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suicidewatch | Learning2Grow | 2018/11/25 | I'm contemplating life while sitting on my bathroom floor... Does anyone else feel that this world is just so corrupt? And by world I mean humans.... we've been put on this world to pretty much just reproduce and be fed bullshit by the goverment and what the "norm" is. I've been struggling with myself for quit a bit of... | 4.240011 | 6.512215 | 4.610606 | 82.408636 | 72.849206 | 7.915152 | 28.518038 | 8.710501 | 2.335478 | 1,067 | 43 | 195 | 21 | 22 | 336 | 147 | 252 | 0.095 | 0.849 | 0.056 | -0.6286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 44 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 46 | 40 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 21 | 2 | 36 | 29 | 8 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 137 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.11952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085639 | 0.125492 | 0 | 0.109031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108321 | 0.133713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080895 | 0 | 0 | 0.117032 | 0.110075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109716 | 0 | 0.125697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259528 | 0 | 0 | 0.216299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081754 | 0.124173 | 0 | 0.266827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090035 | 0.090815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08491 | 0 | 0 | 0.134443 | 0 | 0.138075 | 0 | 0.124603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123123 | 0.137202 | 0.13027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09781 | 0 | 0 | 0.12804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388933 | 0.071417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29465 | 0 | 0 | 0.101057 | 0 | 0.194433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Greg22S | 2018/11/25 | I don’t feel like I have any drive to keep living For context I’m a university student currently studying abroad in Japan. I’m pretty shy and introverted normally, but I’ve managed to become close friends with a few of the other exchange students in the dorm I’m staying in, and I’ve opened up to them about how I someti... | 6.205321 | 5.506834 | 6.579473 | 80.989957 | 66.197309 | 9.316741 | 31.139387 | 8.472885 | 2.139622 | 1,737 | 56 | 359 | 21 | 24 | 564 | 204 | 446 | 0.06 | 0.716 | 0.224 | 0.9978 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 28 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 88 | 75 | 34 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 28 | 31 | 3 | 6 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 13 | 40 | 23 | 66 | 52 | 9 | 57 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 27 | 0 | 10 | 26 | 246 | 68 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122312 | 0 | 0 | 0.175677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070443 | 0 | 0 | 0.052531 | 0 | 0 | 0.075998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281501 | 0.227275 | 0 | 0.087125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087204 | 0.245789 | 0 | 0.124659 | 0 | 0.135602 | 0.066709 | 0 | 0.087686 | 0.17523 | 0.078751 | 0.070331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05331 | 0 | 0 | 0.236984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141386 | 0 | 0 | 0.043709 | 0.06483 | 0 | 0.084214 | 0 | 0 | 0.112353 | 0.19428 | 0 | 0.280918 | 0 | 0.066788 | 0.088977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116932 | 0 | 0.122682 | 0 | 0 | 0.149273 | 0.077926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107788 | 0.060489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090526 | 0.101902 | 0 | 0 | 0.085389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065791 | 0 | 0.079591 | 0 | 0 | 0.061229 | 0.07866 | 0 | 0 | 0.169544 | 0.063515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090253 | 0 | 0 | 0.059799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158515 | 0.101923 | 0 | 0 | 0.092753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086509 | 0 | 0.165594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093822 | 0.06313 | 0 | 0 | 0.07151 | 0.073728 | 0 | 0 | 0.091459 | 0.076667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fireice2929 | 2018/11/25 | i’m having a mental breakdown and i’m about ready to go turn my head into hamburger i hate being alive so much hahahahhhahha
holy fuck i’ve never been this depressed in my life
everything is just hitting me at once and
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suicidewatch | x2-SparkyBoomMan | 2018/11/25 | My cousin died of an overdose last night and i think i'm gonna be sick please someone help me the national suicide hotline just told me to go to sleep and now i'm hyperventilating I can't breathe he lived in orange county and i want to die with him and drink until i die | -0.183103 | 2.116945 | 1.885776 | 94.45556 | 92.965517 | 4.27931 | 19.318966 | 5.985473 | -0.1928 | 217 | 7 | 49 | 2 | 8 | 72 | 45 | 58 | 0.284 | 0.622 | 0.093 | -0.9423 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.704297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226369 | 0 | 0.191663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | memeaste | 2018/11/25 | easy to cut. it’s so easy to cut myself, yet it’s so hard to actually kill myself. people have been able to see it in my eyes that i’m depressed and i truly wanna kill myself to end the pain. i don’t fucking get it and it pisses me tf off
i just want it all to end. just. end. | -2.775312 | -1.130555 | 0.9185 | 99.8765 | 103.0625 | 3.185 | 11.0875 | 4.935629 | -1.65367 | 210 | 3 | 54 | 1 | 10 | 76 | 40 | 64 | 0.308 | 0.566 | 0.126 | -0.9378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 36 | 15 | 0 | 0.228359 | 0 | 0.222845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.606774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211114 | 0.119308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.50529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CMSX1304 | 2018/11/25 | when do i call an ambulance my friend literally got drunk on mouthwash and then started to take a sip of mr.clean, clorox, and lycol spray. idk what tf because he drank allot of lycol | 4.050762 | 6.190522 | 4.805714 | 81.387619 | 73 | 6.952381 | 28.809524 | 7.793538 | 1.975667 | 146 | 6 | 26 | 2 | 3 | 47 | 32 | 35 | 0.103 | 0.811 | 0.086 | 0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.529625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kidgorgeous62 | 2018/11/25 | Don't see much hope past this week I'm a college student studying computer science. I've got 4 enormous assignments due on Friday. I had all break to get them done, and was barely able put a dent in them. No way I'll get them done. My grades will slip. I'll have to retake classes while also losing my scholarship. Cost ... | 2.187634 | 4.655004 | 3.502745 | 86.771242 | 80.647059 | 5.660131 | 23.562092 | 6.937598 | 0.983641 | 341 | 12 | 64 | 4 | 9 | 111 | 66 | 85 | 0.163 | 0.792 | 0.045 | -0.8346 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 36 | 10 | 7 | 0.228772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253103 | 0 | 0.125727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254025 | 0 | 0.218389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181589 | 0.183507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DoingBetterForMyself | 2018/11/25 | I was doing well I thought, but now it seems I'm not I want to kill myself every night. So much anxiety lately. My meds must not be working or something. God I just want to go to sleep so the thoughts will go away until tomorrow night. Here's the full story, I guess. I hope writing this out helps.
I just got out of re... | 3.322024 | 4.783114 | 4.39487 | 86.411115 | 73.448052 | 7.470996 | 26.469697 | 8.076483 | 1.558461 | 2,398 | 84 | 492 | 36 | 48 | 782 | 246 | 616 | 0.155 | 0.694 | 0.151 | 0.5936 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 38 | 32 | 4 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 55 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 102 | 110 | 48 | 7 | 18 | 26 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 19 | 8 | 69 | 21 | 91 | 77 | 12 | 88 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 30 | 38 | 2 | 12 | 36 | 357 | 93 | 7 | 0.059084 | 0 | 0.057657 | 0 | 0 | 0.057736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040179 | 0 | 0.045199 | 0.200244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052597 | 0 | 0 | 0.166534 | 0.318023 | 0.098665 | 0.072034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06024 | 0 | 0.062503 | 0.101791 | 0.061948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052331 | 0 | 0 | 0.039024 | 0 | 0.049781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050257 | 0 | 0 | 0.136944 | 0.054622 | 0.061738 | 0 | 0.134315 | 0.049557 | 0.09451 | 0.06514 | 0.065088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052928 | 0 | 0.060637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039603 | 0 | 0.059266 | 0.058684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123337 | 0 | 0 | 0.130735 | 0.061527 | 0.129884 | 0.048161 | 0.133299 | 0 | 0.064195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053326 | 0.055907 | 0.039439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059658 | 0 | 0.09432 | 0.125594 | 0.043433 | 0.30667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040037 | 0.044936 | 0 | 0 | 0.196817 | 0.063982 | 0 | 0.081923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0591 | 0 | 0.037851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094165 | 0.053788 | 0 | 0 | 0.060649 | 0.09775 | 0 | 0.059127 | 0.120457 | 0 | 0.045486 | 0.058436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141554 | 0 | 0.06768 | 0.061767 | 0 | 0.258513 | 0.067048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142468 | 0.051642 | 0.054397 | 0.067568 | 0.137202 | 0.078505 | 0 | 0 | 0.140718 | 0.034452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065644 | 0.080228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097501 | 0.209095 | 0.046898 | 0 | 0 | 0.159371 | 0 | 0.053314 | 0 | 0 | 0.056955 | 0 | 0.086028 | 0 | 0.060212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 0JustSomeGuy0 | 2018/11/25 | My first self post on Reddit is one about me wanting to end myself I've commented a few times before. I posted two other things before. But the two post weren't exactly by me. Yes I posted them but I was asked by my ex who was my friend even after the break up. Now to the post.
I've wanted to end my life for so long. ... | 0.565611 | 2.693849 | 2.018432 | 97.013856 | 84.625 | 4.864606 | 18.779163 | 6.104045 | -0.319591 | 2,008 | 52 | 465 | 16 | 59 | 646 | 217 | 544 | 0.114 | 0.749 | 0.137 | 0.7449 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 66 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 35 | 24 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 1 | 55 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 95 | 101 | 30 | 2 | 23 | 17 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 31 | 6 | 102 | 16 | 56 | 55 | 14 | 82 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 60 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 52 | 340 | 134 | 5 | 0 | 0.07134 | 0.117514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049548 | 0 | 0.056289 | 0 | 0.05657 | 0.046298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10247 | 0.20351 | 0 | 0.053251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061482 | 0.068865 | 0.061389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096147 | 0 | 0.132277 | 0.038831 | 0 | 0.103719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266644 | 0.062214 | 0 | 0.119306 | 0.108928 | 0.05073 | 0 | 0.054113 | 0 | 0 | 0.067754 | 0.030444 | 0 | 0.231247 | 0 | 0.055031 | 0.10243 | 0 | 0 | 0.093037 | 0 | 0.062915 | 0 | 0.034219 | 0.050502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059295 | 0 | 0.064457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05975 | 0 | 0.133228 | 0 | 0.198541 | 0 | 0 | 0.127509 | 0.130838 | 0.061569 | 0.127586 | 0.147079 | 0 | 0.053167 | 0.106569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102378 | 0.163027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144179 | 0 | 0 | 0.044645 | 0.046438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122401 | 0.091586 | 0.064068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062813 | 0 | 0 | 0.049807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127852 | 0.064177 | 0.240422 | 0.050339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045271 | 0.048395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080003 | 0.038581 | 0.059157 | 0 | 0.070219 | 0 | 0 | 0.057534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117634 | 0 | 0 | 0.104005 | 0 | 0 | 0.390652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055816 | 0.054331 | 0 | 0.069239 | 0 | 0.065296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077547 |
suicidewatch | thrownout1234567 | 2018/11/25 | I drove home to kill myself tonight. I've got plenty of the sad reason why I'm sad and dumb things. I've been injured and unable to work effectively or go to the gym (the only thing I'm good at). I'm lonely and my sister killed herself a few years back, blah blah poor me. So tonight I drove to my childhood home that th... | 2.441205 | 3.396628 | 3.331307 | 95.164353 | 74.891089 | 6.376766 | 21.882508 | 6.427356 | 0.098013 | 735 | 17 | 176 | 5 | 15 | 234 | 112 | 202 | 0.133 | 0.738 | 0.129 | 0.4922 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 30 | 35 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 25 | 6 | 23 | 14 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 112 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095061 | 0 | 0 | 0.121027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137483 | 0.194249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105037 | 0 | 0.07103 | 0 | 0.077265 | 0.228061 | 0.108734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409114 | 0.135032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139021 | 0 | 0.132839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100807 | 0 | 0.131304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103398 | 0 | 0 | 0.150959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139782 | 0.134237 | 0 | 0.154008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109273 | 0.118829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126029 | 0.122676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148643 | 0 | 0.087549 |
suicidewatch | notdepressedjustemty | 2018/11/25 | The funny thing about asking for help... ... Is that when you do, you get yelled at:
I don't want you to die.
I would miss you.
You are being too emotional.
How would that make me feel?
You're hurting my feelings.
