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suicidewatch | dayleighknightlite | 2019/04/02 | I got a knife and I've cut myself a lot I've never had a knife this sharp before. I don't understand why I'm not dead yet. I cut myself a lot deeper than I thought I did. Can you guys talk to me before I bleed out? | -2.034118 | -0.373904 | 1.37598 | 100.336912 | 92.137255 | 4.184314 | 12.421569 | 5.461319 | -1.386937 | 164 | 2 | 44 | 1 | 6 | 59 | 34 | 51 | 0.101 | 0.816 | 0.083 | 0.0624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239233 | 0 | 0 | 0.296175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jazzuz | 2019/04/02 | someone dm me will delete this in a couple of minutes | 2.481818 | 4.494315 | 3.718182 | 87.997273 | 77.181818 | 4.4 | 29.181818 | 3.1291 | 0.9442 | 43 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.793955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.607977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway08147 | 2019/04/02 | Why is suicide worse/more tragic than other deaths? Was reading an article about the Christchurch shooting that included the writer's personal experience with a friend committing suicide. They seemed to be weighting it as a greater loss than, say, losing someone to illness or old age. Death is death. Is it really worth... | 6.470378 | 9.300577 | 5.71411 | 74.479083 | 68.126214 | 7.684574 | 33.774542 | 8.515129 | 3.18356 | 485 | 23 | 71 | 8 | 9 | 147 | 79 | 103 | 0.419 | 0.493 | 0.088 | -0.9948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 43 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347697 | 0 | 0.086358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160683 | 0 | 0.153538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108939 | 0.137206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157179 | 0 | 0.100666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092683 | 0 | 0 | 0.19135 | 0 | 0 | 0.141792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | load_PROG_8_1 | 2019/04/02 | Does anyone else feel that the end is a lot closer now? I had sort of slowly working my way to it for a year or two. Wrapping up projects, packing and getting rid of belongings. A few hiatus gaps, but back on track to tying up lose ends. I feel I'm very close and cant quite know what I should be feeling. It's not sadne... | -0.186379 | 1.669866 | 1.717376 | 99.701087 | 85.521739 | 4.676462 | 16.038981 | 5.727593 | -0.872522 | 966 | 18 | 241 | 6 | 29 | 318 | 149 | 276 | 0.18 | 0.683 | 0.137 | -0.9318 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 54 | 48 | 24 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 24 | 8 | 27 | 37 | 5 | 37 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 11 | 21 | 147 | 41 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071749 | 0.105139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096408 | 0.078903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081928 | 0 | 0 | 0.066177 | 0.105789 | 0 | 0 | 0.106496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089797 | 0 | 0.360785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08572 | 0 | 0.272654 | 0.106027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096734 | 0 | 0.259421 | 0.146613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079279 | 0 | 0.107222 | 0 | 0.058317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112787 | 0.083643 | 0 | 0.217305 | 0.111489 | 0 | 0 | 0.250658 | 0 | 0 | 0.090809 | 0 | 0.114798 | 0 | 0.087238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078042 | 0.109187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142278 | 0 | 0.107209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078996 | 0 | 0 | 0.07263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131501 | 0 | 0 | 0.239338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169333 | 0.060524 | 0.162899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132159 |
suicidewatch | _Ice-Bear_ | 2019/04/02 | Not suicidal, Just waiting to die... I have to get this off my chest.
I live a very unproductive, self-destructive life. It's not like I've been dealt a bad hand at life or anything or had been traumatized or done wrong by someone to be this way. I feel lost and hopeless and at this point, the only way I see my life g... | 1.994945 | 3.051947 | 3.92898 | 90.048163 | 76.142857 | 7.08383 | 23.204082 | 7.5991 | 0.802383 | 2,289 | 65 | 532 | 30 | 49 | 780 | 236 | 637 | 0.145 | 0.806 | 0.049 | -0.995 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 65 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 59 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 107 | 125 | 48 | 5 | 17 | 30 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 27 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 16 | 79 | 10 | 66 | 89 | 7 | 79 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 38 | 1 | 17 | 24 | 346 | 116 | 18 | 0.052498 | 0 | 0.05123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056881 | 0.063791 | 0.107101 | 0.055049 | 0 | 0 | 0.052064 | 0 | 0 | 0.172805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121103 | 0.175334 | 0.032002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092995 | 0 | 0 | 0.069349 | 0 | 0.044232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212356 | 0.037504 | 0 | 0 | 0.047982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164568 | 0 | 0.149179 | 0.088065 | 0.083975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092847 | 0 | 0.047028 | 0.103662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052096 | 0.093325 | 0 | 0 | 0.173109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053683 | 0.296646 | 0.076943 | 0.052617 | 0.092713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057308 | 0.044632 | 0 | 0 | 0.035043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058313 | 0 | 0 | 0.055692 | 0.053008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038592 | 0 | 0.04049 | 0 | 0.111664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059769 | 0 | 0 | 0.071148 | 0.039927 | 0 | 0 | 0.058293 | 0 | 0 | 0.036395 | 0.045839 | 0 | 0 | 0.248137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052775 | 0 | 0.055838 | 0 | 0 | 0.168157 | 0.053977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049937 | 0.041748 | 0 | 0.212523 | 0.083668 | 0.047792 | 0.054767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05901 | 0 | 0 | 0.044481 | 0 | 0 | 0.058767 | 0 | 0.055956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114848 | 0 | 0.049479 | 0 | 0.039472 | 0 | 0.045885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129949 | 0.154823 | 0.250022 | 0 | 0 | 0.047202 | 0.194664 | 0 | 0 | 0.06037 | 0 | 0 | 0.038219 | 0 | 0.0535 | 0.037293 | 0.114796 | 0.063791 | 0.135228 |
suicidewatch | throwaway444276 | 2019/04/02 | yea no job, estranged from family, s.o. is increasingly hating me for not having a job (despite the fact that i pay all the bills using money saved from being a workaholic at my various previously shitty dead end jobs), s.o. doesn't even want me in the apartment anymore, if i loose them I'll have nothing but a stupid b... | 11.951116 | 6.011601 | 11.128161 | 69.157696 | 60.157025 | 13.422314 | 41.820248 | 8.841846 | 3.755775 | 469 | 14 | 95 | 4 | 4 | 153 | 90 | 121 | 0.189 | 0.734 | 0.077 | -0.8787 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 14 | 14 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 61 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180681 | 0.12739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161364 | 0 | 0 | 0.120333 | 0 | 0.307001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157351 | 0 | 0 | 0.107459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jesullaneda | 2019/07/25 | I told my mom I'm suicidal, she forgot. A few weeks ago I was doing a few chores with her when I broke down and told her that I hated life and that all I ever did when I woke is wishing something would kill that day because I'm not brave enough to do it myself, she called me ungrateful and I snapped and slapped her (It... | 7.349442 | 5.330566 | 7.229419 | 81.525058 | 64.674419 | 10.646512 | 34.05814 | 9.120679 | 2.600916 | 823 | 27 | 180 | 11 | 10 | 263 | 107 | 215 | 0.234 | 0.724 | 0.042 | -0.9931 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 37 | 19 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 46 | 2 | 13 | 21 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 43 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 132 | 63 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101798 | 0 | 0.101644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109508 | 0.064294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088299 | 0.206019 | 0 | 0.065846 | 0.090178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088158 | 0 | 0 | 0.098426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220591 | 0 | 0 | 0.081263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.564665 | 0 | 0.094831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058132 | 0 | 0.094497 | 0.381044 | 0 | 0.067685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117603 | 0 | 0.079968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089958 | 0 | 0.114642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070819 | 0.108999 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ill_lude | 2019/07/25 | Please anyone I just need help I want it to end Hey guys, I have just not been able to do anything i feel so lost and feel there is no reason to live. Ive always been sad or "depressed" but not clinically just like when people say they are extremly sad but something im going through right now is making me not want to l... | 1.360547 | 2.885405 | 2.500809 | 97.677899 | 78.865591 | 5.474169 | 19.263378 | 5.97438 | -0.393498 | 5,378 | 115 | 1,304 | 32 | 129 | 1,714 | 408 | 1,488 | 0.137 | 0.711 | 0.152 | 0.9858 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 89 | 25 | 6 | 10 | 11 | 93 | 94 | 12 | 0 | 51 | 2 | 134 | 18 | 2 | 13 | 17 | 282 | 272 | 174 | 3 | 37 | 66 | 4 | 6 | 19 | 19 | 12 | 3 | 32 | 3 | 8 | 49 | 128 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 29 | 43 | 26 | 2 | 7 | 139 | 44 | 264 | 68 | 163 | 107 | 25 | 189 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 12 | 271 | 59 | 2 | 23 | 107 | 920 | 313 | 13 | 0.023564 | 0.02792 | 0.022995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048811 | 0.026004 | 0.018844 | 0.058822 | 0 | 0 | 0.016025 | 0.024709 | 0 | 0 | 0.02337 | 0.032954 | 0 | 0.038783 | 0.020977 | 0.154207 | 0 | 0 | 0.090598 | 0.019675 | 0.014365 | 0 | 0.020052 | 0 | 0.074188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048124 | 0.053903 | 0.072076 | 0 | 0.024928 | 0.121792 | 0.024707 | 0 | 0 | 0.037628 | 0.078221 | 0.025884 | 0.091182 | 0 | 0.040592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048229 | 0.055235 | 0.023084 | 0 | 0 | 0.059055 | 0 | 0.062613 | 0 | 0.026281 | 0.062256 | 0.021315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088858 | 0 | 0.035745 | 0 | 0.067876 | 0.025814 | 0.021537 | 0.020044 | 0 | 0 | 0.327704 | 0 | 0.049246 | 0.04521 | 0.080353 | 0.039529 | 0.094233 | 0 | 0.025959 | 0.139995 | 0.020838 | 0.075254 | 0 | 0 | 0.024184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031589 | 0.024897 | 0.070911 | 0 | 0.069618 | 0.05438 | 0 | 0 | 0.152721 | 0 | 0.046768 | 0 | 0.02607 | 0 | 0.051801 | 0.038416 | 0.026582 | 0.099805 | 0.051206 | 0.048192 | 0 | 0.184198 | 0.047235 | 0.062423 | 0.020854 | 0.019788 | 0 | 0.07717 | 0.020034 | 0.085071 | 0.022297 | 0.047188 | 0.119453 | 0.023674 | 0.025669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055197 | 0.112853 | 0.025045 | 0.051968 | 0.087363 | 0.090871 | 0 | 0.050122 | 0.022114 | 0.023088 | 0.022611 | 0.026828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053765 | 0.025074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.016337 | 0 | 0.02462 | 0.0776 | 0.022276 | 0 | 0.022568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024228 | 0 | 0.050599 | 0 | 0.020124 | 0.605208 | 0.037479 | 0 | 0.119242 | 0.018778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159728 | 0.054423 | 0.023306 | 0.079135 | 0.033358 | 0.050233 | 0.112911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.017717 | 0.094701 | 0.020596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078276 | 0.030198 | 0.023152 | 0.037415 | 0.082443 | 0 | 0 | 0.112584 | 0 | 0.031997 | 0.025631 | 0.069057 | 0.024531 | 0.028345 | 0.020352 | 0 | 0 | 0.12509 | 0.018704 | 0.075608 | 0 | 0.042374 | 0.109222 | 0 | 0.026309 | 0 | 0.022715 | 0 | 0.017155 | 0.023931 | 0 | 0.083697 | 0.025764 | 0 | 0.015175 |
