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Does anyone here experience tactile hallucinations? Whenever I am in a manic episode I experience tactile hallucinations, a lot. Typically it is just the feeling of having bugs crawling over me. Usually my legs. It is especially bad when it turns out I actually have a bug on me, just makes me even more paranoid that th... | 1 | [
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Eff the bees Nothing in particular against bees, I love all creatures from this earth. But if it’s your time it’s your time. If a species is gonna die off so what.
I understand bees are necessary to pollinate plants and all that jazz but I’m pretty sure Mother Nature is capable of keeping the balance since she’s been ... | 3 | [
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Constant Existential Thoughts I constantly think about death, not exactly wanting it but more curious about it. It's just so.. strange. You're there, then one day you're gone. Your life's over, like that. Who even knows what comes after? I half want there to be nothing, as I feel living forever would be a nightmare for... | 0 | [
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What do I do next? I’m 21, I’ve ruined my credit, most of my friendships & I never had a real relationship. I’m currently sitting in my room.... well actually my grandmothers room because of my recent eviction. My family has an extreme history of mental illness & alcohol abuse so it’s not cand land here, it’s d... | 4 | [
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Anonymous Verbalizing Life's weird. It's not like I try to hide my illness, but do people really notice?
It's getting worse. The urges and ideations are more disarming; even one or two will ruin my day, just like they used to. I feel violent. I have rape fantasies now. That's new as of the last few months, nice touch.... | 1 | [
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After looking at the few journals I’ve ever managed to keep I noticed that my handwriting differs depending on my mood Wondering if a handwriting expert would be able to tell they’re by the same hand | 1 | [
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I don't want this. * I don't want to be like this forever.
* I don't want to live with this well into my forties.
* I don't want to be like my mother who killed herself.
* I don't want to deal with rapid cycling.
* I don't want to feel like a broken person.
* I don't want to feel unlovable because I'm unpredictable.
* ... | 1 | [
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My Relationship. I have been dating this girl for close to 9 months now. The relationship has had its ups and downs. in the beginning of the relationship things were great. She was going to a college 40 minutes away from me so during the week we would talk and text on the phone, and on weekends we would hang out at her... | 3 | [
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I don't know what to do Im really struggling in life right now. I have no money and still in school. I have so much I need to pay for and I have no way to pay for it. I have a little saved up and i feel like if I keep running it'll be okay. But I know one day it won't be okay and that'll be the day I try to kill myself... | 0 | [
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Social Anxiety I have had Social Anxiety since I was 12... I have always have had periods where I feel like I am making progress (Having a Group of friends and maybe one or two close Friends) But it feels like a cycle because then for one reason or another either I self-sabotage or become too attached
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Latuda and food My psych recently switched me from Saphris to Latuda. I'm taking 20mg now, then increasing to 60mg and then 80mg. She said it has to be taken with at least 350 calories or it doesn't work. That's a substantial amount, almost a meal. I tried taking it with my dinner but it knocked me out less than an hou... | 1 | [
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This is what will happen when I kill myself This world is so funny... it really is..
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Depressive symptoms enhanced by even small amounts of marijuana and alcohol now. Hey guys, so just for some background- I'm a college student who is taking this semester off to make sorting out my mental health my number 1 priority before I decide to re-enroll into classes again. In high school I had tried Lexapro, Zol... | 4 | [
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I’ve been thinking a lot about suicide recently Things have been super hard for me lately. I’ve been thinking a lot about death and suicide, more than I ever have. I’ve been having detailed thoughts of suicide—how I would do it, where I would do it, what time of day I would do it, how people would react, IF people woul... | 4 | [
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I’m slowly giving up, and I think I’m very close to ending my life. [deleted] | 0 | [
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I feel totally trapped I should start by saying that I am on a lot of patient assistance programs.
Here's where my troubles kick in.
If I start making to much money, my meds become unafforadable, If I get health insurance, my meds become unaffordable, I can't afford much but i get the meds that keep me level
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Scared to Start Meds :( Hey all. I’ve been in therapy since age 6, Baker Acted at 15, sent to inpatient treatment at age 17, stayed for a year for self harm, depression, and substance abuse.
