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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hisvpx/cant_do_this/ | cnprburn | can't do this my friend might've killed himself it's been months since we last talked he sent me a paragraph that's it i'm scared he was my only friend i'm scared i'm alone i don't want to sound selfish or anything but im so fucking alone i want to talk to someone i want the attention i crave i hope you're out there somewhere wil i promised id stop smoking and i have please come back | 0 | 1,734,726,334 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5tyyy/is_11_stories_enough/ | colette_inspecting | Is 11 stories enough Serious question. Is it enough? | 3 | 1,733,249,703 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hccmg1/no_purpose/ | collash_1 | No purpose Recently just been feeling like I have no purpose on this earth. I feel so meaningless. No one truly cares about me or wants to be around me. I just feel annoying to be around. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Thoughts about ending it. Feel like no one would even notice | 1 | 1,733,975,999 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl6wn0/its_torture/ | completedisaster888 | its torture whenever stuff goes south in my life i tend to start contemplating killing myself. but i know i wont. and i probably never will. but fuck i wish i had the courage to. its torture to me to know that i am stuck with all the feelings i have towards myself and towards others and towards the circumstances in my life with no way to escape them. torture. i want out. i don't want to consciously deal with life anymore. i don't want to. | 2 | 1,735,018,844 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp6ejb/my_brains_going_through_it_today/ | connect-forbes | My brains going through it today. This world is cold and evil. i hate this feeling. It's like pain and agony brought on by understanding what humanity really is. | 2 | 1,735,507,826 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkhy1v/i_need_someone_to_talk_to/ | contempttoast | I need someone to talk to I need someone to talk to anyone I just need someone to talk to/vent to it can be just this one time I just need it right now | 0 | 1,734,935,648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6j57o/why_keep_going/ | coolworkguy | Why keep going I have no reason to keep going. I fucking hate my job, I'm failing my class. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is my best and only friend. | 1 | 1,733,327,139 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmkt2g/killing_myself_on_the_31st/ | coulditmaybe | Killing myself on the 31st I've been putting this off for so long as I've been so worried about those who I'll leave behind. But I'm going to finally do it on the 31st- I can't cope with this anymore and feel I am ultimately more of a burden than a help to those I love . | 5 | 1,735,204,578 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdnlix/i_cant_take_this_anymore/ | crocodiletearss7 | i cant take this anymore i want to be able to feel happy without taking pills or smoking weed im slowly slipping down a dark path of drugs and i love it they make me happy they dont make me happy then leave like all of you fuckers i love drugs and they love me i cant function without them im not real im not human this is all a game fuck you sod fuck you fuck you get it like skins i love that show | 0 | 1,734,127,445 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4i801/ive_made_the_decision/ | crusti- | I've made the decision Yesterday, I posted on this subreddit on how I just ‘wanted a way out' as I was venting. Today, I have found out a way to kill myself and I plan to end my life tonight. I have been waiting for this moment for years, and I really wish I didn't have to do this, but I just feel trapped, and I just want to get out.
Thank you for reading this. | 5 | 1,733,099,677 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfg33j/genuinely_wanting_to_end_it_all/ | cyro62134 | genuinely wanting to end it all everyone laughs at me in school, i know this is my role in society but i can never escape it. im turning 18 next year and i have no achievements what so ever. i am literally useless. i never go outside, i have no friends, people don't talk to me, and im not going to be able to get into a good uni so there's no point in trying anymore life is not worth living if i have to live it in agony like this
by the time u read this i've either bled out or im sitting on a bridge, thanks for reading | 6 | 1,734,344,249 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ren0/i_want_to_commit_suicide/ | danizzz_2906 | I want to commit suicide I can't take it anymore | 2 | 1,733,243,314 | null | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6fleo/i_17m_and_i_feel_so_lonely_because_ive_never_have/ | darkdomzmp4 | I 17m and I feel so lonely because I've never have a kiss or a gf I 17m thinking about off myself sometimes but I've stop myself to go fully with it because I don't make my family sad or depressed but sometimes I've feel like nobody will ever fall in love with me and I'm just so confused at my point of life rn and a loser. I'm so socially awkward | 2 | 1,733,317,801 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heovyg/lost/ | darkvoidnothingness | Lost My husband of 12 years shot and killed himself yesterday and I'm so lost and have so many questions with no answers.. | 0 | 1,734,253,809 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhngro/everyone_hates_me/ | dashboi69 | Everyone hates me Everyday, everytime, everywhere, everything is out there to get me because it's just my stupid personality. I don't think I'm a horrible person to people, and I do "try" my best to act nice to others, but it always feels like I fuck it up because I say something I shouldn't have (not anything like racist or homophobic but mentioning stuff like death for example) I'm afraid to talk in person and online because I'm worried I'll say something that will get everyone to hate on me.