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What if I told you that your discomfort is only a small concern for me? What if your pain, as ... | -0.734775 | 1.316457 | 1.171132 | 101.189035 | 90.509434 | 4.016255 | 15.701016 | 5.369823 | -1.005828 | 374 | 8 | 92 | 2 | 13 | 122 | 68 | 106 | 0.12 | 0.727 | 0.152 | 0.6837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 29 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 18 | 3 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 65 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234802 | 0 | 0.175692 | 0 | 0.17249 | 0 | 0.187504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158082 | 0 | 0.116915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266422 | 0.186374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322513 | 0 | 0 | 0.116363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102133 | 0 | 0 | 0.167365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373269 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lifesconfusing2me | 2018/11/25 | What’s the point My life is depressing
I don’t want to wake up anymore
I have a group of friends that care
But is them losing me so bad ? Everyone copes with death and I’m a nobody .
I don’t get along with my family
My heart aches at the thought of the people I care about losing me so I’ll never be brave enough to... | -1.275305 | 0.707621 | 1.028342 | 101.452995 | 93.235294 | 4.502674 | 13.609626 | 6.112484 | -1.022412 | 294 | 5 | 75 | 3 | 11 | 98 | 58 | 85 | 0.216 | 0.64 | 0.144 | -0.7763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 51 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183365 | 0.213915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197824 | 0 | 0 | 0.195167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159949 | 0 | 0.108163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132655 | 0 | 0.164357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LuciferAOP | 2018/11/25 | What's the point of continuing to live if no one, and I mean NO ONE loves you? I met a girl a few years ago online, we were in a LDR. Long story short she wanted to meet me in real life and I was too much of a coward to do that, so she left me. It happened half a week ago, and I can't get over it. Moving on seems absol... | -0.43182 | 1.391763 | 2.323317 | 95.185481 | 86.26257 | 5.109203 | 16.124963 | 6.339386 | -0.558459 | 619 | 12 | 152 | 6 | 19 | 216 | 111 | 179 | 0.148 | 0.782 | 0.07 | -0.867 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 19 | 27 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 105 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252946 | 0 | 0 | 0.147768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155764 | 0 | 0 | 0.159273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131901 | 0.074542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157173 | 0 | 0.126167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155017 | 0 | 0.100776 | 0 | 0 | 0.125985 | 0.126263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25754 | 0 | 0 | 0.14465 | 0 | 0.155415 | 0 | 0 | 0.143783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151641 | 0.209765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134874 | 0 | 0.136643 | 0.145152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084154 | 0 | 0.114445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091878 |
suicidewatch | taway327 | 2018/11/25 | First Speeding Ticket, rather die than face it I got a speeding ticket for 101 in a 75 (highway). Looking it up the amount of points added to my license could put me in danger of being suspended (8 points for >25 speeding, 7-10 points for consideration of suspension by judge). It isn't my first moving violation (\~1... | 7.000641 | 6.735978 | 7.327447 | 74.842835 | 64.433071 | 10.091789 | 35.465692 | 9.606745 | 3.304706 | 1,044 | 44 | 192 | 18 | 14 | 341 | 140 | 254 | 0.287 | 0.7 | 0.013 | -0.9974 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 35 | 36 | 10 | 4 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 38 | 25 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 128 | 39 | 4 | 0.117107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120301 | 0 | 0 | 0.122784 | 0 | 0 | 0.0935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098668 | 0 | 0.105248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108263 | 0.305918 | 0 | 0.133109 | 0 | 0.093661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103557 | 0 | 0 | 0.115619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232421 | 0 | 0.259123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124466 | 0.086087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112056 | 0 | 0.117725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150075 | 0 | 0.09297 | 0.068286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069073 | 0.092954 | 0.093936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128038 | 0 | 0.075413 |
suicidewatch | AmiraMohammod18 | 2018/11/25 | I want to end it. I need to end it and leave this world for good. I'm tired of hoping that tomorrow will be a better day because it just feels like it is getting worse. It's like I am always trapped in a bundle of knots coming from different directions. Every time I try to free my self from one knot , I find myself in ... | 3.220028 | 5.080838 | 4.378403 | 84.766628 | 74.567282 | 6.742777 | 24.508658 | 7.531067 | 1.181344 | 1,507 | 48 | 294 | 19 | 32 | 493 | 186 | 379 | 0.158 | 0.694 | 0.148 | -0.4113 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 32 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 22 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 60 | 48 | 23 | 2 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 42 | 21 | 50 | 36 | 4 | 55 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 21 | 1 | 11 | 34 | 191 | 62 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161547 | 0.07317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052897 | 0 | 0 | 0.042727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066998 | 0.094661 | 0.063612 | 0 | 0.302766 | 0.056354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034614 | 0 | 0.075305 | 0.055569 | 0.052988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263213 | 0 | 0 | 0.141849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070151 | 0 | 0.067747 | 0.233979 | 0.194205 | 0 | 0.117004 | 0.058631 | 0 | 0 | 0.072322 | 0 | 0.059795 | 0 | 0.176895 | 0.067169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049125 | 0.102196 | 0 | 0 | 0.062173 | 0 | 0.127141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089788 | 0.050388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442716 | 0 | 0.057849 | 0 | 0 | 0.06263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120627 | 0.138231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038632 | 0.076147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054665 | 0.039077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JadeMcLain | 2018/11/25 | I don't fucking want to change I'm not motivated, I don't give a fuck, its plainly obvious to me that I will never accomplish anything. It feels like I've experienced all life has to offer thats worth experiencing. I dont see a point in getting a job, I dont care because what is the fucking point, to continue what. I a... | 4.940294 | 4.767614 | 6.657647 | 77.609412 | 68.705882 | 9.545098 | 32.686275 | 9.299571 | 2.765145 | 387 | 16 | 80 | 7 | 6 | 135 | 71 | 102 | 0.193 | 0.705 | 0.102 | -0.8513 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 8 | 20 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 47 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12429 | 0.181485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151771 | 0 | 0.157472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075267 | 0.106344 | 0 | 0.163067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.550467 | 0.077772 | 0.142798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155369 | 0.147719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105143 | 0.072724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nxnd | 2018/11/25 | worried i did permanent stomach damage tried to kill myself last monday, drank and overdosed on caffeine pills (knew it wasn’t enough) i hallucinated a lot. stepmom found me the next day after vomiting on the floor all night. i told her it was food poisoning. it burned so much in my stomach and my throat. i’ve been nau... | 1.198837 | 3.640095 | 3.039969 | 88.58507 | 84.968992 | 5.92062 | 21.003101 | 7.3011 | 0.81137 | 502 | 16 | 101 | 8 | 15 | 167 | 84 | 129 | 0.12 | 0.776 | 0.104 | -0.631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 23 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 12 | 11 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 68 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125819 | 0 | 0.148076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217585 | 0.197296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398156 | 0 | 0 | 0.146676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191369 | 0.168862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171941 | 0 | 0.122168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AccordianToYou | 2018/11/25 | My bf of almost 10 yrs killed himself and now I want to as well I know there is another subreddit for people who have lost someone to suicide but since I feel this way myself I felt it made sense to post here too.
He did it on July 27th. He developed schizophrenia 3 years ago and was never able to get the auditory hal... | 2.737886 | 3.943689 | 4.232312 | 88.014784 | 74.509709 | 7.367668 | 23.27354 | 7.903304 | 0.984637 | 3,084 | 84 | 676 | 44 | 63 | 1,028 | 329 | 824 | 0.157 | 0.71 | 0.133 | -0.9787 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 98 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 53 | 42 | 5 | 6 | 26 | 1 | 98 | 12 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 135 | 167 | 50 | 9 | 27 | 32 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 44 | 25 | 0 | 8 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 27 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 53 | 18 | 100 | 25 | 73 | 94 | 23 | 83 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 73 | 38 | 0 | 19 | 35 | 460 | 144 | 2 | 0.052532 | 0 | 0.051263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046566 | 0 | 0.105206 | 0 | 0 | 0.04201 | 0.087421 | 0.113836 | 0 | 0.142893 | 0.055084 | 0 | 0 | 0.052097 | 0.036731 | 0 | 0.086458 | 0.046764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040394 | 0 | 0.032023 | 0.058017 | 0.089401 | 0 | 0 | 0.13938 | 0.057351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05356 | 0 | 0.055572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058919 | 0.167769 | 0 | 0.115407 | 0.033879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163559 | 0.054884 | 0 | 0 | 0.045971 | 0.053758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043883 | 0 | 0 | 0.054279 | 0.058587 | 0.173483 | 0.047518 | 0 | 0.050196 | 0 | 0 | 0.049522 | 0 | 0.292178 | 0.112586 | 0.050439 | 0 | 0.048013 | 0.089367 | 0 | 0 | 0.040586 | 0 | 0.082337 | 0.050393 | 0.05971 | 0.044061 | 0 | 0 | 0.115739 | 0 | 0 | 0.055921 | 0.047058 | 0.051864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06225 | 0.070422 | 0.055503 | 0.052694 | 0.052176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140078 | 0.058119 | 0 | 0.02887 | 0.04282 | 0 | 0.055623 | 0.057076 | 0.053717 | 0.074209 | 0.153986 | 0.157952 | 0.046386 | 0.046489 | 0 | 0 | 0.057345 | 0 | 0.189648 | 0.198827 | 0.070131 | 0 | 0.10555 | 0.057222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055728 | 0.053042 | 0 | 0.04193 | 0.055833 | 0.11585 | 0 | 0.081031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10679 | 0.199764 | 0.055897 | 0 | 0.05833 | 0.056887 | 0 | 0.036419 | 0.045869 | 0 | 0 | 0.049659 | 0 | 0.050311 | 0 | 0.056638 | 0 | 0 | 0.052809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067306 | 0.108023 | 0 | 0 | 0.059508 | 0.089724 | 0 | 0 | 0.105187 | 0.10633 | 0.125583 | 0 | 0.109604 | 0 | 0 | 0.086909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08902 | 0 | 0.10391 | 0 | 0.037182 | 0 | 0.041952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060136 | 0.172383 | 0 | 0.099021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137745 | 0 | 0.120149 | 0 | 0.069799 | 0.134641 | 0.051612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035666 | 0 | 0 | 0.109375 | 0 | 0.04537 | 0 | 0.086688 | 0.092954 | 0.041697 | 0 | 0 | 0.047232 | 0.048697 | 0.047402 | 0 | 0.060409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053348 | 0 | 0.149268 | 0 | 0 | 0.101486 |
suicidewatch | whyevenbother483 | 2018/11/25 | Thoughts on assisted suicide? I truly believe in my heart that i should be able to go to a hospital and have them “assist” my suicide by a lethal injection or something of that nature. It’s my life and if I don’t want to live it then I shouldn’t have to. Imagine all the people my organs could help because the hospital ... | 4.654177 | 5.027274 | 5.508709 | 83.709392 | 69.379747 | 8.345316 | 30.989873 | 8.238736 | 2.150304 | 305 | 12 | 62 | 4 | 5 | 100 | 52 | 79 | 0.111 | 0.803 | 0.085 | -0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 48 | 15 | 0 | 0.470708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14347 | 0 | 0 | 0.265163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278895 | 0.157753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166237 | 0 | 0 | 0.207822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186845 | 0.137237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167189 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | moultonmc | 2018/11/25 | Drunk and home with guns aand ammo I'm 19 shitty job with a wife and kid on the way, I own my own house, have good in-laws, yet I still feel like putting a shot gun in my mouth, why!? | 4.433571 | 1.969792 | 4.961905 | 96.891429 | 70.666667 | 8.4 | 23.380952 | 3.1291 | -0.169276 | 137 | 1 | 40 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 34 | 42 | 0.193 | 0.687 | 0.12 | -0.5093 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177407 | 0.250657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351944 | 0 | 0 | 0.404849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gsccookie | 2018/11/25 | I’m scared I’ll do it again. It’s been such a tough year - betrayed by friends, money issues and to top it off, he broke my heart. I feel numb and scared of people, keeping social interactions to the bare minimum.
