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Hi.My name is Joshua. I'm 39 years old and I'm seeking a formal diagnosis of Asperger's. I plan to open up a lot and talk about diff things but for now I want to share how I am feeling on the cusp of a diagnosis.
I'm scared. I'm really very scared. I don't know if it will make sense, but, my whole life I have had to struggle. I just always thought of myself as a screw up. I always told myself that I was the reason I failed in job after job, relationship after relationship. I mean that's still true in part, but now that it looks a lot like I am going to be given a diagnosis of Asperger's... I'm scared
Something about this, the idea of being free of that guilt scares me and I don't know why or how to feel about it. I was hoping that some of you could help me process that. I would really appreciate that.
Thanks.
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Almost 2 years ago, I spent the night with a girl and she abandoned me (that's the long story short, there's so much more to it but that's the short version).
Ever since she abandoned me, I've felt a mix of different things. It started with sadness, then numb, then the awful rage I have to experience almost every single day.
I used to have nightmares not so often about the night but recently, they've come around more often. I'd have them a few times a week at most. The flashbacks are awful too. I've never had flashbacks this bad until recently and it feels like I'm right back in her room. Sometimes I still hear her whispering "this is our little secret".
Last night, I was screenshotting the old texts so I could send them to a friend of mine who wanted to read them. I keep them in case I need them. I never look at them to induce panic. When I got to the last conversation, I got an awful panic attack. My hands went numb and started to lock up. I was shaking for a good half hour after the attack ended.
I would experience dissociation a lot and not recognize myself in the mirror or feel connected to reality. Time tends to just go by and I remember nothing.
I often have intense feelings (self harm urges or thoughts of death) but I never act on them (8 months clean !!!!)
My therapist does see I experience trauma responses but I have to wait till November or December for a ptsd screening. For now, it's just my suspicions of PTSD but a part of me thinks I'm faking even though all of the things I experience are very real and people never see what I go through on a daily basis.
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I don’t have anything else to say. It must be nice not wanting to die.
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Okay I am currently awaiting diagnosis from a specific doctor because my doctor believes I have ADHD and OCD. Has anyone found during the pandemic their OCD symptoms have worsened? I have always had a problem with germs and completely hate the fact touching anything that’s “contaminated”. But I used to be able to tell myself that outside of my home is contaminated and that’s okay but now with hand sanitizer I’m washing my hands too much again. At one point in the past I washed my hands so much that they bled and my doctor taught me to wear gloves to show me how much I wash my hands. But with Covid I’m washing to much without even thinking about it I also just can bring myself to eat food anyone offers me unless I’ve seen them wash their hands or use hand sanitizer. All of this plus the fact I have to do certain things or can’t do certain things like I have this feeling that if I wear my neckless something horrible will happen. I also blame myself if someone gets sick or hurt because I think I didn’t do that one thing I was supposed to do. And I know this isn’t as severe as everyone else’s symptoms but I’m just curious has the pandemic affected you. And what things have you done to cope with your symptoms?
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Even if someone is being a jerk to me, I forget it in a short amount of time and treat this person like nothing happened. That cost a lot to me in the past, but I still cannot stop myself.
Also, I don't much feel "love", even for my close family. These two might be connected to each other.
Is there anyone else? That seems unhealthy and I want to quit it :/
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I suffer from pocd,hocd and rocd. It feels like its too much to handle. I hate this so much, I feel guilty for everything I've ever done. I feel empty even though I have freinds, a wonderful girlfriend and a family. I honestly can't ever see a time where I will be like my old self again. I used to be happy and energetic, now I just stay in my room all day and cry/hurt myself. I want to be happy again.
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I'm at work crying because I want sleep so badly. I'm 45 and I've had panic attacks and chronic depression for 25 years. I take clonazepam and prozac because without them my anxiety symptoms are debilitating and my life is filled with childhood trauma, failure as an adult and misery. Every single day I feel like I can't do it any more. Every single day I want to shut the alarm clock off, give up working, and just sleep until my money runs out. Every day I'm just waiting to die. And I'm \*too tired\* to do anything about it.
I'm too tired to even edit this post into something that has any point.
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I was diagnosed years and years ago with adhd and anxiety, around when I was in late elementary school. I got prescribed some non stimulants and really felt nothing for a few years, then in highschool I got put on riddilin xr. I stopped taking it because I noticed nothing from it, no better concentration or any of that. Then recently I decided tool for back to my psychiatrist and try adderall because last year I failed college because I literately could not read or study whatsoever. I got my prescription about 2 weeks ago, so half way into my semester that I’m failing two classes in. I was really excited to try it and the first day I felt amazing, I felt happy, accomplished, and I could take notes for longer than a hour before loosing my train of thought completely. I started at 20mg of adderall xr and by the fourth day I felt the same as I had before, unable to study or pay attention to anything at all. So my doctor told me to slowly work my way up to 40mg by emptying one part way and taking a whole one. The last week everyday I feel dread, I feel lost and overwhelmed by everything. I feel like I’m never going to pass school, get a good job, get in shape, or fix anything about myself. It gets to the point of me feeling like I can’t breath. My head is constantly in pain by how much I’m thinking about having a horrible life. I just can’t tell if it’s just my anxiety hitting a breaking point, or if it’s my adderal triggering something or if I really just am that dumb and I’m just realizing I can’t make it anywhere. Any advice would mean the world too me, sorry about the long read.
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I am nearly 21 y/o (a month away) and I've had what I recognize now as ADHD and tics my whole life as far as I can remember. Poor attention/ comprehension of certain topics that do not increase, dyslexia, hard to understand people with accents or in loud environments even though I have no hearing damage, difficult to complete even tasks that I enjoy, jittery hands/ restless leg syndrome, you get the picture. I was treated with depression starting August 2020 and then ADHD from November 2020 onward. I always did these things that I passed off as "chills," like I'd suddenly get this \*funny feeling\* throughout my body just before one of my arms or legs, or even all 4 together, will suddenly jolt up or out for a second before going back normal. Or my neck will bend left or right so my head would go toward whichever shoulder was being raised; or my head will snap rotate 90 degrees in either direction, and other spontaneous head movement. Sometimes I can feel them coming and stop the motions from happening, but most of the time I feel them coming just as I get the sudden movement and can't control it at all. I got suspicious about a month ago when I realized these "chills" would happen even at times I wasn't cold either before or after they happen, and they were more common in stressful environments. I **do not** have verbal tics so it can't be officially classified as Tourette’s, but I do recognize these now as being complex motor tics. They've never prohibited me from doing anything or regularly impacted my daily life in a negative way, so my doctor and I both decided there was no need to really do anything about them since I wasn't concerned. Is there anybody else, either you or someone you know, who also have a combination of ADHD and Tics/ Tourette’s? Just curious to see if other people have similar experiences. I know Ethan Klein from H3 for example has both, but that is the only example I can think of from memory.
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Is it ok to be friends with a guy u had a thing with in the past? Me and my guy friend were talking about how it went down and I told him it’s gross to think about. I even had the urge to block him after I remember flirting with him (4 years ago), it’s gross and cringe to think about. It triggered me that we talked about flirting in the past though and makes me think I just cheated by having that conversation.
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26 year old male here. I am currently going through one of my toughest depressive periods of my life. I have felt not myself for the past 3 months. I have bad anxiety and have gone through a slew of physical symptoms as a result with no clear indicator as to what’s causing it. Doctors and physicians have given me numerous blood tests and ct scans and nothing has turned up. I had a setback as far as medication, recently I had gone off an antidepressant because of heart palpitations only to feel worse a week later with vomiting and constant nausea and even worse anxiety when I try to sleep at night. I am seeing a counselor for this but she can only do so much. I am trying to see a psychiatrist as well. I am scared of taking medicine given I am very sensitive to it and have had bad reactions to it in the past including recently.
My hope is dwindling, my anxiety is high.
How can I get through it when I feel physically and mentally bad?
How did you get through it?
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I mainly have POCD but I’ve been dealing with this immense anxiety ever since around 2015ish. I don’t know if this is OCD per se but it’s been around for so long which leads me to believe it is. A while ago a left a community that I didn’t have very good relations with and I’ve always been worried about them cyberstalking or harassing me, I can’t stop the anxiety no matter what until I distract myself. I have a lot of security analysis tools on my PC, and I’ve factory reset my pc at least 4 times since then, even though a program I downloaded from them wasn’t a virus. I’ve always been on edge and I’m just so scared because I found out they still talk about me. What should I do? Thanks.
