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suicidewatch | How_Is_Suicide | 2019/10/17 | (almost) painless suicide methods? Besides Gun or Hanging because I can’t do either of those due to availability. you can’t talk me out of this please i’m so tired of this | 1.798529 | 4.41068 | 3.342647 | 86.236912 | 84 | 4.576471 | 29.088235 | 5.985473 | 1.3812 | 137 | 7 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 45 | 28 | 34 | 0.253 | 0.626 | 0.121 | -0.7405 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | YomiRizer | 2019/10/17 | I can't deal with this anymore I've never given ending my life a lot of thought over the years, mostly because of my religion and what it would do to my mother. But..I can't take being alone anymore. I've sat here and cried for the last hour, I haven't cried for years. People say "it's better to have loved and lost the... | 2.147878 | 3.163195 | 3.455966 | 93.753739 | 75.696429 | 5.806303 | 20.765756 | 5.528933 | -0.158278 | 808 | 17 | 187 | 3 | 17 | 264 | 113 | 224 | 0.131 | 0.691 | 0.178 | 0.9405 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 21 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 37 | 45 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 24 | 12 | 27 | 35 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 123 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073879 | 0 | 0.117138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211077 | 0.123926 | 0.099053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170195 | 0 | 0 | 0.063459 | 0.086909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18115 | 0 | 0.145741 | 0.068639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102278 | 0.086068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105605 | 0.078317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067863 | 0.046939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107488 | 0.104882 | 0.081683 | 0.520291 | 0 | 0.064134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065106 | 0 | 0.20447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076406 | 0 | 0 | 0.076563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192297 | 0 | 0.244222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068252 | 0 | 0 | 0.247487 |
suicidewatch | Bumpzzx | 2019/10/17 | Idk Im sorry to say this at this time but lately i just havent had the energy to do anything and i know im depressed, but by fiance left me and everything has gone downhill since then. I want her back but i know we are no good for eachother. Everyday i think of ways to end the pain, but i know it'll only be temporary. ... | 0.0251 | 1.975489 | 2.540917 | 93.543375 | 85.4 | 5.883333 | 20.041667 | 7.168622 | 0.404767 | 267 | 8 | 62 | 4 | 8 | 92 | 54 | 75 | 0.226 | 0.707 | 0.067 | -0.8903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 40 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215712 | 0 | 0 | 0.178992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358614 | 0 | 0.245361 | 0 | 0.236326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165426 | 0.231446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139372 | 0 | 0 | 0.126832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128293 | 0.17265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | YorkTheOpossum | 2019/10/17 | Shame for being transgender. I will never be the son I’m supposed to be. I want to have kids. I just want a god damn dick. My girlfriend deserves better than this. My dysphoria has been so bad tonight. I can’t even look down for too long or else I’ll want to disappear from disgust and embarrassment. I hate this body, i... | 0.064493 | 2.345493 | 2.37193 | 92.250248 | 89.470588 | 5.226716 | 20.909926 | 6.770276 | 0.480669 | 948 | 33 | 206 | 13 | 32 | 321 | 142 | 255 | 0.215 | 0.693 | 0.093 | -0.9896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 20 | 6 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 26 | 12 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 43 | 50 | 18 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 25 | 6 | 24 | 36 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 13 | 129 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101306 | 0.105408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105772 | 0.077223 | 0.139908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112038 | 0 | 0.281425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13401 | 0 | 0 | 0.136896 | 0 | 0.101143 | 0 | 0.139152 | 0.081698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192159 | 0.0905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234227 | 0.066185 | 0 | 0.14399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178955 | 0.123779 | 0 | 0 | 0.112108 | 0.106379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124119 | 0.243105 | 0 | 0 | 0.13491 | 0 | 0.096346 | 0.134796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144189 | 0.081154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08999 | 0 | 0 | 0.081578 |
suicidewatch | Cats-on-Smoko | 2019/10/17 | Hey I don't know either? I'm not sure about the rules on this subreddit but I came across this girls post while trying to get myself to call a help hotline. I've been struggling with depression and other mental issues all of my life. never been treated for anything before. About three months back I was placed in a psyc... | 1.58836 | 3.586561 | 2.842578 | 93.265614 | 79.958466 | 5.579084 | 21.295953 | 6.58834 | 0.283862 | 1,183 | 34 | 256 | 11 | 30 | 381 | 161 | 313 | 0.23 | 0.681 | 0.089 | -0.9952 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 24 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 54 | 16 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 31 | 8 | 49 | 37 | 6 | 40 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 159 | 39 | 3 | 0.11326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112324 | 0 | 0 | 0.093203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115651 | 0.129539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124411 | 0.073043 | 0 | 0.195102 | 0 | 0.117546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087505 | 0 | 0.236695 | 0 | 0.128737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075916 | 0 | 0.113609 | 0.112493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118214 | 0.112393 | 0.100671 | 0.250611 | 0 | 0.186734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123057 | 0 | 0.159998 | 0.055333 | 0 | 0 | 0.100232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11414 | 0.120151 | 0 | 0 | 0.180806 | 0 | 0 | 0.083981 | 0.087353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118333 | 0 | 0.107067 | 0 | 0.216944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236808 | 0 | 0 | 0.128526 | 0.106746 | 0 | 0 | 0.273103 | 0 | 0 | 0.129523 | 0.131504 | 0 | 0.072573 | 0 | 0 | 0.066043 | 0 | 0 | 0.108225 | 0 | 0.076896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093451 | 0.066804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082455 | 0 | 0.115422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145872 |
suicidewatch | nico_lovelive | 2019/10/17 | No future for Slackers like me (18F) Hey guys, I thought I would post on here because I feel like my life is coming to an end. Not today, or even next week, but maybe sometime soon? Honestly I don't really post on here but im hoping to get some kind of comfort haha
Basically my situation is, im an 18 year old female, ... | 4.269736 | 4.973431 | 5.666405 | 81.057632 | 70.374322 | 8.437691 | 28.146669 | 8.605353 | 1.965373 | 2,140 | 73 | 433 | 34 | 37 | 723 | 257 | 553 | 0.14 | 0.714 | 0.146 | -0.7141 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 63 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 34 | 32 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 52 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 84 | 82 | 41 | 3 | 11 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 8 | 58 | 23 | 65 | 64 | 9 | 69 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 27 | 0 | 10 | 40 | 298 | 83 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0.051753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219707 | 0 | 0.169644 | 0.044128 | 0 | 0 | 0.036065 | 0 | 0.040571 | 0 | 0 | 0.074165 | 0.054339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088562 | 0.096986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056102 | 0.045684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034202 | 0 | 0.045678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044303 | 0.059656 | 0.093944 | 0.054798 | 0 | 0.035028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047663 | 0 | 0.049995 | 0 | 0.107261 | 0.113662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04511 | 0 | 0 | 0.040974 | 0 | 0.110831 | 0 | 0.03014 | 0.044482 | 0 | 0 | 0.058422 | 0.052512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052674 | 0.052227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515568 | 0 | 0.052628 | 0 | 0.058674 | 0.165679 | 0.116583 | 0.043229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074918 | 0.181367 | 0 | 0.280978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0354 | 0.053768 | 0.053279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042331 | 0.056366 | 0 | 0.039324 | 0.040903 | 0 | 0.056402 | 0.049768 | 0 | 0.050887 | 0.060379 | 0.05565 | 0 | 0.035937 | 0.121003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055409 | 0.058215 | 0 | 0 | 0.203166 | 0.053954 | 0.114358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056408 | 0 | 0 | 0.067949 | 0.109055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090581 | 0 | 0.042174 | 0 | 0.053673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04387 | 0.059612 | 0 | 0.054061 | 0 | 0.040828 | 0.052452 | 0.118733 | 0.037537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211399 | 0.067964 | 0 | 0.126308 | 0.061849 | 0.060954 | 0.05027 | 0 | 0 | 0.036006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062561 | 0.042096 | 0.04254 | 0 | 0.095367 | 0 | 0.047855 | 0.05921 | 0 | 0.051122 | 0 | 0.115827 | 0.053858 | 0.054046 | 0.150694 | 0 | 0 | 0.068304 |
suicidewatch | ihavesecretss | 2019/10/17 | My life is basically ruined I just found out that my husband has had a porn addiction he’s been hiding for the last three years. It’s been going on longer but we’ve only been together for three years. I’ve been through a lot of shit in my life. Continually sexually assaulted, emotionally abusive and neglectful parents,... | 4.634174 | 6.101116 | 5.311591 | 81.094598 | 70.193182 | 8.824476 | 30.015734 | 9.265574 | 2.518006 | 721 | 29 | 143 | 15 | 13 | 233 | 110 | 176 | 0.228 | 0.661 | 0.112 | -0.9811 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 14 | 4 | 25 | 14 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 90 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0.161958 | 0 | 0.149015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140924 | 0.117733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156661 | 0 | 0 | 0.139883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138231 | 0.097653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149876 | 0 | 0.12637 | 0.071416 | 0 | 0.077685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386199 | 0.133562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143435 | 0 | 0 | 0.10396 | 0 | 0 | 0.15178 | 0 | 0.130488 | 0 | 0.238708 | 0 | 0 | 0.129218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1426 | 0 | 0.140312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087587 | 0 | 0 | 0.159412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161249 | 0 | 0 | 0.166454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440126 |
suicidewatch | Buttersnapped | 2019/10/17 | What the fuck do I do I seriously want to kill myself, I have no one to talk to, I don't even know what to say,I feel like I'm going to kill myself eventually and I don't want to hurt my girlfriend, I don't even want to admit any of this because honestly I feel like If I pretend none of my issues exist and be strong th... | 0.506935 | 2.358702 | 3.112519 | 90.695473 | 82.89313 | 5.86283 | 19.237228 | 7.010147 | 0.238258 | 470 | 12 | 106 | 6 | 13 | 164 | 67 | 131 | 0.14 | 0.67 | 0.19 | 0.0931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 30 | 11 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 9 | 13 | 25 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 76 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19968 | 0 | 0.139367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216353 | 0.14815 | 0 | 0 | 0.294394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165627 | 0.234012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151414 | 0.085569 | 0 | 0.093081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350665 | 0 | 0 | 0.170946 | 0 | 0 | 0.362402 | 0 | 0.09001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123144 | 0.131642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119235 | 0.166329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chef-jeff-big-dog- | 2019/10/17 | Idk why I’m like this It was just a casual night with my parents and we were discussing random topics while watching tv, a friend told me a girl I was interested in wasn’t into me earlier that day but it’s nothing new, Then the topic of me being depressed/ suicidal came up. I don’t ever feel comfortable enough to fully... | 2.262692 | 3.820722 | 3.991282 | 87.820385 | 76.435897 | 6.723077 | 22.25641 | 7.468242 | 0.761272 | 1,172 | 32 | 251 | 15 | 26 | 394 | 172 | 312 | 0.16 | 0.699 | 0.141 | -0.8233 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 53 | 50 | 22 | 2 | 6 | 16 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 46 | 10 | 31 | 30 | 7 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 33 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 174 | 64 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101333 | 0 | 0 | 0.131495 | 0 | 0.091777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086113 | 0 | 0.118474 | 0.069558 | 0 | 0.092895 | 0 | 0.111937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191055 | 0.111443 | 0 | 0 | 0.195122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101676 | 0 | 0.163604 | 0.077052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166657 | 0 | 0 | 0.103464 | 0.061297 | 0 | 0 | 0.118911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191733 | 0 | 0 | 0.118549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152362 | 0.158078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108903 | 0.126319 | 0.086089 | 0 | 0.079286 | 0 | 0.083184 | 0.104167 | 0 | 0.101215 | 0.105675 | 0.10349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11976 | 0 | 0 | 0.074773 | 0 | 0.112686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112516 | 0 | 0.110712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081094 | 0 | 0.09427 | 0 | 0 | 0.125228 | 0.143308 | 0.069109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10306 | 0 | 0.292906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099983 | 0.194645 | 0 | 0.124028 | 0.103968 | 0 | 0.07852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117923 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SarahRom | 2019/10/17 | What does happen when I call 911 if my suicidal thoughts go out of control I have these fast up and down moods lately. Full of considering killing myself with blades or jumping under subway or stuff. I wanted to know if they got really bad and wanted call 911 what will happen?? | 4.923679 | 6.595004 | 5.162406 | 81.650401 | 69.754717 | 7.564151 | 24.570755 | 8.076483 | 1.43606 | 222 | 6 | 40 | 3 | 4 | 70 | 42 | 53 | 0.217 | 0.783 | 0 | -0.9331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131354 | 0 | 0.184852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255706 | 0 | 0.127021 | 0 | 