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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hh2av3/i_need_medication/ | jjayez | I need medication. Every fucking day I think about ending it all, I have no talents, I'm failing in school, I'm failing my parents, I have no friends who actually like me, no one will ever truly love me and be able to fix me. And I won't be able to fix myself. I just want to feel calm for once | 2 | 1,734,530,794 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbja0e/i_feel_it_wasnt_real/ | jjjust_a_rant | I feel it wasn't real I attempted today, twice. Both times when I couldn't breathe (hanging) I stopped, I feel like they weren't actual attempts, I wanted to die, I was also somewhat scared since my friends kept texting me since I sent a cryptic “I love you” text to them (they know I have these thoughts).
I guess what I'm asking is, is the two attempts actual attempts that I can call attempts, or not? | 6 | 1,733,884,273 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9u9is/things_i_can_do/ | jkraft- | things I can do? I'm not in immediate danger but that could change on a whim. I'm feeling really like ending it. but I also don't want to. but I don't know what to do with myself instead. I have procreate and paint and clay and yarn but no ideas and I just need a distraction of some sort please. something independent and inside my house. I just don't want to think about this anymore. | 2 | 1,733,695,844 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5u2em/i_feel_like_ive_been_dying_for_years/ | jojoneverexisted | I feel like I've been dying for years It's so hard to do anything anymore. I feel like I've been dying for years, maintaining this body anyway I can when my mind is already in the ground. I turn 25 soon, I feel like all these years, hanging on, have been such a waste. I wish things were different and better and I had a reason to live but I don't. Nothing brings me joy anymore, it's only fleeting, I feel like a ghost. I just want to disappear, and then I'll only disappoint everyone one last time. | 1 | 1,733,249,948 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcu9eb/losing_faith/ | josephnectarios | Losing faith My Eastern Orthodoxy is the only reason why I haven't done it, I converted because of logical observation, but having doubts. There are some things which will make it very hard for me to lose faith but if I do. I will kill myself short and simple, no point in any of it. | 2 | 1,734,034,692 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkd7zn/the_you_are_not_alone_discourse_is_complete_and/ | joycesMachine | The "You are not alone" discourse is complete and utter bullshit Yes, i am alone. | 0 | 1,734,918,276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4qj9p/help_e/ | judas_art | Help .e I do not know what todk | 0 | 1,733,128,563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he3r49/am_feeling_suicidal_over_roach_infestation/ | kala120 | Am feeling suicidal over roach infestation Hi everyone I had to deal with a roach infestation in my college apartment and it drives me nuts to this day. I'm still scared of the stove etc. and it freaks me out what they were doing at night because they are nocturnal. TIA. I also worked in foodservice at the time and discovered how unsanitary they are. | 0 | 1,734,185,730 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6gj45/i_wanna_kill_myself/ | kami_is_silly | i wanna kill myself i dont know anymore. my best friend is suicidal and has cancer, my other friend is replacing me and my boyfriend is distancing himself. and i relapsed after a year. | 2 | 1,733,320,473 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlx3st/ive_never_felt_so_alone_and_defeated/ | karaaaa04 | I've never felt so alone and defeated In November I lost my mom and another close person to me 3 weeks apart, and in June I had a miscarriage. Now that both funerals are over I'm letting myself be paralyzed with grief. I wish I can sleep the entire day away so I don't have to think about how I feel or eat. At the moment it's a chore to even breathe, im seriously considering checking myself into some hospital because I feel like I'm having auditory hallucinations of my mother talking, I feel scared and alone this Christmas. I don't have anyone to talk about this to, I hope it makes some sense and thank you if you read this | 1 | 1,735,116,465 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlc64u/i_just_want_to_die/ | kersdafiends | I just want to die No point anymore. I thought eating might change my mood and thoughts but no. I'm full and still feel empty. All people cheering and being happy because of holidays, I hear them sing and dance but I cant relate, my world is ending. I think of shoving a knife to my neck all the damn time but my fear of surviving that is immense. I'm just so tired of pretending to like being alive. All I want is to sleep and never ever wake up again. | 2 | 1,735,041,692 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg0lxi/im_sick_of_being_unlovable_theres_no_use_living/ | keyeater9000 | I'm sick of being unlovable. There's no use living like this. I'm too fucked up. I'm barely a person. I can't be real because I'm ruled by fear. My appearance is fine and people think I'm funny and easygoing but I'm completely hollow.