Can’t seem to control my depression anymore either, had two suicide attempts this year with one ending u... | 4.974982 | 5.536964 | 5.316377 | 84.702409 | 68.73262 | 8.372371 | 30.021836 | 8.3441 | 1.979999 | 739 | 27 | 152 | 10 | 12 | 235 | 128 | 187 | 0.231 | 0.703 | 0.065 | -0.981 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 29 | 29 | 15 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 18 | 3 | 22 | 22 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 97 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119178 | 0 | 0.143607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213809 | 0 | 0.072293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123953 | 0 | 0.142008 | 0 | 0 | 0.16397 | 0.092747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144423 | 0 | 0.24598 | 0 | 0 | 0.15209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101718 | 0.1026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187527 | 0.105237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118168 | 0 | 0 | 0.415599 | 0 | 0 | 0.125967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141051 | 0 | 0.106524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091927 | 0 | 0 | 0.219701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093944 | 0 | 0.135168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196589 | 0.151286 | 0 | 0.178212 |
suicidewatch | Son_of_the_King_3 | 2018/11/25 | Obsession with facial structure Every time I look in the mirror I see a dumb ugly fuck. I can't get over my face. I've always been obsessed with it, as early as second grade or before. I used to be attractive to girls, but then puberty changed my face for the worst. I'm truly an ugly fuck. I'm insanely envious of how D... | 1.029506 | 3.126038 | 2.768701 | 92.524756 | 82.497942 | 5.863309 | 19.185021 | 7.087007 | 0.241995 | 908 | 23 | 200 | 12 | 25 | 300 | 129 | 243 | 0.188 | 0.638 | 0.174 | -0.432 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 19 | 11 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 34 | 43 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 8 | 23 | 7 | 25 | 34 | 2 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 15 | 10 | 3 | 8 | 13 | 123 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147018 | 0 | 0 | 0.118114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086532 | 0 | 0.120789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256804 | 0.119599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262461 | 0.222489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.596012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192378 | 0.10796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09841 | 0 | 0 | 0.155819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181912 | 0 | 0 | 0.082772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122599 | 0 | 0 | 0.083726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nolozxcvb | 2018/11/25 | Afraid of the pain, still want to end it. I hate being alive. No question, I want to die. I fantasize about it all the time. For the past few years, when I think about committing suicide I always see myself cutting open my wrists and curling up in bed waiting to drift off. I’m a very careful person and I do a lot of re... | 5.029692 | 5.348331 | 5.752121 | 82.482388 | 68.548023 | 8.018285 | 33.605033 | 7.686295 | 2.339694 | 692 | 31 | 136 | 7 | 11 | 226 | 106 | 177 | 0.145 | 0.705 | 0.15 | -0.4646 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 27 | 26 | 15 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 4 | 23 | 23 | 9 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 91 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.150179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093813 | 0.169965 | 0.130953 | 0 | 0.161503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077814 | 0.109943 | 0 | 0 | 0.140657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129233 | 0 | 0 | 0.130836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14691 | 0 | 0.134375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09861 | 0.151201 | 0.122176 | 0.089738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132916 | 0 | 0.12698 | 0.272314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099103 |
suicidewatch | kingcon_01 | 2018/11/25 | I made it through the night One day at a time, eh? | -0.9075 | -0.13687 | 0.89 | 110.055 | 83.166667 | 4.8 | 20.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.057767 | 37 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.547114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unfckmyPH | 2018/11/25 | I can't fucking do this I dont have anyone. My boyfriend doesnt understand me. I almost got raped in an uber once and I'm trying to leave his house in one. No one loves me. How can I die quickly please. | -1.783048 | 0.110877 | 0.552698 | 102.55 | 100.777778 | 3.460317 | 15.31746 | 5.288315 | -1.051254 | 157 | 4 | 39 | 1 | 7 | 52 | 36 | 45 | 0.239 | 0.638 | 0.123 | -0.683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280407 | 0.356839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178764 | 0 | 0 | 0.274106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tenar_of_Atuan | 2018/11/25 | Im so tired of everything and so lonely I hurts so bad. I am so fucking lonely.
I wish I could meet someone and just become friends. Just some connection. I’m so fucking alone. I feel wishing for actual love is too much so I’ll settle for just friends but god I need something. I have no life, no job, no money, everyda... | -0.383309 | 1.686926 | 2.127941 | 94.945735 | 88.632353 | 4.870588 | 19.529412 | 6.322622 | -0.004829 | 485 | 15 | 112 | 5 | 16 | 166 | 73 | 136 | 0.304 | 0.522 | 0.175 | -0.9794 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 26 | 12 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 11 | 21 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 71 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0.141704 | 0.233421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099859 | 0.072906 | 0.132087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184802 | 0.442266 | 0.062485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256064 | 0 | 0.129186 | 0 | 0.118683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084476 | 0.116859 | 0 | 0.211214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087918 | 0.08868 | 0.276724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101335 | 0.092072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lunakais | 2018/11/25 | im happy but i still have the knife next to my bed while I sleep. Hoping that one day i’ll get the courage to just end it to stop this sick form of sadness from decaying my last normal thought. | 2.615714 | 3.36528 | 3.355714 | 95.939286 | 74.238095 | 6.552381 | 23.52381 | 6.427356 | 0.281038 | 152 | 4 | 37 | 1 | 3 | 48 | 35 | 42 | 0.273 | 0.545 | 0.182 | -0.7321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321496 | 0 | 0.296187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241415 | 0.252734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MemoirsOfaGayShit | 2018/11/25 | Inpatient Hospitalization and Relapse Back in September, I was admitted to a behavioral health hospital for inpatient hospitalization because I was extremely close to hanging myself. After I was discharged, I felt better for a while and then I couldn't continue treatment because I didn't have the money to do so. Obviou... | 5.195065 | 6.517457 | 6.612583 | 72.843636 | 68.69697 | 10.101587 | 33.671477 | 10.290406 | 3.761336 | 1,233 | 58 | 219 | 33 | 21 | 420 | 147 | 297 | 0.149 | 0.714 | 0.137 | -0.9124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 28 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 42 | 53 | 16 | 5 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 49 | 8 | 33 | 33 | 6 | 45 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 168 | 56 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169889 | 0 | 0.269365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071244 | 0 | 0.095147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108061 | 0 | 0 | 0.223427 | 0.236759 | 0.106068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170697 | 0 | 0.115432 | 0 | 0.125565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117424 | 0 | 0 | 0.074046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11826 | 0 | 0 | 0.115302 | 0 | 0 | 0.366655 | 0 | 0.060711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111287 | 0 | 0 | 0.111543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076586 | 0 | 0.230835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109076 | 0.118603 | 0 | 0.094341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078191 | 0 | 0.088221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08306 | 0.088791 | 0 | 0 | 0.126332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105559 | 0 | 0.075002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078475 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | darklordoftech | 2018/11/25 | What's the point of anything? My family hates me, I have no friends, and material things will never make me happy. | 3.338182 | 5.563379 | 4.790909 | 80.306364 | 75.363636 | 8.036364 | 24.636364 | 8.841846 | 1.965109 | 90 | 3 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 30 | 21 | 22 | 0.298 | 0.588 | 0.114 | -0.6121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412922 | 0 | 0.382966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bardisviable | 2018/11/25 | I have no one to talk to so i'll just leave my thoughts here I want to die. | -4.133333 | -2.832927 | -1.32 | 115.806667 | 106.368421 | 2.533333 | 11.596491 | 3.1291 | -2.403435 | 57 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 15 | 19 | 0.363 | 0.575 | 0.062 | -0.7402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.501563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _ja2k | 2018/11/25 | Reasons to live All the things that keep me from offing my self like my friends and family do the trick, they keep me from ending it, but at this point there my only reason and i feel like every day i want to say fuck it fuck every one and finally do what ive wanted to do for so long. End it. | 5.942448 | 3.667389 | 6.7425 | 84.719167 | 67.59375 | 9.783333 | 26.020833 | 7.793538 | 1.145527 | 227 | 3 | 54 | 2 | 3 | 76 | 45 | 64 | 0.145 | 0.739 | 0.116 | -0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 37 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176108 | 0 | 0.094457 | 0.133457 | 0 | 0.204642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144329 | 0.345406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182532 | 0 | 0.164957 | 0.165321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126588 | 0.142078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BrANdt4l0p3 | 2018/11/25 | I feel worthless This has been coming for a while now. I've always been bad at pretty much everything. I have little to no motivation. I'm not very attractive. I have no idea how I managed to get my girlfriend for the past 7 months as she was way out of my league, but she was the first girl I've dated in about two year... | 1.805357 | 4.069506 | 3.28302 | 88.979837 | 80.683673 | 6.573061 | 21.534694 | 7.734863 | 0.882897 | 763 | 23 | 161 | 13 | 20 | 250 | 122 | 196 | 0.184 | 0.646 | 0.169 | 0.1428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 34 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 20 | 7 | 26 | 27 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 104 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12365 | 0 | 0 | 0.092209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129064 | 0.072939 | 0 | 0 | 0.234191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197217 | 0 | 0.279846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152397 | 0 | 0.252001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111433 | 0 | 0.102627 | 0.103517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133271 | 0.096786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133705 | 0.284061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142312 | 0.236577 | 0 | 0 | 0.156279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094784 | 0 | 0.136376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11519 | 0.082344 | 0.110813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089902 |
suicidewatch | ThrowawayShampoo1997 | 2018/11/25 | Theoretically, if someone told me while venting that they think that poisoning themselves and their infant is the only way to get away from their drunk husband, what would I do? *theoritically...* I need help. Not sure what one can do here. The individual would believe there is no support from their family. And the onl... | 4.198545 | 7.432872 | 4.935951 | 74.591091 | 79.298507 | 6.93209 | 26.285448 | 8.076483 | 2.140822 | 305 | 12 | 50 | 6 | 8 | 98 | 52 | 67 | 0.14 | 0.786 | 0.073 | -0.6075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176653 | 0.396539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295832 | 0.245701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370379 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lolaway4545 | 2018/11/25 | Damn I was doing so well. I was doing so fucking good. I actually thought things were going to be better. But that's the joke of it. You can't really hurt someone until you give them something to take away. It all crashed down and I discovered self harm so that's neat I guess. Of course I clawed up my own fucking face ... | 0.340929 | 2.782134 | 2.331095 | 90.483615 | 94.045872 | 4.926835 | 19.656537 | 6.627428 | 0.475059 | 425 | 14 | 84 | 6 | 16 | 141 | 78 | 109 | 0.101 | 0.678 | 0.222 | 0.9228 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 17 | 8 | 9 | 12 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 60 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.181696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344262 | 0 | 0.178612 | 0.105817 | 0.156168 | 0 | 0 | 0.205111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18493 | 0 | 0 | 0.199322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090964 | 0.186613 | 0 | 0 | 0.156354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157759 | 0.143339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123697 | 0 | 0 | 0.147815 | 0.10857 | 0 | 0.176488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MCRween | 2018/11/25 | Attempted suicide 11/18/17 I did it almost perfectly too. I won’t go into detail, but I cursed myself for waking up and having failed. I feared dying but living was worse. And now I would have to deal with the consequences of my actions.