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Sorry if this is a common topic as im sure many people have this same problem. I am looking for suggestions and just personal experiences.
Basically I have general insomnia and it's difficult for me to fall asleep even when I don't take Adderall. If I lie down at midnight I can usually fall asleep by 1am. But with Adderall its so much worse, I lay down yesterday at midnight and couldn't sleep till after 2am.
Do I need to just commit and take adderall for a few days in a row before I get used to it? I've been taking trazadone for a year now and it helps a bit but not so much on an aderall day.
I seem to be stuck in a cycle where I need good sleep before taking aderall but then the pill causes me to stay up late and so im reluctant to take it again the next day.
I am recovering from surgery so I can only exercise a little bit.
Have any of you overcome this issue?
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Waking up, eating, drinking water, talking to people, going to the store, going to work, every little thing is just fucking unbearable. I can’t take care of myself and I’ve self isolated myself yet again. I have no where let to turn and not a single thing feels good. I don’t want to sleep but I don’t want to be awake. I don’t want to sit around and do nothing but nothing I makes me feel anything but frustration. What the fuck am I supposed to do I don’t want to exist anymore
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I feel so bad. I am completly useless
I could kill myself.
I wish I was not alive
I dont get shit done
I hate myself
I fuck up again and again
so repeatly that everything is shit
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I honestly wanted to vent about something I’ve been noticed more and more. I will preface this by saying I am glad there are more resources for children with adhd now then there was when I was growing up (I’m in my 20s), and getting children help with adhd is very important. I just get annoyed that from my experience, it stops at childhood, maybe adolescents. I think there is a stigma that ADHD is a children’s disorder which isn’t true, and makes it harder for adults with adhd to get help. I remember going to one therapist who specialized in adhd, but she had only really worked with children. So getting help is harder for adhd is harder as an adult. You may get a therapist that is biased and has no idea what adhd is (that’s a mark of a bad therapist but that’s a different discussion). Trying to look up resources online for adhd help, most if not all of it is aimed at children. Heck I honestly was looking up the best places for those with adhd to live, and all o could find was of course, best places to raise child with adhd. Like am I the only one experiencing this? Is there any good resources for adults with adhd?
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Yeah, like the feeling of the spins of being drunk but obviously without drinking. I’m a google queen and can’t find much on this - I’m newly diagnosed and really just beginning therapy and healing so I’m just curious. Has anyone else experienced this??
So far, seems to be when I start going down the rabbit hole too far or too fast, usually in bed. When I’ve had the spins while drunk, keeping my eyes open works, but with this it doesn’t. Grounding exercises have helped lessen it though.
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I sometimes get annoyed when people bring up my old special interests I get mad for some reason. Like I wish they could forget about them. Also I hate it when people start saying they know things about my special interest but then state incorrect facts!!
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I suspect my kid having ADHD and Anxiety. I am concerned about his in-attentiveness aspect and the less maturity for his age (9years) seems like 2years behind when it comes to maturity. Is there any use seeking medical/psychological help at this age or just wait and see how it goes in middle school? we are concerned about putting him on meds if needed.
Can someone with ADHD and Anxiety share their experience about how it helped or not helped with or without early help? Thans
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I've been severely deperessed for the most part of 2021. Two very close and dear people in my life passed away within months and I'm still in grief.
The thing is, my birthday is coming soon, and I feel like I want to do something special because I "survived" such a hard year, but at the same time, I've been feeling really unimportant for my friends and I feel like if I tell them I want to celebrate and they flake on me or something I'll be extremely hurt.
I've never spent a single birthday feeling this bad and I'm kind of dreading it...
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hey,
Seeing people in this forum I am always asking my self if I am just overreacting, if I just have a less severe case or if I just have good tricks to handle my ADHD. For example:
I have completed my Bachelors in EE with a good grade even through I hardly can focus in lectures and also can't remember facts very well
I do have some social anxieties and doesn't have big friend circle or a girlfriend but still can talk to people
I See so many people here getting meds but while I have gotten them for a short time I could handle my life even with out them.
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I got a long story, starting donestic violence and several other things, which I don’t want to explain in-depth.
I’m Blaze. 21/m. I recently avoided jail, for something I did a long time ago. I’m on a way to become a better version of myself. Just gotta do community service and then I’m clear.
Long story short: I live with my dad. A month and a half ago, I went to his landlord because I was looking for a flat I could share with my best friend, and then the landlord informed me that we’re having a eviction note.
My dad, sociopathic man, lost in his mind... anyways, my dad didn’t tell me anything. Until then, my mental health was on it’s peak, for the very first time I was stable. And he robbed me off by his.. dirty ways. My physical and mental health was perfect, fine, no flashbacks, night horrors or anything. But the information brought all the symptoms, which slowly decreased in intensity, back to the surface like a catastrophy. I started drinking all day again and lost my job because I couldn’t cope anymore. Didn’t shave or shower for a few weeks, after all my attempts to rescue at least myself have failed horribly. But he managed it. He can’t handle his own money, so he requested his boss to pay it from his wage immediately. And now he’s acting as if I am guilty, always comes up with “you’re not paying for anything, I could kick you out” and if something happens which is my fault, or he forgot that he did something and blames me, then I have to listen to his comments about how nobody would miss me if I was ‘gone’ and how I am nothing but disgrace and failure, unworthy of the family name, how no police officer would ask questions if I end up half-dead in hospital because he’s got friends in the police and it’ll be ‘self-defense’.
I spent the last 2 years training my mind to handle that all better and to focus on creating a future. And within 1 week he’s robbed me off all my hopes. Eventually, I’ve found back to my new self and created a business. My own company. With 0 funding. I’m 5k in debt, and he begs and begs and begs for freaking money. I make 0 a month currently because I really suck at online marketing, still I somehow always have money to provide.
This company is my final solution. There’s no other way out anymore (trust me, I tried 30+ ways). I don’t know. I have no more friends because it’s true, people leave you if you dream of achieving something bigger than them. I just needed to get this off my chest cause I didn’t really vent since I was sort of kicked out from several groups and server. Anyways, thank you for your time.
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So I've been dealing with several years of abuse. I left my ex in late 2017 but has continued to stalk and harass me in all sorts of ways. Technically I have not started my recovery yet because it has been non-stop. I live in an area where the government is not LGBT friendly, so both PPO hearings did not go in my favor. Government likes money. People who have money, they usually go in favor of. It's ridiculous. He admitted to stalking and still denied. He has destroyed my life but also has allowed to create a new "me" that I'm really starting to like. My PTSD is weird.
There is something that happened two nights ago. I had a nightmare of something my ex has not realistically done to me. In my dream I was pushed to the ground, beaten the shit out of. I have been physically abused by him but not as bad as I experienced in the nightmare... and it felt SO real. I woke up and was very thankful it was just in my mind when sleeping.
So, making up a scenario that isn't real, in my sleep. What could that mean? I'm seeing my therapist on Wednesday so we are going to discuss that. But I would like to hear some insight from you guys who have experience with abuse from an ex.
Thank you for reading. <3
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So as some of you might not know, mods of this sub are very pretentious and ban people going through a lot of things for venting! r/OCDButBetter is a safer place for everyone. Feel free to vent. We’re all here for each other! Hope you have an amazing day.
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I'm literally getting so anxious and worked up about the idea of cleaning my cat's litterbox right now. Like I've done it before a bajillion times but it's always a struggle to start. I already avoid touching it like the plague, and I double check to make sure I haven't accidentally made contact with it. So touching it and seeing all the cat shit inside makes me so fucking afraid of being contaminated. My whole body feels gross and dirty and w r o n g and it makes me wanna die. I fucking hate this so much. I just wanna take care of my kitties!!!!
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I take fast-release methylphenidate (Rubifen here in Spain or what you might know as Ritalin) and it works wonders for me. Today I had a first session with a therapist and she said that stimulants can help anyone, not just people with ADHD. This kept me thinking, but I've checked many sources and they all say that this is not true. What do you guys think?