I'm sick of being alone. It's horrible.
There's nothing I can do to suppress my feelings. I don't see any escape other than suicide. Why stay where you aren't needed anyway? | 2 | 1,734,402,862 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg6o0n/want_to_kill_myself_after_christmas/ | keywestkitten00 | Want to kill myself after christmas Title | 2 | 1,734,426,061 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpull2/death_is_inevitable/ | krazy22 | Death is inevitable I postponed my suicide due to my cat of 8 1/2 years getting out. It's been 3 1/2 weeks and I still haven't found her. My will to live was gone three months ago. I'm fighting for a life I no longer wanna live I lost my insurance. I can't see my therapist. I haven't taken my meds. I'd rather just do drugs and overdose. I've searched the most effective ways. I got my nails done if my eye eyelashes it's weird. I'm getting ready for my own funeral. | 5 | 1,735,585,284 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpblhx/why_so_so_empty/ | kreiosvasu | why so, so empty? i reject medication and therapy. i dont wish to become someone hopping from one drug to another to cure me. it will not help this hollowness inside. it's something i cant explain. there's nothing wrong really. nothing to worry about. i have a family, but since i was young ive always felt this deep sadness. and it's since been worse. ive become so dead. i cant focus or figure things out. i dont really have passions or hobbies to fill my time. the curtain's come down. i'm just not normal. i wish it was over. | 1 | 1,735,522,276 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha9530/thinking_about_leaving/ | l1lz__ | Thinking about leaving I'm 16 and in college, i'm studying so i can go to university and become a barrister, but i dont have the motivation anymore. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was 12. I'm struggling to find reasons to live. I have 3 pets of my own, and I'm starting to not care about what happens to them if I'd leave. I have five siblings, two sisters in laws and my mum and dad. I love them, yet I don't feel selfish if I were to take my life. Every day, I write about my day and I haven't been doing it for months now. I don't have the motivation to keep up. | 2 | 1,733,749,117 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmel2w/help_me/ | lechku_and_nechku2 | HELP ME So once I was a happy person until I realized that 1 single character made me impatient This caused me to leave the deltarune fandom, harass Toby Fox for a leak attempt and if someone says I don't care then I F*** them
WHY DID I GET SO MAD AT PEOPLE BLOCKING ME THAT I TO BLOCK
THEM BACK
WHY CANT I BE GOOD
WHY DID SEBASS87 EVEN ABUSE HIS
GIRLFRIEND (he makes my singing monsters stuff)
WHY DO I EVEN EXIST
I JUST WANT TO KILL MYSELF PLEASE
So yeah that's it | 2 | 1,735,179,285 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnw4jc/nothing_helps/ | leenybear123 | Nothing Helps It's been 25 years of daily wishing I was dead. I've tried everything. Nothing helps. Why do I have to keep suffering because we've decided everyone needs to live? I've done everything this life has to offer and it's all been clouded by despair and self-loathing. Doctors have told me I'm out of new options. Why do I have to continue suffering? | 2 | 1,735,354,397 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3vb64/jumping_off_humber_bridge_tmr/ | liblo998 | jumping off humber bridge tmr i don't see another way out. i hope i die on impact and don't slowly drown | 5 | 1,733,027,878 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5yu4i/im_done_doing_this/ | lilB-may | I'm done doing this Sick of living this day to day bull, everyday it's work sleep, sleep work. Work is horrible, im horrible at it, but I'm stuck due to my father being a boss. Ive completely trapped myself and there isn't any way out besides killing myself. Ive been ready for this since I was 11, I'm done with this shit. I hate it, I hate my coworkers, I hate this shitty campus I work on. Its all garbage doing things for people that won't give two shits when I do end it. Fuck all these people. | 2 | 1,733,261,602 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkfyr0/bf_prob_leaving_me_soon_because_im_too_mentally/ | lilscorpiooo | Bf prob leaving me soon because I'm too mentally ill Always stressed, always having a new ocd rumination, always something to be sad about. I hate my job and the career I chose for myself. I just want to end my fucking life. | 2 | 1,734,927,848 