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Decided to leave my anxiety-inducing housing situation I've been living with an inconsiderate roommate for 6 months now and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of dreading going home because I know I'll see him, I'm tired of being told what to do in my own house, I'm tired of walking out of my room to a huge party I was never t...
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Little Improvements I went to my therapist yesterday and admitted I haven't been sleeping properly for the past month. I'm still really new with cognitive behavioral therapy but I finally tackled the hypomanic block and got 8 hours of sleep last night. I'm just really proud and wanted to share with someone
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Vistaril (hydroxyzine pamoate), 25 mg. So this is one of the medications that my pdoc prescribed me, on an as-needed basis, for my anxiety. Took it for the first time this afternoon, and HOLY SHIT. I'm relaxed. I'm happy. I'm not tense, I feel OK, I feel like I can make plans and arrange a timetable without stressing ...
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Stuck I've never posted anything like this before, but I'm at a breaking point and I have nobody else to turn to. I'm pretty young still, I'm always told I have my whole life ahead of me, but I don't see it that way. I feel stuck. There's so much I want to do, I want to be known in history and everything, I want to l...
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Happy new year 2018 will be the best of my life because I'll be dead. My new years resolution is to be dead 24 hours into 2018. I've spent the last few days with my family on a trip, the weather has been beautiful, I love my ma and pa. I love my boyfriend, but I guess he's right 2018 will be the same shit for us. Th...
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Whenever I have free time to work on my business i feel terrible - is this anxiety? I wish to start an online business. I have no problem watching videos about the subject, reading books or theorycrafting on how to do it. But. Whenever comes time to take a step, to do something practical (buy a domain name, write an...
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Does seeing your diagnoses in writing make it feel more real for you? I got a copy of the paper submitted to my insurance for psych testing. [It lists all of my DX's and has my primary down as bipolar or schizoaffective.](https://imgur.com/a/ahlFV) The codes at the top are for PTSD and Bipolar II. I forget which is...
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DAE ever had a friend group that actually hated you the entire time? I met a few people online last year who I thought I could talk to about my feelings. They were nice to my face about it, but they were passing around private things I said to their friends along with pictures of me, my location, and my full name. They...
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Fears of being drugged Two days ago was Halloween. And as such people give out candy,so one of my neighbors gave me some candy yesterday and I happily ate it. Immediately then I got scared that someone put drugs in the candy. The reason I guess I got scared of this was because many people like to hype up the fears that...
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I'm sorry but I don't know where else to go with this but, I just found out that my dad is cheating on my mom, for the nth time. I've known for awhile (3 months) but did nothing until, my mom found out and now I'm feeling guilty. My dad has had a long history of cheating on my mom, every time though he always denies it...
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How do I self-harm without drawing blood? I feel the most intense urges to inflict pain on myself but drawing blood freaks me out. I like the feeling of soreness so I want to inflict bruises but I don't know how. I've thought about starving myself a few times but that feeling always fades away anyway. How do I hurt mys...
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Favorite music to listen to when you're having a breakdown? [removed]
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I'm sick of living. It genuinely feels like my only option to solve all of my problems is death. I'm so fucked in the head. I'm such a waste of space and everyones time. I feel like everything that I do wrong is almost always my fault and I am powerless to fix it because I'm so pathetic and weak. Life is not a gift. It...
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Everything feels so hopeless. I can't live like this, I constantly feel tired and sad, and life just feels like a dark abyss, and every time I wake up I think about how every bit of joy is gonna end, everything is going to end eventually, so why even try? What's the point of trying if everything is just temporary? I go...
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I'm not used to things going well and I'm scared. I've had positive things happen but they never ultimately end up that way. Something positive happens and then something else happens to negate it or just makes my situation worse than it previously was in the end. I'm extremely cautious, which I think is a good thing t...
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When I lie in bed, I look forward to living in the dream world inside of my head. There, I am the person I’ve always wanted to be. I’m loved, safe, and happy. But when morning comes and I wake up, reality sinks in like a brick. My youth is gone and I’m still a failure, and I wish I never woke up. I have tried so hard t...
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Killing myself in the next 30 days What’s the point in being alive, I was never meant for this world. It’s natural selection defective pieces of shit like me get picked out. I’m gonna die anyway why not speed up the process. I hate life not just my life but this whole experience, I’m unable to cope porn and masturbati...
