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AllanSmith22 | [removed] | 2021-12-06T15:08:31.000Z | ra9da2 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | A combination of ADHD and being an anti-worker means my job is spent doodling for about 6 hours a day. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra9da2/a_combination_of_adhd_and_being_an_antiworker/ |
the-Cryptographer | [removed] | 2021-12-06T15:08:09.000Z | ra9d04 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Anyone else struggles watching Videos and Film ? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra9d04/anyone_else_struggles_watching_videos_and_film/ |
Tyga_fpoint | [removed] | 2021-12-06T14:52:17.000Z | ra90dw | 0 | 1 | ADHD | My gf has ADHD she gave to me last chance what do you think? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra90dw/my_gf_has_adhd_she_gave_to_me_last_chance_what_do/ |
jaydenbIues | Anyone else completely unable to talk while they complete a task?
Certain tasks my brain can autopilot and I’m able to talk. Usually with complicated things like stuff at work, but most things it’s impossible.
Last night I was talking to my partner in bed and I was trying to set my alarm on my phone and I looked down and realized I had just typed “7” into my calculator.
Why are simple tasks so hard to multitask with, but when I’m at work I feel like I can keep track of at least two things at once? | 2021-12-06T14:47:41.000Z | ra8wsk | 17 | 38 | ADHD | Why can I talk while I complete certain tasks but not others? | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8wsk/why_can_i_talk_while_i_complete_certain_tasks_but/ |
FearVikings | When I first suspected that I had ADHD, I booked a time with a psychologist. I had to wait maybe 2 months for this. Afterwards, he refered me to a place that does diagnosis. I was in queue for 6 months for that.
They gave me a diagnosis, and sent me to a place that can help with medication. So I waited 2 more months. When I finally got to talk to them, they said they needed to test whether anything had changed since last time, so they asked a bunch of questions. A week later they got back to me, said "yeah, you need medication." And then they told me the queue for medication is !!!1 YEAR!!!
Bruh what the fuck. I'm in uni rn, really struggling. It's my last year and I'll do my thesis this summer... Medication before then would've helped so much... But nope. I'm not even sure I still live here in 1 year, and then I'd have to be placed in a new queue for the new city ! :DD | 2021-12-06T14:44:29.000Z | ra8u9y | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Rant: So many queues!! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8u9y/rant_so_many_queues/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T14:43:54.000Z | ra8tpu | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Anyone else completely unable to talk while they complete a task? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8tpu/anyone_else_completely_unable_to_talk_while_they/ |
Enough_Vegetable_953 | I was first put on the lowest dose of vyvanse and it really helped my focus and staying on task, was a massive game changer for me, after 2 months I started getting intense muscle pain, hands swelling and fingers cramping, nobody could give me answers, blood work was normal etc (even went as far as seeing a rheumatologist). I stopped the meds and the pain went away (very slowly, took months to be back to baseline). Saw my psychologist, he wasn't really buying that it was the meds doing it but decided to try me on a low dose of dexamphetamines, sure enough I had 2 months without issue, and here I am again in agony.
Is it even worth trying other stimulants or am I doomed to be unmedicated and always struggle. The meds changed my life and made this so much easier but I can't manage the pain. Is there any hope for me? | 2021-12-06T14:27:13.000Z | ra8hlk | 5 | 1 | ADHD | Intense muscle pain from meds. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8hlk/intense_muscle_pain_from_meds/ |
Zozi-_- | Hi,
So I’m on my way getting assessed with a fairly new and young psychologist.
We are currently going through the DIVA form, but had to extend the 90min session because we talked for too long. In two weeks we have a new session to complete it.
Anyway, I feel like many of the questions there make me relate most of the symptoms to my job. So many stories are from there.
So when I tell my examples that I can recall, the psychologist replies :”so it doesn’t happen that often then…”
One major thing I read about is how often keys and wallet gets misplaced. However, since I was young and got my own keys my mom told me to always put my keys in a bowl in the hallway. This has evolved over 25years or so, into me having a designated pocket in my jacket for keys and wallet. As well as always using the same pocket in my jeans for the same thing. And I focus on emptying them in my own bowl as soon as I enter the house. If my keys aren’t in that jacket pocket or in the bowl, then I have no idea where they are. “Okay, so you don’t misplace your keys that often then…”.
Like how can I have issues with finishing administrative assignments when I have a practical job? And if I only remember a symptom or issue because it actually have or had a consequence, and most likely brush it off when I am the only one affected. For example when I go into a room and forget why I’m there because I was thinking about something. But then if it happens and it affects coworkers or my wife, I feel stupid and remember it for a long time. Probably shame-based recall, I don’t know.
I’ve done the DIVA test on my own, taking notes, and spent weeks on going through events and memories. But when the psychologist asks I either lose my train of thought or can’t explain it well enough.
So if this test end up negative because she has trivialized my answers, how hard should I fight for it?
Also, I’m scheduled for a CPT3-test. Which is good. Don’t know how long it takes or how hard it is.
Is there more known tests you know about that is usually given during assessments?
And should I ask for an IQ-test, just in case?
Sorry for the long rant. | 2021-12-06T14:25:25.000Z | ra8gax | 4 | 2 | ADHD | Getting assessed: tests and bad at explaining | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8gax/getting_assessed_tests_and_bad_at_explaining/ |
Lunagirl6780 | One of the things I find to help with my ADHD is to use music, (esp w my executive dysfunction) and specifically my noise canceling earbuds which help me stay grounded and help me focus on tasks, and not get sensory overloaded.
Unfortunately today, I discovered one of the earbuds stopped working and even though one side still works, the noise canceling effect is like not as strong. I tried to troubleshoot the problem myself but it didn't work, and now basically the only thing I can do is to wait until I can buy them again and they only sell them at like stores like walmart/target which are a good drive away from where I live (I'm a minor without my own car.)
The thing is that the next time I can get a new pair is in 2 weeks when my parents could maybe drive me to the store and I'm terrified and very stressed about my like scedule/way of life changing without this thing that aids me, and how I'm going to probably have sensory overloads at school and this weekend because I will be attending a thing that will have tons of people in attendance.
Any tips on how to not stress myself out over this? | 2021-12-06T14:22:20.000Z | ra8dx7 | 5 | 1 | ADHD | Noise Cancelling headphones/earbuds | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8dx7/noise_cancelling_headphonesearbuds/ |
thatdamgirl | I'm trying to help my boyfriend get assessed and (potentially) diagnosed with ADHD, but all of the processes in Toronto are quoting $2000-$3000. As a student that's not financially feasible.
Has anyone gone through the diagnosis process in Ontario as an adult and can share any tips or resources for being properly assessed and diagnosed without basically selling a kidney to afford it?
Thank you in advance!!
Ps, we aren't actually sure if he has ADHD, which is why we want to make sure that he's properly assessed so that he can be given the right tools and resources to help him. | 2021-12-06T14:21:40.000Z | ra8dft | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Toronto, ON - Seeking Help Getting Adult Diagnosis | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8dft/toronto_on_seeking_help_getting_adult_diagnosis/ |
Hungry-Spite | **TLDR:** ***Wanting to hear people's experiences on Medikenet (Ritalin) vs Elvanse (Vyvanse). I am wondering if my reaction to my medication Medikenet/Ritalin is as expected or if it could be beneficial for me to change over to Elvanse/Vyvanse to see if it is more compatible, or maybe just change my dose.***
***Also looking for tips and experiences managing anxiety/c-PTSD with ADHD. Anything from tips from medication, self-help books to personal habits etc is super appreciated.***
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So at age 24 I finally got diagnosed with ADHD. I had symptoms since I was a child, which were noticed by teachers and alerted by them several times but it was never taken seriously.
I recently managed to finally take the steps to get diagnosed and hopefully manage my life better, and I am now for the first time on medication. I am a woman, if that is of any relevance (hormonal interactions etc)
I now have some questions and would love for people to share their experience so I can get more insight, as this is all super new to me and I never really looked into anything related to ADHD before very recently. If you switched from Medikenet to Elvanse I would love to hear your experience on the different medications.
I am currently on Medikenet, 30mg a day so I am taking 20mg in the morning and 10mg in the evening as a booster.
I started on 10mg in August and have had my dose upped approx every two months by my doctor's recommendation.
So far it works a little, but I feel like it's **very** unpredictable and the same dose can either make me feel like I didn’t take anything, or make me feel strung out and a little foggy depending on the day.
I am unsure if it's related to what I eat during the day or if the varying degree of effect is just random, or hormonal, etc.
In general, if I take it the roughest part of my executive dysfunction is taken away and it is for sure *easier* to make myself do things when I have taken my medication but I do wish it worked better, as around 50% of the time I still feel this weird…foggy feeling. I can’t really describe it better than it feels like my brain is submerged in fog and it makes me feel super aimless. I don't know if this is normal and the medication is just supposed to work a little and I am expecting too much, or if I should try to change medications.
It also does completely wrecks my stomach, but I can honestly tolerate that as long as it would work as I hope to.
Preferably I would want the medication to kick me out of my executive dysfunction and make me feel more present in my life and able to do things. I still sadly feel like I am walking around with a blindfold, I'm just a little more able to actually get up instead of feeling completely unable to engage at all.
It is worth mentioning that I do have CPTSD and anxiety diagnosed so that might also be the cause of this. Any pointers of what people do to manage anxiety-related diagnoses on top of ADHD are greatly appreciated too!
The health system in Germany is very reluctant to prescribe anything for ADHD so I am reluctant to ask for different medications as I don't want to be seen as someone who is “seeking drugs” which sadly seems to be a common perception by doctors here. For the same reason I have not been seeking anxiety medication, and therapy is sadly very hard to come by at the moment due to the waitlists.
Also anecdotal, but I feel like I now am more absent-minded than I was before medication at times when my medication has worn off. I keep walking into rooms forgetting what I was supposed to do in the evening when the effects have worn off, and it feels **way** more frequent than it was before. It might just be that now I notice it, as there now is the difference between when I am on the medication vs when I am off. I am however a little worried that the medication is making my brain even more dysfunctional than it was before LOL.
My eyesight has also become worse it seems, I especially notice this when it comes to the LED screens for train departures in the underground etc which I usually could read clearly but now are completely blurry. From what I understand after googling it, it seems to be due to how the medicine affects your pupils and hopefully isn’t a permanent change of my actual eyesight independent of the medication.
Sorry for the wall of text, I just have a lot of questions trying to nest out so many years of feeling overwhelmed and out of control and now finally taking the steps to take my life back, although a little confused and aimless!
This subreddit has helped me a lot as I don't know anyone else with ADHD so I super appreciate everyone posting here!
Thank you so so much for your time! | 2021-12-06T14:20:05.000Z | ra8c9j | 19 | 6 | ADHD | Looking for experiences people have had with Medikenet (Ritalin) vs Elvanse (Vyvanse) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra8c9j/looking_for_experiences_people_have_had_with/ |
1-Orion-1 | Hello, everybody!