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf55ax/im_so_lonely_and_i_dont_wanna_live_like_this/ | littletrainwreck | i'm so lonely and i don't wanna live like this 17 moved into my own college apartment i'm so lonely everyday my partner lives across the country and all i do is smoke weed because i don't know what else to do. im broke and in school and my mom helps me pay for stuff and i miss living with her but my dad is abusive and im scared of my sibling who is getting out of prison soon. i feel like a lil kid and i don't know how to take care of myself i need to be held | 0 | 1,734,304,456 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmvtul/genuinly_cant_wait_to_die_i_have_nohing_to_live/ | livinginlowercase | genuinly cant wait to die i have nohing to live for . | 1 | 1,735,241,188 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdzhgh/sometimes_i_wanna_drink_the_koolaid_with_someone/ | loofsdrawkcab | sometimes I wanna drink the koolaid with someone I love drift off together. I hate how all of these things I don't even want to contribute to slowly become me more and more. everything i thought i was too smart for as a kid, not realizing how much of me was just circumstance. so arrogant. | 0 | 1,734,168,765 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hphf5j/can_i_talk_to_someone/ | lordbunnyton | Can I talk to someone Please | 0 | 1,735,541,648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h73jf6/im_so_tired/ | lost-all-hope-man | I'm so tired I'm so tired. Yet I haven't slept in so long. I'm a coward for not ending it all. | 1 | 1,733,382,733 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ck8n/i_have_a_plan/ | loutredecombat1 | i have a plan ill spend one last weekend with my bf and then i'm out of there. i already got it figured out. AMA. | 5 | 1,733,191,682 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmw3ro/am_i_decayed_and_irresponsible_if_i_have_due/ | low799 | Am I decayed and irresponsible if I have due things 4 years ago I can't suicide but I want to. | 2 | 1,735,241,925 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjjpuk/death_benefits/ | luckymoney777 | Death benefits? I have a regular job and no assets is there a way my child can receive benefits from my death? What do I need to do to make sure she gets it and not fucked over? | 0 | 1,734,816,778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h73lnu/what_else_is_there/ | luke5m17h | What else is there Hi this is my first post on reddit I've never been on here before but I was using Google to see if there was any chats for people that are thinking about suicide and this came up. I'm a 26 year old that is thinking of ending it life is just becoming to much with day to day struggles of long term depression and anxiety along with other issues that are happening and I just don't know what to do anymore. People always say life gets better but I've been told that for so long I've just given up on hope. I just don't want to be in pain anymore | 2 | 1,733,382,985 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hok3ny/im_feeling_helpless/ | lux_of_capricorn | I'm feeling helpless A friend of mine came message be and they said their goodbyes. I try taking to them but now they stop answering. They are online friend been taking to them about a year. I thought they were better but things gotten worse for them. It hurts, why can't I help. Why are my words not good enough. Why does it have to be like this all the time. It just hurts, it hurts seeing people in pain and no matter what I do it's never helps. | 0 | 1,735,433,664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg3w9v/i_literally_ruined_the_one_relationship_where/ | lyfeIine | I literally ruined the one relationship where someone actually somewhat cared for me I broke up with this guy and he was the only thing that made me somewhat happy and he wasn't even physically attracted to me because I could just sense unfaithfulness off of him and right when we broke up all of his likes turned into people that don't even look like me at all | 0 | 1,734,414,065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmbgrg/dont_want_to_live_but_dont_have_the_courage_to/ | m-ara_ | Don't want to live but don't have the courage to die either Life feels so sickening. Although I try so hard to be the "better" person, how does it all matter at the end of the day? When you see people with 'worse' habits than you get forward far more effortlessly. And on top of all being understood and received. While i lay here completely exhausted of all my mental strength.