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My mom just lost her job. After only less than a year, her superiors decided to shut down the business. So now it's my dad only again, paid really really bad, because his job as a mechanic is sometimes very lucrative and other times people seem to have forgotten what it's like to have a car. I feel like a burden even t...
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I’ve almost made it to 22! Last year at this time I was debating overdosing on my medicine. I was so lost and I thought I’d never make it through it. But I made it! If you need to hear this just remember you can do it, you’re worth it, and I believe in you!
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I don't know what to do I want to die. I have had depression for several years now. It has ruined my life. My partner of 3 years has left me as I couldn't cope with our newborn. I was already low after withdrawing from work several months from before he was born. I just feel empty whenever I struggled I just shutdown a...
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When the hate of racism becomes racism There is an African American man at work (I am white) who, when I met him, was very against racism and proud of his race in a very honorable way. Over the last few months, however, he has become very open about his hate towards white people. Additionally, when bad things happen, h...
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Bipolar Survival Kit What's one item you use that you couldn't live without? I thought it might be fun to share and maybe we can help each other. I have a pair of amber wrap around sunglasses that I wear when I'm having trouble unwinding at night or I'm swinging up. They block blue light and help you relax and sleep. ...
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The past two weeks It's just gone downhill. From the car accident, to the dog injury, to something I didn't think was that important, to turning 30, to being alone, to bad health, to the police showing up at my house, to panic attacks at the doctor when you were going in for a derma issue, to feeling guilty for playing...
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Nobody Want's to Stay When You're Severely Mentally Ill I've lost almost everyone in my life because of my bipolar disorder. Does it ever end?
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Do you choose your antidepressant? Forgive me if I sound extremely stupid but I've finally convinced myself after years of ignoring my depression to go see a doctor. I'm confused as to how the process works if a person does get prescribed medication. I know there are tons of different kinds of medication so how does th...
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Let's talk about my ex Long post, sorrynotsorry. I was going to post in here earlier- my job wants me to call a help line for my anxiety- I've had some family problems and it's affecting my job performance and self confidence. Talking to people in depth about my anxiety gives me more anxiety (because fml) so I though...
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Dragon Ball Super made fun of you. Shut the fuck up Reddit. (nt)
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Im always sad but i cant cry anymore Life is so tiring and everything makes me so sad but I can't cry about it. I just sit there and give up, at least crying was a good release. Now I just sit in numbness
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I need my meds adjusted I can’t stop thinking about killing myself. I’ve started self harming again. I just want to bleed out. I’m going to if I fuck up and I’m not even scared of it. I want it. So bad. I need it. I wish I could. I’m a fucking chicken though. Needy. Whiny. I need to die. I need to. And I don’t know wha...
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Not having suicide as an option is almost worse than being actively suicidal [deleted]
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The Tao of Bipolar Maintenance Yesterday I had my regular appointment with my psychiatrist(s), and it was my first appointment with a newly assigned resident (student). She already knew that I’d not exactly been baseline for a little over a month. I’d been somewhat hypomanic, but we didn’t find it alarming, and they ...
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My daughter (21) was just prescribed Zoloft. Her main symptom is anxiety constantly and at the moment mania. Anyone with any experience with this drug?
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What would my boyfriend and twin sister think I've been trying to convince myself that I'm getting better, but it's all a lie. All I ever think about is ending it and cutting myself just to alleviate the pressure. My life is going nowhere. I got kicked out of college this year, and now I'm in a CC and have a solid job,...
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My college is keeping tabs on me and it's making me anxious... I'm a business student at a local college. Last semester I found out, that one of my classmates or professors had anonymously reported me to the school for strange behavior of some kind (my meds give me hypoglycemia which can make me slur words or seem tir...
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Anyone else feel stuck I can't describe the feeling. It's like I don't want to do anything. I don't want to get a job. I don't want to get up in the morning. I have no energy. I have no goals. I don't even care about anything. It's like I'm floating and I'm getting absolutely no where. I just don't care. And lately, I'...
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When I was younger, I figured that things would make more sense as I got older. They haven't. I'm approaching 28 and I think I've hit my lowest point of the last five years. I've had my issues for as long as I can remember. Particularly after my dad died in my early teens. Things just never really made a whole lot of s...