Anyways if your on this sub reddit or your poking around my account, then just carry on doing what you were previously, I don't want to make your day even more depressing with my "minor" issue | 0 | 1,734,592,661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpwth0/im_26_f_120lbs_drank_12_bottles_of_visine_and/ | denvirg0 | I'm 26 F, 120lbs, drank 12 bottles of Visine and approximately 6500mg of Benadryl, will I die? I have BPD and did this when I was feeling extremely low. I feel very tired and want to go to sleep. Am I dying? | 6 | 1,735,591,003 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoqbi2/just_turned_21/ | desertedoutset101 | Just turned 21.. Still feel like the objective definition of a failure,
I Failed 2 different schools, and then couldn't do remote learning.. and now after 4 years of staying home I cant remember anything of what I learned..
Too stupid to even get disabilty benifits, cant keep a good sleep cycle to take my adhd meds to see if they "work" as one of the requirments for the application process.
Too socially awkward to leave the house and get a job to support my family.
I am a fat, balding burden. | 0 | 1,735,454,767 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhi2nx/i_dont_want_to_continue_my_life_anymore/ | desire_tobegone | I don't want to continue my life anymore It's shitty and I suck. I'd rather be dead. I'm so far behind. I did nothing in my teens and early 20's but waste my life. People think I'm stupid. I don't have any worth or value. I should have never been born. | 1 | 1,734,573,676 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhfzt5/just_looking_for_someone_to_talk_to/ | dfffghbswwty | just looking for someone to talk to hi, i'm 20m and really struggling at the moment. i feel stuck and can't talk to anybody about the trauma i can't escape. i tried reaching out for help recently and it blew up in my face. it would go a long way just to tell somebody who won't look at me differently. thank you | 0 | 1,734,567,424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h88iou/scared_to_hurt_my_family/ | dieariia | scared to hurt my family i feel like i can't win in either situation | 0 | 1,733,510,728 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhak2i/will_off_myself_in_a_three_years/ | diplodocus888 | Will off myself in a three years That's it. Nothing else. No point. Too tired to explain. | 2 | 1,734,552,772 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqtq1/i_hope_i_do_tomorrow_to_be_with_my_grandma/ | dishsoapandwater | i hope i do tomorrow to be with my grandma I've been thinking about suicide a lot recently and i've noticed that i'm happiest when im dreaming. It's not even like my dreams are really happy, they're more like nightmares sometimes but they feel more enjoyable than being alive. My birthday is tommorow and Im hoping that I'll die then (after eating some delicious food) like how my grandma did. I really miss her, life hasn't been the same since I found her dead in my house. It should've been me. | 1 | 1,734,607,422 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5d8ow/i_just_took_a_bunch_of_pills_and_now_i_regret_it/ | divagirljourney10 | I just took a bunch of pills and now i regret it so much but there is nothing I can do about it now I'm so scared because Ik the stomach pain is going to start kicking in | 6 | 1,733,193,752 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlczp3/huge_alert/ | dogeismygrandma | *HUGE ALERT ⚠️* If you are not suicidal/ are not experienced with the concept of suicide and you are looking to support people. PLEASE don't, wait for someone who knows what their doing. I'm a autistic 15 year old and its really tolling to read the horrible situations people are in | 0 | 1,735,045,009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn5tpe/life_blows/ | dogmuncher1337 | Life blows I got injured at work and it forever changed the way I lived. Some days I just wish I died of a natural heart attack or stroke. I don't hate life but I'm mad that others get to live a healthy life while I got fucked at work by a stupid fucking ice dispenser lid that pushed my head backwards fucking up my neck with nerve and bulging discs. A stupid fucking lid LOL. I've tried everything other than surgery but let's face it like that'll do anything it'll probably make it worse.
What did I do to god to deserve this? Did you hate me in my previous life or what? | 1 | 1,735,270,185 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6errk/i_sleep_every_night_hoping_not_to_wake_up_again/ | done-with-this-s | I sleep every night, hoping not to wake up again. I don't have the guts to end it myself. I just want it....no....I NEED it to end. NOW.