| 1 | 1,735,168,763 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9yzfi/i_dont_want_to_be_here_anymore/ | machinegunwife | I don't want to be here anymore I'm tired of getting hurt. Why do I have to go through this again and again? | 1 | 1,733,709,722 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha1olx/drunk_and_struggling/ | makemeworse000 | drunk and struggling even though I had a “good day” technically, im still struggling so much, got drunk and in my feelings about all the bullshit that happened to me as a kid, but besides that I have suicidal ideation everyday anyway. I'm so fucked up man no one even gets its. I don't even get it. Never felt like I was meant to be in this world🙃 I just think suicide is inevitable for me :/ | 2 | 1,733,718,593 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcu2i8/thought_after_a_fight/ | mamacitaesp | Thought after a fight Hi everyone, I have been having sort of suicidal thoughts after having a fight with my partner. Nothing too severe but its been getting more and more. Does anyone have an explanation for this? | 2 | 1,734,034,190 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1helc5x/almost_did_it_yesterday_survived_and_now_i_feel/ | mandateofhell | Almost did it yesterday. Survived and now I feel nothing but guilt. I feel like everyone is secretly mad at me. I feel like it's wrong for me to laugh today and have fun because yesterday I put everyone through hell. I feel like none of it is real and that I'm the worst person in the world. I feel a lot of adrenaline and almost happy, but also horribly miserable.
What the fuck is wrong with me. Did I make a mistake? Will my girlfriend and brother and everyone else never see me the same way again? Jesus Christ. | 6 | 1,734,238,591 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hejdg6/is_there_a_way_of_overcoming_this_tw/ | marzipan_minx | is there a way of overcoming this? (tw) I so badly want to end it all. I feel like a burden to everyone around me. i was dropped by my therapist and left unmedicated for depression. i feel unwanted by my partner and just wish it could all be over and not have to worry about anything ever again.
sorry this is rushed i am new to reddit and not sure how much i should elaborate on things | 2 | 1,734,231,467 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5qw2g/my_two_options_are_suffer_or_destroy_my_family/ | max0003 | My two options are suffer or destroy my family It's an impossible decision | 2 | 1,733,241,982 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpi9on/wanna_kill_myself_early_enough_for_it_to_be/ | meielovesu | wanna kill myself early enough for it to be considered a tragedy still counting down (few more years left) and wrote about 13 good bye notes so far. feeling good. ^^ | 6 | 1,735,545,178 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4oez2/can_someone_talk_to_me_please/ | mentally-unstabl | Can someone talk to me please??? Please please I needto talk to somebody😭 | 0 | 1,733,119,607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnzvc1/im_just_done/ | merabell91 | I'm Just Done I (23F) am killing myself tonight. My goal is to take a handful of my trazodone (50mg each) and get in the bath and hopefully fall asleep and drown.
I needed to put this here for something, I have made a lot of mistakes this year. The man I loved was using me, and when he was done with me, he discarded me like trash. Since then I've been very self destructive and I honestly just don't want to be alive anymore.
I don't have many friends and my parents had me at such a young age that they just made a new case of totally fucked up. There's nothing here for me and it'll never get better. I just want to die. | 5 | 1,735,367,556 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8pclz/im_at_peace_with_it_now/ | methree125 | I'm at peace with it now I spent a few days to be sure I want to go through with it and I've made up my mind that this is it. It's what I must do 28m and I'm ready wish you all the best. Love to all. | 4 | 1,733,565,539 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hms5or/not_deserving_of_life/ | miamayamamamia | Not deserving of life I just waste it and do nothing with it. I am a burden to those around me. My health is deteriorating. I hate bothering everyone with my problems. I wish I could give my life to someone who would make use of it. | 1 | 1,735,231,277 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgxfrx/no_one_can_love_me/ | mimi2579 | No one can love me My boyfriend told me this morning that he's not sure if he still loves me because everything with me is always so difficult and stressful. I am mentally ill, and I completely understand what he's saying.
I am an unbearable person who simply doesn't deserve to be loved. No one has ever been able to love me, and no one ever will, not even my own family loves me. I must be the worst person in the world, but I always try to be the sweetest and best person I can be. I just don't want anyone to ever feel the way I do every day.