0.26072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264584 | 0.252814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chriissywith2eios | 2019/10/17 | Wanted to cut myself but didn't want people to see So I'm sitting in a corner right now with a knife and a super absorbant pad beside me. I've cut myself before but my family saw it and I don't want them to see or make it obvious. I just want to bleed because i don't want to die but I want to hurt because I deserve it.... | 1.666508 | 2.819357 | 3.558921 | 91.988857 | 77.148148 | 6.098201 | 21.594709 | 6.427356 | 0.228492 | 674 | 17 | 155 | 5 | 15 | 228 | 107 | 189 | 0.235 | 0.661 | 0.104 | -0.9642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 34 | 30 | 14 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 25 | 6 | 19 | 25 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 97 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233382 | 0 | 0.108592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120305 | 0 | 0.129053 | 0.182339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187626 | 0 | 0.098426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12829 | 0 | 0 | 0.127651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108984 | 0.121393 | 0.101486 | 0 | 0 | 0.203388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108129 | 0 | 0 | 0.142856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086643 | 0.13881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.602172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sableru | 2019/10/17 | so tired I feel like I am so undeserving of what I have. Everything is going ok right now in my life. School stress is less than last year, SO is more understanding and supportive than ever, family is caring about me. But I don’t feel good. I don’t feel happy. I don’t remember feeling joy for such a long time. I have l... | 0.95642 | 3.200552 | 2.709554 | 91.936278 | 83.966887 | 5.779811 | 20.409793 | 7.106946 | 0.476855 | 1,142 | 34 | 246 | 16 | 33 | 377 | 143 | 302 | 0.13 | 0.678 | 0.191 | 0.9408 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 28 | 5 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 39 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 47 | 63 | 23 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 38 | 19 | 26 | 56 | 5 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 26 | 175 | 57 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076616 | 0.111873 | 0 | 0 | 0.103383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100794 | 0.059178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060607 | 0.083003 | 0.077312 | 0 | 0.082468 | 0 | 0.086504 | 0 | 0.463968 | 0.262215 | 0 | 0.100519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084831 | 0 | 0 | 0.05215 | 0.076964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390723 | 0 | 0.090594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064813 | 0.268977 | 0 | 0.081026 | 0.081205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088623 | 0 | 0.086111 | 0 | 0.088047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069788 | 0.09764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207893 | 0.078363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094191 | 0.075905 | 0 | 0.091827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076716 | 0.105111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107012 | 0.105465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059091 |
suicidewatch | The_PrinceOfMilk | 2019/10/17 | It’s getting harder Everyday the thought of dying becomes more alluring, I can’t focus anymore and I just want relief from my mind. | 4.9788 | 6.997976 | 6.277 | 72.3235 | 70.2 | 8.2 | 36.5 | 8.841846 | 3.783 | 107 | 6 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 36 | 24 | 25 | 0 | 0.812 | 0.188 | 0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | palma-dutch | 2019/10/17 | I’m buying a gun tomorrow I applied for a pistol permit. Got denied because I’ve been to psychiatric hospitals twice within the past couple years. However, I know some nefarious people and am getting an illegal 9mm tomorrow. Don’t have much time left I suppose but I’m feeling relief. I’m too much of a pussy to hang mys... | 1.283011 | 3.715906 | 3.54697 | 85.176818 | 84.416667 | 6.407576 | 25.393939 | 7.686295 | 1.704304 | 374 | 16 | 72 | 7 | 11 | 128 | 67 | 96 | 0.066 | 0.808 | 0.126 | 0.7506 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 46 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487168 | 0.176899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204678 | 0 | 0.229424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164318 |
suicidewatch | SlenderGamin212 | 2019/10/17 | I’m craving for the end more now then ever. I’m so close,
I just want to kill myself. I feel like I have no friends. I’ve got my keys in my hands wanting to start tearing away at my forearm. I’m finding no help from anyone I know. This is my last attempt at getting better. What should I do? I don’t want to die but I’v... | 0.020365 | 1.545504 | 2.459583 | 96.427083 | 82.90625 | 5.308333 | 21.604167 | 6.139982 | 0.054873 | 657 | 21 | 163 | 5 | 18 | 226 | 104 | 192 | 0.15 | 0.721 | 0.129 | -0.8105 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 39 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 22 | 6 | 28 | 32 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 103 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121649 | 0 | 0.108109 | 0 | 0 | 0.110176 | 0 | 0.135879 | 0.114513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111519 | 0 | 0.134378 | 0.135277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065468 | 0.092499 | 0 | 0 | 0.118341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300104 | 0 | 0.135294 | 0 | 0.220756 | 0 | 0.207111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143249 | 0 | 0.071158 | 0.105542 | 0 | 0.137099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102791 | 0.0755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087907 | 0 | 0 | 0.134791 | 0 | 0 | 0.142602 | 0 | 0.458218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08338 |
suicidewatch | throawaylikemylife01 | 2019/10/17 | It's been 35 years coming I am sick of people telling me that they are surprised I "turned out so well" and by that they only mean I'm not jail like the rest of family. I survived the abuse my entire life but not a day goes by when I don't relive it over and over.. I am grown man who cries every day and so many fears a... | 2.686455 | 3.571212 | 3.860985 | 91.871477 | 74.212121 | 6.712121 | 23.44697 | 6.816662 | 0.493515 | 604 | 16 | 140 | 5 | 12 | 197 | 105 | 165 | 0.201 | 0.724 | 0.074 | -0.9763 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 26 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 5 | 19 | 24 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 94 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0.207249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133811 | 0 | 0 | 0.122306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192139 | 0.225615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231063 | 0 | 0.147376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164897 | 0.196831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091387 | 0 | 0.09941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19352 | 0 | 0.09613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123549 | 0.170912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116759 | 0.177339 | 0 | 0.190537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131516 | 0 | 0.152886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157272 | 0 | 0 | 0.195289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225282 |
suicidewatch | nickbarca11 | 2019/10/17 | Tried to slit my wrists tonight Tried to slit my wrists tonight. Ended up just heavily bruising my wrists. Slight bleeding. Hopefully goes better the next time! Hopefully next time is the final time. Maybe hang myself | 4.057658 | 7.37028 | 2.442027 | 88.537995 | 90.081081 | 5.70991 | 25.085586 | 7.168622 | 1.704175 | 176 | 7 | 28 | 3 | 6 | 49 | 24 | 37 | 0 | 0.798 | 0.202 | 0.8221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | triplextamponn | 2019/10/17 | i can't do thing anymore this world just ain't for me bro | -3.620952 | -2.821425 | -1.127143 | 111.455476 | 120.428571 | 1.866667 | 11.809524 | 3.1291 | -2.204733 | 46 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.83081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | awful_person449 | 2019/10/17 | I did something absolutely horrible and I don't know how to live with myself A week ago I cheated on my boyfriend by having sex with my friend's boyfriend. I told my boyfriend, then called my friend and told her too.
It's been a week and I can't fucking deal with this. My boyfriend (for some fucking reason) wants to s... | 2.941667 | 3.922495 | 3.856896 | 91.776116 | 73.707602 | 6.524632 | 24.498713 | 6.556748 | 0.599694 | 1,273 | 37 | 285 | 9 | 25 | 409 | 165 | 342 | 0.213 | 0.702 | 0.085 | -0.9955 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 28 | 16 | 5 | 5 | 7 | 63 | 57 | 26 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 55 | 6 | 41 | 42 | 8 | 38 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 25 | 17 | 6 | 5 | 14 | 194 | 68 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076821 | 0.101713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093073 | 0.077757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075416 | 0 | 0.07996 | 0.093282 | 0 | 0.059628 | 0.163325 | 0.076064 | 0.086265 | 0.081137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045648 | 0.064495 | 0.086682 | 0 | 0.082513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209248 | 0.333845 | 0 | 0 | 0.153923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08939 | 0.079833 | 0 | 0 | 0.089132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049615 | 0 | 0 | 0.095592 | 0 | 0 | 0.255066 | 0.044106 | 0 | 0.239154 | 0 | 0.151623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068661 | 0.096063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077098 | 0 | 0.071793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076493 | 0.069501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067878 | 0.072563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266244 | 0.143318 | 0.289665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103816 | 0 | 0 | 0.131448 | 0 | 0 | 0.192394 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nickthrowaway420 | 2019/10/17 | If anyone needs to talk im here for you I just wanted to let everyone know my inbox is open and i wont judge you. | -2.703889 | -1.020146 | 1.027685 | 99.717083 | 100.851852 | 4.181481 | 10.453704 | 5.985473 | -1.334919 | 88 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 4 | 32 | 23 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway7373663 | 2019/10/17 | I never thought I’d be that person but I wish I could just go I don’t deserve to be here | -2.991061 | -1.394082 | 0.679091 | 103.255303 | 98.545455 | 2.933333 | 16.424242 | 3.1291 | -1.293867 | 69 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 17 | 22 | 0 | 0.809 | 0.191 | 0.5499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wingedsushi_ | 2019/10/17 | fuck i want to kill myself. the last person that’s here for me isn’t anymore and doesn’t even want to be and all i do is make them feel bad. i’d be better off dead. nobody cares about me, all i do is hurt people and make them feel unappreciated and take up al of their free time. i’m miserable. nobody is here for me. i ... | 0.06112 | 1.772059 | 2.593033 | 94.579768 | 83.672131 | 5.706011 | 18.363388 | 6.816662 | -0.13333 | 425 | 10 | 105 | 5 | 12 | 147 | 66 | 122 | 0.263 | 0.584 | 0.153 | -0.9661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 31 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 5 | 15 | 26 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 62 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134367 | 0.098099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10629 | 0 | 0 | 0.307544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178041 | 0 | 0 | 0.131176 | 0 | 0.170397 | 0 | 0 | 0.113667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111566 | 0.140514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway_160401 | 2019/10/17 | Should I do it? I've been thinking about doing it the past month but I'm indecisive by nature so I keep going back and forth on it. I just feel unloved even though I have a boyfriend, good friends and family. I don't know if I can keep going on any longer. I always have the thought of killing myself at least once every... | 2.800433 | 4.057498 | 3.435769 | 93.584231 | 74.432692 | 6.738462 | 23.096154 | 7.168622 | 0.538215 | 783 | 21 | 179 | 8 | 16 | 246 | 123 | 208 | 0.129 | 0.683 | 0.189 | 0.9364 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 23 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 47 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 21 | 10 | 24 | 37 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 115 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135894 | 0 | 0.204934 | 0 | 0 | 0.083743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115124 | 0 | 0 | 0.094691 | 0 | 0.075068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125555 | 0 | 0.130272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126021 | 0.288651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127242 | 0 | 0.081336 | 0 | 0.103755 | 0 | 0.110675 | 0 | 0.116091 | 0 | 0.186798 | 0.17595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285426 | 0.113846 | 0 | 0 | 0.139973 | 0.103289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131091 | 0.110314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218915 | 0.136242 | 0 | 0.203033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120325 | 0 | 0.10874 | 0 | 0.103411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098294 | 0 | 0.090526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131146 | 0.25034 | 0.093658 | 0 | 0 | 0.136739 | 0 | 0.117556 | 0 | 0.107526 | 0.128661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078907 | 0.12099 | 0.195528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072634 | 0.097747 | 0.09878 | 0 | 0.110723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087479 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | C_E_H92002 | 2019/10/17 | Probably pointless but how do I tell my friends I’m going to kill myself? I plan to kill myself on Friday and I have everything planned out I just feel as though o owe my friends a goodbye or explanation. I don’t know if they’ll care or if this friendship is a one-sided thing on my end but I don’t wanna just disappear ... | 0.972493 | 2.93776 | 2.970599 | 91.724384 | 81.892562 | 5.686226 | 22.480028 | 6.816662 | 0.569942 | 446 | 15 | 98 | 5 | 12 | 150 | 74 | 121 | 0.223 | 0.58 | 0.197 | -0.5555 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 20 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 6 | 11 | 18 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 67 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202698 | 0 | 0.202391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439237 | 0 | 0.218188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134513 | 0.150973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188826 | 0 | 0.19874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131879 | 0 | 0.195032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ldwmills7 | 2019/10/17 | Never I always have said that I am not scared to die and I could die tomorrow and I will be completely fine with it. I have also said that I want to die and have tried to take my own life many times. Never thinking about what would actually happen if I actually did die.