I can't do this anymore.
Sometimes I think.... what if I don't die? What if I have to keep living like this and it won't end until I'm old?
How is this fair? | 1 | 1,733,315,121 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl3seo/im_such_a_baby/ | dontbeadickmate | I'm such a baby I got heavily down voted for correcting someone for using an outdated term and now I want to self harm and kill myself. All I did was say the grammatically correct and accepted term and so many people got mad at me and said I was being offensive. That's why I never fucking say anything when people misgender me or says stuff that's offensive. I'm so fucking done. | 2 | 1,735,007,622 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he6tth/thoughts_about_robert_sapoksky_ideas_of_lack_of/ | dopeainthope | Thoughts about Robert Sapoksky ideas of lack of free will Not having free will, does that mean that natural selection is for us the suicidal folks? I also think fentanyl crisis is part of this chose your eugenic way in this "natural selection". | 1 | 1,734,194,596 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjtjsv/idek_anymore/ | dxmfein | idek anymore 15 almost 16 years old, i have no future and all i do is sit in my room and get high off any drug that i can get my hands on, i've been told there's a happy ending but i've felt this way since i was 9 years old and nothing has changed. just don't know what to do with my life or even if i should keep going. | 0 | 1,734,851,593 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3qt3p/i_think_i_may_be_done_trying/ | eamvh | I think I may be done trying I've tried so hard to be a good wife and I know I'm not perfect and I make mistakes but I thought I was still worth loving, I thought everything we've been through and all the traditions we've made would have been worth it, but I must be awful and I think I want to end it. I'm just done. I'm so tired | 2 | 1,733,013,372 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpz0rh/i_didnt_think_id_ever_post_here_but_here_i_am_lol/ | eat_pant_rat | I didn't think I'd ever post here but here I am lol I'm probably not gonna kill myself anytime soon and honestly I'm doing a pretty good job of regulating myself rn but like knowing that there are people out there who want me dead just as much if not more than I do really doesn't help lmao | 2 | 1,735,596,729 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1helgvt/nearly_2_years_after_being_laid_offthere_is_no/ | eevee555 | Nearly 2 years after being laid off…There is no hope. I've lost count of how many interviews and free “assignments” I've gone through. I'm just exhausted. A month behind on rent and on my last month of living expenses.
I didn't want to end up a statistic but here I am. Guess a pathetic end to a pathetic life would wrap it up nicely. | 2 | 1,734,239,057 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5k4p3/my_therapist_keeps_canceling/ | ellyuh | my therapist keeps canceling my therapist keeps cancelling our appointments, and he's even told me i'm a high risk patient. i have schizoaffective disorder, bpd ,bipolar and c-ptsd im wondering if maybe i'm too much for him. we were supposed to meet today because I'm feeling very suicidal, and i really needed to talk but he cancelled again. my voices are telling all sorts of fucked up shit and i hate him right now for cancelling on me!!!!!! i'm so mad and no wonder his other patients have killed themselves | 2 | 1,733,220,257 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg345l/i_shall_succeed/ | emac546 | I shall succeed Last time I failed. I tried and apparently only put myself in a coma for a few months after a failed attempt. This time I shall try and do a better job. As to not be a failure in all things.
Tldr: I shall succeed where I have failed | 6 | 1,734,411,227 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4k69u/still_unemployed/ | enbyayyy | Still unemployed Hello.
I sincerely believe that it's just not possible to get a job at this stage.
I think dying is a better option so I'm not a burden on my family. I just feel like if I continue being alive and things would get worse and worse. I'd start to become slowly more weak and crazy and a burden.