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I feel like if I get triggered by something, and if I tell myself the mantra which I've read that supposedly helps, "I'm obsessing. I must stop" rather than facing the obsession and thinking through it right away, the obsession will stay there where as if I think about it right away instead of trying to push it out of my head, the obsession doesn't seem as strong cause I've "dealt with it"
This is strange cause this is the opposite of what I've read about obsessions and compulsions. I know avoidance is also a compulsion, but by me telling myself "I'm obsessing I must stop" im more or less acknowledging the thought and not really avoiding it, am I? On the other hand, acknowledging it with the intention to let it pass by like clouds, rather than acknowledging it with the intention of wanting to just "ignore it" and "avoid it" in hopes it goes away can maybe be what determines the two different outcomes in regards to how strong the obsession becomes
I understand not entertaining / analyzing the thoughts and sitting with the anxiety is important, but also I feel like in not doing so, they have more time to "stick" to your mind until the anxiety becomes so great your mind comes up with compulsions to relieve it. It feels awful to think I have to do this after feeling triggered in order for the thought not to stick, but it feels that it works most of the time and its easier than going through hell for days, weeks or months, once the thought "sticks" almost as if its saying " if you won't think about me now I'm just gunna hang around in the back until you do.."
I feel you're damned if you do, damned if you don't..
-_-
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Like bruh are you kidding me? Sleep is supposed to be my escape!
Has anyone else ever experienced this before? As annoying as it was it goes to show you how badly ocd can fuck with you
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It can both happen in the morning or in the day hours after a nap. When I wake up, just before opening my eyes, I find myself questioning where I am. It can be simply not knowing if I’m in my bedroom or sleeping on the couch in my living room. But sometimes it’s even worse, I can’t even know where I am. I may think I’m in one of my previous houses, or even in my childhood room which I was living 20 years ago. This confusion lasts only 2-3 seconds but it’s still very disturbing.
I’m used to waking up not knowing if it’s day or night, or if it’s weekday or weekend. But not knowing where I am, who is around (my parents, my ex boyfriend, or my husband, or no one) is really confusing.
Any of you having something similar? Should I be worried?
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I don't live in my abusers house anymore and I've noticed since then I've been having alot more dreams and nightmares. The nightmares arent usually about my abuser. It's gotten to the point where I have a dream or nightmate almost every night. Has anyone else noticed this in them? Could there be any correlation?
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This is a little bit of vent and my attempt to talk about my day. So today at work we were non stop making pizzas for over 6 hours. I was put on till and had to deal with all the customers. I let my autism run wild and focused on getting ppl out the fucking door. I had a Karen on the phone at one point, not my problem. I had to constantly tell people that this is THE busiest day we have had in a long ass time. Being under staffed didn’t help either. There is also a bunch of other stuff but I’m so exhausted to type that much
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A not so close friend asked me for the passcode to get to the roof of my apt building. He wanted to be able to hang up there. I didn’t want to get in trouble for sharing it since he doesn’t live in the building and I got nervous so instead of telling him No, I gave him the 9 digit passcode but changed half the numbers. Dishonest, I know.
Ever since I’ve been worried he misheard me and somehow wrote down the correct passcode. So like, I told him (speaking slowly) the first few numbers were 577 and I’m afraid he somehow wrote down 576, which are the first three digits of the real code. I have this fear all the digits I changed and reordered he somehow replaced with the correct numbers in the passcode, even though he never heard the correct passcode.
This is an irrational thought and I know it is. How likely is it the guy would mishear the numbers and somehow pick these other numbers, the right ones, out of all the possible digits he could pick? Not to mention he must’ve been listening closely cause he wanted the passcode so the odds of him writing down the numbers wrong to begin with is incredibly small.
I’d say my worry coming true has the odds of 1/2000. It basically wouldn’t happen. Yet here I am bugging out.
Does anyone else have totally irrational thoughts like this? I recently read OCD is the doubting disease and I guess I’m doubting things even though I know it doesn’t make sense.
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Okay so, I started Vyvanse 40mg not long ago, I was on Ritalin which was fast release last year but it wasn't for me. Vyvanse on the other hand is seriously amazing. I finally experienced that feeling that everyone who starts meds talks about, the "clarity" or the "is this how normal people feel all the time feeling". it felt like my brain is on mute, as in all the hundreds of thoughts that would normally be filling up my brain where gone and now all I have to think about is the task at hand or what I gotta do. I do however, have some symptoms I wanted to see if anyone else could relate to.
Firstly, does anyone experience this feeling like in order to start and continuing doing your task you have to be playing the exact right type of music or be watching the perfect youtube video or whatever, otherwise you get aggravated and almost anxious. its really odd like I have to find the right playlist and if I listen to the wrong thing it just feels off and I get frustrated. the same thing happens when picking out what to wear for the day, even when I'm just gonna be at home I gotta pick the right thing. I have a feeling it has to do with there being to many choices and my brain trying to pick idk though.
I also get annoyed when I don't have anything to do, I take my meds mainly for my job which is late afternoon and night work, but I gotta take the meds in the morning because its slow release. Im not studying at the moment so during the daytime I finish what I gotta do pretty fast and then I get annoyed when I have nothing left to do. like I really want to be productive and do stuff but theres nothing so I get annoyed. Once I actually pick something to study I can't wait to see how I gonna go with assignments and stuff!
some other symptoms I've been getting are suppressed appetite which is pretty common and I had that on Ritalin, and seriously bad dry mouth its so annoying. Anyway if anyone can relate let know or if anyone has any advice. Thanks guys!!
NOTE: Holy cow look at all that stuff I wrote, AND IN PARAGRAPHS?! I never use paragraphs these meds are insane!! Sorry for the long post if you've made it this far thank you.
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I was never your normal child i was more mature but there were more reason to why my mother was a drug user who would be arrested and put jail for a while and so I lived with my dad. He was nice and never really hated him and I had a sister who lived with us because her father was also a drug addict. My father would take care of us both I realized my dad treated her better because of the father and mother thing. I became quite jealous of her because my father was the only one that I knew loved me and it felt like it was taken away from me my father really had his attention on her. I never knew i was depressed and for 3rd-5th i never talked to anyone i just was there. I wanted a purpose so i would find a friend group and be friends with them and well act like them to give me some purpose to my life. I started to hate myself and never knew why. I always weared this mask that only i could see and this mask hide my true self. I started to copy my friends and also do things that i thought was cool to fill the emptiness yet i still feel empty. I need some help.
Im also having trouble sleeping and have dreams of people turning there back on me and waking up crying. I don't like being like this but i cant physically tell someone that i need help. For some reason I just cant say i need help I usually just say im fine or im very happy but im not. I also sometimes just lie that im sick to my father just so i can lay down and sleep and never wake up. I just want to have some purpose to keep me going or stop hating myself for useless... Like how i lose things left and right and how i suck at everything and how im sometimes im too lazy to do anything productive i want to do something but can't because i need someone to help me do that when there is no one to ask.
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Does anyone know that rules for confidentiality in cbt?
I’m a teen in therapy for ptsd and told my therapist about a really rough memory for me. I didn’t want it shared with my parents but she told them anyway. I wasn’t in harm, wasn’t going to harm myself, and wasn’t going to harm other. She says that cbt rules are different for confidentiality but hasn’t explained them. Honestly I just feel really betrayed.
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Long story but I was in a room once where a gun went off right next me. Nobody was hurt but I didn't know that didn't know what was happening at all.
It was over a year ago now and it still replays in my head so many times in just a day. And it's like I remember every tiny detail with all my senses even. I don't have any other memory so vivid. It just replays all the time, whether I'm at home, work, alone, with people, it doesn't matter.
I always think about how I didn't know what was happening and didn't even feel in control of my body when I reacted. It feels like I'm still so scared about it even though it already happened so it doesn't make sense to be scared of it.
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Like they would ask if your parents approved of you doing \_\_\_\_ or would do stuff just to try to make you feel less of a person.
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For the first time i felt comfortable about myself, i feel confident and i don't care what people say. I just realized, that if i want to change i need to start by myself, because if i don't act i will blame the whole world forever.
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I can't say anything on my FB to attempt to find help because there are co-workers and family on there.i don't know what I expect of strangers but I need to at least get this off my chest.
