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Tronski4 | M 33, been suspicious for 15 years, failed education, the works. Finally went in depth on ADHD 18 months ago and figured that was the answer to my dysfunction. Admitting there was something wrong with me was tough enough on it's own, and going for the diagnosis was a lose-lose situation with no preferable outcome. Obviously I didn't want to have ADHD, but the alternative of just keep being lazy and useless didn't inspire hope either.
Public healthcare for the win /s. First I had to wait for 6 months, the maximum legal wait time, then I spent another 6 months, of 1-2 sessions a month, on evaluation, where I had to argue my case each and every session - to no avail. Diagnosed dysthymia and the quack flat out told me "Your symptoms doesn't align with ADHD" and "I know it sounds strange" with no further justification. I was not convinced.
Prescribed Wellbutrin, helped on depression, naturally, but not on the symptoms of ADHD. Wanted to go private for a second opinion, but the only ADHD specialist anywhere near me had a sabbatical leave. Finally, 4 months in, in September that psychiatrist was back and I instantly booked a session, he had time at the beginning of October. Popular guy.
He's on the other extreme of the public psychologist, he spends 15 min with me before saying I'm a particularly easy case. To him, I had a crystal clear case of the ADHD, and everything else had been ruled out by the public eval. Heart sank, "fuck", a tiny sliver of me had been hoping that I was wrong all along and that this guy could put my mind to rest. We spent the next 80 minutes going a bit more in depth on me and talking about the way forward.
Just a few hours later, I had already started doubting. "Wasn't that a bit to quick?", "Did I fool both of us?" <-> "A specialist should know what he's doing, right?"
There's no winning with me. Here's to hoping meds at least makes me less dysfunctional.
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TLDR; Been fighting the system to get the diagnosis, immediate imposter syndrome when I finally got it. Never happy. | 2021-10-06T17:55:09.000Z | q2pqlg | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Had to fight for my diagnosis, everything about that sucks. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pqlg/had_to_fight_for_my_diagnosis_everything_about/ |
CrumbledDigestive | Today was payday and I have to pay my registrations on our cars, so I've had that in my head all week and completely displaced everything else.
I feel terrible and tried to make up for it with breakfast in bed and running to the mall at lunch.
I normally have calendar reminders but didn't have one this year for some reason. | 2021-10-06T17:52:32.000Z | q2posv | 9 | 6 | ADHD | Forgot my wife's birthday | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2posv/forgot_my_wifes_birthday/ |
ArtichokeSilent6726 | i’m so tired, i don’t want to get out of bed, i don’t want to interact with my roommates/amazing friends, i just want to hibernate in my room with the lights off and music playing
but i feel bad for not socializing and i feel bad if i just stay in my room all day but it feels like my batteries are dying or they’re just completely drained
im going to get up and do the dishes, make some tea and come back and hibernate even if i feel bad doing so
i also have to clean my room but that seems to be the last thing on my list | 2021-10-06T17:52:16.000Z | q2pom3 | 4 | 6 | ADHD | i just wanna sleep | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pom3/i_just_wanna_sleep/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-06T17:45:42.000Z | q2pk32 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Is this a symptom of ADHD or am I just spineless? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pk32/is_this_a_symptom_of_adhd_or_am_i_just_spineless/ |
Godzilla_Jg | Hey, my girlfriend has ADHD and has held off on driving for awhile. Now she’s shown a little initiative to start and has but it’s hard to keep her interested in learning and she’s scared of what could happen. I don’t want to be pushy at all but are there any possible tips or tricks for helping her learn driving, building her confidence, and keep her interested? I know that’s a lot but anything will help. | 2021-10-06T17:45:21.000Z | q2pjtv | 4 | 3 | ADHD | Driving with ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pjtv/driving_with_adhd/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T17:44:39.000Z | q2pjcg | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Thank you guys | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pjcg/thank_you_guys/ |
cakeresurfacer | Looking for some guidance on diagnosis in young children (pre-k age) or maybe people who’ve dealt with it while homeschooling. We’ve been suspicious my child has adhd for about 15-18 months, but nobody wants to even evaluate because they’re not in school yet. We would’ve put them in pre-K through the school district this year, but weren’t comfortable doing so with COVID, so we can’t get an evaluation.
We’re now running into the issue of them just missing admission to a great school in our area because of clear adhd markers dragging down test scores (NNAT and WPPSI tests for anyone familiar. They score 94th-98th percentile on the WPPSI in all but working memory, where there’s a 30 percentile drop, which is a strong indicator of adhd). Kiddo can read, add and is learning multiplication, but might miss out on a school geared towards their abilities because we don’t have a second location to prove consistent adhd symptoms. Has anyone used a family member or babysitter for that? | 2021-10-06T17:42:40.000Z | q2phzb | 1 | 0 | ADHD | Diagnosing young kids | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2phzb/diagnosing_young_kids/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T17:41:58.000Z | q2phhl | 1 | 2 | ADHD | ADHD medication not working? Concerta | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2phhl/adhd_medication_not_working_concerta/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-06T17:38:51.000Z | q2pf9q | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Am I the only one who freezes up when being confronted? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pf9q/am_i_the_only_one_who_freezes_up_when_being/ |
Dylan-mayes- | I first discovered and got diagnosed adhd back in April & got put on medication that worked amazingly for 5 months.. and then it lost its effectiveness/ I grew my tolerance and I upped the dose & then changed medication. Now I’m on adderall xr 20 mg and I’ve decided to stop taking it because I’ve noticed it makes me feel absolutely horrible.. it makes me feel 10x worse. Right now I just feel completely helpless & hopeless. It especially sucks because I went so many months feeling stable.. and now I’m back to this feeling. I’ve made a very bad habit of “all or nothing” thinking and doing. And I know I’m just self sabotaging myself. I feel like I’m always just trying so hard to do the right thing & I end up feeling miserable. | 2021-10-06T17:38:21.000Z | q2pewm | 8 | 5 | ADHD | RANT - I’m tired of living my life so intensely, up and down roller coaster | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pewm/rant_im_tired_of_living_my_life_so_intensely_up/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-06T17:35:32.000Z | q2pcyi | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Does anyone here have both Tourette’s and ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pcyi/does_anyone_here_have_both_tourettes_and_adhd/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-06T17:34:24.000Z | q2pc6p | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Does anyone here have both Tourette’s and ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pc6p/does_anyone_here_have_both_tourettes_and_adhd/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T17:33:06.000Z | q2pban | 8 | 1 | ADHD | Does everybody else's medicine make them feel like shit? | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pban/does_everybody_elses_medicine_make_them_feel_like/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T17:32:30.000Z | q2pavy | 2 | 0 | ADHD | Confused on getting a diagnosis and controlled substances laws | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2pavy/confused_on_getting_a_diagnosis_and_controlled/ |
itsmeyuii | Here I am again. I questioned myself this exact same thing 4 years ago when I decided to change my degree. I am right in the middle of it, 50% of the subjects with decent grades.
But it just feels impossible to reach the finish line. I am actually done this time. Holy fuck exams. I hate them. I would rather be doing 10 different works for each class instead of studying of any exam. I suck at them, I cannot memorize for shit and focusing for longer than 10 minutes without meds is straight up unachievable.
Tomorrow I have an exam and I have yet to start studying for it. Feels like opening any PDF will be nearly impossible. Might as well play some video games
I did talk to my fiancé and my mom about abandoning college, but they didn't take it particularly well.
I actually enjoy working. I love doing different sort of jobs, getting paid, even when I worked 12 hours shifts. I would do any sort of administrative task if given the opportunity for a decent living. But every time I dropped out of University and tried to find a job, I didn't have any luck. As in, if having a degree would make me any smarter, lmao. It won't. After having half of my degree done, I feel like I haven't acquired any skill at all that I haven't learned from myself.
Oh, man. I am exhausted. If there was a way to show actual skills in a job interview instead of bragging about having a piece of paper that says "I have a Master's in blinking and Starbucks coffee".
Who is going to read all of this anyway, I can barely make it to paragraph 2 when reading long posts hahaha. ADHD sucks | 2021-10-06T17:31:01.000Z | q2p9u7 | 2 | 4 | ADHD | It actually feels impossible to finish a degree | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p9u7/it_actually_feels_impossible_to_finish_a_degree/ |
alexzyczia | It never occurred to me that I may have ADHD. I always had certain issues since childhood that I mentioned to my therapist and she said they were symptoms of ADHD that often show up in girls and get overlooked. I had an intake with a psychiatrist the other day and I’m getting tested soon. Waiting for insurance to approve.
Symptoms:
Constant daydreaming
Easily distracted just by maybe something outside
Zone out when someone talks to me
Talk too much and can be disruptive
Sensitive to loud noises (automatic toilets, hand dryers, loud music/tv)
Verbally impulsive
Moderate hyperactivity
Hard to stay focused, especially in school
Horrible time management (always late, and disorganized with work)
Forgetfulness
Racing/intrusive thoughts
Fidgeting
Talk too fast and repetitive
Exaggerated emotional responses
Start activities but can’t finish
Withdrawn
Low self-esteem
Extremely sensitive to criticism and others’ emotions.
Also, every boy I was into I felt we related so much. They all had ADHD. Idk if this was just some weird coincidence or what.