Sometimes, I think it would be better for everyone if I just disappeared. | 1 | 1,734,511,267 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hila7v/enjoying_my_last_days_in_peace_knowing_that_i/ | mindoverbody333 | enjoying my last days in peace knowing that I have found to a solution to end my self and it's beautiful, I feel like im going home and there is something beautiful about death, please do not waste your energy trying to stop me, I tried and Im happy I can go. I finally can go, I am thankful for the funny experiences I had and it wasn't the worst life, but Im not strong enough for this and I want to sleep, im tired. | 6 | 1,734,705,857 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8bdsb/fuck_it_all/ | miss_understo0d | Fuck it All No one gives a fuck about me.
My dad was the only one who did and he's dead.
I want to die so fucking bad.. I've been researching ways to finally do it. I spend every single day in bed I lost my job I've been miserable my entire life then the most important person to me fucking dies. I fucking hate it here. The world isn't kind to those with mental health issues. What the fuck is the point I'm never going to get better I've tried every treatment under the fucking sun. | 3 | 1,733,518,194 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6xuge/are_there_any_places_where_we_can_talk_about/ | missym926 | Are there any places where we can talk about suicide more freely? Life is too hard and I have no one to help me through it. No family or friends or much money either.
I'm really losing all hope and wish I had someone to really talk to openly about suicide as I really don't have a reason to stay alive any longer.
I dont understand why it's so taboo. No one asks to be born ,I dont know why we are forced to stay alive. | 2 | 1,733,363,906 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb2hvd/i_want_to_be_with_my_dog/ | moldy_fruitcake2 | I want to be with my dog She died 5 years ago. And I want to die and be with her. I hate this life. But I loved her. | 2 | 1,733,839,542 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0n2n/im_the_scum_of_the_earth/ | morganashleigh22 | I'm the scum of the earth That's it. | 0 | 1,733,715,064 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6kebq/i_have_a_deadline_this_december/ | mostlydrowning | I have a deadline this December I thought I was going to postpone it but I think it might come sooner than I thought. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I want to die. | 5 | 1,733,330,135 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp8dvg/idk_what_to_do_anymore/ | mqtkv | idk what to do anymore im 19, just dropped out of college after failing 3 semesters in a row, have no job, no license, no real hobbies or passions. all i do is lay in my bed, listen to music, watch youtube, and play video games until ungodly hours of the morning. i dont know what to do anymore. im sabotaging all of my relationships one by one. i stopped taking my medications even thought they really do help me. every day i wake up and feel worse than the day before. i am wasting all of my resources for literally no reason. i just make life harder for myself and everyone around me. theres no reason for me to stick around anymore | 1 | 1,735,513,130 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8l6ux/my_friends_are_getting_frustrated_that_i_cant_get/ | mrevilla | My friends are getting frustrated that I cant get out of depression. Theyre just impatient with me. Cant talk about my struggles anymore. Like the title.
Kinda just want to leave. Just venting. | 0 | 1,733,547,884 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4v424/disappointing/ | msnynja | Disappointing Sitting here with a sore throat from a pumped stomach, hungover and in pain from stitches.
I'm not sure if I wish I had managed it properly, if I hadn't drunkenly reached out to friends, if I hadn't done it sooner so I'd go out still being happy or if I could change the thing that catalyzed it by taking two more seconds to double check what I was doing.
Or that I had been willing to listen to people who actually cared about me.
Who knows, maybe we will find out at the bottom of another bottle.
Cheers folks. | 6 | 1,733,146,609 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjw98d/i_took_1500mg_of_biogesic_paracetamol_and_300mg/ | myofutsyu | i took 1500mg of biogesic paracetamol and 300mg of ascorbic acid what are mostly the side effects after taking it? am i gonna vomit? | 6 | 1,734,864,655 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc44vc/i_hate_being_female/ | mypenisismissing | I hate being female The female body is a disability. I am short and weak with useless sacks of fat on my chest. I have a disgusting hole between my legs that spews blood and clots all while it feels like there are knives repeatedly stabbing my uterus and lower back. This is going to keep happening every single month for a week until I turn ~55, all because I have XX chromosomes.
I am physically incapable of ever having sex because I have no penis.