I'm not diagnosed with adhd(not yet, at least), and I don't know if I should get myself checked out. I've done some research about it and I meet a lot of the criteria for a person with adhd. Not all of it, but quite a lot. I'm 20, and I feel like my life is a mess, I can't find motivation to do anything, even stuff that I like. I always find myslef distracted from work, or studying, I procrastinate almost everything, even the little stuff that can be done in 5min. I often feel depressed, I feel like I'm a waste of potential. The thing is, I know what I should be doing to fix myself and feel better, but I just can't bring myself to get it done, It's like I'm afarid to do it.
When I think about my childhood, I remember always being the inattentive one, always forgetting stuff and annoying my parents.
I also have trouble keeping myself still, always fidgeting, tapping, etc.
I don't know if I need to go see someone, or if I'm just lazy, or too dumb to do stuff and I'm finding excuses.
What do you think?
(Sorry for any spelling errors, english is not my main language) | 2021-12-06T14:16:47.000Z | ra89u4 | 46 | 82 | ADHD | Am I just lazy? | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra89u4/am_i_just_lazy/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T14:15:05.000Z | ra88mh | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Does Not forgetting get better? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra88mh/does_not_forgetting_get_better/ |
marwa-syed | [removed] | 2021-12-06T14:06:39.000Z | ra82kt | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Can you describe how it feels being on ADHD medication? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra82kt/can_you_describe_how_it_feels_being_on_adhd/ |
Occams_Razor42 | For me at least I tend to ignore to-do apps as my phone already makes a thousand & one R2D2 chirps daily. And so I was wondering if anyone has tips to actually remember to use them among all the other things I ignore.
It doesn't have to be an app, although a pen and paper would just be one more thing to forget lol. But I need something persistent enough to get past my subconscious. Maybe something with an alarm that can only be turned off after a few math problems? 🤓 | 2021-12-06T14:06:16.000Z | ra82a3 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Super Duper Annoying To Dos! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra82a3/super_duper_annoying_to_dos/ |
FaithInStrangers94 | Can some folks really just start applying for jobs without weighing up all the hypothetical realities that could arise if they were successful, or walk over and talk to someone cute instead of overthinking what they should say and imagining different negative scenarios playing out, or open and assignment and start working on it without first assessing the state of their house and their life, or choose between two similar products at the supermarket without becoming overwhelmed and buying both, or live in the moment and make snap decisions without the tiresome old bastard in their head slowing them down? | 2021-12-06T14:00:45.000Z | ra7xu4 | 367 | 2,596 | ADHD | Do some people really live without a narrator in their head that critiques everything they do? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7xu4/do_some_people_really_live_without_a_narrator_in/ |
uno01234 | I lost my new beanie in the train maybe and I am very frustrated. Two weeks ago i lost my wallet in the bus on my way back home.
I liked it (beanie) a lot I am very sad.It had a warm illustration on it. I don't wana tell my relatives because I already know their response what will gonna be. Hope the feeling will go away. | 2021-12-06T13:59:56.000Z | ra7wv8 | 162 | 672 | ADHD | I just lost it. | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7wv8/i_just_lost_it/ |
ObjectiveCompleat | I did a quick search so may have missed something but I didn't see this question answered. Like posts here I crave caffeine and sugar on meds or not but I notice that sugar has a lot of negative effects that come with it.
The day I consume something with high sugar content there doesn't seem to be any issues besides the normal sugar spike that everyone feels. The problem comes the next day and days after. The next day I usually end up with a massive headache somewhere throughout the day that comes on and is unrelenting. For a few days after that meds seem to be much less effective. My productivity drops and my overall mood becomes very negative. After the first day having sugary foods and days after will just make the headaches and cloudiness worse.
Before I was medicated my job/ family would actually be able to call me out on the days after i had sugar. Nowadays it's more of an internal problem because I can regulate emotions a bit better but it's still bad.
My biggest issue is despite knowing this, I will still go for desserts and stuff at a party or when my fiancé wants to bake (she usually tries to avoid it for both our health but she gets the urge every so often and baking relaxes her).
Is this pretty well known or should I be researching other possible medical issues causing this sort of reaction? | 2021-12-06T13:53:22.000Z | ra7s0s | 9 | 2 | ADHD | ADHD and Sugar | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7s0s/adhd_and_sugar/ |
NourAl_ | Hello,
Just like the topic suggests, I make a mistake or something that triggers my partner in any way, and then we talk about it. I promise to work on it, I obsess over working on it for some time until after a while, I forget about it and unintentionally repeat the mistake.
This cycle is getting very repetitive and tiring for my partner. I understand her feelings, but I genuinely feel lost, and I would love to get tips from you guys about how you deal with something like that.
How do you set rules for yourself regarding "bad things" or triggers for your partner? Do you write them down? Or is there any other way?
Thank you so much for your help.
Edit: oh wow I’m overwhelmed by all the responses and feel normal!
And for the ones asking about the mistakes. Sometimes it would be intentionally making noises that would trigger their sensory overload (completely forgetting that after 2 weeks) because in my head “it’s funny to annoy someone you love.”
Or saying something but meaning something so different because of how hard it is to find words when my head is empty and those words would trigger fears or insecurities in my partner. | 2021-12-06T13:52:20.000Z | ra7r99 | 30 | 141 | ADHD | I forget issues/mistakes we talk about w/my partner and repeat them | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7r99/i_forget_issuesmistakes_we_talk_about_wmy_partner/ |
Kay_Elle | For those of you who menstruate, did Ritalin (MR) have any influence on your periods?
I have a natural cycle that was always a bit irregular, but find it has gotten a LOT worse in the last few months, that happen to coincide with me starting meds.
Now, a lot of things have been happening (pandemic, vaccinations, gaining weight) that could throw it off, and my gyno says al looks (physically) functional.
Im going to my endo later this month for a hormone check, but has anyone experienced ADHD mes influencing periods? | 2021-12-06T13:49:17.000Z | ra7p3z | 4 | 2 | ADHD | Ritalin & menstruation | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7p3z/ritalin_menstruation/ |
kayman121 | I’ve had Teva, sandoz, Auribindo, mylan, and now lannett. To be clear, my diagnoses is adult ADD, not ADHD. I’m 31.
Now why I think this may differ from popular opinion lies in the fact that this is adjunct to medication I take for GAD. I dose 60mg in the morning alongside 1mg klonopin. With another 1 mg klonopin dose at noon, about 6 hours after my initial adderall dosage. Total 4mg klonopin daily evenly spaced. I haven’t talked to my pdoc about it yet but my personal hypothesis is the benzos may be blunting the negative effects while retaining therapeutic. It does feel a bit less potent than say teva, but for me that came at a cost side effect wise. The lannett provides ample therapeutic effect at the least cost, side effect wise
I’ve always found my body sensitive to the side effects of most of the other types. Anxiety exacerbation, jaw clenching, brain fog (too stimulated to focus), and severe muscle rigidity over time. At one point I was on carisoprodol to ease the muscle spasms and pain but that isn’t really a wise long term way to go about tolerating the meds, so that was temporary.
In all, I find lannett to offer me a good balance between therapeutic effects and lack of negative effects, but posit the benzodiazepines may be a factor in that regard, which I’m aware many on here are not necessarily taking this along side a benzo. Would be curious if this would hold for opiates if anyone takes both, but I’m not prescribed them and have only been prescribed for maybe 10 days at a time the last several years for acute injuries or a surgical procedure, and don’t remember.
Anyways, just thought I’d share my useless opinion. My psychiatrist, neurologist, and PCP have all independently vouched for the wild variance in effects among adderall generics specifically, so I don’t think it’s entirely in my head.
Curious as to anyone else’s take or similar experiences. | 2021-12-06T13:34:48.000Z | ra7eq5 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Unpopular opinion on generic adderall: i actually prefer Lanett, but I think the reason may be a bit more nuanced | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7eq5/unpopular_opinion_on_generic_adderall_i_actually/ |
ineptitude202 | I think I may have ADHD, obviously I'm not sure. Main priority is price, so as cheap as possible would be preferred. I just want to know if I have it or not, I haven't thought about the treatment process much so I don't really care about the quality of the doctor/psychiatrist.
I have googled it but no one has listed the fee for a appointment | 2021-12-06T13:29:43.000Z | ra7b4o | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Doctor recommendations for diagnosing ADHD in Hong Kong | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7b4o/doctor_recommendations_for_diagnosing_adhd_in/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T13:29:11.000Z | ra7art | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Can anxiety « hides » the effects of meds | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra7art/can_anxiety_hides_the_effects_of_meds/ |
orbital_dx | I took my meds as normal on Saturday and it was like a switch was flipped. I could barely tell I had taken them, the only reason I could tell was that the lethargy I get when I skip a day went away. It felt like taking a much lower dose or something.
I picked up my monthly prescription of my meds recently and when I get them I put any remaining capsules in the old bottle into the new one.
I'm grasping at straws but I'm wondering if it's maybe a lower dose that was somehow put in the wrong packaging. Apparently Vyvanse always contains the same concentration of powder and the amount differs between doses, so 50mg contains more powder than a 20mg for example. I've tried weighing the capsules and they all weigh around 0.180 grams but I don't know how much they would normally weigh. | 2021-12-06T13:25:21.000Z | ra788s | 8 | 3 | ADHD | Vyvanse suddenly stopped working overnight | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra788s/vyvanse_suddenly_stopped_working_overnight/ |
shrewenthusiast | Hello!
Firstly - I have already asked my titration nurse for more info. I'm asking here because I've done every kind of Reddit/scientific paper/medication side effects search I can think of and have struggled to find clear info. I'm happy to receive both anecdotes and further reading.
I've been titrating for a few months now, first on Concerta XL and now on Elvanse (Vyvanse in US). In the last month of Concerta I began noticing visual snow/static in the evenings, and since I was only really getting other bad side effects too we decided to switch.
Elvanse has done all of the things I'd hoped - laser-like focus, I can do things that before were impossible because of intrusive trauma thoughts etc. Yay! But the visual issue is now constant, even when I close my eyes. It's like static on a TV screen, with some after imaging. If this will never stop I don't think I can continue with Elvanse, which would be a huge blow,
I've learnt about Visual Snow Syndrome (VSS) as much as possible, but since this coincided with starting stimulant medication I'm inclined to believe that it's related and have seen a couple of theories about this - something to do with serotonin uptake in the optic track for example.
I'd love to hear from anyone who has an answer to one or more of these questions:
1. Did you experience something similar, and did it go away with time like other side effects?
2. If you stopped taking stimulant meds due to visual problems, did non-stimulant meds have visual effects?
3. Do you have any further reading or info about this that could be helpful for me/my titration nurse?
Thanks v much for your time <3
**TLDR:** I have persisting visual problems on stimulant meds. If you have had this too I have questions for you. Please see above! | 2021-12-06T13:24:32.000Z | ra77oy | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Have you had visual problems on ADHD medication? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra77oy/have_you_had_visual_problems_on_adhd_medication/ |
_Cloud93 | I'm wondering if anyone else finds they struggle with these contradictions and how it causes a lot of internal conflict?