My sister just came home in tears, sobbing beca... | 3.931022 | 4.753831 | 4.838414 | 86.25202 | 71.226721 | 7.593141 | 25.865444 | 7.724431 | 1.251808 | 949 | 28 | 199 | 11 | 17 | 309 | 127 | 247 | 0.17 | 0.724 | 0.106 | -0.9738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 30 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 51 | 53 | 14 | 10 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 32 | 4 | 22 | 34 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 146 | 55 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063793 | 0.066377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091238 | 0 | 0 | 0.084388 | 0 | 0.250918 | 0 | 0 | 0.063691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.579534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076225 | 0 | 0 | 0.075202 | 0 | 0.040335 | 0.056989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073748 | 0.041677 | 0 | 0.045336 | 0 | 0.063801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176511 | 0 | 0.087681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11269 | 0.077945 | 0 | 0 | 0.070596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053248 | 0.080876 | 0 | 0.086895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058641 | 0 | 0.307625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051104 | 0.082019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151762 | 0.126875 | 0.079865 | 0 | 0.127136 | 0 | 0.083219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052997 | 0.102229 | 0 | 0 | 0.139547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06582 | 0.094103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22667 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | the-tiny-dino- | 2019/10/17 | I want to leave I feel like I'm stuck in a cycle and I can't breakout of it. I feel depressed all the time. Sometimes the people in my class are nice to me, but then they refuse to talk to me. I then come home and think about death. I feel like I'm beginning to break. | -0.259 | 1.427956 | 1.486667 | 102.215 | 84.666667 | 4.666667 | 16.666667 | 5.461319 | -0.958833 | 206 | 4 | 54 | 1 | 6 | 67 | 40 | 60 | 0.208 | 0.662 | 0.13 | -0.705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 31 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435865 | 0.410553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184117 | 0 | 0 | 0.167551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Traxionex | 2019/10/17 | Well now I feel even worse I made a post on here earlier and it got a comment that I can’t even read. It won’t show up, somebody spent time trying to make me feel better and it didn’t work because I’m a fucking useless human being.. god... 188 days left minimum | 2.64375 | 3.400279 | 4.409286 | 88.385714 | 74.178571 | 7.028571 | 26.5 | 7.168622 | 1.150443 | 203 | 7 | 45 | 2 | 4 | 69 | 44 | 56 | 0.116 | 0.79 | 0.094 | -0.2944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25802 | 0.182018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198517 | 0 | 0.277888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | verydepressed12 | 2019/10/17 | I'm not worth much I am only worth what I can achieve academically. It sucks. Im not any good at academics so it really sucks. I just hate everything right now. | -0.146364 | 2.166615 | 2.359758 | 89.899636 | 96.272727 | 6.276364 | 18.721212 | 7.554174 | 0.785187 | 126 | 4 | 28 | 3 | 5 | 43 | 25 | 33 | 0.401 | 0.599 | 0 | -0.9136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 63I4715 | 2019/10/17 | Death What is it like to die from an acetiminophen overdose...? | 2.300909 | 5.011754 | 0.500455 | 101.270682 | 99 | 2.2 | 23.681818 | 3.1291 | -0.272673 | 49 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 11 | 11 | 0.426 | 0.437 | 0.137 | -0.743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.904767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | deathisrelease79 | 2019/10/17 | i'm useless I'm 15, transgender ftm, so I already have enough problems with that mess. I'm starting to be terrified of being an adult, i'm turning 16 in January and that's weighing on me a lot lately. I'm certain I will kill myself if I ever had to get a job or go to college, being constrained that much makes me want t... | 1.742602 | 2.275307 | 4.740408 | 86.011735 | 76.091837 | 7.436735 | 25.734694 | 7.709487 | 1.273657 | 673 | 23 | 156 | 9 | 14 | 247 | 109 | 196 | 0.198 | 0.695 | 0.107 | -0.9641 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 31 | 44 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 22 | 34 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 102 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.175235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185545 | 0 | 0.118605 | 0.162432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090796 | 0.128285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19689 | 0 | 0 | 0.187637 | 0 | 0.306163 | 0.150616 | 0.143619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178196 | 0 | 0.198669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152665 | 0 | 0 | 0.119865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188429 | 0 | 0.121682 | 0.136572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | oldera548 | 2019/10/17 | i’m such a fucking disappointing fuck up i just impulse quit my job. i’m sad about it. they liked me. i should’ve done it. it was the first time in a long time i felt like i had purpose. now that’s gone again. i just saw the joker with some friends but apparently i agreed to see it with my boyfriend first. i’ve been to... | -1.757157 | 0.141369 | 1.136496 | 98.329773 | 100.843972 | 4.265764 | 17.047389 | 6.112484 | -0.406379 | 493 | 15 | 121 | 6 | 22 | 170 | 85 | 141 | 0.198 | 0.705 | 0.097 | -0.9551 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 17 | 4 | 13 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 10 | 74 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147939 | 0 | 0.140824 | 0.262117 | 0 | 0 | 0.11904 | 0.712212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152898 | 0.136951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167406 | 0 | 0 | 0.150549 | 0 | 0 | 0.136354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163881 | 0 | 0 | 0.197412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nebraskka | 2019/10/17 | Thinking about self harm again Everything was good for a while, I was recovering from a whole year of difficulty in my life which ended up with me absolutely out of my mind developing mild depression. Things seemed to really work out for me and for a moment I thought It wasn't going to happen again. Now here I am, thir... | 4.800821 | 4.72357 | 5.64847 | 84.399422 | 69 | 8.789552 | 25.705224 | 8.472885 | 1.364779 | 508 | 12 | 112 | 7 | 8 | 167 | 86 | 134 | 0.212 | 0.71 | 0.079 | -0.9602 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 21 | 16 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 71 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156741 | 0 | 0.121025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154299 | 0 | 0 | 0.130364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136013 | 0 | 0 | 0.170297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172018 | 0.126935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106895 | 0 | 0.151681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137773 | 0.473636 | 0 | 0.155346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201085 | 0.193943 | 0 | 0.240291 | 0.176493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097457 |
suicidewatch | Datboihere420 | 2019/10/17 | I just want someone to talk to I can't take it anymore I keep getting beat and yelled at and forgotten even my mom hates me I feel empty no matter what I do it's wrong please I just want someone to talk to please | -1.237112 | 0.80992 | 0.837082 | 101.02 | 97.93617 | 3.536778 | 17.352584 | 5.288315 | -0.743861 | 168 | 5 | 40 | 1 | 7 | 55 | 32 | 47 | 0.242 | 0.589 | 0.169 | -0.6808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174747 | 0.373613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25411 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | keidurf | 2019/10/17 | I been planning to end it all this Saturday Like 4 years ago I decided that if I ever would kill myself it would be on October 19th, things have changed for the better since then but I'm tired of still feeling miserable and like a waste of time that I think I finally have had enough but I'm scared I don't want to hurt ... | 4.057975 | 4.282989 | 5.060608 | 86.922051 | 70.64557 | 9.357975 | 27.192405 | 9.3871 | 1.940684 | 295 | 9 | 67 | 6 | 5 | 97 | 61 | 79 | 0.231 | 0.591 | 0.178 | -0.7157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 45 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194091 | 0.226428 | 0 | 0 | 0.198223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206584 | 0 | 0.110803 | 0 | 0 | 0.240055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214119 | 0 | 0.193503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145585 | 0.140415 | 0 | 0 | 0.127781 | 0.251867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311338 | 0 | 0 | 0.141118 |
suicidewatch | youcan_youcant | 2019/10/17 | 27, Indian, Depressed, Single for life, want to stab myself in the neck. If I had known that life was going to be so depressing and sad, I would have plotted in the womb for my demise. Atleast my mother agrees with that, she used to say I wish I had killed you in the womb.
Life is so depressing that I spend 2 hours in... | 3.505078 | 4.270804 | 4.465856 | 88.743465 | 72.168317 | 6.761528 | 25.319661 | 6.543119 | 0.77414 | 760 | 22 | 164 | 5 | 14 | 247 | 113 | 202 | 0.09 | 0.693 | 0.218 | 0.9728 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 25 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 31 | 41 | 13 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 30 | 11 | 24 | 28 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 118 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138179 | 0.1088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104488 | 0 | 0 | 0.094906 | 0 | 0.128358 | 0 | 0.069813 | 0.309098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108627 | 0 | 0.110041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135905 | 0 | 0.06751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221736 | 0 | 0.081997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093426 | 0 | 0 | 0.1364 | 0 | 0 | 0.255486 | 0 | 0.128342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106095 | 0 | 0 | 0.289818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261787 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sgtpepper203 | 2019/10/17 | Damn im a disappointment You ever get disappointed that this is the body you've been given? Im so fucking spoiled I can't enjoy this world. I hate myself and my brain. I wish I could have a do over. I wish people to siphon my life energy and leave me to die because I'm too much of a coward to do it myself | 0.860196 | 2.340969 | 3.58 | 89.581667 | 80.176471 | 6.298039 | 18.686275 | 7.168622 | 0.134345 | 240 | 5 | 56 | 3 | 6 | 85 | 49 | 68 | 0.316 | 0.584 | 0.1 | -0.9459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247853 | 0 | 0.249093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206285 | 0.116579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236269 | 0 | 0 | 0.157607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.51319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | whimsicalscarecrow | 2019/10/17 | I don't have any control over my life and I keep on pushing everyone away I know Im not fucking psychotic but my opinion doesn't fucking matter. Im 18 but I dont even have legal rights over myself. That's for other people, not me. My guardian is an abusive controlling piece of shit who has fucked up my schooling and ch... | 1.379231 | 3.553267 | 3.491987 | 87.392596 | 81.692308 | 5.694872 | 25.775641 | 6.907726 | 1.165649 | 594 | 25 | 121 | 7 | 16 | 202 | 93 | 156 | 0.275 | 0.652 | 0.073 | -0.9895 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 28 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 16 | 27 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 76 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 0.110134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064995 | 0 | 0.076492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087332 | 0 | 0 | 0.056663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094345 | 0.09647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095123 | 0.21788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082329 | 0 | 0 | 0.184183 | 0 | 0 | 0.08882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429667 | 0.048564 | 0 | 0.105654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.702834 | 0 | 0 | 0.082621 | 0 | 0 | 0.051084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05956 | 0.091326 | 0 | 0.054202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | emmasignorelli | 2019/10/17 | could really use some help hey guys. i’m having some pretty bad thoughts right now.
