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A Letter to My Future Self: Self Love Dear (future) B,
This letter may be fragmented.
This letter may be short, or it may be long.
This letter may be emotional.
Most importantly, this letter is to show you that you can stay grounded despite the rush of emotions you experience when you feel vulnerable and [falsely... | self.depression |
I'm done I can't do this anymore. I don't have a plan but I don't have the will to live. See my post history if you want context, but tl;dr I made a huge mistake that cost me my only shot at being happy and now I have no reason to stick around.
So long, and thanks for all the bullshit. | self.SuicideWatch |
Having a lot of conflicting emotions Just a rant.
Today has been a strange day. But I guess it really all started a couple days ago. I have been in a bit of a hypomanic period for the last couple of days probably triggered by the date I ended up going on yesterday. Before going out my anxiety built up so much I was ge... | self.bipolar |
Im not useful I have no use, infact since I'm deaf my parents had to buy Cochlear Implants and upgrades for them. It just seems selfish of me to be costing my parents thousands of dollars when my dad is unemployed and my mom is losing her job in April. Nothing is going well so, I'm depressed and none of my friends take... | self.SuicideWatch |
does anyone else find that they need to constantly have on headphones? I use headphones to retreat into myself at work and like create a bubble, but these days I also need them constantly at home because of my noise anxiety. I'm also afraid of my neighbors so every little noise they make makes my gut wrench and my anxi... | self.Anxiety |
Suffering from "L'appel du vide". (The call of the void). Hello everyone!
I'm creating this thread because I really need help with my problem.
I'm suffering from what we call "L'appel du vide". Examples for this disorder: make a sudden 90 degree turn while driving, jumping off a cliff. We can also call that Suicida... | self.Anxiety |
Losing sleep I seem to have put myself in a pickle.
It's hard for me to get to sleep at night, so I usually fall asleep around 3-5 am, even if I'm in bed by 7 pm. When I finally fall asleep, nothing can wake me up before I'm ready, which is usually around 9 am. I've been this way my whole life, and it's always taken ... | self.Anxiety |
Really bad social anxiety triggering auditory Hallucinations? I only ever get auditory hallucinations when my anxiety is triggered by another person. I've had periods where I've done something wrong and can hear my dad screaming about it, even though he was asleep or not home. I've woken up to the sounds of my parents ... | self.Anxiety |
My crazy is starting to shine through My friend didn't answer my message yesterday, so my brain started working overtime. I wrote some weird, needy messages, which of course made it worse. And now I've been laying awake in bed for 4 hours analyzing every single interaction for the past month. Did I say or do something?... | self.Anxiety |
insane panic attacks today i thought i was going mad | self.Anxiety |
I rather die than to go to school tomorrow I can't escape school forever, and run away from my commitments forever. Why not just end it all with a simple jump into the waters?
I tried overdosing once, and I failed.
Drowning is a more sure method of going. | self.SuicideWatch |
Short man in need of help Alright so I'm super drunk right now and I'm feeling very depressed and I just need to vent. I've really been working hard to overcome the symptoms of my depression. I just celebrated one year in therapy but I kind of had a crappy night and I just need to let it out somewhere.
I'm a month awa... | self.depression |
My moods in the past week have ranged from suicidal to delighted [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I have so much energy I'm on the verge of tears I don't think my medication is working anymore. The dose has been upped and upped and now I'm at the max and I'm still sitting here feeling like I'm on speed. I get little blips of feeling normal and fine here and there but then it ends and I feel even more out of control... | self.bipolar |
My boyfriend loves me, but it's not enough. Honestly, he's the only person who'd care. I've been suicidal since I was 10, and almost succeeded at 16 when released from residential treatment(and sent back until I was 18). Honestly it's the only reason why I lived until adulthood, I had staff on me 24 7, belts and other ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Food and med reactions? I don't know if this is psychosomatic or now, but I *thought* I noticed a real down tick in my mood when I was eating heavy amounts of dairy each morning (greek yogurt and milk in overnight oats). I've since switched back to eating spinach quiche in the mornings with a tiny amount of cheese for ... | self.bipolar |
I think my relationship might be over. So my boyfriend and I have been together for about 15months officially, there was an unofficial month before that and some other messier months before that.