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Panic attacks where you don't feel actual panic? Hi all: Obviously, I'm not really a user of this subreddit so I hope it's not to weird to ask it here. I know when I'm panicking because I'm the type that cries, shakes, basically loses my mind, etc. However, I'm curious as to if there are different "types" with diffe...
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Drank my ass off for valentine's day Hey, Just wanted to say I drank pretty hard for Valentine's day. Got to a bar where all people were all people were watching some soccer match. Felt pretty lonely and pretty miserable, in the end. Didn't have enough change to have a fourth beer. Meh. I feel disgusted about myself,...
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Wishing to catch the flu. If I do, then I can take off work and stay home, soaking in the hot bath all day. I can't just tell my boss I am spiraling. I cannot just say I locked myself in a bathroom yesterday to cry at work. I cannot just say that I almost caused an accident this morning because I was bawling driving in...
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Do u think my boyfriend was insulting me? I texted my boy and told him that I don't understand why he likes me since I'm fat and ugly? He texted back "you're not ugly. Maybe u can get your hair done or buy new clothes to make yourself feel better." Was he insulting me?
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My mother is having suicidal thoughts and this is making me so sad that I have them too My mother and father split up almost 10 years ago and currently she lives with my brother but he does not give a shit about her. Last week we had one of our worst fights and we did not talk until then. Today she came to tell me that...
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i like the attention too much i know that this is wrong and i honestly wish i wasn't like this. i love the attention, not just any attention though. it's the sympathy, the care. the compassion. i have fantasised about being raped!! how wrong and disgusting is that? i "fall over and cut myself" so i can go to trips to ...
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You did it - you unintentionally set me free. [deleted]
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Weird sexual behaviour when manic When I was young, the only way I could calm my social anxiety was to get intimate with people. Looks like, while that is mildly acceptable behaviour for a man, it is not in a woman, at least in my country. Nevertheless, I have made some good friends and horrible enemies. Fast forward...
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No cure and no hope to hating yourself It's what I want, I don't have the will power to change things in my life and I accept that I'm going to kill myself, if not tonight eventually. It's not like there's hope for things to change. The only time I didn't feel like this was with the only girl that ever saw anything in ...
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Balancing work and treatment I'm trying. It isn't working very well. I missed therapy the other day because I got called in (one of our most competent workers walked out), and my schedule is absolutely packed now. I don't want to have to explain my condition to them and how vital my treatment plan is to my work perform...
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Can someone give me advice on a life transition coming up that is making me very anxious? [deleted]
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Do you ever get this amazing happy feeling for like 15 seconds and then you go back to wanting to jump under a train? [deleted]
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My inability to act almost cost me my business. [deleted]
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Emotional numbness. Anxiety or Depression? I have been feeling emotional numbness for awhile. Used to suffer from anxiety and panic attack once in a while but now, i don’t get them as much as i did. Instead, i feel completely numb. I don’t enjoy the things i used to do. My hobby becomes boring. I don’t look forward to ...
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Hello. I hope you have a better life than me. Hi, I want to thank you personally for even giving me the slightest bit of attention. I didn't want to end my life without atleast talking or letting it all out one last time. However, I'm going to end my life now, I've been planning this for 2 years but I've reached brea...
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Alone and lost I've been alone and angry for so long. I feel like no matter what I try I will always fail. I am tired. Hope feels like a foreign concept. I pull my hair out and I find it incredibly difficult to stop. I feel like dying.
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Anyone else have a negative parent? I would say my mom is definitely one of the reasons why I have such horrid, crippling anxiety. She is so negative, and doesn't really understand why I don't like talking to her or spending time with her. Today, she woke me up, gave me a kiss on the cheek, and this was our conversa...
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I Am Truly And Finally Sick of This Bullshit Called Life, I've Tried Everything And It Doesn't Get Better I'm literally sitting here crying writing this. I'm a failure, a worthless and useless person that nobody cares about. I've done everything people told me and suggested. I started eating healthy, started working ou...
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Does anyone else feel depressed about the end of net neutrality? [deleted]
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Does anybody else feel like they're trapped in their own thoughts?
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The feeling to want to delete my entire history And I don’t mean on Google Chrome. Going through a rough patch with my anxiety at the moment. Cringe at a lot of things I say, but even worse I can’t sleep at night for analysing my entire history. It’s quite self absorbed as I’m sure other people can’t remember these ...
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Tired I wish I could be brave enough to end it all.
