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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbavdy/guys_can_you_tell_me_what_is_the_purpose_of_life/
|
Visual_Chemist_2917
|
Guys, can you tell me, what is the purpose of life? What is the purpose of life??? I've been through a lot in life, starting from nothing and reaching the top, experiencing luxury and success. Yet, I feel like life lacks purpose and meaning. What's the purpose of life when it feels so empty?
| 0
| 1,733,861,161
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbshnh/i_think_about_suicide_every_day/
|
Vivid-Introduction23
|
I think about suicide every day. I want to die so bad, just so I can finally be free from all the bullshit!
| 2
| 1,733,920,566
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgi7kb/i_want_it_to_end_i_always_will/
|
Vixenisawkward
|
I want it to end. I always will. I want it to end. I have a plan, I have my notes. And now, I just want peace.
I despise myself. Every. Single. Thing. And I despise this life, nothing good has come from it. I do nothing but hurt and cry and repeat. My love of my life has left me, I am barely good at anything, and I simply find no good in this life. Its too much.
I think I'm going to go, I'll try again. It's all I want. I have exhausted recourses.
I want to die.
| 6
| 1,734,462,616
| 5
| 6
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| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmdy4h/just_sad/
|
Vladcatt
|
Just sad It has been a rough couple of days. It is hard knowing that my existence here doesn't mean anything to anyone but my cat. I love her. She needs me, so I stay.
| 1
| 1,735,177,082
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 0
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hexnlv/i_think_i_will_do_it_someday/
|
VoidyArtist11
|
I think I will do it someday I feel unloved, uncared for. I sometimes feel like I don't have anything to lose. I think I want to die. I'm nothing, really.
| 2
| 1,734,284,053
| 4
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhaxjy/im_about_done/
|
VonMackensen_18
|
I'm about done My father lost all our savings on a scam. I gave him 1500 of my own money and he lost it all. I am really thinking about ending it all. I think that i will have to stop uni to go to work. Fucking hate this shit.
| 2
| 1,734,553,769
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoxw84/if_i_kill_my_drs_first_would_i_change_the_world/
|
WanaLive
|
if i kill my drs first... would i change the world for the better? i feel like if i kill my drs and make sure its clear theyre to blame for my decision... it might make drs fear mistreating their patients. what do you guys think?
| 0
| 1,735,485,018
| 0
| 4
| 4
| 6
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3rzlj/im_anxious_all_the_time_and_im_sick_of_it_13f/
|
WannabeThinLeah
|
I'm anxious all the time and I'm sick of it (13f) I have severe anxiety and emetophobia that makes life soooooooo hard. I can't eat anything without being insanely worried that I'll throw it up. I can't go fun places because of agoraphobia. The only thing that distracts me from my anxiety is cutting myself. I'm sick of being scared and I'm sick of having anxiety. If things don't get better soon I'm going to kill myself.
| 2
| 1,733,016,983
| 4
| 4
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hca9jk/someone_please_talk_to_me/
|
Wanted2069
|
Someone please talk to me It's my birthday and I just want to get my feelings out. I'm all over the place.
| 0
| 1,733,968,400
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hof0jj/72_hour_hold/
|
Warm-Economy-6413
|
72 hour hold Took some pills, ended up in the psych ward. The worst experience of my life.
| 6
| 1,735,419,141
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhigou/im_done/
|
Warm-Log-1290
|
I'm done. I have not been close to anyone my whole life, as if I was viewing the world from a glass box. I make everything awkward and I cant have smooth conversations leading to no one being close with me or knowing me for who I am. I am constantly painfully anxious to the point it's unbearable now. I as a last resort, tried talking to one of my irls about this and they couldn't help at all. I am exhausted and have no future so I'm cutting things short now, I have nothing and no one to live for and no one will care for more than a few weeks anyway.
| 2
| 1,734,574,890
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlr0pn/merry_christmas/
|
Waste-Ad9286
|
Merry Christmas I think I'm done. I'm going to give my dad one good Christmas and down a thing of pills once I get home. I'm so tired of this shit. I'm so fucking tired.
| 6
| 1,735,090,002
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfvfy/the_best_day_ever/
|
Waste_Translator_335
|
The best day ever Today is the day. im gonna slit my throat with a razor. Ive given up a long time ago, and its finally the day i kill myself. I already feel so much better now its going to be over by tonight.
| 5
| 1,733,874,268
| 5
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| 5
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcceeu/i_cant_do_it/
|
WayOk9377
|
i can't do it hey i've never really vented on anything so here it goes, im 15f and want to end it all but i have a family that cares but i just can't do it im ugly and honest too god an asshole and i want to change but i cant its too fucking hard. i blocked everyone on everything and want it to be over, im just scared about what'll happen to my little brothers, and mom. i want to change just don't know how and i know many other people have lives that are worst then mine, i just feel so selfish for feeling like this, like why i have a loving family, but i just don't know why i feel like this.
