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i am already diagnosed with OCD and i am 100 % sure that i have BDD but the symptoms are literally the same as ocd's symptoms, i obsess over whether i am ugly or attracrive, i compulsively check my face in the mirror for a long time until it feels even and it takes a looooooooot of my time, extreme fear of being perceived as ugly, reassurance seeking 24/24 .... if this is not ocd idk what it is
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Hey all!
I've been on Adderall IR 5mg for the past couple months, taken it most days. I recently had an injury that I took muscle relaxers for, and stopped taking the adderall (those and muscle relaxers don't mix). I didnt even think much of it until yesterday, when a horrible headache hit me like a train. I took a small bit yesterday to stave off some of the withdrawal effects. Today seems better so far (but still not great). Does anyone have any experience with this? If so, how long I can expect this to last, without taking more adderall?
Thanks, I hope you're all doing great!
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I'm currently being treated for PTSD after an assault earlier this year. Last week I managed to go further than the corner shop across the road by myself (in daylight) for the first time in months. I really felt like I was making progress.
These past few days the Sarah Everard case has been so triggering, but I feel like I can't look away. I'm absolutely terrified. I feel like I will never ever be safe and there's nothing I can do to keep safe. Even in my own home I'm scared, I live in flat share and last week my flatmate brought a stranger home who assaulted her. When does this end? It just feels like I'm in hell.
Every time I think I'm making progress something happens and my fears are confirmed. I'm so frightened not just for myself but for all women. I just want it to stop.
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So a couple years back I used to cyber sex on this website called Omegle. I know this is weird and messed up but now I’m freaking out thay maybe I talked to somebody way too young. I was 16 when I did this and I’m scared a video will come out with me and a little girl and everyone will hate me even tho I have no memories of this. I’m also developing false memories of this happening. Is it ocd?
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Going through some fairly big life changes all at once. In the last couple months I've:
1. Been diagnosed with Adult AD&D and prescribed Ritalin (was also diagnosed in my teens)
2. Separated from my wife.
3. Started a very demanding, stressful job, that is a phenomenal opportunity and keeps me distracted from #2.
4. (Mostly) stopped drinking. I still have a couple drinks on weekends but nothing like the 2-3 a night I had before.
5. Trying really hard to quit smoking cigarettes.
Just to be clear, I've been an occasional smoker for a long time (a few a week), and never a heavy smoker, but #1-#3 has made me start smoking half a pack a day for the past couple months. I feel like its the Ritalin more than anything triggering my fiending since my cravings are stronger than anything until it wears off. This doesn't go away even after 2-3 days and distracts me from my job so I end up relapsing.
Really just want to get back on my feet and in a healthy routine. Anyone else go through a similar experience and successfully quit?
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I(36M) have lived my entire life being different and masking the best I can. Growing up with 2 parents who didn’t believe in these “new excuses” for “naughty boys” meant I had to learn to adapt the best I could.
Finally, I’ve taken the decision to reach out to my Dr to start medication for ADHD. The truth is, I’ve heard so many horror stories from friends and other places that I’m pretty terrified that they’re going to change the person I am.
Did anyone else go through this? What changes to myself should I expect?
Thanks in advance
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Idk if anyone knows the science behind this question...however, I had a really rough night and am struggling. I just want to make it stop...
(And yes I am in therapy and on meds)
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So Vyvanse for me seems to make me more motivated but a bit disoriented on where to direct that motivation, I still struggle with procrastination at home but at school, I am more focused and productive. It speeds my brain up rather than calm it. It makes me more anxious and angry too, and a bit depressed. It also feels like it makes me a bit dumber too like my thinking is a bit more scrambled. Is this normal? Will this go away? It's only been my third day on it and people do report it starts working after a couple of weeks, but they usually report different side effects. I'm not sure if I should switch meds yet. I still have a lot of adhd symptoms like bad working memory, slow processing speed, and whatever causes you to misplace things. Will this get better?
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I apologize for venting so much. It's just that all my life I've been mostly told I am just bratty and don't actually have OCD and now seeing that even OCD's are usually much more humane then mine was I have to vent. It all started when I was 5 and it started as a game (a fun game even) evolving over the years.
My OCD made porn of me and my parents and even of my grandmothers pussy and wet dreams of my mom 6 times and this is my OCD at 1% of power. At 100% I wouldn't be able to even be here since it banned me computer and internet. My OCD literally made me think almost everything was Hell it somehow managed to make mundane things like MLP, Doctor Who fairytales anything from my childhood any place from my childhood any other TV shows (bar anime it didn't hate it that much), any game bar Nintendo, Minecraft, TF2 and Mega man 11 which I neo worshipped mostly Nintendo and Minecraft but of coarse it banned me from even thinking about those games led alone playing them, it even banned me from thinking about my made up video games all this for 15+ months my ultimate passion the biggest light in my life even if I didn't yet make anything of them irl bar few drawings they are the reason unless you ban me from thinking about them if I am punished from using my electronics I will always be happy. It made me do rituals that were so big and impossible I literally had to act like I did them superfast just cause the laws of time literally didn't allow so much time to do the rituals. Upon seeing any of these things I had to go on my YouTube and play exact videos it chose in the right order with the right timing and right thoughts in my head, this prolonged to 6 and a half hours per one ritual cause even though the ritual itself lasts for 10-20 minutes I'd always see something else horrible prompting me to do the rituals again and again till I somehow managed to get to the last video alright and be free . . . for maybe half an hour tops when I'd see something "from Hell" again and repeat. Then even when not doing it I had to stack my thoughts correctly almost every single second of my waking life in correct combination with the right numbers (for example if I did something 7 times that number was forbidden so I'd do it for a 100 times sometimes like touching something or my classmate) with even the right divisions and multiplications of the numbers with the right sensation (had to feel a feeling "right" in combination with these things) with the right moves even had had to say those thoughts sometimes (honestly felt zero shame when I mumbled those things in public but it's quite an impossible tongue twister especially when you add everything else to it all at once all the time). My OCD would make me think I am something so bad that lets say if I raped my mom I would have committed much less of a sin any time I slightly failed in ANY of these departments until I did it again right and it would make harder rituals for me to pay up. It made me hate next to everything as already mentioned, this led me to think I am something akin to Jesus thinking everyone else was undeniable scum and that I am just doing all of these thing to make up for their sins, remind you of someone? (my OCD didn't let me think I am Jesus since to it made up things akin to a newborns imaginations are retarded shit thinking here about any religion). It also made me make others do it's rituals which is how I broke up with many of my friends including my best friend ): The rest I got rid of after my OCD convincing me they are scum. At it's height I could not go outside, I could not look right since I'd see anything bad prompting the before mentioned results, I could not even look right at my own house people made fun of me for this but I could give less fuck like "Who'd think about that scum?" I got into much issues in school first for my OCD always making me late then with my OCD making me unable to be in school for over 5 minutes before running home to do my OCD rituals, like at it's height I'd literally get out from class and go home to do the rituals my parents freaked out my teachers freaked out cause I could have been expelled for it hell ran so fast I almost got ran over few times. Otherwise to walk out of class like that would be unimaginable for me just like how touching my fathers dick was unimaginable for me until it made me do it multiple times back when I was 13 ugh. It also made me touch my mom though thank God nothing that severe like just the boobs and in her lower abdomen (it also made me touch my old best friend there but that was not how my OCD K.O'd our friendship despite it being so bad to him for me to touch him so close to his dick) It also made me lick trash cans and even the toilet seat many times the sink. It made me gulp when I was sick just to hurt my throat. It made me confess everything to my parents even crushes. It made me live with many other rules I don't have the time to list here. It made me get up and do rituals even in class. It also made me touch unknown people causing many awkward scenarios to say the least(some even wanted to beat me). It also prolonged me not learning how to fed, cloth and bathe myself till I was get this 14-15 (my mom di it for me till then). While not 100% my OCD's fault I still think it could be another one of it's misdeeds somehow like how I blindly listened to it and I listened to it when it said learning to do those things was not important. To top all of this I literally thought my OCD was a deity beyond God and even in 8th grade when I hated myself I viewed my OCD as the one good thing about myself while it was literally the cause of 99% of my problems. Oh and I hated myself so hard cause I could not think about games I was happy my dad didn't show up for junior graduation cause I didn't deserve it anyway. I believed everything it made me do and made me make others do was for the greater good hence why I followed it so blindly. It's literally depersonalization, it tried to erase all of my friends, family, passions, personality and happiness so that I'd just live to be it's puppet and Hell it managed to for awhile. I am sorry but compered to that raping people close to you doesn't seem that bad (I mean it would probably make me do that eventually). I literally don't think there is a way to mentally torture that my OCD hasn't already done to me. I don't even know how to make friends led alone be a relationship cause of it since I forgot how it beat it out of me ):): I wish it just had a few themes not leeching to EVERYTHING and I wish I was less gullible to follow it's sick fuck so blindly.
When you try to hold a holy crest against it the crest dissolves.
When you try to throw Holy water at him it evaporates.
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basically the title. I know google says 12 hours but i want your guys’ actual insight. I’ve always had horrible sleep habits, recently started adderall and with college morning classes it’s been a nightmare (no pun intended). OTC melatonin stopped working as well. I drink orange juice and take vitamin c a few hours before bed but it doesn’t help enough.