suicidewatch | jdhge | 2019/07/25 | Who wanna talk I am deadass bored about a lot of things and would use some talk rn. Thanks | -1.454474 | -0.05763 | -1.316447 | 112.961118 | 114.789474 | 1.9 | 10.013158 | 3.1291 | -2.496063 | 71 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 18 | 19 | 0.105 | 0.75 | 0.145 | 0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.66483 | 0 | 0.380763 | 0 | 0 | 0.27476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293791 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | X_VirtualHorror_X | 2019/07/25 | I’m so retarded (Rant) I should be dead right now, almost certain of it. I overdosed on over a hundred pills, but I called 911 like a retard. If I hadn’t I wouldn’t be here right now. I ended up in the hospital for ~3 weeks, and inpatient for 1. Inpatient just made all my problems worse. Taught me absolutely nothing on... | 3.471667 | 4.857931 | 4.544347 | 85.784716 | 72.949045 | 7.781104 | 26.45913 | 8.3441 | 1.676355 | 612 | 21 | 125 | 10 | 12 | 200 | 102 | 157 | 0.252 | 0.699 | 0.049 | -0.9908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 27 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 2 | 20 | 11 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 86 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159137 | 0.132949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136716 | 0 | 0 | 0.203905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080646 | 0 | 0.087726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292116 | 0.103036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113471 | 0.114455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161272 | 0 | 0.145919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091045 | 0 | 0.123817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Some_Random_Brit | 2019/07/25 | Thank you. I'm your typical Robin Williams case I look and sound happy but I'm not. I'm here for my child and that's it, reading some of the comments in this sub help and I thank you all for helping people in the same situation as I keep up the good work. | 0.991429 | 2.556942 | 2.685143 | 95.759857 | 80.071429 | 5.908571 | 21.914286 | 6.742158 | 0.217104 | 200 | 6 | 49 | 2 | 5 | 66 | 41 | 56 | 0 | 0.71 | 0.29 | 0.9481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mehyc | 2019/07/25 | I do not understand even the simpliest reason a person give. I have a hard time trying to know the answer since I have depression and anxiety. I want people to let me think give me idea on. what it really is. Fo r examole, why you lied about it is it supposed to be my right to know. But he tells me that my reason is ju... | 0.828161 | 2.263286 | 3.469643 | 90.5425 | 80.125 | 7.571429 | 18.928571 | 8.418075 | 0.721232 | 281 | 6 | 67 | 6 | 7 | 99 | 54 | 80 | 0.162 | 0.805 | 0.033 | -0.8779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 46 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107227 | 0.393762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142285 | 0.179204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131479 | 0.422034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131507 | 0 | 0 | 0.119675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139342 | 0 | 0 | 0.213658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadexum | 2019/07/25 | I hope y'all understand what im trying to say Its hard knowing that nothing in the existence of the human race has ever mattered. No person has ever mattered. We could have lived without the birth of Newton and Einstein. We wouldn't be as scientifically advanced as we are right now for sure, but we would hav survived. ... | 7.961416 | 8.078142 | 7.802229 | 70.961805 | 62.356643 | 9.387762 | 36.756119 | 8.841846 | 3.358385 | 621 | 27 | 100 | 8 | 8 | 199 | 90 | 143 | 0.165 | 0.751 | 0.084 | -0.9187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 37 | 20 | 10 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 77 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154599 | 0 | 0 | 0.073667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155996 | 0 | 0.07749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369348 | 0.147315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240827 | 0 | 0.112129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09573 | 0 | 0 | 0.146786 | 0.169606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100162 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | captainmycaptainkirk | 2019/07/25 | mini rant sorry idk feeling shit had to post this? my boyfriend is jealous of how much time I spend with my family. and at first I thought its just because besides a lot of issues we have, we are a very close family with a better relationship than most. when I think about it, its because I'm scared. my dad had two hear... | 0.91454 | 2.108763 | 2.939754 | 95.482143 | 79.228571 | 5.970443 | 18.640394 | 6.48374 | -0.264098 | 1,212 | 23 | 301 | 10 | 29 | 410 | 157 | 350 | 0.185 | 0.736 | 0.079 | -0.9894 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 23 | 6 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 31 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 62 | 62 | 20 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 8 | 56 | 7 | 36 | 33 | 6 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 39 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 16 | 200 | 78 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058784 | 0 | 0.075123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311256 | 0 | 0.133556 | 0.047175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061048 | 0.069 | 0 | 0.150115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072744 | 0 | 0.116788 | 0 | 0.059154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078251 | 0 | 0.069769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499298 | 0.068923 | 0 | 0 | 0.146114 | 0 | 0.072581 | 0.053827 | 0 | 0.069921 | 0 | 0.067524 | 0.093284 | 0.032261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055452 | 0.073875 | 0 | 0.05614 | 0.119197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077339 | 0 | 0 | 0.048543 | 0 | 0.101859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044747 | 0.050222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062424 | 0 | 0.063243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042303 | 0.067894 | 0 | 0.070896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396671 | 0.06683 | 0.052621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050836 | 0 | 0.07392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084624 | 0 | 0.052424 | 0.231031 | 0 | 0 | 0.189296 | 0 | 0.044833 | 0 | 0.129012 | 0 | 0.238293 | 0 | 0 | 0.054485 | 0.077897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119171 | 0 | 0.075936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046909 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MattMurdock84 | 2019/07/25 | I need a gun If I had access to gun I would’ve done it already. | -3.3 | -1.859661 | 0.805 | 103.54 | 96.5 | 3.2 | 14.25 | 3.1291 | -1.588025 | 48 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 16 | 0.348 | 0.652 | 0 | -0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.605689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3899 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | frnksthrowaway | 2019/07/25 | at the end of this month i’ll be dead i never thought id make it to age 16 when i tried the first time but here i am at age 18, trying again. if i dont succeed now im fleeing the goddamn country.
my parents are basically driving me towards it, my own mother has told me to go die when she found out about my self harm. s... | 1.435898 | 2.327581 | 3.588527 | 92.593808 | 77.288288 | 6.30461 | 22.518283 | 6.522977 | 0.303841 | 770 | 21 | 187 | 6 | 17 | 265 | 131 | 222 | 0.206 | 0.707 | 0.086 | -0.9829 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 29 | 40 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 31 | 4 | 26 | 25 | 4 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 121 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088174 | 0.064375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089826 | 0 | 0.115789 | 0.081589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060017 | 0.088575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.570348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09325 | 0.186911 | 0.08868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211473 | 0 | 0 | 0.115033 | 0 | 0 | 0.106423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303988 | 0 | 0.110813 | 0.112464 | 0.07156 | 0.080316 | 0 | 0 | 0.11726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135304 | 0.108578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220335 | 0 | 0 | 0.087356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08488 | 0.092302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083837 | 0.061578 | 0 | 0 | 0.100908 | 0 | 0.143395 | 0 | 0 | 0.109937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075018 | 0 | 0 | 0.068005 |
suicidewatch | IceGube | 2019/07/25 | Worried about this redditor... not sure if this is the right place for it Found a post on r/relationship_advice about a guy who found out his wife has been cheating on him with his best friend. His last update worried me, I've PM'd him but I'm not the best at talking to to people about this kind of thing.
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suicidewatch | tweleve-naked-elves | 2019/07/25 | What about family? I hate it when people use this excuse to talk me out of suicide.
I’m a single care giver of special needs son. He’s abusive to me. | -0.35625 | 1.815246 | 2.64875 | 90.32125 | 90.25 | 4.45 | 17.375 | 5.985473 | -0.169275 | 116 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 4 | 41 | 28 | 32 | 0.288 | 0.488 | 0.225 | -0.6932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.420862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DeadPerson99 | 2019/07/25 | I feel empty I feel like the world is crushing me down. I have no one anymore. I’m 19 years old, but I don’t think I have many more years left due to depression and anxiety taking over my life over the past years. I think I’m gonna finally call it quits soon. My existence isn’t needed anyways. I want to have a friend b... | 1.000476 | 2.382618 | 3.12 | 93.473333 | 79.47619 | 6.571429 | 21.190476 | 7.38713 | 0.460619 | 370 | 10 | 89 | 5 | 9 | 126 | 64 | 105 | 0.218 | 0.662 | 0.12 | -0.891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 9 | 21 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 55 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139051 | 0 | 0.180264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183813 | 0.129854 | 0 | 0.199116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19749 | 0 | 0.256774 | 0.088802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190734 | 0 | 0.24634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351155 |
suicidewatch | irishpubgaming | 2019/07/25 | I’m done with it all. I’m ending it. I’m tired of being unable to cope with stress. It doesn’t help that my mom makes my stress even worse. I’m resorting to drugs and alcohol when I’m only 18. My life is going in a downward spiral. I attempted suicide multiple times but didn’t manage to do much. I’ve been manipulate... | 0.80234 | 2.925636 | 3.086275 | 89.757124 | 83.588235 | 5.895425 | 17.679739 | 7.168622 | 0.161405 | 632 | 14 | 137 | 9 | 18 | 216 | 103 | 170 | 0.182 | 0.735 | 0.083 | -0.9448 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 24 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 3 | 19 | 20 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 80 | 29 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100724 | 0 | 0.079851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13405 | 0 | 0 | 0.151908 | 0.134037 | 0.109427 | 0 | 0.232039 | 0 | 0 | 0.086519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066233 | 0.09358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175602 | 0.1384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185046 | 0.063996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087438 | 0.132805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153416 | 0 | 0 | 0.096294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139311 | 0 | 0 | 0.25138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398499 | 0.139384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10417 | 0 | 0.13257 | 0 | 0 | 0.136653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3001 | 0 | 0 | 0.143283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152764 | 0.150555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095363 | 0 | 0.133491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ___sahlofolina___ | 2019/07/25 | i’m nothing i really don’t know what to do or who to turn to but i’m going through such a rough patch right now and i doubt i’m gonna get out of it alive, i feel like i’m getting closer to killing myself by the second and i feel so desperate for help that i feel manipulative trying to get someone to take me seriously w... | 8.867427 | 4.799916 | 9.402985 | 73.511371 | 63.660194 | 12.435922 | 36.429612 | 9.827889 | 3.21375 | 762 | 22 | 166 | 11 | 8 | 261 | 122 | 206 | 0.177 | 0.661 | 0.162 | -0.861 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 35 | 35 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 20 | 5 | 33 | 30 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 103 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092002 | 0 | 0 | 0.17004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175024 | 0.154433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136519 | 0 | 0 | 0.135641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305247 | 0.10782 | 0.144911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116603 | 0 | 0.315406 | 0 | 0.085774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166975 | 0 | 0.082944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213204 | 0.147468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110946 | 0 | 0.116402 | 0 | 0.160509 | 0 | 0 | 0.289631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10227 | 0.114784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102467 | 0.164162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09719 |
suicidewatch | TrickyRing4 | 2019/07/25 | I most likely weigh over 20 stone I haven't weighed myself in a year because of fears of my weight being too high. I read an article where a woman got down to 13 stone and a size 8 (us 4). I struggle to squeeze into a size 12 (us 8) so it's obvious I weigh a lot more than 13 stone. If a size 8 woman weighs 13 stone ... | 4.713847 | 5.555877 | 4.746517 | 87.551136 | 69.447761 | 7.895854 | 27.202322 | 7.984001 | 1.453564 | 1,064 | 33 | 221 | 13 | 18 | 330 | 148 | 268 | 0.099 | 0.826 | 0.076 | -0.6753 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 53 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 24 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 31 | 3 | 27 | 20 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 124 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151981 | 0 | 0.095387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157841 | 0.070924 | 0.100208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205584 | 0 | 0.12386 | 0 | 0.11779 | 0 | 0 | 0.119251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106681 | 0 | 0 | 0.155752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141009 | 0 | 0 | 0.140307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224037 | 0 | 0 | 0.293278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.506178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082734 | 0 | 0 | 0.341619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199286 | 0 | 0 | 0.090328 |
suicidewatch | momosem | 2019/07/25 | I'm stopping fighting, I need to it I have the sensation to be in a circle, no matter what I do I always came back to the same position.
My family want me to be dependent on them and I'm not enough strong to obtain my independence.