I am tired of being me. My husband got onto me tonight for being passive aggressive ever since I got home from work and when I asked what he meant he wouldn't talk to me because our daughter was there. I made one comment that I know was. I was impatient with him dragging his feet and wasting the little bit of daylight we had left to go to the park but I don't feel like I did anything like he says (or didn't say for that matter).
He fell asleep on my daughter's floor while I was doing bedtime routine with her. Then he wakes up when I'm getting her PJs on and takes her to the lamp to turn it off. He asked her to do the other with me. She pushes my leg and tells me to go away. So I told her goodnight and left. She didn't ask for me. He didn't come to talk. I went in her room later to sit for just a minute and she just asked for daddy. My family seems to hate me as much as I do.
Work has been stressful in a red state with the vaccine mandate. It's isolating being one of the few scientists that actually got the vaccine. I live in chronic pain and that makes me more useless than I used to be. I've needed a therapist for awhile to help with social skills, anger management, and depression but I've had quite a few in my life and none of them have ever helped. Meds are always a really long trial and error just for short lived results. I got tired of going through it all and usually only have a few down points now and then that my husband helps me with.
I don't know what to do anymore. I want to give up, move out, quit, and disappear. Maybe everyone would be happier without me.
I have no friends to turn to that I feel would actually be of any help without making me feel worse.
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I don’t know if this is OCD or not but sometimes I won’t be hungry because a food makes me uncomfortable because of my intrusive thoughts like earlier I wanted spinach salad and my brain went straight to, “what if it’s bad and has mold.” It didn’t but when I ate it I was so scared. It doesn’t happen too often but I want to eat healthy on those days but sometimes all I can pass by is packaged food because it’s a “safe route.” Because Whole Foods like potato’s and vegetables or fruit grosses me out. It rarely happens because I eat a generally healthy diet as a vegetarian eating plenty of fruits and vegetables. But when my OC sneaks up on me I lack appetite for a day or two.
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OCD
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I don't have OCD about being racist. I have OCD about that I'm racist because I have OCD itself. OCD = Racist to my OCD mind.
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OCD
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I just came across the concept of planning days (or even weeks) by theme and doing only tasks that align with that theme. Writing day, errands day, cleaning day, etc.
If anyone has tried this I’d be really interested in hearing about your experience and if it helped with your executive functioning. My only concern is that if I don’t “feel like” doing the theme that day I’ll freeze and end up doing nothing. Planning what I want to work on ahead of time is a sure fire way to make my brain rebel and refuse to do it, but that could just be because I’m doing a lot of task switching most days??
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ADHD
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(Sorry for my English and that it is so long I just never spoke about it in rl)
Me16 just got diagnosed with depression and social anxiety and I probably have it since I was 9y/o
The only friends I had are people who pretend to be friends with you and others.
“Friends” even told me straight in the face
As a group
that they hate me but they stayed with me and acted like they never told it to me.
Twice!
I know this sound pretty dumb but something like that is hitting me even today very hard mentally
After the first look down I got some friends and I was really happy and it felt like that i was coming more and more out of my shell and had more fun in life
But I got to confident and lost just recently all of it and I am alone again
And I hate it
It feels like nothing good happened in this time
It is just everything the same like before and I hate it
I don’t want to be alone anymore but I don’t think someone should ever be with me because I have such an bad personality.
My brother old me a treatment is useless and finde something that can make me happy is more helpful and everything will be ok but my mom things I should take a treatment.
I myself do not even know
I don’t even think that I belong somewhere
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depression
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Hello! Just a little reminder to not solve the thoughts! Don’t try to get the right feeling, and then move on!
There are 2 ways you can go about this...
1. You solve the thought, then get another thought. Then you solve that one and get another. And so on...
Or...
2. You keep this thought and acknowledge that it’s there but you don’t engage in it. You’ll have this thought following you for a while until the OCD grows bored and moves on to a different thought.
If you keep trying to solve the thoughts, you’re telling your brain that this is important and in turn, your brain will continue to send you similar thoughts so you can keep solving them.
Your brain loves to solve things! But there are some things that you can’t or don’t even NEED to solve!
Even if you solve the thought, the next thought will bring you just as much anxiety, so the anxiety will be equal no matter what! Content doesn’t matter. Even when you feel like you’ve solved all the thoughts and there’s not a thought that your brain can come up with at the moment, your brain is actively trying to come up with something to bring you anxiety. Just keep whatever thought you have until it grows bored and moves on. That way, you’re telling your brain that this is not important.
Hope this helped!
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OCD
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For the longest time I’ve had bad social skills. After finally being diagnosed I’m relieved to find out that this was most likely the cause. I find myself interrupting others in a conversation often and find it hard to follow conversations all together. I’ve developed a social phobia that I’ve lived with for the last few years. As a result I’ve spent most of these years in total isolation. I want to get better at this area of my life and I believe that I can. Have any of you experienced issues with social skills and if so how have you went about rebuilding those skills in order to have a social life with healthy relationships?
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ADHD
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My story: I’ve always had angry reactions to certain noises, like gum chewing, chip crunching, heavy breathing - would get genuinely angry and despise people solely off of that (now at 22 I can manage this better but coming out of the pandemic I feel like I’m avoiding more than adapting).
So, I knew even from a young age what misophonia was and knew I had it. This last summer, a contestant on a show I like, Big Brother, told the others he was on the spectrum. Funny enough, this was someone who was on the show nine years ago when I first started watching, and I remember identifying strongly with him. I thought, hmm that’s interesting. Didn’t know really anything about autism beyond stereotypes. I stored this information in “research later at some point.
Flash forward to January and I have a meltdown. The final trigger was really mundane, just a petty inconvenience of me having to go to the bank instead of being able to do it online (like, the bank was a few blocks away, I walked that direction all the time). I basically shut down for the whole afternoon in bed. Granted, it was a lot of emotions bottled up and a shitty morning. As I laid there I thought, this can’t be normal. It can’t just be me who has these types of shutdowns/meltdowns. Who else would crawl in bed for hours because of this? Time to research that spectrum thing.
Three or four hours later, learning misophonia can be a symptom of autism and a 38 on the autism spectrum quotient and I’m pretty blown away. For months prior I felt like I wanted to get to the bottom of what was going on inside my head and why it felt like I wasn’t functioning right, couldn’t function right even, and I just couldn’t decipher what it could be. This felt like it checked my boxes, answered my questions, and for the last five and half months I’ve researched and interacted on this sub, talked with friends and feel like I’m most likely on the spectrum.
I’m still learning a lot and not sure when/if I’ll pursue an official diagnosis. I’d like to meet more people irl or online who I know are autistic to get a better grasp of it, too.
What’s your autism discovery story?
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aspergers
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is there any self theraphy book that would help me to treat my pocd? as i cannot afford a theraphy ?
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OCD
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I made a post about it here:
https://www.reddit.com/r/OCD/comments/qq5nme/i_need_support_with_my_food_safety_ocd/hjyo6fq/?context=3
Then the person went to my profile and commented on that thread. I know I could block this person but I really want to understand why she is behaving this way. I need to understand where she is coming from but all I'm getting is yelling in all caps.
What should my response be?
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OCD
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I’m starting to see ads in my FB feed for “Personalized online treatment for your ADHD” from a service called “done.” Donefirst.com
Does anyone have a rundown of what they do?
Seems like they charge $80/month for something, but the fact that it’s not entirely clear from their website what they do makes me suspicious.
I’m also creeped out that I’m getting ADHD related targeted ads.
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ADHD
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I am really proud of y'all , fighting , staying alive . Great job , no wonderful job , good luck comrades in your life
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OCD
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hey folks! wanted to share a system i’ve put in place to really help me capture tasks and stay focused. I use an app called Todoist, but i’m sure any to-do list app works.
each time I think of something I need to do, i’ve started setting an intention of stopping everything and jotting it down immediately before I forget it. if I have a few extra moments, i’ll assign a reminder/due date to it so i’m notified to get it done. and I also have a repeating reminder on my phone that has me regularly go through my list and make sure everything that is time-sensitive has a due date.
in todoist I can filter/view everything due today or see tasks that are upcoming. it helps SO much to start capturing tasks as I think about them because I know i’ll forget them within the next 30 seconds.
waking up to a pre-curated to-do list has helped me feel so much more focused and so much less stress. all of this strategy is based on the Getting Things Done framework - a quick search in google will pull up a ton of resources on the approach.
hopefully this is helpful for anyone that feels that sense of impending doom when you can’t remember what you’re supposed to be remembering.
cheers!