| 2
| 1,733,975,228
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4h0ne/severe_anxiety_help/
|
Weak-Committee-2484
|
Severe Anxiety. HELP I have probably the worst anxiety you can think of times ten. I am looking for anything to help me function as a normal adult, even if that means getting addicted to something to help. For background, I'm diagnosed with every anxiety disorder (even the debatable ones) and medicated for it. I have adhd as well, so i take adderall everyday for that too. I've tried eliminating that to help, but I have to have it for the adhd. Please help.
| 0
| 1,733,096,280
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9mhad/idk_what_to_do/
|
WeightTasty1460
|
Idk what to do I'm thinking about doing it but maybe I just need to talk to somebody. I called a hotline or two but talking to those people feels like talking to robots. I can hear them typing as we speak. I just want to talk to someone I feel alone. Maybe talking will help. Just to get something's off my chest. Idk what to do
| 0
| 1,733,675,196
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6dr1m/everyone_hates_me/
|
WeirdDreamer420
|
everyone hates me Things at home aren't great, my dog is sick, I fought with my best friend because I'm selfish and I think that my bf is growing tired of me because I'm clingy, annoying and dumb.
I'm so disgusting. I'm useless too and also very fucking stupid. I wish I could delete my existence, I'd do it in a heartbeat.
I haven't been this depressed in a long, long time. Feels weird
| 1
| 1,733,311,242
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 4
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn18z2/i_think_im_only_living_to_see_the_end_of_one_piece/
|
Weirdstuffasked
|
I think I'm only living to see the end of One piece This sounds like a joke but I'm very serious I have theses thoughts of ending it everyday at this point and while the usual thoughts of “but my parents and friends will be hurt” but the thing that actually stops me is that I haven't seen the ending to the anime and manga I've read most my life. I don't see my future or my life in the future or and I just can't keep watching the world at large, it feels the only thing keeping me on earth is the show I love and the escapism I find in it.
| 2
| 1,735,256,118
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hphvwn/whats_the_worse_that_could_happen/
|
West-Swimming4050
|
What's the worse that could happen? Does anyone ever think what the worst (minus stuck in a vegetative state) that could happen if you attempt at least once?
1) I succeed and my suffering ends
2) I don't succeed and I guess I try again or my family is more sympathetic in approaching me
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| 1,735,543,548
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgm00b/why_nobody_understands/
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Western_Photo789
|
Why nobody understands? I decided that I'll try suicide this week. I feel like nobody understands what I'm going trough, even after almost 4 years of depression. But still, I'm afraid. I don't want to die, I want to do it as a way that people will understand all the distress I'm going trough properly. And I don't know a way I can do it without actually dying.
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| 1,734,472,715
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcn6e6/looking_to_sell_a_broken_toothbrush_works_fine/
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Whole_Resolution3699
|
Looking to sell , a broken toothbrush. Works fine. Only been used for 2 years. You can count all the bristles. Anybody need a toothbrush? Best tool a man can get for their teeth. ??
| 0
| 1,734,016,306
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdkjpl/if_life_is_so_precious_then_why_is_an_hour_of_my/
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Wild-Mooose
|
If life is so precious, then why is an hour of my time only worth $14? If life is soooo precious that I should end it all, then why is an hour of my very precious time only worth $14?
| 0
| 1,734,119,182
| 2
| 2
| 1
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| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgoe8d/havent_been_eating_the_last_4_days/
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Willing-Sherbert-525
|
Haven't been eating the last 4 days To tried . For anything
| 1
| 1,734,479,270
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc5qnl/should_i_be_concerned/
|
Witty_Individual1425
|
Should I be concerned? I tried to strangle myself last night first with a cord and then just with my hands. I did this a couple of times but ended up chickening out after a few seconds each time. Now it's the next day and I have an excruciating headache that won't go away. The other symptoms have sort of subsided since this morning like the lightheadedness and brain fog but the headache is definitely still there. Is this a cause for concern? I'm really not sure what to do here and I want to try and avoid going to the hospital if at all possible.
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| 1,733,955,462
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiamqj/im_tired_of_being_alive/
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WonderNo5029
|
I'm tired of being alive I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of going to work every day and acting like I'm not one bad day away from a serious mental breakdown. I'm tired of acting like I'm not angry and depressed all the time.
I hate the holidays. I hate how I have to pretend to like my relatives, especially the ones who are bigots or fine with bigots.
I hate my life in general.