my best friend, her boyfriend, and i moved 10 hours away from home for a new start with a one year lease. two months in, she tells me she’s moving back home. the move out was very messy and i’ve lost almost all semblance of a support ... | 2.652077 | 4.533901 | 2.907314 | 94.602384 | 76.23301 | 5.937001 | 21.153182 | 6.691623 | 0.177346 | 803 | 20 | 175 | 7 | 18 | 245 | 137 | 206 | 0.185 | 0.73 | 0.085 | -0.959 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 37 | 36 | 13 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 20 | 6 | 21 | 22 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 107 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 0.111432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094176 | 0.292218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088362 | 0.144635 | 0.078527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098608 | 0 | 0 | 0.22527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093123 | 0 | 0 | 0.084249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063039 | 0 | 0.283015 | 0 | 0.092619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051687 | 0.076662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102665 | 0 | 0.084882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110148 | 0.150137 | 0.599752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094074 | 0 | 0.06025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080317 | 0 | 0.074791 | 0.094159 | 0 | 0.074944 | 0 | 0 | 0.106248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102874 | 0.106725 | 0 | 0 | 0.070713 | 0 | 0.082203 | 0.086587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091872 | 0 | 0 | 0.081228 | 0 | 0.1552 | 0.110945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066809 | 0 | 0 | 0.060564 |
suicidewatch | SweetSandwichBoi | 2019/10/17 | An interesting title. Hey guys,compulsive random dude from somewhere in the world,and I'm getting ready to blow this popsicle stand!...No,I mean,l'm planning to literally blow myself up,in style and shit. Dunno how,dunno when or where,I guess if I pick a good target,you guys will know about it in time! Or,no,if I choos... | 1.835607 | 3.799444 | 3.140009 | 91.608145 | 79 | 6.149159 | 20.980374 | 7.168622 | 0.431704 | 407 | 11 | 89 | 5 | 10 | 132 | 76 | 107 | 0.1 | 0.689 | 0.211 | 0.865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 37 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11886 | 0 | 0 | 0.381634 | 0 | 0 | 0.501236 | 0.225262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18061 | 0.132658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16161 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | poptart-therapy | 2019/10/17 | Flushing out an attempt Hey everyone, it’s been a while. I deleted my previous post from a while back as to not drudge up old shit. I attempted last night by overdose, and other than sickness today I’m somehow fine. I don’t really want to go to the doctors and I was wondering what the best way to flush out my system wo... | 2.297996 | 3.911105 | 4.265358 | 85.657497 | 76.476636 | 7.372378 | 26.84216 | 8.167269 | 1.751047 | 404 | 16 | 84 | 7 | 9 | 138 | 72 | 107 | 0.023 | 0.813 | 0.164 | 0.9011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 16 | 14 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 60 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221812 | 0.20661 | 0.174121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108198 | 0.320961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144727 | 0.145981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181257 | 0 | 0 | 0.130796 | 0.126151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116123 | 0.156271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139855 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | poisson_agatha | 2019/10/17 | I’m about to turn 21 and I wish I could just kill myself I guess I should start with the fact that I’m failing out of college. The only classes I’m any good at are my art and painting classes, but I can’t ever get a job or make enough money to support my self through art alone it’s simply not realistic
I’m too anxio... | 0.597818 | 2.142375 | 2.731273 | 95.072909 | 81.181818 | 4.836364 | 18.272727 | 5.108053 | -0.580673 | 965 | 20 | 227 | 3 | 25 | 327 | 126 | 275 | 0.224 | 0.682 | 0.094 | -0.9931 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 18 | 8 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 20 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 50 | 53 | 21 | 3 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 31 | 4 | 29 | 38 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 143 | 38 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084094 | 0.089601 | 0 | 0.270243 | 0 | 0 | 0.055215 | 0 | 0.062114 | 0.091727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071915 | 0.083896 | 0 | 0 | 0.146891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22519 | 0.127263 | 0 | 0 | 0.068102 | 0 | 0 | 0.089445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24172 | 0 | 0.17966 | 0 | 0.089245 | 0 | 0 | 0.085974 | 0 | 0 | 0.05735 | 0.079336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119375 | 0 | 0.062623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159108 | 0.155818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05502 | 0.061752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047891 | 0 | 0.06513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373481 | 0 | 0 | 0.059111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052287 |
suicidewatch | Milk-ChocolateBar | 2019/10/17 | I just wish I could be normal I wish I could be social, I wish I could be happy. I wish people weren’t weirded out by me when I talked. I wish I had motivation to do things. I wish I was able to convince myself that i’ll be able to find a job. I wish I was never born | -1.579977 | 0.110467 | 1.757834 | 98.235323 | 90.129032 | 4.188018 | 13.695853 | 5.288315 | -1.249731 | 203 | 3 | 53 | 1 | 7 | 73 | 33 | 62 | 0 | 0.565 | 0.435 | 0.975 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 39 | 18 | 2 | 0.221337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.890842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nothing_1200 | 2019/10/17 | I feel so alone I always feel alone and so unimportant to everyone. I don’t know what to do. I want to just end it but I’m too scared to. | -2.775312 | -1.130555 | 0.54975 | 102.52025 | 103.0625 | 5.06 | 12.65 | 6.742158 | -0.748358 | 105 | 2 | 29 | 2 | 5 | 37 | 21 | 32 | 0.288 | 0.675 | 0.037 | -0.7776 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.67722 | 0 | 0 | 0.272039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | raininadesertt | 2019/10/17 | I’ll stay if someone can tell me what the point is why? why stay? without going into the morbid details of my own sad life, what’s the point? continue to suffer, be miserable, and “tough it out” for hopes of a better tomorrow? survive another day so i don’t hurt someone else’s feelings? i mean really. what’s the point?... | 0.101667 | 2.386898 | 2.28 | 92.965 | 89.277778 | 5.977778 | 18.416667 | 7.38713 | 0.477808 | 536 | 15 | 118 | 10 | 18 | 180 | 84 | 144 | 0.23 | 0.606 | 0.164 | -0.9098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 22 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 69 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076439 | 0.117866 | 0.085989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089746 | 0 | 0 | 0.217475 | 0 | 0.096814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0939 | 0 | 0.199115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103916 | 0 | 0.107829 | 0.063882 | 0.18856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223287 | 0 | 0 | 0.120332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202856 | 0 | 0 | 0.108354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | averyandart | 2019/10/17 | 19 years too many i made this account because i wanted to share some of my art, but everyday i hate everything i make more and more. i used to love it so much, and i wanted nothing more than to be a gallery artist or character designer. it was so beautiful and magical to me, but i don't believe in it anymore. i've batt... | 5.077879 | 4.411874 | 6.209798 | 82.601364 | 68.494949 | 10.432323 | 33.656566 | 10.018931 | 3.003893 | 736 | 31 | 165 | 16 | 11 | 248 | 108 | 198 | 0.126 | 0.685 | 0.19 | 0.9328 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 37 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 21 | 26 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 109 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116705 | 0 | 0.302588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143331 | 0 | 0 | 0.092996 | 0 | 0 | 0.171878 | 0 | 0 | 0.166551 | 0.169455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270238 | 0.157631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145773 | 0.137107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102255 | 0 | 0 | 0.151522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083841 | 0.124353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074531 | 0 | 0.134709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137687 | 0.144352 | 0.101832 | 0.154667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114703 | 0 | 0.13334 | 0 | 0.174461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131759 | 0 | 0 | 0.269944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196482 |
suicidewatch | sadtrans1618 | 2019/10/17 | I’m about to turn 21 and I just want to kill myself I guess I should start with the fact that I’m failing out of college. The only classes I’m any good at are my art and painting classes, but I can’t ever get a job or make enough money to support my self through art alone it’s simply not realistic
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suicidewatch | RandomQwerty21345 | 2019/10/17 | Help Me! Please! [https://www.reddit.com/r/helpme/comments/diz4vt/help\_me\_i\_cant\_handle\_this\_anymore/](https://www.reddit.com/r/helpme/comments/diz4vt/help_me_i_cant_handle_this_anymore/) | 198.251667 | 235.421808 | 55.73 | -302.118333 | -151 | 10.533333 | 26.333333 | 6.427356 | 4.975433 | 186 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0.264 | 0.736 | 0.6792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.773708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AhhlterEggo | 2019/10/17 | ; (semicolon) I saw a person at work had a semicolon ; tattoo on their wrist. I”m pretty sure that means either got suicidal or acted on it, and got a 2nd chance. Is that right? I didn’t ask them about it. I’ve been wanting to get a tat of some sort for a while now, would like to incorporate the ; into something differ... | 1.426429 | 3.360803 | 3.114524 | 91.434643 | 80.190476 | 6.104762 | 20.02381 | 7.168622 | 0.351195 | 314 | 8 | 69 | 4 | 8 | 104 | 63 | 84 | 0.106 | 0.776 | 0.118 | -0.25 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 43 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218315 | 0 | 0.199687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500309 | 0 | 0.215542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13489 | 0 | 0.183445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166492 | 0 | 0 | 0.162458 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | plus-pizza | 2019/10/17 | I’m considering suicide, but I’m too weak to do it It’s driving me crazy thinking about it all the time | 1.316957 | 2.844982 | 3.773261 | 88.492935 | 79 | 6.33913 | 28.891304 | 7.168622 | 1.443452 | 83 | 4 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 19 | 23 | 0.363 | 0.637 | 0 | -0.8658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.783903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459203 | 0 | 0 | 0.417887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Knut_Knut | 2019/10/17 | Need someone to listen. I don't need any replies or talks, I just want to be heard. My fiance of 5 years left me the beginning of October and I have kept in all the thoughts and emotions inside me and it's made it way through. I want to die. I thought about just going home from work, I load my gun, and that's it. I ga... | 1.521191 | 3.751674 | 2.368069 | 95.329081 | 81.535211 | 5.375075 | 21.418907 | 6.574016 | 0.244833 | 819 | 25 | 179 | 8 | 22 | 256 | 130 | 213 | 0.205 | 0.725 | 0.07 | -0.9839 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 39 | 12 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 28 | 4 | 21 | 24 | 7 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 7 | 5 | 5 | 10 | 111 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10111 | 0 | 0 | 0.10509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439403 | 0 | 0 | 0.06753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193715 | 0 | 0.125817 | 0.387307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107243 | 0.112434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094844 | 0 | 0 | 0.176213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101475 | 0 | 0 | 0.118963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188666 | 0.069287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280341 | 0.094317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10722 | 0.132663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229556 |
suicidewatch | labless | 2019/10/17 | I just dont want to live no more, ifeel like death is the perfect solution, i wont have to feel this way ever again. i dont really know where to start, i want to die and leave all the people that i know behind, cause at leats they will have a nice image of me, instead of keep living against my will and ruining my life... | 4.688492 | 3.989138 | 5.854677 | 84.935367 | 69.306258 | 8.643726 | 26.402923 | 7.793538 | 1.267958 | 2,739 | 64 | 614 | 28 | 42 | 921 | 261 | 751 | 0.183 | 0.715 | 0.102 | -0.9955 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 107 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 51 | 40 | 7 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 62 | 11 | 0 | 21 | 14 | 118 | 117 | 40 | 4 | 10 | 19 | 6 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 34 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 33 | 22 | 1 | 5 | 24 | 17 | 116 | 18 | 79 | 83 | 14 | 73 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 57 | 27 | 1 | 11 | 47 | 420 | 150 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057872 | 0 | 0.065374 | 0.033808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176842 | 0.198323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045649 | 0 | 0.026862 | 0 | 0.030517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027255 | 0.019899 | 0 | 0.027777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033332 | 0 | 0.033282 | 0.201199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10757 | 0.021052 | 0 | 0.05623 | 0 | 0.033878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028912 | 0 | 0 | 0.064681 | 0.059055 | 0 | 0.031192 | 0.029337 | 0 | 0.092318 | 0 | 0.132041 | 0.04664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027766 | 0 | 0 | 0.02522 | 0 | 0.017055 | 0 | 0.037103 | 0.054758 | 0.10443 | 0 | 0 | 0.032322 | 0 | 0 | 0.116966 | 0.032228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493638 | 0 | 0 | 0.029014 | 0.072229 | 0 | 0.161457 | 0 | 0 | 0.034564 | 0.035467 | 0 | 0.115283 | 0.095686 | 0.065433 | 0.115297 | 0.057776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061775 | 0.065368 | 0.033095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038231 | 0 | 0 | 0.095985 | 0 | 0.176233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062643 | 0 | 0.034253 | 0 | 0.066359 | 0.024826 | 0.069469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031161 | 0.045261 | 0.028502 | 0.034105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188206 | 0.067124 | 0 | 0 | 0.036978 | 0.055754 | 0.031051 | 0 | 0 | 0.198218 | 0.052024 | 0.029717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02513 | 0 | 0.073082 | 0.04621 | 0 | 0.026069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049087 | 0.131185 | 0.057063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.021686 | 0.041832 | 0 | 0 | 0.114206 | 0.075036 | 0.030942 | 0.031192 | 0 | 0.044325 | 0 | 0.031887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035951 | 0 | 0.096268 | 0.02591 | 0 | 0 | 0.02935 | 0.03026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023189 | 0 | 0.198323 | 0.084084 |
suicidewatch | Thalley6 | 2019/10/17 | Suicide Feel like ending it all today. Feel like crap and a huge embarrassing failure in life. From birth till now i have never been loved. Feel like I wasn't meant to be apart of life. I just want to end this and sleep forever where there's no pain. | 1.863529 | 4.010848 | 2.501725 | 95.293765 | 79.784314 | 5.648627 | 18.043137 | 6.742158 | -0.214658 | 197 | 4 | 44 | 2 | 5 | 61 | 42 | 51 | 0.329 | 0.502 | 0.169 | -0.9108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337823 | 0.477307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31461 | 0.326411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Yoru16 | 2019/10/17 | Goodbye I can’t keep waiting for things to get better. I’ve literally been waiting 3 years, longer than I intended to.