I'm really far to obtain a degree and they don't want me to take a job without maste... | 0.269853 | 2.511976 | 2.679316 | 90.911701 | 87.387097 | 5.532356 | 20.282502 | 6.980633 | 0.493492 | 690 | 22 | 149 | 10 | 22 | 236 | 105 | 186 | 0.12 | 0.775 | 0.104 | -0.4408 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 32 | 36 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 5 | 18 | 28 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 103 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138155 | 0 | 0.109525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161476 | 0 | 0.169377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102111 | 0.150699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178295 | 0 | 0.198778 | 0 | 0.197484 | 0.146455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133223 | 0 | 0.173527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163565 | 0.187435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127633 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Unicorncorn21 | 2019/07/25 | In a few hours I will hang myself I've had enough. I'm not mad at the world. I've had plenty of good days and I'm glad I had them. I think I'm just done and it's my time to see what's beyond life. Instead of telling me to don't do it pray that sentience and imagination exist after death. That's what I'm scared of but I... | -0.653019 | 0.861684 | 1.607536 | 101.744227 | 85.086957 | 4.523671 | 16.743961 | 5.033349 | -1.059757 | 306 | 6 | 83 | 1 | 9 | 103 | 60 | 92 | 0.119 | 0.796 | 0.086 | -0.4151 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 49 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286946 | 0 | 0.22839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183648 | 0 | 0.227536 | 0.167124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16905 | 0.227497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lonelyanxiousfreak | 2019/07/25 | Not suicidal, but sometimes get extreme mood swings and feel like being hit by a bus would make me happy I want to mention I am not suicidal. Again. I am not depressed. Someone argued I was suicidal simply because I said I didn’t want to exist. I have mental breakdowns and wish I never was alive or was killed by accide... | 5.383285 | 6.940357 | 5.753398 | 78.294366 | 68.489164 | 7.974653 | 32.939727 | 8.399287 | 2.706439 | 2,735 | 124 | 475 | 40 | 47 | 875 | 302 | 646 | 0.19 | 0.682 | 0.128 | -0.9946 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 80 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 50 | 15 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 60 | 35 | 21 | 9 | 8 | 110 | 105 | 48 | 4 | 18 | 30 | 3 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 22 | 26 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 34 | 0 | 6 | 24 | 21 | 79 | 15 | 58 | 73 | 8 | 50 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 31 | 17 | 6 | 17 | 33 | 332 | 101 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058841 | 0 | 0 | 0.305417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065664 | 0 | 0 | 0.050003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061351 | 0.072628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064711 | 0 | 0.165459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05904 | 0 | 0.094999 | 0.134223 | 0 | 0 | 0.05724 | 0 | 0.075729 | 0.137336 | 0 | 0.231592 | 0.065441 | 0 | 0.106778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133336 | 0 | 0 | 0.064274 | 0.06657 | 0.211757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134088 | 0 | 0 | 0.065367 | 0 | 0 | 0.069288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068045 | 0 | 0 | 0.18358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053244 | 0.113047 | 0 | 0.209022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046038 | 0.046437 | 0.241511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122723 | 0.120185 | 0 | 0.131434 | 0.066696 | 0.084876 | 0 | 0.13328 | 0 | 0.139081 | 0 | 0 | 0.043418 | 0.054684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103612 | 0 | 0.125345 | 0 | 0.106128 | 0.048214 | 0.06194 | 0 | 0.044328 | 0 | 0.050014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071693 | 0.205513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047088 | 0.050338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036519 | 0.071981 | 0 | 0.059843 | 0 | 0.04252 | 0 | 0.183534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068975 | 0 | 0.258575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144037 | 0.241483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088978 | 0 | 0 | 0.12099 |
suicidewatch | Throing-myself-away | 2019/07/25 | I shat the bed at a job that I desperately needed. I lasted four days. I feel like punishing myself via suicide. It was a warehouse position. All I had to do was count boxes on a pallet and make sure they were all there. It should have been the best job of my life, but I quickly proved to them all why hiring me was a m... | 5.230138 | 5.576917 | 5.573901 | 83.8357 | 68.118457 | 8.271515 | 29.631956 | 8.021204 | 1.844918 | 2,866 | 98 | 579 | 33 | 45 | 915 | 293 | 726 | 0.109 | 0.794 | 0.097 | -0.9317 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 83 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 21 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 49 | 0 | 59 | 17 | 10 | 11 | 13 | 86 | 110 | 23 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 35 | 27 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 16 | 60 | 10 | 98 | 10 | 101 | 40 | 18 | 105 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 42 | 3 | 4 | 53 | 412 | 133 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0.051408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043985 | 0.032113 | 0.058181 | 0.089653 | 0 | 0.055284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107584 | 0.060252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04206 | 0 | 0.057866 | 0.271792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049662 | 0 | 0.026636 | 0.037634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194806 | 0.165138 | 0 | 0.089817 | 0.044185 | 0.126398 | 0 | 0 | 0.052161 | 0 | 0 | 0.094381 | 0 | 0.054065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07062 | 0 | 0.105684 | 0 | 0.259394 | 0 | 0 | 0.059469 | 0 | 0 | 0.313659 | 0.046824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214705 | 0.059425 | 0.05578 | 0 | 0.053869 | 0.037209 | 0.025737 | 0 | 0 | 0.04662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044786 | 0 | 0 | 0.140656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055885 | 0 | 0.061698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078123 | 0.04063 | 0.050878 | 0 | 0.098873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107091 | 0.040065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050289 | 0 | 0 | 0.055039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056031 | 0 | 0 | 0.033748 | 0.16249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043577 | 0 | 0.316306 | 0 | 0 | 0.121666 | 0 | 0 | 0.111861 | 0.05615 | 0 | 0.044043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115246 | 0 | 0.0993 | 0 | 0 | 0.042342 | 0.046044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139992 | 0 | 0 | 0.041822 | 0.092154 | 0.121095 | 0 | 0.151013 | 0 | 0 | 0.0573 | 0.205842 | 0 | 0 | 0.045498 | 0.058019 | 0.130399 | 0.031072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306811 | 0.053499 | 0 | 0.037422 | 0 | 0 | 0.067848 |
suicidewatch | lechatondhiver | 2019/07/25 | Every day I wake up wishing I had died in my sleep. I daydream almost constantly about getting shot in the head, or hit by a train. At this point, I don’t care enough to talk to anyone about it, and no one cares enough to do anything about it. I woke up at 6am today and have been on the internet for six hours googling ... | 3.198379 | 4.380202 | 4.177445 | 88.949547 | 73.333748 | 6.797916 | 24.093171 | 7.100726 | 0.815844 | 3,058 | 86 | 647 | 29 | 60 | 990 | 346 | 803 | 0.151 | 0.746 | 0.102 | -0.9919 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 128 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 5 | 46 | 46 | 15 | 2 | 38 | 2 | 60 | 18 | 10 | 8 | 13 | 117 | 123 | 42 | 6 | 14 | 28 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 35 | 35 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 29 | 20 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 12 | 80 | 26 | 100 | 92 | 27 | 86 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 43 | 42 | 8 | 17 | 28 | 435 | 115 | 6 | 0 | 0.067129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113467 | 0.058679 | 0.062522 | 0 | 0.047143 | 0 | 0 | 0.077057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112376 | 0.039616 | 0 | 0.186494 | 0 | 0.105933 | 0 | 0 | 0.043565 | 0 | 0.207224 | 0 | 0.048211 | 0 | 0 | 0.050108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288826 | 0 | 0 | 0.048805 | 0 | 0.061226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063731 | 0 | 0.175624 | 0 | 0.149685 | 0.102498 | 0.143207 | 0 | 0.050919 | 0 | 0.160232 | 0 | 0.028647 | 0 | 0.054399 | 0 | 0 | 0.048192 | 0 | 0 | 0.131318 | 0.104756 | 0.088802 | 0 | 0.064399 | 0.047521 | 0 | 0 | 0.062414 | 0 | 0.050101 | 0 | 0 | 0.16781 | 0.058146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059861 | 0 | 0 | 0.055795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050359 | 0.125364 | 0.058999 | 0.155685 | 0.046183 | 0 | 0 | 0.061558 | 0.057935 | 0.040018 | 0.055359 | 0 | 0 | 0.050139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048167 | 0.051135 | 0 | 0.113456 | 0 | 0.056919 | 0.061716 | 0.062933 | 0 | 0.057097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208246 | 0.04201 | 0.043697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111023 | 0.163091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061354 | 0 | 0.078557 | 0.197882 | 0 | 0 | 0.107118 | 0 | 0.054261 | 0.05764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056956 | 0 | 0 | 0.056672 | 0 | 0.036296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048384 | 0.053893 | 0 | 0 | 0.05734 | 0.135444 | 0.051578 | 0 | 0 | 0.174472 | 0.140601 | 0 | 0.056698 | 0.057754 | 0.048005 | 0.043617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106796 | 0 | 0.042599 | 0.091077 | 0.04952 | 0 | 0.064792 | 0 | 0.03764 | 0.036303 | 0.11133 | 0 | 0.099111 | 0 | 0.053704 | 0 | 0 | 0.076932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048933 | 0 | 0.093495 | 0.13367 | 0.089943 | 0 | 0 | 0.050941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040247 | 0 | 0 | 0.109455 |
suicidewatch | Din_Kinomoto | 2019/07/25 | I think I'll just go home and hang in the sewing room I'll tie up all the strings.
I'll tie them around the fan.
I'll make knot after knot after knot.
I'll wrap up my computer cords.
I'll close the door so kitty doesn't have to see.
Then I'll leave so everyone can be happy again. | -1.312969 | 0.620901 | 0.805 | 103.54 | 92.28125 | 4.45 | 12.6875 | 5.985473 | -1.288181 | 219 | 3 | 58 | 2 | 8 | 72 | 42 | 64 | 0.02 | 0.878 | 0.101 | 0.7003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slui3ide | 2019/07/25 | Trying to get help but it’s difficult I’m in Canada and I’m from the us. I forgot my Zoloft so I’ve been withdrawing for a week. I’m constantly lightheaded and dizzy. I’m getting migraines. And I want to be dead.
I went to a pharmacist and they said I can try taking Tylenol instead (?) but they can’t help me otherwi... | -0.358582 | 1.871297 | 2.043362 | 91.574333 | 98.787234 | 5.48539 | 23.287943 | 7.031649 | 1.247148 | 358 | 16 | 74 | 7 | 15 | 121 | 65 | 94 | 0.211 | 0.717 | 0.072 | -0.9446 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136416 | 0 | 0.185521 | 0 | 0 | 0.214401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TerryTheTacoMan | 2019/07/25 | I’m just so frustrated down to my very core Hi everyone,
I always lurk here but never post, but fuck I just need to shout into the void if nothing else. I should be happy. I have a girlfriend who loves me, I have an almost perfect GPA. I graduate college this year - first in my family.
But, fuck. It all seems so god... | 1.795713 | 3.739647 | 3.543636 | 88.76292 | 79.042373 | 6.66379 | 23.439137 | 7.686295 | 1.096439 | 895 | 30 | 189 | 14 | 22 | 299 | 138 | 236 | 0.217 | 0.581 | 0.202 | -0.7297 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 21 | 12 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 11 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 33 | 38 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 28 | 4 | 21 | 26 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 10 | 5 | 12 | 116 | 39 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22054 | 0 | 0.121521 | 0 | 0.091629 | 0 | 0 | 0.074886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103462 | 0 | 0 | 0.067129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072734 | 0 | 0 | 0.105225 | 0.098969 | 0 | 0.103812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211466 | 0 | 0 | 0.093669 | 0.133159 | 0 | 0 | 0.610829 | 0.057534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12131 | 0 | 0 | 0.117226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184947 | 0 | 0.12021 | 0 | 0.198777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163306 | 0.084932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105664 | 0 | 0 | 0.117275 | 0.074621 | 0.083752 | 0 | 0 | 0.122276 | 0 | 0.105123 | 0 | 0.096153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10025 | 0 | 0 | 0.113037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077944 | 0 | 0.087943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132462 | 0 | 0 | 0.090861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134097 | 0 | 0.204166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141828 |
suicidewatch | thestigREVENGE | 2019/07/25 | This sub makes me feel like i am not alone, but it makes me feel horrible as well 21/M. Posting this using my main acct. Shows how much i care.
Title. When i feel down, or sad about something, i always visit this sub, to make me feel less lonely. However, some of the people here had such awful childhood/lives it ma... | 2.698637 | 5.380408 | 3.217255 | 88.263937 | 80.313869 | 5.9891 | 23.001946 | 7.3011 | 0.979101 | 569 | 19 | 109 | 8 | 15 | 177 | 88 | 137 | 0.284 | 0.63 | 0.086 | -0.9915 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 25 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 18 | 4 | 12 | 22 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 78 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0.179913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157267 | 0 | 0 | 0.126349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143147 | 0 | 0.537447 | 0.216959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136528 | 0.140763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Endingitallsoon | 2019/07/25 | I don't know what to say. I decided today that I'm going to die on the 5th August.
I was going to fight it. I went to the doctor today. I got meds. They are sat unopened on my floor.
2 days ago my life ended, but I was willing to suffer through it, not for my own sake but for someone else's.
I had that taken away ... | -1.048203 | 0.774321 | 1.948157 | 96.870806 | 89 | 4.510599 | 16.115207 | 5.773588 | -0.700779 | 420 | 9 | 103 | 3 | 14 | 148 | 74 | 124 | 0.144 | 0.805 | 0.051 | -0.8847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 28 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 18 | 2 | 15 | 15 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 68 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17211 | 0 | 0 | 0.169739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138534 | 0 | 0.293761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282743 | 0 | 0.265267 | 0 | 0.182686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234268 | 0.081019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176758 | 0 | 0.138645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ukesoda | 2019/07/25 | Contemplating killing myself I'm 18, just finished high school and i've been homeless since November. I don't have any real friends or any family members at all, and I just feel so alone.