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The title.
I'm getting help but my next appointment is in 2 weeks so I need to know.
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⚠️⚠️ TW mention of blood ⚠️⚠️
This june, I had a scary accident due to zoning off that pushed me to seek professional help and AD(H)D diagnosis. I have always zoned out during conversations and even driving. Nothing so serious that I would seek professional help. However, this june, the worst possible happened. I was making food and took my immersion blender out. I had already plugged it on and turned to watch the blades when I completely zoned out. I put my finger in the blades and pressed turbo mode. I snapped back when my finger had made a couple of rounds in the immersion blender. The scene was, of course, straight from a horror movie; the kitchen walls were covered in blood and I won’t even start with what my finger looked. I got to keep my finger, but the accident just doesn’t leave me alone. Now I’m more afraid than ever to zone out uncontrollably. Has anyone else had really bad accidents due to zoning out? How do you deal with the fear of zoning in the wrong situations?
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Hi, I’m a 26 year old guy and I’ve been living a lie for a couple of years now, I dropped out of college in 2017 because of anxiety, I was just too shy for class and it made me feel so anxious that I eventually just stopped going as a whole. Ever since I’ve dropped out I’ve basically dropped out of society as a whole, I spend the whole day in bed and It’s been like that for years now…I’ve isolated myself from my friends and family as well. My friends and family have labeled me selfish and they think that that I’ve chosen the life of “friends and partying” when the truth is I can’t even bring myself to leave my apartment, I’m so anxious that I get scared when I hear a knock on the door, I’m scared of leaving my apartment to take a walk to get some sun because I feel like everyone is judging me. I feel like everyone in my complex watches my every move hence why I can’t even sit outside. I’ve deteriorated so much that I’m constantly thinking about suicide, constantly thinking about the most pain free way to go out…I’ve been in this vicious cycle so long that I don’t even see a way out. I lied to my mother who’s been funding my studies about graduating twice and now I’m lying about being employed when I’m not. The only thing I do is eat and sleep, showering and getting haircuts seem like a near impossible task to complete…I can’t talk to anyone because my whole life is a lie, I’m Alienated and I’m at a point where I feel like my only option is suicide…everything that can go wrong has gone wrong in my life and it’s mostly because of this demon called anxiety…I’ve been isolated so long that I’ve developed erectile dysfunction, constant chest pains, I struggle with sleeping because my mind is always racing and I blame myself for my current state. So all in all I dropped out of college and about it and my life has never been the same ever since. The only time I sleep peacefully is when I take a trip to the pharmacy to buy codein…I wish I could drink it and never wake up. I hate the codein but I love the numb.
Please help me.
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I’ll go first. “I was gonna do (insert thing here) but then I sat down for a second”45min after you were planning on doing whatever it was. Gets me every time. Anyone I’ve ever said this to who doesn’t have adhd looks at me like I have 2 heads or something like “what do you mean you sat down. I know but you should’ve either only sat down for a min or 2.. it’s been like Almost an hour, get your ass up”
Where as if I say that to someone with ADHD they just give me a “Mhm, yep 😐 well makes sense,” *Sits down aswell and proceeds to do the same* like it’s really annoying.
But what’s your like “It’s a valid excuse to someone who has and understands adhd, but to everyone else it’s the most ludicrous and redlicous “excuse” ever”?
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Hello,
Im drunk and im currently having a very bad depression episode.
Is anyone here i can talk to even for a while? Im sorry to bother just crying so much
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That’s one of my biggest issues and the reason I don’t often enjoy socialising, because it can sometimes feel like I’m just playing a game of “don’t fuck up” which makes the whole thing feel pointless.
Most Other people seem to know where the boundary lies and can ride along it, while I end up transgressing it unintentionally so often.
When I try to let loose and go wild like others say at parties etc I tend to overstep the boundary and cause issues, so it leads me to be mild and cautious, but as I said that’s boring as fuck.
What do you guys do?
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I've been feeling pain where my heart is around the time that I became aware that my body was asymmetrical because of it (I'm aware it's a strange thing to be uncomfortable about). It's been around a week or two and I expected it would have gone away by now but it seems to be getting worse. Just wondering if anyone else has been in a similar situation before.
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I’m having a hard day. I keep staying up till 2am because I actually have energy and motivation at this time, but I cannot act on it because I would wake everyone in the house. So instead, I plan for the next day and all the fun/cool things I’m gonna do. I genuinely feel like I’ll be motivated the next day, but of course I’m exhausted and slept in too late. Rinse and repeat.
It doesn’t seem to matter if I sleep in though, it’s just always super hard to get out of bed.
I did DO allot of stuff today that I’ve been meaning to, but I just felt more tired after doing them. I even played my guitar for a bit and just felt drained. It makes me very sad because then I hesitate to actually do these hobbies I love. I seem to only get dopamine when I imagine myself doing stuff I want to do. OR when I have other obligations I suddenly want to do everything I’ve been putting off.
I’m medicated, but it’s Dexedrine. Maybe I should go back to Adderall? Idk, the lack of physical drive is getting old. I seem to only feel better when I’m gonna go somewhere, but if I’m just at home and have no obligations I start to feel very depressed.
Can anyone relate or share some advice ?
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Does anyone else suffer with feeling like you’re watching yourself through your eyes like it’s a cinema? I feel like im in the Truman show and in a simulation sometimes and that nothing feels real
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As someone who has been on multiple medications and has done ketamine treatments, I gotta say this thing I did really allowed me to calm down.
So first of all, these past few days I’ve been feeling horrible dread. Thinking I was going to die at any moment and that every moment is filled with ocd horribleness. So I went to my bed and just laid down and tried to just breathe through the horribleness.
Usually when I get into this state of absolute fear I do techniques but they never seemed to help. But as weird as it sounds I gave in to the thoughts. I gave in and let the thoughts happen.
Of course it was horrible, but I then remembered a Carl Yung quote: “What you resist, persists.”
So I surrendered to the multiple thoughts of “Im going to die a very painful death” and just let them be. I was watching them for a while thinking this suffering is going to last the rest of my life. But as it feels now, Im doing better, feeling better, and now I don’t feel like Im going to die to that extreme.
I hope this helps someone. Give in to your thoughts and watch them play out.
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Do you ever have a great day and then it gets knocked off its rocker? The medicine is working, you’re getting chores done throughout the day with your significant other, went to go get Sonic drinks before cooking together but something just *snaps* and it’s like every little thing is just sensory overload. And i can never figure out what sets me off.
It got so bad that I had to call into work because the thought of going to work was overwhelming in itself.
I felt so good today like I had a good handle on things but now I’m laying on the couch just tired.
I explained to my partner that it is like trying to walk on a tightrope and juggle things, being regular tasks, and someone is throwing things at you while you’re on the rope.
Does anyone ever feel that way?
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I have never thought i had OCD.
But my compulsions of regularly checking and excessive worries say otherwise and have been diagnosed by a professional.
However my perfectionism comes from my PTSD, where i have grown up to believe that I was a monster and a terrible person so ever since I've been obsessive about making sure I do the right thing and ofcourse deeply fear If i've ever done anything terrible.
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When I was younger before all of the trauma, I never had any obsessive thoughts. But after I went through everything I am checking and double checking everything and that is OCD?
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Is this something you can develop?
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I often have obsessive thoughts about arranging things or routine that go along the lines of: do this or you’ll never be happy. I feel incredibly uncomfortable until I do the thing my mind is telling me to do. Idk what to do as I currently have no access to therapy as I just moved so I need advice
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I know every med affects everyone differently but does anybody know if, generally speaking, a particular med causes no to little nausea? I am really struggling here with that. Concerta 54 mg currently. It causes general nausea and loss of appetite which causes more nausea. That’s really bad because due to a previous procedure if I go too long without food I’ll start violently vomiting and it puts me out of commission for days. I’ve also been rapidly losing weight in a bad way. I’ll be calling my doctor on Monday about all of this but I was hoping for some insight I might be able to bring to the table? If there isn’t any way to take ADHD meds without nausea and weight loss, what are your tips to handle that?
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I notice in movies I always seem to understand better and faster why someone did/said x or y or felt certain way whereas in real life it takes me more time to decipher what happened and then to decipher why something was done or said a certain way
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Hi, I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD due to a series of different situations, mainly because of sexual assault, emotional abandonment and abortion.
I truly feel like i’m living my own hell because I can’t stop having the flashbacks at day and nightmares at night.
How to cope with the flashbacks? Are there any techniques you use to cope?
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I’m miserable in my relationship of 7 years, but I would rather die than hurt someone so badly. Thinking about ending it all.
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i HATE holding hands, or anything to do with hands tbh. my hands start tingling whenever i touch someone’s hands, i’ll feel really icky and want to use hand sanitizer/wash my hands almost immediately. i’m really not sure why
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First off hello everyone! I am new here!! I joined this reddit with the sole purpose of trying to help everybody.