A lot of my ADHD is internalised and I don't match the stereotype of someone who is super outgoing, bubbly, charming, etc. If anything, I'm usually the most quiet person in a group. I also (still) struggle with social awkwardness ever since I got bullied in school. As a child I was diagnosed with inattentive type ADHD. In school I was definitely seen as a daydreamer. I didn't talk much and I don't enjoy approaching people because I'm so self-conscious. I'm however very hyperactive on the inside and if I get close enough to someone, my passion definitely comes out when I talk.
Normally you read that people with ADHD are impulsive individuals and that they take risks. I find that this does not apply to me at all because I'm such a cautious and anxious person... I'm very risk averse. I've never been drunk. I'm careful in traffic. I'm very calculated with money. Etc... At the same time I'm someone who has a lot of impulses. Often emotional impulses, I have always had strong feelings about a lot of things. Or just things I want to do or feel the need to do. I have ideas all the time, thoughts all the time, my mind never stops racing! "I still need to do this", "Oh this would be fun to...", "I definitely need to make a note about that", "Omg, imagine this..." and my husband says I'll keep coming up with more and more and talk too much, in a joking way (I struggle to shut up with him, but around other people I'm often not comfortable enough to talk that much.) I have a lot of interests, more than my mind can even keep up with. I often have urges to do things and look things up. Things catch my attention all the time. Also used to nail bite etc... So yeah, definitely lots of impulses happening on the onside. And I can't just turn them off when I have to focus on work. Yet in other ways I seem suppressed by anxiety?!
Does anyone else find that they are a walking contradiction? As a child I already thought that I seem to change like a chameleon sometimes.
When I tried ADHD medication as a teenager it was a total disaster, it actually increased my internal impulses and made my emotions incredibly instable, I felt I wanted to scream I was that pent up! Instead of just one voice constantly talking in my head it felt like there were ten people shouting at me at the same time (I don't mean this literally - I didn't hear any actual voices! Just metaphorically). This reaction to both Concerta and Ritalin made me question whether my ADHD is even 'real'. | 2021-12-06T13:18:44.000Z | ra73ov | 5 | 5 | ADHD | Cautious/anxious personality with ADHD impulses | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra73ov/cautiousanxious_personality_with_adhd_impulses/ |
lazysandwich88 | I've been diagnosed with inattentive ADHD and I sit just about all of the classic symptoms, mostly internalized.
The one thing it seems to be on the fence for me though is memory? I see a lot of people who can't remember stories they're told or movies they've watched, but I'm not like that at all. I remember that someone's told me a story, and I remember how many times they've told me that story since the first time they've told me that story. I remember entire scenes or sometimes whole movies worth of dialogue and can recited with weird accuracy as I see the movie more.
When I remember my past it's like it's happening now, like a movie playing in my head that I'm watching and experiencing in real time.
But then when I look back at my childhood, I only remember these movies that I watched or these emotional conversations that I had. I don't remember any of the things I did and between them, I just vaguely remember playing with toys until memories became dominated by middle school bullies and high school social anxiety.
It's like I don't remember everything, but the things I remember I remember perfectly. | 2021-12-06T13:18:27.000Z | ra73is | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Inconsistent Memory | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra73is/inconsistent_memory/ |
Admirable_Student416 | I know this isn't a doctors surgery
And I don't want a diagnosis off anybody here
But I feel like nobody I explain myself to actually understands what I mean.
As long as I can remember I've always had a busy head.
Which sounds weird but I mean there's always some sort of noise or images or anything in my head
I left school at 14.
I love and still do love English and I love art, I love music, history and science amaze me but because my brain is constantly on full volume its like I just blank out to everything around me and i can't make it shut up.
Its not like negative thoughts or sad thoughts. Sometimes it is but rarely it's literally just like somebody is emptying their Google history into my head
You know when the TV is on loud, you're on the phone and also the dog is barking, the kids crying and somebody is trying to speak to you in person too??? That's how my head feels all the time
If you asked me what I think about I genuinely couldn't tell you because it's just everything and nothing at once
I forget so much that I need to do; or that I should remember etc.
Here's literally my brain, live feed -
This very minute it's 3.30 in the morning. I've got the music from "the magic roundabout" stuck in Mt head. Googling lost hamsters in my area, where can you buy a corgi, how can I grow my hair quickly, thinking about what I'm doing tomorrow. Making a mental list.
Thinking about wrapping paper and the urge to wrap things bur alas I do not have any wrapping paper.
I'm annoyed that my mug is chipped and I'm not sure whether 5o stay awake or lay in bed because I am tired but I also want to just stay up. I want to write lists of things I need to do but I banned myself from writing lists because I get angry at the lists because I can never finish them
I have my daughters homework to do with her and I also need to book some clients in for my own work and make some money to save but also I don't really want to because I'd like to draw and I want to put shelves up in my office room.
I've still got the magic round about stuck in my head and I'm thinking about my wedding dress and what I need to alter with it
All of my thoughts aren't one after the other either they overlap eachother, like having 28 tabs open and just scrolling up and down between them and never closing or clicking any of them
Then in real life and not in my brain life people do find me slightly odd, I don't keep friends but I really don't try to. I am happy with one or two people who I can see when I want to and there's zero pressure to be in groups or out and about I don't have to pretend. Other females I know love a gossip and to talk shit but it makes me feel like my head will burst because I literally have no room in my head for it.
When I'm out and its busy and people are all talking and especially if I have to wear a face mask which fogs my glasses up and I have to choose whether to see or whether to pull my mask from my face, i feel like I'm in a different place than everybody. I know its loud but the sound goes blurry if that makes sense.
I love.music and I wish I could be productive with music but if I do put music on I get so lost in it I'll find I've sat there for 3 hours achieving nothing apart from it does make my mind close a few tabs. Until I hit pause and then it's like my brain is AOL in 2005 and all those pop ups are freezing me again.
And I apologise for getting personal but even sex, I literally just end up thinking about 200 other things and then I'm so busy trying to focus on what I'm doing I'm not actually paying attention because I'm fighting to get rid of evety other thing in my head
So obviously I literally never "finish" because I'm like
"This is good"
*teletubbies theme tune starts playing and I can see pasta on the stove in my mind*
This also happens with any hobby I find. I don't even know how much money I've spent on hobbies. I can't just "dip my toes in". And I can't just ignore the urge to do the thing
Here's a list of examples -
-Bath bombs/salts / soap making
Collecting makeup that I didn't use
Collecting note pads
-At the start of the first lockdown,
I was going to the beach every chance I could get and Collecting stones and pebbles. And I mean literally bags full of them. And I'd take them home and I'd go through them looking at them all again and again and I polished a couple
Then I dropped that too so I ended up with about 5 carrier bags of stones aimlessly in my house.
-sewing. Bought a sewing machine, about 40 different fabrics. Sewed one thing.
- art. I am quite good at drawing. But I just stop and I don't carry it through. Ever. I've finished probably 2 out of 60 pieces. It really bothers me. And I buy so many different supplies thinking it will motivate me but then it doesn't.
- baking. I've got a huge 3x2ft box full of baking accessories, flours, icing, tools, boxes - I baked one box of cupcakes.
- house plants. I've got about 35 house plants. I don't even have space for them. But I *needed* them.
- hair bows. I was making hair bows and clips and I actually kept this up for a few weeks as I was selling them. It was going so so well I was making a fair bit of money but then I just didn't want to anymore.
- sticks.
Yeah, sticks.
I saw this big pile of big sticks.
I spent hours thinking about those sticks. I wanted to use them to make a canvas frame using twine and the sticks
I went out and took all of those sticks home.
I had good intentions but the sticks are still just behind my shed.
World of warcraft was fun for a while
There's been other hobbies and games and shit I've been almost fixated with, ny mum used to tell me off because I was obsessed with the number 49. Every time I looked at a clock or anything it just seemed to be 49. And I used to always draw the same girl in the same clothes whe. I was little. Over and over again and then I'd get bored. I can't keep friends I never have.
I'm guilty for starting accounts, for myself, for my art, for my bows, my dog! For so many things over and over again because I just thought "if I start over I'll do better cos I left this one too long"
I can't eat certain foods and it pisses me off because I don't particularly want a shit diet but ever since I can remember, any texture that doesn't make me feel OK makes me physically vomit. Things that are wet bur crunch (all veg all fruit) etc.
I can sleep for 10 hours and still feel absolutely exhausted.
I smoke a lot. I don't even need a cigarette but I'll have a coffee and I will tell myself
"Right after this cig I'll get on with stuff"
And then I get distracted and then I seem to repeat it, "I'll have another cig then I'll definitely! Get on"
Then suddenly its 8pm? Now it's too late to do the things.
And it's strange because I'm so tired so I'll have a coffee, but it makes me more tired so I have another and another like I know full well it isn't helping but
I feel overwhelmed sometimes and it's never just "OK I need a break from that" it's "I'm going to not do this and I will never do it again" which includes school college and jobs.
I also have type 1 diabetes and I do my injections yes but I very very rarely check my sugars. Its so easy it takes 3 seconds but it can be right infrony of me and I'll just stare at it for 10 minutes thinking of something else.
My partner has caught me multiple times just midway through a task, stood still, staring into space. Literally I was getting bread out the top cupboard and just stood there with my arm in the air holding this bread like that scene in lion King
And as a child even a young child I remember my teachers always always saying I'm clever BUT I need to focus more, I need to speed up as my work is never complete, I need to listen / focus on the task. This then translated into my work life
Because for instance my first job I did admin at a head stone place. But I'd go to do my weekly clean of the stones in the shop and I would spend 30min on one stone just polishing it and it's so satisfying. Smooth things are satisfying or even now I am self employed as a cleaner I'll find myself doing the same job for 20 minutes that should take 5. Because I just "zone out" and then I find myself rushing and I'm always late to start with, I am really really trying so much.
I was disruptive as a teenager but mainly because I just really didn't like other people more than anything.
I notice a lot of my traits in my daughter who's 5, the absent glazed look and hearing me but not replying for a few seconds / at all. She's such a good kid she isn't doing it to be rude she's generally just a "day dreamer" like me. "Head in the clouds"
I probably have made absolutely no sense at all. But I've literally just let my fingers go and not held back.
I know I function, I'm a decent mama, but in all its the bare minimum and it's lime I'm screaming at myself silently to just stop thinking and get on. But by 10am I'm so absolutely exhausted by my own brain and then everyone thinks I'm lazy. I wish I was lazy I hate being exhausted. I want to do normal things.
I just want to know if I'm alone or if anybody else out there feels the same?
I had a massive similar rant to my doctor. Who then called in 2 other doctors and a practice nurse, 1 doctor told me to calm down which made me worse because nobody understood what I was trying to say. The other said "hAvE y0u tRiEd dEeP bReAtHiNG" and to "try and only think for 10 minutes in the morning. That's your think time"
Then they decided they can't help me and sent a referral off to the ASD team.
Fast forward 6 months I've still not got anywhere with my referral and have zero idea why I am the way I am or how to explain the way I am or stop being the way I am...
Unless you have lived with this head, you won't understand that if I could just think for 10 mins, I would.
I'd literally sell my organs if it meant I could have one day a month where I wake up feeling refreshed, clear mind, mood and productive.
All of this is my head 24/7 yet if you were to meet me you'd just see a 26 year old small female, who seems normal. Quiet and a bit weird, but relatively normal.