Honestly, I don’t really feel like waiting any longer. | 3.909091 | 6.276088 | 5.506061 | 75.179091 | 74.151515 | 9.248485 | 32.212121 | 9.725611 | 3.682685 | 139 | 7 | 24 | 4 | 3 | 47 | 25 | 33 | 0 | 0.726 | 0.274 | 0.8261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236296 | 0.33386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300945 |
suicidewatch | auntydanny | 2019/10/17 | Someone close committed suicide I have never posted on reddit, just browsed, but I am so desperate for someone to navigate these emotions because I have never experienced this in my life and i dont think im chemically balanced enough to handle it.
I am in the midst of dealing with a suicide. two days ago the girl I w... | 1.99265 | 4.096187 | 3.451877 | 88.872358 | 79.123839 | 6.149166 | 25.589633 | 7.233258 | 1.201512 | 1,249 | 49 | 256 | 16 | 31 | 410 | 161 | 323 | 0.231 | 0.742 | 0.028 | -0.9972 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 32 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 51 | 65 | 22 | 5 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 7 | 59 | 2 | 33 | 35 | 2 | 34 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 183 | 74 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067042 | 0 | 0.078902 | 0.085354 | 0.089636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175344 | 0 | 0.163175 | 0.108025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123671 | 0.098849 | 0.082582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107853 | 0.084922 | 0.099071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180776 | 0 | 0.096961 | 0 | 0.092061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105129 | 0.074077 | 0.08864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076685 | 0 | 0.105624 | 0 | 0.169574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102643 | 0.216476 | 0.103568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104175 | 0 | 0.067724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221848 | 0 | 0.10197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072922 | 0 | 0 | 0.106464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076248 | 0.095994 | 0 | 0.076405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162479 | 0.073814 | 0 | 0.107331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154131 | 0.167608 | 0.088274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061437 | 0 | 0.152238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177765 | 0 | 0 | 0.110258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068111 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GACM2448816 | 2019/10/17 | Seriously what's the point of living if my death won't affect anyone's life? It would actually improve my mom's life, less money to spend on me and no son to be disappointed about anymore.
My dad lives by himself and is getting along just fine without me.
My sisters constantly remind me how annoying I am.
There's n... | 3.700388 | 4.560445 | 5.093023 | 84.077364 | 71.790698 | 7.903876 | 27.511628 | 8.167269 | 1.644479 | 492 | 17 | 104 | 7 | 9 | 165 | 86 | 129 | 0.237 | 0.709 | 0.054 | -0.9653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 3 | 20 | 12 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 75 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.165188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335751 | 0.118361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088439 | 0 | 0.096203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239128 | 0 | 0 | 0.44842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14456 | 0 | 0.134615 | 0 | 0.171316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240497 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | donkeykonginathong | 2019/10/17 | I feel guilty I see stories about people dying young, and not wanting to die. I even had a friend die from cancer when I was 13. I feel guilty because ever since I was 11, all I can think about is how I'm just gonna reach my breaking point and end it all one day. I try not to, but it's always nagging at me that I won't... | 1.185854 | 2.349303 | 3.117569 | 94.618793 | 78.430894 | 5.570407 | 21.243089 | 5.683918 | -0.08218 | 430 | 11 | 103 | 2 | 10 | 145 | 83 | 123 | 0.175 | 0.708 | 0.117 | -0.8463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 21 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 14 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 64 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145525 | 0 | 0 | 0.108522 | 0.148623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249232 | 0.117379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126941 | 0 | 0.085842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181779 | 0.171098 | 0.090298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232107 | 0.080271 | 0 | 0.145084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17241 | 0 | 0.111337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168656 | 0.135915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HeadphonesAndBruises | 2019/10/17 | I don't want to be homeless again. I plan on ending it tomorrow (My birthday). I have no friends or family. My family disowned me due to my step mothers hatred of me. I have had enough. I am trying to study this year whilst having the worst year of my life. I am trying to study but my mental health is rapidly declining... | 0.434268 | 2.648138 | 2.961925 | 89.432971 | 86.119565 | 6.113458 | 21.261905 | 7.44753 | 0.878523 | 683 | 23 | 146 | 12 | 21 | 236 | 101 | 184 | 0.153 | 0.76 | 0.087 | -0.8783 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 32 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 3 | 18 | 27 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 103 | 45 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129103 | 0.091024 | 0 | 0 | 0.115887 | 0 | 0 | 0.122307 | 0 | 0.108694 | 0.158712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140677 | 0.146007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135105 | 0.136009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2306 | 0.13451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368163 | 0.146487 | 0.065822 | 0 | 0 | 0.142605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25705 | 0 | 0.138374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137841 | 0 | 0 | 0.183898 | 0.063599 | 0 | 0.11495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086485 | 0.083413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125488 | 0 | 0.094772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167662 |
suicidewatch | blondebomber91 | 2019/10/17 | I can’t take it any longer. Fiancé left me again. Waiting until sunset to go jump off of the freeway bridge near my house. Plenty of people have done it. They even have suicide hotline signs over there. I’m estranged from my family and my fiancé, who has left me too many times to count and always comes back, left me ag... | 0.557062 | 2.576666 | 2.555547 | 93.818279 | 83.785276 | 5.307687 | 18.790689 | 6.522977 | -0.05424 | 595 | 15 | 134 | 6 | 17 | 199 | 94 | 163 | 0.163 | 0.735 | 0.102 | -0.9123 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 32 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 26 | 4 | 21 | 28 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 88 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092424 | 0.096166 | 0 | 0 | 0.078594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088869 | 0.096499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076335 | 0 | 0 | 0.110435 | 0 | 0.113053 | 0.217904 | 0 | 0.058437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213691 | 0.060382 | 0 | 0.131366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11479 | 0 | 0.133356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.627853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312928 | 0 | 0 | 0.117173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175797 | 0.245956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Planetpride | 2019/10/17 | Contemplating suicide I don't really know how to start this, so I guess I'll just explain the situation. I'm a teenager who's been lonely for most of my life, and recently I made a friend that actually seemed to care about me and tried to help, but recently I've been acting like an asshole. I keep pushing him away, and... | 8.122041 | 4.591005 | 8.654796 | 76.649133 | 64.510204 | 12.24898 | 36.744898 | 10.125757 | 3.224767 | 360 | 12 | 83 | 6 | 4 | 122 | 66 | 98 | 0.117 | 0.717 | 0.166 | 0.5725 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 19 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 16 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 50 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375477 | 0 | 0 | 0.232157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149188 | 0.103189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13531 | 0 | 0.4171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BroIBeliveAtYou | 2019/10/17 | 24 but haven't progressed since 14 idk im having a hard time stringing words together anymore because it just seems like an endless nightmare
i just dont know where i restart myself and even if i do, i dont feel like id be happy. Life just doesn't seem to be worth living when youre alone, but lol, it's not like you ca... | 2.113939 | 3.27497 | 3.207208 | 94.92605 | 76.012987 | 5.652814 | 23.222944 | 5.461319 | 0.109175 | 280 | 8 | 65 | 1 | 6 | 90 | 57 | 77 | 0.07 | 0.659 | 0.272 | 0.9559 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 36 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.504708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108872 | 0.153825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229213 | 0.192885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152087 | 0.315584 | 0 | 0.190132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rraychul | 2019/10/17 | I don't know just got home from work, tied string to the door handle, put it over the door, tied a knot on the other side, checked it works, it doesn't loosen. haven't put it around my neck yet. I'm thinking of how me finding my mum like that gives me nightmares. but I'm also thinking how much pain she was in during li... | 3.092757 | 3.824737 | 3.669429 | 94.199 | 73.1 | 6.114286 | 23.285714 | 5.288315 | 0.094871 | 369 | 9 | 85 | 1 | 7 | 116 | 72 | 100 | 0.114 | 0.795 | 0.091 | -0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 8 | 14 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 55 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198951 | 0 | 0 | 0.165871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146488 | 0.101322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220426 | 0.152458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19992 | 0 | 0.30197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KingDrakn | 2019/10/17 | I'm fucking done I'm done with this, for half of my life I've been told I am the cause of a court case that's cost my mother her lifes savings, my brother is nearly 18 so by the time of mid April he will have been liberated, but I just want to die because I know I'm the cause of my family's problems I know this is inco... | 8.093958 | 3.301661 | 9.1175 | 77.190833 | 65.875 | 12.666667 | 35.416667 | 9.725611 | 2.865667 | 275 | 7 | 69 | 4 | 3 | 97 | 54 | 80 | 0.164 | 0.817 | 0.019 | -0.9219 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 41 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235318 | 0.474195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134583 | 0 | 0 | 0.220541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bcpfgrgw0411 | 2019/10/17 | Feeling passively suicidal I don’t know if this makes sense but I’d like my life to end without me putting in the effort. I am in misery at work (I’m in the food industry which is notoriously bad for mental health).
I also don’t actually want to harm myself but am struggling with the will to go on. So there’s a part ... | 3.358499 | 4.378235 | 4.781986 | 85.389809 | 72.75 | 7.895694 | 26.318182 | 8.296473 | 1.534742 | 577 | 19 | 124 | 9 | 11 | 193 | 100 | 152 | 0.32 | 0.605 | 0.075 | -0.9943 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 27 | 10 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 21 | 21 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 82 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.151923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155893 | 0 | 0 | 0.124498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129988 | 0.094902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159928 | 0 | 0 | 0.163229 | 0 | 0 | 0.124299 | 0 | 0.171009 | 0.100402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130052 | 0 | 0.137888 | 0 | 0.173626 | 0 | 0 | 0.131168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165482 | 0 | 0.184483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109962 | 0.076058 | 0 | 0.13747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124327 | 0 | 0 | 0.162752 | 0 | 0.17029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179026 | 0.150071 | 0 | 0.113338 | 0 | 0 | 0.110592 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | skylarsparks | 2019/10/17 | I hate myself I've never felt so low before. I've never felt this bad. Or this hopeless. Or this terrible. I'm so scared. And I feel like I'm turning into such an asshole. I'm either pushing people away or clinging to them so tightly and desperately that I feel guilty for suffocating them. I want to end it soon before ... | 1.231334 | 3.047895 | 3.690791 | 87.645617 | 80.294964 | 6.291312 | 22.203099 | 7.32111 | 0.815919 | 511 | 16 | 109 | 7 | 13 | 178 | 78 | 139 | 0.228 | 0.686 | 0.086 | -0.9736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 29 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 15 | 3 | 13 | 23 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 64 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148732 | 0 | 0.132177 | 0 | 0 | 0.404115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272729 | 0.165978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240129 | 0.226184 | 0.303993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17514 | 0 | 0 | 0.129039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116371 | 0 | 0.244187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | why-not-try-it | 2019/10/17 | Why doesn’t anyone care? I’ve posted before with an alt account, one that I deleted after being harassed relentlessly after posting that I wanted to kill myself. I tried taking all the anxiety and sleeping meds I had last night. Now I just feel extra sluggish and have a pounding headache. Obviously it didn’t work.