Today, I’m ok. I have a loving husband and family, a great psychiatrist, and am... | 1.350919 | 3.858167 | 2.791307 | 90.137353 | 85.041667 | 5.888235 | 21.665033 | 7.285733 | 0.82781 | 567 | 19 | 116 | 9 | 17 | 184 | 90 | 144 | 0.142 | 0.707 | 0.151 | 0.0984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 28 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 16 | 20 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 84 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178896 | 0 | 0 | 0.360183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163584 | 0.195264 | 0.087739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098618 | 0 | 0 | 0.191312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122566 | 0 | 0 | 0.153226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189019 | 0.192747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222375 | 0.170487 | 0.137759 | 0 | 0 | 0.164481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176837 | 0.246534 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lostmysparkle55 | 2018/11/25 | Someone please just give me reasons not to do it You don’t really need much of my story. Short version? I’ve suffered from ptsd and depression and anxiety for years. And the world and life seems to get to be way too much way too often. I’m tired. I’ve run out of my friends’ good graces and can’t keep pushing my problem... | 1.135824 | 3.532161 | 2.563636 | 92.226818 | 84.729167 | 6.407576 | 22.268939 | 7.686295 | 0.992429 | 371 | 13 | 81 | 7 | 11 | 120 | 69 | 96 | 0.134 | 0.706 | 0.16 | 0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 10 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 46 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184913 | 0.134903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113728 | 0 | 0.151885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136243 | 0 | 0.092133 | 0.169166 | 0 | 0.147909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156743 | 0 | 0 | 0.096914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259267 | 0.130757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168738 | 0.206137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112971 | 0.181312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201665 | 0 | 0.117155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11356 |
suicidewatch | DismalCloud | 2018/11/25 | My depression story Hey, My name is Pj and i'm 15 years old. I'm only 15 and my depression story has just begun, and it will carry on and climb higher. i'm seriously considering suicide. i want to die. after all this pain i feel like a burden
My dad would hit me often as a kid but never serious he also taught me "men ... | 0.17715 | 2.403392 | 2.154498 | 94.613363 | 87.69191 | 5.158133 | 17.886727 | 6.635868 | -0.086215 | 2,146 | 55 | 482 | 26 | 69 | 712 | 251 | 581 | 0.222 | 0.662 | 0.116 | -0.9976 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 64 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 32 | 46 | 14 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 38 | 26 | 9 | 5 | 8 | 73 | 87 | 49 | 9 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 21 | 37 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 7 | 93 | 16 | 58 | 44 | 10 | 95 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 59 | 35 | 4 | 4 | 50 | 299 | 114 | 5 | 0.061803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136402 | 0.049424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043214 | 0 | 0 | 0.110035 | 0 | 0.07031 | 0.058066 | 0.095045 | 0.051603 | 0.150698 | 0 | 0.05259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135775 | 0.199289 | 0 | 0.106461 | 0 | 0.128283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109478 | 0 | 0 | 0.122461 | 0.055904 | 0.104143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031249 | 0.044152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228543 | 0.096868 | 0 | 0.035124 | 0 | 0.197718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063428 | 0.065694 | 0 | 0 | 0.041425 | 0 | 0.123987 | 0.061384 | 0 | 0.071312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054933 | 0.341879 | 0 | 0.033965 | 0.050378 | 0 | 0 | 0.067149 | 0.063198 | 0.087306 | 0.030194 | 0 | 0.054573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223118 | 0.058479 | 0.123762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095332 | 0 | 0.065728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064852 | 0 | 0.041879 | 0.141012 | 0.065763 | 0.072512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066353 | 0 | 0.052779 | 0.058789 | 0 | 0.185626 | 0.187643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131747 | 0.049356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07075 | 0.135205 | 0 | 0.174745 | 0 | 0.092936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252264 | 0 | 0 | 0.177166 | 0.068665 | 0.16784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072906 | 0.049056 | 0.049575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062764 | 0 | 0.087806 | 0 | 0 | 0.039799 |
suicidewatch | SlavicMan | 2018/11/25 | I feel empty I don't want to go on like this I feel like I'm just existing I have a good life yet I don't feel like I'm worth the life I have I feel like my life is falling apart what little of it is left help | -3.042253 | -1.46571 | 0.241758 | 106.560385 | 98.230769 | 3.740659 | 11.274725 | 5.288315 | -1.780443 | 162 | 2 | 48 | 1 | 7 | 57 | 31 | 52 | 0.089 | 0.576 | 0.336 | 0.9166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441333 | 0.467667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124014 | 0.183024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237085 | 0 | 0.462384 | 0.426425 | 0.218703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cat_Beans | 2018/11/25 | Not really sure where to go from here I’ve recently hit a wall with my marriage and I don’t really know what else to do. He wants to be done with me for no reason whatsoever. He made me drive home 20 hours and isolated me. He won’t answer any of my texts/calls. He doesn’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do.
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suicidewatch | BIG_DICK_BF | 2018/11/25 | silence Haven’t posted here in a while but right now I just need to get my thoughts down and stop hyperventilating or else I might do something stupid I don’t care if 1000 people read this or only 1 does I need to calm down bc my anxiety is through the fucking roof right now and I don’t take meds for it (or my depressi... | -0.32548 | 1.918092 | 1.478387 | 97.8414 | 92.106509 | 4.424563 | 17.866141 | 6.079149 | -0.414083 | 1,245 | 35 | 292 | 12 | 45 | 405 | 161 | 338 | 0.2 | 0.673 | 0.127 | -0.982 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 25 | 24 | 7 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 29 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 51 | 66 | 23 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 64 | 7 | 32 | 51 | 5 | 47 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 26 | 20 | 5 | 7 | 25 | 199 | 82 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062048 | 0 | 0.080438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076204 | 0.062368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069018 | 0 | 0 | 0.143468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082821 | 0 | 0.082696 | 0 | 0.085802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09097 | 0.064759 | 0 | 0 | 0.052308 | 0 | 0.069859 | 0 | 0.084178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067756 | 0 | 0.071838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299935 | 0.084752 | 0.077807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080078 | 0 | 0 | 0.091416 | 0 | 0.054366 | 0 | 0 | 0.080559 | 0 | 0 | 0.086829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114579 | 0 | 0 | 0.071621 | 0 | 0 | 0.09074 | 0 | 0 | 0.146408 | 0 | 0.054141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090094 | 0 | 0 | 0.086044 | 0 | 0 | 0.129481 | 0 | 0.059624 | 0.240565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077428 | 0.056231 | 0 | 0.084741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081131 | 0 | 0 | 0.083393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484865 | 0 | 0 | 0.081204 | 0.082086 | 0.1939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083257 | 0.067094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062442 | 0 | 0 | 0.114818 | 0 | 0 | 0.067811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21554 | 0 | 0 | 0.064391 | 0 | 0 | 0.076882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08933 | 0 | 0.09568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090555 | 0.186542 | 0.078186 | 0 | 0.059048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | baroquetongue | 2018/11/25 | If I was serious about ending the gift of life, I wouldn't advertise it here. Why go out of your way to post your suicidal thoughts or plans here unless you really seek help or some other form of an out? Maybe the young are indoctrinated to use social platforms to express there angst, so much like graffiti artists sha... | 12.86902 | 9.94019 | 10.628203 | 64.281912 | 55.013072 | 13.860131 | 45.107843 | 11.855464 | 5.22311 | 700 | 30 | 116 | 14 | 6 | 211 | 111 | 153 | 0.086 | 0.796 | 0.118 | 0.7548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 26 | 12 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 78 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225665 | 0.078043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151011 | 0 | 0.152992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25364 | 0 | 0 | 0.15142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347514 | 0 | 0 | 0.192154 | 0.137968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zbeara | 2018/11/25 | Does anyone else feel weirdly relieved when they remember that suicide is an option? I legitimately get warm feelings and I remember that if things got bad enough suicide would stop it all and it somehow keeps me going. I feel as though the fact that I have some emotions and that it provides some level of hope is a rem... | 5.244979 | 6.102573 | 6.49718 | 75.420315 | 68.256198 | 8.694628 | 33.306818 | 8.841846 | 2.886214 | 491 | 22 | 89 | 8 | 8 | 166 | 76 | 121 | 0.099 | 0.728 | 0.173 | 0.8843 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 8 | 14 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 63 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119462 | 0.175055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142652 | 0.104148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142723 | 0.192183 | 0 | 0.176533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345546 | 0.122055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089262 | 0 | 0.097098 | 0 | 0.136644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113505 | 0 | 0.167859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121367 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | swampnuts | 2018/11/25 | I couldn't do it. I fail at even that. Had the gun to my head, chambered, safety off, finger on the trigger. I can't even do this right.
life hurts
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suicidewatch | Mrcoulrophobia | 2018/11/25 | I got sober and nothing is better I got sober for many reasons, one being I thought drugs were causing an increase in suicidal thoughts and actions. It has become clear this isn’t the case. I have BPD and OCD and I constantly think about walking into my bathroom, getting my gun from the top shelf of my closet, and blow... | 1.975917 | 4.178943 | 3.51751 | 87.864425 | 79.697674 | 6.140082 | 26.396717 | 7.285733 | 1.412019 | 670 | 28 | 133 | 9 | 17 | 221 | 108 | 172 | 0.146 | 0.806 | 0.048 | -0.9403 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 31 | 34 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 17 | 22 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 96 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.138153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116501 | 0.126028 | 0.13235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156354 | 0.120466 | 0 | 0 | 0.250416 | 0 | 0 | 0.178304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290865 | 0.149763 | 0 | 0 | 0.305976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26176 | 0.073965 | 0 | 0.080458 | 0.118743 | 0.226454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099996 | 0 | 0.141891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181426 | 0 | 0.224783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116811 | 0.083502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201136 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OJ_with_No_Pulp | 2018/11/25 | Anyone else feel like their suicide is inevitable? I feel like one of these days I'm just gonna say fuck it and take my life and end this dumb bullshit. I'm not saying I'm gonna be doing it soon, but just in general I feel like my cause of death is gonna be suicide or something else related to mental illness. whether i... | 5.132484 | 4.657091 | 5.883019 | 84.350503 | 68.339623 | 8.576101 | 28.987421 | 7.793538 | 1.655187 | 399 | 12 | 85 | 4 | 6 | 131 | 70 | 106 | 0.282 | 0.664 | 0.054 | -0.9855 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 22 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 47 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113754 | 0.166692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271808 | 0 | 0.144092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246778 | 0.348671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150401 | 0 | 0 | 0.092459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114911 | 0.238442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25875 | 0 | 0 | 0.12964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129133 | 0.130498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20953 |
suicidewatch | ajaydoubleu | 2018/11/25 | just useless bullshit i wish i could afford an actual therapist because i feel like im slipping. no matter how happy i am at once second, because i just go back to being a depressed piece of shit the next. i feel bad because my mom wants me to spend more time with her but i physically cant. i never wanna leave my room.... | 1.345753 | 3.046743 | 3.48 | 89.841923 | 79.486111 | 5.54188 | 22.882479 | 6.297961 | 0.4797 | 527 | 17 | 113 | 4 | 13 | 180 | 92 | 144 | 0.276 | 0.638 | 0.086 | -0.9844 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 30 | 22 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 24 | 4 | 14 | 18 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 80 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100381 | 0.108999 | 0.318315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112438 | 0 | 0.135484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264029 | 0.279783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120686 | 0.068204 | 0 | 0.148383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14726 | 0.138228 | 0 | 0 | 0.092207 | 0.191332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100684 | 0 | 0.138835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139026 | 0.08846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268004 | 0 | 0 | 0.130639 | 0 | 0.11061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151572 | 0 | 0.083648 | 0 | 0 | 0.076121 | 0.150042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | caraboo64 | 2018/11/25 | Drunk, my birthday, wanna die I’m pretty drunk. It’s my 21st birthday. There’s no point in livin anymore. No one would care if I died. People would actually benefit. I don’t want to live any more. My parents want me out of their house and their lives. None of my old friends would notice, and I don’t have any new ones. ... | -0.59971 | 1.558578 | 1.123913 | 100.659855 | 92.043478 | 3.936232 | 16.362319 | 5.461319 | -0.888133 | 332 | 8 | 80 | 2 | 12 | 107 | 59 | 92 | 0.226 | 0.62 | 0.154 | -0.8658 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 8 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 48 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127181 | 0.152184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187415 | 0.172736 | 0 | 0.223095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182785 | 0 | 0 | 0.114123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155614 | 0 | 0 | 0.167472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350813 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ladyvaderr | 2018/11/25 | Statistically speaking It should have happened a long time ago.
I’ve just been prolonging it.