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ADHD
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Anyone else feel that ADHD is a deterrent and major cause of issues in relationships? Are there couples who make it work? I lurked on the ADHD partners sub Reddit and I was so disheartened and felt as if I shouldn't ever impose myself on anyone with the purpose of being in a relationship.
I'm really struggling to view this disorder as anything positive.
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ADHD
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like, a really move. to a real apartment!!! it’s beautiful and i am beyond excited and proud of myself. i’m going from a small studio that i’ve been in for almost six years to a large one bedroom with a garage.
all this is great but, i don’t know how to move!! i’ve already set up the movers but after that im.. kind of clueless lmao. i have some large boxes already but when and where do i start!? my house has a ton of junk to throw and a lot of cleaning to do before we leave.
i came here because (maybe?) other people with ADHD could break it down in a better way for me to understand how organize all of this???
edit: i’ll also take any advice on budgeting 😅
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ADHD
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Hi -- So, last year when I was in couseling, the therapist kept saying I displayed common signs of PTSD, but I couldn't think of anything traumatic that had ever happened to me.
For 4 years, I lived with my ex in his house. I don't know if it would be considered abusive. He was psychologically (putting me down, yelling/screaming when angered) abusive and somewhat physically abusive (pushing me against walls, yelling in my face), but it wasn't often. I finally did leave, and it was stressful. The days leading up to me moving out were extremely stressful and got aggressive (on his end). I do, looking back, remember once I got to my new place, sitting down taking a deep breath and saying it's finally over.
Flash forward to the past six months . . . I regularly dream of being at my ex's house, trying to leave. Dreams consist of me returning to get items, trying to hide, and so on. In the dreams I am always anxious or scared. This started after COVID lockdowns/stay at home orders.
Do you think I have some kind of stashed away trauma from this? It's just really weird that these dreams are suddenly a common theme, especially since I haven't even seen him in 11 years.
TIA
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ptsd
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On a first date, which is definitely a sign that he was trying to respect me, and I'm glad he asked! We seriously connected, he's a wonderful person. However...
As soon as he asked I had a wave of anxiety and sinking feelings. My brain stopped working, I couldn't talk, I instantly felt like I needed to fall asleep, my face got really hot, my heart rate went up, and felt like I was drowning. I just stared out the window and couldn't do anything else, I was frozen.
I had sexual abuse starting when I was 16, so I'm pretty sure it's related to that.
I wanted to know if anyone has any advice for what to do when this happens? He was lovely and just kept telling me it was going to be alright until I could talk again and I felt so embarrassed. How can I get out of it earlier?
Also, I thought that if someone /asked/ for a kiss rather than just going in for one, I'd be fine? But I even got the wave of anxiety and went kinda quiet when he asked to hold hands! Why is the asking causing me problems? How the hell can someone hold hands with me or kiss me if they can't just jump into it, and they can't ask first either? Wat. Help?
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ptsd
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Hi! There's a big life event coming up for me and I thought I would just be in a good mood about this, but I'm having A LOT of intrusive thoughts. They're very positive ones so I feel MORE compelled to indulge in compulsions related to them. It sounds weird to want to get rid of something positive, but i'm having a lot of trouble concentrating in anything else, lol.
I'd love some tips to help calm myself down, like I said I'm having a harder time ignoring them because they're positive, so all your help is appreciated.
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OCD
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From reading posts here I gather that a big part of ocd experiences involve incredible amounts of shame for thinking about or doing something considered imoral, wrong, inadequate or embarassing, and also even shame about ocd itself.
Please consider taking a (compassionate and truly validating) look inside yourself, and trying to understand where such guilt and shame could be coming from. These destructive emotions are usually instilled upon us from a very early age, and very unfairly so.
Maybe your ocd isnt about the x/y/z thought or worry that you have afterall, but rather from the stress of extremely rigid and punitive (even tyranical) expectations that you carry for yourself.
If you find it useful, try allowing youself to sense, see or feel either the universe, god, society, your crush, or etc, as being possibly more forgiving and understanding than you think they could be.
Allow yourself to feel compassion for yourself, and open yourself to the ideia that others/god/the universe can do to.
Anyway, that’s the reflection I wanted to share today.
Wishing you well!
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OCD
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I dont even know if this is somehow connected to having ADHD, but I thought you guys might understand.
I've recently come to find out that nostalgia actually is supposed to make you feel happy. It's always made me depressed - whenever I think of old cartoons I've watched, toys, movies and places from when I was a kid or even songs, lullabies etc. these things make me very sad, sometimes to the point I just cry. I've heard people say how they think of all these things I listed and they say it cheers them up but I really can't understand how and why. I mean, this is a time, and supposedly happier time, that you're never going to get back and experience again, why would this make me happy?
This is more like a rant and hoping to find some kind of explanation than anything else. So thanks for reading.
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ADHD
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i don't really know how to start this but at first i have to say that i'm really new into reddit and that's my first post, so if i'm doing anything "wrong" or seem a lil bit awkward, it's just because i don't really know how this is really working out.
i searched for this channel bc i suffer from PTSD since i'm 17. my trauma (i don't know how much is okay to say about it to don't trigger people but i got raped) happend in september 2018 and i got into a mental hospital a year ago (march 2019). i found a lot of people that actually understood what i told them but all the connections broke up since i'm out of the clinic.
i'm not really sure if i search someone who can relate to a few things (sadly) or if i'm a lil bit relapsing (i actually felt very normal since august 2019). i hope there is someone who wants to talk about it with me because i feel a lil bit alone with all the stuff that PTSD is giving me.
i hope you have a good day, stay strong 🖤
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ptsd
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I'm way too fucking paranoid, I cant deal with this anymore I'm losing the odds are against me....my life is fucking over I'm going to have to end it...
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OCD
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for me it my cat went to therapy once and they dont understand at all like if im gonna break down im not gonna stop with a simple breathing technique but THAT furry abomination is just to adorable how can i be angry with that and also its just very annoying when someone say take a deep breath in and out then it feels like they say YOU NEED TO CHILL THE FUCk out lmfao
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aspergers
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Currently on day 11 increasing by 50mg every 5 days (so I’m on 150mg now) and feeling like absolute crap. I have about 4 hrs max of energy starting from when I first wake up.. so by noon it feels like midnight and I’ve been napping most afternoons while also feeling extremely weak, nauseous and having terrible headaches. I’ve heard the first few weeks are rough and then it passes… but this feels like hell. Anyone been through this, waited it out and it got better? Thanks.
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OCD
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From a young age, I would like even numbers, for example, I would randomly while eating sweets count how many I have. Although it didn't bother me how many there were, I just preferred even numbers. I would also count the number of things, like the number of steps in each section of the pavement, or I would do things an even number of times. I still do and never thought of them as anything serious. It was just happening and it didn't really bother me I only discovered this after researching about mild anxiety which I suspect I have but am recovering and have felt a lot better since a week ago when it started. well after reading what I read on the internet today, about OCD causing people to not live their life normally and stuff, I started feeling scared that it could be me as well and I won't be able to live normally, even though my OCD has never affected me negatively before, only just occurrences like doing things an even number of times and just minor stuff that hasn't disturbed me in any way. My question is should I be worried, I only got scared today after reading about the dangers of it, I have never felt any distress or fear by it before as my symptoms have been light, e.g. counting for even numbers, reading things twice, or doing things twice, such as turning a tap on and off.
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OCD
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I had such a great day yesterday, like i really felt normal. It was like i didnt even have ptsd at all. No Flashbacks, no anxiety, no overthinking. I just felt normal. Today however now that i woke up, i feel so fatigued. It is like i didnt sleep anything. I dont understand. :(
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ptsd
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Followed all the advice here (and elsewhere), followed the guidance about Right to Choose, completed all the forms, got referred by the NHS to Psychiatry UK, completed the forms and now my initial ADHD assessment appointment is booked....for next October.
Any suggestions on alternatives? I know awareness of Right to Choose blew up over lockdown but I'm feeling exasperated by the next enormous wait!
Given the cost, I'm looking at private but I can't cover those private costs!
Edit - please excuse the typo in the title!