In inpatient they just said I needed to find god and quit smoking pot and life would be dandy. Then, the inpatient program took ... | 1 | [
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Why is dating and this social structure so fucking complicated? I was at a sleepover last night and all my friends were talking about was the girls they got laid with and girls shit. Even one guy who was just sophomore in HS was talking about how he had some experiences with girls. I am already a sophomore in college a... | 3 | [
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Advice for a friend Hi guys,
I’m not sure where to start to I’ll just go ahead. My close friend recently attempted suicide and he’s currently hospitalized and being monitored. He’s accepting visits so I’ll be seeing him soon. As someone with depression as well as anxiety, I know the place he’s in, and I know the feeli... | 4 | [
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Accept what I cannot change, over and over (cross-posted) I have been having an anxiety filled day, thinking about things that I honestly have no control over, thinking about the future, and trying my best to just stay in the moment. Something that has been helping me is to write, over and over, "Accept what I cannot c... | 1 | [
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Empty? I've already planned to leave college abroad and i have considered to take college back home, but strangely there is something deep inside me that will miss this place. I don't know what is it. I started here wanting to die and now i'm leaving after 6 months.
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Unable to make myself ask for help Hey r/depression.
I am in therapy (although very irregularly due to financial restrictions) and I have loving friends and family members yet I do not know how to ask for help.
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I'm so lost. I'm just looking for help but don't know where to start anymore. I'm a 31 year old guy and have struggled with mental health issues since childhood, i've been permanently on one or more anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds since my early teens and have had therapy (roughly) every other year during times i... | 0 | [
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My girlfriend has borderline personality disorder and just broke up with me for the 5th time in 3 months. I feel torn between loving her and wanting to give up. I've fallen for this girl so hard and am so in love with her, but our relationship is so difficult. On top of her BPD, we're both depressed and go to college t... | 3 | [
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Freezing with fear when I have to do something Hi,
do any of you have practical advice and methods on how to overcome fear? There are some things I have to do which, when I try to start them, cause me to have this intense freezing fear. In my case it can be opening various mail or even starting to read some book. It ... | 4 | [
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Made a rap song last night while I was in my feels [removed] | 4 | [
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will end this life soon it has been a wonderful many-many years with a lot of rollercoaster, the highs and the lows and yet she stick with me and the kids...
i was recently been released from a very traumatic depressing place, God's will...
and now in a new place with a relative, starting a new beginning, again...
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How I’ve learnt to accept and manage my anxiety I’ve sought therapy to treat my anxiety for the last 7 years or so. Most recently I saw a therapist who I resonated with and I felt helped put me on the path to helping me manage my anxiety, She prefaced the very first session with the notion that I will never truly be fr... | 2 | [
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I just exist Well, I think that I just fucked up my life. Spent full year doing almost nothing. I’m in a huge debts in my uni, still can’t get up from a bed and go there to start fixing my problems. Can’t do actually anything at all.
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What is the best way to commit suicide I'm tired of being alive and I just want to end my life, how do I do this swiftly. | 0 | [
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My mom hates me My mom has been placing us in some form of family therapy lately, because she thinks that we have some problems at home. I agree but not the kind that she thinks.
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My social anxiety is being mean to me today.. I don't know if anyone else does this, but I named my social anxiety Stacey.
Today Stacey made me feel like everyone was looking at me.
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My last stand After a series of recent failures and victories I decided that I'm going to try to fix my life for and not hit 10 years of wanting to kill myself. I will try my hardest for this next year to become happy and get friends and become a person worthy of the love I'm told(but don't believe) I have from my cowo... | 0 | [
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Don't have the strength to tell someone, don't have the will to go on anymore So...here's a lil backstory before I begin, so you understand where I am a bit better. Telling the internet is better than nothing I guess.
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Nothing seems to make me happy. From a purely objective standpoint, my life is better than it's ever been at the moment. I have great friends who share my hobbies (but unfortunately cannot relate to me in this issue), I haven't gone a day without food in years, I haven't been subject to any physical abuse or anything. ... | 4 | [
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work anxiety? or anxiety in general? hi all, i posted the same post on another group, and would wish to get more response, and i hope that since this group is more active, i could get more responses. thank you in advance to those who help me and responded to me:)
i am 17, and i am waiting for my academic results, and... | 2 | [
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Getting to school I really struggle with avoidance syndrome and skip school two days a week usually. Today I need to go to school since I have a concert at the end of the day that I can't play in unless I get to school. I want to play in the concert and I want to see my friends but I just can't get myself to open the d... | 2 | [
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I hate my life, I feel like shit because I’m stupid I guess. There’s this girl I am friends with. I told her I liked her a while ago. She said she doesn’t date. I got over it. But we hooked up like a few weeks ago. Sex to her doesn’t mean anything. She feels no attachment so sex is just sex. Last night we were hanging ... | 3 | [
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How do i ask for help? I don't want depression because I don't want to be labeled, I don't want people thinking less of me or feel bad for me, I just want to get rid of this thing. I've had the same sinking feeling for months and it never ends. I just feel constantly numb, any advice? | 4 | [
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suicide is my choice Everyone who stop to analyze life begin to write their own suicide letter.