I don't know what I'm hoping to achieve from this, but i just needed somewhere to vomit words out.
TLDR my mind is basically like MTV on full volume whilst somebody else screams in my ear and there's probably an instrument playing too and is there anyone out there who really understands me or am I just "someone who babbles on too much / needs to get on with it and stop ovErThInKiNg" or is there a way to make it all just a bit less cluttered in my brain?
Its taken me hours of coming back and leaving this post as I've added so much more onto this than my original and I almost didn't post 8t because I just "couldn't be bothered" but I've managed to complete it
I'm sorry if things make no sense that I've written, please be nice. This is the first and only time I've fully been able to get out in words what I have in my brain 24- 7 and if I don't just post it how it is now , I never will. | 2021-12-06T13:04:30.000Z | ra6tuh | 3 | 0 | ADHD | I found this sub category by chance after posting somewhere else and having no response. The posts I've seen sound so much like me. When I try to explain myself to anyone they don't understand properly. Have I found people like me? Please read this if you can. | 0.33 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra6tuh/i_found_this_sub_category_by_chance_after_posting/ |
FellowshipOfTheGrind | I have the intense urge, everytime I make a coffee/tea/hot beverage to:
1. Open the Fridge, take out the milk, put the milk in the beverage, put the milk back in the fridge. All before the fridge door shuts on itself.
2. Tip, a small amount of liquid (from the recently) made beverage, into the sink.
I don't know why I do it. But it feels right, like a ritual. | 2021-12-06T12:58:39.000Z | ra6pdr | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Coffee/Tea Habit/Obession | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra6pdr/coffeetea_habitobession/ |
theunknowncompanion | Had a funny exchange with my doctor today as we were going through my medication review:
D: so how are you going on the 50mg?
me: the 50s? I thought you said we had to wait for the next review (this one) before I started on those!
D: no-no, remember I said, you start on the 30mg and then gradually go to 50mg...
me: ... No...
D: of course.... memory
me: yeah... \*awkward laughter
D: \*laughs
Anyway, trying 30 + 30, so 30 in the morning and 30 in the afternoon and then tomorrow will try 50... hopefully this will help me last longer and I don't have as much of a crash at 3pm!
Anyway, hope that gave you a giggle! | 2021-12-06T12:47:44.000Z | ra6i4f | 2 | 6 | ADHD | Memory lapses with ADHD doctor today! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra6i4f/memory_lapses_with_adhd_doctor_today/ |
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Weak-Look-6700 | I have an ADHD diagnosis for 2,5 Years, I am in therapy, took 9 different meds, was in psychiatry, and currently do neurofeedback (german healthcare is quite good). Still, I am not even sure I have adhd (some criteria totally dont apply, nobody noticed in childhood, etc.) I guess maybe I am just lazy and an adrenaline junkie. I dont know how other people do it - to me alsmot everything feels FUCKING BORING after 3 minutes. I CAN force myself to do it or to concentrate, but it just fucking HURTS. How am I supposed to live like this - in a constant battle with my inconsistent, dopamine-addicted, interest-driven brain. I am constantly fighting myself, and if I am not I dont achieve anything. Does everybody feel this way, and if yes: how are we supposed to endure this??? | 2021-12-06T12:38:41.000Z | ra6cg9 | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Seriously - how can people live like this??? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra6cg9/seriously_how_can_people_live_like_this/ |
randominitials | I've tried schedules and it doesn't really work. It give me a sense of security thinking that I will get things done, but then I don't really manage to get the thing done in the time I've set aside and the schedule just makes me feel worse. Any other suggestions on getting yourself to get things done? Thanks! | 2021-12-06T12:33:33.000Z | ra694l | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Tips on being productive? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra694l/tips_on_being_productive/ |
ellow_Jellow | I have this online friend I knew him for almost a year and he's great he's a fun friend but I keep ghosting him. I feel so bad because he did nothing wrong and I enjoy our conversations but for some reason I cant just text him back knowing it will lead us talking on the phone all night and I cant bare to be rude and try to end a conversation purposefully because what if that sends the wrong message? I also kinda just forget the text is there and talking to another person feels like torture to me sometimes. I wonder is this and adhd thing or an introvert thing (cause im also an introvert) | 2021-12-06T12:30:14.000Z | ra66zd | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Ghosting my online friend | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra66zd/ghosting_my_online_friend/ |
rocknrollguy19 | I recently saw an ADHD meme about preventing tomorrow from starting by staying up as long as possible despite being tired.
I do this all the time. I could be exhausted, but I feel the need to stay awake to watch YouTube or play video games, even when my body is practically begging to just go to sleep.
I used to take Melatonin fairly consistently, so perhaps I should go back to doing so, but it doesn’t stop the feeling/desire to stay awake
Is there a name for this? How can I work on this? | 2021-12-06T12:26:25.000Z | ra64oz | 36 | 173 | ADHD | Advice: How can I stop “forcing” myself to stay awake? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra64oz/advice_how_can_i_stop_forcing_myself_to_stay_awake/ |
ellow_Jellow | Im seen as the weird kid in school and it is disheartening I know thats pretty common in this subreddit but I don't know what to do. I heard that people with adhd is good at masking but for some reason Im so bad at it everytime I try it I just turn out awkward or I break it real quick with my "quirky" personality. I dont want all that I wants lots of friends and to fit in because all my life I was the odd one out and I tend to get bullied. I feel like I don't have anything of value because I have a lack of social skills and Im not smart either. Both of my sisters are super smart one of them taught themselves algebra (in the mental hospital too) while Im here failing math class because I cant even focus on my boring teacher and he just make numbers magically appear. I was in my early period of doing research about my diagnoses alot of people say its a super power but tbh this just feels like a burden. | 2021-12-06T12:22:50.000Z | ra62et | 2 | 1 | ADHD | How to mask? And rant I guess | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra62et/how_to_mask_and_rant_i_guess/ |
The_Greenest | This is amazing. I just did several annoying task I’ve been putting off. Feel super motivated.
I also feel kind of high and energized. Which I guess is to be expected taking this stuff for the first time. But worried there’s a sort of anxiety behind it all. I’m going to the gym now to level out after sitting at the computer for 3 hours.
I’m on 30mg of Vyvanse.
I feel way more eager to connect with friends today. I have been pretty isolated these last few years. I’m 34 and share many of the same narratives I see on this sub.
I only recently realised how all encompassing adhd is on my life. It’s a curse. It’s fun at times. But largely it’s ruined many many things: businesses, friendships, jobs, education pursuits.
I’m trying to hold myself back from connecting with everyone at once. I don’t want to come across as the super high dude on Monday morning wanting to organise dinner parties.
I feel like I should take a week with this medication to get fully accustomed to it before I try and reconnect with lost friendships. I could imagine this can’t last like this? Can it? Caaan it?
I’d love life to feel a little more like this. | 2021-12-06T12:22:39.000Z | ra62ap | 5 | 11 | ADHD | First day in medication | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra62ap/first_day_in_medication/ |
poppet-1 | hey I was wondering if anyone feels like it makes a difference when they take their adhd meds on an empty stomach? I find I get worse side effects like nausea or nervousness when my stomach is empty compared to when i have had a meal. I know when I first started methylphenidate I had the nervousness and nausea but those wore off, but it feels almost the same as when you drink on an empty stomach like it hits harder. Is this normal? Thanks | 2021-12-06T12:21:33.000Z | ra61o6 | 5 | 1 | ADHD | meds on an empty stomach | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra61o6/meds_on_an_empty_stomach/ |
yodm | I take meds sparingly for my ADHD, typically when i’m in a crunch for work and can’t afford to struggle through focus while stressed about how much i haven’t done and still need to do and also all the other things i’m putting off because i’m putting in all my time supposedly working. (AKA my dark spiral!!)
But I’m also wondering if I would enjoy vacation more on meds?
For context i’m currently on a solo trip to Madrid and enjoying it so much! Also I brought my meds just in case I spiral or have covid restrictions force me to work here temporarily. But I decided this morning to take my meds because 1) I partied all night and am tired and and 2) am going to El Museo Prado y quiero disfrutar de la exhibición.
Is this a smart idea? Do other people who take meds sparingly do this?
gracias por su consejo de antemano! | 2021-12-06T12:18:39.000Z | ra5zu1 | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Meds while Traveling / on Vacation? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra5zu1/meds_while_traveling_on_vacation/ |
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Riiwn | I've noticed a behaviour that I haven't recognized in myself since before my recent burnout that has also lead to my two newly diagnosis (ADD and aspergers). I'm on sickleave from my study where we reflect and analyze a lot of things about psychology and behaviour, and I've been doing an awful lot of self reflection and analysis. I've been doing it so much that even my breakdown had become a thing to study to better understand myself - but also something that made me stuck in a loop (I was perseverating, I later learned). Now every time I think about the future, how I'm going to fit into this world, what my passions are and what kind of job I should choose in order not to burn out, I kickstart a domino effect I can't stop again. Usually I would ponder about these things to a point that I would pace back and forth in my apartment and trigger myself into a severe panick attack. I would usually also realize that I haven't eaten yet, and shake from being caloric deficit. I would try to eat, but also do this really fast! And after that I'll crash and have a meltdown. Its been a couple of months now, so I've started to notice the trigger about thinking about the future and my place in society, so I try not to think about it. But its inevitable, it usually comes up one way or another at some point. Now I'm able to catch myself in the act, and that at least stops me from getting an axiety attack, but it doesn't stop the rolling ball effect of physical hyper activity. I will start to stim a lot and become really restless. Something I usually don't experience like this. The only way to use this energy, is either by going for a walk, or starting to clean the apartment. But it doesn't always get it completely out of my system and I can be shaky and restless for a long time, even if I have eaten and tried to be physically active. Its really hard for me to relax, and its extremely uncomfortable!
This is all very new to me, and it really only happens when I think about a specific subject and start to ponder about it too much. Any idea why this happens, or can anyone relate? | 2021-12-06T12:12:17.000Z | ra5vuz | 7 | 2 | ADHD | Can ADD develop into periodic ADHD? | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra5vuz/can_add_develop_into_periodic_adhd/ |
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JSchultzJR | It can be as little as just thinking about my girlfriend cheating on me with her ex and I'll be mad for hours. Even know I know she didn't. This happened yesterday. I ended up ignoring her and shutting her out the rest of the day all because of these thoughts.
It's totally not fair to her that she has to deal with that and now I feel like shit..
Can anyone else relate? | 2021-12-06T11:58:10.000Z | ra5mp7 | 9 | 6 | ADHD | Anyone stay mad all day for the littlest things? | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra5mp7/anyone_stay_mad_all_day_for_the_littlest_things/ |
boringamericanindk | Hey,
This is not a medical advice post. I am going to talk to my psychiatrist about this anyway. But first I wanted to see if other people also experience a similar thing.
I am an adult with late diagnosis of ADHD (at age 24) and I am currently (age 25) on pills during the week days with 2x XR and 3x normal methylphenidate (approx. 70mg in total). My mental state has been a disaster for months but I have not thought that it could be related to the meds before.