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ADHD
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I guess preface there is literally a 0% chance of self harm so I’ll get that out of the way. I am coming to the conclusion I do not believe happiness is for me. I have interests that I engage in and friends and my career but none of them bring me any joy. I have felt this for as long as I can remember but as of yesterday my relationship with my s/o ended and she was the closest I had felt to happy in a long time. The end of that really has forced me to fixate on this intense emptiness. It is further dampened by intense disappointment in people and the alien feeling I have with them. I wake up every day just waiting for the end so I can get my life over with.
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depression
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Hey guys! Did you ever experience a kind of placebo effect with (well, without) Ritalin? A few days ago I forgot to take it (20mg in the morning), but I could still get through the day pretty good. I realized it only in the evening. And now I worry that I might take the meds unneccessary when I am technically capable of doing it without, you know what I mean? xx
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ADHD
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I have been considering purchasing some of those timer caps for my ADHD medication.
For anyone that has used them, what did/do you think of them?
Specifically, I think my main concerns are:
1) finding the correct size to fit my prescription bottles
I don't particularly want to move the pills into a new bottle as I worry about having stimulants in different bottles and possibly getting in trouble with the police. (This is highly unlikely as I don't have any interaction with police but I get anxious)
2) how accurately it knows I've opened the bottle.
My pill bottles fall off of their shelf, out of my hand, and just generally get fumbled about. I'm not sure how the bottle registers "open" vs "closed" and how jostling them might effect that.
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ADHD
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I finally got an official diagnosis and I told my mom, but all she did was get mad at me for wanting the label. I don’t know why but she always gets upset and makes me justify it to her when I say that a label would be super validating to me. My dad just stayed dead silent and didn’t say anything hes just acting like I didn’t say anything. It’s not like I’ve been saying it like it’s a fun thing or anything I’ve talked about it because it’s a part of me that I haven’t ever been able to talk about. I also told my best friend (I just wanted her to know, it would be weird for her not to) and she was amazing about it but it was awkward and now i feel like i made the wrong decision or something. Everything is going wrong right now. Also I hit my coach in the dick at practice today when i tried to throw a ball into a box so that really just adds to this entire experience
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OCD
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Hey, I’m just wondering if anyone here has dealt with addiction that would be willing to share their story either here or over direct message? I’m 23 and just passed 4 months sober from drugs and alcohol, but I feel very isolated from the recovery community and I can’t help but see how my autism is catalyzing that feeling of isolation and loneliness. I just feel different about sobriety, AA, and addiction compared to how I see others approaching these things. I also can’t really hang with my old friends that I would use with because it’s either dangerous for my soberiety or those friends don’t want to see me now that I’m sober. Just feeling very lonely and just wanna talk and hear from anyone else that has dealt with both aspergers and addiction. Thanks
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aspergers
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This is a long post but I really need advice so please bare with me here!!!
I am new to this community and new to my diagnosis of cptsd. I am a victim of CSA and parental abuse and neglect. Most of my childhood has always been blacked out and I have left it that way for most my life. I always knew deep down it was black for a reason and I felt those demons were better left untouched. However, I spent most my life running, though too much work, too much school, wayyyyyyyy too much partying. When things began to get really tough for me with my mental health I found myself out and about drinking and using party drugs every weekend. After getting sober, the pandoras box of trauma in my head began to leak out. I started getting flashbacks of my abuse, ones I had always had there but had pushed off and ignored(I call this my remembered abuse because I have remembered it and known it was real my whole life I just shoved it down). The flashbacks became more and more often and I was so miserable I decided I needed to deal with it now not later so I decided to tell my therapist I was ready to start trauma treatment.
Now, I am getting flashes from the blackness that I do not remember and that feel as if I literally made them up myself. I'll tell myself "no way that didn't happen I am just trying to make shit up to make excuses for myself being so messed up." But then, I started having dreams I used to have reoccuringly as a child(like literally night after night). These dreams were always cartoonized in my mind and always were SUPER creepy to me but were twisted in a way that made them seem just creepy, not bad. A few times I described my dreams to an aunt and she confirmed at least one of them really happened to me at one point as a young young child. Now, these dreams are coming back, but some of the fantasy is slipping away and I wake up so scared and it just feels SO real and one dream in particular feels as if it is coorilating with the new flashbacks, the ones I feel I made up. It is also the reoccuring dream I had the most and remember the most vividly from my childhood. It is like puzzle pieces are coming together, but can I trust my dream? Can I trust my memories? I am so worried I am just making it up, but every time I think that my body tends to get a huge shiver down it and I feel sick. My body and mind feel like they are at war and it is so confusing.
For a little more background, I have only had 1 trauma targeted therapy session(on saturday) and this week following it has been so awful I had to call off work. Everyone warns you it gets worse before it gets better, but I don't think I took them seriously enough.
Now my biggest struggle is to trust my brain and memories or not? If anyone has any insight I would greatly appreciate any advice or support 🙏
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ptsd
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I can deal with almost all the other problems that I face, but it is so disheartening and unfair that I have passions but can't take the time to do them. I don't seem to have the hyperfixation on a random thing where I can focus on it, but instead I have passions, genuine interests that I want to keep exploring and getting better versed in, but I can't seem to ever motivate myself to do it!!!
I want to play the guitar like a pro, I want to learn more about music and music production, I want to read more and grow my mind, I want to be able to express my thoughts and emotions through art. All of these things are desires and all I lack is the strength and motivation to try. It sucks soooo much.
Sorry just had to vent
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ADHD
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Hi All, I (NT,f), need some advice. I had an argument with an aspie friend (f) of mine three weeks ago. She flaked on our last three hangs last minute without explanation and I told her that it hurts me because it makes me feel she doesn't care about me. I asked her why she did it. She said that she didn't intend to hurt me but needs some time to answer my question. This was three weeks ago and she basically went no contact (we used to chat almost daily before). When I check in, she says that she is still thinking. Is this usual? I take a few minutes (or hours max) to answer similar questions. Is it possible that she needs three weeks to process this question or she is slowly ghosting me? Is there anything that I can do to help? Thank you and sorry for my non-native English.
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aspergers
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I know this comes up a lot and I am so sick and tired of people saying “I’m so ocd about….”, “this just set my ocd off” and thinking anyone who is clean and organized is ocd. Yes, people with ocd can have cleanliness and organization compulsions but it’s complex and not something we enjoy. Simply liking to be clean and organized does not equal OCD. Some in the ocd community may not care about ocd jokes nor does it bother them, and that’s great for them. I believe that we are all individuals with our own set of opinions. But that doesn’t mean that other people are at liberty to say things like “calm down” “it’s just a joke”. That can be extremely dismissive. It’s just so annoying that someone who who is cleanly or tidy is immediately associated with ocd. Like I wish the name of this disorder would change because ocd is so deeply engrained in people’s vernacular. People are always going to say “I’m so ocd” and although it’s frustrating it’s also an education opportunity. Though most people I’ve encountered or ignorant. Also listen, I know that I cannot police around People’s language I get that and I’m not trying to do that. It’s just really annoying to me because ocd is not taken as seriously as it should. I had people tell me that my ocd is a good thing meanwhile it drove me to some dark places. Like I saw a TikTok about this woman who is organized and people immediately started saying in the comments “ocd much”. Just annoying. Also this is just how I feel we are all entitled to our opinions
Edit: sorry I’m just annoyed. I really don’t want to sound like I’m trying to police People’s language bc im not im just venting and im trying to learn how to not let this bother me as much and to be more civil
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OCD
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Has anyone had their meds start working really well to begin with but after a month or so they seem to not be working anymore? I have been prescribed Adderall and I don't understand why the benefits seem to be fading. I don't have any other experience trying to treat my ADHD, it's a new diagnosis for me. I'm not sure if this is normal or maybe I'm experiencing a strange reaction with my lamictal. I was really excited to get some ADHD relief, I really hope there's a way around this.
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ADHD
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32/F teacher. Last year was beyond exhausting in virtual school, planning lessons until bedtime every day. But going back to supply teaching next year sounds even more stressful. I feel like half the principals hate me, but the kids are so bad for supply teachers! I don't make enough for this to be worth it. I love teaching and I'm good at it, but there's no room for work/life balance when you give, give, give.