Nothing makes sense | 0 | [
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i wanna kill myself but im too afraid i usually lurk and never post or do any activity but i have no one to go to, im so tired of all the crying, always being anxious and constantly feeling like shit and that im cursed and nothing will ever go my way, today my gf (1year) brokeup with me and blocked me everywhere right ... | 4 | [
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Why am I so insecure? There is this girl that shows obvious signs she likes me and I still can't believe it.I doubt she actually likes me.I think that even if she does I'm going to fuck it up anyway.I talked to friends and asked if thinking she could like me would be stupid and every single one said the exact opposite ... | 4 | [
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Give me a good reason to stay alive. I'm grasping at long gone straws here. My life has fallen into despair and I can't do anything right. If someone can give me a REAL reason to stay alive I would love to here it, and no it "doesn't get better" it never has and never will. | 4 | [
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what to do when you hate therapy but can't get better by yourself? I've delt with depression, anxiety, self harm, and suicidal thoughts for most of my life. I've been inpatient a few times, outpatient twice and attempted suicide twice. I've been seeing a therapist the past few months and have years ago when I was still... | 4 | [
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This podcast, "The Hilarious World of Depression," is the best thing I've found all week. This ep in particular. [removed] | 0 | [
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How do you know if you have depression? Hi everyone, 19 year old female here.
I'm a second semester freshman. I get along well with my roommates and am very friendly to everyone, but I haven't made many friends. I don't have the energy to explain why, but I have made an enormous effort and haven't yielded much result... | 4 | [
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dude fuck my life im fucked. I'm fucked I'm fucked I'm fucked. I dont know what to do. im over it mentally, but emotionally, the emotional discharge from whatever trauma I went through is still inside of me. its fucking lonely. the emotional block doesnt allow me to connect with people fully. it fucking sucks . I can't... | 3 | [
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Creatine users? So I'm newly diagnosed and a but intimidated posting on here so I figured I'd start with something small:
I've seen warnings more than once that creatine should be avoided for those with bipolar disorder; does anyone have any experience with this or know why it may be an issue?
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I cant find anything enjoyable .. drinking is good [deleted] | 4 | [
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Anxiety and work. How the f*ck do you do it? How do you handle the pressure with an anxiety disorder? The work load, the boss or manager tightening the screws or yelling at you? Worrying if you are doing a good job or if you are capable of even doing the job?
How do you handle this with anxiety? | 2 | [
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I️ feel like an awful person I️ feel absolutely terrible about this and I️ needed to get I️t off my chest. I️m an 18F, I’ve been with 2 guys sexually. The first guy was very tall, skinny and lanky. We dated for awhile so that was all I️ really knew. The second guy was also tall, but he was a little heavier and had a li... | 3 | [
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I just wrote a suicide note and tried to hang myself. My heart aches, literaly. It's so uncomfortable to feel something like this, both emotionally and physically. I just don't want to be back at that phase where I just have to live every day feeling this exact same thing, without knowing when it's gonna stop.
I was ... | 0 | [
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Out in the cold School, work, relationships... I've broken everything in the span of a few days. My soul is shattered. Only thing left is to grab a razor and let my hands do their work. I'll wait in my car overnight and see what happens, so I don't bleed on the carpets.
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can't get out of a bad habit I have dealt with anxiety and depression since I was 13 -- I'm 21 now. Since then, I've developed an unhealthy habit of peeling the skin off both of my thumbs. The skin heals, I see the dead skin messily try to form over the fresh skin, and I peel it off. Very recently, after getting used t... | 2 | [
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You owe me money It has been 3 weeks since you said you would give me the money you owe me. It may not be that much but I keep on giving you more time and what do you do, just leave me on read/open in the group chat when I ask you about it. Common man we both agreed for yesterday for you to give me the money and you di... | 3 | [
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Anyone up for a shower pact? Ive been sick and I look so gross and smell bad. I imagine there are others in need of a shower too! My body aches so Ill take a bath at some point with epsom salts for my all over body/bone aches.
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FUCKING FIREWORKS FUCKING PEOPLE. I hate humanity and want to die All these fucking people celebrating for no reason, setting off fireworks, and disturbing my life and depression. I hate other people. I am an outcast from society and everything about it pisses me off | 4 | [
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Dead Ocean
Loneliness.
That's what hurt the most.