[BEWARE LONG POST, BUT EXTREMELY HELPFUL]
I wanted to share something extremely useful to people with OCD (from mild to severe cases.) There is an amazing book out there called "Brain Lock. " It is scientific proven to help you fix the chemical imbalances that cause OCD and the hyper activity in your brain. (Which also contributes to OCD) On the back of the book it shows a brain scan. One with no OCD and one with. If you've ever seen a brain scan, there is colors inside the brain on the scan. In this case the yellow colors represent mild activity and the super red represents LOTS of activity. The one without has a few blobs of colors here and there. Mostly yellow with maybe a super light orange speck. The one with OCD has a HUGE blob located in the front of the brain. It has lot of dark red in it with a few yellowish red blobs sprinkled throughout the brain. (I will share pictures)
This my friends is the hyper activity occuring in our brains. OCD is caused by chemical imbalances and the hyper activity in the frontal lobe, causing our brain to overheat.
Why am I telling you this?
This lovely book I'm about to go more in depth about with not only help balance out the imbalances about will REWIRE your whole brain. The picture beside the inital brain scans, show another brain scan. This time focusing more on the rCd aspect. The more rcD evident, the more activity and OCD you have. (I'll show pics again) The first pic is before the use of this book. It's a pretty decent size. After the use of this book and with no aid of drugs, the blob went 3/4 sizes SMALLER! What does this mean? Can you get to the chase already?!
"Brain Lock" https://imgur.com/a/PM0qs3P
(Image is in this magical link~)
In basic words there is hope for YOU.
My dad had an extremely bad case of OCD. He was often ostracized in schoolbecause of the "rituals" he had to do with the school light switches. In high school or had only gotten worse. It was life debilitating for him. He couldn't do anything. He took OCD pills and that only made it worse. (This was back in the 80s-90s mind you. OCD medicince is a lot better now.) It ravaged his whole body and made him jolt so badly he looked like he was being electrocuted. The only thing he was left to do was cry and wish be could end it all. I'm sure many of you (me included) have felt this way at some point, maybe even now. He bought this book a few years later and after training his brain he's OCD went from being a 10 on one to ten scale, to a 2. He now has a family and is better than ever. He never once thought he'd ever find anybody who cared, let alone a whole family.
To make this long story a bit shorter all he did was follow these 4 Steps. Let's call them the 4 Rs:
-RELABEL: Identify what's actually real and what's OCD. That's when you say: "it's not me, it's my OCD. "
-REATTRIBUTE: You must acknowledge that these urges that you feel are only false signals from your brain. Nothing more. Think of it scientifically!
-REFOCUS: Be constructive. This is the hardest part, trust me I know. This is where you need to do something that makes you shift your attention off the OCD and into something you like to do for fun. Even if you driving gets your mind off it, DO IT! Going out side helps me a lot.
-REVALUE: This is essentially your end result. This is where you eventually will automatically be able to tell youself: "That's just a senseless obsession. It's a false message. I'm going to focus my attention on something else!
Follow these steps and your OCD will lower SIGNIFICANTLY, maybe even go dormaint. Not only is my dad living proof but also the many testimonials in the book. If he can do it, you can too. I know for me, I always thought "oh it works for him but I'm different, I'm another exception etc. It won't work for me. " I was wrong. I've been using this book and I'm healing. I just started but I am learning a lot.
SO THIS LEADS TO MY FINAL THOUGHT...
If you like OCD help/advice without spending a buck, please follow and message me! I will be more than happy to share some information to you! Just please let me know.
ONE MORE THING...
this is for you. . .
*hugs* ヾ(＾-＾)ノ❤
--goodbye and I'm sending lots of love your way~❤
(note: I'm not trying to promote anything. I'm just trying to share something helpful! If I broke the rules in anyway, I apologize.i just wanted to let everyone know that there is hope for them.)
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You’ve probably developed other emotional problems/issues.
In my thirties now, and I was diagnosed with ADD when I was in middle school. Got meds. I think Ritalin? Saw good results academically, but also saw meds as a weakness. I knew what my problem was. Just focus harder you lazy idiot! Did not keep up with it. Lasted about a semester and stopped.
Tried it again senior year in college. Didn’t get results besides feeling great (like when you do cocaine, but lasted longer). Didn’t really help focus and only improved grades bc I could pop an addy and study all night. Stopped after I graduated. Didn’t really help at the office.
Again in my late 20’s. Went through a shady doctor. It was too expensive and I wasn’t seeing results. Besides feeling good and pooping a lot. Also started to drink too much and staying up way too late at night. I stopped.
Decided I needed to hit a reset button on my life. My mom has been begging me to see a therapist since I was like 10. Never stuck bc I hated it. Felt weak for needing it. Finally started in earnest a year ago. The therapist then recommended I see a psychiatrist as well.
The psych didn’t start with adderall actually. Said it wouldn’t do me any good as I’m suffering from chronic depression and anxiety, in fact she noted the adderrall could make my anxiety worse. Wanted to treat that first stuff first. They did. Then started adderall months later.
MUCH better results with adderall this time.
The psych and therapist pointed out that this is typical for people who suffer from ADHD. We experience failures bc we don’t stick with our intentions. Those failures depress us. The constant failures and worry for the future or even looming, simple tasks we expect to fail cause anxiety.
This may not be you. But it might. Don’t just go find someone who will write you a adderall script. Don’t try to fix this alone. It may be at the roof your problems, but You may be suffering from more than that as well bc of ADHD.
It’s still a rough road even with the proper meds and a therapist to help you unlearn unhealthy behaviors that you’ve developed. The longer you’ve been untreated, The worse and harder it is to fix these things.
But it’s ALWAYS possible to treat and get better.
I’m proof that sticking with it can bring some benefits. I’ve known ive had ADD/ADHD since I was in middle school, and trying to fix it alone has led to a life time of depression, anxiety, and now alcoholism.
But working with a psychiatrist and cognitive behavioral therapist has benefitted me a great deal.
OH AND GET SOME FUCKING SLEEP. The bad stretches during the week with accomplishing my goals is always correlated with not getting enough sleep. Talk to a psych about that too. They can help!
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Okay, she's going through a tough time. I don't know how to help her or what to say. Her birthday is close so I thought maybe I could get her something that will keep her mind off things. Do you have any suggestions? And how can I let her know that I care about her?
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Hi there. Title sums it up.
I started Adderall XR 10mg a lil while ago, I'm almost a week into it. The first two days were really good, I didn't feel like I was bouncing off the walls or anything, I didn't even feel crazy energized, I just felt very present and mentally calm and I felt truly normal/stable for the first time in ages. I could go into detail but I felt really good in a very neutral way lol.
Day 3 I started to notice that I no longer had the nausea and, possibly due to this, I could no longer tell when the pill kicked in. I could after a little while, but it definitely felt slightly milder, though I thought maybe I was just overthinking it. I'm probably not supposed to notice it much.
Day 4 up to now (day 5 or 6 not sure) the pills seem to have a much milder effect. I'm still not hyperthinking and spiraling to the degree I would without it, but I'm definitely overthinking things more than when I started. It kinda feels like it's just doing generally less every day.
Am I doing something wrong? Why has it changed? I'm sort of worried because I felt so normal and calm and I wasn't fidgeting at all or doing all my usual anxious tendencies for the first two days and now it feels like it's not really doing that good of a job.
Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.
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So I was diagnosed when I was 5-6, but ive never done well with the meds and how they react to me. im 19 now. i have tried all of the diff categories of meds (don't remember too much)
how do I know if I should go back on medication? what is considered bad enough that someone should def be on meds or in some form of treatment? i don't know if im bad enough that I should consider going back on them or not.
also, do you ever feel like your adhd kinda like gets better and worse sometimes? (over periods of time)
thanks in advance.
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Before I got PTSD I had an absolutely wild sex drive (sex 5 times a day was possible) It became pretty dysfunctional after PTSD just due to the stress wearing it down.
So I'm a male, and basically what's happening with the first girl I've been really sleeping with since a couple of years is that I get hard, but not fully hard and am not cumming all the time, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't and I'm going at it for 15 minutes and will sometimes lose my erection. Sex feels a lot less pleasurable than I remember it and almost like a chore half the time.
It's just frustrating. This girl is really sweet, but I just don't know if PTSD has affected my ability to bond, or maybe I'm just not that attracted to her.
I just feel like there's a gulf between my and having the sex life that I want. I also feel like I'm possibly leading this girl on if I end up feeling out that I'm just not attracted and it's not PTSD
Anyone else have any thoughts or experience on the matter?
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Hello I am a college student, these last 2 semesters got so bad with being able to concentrate (virtual classes) that I did not sign up for the current semester. However I plan to sign up for the Spring Semester of 2022, however my plan was to get help/ medication around now so than it can be easier to do well at school at the aimed time frame.
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Regarding the main topic, I filed early August and met with doctors in October, stating that I would like to go back and get some help for my ADHD symptoms and have them prescribe me medication, they've accepted my request and have told me to wait around a month for insurance to file everything and then basically give me the dates to meet my doctors. Behavioral doctors which they've told me there was a shortage of due to Covid?
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If you are wondering why I stopped taking my medication it was because they gave me very high dosages as a child and led me to suffer from malnutrition at the time (adderal I remember I forgot the other names, some other big pills), adding to that the high dosages led me to become very exhausted and tired throughout the day and really did not help me focus or maintain a good memory. I already told my doctors this with the most recent visit that I've mentioned. So they can work on better medication this time around.