| 2 | 1,733,105,437 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6nq2k/icsnt_make_it_throguh_tonight/ | ensyuki | icsnt make it throguh tonight my girldriejnd admitted shedoesnd love me andshe nevee didadfter 7months ogf dsting im failinf schoolso badlh im relapsinf inan eating disorder icut unfil ifelf numh idontnknow what to do anymore im so fuckinf lost ending eveyrhtinf genuinelh feels like the onlu thing ican do | 2 | 1,733,338,011 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5d4a2/i_feel_like_i_wanna_die/ | erotic_alisa_wylde | I feel like I wanna die. I really fell in love with somebody, hard, like I respected them and cared about them. But, I didnt always show it, because it thought I was supposed to reserve my feelings. Everytime I go close to her I fucked it up. I feel so bad all the time. I just wanted her to be happy! I wanted to be with her! I didn't do anything harmful to her, I might have hurt her emotionally and mentally, but I was just trying to be a good person. I feel so fucking stupid. What do I do? | 2 | 1,733,193,378 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiwrzv/i_dont_know_if_i_can_hold_on_any_longer/ | ethiezxx | I don't know if I can hold on any longer Every day it becomes very difficult for me to live, suicidal thoughts keep going through my mind but I don't want to let my mother lose her only daughter. But it's so hard to bear it | 2 | 1,734,737,412 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7il1g/i_wanna_die_but_i_cant_because_i_have/ | eveningstarfriday | I wanna die but I can't because I have responsibilities Who's gonna take care of the three kittens | 1 | 1,733,429,633 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfvlok/i_would_like_to_make_some_friends_but_i_dont/ | f0rtheorlingas | I would like to make some friends but I don't really have any and it makes me a bit sad. I just want someone to talk to Ig. I'm 22 from the UK and I don't really have any close friends that I can talk to or look out for. I feel like an outcast and I don't know if it's my own fault. | 0 | 1,734,388,400 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdaotz/i_couldnt_do_it/ | f5oc1ety | I couldn't do it Tied a noose and all but just couldn't go all the way | 6 | 1,734,091,219 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmmq2y/failed_attempt/ | faraeyae_x | failed attempt im not gonna say what method I used but it's failed, my parents found out. I'll try again, sharper one, see ya on the other side. | 6 | 1,735,213,382 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hot3g6/end_me_end_me_end_me/ | fedwhore | end me end me end me im fucking horrible im fucking horrible im fucking horrible im fucking horrible IM FUCKING HORRIBLE IM FUCKING HORRIBLE OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD | 2 | 1,735,466,971 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5vdy4/beach/ | femold | beach Today i tried to kill myself by just walking into the ocean, so cold, don't recommend. ultimately just went back to school.it was so dark and when i got up a ship was passing, one of those with glowing lights. My teacher has cancer. My hands hurt so bad, everything is fine, but i yearn for something more | 6 | 1,733,253,220 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfdeg7/hanging_oneself/ | filledeSisyphe | Hanging oneself How long does it take to die by hanging? I am wondering if it's a quick death and if it is not, how much conscious pain there is. | 3 | 1,734,331,854 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h45ttd/only_reason_im_alive_is_my_cats_wouldnt_know_why/ | fixableprincess | Only reason I'm alive is my cats wouldn't know why I never came back home. They are always on my bed waiting for me to come give them cuddles. I can't be so selfish and let them cry and call for me until they give up.
I don't care how long I live but these poor babies don't deserve to suffer like that. | 2 | 1,733,067,297 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdm9zs/im_so_afraid_of_death_but_i_really_hate_living/ | flowegarden | i'm so afraid of death but i really hate living i just don't know what to do it's so exhausting i spend everyday just distracting myself from how i feel | 0 | 1,734,123,869 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hny04e/im_hopeless_and_crying_crying_crying_nonstop_all/ | fluffylilbee | i'm hopeless and crying crying crying nonstop all the time i don't even know why i'm here or typing any of this shit. i'm so tired and so sad and can't stop fantasizing about it, i want to be gone , im so tied, i don't see a way out of this grief without death. it feels so comforting so safe just imagining it all going away in a fucking instant but instead i'm trapped in this room trapped in the dark and alone. utterly alone. i want to die so badly, so badly, worse than i ever have in my life. k don't know what to dis nhmofe. | 2 | 1,735,360,712 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9mmx/no_way_out/ | forgottenpopcork | No way out. Living in my car. Freezing cold and just wanting to end it all right now | 2 | 1,733,966,450 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9p3rd/talking_with_people/ | fortune1821 | talking with people after continuous conversations with people and therapy does anyone else feel like nobody will ever understand how they feel? It seems