How about you ladies? Have you experienced these symptoms? | 2021-10-06T17:27:21.000Z | q2p75e | 13 | 17 | ADHD | I’m an 18 year old female getting tested for ADHD very soon. Any other ladies experience these symptoms? | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p75e/im_an_18_year_old_female_getting_tested_for_adhd/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T17:24:58.000Z | q2p5df | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Craving sugar after taking a break from my meds | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p5df/craving_sugar_after_taking_a_break_from_my_meds/ |
danebace | I want to **buy a good clock for time perception.**
I never saw one, but i thought **one running vertically would be great.**
Something like what you see in the "Today" section of **Google calendar** with a **bar descending**, that you could have on a wall and see it going down, just quickly "splashing" the time in your face.
I don't take much advantage of normal clocks:
\- Clocks with digital numbers are good to know what time is but not for time perception
\- Analogic circular clocks need you to really want and focus to decipher what time is it.
THanks | 2021-10-06T17:24:24.000Z | q2p4yx | 6 | 2 | ADHD | Clock for better time perception: running vertically... (do you know any?) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p4yx/clock_for_better_time_perception_running/ |
mcmlxixmcmlxix | I just wanted to share my experience with Wellbutrin for those who don't like the idea of being on stimulants long term. I've been on 70mg Vyvanse for 3 years, and don't get me wrong - it's helped me become the best version of myself - However, I started noticing adverse cardiovascular side effects like heart flutters and some mental stuff like increased anxiety/depression. I also note that I felt a dependency to use it.
I decided to talk to my psychiatrist about trying Wellbutrin for several reasons including the ones listed above. I'm about a week in and to be honest I haven't felt this clarity of mind for a loooong time. It's been easier to regulate my emotions and I find a very slight satisfaction in going about mundane things.
Supposedly Wellbutrin is also very effective in reducing amphetamine withdrawal so that is 100% a bonus (I can link you the study for reference!). I haven't had the feeling of needing to take Vyvanse and I can only attribute that to the mechanism that buproprion takes with dopamine.
Anyways, I'm not trying to convince anyone out there that Wellbutrin is the holy grail, or that stimulant medication is bad. I just assume there may be others like me out there who would also really benefit from buproprion. I also plan to take Vyvanse again at some point in the future.
Ciao!
Here's the study I was talking about:
[https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11999825/](https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11999825/)
TL;DR:
As of my own personal experience, Wellbutrin helps with easing off of Vyvanse and improves ADHD symptoms in absence of stimulant medication. | 2021-10-06T17:24:04.000Z | q2p4rd | 3 | 2 | ADHD | My Wellbutrin Experience | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p4rd/my_wellbutrin_experience/ |
hummingbirdsizedcat | I'm 52F and am taking Methylphenidate.
I started out on Metadate ER 10mg, and that worked a little bit (yay, something actually helped!!), but I got really sleepy after it wore off (which completely ruined my evenings). Next I tried Ritalin ER 20mg, which strangely didn't seem to work at all. Yesterday I started on Concerta 27mg, and whoa I feel so weird, I can barely describe it. I feel like air is as viscous as water. For Bloodborne fans, I feel like Saint Adeline in dire need of some brain fluid.
I'm wondering if the ratio of immediate release and extended release is what's making the meds work or not work. It just feels so off for 10mg to work a little and 20mg to not work at all.
Anyhow, does anyone have a copy of the helpful chart I saw here last week in a post that shows the Immediate Release and Extended Release amounts of the different meds? I searched for for it for a long time, and can't find it. Or can anyone direct me to a chart or web page that shows this info?
Also what does ER, SR, IR, LA, and CD mean/stand for?
Thanks!! | 2021-10-06T17:20:06.000Z | q2p1w1 | 6 | 2 | ADHD | How do I figure out the Immediate Release amounts and Extended Release amounts of different "Extended Release" meds, like 40/60, 30/70 or 50/50, etc? I'm taking Concerta 27mg. How much is release immediately and how much is released the rest of the day? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p1w1/how_do_i_figure_out_the_immediate_release_amounts/ |
FayePixie | So after the past three years I've been dealing with a lot of rejection sensitivity and working on it. Since I was a kid, I'd always ask "what did I do wrong, please tell me!" for some peace of mind. My most recent friendship was with a girl whose been crashing on my couch since her family kicked her out. At first it was great, but she soon took to \*physically\* ignoring me, ignoring when I greeted her, etc. For the longest time I tried to reach out, and even wrote a letter to her to ask if I did something wrong. Her reply was "You didn't really do anything wrong, but now that you asked if you did as if I'm a bad guy, you did". But it was clear things were bad before that. She's in the process of moving out but I don't know if other people experience this thing where friends just can't tell you why they've rejected you. My sister treats me similarly. When I asked her what I'd done wrong she just said "I don't want to talk about it".
My life has been filled with these people who just distance themselves, and obviously it makes rejection sensitivity worse. Anyone else experience this? I don't necessarily need advice (although it is welcome) but want to know I'm not alone in these vague expressions of disgust from ex friends and family members with no real meat. | 2021-10-06T17:18:39.000Z | q2p0rx | 17 | 9 | ADHD | Rejection from friends with no reason given | 0.92 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2p0rx/rejection_from_friends_with_no_reason_given/ |
Daellwon | Hello there! Short introduction: I'm 24years old, got diagnosed with ADD as a child and recently diagnosed again but with ADHD, RSD and moderate depression. I have a therapist and take 40mg Medikinet.
Since I got diagnosed again, I'm currently trying to figure out more and more about me, kinda of a self reflection phase.
So one question I was always asking myself is:
Can I be hyperfixated on people? Especially if they are kind towards me? I get emotionally attached to people quite quickly because of that. Especially if it's a girl cause I had a relationship where my ADHD not really got respected or she misunderstood a lot of things. I kinda take everything nice from a girl as something special.
I'm usually always talking to people, either voice chats or through text. It gives me joy.
Has that something to do with hyperfixation or RSD?
Thanks in advance! | 2021-10-06T17:12:10.000Z | q2ovvb | 3 | 2 | ADHD | hyperfixation on people/emotionally attached to people quickly | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ovvb/hyperfixation_on_peopleemotionally_attached_to/ |
FabulousConsequence6 | There is so much. But I just crashed my car into a curb because I was trying to use voice-to-text to get all of the thoughts out of my head before I lost them. Kept driving. Thought it would be like every other time I hit curbs (pretty much weekly), but then felt that my tire popped. Pulled over and parked to check and then car wouldn’t turn back on. Have to get it towed.
Was in a hurry because I left late to law school. The one class I have today has an attendance policy that heavily deducts grade for absences.
I don’t want this but I don’t have a choice. I’m constantly both angry and afraid of my own brain.
Two weeks ago I was once again in my head when leaving home and suddenly “woke up” and realized I was driving on the wrong side of the road. Thank god it wasn’t a busy road and it wasn’t for too long, but I might not have snapped out of it if I didn’t see another car turning onto the street (and angry at me).
Luckily I’m starting depression/anxiety meds soon (in addition to my Vyvanse) and beginning the process of getting school accommodations. Hoping those may help a bit… but ultimately i have to live with the pain of knowing that I’ll never get away from this brain that inherently hates me. | 2021-10-06T17:11:24.000Z | q2ovb0 | 3 | 1 | ADHD | I hate my brain and it hates me | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ovb0/i_hate_my_brain_and_it_hates_me/ |
Emily_Blaze | Hi.
So I’ve struggled for the last two years to find a planner that my brain can function using.
I need a place for to-do lists & notes, monthly calendars, weekly breakdowns, etc. I need it to be kind of flexible and be able to move things around and quickly reference stuff.
I also don’t want to carry around a brick.
Anyone have any ideas or recommendations? | 2021-10-06T17:07:58.000Z | q2osp2 | 6 | 4 | ADHD | Look for ADHD friendly planners | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2osp2/look_for_adhd_friendly_planners/ |
G1daKidd | no i didn’t just make a shitty among us joke, as per other reddit users these days. i’m just looking for a place to just talk and write a massive paragraph on my adhd and get some responses and then alsohd it helps me out a bit with coping and also i don’t know whether some shit i do is normal. any help would be appreciated. Thanks!! rodos. | 2021-10-06T17:06:23.000Z | q2orm3 | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Can i vent here? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2orm3/can_i_vent_here/ |
[deleted] | I've always had trouble sleeping and it's usually worse on days I take Vyvanse. I've been prescribed lunesta which has had the best results and had decent luck with melatonin and spotty results with things like CBD. I'm pretty sure all of these could get me dependent or build a tolerance so I'm hesitant to use any one for too long. Has anyone tried cycling through these types of sleep aids so you don't use a single one too frequently? | 2021-10-06T17:05:25.000Z | q2oqwu | 1 | 1 | ADHD | How do you approach sleep aids? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2oqwu/how_do_you_approach_sleep_aids/ |
noughtnaut | I've been seeing psychiatrists, psychologists, and therapists, and I don't feel they "teach" me to live with my diagnosis.
What exactly does an adhd coach *actually do* that will help a person live a better life? I mean, spell it out for me in huge cardboard letters if you must - I don't really "get" what general phrases such as "they coach you to manage your strengths and weaknesses" really mean. *How?* | 2021-10-06T17:02:46.000Z | q2oovu | 2 | 4 | ADHD | What does an adhd coach *do*? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2oovu/what_does_an_adhd_coach_do/ |
UltramarineBlack | I have been obsessively researching, watching YouTube videos, and taking online tests about ADHD ever since I found out that one of the vloggers I frequently watch and relate to so much was diagnosed with ADHD and that's when things just clicked. I have always struggled with procrastination and time management and no planner or app has seem to have helped me.