It's like people care but they don't. I feel like everyone else around me looks down upon me and judges me. I try so fucking hard, ... | 2.990693 | 4.369488 | 4.177771 | 87.967608 | 74.151515 | 6.864935 | 24.521645 | 7.38713 | 0.991383 | 883 | 27 | 186 | 10 | 18 | 289 | 128 | 231 | 0.092 | 0.845 | 0.063 | -0.799 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 42 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 22 | 6 | 23 | 33 | 8 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 122 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0.138419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103559 | 0 | 0 | 0.120996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096137 | 0.104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119292 | 0 | 0.238223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135481 | 0 | 0.195186 | 0 | 0 | 0.120712 | 0 | 0 | 0.105675 | 0 | 0.111632 | 0.104995 | 0 | 0.110133 | 0 | 0.177212 | 0.08346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090259 | 0.108003 | 0.061037 | 0 | 0.066395 | 0.097988 | 0.093436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103308 | 0 | 0.104653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12925 | 0 | 0.192613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165035 | 0.11415 | 0 | 0.103159 | 0 | 0.294312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080992 | 0.102008 | 0.244116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092904 | 0 | 0.118234 | 0 | 0.106354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096639 | 0.262634 | 0 | 0 | 0.098986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08505 | 0 | 0 | 0.08299 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FUGlTlVUS | 2019/07/25 | Is there anyone who can talk to me I dont wanna be a burden. Im just fluctuating between feeling nothing and everything. I dont even know if im here lmaooo | -0.002353 | 2.162502 | 3.342647 | 86.236912 | 87.823529 | 5.752941 | 23.205882 | 7.168622 | 1.0912 | 124 | 5 | 26 | 2 | 4 | 45 | 28 | 34 | 0 | 0.865 | 0.135 | 0.4416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.626039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.576992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | classicredditor2019 | 2019/07/25 | I desperately need reasons that make everything worth it People either throw their shit at you
Either dont give a shit about you
Either force shit into your life
While being overwhelemed with your own shit
While everyone hates you | 5.636707 | 8.704133 | 4.524573 | 80.88003 | 71.682927 | 7.026829 | 22.445122 | 8.076483 | 1.443678 | 191 | 5 | 30 | 3 | 4 | 56 | 32 | 41 | 0.377 | 0.587 | 0.036 | -0.9584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191568 | 0.18018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.823164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway7251979 | 2019/07/25 | 40 today and I don't even want to live Sitting in my car at a park sleeping most of the day away because the temp agency didn't have any work this morning and I don't have a full-time job anymore, am recently divorced and had to move out of my rental because I couldn't pay the rent and had to give the kids to my ex. I ... | 7.353473 | 5.135161 | 7.626443 | 79.314706 | 64.816993 | 10.311485 | 34.602241 | 8.418075 | 2.583926 | 1,160 | 39 | 244 | 12 | 14 | 381 | 154 | 306 | 0.034 | 0.848 | 0.118 | 0.9788 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 34 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 50 | 48 | 19 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 45 | 5 | 43 | 30 | 3 | 40 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 22 | 182 | 56 | 4 | 0.098316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091912 | 0 | 0.092371 | 0 | 0 | 0.119865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078497 | 0 | 0.107995 | 0.063406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174157 | 0 | 0 | 0.19481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151917 | 0 | 0 | 0.094313 | 0.055875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08694 | 0.104659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054032 | 0.160281 | 0 | 0.104102 | 0 | 0 | 0.20833 | 0.048032 | 0 | 0.173629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104494 | 0 | 0.1458 | 0.075827 | 0 | 0 | 0.092263 | 0 | 0.094337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097075 | 0 | 0.222745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081328 | 0 | 0.196773 | 0 | 0.083303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078515 | 0.082196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111568 | 0 | 0 | 0.073921 | 0 | 0.085932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065317 | 0 | 0 | 0.078052 | 0 | 0 | 0.465959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113058 | 0 | 0 | 0.14315 | 0 | 0 | 0.209522 | 0 | 0 | 0.063312 |
suicidewatch | legendaryromania | 2019/07/25 | Horrible home life. I feel like either killing myself or running away My stepdad is horrible. He's always drunk. I never see my dad and one of my grandads killed themselves a while before I was born. I have the means to end it all and to run away. I've been rejected help multiple times. | 1.398797 | 3.981919 | 2.697995 | 90.222632 | 86.017544 | 6.06416 | 23.932331 | 7.44753 | 1.310696 | 227 | 9 | 45 | 4 | 7 | 73 | 47 | 57 | 0.314 | 0.61 | 0.076 | -0.9545 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123352 | 0.174283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163519 | 0 | 0.244709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.539804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172314 | 0.119185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | strawberripeach | 2019/07/25 | There's no one I can reach out to, please help me..girlfriend problems I think my girlfriend doesn't love me anymore. I had only her and nothing else in this life. We are still together but I feel like she's slowly losing her feelings for me. We fight almost every day. I have mental illnesses and severe trust and aband... | 0.926031 | 3.003791 | 2.623748 | 93.524235 | 82.764988 | 5.701612 | 20.728849 | 6.92651 | 0.314245 | 1,550 | 46 | 350 | 19 | 43 | 510 | 187 | 417 | 0.242 | 0.627 | 0.131 | -0.9956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 41 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 32 | 4 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 35 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 66 | 69 | 26 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 93 | 15 | 28 | 50 | 3 | 39 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 56 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 26 | 235 | 111 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086204 | 0 | 0 | 0.068844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09027 | 0 | 0 | 0.085376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08048 | 0 | 0 | 0.132392 | 0.07188 | 0.104957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111039 | 0.088753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071915 | 0 | 0.076248 | 0 | 0 | 0.17058 | 0 | 0.217598 | 0 | 0.07737 | 0 | 0 | 0.096873 | 0.217643 | 0.123002 | 0.082658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066511 | 0.079587 | 0.044977 | 0 | 0 | 0.072206 | 0.068852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179706 | 0 | 0.076519 | 0 | 0 | 0.236558 | 0 | 0 | 0.091154 | 0 | 0 | 0.060806 | 0.126174 | 0 | 0.152034 | 0 | 0 | 0.09631 | 0 | 0 | 0.077697 | 0 | 0.172393 | 0 | 0.086487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086756 | 0.091325 | 0 | 0 | 0.068714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11667 | 0.196421 | 0.091603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08218 | 0 | 0.075168 | 0 | 0.188997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092426 | 0 | 0 | 0.081889 | 0 | 0.172378 | 0 | 0.068601 | 0 | 0 | 0.097255 | 0 | 0 | 0.096766 | 0 | 0.087756 | 0.072942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121867 | 0 | 0.06875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114386 | 0.055162 | 0 | 0.068344 | 0.150595 | 0 | 0.081601 | 0.08226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142063 | 0.203107 | 0.204997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155361 | 0.096114 | 0 | 0.082985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | probablyinthesky | 2019/07/25 | This is not a place for support Want help? This place isn't it. I mean, c'mon, just browse through new and see how many posts have zero or few comments. 80% of people here are suicidal just like you and I. Most of the advice here is generic and unhelpful. This sub is like a dope-fiend trying to get clean but hanging ou... | 0.921089 | 2.868027 | 2.135139 | 97.743896 | 81.970297 | 4.832079 | 20.00099 | 5.683918 | -0.30331 | 371 | 10 | 86 | 2 | 10 | 118 | 75 | 101 | 0.142 | 0.777 | 0.081 | -0.8828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 16 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 10 | 16 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 57 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179305 | 0 | 0 | 0.133712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142992 | 0.197808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205247 | 0 | 0.220521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140349 | 0 | 0.423022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221441 | 0.229731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119407 | 0.160691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | phantomier | 2019/07/25 | I don't know how to take this I feel like I have reached a dead end. My head is hurting, everything is just so fucking painful.
My thoughs keep dragging me down I have no power left to stand. I can't sleep at night and I dream of killing myself. In the time I'm awake I mostly wish I could just fade away and stop feel... | 1.413928 | 3.681457 | 2.615331 | 93.180117 | 82.229814 | 5.030471 | 24.377421 | 6.227272 | 0.622768 | 619 | 24 | 129 | 5 | 17 | 198 | 91 | 161 | 0.295 | 0.625 | 0.08 | -0.9897 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 35 | 15 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 25 | 1 | 18 | 31 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 87 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122097 | 0 | 0 | 0.079219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207516 | 0 | 0.142749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262836 | 0.09284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120141 | 0 | 0 | 0.073856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128303 | 0.133371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11551 | 0.143776 | 0 | 0.07142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141196 | 0 | 0 | 0.063489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098836 | 0.138281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090094 | 0 | 0.135775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103557 | 0.118306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385585 | 0 | 0.091983 | 0 | 0 | 0.325944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195419 | 0.104453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12768 | 0.206339 | 0.075778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nandkh | 2019/07/25 | How to find a gun Does anyone know how to get a gun in Japan?
It will be easier to kill myself with a gun rather than cutting my vein, jumping from a building or hanging myself.
Atleast I think I deserve to die a little peacefully. | 2.583511 | 4.324811 | 4.05633 | 86.90875 | 76.021277 | 6.402128 | 26.643617 | 7.168622 | 1.340026 | 181 | 7 | 36 | 2 | 4 | 60 | 35 | 47 | 0.313 | 0.58 | 0.107 | -0.8858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437964 | 0 | 0.217556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | barberos3 | 2019/07/25 | Need help but also need to be left alone Hi everyone,
I'm bipolar and socially anxious. I'm going through a rough time : suicide ideation, self harm relapse, not going to work, bailing on my friends. I don't leave my apartment at the moment, only communicate with my boss via email (phone anxiety), and don't answer any... | 4.698563 | 5.993258 | 5.431025 | 80.955592 | 69.843882 | 7.770563 | 31.662695 | 8.124752 | 2.332294 | 964 | 42 | 180 | 13 | 17 | 313 | 132 | 237 | 0.19 | 0.647 | 0.163 | -0.8265 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 40 | 38 | 15 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 8 | 24 | 33 | 6 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 111 | 34 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092261 | 0 | 0 | 0.107796 | 0 | 0.083233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070778 | 0 | 0.159242 | 0.117581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240094 | 0 | 0.126893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241237 | 0 | 0.163133 | 0 | 0.118303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1144 | 0 | 0 | 0.110206 | 0.113084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2097 | 0.104889 | 0.110413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231523 | 0 | 0 | 0.110691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110842 | 0.070528 | 0.316631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108579 | 0.117581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341541 | 0 | 0 | 0.108179 | 0.156511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066691 | 0 | 0 | 0.06069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bloodlustuwu | 2019/07/25 | Please anyone save me Im so lost in this life. I hate it so much. It feels like living is unbearably painful and I dont know why. I've been in and out of therapy for 4 years and Ive been consistently suicidal even while trying my best to improve at life. I admit Im not very good at trying but I am. Being me, feels unbe... | 2.269857 | 4.152902 | 4.286571 | 84.278429 | 77.357143 | 7.051429 | 23.342857 | 7.976526 | 1.305604 | 1,076 | 34 | 215 | 18 | 25 | 368 | 144 | 280 | 0.234 | 0.648 | 0.118 | -0.9929 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 48 | 52 | 21 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 43 | 6 | 32 | 33 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 155 | 54 | 1 | 0.088986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054245 | 0 | 0.075721 | 0 | 0.093385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092354 | 0.092972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157631 | 0 | 0 | 0.176323 | 0.241479 | 0.149949 | 0.08503 | 0 | 0 | 0.083888 | 0 | 0.269964 | 0.063572 | 0.170881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094727 | 0 | 0.351421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251414 | 0.086948 | 0 | 0.078576 | 0.07875 | 0 | 0.099553 | 0.097139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118798 | 0.090218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13083 | 0 | 0.068632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067678 | 0.189375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061692 | 0.077699 | 0 | 0.09768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08101 | 0.092832 | 0.100529 | 0 | 0.07361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101763 | 0 | 0.059118 | 0.114037 | 0 | 0 | 0.103777 | 0 | 0 | 0.08503 | 0 | 0.120831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146846 | 0.209945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114608 |
suicidewatch | Kimmy20004 | 2019/07/25 | I’m fed up with life I have ance and I’ve tried everything. Charcoal black mask, DIY egg mask, natural remedies, and everything you could think of. I really don’t know what to do. I’ve told my parents and they don’t insist on helping me. My sister and my cousin make fun of me and I cry a lot. Everyone has clear skin an... | 0.193251 | 2.336752 | 2.175397 | 95.149727 | 86.507886 | 5.162601 | 19.21565 | 6.562033 | 0.017731 | 1,159 | 33 | 264 | 13 | 36 | 385 | 156 | 317 | 0.14 | 0.775 | 0.085 | -0.9687 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 26 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 44 | 61 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 19 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 54 | 5 | 29 | 45 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 41 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 155 | 66 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076523 | 0.079621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178913 | 0 | 0.089903 | 0 | 0 | 0.058331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0764 | 0 | 0.31533 | 0 | 0 | 0.164834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091435 | 0.171999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073929 | 0.176926 | 0 | 0 | 0.108765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110412 | 0 | 0 | 0.103361 | 0 | 0 | 0.425265 | 0 | 0 | 0.262941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097849 | 0.202764 | 0.093498 | 0 | 0.084495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081352 | 0 | 0 | 0.063873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101906 | 0.129683 | 0.145552 | 0 | 0 | 0.212503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076096 | 0 | 0.096843 | 0.076252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067729 | 0.101992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061314 | 0 | 0 | 0.055797 | 0 | 0 | 0.36574 | 0 | 0.064967 | 0.104082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Zerrrrrrrthon | 2019/07/25 | I just want to die. I can't take it anymore. Yes, I just fricking want to die now | -3.141754 | -1.595063 | -0.077895 | 106.901404 | 104.263158 | 2.533333 | 16.859649 | 3.1291 | -1.376593 | 61 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 13 | 19 | 0.338 | 0.433 | 0.229 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.770949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | letsdoitreddit1011 | 2019/07/25 | goodbye I’m abused by my parents and named called and get shamed everyday. i hope my parents know how much they fucked me up and how much I cared about them. I loved them and they didn’t love me. They hurt me and emotionally broke me. Fuck you mom and dad. | 1.732453 | 3.707001 | 2.125132 | 98.706189 | 79.377358 | 5.749434 | 20.033962 | 6.742158 | -0.110416 | 201 | 5 | 48 | 2 | 5 | 61 | 35 | 53 | 0.288 | 0.522 | 0.19 | -0.802 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0.249227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214788 | 0 | 0.214463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388926 | 0.109898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208922 | 0 | 0 | 0.225181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246356 | 0 | 0 | 0.309259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway-account112 | 2019/07/25 | I’m tired of taking care of my health I’m a walking medical problem. I have severe back pain, severe acid reflux, borderline high cholesterol, and doctors think I might have a nutrient eating bacteria in my stomach making me lose weight quickly. to top it all off, i have clinical depression, social anxiety, and asperge... | 0.693679 | 3.0872 | 3.243694 | 86.451607 | 87.243243 | 6.802402 | 23.762763 | 7.984001 | 1.696242 | 566 | 23 | 114 | 13 | 18 | 196 | 85 | 148 | 0.242 | 0.659 | 0.1 | -0.9756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 24 | 27 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 3 | 17 | 23 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 68 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095332 | 0 | 0.123588 | 0 | 0 | 0.10255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160737 | 0 | 0.107333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110766 | 0 | 0 | 0.068487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060882 | 0 | 0.11004 | 0 | 0 | 0.139416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251079 | 0 | 0.1322 | 0 | 0 | 0.099469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094778 | 0.132602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294012 | 0 | 0 | 0.151751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CapAm91 | 2019/07/25 | Reached the end of my struggle I have suffered from depression for most of my life but have finally given up. The final straw is the financial problems I've had lately. I'm unable to work and have maxed out my credit cards and now the continually growing interest is killing me. I cant make any monthly payments and spen... | 6.012073 | 6.416436 | 6.203561 | 79.796317 | 66.439024 | 8.999024 | 35.912195 | 8.841846 | 3.025495 | 335 | 16 | 64 | 5 | 5 | 107 | 60 | 82 | 0.27 | 0.607 | 0.123 | -0.9504 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 39 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111875 | 0 | 0 | 0.484757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253452 | 0.231308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OneWels341 | 2019/07/25 | I'm going to take my life. I'm done with it. I spent a year thinking I was better to just have everything come crashing down on me. I'm a failure. I have no future, yet I'm the only one who knows it. I spent long enough dealing with this, and now I want to go.