I am castrated. | 0 | 1,733,951,297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpzbnm/gave_all_my_stuff_away/ | naiiveaf | gave all my stuff away i have gave all my stuff away reasons i wanna end my life… i wanna die so bad ive been having suicide attempts since i was 12 they where never successful, i do have a boyfriend only thing im here for but i feel like he's loosing feelings when i try to talk about it to him his response is just “sorry” i lost all my friends i got raped not that long ago guy is walking freely no help from cops, i have nothing going for me in life, i feel like today is the day i finally successfully attempt suicide | 6 | 1,735,597,527 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7ppdc/thought_i_was_past_this_finally/ | nanyskz | thought i was past this finally i was going to therapy pretty regularly and i've felt really good. i've skipped the last 2-ish months which i thought was fine but i can feel the anxiety festering. i guess i've realized how mentally weak i really am to end up back here. just needed to get it off my chest bc everyone i know thinks im better now and i don't want to be honest with them. | 0 | 1,733,448,586 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf8s13/help/ | nensnsnsna | Help Please just help I'm so drunk | 0 | 1,734,315,408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf6d21/my_boyfriend_broke_up_with_me/ | nicolettebnunny | My boyfriend broke up with me I'm sad | 0 | 1,734,308,034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7jlw/im_in_my_20s_with_a_terminal_illnesslast_xmas/ | night_garden_700 | I'm in my 20s with a terminal illness—last Xmas. If there are other young people with life-threatening illnesses struggling during the holidays, I can relate a lot. It makes me very sad. | 0 | 1,735,156,025 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd36uv/its_just_too_much/ | nooneandanyone_ | It's just too much. Been a few months since I've been in this place. I want out. I should have walked out into the ocean when I had the chance, taken the pills and let the surf carry me away… | 3 | 1,734,060,214 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi823d/the_number_one_rule_in_my_life_is_that_everything/ | normaldude1224 | The number one rule in my life is that everything I try becomes a reason a I want to kill myself Everything from work, academia,relationships, friendships, getting in shape, drugs and alcohol, people pleasing, standing up for myself, making money, spending money.
There's just an inherent incompetence of which I am constantly reminded in everything I attempt. If I'm just going to have to spend my life as a loser I'd rather not live it | 2 | 1,734,656,387 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmgf5t/i_took_32_unison_50mg_sleeping_pills_in_24_hours/ | nosecretitsme | I took 32 unison 50mg sleeping pills in 24 hours. I am in a depressed state of mind and I thought it would take to the land of peace. I feel extremely high at the moment. I did not vomit and I did not get sick. My question is do you think I have anything to worry about in regards to my body? | 6 | 1,735,185,896 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6xemk/how_do_i_make_everything_ok/ | notsorainyy | how do i make everything ok just :( | 0 | 1,733,362,604 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmc6wd/should_i_be_concerned/ | nova1475369 | Should I be concerned Should I be concerned if I don't actively trying to unalive myself, but sometimes I wish someone just please kill me. When it appears in my dreams that something or someone killed me, I was really glad that they did?
Or those just childish mental states that would fade away? | 1 | 1,735,171,200 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hevfoc/devastated/ | nyaomi7 | devastated ive been cheated on in every relationship i had, my heart is broken beyond repair and I'm so fucking tired of the pain i feel emotionally crippled and i dont want to be alive anymore | 1 | 1,734,278,067 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha2d6x/my_thoughts/ | oceanbreezerlo | My thoughts Im 30 and I think about suicide everyday since high school. Not a day goes by that the thought randomly pops into my head. Some days worse than others.
Tbh I getting tired | 2 | 1,733,720,939 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhq3tp/i_hate_my_body/ | olivaaaaaaa | I hate my body I lost ~160 lbs in a year and a half. My skin DID NOT bounce back. I look fucking hideous without a shirt on. I keep getting to a sexual stage in a relationship and I can tell people are disgusted by the way I look. It is pretty easy to see the look.
Some people just straight up ghost me after that. Others slowly distance.
It happened again this week. Idk, I just want to die. I will be alone forever bc of this fucking meatsack I am trapped in. I worked so hard to look so awful. Sometimes wish I was still morbidly obese | 2 | 1,734,604,429 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmun7u/should_i_write_letters_to_the_people_close_to_me/ | osumsoul | Should I write letters to the people close to me? I am planning to do the deed in a few days. Just in the final stages of mental preparation.
I'm wondering if I should leave letters for my people or would that not be of any help? | 5 | 1,735,237,992 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
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