I j... | 1.322986 | 3.359549 | 3.300784 | 89.441021 | 81.060086 | 5.940586 | 21.289233 | 7.07983 | 0.583272 | 875 | 26 | 185 | 11 | 23 | 295 | 132 | 233 | 0.143 | 0.792 | 0.065 | -0.9473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 37 | 41 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 26 | 5 | 26 | 25 | 6 | 27 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 130 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10336 | 0 | 0.133994 | 0.094473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239337 | 0 | 0 | 0.08924 | 0 | 0 | 0.129105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298961 | 0 | 0 | 0.110134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095433 | 0 | 0.135417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136982 | 0 | 0 | 0.150078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158241 | 0 | 0 | 0.099322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281007 | 0.117974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230769 | 0 | 0.107446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13869 | 0 | 0 | 0.135209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254681 | 0 | 0.101587 | 0.108597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078784 | 0 | 0 | 0.129105 | 0 | 0.091732 | 0 | 0 | 0.140656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159384 | 0.21449 | 0 | 0 | 0.121481 | 0 | 0.121917 | 0 | 0 | 0.130242 | 0 | 0.098363 | 0.137212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaybanhue49 | 2019/10/17 | Cheated on my girlfriend: is what they say true about me? Earlier this week, I had made a huge mistake. I was at a party with some of my friends while my girlfriend of 4 years was working; I consumed some alcohol, and decided to have sex with another girl. I very soon regretted my decision, but of course the damage had... | 5.848048 | 5.75808 | 6.051627 | 82.440024 | 66.789474 | 9.645933 | 33.062201 | 9.33951 | 2.751632 | 752 | 30 | 153 | 13 | 11 | 240 | 114 | 190 | 0.225 | 0.622 | 0.153 | -0.9708 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 34 | 28 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 28 | 8 | 23 | 10 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 111 | 42 | 1 | 0.15465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344952 | 0 | 0.13989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358447 | 0.142972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147108 | 0.245968 | 0 | 0 | 0.123236 | 0.140788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255205 | 0 | 0 | 0.124051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112587 | 0 | 0 | 0.109859 | 0 | 0 | 0.09959 |
suicidewatch | ForeverAloneRowan | 2019/03/03 | I’m done I really think I’m gonna do it for real this time. I just want to walk into traffic and let it all end. Nobody cares and if they say they do it’s all for show. I’m tired of living. I’m tired of reliving the trauma of my childhood every day. I’m tired of my cries for help being dismissed by everyone I love. I’m... | 0.978013 | 2.70025 | 3.272096 | 90.799679 | 80.701031 | 5.75441 | 18.509737 | 6.691623 | -0.035121 | 701 | 15 | 158 | 7 | 18 | 241 | 102 | 194 | 0.169 | 0.747 | 0.084 | -0.9481 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 32 | 34 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 3 | 28 | 26 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 96 | 30 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097998 | 0.057536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075167 | 0.085248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087858 | 0 | 0.095506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101545 | 0.057153 | 0 | 0 | 0.095783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100281 | 0.089279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057165 | 0 | 0 | 0.052022 | 0.820309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157863 | 0 | 0.071562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129898 | 0 | 0 | 0.063375 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | helpful-egg-friend | 2019/03/03 | I’m ready. I can’t say goodbye to anyone because it will set off red flags and I’ll just end up locked up in the hospital again. I just want to put an ending out there. I’m sorry I was too weak for this world. But I’ve been suffering my entire life, I’m 31 and it’s just been far too long. I’ve done tons of therapy and ... | -0.899545 | 1.12182 | 1.619387 | 97.863177 | 91.078652 | 5.258836 | 17.641471 | 6.782985 | -0.134222 | 623 | 17 | 154 | 9 | 22 | 212 | 96 | 178 | 0.169 | 0.731 | 0.1 | -0.9262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 20 | 24 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 85 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128526 | 0.139561 | 0.203783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309049 | 0 | 0 | 0.189987 | 0 | 0.133683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132922 | 0.167343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171574 | 0 | 0 | 0.167268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113482 | 0 | 0 | 0.174006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheRealAsh01 | 2019/03/03 | Not sure what to say I'm not really sure why I posted this. I guess I'm looking for somebody to relate to? Maybe companionship? This is just my ramblings - feel free to ignore it.
I'm not really sure where to begin with this. I've been suicidal for 8 years, maybe 9 years. It's been too long to remember when it starte... | 2.264088 | 3.387938 | 3.795604 | 91.004396 | 75.571429 | 6.694505 | 21.571429 | 7.110496 | 0.416666 | 1,661 | 39 | 378 | 17 | 35 | 552 | 204 | 455 | 0.183 | 0.721 | 0.096 | -0.9913 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 53 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 27 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 32 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 73 | 61 | 26 | 6 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 50 | 13 | 64 | 38 | 4 | 61 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 25 | 1 | 8 | 30 | 252 | 76 | 5 | 0.080912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067325 | 0 | 0 | 0.055023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066584 | 0.072029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214992 | 0.083604 | 0 | 0.106883 | 0 | 0.068172 | 0.077315 | 0 | 0 | 0.076277 | 0 | 0.040912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068824 | 0 | 0 | 0.062512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358068 | 0.168515 | 0.044467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214814 | 0.067946 | 0 | 0.088325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086169 | 0.054828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07724 | 0 | 0 | 0.169072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077491 | 0.164633 | 0.087237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183315 | 0 | 0 | 0.064344 | 0 | 0 | 0.064476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05727 | 0 | 0.064616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177009 | 0 | 0.381293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10369 | 0 | 0.064235 | 0.04718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069882 | 0 | 0.066761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07275 | 0 | 0.146021 | 0 | 0 | 0.077996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114955 | 0.088465 | 0 | 0.260523 |
suicidewatch | ganonvdorf | 2019/03/03 | Can someone talk to me? I’m sitting on my bathroom floor alone with no one to talk to waiting for what I did to take effect and fall asleep. Can someone talk to me while I wait so I’m not alone in the last few moments? | 1.25125 | 2.558062 | 2.610833 | 97.7175 | 78.583333 | 4.8 | 24.5 | 3.1291 | -0.040475 | 170 | 6 | 41 | 0 | 4 | 55 | 34 | 48 | 0.138 | 0.862 | 0 | -0.6767 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.540896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196334 | 0.62965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eppur-si-muove- | 2019/03/03 | Not sure if it's the right place but a good educational Instagrammer I follow has been contemplating suicide I have been following [science__is__life](https://www.instagram.com/science__is__life/) for his educational content but for past several weeks, he has reduced his number of posts and been posting stories of endi... | 9.342892 | 9.130693 | 7.987704 | 71.858419 | 59.653595 | 10.525817 | 37.425654 | 9.827889 | 3.56551 | 689 | 28 | 118 | 11 | 8 | 209 | 91 | 153 | 0.085 | 0.811 | 0.104 | 0.444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 26 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 16 | 22 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 80 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194627 | 0 | 0 | 0.1442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277188 | 0.100652 | 0 | 0.151686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123986 | 0 | 0.115456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164016 | 0 | 0 | 0.163193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158807 | 0 | 0.136834 | 0 | 0.10916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174638 | 0 | 0 | 0.119792 | 0 | 0.11524 | 0.116458 | 0 | 0.130538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sexislexis | 2019/03/03 | Why is it so hard to go through with actually committing the act of suicide? They say that if you hesitate you really don’t want to die. But what if you are mainly worried about pain? Pain is the only deterrent.
And killing yourself is so hard! If you don’t have a gun there’s no easy, quick, or painless way to do it.... | 0.481508 | 2.373447 | 2.191982 | 97.043341 | 83.220779 | 5.402765 | 19.026393 | 6.532088 | -0.178333 | 1,108 | 28 | 267 | 11 | 31 | 363 | 156 | 308 | 0.16 | 0.797 | 0.043 | -0.9856 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 30 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 39 | 47 | 22 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 31 | 2 | 33 | 35 | 4 | 35 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 168 | 43 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.102685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080912 | 0 | 0.064145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107683 | 0 | 0.206163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108727 | 0 | 0.208503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101034 | 0 | 0 | 0.089505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109953 | 0 | 0.059802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188524 | 0 | 0.107992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103626 | 0.121417 | 0.225293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116417 | 0 | 0.115659 | 0.085773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111909 | 0 | 0.103099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142608 | 0.160058 | 0.223936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1151 | 0 | 0.099174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134849 | 0 | 0 | 0.184075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500091 | 0.114456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12413 | 0.167047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076606 | 0.106862 | 0 | 0.149499 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AnneAmelie | 2019/03/03 | I’ve fucked my life up beyond repair. I’d go into details but it’s too long and would bore me and everyone reading it. I’ve stockpiled my opioids from surgery a few weeks ago. I just want to call it quits. The only thing stopping me is hurting my wife. She deserves better though. So I guess that’s not even a good reaso... | 0.425866 | 2.851484 | 1.933137 | 94.660229 | 90.323529 | 3.610458 | 22.261438 | 5.033349 | 0.031524 | 261 | 10 | 53 | 1 | 9 | 84 | 55 | 68 | 0.174 | 0.75 | 0.076 | -0.6965 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 33 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156396 | 0 | 0 | 0.226261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218907 | 0 | 0 | 0.134572 | 0.198607 | 0 | 0 | 0.260849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251854 | 0.236852 | 0 | 0 | 0.243458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157312 | 0 | 0.232643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139664 | 0 | 0.189937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168208 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | heckinhecklesheck | 2019/03/03 | Everything is wrong with me Life is a pain not worth living, I can't find a reason to keep going. | 0.865714 | 2.660821 | 3.114524 | 91.434643 | 81.380952 | 6.104762 | 15.261905 | 7.168622 | -0.227495 | 76 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 19 | 21 | 0.366 | 0.634 | 0 | -0.7944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25931 | 0 | 0 | 0.324177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401392 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | im-confused-pls-help | 2019/03/03 | I have nothing I have no one anymore. My boyfriend left me because I was leaning on him too much but the truth is he was the only thing I had to live for. I don’t think I can do this without him. I had a seizure last night I don’t know what triggered it but I haven’t told anyone and I’m going to off myself tonight. I f... | -1.060933 | 0.87541 | 1.033333 | 102.496667 | 90.6 | 3.333333 | 20.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.759267 | 258 | 9 | 65 | 0 | 9 | 85 | 53 | 75 | 0.053 | 0.879 | 0.068 | -0.0078 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 48 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280553 | 0.197805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15547 | 0.230595 | 0 | 0 | 0.307363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265475 | 0 | 0.271443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191695 | 0.215152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187941 | 0.181266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Veinsonmycock | 2019/03/03 | I'd never kill myself but i understand. Life isnt good for everyone.
Sometimes it's just shit forever.
I'd never do that to my family but if I didn't have a family, god, I dunno, I'd probably just jump off a building or something.