The lack of stimulation caused by the online set-up has made things more difficult and stressful for me that I decided to take a gap year. The lack of support from my parents when I told them didn't help either and it took me a long time to convince them to have me checked.
I have planned to do so many things before I resume classes next year and even though I've already wasted 5 months doing nothing, I'm happy that I at least get to finish this horrible year with an explanation as to why it's a lot harder for me to do things unlike most people.
I just really wish that I get the right treatment. I have tried to avail free psych sessions online and they all have told me that maybe I'm just overthinking things or maybe I'm just stressed from school. | 2021-10-06T17:02:18.000Z | q2oojk | 1 | 3 | ADHD | [19F] I'm getting checked next week and I couldn't be more excited | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2oojk/19f_im_getting_checked_next_week_and_i_couldnt_be/ |
onyxx8 | [removed] | 2021-10-06T16:57:03.000Z | q2okik | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Vyvanse cold adderall hot | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2okik/vyvanse_cold_adderall_hot/ |
jgcoppercat | Is there a flower for ADHD, like how countries have national flowers? If not, can there be a petition to have it the forget-me-not? Because
A) I think that's just kind of tongue in cheek and brilliant
B) They're rather nice flowers just in general.
For frame of reference this isn't satire or sarcasm, I genuinely think this would be a nice "national flower" so to speak for ADHD. | 2021-10-06T16:55:36.000Z | q2ojhy | 5 | 2 | ADHD | ADHD Flower? | 0.6 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ojhy/adhd_flower/ |
thethrowawaybaguette | I have tried three different medications for my ADHD-C, and I have found Vyvanse to be by far the most effective for my own ADHD. However, my insurance will not cover it, (I have Bluecross insurance in B-C) and the reasoning is due to my ADHD being a “pre-existing condition” and the out of pocket cost is excruciatingly high so there’s no way I’ll just pay for it. So now I am stuck on Concerta until I find an insurance company willing to cover Vyvanse.
Any help would be greatly appreciated! | 2021-10-06T16:51:20.000Z | q2ogfp | 10 | 1 | ADHD | Anybody in Canada have tips for getting insurance to cover Vyvanse? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ogfp/anybody_in_canada_have_tips_for_getting_insurance/ |
_ninjatoes | I'm 47 and have long believed that I have ADHD, I just never bothered to do anything about it until recently. Well, I got an official diagnosis of ADHD-Combined this morning. It's a massive relief and so affirming to know that there's a biological reason for the way I am!
My doctor is putting me on a stimulant, which I'm excited to try, but I'm also a wee bit apprehensive because I have high blood pressure. I'm wondering if anyone here has any advice or experiences that they'd be willing to share in regards to taking a stimulant with HBP. TIA. | 2021-10-06T16:50:47.000Z | q2og09 | 7 | 3 | ADHD | ADHD Meds and High Blood Pressure | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2og09/adhd_meds_and_high_blood_pressure/ |
Top-Requirement-2102 | I think the hardest part about living with ADHD is trying to figure out when to say "No", when to say "yes", and when to say, "Don't make any big life choices right now."
Recently I was feeling overwhelmed by the dozens of things I have going on and started making myself sick about what I was going to quit. What I needed as a good meal, a night's rest, and an introspective email to a friend and now I'm back to being OK with the rythmic chaos that is my life. LOL. | 2021-10-06T16:50:42.000Z | q2ofxf | 18 | 304 | ADHD | The ADHD conundrum: "I'm overwhelmed by how much is on my plate" ... quits a few things ... "Wow, I have so much free time, I'll going to take up three new hobbies!" | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ofxf/the_adhd_conundrum_im_overwhelmed_by_how_much_is/ |
KTMinni | I’ve been taking it constantly for the last 6 months, with a collective 14 days I’ve skipped it.
No appetite has caused me to lose a considerable amount of weight and now it’s a constant effort to eat.
I’ve gotten too comfortable relying on the meds to help regulate my emotions and lost years of mindful habit building. However, I can still recognize that I get upset more easily when I am off my meds and try to control it.
Having a very muted emotional response on the flip end, just taking it for so long that I feel robotic. Pretending to care about things that I know I should, but have no emotional reaction too.
Overall I want to switch to something like vyvanse or a non-stimulant like Wellbutrin (also interested in kicking my nicotine habit), but my doctor is reluctant to switch because adderall is helping in the way I originally wanted it (I have A’s in all of my 17 credit course load classes, while working 25 hours a week).
TL;DR drugs suck but also the drugs help. | 2021-10-06T16:50:38.000Z | q2ofvl | 3 | 5 | ADHD | Getting real sick of adderall side effects | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ofvl/getting_real_sick_of_adderall_side_effects/ |
ponderingkitty | Hi fellow ADHD'ers,
I have been on vyvanse for about 2-3 months now, started at 20mg, then doubled to 40mg. I find that the first week is great when the dose increases (0 to 20mg, and then 20 to 40mg), but then I experience tapering efficiency and what I mean by that is that it starts working well, say 90%, then slowly day by day gets less and less effective.
I am wondering if anyone else experiences this, if it's simply a sign I need to increase my dose or if I need to switch medications all together?
Thanks in advance for sharing your experiences. | 2021-10-06T16:50:02.000Z | q2ofeq | 4 | 1 | ADHD | vyvanse - tapering efficiency? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ofeq/vyvanse_tapering_efficiency/ |
horridcorvid | don't get me wrong, i know it takes a lot of work, discipline, and sometimes medication to function with adhd. it isn't typically something that just happens, and most of the time, they can't control it.
but got, i would give anything to be them. hell, even a portion of their functionality would make my life so much better.
i see my peers with adhd who get good grades, do every assignment on time, wake up at ungodly hours to go to classes, and still somehow manage to balance a social life, hobbies, sometimes even a job. i don't get what's wrong with me and why i can't do the same. im starting to think i really am just lazy, not doing enough, and using my adhd as some sort of excuse to myself. yeah i feel bad when i procrastinate, but it doesn't change the fact i still dont get the things i need done.
i feel so behind compared to my peers and im terrified of failing, but don't know what to do to prevent that. ive already failed my first tests of the year and i think im about to fail my second, and most of my classes only have four. i feel worthless, pathetic, and have no idea how to change.
why couldn't i have been someone who used their adhd to their advantage? why couldn't i have been well functioning? why do i have to be so debilitated by this stupid disorder and get no support anywhere? i don't understand what i did wrong to deserve this. i can't discipline myself even when i try and my best isn't good enough anymore. i just want to give up, drop out, and become the bum i was probably meant to be, at least then i wouldn't be having breakdowns every week because of my failure. i just want to be normal. | 2021-10-06T16:48:11.000Z | q2odzg | 6 | 6 | ADHD | i have so much envy for well functioning adhd people. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2odzg/i_have_so_much_envy_for_well_functioning_adhd/ |
dreamprincessa | i still forget everything and i’m all over the place except my clit is swollen all the time.
i thought i was supposed to feel a drastic difference in productivity and focus (according to what i read)
maybe it’s too soon? i’m only on 10mg.
i’m feeling so disappointed. i was ready for my life to begin.
EDIT: i forgot to say that i was on lexapro and it pretty much killed my sex drive completely.
now that i know i am not depressed i told my dr i wanted to get off if so i’m only taking 10mg now. | 2021-10-06T16:47:21.000Z | q2odec | 207 | 756 | ADHD | adderall has done nothing but make me horny | 0.96 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2odec/adderall_has_done_nothing_but_make_me_horny/ |
mattssan | [Rant]
I wake up and spend my entire day taking adderall and drinking coffee chasing a level of stimulated productivity that allows me to get everything done only to spend the night drinking to bring me back down just so I can fall asleep to do it all over again tomorrow.
I’m in my second semester of my masters degree and it just clicked that I’ve been following this formula for the past 4 years just to be a functional student. But it honestly doesn’t seem working that well anymore. I struggle to balance work and school. I’m tired of this daily up and down but I don’t know how to function without it. | 2021-10-06T16:47:06.000Z | q2od7m | 2 | 5 | ADHD | I feel like every day is spent stimulating my brain to get stuff done then winding it down to sleep | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2od7m/i_feel_like_every_day_is_spent_stimulating_my/ |
peaked-in-preschool | Hello! I (F17) just found this sub, and I could really use some advice if that’s okay.
I have really bad executive dysfunction, and am more inattentive than hyperactive. I also do permanent online school, so the accountability for logging in every single day for x amount of hours and doing the work (without a teacher in the flesh telling me to) has been weighing on me quite a bit. It’s made me so overwhelmed that even thinking about logging in will send me into a panic attack, but I have to get it done. I want to, I have the motivation, but I just can’t. It’s all so overwhelming, and the executive dysfunction doesn’t help either.
I’m very behind with school because of this. Luckily, I can progress at my own pace, meaning I can catch up pretty quickly. So, if it’s okay, I could really just use some advice on what to do. I’m so lost and overwhelmed, but I have so much motivation to get this done and over with.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. It means a lot. | 2021-10-06T16:44:59.000Z | q2obs7 | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Please help! I’m so behind with school and I need advice! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2obs7/please_help_im_so_behind_with_school_and_i_need/ |
gh0ul3 | I’ve been super low on meds so I’ve been rationing until I get my script refilled (long story). I’m so tired of being tired. I’m exhausted 24/7. I’m a skater and I don’t even want to just hang out at the park let alone skate. No amount of caffeine helps :/ this just needed to get it off my chest. Like why me, I’m 22…I manage a restaurant and have all these goals and dreams but this damn adhd constantly puts up road blocks for me | 2021-10-06T16:41:53.000Z | q2o9k2 | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Fatigue and exhaustion | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2o9k2/fatigue_and_exhaustion/ |
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Difficult-Can-1812 | College started off as mediocre. I went to the library most days of the week, jumbled down my assignments, and took notes like a champ. In fact, I would skip lectures just to read the books and get the curriculum out of the way. Now two months in I've been severely slacking off but still passing, barely. I have no clue what is going on nor do I find a reason to "care."