Most of the time everything is perfect, like dream guy, future planned out perfect. But whenever we have a fight, it feels ... | self.offmychest |
Thanks for nothing I thought this was supposed to be a place for support and all the times I've posted very few people offer support. Thanks for showing me that the world and universe doesn't give a shit about me. I've already got a plan that I want to commit to so maybe this is what that sign is. No one cares about me... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling better on Prozac Hey you guys.
I had made a post here a few weeks ago. I finally decided to go to my doctor and ask about a prescription. She gave me a months worth of 10mg Prozac to try and see how things went.
I don't know if this is a placebo effect or something of me being really hopeful these will work;... | self.Anxiety |
I'm alone for the first time, I'm miserable, I want to give up I'm a 20 y/o female.
I moved in with my friends a few months ago. It was my first time moving out. I moved out of state, to a place I only knew them and my boyfriend.
They moved into a bigger house and got a new roommate, because "Your boyfriend can move i... | self.depression |
Does anyone else feel this way too? So I'm not sure if this is a form of anxiety or what you would call it but I find myself obsessed with time. I can't do things if I feel like I don't have a considerable amount of time for that task; for example I just graduated from culinary school and I work part time and I would ... | self.Anxiety |
snapped at my bestfriend So yesterday I was out and my friend and I had been drinking a little and she asked me if I thought I was "placeboing" my bp now that I know about it.(meaning making the symptoms worse now that I've been diagnosed) I didn't react much in the moment but I couldn't get it off my mind and I yelled... | self.bipolar |
is it okay to not be a people person? [deleted] | self.depression |
How does therapy for a specific phobia that could actually be a real danger work? Like, being afraid of driving, or dogs...I can understand exposure therapy for something like spiders, most species can't actually hurt you, or heights, or something, where you can learn that the thing isn't really dangerous...but cars DO... | self.Anxiety |
Cant do it The only way I will matter to anyone in life is if I die. And even then it will only be for a day or so. I don’t have a reason to continue living. I don’t want to die, but I need to kill myself. | self.depression |
My doctor sucks and her office won’t let me change to a new psychiatrist... [LONG, sorry] Last time I went in to see my psychiatrist, Dr. B, I had an appointment at 10:00 am. I arrived there at 9:45. I had to leave for a 4-hour trip to pick up something I was buying from Craigslist and I had to be there before 3:00 pm ... | self.Anxiety |
I kinda want to sell everything and move Not a manic decision, I'm type II and hover around a mild depression.
Anyone tried selling everything and starting over in a new place? How'd it work out?
| self.bipolar |
SSRI induced bipolar disorder Hi,
I was given the diagnosis of Bipolar II Disorder, due to a SSRI I was taking. My Psychatrist believes that my recent hypo manic episode was due to the medication that I was taking. I have had symptoms of Bipolar Disorder before but I did not know how to describe what I was experiencing... | self.bipolar |
The "cool kids" in college are jerks. I'm a normal guy just doing his own thing - usually doing my own work alone and hanging out with friends from different faculties.
The cool kids come into campus and as if by magic be revered like god. And I feel that it gives them a huge ego boost and hence they stay exclusive an... | self.offmychest |
What's the best way to kill myself? Preferably not too gruesome for whoever finds my dead body, not excruciatingly painful either and has to be legal ( I live in the UK so guns not an option and I'm 14 so I can't buy sleeping pills or other otc pills) I know the method I'm looking for pretty much doesn't exist but anyo... | self.depression |
My friend tried to kill herself & I wasn't there [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Severe depression Man. I just want to run away from my severe depression but I can't. I can't even get comfort in the day for even one second. I can never be comfortable and can never have any joy, happiness, or desire to do anything. Anyone else like this? | self.depression |
When anxiety kicks in at night Hey folks!