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Rexulti I know this has been asked before, but I’m having some very specific symptoms, and I’m not sure they’re not worth the results. I’ve tapered up to 2 mg at this point, and I read it can go up to 4 mg. My problem is that I am already experiencing some side effects that I can deal with, such as : - changes in...
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I thought I was happy I just don't know what to do anymore im 16 I've grown up in an upper middle class loving family, but ever since the car accident last year everything's gone downhill My parents are honestly the only people I feel actually care at all about me and probably the one thing holding me back is the thou...
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Out of network insurance - should i go to urgent care or home for pCP? [deleted]
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god, i want you. you don’t speak unless you have something to say. and when you do—that voice. so low, seductive. haven’t stopped thinking about you today. regaining consciousness in the middle of the night to feel your hand gently holding the back of my head. how are you so good at talking me out of sex when i’m drunk...
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why no one comments on my post or care? i see most of the post have many comments and when i post i get none or 1. Do people on here are annoyed from my posting something? isnt this subreddit for venting and helping?
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My younger cousins went through my inappropriate laptop bookmarks? This is really stressing me out but I had two of my little cousins coming over who I see quite often, they are 10 and 12 years old. They wanted to use my laptop to play a video game that they love while I helped my uncle cut down a tree in our front yar...
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Today is very very bad send good vibes I feel dissasociated and also like my mind is numb. I assume it's the copius amounts of caffeine I had due to lack of sleep. I'm suffering through work right now so send me a nice sub to browse through to calm my nerves please! Also I'm never having this much caffeine again. I eve...
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this world is no place for a nigga with feelings :,(
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I Was Right About Psychiatrists. I am here after very unsuccesful psychiatrist visit, had to sleep alot after that before writing here... it was horrible... all of it... my psychiatrist didnt understand my problems and didnt want to, just telling me that everything that has happened to me is my fault.. getting bullied...
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I'm tired I'm tired of waking up I'm tired of going to school I'm tired of crying I'm tired of cutting I'm tired of being lonely I'm tired of failing I'm tired of being scared I'm tired of having no friends I'm tired of being judged I'm tired of hating myself I'm tired of eating I'm tired of sleeping I'm ti...
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Why can I cry for other people, but not for myself? I tear up a lot. I cried at the last movie I saw. I cried when I saw how nice a homeless person I talked to near my house was. I even cried when I saw a painter in his dirty clothes buying groceries at the dollar tree. But when I think about how much I hate myself, an...
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Treatment resistance, medication not working I've been on 9 different medications and I still struggle a lot with near constant depression and some symptoms of anxiety and OCD. I'm currently on lamictal and wellbutrin. They keep me from being hypomanic/suicidal but I still don't function well at all. I'm not too keen ...
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The reason I’m here is because of my parents. I didn’t ask for any of this. I hold my parents responsible for anything that happens in my life. If they wouldn’t have had me, I wouldn’t endure the pain I’m enduring now. I’d be non-fucking-existent.
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Depressed after Dates Has anyone had success dealing with depression after dates? Starting with my last relationship, I have had some tremendous anxiety and depression tied into my dating life. With the current girl, I sometimes come home from a date and start feeling depressed immediately. But then I feel it througho...
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Social Security, Disability, Unemployment? Hey there everyone. The past 8 months my bipolar disorder turned more severe. I had to quit my part time job because I was slowly breaking down. I then made time to go down to my hometown and spent the past month staying with my parents and seeing my old psychiatrist to begi...
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Suicide seems like the only option to erase the pain [deleted]
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I need to say this On 17 Oct 2017, I had the worst day of my life. Nothing particularly was different about it, just a pressing feeling that I wanted to die. Went to work for early morning training(yay army), while having these thoughts and hoping they would go away. After that was finished, we were released to go get ...
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anyone else feels trapped and with a feeling of impending doom while in a relationship? [deleted]
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Just started to think about how much I make other people nervous If I don’t know people I won’t talk to them. This easily extends to people I do know because I question them as my friends. I can’t totally open up and I make people nervous.
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GAD problems (rant) So I’m sitting here, 2nd day off from school due to snow and I have an anxiety stomach ache. I usually get these Sundays before school, but it’s a Friday and somehow I’ve had it overnight. Last night I was convinced I just had swallowed something from my skincare routine (somehow??) but now I have n...