I don't think I can do a day without thinking about killing myself.
| 2
| 1,734,664,731
| 2
| 2
| 2
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpcjc/suicidal/
|
Worried-Kangaroo-
|
Suicidal I drank a 12 pack of beer and took 1600 mgs of diphenhydramine and woke up feeling normal. How? Or is this just death bc I thought for sure it would kill me
| 6
| 1,735,334,636
| 6
| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha6i9w/idk/
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Worried-Staff-6917
|
Idk I'm going to commit suicide in the next 3 hours I'm gonna put the camera on and say some shit Then I'll put the shotgun in my mouth and pull the trigger, it's easy. I feel a little bad for my friend although it's not enough to stop me Btw who would like to see me blow my brains out? My suicide will probably be posted on 4chan or something
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| 1,733,738,708
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| 5
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoygyc/i_should_be_put_down/
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Worth-Flower-9637
|
I should be put down I hate this life I never should have been born
| 2
| 1,735,486,722
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj3ah6/im_ready_to_fucking_die/
|
XboxGamerVH
|
I'm ready to fucking die. I owe too much money to fiends and debits. Just fucking kill me.
| 2
| 1,734,759,485
| 4
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlk5w6/im_starting_to_want_to_kill_myself_but_my/
|
XenoDude2006
|
I'm starting to want to kill myself, but my problems aren't even that big. I wanna die so badly since a few weeks ago. I think the cause is simply school stress and some issues with friends.
It feels so stupid, most people become suicidal over extreme things… getting raped, loosing loved ones, abuse… and here I am, with fucking school work. It feels so fucking dumb to feel so down that all I can think about is just killing myself because of one assignment.
I genuinely see no future for me, and even though everyone has bigger problems than me, I'm still the only one failing. I'm done… but I'll probably end up not doing anything.
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| 1,735,066,926
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfissf/why/
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Xxfra2021xX
|
Why? What's the point of keeping living if you are nothing, all the things were I put my efforts always fail or betray me . Why should i keep living if all i ever get is pain. I'm not important for anyone, I'm no one to basically every person that know me, if I kill myself now in a week they will have already forgotten me. I've reached my limit, I don't wanna end my life but I can't see any other way out of this, I'm not strong enough to keep living
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| 1,734,354,834
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hohv2y/idek/
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YUSS_HyperActive
|
idek i told my mom i wanted to kill myself and the only thing stopping me was God, and if i would go to hell. do you know what she said
“you probably would.”
now 2 years later still living and fearing God, i now use weed to cope for my emotionally absent mom and its only making our relationship worse
idk what to do and i feel hopeless
shes also now threatening to kick me out if i dont stop smoking
| 2
| 1,735,427,127
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjutfi/what_the_duck_i_cracked_2_preliminary_rounds_of/
|
Your_lovely_friend
|
What the duck ! I cracked 2 preliminary rounds of govt exams and I want to die. Life is gloomy and monotonous I hate my life , friends are not available , my family is a cunt, I don't want to live. HELP HELP
| 2
| 1,734,857,673
| 1
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhcl0g/im_not_trying_hard_enough/
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YuriDoggy
|
I'm not trying hard enough I just want to know what wrong with me. I always have some kind of new problems everyday. My psychiatrist thinks it might be undiagnosed ADHD but to get tested for it is rly fucking expensive so if it is ill just have to keep suffering on my own. I just want to experience life without being sad and depressed 24/7. No medication helps at this point and it rly fucking sucks. I just want to finally end it all.
| 0
| 1,734,558,084
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hebnp1/_/
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ZealousidealDesk4696
|
. When I'm askedif I'm fine I say yes but really what I'm feeling is I feel like I'm feeling everything and nothing at once, I feel like I'm hollow and the world is just passing me by, like I've slowed down, when I feel line this I don't feel like brushing my teeth, bathing or doing anything in general I feel like passing away and I don't know how to communicate this with anyone and I feel so ashamed for my feelings because I feel like in their understanding this is a choice and I can choose not to feel like this but I can't and I don't know how to make them understand this.
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| 1,734,207,972
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmnw8r/i_might_have_cancer/
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Zealousideal_Sky1857
|
I might have cancer I might have cancer and it could spread to my brain and kill me. I might let it happen because I really don't have anything left to live for, I also might kill myself before it happens. I suffer with really bad anxiety, my memory is getting worse anyways and I'm susceptible to early onset dementia. I'm a burden to everyone around me, I don't have any friends anymore. I'm 27 years old and I haven't got my license, I quit my job. I'm not planning on getting another job or getting my license. I genuinely don't think I belong here anymore. I'm too sensitive, everything hurts me emotional all the time. The world terrifies me,I don't like leaving the house anymore.
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| 1,735,218,073
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9xbi6/i_attempted_suicide_once_and_may_do_it_again/
|
Zealousideal_Yam_866
|
I Attempted Suicide Once (and may do it again) In February, I began suffering neck pain that would radiate down my shoulders, arms, hands and upper back. Doctors diagnosed me with herniated and degenerative disks, and bone spurs. The pain is unbearable, and even though my treatment was successful, I still have the pain here and there. It drives me up a wall, to the point, where I would hit myself in the head, neck, and back. In the hopes I would be paralyzed. I don't want to live anymore. Nothing makes me happy. Absolutely nothing.