Bye. | -1.365786 | 0.444848 | 1.519524 | 99.435 | 90.5 | 4.095238 | 16.904762 | 5.288315 | -0.818024 | 201 | 5 | 51 | 1 | 7 | 70 | 42 | 60 | 0.101 | 0.823 | 0.077 | -0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 32 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202825 | 0.227644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192751 |
suicidewatch | robot99012 | 2019/07/25 | I need to fucking talk to someone I’ve been fucking up badly lately and I literally just had a chick break it’s leg and saw it suffer and die slowly as I tried killing it by snapping its neck or something only causing it more pain I need to fucking talk to someone I’m on the edge of this bullshit there are no working h... | 4.3448 | 5.040533 | 5.364 | 83.322 | 70.2 | 6.533333 | 33.666667 | 5.683918 | 1.870467 | 291 | 14 | 56 | 1 | 5 | 96 | 54 | 75 | 0.332 | 0.637 | 0.03 | -0.9818 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.532121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14592 | 0.204155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325129 | 0.147705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slime_stealer | 2019/07/25 | I'm about to commit suicide Right now I'm 11 and I have severe depression I have told my mother but she refuses to get help for me . My dad is a verbal abuser and keep on harassing me . I have no friends and spend most of my time wondering how to stab my self .
I'm gonna try to use a kitchen knife tomorrow I need help | -0.854254 | 1.226589 | 1.940476 | 95.003413 | 92.142857 | 5.968254 | 19.206349 | 7.38713 | 0.53373 | 248 | 8 | 59 | 5 | 9 | 86 | 49 | 70 | 0.284 | 0.567 | 0.149 | -0.9136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0.315773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205906 | 0 | 0.139241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27803 | 0.301082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155405 | 0 | 0 | 0.254663 | 0 | 0.180944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | remion007 | 2019/07/25 | cant take it anymore im gonna do it tonight, i just cant take it anymore, thank u for ur support guys, really appreciate it. | -0.446548 | 1.398614 | 3.221429 | 88.590238 | 86.5 | 6.590476 | 27.190476 | 7.793538 | 1.697676 | 97 | 5 | 23 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 20 | 28 | 0 | 0.699 | 0.301 | 0.8016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.601095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343901 | 0 | 0 | 0.455717 | 0 | 0 | 0.279011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Environmental_Friend | 2019/07/25 | telling my doctor about suicidal thoughts Let me start off by saying I have the literal most shit insurance. My primary care doctor does not care about me and has put me on 20 mg Prozac daily to "help" with my extreme anxiety, bipolar, BPD, and ADHD. I stopped taking it months ago. I know I need to either get into her ... | 6.792444 | 6.930222 | 7.339858 | 73.22719 | 64.785124 | 10.881228 | 36.293979 | 10.608841 | 3.96732 | 503 | 23 | 90 | 12 | 7 | 166 | 83 | 121 | 0.149 | 0.721 | 0.13 | -0.3939 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 25 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 3 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 65 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155731 | 0 | 0.114866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135877 | 0.099129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530527 | 0.113397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067701 | 0 | 0.073644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10343 | 0 | 0 | 0.096083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091718 | 0 | 0 | 0.108336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097429 | 0 | 0.339779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131596 | 0 | 0.368203 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | drunk_wilddog | 2019/07/25 | I don't know what to do anymore I'm at the point of my life where I just cant hope or pray anymore, everything is well at work but that's it . I have nobody to tal about what's going at work or Express my frustrations. My friends either have someone or dont care , I'm living a nightmare waking up daily just to help o... | 1.846686 | 3.110371 | 3.124107 | 94.836011 | 76.894737 | 5.754934 | 19.373484 | 5.935793 | -0.282983 | 1,307 | 25 | 305 | 7 | 29 | 424 | 170 | 361 | 0.17 | 0.687 | 0.143 | -0.7195 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 16 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 39 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 68 | 74 | 32 | 1 | 9 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 34 | 17 | 30 | 59 | 8 | 34 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 11 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 196 | 62 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088332 | 0 | 0 | 0.250629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257663 | 0.086537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087042 | 0.093949 | 0.055639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071654 | 0 | 0 | 0.065083 | 0.077878 | 0.132035 | 0.08081 | 0.191501 | 0 | 0 | 0.092874 | 0 | 0 | 0.074493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169392 | 0 | 0 | 0.083669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119002 | 0.041155 | 0 | 0.074385 | 0.149099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076029 | 0 | 0.056231 | 0 | 0.08463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062463 | 0.064971 | 0 | 0.08959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089712 | 0.057083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233604 | 0 | 0.088012 | 0 | 0.079634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080131 | 0.133981 | 0.168677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08788 | 0 | 0.086471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070428 | 0 | 0.088065 | 0 | 0 | 0.095594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097809 | 0.055965 | 0.053977 | 0 | 0 | 0.049121 | 0 | 0.079849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072756 | 0 | 0 | 0.14906 | 0.066865 | 0 | 0 | 0.075741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183982 | 0 | 0 | 0.059841 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | teoo_ | 2019/07/25 | I have to stop wanting to kill myself Because none of my wishes come true | 4.596 | 5.354125 | 5.206667 | 84.45 | 69.666667 | 6 | 28.333333 | 3.1291 | 0.964333 | 59 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 14 | 15 | 0.395 | 0.473 | 0.132 | -0.6751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unsureoptions | 2019/07/25 | What Happens when you Call a Suicide Hotline What happens when you call a suicide hotline or prevention number? Sometimes I feel so hopeless. I don't want to call the number, then have people show up to my house or just tell me, "Hang in there bud, you can do it" shit. If it was that easy, I'd be fine. | 0.775023 | 3.050392 | 2.138479 | 95.50629 | 85.129032 | 4.188018 | 23.373272 | 5.288315 | 0.163656 | 234 | 9 | 50 | 1 | 7 | 75 | 45 | 62 | 0.248 | 0.651 | 0.101 | -0.9281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 34 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.645675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | I_LAUGH_I_LOSE_LOL | 2019/07/25 | Things are finally beyond repair. I will keep this short. I have severe mental issues and my doctor for years quit. I have no friends. I got fired from my job. I have not left my apartment in months. My car got repossessed. I'm out of my medicine. I am behind on my rent two months. I can't think. I miss my grandma and ... | -0.671742 | 1.501299 | 0.947273 | 101.332576 | 93.621212 | 3.842424 | 15.666667 | 5.461319 | -0.952352 | 479 | 11 | 114 | 3 | 18 | 153 | 79 | 132 | 0.173 | 0.802 | 0.025 | -0.9593 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 27 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 27 | 1 | 17 | 21 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 80 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175755 | 0 | 0 | 0.173333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162599 | 0.185511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130837 | 0 | 0.088477 | 0 | 0.096244 | 0 | 0.270884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176754 | 0.16805 | 0.150523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179313 | 0.183995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170661 | 0 | 0 | 0.198337 | 0.270342 | 0 | 0.248978 | 0 | 0.13061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112506 | 0.217021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109054 |
suicidewatch | the_end_is_welcome | 2019/07/25 | Suicide I'm looking for suggestions on how to leave my family taken care of financially after my suicide. I've stopped eating and that money is being put away. I only have a 10k life insurance policy which is barely anything. I'll have to wait until next year to increase my policy plan and I'm not sure if the policy wi... | 4.886053 | 5.617336 | 7.106421 | 71.185947 | 69 | 10.290526 | 28.357895 | 10.355216 | 3.129466 | 302 | 10 | 53 | 8 | 5 | 108 | 54 | 76 | 0.252 | 0.686 | 0.062 | -0.9514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 36 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209878 | 0 | 0 | 0.140003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.650435 | 0 | 0.186812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127642 |
suicidewatch | thatsabigpizzapie | 2019/07/25 | I'm truly trying, but I'm not making progress My dog died 5 days ago, and I have been a complete wreck.
I was deeply depressed and suicidal before he came into my life, then when I got him it was like the volume on all of my negative thoughts were turned down.
He turned into my everything. Loving and caring for him be... | 4.921819 | 5.164346 | 6.122353 | 80.000054 | 68.76834 | 9.100483 | 30.473214 | 9.017664 | 2.442013 | 1,004 | 37 | 199 | 17 | 16 | 338 | 157 | 259 | 0.187 | 0.672 | 0.141 | -0.9445 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 39 | 43 | 19 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 33 | 7 | 28 | 26 | 7 | 35 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 141 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115774 | 0 | 0 | 0.135269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079616 | 0 | 0.111136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149379 | 0.133162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336921 | 0 | 0.112491 | 0 | 0.135549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220083 | 0 | 0.11738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119372 | 0.111094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074226 | 0.109546 | 0.104458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071778 | 0.106461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092251 | 0.063808 | 0 | 0 | 0.115582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117877 | 0 | 0.087181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14936 | 0.151644 | 0.173538 | 0 | 0 | 0.207373 | 0.076157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177346 | 0.284124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143844 | 0.107764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095083 | 0 | 0.133099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sir-Valdomero | 2019/07/25 | I hate myself and have no will to live I've dealt with depression my whole life, I've had way more downs than ups, I have constantly fucked up my life, I was really tired of living, yet 3 years ago I met the most wonderful girl, 2 years ago I somehow managed to become his boyfriend, those 2 years my depression disappea... | 4.362642 | 4.650682 | 5.140676 | 86.39253 | 69.995261 | 8.54169 | 27.673341 | 8.472885 | 1.649992 | 2,403 | 75 | 528 | 35 | 40 | 781 | 242 | 633 | 0.134 | 0.757 | 0.109 | -0.9252 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 94 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 26 | 32 | 4 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 57 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 80 | 106 | 22 | 1 | 13 | 16 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 24 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 8 | 115 | 20 | 77 | 59 | 16 | 76 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 69 | 29 | 2 | 9 | 41 | 358 | 139 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.108301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245945 | 0 | 0 | 0.057471 | 0 | 0 | 0.046173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058187 | 0 | 0 | 0.165095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128006 | 0 | 0.067653 | 0.061285 | 0.047218 | 0 | 0.058234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056662 | 0.063466 | 0.056576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059966 | 0 | 0.088609 | 0 | 0 | 0.10736 | 0.114417 | 0.191176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046355 | 0 | 0.049148 | 0.057337 | 0 | 0.073302 | 0.150583 | 0.046753 | 0 | 0.249356 | 0 | 0.052312 | 0 | 0.140288 | 0.15857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0472 | 0 | 0 | 0.085744 | 0.1026 | 0.115966 | 0 | 0.063073 | 0.046543 | 0.044381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177212 | 0 | 0.054785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061392 | 0 | 0.060992 | 0.045232 | 0 | 0.058756 | 0 | 0 | 0.313557 | 0.135549 | 0 | 0.146997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047176 | 0.100165 | 0.052506 | 0.03704 | 0.056259 | 0 | 0.060445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05603 | 0.06499 | 0.088584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042798 | 0 | 0.059015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037602 | 0.042203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035549 | 0 | 0 | 0.119152 | 0 | 0 | 0.052784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044219 | 0.050516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141051 | 0.042719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036865 | 0.035556 | 0 | 0.044053 | 0.097071 | 0.063778 | 0.052599 | 0.053024 | 0 | 0.301395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047926 | 0 | 0 | 0.261838 | 0.044046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18586 | 0 | 0.106982 | 0.060177 | 0.080796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142936 |
suicidewatch | rabbitswithnoears | 2019/07/25 | Sitting here contemplating ending it all. It hurts too much. My son passed away in January, my husband turned abusive then left, I had a nervous breakdown and they took my 2 children from me. I’m not coping, I have nothing. | 3.557143 | 6.020735 | 4.238333 | 83.3775 | 75.666667 | 6.104762 | 31.928571 | 7.168622 | 2.167743 | 176 | 9 | 31 | 2 | 4 | 56 | 37 | 42 | 0.217 | 0.783 | 0 | -0.8555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.389023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364792 | 0 | 0.357133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | depre_an_throwaway | 2019/07/25 | I have no friends (I think) and I drink everyday to improve my condition. But it doesn't work Hello,
I would never post on reddit regarding this,
but I need some actionable advice on how to solve this.