Not the furious waves I dread to lash at my face
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Feeling too much too fast I know people talk about how depression saps you of the ability any emotion, and how it's like the emotional equivalent of watching paint dry or grass grow, but I don't see enough people talking about the depression days where you feel everything at once and it just gets too much. I'm having o... | 4 | [
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I don't think I can last much longer I'm going insane i just can't stop thinking of all the different ways I can kill myself. I can't stop thinking and there's only one way to stop thinking. I have to do it now. I can't hold back anymore I don't want to keep living. I'm sick of wanting to die every second of my conscio... | 0 | [
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I really can't stand my boyfriend's best friend They've been best friends for 6 years and my boyfriend and I have been dating for 3 so I have no bearing on their relationship (I wouldn't ever tell him to not be friends with someone anyway).
But this kid is just a poor influence , he's obnoxious , and he lies constantl... | 3 | [
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I passed out during my presentation. I made a fool out of myself and I'm a college student. I always screw up during presentations. I just feel scared when doing them | 2 | [
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Rant So here we go.
I've had many good phases and many bad phases. Currently going through a bad one.
I'm in college, doing something I love (computer science) but I'm struggling bad with productivity. Not only I can't study, but many times I can't even get myself to do the assignments the teachers send us. Heck, in ... | 2 | [
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Schrodinger’s Cancer I’m waiting for the results of a biopsy. Waiting is the fucking WORST, not knowing if it’s cancer or not. Going through all the reasons it could or couldn’t be, feeling ridiculous for being paranoid one minute, and convinced it I’m doomed the next.I just hate the fact that I don’t KNOW. | 3 | [
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How sad is it that i bought a teddy bear for myself. I bought a big one so it can hold me when i cry.
Edit: thank you everyone, i don't feel so alone now. I hope everyone having nice holiday <3 | 4 | [
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Struggling with low energy, mood, self harm, school, and gender identity I'm not doing well. I have days where I'm mostly fine but I've also been struggling with low mood and energy and nearly no motivation and I'm so behind with my school work. I started self harming again and I've been smoking a bit, only once or twi... | 1 | [
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I'm going to end it tonight! M/23 I have been in love with around 10 girls who all rejected me or didn't like me. I dated my 11 one which a had a big crush on, and we had a great date only to her rejected because she didn't like all the questions if where together. I can't live my life alone so it's better to end it. G... | 0 | [
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What the fuck is happening to me right now? I am very confused.
So last week I had a “normal” week in terms of bipolar swings, and on Friday, me and my therapist did some emdr work with some negative core beliefs and trauma related to them. It was really intense, but then this weekend I slept all weekend.
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New to anxiety, please advise Okay so this is a long story but please bear with me as I could use your help.
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Shit life I am 16 and have been playing an instrument for nearly 8 years and I feel like I have gotten nowhere in years. People tell me I am good but I can tell they’re lying. I’m not good at school, video games or anything. I am trying to look back at what I am good at and nothing seems to rise to the surface. I harm ... | 4 | [
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Advice needed: I'm so calm, i'm a bit worried Calm about just killing myself. The only thing stopping me is friends and family (of course), but i'm strangely just...over it.
I've had depression and GAD for years...should i check myself in..or...just log it in my journal an take enough valium to passssss out?
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Does anyone else tug or pull on their facial hair or hair? I'm constantly playing with, picking, combing and tugging on my beard hair. I used to do the same thing with my bangs before I started to bald (Yay shitty genetics). Do you guys do this to, or have you done it in the past? I'd really like to stop, since it make... | 1 | [
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Depressed and don’t have anyone to talk to about it It occurs to me that I’m desperately short of actual close friends at the moment. I’m definitely in a depressive episode and I have nobody to talk to about or through it.
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Monitoring moods on an app Hi everyone!
I wanted to know what apps or other similar things you are using to monitor your ups and downs. I have tried emood for a little bit but I just don’t think it’s capturing whats going on. I’d love to give another one a try or suggestions of how I can make the most out of them.
Tha... | 1 | [
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Has anyone actually ever really “gotten better”? I’ve been depressed my entire life. I think I was probably born depressed.
Does it ever. fucking. end?
I’ll go months being okay, and then months where I want to jump off a building. The older I get, the more exhausting it all is. The same circles I go through over a... | 4 | [
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I want to kill myself... To make my mother go insane. I used to believe I was a good person. Well, ok, not "good", but I knew there were worse people than me. Overall, I've never really been a good person. I am quite possibly the embodiment of all 7 of the deadly sins. I am fat, lazy as all hell, when i'm not treating ... | 0 | [
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