I attempted suicide earlier this year by ingesting sodium nitrate. It was not successful. Tonight, I'm going to try again, this time with a plastic bag over my head. Goodbye.
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| 1,733,704,578
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hefnjv/its_so_hard/
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Zestyclose-Sea-6068
|
It's so hard Life is the worse thing to ever happen to me. I wished I could just disappear and never come back or to have never been existed. People think I am supposed to be happy because I am
Decent looking, working a decent job, have a great support system but yet I feel selfish from feeling the void of living. I feel like I can't seem to learn the competence or purpose of life and it eats me up. Good things just don't happen to me I constantly go through the worse things like someone placed a curse on my life. I'm so lost and I really want to end it all
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| 1,734,219,369
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhhleu/help/
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ZookeepergameEast369
|
help .
| 0
| 1,734,572,195
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5kdyv/why_does_life_suck/
|
Zoopy16
|
Why does life suck? Literally why? Why are some people so lucky and why do others pull their hair daily praying for things to get better?
I've had enough and I can't be the only one.
| 0
| 1,733,221,393
| 0
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xoxr/my_heart_hurts/
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_Fineapple
|
my heart hurts? i'm feeling very unsettled. i'm anxious. my heart has been feeling heavy for a few hours and now it actually hurts. i'm scared to face tomorrow. praying i go to sleep and not wake up
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| 1,733,258,764
| 1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4eurl/idk/
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_S2shapedbox
|
idk i feel neglected by my friends i tried to build a future and a family with and put so much love and trust into
its been days since i canf sleep and i feel like i might actually kill myself i just dont know what ro do anymore
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| 1,733,090,531
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hicmmv/why_is_it_hard_to_cry/
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_ThatAltAcc_
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Why is it hard to cry Crying feels overwhelming but also comforting.
But even if i feel overwhelmed and distressed i still wont cry.
| 0
| 1,734,671,659
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm6yc7/wrote_my_letters12_hours_left/
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_pray-for-mojo_
|
Wrote my letters...12 hours left Made my arrangements. Wrote letters to my kids, ex wife, and ex gf.
Actually visited the mortuary earlier in week and have package picked out.
All ready to go. Wish me luck....
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| 1,735,154,140
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xgrf/i_wish_i_could_snap_my_fingers_and_die_instantly/
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abldr
|
i wish i could snap my fingers and die instantly i have no hope and no future and no purpose for being here and i wish i could wink out of existence and end it
| 2
| 1,733,258,200
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf8wik/help_what_do_i_do/
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acatisstaringatme
|
help what do I do I have no idea what to do I drank at least 5 ml of eye drops because I wanted to die and I've wanted to die for so long but im going to miss my girlfriend and my cats and my family and I don't know what to do I don't want to tell anyone what I did and I don't want to go to the hospital because it'll be expensive and I'll ruin christmas and everyone will be mad at me and my girlfriend will probably break up with me but im already feeling dizzy and I don't know what to do can I just wait it out at home
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| 1,734,315,805
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfq8q1/do_i_go_seek_help/
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achka113
|
Do i go seek help Long story short tried to off my self by inhaling and butane but freaked ouy last second my now i cant feel my right cheek and shoulder
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| 1,734,374,816
| 6
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfqvt/should_i_kill_myself/
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adamsandler194
|
Should i kill myself Should i
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| 1,733,873,900
| 2
| 2
| 4
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h96bl1/lingering_thoughts_of_suicide_again/
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adeline_rose12
|
lingering thoughts of suicide again not much to say. i feel like a depressive episode is starting and idk what to do. not sure what triggered it just feeling abit hopeless and down. the small voice telling me to kill myself is gradually getting louder and louder.
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| 1,733,617,354
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpwegh/hate/
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aiathefrick
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HATE HATE HATE HATE FUCKING HATE THIS FUCKING SPECIES FUCK YOU FUCK EVERYONE JESUS FUCKING CHRIST ALL IVE EVER TRIED TO DO WAS BE A KIND FUCKING PERSON BUT HUMANS ARE FUCKING SADISTIC PIECE OF SHIT AINT NOBODY BETTER WONDER WHY IF I KILL MYSELF THIS WORLD DONT WANT ME ANYWAY THATS BEEN SO CLEAR HOW DARE I BE A FUCKING TRANS PERSON IN AMERICA IN THE TWENTY FIRST CENTURY AND WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL NORMAL NORMAL FUCKING LIFE LIKE EVERYONE FUCKING ELSE I HATE YOU I HATE GOD I HATE EVERY FUCKING THING I DONT HAVE IT IN ME TO BE A FUCKING GOOD PERSON NO MORE FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
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| 1,735,589,916
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| 2
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| 2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ky7w/im_about_to_fucking_kill_myself/
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albiethatoneguy
|
I'm about to fucking kill myself I hate my life so fucking much, I just want someone to talk to and someone who loves me, my entire family is abusive and hate me, and everyone else in life ignores me and treats me like shit. I fucking hate everything about myself and my life, and I AM going to kill myself.