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It's been two months since I've last heard from my doctors or insurance.. :/
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I don't know what to do, I have tried to get my mother to kinda help me since she helped me the first time as a kid, but she doesn't really care at all.. and other family members of mine think that ADHD is a joke and do not take it serious by any means. I am running out of time, and the accumulative stress of everything happening to me personally and around me is really taking a toll on my condition with the partnering of anxiety/panic attacks almost everyday. I feel like I'm just sliding into a pit of black tar.
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Should I try calling my insurance or my doctors?
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is there also any exercises/habits/ to take to reduce issues of concentration, procrastination, not being able to focus in the meantime? note I already go for hour long walks, drink non caffeinated green tea, my room is as clean as can be. although recently i have trouble sleeping the past 3-4 months.
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please do not remove I literally cannot ask anyone else in this serious manner.
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I hate when people tell me you're doing that to yourself you're making yourself depressed
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depression
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Hello all -
I just found this sub and I could use some advice on handling ocd during school. Sorry if this isn’t detailed enough, I’d rather ask about it privately for right now if anyone is willing to dm. Thank you in advance
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OCD
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When you know you have been through a lot of shit and that you're trying every single day to keep going and heal and get better at coping and respond better to things, whether that be anger towards you or even people showing affection to you, but then it just happens.
You open up to someone and you find yourself casually saying stories you have told many times before but then you realise... This person hasn't filed me as broken in their head. They are doing it right now. It's the look of pity and shock and confusion on their face. They don't know how to react.
Most of the times I just regret opening up which creates confusing social relationships. Like I tell them some difficult stuff and then I just withdraw for a long while or even forever because I (possibly falslely) judged that they couldn't handle it.
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ptsd
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I (33F) feel a intense desire to run away from everything and everyone. including my narcissistic family there is not a single person who loves me in my home.. yet from my childhood iv developed a attachment pattern where i seek love or hoping they would love me and stay in miserable situations. i have also developed ptsd . Having adhd iv been constantly criticised for not living upto normal person standard..be it hygiene studies or marraige.. please share any tips and tricks that help you deal with adhd like executive dysfunction , emotional regulation, impulsive spending etc
any advice is loved.
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I ve been doing this since i was a teenager. I need to put cream on my hands again and again everytime i would do something. Also my hands are dry but even when they're not i feel the intense urge to use a moisturizer again. It's gotten so bad that I can't touch anything w/o applying cream on my hands. During my exams it really becomes a problem bec I can't use a cream while writing my paper (nor it's allowed). I just want to know if anyone else knows about it or faces/faced it?!?
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OCD
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I just want my brain to be quiet. Today was horrible because I couldn't stop counting in my head (and out loud) all day long. I woke up counting in my head and for whatever reason I "realized" I'm not supposed to have even numbers above 7 and besides 14. My brain has been forcing me to include 16 and I'm tired of hitting myself in the head to "erase" the mistake. I just want to focus on something else. I know no one can help me, just venting.
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OCD
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Hi all,
This is a happy post: I started trauma therapy with my therapist. I’m working on doing activities that make me anxious and I also have to listen to a recording of me discussing my trauma. While both things make me feel very bad in the moment, after I feel way way better. I didn’t have a panic attack at night or this morning (although I cannot sleep through the night) nor did I dissociate. I am also able to ignore my cyclical intrusive thoughts about my identity and relationship because I have proof of the root of my trauma (my official diagnosis is ptsd with ocd like symptoms). I am definitely not 100% but I am also not at 1% either.
Additionally during my therapy it feels like I have uncovered a lot of traumatic memories that have negatively affected my life, and the truth all along was that I really needed intense psychological help. I feel that I’m on track to being a better partner and person.
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ptsd
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Has anyone felt anxiety from suddenly being infiltrated with thoughts that don’t align with their true value/beliefs? Thoughts that are basically in opposition to what you know and believe, and this kept playing on repeat to the degree where it made you sick. Every time you’d affirm what you know and belief the opposite thought would set in immediately.
I read a story of a girl who’d say in her head she loved her boyfriend then the thought in her mind would be like no you don’t. This caused her to face a lot of distress
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OCD
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My working for anyone interested:
Probability of a randomly selected individual not having ADHD is 0.98. 0.98^x is the probability that in a group with x number of people, none of them have ADHD. So we’re looking for 0.98^x<0.5, which can be found by finding log (base 0.98) of 0.5 and rounding up to the nearest whole number. 35.
In children this number is 17
For depression it is 10, or just 7 18-25 year olds!
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ADHD
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I just logged into work and discovered a meeting was nearly 30 minutes underway (I knew about the meeting, but hadn't realized it was at 9 - we never have 9am meetings!) I've unfortunately was late to/missed a couple other meetings that were held over my usual lunch break. I work slightly later than most of the team, but 99% of the time it isn't an issue.
For those also rocking this remote-work life, any tips or tricks for staying on top of meetings, especially at more off-beat times in your day? This does not feel like a good look and I want to fix it.
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5.73$. 5.73$. 5.73$. 5.73$. 5.73$. Over and over and over all over the wall of my shower. the wife isn't home and I took a shower to warm up it's 20some outside. I don't remember blacking out, I don't remember cutting my arm open, all I saw was a man with a hole in his head standing in front of me. This was 2 hours ago. The EMT said that the neighbors had called cause they heard screaming from my apartment. My arm the same arm I burned I had cut open and wrote in blood over and over again in the shower 5.73$. all I could see was his lifeless body staring back at me. I'm in the hospital now and my wife is on the way. The doctor keeps asking me if I'm suicidal. Sure doc whatever you say it's not like you can see the dead man.
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ptsd
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Pretty much what the title says.
I've had this problem for years and I've no idea what I should do when this happens. Basically, when I finally get to sit down and really try to focus on something, whether that is studying or writing, I soon get bombarded by other intrusive thoughts that end up ruining my focus. And yes, while often these are something idiotic (Hey, I wanted to look up at that thing in that game, Hey, I wonder if that trailer was released), quite often they are something important that I need to look up, but not necessarily right now. For example, today I tried to focus on working and then I remembered, shit, I had to send that important email and then down the rabbit hole I go.
Any tips on what to do when this happens?
I know that if I pursue that thought, it usually means that I don't get anything done because then there's always one more thing to look up, but trying to just write it down usually means that it keeps nagging my mind and even if I tell myself that yes, I made a note of it and I will look it up later, it doesn't just vanish from my mind so I can focus on it later so I could get back to what I was now doing. There doesn't seem to be any good way to deal with this.
Plz help.
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ADHD
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I have harm OCD, and after a recent session with my therapist and appointment with my psychiatrist I've been struggling with trying to figure out if I'm really suicidal or if it's just the OCD.
During my last session with my therapist I mentioned how even though I knew it was wrong and more than likely would not quiet the obsessive thoughts I had about putting a belt around my neck, I actually considered having it hang around my neck. I made it clear that the only thing I wanted to happen was to stop the thoughts/show myself I did not want that. While I didn't consider it to be particularly dangerous, she said how that would have been an instance where I could have/should have called 911 and gone to the ER.
The thoughts have come up several times since then, and while I've never acted on any of the thoughts, I can't help but think about them every time I see the belt, like how you'd look at something and remember some happy memory. Except mine is scary.
Anyways, I've been stuck trying to figure out or trying to make peace with either the thought being just a thought or whether I actually want to do the compulsion which *may* I guess from what my therapist was saying would make me suicidal.
edited for clarity.
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OCD
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Imagine you're David Bowie, and you live in your town, surrounded by the dullards and oafs in your town, and everybody says you're a freak, but you don't have your own sense of where you are in all of this and you can't get a band together, but your parents and peers all treat you like an alien anyway.
That's Asperger's.
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Hi, so I've been dealing with OCD all my life, but for the last year and a half my OCD has really attacked the decluttering/cleaning part of my life. I've never met anyone else with a similar/same kind of OCD as me, so I'd thought I'd try to come out and find others like me
Some of my obsessive thoughts are things like "you own way too much" and "this is place is so messy". The compulsions are normally giving away anything that isnt totally essential. It's gotten so bad to the point where I can only handle living out of a backpack.
Does anyone have something similar to this?
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OCD
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I appreciate everyone's time, so I'll try to go as straight forward and objective as possible. I'm a broke wannabe director that has wasted 90% of his life in the religion he was raised in. A lot of family issues, diagnosed with DID, and so many traumas and engrams that I can't even go out on a walk without having a panic attack.
It was okay until Covid arrived, I was able to pay a therapist and all the personalities stuff was under control. I tried so hard, so many times getting my ass into the film industry, and I don't know if I'm a masochist or what, but to this day I'm still passionate about making films. I try to stay focused on other stuff, but no matter what and without even realizing, I always end up with fantasies in my head about being a director and making a living out of what I like, every single second, every single day of my life.
Because of economic reasons, I've been for a couple of months without therapy now, and it's not being easy. My day to day right now is just focusing on surviving, figuring out how to keep myself busy until night arrives. I don't even know who I am anymore. I honestly don't even know who the fuck is writing this right now. I've tried reaching for help, but shit in my life is so fucking hardcore people just will never believe me and think I'm an attention whore. Maybe I am, but I really force myself into thinking that I'm just one unlucky motherfucker struggling with an unusual mental condition.