like no amount of talking about how I feel or things I'm going through will make anyone understand and relate. | 0 | 1,733,682,133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4ruy5/soon/ | fuckitthrowaway90 | soon getting a gun and then shooting myself with it. wonder if i should write a note | 4 | 1,733,134,615 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4oo8o/honestly_not_sure_what_to_do_but_i_know_that_ive/ | functionalthrowaway2 | Honestly not sure what to do, but I know that I've messed up in a way that I'm not sure can be reconciled. I'm a sophomore in college and I have been reeling with insurmountable guilt, disgust and self-hatred for roughly a month because I hurt somebody so badly that they said they never want to speak to me again and called me things that have put me on the brink of suicide. I don't know if this is the place to ask, and I know the context I've left is limited, but what can I do? I'm so lost and I really just want someone to give me direction, please | 2 | 1,733,120,608 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4nun3/xjxjd/ | fxreyass | xjxjd im gonna kill myself i weight 48kgs ish im gonna have 30 paracetamol will that be enough??? | 5 | 1,733,117,496 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hce0cf/i_dont_like_myself_very_much/ | fynn-arcana | I don't like myself very much The self-loathing is real right now. I mean, it's always been real, but sometimes it comes back with a vengeance and is just such a bitch and won't go away. I am so convinced that everyone hates me as much as I hate myself, but then I feel like I'm being so annoying when I ask for reassurance. I don't know how to make my brain shut the fuck up, and that's probably why I've considered suicide for so long. Can't hate yourself if you're dead, haha. I just want it to all stop, or to not care, but I don't think I'll ever figure out how to do that. Yippee. | 2 | 1,733,980,853 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8x6uq/the_curtain_cord_looks_comforting_right_now/ | gated_sunTowL | The curtain cord looks comforting right now I was asking for help for an hour at most, shouting from our top floor. I was locked up. It's midnight. It's a blur how I managed to get through. After grasping what happened, I realized I am alone. I live with my family but I'm alone. I will die alone. No one will realize I'm gone. | 3 | 1,733,591,830 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3rnni/next_year_might_be_my_year/ | getmeoutofmybrain | Next year might be my year Isn't it funny, this year was my year (cured social anxiety, friends), and next year might be my year (suicide). | 2 | 1,733,015,949 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlbfsp/merry_christmas_everyone/ | ghostlyscars | merry christmas everyone have a great day/night <3 | 0 | 1,735,038,527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhmrtv/slit_wrists/ | gingerkits | Slit wrists Is it painful?
I guess if I'm asking, I still have hope.
But not much.
I hate this. | 3 | 1,734,589,781 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ce1l/i_am_just_here/ | girlatbar | I am just here Im not sure what else to say.. I am feeling just depleted | 0 | 1,733,305,420 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbord3/i_hate_being_trans/ | girlwithbigsword | I hate being trans I'm miserable | 0 | 1,733,904,450 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hilau8/i_have_two_reasons/ | gloomydooms | I have two reasons Two reasons to stay in this word. I have no idea why I'm even posting. Not like it's gonna change my mind. I'm just tired of pretending that my immediate thought to waking up is I wish I didn't. So I'm stuck to live with this feeling until it's my time to go? | 1 | 1,734,705,906 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hduf5y/zippledop_zorg_bop_domop_zeeble_bob/ | glorpzopgleepleIII | Zippledop zorg bop domop zeeble bob? zyphor. glarnex garnu glop. vensalix xenmp "area 51" veenix. pholytian schemmi zop zorg. glop gloptar xernu. gleemel. schemm zyphor vensual. glarnex xenmp veenix :'( pholytian zop zorg. glop glarnex raped garnu. schemmi xernu gloptar. gleemel zyphor vensual. xenmp veenix "gay ufo" pholytian??? schemm zop glop. zorg xernu glarnex. garnu glop vensalix. xenmp veenix pholytian. zyphor glarnex :'( garnu glop. vensalix xenmp veenix. pholytian schemmi zop. zorg glop gloptar. xernu gleemel schemm. zyphor vensual glarnex. xenmp veenix pholytian :'( zop zorg glop. glarnex garnu schemmi. xernu gloptar gleemel. | 0 | 1,734,148,539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdjfzl/can_you_suggest_some_easy_less_goru_ways_of_dying/ | godof2008 | Can you suggest some easy less goru ways of dying? I don't have access to firearms and drugs..I am looking for something easily available and lethal so that it's less painless. | 3 | 1,734,116,266 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpfr4a/this_is_a_cry_for_help/ | gothdbdbitchhh | this is a cry for help I've been shamed and humiliated so much to the point i can't even feel anything. I'm not suicidal but want to cut my arms so deep that I can't feel anything. please someone help me. | 0 | 1,735,535,438 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmbsbm/is_it_sad_that_im_here_on_christmas/ | greeencake | Is it sad that I'm here on Christmas? Maybe. but who cares?