| 2
| 1,733,670,990
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjgovq/whats_so_special_about_life/
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aleatoriaestuda
|
What's so special about life? I mean, why do people fight so hard for living? For most of us, life is nothing but suffering, and still we fight. Why? I can't find a answer these days, I'm gonna die someday anyway, the only difference is that I'm gonna suffer less if I decide to go sooner. Besides religion (that I don't have) and social constructions, life is only worth living for those who are lucky to born in a nice place and meet nice people.
Death is just... death. So what? You wont even see it.
| 1
| 1,734,807,921
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| 2
| 2
| 2
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h656c1/at_the_end_of_my_rope/
|
alinamadeline77
|
At the end of my rope. I was very traumatically fired from a job last july, took another job quickly and had to leave that job due to multiple forms of harassment. I've always struggled with depression but this time it's very different. I'm supposed to get married next year and can't even find any excitement in any of that. All I can think is how my fiance and family would be so much better off if I wasn't born- money wise, don't have to support me emotionally, could find someone better. I'm at the end of my rope.
| 2
| 1,733,278,587
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdy8sx/does_it_actually_get_better/
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alizardtail
|
does it actually get better ? i struggle with severe suicide ideation.
i had written letters to my loved ones, dropped out, deleted all social media accounts, did a ton of research online choosing a suicide method i'd wanna go for. i was SO SURE i was gonna push through with my plans of offing myself.
i don't know why i stayed. and honestly i regret that i didn't push through with my plans. i was so ready.
things are getting better.. it's stopping me from deleting myself but i don't trust it.
i still wanna push through with it.
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| 1,734,163,648
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkedbz/funny_how_im_concerned_ab_the_cost_of_what_im/
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always_afraid_srry
|
Funny how I'm concerned ab the cost of what I'm buying to catch the bus bc I'm so used to doing that Obviously it won't matter afterwards lmao
| 4
| 1,734,922,176
| 0
| 4
| 2
| 2
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hirnz1/need_someone_to_talk_with/
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amoxiefloxie
|
Need someone to talk with I'm 22 old cybersecurity guy. I have full body joint pains due to side effect of an antibiotic that I have taken. I can walk, go outside, go to work, etc, but every day my pain levels increase and a new joint starts to hurt. With this progression I may just be disabled in a month or so. Or maybe will be in chronic pain. Doctors, labs, tests don't see anything wrong, so can't explain it to anyone.
I occasionally think about suicide very seriously. The only reason I haven't done is my family members. Currently I live far from them and haven't yet told them what I'm going through.
| 2
| 1,734,723,065
| 4
| 2
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| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hols4d/lasik_made_things_worse/
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amyt2710
|
Lasik made things worse And I want to die.
| 2
| 1,735,438,811
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmgvb4/its_not_worth_it/
|
anal_og_player
|
It's not worth it. I'd rather have a life full of shit than no life at all.
Every day my brain says end it, but the smarter part says don't you even dare.
Shout out to all the smarter halfs who are still with us and the other halfs who couldn't win the fight.
| 0
| 1,735,187,568
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg3ouo/just_someone_to_talk/
|
andyt_e
|
Just someone to talk Feeling worthless, is there someone to talk?
| 0
| 1,734,413,268
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hauwqr/nobody_is_coming_to_save_me/
|
anonnimoosee
|
nobody is coming to save me i wish i had one person that remained as a constant in my life but i don't and i never will
i wish my loneliness was a choice but it imposed on me the second i was born
the people who were supposed to love me the most gave me unbearable trauma and isolated me from the world
i can't make friends am struggling in college just got broken up with the only person i had
my life has run its course
i should have been dead at 7 when i first started feeling like i don't want to be here
| 1
| 1,733,809,388
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnnvfl/wow_might_actually_get_my_wish/
|
anonymiscreant9
|
Wow, might actually get my wish I'm showing signs of congestive heart failure. Always knew I'd eat myself to death, just didn't know it would happen so early. Ah well, good riddance to me anyway. Maybe I'll finally have some peace.
| 2
| 1,735,330,702
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp5y5b/is_it_weird_to_want_to_just_wake_up_in_a_hospital/
|
anonymous_whatever7
|
Is it weird to want to just wake up in a hospital one day? Of course it is, but does anyone else ever consider outcome? I'm just here to seek validation to be honest, but I feel like if I'm not **forced** to talk about my problems I never will be able to. Haven't properly eaten in a few days, I hope fatigue gets to me, anything, I don't care. Please tell me I'm not the only one, that's the only thing I want right now. I know I'm not, but please tell me I'm not.