I spoke to my social worker saying I might have ADHD and I'm scheduled to be tested for it. My brother just got diagnosed with it and my father, as well as a few cousins, have it. It kinda just clicked into place and the "slacking" has gotten worse. I'm skipping class as we speak, but this time not to study or do my work. I'm really struggling to bring myself to get excited about college.
It's frustrating because before college I was a top scholar with a 3.5 gpa and an outstanding background. Now I'm running down the 2.8 gpa and I'm just disappointed in myself.
As bizarre and specific this may be, is what I'm feeling normal? | 2021-10-06T16:37:13.000Z | q2o662 | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Upon the realization, I begin to fail | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2o662/upon_the_realization_i_begin_to_fail/ |
HaruSpagghetti | Hi,
I have an assessment with Psychiatry UK at the end of the month for ADHD and I know that the waiting list from appointment to titration is about 16 weeks. I'm in my final year of university and really struggling already and that would be well after my first set of exams - does anyone with experience with Psychiatry UK know if the psychiatrist would give me a prescription (assuming I have it) straight after the meeting? As I'm sure I'd seen that they asked to make sure you have height, weigh, heartrate etc on hand in case they did.
Does anyone know if they would prescribe it straight away? Or know if there's any way I might be moved up the list since it might impact my studies?
Thanks :) | 2021-10-06T16:35:38.000Z | q2o52n | 15 | 2 | ADHD | Psychiatry UK - prescription question | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2o52n/psychiatry_uk_prescription_question/ |
needmoremangos | Hi guys! So I’m 23 F and I was diagnosed with ADHD-PI a couple of years ago. When I was first diagnosed I went through a bunch of different meds (adderall, vyvance, etc) before settling on methylphenidate (concerta).
I stopped taking meds about a year and a half ago and I just got put back on them. Today was my first day taking 36 mg again (same as my old dose). It’s been over 3 hours since I took it and the only thing I’ve noticed was a slight headache. There’s been no change in focus, no change in appetite (I’ve still been hungry all morning) and I’ve honestly been a little more tired than usual.
This is completely different than the last time I was on it and the only thing I can think of that would cause it is the change in drug manufacturer. I used to request teva brand only because it worked best for me, now teva doesn’t make concerta anymore and I’ve been put on Camber brand instead.
Has anyone else had any experiences with this brand? And how long should I give it before I call my doctor and tell him what’s going on? Maybe I can take it back to the pharmacy and ask them to swap it out? | 2021-10-06T16:35:28.000Z | q2o4yo | 1 | 3 | ADHD | Camber brand methylphenidate not working? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2o4yo/camber_brand_methylphenidate_not_working/ |
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greyspsychology | In my late 20’s, recently diagnosed by a therapist and my PCP. Also should mention I’ve been on 20mg of Lexapro for my anxiety/depression for a few years now (and love it! Definitely the best anxiety med I found for me after several trial and errors).
I’ve been on 40mg of Strattera twice a day for about 5 weeks now. Throughout the first few weeks I had some nausea and headaches and crazy hot flashes. The side effects have subsided for the most part but I still don’t feel any benefit from it. Still struggling to focus at work, working memory has been forgetful as always, no motivation to do much but watch tv and sleep. I had started to get into a workout routine before I started the drug, but I’ve had such little energy lately I haven’t worked out in weeks. It’s a struggle for me to even clean the house right now.
Just want to know if I’m wasting my time and should try something new, or if I need to give the Strattera another month to kick any. Any feedback/advice is appreciated. Want to hear your experiences on ADHD medications and what worked best for you. Please share dosages, routines, and outside influencers that you have found impact the effectiveness for you. Thank you all in advance! | 2021-10-06T16:30:20.000Z | q2o1a2 | 5 | 5 | ADHD | Has Strattera worked well for anyone on this sub with inattentive ADHD? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2o1a2/has_strattera_worked_well_for_anyone_on_this_sub/ |
Flayrah4Life | I'll keep this short: I'm considering ending my 21-year relationship with my husband because I no longer feel safe now that we have kids. I was myself diagnosed with ADHD-Inattentive earlier this year just before my 37th birthday, and I have suspected my husband as having a mental illness for the past few years, but realized 2 months ago that he is actually very likely suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder.
I was reading about some help for people who are in relationships with BPD folks, and found this startling information:
"A Dopamine Rush. Trauma bonding may also be a type of addiction—not to the bad parts of the relationship, but to the good. When something positive happens in the relationship, there is an increase in the feel-good chemical dopamine, as well as adrenaline and norepinephrine, two other chemicals that can make us feel excited by the prospect of loving feelings. While we aren’t technically addicted to dopamine or the other chemicals, our memory will remind us of the good feeling they create and we’ll seek out these experiences again.
In other words, victims of abuse may be waiting for that next “feel-good moment” in the relationship, keeping them trapped in a cycle of abuse and relief."
Share whatever you feel comfortable with, but I am feeling very lost and confused and isolated, and had never heard the term 'trauma bonding' previously, but it makes an awful lot of sense to me now. | 2021-10-06T16:27:23.000Z | q2nz5v | 8 | 15 | ADHD | Are we more prone to trauma bonding because of our ADHD? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nz5v/are_we_more_prone_to_trauma_bonding_because_of/ |
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Hedgehog_Realistic | I absolutely hate going to the gym and I cannot get myself to go. It’s soooo boring, the people stare, and I am so out of shape it takes every ounce of energy I have to do any type of workout. I have gained 40lbs since Covid bc my binge eating has just been outrageous and I can’t stop that either. I have never been this heavy in my life and I don’t feel like me anymore. I feel defeated. | 2021-10-06T16:20:17.000Z | q2nu05 | 12 | 15 | ADHD | How do you manage no motivation to workout? | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nu05/how_do_you_manage_no_motivation_to_workout/ |
BatKelli | I find that when i need to be really focused on a task, little things like noises or light really bother me, I was wondering if anyone else had this issue too? Sometimes while I’m writing tests in a class, if someone is tapping a pencil I cover my ears because i just cant take it. For those of you that have this issue, are there any strategies that work well for you?
Thanks guys for taking the time to read this, have an awesome day!! :) | 2021-10-06T16:18:10.000Z | q2nskn | 4 | 13 | ADHD | Sensory overload while studying | 0.9 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nskn/sensory_overload_while_studying/ |
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kingofpun | TL;DR: Had a less than satisfactory experience with Done. Still don't have the Concerta that was prescribed six days ago due to a combo of Done and insurance.
I have seen some posts regarding experiences w/ Done and wanted to share the experience I have had so far. I have not had any experiences with any other online providers.
* I scheduled an appt w/ Done on Aug 3rd (had to look up the date)
* The earliest I could get an appt. was in early Oct. Took what I could get.
* Completed all the forms/medical history/uploaded insurance card. Minimal guidance given.
* Checked the site a few times for earlier appts and the best I was able to do was get one day earlier.
* Got reminders on the evening before about appt. including prompts to upload insurance for prescriptions. Did all of that although I ended getting prompted from two different numbers messaging as the same person. I sent it twice as I found it confusing.
* Did not receive any kind of responses that the info was received.
* Finally after almost 3 months, got online for appt. It lasted about 15ish minutes. A few questions about medical history, asking about information I had provided, mental health, and experience being on Concerta previously as I had stated when completing forms.
* I got the distinct feeling that the provider was either looking at the information for the first time or had only started looking at it 5 minutes before. I would expect that level of preparedness from me (hence why I sought help), but not the provider.
* Provider seemed mildly interested at best. There were people in the background of the video call. Like the dude was in a studio apartment he shared w/ 3 roommates and a dishwasher.
* I think my situation is fairly straight forward. For someone with a more complicated physical or mental health history, relying on Done (at least this provider) seems like a dicey proposition. It feels like the only net benefit is that it is a relatively easy (if expensive) way to get a prescription.
* I was told a rx for Concerta 18 mg er would be sent to pharmacy I put in my profile last Thursday.
* No communication from pharmacy. Called and they said insurance didn't go through on Sunday.
* Communicating w/ Done is via chatbot that was not great or sending question to provider who has up to 3 days to respond on Sunday.
* Provider responded 3 days later saying rx was sent on Monday.
* After trying again w/ Chatbot, figured out that I needed prior authorization from rx insurance. Auto info stated it could take up to 7 days on Monday. It was very frustrating to learn that and never being told that in the intervening 3 months.
* Went back to provider and chatbot and messaged asking for those on Monday.
* Six days after my appt. I am still waiting to hear if I can get my prescription.
* Scheduling an appt is EASY. It feels like trying to interact w/ the provider is deliberately made difficult.
For anyone that deals with ADHD, dealing with Done is incredibly difficult. I have wanted to give up multiple times. I really want to try the medication and see if it is helpful. A more traditional route or an online provider that is easier to follow-up with would be great. I hope Done modifies some of their procedures.