And I just don’t think it needs to be held off much longer. | 2.881 | 5.347857 | 3.256667 | 89.525 | 78 | 6.666667 | 23.333333 | 7.793538 | 0.982333 | 123 | 4 | 26 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 26 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359054 | 0.362166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312968 | 0 | 0 | 0.284809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Help-May | 2018/11/25 | I just don’t wanna live anymore The last time I tried seek to help for my suicidal tendencies. My mom mocked me and tried to shove Jesus down my throat she said “You have satin in you” I said “Mom I need help please stop trying to be a priest and be my mom” She didn’t care she was too much in her views I thought she wo... | 3.341423 | 4.934117 | 3.924466 | 89.270929 | 73.637681 | 7.337022 | 25.588933 | 8.000946 | 1.35847 | 542 | 18 | 113 | 8 | 11 | 171 | 89 | 138 | 0.122 | 0.772 | 0.106 | -0.6349 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 24 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 27 | 3 | 17 | 11 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 73 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080193 | 0 | 0.111941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101637 | 0 | 0.068731 | 0 | 0.074764 | 0 | 0.105214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06427 | 0 | 0.232326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462216 | 0 | 0.139819 | 0.096706 | 0.097544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250272 | 0 | 0 | 0.133138 | 0 | 0.11976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105058 | 0.109983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208875 | 0.076709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267946 | 0 | 0 | 0.13695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093451 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lrdazmmlk | 2018/11/25 | I am thinking of ending my life today. I can’t help myself from not thinking about it. I can hear my calling. | -0.190145 | 2.06987 | 2.278261 | 92.383768 | 91.173913 | 3.066667 | 20.710145 | 3.1291 | -0.318351 | 85 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 19 | 23 | 0 | 0.87 | 0.13 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439166 | 0 | 0.261175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Maremere | 2018/11/25 | Am i just done with life? I've been thinking about suicide daily. Whenever there is a moment of silence its all i can think about. I've been depressed for along time now, even when life is going well for me i have these thoughts.I have tried taking my life once before and failed. Ended up laying in a puddle of my own v... | 0.30842 | 2.332442 | 2.038517 | 97.125084 | 84.825243 | 4.522154 | 17.130627 | 5.565023 | -0.656584 | 373 | 8 | 86 | 2 | 11 | 122 | 70 | 103 | 0.075 | 0.869 | 0.056 | -0.184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 17 | 16 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 62 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170399 | 0 | 0 | 0.173658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208845 | 0.239181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180755 | 0 | 0 | 0.269587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3923 | 0 | 0 | 0.119001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138557 | 0 | 0 | 0.212455 | 0 | 0.17626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183493 | 0 | 0.184151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fattenedoyster | 2018/11/25 | I have no idea where to kill myself. I don’t know how people can just keep going. It’s so hard to find the motivation to do anything. I feel down all the fucking time and I can’t see how life is worth living.
Finally got the courage to buy some opiates and benzos. Hopefully going to chug them down with some alcohol a... | 2.035789 | 3.782206 | 3.554246 | 89.885053 | 77.596491 | 6.665263 | 22.803509 | 7.554174 | 0.860905 | 430 | 13 | 93 | 6 | 10 | 142 | 75 | 114 | 0.159 | 0.748 | 0.093 | -0.8763 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 27 | 22 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 16 | 20 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 66 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165792 | 0 | 0.175781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10035 | 0 | 0 | 0.217409 | 0.362787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183478 | 0 | 0 | 0.225584 | 0 | 0.158731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176405 | 0.219572 | 0 | 0.109071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140182 | 0 | 0 | 0.350497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194991 | 0 | 0.115727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gbavaihy | 2018/11/25 | Deciding when to end it I've known most my life that my life expectancy is shortened. Now, I am starting to feel tired all the time, in pain all the time, and slipping further and further into depression. Can't take medication either because of my condition.
I don't want to suffer longer than I have to. I want to end... | 3.048736 | 3.796081 | 4.757838 | 86.297796 | 73.216216 | 8.286902 | 25.04158 | 8.617729 | 1.474979 | 682 | 20 | 152 | 12 | 13 | 232 | 104 | 185 | 0.126 | 0.823 | 0.051 | -0.8562 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 40 | 30 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 2 | 26 | 24 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 107 | 29 | 1 | 0.140569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171379 | 0 | 0.119614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142152 | 0.100422 | 0 | 0 | 0.128477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198576 | 0.068675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093831 | 0 | 0.423661 | 0 | 0 | 0.141608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151557 | 0 | 0 | 0.14131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099495 | 0.149828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132484 | 0 | 0.10569 | 0.112984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163934 | 0.323126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121406 | 0 | 0 | 0.248733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Geddyboii | 2018/11/25 | Imma kill myself within the next two weeks Life was fun but fuck it lmao no point to this shit (not a troll) | 7.271739 | 4.387031 | 6.71913 | 87.855217 | 65.521739 | 9.2 | 23 | 3.1291 | 0.127122 | 84 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 23 | 23 | 0.409 | 0.402 | 0.189 | -0.8682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | classicforever | 2018/11/25 | I’m not suicidal but I definitely feel trapped I feel like I’m literally unhirable and I’m still living with parents who, whether they intend to or not or even think they’re doing me a favor, have been abusing me my entire life. They’ve subjected me to screaming, yelling and various forms of emotional and financial abu... | 6.673231 | 7.94729 | 6.598462 | 74.471538 | 65.25641 | 9.487179 | 33.461538 | 9.661875 | 3.333154 | 853 | 36 | 142 | 17 | 13 | 270 | 126 | 195 | 0.213 | 0.705 | 0.082 | -0.9847 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 25 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 20 | 4 | 20 | 16 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 102 | 29 | 4 | 0 | 0.541419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154034 | 0.108817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107587 | 0.074415 | 0 | 0.1345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153502 | 0.161586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323782 | 0 | 0.112942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169132 | 0 | 0 | 0.105599 | 0.132999 | 0.159141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108203 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thebiggestfan777 | 2018/11/25 | I'm not sure why I feel this way, and I'm not sure if I should seek help. Hello,
I've never told a soul about this. My friends and my family all think of me as a strong, fun-loving, usually goofy guy. On the outside, I'm not remotely the "type" that most people would see as someone in danger of committing suicide. I'v... | 6.413453 | 5.679653 | 6.667985 | 80.642747 | 65.787741 | 9.858826 | 31.230492 | 9.138037 | 2.389043 | 3,455 | 110 | 709 | 52 | 47 | 1,116 | 337 | 881 | 0.114 | 0.746 | 0.141 | 0.9294 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 142 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 60 | 49 | 8 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 66 | 20 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 156 | 147 | 54 | 5 | 21 | 32 | 1 | 21 | 9 | 2 | 15 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 57 | 33 | 6 | 3 | 43 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 20 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 25 | 106 | 29 | 95 | 91 | 25 | 113 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 42 | 1 | 14 | 63 | 484 | 163 | 5 | 0.038608 | 0 | 0.075351 | 0.042088 | 0 | 0.037727 | 0.034223 | 0.04126 | 0.03866 | 0 | 0 | 0.030874 | 0.096374 | 0.125494 | 0.140737 | 0.026255 | 0 | 0.029535 | 0 | 0 | 0.053991 | 0 | 0.095312 | 0.068738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029687 | 0.064471 | 0.094139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04215 | 0.042884 | 0 | 0 | 0.039423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040479 | 0 | 0 | 0.06165 | 0.042719 | 0 | 0.298785 | 0 | 0.066505 | 0 | 0.040069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033786 | 0 | 0 | 0.075642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043428 | 0 | 0.039892 | 0.086115 | 0.0765 | 0.139691 | 0.097586 | 0 | 0 | 0.037766 | 0.072792 | 0 | 0.33186 | 0.110325 | 0.037069 | 0 | 0.070573 | 0.03284 | 0 | 0 | 0.059656 | 0 | 0.060513 | 0 | 0 | 0.097147 | 0 | 0.042565 | 0 | 0.076455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04575 | 0.077634 | 0.040791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044548 | 0 | 0.087167 | 0 | 0 | 0.038312 | 0.102949 | 0.042714 | 0 | 0.021218 | 0 | 0.043551 | 0 | 0.041947 | 0.039479 | 0.136348 | 0.169756 | 0.038695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032823 | 0.06969 | 0 | 0.025771 | 0 | 0.038787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092449 | 0 | 0.113524 | 0.057254 | 0.119106 | 0 | 0 | 0.072461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082232 | 0.026162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036855 | 0.107063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038811 | 0 | 0.082128 | 0.038618 | 0.043944 | 0.148398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032971 | 0.036725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030765 | 0.140588 | 0.040276 | 0.043616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039356 | 0.065424 | 0.059444 | 0 | 0 | 0.054653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126691 | 0 | 0.072774 | 0 | 0.029028 | 0 | 0.06749 | 0.071089 | 0 | 0.134479 | 0.025649 | 0.148429 | 0.075864 | 0.183901 | 0.067537 | 0 | 0 | 0.184456 | 0 | 0.078636 | 0 | 0 | 0.040192 | 0 | 0 | 0.042521 | 0 | 0.022772 | 0.18387 | 0.030969 | 0.141041 | 0.034713 | 0 | 0.069675 | 0.043104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056214 | 0.039208 | 0 | 0.301683 | 0 | 0.140737 | 0.024862 |
suicidewatch | seanofthebread | 2018/11/25 | Bad website I was browsing pornsites and I saw something terrible. I guess I repressed the memory for a few months. About a week ago, I realized what I saw. I can't quite remember what I saw, but I know it was bad. I've lived an ok life. The people around me are better than I deserve. I can't live with this. It's re... | 0.255387 | 2.397267 | 2.496602 | 92.970537 | 86.183099 | 5.803521 | 21.551056 | 7.168622 | 0.671858 | 260 | 9 | 58 | 4 | 8 | 88 | 50 | 71 | 0.16 | 0.703 | 0.137 | -0.1406 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 37 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174702 | 0 | 0 | 0.436807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263074 | 0 | 0.281524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thrway66650015103 | 2018/11/25 | need advice. should i tell my mom i tried to kill myself? hope y’all are doing well.
i tried to hang myself a couple of days ago but chickened out and then put all the belts and rope away. i’m wondering if i should tell my mom, since i’ve been so hung up on it (no pun intended). plus, for the past two weeks my suicida... | 2.329473 | 4.137488 | 3.469643 | 90.5425 | 76.9375 | 6.821429 | 21.428571 | 7.709487 | 0.723545 | 613 | 16 | 132 | 9 | 14 | 198 | 103 | 160 | 0.262 | 0.701 | 0.037 | -0.9933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 29 | 26 | 19 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 20 | 3 | 16 | 20 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 83 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24647 | 0.111791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118486 | 0 | 0 | 0.076877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13954 | 0.138528 | 0.081332 | 0 | 0.10862 | 0 | 0.130884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063766 | 0.090094 | 0 | 0.138149 | 0 | 0.107271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065888 | 0 | 0.071672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124509 | 0 | 0.134051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139524 | 0 | 0.069308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127091 | 0 | 0 | 0.443102 | 0 | 0 | 0.092707 | 0.09351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120388 | 0 | 0 | 0.13176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144461 | 0 | 0 | 0.275892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101364 | 0.220455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342487 | 0 | 0.123193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101159 | 0 | 0.11339 | 0 | 0.113796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Stbernardlover45 | 2018/11/25 | I'm hella depressed and I don't know what to do. I've been out of work for over a month. I've been self harming with alcohol and sharp despite the fact that I'm taking antidepressants, getting therapy, and getting ECT.