| 0
| 1,735,506,667
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfe34v/im_tremendously_tired/
|
anonymouslyjaded
|
I'm tremendously tired I just don't know if anything is worth it anymore. I have struggled with depression my entire life. This summer, I learned I have two chronic and incurable hereditary diseases. I have struggled with my body image my whole life. Essentially I learned that, on account of these disorders, I will likely look disgusting always, despite diet and exercise, and might be in physical pain one day. This information is really putting me over the edge. I have barely been managing to keep myself together as it is. I don't know if I can deal with my body breaking down on top of it all. I just wish I could go to bed and never wake up.
| 1
| 1,734,334,941
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi5lc4/i_wish_i_had_terminal_cancer/
|
anotheruser345
|
I wish I had terminal cancer I just wish I had a terminal illness such as cancer so I didn't have to actively try and end my life. It would bring me so much comfort knowing I was going to die soon from an illness, I hate my life.
| 2
| 1,734,649,059
| 1
| 4
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7w9wq/navigating_therapy/
|
archiesfinalstream
|
Navigating Therapy How can I word my suicidal and homicidal thoughts to my therapist without being put in a straitjacket and on lithium? Posting here because it's "too triggering" on r/mentalhealth .
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| 1,733,471,155
| 2
| 2
| 3
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlc3bi/hey_pals_just_need_a_few_words_if_thats_alright/
|
arcmat1
|
hey pals. just need a few words if that's alright been fighting the good fight this year. trying my god damned hardest to heal and stand on my own, and i think i've made a lot of progress.
but another wave is coming up, i feel it very deeply, and i know i know i can do on my own, i would just like to ask for some help. because i dont know how to do that usually. always felt like a burden.
so. could i please ask for some love..? it's really rough out here and i'm struggling
| 0
| 1,735,041,375
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgmw07/i_just_quit_my_job_and_tried_to_end_my_own_life/
|
armsdramatizations
|
I just quit my job and tried to end my own life Like it says in the title, I just walked out of my job that I hated and tried to strangle myself. As it turns out, I'm too scared to die. Now I'm unemployed and am in an even worse situation than I was. I don't really know where to go from here, and I know if I tell anyone I'll probably get sent to a psyche ward.
| 6
| 1,734,475,062
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h82lko/hold_my_hand/
|
ashestoashes09
|
hold my hand as much as i want to cb, i would love if someone held my hand while i was taking my last breaths and guiding me through the passing. i know it'd never happen but it's a nice thought.
| 0
| 1,733,495,434
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 3
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he4rzk/i_feel_like_dying_daily/
|
at_lolita
|
I feel like dying daily. I'm a young female and ... Idk why I feel like I'm already dead mentally just moving physically with people whom I hate. Idk is it normal or not but hatred is the top most feeling I feel constantly on daily basis towards people,stuff, everything. Don't know what to say further my thoughts are pretty blurry rn.
| 2
| 1,734,188,766
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqzdr/is_this_just_my_normal/
|
authenticwallflower
|
Is this just my normal? I have wanted to die for as long as I can remember. Is this just going to be my normal? Will I ever wake up one day and not wish I was dead? Meds and therapy have not been much help. I mean, I'm still here, so I guess they \*have\* worked some, but not enough to be able to like being alive.
| 2
| 1,734,608,075
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhkn8t/im_tired_of_feeling_everything_so_deeply_all_the/
|
azteraite
|
I'm tired of feeling everything so deeply all the time Everything that happens to makes me feel extremely, and moving constantly between these are killing me, the people around me aren't particularly supportive and it makes living every day feel like hell, I'm tired of being seen as emotional, it always feels like I have invisible bricks on my chest preventing me from feeling or being normal. And every scar I caused myself reminds me even more that this life isn't worth suffering for, I probably won't get anything in the end.
| 1
| 1,734,582,031
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 2
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8zj08/can_someone_please_talk_to_me/
|
balkanskiexpress
|
can someone please talk to me? Im sick and tired of being alone, to the point im almost ready to kms.
| 2
| 1,733,598,101
| 4
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkhyay/i_dont_know_what_is_wrong_with_my_brain/
|
bananapuddingggg
|
i don't know what is wrong with my brain ive realized from a few parties this holiday season that i can not socialize and i rely on my boyfriend to start conversations. when we were walking home he said that i am immature compared to the other women. I am 21 and finishing my degree. i feel discouraged.
| 0
| 1,734,935,677
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn7av3/i_should_have_died_long_ago/
|
batmanwhoissad
|
I should have died long ago I narrowly escaped a bike crash when I was 18, now i'm 25 and I still wish that i should have dies that day. I'm nothing but a waste of time, space, money and resources.