I had so many meetings with really important people, worldwide known directors and producers, and here I am. Crying in front of a screen because nobody gives a fuck about my stories. As the title says, I don't even know what I'm doing here. I try to follow my therapist's counsel and not thinking about shit my abusing father used to say like "You're always trying to call attention".
I know this is going to sound sooooo cliché, but if somebody ever made a movie about my life, people wouldn't believe it. My DID shit is already enough to make people say that "I've watched too many movies". I've moved 17 times at the age of 26. I got my face slashed one night by some asshole on drugs. My family abandoned me because of religion. I've almost died a couple of times because of different reasons, suicide attempt obviously is one of them.
I don't think about suicide anymore, or at least I try to. I just want to stop thinking about fucking cinema. I hate it. I fucking hate my passion. I could be the whole day writing about my almost-achievements that ended up being total failures. It doesn't matter how close I get, it always ends up being the same: a slap right in my face and a "I'll try harder next time" to myself. Maybe I'm just trying too hard.
I get so fucking mad when I see people that used to be nobodies, that I helped so bad with my contacts, my gear, my VFX skills, and that got to reach really, really high... and now they act like they don't know me. With time, and as high as they get, they all end up ignoring my messages, unfollowing me on social media, and that kind of stuff. Most of them are YouTubers, gotta say. My bad for never learning and still helping others, over and over again, until I've got myself completely burnt.
I guess I'm here in reddit because I feel like I need to be heard by somebody. In my country mental health is pretty under-fucking-rated, and even those who really, honestly want to help you out, will limit themselves to compare you with others who are in a "worse" position, they often will put themselves as examples, shit like that. I really miss my therapist.
I'm not expecting anybody to answer me, and definitely I'm not expecting a producer to come out of random and say "Hey that's a sick story, here's a million dollars so that you can make a movie". I just need to let it all out and feel like I'm being actually heard by somebody. I just need to be heard, that's all. This is something purely therapeutic for me.
If there's someone curious about psychology or whatever, I'm quite open about questions regarding my condition or whatever. Not like I'm looking for friends, but trying to get all this shit that is burning my head out, stop thinking about smoking 24/7, and being able to focus better on my day to day activities. After all, 3 years of weekly private therapy must have showed me how to, at least, trying to get my head straight and solve problems by myself.
Whoever made to this point, thank you.
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This is a huge mental block for me. I work 3 mornings from 7a-530p and then I have an afternoon shift 4p-230a. On my afternoon workday, I technically have all day to do what I need to then go to work, but just the fact that I have to work that day renders me absolutely useless for the day. How do people get anything done in the morning if they have to work in the afternoon? I feel like I need to conserve my energy.
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aspergers
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I tried killing myself in September. I got institutionalized. Came out and told my friends what happened. They cared, family cared. Met a girl. Real back and forth with her. We’re together now but I want to end it again. I don’t find joy in anything anymore. Therapist says I have Borderline Personality Disorder. Makes sense. I don’t deserve anyone. I’ve stopped caring. I’ve accepted im not worth it. I’ve accepted im ugly, inside and out. I signed up for university and even looked for apartments in a new city. But I’m quitting at the very last second. Going to quit my job. Going to take another semester off. Going to end it with this girl. I’m just tired and that’s okay. I’m not a good person and that’s okay. I didn’t have a good life and that’s okay. I won’t amount to anything and that’s okay. I’ll stay home and watch comedies in my room. I’m happier now that I’ve accepted that I’m not good enough. I don’t find joy in anything but a show and some sleep. I’m happy with not being happy.
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depression
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I find compliments very insulting it feels like being talked to like a 2 year old. or sometimes like I just did a good thing don't compliment me. It's demanding and feels like I'm being held to an unknown standard. And I have a short fuse sometimes and I feel like I just want to rip out the intestines of anyone who compliments me.
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aspergers
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Is my advice to myself. Think I said something bad? Asking every single person present and they all say no. The confirmation only helped for an hr before you start questioning that they are lying and collaborating with each other.
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OCD
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My doctor upped my dose a few days ago to 60mg a day (Elvanse 30mg in the morning and late afternoon) since I started to crash (got very anxious and irritated) around 4pm when I was taking one 30mg at around 10am every day.
I don’t have crashes anymore, but after I take the second dose I start intensely hyperfocusing and can’t stop whatever it is I’m doing. The past 2 days I’ve been writing an essay for school and spent *several* hours writing non-stop. Now I notice the essay has 6 *pages* of unnecessary information and full of mistakes I normally wouldn’t make.
I forget to check the time so I miss meals all the time.
I’ve been thinking I could try taking only half of the second dose and seeing if that helps.
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Hello there, I'd appreciate a lot if you could read this and say something, anything tbh, I just wanna vent and say how I'm feeling cuz it's been so... Overwhelming...
Long story short: I've always believed I'm a bad person because of my ocd, since very very young, like at four I already grounded myself ( when I had an intrusive thought ), and well... My 17 years of life has been hard. Depression since 13, with ups and dows, I have some type of undiagnosed mood disorder as well and take medicine to regulate my mood, I've been feeling worse since my doctor lowed this medicine because she had to rise my ocd medicine and it could make me more anxious...
Since that day, 2 months ago or something, my want to die got worse... And I feel like this is it and I'm going to die soon. I can't see a future for me. How can someone who hates themselves so much live happily? Live a long life? I don't want to be an adult, I wanted to wake up one day and be a child again, when things were easier and I could play with my friends at the park, I miss those times so much when I'm sad
I feel like I won't be able to graduate, I don't think really wanna die but everyday it feels like I'm getting closer to death. I feel like I'll expire by the end of the year and I'm scared. The only thing that keeps me going is my fear of making my parents sad. We don't have such a good relationship but I just don't wanna make their lifes hell because mine has been for a long while. Recently we've been fighting a lot and that makes me wanna die more. I feel like the end of me is near.
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OCD
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Hey! I have autism and I’m hoping to make a new YouTube video on autism and how it presents. I was hoping to do a sort of poll here. I know that I do stim while listening to music- I tend to rock back and forth. Anyone else?
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aspergers
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I have a chest infection so my housemate made me a hot drink to help. But she made it in a mug that I know doesn't clean well in the dishwasher. I always only drink out of my own mug because I know it's clean but she insisted she checked it was clean so I trusted her (and tbh I couldn't really say no to the drink as she was very insistent). But it wasn't clean. There were still bits stuck to the side of the inside of the mug.
Now I'm panicking and stressed and getting all worked up that I've contaminated myself and I'm going to get even sicker. This is really annoying :(
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OCD
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I finally got to speak with a therapist for the last week and she has given me a diagnosis of ptsd.
I feel like.. I don't know exactly, but as if it can't be my diagnosis. I do not experience flashbacks at all. I do however experience the feeling of fear I experienced from my violent childhood but only when faced with people yelling/fighting it's like I completely go into a state of shock. I do remember very well what I experienced but it's like my mind does not let me revisit it in the form of a flashback but instead a feeling?
I often feel unsafe for no reason in my own home like something bad will happen but there is no reason for it because I am not in danger, my mind just makes me feel I am. It's like a prison that's held me back from enjoying my life.
I also feel as if I'm on the outside of my life looking in and not actually apart of it. My mind is always foggy and I'm forgetful.
Does anyone else want to share their experience with this disorder?
I almost can't believe my fearfulness and anxiety has a name now. It feels like a bigger monster than me just calling it 'anxiety'
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ptsd
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Hi everyone,I'm a 28 year old woman who has lately begun to realise/suspect that a lot of the issues I've been dealing with point towards ADHD. I did some research on the options in the UK and decided that the best one for me would be getting referred for an ADHD assessment with ADHD360, via my GP using the "right to choose" route.
I had my appointment with my GP today and it was very disappointing. She asked about my symptoms but kept repeating that ADHD is usually diagnosed in childhood (although she didn't say I *couldn't* have it) and seemed to have no clue about "Right to Choose". I explained it to her as best I could based on the research I've done but she was insistent that the only thing she could do was refer me to the "Access team", and that only they would be able to refer me on anywhere.
Has anyone faced similar obstacles or been referred on to an "Access team" and then onto a "right to choose" provider? I'm not sure what I should do next - whether I wait for the access team referral and then try to get them to refer me to ADHD 360 or try to get an appointment with another GP.
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ADHD
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Hey does anyone know where I can get a virtual diagnosis for depression and anxiety? Hopefully not too expensive and fast I need an actual letter
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depression
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I know everyone's been posting about their struggles with assignments lately which makes sense because it's finals time.
I had a semester long assignment that I was supposed to spend 40 hours on and I maybe spent 20. And that's only because I spent 10 hours on it straight before the mid-term deadline, and 10 hours before the final deadline.
I'd be somewhat able to cope if submitting it was all. But as the last part of the assignment I have to go talk to my professor about it in an interview. My professor who is also my employer... Because I asked him to help work in his lab because I was interested in his field, and he was kind enough to let me in.
I'm so terrified. Terrified that he would be upset with me and not offer forgiveness. Terrified he'll be disappointed. Terrified that I may be asked to not come back to work. Terrified that it'll impact my future trying to get a job when I (hopefully) finish my degree in May because I won't have any good references. That no matter my excuse it's all going to crumble and come out poorly.