During the nights and in the weekends I do not use the medication. And almost consistently, I feel terrible at nights and during the weekends where I would have constant stress, panic attacks, anxiety, anhedonia and I would also have suicidal thoughts due to existential dread. My life is really going well, just graduated from MSc. now working in a company remotely. The only thing I can tell that I am struggling with is being lonely. I do not have many friends and I am only in contact with a few in which there is one I have a crush on which I am pretty sure affects my mental health in a negative way. However, that is about it. I cannot find a solid reason why I should feel so sad, terrible even, waking up from my sleep because of racing heart and palpitations for literally no apparent reason whatsoever.
Today in the morning, I was feeling terrible again. Then I took the pills for work, afterwards I am suddenly the happiest person alive? Then it hit me, what if, the hell I am going through is all related to the medicines I am taking?
Did I get addicted and every time the level of the medicine in my blood goes below a certain threshold I feel symptoms like the ones I mentioned above?
Anyone can relate?
Thanks | 2021-12-06T11:50:20.000Z | ra5i7n | 3 | 6 | ADHD | Extreme anxiety and disturbing thoughts when out of ADHD medication, can anyone relate? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra5i7n/extreme_anxiety_and_disturbing_thoughts_when_out/ |
LittlePurpleS | Hello everyone!
Early in 2021, my doc moved me up to 40 mg adderall XR a day because I was working in a healthcare clinic that was massively understaffed, and I was having a hard time keeping up with everything. I’ve since left that job and started a new one with a much lower work and stress load, and I think my adderall dose may be a bit too high for me now. I’ve noticed myself hyper focusing again as well as an increase in my general anxiety levels. I’ve been feeling like my emotions are a bit all over the place as well and my appetite is fairly nonexistent during the day. Overall, I feel a bit too revved up and have noticed a return of my inner restlessness and hyperactivity. I’m calling my dr today to see about lowering the dose since my circumstances have changed, but I also wanted to see if anyone here has had a similar experience. | 2021-12-06T11:40:13.000Z | ra5cns | 6 | 3 | ADHD | Is it normal to need a lower ADHD med dose once stress/workload levels decrease? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra5cns/is_it_normal_to_need_a_lower_adhd_med_dose_once/ |
Hardyz1000 | I get too attached to people and with this girl it felt like heaven it was long distance but we could be open about each other and not judge each other at all. It was like heaven we would text all night as friends for months then eventually it became a relationship. When she would go a day without replying I would panic and send another text before you know it her phone was blown up and it was too much for her and she ghosted me and now she’s gone forever I panicked for her. She didn’t reply to a message of mine for 4 days and I assumed the worst maybe she was sick or upset at me or maybe something happened to her and i panicked and she left me ghosted after 1 year into it. I shouldn’t of messaged everyday too she told me loves speaking to me everyday but I could tell she lost interest. She’s gone now I never got closure. I’m sad because I was really worried about her she never gave me her phone number we only used a app to talk and she never wanted to face time or call me and when she disappeared I worried something happened to her. Now I’m alone | 2021-12-06T11:33:42.000Z | ra593v | 5 | 6 | ADHD | My adhd ruined my relationship I lost my first love | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra593v/my_adhd_ruined_my_relationship_i_lost_my_first/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T11:33:05.000Z | ra58re | 2 | 1 | ADHD | I've finally started taking medication, just wanted to talk about it | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra58re/ive_finally_started_taking_medication_just_wanted/ |
flummoxtear | Hey,
Ive been noticing alot recently that I am constantly making small mistakes, nothing to do with me not knowing what is correct or incorrect, I know what I am doing but just seem to skip over whatever task is at hand and forget something/accidentally make a mistake, I’m an apprentice, i try my best to take in what im told but my brain just doesnt compute/pick up what im being explained, leading me to ask stupid questions or i just guess basically which also doesn’t end well, I cant really imagine a fix for this as I think this is just how i am, it pains me alot as i really try to pull my head in most of the time, i dont like the idea of being sloppy, slow to learn etc.
For example last week i rushed into a park too quickly and scraped a car on its front bumper, I was super embarrassed and disappointing in myself , was also pretty anxious to tell my boss as i assumed id received an earful lol, turned out better than i thought but yeah still a very stupid mistake.
Also i apologise for my shitty grammar and text construction, not my suite.
One last thing
How do you guys deal with the feeling of repetition in life? Recently spending 8 hours working labour intensive activities just to come home and hardly have time to enjoy my free time before its time to sleep again.i know if i don’t get 8 hours of sleep it is setting myself up for a terrible day.
Bit of a rant & vent any replies appreciated | 2021-12-06T11:31:51.000Z | ra584f | 4 | 3 | ADHD | Struggles with ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra584f/struggles_with_adhd/ |
Norde_Bot | [removed] | 2021-12-06T11:15:45.000Z | ra4zlk | 1 | 1 | ADHD | ritalin got me feeling down | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4zlk/ritalin_got_me_feeling_down/ |
Anxious-Hamster-2234 | Just a thought. At first being a part of this community was a great relief to me. I was diagnosed at 29, after a lifetime of struggles.
I felt that I belonged somewhere, I felt that I wasn't alone. All the pain in my life started to make sense. It made me relax and go easy on myself. I have always pushed myself beyond my breaking point, trying to fit in. I have always been extremely hard on myself, for failing to fit in. Over and over and over again. Joining this community I realized that what I have been trying to do, is near impossible. Especially without the right help. I started accepting my own limits, and as a result, I started to relax. For the first time in many years I can sleep without horrible nightmares almost every night. Countless cramps throughout the day. Fatigue. Extreme mood swings. For the first time, I think I know what it is like, not being stressed.
I've found a sort of peace through this community. My life isn't fixed. But I am more peaceful.
But now I wonder. My initial exposure to all these relatable and painful life anecdotes, helped me find peace with my own struggles. Might continues exposure to this, make me bitter over time? Make me too relaxed? Make me resentful or angry at the rest of the world?
I don't know. Some posts do make me sad and unmotivated, because they are so relatable, and yet without any real solution. Some posts lift my spirits or give new insights or advice.
What are your thoughts? | 2021-12-06T11:14:24.000Z | ra4yth | 4 | 3 | ADHD | Does being a member of this community make you a better or worse version of yourself? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4yth/does_being_a_member_of_this_community_make_you_a/ |
beachtoys | [removed] | 2021-12-06T11:09:22.000Z | ra4w4r | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Vyvanse dosing issues: Too high? Too low? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4w4r/vyvanse_dosing_issues_too_high_too_low/ |
droopa199 | [removed] | 2021-12-06T11:06:14.000Z | ra4uec | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Should I tell the Psychiatrist? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4uec/should_i_tell_the_psychiatrist/ |
DustyLemonTree | I completely university over 1.5 years ago. I had a huge burn out that I think I'm still recovering from a little. But I've done nothing with my life for nearly 2 years.
I went from being someone who did everything all the time, no stopping, no breaks and going above and beyond and using stress to keep me going.....to the complete opposite. Now, I can't even do the smallest of tasks without it feeling like a mountain.
**How did you finally get yourself into a place where you created your own motivation?**
**How do you function without stress and deadlines?**
I do have a job where I can pick and choose my own shifts and cancel whenever I want but it's not great. It has to be like this because I get overwhelmed and run down if I do too much (which isn't a lot) but it's not getting me anywhere and I can only do minimal hours before I hit breaking point.
I want to own my own business, I want to learn new skills and I want to do so much but I can't do anything anymore and without the structure of education (which I simultaneously hated but needed) my life has taken a turn I never thought it would.
**Does anyone have any experience of finishing uni and then having your life completely come to a standstill where your executive dysfunction took over?**
I've no idea how to kick-start my life. I'm not currently medicated as I'm waiting for supervision but that could be 6 months away unfortunately. I've just no idea how to do life without school and I always thought I would be great once I left and didn't have people telling me what to do. I was so wrong. | 2021-12-06T11:03:22.000Z | ra4sva | 4 | 3 | ADHD | People who completed univeristy and didn't get a job after, how did you manage to get your life on track without deadlines, external motivation and others holding you accountable? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4sva/people_who_completed_univeristy_and_didnt_get_a/ |
breadsoupbby | 20f. newly diagnosed with adhd, autism, and ARFID by my doctor, but waitlisted for the neuropsych testing to get accommodations/meds. is it worth it? I've been battling mental illness my entire life. I've been going to therapy for a decade, medicated for maybe half that. previously they were only treating bipolar, but now it's evident it was always much more than that. while treating the bipolar, nothing ever really worked. now I wonder if that's because of all the new diagnoses. It still makes me worried about treatment going forward. it feels like I've wasted so much time with the wrong treatment. I'm worried the "right" treatment isn't out there, or if it is it isn't worth pursuing. I'm bitter. I'm frustrated. I'm mourning. I spent years begging for help while I cognitively declined and no one listened. no one listened until now when I'm on the verge of failing out of college. it's gotten so bad that it takes me weeks to complete papers that take my peers a few hours. every class I'm taking right now is in the 20s and it feels irreversible. all of that suffering was *not* worth the reward- 80k in debt and no degree. i guess I'm just struggling to see what the point is. I've already dug my own grave and gotten in the casket, what's Adderall gonna do? help me be able to write papers that I can't even turn in anymore? i don't know what I'm going to do after I fail out. i won't have anywhere to live and I won't be able to get a job. what's the point? why bother??? is it worth it??? | 2021-12-06T11:00:37.000Z | ra4r3m | 1 | 4 | ADHD | is it worth it? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4r3m/is_it_worth_it/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T10:55:34.000Z | ra4ny2 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I am trying to find work, but I feel like I am throwing paper towels in a wind tunnel. Any good tips and tricks to be more efficient? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4ny2/i_am_trying_to_find_work_but_i_feel_like_i_am/ |
Practical_Disk2987 | hello everyone
i've always considered myself well reserved and i keep my rudeness to myself,
but ever since i started my medication i became aggressive af
careless and rude, i sort of became Ricky Gervais from after life
i don't hate it, i'm comfortable with it, but i know for a fact if i stayed like this people are going to dislike me..
what do i do? | 2021-12-06T10:54:52.000Z | ra4nje | 3 | 2 | ADHD | aggressive and rude | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4nje/aggressive_and_rude/ |
AtypicalPeach | Hi there,
My whole life I've struggled with my memory. I'm in my 30's now- diagnosed with ADHD (and autism and complex trauma/ PTSD) and medicated with dex amphetamine. I am back at university now and I am struggling with taking large tests especially. Even though my focus has improved a lot since my meds, my memory hasn't at all. One moment I can learn a concept and really understand it and then an hour later it's gone like it's never happened. I can't remember anything.
What can I do to improve this? I am really struggling and wish I had a way to address this issue!
Thanks! | 2021-12-06T10:47:25.000Z | ra4jlk | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Working Memory- help | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4jlk/working_memory_help/ |
scopeno | Firstly, I'd like to just inform mods of this sub, i'm not trying to get any info from here instead of doctor, not going to use anything before speaking to him. Just note, I am from eastern europe country, that just left communism and my doctors can't really handle ADHD, not even speaking of anxiety. That's how it is here, I got one doctor approximately for 50 miles around my home, so please be forgiving.