I'm ruining my own hard-earned summer holidays (pay back for every Sunday I worked!) with anxiety.
I think I'll look for other virtual jobs, maybe in marketing or communications. It's been so long since I've worked in an office that that's scary, too. I don't have references outside of educators.
Feeling fat, out-of-style, awkward, behind on the virtual trends, and scared to go back to the workforce. Just a little vent.
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aspergers
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After receiving feedback that I exhibit ADHD like behaviors at nighttime (racing thoughts/mind, lose track of time, etc.) I went looking for any correlation between the two diagnoses and found this article (from the Intl OCD Foundation) where such research was conducted:
https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/expert-opinion-ocd-and-adhd-dual-diagnosis-misdiagnosis-and-the-cognitive-cost-of-obsessions/
A key observation (for me) from this article was that persons diagnosed mainly with OCD would have _obessive thoughts_ of things they wanted to do and would then lose track of time or appear aloof to the world around them. They were hyper-focused and usually organized in thought about how they wanted to accomplish the 'things'. *This is me*
On the other hand, persons diagnosed mainly with ADHD would be less organized and at times not think through things till later while accomplishing the 'things'.
Does anyone else find they get distracted in thought or action like this? Does this make sense? This info opened up my eyes when I read it...wondering how many others have wondered about or found out about the same...
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OCD
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I’ve recently come out of a 5 week hospital stay for TMS. I was prescribed Ativan daily and now I’m out I’ve been experiencing wicked withdrawals. Has anyone else experienced this and is there any advice?
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ptsd
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What I recall is, I woke up this morning and took my adderall XR, went to rest for about 30 mins to let it kick in. I ended up falling back asleep before then.
When I woke up, It still didn't feel like it was working. But I know i didn't forget to take it as I vaguely remember taking it this morning and I know how I feel when i haven't taken it at all. so now I'm thinking I only took one. It's 2:43 PM as I'm writing this. I really don't think I should take another one. But I'm worried how I'm going to feel tonight when this wears off! please! any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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ADHD
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For me it's typically video games, they become addictive to the point that I have just stopped playing them. When I have been playing them they become all I can think about and I end up feeling down and grumpy when not playing them. It feels crap to know this is the case, but I can only assume its linked to the dopamine response triggered by gaming? Could just be due to genetically inherited addiction from my dad's side (alcoholic), but for me it seems to tie in from an internal chemistry perspective. What does everyone else experience?
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ADHD
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That would certaingly explain years of bullying and family abuse
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aspergers
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I have had the experience online and in real life where I am talking to people and think everything is great. Then one day they ghost me, or act like they don't know me, or don't like me anymore. I don't get it. I guess it is because of Asperger's I say something or do something wrong but it is so hard being lonely.
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aspergers
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Isn't it funny how by trying to avoid a certain thing we end up making it more likely? Thought it might be beneficial to take a moment and reflect on the inherent silliness of our compulsions.
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OCD
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I am a avid hand washer and my hands (of course) are getting dry and cracking. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it’s painful and no matter what lotion I use it just won’t work. And now I’m asking if there is any brand or type of lotion that would help me out cause these hands look burnt/boiled!
For the love of all that is good in Gods eyes please help.
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OCD
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They were overprotective yet mean and discouraging, and fear mongering was their parenting style to put you into submission.
I was raised in a religious household and at the age of 7 I was told about the devil.
About demonic possessions and I’ve seen footage of demonic possessions and children who don’t obey God will be claimed by the devil.
It’s also one of the reason why I still sleep with a night light and afraid of the dark.
At times I still get nightmares about demons and evil spirits because those are the stories I grew up with.
It’s so bad that I can’t sleep alone in the dark without feeling unsafe. I can’t live in a large house because that sparks my anxiety when it’s night time.
I find it hard to find professional help for that because I might be seen as a test object.
Thankfully I have a kitty and I feel at when she’s around.
I also hear about going to hell for stepping out of religion, I have mixed feelings, at times I want to stay to avoid going to hell and burn forever but on the other hand I feel like religion is man made and just a control tool.
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ptsd
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Hi all!
What are your main tips in dealing with mental compulsions when it comes to Pure O?
I feel like my OCD does not have a specific "theme" now, but I can endlessly ruminate about anything that is even remotely bothersome to me. My main concern in my brain (if I do not want to ruminate about something) is "what if I have not thought through a certain event/feeling and now I will just suppress my emotions and potential to come to some sort of conclusion". Anytime I do think (ruminate) about something again, I realise that nope, there is nothing much more to think about lol - and then it becomes a loop. Then I ruminate about the fact that I might be ruminating etc etc...Plus I know that pushing thoughts away is not a good idea, but since rumination is a compulsion, my goal is to understand the thin line between just thinking and ruminating and get rid of the latter.
My main techniques are usually try not to "resolve" whatever is in my head, sit with the uncomfortable, not engage with the thought and compulsion to ruminate, but then it does not always work.
Anyone deals with similar stuff? What is your go-to way to not ruminate?
Thank you!
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OCD
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Hey guys, I need some advice. So I live in a legal state (devils lettuce) and have partaken here and there. My insurance company now wants me to complete a drug test before I can pick up my medicine (this is unusual - I was only tested when I first was prescribed meds). I’m supposed to have the test by tomorrow, but I know I’m going to fail. My doctor has said that she doesn’t approve and I’m TERRIFIED to lose my prescription or worse - her no longer seeing me as a patient. She said that I can forgo the drug test, but that insurance won’t approve the prescription / pay for it.
So my options are to either not show up for the test (at least until I can test negative) and risk raising suspicions, or go do the test tomorrow and hope she doesn’t kick me off my meds for the THC. Please help!
(Ps : please don’t shame me for partaking - I really didn’t think it was a big deal because it’s 100% legal in my state). 😥
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ADHD
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I scheduled a tutoring session for well at this point yesterday and got distracted and somehow cleaned my room made bread and finished a puzzle instead of remembering to log in for my session how do I write a nice apology I’m also dyslexic and autistic so I am a bit confused and panicked about what to do
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ADHD
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Hello friends,
Recently I’ve become more frustrated with friends and even random acquaintances that say “Oh I definitely have ADHD” with no real basis for the claim. While someone of them may actually have it, I’ve also had people that are outperforming (4.0 GPA in high school and college, holding a job for 3+ years, maintaining healthy relationships, etc)me on every level of life cry to me about how the psychiatrist obviously doesn’t know what they’re talking about.
Let me be clear, I understand that there can be psychiatrists who are far to strict with the diagnosis but at the same time we need that scientific backing for this disorder to be taken seriously.
I get it though, the world is confusing and trying to understand if/how you display symptoms can seem insurmountable. Even after my diagnosis I struggled for months with whether or not I have ADHD or if I just somehow tricked them into believing me.
My heart goes out to the people who are struggling with this disorder and have trouble getting diagnosed, but I do heavily discourage anyone from outright making the claim that they have it without the evidence to back it up. If you were told that you don’t have it and still have reservations, get a second opinion from a specialist. If the second opinion agrees with the original decision, start approaching your struggles from symptoms down. (I.e. okay maybe it’s not adhd but I’m still unmotivated, or I’m still emotionally unstable. What are the other possible explanations?)
TL;DR- don’t convince yourself you have ADHD. It’s an evidence backed disorder with neurological phenomena and we need to compare it to that evidence to maintain its validity and support. There are other reasons for lack of motivation or focus, our goal collectively should be to solve the symptom.
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ADHD
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I'm in a small discord group. The interactions we have are fun. We've had a few hangouts. It's a group I cherish.
Yet, something's happened. People don't talk as much as they do recently. I...have this terrible gut feeling now. In terms of what I've posted to the group, I've vented a lot about my anxieties and my family situation. I've tried to facilitate server-hangouts, but these fall flat, either due to people being busy, or me failing to do a needed task. For whatever reason, I have this nagging feeling that, in combination of my venting too much and bushing too much for group hangouts, that the perception of me has been altered to one of two things: (1) annoying or (2) creepy. Some perception that would motivate people ostracizing me.
This is unreasonable thinking. This is me extrapolating too many conclusions from too little amounts of data. Maybe I should think everything is perfectly fine. I shouldn't assume anything is wrong, right?