I just broke up with my gf of 6 years, 3 months ago. As you can imagine, it's been a rough ride. One thing I noticed the week after the break up, particularly at nights, was that my heartbeat would accelerate and feel like the world was closing in. After talking to my doctor a... | self.Anxiety |
I got knocked down, I'm not entirely sure if I want to get back up again... We're drowning in debt. I've been out of work more than I've been in it the last 15 months. Apart from a brief 2.5 week period of wedding day and honeymoon I don't remember the last time I was happy.
I put out applications for all kinds of job... | self.SuicideWatch |
Stuck on the couch ready to give up Stuck on an awful couch at my friends house that I'm paying thru the nose to sleep on(relatively, they charged 200 for this month and 400 usd for next month) I have no energy anymore and I'm always in pain. I cant even buy a bed for this place they just have this awful couch. I can't... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm tired of going to school and work, just so i can numb the pain on the weekend. [deleted] | self.depression |
things r going kinda bad again last time i felt like this was on the 10th of september. i usually enjoy reading and watching series but these past days have been hella hard; i just feel like hopeless and unconfident with myself in everything i do o every place i go.
my best friend tries to avoid this feeling of lonelin... | self.depression |
Please help, I'd appreciate the advice Hi...so uh this is a throwaway but I'll get to the point. Im a final year mechanical engineering student and ive been having frequent panic attacks over the past week. The reason is I have no idea what to do now. I'm done with my degree and I don't know what I want to specialise i... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why not me? You tell me not to feel like a failure, but yet I wasn't on your list. If you could and needed to come back to the states, wht not come to me? It's because I'm doing poorly, and you don't even know the details. You tell me not to look too far forward but that's not how I've managed this long. I need a thoug... | self.offmychest |
Your beautiful face To my wife...
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Your beautiful face,
I breathe in memories of the smile you once had for me and it fills my lungs with hope.
Hope carried by my blood through my veins and into my soul.
Like a bat I send out my signal,
“I love you…”
I await its return, the echo that navigates me thro... | self.depression |
The Story of My First. So much has happened to me over the last two weeks.
I went from a generally unhappy, friendless (okay, very few friends) virgin to a content, normal 18-year-old with a normal girlfriend, and a normal relationship. I never knew what I was missing, holding hands is *SO* great!
We had the same cla... | self.offmychest |
Suicide Isn't My Only Hope, It's Just... There? All my life, I've thought of how bullshit the stress of life is when compared to the simplicity of a poetic death. If I ever get in over my head, who's to say I shouldn't write a beautiful memoir and try to put myself down as calmly as possible? I'm even starting to lose ... | self.SuicideWatch |
They tell you to "stay busy" so that you delusion yourself from how pointless life truly is.
They tell you to "be selfish" because people are no longer about us, but rather I.
They tell you to "love yourself" because our world no longer has love for each other. | self.depression |
I am sad today I don't talk that much to anyone, it's been a month since my last proper conversation. This week and the last I have done nothing but sit in silence, and I know it makes the others awkward so I try to stay away from them. Today one of them asked if I hated her because I don't speak anymore, I felt very s... | self.SuicideWatch |
Growing up with Alcoholic mother My mom has been a heavy alcoholic since I was about 10 years old. I'm now about to turn 18, and she still drinks that straight vodka. Over the course of the last 8 years I have been very emotionally abused with some physical altercations as well. She's been in rehab several times, in an... | self.depression |
I'm so alone I don't know what to do with myself. I go from extreme anxiety to nothingness. Like, I don't know what the point is. I don't want to die because I'm scared of dying but I don't particularly want to live either. | self.SuicideWatch |
Even my parents forgot me on Christmas 30s here, spending another Christmas alone.
The cherry on top: not one but BOTH of my parents (they’re divorced) haven’t sent me a gift before post offices close for Christmas.
I know I’m a little old to want “presents,” but the time it would have taken to get a gift or card to ... | self.depression |
I want, need help, but the ones I believe are there for me invalidate every feeling. [deleted] | self.depression |
The weight of the world is back again I was shifting through mania and hypomania for pretty much all of October and November— I was so unstoppable I enrolled in 4 college courses for next semester, even though I literally dropped out of all three of my courses last semester because it was too much. I have to find a new... | self.bipolar |
All I ever wanted All I ever wanted was to be happy. Just a couple people in my llife who love me. Just to be a little less lonely and share a quiet private life with people who feel glad to be near me. Instead I have nothing and noone. And crippling loneliness, sadness, fear and insecurity. I deserve to be dead becaus... | self.SuicideWatch |
Man up Man up, suicide is selfish, god gave you a purpose. All the reasons I should live according to my parents.