I have a therapy appointment the 15th and the interview today and I'm just. I don't know. I feel so stupid and pathetic. Everything's my fault, especially for not communicating. I'm undiagnosed and unmedicated and have been through all of my education. It's been 3, nearly 4 years of struggling. I want it to be over but I can't even see a future for myself. I just wish I was normal.
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ADHD
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So, I have what's probably not the best job for someone like me - I'm a church bookkeeper with no set hours, no immediate supervisor, and no one else who knows the unwritten list of things that need to get done (bills paid, tax obligations met, building maintenance seen to, food pantry stocked, receipts sent, etc.). The flexibility is a good thing, don't get me wrong - when I'm having an off day, I can stay home or leave early, but it also means I have to set my own arbitrary deadlines and no one will notice if I don't perform my duties, at least not for a while. On things that aren't urgent, I procrastinate *horribly*.
Last year, I homeschooled both my kids because of Covid and brought them to the office with me every day. That was tough on all of us. They'd get bored and come in every 5 minutes to ask when we were leaving, or for a snack, or for help with something, and it was very hard to focus on my work long enough to finish anything. I'd stress to get it all done in the time I had.
Now that both kids are in school, and I have an absurd amount of free time, it should be easy, right? No! Somehow, it's harder to make myself stay on task. I still use six hours trying to get two hours of work done, because I really need that sense of urgency/panic to motivate myself. If anything, I spend *more* time in my office now.
On the one hand, I'm lucky to have a job that accommodates my frequent need for flexibility...on the other hand, sometimes I wish I had a supervisor breathing down my neck and a defined list of tasks. I'm always afraid I'm going to drop a big ball like paying the electric bill or running payroll, or that I'll make a mistake on what I send to the IRS.
Starting medication soon, and I'm hoping it will make me more efficient, so I don't have to fill up all my available free time procrastinating.
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ADHD
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Trying to study
but.. suddenly, I remembered that I don't like how I look in certain clothes.
I recognize it is important because I notice strangers treat me better now than compared to the past when I had a different dressing style.
Gosh.. now, I want to stop using certain clothes I have. Wondering what the right choice is. But I blame all this on how society is. Everyone else is so fickle. They care a great deal about how others look and apparently, they say (online) it is somehow easier to be nice to a more physically attractive people. I hate everyone. I feel angry. If there is a being that I could release my anger and blame for how society is, I would choke them. I know it's sick, but I want them to feel the pain and fear I have felt.
Society is just scary. I wish I could live in a cabin in the woods and not care about stupid stuff like how clothes look or how my hair looks. But no, I have to live here bc that's just how life works :(
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depression
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Hey Everyone,
I need some advice. I don't know what to do.
8 years ago, I was very young and I did not know so much in my twenties. I burned so many bridges and made so many mistakes. I was even publicly scruntized as everyone seemed to look down upon me to include my family. Look story short, I left the country and I grew so much. I learned so many things. I got the chance to read lots of books and interact with so many people that were different than me and my original settings that I was surrounded in. Now, I'm not trying to brag, but I have lots of skills and new talents that I discovered that I did not know that I had within me..... I accomplished things that my family doesn't know about.... Now, I have a family overseas. I love my family dearly.... But I even feel ashamed to call them during the holidays because I didn't make smart decisions when I was young and lots of my family members think that I am still the old me..... I don't talk about any of my accomplishments or show new things I've learned being overseas and on my journey.... Instead, I just come home whenever I come home and be me. Of course, "some" of my family can see the changes, but "some" of my family members give me the side eye..... Some of them even hate me.... But when they interact with me, they know that I'm different and better than I used to be.... Some of them choose just not to interact and I just let it be..... I don't even call them during the holidays.. I may call the main family member some days before the big event and that's it..... But everything I've done and everything I've accomplished has been for my family..... Not necessarily for me.... I have always had them in mind in everything I do as they were my motivation to help them have a better life and future.... Long story short.... I'm not that successful, but I have pushed myself out of my comfort zone and have accomplished so many things that I never thought I could do as most of my family members don't think I'm very smart..... But if they saw my resume and everything I've done, they would be shocked..... So..... I don't know... I ask you all what is your best advice my friends..... Again, when I was younger, I burned so many bridges without realizing the karma I was creating..... I come home about once every year or two.... I don't see all my family members..... Just the main ones that have the greatest sense of love and empathy.....
What is your advice my friends.....
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depression
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I am a depressed teen, about to graduate. But I have some medical problems I need to get checked out, and one of them have to do with my arm. It's right on my rist next to my cuts, and I don't know how to hid them so I can get the problem checked out.
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depression
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Hey everyone. This is my first post. My husband is 40-something and just got diagnosed. He is going through a lot of emotions and adjustments. The one thing he told me today is that he needs to have more structure every day with visual schedules that map out his entire day, week, etc. Can anyone recommend a website or template that they find helpful? So many things seem geared to children. Thank you very much.
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aspergers
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Okay so this might be a long one so bear with me (and I'm incredibly sorry if my writing style annoys you because I seem to love incorporating a million commas in whatever I write)
I'm 17f, living in a country where mental health issues are very taboo and completely overlooked, so when I started suspecting in December 2020 that I might have adhd, I thought I'd never be able to talk about this to my parents, so maybe I'll get myself checked out in college or something, because at that point it was not something I was considering seriously, so I didn't feel like I needed immediate help, even though I had been going through a very dark phase in my life at that time, something I think has significantly worsened as the days went by.
By May 2021, I'd joined this subreddit and used to periodically scroll through the top posts time to time, and to my surprise I started to discover things that other people were going through as a result of having adhd, the fact that I could relate to literally *all* of them. It was terrifying as it was somewhat relieving. I won't go through all of them cuz it's a frustratingly long list of symptoms and small things that happen to me everyday, but by then I was somehow concerned, and really wanted to bring this up to my parents. The first time I brought up, my mother reacted weirdly, saying "but you're not crazy" and my father simply said if it gets worse, they'll get me checked out in the future. Second time I brought it up, they laughed it off. Third time, I burst out crying when they started making fun of me again. It was then that my mother realised the severity of the situation and told me she would take me to a professional. I contacted a therapist and started attending sessions. My dad never, and I mean never, has spoken to me on this matter since. He just picks me up after my appointment, doesn't say a word all through the ride, and brings us both home without a word.
Now, my therapist conducted an adhd test and a depression test. She informed me that I do show signs of adhd, but my main issue is emotional regulation, which we need to work on. Of course I'm not particularly depressed. But now I'm not sure whether I was a hundred percent honest with and stupidly enough, I can't even recall.
I didn't ask her whether I definitively have adhd or not, and the fact that she stressed on me *not* really showing severe signs of adhd is really irking my mind. The thing is, I lie a lot. And it's not like *lying* lying, it's something like when someone asks you what's your least favourite album from a particular artist and in reality I know that x album is my least fav but for some reason I end up saying y album, and idk why. Looking back at the hugeeeee list of symptoms I compiled of myself after looking on the internet and through this subreddit, I realise I left out a chunk of things I think I should've initially told her, and now I'm freaking out. What do I do the next time I go to meet her? I'm going through such a bad phase in my life right now that I can't focus on a single thing, much less studies. I haven't touched my books in over two months and it's eating away at me. I need to get a growing cavity in my teeth checked out but I'm going out on a family trip tomorrow and I'm fucking terrified of the cavity growing even more before I can schedule an appointment. The fact that I might've said to my therapist that I've been studying a little these days but in reality I have been in no touch with any sort of study material in a long time is making my head spin.
I just feel so utterly defeated. I've also been having the weirdest dreams for a long time now, and a few nightmares here and there. My sleep schedule is completely fucked up, it's almost like I feel repulsed at the idea of falling asleep because I'll have another one of those nonsensical and utterly depressing dreams and then I'll be feeling hollow and empty for the rest of the day. Not that I don't feel hollow and empty now but, you get it I guess.
I just don't know what to do. And that's in general in regard to almost everything but right now, I *really* don't know what to do. If anyone can offer some sort of guidance it would be incredible, I'll probably be indebted to you for life. (And sorry for the dump btw)
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Seeking advice - I'm considering a smartwatch/fitness tracker to help with my various ADHD nonsense, but it's all new to me and I'm drowning in options.
People who use them, what do you recommend? Features, brands, models, apps? What's genuinely helpful and easy to use, and what's just counterproductive clutter?
Interested in things like alarms and reminders so calendar integration is good; fitness tracking to help motivate me to exercise; tracking sleep, stress/heart rate, menstrual cycle, etc.
Any insight would be much appreciated!
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Hello r/OCD, although I never feel perfectly fine, I actually have been better lately, and that's why I haven't been positng much lately. I always tell myself that I was a dumb kid when I did all the bad stuff that haunts me now, because it's true. But I just saw a story on IG of a mutual saying how it's ok for young teens to make mistakes, as teens do bad stuff due to their development, but then they said some things are not apart of normal development. And this got me thinking, even though I was a dumb kid who didn't realise any better, am I still a bad person no matter what? My mistakes have definitely been a lot worse than my friends', but I seriously didn't understand why it was all so bad back then. I'm disgusted with myself now, and I know I'd never do those bad things again, however, now my mind is telling me that it doesn't matter, and that everyone should hate me. I feel evil. I just want to be good and have my life back. Can anyone relate? And also, question: do you think kids learn at different rates than others? For example, it took me a while to understand right from wrong to a tee, so this is why I feel incredibly awful about my real event obsessions. It would mean a lot if someone could reply. Thank you.