I hope this is helpful for anyone considering using an online provider. I will update if/when I get my meds. | 2021-10-06T16:14:28.000Z | q2npua | 1 | 3 | ADHD | Experience w/ Done so Far [donefirst.com] | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2npua/experience_w_done_so_far_donefirstcom/ |
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Razex15 | To start this off, I really don't want to be just another post how their parents don't let them get diagnosed so I didn't want to post for a long time. Well, today I got a reason to do it because i'm not looking for help, how to convince my parents.
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I have found out about adhd almost a year ago. I'm also pretty sure I attended a lecture about two years ago but I was so uninterested that I don't remember them talking about anything. Could have helped me a lot but I didn't know what adhd is at the time and I was in a high school dorm, and pretty much had to be there.
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I was listening to a youtube video from Dr. K (HealthyGamerGG) with Mizkif who was diagnosed with ADHD at 16. And when I said that to my school psychologist at the end of last school year, it probably didn't really help my case. She couldn't really help me and now I understand why but as kind of introverted person it was the easiest for me to meet up with her.
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Where I'm really looking for help here is, how do I help myself? I openly talk about my problems with my mom but she had a lot of work trying to get help for my little brother who had to get a logopaedist for some hearing problems. Now she tells me that she won't go through a ton of papers and stuff again for something that "there isn't really a point in getting diagnosed". And I can understand that because I don't realy know how this stuff works to be honest. I was told by the psychologist that you need to have a whole team working on you and that kind of scares me but I still really want to get help for myself and because my parents aren't really going to help me I want to do it alone. "Getting help" is at least to me much more difficult than just going to the doctor (also never understood why I should go to a doctor if I have adhd but I see now that they just check if anything else can be the reason for my symptoms).
So what I'm looking for is help on how getting a diagnosis would look like as a whole. Kind of like instructions to life, because it is hard for me to imagine even calling a doctor myself but I guess if I understood how it works it would be easier. | 2021-10-06T16:06:36.000Z | q2nk6b | 7 | 2 | ADHD | Trying to figure out how to get a diagnosis without parents help (17M) | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nk6b/trying_to_figure_out_how_to_get_a_diagnosis/ |
CocoBb88 | Does your medication wear off by a certain time of the day? I feel like as soon as 4pm hits I become absent minded or checked out and not productive. I take my medication at 6-7 am every day and I can kick ass all day and as soon as 4pm comes around, it all stops. :(
Is this average/normal or do I need a new dosage or medication? STRATERRA 18mg. 3 months. | 2021-10-06T16:04:46.000Z | q2niv0 | 9 | 8 | ADHD | I dread 4pm. Medication wears off. | 0.85 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2niv0/i_dread_4pm_medication_wears_off/ |
VenusAsABoy96 | I'm really excited about it. I can't stop thinking about it. I've wanted to do this for so long and I'm finally about to make it happen, but also it feels like it's kinda sorta up in the air and I feel completely lost. The weather report is slightly concerning, and while I am no stranger to snow I don't know if I should be more worried about it than I am....and that just makes me really worried about it.
There are questions that I've been asking the people I'm going with that have been answered but I don't feel like I really understand the answers very well, and I'm nervous. It's going to be cold. I don't know if I'm bringing enough warm clothing. I think I am...but maybe I am not. And I don't want to over pack, because this trip is going to kick my ass even if I'm not carrying anything, but that isn't even going to be the case.
I know this isn't really related to anything ADHD (except it completely is for me) but I feel like you're the only people who are really going to understand where I am coming from here. I've put a lot of thought into this, and it's been really stressing me out, and I am extremely nervous that it isn't going to happen. I don't know how I'm going to cope with the emotional letdown if it doesn't. I'm pretty sure it \*will\* happen. Even if it does I don't know what I am doing, and while I am going with people who most certainly do know what they are doing I don't want to seem like an idiot.
I don't even know what I am asking for here. I don't know. I just need to talk to somebody about this. I've been annoying every person I know because I can't shut up about it. | 2021-10-06T16:03:25.000Z | q2nhuc | 6 | 2 | ADHD | Going on my first backpacking trip this weekend and feeling very overwhelmed about it | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nhuc/going_on_my_first_backpacking_trip_this_weekend/ |
hotblonde666 | if you actually have adhd are stimulants supposed to feel like stimulants? I've heard that people with adhd feel clear headed and "normal" on adhd medication but I've been diagnosed and prescribed adhd meds and it definitely just feels like I'm on stimulants. btw I know only a doctor can give me the right answer but I just want to hear what others think | 2021-10-06T16:00:57.000Z | q2nfzm | 2 | 2 | ADHD | stimulants and adhd | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nfzm/stimulants_and_adhd/ |
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galaxydriver32 | I don’t know what to do.. my head is just a mess and I feel worn out even though I struggle to get myself to do much at all. It’s driving me crazy. There’s this pressure/fog in my head and it’s tiring. I don’t want to seem like I’m wallowing in self pity but I don’t know how to move past this.
I’ve been coming in for class embarrassingly late so many times now, I’m struggling to do school work; even the art assignments that I think are really fun and cool are extremely hard to focus on, or to actually even sit down for. Today my calculus teacher approached me to ask me in a rather confronting way why I wasn’t doing anything for class during class, said that I looked lazy to him and that he expects someone of my age to do better. Basically had all his judgements ready for me. I tried to explain to him what I’m going through but it’s like he wouldn’t even listen. I got so upset, but managed to keep it to myself mostly. Apparently some of my teachers have been talking about me and my shortcomings and that gives me a lot of stress. I don’t want to seem like I’m not passionate about what I’m coming to school for (though to be fair I’m not passionate about calculus but it’s a class I have to follow unfortunately), I don’t want to give the impression that I don’t care. I care so much and I want to do well so badly, but I literally just fucking can’t and I’m sick of it. I know deep down I can work hard, but my brain is getting in the way of that. There’s days where I planned to art for school and I’ll literally sit there all day telling myself I’m going to get started over and over again and it’s like something is blocking me from actually starting. That happens so often that in the end I just give up for that day. And when I somehow do get myself started, I get distracted so easily, even just by my own thoughts. It’s a constant cycle and I would really love to be more productive. It makes me feel horrible knowing I even struggle to work on things I’m passionate about. I’m sure that can be normal to experience from time to time but this has been going on for too long and it feels like it just keeps getting worse.
I really really need to let this out here, because I don’t know what else to do right now. Sometimes it’s just much better to get your struggles out to strangers.. | 2021-10-06T15:57:54.000Z | q2ndk9 | 4 | 17 | ADHD | Feeling alone and like no one around me really understands me | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ndk9/feeling_alone_and_like_no_one_around_me_really/ |
whale_rider314 | Hi y’allllll
Okay, so. I used to take 10 mg adderall IR in the morning and another in the afternoon. I was tired of the crashes and just wanted something that was a little more evened out. I also have tried adderall ER 10 and 20 mg and that made me sooo cranky in the evening.
So my psychiatrist has started me on 30 mg of vyvanse. Took it yesterday for the first time and it didn’t do much besides make me sleepy. At the end of the week my dr is leaving the country for almost a month and will be hard to contact. Should I just try the
30 mg for a month and see how that goes or contact my dr about lowering/increasing my dose before Friday? Normally I’d give a new med a few weeks but I’m worried that I’m stuck with this dose for a month since I won’t be able to reach her.
Also - does the tiredness indicate that my dose is too high or too low? | 2021-10-06T15:55:07.000Z | q2nbki | 3 | 3 | ADHD | Vyvanse 30 mg - way too low? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2nbki/vyvanse_30_mg_way_too_low/ |
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_luv-bug_ | I (15) was very luckly to get diagnosed with adhd at a very young age, my parents had me tested as soon as i could, but i feel guilty because i still after all this time i still struggle with simple tasks like brushing my teeth and my hair, basically keeping any kind of routine. is this normal? i have depression and anxiety which doesnt help also | 2021-10-06T15:47:07.000Z | q2n619 | 5 | 6 | ADHD | i feel guilty. | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2n619/i_feel_guilty/ |
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ImaginaryZombieMoose | I went without meds for my ADHD until college. Ive been on meds for years now, and i find that im a lot less dissociated in general. Then it struck me, i think growing up i trained myself to dissociate sort of on command.
I had an IEP and an aid who came to help me get organized at the beginning and end of the day. They tried to teach me organizational tools and such, but i was in a small town in the middle of nowhere so i really didnt get much suport and my grades were fine so the aids stopped coming eventually. I learned it was easier to figure out what boxes they needed to tick and get them off my back so i just went into autopilot when i had to, which i find myself doing when im off my meds for a while. I often dont fully remember doing what i did while on autopilot, and only recently realized that was probably a voluntary form of dissociation i was trained to do by public school.
Did anyone else have this coping mechanisim? Im super curious since my irl adhd friends started meds as youths and didn't have a similar experience. | 2021-10-06T15:44:20.000Z | q2n40y | 2 | 4 | ADHD | Did school teach you to dissociate too? | 0.84 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2n40y/did_school_teach_you_to_dissociate_too/ |
Interesting_Fish_685 | I was diagnosed when I was around 7 (im 19 now). My mom never wanted me to be medicated for it so we tried coffee and tea as a way to help. It didn’t help at all. So she finally allowed me to start taking meds because I was struggling in school and life in general, but she only allowed me to stay at a super low dosage. It didn’t help what so ever, my doctors wanted to up my dosage but nope. So I just grew up without being treated or any help, so naturally, I struggled all throughout middle school, high school, and beginning of college barely passing (of course school wasn’t the only struggle but it was my main concern).