Alcohol doesn't work anymore, even though it used to work before.
I got to a doctor and I got prescribed a sleepi... | 2.454184 | 4.879485 | 3.885061 | 84.66351 | 79.306122 | 6.777143 | 27.146939 | 7.908726 | 1.926417 | 395 | 17 | 74 | 7 | 10 | 130 | 63 | 98 | 0.1 | 0.802 | 0.098 | -0.2846 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 56 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173688 | 0 | 0.189952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10835 | 0 | 0.151246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089872 | 0.126979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263587 | 0.137086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170228 | 0 | 0 | 0.170075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355741 | 0 | 0 | 0.136835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22778 | 0.174631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388196 | 0 | 0 | 0.126263 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | frankly2657 | 2019/07/25 | Went to emergency I went to emergency and told them I wanted to die. Told them I’m exhausted and over trying to get better, over destroying the people around me and over living in mental hell.... they have me a number to a help line and sent me on my way dispute having one of the best mental health units in Australia. ... | 4.824079 | 5.539969 | 5.553789 | 82.317526 | 69.131579 | 8.185263 | 25.726316 | 8.238736 | 1.554598 | 301 | 8 | 58 | 4 | 5 | 98 | 48 | 76 | 0.224 | 0.609 | 0.167 | -0.7575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20657 | 0.174088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20923 | 0 | 0 | 0.263873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376175 | 0 | 0.267281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1161 | 0.156241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | S32065 | 2019/07/25 | I'm lost So, for the past 8 years I've been stuck in the same mindset, not actively seeking ways to kill myself, just wanting to disappear from existence. I'm not sure what's changed but I'm sliding off and I don't know what to do. I've set lifelines in place because I knew this was coming a long time but I just can't ... | 1.230638 | 2.635918 | 2.926543 | 95.00875 | 78.893617 | 5.976596 | 22.388298 | 6.627428 | 0.303962 | 335 | 10 | 80 | 3 | 8 | 111 | 63 | 94 | 0.137 | 0.821 | 0.042 | -0.4539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 43 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300729 | 0.244881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314512 | 0 | 0.156232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251578 | 0 | 0 | 0.310324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271376 | 0 | 0 | 0.297011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167675 | 0.225647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183066 |
suicidewatch | Kolmogorovd | 2019/07/25 | Life goes on. I've fealt horrible for the last week, I was actually thinking of trowing myself in front of a train so I couldn't face up to my failures--which were failures just because of my arogance, thinking all will be alrigth, but I overestimated myself.
So I told my grandmother that I can't stand it anymore. And... | 4.952469 | 5.618841 | 5.274008 | 84.614874 | 68.822485 | 8.512318 | 29.56482 | 8.57599 | 1.991137 | 671 | 24 | 139 | 10 | 11 | 213 | 101 | 169 | 0.133 | 0.803 | 0.065 | -0.9209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 28 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 2 | 23 | 17 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 101 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076842 | 0.10857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135081 | 0.168136 | 0 | 0.08352 | 0.123878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429372 | 0.074246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201928 | 0.389513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097866 |
suicidewatch | Neil1988smith | 2019/07/25 | I want to die painlessly as possible. I am planning to take a massive overdose of prescription pain killers. I already have a large stash of assorted anti depresetnts and a fair few pain killers. Its obvious i would be able to cause a lot of harm to myself.
The main reason i havent taken the overdose yet is i dont wa... | 5.329762 | 6.18778 | 6.01511 | 78.950723 | 68.065934 | 9.14359 | 32.749084 | 9.299571 | 2.914383 | 741 | 32 | 140 | 14 | 12 | 242 | 106 | 182 | 0.221 | 0.698 | 0.08 | -0.9858 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 32 | 27 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 24 | 19 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 95 | 22 | 0 | 0.111805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123379 | 0 | 0 | 0.12114 | 0.135855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089267 | 0 | 0 | 0.072105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131034 | 0 | 0.129658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118843 | 0 | 0.132489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123695 | 0 | 0 | 0.091136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078971 | 0 | 0 | 0.098725 | 0.098943 | 0.093888 | 0 | 0 | 0.095052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397114 | 0 | 0.135855 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idkidontknow111 | 2019/07/25 | Been planning my death for the past 3 years. What’s wrong with me I’ve never actually told any body or even really talked about it with anybody. During the day time it’s all fine most of time, by fine as in I pretend it’s fine, like I’m just putting a show on for everybody. But at night dying is all I think about, I “f... | 4.14444 | 5.638477 | 5.254382 | 80.927365 | 71.432432 | 8.420849 | 28.349421 | 8.942965 | 2.277618 | 1,490 | 56 | 287 | 29 | 28 | 492 | 186 | 370 | 0.11 | 0.759 | 0.131 | 0.7147 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 60 | 50 | 20 | 3 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 21 | 13 | 50 | 37 | 8 | 49 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 29 | 184 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.161755 | 0 | 0.099604 | 0 | 0.073467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063729 | 0 | 0 | 0.091533 | 0.070524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090482 | 0.092059 | 0 | 0.09252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132344 | 0 | 0 | 0.16035 | 0 | 0.142766 | 0 | 0.17203 | 0.086591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054741 | 0 | 0 | 0.079194 | 0.223458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125718 | 0.177625 | 0.079576 | 0.090789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086601 | 0 | 0.141305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073289 | 0.088226 | 0 | 0.081825 | 0 | 0 | 0.09341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045548 | 0.067557 | 0.093491 | 0 | 0 | 0.084749 | 0 | 0.283432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060925 | 0 | 0.127842 | 0 | 0.088142 | 0.077776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079117 | 0 | 0.072366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094334 | 0.106188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140446 | 0.063804 | 0.245907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165183 | 0.212421 | 0 | 0.065796 | 0.193309 | 0 | 0 | 0.079194 | 0 | 0.056269 | 0.090148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271844 | 0 | 0.053371 |
suicidewatch | pussy-enthusiast | 2019/07/25 | The end is near. I was dumped 2 days ago, haven’t eaten anything since. This morning, I finally come to the realization this life is going nowhere and ending it is the only way to go. Once the thought of ending it all becomes certain, I felt the calm and peace I haven’t felt off ages. So after work today will be the en... | 1.558537 | 3.613043 | 3.085549 | 91.197104 | 80.341463 | 5.07561 | 22.445122 | 5.985473 | 0.300385 | 311 | 10 | 65 | 2 | 8 | 102 | 60 | 82 | 0.032 | 0.807 | 0.161 | 0.872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 39 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.629868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341408 | 0.194758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189338 | 0 | 0.135216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141144 | 0 | 0 | 0.168522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204447 | 0 | 0 | 0.129432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ManKickinCans | 2019/07/25 | The reason I'm going through with it I'm depressed. I got depressed because there were certain things in my life that required willpower to change, and I had none. Tried a few workarounds, hoping drugs would give me the emotions and motivation I need to change, and made it worse. Now I need more willpower to at least g... | 3.061732 | 4.976654 | 3.631391 | 89.715583 | 75.15894 | 6.235558 | 26.184921 | 7.010147 | 1.083649 | 599 | 22 | 122 | 6 | 13 | 188 | 95 | 151 | 0.149 | 0.701 | 0.149 | -0.2613 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 30 | 24 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 18 | 17 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 86 | 27 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.142183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112035 | 0 | 0.088818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152904 | 0.128861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308265 | 0.125509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376477 | 0 | 0.151215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168967 | 0 | 0 | 0.163894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152246 | 0.13977 | 0.165611 | 0 | 0.116531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318217 | 0 | 0.148482 | 0.103502 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AnotherSimon22 | 2019/07/25 | Not ready for it... Let me introduce myself. Simon 22 a guy with thoughts what to do with his life.
It's much easier to tell you guys about this here than in IRL. So let's begin do you ever experience fear of losing anything you've build for months or even years ?
In this situation am I right now. For someone of you ... | 2.039313 | 3.831658 | 3.200458 | 92.217975 | 77.734177 | 6.539602 | 19.302592 | 7.44753 | 0.272014 | 897 | 19 | 200 | 12 | 21 | 289 | 131 | 237 | 0.126 | 0.699 | 0.175 | 0.9509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 30 | 10 | 32 | 19 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 147 | 57 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141949 | 0.097201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105114 | 0.101301 | 0.362758 | 0 | 0 | 0.103176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212799 | 0 | 0.11439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219765 | 0.227701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240435 | 0 | 0 | 0.096985 | 0 | 0.071729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125853 | 0.085771 | 0 | 0.078994 | 0 | 0 | 0.103783 | 0 | 0 | 0.105285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120787 | 0 | 0 | 0.091048 | 0 | 0 | 0.12029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093923 | 0.098932 | 0 | 0 | 0.21417 | 0 | 0 | 0.085309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10268 | 0 | 0.21887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088664 | 0.126762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096964 | 0 | 0.123571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117488 | 0 | 0.069199 |
suicidewatch | True-Bear | 2019/07/25 | Feel like I’ve lost all my friends and family despite them being there I just can’t open up to them about how I feel ? That’s really all I just want some help | 1.224762 | 2.662611 | 2.782857 | 95.890476 | 79 | 6.952381 | 17.380952 | 7.793538 | 0.026238 | 125 | 2 | 31 | 2 | 3 | 41 | 28 | 35 | 0.064 | 0.664 | 0.273 | 0.7624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396373 | 0 | 0.425196 | 0.300378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Resilienceonly | 2019/07/25 | All my life So I’ve been suicidal for a long time, and no matter what I do, I always have thoughts of suicide.
The only reason I haven’t ended it, is because when I do, I never want to come back alive. Many of the methods don’t work.
I’m going to let the nature of life take its course. What do I do in the meantime ... | 1.094369 | 2.220791 | 3.411892 | 92.568018 | 78.594595 | 5.473874 | 20.441441 | 5.461319 | -0.15111 | 257 | 6 | 60 | 1 | 6 | 89 | 51 | 74 | 0.173 | 0.777 | 0.05 | -0.8746 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 42 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161623 | 0 | 0.12813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214934 | 0.44539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166867 | 0.122564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taylaLC | 2019/07/25 | I wish I wasn't so loved I wish I wasn't so loved. I wish people didn't look up to be I wish there went so many life events that I want to be around for I wish I could die alone and there would be no loss to anyone
I put on a decade of health and happiness when I recovered from a 12 year deadly eating disorder and tr... | 2.871952 | 3.906819 | 3.918726 | 91.059097 | 73.941634 | 7.589515 | 22.086627 | 8.032893 | 0.751736 | 957 | 22 | 220 | 14 | 19 | 310 | 145 | 257 | 0.173 | 0.706 | 0.121 | -0.9166 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 19 | 14 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 47 | 45 | 29 | 4 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 26 | 7 | 29 | 24 | 3 | 37 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 19 | 136 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063894 | 0 | 0 | 0.081346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101501 | 0.230176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189673 | 0 | 0.209455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047741 | 0 | 0.051932 | 0.076644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080806 | 0.194548 | 0.081857 | 0 | 0.093781 | 0.097131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164945 | 0.172929 | 0 | 0.092643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092054 | 0 | 0 | 0.092266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067174 | 0.067756 | 0.070477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126701 | 0 | 0.095471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087437 | 0 | 0.091861 | 0 | 0.097192 | 0 | 0 | 0.058539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078037 | 0 | 0.072668 | 0 | 0 | 0.072817 | 0 | 0.190655 | 0 | 0.093799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064678 | 0 | 0 | 0.076396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072544 | 0.053283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078922 | 0 | 0 | 0.053897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08216 | 0.084709 | 0 | 0 | 0.525403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064913 | 0 | 0 | 0.235379 |
suicidewatch | BrienneOfBarf | 2019/07/25 | chronic fatigue and insomnia are ruining my life I can't get out of bed but I can't sleep either. taking too many days off work. they're gonna stop paying me and then fire me. to dizzy and weak to drive, can't think well enough to code. not much in savings. im gonna end up homeless and starving to death because I'll be... | 0.820375 | 2.775422 | 2.6175 | 94.1075 | 82.375 | 5.75 | 20 | 6.907726 | 0.201938 | 586 | 16 | 134 | 7 | 16 | 194 | 105 | 160 | 0.273 | 0.688 | 0.039 | -0.99 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 25 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 22 | 19 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 77 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106606 | 0 | 0.148811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181499 | 0 | 0 | 0.178998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154893 | 0.180699 | 0 | 0.115507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091368 | 0 | 0.099389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19742 | 0.188902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123524 | 0.085438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257116 | 0.129672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191205 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kay1033 | 2019/07/25 | Does anybody else have no friends? I see a lot of posts from people saying they will feel guilty because of their friends but that’s not a problem I have.