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So I was just online to figure out some doctor shit, and I saw a little blurb on Kaiser’s website saying that they’ve just received notice of a pharmacy strike.
>Kaiser Permanente outpatient pharmacies will be temporarily closed November 15, 2021 through November 22, 2021 due to a scheduled union work stoppage. We encourage you to fill your prescriptions through our prescription mail delivery service now. Most prescriptions arrive in about 2-3 business days.
So, for those of us who can’t get our prescriptions mailed to us (thanks, DEA, for classifying our absolutely necessary medication as a controlled substance thereby fucking each one of us over in multiple ways), what are we supposed to do? Can’t get it filled early, can’t get it mailed, can’t function without it, wtf are we supposed to do? I fully understand and support the need for strikes. I DON’T appreciate the creation of laws placing people like us between a rock and a hard place, because they can’t be arsed to think things through.
/end_rant
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I don't want to diagnose her or use this as a diagnosis but more so as a way to make her feel like there are people out there like her.
After being in a abusive household and a abusive father, she married an abusive alcoholic and was married for over 21 years (My father), she also fled war torn countries, she says this was all bearable and that she is a strong person. However what she claims what really messed her up is her previous relationship, Her ex suffered from severe covert Narcissism. He had NPD with traits of HPD. He was a sexual Narcissist and also a hidden dangerous covert sneaky narcissist. She says narcissistic emotional abuse has destroyed her and that she has contemplated suicide for so long. I tried to get her to join groups for victims and she said this was not helpful because she could not relate and she claims that most of the people she encountered never experienced what she did and resembled more of her 21 year marriage which she claims did not affect her that much.
Her latest problem is severe Insomnia. She tells me that it takes over 2 hours to fall asleep, and that she can sleep for 8-10 hours but wakes up almost every hour and a half. She claims that she rarely sleeps more than 3 hours without waking up. She says she would lose all her limbs just to get 6 hours of consistent sleep without waking up.
Last week she got really lucky and slept for 4 hours straight!!! her mood was great and it was like a different person, i would love to see her happy like that but she also struggles with severe hopelessness, and i suspect dysthymic depression and severe anxiety, she needs help but she does not know where to start
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here are a few instances
so one time I thought I might've had testicular cancer so I kept checking my urine to check if their was any blood in it, and one time I thought I saw blood , and I PANICKED so I went to the hospital and did a urine test and they found nothing in my urine, that was about a year ago,
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also I remember that I sometimes I had to repeat certain movements or thoughts to get them right
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also (im not sure if this is ocd ) but I remember that I felt guilty when I saw something on the board that reminded of one of the answers to my geog test so I told the teacher about it
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he do be discussing my obsessive and intrusive thoughts with me!
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She has autism too, among other things (obviously). I never know what to say other than "I'm sorry you feel like this" and generic shit like that.
This guy she used to date was sending her mean messages and I think that might've triggered something. I don't want to lose her, I'm scared because she hasn't responded in a while since our last call.
How do I make her feel better?
Edit: Just letting everyone know she's alright we had a good phone call, thank you. Everything is good at least for now.
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I think I've figured out that I tend to go to the internet to check even if I don't know for sure, I just feel this impulse to "have to know sth for sure" and I go on and try to get information as to whether or not the thing I'm afraid of may or may not be true; I find this has been a compulsion in many of my obsessions, be it about sexuality, morality, gender identity, health, anything. Absolutely anything. Has anyone else dealt with this? How did you counter it? I feel like I may need to go offline for a while.
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And they’re the ones who think that if you just ~talk~ about your depression it will go away.
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I wanted to do a specific questions but now I have so many in my mind, I'm dealing with PTSD from a year but during those lasts weeks everything is getting more intense and out of control, if someone wants to talk to me in a private chat it would be amazing.
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So i don’t remember where i saw this, but there was this passage written about ocd and it was talking about how OCD can turn the original What If thoughts into just the thoughts alone, as the illness progresses , so for example in a case of TOCD instead of worrying about “What if i was the opposite sex” you worry “It feels like i could be it” in fear? does that happen to anyone?
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I've seen some people that are recovered. I wonder if your mind is strong? I used to wake up with crazy thoughts in the morning. I hated waking up. Now I'm much better, but my mind is weak. I'm vulnerable to sticky thoughts at any moment. I've had periods where I felt free, but they are few.
When I was in these good times, I felt happy with peace and hope for the future! I wasn't ruminating. Was awesome.
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Hey everyone, i was recently diagnosed with adhd and cyclothymia (form of bipolar). I just experienced something tonight that is a common thing for me but now i am wondering if it’s caused from adhd. Tonight i come home from work (i haven’t been home in a few days) and my kitchen was a mess and this one drawer broke because there was too much stuff in it even though i emptied it out less than a month ago. I started to get agitated and went upstairs to my room that was a complete disaster and just felt like my body shut down. I get this sensation where i feel like i need to like shake my body almost like my body parts need to scream if that makes sense. When this happens every little task makes me feel physically ill. Like having a shower or plugging in my phone to charge or taking my suit case that i haven’t unpacked in a week off my bed. I end up just breaking down and crying to the point i can’t catch my breath and feel like i need to hide under my blanket from the world lol. I’ve been dealing with this kind of situation for years, just now am thinking it could have something to do with my diagnosis. If you’ve experienced this, what do you do, how do you get out of this feeling or stop it. Help I’m so lost!!!
Also, if anyone just has any tips or advice for someone with a very fresh diagnosis i would really appreciate it.
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Everything sucks.
The world is literally burning and people don't give a shit, at least on a large enough scale. My existence is debated every single day, with people assuming that because I'm transgender, I'm inherent evil just for being alive.
I'm not sure what I want to do with my life. I'm doing a university degree which doesn't interest me much anymore. I'm short on cash. My country is being run by a corrupt, hard right government who doesn't give a fuck aside from giving their friends kickbacks. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I live so far away from them now. The only good thing that's really happening in my life is my partner and she's so patient with me, but I don't want to burden her more than I already do.
How do I make it ok? How do I carry on? What's the point in anything?
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depression
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So I’ve been learning that adhd affects my emotions, that I can feel really good and feel really bad. I’m on a lot of anti depressants and anti anxiety but it wasn’t until my small dose of focalin 10 mg that I started to feel better. Before I try anything else, my psychiatrist wants to me to wait for the full effects of the anti depressant pristiq 100 mg to take affect, 8 week, been on it for like 6 I think. Honestly I feel like that one doesn’t help too much. In therapy and trying to learn how to be emotionally resilient but I feel like I’m not doing the best. I still feel this feeling of regret or anxiety in my stomach for most of the day, not as strong as before but still there. Tried cbt in the past, still do but the feeling stays. I exercise regularly. Just wondering how others with adhd deal with their negative emotions. Is it more of a medicine thing like having mood stabilizers or more adhd medicine or is it more of a mental thing? Maybe a type of therapy that helps those with adhd more than cbt, doing dbt and emdr. Any help would be appreciated, thank you.
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Out of all common sayings, this one pisses me off the most. I should've guessed it came from Nietzsche, the man who popularized the nightmarish idea of Eternal Recurrence.
What's your favorite common phrase?
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aspergers
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Sorry for the long post, I just needed a place to rant, and I made an account just for this. A bit of an introduction first, I (20f) work at a before/after school program at an elementary school and I have to plan activities for the kids and make sure they get to class on time in the morning.
My issue isn't the work or the kids, I actually love that part of the job. The issue is, my boss is constantly putting me down for the things I do wrong. It would make sense if I was repeating mistakes like leaving the kids alone (which I've never done), but it's the little things, like the kids getting washable marker on the table, or not doing a game the way she thinks it's done. Even last week, I was checking the list of things to (we have lots of cleaning because of covid), and as I'm checking off things that are done, she comes over and tells me "why don't you go do \_\_\_\_ instead of standing around doing nothing". I don't think she targets me specifically, but that time she spoke directly to me while my coworker was also checking the list, which definitely makes me feel like she does. I've done some form of work or volunteering with kids for most of my life, so I know it's not how I interact with the kids either, especially since I have a great relationship with them. I don't know why she constantly puts me down.
I understand why she might not like me, since I call in sick about once a week because of my anxiety, but it's anxiety caused by her that prevents me from going! I have OCD, which for me means I literally obsess over everything she says I do wrong, and it overwhelms me and I shut down. I used to be able to just put my head down and deal with stuff like this, but I just can't anymore. I have her texts on silent so that I don't have to dread seeing her name pop up on my phone. I love working with the kids, and the people I work with are nice enough too, but I feel like I can't do anything right with my boss. I don't have any higher authority to talk to about this, and I'm hesitant to quit because I really love those kids, but I don't know how much longer I can put up with this.
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I’m a 21 year old male senior college student who was just recently diagnosed with ADHD. This is just another addition to the other mental disorders I have like depression, anxiety, and severe OCD.