So i have a big problem with social phobia and anxiety, mostly when i'm around people, so at school (i'm 18 and finishing this year). That's mainly due to my
big speech stuttering issues going on for a long time now. But that's also when I need my ADHD meds (using Cocerta or Ritalin, nothing other than that is avaible in my country. It would hit 135BPM constantly, just when on Ritalin and sitting on a class. Does any of you have the same issue with anxiety on ADHD meds that'a just being worse than it is normally, but also need the meds for ADHD? I really need some advice. Benzodiazepines are an option, but that's not how I can keep going for a long time, so I'm not sure what to do. | 2021-12-06T10:46:27.000Z | ra4j35 | 6 | 1 | ADHD | How do you manage anxiety while on stimulants? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4j35/how_do_you_manage_anxiety_while_on_stimulants/ |
Mr_Meseeks_NZ | Here goes.
(I've already spent appox an hour trying to type this out and the further along I get the messier it gets, before you start I need to let you know my ADHD is bad and what you're going to read is going to messy, and full of holes, and all over the place , I do apologise in advance, and am happy to answer any questions redditors may have)
My whole life I've been THAT kid.
That loud kid, nicknamed foghorn.
That hyperactive kid. Never sat still.
The disobedient kid.
The one that doesn't listen.
The black sheep.
The kid we need to keep an eye on. Or he'll end up in jail.
Now even with a team of school teachers trying to convince my parents I needed help, did I get help. And the reasons are this, (1) it is taboo if something is wrong with your child in the 90's "nothing is wrong with my child" mentality. (2) my father was a devout scientologist. And noone could convince him he was incorrect on anything. He was an intelligent man, but it was intelligence used in the wrong way.
I was also a very intelligent child, got some of the highest grades my primary school had ever seen in its 90 odd year run as a school. I competed in australasian maths and science competitions and received distinction as well as a high distinction awards for this.
As well as the teachers telling my parents there's something going on with me, they were also telling them of my achievements. And my parents pride seem to make it so they only paid attention to the positive comments, and dismissed the negatives as teachers being assholes. Even though at home I'm the same child they describe, except when living under the fear of beating from my father at any instance which I stepped out of line.
Because of the beating me and alcoholism , my dad lost custody of me to my mother. Might help to mention they were never together for as long as i could remember .
My grades went out the window .
I came to realise that living under the constant fear of being beaten was what was driving my grades, a subconscious want to Impress my father as well as a conscious want to not have my ass beat.
Intermediate school, I barely passed.
High school, I left at the first available chance. My Dean was quite happy to see the back side of me from what I could tell. I was mischief so I don't blame her.
After leaving school, I spend a couple years being a teenaged rebellious shithead, acting as I pleased, using drugs and just being a general idiot. Threiving, fighting and causing scenes to erupt in public for no reason other than to entertain myself were my specialties.
Fast forward to 16 and a half.
I have copped some youth charges and am being sent to boot camp (LSV BURNHAM CHCH). I want to mention this is the first time any form of mental health professional has had a chance to observe my behaviour.
3-4 days of being at boot camp, I'm being pulled aside, and a psychologist approaches me and asks me if anyones ever told me I might have ADHD. And then continued to offer me some medication, ritilin, that he thought would help me
Due to some stupid narrative that I created in my own head , partly due to my parents beliefs being what I thought was ultimately best, and a few other things regarding drug use, I denied the drugs and chose to continue as I was.
The narrative I had was, no one, not my friends not my family not anyone, had ever told me, that hey, insert my name, you might have something wrong with you and you need to figure it out. I was only ever given grossly negative feedback, coupled with constant reminders how smart I am and literally being told you cannot be that smart and have something wrong with you,
Fast forward to 19 years of age. I meet my partner of 10 years ann mother of my child. Fast forward 4 more years , my child is born. Enitre relationship with mither is chaotic and toxic. (We find out at the 9 year point that she was molested as a child and has ptsd that hasn't been dealt with since she was 8, she was 25 at this point) and coupled with me having adhd. Its nothing but a mess. We've both at one point or another lost custody of our child. Mother has gotten hers back, I haven't been so lucky.
Due to my struggles with the courts, and realising I need to buck my ideas up for my kids sake. I decided to try working on myself. One of the major major major hurdles they've presented me with, that I haven't been able to overcome . Is cannabis use. I've been using since 15. It has been my drug of choice ever since. Daily user since 18. Now 29. I also consume tobacco and A LOT of coffee .
I'm talking to the available drug councillors and other government issued help for people in my situation ( I don't earn much, I've had constant troubles holding a job, all jobs have been a max of 4 months at a time, except for one job that I work from home, online, which ive had for 3 years) and a couple of them mention ADHD/AUTISM.
Then it dawns on me. What the psychologist said to me all them years back, 12 years back, at the boot camp. He thought adhd. He wasa medical professional.
Heres my current problem, I went into get medical help for this November 2020, went though a couple mental health assessments that diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder. Now me being me, in my adulthood, I thrive on honesty, as a child I use to lie alot to try avoid getting beat, this evolved into a bad habit and then became a things that would happen as if I literally couldn't control it. Make up wild ass stories. Growing up I come to realise I entirely despise this behaviour and vouched to be the opposite, and I did. I've always taken this as the way to go, honesty is key.
So, I was completely honest with my doctor regarding my drug use history. I have nothing to hide. I know what I'm addicted to and have problems with. Cannabis. Tobacco. Caffeine. When I've used other drugs, its been out of complete boredom, being something that comes hand in hand with the black market for cannabis, and I need to say, I've never had any form of addiction problems with any other substances, except alcohol earlier this year due to being severely depressed in my self.
Due to my honesty , and my ability to articulate, I think I was marked down as a "drug seeker/drug user" and this has put a complete halt on my proper diagnoses that I desperately need done so I can get treatment for what is wrong with me.
I'm more that 120% convinced I have ADHD, I fit every criteria to a capital T.
When I started genuinely researching adhd around December 2020, it was like I was reading article after article after article, video after video after video that 150% felt like they were describing me and everything I deal with.
I've been on this sub reddit no more than a few days, and this is the most I've ever been able to say this period.
Why is the system treating me like this?
Over the past year have made countless phone calls and personal visits to ask about my follow ups or if I'm going to get to speak with someone about my adhd , only to get to September to be told that they can't find anything regarding me in the system RE help with ADHD. All that comes up is the anxiety diagnosis.
Oh also. I was prescribed SERTRALINE for my anxiety. Which after 4 or so months I stopped taking, it really helped the anxiety , but it exacerbated the innatentiveness and hyperactivity/inability to sit or stand still.
I've gotten to this point. I'm in tears , cause I'm angry.
I just want to be normal :( I just want some help with the mess that is my life.
Worst part of all this is over the past year I've pretty much done all the work for them, only to be brushed aside and literally forgotten about.
They sure remember you fast when you play up though right? | 2021-12-06T10:37:48.000Z | ra4ece | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Where do I even start, I need actual help. Any other N.Z's here that I could reach out to? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4ece/where_do_i_even_start_i_need_actual_help_any/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T10:36:12.000Z | ra4dib | 0 | 1 | ADHD | ADHD DISCORD TALK | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4dib/adhd_discord_talk/ |
PMInDevelopment | I used to spend hours perusing this reddit out of desperation for success stories about my constant battle with anxiety and inattentive ADHD. Then, finally, like some kind of miracle, the perfect meds combination arrived at my door. Zoloft and Dexedrine!
I can’t tell you the difference it is making in life. I would previously have described myself as “existing”. I got by, even had a decent enough job, but I found my work incredibly stressful, never had any energy, couldn’t concentrate enough to have any kind of hobby or personal interests, struggled desperately to be a good parent, couldn’t get out of bed, was always starting projects but never finishing them, lived in a world of indecision, found most things overwhelming and didn’t look after my body or mind. I spent years trying to get by but always struggling.
Then, after years of starting and stopping meds, and with the help of an incredible doctor here in Melbourne, I finally found my elixir. I’d taken Dexedrine before, along with Adderall and Vyvanse, but never had any luck as while I had some symptom relief, the anxiety was really problematic. Zoloft put an end to that. I also didn’t have the dosage right so it gave me insomnia.
The world suddenly feels like an oyster of opportunity. Hobbies, new clothes, getting fit, spending better quality time with my loved ones, seeing friends, playing sport. Where before everything was overwhelming, now my mind is calm enough that I can actually do it.
THANK YOU modern medicine ❤️ | 2021-12-06T10:28:21.000Z | ra49a7 | 6 | 6 | ADHD | Major Success Story! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra49a7/major_success_story/ |
yousirunkown | [removed] | 2021-12-06T10:25:56.000Z | ra47z8 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Giving thanks! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra47z8/giving_thanks/ |
troyjvv | So it's late at night and I'm listing to music right now and I just realized I can't even finish a song without skipping halfway through. And then when I think about it it's the same thing for tv series, books and even games I play. I haven't finished a game in at least 2 years now and I play a lot of games. Same for tv shows except for some sitcoms. Anyway does anyone else do this same thing? I genuinely do want to finish these things because I enjoy them but my attention span just doesn't work like that. Any tips or help on how do get things done that I've started would be appreciated. | 2021-12-06T10:21:26.000Z | ra45je | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Can you guys give me tips on how to finish things I've started | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra45je/can_you_guys_give_me_tips_on_how_to_finish_things/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T10:18:44.000Z | ra443b | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Am I the only one who can never finish anything? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra443b/am_i_the_only_one_who_can_never_finish_anything/ |
BeggeBerer | Hello
I am a 23 year old woman.
I've always felt.. different? I don't trust internet test, but I still take them. When I take a "ADHD adult" test, I'm in the high end. Yet I've never seeked help. I talked with my mom about it once, and she agree that I at home and in safe places, can be a bit "crazy" (her words). But since I never had any of the symptoms in school, "you must just be spoiled from home". (her again)
I am aware you guys can't tell me if I got the diagnosis or not. I just wanna hear, if any of you, with ADHD, were the teachers favorite student, but at home you were like the devil?
I'm not sure how to explain myself, I hope you understand my question. If not, feel free to ask
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I know I should talk with a doctor, but right now thats not possible cause of my anxeity
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Thank you | 2021-12-06T10:17:17.000Z | ra43a0 | 1 | 0 | ADHD | my mom says im just spoiled | 0.33 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra43a0/my_mom_says_im_just_spoiled/ |
Moonlight_347 | I’m a 20 yr old woman with ADHD. I didn’t know until now but I’ve always felt like I couldn’t be in a relationship. My cousins joke saying they couldn’t see me in one either.
I’m the inattentive type. I’m a very attractive, sweet girl and people who don’t know the real me don’t see how I haven’t been in one (my shyness hides it). I just feel the other party will feel like they’re raising a child. This hurts me. I’m so young and beautiful and yes I want to fall in love. | 2021-12-06T10:16:55.000Z | ra4331 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Can I have a healthy relationship with ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra4331/can_i_have_a_healthy_relationship_with_adhd/ |
troyjvv | [removed] | 2021-12-06T10:16:17.000Z | ra42qm | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Does anyone have else have problems with finishing things? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra42qm/does_anyone_have_else_have_problems_with/ |
RYW93 | Hey!