I miss the time this time of the year felt happy and special. New Year's Eve is another day that makes me want to end it. Don't mind me just venting. | 2 | 1,735,169,845 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd6vy4/please_i_just_want_to_feel_happy_again/ | green_pickles987 | Please I just want to feel happy again I always think about killing my self. I don't know how it got to this point. I've never had any real friends. I have been struggling at doing something simple like taking a shower or brushing my teeth. I want this to end but I still want to be happy. I long for that feeling, I want it to be normal again. Thinking of suicide everyday isn't gonna help me, I know. Please anyone give me something, just some advise so I can be like before again. | 2 | 1,734,073,842 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb7kiy/im_so_lost/ | greyswizardry | I'm so lost I don't come onto sites to vent or chat about my issues, but I wasn't sure where else to turn because nobody ever tends to listen no matter who I talk to in real life. I'm sixteen and have been contemplating taking my life by overdosing for the past few days but I want to hang onto that one last hope that life does eventually get better over time. Would anybody happen to have any kind of advice for me? Mostly for the fact I am drowning in my thoughts and am beginning to slip majorly. | 3 | 1,733,852,897 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 4 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8path/i_just_tried_to_kill_myself_and_i_didnt_even_plan/ | gwendy__ | i just tried to kill myself and i didn't even plan it i was just in the bath and i know i've thought about killing my self but i didn't think i was going to go through with it, i tried to drown myself and i only realized when my lungs started to burn a bit that i didn't even think to leave a note. so yeah, im still here. | 6 | 1,733,565,313 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ojb3/im_struggling_really_hard_to_keep_on_living/ | handicapped_runner | I'm struggling really hard to keep on living I am going to likely lose my job. I was already depressed and with anxiety, I have a wife and a 8-month old daughter that depend on my income. I hated my job, and I have been trying for so long to change my job, but I'm now likely going to lose it. And for reasons outside of my control. My wife and I are going through a really rough time with each other, and these news just made it worse. My wife and daughter are the only reason why I'm still alive. But even that is starting to not feel like enough. | 2 | 1,733,680,678 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h69wj3/i_wish_i_had_the_means/ | happyfungoodhappy | I wish I had the means I really want to leave, but I don't own any firearms and im too much of a pussy to use a knife. I don't want to suffocate myself either. What the heck am I supposed to do | 3 | 1,733,294,317 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqj4k/i_failed_math_again/ | hehehheheehehehehhe | i failed math again. idk whats happening i was so good before but ever since 8th grade my grades were lower than ever idk what to do i always revise and study alot ask questions but i cant do it. im scerad my dad will find out pls idk what to do and i had a 48 in algebra like twice in a row. | 0 | 1,733,795,109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpa403/i_dont_want_to_live_the_rest_of_my_life_with_bpd/ | hellokittyyy96 | I don't want to live the rest of my life with BPD 28F and I've been hospitalized 7 times due to my borderline personality disorder. Tried 20+ medications. Had ECT. Nothing helps. It is hard for me to hold a job and I'm always switching to new places of work. My life feels empty, boring and meaningless every day due to this stupid disorder. Nothing makes me happy. Today is one of those days where I feel like I'd be better off dead rather than living my life like this. | 2 | 1,735,517,964 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6vc7y/_/ | helpherlive | .. life is awful . people suck and u can't trust anyone . it is what it is. u can't change it. | 0 | 1,733,356,880 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlnehk/i_hate_christmas/ | himehikikomori | I hate Christmas I conform and pretend i love it so people like me or think good of me but I hate it. Makes me so miserable now that I don't have a best friend anymore so spend it with. I'm 100% alone and it's so scary. I understand all the hotline shares on social media because I'm very much suicidal because I'm reminded of how LONELY I actually am. | 2 | 1,735,077,229 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h68ohy/i_think_its_time/ | hnut3rc0wd5 | I think it's time I think it's time just to put an end to all the bs. Life's a fucking disaster and I really feel like there's no options left. It's a long complicated story but i just really don't see what else there is to do. 25 m | 2 | 1,733,289,772 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he9vrt/i_might_be_about_to_lose_my_home/ | howsaboutty | i might be about to lose my home. i dont even know. what the fuck is the point | 0 | 1,734,203,134 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb7fzo/im_done/ | iTropicalzz | I'm done 17 years old and it feels like I have no future.
Jobs getting replaced by ai and computers.
Only thing on the news is the economy collapsing, new wars happening and how earth is dying.
