<0>3592<0>1819<0>3089<0>658<0>2099<0>237<0>2875<0>1485<0>2919<0>3635<0>497<0>497<0>497<0>634<0>3762<0>3762<0>3351<0>4048<0>1710<0>229<0>218<0>1... |
You inside of a house and your family's there. And the house catches on fire. | <0>4062<0>2875<0>2875<0>2563<0>3277<0>1365<0>561<0>598<0>3791<0>746<0>3813<0>1265<0>2881<0>2703<0>484<0>3943<0>824<0>2187<0>1307<0>2199<0>3773<0>1200<0>611<0>3968<0>3873<0>805<0>1759<0>3797<0>1108<0>4095<0>1108<0>4095<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>4095<0>4095<0>133<0>746<0>746<0>3447<0>652<0>3791<0>334<0>1200<0>397<0>2769<0>2... |
And you end up getting out. Thinking that maybe they're all out. And you can't get back in there and they all burn to death. | <0>3284<0>746<0>2875<0>698<0>746<0>838<0>2152<0>2813<0>294<0>1710<0>1915<0>838<0>691<0>1675<0>1748<0>276<0>1376<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>4095<0>3003<0>3003<0>838<0>3143<0>2152<0>2594<0>3798<0>2748<0>839<0>561<0>1526<0>3377<0>484<0>3150<0>3791<0>2883<0>1856<0>3973<0>789<0>1145<0>3762<0>3762<0>365<0>3762<0>37... |
That's kind of the equivalent of it. And, you know, so I just have to deal with it. And, and you know, I deal with it the best I can every day. I, I learn from it. I try to turn it into something good. | <0>3966<0>3447<0>1490<0>3437<0>898<0>3791<0>2875<0>2921<0>1675<0>3973<0>1675<0>1777<0>3299<0>3307<0>1012<0>290<0>1108<0>3466<0>3284<0>746<0>838<0>746<0>3894<0>1382<0>3257<0>2679<0>3478<0>3257<0>2870<0>3666<0>2051<0>2205<0>2205<0>1145<0>2051<0>1145<0>1335<0>2840<0>2152<0>374<0>3791<0>3791<0>2488<0>3593<0>3535<0>3447<0>3... |
But at the end of the day, I still failed. And... | <0>2676<0>3593<0>2152<0>2710<0>1710<0>2152<0>1339<0>1579<0>2060<0>3821<0>1710<0>361<0>3949<0>2410<0>3374<0>1717<0>2152<0>3180<0>3135<0>3413<0>484<0>2511<0>405<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>4095<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>1335<0>2398<0>3143<0>3910<0>1938<0>959<0>3114<0>602<0>3981<0>2068<0>2068<0>2068<0>... |
I had never told anybody about that night until it was published in the book. | <0>3246<0>2703<0>1022<0>3509<0>1882<0>1306<0>2799<0>3348<0>561<0>2594<0>2641<0>599<0>2703<0>3299<0>1111<0>866<0>1579<0>324<0>1618<0>611<0>1329<0>1329<0>3762<0>294<0>648<0>1730<0>2799<0>1238<0>1329<0>1335<0>1108<0>77<0>1442<0>2875<0>1480<0>1442<0>122<0>975<0>2353<0>3307<0>196<0>1442<0>3107<0>2396<0>3981<0>2068<0>2068<0>... |
I just, you know, I just felt like it was important to the story because I didn't want people to read the story. | <0>327<0>1442<0>196<0>280<0>919<0>2506<0>3438<0>3003<0>1108<0>3762<0>3447<0>1500<0>611<0>290<0>133<0>3055<0>151<0>294<0>3261<0>2675<0>290<0>1108<0>1036<0>1036<0>3173<0>744<0>1950<0>1950<0>948<0>2573<0>1163<0>3579<0>797<0>1710<0>2152<0>2799<0>382<0>3176<0>3637<0>3386<0>144<0>3016<0>809<0>2199<0>3447<0>2299<0>2769<0>679<... |
And then just think that it was all okay when I came home. I didn't want to give them that perspective and there's so many guys out there that write these books of the crazy shit that they do. But they never talk about what. | <0>414<0>2155<0>3668<0>919<0>3096<0>1880<0>3910<0>361<0>289<0>2475<0>3299<0>1442<0>2799<0>484<0>3898<0>1675<0>1617<0>3073<0>2864<0>1455<0>2578<0>1829<0>2497<0>611<0>1218<0>611<0>789<0>1145<0>1335<0>3003<0>3003<0>3003<0>77<0>3762<0>390<0>2645<0>1800<0>3359<0>611<0>3906<0>3389<0>1862<0>3299<0>361<0>2221<0>196<0>1941<0>33... |