Then...I think to almost every group I have been in. Either I act guarded or come out slowly from the get go. After awhile of "acting like myself"...I get ostracized from the group. With no warning. No explanation. People will no longer want to talk to me. People will tell me "fuck off". I won't know why. All I can do is extrapolate from what little I know and can infer.
Sometimes...it is fucked up things that I do. In work, I can get ostracized for chronic procrastination. When hanging out with people, I can make myself the point of conversation too much, or act in self-centered ways (e.g. not hanging out with people, making excuses to not do certain activities...). I freak out when I realize these things. I think of ways I can fix this faults. And fail to implement them.
I become depressed and beat the shit out of myself mentally. I get feedback from people, telling me to not be hard on myself. I try not to be. But...whatever issues I have don't go away. People encourage me to talk with others again, come out of my shell. I do, and get ostracized again. I think of every way possible I could have been kicked out of the group. I assume the possibility of everything I have done in the past: being selfish, venting too much, talking too much, etc. I have no evidence for any.
I want to ask the people who ostracize me why they kick me out of groups. They never give a straight answer. If I ask, they'll laugh, mock, criticize me. I can't know why exactly I get ostracized. I can't ask people why I get ostracized. I'm expected to know why I get ostracized so I won't act in ways that will get me ostracized. "That's some catch, that catch-22"...
As these flurry of thoughts assault my mind, I put down the game I'm playing. And...I cry.
News thoughts strike.
I'm always going to be alone. Either I'll be nervous to talk with me. Or I'll act too...and get myself kicked out and ostracized.
I. Just. Want. To Be. Normal.
I don't want to care about any of this. I wish I never had to think about any of this. I wish I could be myself, with little worry about whether I am being too selfish, too annoying, acting appropriately, etc. There's no hope, is there?
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The thoughts exhaust me. This stream of thoughts keeps happening. The fears of being ostracized and the life events of being ostracized keep fueling each other. I just want this crap to end...
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aspergers
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So I am not sure if I have ADHD or not. I have lack of motivation, trouble focusing and hyperfocused (which is quite contradictory with each other. Trouble remembering things like... Did I take this cup outside of the cubboard? When did I take it out? Why did I take it out? Or forgetting to put things back to where whey originally were.
And one other thing that really bothers me is spacing out during conversation or during daily tasks. For example, when I talk to my sister or engage in a group conversation, my brain often either daydream or I spaced out while not thinking of anything else (is this what people call dissociation?), Making me unable to keep up with the conversation. I have to constantly ask people to repeat things that they have already said, and it annoys them a lot. The other example is when I go to the bathroom, I would just sit on my toilet and think of random stuff for an hour without being able to get out of my train of thoughts. Or when I lay in bed, my brain would just having a bazillion of thoughts, random thoughts, sometime even of unrealistic events, and I was engulfed by my own thoughts.
It is really annoying tbh and costs me a lot of my time during my day. I would rather spend those time doing productive work.
Have anyone had similar experiences, if so, what did you guys do to stop it? If these are not symptoms of ADHD, what might I be having?? I'm so confused of myself rn.
Thanksssss guys
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ADHD
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Hire a maid.
Life improves when you understand what you’re capable of and accept your limitations. There are too many battles to fight and not enough of your energy to win them all.
We all go through a period with ADHD where we feel like salvation is right around the corner, hiding behind the next new technique.
We go through phases where we punish ourselves for having a disability, and refuse to ask for help because we want to prove to ourselves that “we can do this!”
Except, self-respect isn’t hiding in your dirty laundry pile, three weeks stale.
We go through phases where we feel like “powering through” will eventually “build up strength” and then we will be less ADHD.
It isn’t. It doesn’t. It won’t. We won’t.
Change your frame of mind to relieve yourself of the pressure of doing everything that a “normal person” would be able to do. Stop comparing your productivity to normal people.
You are not normal. You have ADHD.
Do the things you can and outsource the things you can’t. Don’t feel one second of shame for it.
Hire a maid.
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ADHD
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Hi guys. I always have trouble putting something in my routine and sticking in it. I know for youtube consistency is key so any suggestions how I can slowly add it into my routine without being overwhelmed and stick to it
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aspergers
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Here's the link: [https://youtu.be/-QfLAPODNFM](https://youtu.be/-QfLAPODNFM)
More videos coming soon! I hope you all find it helpful
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OCD
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Somehow I have the same pitfall with many of my ocd themes. And hopefully you understand somewhat what I mean by this and or how i could best deal with this.
Namely, it is so that my OCD appears as the omniscient, as if I have obtained some sort of superior responsibility and insight through OCD. And that if I choose not to do anything with it. I will be punished for this forever (even after my death). (I am not religious by the way).
Until today I was often still able to deal with this, because I thought at those moments; *I just go against it and if I have to pay for this after this life then so be it, but if my wife and children have a 'normal' father and husband in their life because of that, then I want to sacrifice myself for that.*
However, now I have received a certain 'message' from the all knowing' fthat if I do not fulfill my 'obligations' which I am given in form of my superior responsibility and insights, that not only will I have to atone for it forever, but also my children, and that I pass this on to my children. So it will punish my children as much as it will me, because it started to notice i was ok with beding punisched myself.
This has meant that I can no longer hide behind the thought*; I do sacrifice myself for my children.*
What should I do now? I would like to think that these are all deception and false tricks from the ocd. But it really feels like THE truth in my case.
And so when I go against that, I constantly have the feeling that I am forever condemning my children to suffering, pain and damnation.
Please help!
PS: the funny thing is that this is all very much like religious ocd. However, I am not religious by any means, and all of this originated from these thoughts ....
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OCD
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so in the past ive struggled a lot with intrusive thoughts including incest and it’s the worst ever. i’ve learned how to cope tho and whenever i get an intrusive thought now i just view it as annoying and it helps me a lot so i don’t really struggle with it as much as i used to.
last night i dreamed that i got pregnant by my dad??? and i woke up feeling sick and wanting to throw up i’ve had a similar dream like this once and all fucking day i felt like ending it. i don’t know what to do or how to cope with it i still feel horrible i don’t wanna think these thoughts let alone dream them
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OCD
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Like, I know I can be a bit much sometimes and overwhelm people, ESPECIALLY if I am talking or doing something I enjoy. I also don't like to make people feel uncomfortable or to railroad over them, so I frequently tell people "if you think in getting ton of obsessed or taking something to far, let me know because I can't always tell".
I feel like such a child sometimes when I don't realize I'm annoying people or pushing someone too far and a close friend just let's me know "roll it back" or quietly says "stop".
I know I tell them to do that so I don't cause them trouble, but I hate having to do that so much.
Damnit I just hate this so much sometimes.
Edit: I'm not aggressive or anything, but I can talk a LOT about topics that interest me and I can be annoying sometimes.
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ADHD
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Im (26F) coming to the realization that I check off way too many boxes when it comes to ADHD, and I want to explore diagnosis to be sure. I talked to a doctor on my college campus and he told me adults dont get ADHD and its usually discovered in childhood from teachers. The thing was, I was a pretty above average petforming student until about 13 years old when I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and I lost motivation to do much.
Im still dealing with depression and anxiety, and the campus doctor told me Im probably judt confusing my already existing symptoms with a condition I dont have. This honestly just discouraged me so much but after reading posts on this sub, Im thinking my story isn't too unique.
So my question to you: Anecdotally speaking, is it possible to have ADHD as an adult but not in childhood?
edit: reword for clarity
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ADHD
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and sad. and exhausted. i feel dead inside. nothing makes me happy anymore. like nothing. i just have distractions. i havnt felt genuine happiness in like monthssss so long i don’t even remember when. only time i’ve felt happy was when i was drunk tbh. that’s only been like twice. i was gonna relapse today but i have to shower so i’ll do it after i shower maybe. i hate working. i’m so tired. why is therapy so fucking expensive this is a joke. i’ve only had like 4 sessions and already i’m seeing my bank account get so much less every week. i’m sick of everything. i never feel good enough for my mum. i cut my hair cos i hated how i looked and now i hate how i look even more.
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depression
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i want to know if anybody else deals with this. i deal with POCD and sometimes on really bad days i’m with my niece or nephew and i’ll be talking to them or something and i’ll be hit with the fear that i’m hallucinating i’m just talking to them and i’m actually hurting them in real life. does anybody else experience this?
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OCD
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