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What to do? I got diagnosed as bipolar over a year ago after being baker acted for three days. My boyfriend says that it’s not a real diagnosis because the doctor didn’t see me for enough time. I’ve been on 100 mg of seroquel and 20 mg of citalopram for a year with random adjustment over this time. If I’m not bipolar t...
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Escapism? Normal or could this be depression? I really don’t even know if I’m in the right place to talk about this, or if this is going to make any sense. I’ve been feeling pretty embarrassed about this and wanted to get it off my chest. Throughout my pre-teen and teen years I suffered from pretty severe depression/...
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i've resorted to melatonin supplements because sleep is the only time i feel safe and not in pain. i'm always in pain. any kind of pain (tooth pain specifically, i'm seeing a dentist tomorrow) sends me into a pre-panic and i have to focus all of my energy and all of my willpower into preventing a panic attack instead ...
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I just need someone to talk to about my problems. Please [deleted]
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IM STILL HERE, LIFE! IM STILL HERE YOU SADISTIC WHORE! [removed]
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The only thing keeping me alive is my pets. [deleted]
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I don’t like how my best friend has changed [deleted]
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Fuck the guy who raped our girlfriend and is still trying to be our friend So let me preface this with my BF and I are in a triad relationship with this one girl who is poly. She has her own partners as well. The guy who raped her was her 'main partner', someone she cared very much about. Now to continue. So the last ...
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How do you deal with hypersexuality? I'm having a tough time with this. It's not that I'm going around screwing a whole bunch of people, it's just that, if sex presents itself, I will always choose sex over whatever task I should be doing instead. It's like I can't prioritize anything above sex and it's become a pr...
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no more I can't stand this. The pressure, the constant pressure and stress. The jokes, the eyes, the disappointment... it's too much... I decided to come around here since I don't like hotlines... reddit is the only thing keeping me sane... I have deep wounds and nasty scars... reminding me of the torment my mind has...
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Ultra manic and irritable every holiday I'm diagnosed with bipolar 1 mixed. For the last four years, I have become unpleasant manic with strong irritably where I am throwing things, yelling, and hiding upstairs so my extended family doesn't see me yelling, though I know I'm not hiding it well. My family has tried to he...
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Stop FOLLOWING POLITICS AND STOP LIVING A LIFE OF FEAR! Seriously do it you can still vote but man all that 24 hours new cycle shit is going to do is end up breaking you. just quit that shit.
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Signed up for an online suicide prevention based therapy, because my regular therapist isn't helping much, and got declined because I'm already seeing someone. I told them how much I am struggling. My therapist just doesn't seem to think it is serious enough and I have trouble telling her. Feel like all hope is lost no...
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I can't go up to talk to a girl I like? Been this way for a while. [deleted]
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Where do you go when there is no more? [deleted]
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Vent post I guess, Or suicide note idk I'm tired and its the fun part of the night where I google overdoses break down nearly do it then quit. I'm Fucking sick of it I would message a friend but their all either suicidal or would straight up call someone. I don't have anything to live for, I sound spoiled, middle class...
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Failing college, considering to go work with friend across country.. conflicted. I'm a junior in college. I have been going to school every day, but I don't have the mentality to study. If I set aside enough time to learn the material, I'll get it, but I keep putting it off because I don't have that motivation. Curren...
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Have any of you Ever tried moclobemide before? Background: I have bipolar 2, and a co-morbid anxiety problem of some sort that hasn't been formally diagnosed (unless they ended up diagnosing me with panic disorder and haven't flat out told me, and that's a possibility). I say this because I suffer from anxiety, periods...
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I can’t escape my shitty life and nobody understands that I’m actually sick [deleted]
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Rant I'm always there for everyone. I always try to be nice, and a good friend. I stress myself out over saying something wrong constantly. And all I get in return is bullshit people who fucking hate me. I'm sorry I'm not fucking talented or good at anything, do you have to constantly remind me of that shit. Even if if...
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ELI5: Medication Schedule Hello Reddit, yesterday i got medication to help in my battle with our worst enemy. I got 2 different ones, 1 i should take "in the morning" and the other i should take "in the evening". Now i don't understand if this means i should take them at the time "healthy" people consider morning and e...
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Every time I think of ending it I become so happy. 29M Hi everyone! I know and I agree. 9/10 times you should keep fighting, 9/10 times you should keep on keeping on and things will get better, look more clear and one day you will be out of the hole, but not for me. The right thing for me is to die. It absolutely i...
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