People read that and they're like, holy shit, that's, that's crazy. | <0>1448<0>3585<0>1579<0>3972<0>2989<0>1730<0>1730<0>2185<0>3089<0>679<0>2594<0>2799<0>2940<0>3671<0>3943<0>866<0>3943<0>850<0>1166<0>1800<0>196<0>2387<0>3592<0>2459<0>85<0>424<0>1034<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>1108<0>2492<0>3447<0>860<0>1862<0>2536<0>2161<0>1377<0>493<0>3114... |
I could never do that because I deal with problems. And it's like... | <0>1108<0>3447<0>3143<0>3143<0>2748<0>1214<0>2716<0>382<0>1043<0>1277<0>2002<0>2769<0>2775<0>3377<0>648<0>3741<0>2324<0>2511<0>3837<0>2864<0>1039<0>2422<0>614<0>614<0>77<0>948<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>9<0>3762<0>3003<0>9<0>3003<0>2612<0>2831<0>3509<0>77<0>3223<0>1816<0>237<0>3003<0>3762<0>602<0>2068<0>2068<0>3981<... |
Yeah, we all do. And, you know, I had to put it into, I wanted people to know that I'm just a human. I'm no different than them. And I, I felt like that I couldn't put in the, the, if you want to call it good stuff, and not put in the bad stuff. | <0>3003<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>3762<0>1108<0>290<0>2875<0>614<0>2989<0>484<0>484<0>3386<0>77<0>294<0>3386<0>648<0>648<0>648<0>1145<0>1989<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>3097<0>1108<0>465<0>2199<0>2594<0>3143<0>361<0>493<0>3681<0>75<0>714<0>3296<0>2089<0>1950<0>3762<0>1108<0>75<0>148<0>... |
I always like to say that you know, sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere. And sometimes in the middle of nowhere you find yourself. And uh, you know. | <0>1805<0>1645<0>691<0>144<0>3593<0>2775<0>1587<0>3342<0>2030<0>1460<0>809<0>3821<0>3079<0>1967<0>1294<0>1448<0>1777<0>1575<0>1277<0>1667<0>234<0>3762<0>3762<0>1108<0>955<0>1301<0>770<0>2799<0>3447<0>1842<0>3413<0>1022<0>369<0>3861<0>1857<0>3413<0>1800<0>386<0>3155<0>855<0>484<0>484<0>3386<0>1510<0>1748<0>1108<0>4048<0... |
I uh, I mean I had no idea where my life was going. I made a deal with myself, you know. | <0>2106<0>2008<0>3621<0>1710<0>3552<0>3137<0>406<0>1277<0>1012<0>3973<0>4048<0>3003<0>133<0>3173<0>1197<0>3173<0>3466<0>2044<0>1862<0>2703<0>2875<0>327<0>366<0>2875<0>3741<0>2864<0>2864<0>3240<0>1518<0>1463<0>3052<0>3665<0>2324<0>2864<0>2864<0>1277<0>290<0>465<0>327<0>3299<0>1200<0>2129<0>2185<0>1944<0>484<0>3592<0>167... |
I had sat there and, uh, I had said, if I'm gonna keep living this life this way, rack, rack it back and get over with. | <0>3797<0>3447<0>1730<0>3417<0>809<0>3894<0>855<0>3377<0>1518<0>1862<0>611<0>3973<0>77<0>2594<0>561<0>3894<0>3373<0>2799<0>1738<0>789<0>977<0>290<0>1108<0>3003<0>3003<0>3003<0>3097<0>2867<0>3003<0>1108<0>3359<0>2703<0>2152<0>1355<0>374<0>3377<0>1463<0>1277<0>648<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>9<0>3762<0>3003<0>3762<0>3762<0>37... |