Now I’m a sophomore in college and I’m so tired of it, I want to become more aware and knowledgeable of my ADHD and how I can help myself. I went to the doctors and started on my meds again, starting at the recommended low dosage too. Once I told my mom about this, she began to criticize everything, “the dosage is too high” “you don’t actually have adhd” “you’re going to get addicted”. She didn’t want me to start my meds until I was back from college and staying with her for two weeks because “the side effects are going to be bad and I won’t be able to deal with it myself.”
Now I’m just questioning if she’s right about this and the meds are bad to take or she’s just being insane.
Any advice? | 2021-10-06T15:43:47.000Z | q2n3mz | 3 | 2 | ADHD | I’m tired of struggling because of my ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2n3mz/im_tired_of_struggling_because_of_my_adhd/ |
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New_Run2466 | I have an evaluation with a psychiatrist on the 23rd for ADHD testing, plus they send me a written "test" of some sort to fill out and send back after that. Then I assume a diagnosis will be made shortly after that is returned.
My question is, if they do conclude that what is "wrong" with me is ADHD, what do the meds actually do? Will the make me stop procrastinating on things I know I need to/should do? Will it help me with the paralysis I have with actually starting tasks because I don't know how to begin and I get flustered and anxious and just don't end up doing it? Will it make me stop being a general irritable B to my husband and young kids? I guess I'm just nervous that if I get on meds it's not going to be all rainbows and butterflies and solve all my problems like I want it to. Like I just want to feel productive and "normal". I've been on 3 different SSRI's, Wellbutrin, and now Cymbalta for depression in the past 5 years and nothing has seemed to help me with any of these issues. | 2021-10-06T15:40:45.000Z | q2n1if | 2 | 1 | ADHD | What do meds do? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2n1if/what_do_meds_do/ |
IDE_IS_LIFE | Well, here I am. Got my coffee, drinking lots of water, taking my 20mg of Adderall, and...I have done very little at all today. My co-worker has just shipped out 12 boxes of gear and I'm struggling to bring myself to prepare 1 among some of the other basic work I need to take care of today.
I feel pathetic, and I feel like a terrible employee. I wish I could always have focus. I wish my meds worked as well as they do for other people. I wish I had energy. I wish I had motivation and drive. I wish I could do the things I wanted to do.
Instead, I am medicated and almost as useless as I would be without the meds. Fantastic. Words cannot describe how much I hate who I am and hate this bloody fucking disorder. | 2021-10-06T15:39:50.000Z | q2n0vm | 2 | 10 | ADHD | Another day, another waste. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2n0vm/another_day_another_waste/ |
squirtleisbesst | Made a long story short. Basically i had the best day ive had in years in terms of everything. My thoughts were manageable as was my mood. My memory was back. I could focus on what i wanted to...my depression and anxiety were almost gone...beautiful.
But in the two or three days since its like i crashed. I gave up on existence the first night after. Now i am just constantly ruminating about death and am overcome with fear and hopelessness. Is a side effect of adderrall a total meltdown?
Its the extended duration one. | 2021-10-06T15:38:41.000Z | q2n031 | 6 | 2 | ADHD | I have adhd. Never medicated for it. Been trying to knuckle.through for years. A friend has adhd and meds. Adderall. I borrowed one to see how itd effect me. (With permission) best day ive had in years. Since that day? I have never been this broken mentally. Side effects? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2n031/i_have_adhd_never_medicated_for_it_been_trying_to/ |
ResponsibilitySad288 | I have ADHD but i don't have the forgetful/can't remember stuff that many people associate with it. I'm smart, can do great work get alot done and have been pretty successful despite my condition. I've been really upfront with people trying to manage expectation by telling them I have it, how I might respond to big and small things the same/ and that I stuggle to filter both in and out. I even tell my managers the structure/ coaching style that helps me prosper.
I am a badass employee when I'm okay that's just a bit mouthy. When my ADHD is in check/ I'm emotionally healthy.
But not when my brain gets overwhelmed. When that happens I'm viciously blunt, extremely sensitive/take comments personally, my emotions become a 30 on a scale of 1-10 but they all delovle into hysterical tears. I don't yell but I want to scream and the last self control I have turns the frustration to tears because that's more socially acceptable than raging. I think my freakout feels to them like it came out of nowhere and I'm usually 'sort of just a quirky human that is too honest' not that I'm a sufferer of extreme emotional problems and mental illness.
It's so hard. I know what's going on I just can't stop it.
Being smart doesn't mean I have control over my brain chemistry. I have such oversize response to stress (and many many things feel like stress) I'm a bit scared I'm not going to be able to keep a career because I keep melting down and over repetitive frustrations, and it all just feels like it's my fault due to my response. | 2021-10-06T15:34:26.000Z | q2mxab | 11 | 10 | ADHD | I'm great at work until I'm not--are you like me? | 0.92 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2mxab/im_great_at_work_until_im_notare_you_like_me/ |
lawschoolhopeful93 | Hey guys. So ever since college I've felt like I have ADD. While in college I didn't have insurance. So I couldn't afford to pursue testing. A couple of years ago I expressed my concerns to my primary care Dr and she prescribed Wellbutrin. It help for a little while but then I went off of it and switched to Lexapro for my depressed because wellbutrin made me too anxious. I can't afford to go to a psychiatrist right and and the wait is too long. I have an appt with my PCP in a couple weeks. Should I bring up Vyvanse? I don't want to seem like I'm looking for meds but I feel like it would help based on what I've read. Should I bring research to my dr? She doesn't want to prescribe meds because she's not a psychiatrist. What should I do? Please help. I also have had an issue with my weight my whole life and feel like it would help with binge eating. I'm afraid my dr will think confirmation bias if I mention all of my symptoms but they would be remedied by vyvanse. I hope this makes sense. Please help guys! | 2021-10-06T15:33:56.000Z | q2mwxn | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Help dealing with dr | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2mwxn/help_dealing_with_dr/ |
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Mothbo1 | I’ve been on Amitriptyline before for depression and anxiety, it made me incredibly drowsy, gained weight, and I don’t remember it helping any attention issues I was having. my APRN wants me to try it again for ADHD but I feel like I’m fighting to be listened to in a way. I’m currently in university and I am seriously struggling to get my work done at times.
She has kind of subscribed to the ‘you did well in high school what do you mean you are struggling’. I don’t think Amitriptyline would help based on the last time I used it and I don’t know how to get my point across that I can’t focus on a damn thing no matter how badly I want to.
Does anyone have any experiences with it? Did it work? Pros cons? And how do you get your point across that you are in fact struggling? | 2021-10-06T15:26:16.000Z | q2mriq | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Amitriptyline to treat ADHD, experiences? How to feel heard? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2mriq/amitriptyline_to_treat_adhd_experiences_how_to/ |
Hearing_Less | So day 1 was amazing (but I read it usually is), day 2 was still pretty good, day 3 kinda ok, day 4 pretty good and today I feel like complete shit tbh. Lethargic as hell and irritable as hell too. I'm on 36mg generic. Any similar experience?
Like the scatter brain is still under control but my mood is sooooo bad today, and I'm struggling to really follow through with a thought if that makes sense
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I'm on Neucon 36mg (South Africa) and it has a similar release than the non-generic version from what I've read. | 2021-10-06T15:25:23.000Z | q2mqvz | 1 | 4 | ADHD | Concerta Experience | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2mqvz/concerta_experience/ |
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RizzyRizzz | Hi guys! i looked through the mega thread and didn't find anything relating to this. I was diagnosed with ADHD like 15 years ago, if not more. Due to a crippling meth addiction I developed in my early 20s, I got off of them and lived life just fine. now I'm 28, starting school and am having one hell of a time trying to study. like, its impossible. Does anyone have any medications that have helped them out that arent going to trigger a relapse for me? Also, tried getting strettara but since I'm on cymbalta and welbutrin my dr said its pretty much the same thing. | 2021-10-06T15:16:26.000Z | q2mkij | 4 | 2 | ADHD | Effective Non-Stimulant | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2mkij/effective_nonstimulant/ |
eulakulele | My doctor was very insistent on taking a two day break from my medication. On the first five days, I really didn't notice a difference- still forgetful, same racing inner monologue, making a lot of mistakes, etc. I might have had a little bit of an easier time getting things done. However, I feel like on my two off days, my symptoms seem worse. I was getting a lot more overwhelmed and making bigger mistakes than typically when I wasn't on medication at all. Granted, they could just have been bad days. Also, maybe the medication was helping more than I thought it was. Does anyone else who takes medication breaks feel like their overall symptoms have gotten worse on their off days?
We'll see if this is consistent on my next off days, but I just wanted to know what others' experiences were like.
TLDR- If you take medication breaks, are your symptoms worse than before you started medication? | 2021-10-06T15:13:05.000Z | q2mi1j | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Worse Symptoms on Medication "Break" | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2mi1j/worse_symptoms_on_medication_break/ |
Nolanix | I feel like since starting the medication a few weeks ago, I’ve been having to go to the bathroom much more frequently.
Does anyone else have this side effect? I wouldn’t consider it a terrible thing and I much prefer it to constipation, however it can be a bit of an inconvenience on long work days. | 2021-10-06T14:59:09.000Z | q2m7f1 | 7 | 7 | ADHD | Adderall and Increased Bowel Movements? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m7f1/adderall_and_increased_bowel_movements/ |
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Azkarr | A year ago I passed all my exams but was unable to force myself to write regularly, so it was with great shame that I had to repeat the year. I felt awful, I had wasted the whole year, but in the last weeks before this year's deadline, by some miracle, I was able to finish the paper in a form that would allow it to be admitted to the exam!