Other say they are only alive for their animal. I was too.... Then she died in March.
So yeah. Anybody else completely alone and miserable?
If you do have people ... | 2.828285 | 5.207661 | 3.146667 | 90.709444 | 77.695652 | 5.828019 | 24.352657 | 6.937598 | 0.913503 | 374 | 13 | 73 | 4 | 9 | 115 | 67 | 92 | 0.187 | 0.629 | 0.184 | -0.3439 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 8 | 13 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 50 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131161 | 0.147211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40257 | 0 | 0 | 0.21247 | 0 | 0 | 0.185377 | 0 | 0 | 0.18521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165299 | 0 | 0.307853 | 0 | 0 | 0.154242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | usedforwholesomeness | 2019/07/25 | i am going to kill myself tonight i'm fifteen and have had clinical depression since i was eight. it gets better for periods but it always gets worse and i'm kind of sick of it. i told my therapist i was going to do it tonight and she brushed it off, so i'm taking that as a sign from the universe that its okay. i don't... | -0.571053 | 1.467636 | 1.997143 | 95.756271 | 89.254237 | 5.405327 | 19.445521 | 6.86897 | 0.203579 | 417 | 13 | 99 | 6 | 14 | 143 | 73 | 118 | 0.222 | 0.652 | 0.125 | -0.9337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 24 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 13 | 17 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 66 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17374 | 0 | 0.234979 | 0 | 0.255607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248794 | 0.234176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261101 | 0.149399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258464 | 0 | 0.21488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sobriquetstain | 2019/07/25 | This has never happened to me before but a "friend" or so I thought told me to do it yesterday in a text. This is someone my same gender, same age, SAME political beliefs (and quite liberal).
And I'm extremely confused and hurt.
I've been really down for awhile and I'm on medication that causes suicidal ideation an... | 6.016146 | 7.096174 | 6.882715 | 72.544903 | 66.634855 | 9.676452 | 33.734699 | 9.827889 | 3.430006 | 1,019 | 45 | 177 | 22 | 16 | 339 | 151 | 241 | 0.175 | 0.766 | 0.059 | -0.988 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 45 | 40 | 15 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 27 | 4 | 24 | 26 | 5 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 125 | 45 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078817 | 0.121533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081041 | 0.118755 | 0.095377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092538 | 0 | 0 | 0.074747 | 0 | 0.099826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101426 | 0.118608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076552 | 0 | 0.097652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06587 | 0 | 0.092697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115117 | 0 | 0 | 0.248151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092512 | 0 | 0.085201 | 0.171879 | 0.089391 | 0.111939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123432 | 0 | 0.088149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123276 | 0 | 0 | 0.148499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29461 | 0.267681 | 0 | 0.129743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096899 | 0 | 0 | 0.13268 | 0.126778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348575 | 0.093157 | 0.202607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074265 | 0 | 0.092013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110749 | 0 | 0.157379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082333 | 0.12672 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anonymous888889 | 2019/07/25 | Fuck You I gotta tell ya. There is nothing better than reaching a new low, finally deciding to reach out and see if anyone can atleast understand where you're at, and then getting no response. Thank you all for reminding me how completely alone I am. Thank you for demonstrating that even among a community of people who... | 4.3375 | 6.615756 | 4.927609 | 80.216848 | 72.586957 | 8.513043 | 28.891304 | 9.188382 | 2.6728 | 391 | 16 | 71 | 9 | 8 | 125 | 72 | 92 | 0.296 | 0.646 | 0.058 | -0.9751 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 17 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 48 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11698 | 0 | 0.149224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194017 | 0 | 0.150651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.654947 | 0.185067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154803 | 0.326121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dixie225 | 2019/07/25 | Can someone help me Today my girlfriend broke up with me and before this I already thought that there wasn’t much point in life and now it seems like there is not point at all. Anyone got any ideas to make this not so bad or to give suggestions to make it not end the bad way. | 5.93977 | 4.768949 | 5.377586 | 90.942701 | 66.931034 | 8.422989 | 27.954023 | 6.427356 | 0.933913 | 218 | 5 | 51 | 1 | 3 | 66 | 46 | 58 | 0.042 | 0.771 | 0.187 | 0.8614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372567 | 0 | 0 | 0.189846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214023 | 0 | 0 | 0.178437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157586 | 0.108998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17712 | 0 | 0 | 0.211477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TandaCordy | 2019/07/25 | I can’t even make pudding It’s one of the easiest recipes and I am still able to screw it up every single time! My mom does it just the way I do but it never works if I do it. I’m not even able to do the easiest things without breaking them completely and that just sucks so fucking much! I just want to put my face on t... | 2.605039 | 3.193038 | 3.995349 | 91.947132 | 74.116279 | 7.128682 | 25.96124 | 7.168622 | 0.928975 | 308 | 10 | 73 | 3 | 6 | 102 | 60 | 86 | 0.154 | 0.766 | 0.08 | -0.8308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 54 | 17 | 1 | 0.434243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286813 | 0 | 0.182934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25429 | 0 | 0 | 0.159609 | 0 | 0.167457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128064 | 0.172341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209297 | 0 | 0.158067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237388 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dextromorphazepam | 2019/07/25 | I believe I have PDA (pathological demand avoidance) I'm 25 and me and my mother believe I have PDA, a light form of autism. As far as I can see, it is only a diagnosis in the U.K. and I am in the U.S.
The symptoms include:
resists and avoids the ordinary demands of life
uses social strategies as part of avoidance, ... | 5.510818 | 6.767068 | 6.064103 | 77.31312 | 67.903846 | 9.547009 | 32.521368 | 9.793971 | 3.180092 | 2,177 | 94 | 402 | 49 | 36 | 706 | 239 | 520 | 0.113 | 0.731 | 0.155 | 0.9771 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 75 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 21 | 35 | 4 | 7 | 22 | 0 | 39 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 69 | 73 | 30 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 4 | 10 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 13 | 75 | 16 | 66 | 58 | 9 | 57 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 50 | 26 | 2 | 7 | 27 | 271 | 91 | 10 | 0.07141 | 0 | 0.069685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109819 | 0 | 0.217653 | 0 | 0 | 0.160908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163683 | 0 | 0 | 0.073077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069852 | 0 | 0 | 0.288854 | 0.20406 | 0.137129 | 0 | 0 | 0.121482 | 0 | 0 | 0.165513 | 0.198051 | 0.111926 | 0.137005 | 0.040584 | 0.059895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095729 | 0.075448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302632 | 0.139548 | 0 | 0.31528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067569 | 0 | 0.072398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083634 | 0.056998 | 0.075897 | 0.157483 | 0.105899 | 0 | 0.068968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07733 | 0 | 0.049506 | 0.062352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075953 | 0.071429 | 0 | 0 | 0.073421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060983 | 0.067927 | 0 | 0 | 0.07227 | 0.056904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236283 | 0 | 0 | 0.072793 | 0.060505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076113 | 0.171083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07811 | 0 | 0 | 0.074222 | 0.053691 | 0 | 0 | 0.065744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07434 | 0 | 0.061675 | 0 | 0.05892 | 0 | 0 | 0.05728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103974 | 0 | 0 | 0.101455 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | prayingmantisdna | 2019/07/25 | I just want you all to know You are fucking incredible people. You live with so much agony, but still have so much determination. Even if you can't see it yet. If you want a special message just comment. I love you all, hope is not lost. Your pain is acknowledged. | 1.562179 | 4.078535 | 2.766923 | 90.66141 | 84 | 5.774359 | 22.128205 | 7.168622 | 0.669451 | 206 | 7 | 44 | 3 | 6 | 66 | 39 | 52 | 0.031 | 0.584 | 0.386 | 0.9742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317726 | 0 | 0.262693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | no-skin- | 2019/07/25 | The last couple of months have been tough I don’t sleep at night anymore, I’ve isolated myself completely from everyone after being let down, I feel like my parents are getting more irritated with me and I just lay in my bed all day when Im not working, not talking to anyone.