Can't seem to find anything about this on Google and struggling to get through to the mental health services to ask.
I take 30mg of Elvanse and have done since September, they've been amazing and have changed my life for the better! I also take 50mg Sertraline for anxiety and depression. I've been taking this for several years. I've never noticed any interaction between the two, just that I can manage my life so much better.
So today, completely out of the blue I felt like I HAD to throw up. Just about made it to the toilets in work (where everyone could hear 😅) but nothing came up thankfully. My stomach feels like it's spinning still.
I took my meds late yesterday (11am) as I slept in, and took them today at 8am. Does anyone think this may have caused it or had any experience with this? No change in what I'd usually eat or drink and not feeling unwell at all. Usually if I was unwell it wouldn't come on this suddenly.
Sorry for the long post, just feeling a bit worried and I have no ADHD friends to ask. Thanks! | 2021-12-06T10:03:16.000Z | ra3vlx | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Vomiting/Nausea on Elvanse/Vyvanse? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3vlx/vomitingnausea_on_elvansevyvanse/ |
laylaayleen | I am an engineering student and I should've graduated already but I couldn't. I was diagnosed with ADHD a few years ago and I prescribed Concerta but I can't get my life together and graduate. I am very hyped up about studying and being productive every day but I never achieve that. I hate that because I am not wasting my days because I am lazy, I just can't do anything I literally feel pain for doing nothing but I still can't change myself. Usually, I don't even realize I waste my all-time, and even the times I am aware of I'm wasting my time I still can't do anything. I don't know how it is possible, I should just start studying and that's all, it sounds very easy but I can't. Are there any tips for someone like me? | 2021-12-06T09:47:38.000Z | ra3n1t | 7 | 26 | ADHD | I get very hyped up for spending my day productive but I end up doing nothing every time, what should I do? | 0.97 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3n1t/i_get_very_hyped_up_for_spending_my_day/ |
Dapper-Catch7596 | So I've recently picked up chess and I suck at it. Like really bad, I've been playing consistently for a few weeks but I still just drift around 400 - 500. So chess has made me realise I'm really bad at paying attention to details. I will often times forget that existing opposing pieces are defending a particular area and just straight up donate my pieces. Then there are other times where I get so caught up on setting up my pieces for an attack that I forget to pay attention to the opposition and get checkmated by their own attack. and because I'm playing lower ranks, it isn't like a I couldn't recognise the checkmate situation. Its actually painfully obvious but I literally just forgot that I had to pay attention to whatever the opponent was doing. Anybody else find it hard to play chess? | 2021-12-06T09:45:49.000Z | ra3m6h | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Anybody struggles with chess? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3m6h/anybody_struggles_with_chess/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T09:44:57.000Z | ra3lqz | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I really thought this time things would be different this time. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3lqz/i_really_thought_this_time_things_would_be/ |
littlebunny8 | [removed] | 2021-12-06T09:38:32.000Z | ra3igz | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Pregabalin / Lyrica helping with ADHD symptoms - is this ADHD or just anxiety? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3igz/pregabalin_lyrica_helping_with_adhd_symptoms_is/ |
wishfulkiwi | Hey guys, I'm 27, diagnosed and take Ritalin. I find the Ritalin somewhat helpful but it's definitely not lifechanging, it's more of a small boost and I often don't feel like taking it to be honest. I find that it aids me with things that I'm already good at but doesn't help with my weaknesses much at all, if that makes any sense. For example, I'm fairly proficient working with spreadsheets, of course I procrastinate and the Ritalin can give me a boost there but with my emotional weaknesses, such as social interactions, building and maintaining relationships, general lack of apathy (depression/anhedonia) it does not move the needle.
I am an extremely rigid person, I hate small changes in my life. For example, if I have an upcoming appointment I'll think about it all week and on the day of the appointment I won't be able to do anything until the appointment is over with. I know this is a fairly common issue here. I also feel very uncomfortable about going to unfamiliar places and I do not like staying away from my home. Some of this is social anxiety. The only friends I have are friends I made at high school, I still live with my parents and I'm terrified to move out, as much as I want to be independent. People around me are growing up, moving on and my life stays much the same; safe and boring.
Sometimes I try to tell myself that missing out on relationships, travelling and having a functional social life is a benefit because I can focus on work and save money but every once in awhile I have a realisation that I'm missing out on a lot of good things in life. Over the weekend I went to a party and I took a certain illicit drug. I felt so human, I had amazing conversations with so many people and made so many friends but I'll not talk to them again until the next time I see them at a party because I put this massive wall up when I'm sober. The thought of talking to those people sober scares the shit out of me. I hope I am allowed to mention drug use without getting banned, I am no way trying to glorify it; only trying to share my story and seek ***sustainable*** solutions.
This brings me to the SSRI question; I figure a boost in serotonin might be what is needed. I have never tried an SSRI and some of the side effects as well as the adverse reactions some have scare me a bit. Has anyone had a positive experience taking an SSRI with a stimulant? And what SSRI did you take?
Thanks :) | 2021-12-06T09:31:11.000Z | ra3eo4 | 4 | 1 | ADHD | A story about my troubles and a question about Stimulants & SSRIs | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3eo4/a_story_about_my_troubles_and_a_question_about/ |
Lueylue | [removed] | 2021-12-06T09:26:50.000Z | ra3cb9 | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Generic medication with Zydus | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3cb9/generic_medication_with_zydus/ |
wishfulkiwi | [removed] | 2021-12-06T09:25:44.000Z | ra3bpd | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Has anyone had success with Stimulants AND SSRIs? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra3bpd/has_anyone_had_success_with_stimulants_and_ssris/ |
Kumokou | Hi there
I got my ADHD diagnosis last Wednesday and it opens my eyes. After long years of trying and troubles, I know, Why I am like this and helps me a bit to understand me.
But now, I could cry. The reason is I have a lot going on:
One reason is that I have an hourly wage employment contract (I really had a hard time to find a normal workplace…) and some things are not perfect(I mean nobody is perfect). My partner told me I should mention this thing: Like mask on work place, My days at work or when I got a fulltime position etc.
The are really reasonable things, but I can‘t communicate this. Mainly I am really afraid, that I would get scold or fired…
Some other reason are Christmas is near, I should do some cleaning, doing groceries list etc.
It‘s just, every time when I have so much around, I feel overwhelmed and my emotions are like a roller coaster. Then I also feel so tired and restless. The problem thing is, I am feeling still like on the run and I needed to this thing as soon a possible or instant.
Now, I want to ask: How are you coping with stress ? Because these situations makes me always so tired…
Also sorry for that vent. I really don‘t want bother someone.
Edit: Corrected some grammar mistakes. | 2021-12-06T09:19:59.000Z | ra38ll | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Why I am like this… I wish, I could be more stable in „stressful times“… | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra38ll/why_i_am_like_this_i_wish_i_could_be_more_stable/ |
Reasonable-Act1871 | I started seeing a psychiatrist about my depression in January last year, and was eventually diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 35. After being diagnosed, I researched symptoms of ADHD and was surprised when I realized that I had about 90% of the symptoms I was reading about. I started taking medication(adderall) shortly after, and couldn't believe how much it actually helped. It lifted my depression, as well as giving me a feeling of focus and motivation that I had never experienced. It was like there were these dark clouds surrounding my brain all my life, but the medication made the clouds dissipate and I could all of a sudden see clearly for a few hours out of my day.
I've been taking the medication for almost 2 years now, and it's definitely not as effective as when I first started taking it. There are times that I won't take it on days I don't work, and I feel this intense brain fog that hits me later that evening. Sometimes that I feel like stopping it all together, but I'm also scared that I would remain in that brain fog state for good if I did. I can't remember if that's just how I normally felt without medication.
My whole life I've been told that I'm either lazy, stupid, inattentive, or just impulsive because I'm seeking attention. It's to the point that I don't even know if any of these are the case myself, or if it's because I have ADHD. I hate using my ADHD as an 'excuse', but that's how I've been conditioned to think my whole life and it's causing my depression to come back. As the title states, how do I explain to people that I'm not trying to make excuses? Or am i?... I just don't know anymore.. | 2021-12-06T09:09:46.000Z | ra333m | 4 | 3 | ADHD | How do I explain to people that I'm not trying to make excuses? | 0.81 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra333m/how_do_i_explain_to_people_that_im_not_trying_to/ |
Curious-Leg2486 | [removed] | 2021-12-06T09:09:21.000Z | ra32v1 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | ADHD person can be Bisexual? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra32v1/adhd_person_can_be_bisexual/ |
Infamous-Ad-3493 | [removed] | 2021-12-06T09:03:46.000Z | ra2zxo | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Should i go get diagnosed? | 0.66 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2zxo/should_i_go_get_diagnosed/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T08:57:37.000Z | ra2wgm | 0 | 1 | ADHD | I’m a bit desperate now for something to shut my mind up! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2wgm/im_a_bit_desperate_now_for_something_to_shut_my/ |
Plethargic | [removed] | 2021-12-06T08:51:51.000Z | ra2th3 | 2 | 0 | ADHD | Michael Scott (from The Office) and ADHD | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2th3/michael_scott_from_the_office_and_adhd/ |
i_am_cow1 | Hey all, I have known I have ADHD for a long time now and I’ve been struggling with it a lot, I can’t focus, I can’t remember what I had for my last meal let alone what last lecture was about. I have been struggling in school for a long time now since high school it’s been a constant downwards path and for a while I was convinced I was just stupid, and not built for school. I have been programming in various languages since I was 10 and I really really want to pursue it as a career and I just can’t do school. My parents will not let me get tested let alone get the pills I need. I’ve been begging them for years and at this point I don’t know what to do, I’m throwing my future down the drain failing for 1.5 years now. No matter how hard I try I just can’t | 2021-12-06T08:51:11.000Z | ra2t3x | 1 | 0 | ADHD | Advice on what to do with strict parents | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2t3x/advice_on_what_to_do_with_strict_parents/ |
bzoooop | The low down: Had to fly to a different state than my prescribing doctor last-minute. Ran out of pills. State laws prohibit filling of schedule II narcotics prescribed from out of state. Been without meds since Friday. Won’t have them again til Wednesday. Lightly dying!
I know it’s nothing compared to opioid or benzo or alcohol withdrawals, but there’s nothing like an unexpected Adderall WD to make you feel like a total fiend and not a person who honestly needs this substance to perform tasks.
I’m crazy lethargic yet can’t sleep, antisocial, sick to my stomach, flu-like symptoms, muscles are oddly sore, headache, exhausted, depressed, twitchy, every task feels like I’m pushing a boulder up a hill, etc.
If anyone has any advice on how to get through this (and be able to power through working for the next few days), I welcome it!!
TLDR; accidentally forced off my meds for a week. I have surprisingly strong WD symptoms.