But.. I got an email at 8 a.m. saying that I hadn't met the formal requirements associated with one course I'd taken three years ago and had absolutely forgotten about it. I read it before 10 a.m. My defence was due at 2 p.m. in the afternoon. After a phone call (brrr), I found out that I couldn't solve it online, and they only accept students on Tuesdays. I managed to negotiate to have my case processed today - being at the other end of the country, I was running between home and the shop to print and scan everything, filling out applications, sending them off and finding the person who happened to be in my university's town. In the end, I answered the committee's questions and graduated with a degree!
I wish good luck to everyone who finds themselves in the same situation! | 2021-10-06T14:55:53.000Z | q2m534 | 46 | 418 | ADHD | Successfully defended my master's thesis! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m534/successfully_defended_my_masters_thesis/ |
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[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T14:55:08.000Z | q2m4jo | 4 | 3 | ADHD | Just got my prescription and struggling with imposter syndrome | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m4jo/just_got_my_prescription_and_struggling_with/ |
noitsjustkatie | Obviously we all know that I can’t read, but, I used to read all the time when I was just a wee lass and want to give it another whirl. I have set an incredibly modest goal to read for 15 minutes before bed. Maybe I will up this modest goal to completing one book a month if I prove to myself that I can actually read.
Things about me:
•30F
•Like Neil Gaimen (read most of his books already though)
• Like Michael Crichton (same for him)
• Enjoy autobiographies/memoirs, historical fictions, classics
• TV and Movies I Love: The Office, Real Housewives, most recently: The White Lotus, Ghosts, The Fifth Element, Pride and Prejudice, The Terminator 2, Jurassic Park, The Jane Austen Book Club, etc.
Maybe I’d be interested in checking out what I missed on the curriculum in high school? | 2021-10-06T14:52:25.000Z | q2m2jz | 29 | 3 | ADHD | Can y’all suggest any GOOD, CAPTIVATING books to read? I can’t read but really want to try.. | 0.81 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m2jz/can_yall_suggest_any_good_captivating_books_to/ |
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SpiritualStaff1698 | How to handle manic/depressive episodes with ADHD
I’m a sophomore in college and i have lost all motivation, even with meds i feel like i just wanna break everything and say f*ck you to everyone and i don’t even the things i typically get excited about. But then there are days where I am off the wall, love talking to everyone and try my hardest in everything I do. It happens when I take meds and when I don’t take them. I know that ADHD and Bipolar disorder have some similarities but I’m just curious if anyone else has experienced this. | 2021-10-06T14:51:49.000Z | q2m254 | 3 | 2 | ADHD | How to handle manic/depressive episodes | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m254/how_to_handle_manicdepressive_episodes/ |
yall-suck | Hi! Disclaimer: I am not diagnosed with ADHD - although, I am working on learning and trying to begin the process of diagnosis and treatment.
So, I got this really awesome job and I really enjoy the work I do. However, I get stuck in waiting mode on days where I have big meetings or trainings that I’m conducting so I have a hard time getting myself to get other tasks done. This is partially because I work from home and of course that is no help to my distractions.
Does anyone have any tips or advice for this? It’s very frustrating not being able to start my tasks because I have one 1-hour meeting in an 8-hour day. It sometimes makes it to where I’m not as reliable of a coworker with meeting deadlines and completing necessary tasks. | 2021-10-06T14:50:43.000Z | q2m1dp | 1 | 4 | ADHD | tips to focus while working from home unmedicated | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m1dp/tips_to_focus_while_working_from_home_unmedicated/ |
CowsAreHellaGay | Does anyone know why nicotine helps sooo much with ADHD symptoms? I'll hit my vape and instantly my head is clear, I have no bodily feelings of anxiety, fully immersed in the moment, and I have intense focus. The downside is it's very short lived and the more I use nicotine the less I get the positives from it. Anyone know the specifics behind it? Thanks | 2021-10-06T14:50:05.000Z | q2m0x1 | 10 | 3 | ADHD | Nicotine = godsend | 0.81 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2m0x1/nicotine_godsend/ |
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neopork | I was diagnosed with ADHD-PI around June of 2021. It is kind of an unusual story I think. My wife was diagnosed with ADHD-combined late last year in 2020. She has struggled for years with certain social behaviors in the work environment and personality quirks that she really beat herself up about since long before I met her. I am not here to tell her story, but after her diagnosis things started to fall into place a bit. I started reading some scientific papers about ADHD and started poking around on the ADHD subreddit. My goal at the time was to educate myself about her diagnosis so that I could be a supportive partner and try to help her navigate though her journey with medications and behavioral changes, etc. Well, the more I read about ADHD, and in particular the more stories people told and frustrations they expressed on r/ADHD, the more I realized that I might also have ADHD. I would read a story and think to myself "I could have written that entire story verbatim" or see a "does anyone else" post and raise my hand high in the air. After reading enough posts, papers, and reflecting on the things in my life that I have struggled with personally I became mostly convinced that I too was experiencing ADHD symptoms. I had honestly never even considered it until this year. I didn't know anyone that had ADHD (that I knew of) except for one middle school girlfriend whose little brother had severe hyperactive behaviors. That was my mental image of what ADHD was - kids that literally couldn't function or sit still. I had no idea until I started reading that there were different subtypes or that hyperactivity is not always a component of ADD.
I always struggled with reading and with homework. I can do both and I am an intelligent person, but I had to muster every fiber of my being to be able to focus hard enough to complete a multi-chapter reading assignment or create a plan of attack for researching and writing a paper. It just felt like homework and motivation was way harder for me than it was for my peers even though I felt above average. It would take me hours to complete a reading assignment that most people could have completed in 30 minutes. I grew up in a house with a highly intelligent and motivated older sister for whom school was a joke because it was so easy for her. So here I am feeling like an intelligent person compared to my peers but always comparing myself and my difficulties with reading and motivation to someone like my sister who had none of these issues. I had many days and nights where I wondered if I was actually not smart but my ego was protecting me. I would tell myself "you are street smart, not book smart" because the way the world worked made a lot of sense to me and I had natural intuition about mechanical things and social situations.
My parents' tagline was always "you can still get A's if you work hard enough." I did work hard, but I also used my intelligence to find shortcuts that let me do the least work for the desired result. I'd become teacher's pet because I knew it would bias their grading. I'd do extracurricular work to suck up and to take advantage of the extra points that would let me get an A even though my baseline grade was in the B range. I'd ask if there were things I could redo for a better grade. In my career I learned to position myself and sell myself as to impress the right people at the right time. I never lied and I never threw others under the bus to advance myself, but relationships with key people and first impressions are way more important than actual work output in the business world. Showing management something amazing at the exact right time is way more effective than working your ass off 100% of the time if your goal is promotions. Being the most productive employee can actually halt your progress because the company can't figure out how to replace you if they promote you. Ask me how I know. Sorry, but that's been my experience.
Here's my personal examples. I'm sure there's more that I am not thinking of.
* I never finish projects. I do 90% and then don't finish the last 10%
* I procrastinate starting things that I think will be difficult
* I can be looking at someone in the eyes while they are talking and then realize that I didn't listen to anything they said
* I can have days at work where I am very unproductive because the work is uninteresting and other days where I am hyper-focused and do superhuman things in a short period of time.
* Any consistent ambient noise in my work place makes my productivity tank
* I struggle with weight management and appetite control despite knowing a great deal about nutrition and exercise science
* If someone confronts me, I struggle to "think on my feet" and I need time to process my responses or else whatever does come out is rarely what I was actually thinking/feeling. Writing is way easier for me.
* I engage in cyclical hobbies characterized by obsession and then a complete reluctance to engage
* I struggle with reading because as soon as I start reading my brain goes elsewhere unless it is something I am highly interested in. In school I would read the same paragraph 4 or 5 times before actually reading it. I never read books but read copious amounts of articles
* If I get interested in a topic, I will research it incessantly until I feel like I know most of what there is to know about it. I can't apply this skill to things that I should learn about but don't personally care about.
My pivotal moment was in 2021 when I read an r/ADHD post about cyclical hobbies. The OP was asking if anyone else ever got super obsessed with a new hobby and did it maniacally to the detriment of their other responsibilities and relationships, only to get bored with it at some point and completely abandon it with great resolve. Like they literally couldn't stand to even do it even though it had been the center of their life for whatever period of time. I was on the tail end of that cycle myself. In my case it was art. I had risen to prominence in a very specific online community and had been focusing 100% of my free time and attention on this hobby and at some point I reached a breaking point where I realized that I was deprioritizing work and being a dad and good husband just so I could chase this hobby that had no rational end goal - it was a combination of competitiveness and ego with a small financial benefit. I could hardly believe the comments section when almost every poster was like "Yes. I do that too and I hate it. I just want balance". That really struck me.
After neglecting my work, family, and personal health needs for over a year I decided that I needed to clean up my act and started focusing on self-improvement and balance. I got a primary care doctor and talked with them about uncontrolled eating habits, yo-yo dieting, and my suspicion that I might have ADHD. At that time, it still felt a bit like imposter syndrome because I just couldn't accept that I could have had ADHD for 36 years and not one. single. person. ever noticed or suggested it. Well fuck me, I took the diagnostic test and was firmly in the ADHD-PI category. My primary care doctor was very open to exploring the diagnosis and wanted to start me on a non-stimulant to see if and how it helped. He told me that it is more common to diagnose adults with ADHD than you might imagine. We both work at a major healthcare facility and he said he has diagnosed prominent PhD research scientists at our organization with ADHD and that many diagnoses get missed because some people find ways to work around their ADHD shortcomings and it doesn't cause enough serious problems in their life to warrant evaluation. But that doesn't mean they don't have ADHD, it just means they slipped through cracks.