They also say everyone feels this way, and I should just get out of the house. | self.depression |
I'm so depressed/anxious I'm pulling my hair out. It's been a problem for about 5 years now, getting worse. I'm literally pulling out my hair so frequently that I'm starting to get bald spots that are getting difficult to hide, to the point where I have to wear my hair in a ponytail 100% of the time now. I do it withou... | self.depression |
Spiraling out of control.. this is LONG, sorry in advance. [deleted] | self.depression |
explaining Anxiety Disorders to others I got diagnosed with GAD and Panic Disorder in 2011. I've gotten used to a lot of the things people say, and I frequently say "I know I have nothing to be anxious about; that's why it's a disorder," and "My brain just doesn't function the way most people's do."
Obviously, there a... | self.Anxiety |
What even is my life Thanks to this disorder and other things I've been jobless for the past three years. I'm 23 now and still living with my parents. I haven't made any progress in my life during that time.
Every time I've been about to get an interview, depression decides to kick in and I cease to function, ruining ... | self.bipolar |
I don't even know what a "good" life would look like. There's really nothing I want to do or achieve. Every part of this existence is dull and boring. | self.depression |
Those of you that have been hospitalized for your mental health, can you go WAY out of state for residential mental health care? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Someone in Portland needs help. It's far for me. Is there any way anyone else can help? They just want to talk to someone in person for a little bit. And if you meet them, you could potentially get them into a care center. I know it's a long shot, but I'm really sick so while I'm willing to make the drive if anyone els... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm a burden. There are three people I would feel bad leaving behind: my boss (I am her only employee), my boyfriend, and my niece. But the truth is, there is someone out there who can do my job better than me, someone who would hurt my boyfriend less than me, and one day my niece will resent me as much as the rest of ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How to stop wanting to end my only real friendship? Hi,
I pretty much have only one friend. He was persistent in keeping me company when I confided in him about my depression at the start of uni, so we got to know each other - but I know this is only because he made the effort. We lived together in second year, and I ... | self.depression |
Wall of Anxious. Need New Brain. Brain With Happy. I have dealt with anxiety disorder for as long as I remember and have some coping skillz, but lately it’s been kicking my ass.
My adult child (in college and living with me) has a degenerative disease that causes chronic pain and discomfort, which in turn causes depr... | self.Anxiety |
Who here shakes their leg when they're nervous? I used to do it all the time in school. I've just recently started doing it again and it's annoying. I'm constantly worrying somebody will see me and ask if something is wrong. | self.Anxiety |
i hate Spam/Robo Calls I just need to complain about how much I hate randomized spam/robo calls, especially now that these calls spoof coming across as a local number.
Hearing a phone ring always makes me anxious. However, I need to have the ringtone on for phone calls in case it's work or a family member (I have old... | self.Anxiety |
It's so hard to get out of bed. I've spent 4 hours lying on the bed this afternoon. It's so hard to convince yourself because there's nothing to look forward to, nobody to talk to and you cannot find the reason for self-care. It's easier to stay in bed and struggle about things like self-hatred, sexuality, all the type... | self.depression |
Does anyone else make post after post and then get nervous and go back and delete them? I second guess myself and think I said something stupid all the time. I have a pretty largempost history for only being here two months, but honestly it would be two or three times what it is if I didn't get crippling anxiety every ... | self.Anxiety |
Irritable for months: is it SSNRIs? (Xpost r/bipolar) (And why do I need to turn to the internet instead of my doctor?)
I took cymbalta for two months, now Effexor for a week. I've been irritable and on edge constantly. My SO even brought it up, which isn't normal.