I'm sick and tired of waking up every morning, repeating the same tasks as if my life is worth nothin, but apparently my teachers see me as just another number on their papers
I'm so fucking done | 1 | 1,733,852,587 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcishd/im_happy_for_the_first_time_in_ages/ | i_like_depechemode | im happy for the first time in ages I've planned it all out. I know when I'm going to do it. How I'm going to do it and I genuinely do feel content and happy for the first time in ages. My moods have gradually been improving but the suicidal thoughts haven't gone. I'm just getting closer and closer to it now.
People close to me have commented that I seem to be much happier now, I am, but they don't realise why. I'm just going to try spend as much time with them as possible. | 5 | 1,734,001,714 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hewxky/hopeless_yet_again/ | iadoregrapejuice2 | Hopeless yet again Hello, last time I posted here somebody tried to take advantage of me so would very much appreciate it if none of you tried it this time.
I'm turning 18 soon and I hope to move away next year. Not that any of that matters because I'm going absolutely insane!
There's no way I'm going to be able to afford therapy and interacting with other people is already a special hell in itself. I keep waking up in the middle of the night crying, I keep seeing things that aren't there. Mornings are the worst, they're unbearable.
Wishing for a miracle, I don't know how much longer I can stand this.
Thanks for reading, wishing you all the best | 0 | 1,734,282,143 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc6av7/dont_know_what_to_do/ | icyyosiris | don‘t know what to do contemplating suicide. last time i felt like this has been a long time ago. i don‘t have anyone to talk to about my feelings and even if i had someone, i would never get myself to really talk about it | 2 | 1,733,956,943 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj49g0/why_do_they_all_want_me_gone/ | igotacoolpen09 | Why do they all want me gone I already wanted to, but my mood is just ruined because now i just want to sleep outside for the night and hope someone just comes to beat the shit out of me. I know ive done some fucked up shit but i was going to get killed if i didnt. It doesnt justify what i did, but at the same time, i was in kindergarten. Im making up excuses but i honestly dont care. Just why. | 1 | 1,734,763,431 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnjqhd/just_turned_30_feels_like_im_not_supposed_to_make/ | ilovemyfeline | Just turned 30, feels like I'm not supposed to make it this far I feel like I should've die a few years ago. Now how am I suppose to survive the rest of this life? | 1 | 1,735,319,843 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjfcmb/im_really_paranoid/ | im_ox33n | I'm really paranoid. My friend promised we would go out tonight. Of course she said she can't today. Having schizophrenia, that made my mind go crazy. I just had a panic attack and I'm crying so much. She doesn't need me. She has 2 other people she prefers to go out with. I am just here whenever they can't meet with her. I'm just some company whenever she shops. I mean nothing to her. | 0 | 1,734,804,184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8bpt2/i_took_9750_mg_paracetamol/ | imangelicc | I took 9,750 mg paracetamol hi, I am 19F and for reference I am around 40kg/88lbs.
I tried to overdose 3 days ago by taking 15 pills of 650mg paracetamol late at night.
I puked for around 6 times and got nauseous for around 2 days.
I'm starting day 4 today and I feel like I'm alright now but the internet is telling me I'll die within a few days through liver damage ?
I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow for different reasons, how do I get checked for potential damage without disclosing I tried to od? eg. a blood test, scan, etc.. I really don't want to tell my parents they might get angry | 6 | 1,733,519,089 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjjyub/doe/ | iminluvthrowaway | DOE!! i hate thsi world i am scafed but i truly hope! and pray it is mh LAST!! #peaceout | 1 | 1,734,817,519 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hor6v8/popped_40_something_200mg_advils_and_dont_feel/ | imjustagirl_19 | Popped 40 something 200mg advils and don't feel anything
Hi , im a 19 year old girl and I just took about 40 something advil tablets, consumed a few sips of isopropyl alcohol, as well as ingested some comet cleaning powder.
Yes this was an a attempt to end my life however, im aware that most say that this taking amount is rarely fatal, so i hoped that taking them with this stuff would speed up the process.