I really need help. I don't know what to do at this point. I don't know how to get better. I feel l... | -0.018788 | 1.760364 | 2.57403 | 94.241045 | 84.353535 | 5.576162 | 20.00101 | 6.742158 | 0.130684 | 346 | 10 | 83 | 4 | 10 | 120 | 58 | 99 | 0.108 | 0.759 | 0.133 | 0.0735 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 26 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 13 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 44 | 13 | 1 | 0.203349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205639 | 0.145273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143631 | 0.099346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162311 | 0 | 0 | 0.150781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | smgmx | 2018/11/25 | Relapsing with self harm and bulimia I'll be 22 in two days. I've spent the past nearly 13 years of my life cycling between cutting and bulimia or anorexia, severe depression and anxiety. I was hospitalized three times for attempts but could never give it my all. Every day gets harder. I have two close friends, but t... | 3.651355 | 5.102475 | 4.741018 | 84.294767 | 72.59882 | 7.575267 | 26.902768 | 8.13951 | 1.707922 | 1,336 | 47 | 263 | 20 | 26 | 438 | 189 | 339 | 0.153 | 0.711 | 0.136 | 0.1338 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 21 | 21 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 54 | 50 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 37 | 9 | 34 | 35 | 9 | 46 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 23 | 171 | 51 | 4 | 0.193305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147878 | 0 | 0.095854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086041 | 0 | 0 | 0.090808 | 0.22296 | 0 | 0.058919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077169 | 0 | 0 | 0.186999 | 0 | 0.083247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085606 | 0.199736 | 0 | 0.127676 | 0.087428 | 0.162868 | 0.092356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195482 | 0.207146 | 0 | 0 | 0.176678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149347 | 0 | 0.100994 | 0.092718 | 0.21972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086582 | 0.095425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085909 | 0 | 0 | 0.053118 | 0 | 0 | 0.102341 | 0 | 0 | 0.136537 | 0.141659 | 0 | 0.085346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073509 | 0 | 0 | 0.107321 | 0 | 0.092266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097163 | 0.108273 | 0 | 0.096679 | 0 | 0.123836 | 0 | 0.095433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097818 | 0.07702 | 0 | 0.10083 | 0.10919 | 0.099213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088985 | 0 | 0 | 0.128424 | 0.061931 | 0 | 0.076731 | 0.056359 | 0 | 0.183231 | 0.092356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188831 | 0 | 0 | 0.166954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137319 | 0 | 0 | 0.062241 |
suicidewatch | nobody_asever | 2018/11/25 | Having the hardest time, for a while now. I need help but I’m not sure where to go. I’m 26, f, and I’m too old to self harm. I’m too old to pull shit anymore. But I’m broken and desperate and so cripplingly sad that I’m not sure what else I can do. My boyfriend doesn’t treat me well and doesn’t even act like he likes m... | 0.45252 | 1.84212 | 2.265578 | 98.959733 | 81.07483 | 5.747567 | 17.770277 | 6.490185 | -0.490136 | 1,013 | 19 | 264 | 9 | 26 | 335 | 140 | 294 | 0.2 | 0.595 | 0.206 | -0.7002 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 32 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 60 | 26 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 16 | 29 | 44 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 156 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0.137676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121418 | 0 | 0.066038 | 0.194924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082074 | 0.113537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098788 | 0.209747 | 0 | 0 | 0.117807 | 0 | 0.126574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085419 | 0.08616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243861 | 0 | 0.078739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242441 | 0 | 0.238552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077197 | 0.074455 | 0 | 0.092249 | 0.135513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078891 | 0.126391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342684 | 0.092233 | 0 | 0 | 0.104476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41272 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ModernParakeet | 2018/11/25 | I'm sick of being sad So I'm glad I'm about to dream forever hopefully its not worse than life itself
itself | -0.16 | 2.06024 | 2.771667 | 89.44 | 89.833333 | 6.533333 | 16.333333 | 7.793538 | 0.567183 | 88 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 31 | 19 | 24 | 0.2 | 0.47 | 0.33 | 0.4823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.625186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.641463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MaxJC11 | 2018/11/25 | I really want to help people who need someone to talk to. I just want to listen and help. A lot of times people just need someone to talk to that wont judge them or have any preconceived ideas about them. I just want to give people a chance to really open up and offer my advice. If you need help I am willing to talk ab... | 3.448592 | 4.309952 | 4.407155 | 88.757211 | 72.380282 | 7.370141 | 21.242254 | 7.554174 | 0.558958 | 268 | 5 | 58 | 3 | 5 | 87 | 41 | 71 | 0 | 0.784 | 0.216 | 0.913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 39 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rootinputin17 | 2018/11/25 | Im addicted to self harm no one knows im still self harming. i cant stop no matter how hard i try, when i lose myself and go numb, ive gone so far as stabbing myself with pencils. i have had lead stuck in my shin for months now.
how do i stop these thoughts? | -1.12697 | 0.802289 | 1.069015 | 102.156034 | 90.896552 | 4.003941 | 16.906404 | 5.288315 | -0.913249 | 199 | 5 | 51 | 1 | 7 | 66 | 45 | 58 | 0.335 | 0.605 | 0.06 | -0.936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 29 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185626 | 0.388659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hiiibull | 2018/11/25 | I took 60 Advil and 20 adderall last night. Somehow still here I spent thanksgiving alone. In the darkness I figured it was time to end it so I too the adderall and Advil since there were close. Counted and it seemed like enough so I took them and felt content for the first time in years.
I woke up a few hours ago an... | 0.698829 | 3.22359 | 1.591714 | 96.373 | 91.6 | 4.057143 | 20.142857 | 5.773588 | -0.095514 | 394 | 13 | 82 | 3 | 14 | 122 | 68 | 100 | 0.228 | 0.699 | 0.074 | -0.9297 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 50 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178396 | 0 | 0 | 0.208435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178248 | 0.207946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101758 | 0.143773 | 0.193232 | 0 | 0 | 0.171184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177965 | 0.42847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18886 | 0 | 0.193105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129599 |
suicidewatch | DarthJoker | 2018/11/25 | Neglect I’ve been heavily neglecting myself recently. I’ve been drinking and smoking cigarettes like it’s going out of style. I’ve stopped going to work. I sleep almost all day when I’m not drinking.
I tried to OD the other night. Just ended up throwing up everything. It’s rough. I’ve been on medication and I just do... | 0.856752 | 3.265498 | 3.123985 | 87.54268 | 86.464789 | 6.158078 | 23.845899 | 7.510576 | 1.383654 | 546 | 22 | 109 | 10 | 17 | 186 | 84 | 142 | 0.133 | 0.848 | 0.019 | -0.9217 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 13 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 67 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188399 | 0 | 0.185861 | 0 | 0.10833 | 0.173175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082064 | 0 | 0 | 0.148653 | 0.141057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157633 | 0 | 0.161177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215218 | 0 | 0.165855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | southernshiksa | 2018/11/25 | I just hugged my best friend for the last time I’m killing myself tonight. My best friend is my neighbor since juniors in high school (in our 20’s now) and I just hugged him for the last time as he was leaving my house. I think he could tell I was holding tears back, but didnt say anything. I love you M, and I’m so sor... | 2.391429 | 3.085287 | 2.85 | 99.565 | 74.714286 | 5.6 | 24 | 3.1291 | -0.1802 | 250 | 7 | 63 | 0 | 5 | 77 | 48 | 70 | 0.144 | 0.681 | 0.175 | 0.0737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 35 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230227 | 0 | 0 | 0.339251 | 0 | 0.220343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165486 | 0 | 0.210604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133339 | 0 | 0 | 0.242684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | short_straw_queen | 2018/11/25 | what do people do when they feel unavoidably suicidal? by that i mean, when your body is screaming that you need to die and that’s the only solution to everything. when i talk to any suicide hotlines or therapists i feel like they don’t offer any good advice? which i understand it’s not easy to just flip a switch and n... | 6.287802 | 7.536333 | 6.76967 | 72.989615 | 66.115385 | 10.942857 | 32.164835 | 10.914261 | 3.820172 | 448 | 18 | 78 | 13 | 7 | 146 | 71 | 104 | 0.142 | 0.807 | 0.051 | -0.8553 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 14 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 53 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176134 | 0 | 0 | 0.161917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164569 | 0.331341 | 0 | 0 | 0.138765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104733 | 0 | 0 | 0.151519 | 0.142511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240532 | 0.113282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090118 | 0.133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.520346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184111 | 0.105346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107658 | 0 | 0 | 0.165076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | waarombenhet | 2018/11/25 | My college has no clubs where I can meet women, I’ve had absolutely no success on any of the 6 dating apps I downloaded, and I’m a year too young to hang out at a bar. Finally I found a girl; her name is Taurus .45 ;) It’s like 500 bucks but price isn’t a factor in the last thing you ever buy. Don’t want to risk not fi... | -0.624194 | 1.186289 | 2.501516 | 93.692274 | 86.956989 | 5.870538 | 16.826882 | 7.168622 | -0.046062 | 319 | 7 | 78 | 5 | 10 | 114 | 75 | 93 | 0.072 | 0.837 | 0.091 | 0.1484 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 43 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216862 |
suicidewatch | Pushmeovertheedge | 2018/11/25 | Tell me something to push me over the edge Please tell me something to push me over the edge to commit suicide. That's all I need and want. Please. I'm begging you. | 0.690294 | 3.027186 | 1.260294 | 101.166324 | 86.352941 | 3.4 | 20.264706 | 3.1291 | -0.717035 | 129 | 4 | 29 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 21 | 34 | 0.117 | 0.674 | 0.21 | 0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.624954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Captain_Pig | 2018/11/25 | Was going to jump tonight, but changed my mind I don't really want to be alone right now so feel free to talk if you want. | -0.357778 | 1.600085 | 1.031111 | 103.7 | 87.148148 | 5.081481 | 16.407407 | 6.427356 | -0.72057 | 95 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 24 | 27 | 0.184 | 0.663 | 0.154 | 0.2619 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SpaceWizardFour20 | 2018/11/25 | I don't feel I have any reason to live. I'm unemployed, mentally ill, facing criminal charges, and borderline broke. I'm on the verge of just ending it, all my career prospects are ruined now. Is there any way out of this hole? | 2.825667 | 4.827293 | 4.006389 | 86.37625 | 76.111111 | 8.055556 | 24.583333 | 8.841846 | 1.839333 | 178 | 6 | 36 | 4 | 4 | 58 | 39 | 45 | 0.282 | 0.675 | 0.044 | -0.9001 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tryinholdon | 2018/11/25 | Im a mistake Im so scared to write this but i need someone to know
im a gay kid in Saudi Arabia a place where lgbtq+ ppl aren't accepted and punished(by death) , im scared of my family and I've isolated myself from everyone cause im terrified that they'll know.
I spent most of my life being bullied (cause ppl can ... | 0.873829 | 2.746001 | 3.00754 | 91.82 | 81.731481 | 6.521693 | 21.396825 | 7.623865 | 0.755744 | 787 | 24 | 178 | 13 | 21 | 267 | 120 | 216 | 0.267 | 0.628 | 0.105 | -0.9919 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 22 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 36 | 38 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 20 | 6 | 23 | 30 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 111 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056989 | 0 | 0.07388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066317 | 0.069643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062201 | 0.045412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08183 | 0 | 0 | 0.128326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142367 | 0 | 0 | 0.070228 | 0 | 0.075334 | 0.05322 | 0 | 0 | 0.068088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06887 | 0.038921 | 0 | 0.127013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079185 | 0 | 0 | 0.049933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.804679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152353 | 0.052618 | 0.036395 | 0 | 0.065781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13447 | 0.070489 | 0 | 0 | 0.074841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054763 | 0.055237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077832 | 0 | 0.070422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223749 | 0.075393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075939 | 0.06312 | 0.05735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059131 | 0 | 0.090715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047973 |
suicidewatch | jliam83 | 2018/11/25 | I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I have no friends. I'm terribly alone. The only thing that has kept me going this long is my 7 year old daughter. Her mom and I split 2 years ago. She kept coming back and forth. She had a child by another guy just after a couple months. In my stupidity, I still would of taken... | 0.438507 | 2.482001 | 2.106082 | 96.719988 | 84.444685 | 5.23832 | 17.651113 | 6.493994 | -0.321131 | 1,680 | 38 | 395 | 17 | 49 | 548 | 196 | 461 | 0.162 | 0.736 | 0.102 | -0.9824 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 38 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 27 | 9 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 51 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 82 | 89 | 40 | 0 | 8 | 23 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 38 | 7 | 70 | 11 | 49 | 41 | 10 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 63 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 285 | 99 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074272 | 0 | 0 | 0.086778 | 0 | 0 | 0.069717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087857 | 0.064096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068949 | 0.149176 | 0 | 0.095319 | 0 | 0.19328 | 0.139917 | 0.102151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088635 | 0.072175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066897 | 0.092708 | 0 | 0.054035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069993 | 0 | 0 | 0.173148 | 0 | 0 | 0.151579 | 0 | 0.080062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042365 | 0 | 0.080448 | 0 | 0 | 0.071269 | 0 | 0 | 0.129467 | 0 | 0.1751 | 0 | 0.047618 | 0 | 0.134024 | 0 | 0 | 0.165924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184188 | 0 | 0 | 0.088718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081868 | 0 | 0 | 0.148297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09813 | 0.066878 | 0 | 0.123186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08792 | 0 | 0.113552 | 0.19117 | 0 | 0.098305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058087 | 0.073159 | 0.087539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071553 | 0.1594 | 0.133261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078968 | 0 | 0.062997 | 0.067344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27832 | 0.161061 | 0 | 0 | 0.048857 | 0.385201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056886 | 0.091136 | 0 | 0 | 0.100785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075334 | 0.077671 | 0.151209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119039 | 0 | 0 | 0.161867 |
suicidewatch | awayawayawayaway0000 | 2018/11/25 | plz I need help I’ve been depressed lately. The most I’ve been in my entire life. I’ve been like this for the last few months. To the point where I want to harm myself again and my eating disorder was in full swing. It was bad but not to the point it is now.