Anyone else deal with this? Was it related to SSNRIs... | self.bipolar |
I feel like I am an annoyance or an obligation to those who care about me Sooooooooooooooooo one of my friends just got engaged, another one is working really hard and building connections to get into medical school, and another one of my friends started spending all his time with some friends after they won an enginee... | self.depression |
Lost I’m a 25 year old female and I’ve been with my wife for six years now. Everything was going great and there seemed to not be a problem in the world.
In April of 2016, I lost my Dad unexpectedly after talking to him only an hour prior. We lived together, the three of us. We were the best of friends and we did eve... | self.SuicideWatch |
anxiety and gassy stomach, any tips to relief? ok I noticed when I get my anxiety episodes, my stomach gets really puffy, and I start to feel my heartbeat because of this. Has anyone found any natural ways to find relief from this, maybe do DGL tablets work o rosmething? Ive been using chamomille tea, and it does help ... | self.Anxiety |
To the stranger I met on a plane and fell in love with, but let go of My business trip started as usual. Boring, dull, and slow.
You sat next to me, and we started talking like any two strangers would. Silly, irrelevant small talk.
We quickly moved on to talking about ourselves, our feelings and fears. It seemed unimpo... | self.offmychest |
I am not any good at this, but it always helps when I write my thoughts on a paper [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Some thoughts on my life I have a lot that I want to get off my chest, and don't really know who to talk to so here I am. I'm a 22 year old male in college and I really feel like I just don't belong. Not just here, but anywhere really. I mean, there are some people who I would call friends, but no one that I feel extre... | self.depression |
Advice from people who were able to make it through a tough day Hi. Hoping someone could give me some pointers they have done to keep themselves from falling off the edge.
I have found if I can get through two or three very rough days I am fine till the next bout.
I’m on medication - so that is covered but would real... | self.depression |
Saw a post about taking medical leave Can I keep my job if I explain I need time off for bipolar-related issues? I'm having a symptom I don't want and probably should stay indoors. Is there another option? I don't think residential treatment will work (when my environment/routine changes drastically, I become episodic,... | self.bipolar |
What's a safe anxiety medication though helpful in giving energy plus keeping you calm? | self.Anxiety |
I am suicidal. In August 2011, I was driving with my mother from our flat in northern England to move to a villa in southern Spain. An hour after we drove off the ferry in Dunkirk, we had a head on collision with a van doing 70mph. Ever since that event, I've been having recurring nightmares. I've also been suffering f... | self.offmychest |
Negative thoughts that I can't vocalize Anytime I try to vocalize my negative thoughts, they don't make sense. I can't make a full sentence out of them or convey those thoughts into a sentence. So basically, the thoughts aren't true, they just seem negative in my head.
But then I get frustrated because I can't speak ... | self.depression |
Been thinking about it more and more. I posted recently about my relationship situation and how that has led me to a deep depression. I've thought about suicide in the past but never seriously. I've always felt that I don't want to leave the people I care about with my pain. I'm starting to feel differently. I'm starti... | self.SuicideWatch |
Shame: thoughts on letting your family love you when you can't [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Please tell me it can get better Please tell me I can fix this. I can genuinely smile again one day. I can feel things and even get excited about things like I did as a kid. I can wake up focused and motivated for the day instead of wishing I had died in my sleep. I can enjoy being around and talking to people. I can b... | self.depression |
Somehow I still feel lonely. Several years ago I knew exactly why I felt lonely. It was because I was alone. Simple right? My last friend had gotten sick of me and we stopped talking. I can't really blame him, I was depressed as hell, confused, desperate, and lashing out at everyone. But regardless of that, at that poi... | self.depression |
Vegan Parents I'm sick of vegan parents acting like their young child is just some enlightened being and they hate treats and candy and only like avocados.
No. Your kids don't know what it is or have barely been exposed to it. I watch a VLOG channel and the kids were not celebrating halloween because "they didn't wa... | self.offmychest |
I was sent fucked up shit I’m a mid teen gay guy (16) who tries to use the internet to meet people, but obviously I am too young to use grindr or any dating app. So I was suggested kik messenger by a friend, and searched up a public group of gay teens in my area.
All was good, I spoke to some guys online, and althoug... | self.offmychest |
I Don't Know What to Do I'm completely fucking up college- and I know that sounds trivial, but I expect a lot from myself education-wise and the feeling that it's slipping away from me is unbearable.