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suicidewatch | Sanxtion | 2019/03/03 | I’m just waiting for the final push. I’ve been going through shit since I was 8. Life sucks all the time and now I’m just waiting for that one big thing to push me off the edge. That one big thing is already happening and if it occurs, then I’m officially out. I feel calm and relaxed knowing it could be all over. | 1.446766 | 3.138295 | 2.854552 | 94.485908 | 79.149254 | 5.660697 | 23.106965 | 6.427356 | 0.336395 | 246 | 8 | 57 | 2 | 6 | 80 | 46 | 67 | 0.089 | 0.831 | 0.08 | -0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 36 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153172 | 0 | 0 | 0.331849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310957 | 0.25059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jdawg4208 | 2019/03/03 | Suicide by cop- 16/m/depressed I have been thinking of suicide for awhile but I am too pussy to do it myself. I have tried cutting,hanging, suffocation, but I back out at the last minute. I have been researching and watching videos on the matter and I’ve decided “by cop” is the best option. I do not know if it will be ... | 3.183298 | 4.222179 | 4.360688 | 88.17168 | 73.192308 | 7.473684 | 27.145749 | 7.854513 | 1.409846 | 981 | 35 | 216 | 13 | 19 | 322 | 138 | 260 | 0.214 | 0.671 | 0.115 | -0.9865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 48 | 44 | 21 | 4 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 30 | 4 | 28 | 35 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 147 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.227197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131153 | 0.122164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123146 | 0 | 0.122053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200526 | 0 | 0.120814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123738 | 0 | 0 | 0.078027 | 0.122993 | 0 | 0.115621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063975 | 0.189778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082223 | 0 | 0 | 0.102791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197934 | 0 | 0 | 0.077704 | 0 | 0.233897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117313 | 0 | 0.11754 | 0 | 0.092917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078882 | 0.088534 | 0.247735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111488 | 0 | 0.125509 | 0.334164 | 0 | 0.117023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116546 | 0.117812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149181 | 0 | 0.092416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082694 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Apple304 | 2019/03/03 | What, why, how, and when Mental health has been evaluated, treated, and reevaluated. Medication does nothing but make me numb to the things around me. It doesn't last long. My one and only baby was a stillborn at 38 weeks. That's literally weeks away from being born. I've been dead inside ever since. Absolutely nothin... | 2.052857 | 4.532278 | 3.159634 | 88.948462 | 81.307692 | 6.175824 | 23.131868 | 7.44753 | 1.014648 | 780 | 27 | 158 | 12 | 21 | 250 | 124 | 195 | 0.093 | 0.799 | 0.108 | 0.4753 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 27 | 29 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 18 | 11 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 100 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.128154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233814 | 0 | 0 | 0.246768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134097 | 0.1502 | 0 | 0 | 0.138924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137206 | 0 | 0 | 0.114923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126092 | 0 | 0 | 0.111705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074635 | 0 | 0.105032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139592 | 0 | 0.15562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064159 | 0 | 0 | 0.116218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132296 | 0.132344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252019 | 0.149514 | 0 | 0 | 0.088989 | 0.099878 | 0.139739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108633 | 0 | 0.131419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145906 | 0.267482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108357 | 0 | 0 | 0.316022 | 0 | 0 | 0.121739 | 0.1185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fuckingupconstantly | 2019/03/03 | If I am alone by my 23rd birthday I am committing suicide. I am going to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge on August 31st. Countdown starts now. | 2.258889 | 4.866669 | 3.216296 | 88.033333 | 81.592593 | 5.081481 | 27.518519 | 6.427356 | 1.326096 | 110 | 5 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 23 | 27 | 0.226 | 0.729 | 0.045 | -0.7351 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.58889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.621947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scoobiesandboobies | 2019/03/03 | the profundity of dying at 27 i have a poster hanging in my living room, "Forever 27" by Scott LaBaido.. it depicts Kurt Cobain arriving to the afterlife to find Jim Morrison, Janis Joplin, and Jimmy Hendrix waiting to greet him. They all died from various reasons, some (i believe to be) arguably suicide.. and.. i don... | 2.750615 | 3.995307 | 4.729231 | 84.310769 | 74.538462 | 7.784615 | 27.769231 | 8.364918 | 1.878662 | 1,220 | 48 | 257 | 21 | 25 | 420 | 189 | 325 | 0.084 | 0.796 | 0.12 | 0.9342 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 59 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 40 | 41 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 29 | 10 | 46 | 30 | 6 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 165 | 46 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138188 | 0.078095 | 0 | 0.084951 | 0.250747 | 0.11955 | 0 | 0.164665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158886 | 0 | 0 | 0.100191 | 0.15793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132861 | 0 | 0 | 0.164296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162406 | 0 | 0 | 0.21908 | 0 | 0.13199 | 0.264563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095758 | 0.153686 | 0.14759 | 0 | 0.169327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151278 | 0 | 0.136078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123334 | 0 | 0 | 0.119901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096258 |
suicidewatch | LiveUnderstanding | 2019/03/03 | I have decided which day will be my last. If I don’t have my drivers license by June 10th (which is when I turn 20) it’s going to all end. Everything I’ve ever done will be for nothing the second I do what needs to be done. I’m just such a failure and can’t handle seeing others succeed when I sit inside my parents hous... | 2.884189 | 3.17228 | 4.299069 | 91.118932 | 73.277108 | 7.000219 | 23.524644 | 6.574016 | 0.470188 | 591 | 14 | 139 | 4 | 11 | 197 | 95 | 166 | 0.115 | 0.839 | 0.046 | -0.8737 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 37 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 13 | 24 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 92 | 24 | 3 | 0.166941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295721 | 0.172495 | 0 | 0 | 0.151008 | 0 | 0 | 0.150036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094877 | 0.140023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13957 | 0.191231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EllisReviews_ | 2019/03/03 | Im 15 and possibly autistic I have taken to Reddit to ask for help before so I will make this short and sweet, I'm sorry for any grammatical errors or formatting issues as I'm writing this on mobile
My life's been on a downward spiral for a few years at this point, it started when I was around 13, you see, I've never ... | 10.558337 | 6.369304 | 9.952877 | 71.228593 | 60.65247 | 12.989593 | 41.162227 | 10.230975 | 4.000289 | 2,324 | 85 | 464 | 34 | 22 | 753 | 268 | 587 | 0.103 | 0.77 | 0.127 | 0.7599 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 45 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 24 | 35 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 47 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 83 | 88 | 45 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 9 | 72 | 27 | 73 | 59 | 16 | 60 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 62 | 31 | 0 | 11 | 30 | 331 | 100 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05703 | 0.059339 | 0 | 0 | 0.096992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063484 | 0.066669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043472 | 0.157521 | 0.060683 | 0.080346 | 0.149679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072819 | 0 | 0.072709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056938 | 0 | 0 | 0.045991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082701 | 0 | 0.059573 | 0 | 0.126326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067228 | 0 | 0.036058 | 0 | 0.068472 | 0 | 0.065179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330581 | 0 | 0.149034 | 0.136821 | 0.040529 | 0.059815 | 0.057036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082286 | 0 | 0 | 0.077031 | 0.074433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151113 | 0.139361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121257 | 0.064363 | 0.067479 | 0.095205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15159 | 0.104848 | 0 | 0.220006 | 0 | 0.075843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075947 | 0.144972 | 0.054237 | 0 | 0 | 0.158371 | 0 | 0 | 0.04944 | 0.062268 | 0 | 0 | 0.202243 | 0.080395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056712 | 0 | 0.21652 | 0.113656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117983 | 0.08016 | 0 | 0.145391 | 0 | 0.054901 | 0.070531 | 0.07983 | 0.100952 | 0 | 0.056951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078006 | 0.161852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142133 | 0.137085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058841 | 0.042063 | 0 | 0.057204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072675 | 0.050659 | 0 | 0 | 0.229618 |
suicidewatch | Totallyabott | 2019/03/03 | Too ugly for this life No matter the haircut, skin regimen, clothing, or facial hair I’m still fucking ugly. No one cares about me, I’ll never be loved, never be taken seriously, never belong, and will never prosper. I can’t stand myself. My days are numbered. :( | 2.262313 | 5.055643 | 4.452143 | 77.68869 | 84.102041 | 4.89932 | 22.452381 | 6.427356 | 1.064344 | 204 | 7 | 31 | 2 | 6 | 70 | 41 | 49 | 0.286 | 0.62 | 0.094 | -0.9086 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.817592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jessicamariez1977 | 2019/03/03 | All I want is a drink. So my Mom is a great functioning alcoholic. I want to ease the pain but she is all "I'm watching you" I'm 41 | -3.805054 | -2.749786 | 0.128226 | 103.345672 | 115.129032 | 4.647312 | 14.844086 | 6.427356 | -0.461133 | 99 | 3 | 28 | 2 | 6 | 36 | 22 | 31 | 0.075 | 0.696 | 0.23 | 0.3506 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TinyMockingbird | 2019/03/03 | How do I tell this to my therapist? I have a plan and I don't know if I can keep myself from committing to it on my own. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I rationally know I need to tell her. But because of my emotions I am avoiding anything and everything that could help me feel better or make me chan... | 1.579988 | 3.572192 | 3.547163 | 88.233889 | 79.957447 | 7.582033 | 25.338061 | 8.515129 | 1.771205 | 355 | 14 | 77 | 8 | 9 | 120 | 56 | 94 | 0.087 | 0.834 | 0.079 | 0.2537 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 59 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152378 | 0 | 0 | 0.188431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449523 | 0 | 0 | 0.597145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lostinthesaucee_ | 2019/03/03 | I’m over it. All my life I have been as optimistic as possible. I’ve got dealt a bad hand in childhood, but I always believed that I had the ability to figure it out. I believed I would find happiness, love, family, etc. I dreamed and worked hard. I did my best to make the right decision for myself. Learn from my mista... | 1.39656 | 3.241355 | 3.043636 | 92.347666 | 79.889831 | 6.155316 | 19.625578 | 7.168622 | 0.286566 | 875 | 21 | 194 | 11 | 22 | 289 | 130 | 236 | 0.154 | 0.701 | 0.144 | -0.1597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 40 | 35 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 7 | 33 | 6 | 35 | 22 | 8 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 137 | 39 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314024 | 0.097501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104508 | 0.164577 | 0 | 0.103616 | 0.184093 | 0 | 0.078278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17517 | 0 | 0.093953 | 0.066373 | 0 | 0 | 0.169831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197803 | 0.24968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096749 | 0 | 0.075732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131246 | 0.04539 | 0 | 0.082039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083853 | 0 | 0.062016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204893 | 0 | 0.143312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081123 | 0 | 0 | 0.087827 | 0.104739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06576 | 0 | 0.074196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073758 | 0 | 0.106783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063078 | 0.202113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106839 | 0 | 0 | 0.135275 | 0 | 0 | 0.065999 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nyctophiliac25 | 2019/03/03 | Ruined by my own expectations Little background: I've been having trouble with depression and anxiety since I was 15 (am 18 now, soon to be 19) and even though I've had some help from therapy it seemed like that didn't help at all. I can't still chat with my folks about it unless I am really drunk.
I actually feel lik... | 8.734666 | 5.22503 | 9.194078 | 73.187553 | 63.338235 | 12.24385 | 35.389037 | 10.018931 | 3.195724 | 1,028 | 29 | 215 | 16 | 11 | 349 | 147 | 272 | 0.164 | 0.711 | 0.125 | -0.9382 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 42 | 46 | 16 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 38 | 7 | 37 | 36 | 13 | 32 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 159 | 56 | 0 | 0.11147 | 0.132074 | 0.108779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075804 | 0 | 0.085275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20946 | 0 | 0.093073 | 0.135903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071889 | 0 | 0.096009 | 0 | 0.115689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296189 | 0 | 0 | 0.073625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105084 | 0 | 0.112726 | 0.079635 | 0 | 0 | 0.101882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103053 | 0 | 0.106933 | 0.063351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149433 | 0 | 0 | 0.332146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246651 | 0 | 0.061261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078735 | 0.163377 | 0.111723 | 0.09843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075535 | 0 | 0.118612 | 0 | 0.24755 | 0 | 0 | 0.154559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177655 | 0.101479 | 0 | 0 | 0.114423 | 0.184419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121931 | 0 | 0.10506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127476 | 0 | 0 | 0.142852 | 0.109519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143567 |
suicidewatch | F4llingIntoTheSky | 2019/03/03 | What is wanting to live even like? In the almost 18 years I have spent on this planet I have not once experienced what it is like to genuinely enjoy being alive.