My boyfriend broke up with me last night. We were together fo... | -0.303031 | 1.484144 | 1.807697 | 99.289991 | 85.476684 | 5.518031 | 16.385751 | 6.742158 | -0.51696 | 668 | 13 | 173 | 8 | 20 | 223 | 103 | 193 | 0.215 | 0.689 | 0.097 | -0.9835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 38 | 39 | 13 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 29 | 3 | 23 | 24 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 112 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232077 | 0.084718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119699 | 0 | 0.144235 | 0 | 0.159278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131014 | 0 | 0.14054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186305 | 0 | 0 | 0.138034 | 0 | 0 | 0.148776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123528 | 0 | 0 | 0.229132 | 0.226567 | 0.15677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098163 | 0.067896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110929 | 0.147709 | 0 | 0.309146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39413 | 0 | 0.1331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118684 | 0 | 0 | 0.139139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111703 | 0.121471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098724 | 0 | 0 | 0.089496 |
suicidewatch | hazzeFox | 2018/11/25 | Self harm makes me feel better DISCLAIMER: I'm not sure if this is the right place for this, as I've also searched Reddit for "self harm" but got no solid results so far. If this isn't, or if there's any kind of flag missing, I'm really sorry, and feel free to delete my post or flag it however it's appropriate to.
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suicidewatch | Horkpri | 2018/11/25 | I just wanna a hug. I just want a honest hug from someone who dosen't judge me inside, im Tired of my parents saying that they support my happiness but at the end my mother is always making me feel bad for not having the highest grades, my father always remember me about the money that he spends on my education, my sis... | 5.540588 | 5.517007 | 6.696209 | 77.332941 | 67.431373 | 8.891503 | 31.379085 | 8.515129 | 2.429034 | 600 | 22 | 113 | 8 | 9 | 203 | 98 | 153 | 0.279 | 0.602 | 0.119 | -0.9905 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 7 | 16 | 19 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 78 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134336 | 0 | 0.134133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.568424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1289 | 0.126234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14903 | 0.11235 | 0 | 0.104621 | 0 | 0 | 0.104835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222939 | 0 | 0 | 0.147269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149291 | 0 | 0 | 0.098916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126818 | 0 | 0.095776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Conscious_Saffa | 2018/11/25 | He just snapped. I need out. Out of desperation I'm writing here.
I've been with my trans husband for 4 years. 2 married. We moved recently and he has gotten into fitness and sea rescue and such. Tonight was his sea rescue year end function and we went. I was annoyed by 9:30 because he kept leaving me out and going to... | -0.366515 | 1.815008 | 1.563446 | 97.959836 | 90.565657 | 4.178101 | 20.041212 | 5.683918 | -0.248049 | 719 | 24 | 167 | 5 | 25 | 236 | 119 | 198 | 0.11 | 0.86 | 0.03 | -0.9406 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 30 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 25 | 13 | 1 | 30 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 100 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178645 | 0 | 0.171011 | 0 | 0 | 0.14583 | 0 | 0.154616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18241 | 0 | 0.099212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350214 | 0 | 0 | 0.201429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185539 | 0 | 0.129441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102965 | 0.138565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124009 | 0 | 0 | 0.224834 |
suicidewatch | CONNERtheKent | 2018/11/25 | I couldn’t hang myself today I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t stop think of my friends. My girlfriend loves me so much. It would destroy my mom and my dad. I couldn’t do it. I feel like a coward. | -1.745039 | 0.171624 | 0.377093 | 105.123624 | 96.674419 | 2.866667 | 14.143411 | 3.1291 | -1.661617 | 147 | 3 | 38 | 0 | 6 | 48 | 27 | 43 | 0.193 | 0.6 | 0.207 | 0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193319 | 0.273139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447785 | 0 | 0 | 0.281059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271599 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thatoneuselessscrub | 2019/04/02 | Most likely gonna kms in a few weeks Im about to turn 18 in like 17 days.
I only want to sleep. I dont want anything Else. My mother keeps pressuring me about getting a job and that she'll kick me out if i dont do that soon. I dont rly care though since i already decided to kms once i cant stay in bed anymore. Out of ... | -0.244556 | 0.994501 | 2.695278 | 95.77625 | 82.62963 | 5.685185 | 19.398148 | 6.427356 | -0.17363 | 446 | 11 | 116 | 4 | 12 | 159 | 82 | 135 | 0.138 | 0.801 | 0.061 | -0.8925 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 17 | 24 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 73 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136648 | 0.099026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122805 | 0 | 0 | 0.1019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.725632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133756 | 0 | 0.122881 | 0.220129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131874 | 0 | 0.094177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102432 | 0 | 0.123918 | 0 | 0 | 0.095329 | 0 | 0 | 0.087647 | 0.26397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079344 | 0.121661 | 0 | 0.072206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13469 | 0 | 0.12891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146075 | 0 | 0.099328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Blyzel | 2019/04/02 | last year (maybe) hey i think i'll commit suicide in 2020 because i don't want to be a burden anymore. not sure what else to say, i'll probably take some pills and play computer games and eat whatever i want before it happens. so yeah | 2.723125 | 4.395515 | 4.085833 | 87.1425 | 75.458333 | 7.3 | 26.583333 | 8.076483 | 1.643483 | 185 | 7 | 38 | 3 | 4 | 61 | 40 | 48 | 0.226 | 0.631 | 0.143 | -0.5171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169451 | 0 | 0.236537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284438 | 0.232213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30406 | 0 | 0.261988 | 0 | 0.209003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179007 |
suicidewatch | noah-has-ance | 2019/04/02 | Best way to kill myself I would like to know. | 0.055 | 1.819947 | 1.29 | 103.625 | 84 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -2.146 | 35 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 10 | 0.27 | 0.345 | 0.385 | 0.25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.553126 | 0 | 0.274762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355154 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | vervloer | 2019/04/02 | I don’t have any reasons to live. I’ve looked online for reasons that other people do but none resonate with me. Every comment people make for why they lived is like “I keep living because I’ll be missed” or “I keep living because I can help others” but like no one wants me around so why would anyone miss me? No one wa... | 2.536272 | 3.525547 | 4.183912 | 89.012029 | 74.702479 | 6.038935 | 22.535354 | 5.822114 | 0.304481 | 443 | 11 | 95 | 2 | 9 | 149 | 68 | 121 | 0.16 | 0.734 | 0.106 | -0.7086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 27 | 23 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 11 | 21 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 62 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07003 | 0.107984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072006 | 0 | 0 | 0.183349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100622 | 0 | 0.454668 | 0 | 0.172955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.635287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073154 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justsomerandomassguy | 2019/04/02 | I feel like i am supposed to commit suicide. Many people know what they want to do. Be a doctor, a car mechanic, Teacher, baker, whatever else there is.
While i just lay in bed and do nothing. I only watch anime and rarely Play some PC. And i thought a bit about it. Everything was kinda ok until i didnt know what i wa... | 0.404513 | 2.30256 | 2.676508 | 93.43 | 83.541063 | 5.295514 | 19.518979 | 6.427356 | 0.010892 | 743 | 20 | 169 | 7 | 21 | 253 | 123 | 207 | 0.102 | 0.817 | 0.082 | -0.7868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 24 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 35 | 40 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 26 | 6 | 21 | 25 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 117 | 33 | 7 | 0.116065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096575 | 0 | 0 | 0.157856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115105 | 0 | 0 | 0.095511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118797 | 0 | 0 | 0.408081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058686 | 0.082917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179343 | 0 | 0.121278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12537 | 0 | 0 | 0.103164 | 0 | 0 | 0.127572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113407 | 0 | 0.102487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117672 | 0 | 0.126429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111367 | 0.132141 | 0 | 0 | 0.078649 | 0.088273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117464 | 0.092489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09601 | 0 | 0.116149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0788 | 0.126245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | theguythatdoes_stuff | 2019/04/02 | Uncontrollable thoughts Due to my social akwardness, social axiety, and depression, I ruined my chances with this cute girl that I was friends with before (by texting and now im blocked) and I've been feeling nothing but shit all day even though I try to forget it but my brain reminds me "hey remember that thing that y... | 4.974074 | 6.54322 | 5.335494 | 80.854722 | 69.493827 | 8.85679 | 31.401235 | 9.299571 | 2.832879 | 676 | 29 | 126 | 14 | 12 | 215 | 107 | 162 | 0.235 | 0.625 | 0.139 | -0.9639 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 21 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 22 | 6 | 17 | 12 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 91 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10048 | 0 | 0.113034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121592 | 0 | 0 | 0.168096 | 0.138823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164126 | 0 | 0.164947 | 0 | 0 | 0.150649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117973 | 0 | 0 | 0.095292 | 0 | 0.254527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114157 | 0.1366 | 0.154395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144771 | 0.141778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094657 | 0 | 0 | 0.158637 | 0.167381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098164 | 0 | 0.145171 | 0.117303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104963 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | crapehaanger | 2019/04/02 | I'm just tired. Everything that could possibly have gone wrong in my life has gone wrong. I'm pushing thirty and have accomplished nothing. None of the antidepressants that I've been on have done shit. I want to drive off of a bridge. | 2.747333 | 5.476431 | 2.866667 | 90.54 | 80.555556 | 7.155556 | 22.333333 | 8.238736 | 1.3178 | 188 | 6 | 38 | 4 | 5 | 57 | 35 | 45 | 0.25 | 0.668 | 0.083 | -0.8591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.61391 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rowrowjack | 2019/04/02 | My (28F) sister-in-law's (25F) boyfriend (27M) keeps threatening suicide Whenever they fight, my sister-in-law's boyfriend threatens suicide on social media.
It is a toxic relationship. They have big fights very regularly. I'm concerned she is hesitant to break up with him because she is scared he will go through with... | 3.197372 | 5.864532 | 3.9248 | 84.049785 | 78.12 | 7.046154 | 28.015385 | 8.13951 | 2.155812 | 526 | 23 | 96 | 10 | 13 | 167 | 80 | 125 | 0.297 | 0.686 | 0.017 | -0.99 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 18 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 16 | 16 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 57 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0.325683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147557 | 0 | 0.234743 | 0 | 0.218593 | 0.1376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140101 | 0.116451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.60134 | 0 | 0.129534 | 0 | 0 | 0.110468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113401 | 0.081065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Julie_OwO | 2019/04/02 | Quick question: why should I stay alive right now when I could just not? I seriously dont know why I'm supposed to not kill myself right now. Who cares? (None of my family does) Am I missing something because I want to hear a solid reason why I cant just be dead and move on (whatever comes next) | 2.50623 | 4.04033 | 3.869639 | 89.048721 | 75.721311 | 6.847213 | 23.67541 | 7.554174 | 0.924512 | 231 | 7 | 50 | 3 | 5 | 76 | 47 | 61 | 0.035 | 0.685 | 0.28 | 0.924 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 30 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201866 | 0 | 0 | 0.170553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173264 | 0 | 0.232045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219049 | 0 | 0.108811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.535971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Em332 | 2019/04/02 | So had it with everyone! Honestly tried and everyone ended up leaving thanks! Well I’ve tried everything to end it so now I feel like the only way to get this job done is either get hit by a car speeding or jump in front of a moving train I think I’m gonna do the train bc I no longer can live in this fucking world! Goo... | 0.102857 | 2.23725 | 2.319643 | 94.016607 | 86.857143 | 5.785714 | 20.178571 | 7.168622 | 0.466571 | 255 | 8 | 58 | 4 | 8 | 86 | 55 | 70 | 0.031 | 0.805 | 0.164 | 0.857 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 32 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419735 | 0.197391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111052 | 0.156905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203046 | 0.229497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107301 | 0 | 0.193939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174333 | 0 | 0 | 0.197475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ddalcanto | 2019/04/02 | Why not suicide? The past few months I've been trying to think of the reasons as to why I continue living, and I seriously can't think of anything.