However, it's been a bit and i still feel entirely nothing except for my stomach feeling a little bloated… does the pain take time or does this have something to do with my body fighting it because im young? | 6 | 1,735,458,453 | 6 | 6 | 6 | null | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpihdb/what_people_think_before_sucide/ | innocentbruhh | What people think before sucide? Mention your thoughts | 0 | 1,735,546,048 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0d0o/i_love_you/ | insectbutter21 | I Love You I know whatever is going on in your life is so hard. I know it is. I hear your pain and your suffering. And I love you. There is hope and there is help. You are a beautiful person and you deserve life. I believe in you so much more than you know. <3 | 0 | 1,733,714,163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5vzqj/im_so_tired_and_angry/ | insomnibunn | I'm so tired and angry all i think about is ending it at this point. I get flashbacks to bad situations and trauma several times a day, I can hardly care for myself, but I feel like i pretend that everything is perfect at work/in class. I'm so tired of pretending i'm fine. I can tell the façade is slipping by how my coworkers, classmates, friends, and my mom look at me. I swear the only one im fooling is my boyfriend, who barely talks to me due to his job being hectic. I'm just so tired. | 2 | 1,733,254,670 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpcxtg/bladerunner_2049_death/ | interlinked-ceIls | Bladerunner 2049 Death I want to just play "Tears In the Rain" and sleep forever just as >! Agent K !< did when he laid down on the stairs.
I'm tired of this place. | 1 | 1,735,526,351 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm4sy3/is_14_and_19_years_old_bad/ | ionsaa_ | Is 14 and 19 years old bad? Recently i met a 19 year old boy and i feel really close to him, I trust him and i know hes a good person and wouldnt have any issues dating him. The only thing is that the gap makes me feel guilty but i really like him and trust him | 0 | 1,735,147,397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhlnm8/going_to_kms_before_my_birthday/ | isweartofinggodpls | going to kms before my birthday im gonna take 15 g of tylenol idk if its gonna work tho if it doesnt ill crash my car or something | 5 | 1,734,585,592 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 6 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hngca0/im_dark_at_the_moment/ | ithinkimlostguys | I'm dark at the moment Ok so I have: schizophrenia, BPD, bipolar 1, PTSD and clinical depression. I have absolutely zero emotional regulation and I had a dream about my gf last night and I can't get the thoughts out of my head. Can someone please give me something to feel valid for?
Sorry for taking up your precious time, ignore this if you're too busy. | 0 | 1,735,310,680 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbyxuz/need_help/ | itsainar | need help? how can I suicide in my room? give me some ideas, thanks. | 3 | 1,733,938,354 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4cdzf/swalalala/ | ixi_la_ele | Swalalala I've been trying to kill myself for a few months now and I can't, even though I've only consolidated this thought in that time, I can't put it into practice, can someone give me a tip please? | 2 | 1,733,084,214 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 3 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn5h3s/should_i_just_kll_myself_yes_or_nah/ | j0hnpauI | Should I just k.ll myself? Yes or nah? I'm planning to try doing it again. But I dunno. I'm just tired of being alone. I have nothing. And everyone else is so happy, and everybody else hates/dislikes me or something. | 4 | 1,735,269,026 | null | 6 | 4 | 6 | 4 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5g842/someone_talk_2_me/ | japanese_aliens | someone talk 2 me (13f) i am feeling a lot of pain right now and i don't know how to deal with myself. I've stopped being depressed for a month now since i had to deal everything myself but now my depression is back and it's all because of school. i am so lonely and i feel like I'm just an embarrassment 2 society. i don't feel like yapping too much but i at least need someone 2 be supportive because i don't feel well anymore. | 0 | 1,733,203,581 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd0wad/need_advice/ | jarofoil | Need advice I need advice on how to killmyself. I was thinking of pills but they don't have lethal affects and cutting my throat would hurt too much.
I might cut my wrist but idk if that might help. Also I've been to 4 different therapists and 3 social workers by the age of 7 so seeking professional mental help isn't going to work.
Any tips help thnxs. | 3 | 1,734,053,027 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7qq14/i_cant_do_this_anymore/ | jekkroval | i can't do this anymore my gf and i broke up almost a month into dating and i feel worse now more than i ever did. she made me feel whole. site accepted me for who I am. I took it for granted. i muss her so much she was my first girlfriend. i can't think of it being over now. i feel suicidal i don't know what to do anymore. i feel so alone. | 2 | 1,733,451,670 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfuvy9/starting_to_think_its_impossible_to_cs/ | jestbo87 | Starting to think it's impossible to CS Went to the beach yesterday, followed by the pub for my fave beers and decided it would be the night to let it go.
Before bed I took 10x10mg Diazepam, 12x12.5 zolpidem, 10x 20mg zopiclone, a stack of ondanstron, and plenty of whiskey to down it.
Woke up feeling chill and even more fucking depressed. How are these ppl achieving ending it off less?
Dejected. | 6 | 1,734,386,523 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 6 |
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