He prescribed Strattera because there is some evidence that it is effective for eating disorders as well and it seemed like a logical starting point. Strattera was okay. The main benefit I noticed was just the ability to persevere. Once I got started on a task, it was easier to keep doing it for a long period of time. It did very little or nothing for alertness, memory, motivation for me. The side effects included ill/nauseous feeling mid morning that at the beginning made me eat less but that eventually went away. After a consult with psychiatry my diagnosis was confirmed and I was prescribed Adderall and Straterra was dropped. I am on 10mg XR now. I immediately noticed a difference and things have really fallen into place for me, especially at work. I think my productivity is higher than it has ever been before in my career. I can prioritize better, do less procrastinating, focus on a task for hours if needed, am a more articulate speaker, and my memory seems better too. I just do things instead of putting them off multiple times. In addition, even though weight loss has still been challenging, I do feel like my executive function is working a lot better and I can be more objective about hunger and portion size. I think that I just haven't applied myself to that yet because I have been focusing a lot on how much better I am performing at work, but I do feel optimistic and much more in control of my life. I was prescribed the book Intuitive Eating which I haven't finished yet. I have only been on Adderall XR for about 2 months, but I am very pleased with the changes to my life so far.
I feel a mixture of acceptance, validation, frustration and bitterness. On one hand I feel blessed that I finally figured out why I am the way that I am and happy that treatment is helping me a lot with some of my perceived "issues." It is validating to read other's stories and realize that there are other people like me and that some of the things I disliked about myself were out of my control or at least had an explanation - not that I was just shitty at stuff. I feel frustrated that I had to identify this myself and it took me until I was 36 after I already struggled my way through most of life's really challenging milestones. I guess I feel a sense of accomplishment for getting good grades, going to college & grad school, and having a "successful career" despite how hard it was for me, but it does piss me off to think about how much easier and less stressful many of those things may have been if I had felt then how I feel now on medication. I also think about what I might have done with my life or accomplished if I had gotten help sooner. Could I have been a doctor or something? I am also low key frustrated with my parents for marginalizing the things that I really struggled with because perhaps I was just average compared to my highly gifted sister. They didn't know anything about ADHD and teachers never noticed because it didn't hold me back "enough". Is my sister really that much smarter than me or does she just not have ADHD? I don't know and it doesn't really matter now but it makes me a bit mad that nobody paid attention to my shortcomings or struggles as long as I put in the hard work necessary to get good grades anyway. She is a physician and has a son with ADHD and when I told her she just said "of course you have ADHD honey". Fuuuuuck you.
I fully realize that many people with more severe ADHD symptoms have endured a lot more hardship than I have. I am telling my own story and certainly not projecting my experience onto others that have had more roadblocks or heartbreak as a result of living with ADHD. My ADHD has always been there, unnamed, part of my personality, but I was privileged and I feel very grateful to be where I am.
**TL;DR:**
Diagnosed in 2021 at 36 yo. Discovered I have ADHD-PI while researching how to best support my ADHD-C wife (diagnosed 2020). Got diagnosed by PCP and confirmed by Psychiatrist. School was hard but I found every workaround to get good grades despite struggles. Climbed corporate ladder by being strategic. r/ADHD user stories was the catalyst to me realizing that I also have ADHD and never knew. Strattera was okay, but Adderall XR is better for me. Work productivity went zoom. Sister is a-hole. | 2021-10-06T14:42:41.000Z | q2lvvc | 14 | 45 | ADHD | I was diagnosed at 36 yo with ADHD-PI after reading r/ADHD. My story and my progress. | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2lvvc/i_was_diagnosed_at_36_yo_with_adhdpi_after/ |
Xeyxy | [removed] | 2021-10-06T14:40:19.000Z | q2lu8k | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Question regarding meds! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2lu8k/question_regarding_meds/ |
FallingStar2016 | I'm gonna cry! I have needed this for so long. ADHD fucks with my life so bad. I've been working with a psychiatrist for about a year now to get my co-morbidities under control in order to finally get tested and diagnosed with ADHD. I wasn't expecting it but at our appointment today she tested me, told me I have it, and prescribed me Adderall. I can't think of a time I've felt this relieved or happy! I feel like I finally have a chance to get my life together! | 2021-10-06T14:38:39.000Z | q2lt05 | 4 | 10 | ADHD | I finally got a diagnosis and prescription!!! | 0.92 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2lt05/i_finally_got_a_diagnosis_and_prescription/ |
smallwheelsforever | Hi all. I was recently diagnosed with inattentive ADHD after struggling with it my entire life. My psychiatrist had me try Strattera for two months and my side effects were terrible. I got switched to concerta the other day. I went to pick it up at my CVS pharmacy (I have insurance through CVS caremark) and was told it would be $85 for generic. I asked about brand name because I heard it was much better and they said $380 until I showed them my concerta savings card I got online and it was brought down to $180. My dad has a well paying job and I have insurance through him, but he doesn't pay any of my bills. I ended up taking the generic because I'm desperate for help and 5 minutes of research later I find my generic (trigen laboratories) has been received terribly by most people. I feel really overwhelmed and can't pay this much for mediation, and was really hoping anyone could give me some advice about what I can do in this situation. Also, should I try this generic or try to return it? Thank you so much | 2021-10-06T14:34:33.000Z | q2lpy9 | 10 | 2 | ADHD | I need help paying less for medication | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2lpy9/i_need_help_paying_less_for_medication/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T14:32:38.000Z | q2lomw | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Lexapro20mg & Wellbutrin150mg | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2lomw/lexapro20mg_wellbutrin150mg/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-06T14:27:01.000Z | q2lkmc | 1 | 1 | ADHD | my s/o and I recently threw away our bed to buy hammocks instead, for the extra space and supposed comfort. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2lkmc/my_so_and_i_recently_threw_away_our_bed_to_buy/ |
Synthea1979 | Just spent an hour looking for my ecig. Trying to retrace my steps while getting the kids ready for school and cleaning up. Lots of blanks. Finally, when I'm convinced one of the dogs got ahold of it and I need to panic because nicotine and dogs is bad, I happen to look right it. Plugged in, next to the coffee pot, right where I NOW remember plugging it in. I never would leave it where a dog could get it, of course!
I do this with my phone. Pro tip: check pockets and chargers first, not last.
Life is an adventure, try to laugh at yourself. I was. | 2021-10-06T14:25:33.000Z | q2ljmc | 88 | 234 | ADHD | The "where did I put my phone (or anything)" support group. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2ljmc/the_where_did_i_put_my_phone_or_anything_support/ |
Dyspraxic_giraffe | Hey folks,
I just had a quick question to see if anyone has had any similar experiences to one I had this week. The tl;dr version is
Been on 70mg Elvanse Mon-Fri for two years; 20mg dexamphetamine for weekends for the last two years.
I recently went on holiday and didn’t take any meds for a week.
The day after (Sunday): woke at 08:00, took a Dex to help “adult” and found that I could not sleep that night despite taking my circadin to help me sleep
Monday: took my Elvanse and decided to soldier through. Did not sleep Monday night despite taking circadin again
Tuesday: exhausted but still could not sleep and had to go to my doctor for sedatives
I was awake 68 hours in total.
My GP/ doctor wasn’t familiar with my Elvanse or Dex so he couldn’t say why I found myself with insomnia. In reading about medication holidays, side effects and insomnia wasn’t listed and I’ve tried to search and research but found nothing. Ive gone ahead and contacted my specialist, but I feel I have a need to know and I wondered if anyone else has experienced this? Or could offer any insights? | 2021-10-06T14:23:51.000Z | q2liid | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Brand new side effects from Elvanse? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2liid/brand_new_side_effects_from_elvanse/ |
Pecancake22 | I posted here a while ago about being really overwhelmed with school. I was literally having panic attacks because I couldn’t keep up with everything. I spoke to someone at my university and they let me know that it wasn’t too late to drop a class, just that there would be a W on my transcript. So I dropped one of my harder classes and now I have yet another W on my increasingly unimpressive transcript. I’m just frustrated and disappointed in myself because it seems like I can’t do anything right. I keep letting my parents down again and again. At this point I’ll probably be almost 24 before I finish school all because I can’t seem to handle more than 12 credits a semester. And I’m anxious because people have told me that the older you graduate the less likely you are to find work.
I spoke to my psychiatrist about getting on medication and she agreed it might help, but I’m trying not to get my hopes up. Some doctors I saw when I was a teenager told me I may be “medication resistant” because I tried like 15 antidepressants for my depression and none of them worked.
I honestly wish I could just run away and live on a train. | 2021-10-06T14:11:59.000Z | q2la70 | 5 | 7 | ADHD | I’m feeling discouraged about my future | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2la70/im_feeling_discouraged_about_my_future/ |
tinisci95 | [removed] | 2021-10-06T14:09:13.000Z | q2l88d | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Proud of myself for scheduling an appointment | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2l88d/proud_of_myself_for_scheduling_an_appointment/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-06T14:07:34.000Z | q2l73k | 6 | 4 | ADHD | you know how quite a lot of people (not all) with adhd have anger issues/often get mad, what causes it? | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q2l73k/you_know_how_quite_a_lot_of_people_not_all_with/ |
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