| 1
| 1,735,275,248
| 1
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoyo8r/i_just_need_someone_to_check_in_on_me/
|
bee_is_me_
|
I just need someone to check in on me I'm getting back in the gutter again, it feels like nothing is going right. I had a friend from redit who ended up removing me out of nowhere and now I don't know who to go to. I have people in real life but no one I'm comfortable enough to talk about this with. I really just need someone to know what's going through my head.
| 0
| 1,735,487,298
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6prxa/will_3500_of_paracetamol_do_anything_or_not/
|
bellarlambert
|
will 3500 of paracetamol do anything or not ??
| 3
| 1,733,342,923
| 5
| 5
| 4
| 5
| 3
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmfdmf/merry_christmas/
|
bigbearbearwantfood
|
Merry Christmas If nobody told you today, Merry Christmas from me. It sucks out here, I am going through intense emotions. This life is not okay.
| 0
| 1,735,182,100
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h615rf/i_dont_know_why_but_i_wanna_kill_myself/
|
bigmanzbalz666
|
I don't know why but I wanna kill myself I've got good shit going in life. I've got a good girlfriend, I got cool shit, I'm wanting to be a mechanic after I finish school. But I can't get a job no matter how hard I try, I get mad at the littlest things, I've had alot of fucked up shit happen to me in the passed, and I don't think anyone in my life really wants me to be around except for my girlfriend. Am I over reacting?
| 2
| 1,733,267,448
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlphaz/i_am_begging_god_to_please_kill_me_asap_or_give/
|
birdbandb
|
I am begging God to please kill me asap or give me the strength to finally do it after decades of depression and unbearable life circumstances. Tried. Failed. Forced to suffer. Please let my Christmas wish be granted. This is beyond cruel anymore. It doesn't get better for me. I accept it. Please let me out of this unbearable hell.
| 4
| 1,735,084,273
| 4
| 6
| 4
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hin16p/feeling_suicidal/
|
biryaniblues
|
Feeling suicidal Throwaway account!
I've ruined my only good relationship.
I feel suicidal without him.
| 2
| 1,734,710,752
| 2
| null | 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8i4as/damaged/
|
blackpilledsingledad
|
damaged I've Lost interest on everything, i reached the point of no return. At least for me it feels like it. When i go outside and i see normal happy people, i wish i was them. I just want some happiness in my life. Every night i just get drunk af and contemplate suicide. But somehow i don't do it. I guess is because i'm too coward to do it.
| 2
| 1,733,537,454
| 2
| 4
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfuvk/i_want_to_blow_my_fucking_head_off/
|
blackredditor47
|
I want to blow my fucking head off .
| 4
| 1,733,874,221
| 4
| 3
| 4
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4uwcv/im_talking_to_a_guy_on_grindr_and_thinking_about/
|
bobsmithreddit4645
|
I'm talking to a guy on grindr and thinking about letting him do things because I'm depressed and feel like I need to be used and "punished" please talk me out of this I'm a 41m btw so it's not like I'm being some dumb teenager I'm being a dumb middle aged guy why am I like this?
| 0
| 1,733,145,949
| 0
| 0
| 2
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h551we/i_failed_and_no_one_was_there/
|
bozroi
|
I failed and no one was there Do you have any idea how gutting it is to try to end your life only to find out nobody checked on you in those hours you were fighting to survive? That's what I've just experienced, and fuck, I'm so upset. Not a single person checked on me through anything. Even afterwards — nothing.
I want to try again. I'm so alone. I'm so so alone. I don't have anyone. I'm gutted . I can't survive alone like this so what's the point of surviving in the first place?
| 6
| 1,733,171,782
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hagqbe/symptoms/
|
buriedstars
|
symptoms i took hella ibuprofen last night trying to kms. is a fever a sign that this is going to work out for me or has it been too long for anything to be a sign that it's going to work out for me? thanks
| 6
| 1,733,769,278
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h61nrz/in_my_heart_i_truly_feel_like_a_therapist_wouldnt/
|
cadette-q
|
In my heart I truly feel like a therapist wouldn't even care. that's it
| 0
| 1,733,268,767
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbqe19/dont_ever_overdose/
|
cakeloverisright
|
Don't ever overdose At 4:00 I took 40 500 mg advil 1 hr later I threw up blood my insides feel like they will explode if you read this pls don't overdose
| 6
| 1,733,912,085
| 6
| 6
| 6
| 0
| 6
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h69icu/why_do_i_have_these_thoughts/
|
calfaro33
|
Why do I have these thoughts? I don't see a point in continuing to try if the pain is constant. But I almost feel too depressed and to scared to actually follow through whenever the opportunity arises.
| 2
| 1,733,292,780
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha93fg/im_alive_for_my_students_but_thats_abt_it/
|
calfred_
|
I'm alive for my students but that's abt it I don't want any parents having to explain to their kids that I died, and that's why I won't be there to hug them in the mornings when they get to school. If I can't make myself happy at least I can make my preschoolers smile and enjoy coming to school everyday.