First of all, I'm a firm believer in the idea that if life has even one second of misery, it isn't worth living. It just makes so much sense to me; death is obviously the ... | 6.201686 | 6.237706 | 7.102884 | 74.773512 | 66.034884 | 10.135814 | 32.897674 | 9.888513 | 3.083282 | 695 | 27 | 133 | 14 | 10 | 233 | 93 | 172 | 0.324 | 0.613 | 0.062 | -0.9945 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 27 | 10 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 19 | 20 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 91 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144087 | 0.134212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134089 | 0 | 0 | 0.102109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265457 | 0.133617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3753 | 0 | 0.143911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090332 | 0 | 0 | 0.225857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10208 | 0 | 0.094013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136198 | 0.086661 | 0.291796 | 0.272166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101512 | 0 | 0 | 0.114988 | 0 | 0.3462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082356 |
suicidewatch | metalixia | 2019/04/02 | I don’t fucking know what to do lmao Okay so basically since i was 12 i’ve always been severely depressed. I started using drugs to help cope but in the long run i think that made it worse. I’m 15 now and i have a dependency on weed, i’m a borderline alcoholic, I use cocaine almost every weekend, I have unbearable hppd... | 2.087964 | 4.302323 | 3.753689 | 86.258456 | 79.368852 | 6.197814 | 25.330601 | 7.333567 | 1.329867 | 955 | 37 | 186 | 13 | 24 | 318 | 136 | 244 | 0.152 | 0.772 | 0.075 | -0.9731 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 33 | 48 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 26 | 4 | 22 | 43 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 117 | 39 | 5 | 0 | 0.132555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119562 | 0.112028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247578 | 0 | 0.072151 | 0 | 0.096359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099089 | 0 | 0 | 0.073893 | 0 | 0.094261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086435 | 0.206856 | 0 | 0 | 0.317909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074988 | 0.118203 | 0 | 0.111118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198882 | 0.123775 | 0 | 0.184453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099007 | 0 | 0.125161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255261 | 0 | 0 | 0.248451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088969 | 0 | 0.22645 | 0 | 0 | 0.116711 | 0.126388 | 0 | 0.092545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086128 | 0 | 0 | 0.079187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148651 | 0.071686 | 0 | 0 | 0.065236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | I-Am-Gaynadian | 2019/04/02 | Bye I can't do this anymore. There is zero point to my continuined life. I have no job. I have no friends who actually give a shit about me. I have no family. I have nothing. I don't even have fucking food to eat. I'm a worthless piece of shit. | -1.499198 | 0.479081 | 1.465448 | 96.355908 | 99 | 4.914151 | 19.832547 | 6.627428 | 0.264587 | 187 | 7 | 45 | 3 | 8 | 65 | 36 | 53 | 0.305 | 0.639 | 0.057 | -0.9118 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.246642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305619 | 0 | 0.195269 | 0.233658 | 0 | 0.242455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | salic912 | 2019/04/02 | I’m ending it all tonight I have finally gained a courage to clean and load my rifle after many months.I have been extremely suicidal and finally my time has come.I’m an ultimate failure of this ruthless society.My ex has left me,so did my friends.What’s the point of living anymore?Now just before i put the barrel of t... | 3.552857 | 5.310333 | 4.843289 | 82.220814 | 73.418605 | 9.100332 | 29.727575 | 9.606745 | 2.918823 | 344 | 15 | 67 | 9 | 7 | 114 | 64 | 86 | 0.18 | 0.701 | 0.119 | -0.7713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 38 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.690565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171285 | 0 | 0 | 0.228308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ass_Clapptron_3000 | 2019/04/02 | My experience Not even sure if this fits here but I felt like sharing my story
About a month ago I tried and failed to commit suicide
I woke up at three in the morning drank about 5 beers ( I'm a lightweight and hadn't drank in months) got drunk and then ate 5 fairly strong weed edibles. Around 4 am I took 70 zoloft... | 2.040295 | 3.977459 | 3.021212 | 92.832273 | 78.25 | 6.19697 | 22.575758 | 7.168622 | 0.596792 | 918 | 28 | 202 | 11 | 22 | 292 | 144 | 240 | 0.131 | 0.764 | 0.105 | -0.7662 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 33 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 4 | 31 | 5 | 34 | 9 | 4 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 128 | 36 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23099 | 0 | 0 | 0.121894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264956 | 0.148387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11491 | 0 | 0 | 0.085691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12457 | 0 | 0 | 0.110356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063384 | 0 | 0.114562 | 0 | 0.108948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303897 | 0.207113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283826 | 0 | 0.122277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151303 | 0 | 0 | 0.247942 | 0.288289 | 0.088084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pumpkinsbean | 2019/04/02 | I can’t I’m beyond done. I don’t think I can go on. I feel beyond awful. My relationship just failed so badly and it’s my fault. I don’t see a point in continuing. I won’t ever forgive myself or move past this. I needed a push to make me follow through, just like I did last time, and I feel like this could be it. Not f... | -2.455128 | -0.776794 | 0.910066 | 99.343267 | 104.604396 | 3.305788 | 11.561172 | 5.2151 | -1.489664 | 308 | 5 | 77 | 2 | 15 | 109 | 59 | 91 | 0.136 | 0.765 | 0.098 | -0.458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 4 | 7 | 17 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 53 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196634 | 0 | 0 | 0.15883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373579 | 0.175942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261756 | 0 | 0.365226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157806 | 0 | 0 | 0.143607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Idontcareanymore2019 | 2019/04/02 | I asked my girlfriend to go live at her mom's So this is a long and complicated story and I don't want to bore anyone and type out way to much so..
Me and my girlfriend had been together for almost 6 years. Through those years we would fight a good bit but we were steady and loved each other. I had my issues and she ... | 1.163552 | 2.470572 | 2.792822 | 96.318994 | 78.823789 | 6.100533 | 19.436355 | 6.718309 | -0.147819 | 1,602 | 34 | 400 | 15 | 38 | 528 | 204 | 454 | 0.12 | 0.791 | 0.089 | -0.9377 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 42 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 21 | 1 | 36 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 84 | 82 | 46 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 44 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 31 | 7 | 80 | 11 | 56 | 42 | 13 | 61 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 58 | 20 | 1 | 11 | 30 | 285 | 104 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069387 | 0 | 0.078382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059881 | 0 | 0.077629 | 0.054732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146355 | 0 | 0 | 0.120378 | 0 | 0.047716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08805 | 0.069329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079157 | 0.05592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257476 | 0 | 0 | 0.081792 | 0 | 0.177944 | 0.065654 | 0.062604 | 0 | 0.172459 | 0.232516 | 0 | 0 | 0.07012 | 0.077281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078517 | 0 | 0 | 0.180639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163399 | 0.155353 | 0 | 0.086601 | 0 | 0.043018 | 0 | 0 | 0.248648 | 0 | 0.080042 | 0 | 0.114725 | 0 | 0.138238 | 0.138543 | 0.065732 | 0 | 0 | 0.199642 | 0.141294 | 0.148133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183351 | 0.062479 | 0 | 0.057542 | 0 | 0 | 0.075599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106083 | 0 | 0 | 0.09184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060261 | 0 | 0 | 0.110808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058854 | 0.188745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182573 | 0 | 0.074196 | 0.149592 | 0 | 0.053144 | 0.085142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138507 | 0.124263 | 0 | 0 | 0.070379 | 0.145125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056986 | 0 | 0 | 0.11121 | 0 | 0 | 0.100814 |
suicidewatch | throwaway10009268910 | 2019/04/02 | Should I leave a note? Should I try to explain why?
No matter what I say it’s never going to be anything more than a few last words.
Is it for them? Really!? Or is it a way for me to feel less selfish and justify with an excuse. | -0.966733 | 0.993007 | 2.056 | 95.164667 | 90.4 | 4.933333 | 16.333333 | 6.427356 | -0.351467 | 173 | 4 | 41 | 2 | 6 | 61 | 39 | 50 | 0.156 | 0.794 | 0.05 | -0.7235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317668 | 0 | 0.412649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | beyondbroken1 | 2019/04/02 | Unable I tired, but my body did not want to die. My face was red and my veins were budging when I got up. Why am I telling the internet this, its probably a bad idea. Later I beat myself with a belt to feel something. I'm so alone. I'm so empty. Its been so long. I cried silently on the bus, some people laughed at me,... | 2.663463 | 4.411795 | 3.746863 | 89.183132 | 75.816976 | 6.940617 | 25.043849 | 7.756953 | 1.186629 | 1,457 | 50 | 312 | 21 | 32 | 471 | 210 | 377 | 0.245 | 0.652 | 0.103 | -0.9957 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 20 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 26 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 51 | 54 | 27 | 3 | 9 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 53 | 8 | 36 | 37 | 5 | 51 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 18 | 0 | 8 | 22 | 191 | 61 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107966 | 0 | 0 | 0.173481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097455 | 0 | 0 | 0.080158 | 0.174081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115793 | 0 | 0 | 0.106446 | 0 | 0.106285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229017 | 0.067229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068853 | 0.094296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088671 | 0 | 0 | 0.241618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11849 | 0 | 0.083374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10292 | 0 | 0 | 0.117492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103539 | 0 | 0 | 0.111597 | 0.11768 | 0 | 0 | 0.103447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05729 | 0.084974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050929 | 0 | 0 | 0.092254 | 0 | 0 | 0.113796 | 0 | 0 | 0.098639 | 0.069584 | 0 | 0.104728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097827 | 0.204276 | 0 | 0 | 0.218775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110924 | 0 | 0 | 0.112887 | 0 | 0.144541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086233 | 0 | 0.10432 | 0 | 0 | 0.160506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111111 | 0 | 0.087154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066796 | 0 | 0 | 0.060786 | 0.239629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122973 | 0.082745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096636 | 0.18813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075892 | 0 | 0.106235 | 0.074053 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bornlifted | 2019/04/02 | I think I'm finally ready This has been building up for too long. I have tried to ignore the feelings for quite some time. I'm sick of feeling so inadequate at everything. I'm tired of trying to be happy or acting like it may get better. I'm sick of opening up to people or loved ones only to have my feelings ign... | 2.125355 | 3.568906 | 3.729911 | 90.033542 | 76.539063 | 6.43869 | 21.956101 | 7.071269 | 0.51606 | 949 | 25 | 209 | 10 | 21 | 316 | 139 | 256 | 0.187 | 0.683 | 0.13 | -0.944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 45 | 53 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 28 | 11 | 31 | 36 | 7 | 26 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 136 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092185 | 0.095917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103601 | 0 | 0.10867 | 0 | 0.174859 | 0 | 0.110681 | 0.126277 | 0.210717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120452 | 0 | 0.065513 | 0.096687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122712 | 0 | 0.11381 | 0 | 0.122531 | 0 | 0 | 0.077266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120316 | 0 | 0.102461 | 0 | 0 | 0.063352 | 0.093964 | 0.130034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081422 | 0.056317 | 0 | 0.101789 | 0.102014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098002 | 0.10404 | 0.109075 | 0 | 0 | 0.231617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270016 | 0 | 0.122518 | 0 | 0.085474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078113 | 0.175343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115883 | 0 | 0.122608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153166 | 0.369316 | 0 | 0.091515 | 0.067217 | 0.132491 | 0.109267 | 0 | 0 | 0.156527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067992 | 0.091499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074233 |
suicidewatch | dominationdomi | 2019/04/02 | Yea my thoughts.. So hello this is my first time posting here...
And I'm just hate myself I have barely slept these past couple of weeks and the only thing I could think about was ending it and how I hate myself... I feel like I only cause hurt and that people would be better off without me, I know it sounds cliché but... | 1.08011 | 3.368817 | 1.963396 | 97.194104 | 83.835165 | 4.07956 | 14.594505 | 4.935629 | -1.159194 | 347 | 5 | 76 | 1 | 10 | 108 | 61 | 91 | 0.118 | 0.768 | 0.114 | -0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 52 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131728 | 0.182554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083422 | 0.117866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080604 | 0 | 0 | 0.146007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157498 | 0.228761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109609 | 0.105716 | 0 | 0.261961 | 0.096205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234402 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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