My attendance is 58% and I've been there for about 8 weeks. That means I've missed a month already. And I know that peo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im moving out and i feel very nervous Im 30 years old and I have lived my whole life with my mother. Tomorrow I move out to my new house with my G/C and I feel very nervous. This feeling just started a few days ago the close the day was approaching and im not sure if its because of this new change in my life or because... | self.Anxiety |
I can't win for losing. i know what that means.Anybody afraid of their work phone, make eye contact? [deleted] | self.depression |
I dont hate anyone or anything I've got to the point where I've learnt that everyone is an individual with stories and character. I can't justify thinking shit about them because of it. I don't hate seeing happy people anymore, I don't hate every minute thing about how people carry themselves or do things anymore.
It... | self.SuicideWatch |
Any advice on getting out of a slump? I'm not sure if I am depressed or not, but I have been not going to class for the past two weeks due to social anxiety and being tired all of the time (have been sleeping more than usual too). I'm not sure if it was my break up that happened 2 months ago or if I just don't have any... | self.depression |
Why are you depressed? I'm depressed because I'm attracted to women, but women aren't attracted to me even though I'm thinking non-stop about women and what I can do to improve myself, nothing works, I am ugly and I am a failure. | self.depression |
Adderall is my only happiness. Im depressed. I was diagnosed with ADD in my early teens. I dont feel like my problem is ADD. I used to be happy. I had friends as a kid. Then life just got bad starting middle school. I got depressed. I hung out with bad influences. Dropped my good friends, and became an asshole to a lot... | self.depression |
I am one of you and I want to share something with my kind that has helped I was bullied a lot in school for many years since a young age and it has left me with depression and anxiety into my adult life. This week I was reading an article from artofmanliness.com and this excerpt has changed my entire outlook of life. ... | self.depression |
Feeling Hopeless I'm 18 y/o and a senior in highschool and I feel like I alright f-ed up in life already. I don't have any real friends they more like aquinctances never had a girlfriend ( I was too nervous or clueless to get one) people already don't like me for supporting trump. To top everything off I don't even kno... | self.depression |
Everything happening around me has been taking a toll on my health. My immune system isn’t what it used to be and my mental health is deteriorating. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My mom had Alzheimer's for the last 15 years. She just died last week, and I'm kind of fucked up about it. Context: I'm in my mid 40s.
I'm not sleeping well, and I'm moody and irritable. Mildly so, but it's still weird. I've been grieving for 15 years, and she hasn't been in the real world at all for the past 10. For ... | self.offmychest |
Why is it so hard to talk to my SO about this? We've been together for over 10 years, we were best friends when I got diagnosed, they've been with me through my multitude of inpatient stays. He stood by my side and didn't judge me through both of my suicide attempts, stayed with me until the ambulance got there.
But w... | self.bipolar |
Keep the Hope Sometimes it takes a whole lot of waiting, to realize you should have already left. But the waiting, that’s the part that builds up a man as he treads lightly, trying not to burn the bridges he sees himself escaping across. Because it’s those days spent staring at a hair clasp that gets lost in her locks.... | self.offmychest |
im actually going insane i cant take it anymore, loneliness is a fucking bitch. I'm left alone in my thoughts every fucking day, overthinking every bad memory in my life | self.depression |
im going to commit suicide theres nohing for me to live for anymore,it all seems pointless,im just laying here listening to sade album on youtube,i have anough sleeping pills to just overdose,although her music is very relaxing,im 24 years old,i was thinking of just overdosing while listening to her music,and pass away... | self.depression |
Does meditation work!? I've been looking and researching into meditation to help with the my anxiety where do I start, does anyone have and guides on how to meditate or anything like that as I have no idea how to get started thanks a lot | self.Anxiety |
Cannot talk to my parents, but am 18. What is the best way to go about getting on antidepressants? I gave up all the weed and alcohol that I was doing last semester, but it was the only thing that helped. I feel like I have no one at all. I ruin everything and every friendship i have. If I don't get on something that t... | self.depression |
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