Idk why I'm writing this. Ig because I'm not gonna talk abt it to anyone else, so might as well just shout it into the void lol
| 2
| 1,733,748,959
| 4
| 1
| 2
| 1
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj532p/im_on_the_fence_about_committing_suicide/
|
cassy1q
|
Im on the fence about committing suicide I really just want to talk to someone
| 2
| 1,734,767,124
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoap6r/i_got_drunk_and_told_my_friend_i_wanted_to_kill/
|
catfish_circumcsisor
|
I got drunk and told my friend I wanted to kill myself Just now getting up from a fucked night title sums it up I really fucked myself with this one I'm shaking I don't know what to fucking do I'm so fucking stupid
| 2
| 1,735,407,453
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl9gx4/help/
|
catramybeloved
|
help I need help I just don't know who to ask ive tried messaging holiness numbers but my messages aren't going through don't know who to ask
| 0
| 1,735,029,683
| 0
| 0
| 1
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7vf9l/the_only_reason_i_havent_killed_myself_yet_is/
|
cattpawz
|
The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm scared to fail It feels pathetic. I just want everything to stop. But if I don't suceed, than I have to live with the consequences of that. It's a catch-22.
And I know no one ever said life is supposed to be fair, but... It's not fucking fair. I'm tired.
| 2
| 1,733,467,561
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbek6g/understanding_suicidal_thoughts_through/
|
cbsz
|
Understanding Suicidal Thoughts Through Reading/Researching Hi,
What are some books or resources you've read or are currently exploring to better understand the basis of your suicidal thoughts? Whether it's through physiological or psychological perspectives, has diving into the cognitive foundations of your thoughts been helpful for you?
| 0
| 1,733,870,674
| 0
| 0
| 2
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hju4pa/why_is_it_so_hard/
|
cg_dg
|
why is it so hard I've been wanting to commit suicide for months now, the marks are subsiding but my life isn't getting any better, my life is shit, my social relationships are shit, i lost alot of sleep, i just really want to escape this fucked up society or just feel something
| 2
| 1,734,854,353
| 2
| 2
| 2
| 4
| 2
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmiu4q/the_only_person_i_really_loved_told_me_how_much/
|
chahu97
|
The only person I really loved told me how much pain I caused I don't want to live longer. I have felt this for a long time but today I really want to execute my duties. I am a narcissist. I suck away happiness from people. I bring sadness. Nothing can be undone. I deserve to die and be out of everyone's life. I don't see a future. They told me I was hard to love.
I don't wish to live in a world where there is no place for me.
| 2
| 1,735,195,344
| 4
| 4
| 5
| 4
| 4
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hps2m6/sigh/
|
cheesy_anon
|
Sigh I have been improving a lot in the last two years. But holy fuck, i am tired. So fucking tired
| 0
| 1,735,578,879
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 1
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqh0n/i_am_a_29_year_old_loser_yet_i_am_not_suicidal/
|
cinammon54
|
I am a 29 year old loser yet I am not suicidal. What is wrong with me? I feel guilty. I have got no job no career. I have engineering degree from a low-rung college with below-average grades.i take medication for mental health issues. Sometimes I feel like I am faking my health problems. Then I try to act normal like I used to before problems. But I always end up tired acting and pretending and the cycle repeats. Doctors wont take post covid vaccine syndrome seriously. Does anybody feel like they are faking health problems?
| 0
| 1,734,605,990
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
| 0
|
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hase4z/im_going_to_die_anyway/
|
citykittymeowmeow
|
I'm going to die anyway It literally doesn't matter.
"Oh no, what about your friends and family??"
I have one friend. She'll survive. My fiancé doesn't even like me. He will probably be happy. No family lol.
It's literally so stupidly unimpactful. I will be so annoyed if someone tries to tell me my life matters. It factually doesn't. People die every day. I've been RUINED since I was ten years old. There is literally no point, I don't contribute anything positive to this planet. I just want to die and disappear and that's okay and allowed. Fuck anyone who says anything different. I can die tonight and you wouldn't know the difference 🤙 and I don't give a fuck I want this to END.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgntno/theres_nothing_left_to_live_for/
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there's nothing left to live for i just lost the reason why i kept living. everything i know and love feels like it's been shattered beyond repair, and i want nothing more than my reason to hug me and comfort me. i was promised a future together, and it seems so rocky. i hate myself. i hate myself so much. i always fuck up. and now i'm losing everything again. i need fo learn when to give up. when to accept that im a lost cause. he will never love me the way i love him.
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