I feel completely numb and like I have no... | 3.557188 | 5.436739 | 4.700417 | 82.73625 | 73.6875 | 7.716667 | 25.541667 | 8.472885 | 1.778067 | 387 | 13 | 74 | 7 | 8 | 127 | 75 | 96 | 0.169 | 0.751 | 0.08 | -0.7993 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 54 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185685 | 0.130918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20717 | 0 | 0.2415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123666 | 0 | 0.157752 | 0.17891 | 0 | 0 | 0.176507 | 0 | 0.189342 | 0.13376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173095 | 0.195644 | 0.179612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102899 | 0.15262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191459 | 0 | 0.182946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheBlueRider1 | 2019/07/25 | This is a message everyone needs to hear. Many people are depressed because they see how horrible the world is, or they realize their family hates them, or they have no friends. Something that would help id to change up your life. Take some risks, go ask a girl out, bring something new and exciting in your life. Don’t ... | 3.831376 | 5.38522 | 4.069898 | 88.875935 | 72.309859 | 8.262228 | 24.880922 | 8.841846 | 1.594738 | 567 | 17 | 119 | 11 | 11 | 176 | 85 | 142 | 0.172 | 0.715 | 0.113 | -0.9136 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 34 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 4 | 17 | 31 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 77 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115032 | 0.083983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118661 | 0 | 0.142983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26329 | 0 | 0 | 0.259754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106441 | 0 | 0.143958 | 0.132161 | 0.078298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136019 | 0 | 0 | 0.155277 | 0 | 0.184689 | 0 | 0 | 0.136837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291933 | 0 | 0 | 0.243307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102155 | 0 | 0.266118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191025 | 0 | 0.14394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10956 | 0 | 0 | 0.109785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097868 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | what_am_i_feeling | 2019/07/25 | Coping mechanisms I’ve been musing about the coping mechanism I’ve used since I was a child. It’s simple - just pick the next day something good will happen and think about that obsessively while living like a zombie through the rest of your life. It worked for a while. But I’ve realized that those days are getting f... | 3.590871 | 5.814944 | 4.615746 | 81.859042 | 74.597015 | 8.048756 | 25.345771 | 8.841846 | 2.001619 | 553 | 19 | 105 | 12 | 12 | 180 | 89 | 134 | 0.078 | 0.791 | 0.131 | 0.8073 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 19 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 11 | 13 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 66 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.153855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082372 | 0 | 0 | 0.396718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111361 | 0.077026 | 0 | 0.139218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167675 | 0 | 0.154475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130419 | 0.177218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HELPquarterupmyass | 2019/07/25 | I think its getting there Im getting super suicidal again for no reason. Don't trust hotlines nor my ultra supportive parent as I know it will pass. My mom tries to analyze too much and its fucking awful because I can't even talk about the issues. Its hormones this, sick that. Its fucking always something. If the famil... | 3.420665 | 6.062133 | 4.542263 | 80.085293 | 77.101266 | 6.481646 | 28.862342 | 7.645422 | 2.228252 | 334 | 15 | 54 | 5 | 8 | 109 | 65 | 79 | 0.309 | 0.65 | 0.042 | -0.9753 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 39 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545515 | 0.205527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212461 | 0.205295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198219 | 0 | 0 | 0.230363 | 0 | 0 | 0.144591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223878 | 0 | 0.202232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215149 | 0.223204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | honeybabythrowaway | 2019/07/25 | at the end of my rope, literally and figuratively i had an argument with my best friend today while coming home from downtown. he always argues about directions to get home because i lived in the city and know street names, directions, etc. he only relies on google maps, which sometimes isn't right. we ended up yelling... | 3.856762 | 4.914574 | 4.910317 | 84.793571 | 71.603175 | 7.949206 | 26.857143 | 8.309217 | 1.622657 | 2,446 | 81 | 510 | 37 | 45 | 803 | 289 | 630 | 0.118 | 0.733 | 0.149 | 0.9817 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 77 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 46 | 7 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 51 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 96 | 96 | 49 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 28 | 48 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 19 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 7 | 73 | 27 | 83 | 64 | 9 | 71 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 48 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 324 | 101 | 5 | 0 | 0.074899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056036 | 0 | 0 | 0.130943 | 0.069759 | 0.050553 | 0.0526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05202 | 0.112549 | 0 | 0 | 0.118785 | 0 | 0.052782 | 0.115605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079617 | 0 | 0.064549 | 0 | 0.064452 | 0 | 0 | 0.054454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151415 | 0 | 0 | 0.040768 | 0.065172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052808 | 0.071108 | 0.111979 | 0 | 0.070501 | 0 | 0 | 0.053261 | 0.302022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19178 | 0.270964 | 0 | 0 | 0.057777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195358 | 0 | 0.033027 | 0 | 0.107779 | 0.053022 | 0.050559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135345 | 0 | 0 | 0.06598 | 0.125462 | 0 | 0 | 0.065828 | 0.104224 | 0.103057 | 0 | 0.066935 | 0.068683 | 0 | 0.04465 | 0.185301 | 0 | 0.223279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228215 | 0.059815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127411 | 0 | 0 | 0.074036 | 0.100915 | 0.201562 | 0.13941 | 0.046873 | 0.048755 | 0 | 0 | 0.059323 | 0 | 0 | 0.07197 | 0.066333 | 0 | 0.171344 | 0.096155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135738 | 0 | 0.053985 | 0 | 0 | 0.126578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048666 | 0.062521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178737 | 0 | 0.04753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062108 | 0.050185 | 0 | 0.072656 | 0.05992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052159 | 0.037286 | 0.050177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072694 | 0.121874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069115 | 0 | 0.162833 |
suicidewatch | random_white_guy12 | 2019/07/25 | Lost a friend to suicide and school spread it around in the wrong way Guy I knew from school for about 2 years committed suicide last Friday and the school tried to tell people in a respectful manner and it backfired as what they said was definitely worded wrong making it seem like he was just gone like he never came h... | 10.699643 | 8.095756 | 8.800952 | 74.710714 | 58.761905 | 12.219048 | 36.5 | 10.290406 | 3.398336 | 718 | 21 | 135 | 11 | 7 | 214 | 113 | 168 | 0.162 | 0.672 | 0.166 | -0.0469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 20 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 18 | 8 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 82 | 26 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103438 | 0.096265 | 0 | 0 | 0.262312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090515 | 0 | 0 | 0.112059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062197 | 0.092251 | 0 | 0.119834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165872 | 0.113429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075544 | 0 | 0 | 0.123279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083195 | 0 | 0.087286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07846 | 0 | 0.118242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107654 | 0.09 | 0 | 0.572687 | 0 | 0.103029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098918 | 0.104195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107275 | 0 | 0 | 0.076837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09338 | 0 | 0.089832 | 0 | 0 | 0.101756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247474 | 0 | 0.07288 |
suicidewatch | Sinfulmath | 2019/07/25 | It's 3:30 A.M. in my little corner of this prison we call Earth and I've just come to terms with the irrevocable train wreck that the marriage I held up as the last beacon of (false)hope in a life increasingly devoid of anything even resembling meaning has become. How's everyone else doing in this chapter of the human ... | 6.83129 | 7.896142 | 7.013065 | 72.389597 | 64.806452 | 9.425806 | 31.629032 | 9.516145 | 2.94289 | 270 | 10 | 46 | 5 | 4 | 87 | 51 | 62 | 0.11 | 0.89 | 0 | -0.7766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208448 | 0 | 0 | 0.301565 | 0 | 0.308713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222915 | 0 | 0.31631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DragonDai | 2019/07/25 | I am no one's first choice, no one's favorite person, and it just makes me want to die. Like the title says. it's miserable knowing that if everyone on earth had to pick a single person to survive a disaster, you'd wouldn't get picked by anyone. I have friends, but they're not close except one...who has a boyfriend who... | 1.281957 | 3.423115 | 2.973333 | 91.160556 | 81.840909 | 5.956566 | 21.993687 | 7.168622 | 0.648992 | 1,332 | 43 | 289 | 18 | 36 | 440 | 162 | 352 | 0.194 | 0.637 | 0.169 | -0.9131 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 65 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 21 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 68 | 60 | 28 | 3 | 11 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 11 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 40 | 10 | 25 | 40 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 5 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 185 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128826 | 0 | 0 | 0.107007 | 0 | 0.06623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0806 | 0.106717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061087 | 0 | 0.081582 | 0 | 0.294913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187685 | 0 | 0 | 0.090509 | 0 | 0 | 0.089294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161137 | 0 | 0 | 0.07318 | 0.175134 | 0.197949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080528 | 0 | 0 | 0.189679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100672 | 0.06963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105175 | 0 | 0 | 0.131334 | 0.248117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062928 | 0 | 0.093062 | 0 | 0.110464 | 0.217733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078154 | 0.279341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134573 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zx032 | 2019/07/25 | give me one good reason right now, give me one good reason i shouldn’t kill myself. me. a worthless, no good sack of shit. give me one good reason to stay alive. bet you got nothing huh? that’s what i thought. fuck you. | -1.0335 | 0.890679 | -0.022917 | 105.245625 | 105 | 2.25 | 12.291667 | 3.1291 | -1.903833 | 168 | 3 | 39 | 0 | 8 | 51 | 31 | 45 | 0.277 | 0.491 | 0.232 | -0.5719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145496 | 0 | 0.452923 | 0 | 0.528015 | 0.125872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pastorcollux | 2019/07/25 | roommates again i know i tend to let stuff get to me way too easily but this past week has been so hellish i’ve posted on here twice already. i told my roommates about a time that i was trying to take a funny video of me singing the lion king song loudly and bursting into my brothers room and accidentally walked in on ... | 5.600385 | 5.775057 | 5.996346 | 81.721981 | 67.303887 | 8.778965 | 28.661193 | 8.495291 | 1.846197 | 1,124 | 34 | 229 | 15 | 17 | 362 | 150 | 283 | 0.236 | 0.717 | 0.047 | -0.997 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 45 | 48 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 9 | 40 | 3 | 36 | 26 | 1 | 35 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 27 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 155 | 55 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083626 | 0.400266 | 0.056551 | 0 | 0 | 0.090787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073347 | 0.082322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206656 | 0.150081 | 0 | 0.113088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308884 | 0 | 0.108368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069356 | 0 | 0 | 0.126232 | 0 | 0 | 0.310285 | 0 | 0.220465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08931 | 0.127686 | 0.085916 | 0.086824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076891 | 0.355032 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DesperateDirector | 2019/07/25 | When does it get better It won't. Almost two decades of chronic depression. I'm tired and I look it. I'm older now and I look it. Ive been alone. Women enter my life on occasion just to leave it as soon as they see me. Happens less frequently now. I don't know the last day that was good. Life doesn't change and it's ti... | -1.229155 | 0.818489 | 1.139563 | 99.538359 | 95.901408 | 4.530141 | 15.550704 | 6.2581 | -0.583655 | 251 | 6 | 61 | 3 | 10 | 84 | 51 | 71 | 0.139 | 0.779 | 0.082 | -0.4588 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 35 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237258 | 0.245395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152805 | 0 | 0.204073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12379 | 0 | 0 | 0.198731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130214 | 0.193135 | 0 | 0.250882 | 0 | 0 | 0.334711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13816 | 0.272324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cool__skeleton__95 | 2019/07/25 | There's no point in going on anymore Title is pretty self explanatory, i have no friends, every relationship I've ever had has been a complete disaster, the few friends i did have ditched me because i was paranoid, I've spent the entire day drunk (im 17) and i guess im finally sobering up and realizing how fucking shit... | 3.461883 | 4.421616 | 5.118052 | 83.304221 | 72.441558 | 7.677922 | 28.935065 | 8.000946 | 1.838787 | 585 | 23 | 121 | 8 | 11 | 199 | 90 | 154 | 0.133 | 0.743 | 0.124 | -0.1071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 14 | 4 | 9 | 21 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 84 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.529272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120687 | 0.112413 | 0 | 0.11991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134924 | 0.190632 | 0 | 0.146157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206162 | 0.123346 | 0.069707 | 0 | 0.151653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14283 | 0 | 0.432354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188479 | 0.130366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126126 | 0 | 0 | 0.135737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137179 | 0 | 0.143245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IslamicCheetah | 2019/07/25 | Quickest way to die? There is no where in my house strong enough to hang my weight (6’4 200 lb male). I live in a small town so no buildings high enough to jump and die. What’s the quickest and most successful way to die? | 0.678913 | 2.840894 | 1.080609 | 103.701348 | 84.434783 | 4.549565 | 17.895652 | 5.683918 | -0.773934 | 171 | 4 | 42 | 1 | 5 | 51 | 34 | 46 | 0.275 | 0.601 | 0.124 | -0.8429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.676293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344824 | 0 | 0.264505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TotalPlanetFail | 2019/07/25 | Need someone to talk to :( I just need someone to be totally open and honest with. | 1.115625 | 3.652699 | 3.0175 | 87.6775 | 87.125 | 5.7 | 26.75 | 7.168622 | 1.65135 | 63 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 12 | 16 | 0.142 | 0.684 | 0.174 | 0.1689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.620231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.708738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | The_Wolverine-96 | 2019/07/25 | 22 shotgun blast to the head I'm done, going to go home and blow my head off, thank you for all the support you all have offered, I love you all. It's better to burn out than to fade away right?
I hope you all find hope without me being around, please dont follow me. | 4.965287 | 3.552428 | 5.377586 | 90.942701 | 69 | 7.733333 | 26.229885 | 3.1291 | 0.433051 | 206 | 4 | 50 | 0 | 3 | 66 | 43 | 58 | 0 | 0.693 | 0.307 | 0.9607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 11 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 32 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189862 | 0 | 0 | 0.200381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218257 | 0.249959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213935 | 0.423665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TemporaryRoyal | 2019/07/25 | So I'm a pretty active helper here but... I'm suicidal myself, I feel like such a hypocrite telling people to go out and be happy and then instantly go back to feeling like shit.
I almost feel like I'm using others pain ton here to validate myself and convince myself I'm a decent person, it's so awful. I'm disgusted ... | 3.616505 | 4.309318 | 5.216318 | 83.733128 | 71.857143 | 7.593676 | 27.679842 | 7.686295 | 1.607045 | 606 | 21 | 123 | 7 | 11 | 206 | 91 | 161 | 0.156 | 0.656 | 0.188 | -0.5824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 30 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 18 | 9 | 11 | 26 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 76 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094302 | 0.102398 | 0.07476 | 0.135445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079092 | 0 | 0.105629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372059 | 0.350453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139397 | 0.102864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261103 | 0 | 0 | 0.125863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083103 | 0 | 0.260993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085022 | 0.107084 | 0 | 0 | 0.115933 | 0 | 0 | 0.249536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086804 | 0.130717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211841 | 0 | 0 | 0.072336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jakeNVM | 2019/07/25 | Please help I know this isn't relatable but I need help for real I'm stuck in the line of giving up and killmyself or see how much more I can take No one loves me everyone abuses me I fucking hate my life I need help please | -0.332993 | 1.815726 | 1.562347 | 98.407058 | 89.612245 | 4.89932 | 16.329932 | 6.427356 | -0.463819 | 177 | 4 | 42 | 2 | 6 | 58 | 39 | 49 | 0.234 | 0.451 | 0.315 | 0.5596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.257088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200596 | 0 | 0.208149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159507 | 0.321778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.476362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | waste_of-space- | 2019/07/25 | I’ve run out of time. I was ruined as a kid. It’s true and I tried to deny it. The rest of your life is pretty much set up for you once you’re going through puberty. Due to circumstances out of my control I could never learn to socialize well. Some people are told they’re handsome or cute and are popular among the othe... | 1.270022 | 3.594389 | 3.094464 | 89.16125 | 83.322917 | 6.157143 | 20.60119 | 7.44753 | 0.726394 | 739 | 22 | 154 | 12 | 21 | 246 | 122 | 192 | 0.144 | 0.65 | 0.207 | 0.9246 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 24 | 33 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 20 | 12 | 23 | 21 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 109 | 30 | 1 | 0.146401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164201 | 0.116889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139892 | 0 | 0 | 0.138014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124528 | 0 | 0 | 0.113109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098129 | 0 | 0 | 0.145409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107621 | 0.108554 | 0.225826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153623 | 0.155912 | 0.19841 | 0.111344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202992 | 0.127831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165843 | 0.250051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163884 | 0 | 0 | 0.116916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097262 | 0 | 0.143838 | 0.116226 | 0.085367 | 0 | 0 | 0.139892 | 0 | 0.099396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131632 | 0 | 0.132104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103999 | 0.160066 | 0 | 0 |
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