EDIT: oh, just to clarify, I’m really truly not abusing my prescription or anything. I just take one 10mg XR usually :) | 2021-12-06T08:50:25.000Z | ra2src | 3 | 0 | ADHD | Unwanted cold-turkey withdrawals. 0/10 cannot recommend!!! | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2src/unwanted_coldturkey_withdrawals_010_cannot/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T08:47:17.000Z | ra2r90 | 3 | 0 | ADHD | Any Police Officers with ADHD out there? | 0.38 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2r90/any_police_officers_with_adhd_out_there/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T08:41:17.000Z | ra2o8l | 3 | 3 | ADHD | Accepting that I have ADHD | 0.81 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2o8l/accepting_that_i_have_adhd/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T08:38:25.000Z | ra2mta | 1 | 0 | ADHD | [RANT] Double-sided papers stapled to the top-left are the worst | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2mta/rant_doublesided_papers_stapled_to_the_topleft/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T08:38:00.000Z | ra2ml0 | 2 | 1 | ADHD | ADHD Denial 33F Takes Meds | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2ml0/adhd_denial_33f_takes_meds/ |
Dragoshadow | This isn't ADHD I think, but I was diagnosed recently, and Idk where else to post.
TL;DR, Emotions rub off on me really easily, but I'm used to having very little emotion. Wondering why, and how to fix it.
Recently I've realized that however someone else I'm near often responds to something, I eventually react similarly. I used to be incapable of rage, but now I'm mimicking it. The emotion is there, but I'm confused by it. Same with jealousy, recognizing unfairness, and being giddy. They always present themselves in a way identical to whoever I picked it up from. It's very weird and I don't like it. I didn't used to have any strong emotions, and that was better. Why is this happening? I'm wondering if it has something to do with how I consciously analyze data from people to better fit socially and find behavioral patterns? Have I gone too far and now the fitting in is automated? How do I make this stop, is there only just backing away from people for a while, waiting for a reversion to kick in? Please help. | 2021-12-06T08:36:18.000Z | ra2lpi | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Why do I unconsciously mimic emotions? | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2lpi/why_do_i_unconsciously_mimic_emotions/ |
Nabster56 | I don't know how or why, was well a sleep but 45 min ago I woke up because I forgot to plug my Electric car. My wife will use it today, and even if there is enough "charge" my ADHD brain forced me to go down, check it and plug it in, went through a window to not awake the children. So now i'm in bed, fully awake, knowing perfectly that I'll be a zombie later on !! Dog was happy to see me at least 😁 | 2021-12-06T08:35:53.000Z | ra2lhb | 6 | 8 | ADHD | It's 4 am and my brain doesn't want me to sleep anymore | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2lhb/its_4_am_and_my_brain_doesnt_want_me_to_sleep/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T08:30:42.000Z | ra2ity | 0 | 0 | ADHD | It's 12:30 AM. I have, once again, taken my magnesium, drank some tart cherry juice, and eaten some crushed lavender flowers. You know, since the melatonin and valerian root extract don't do anything anymore. I'm sure I'll be sleepy soon right? | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2ity/its_1230_am_i_have_once_again_taken_my_magnesium/ |
fiercefantasia1001 | Basically, I had my first ever visit with a psychiatrist last week. They diagnosed me with PTSD, depression, and anxiety. However, I really do think I have a problem with ADHD. Multiple therapists in the past have suggested that they think I have it, and I have basically all of the symptoms for ADHD. When I mentioned this to the psych, they just wrote it off as a mix of depression and anxiety, since "I made good grades in high school, so there is no way you have ADHD". However, I have been dealing with the issues related to ADHD my entire life and I am so tired of interrupting people, not being able to be still, have racing thoughts 24/7, memory problems, difficulty concentrating, and so much more. Should I go to a different psychiatrist for an ADHD test/ evaluation? | 2021-12-06T08:24:28.000Z | ra2fij | 2 | 3 | ADHD | Psychiatrist seems reluctant | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2fij/psychiatrist_seems_reluctant/ |
RedPanda_13_ | I figured I'd post this reminder, as I myself really needed one.
I've just gone down the rabbit hole on ADHD research once again, but this time I started by following the links on this reddit wiki instead of starting by googling. For those of you who haven't done it, I **really** recommend taking the time to go down this research path and understand this diagnosis better.
Understanding what is really going on, and what really is happening in your brain to cause these symptoms, helps with accepting it and treating it. Some days it is **so hard** to live with this diagnosis, and the self bias is something you need to work on combating almost every day. So let's get into the reminders.
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Forgive yourself
\- for forgetting to book that appointment
\- for forgetting to bring that thing to whatever you were doing
\- for getting distracted by something extremely silly again
\- for letting your emotions get the better of you once again
\- for not being able to get started even if you really really meant to do it
\- for letting things become a mess around you
Forgive yourself for these things. I am not saying that you should stop trying to work on these things, but you should understand that they will happen, and so you need to forgive yourself for when they do.
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Love yourself
It is way too easy to go down the path of hating yourself for being unable to do things that everyone else seems to have no struggles with. This hate can be so all consuming that you suddenly can't see anything good about yourself anymore. Learn to love yourself even with your disability.
However you choose to go about this, please, do not forget to actively apply it every single day!
If you struggle with remembering the good things when you are feeling down, write a list! List out all the good things about you! Preferably include a few things you like about your ADHD!
If you can't make this list then set a goal to try to write down one thing every day. If you can't, then that is fine, but you need to make the effort to love yourself.
Personally I've also set the goal that I should be open about this diagnosis to everyone. Friends, family, work. The reason is simply that I had the feeling that hiding it or only being open about it to a select few people would only bring me more shame. For me this helps, a lot, even if most people don't understand it fully or even at all. So if you feel safe in doing so, and you know you have people to support you in being open, I recommend doing so too.
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Do. Your. Research.
Knowledge is power. Understanding what this diagnosis is, what is happening in your brain and what misconceptions are out there helps with as good as everything.
Understanding what it is and what it does to someone helps in managing it.
Having the knowledge about how it works and where you found it makes it easier to explain your issues to your peers.
Knowing the misconceptions about it, and why they're not true, helps you with forgiving others for expecting the wrong things from you and helps you confront these misconceptions.
**TLDR**
As simple as the title. Forgive yourself for your mistakes, but keep working on them. Love yourself and don't let yourself spiral into self hate. Do your research on the diagnosis, thoroughly. | 2021-12-06T08:23:21.000Z | ra2ews | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Reminder to forgive yourself, love yourself and to do your research. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2ews/reminder_to_forgive_yourself_love_yourself_and_to/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T08:18:05.000Z | ra2c1i | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I was diagnosed with ADD today and prescribed dexamphetamine. I’m concerned about taking this medication - can some people give me some experiences, good and bad, so I can understand the medication a little better? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2c1i/i_was_diagnosed_with_add_today_and_prescribed/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-06T08:17:09.000Z | ra2bhu | 1 | 9 | ADHD | Hell Week Starts Today… | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra2bhu/hell_week_starts_today/ |
DustyLemonTree | When I recently got diagnosed with ADHD, I felt slight hesitation from the psychiatrist as if they thought everything is just from undiagnosed anxiety and depression. I've suffered with awful mental health for over 12 year with no support and in our assessment we spoke more about my depressive symptoms rather than the ADHD symptoms from both adulthood and childhood despite it being only an ADHD assessment.
I felt like I didn't get to talk about the symptoms I wanted to. I still got diagnosed with combined type ADHD (their decision I didn't try and convince anything because I was scared of altering the outcome and not getting an accurate diagnosis in terms of whether I have ADHD or not).
I also was offered the choice of either antidepressants/anti anxiety medication or ADHD medication too. I just feel like it wasn't a confident diagnosis and it's left me feeling hesitant to accept the ADHD diagnosis although I've spent so much time trying to get an assessment.
So is there really a way to tell the difference between depression symptoms that present like ADHD or ADHD that has been undiagnosed till adulthood and caused an early onset of depression?
I'm female as well so I don't know if that plays into how my mental health has presented itself too.
Also, does anyone have any experience with having a diagnosis that seemed hesitant?
Thank you in advance | 2021-12-06T08:12:51.000Z | ra294y | 4 | 7 | ADHD | Is there a way to really tell whether your symptoms stem from depression and anxiety or if you do really have ADHD? | 0.9 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra294y/is_there_a_way_to_really_tell_whether_your/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T08:12:05.000Z | ra28pn | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Advice needed | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra28pn/advice_needed/ |
crisukisu | Hey peeps!
I have read about several people experiencing this phenomenon with food. That you want to eat the same thing for weeks in a row and then all of a sudden, you're just over it.
I was wondering if there are more people out there, that have the same experience with clothing? For me, it's most noticable with winter clothing. Eg, this season I just don't want to wear a proper jacket and instead, I'm wrapping myself in layers of wool, even when it's a little raining. Other years, I would exclusively wear skirts with thick thighs just for the next season to not care about the effort anymore. Or a specific scarf. Or leggings with shorts. Just something that kinda sticks with me for 95% of days for a given season, and then won't make a return in the next years.
It's also nothing that is particularly fashionable (nor necessarily something newly purchased), it's just whatever my brain fixates on any particular season.
I'm looking forward to hear if you have some similar quirks. :) | 2021-12-06T08:09:21.000Z | ra279v | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Clothing preferences - one things one season and then never again | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra279v/clothing_preferences_one_things_one_season_and/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-06T08:03:30.000Z | ra241l | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Paper due tomorrow and need your help | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra241l/paper_due_tomorrow_and_need_your_help/ |
livefrom_anonymous | This is awful; yet great. I am someone who has recently gotten really excited about someone but it is clearly effecting my productivity. I do a lot in order to mitigate the effects of adhd with medication, meditation and exercise. I live for finding focus; I love feeling productive after feeling miserable and distracted for so many years.
The problem is that this woman has hijacked my brain. It feels like she is good for me but I cannot control how much I think about her and gravitate towards her(and my phone)
It’s a paradox really. I’m at a point in my life where this should be a good thing, and should enjoy this. Yet I hate how unfocused and frankly dumb being with her makes me. It’s nothing that she is doing. She’s great. Why does her being great have to be a problem!!!!
How do you get through the beginning part of a relationship that is exciting? What are some signs that the relationship itself is not good for me? I feel unproductive. I think I’m letting things slip. | 2021-12-06T08:03:00.000Z | ra23rb | 6 | 2 | ADHD | How Do You Get Through The Beginning Of A Relationship? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra23rb/how_do_you_get_through_the_beginning_of_a/ |
TactlessCat | I'm medicated so I can definitely buckle down for a good 3 hours a day. I've got a 6 page (double-spaced) final paper due in a week and I'm pretty comfortable with the subject matter. I'm at that weird crux where I feel like it's going to be easy to write so I have no driving force compelling me to complete it sooner than the day it is due. If you understand what I'm talking about I'm super-interested in seeing your comments and reading about your experiences. | 2021-12-06T08:02:34.000Z | ra23j5 | 10 | 6 | ADHD | Dear degree-holding ADHD'ers... what is the ratio of page count vs. quality vs. time we can produce regarding writing assignments? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/ra23j5/dear_degreeholding_adhders_what_is_the_ratio_of/ |
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