According to my psychiatrist, apparently the reason I’ve lasted this long without being diagnosed or having medication for ADHD is that I’ve managed to scrape by through school because I’m fairly smart. But I don’t know.
I have really good highs and really bad lows. Is there a way to always be in a type of manic state? I just feel human during it. It’s hard for me to read because I keep loosing attention and re-reading the text. What’s a good way to stop this? Whats the best medication? My psychiatrist is giving me Adderall, and I can’t tell if it’s making me better or worse.
I’m stuck in the same pattern and routine. I don’t even do things I really want to do. I only feel truly great during the manic states really.
I need advice guys.
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Hi guys, I have recently (and finally) been diagnosed with PTSD from some mistreatment in hospital. I’m on the waiting list for CBT but that waiting list is 25 weeks long. In the meantime I am keen to do as much self improvement as possible, so my question is how can I process my unprocessed trauma and memories? Ideally I would like this to be self led. Thanks
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I always do this. Always. It’s sick.
Story: I had an unpaid internship at a very small talent management agency. It was a ton of work, but if I needed to not come in certain days or work less that was ok. I overworked by choice so I can’t blame him for that. But eventually, I realized how toxic the entertainment industry is and don’t want to be a part of it anymore, and it’s irrelevant to my masters degree.
Due to personal issues and an increased workload and my boss telling me that “I look like a girl you could make love to and read The NY Times with” I had to outright quit. I told him I’d come in to show him how to do some stuff I did to be nice, but stuff came up in my personal life (anxiety of going in mainly tbh and my final school project) and so I wasn’t able to. He got very snippy with me and told me I shouldn’t have committed knowing I couldn’t handle it (but I took it on in the summer and genuinely didn’t know these issues and increased school work would come up). And NOW he said interns aren’t for him and that he’s gonna put someone on the books…
My boss was kind to me. He wanted to help me learn the industry. And I left him high and dry.
I feel like such an ass and am having a breakdown right now because I’m trying to call to apologize again (RSD and I guess I’m not mentally sound at the moment and I feel so guilty) and he’s ignoring me.
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Hello! I had to get meds from urgent care while I await an appointment with an actual psychiatrist next month. The doctor gave me extended release Fluvoxamine (also called controlled release or CR) which is not what I normally take, and I only noticed after getting home. I should've been tipped off to it considering my medicine was astronomically more expensive but I was so anxious that I just paid and left. Anyway, I called the pharmacy back as soon as I got home and spoke to the pharmacist about this. The dose is correct, the medicine is obviously correct as well. The only difference is it being CR. The pharmacist said that it would have no effect on me, and that the purpose of CR is to stay in the body longer.
To get to the point: I've taken two doses so far and have been getting brain zaps throughout the day as well as a noticeably higher amount of intrusive thoughts. Has anyone else been in a similar situation going from regular to CR? I assumed if anything it mightve been even more effective seeing as it's supposed to last all day, but it's almost like I missed a dose.
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It looks like on paper my life's a good point, but my emotions are a totally other thing. I feel fake when I'm happy or try to be happy. Stupid even. I feel like I'm alone in a room of strangers even around people I'm close to. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, everything just feels so disappointing and pointless. Eating, watching tv, smiling and wishing someone a good day. I feel like an imposter posing as a human being. It's like being slowly buried in mud. I can't stand the feeling of my own skin, I can't stand the sight of myself. I feel sorry for the people that want to be around me, how gross and embarassing.
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depression
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I have so much built up homework to the point where if I even try to work, I get super stressed and can’t do it without having a melt down. I’ve also missed a good amount of school and have so much other shit I have to do and deal with like college for next year (I’m in 12th grade). I have social anxiety disorder and adhd. My life feels like it’s falling apart, please help.
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ADHD
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Recently, I have been very confident that I have undiagnosed inattentive ADHD. However, after seeing a symptom or a post that I don't relate to I doubt myself and worry that I've just made this up in my head. Both my mom and brother have ADHD. I brought up to them that I feel as though I could have it, but they weren't convinced. This is why I've been trying to figure out on my own. I will hopefully be getting tested soon, but I thought I'd bring it up here to see what others have to say.
I struggle with ordering the things that are going on in my head. This causes me to constantly stutter, slip up on my words, and misrepresent my ideas to others. Most of the time I need to constantly be moving/fidgeting otherwise I feel uncomfortable. I have quite an active imagination and am constantly becoming lost in my own thoughts (both positive and negative). This causes me to overthink a lot and become fixated on those things.
However, I do not struggle socially. My imagination will wander throughout conversation, but I am able to stay engaged with that person. I think this is why my family disagrees with me as I appear engaged when around people. I've never struggled academically either. I think this is why I am having this feeling of doubt.
I'm not sure the purpose of this post.. Maybe I'm wondering if the ADHD is doubting itself.. Just after some sort of support.. thanks everyone :)
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ADHD
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I have a pretty bad imposters syndrome about mostly everything in my life but I get it hard when it comes to my PTSD. I don't know if this is too personal of a question but what are your flashbacks like?
mine are triggered by the most annoying things (aren't all triggers annoying?) and they don't put me into a full memory where I feel like I'm in that moment (you know like the way media portrays it, everything fades around you and suddenly you're back in that memory). I usually get a painful stabbing memory that crosses my mind and it's hard to put back away into my trauma box. it's like a clinging image that I'm shocked came up because I forgot it happened and then I just struggle to forget it again. or I get a wash of a disgusting feeling over me (for context my PTSD is because of sexual abuse) and I feel gross to be in my own body so much so that I actually feel nauseous and sick.
what are your flashbacks like? sometimes I feel like mine aren't valid or they aren't "true" flashbacks because I've seen so many portrayals in media that it makes me feel like maybe I don't have a serious case of PTSD. do you guys ever feel this too?
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Does anyone with moral scrupulosity OCD ever feel like they maintain morality simply out of fear of repercussions?
I have no official diagnosis, so I am hesitant to post about this , and apologize to anyone if I write something they find incorrect or offensive. However, as I work to address some longstanding mental health issues, I have become increasingly confident that I have to Moral scrupulosity OCD.
That being said few of my "moral" impulses occur out of care for right and wrong. It is only as a mitigating action. I watch my speech, and profusely apologize for any possible upsetting mistake. However, I don't care about the individuals themselves or the legality of the actions. I only worry about them being discovered and affecting me. As I once described to a classmate, I don't cheat because I feel bad about the action, I don't do it out of fear of being caught.
If I know with certainty that an action will have no repercussions I have no compulsion to act in a moral manner. However, if there is even the possibility someone could connect me to an in-just act I am compelled to correct my action.
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My sister has had ocd her entire life and just got diagnosed, and I have like tendencies of ocd (or I think that’s what they are) which are mainly sensory things like touching small objects or hearing someone move across carpet. But I want to hear all of what you people here go through so I can understand better for my sister.
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Hi. I need help. I just realised that i often forget important convos in my life. I am diagnosed recently with ADHD and i want to improve myself to remember things.
One way would be writing down bigger topics in diary but im afraid when i get the time to write it down i already forgot how it was said it to me or something.
I have thought about writing in my phone but i dont like it and i dont want to make people feel like im not listening even tho i write down convos. I have said sometimes to people that im writing it down so they would understand but it gets annoying.
Next option would be to record. But with regular recording app its hard. I dont want long ass audio file and then i have to go thru it.
Ao my ultimate question is. Is there a app with automatic detection when somebody is speaking, having a coversation? It would mean the world for me. I always forget small details and small talk conversations, its really important.
Thank you
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ADHD
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Recently I learned about rejection sensitive dysphoria, and yes many puzzle pieces fell into the right spot and explained a lot. But these feelings and negative thoughts are really eating me from the inside. My mind is so negative and dark, I really don't know how to overcome this.
Yes I have tried writing a gratitude journal, but my mind will always find the negatives.
If there is anyone that has any tips or tricks. Please let me know
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ADHD
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i just wish i was special to someone. i wish that i mattered to someone. because i feel like i don't and like i never really have and it's so wretched and awful. nobody wants me around. everybody just gets sick of me and wishes i'd leave them alone. everybody's always mad at me or annoyed with me no matter how hard i try to not do anything wrong. my existence is an imposition on everyone around me. i hate feeling this way. i hate myself.
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depression
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So I’ve had an official diagnosis for about 3 months now, I even started medication yesterday actually, and I was wondering if most people like to share that they have it when they find out with everyone.
I used to think I’d tell everyone if I have it but I actually haven’t ever told anybody I know, even my siblings.
Even my dad, of course he knows but I’ve literally never brought it up.
I’ve got no problems or bad experiences, I just noticed I’d rather not talk about it, it feels like part of my personal struggles I’m figuring out I guess. It feels like people don’t need to be told, even if it’s relevant to bring up.
Maybe it’s a me thing cause I have no need to tell people I know, or it’s just whatever people want to do.
Some extra context in case it matters, I’m not an adult yet, I’m also not too young, and I’ve been given a primarily inattentive ADHD diagnosis 3mnths ago so it’s a recent thing. It’s also not obvious I have it to other people so they’d probably only know if I told them, which I don’t.
TD;DR: I don’t think about telling anybody I found out I have ADHD, I realized I actually prefer if nobody knows unless they really need to someday. Was just wondering if other people usually share that with others or prefer they don’t know.
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