Every time I smile something draws me back and makes me feeel completely empty, every time things go "well" for me I can't stop remembering that it does not ... | 6.452929 | 6.915305 | 6.816717 | 75.578409 | 65.498316 | 9.967003 | 29.968013 | 9.861636 | 2.738076 | 1,238 | 40 | 229 | 25 | 18 | 402 | 153 | 297 | 0.101 | 0.807 | 0.092 | -0.7869 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 53 | 54 | 15 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 35 | 7 | 33 | 40 | 7 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 170 | 61 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077431 | 0.083763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072352 | 0 | 0.057358 | 0.103919 | 0 | 0.106011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095934 | 0.09666 | 0 | 0 | 0.098655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082342 | 0.09629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078603 | 0 | 0 | 0.097223 | 0 | 0.124295 | 0.170225 | 0.31711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132922 | 0.183877 | 0 | 0.41543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102714 | 0 | 0 | 0.089033 | 0.125616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090285 | 0 | 0.098735 | 0.100206 | 0 | 0.071562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101894 | 0 | 0.065232 | 0 | 0.098307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193487 | 0 | 0 | 0.213179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14996 | 0.085659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125023 | 0.241165 | 0.092446 | 0 | 0.1646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063883 | 0 | 0 | 0.097954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060593 |
suicidewatch | Terence763 | 2019/03/03 | Suicidal fail Cut my wrists. Felt very very weary and light headed. In great pain buy unfortunately didn't do anything serious. Any less painful ways to die? | 3.433214 | 6.641766 | 3.154286 | 84.915714 | 86.5 | 7.085714 | 24.857143 | 8.076483 | 1.998614 | 127 | 5 | 23 | 3 | 4 | 38 | 27 | 28 | 0.528 | 0.359 | 0.113 | -0.9621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.559145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433574 | 0 | 0.20855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ohfukitmanimtired | 2019/03/03 | Life s always been shitty for me, last month got shittier than ever and I feel soo tired about it I just feel like sharing everything with someone and the internet is my only option. Where do I start, I am 21, I didnt do anything with my life because I am waiting for immigration paperwork since I was 18. I still havent... | 5.39802 | 5.499005 | 6.091429 | 81.120879 | 67.732719 | 8.981071 | 29.825948 | 8.730909 | 2.134594 | 1,703 | 57 | 345 | 25 | 26 | 558 | 223 | 434 | 0.116 | 0.798 | 0.087 | -0.894 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 24 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 42 | 19 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 65 | 73 | 28 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 64 | 11 | 46 | 52 | 10 | 45 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 26 | 20 | 3 | 7 | 27 | 243 | 83 | 3 | 0.06941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173264 | 0 | 0 | 0.047201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068836 | 0 | 0 | 0.171355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211558 | 0 | 0 | 0.078201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072775 | 0.150015 | 0.233547 | 0.055418 | 0 | 0.076244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07103 | 0.081348 | 0 | 0 | 0.071024 | 0 | 0.078077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137534 | 0.062785 | 0.058481 | 0 | 0.062381 | 0 | 0.130867 | 0 | 0.140383 | 0.148759 | 0 | 0.076035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076104 | 0 | 0.192505 | 0.145055 | 0.133169 | 0.078895 | 0.058218 | 0.055513 | 0.076525 | 0 | 0 | 0.061379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056578 | 0 | 0 | 0.075414 | 0.141953 | 0.441236 | 0.169551 | 0 | 0.12258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046332 | 0 | 0.069732 | 0.075608 | 0 | 0 | 0.069949 | 0 | 0.140168 | 0.081292 | 0.110805 | 0 | 0.051024 | 0 | 0.107066 | 0 | 0.073818 | 0 | 0.068007 | 0.133201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094068 | 0.105579 | 0.073857 | 0 | 0.077071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060606 | 0 | 0 | 0.065615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059276 | 0 | 0.110395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17225 | 0.07802 | 0 | 0 | 0.058811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098257 | 0 | 0.110862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052188 | 0.055789 | 0.060667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046113 | 0.044475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047125 | 0.075498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08188 | 0.055094 | 0 | 0 | 0.062408 | 0 | 0 | 0.077494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050531 | 0 | 0.070735 | 0.049307 | 0 | 0 | 0.044698 |
suicidewatch | cmwhph32u1 | 2019/03/03 | Should I take a week break? Next week is probably the busiest week of my life and I'm still busy crying from this week. I'm already suicidal enough and next week is going to make me do it. I can't live my life going to bed at 2am and waking up at 5am. I'm doing my additional language speech tomorrow and I only started ... | 1.783669 | 2.837928 | 3.678046 | 91.64933 | 76.672414 | 6.879693 | 23.233716 | 7.38713 | 0.665022 | 413 | 12 | 99 | 5 | 9 | 140 | 73 | 116 | 0.102 | 0.887 | 0.011 | -0.8075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 23 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 14 | 19 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 56 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153942 | 0.111558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153235 | 0.089966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144141 | 0 | 0.092139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2956 | 0 | 0 | 0.123181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197478 | 0 | 0.111405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082281 | 0 | 0.671393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | accountname_7 | 2019/03/03 | I just want to die I'm not in control of anything in my life. All my time goes to school and homework but I still don't get good marks. Just found out I'll be going to summerschool which means I won't get to see my dad. I don't make any of the decisions in my life anymore. My mom wants me to get a job on top of it.... | -1.301012 | 0.443865 | 1.231425 | 102.115424 | 89.373832 | 4.31433 | 15.458723 | 5.461319 | -1.077217 | 356 | 7 | 95 | 2 | 12 | 121 | 64 | 107 | 0.152 | 0.787 | 0.061 | -0.9128 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 23 | 24 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 17 | 19 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 57 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190965 | 0 | 0 | 0.158459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21113 | 0 | 0 | 0.30181 | 0 | 0.109435 | 0.161508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128534 | 0 | 0 | 0.209752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194879 | 0.153444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Psyll | 2019/03/03 | I can’t stop thinking about killing myself on my ex’s doorstep We broke up a couple months ago after a year and a half. She cheated on me, which led to us breaking up and myself spiraling into a craze. I made a lot of mistakes that I’m not proud of, threatened the guy she cheated on me with’s life, just all sorts of ... | 4.663235 | 4.421741 | 5.219832 | 87.917815 | 69.294118 | 7.808403 | 30.865546 | 6.86897 | 1.546896 | 889 | 33 | 197 | 6 | 14 | 286 | 130 | 238 | 0.18 | 0.742 | 0.078 | -0.9725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 41 | 33 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 43 | 5 | 37 | 29 | 9 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 140 | 49 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153059 | 0 | 0.089211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127883 | 0.144543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110635 | 0 | 0 | 0.136968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153041 | 0 | 0.152044 | 0.112757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097706 | 0.135161 | 0 | 0.244295 | 0 | 0 | 0.154755 | 0 | 0.117603 | 0.249695 | 0.130891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110413 | 0 | 0.203376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259625 | 0 | 0.132731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088617 | 0.142226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293731 | 0 | 0.11047 | 0.115649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222368 | 0.120906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08908 |
suicidewatch | withpurpose | 2019/03/03 | I had a bad mirror self-talk just now. I usually tell myself it's a bad day, not a bad life, but today while trying to reassure myself talking
Into the mirror, I said outloud, "You don't want this life. You can kill yourself. You only have this life with your fucked up thoughts. That's who you really are. If you think ... | 1.300642 | 3.709272 | 2.635652 | 91.922241 | 84.043478 | 5.625418 | 19.280936 | 7.010147 | 0.351033 | 447 | 12 | 92 | 6 | 13 | 144 | 72 | 115 | 0.224 | 0.699 | 0.077 | -0.9597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 67 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136026 | 0 | 0 | 0.109874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162061 | 0 | 0.17057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273873 | 0.148911 | 0 | 0.194833 | 0 | 0 | 0.109166 | 0 | 0.135254 | 0 | 0 | 0.161491 | 0 | 0 | 0.11567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187638 | 0 | 0.100488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121026 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Black_raspberries | 2019/03/03 | My thoughts So I have a girlfriend who i love more than anything in the world i wouldn't give her up for anything but once a thought came into my head and now its popped up again . I used to like this other girl way before but i couldn't have and when i first got my girlfriend i thought about that girl i used to like ... | 3.397743 | 4.608294 | 3.267356 | 95.555 | 72.882979 | 6.435258 | 27.258359 | 6.543119 | 0.826055 | 723 | 26 | 164 | 5 | 14 | 217 | 98 | 188 | 0.149 | 0.721 | 0.13 | -0.3995 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 50 | 36 | 18 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 34 | 7 | 21 | 18 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 117 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085424 | 0.062367 | 0 | 0.087057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098144 | 0 | 0 | 0.081826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10891 | 0 | 0 | 0.314996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184676 | 0.096807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108956 | 0.069327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131111 | 0.100518 | 0.730997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176724 | 0 | 0 | 0.060345 | 0.081208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | insert--username-- | 2019/03/03 | Finally finally dying 23 year old girl here. Dealt with depression and suicidal ideation for most of my life. Been in therapy, tried multiple antidepressants, and no, it does not get better. Fuck people who perpetuate that bullshit.
I tried to fight it for so long, but now I’m just done. I don’t have the strength or d... | 3.629322 | 5.609837 | 4.412 | 84.447831 | 73.745763 | 8.448814 | 26.20678 | 9.120679 | 2.109994 | 480 | 17 | 96 | 11 | 10 | 154 | 88 | 118 | 0.138 | 0.728 | 0.133 | 0.3362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 18 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 14 | 12 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 60 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112377 | 0 | 0.132256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103649 | 0 | 0.138425 | 0 | 0.333597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140644 | 0.164469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29716 | 0.167936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159628 | 0.158273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113519 | 0 | 0 | 0.141916 | 0.142229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111421 | 0 | 0.167915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206992 |
suicidewatch | ghostsofglitterpast | 2019/03/03 | Bye everyone I appreciate everyone who took the time to make comments on my previous post here. I hope you all have a lovely day today and appreciate the sunshine if it's sunny where you are. I would love to find a reason to live another day but there is truly nothing left. I'm sending you all good vibes, maybe they'll... | 4.583043 | 5.915455 | 5.867362 | 77.575826 | 70.15942 | 8.998261 | 31.191304 | 9.3871 | 2.906273 | 280 | 12 | 52 | 6 | 5 | 94 | 55 | 69 | 0 | 0.699 | 0.301 | 0.9604 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384151 | 0 | 0.142057 | 0 | 0.213803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124095 | 0 | 0.201725 | 0 | 0.236447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151179 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ooijennnnnn | 2019/03/03 | My chronic neck pain is destroying my life I just can't live anymore, my neck hurts 24/7, the med i take isn't so uselful and it didn't make me enjoy orgasms, it's like they don't happen at all.
Honestly, I can't enjoy anything anymore, and I became useless, I can't study or stay alert, I've started to suffer again fro... | 1.873051 | 3.417351 | 3.912 | 88.032576 | 77.474576 | 6.414915 | 25.359322 | 7.168622 | 1.127028 | 436 | 16 | 92 | 5 | 10 | 149 | 75 | 118 | 0.358 | 0.575 | 0.068 | -0.9832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 24 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 6 | 22 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 53 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146678 | 0 | 0.380302 | 0 | 0 | 0.157783 | 0 | 0 | 0.218128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177257 | 0.100174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169552 | 0 | 0 | 0.1893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135429 | 0.187345 | 0 | 0.338613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204021 | 0.224961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135712 | 0.204365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LostChild36 | 2019/03/03 | They say if you just give life a chance things would be great Let me tell you from now things isn't awesome at all, you just keep trying just to fail; to do what please the people around that dont even give a shit about you. They some people dont try but they dont know how much we fight really. They dont know what we g... | 4.926842 | 3.685648 | 4.862105 | 94.044737 | 69 | 8.126316 | 21.631579 | 5.985473 | -0.071095 | 272 | 2 | 69 | 1 | 4 | 84 | 52 | 76 | 0.102 | 0.798 | 0.1 | -0.2812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 48 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.718172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293916 | 0.087064 | 0 | 0 | 0.168898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136166 | 0 | 0 | 0.168383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156652 | 0.108206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212412 | 0 | 0 | 0.168162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108825 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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