But I said if I ever put the car in drive, I'll never look back. And I sit there, I'm not gonna lie to you, I'd probably sit there for 5, 10 minutes. | <0>196<0>652<0>3447<0>3966<0>2129<0>1603<0>3413<0>3377<0>1238<0>1480<0>1231<0>3143<0>1973<0>2864<0>1265<0>1117<0>521<0>1777<0>3122<0>3180<0>3132<0>1981<0>122<0>2258<0>3973<0>1862<0>3339<0>745<0>3973<0>1108<0>1108<0>3003<0>3003<0>3003<0>3003<0>3973<0>3762<0>1172<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>1950<0>114<0>3762<0>1108<0>2099<0>3... |
I put it in drive and I just, I never look back, you know? I, I, you know, and it's, I'm lucky, I'm fortunate that the gun didn't go off, right? Uhm, but, | <0>1632<0>196<0>2799<0>3008<0>493<0>3509<0>1569<0>898<0>1862<0>324<0>2187<0>3114<0>2924<0>1805<0>366<0>648<0>3176<0>1771<0>3117<0>1862<0>361<0>3509<0>229<0>3528<0>3299<0>3299<0>2806<0>1862<0>77<0>2875<0>3894<0>327<0>3762<0>9<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>9<0>3003<0>3762<0>3003<0>3003<0>1108<0>1649<0>959<0>2998<0>2599<0>3018<0... |
You know? I think that, and that was for me, that was it. That was the rock bottom. And it, you know, it changed it. | <0>3003<0>3003<0>464<0>648<0>382<0>3404<0>327<0>3132<0>1285<0>1335<0>3003<0>1108<0>3762<0>1108<0>648<0>290<0>2663<0>175<0>3894<0>3176<0>2185<0>2594<0>361<0>1919<0>1532<0>3526<0>3351<0>1915<0>1516<0>2162<0>3868<0>701<0>4048<0>4095<0>4095<0>1108<0>1108<0>4095<0>289<0>3874<0>3910<0>691<0>2864<0>3750<0>2199<0>3404<0>1862<0... |
It's not worth it. I mean, it's not like, you know, I had to change. Honestly, I had to change the way that I looked at life. The only problem there was, was me. | <0>133<0>114<0>701<0>1185<0>703<0>2769<0>3413<0>1857<0>3898<0>521<0>374<0>2627<0>3176<0>1329<0>1502<0>1738<0>3894<0>2875<0>3176<0>2055<0>679<0>3150<0>898<0>898<0>3609<0>374<0>3585<0>1545<0>1383<0>1632<0>826<0>3176<0>2799<0>144<0>3447<0>3447<0>1318<0>3297<0>397<0>3741<0>386<0>1238<0>3417<0>1013<0>1632<0>1062<0>1145<0>18... |
You know, instead of just facing it and saying, hey, look, I want to fix this problem. I was blaming everybody else for my problems. And what I had to do was I had to say, you know, okay. | <0>77<0>746<0>1883<0>2799<0>468<0>838<0>3667<0>3457<0>2588<0>227<0>1365<0>3585<0>2855<0>1463<0>110<0>324<0>2978<0>838<0>553<0>2152<0>729<0>3691<0>1777<0>3377<0>1518<0>2748<0>3370<0>1944<0>3832<0>1715<0>2055<0>1620<0>1569<0>1675<0>484<0>234<0>196<0>3791<0>2641<0>3822<0>1328<0>196<0>3952<0>1306<0>484<0>3264<0>1830<0>611<... |
If, you know, if the things that I've seen were so bad, I've seen what freedom cost firsthand. That's what's got me there. | <0>2435<0>809<0>374<0>858<0>3540<0>3973<0>3762<0>3762<0>3762<0>2182<0>2525<0>3176<0>3585<0>2152<0>1007<0>4075<0>3946<0>2051<0>1950<0>3762<0>9<0>4048<0>1710<0>3822<0>2152<0>104<0>2870<0>3540<0>3268<0>955<0>465<0>122<0>3378<0>1842<0>1730<0>2799<0>2506<0>1693<0>746<0>3002<0>22<0>1710<0>382<0>361<0>2396<0>697<0>598<0>2522<... |
So if anything, I have more reason than anybody else on the face of this planet to go out and make the most of my life because I've seen it firsthand of what it cost. | <0>1437<0>3264<0>2543<0>147<0>2848<0>1171<0>553<0>3353<0>838<0>838<0>3347<0>3097<0>454<0>691<0>746<0>3447<0>652<0>1265<0>679<0>1238<0>895<0>1007<0>1518<0>327<0>553<0>1730<0>2978<0>361<0>2703<0>3968<0>2594<0>361<0>1675<0>809<0>839<0>3791<0>1545<0>3347<0>3837<0>3370<0>3585<0>3278<0>782<0>1211<0>3180<0>3377<0>3377<0>648<0... |
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