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The millisecond I wake up it starts! Can't escape that morning depression it does not event give you a second! | self.depression |
I want to be a girl so fucking badly [Warning: Rambling/Cussing] Background: 16 year old guy in high school, socially awkward, and being on the autism spectrum with OCD and Tourette's to boot doesn't help. I know that seems like a mouthful and it looks like one of those self-diagnosing Tumblr teens but I promise, this ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My sister and brother make jokes out of my anxiety. I've overheard them call me disabled and mentally challenged because of it. They say it to my face how when I get anxious that I make little anxiety ticks and they laugh at me for doing them. I'll start tapping or avoiding eye contact and they just laugh at me telling... | self.Anxiety |
Nothing changes by saying or hoping it'll be alright [deleted] | self.depression |
Everybody suddenly hates me when they find out I'm depressed. I think I just wanted a hug or something, but it always go wrong.
In general, I never tell people how I really feel. But then, in a moment my guard is low and I decide I want to trust someone, I try to vent about my sadness and suddenly they hate me. They h... | self.depression |
I should have killed myself years ago and now I'm hanging on for some reason. Every day, I think "today's the day," but I haven't done it | self.depression |
the thought of learning to drive makes me feel physically ill basically the title but i’m longwinded so here’s more details anyway.
i’m not worried about dying, not to be morbid but i’m way too depressed for that. no, i’m worried about getting in a car wreck and getting severe brain damage or getting paralyzed or wor... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone here have experience with unpleasant Physical sensations (possibly linked to anxiety) I've been reading through the sub, but haven't seen anything that seems like what I am dealing with. Starting in June, my anxiety got really bad and I suffered from a long bout of insomnia (2-4 hours of sleep a night for about ... | self.Anxiety |
İs cutting myself to the death would be so painfull if i cut my stomach too? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Ho fucking ho Family arguments, rude and ignorant Christmas shoppers, fake jolliness on TV, constant adverts to get you to spend more money on crap you don't want or need. I HATE CHRISTMAS. I just want to go the sleep and never wake up. Aaarrregggghhhhhhhh. | self.depression |
I am triggered by everything that reminds me of my ex-boyfriend haha [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I sacrificed my friends for my job but then I got fired so now I have NOTHING [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
self sabotaged myself into depression and hopelessness Trying to keep this as short and to the point as possible.
I was in a relationship for nearly a decade, for the last 2-3 years I thought I was unhappy in the relationship and wanted out.
After the divorce that happened partly due to living circumstances but most... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else dry heave or Worse? how do you cope with it? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I hate being complimented Being complimented makes me very anxious. It's like people expect me to do well or better at something just because I did good once, and then I am perpetually afraid to let them down. I had a professor from university recently tell me I am an excellent student. I am afraid I will disappoint hi... | self.Anxiety |
Waking up and getting sick due to anxiety Hi! Long time lurker here. Lately, I've been staying at my boyfriends house (were very comfortable and I stay here often) but the past couple nights I've been waking up with that awful anxiety feeling in the pit of my stomach. It gets so bad I've been getting physically sick. I... | self.Anxiety |
Today I was diagnosed formally with Major Depressive Disorder. What are things I need to know?
My psychiatrist prescribed me Celexa (don't have the bottle handy for dosage) and continued me on Adderall 25mg XR (for ADHD).
I was diagnosed with both ADHD and MDD within the last year. I know I have mental illness in t... | self.depression |
Does anyone else feel insanely angry when they see injustice against others? Like I feel like I seethe with rage when I see others being mistreated Every time I watch the news about the political storm in America or anything I see in my twitter about police brutality or slavery in Libya, etc. I seethe with rage. I can'... | self.depression |
Religion and depression Does anybody feel like religion or being in a religious group helps or lessens the pain? | self.depression |
I keep trying to get better but nothing fucking works | self.SuicideWatch |
My dogs make a point to check on me when I’m depressed Whenever I’m depressed my dogs always “check on me”. My boxer will just barge into my room while I’m in bed zoning out and plop his face as close to mine as possible until I pet him or tell him to get out (I try to do the former first). The puppy usually follows an... | self.bipolar |
Just dropped out of college due to anxiety... again. It really sucks.
I'm back at home doing nothing, getting up at ~1 everyday and not really leaving the house. I'd like to get a job, but really worried that my anxiety and low mood will get in the way, that I'll quit, and end up right back here.
I'm 22 now, and terr... | self.Anxiety |
Am I as bad as a rapist? All my life I've been sickened by the thought of hurting others. Both of my parents were doctors and I've been studying to become one myself so I can (hopefully) work for Doctors Without Borders. But I've developed a troubling kink, I get off to watching rape porn. I don't know why, I've never ... | self.offmychest |
Dropping by to suggest you consider taking vitamin D supplements. Of course, check with your doctor. Etc. etc.
Vitamin D is the sunshine pill that most people are deficient in. This is also much more of an issue in colder areas or for those who cover up from the sun often. The best way to get vitamin D is through cer... | self.bipolar |
I don’t think my friends care about me It just seems like the only reason people are friends are with me is because they pity me. That would explain why all my friends are popular and could befriend anyone they wanted while I’m the least popular, least well liked person in my grade. It feels horrible and condescending ... | self.depression |
My depression has steadily increased over the last 6 years and is starting to have major consequences on every part of my life I am currently 22, have been suffering from depression since I was about 16. Only a few people really noticed it developing, mostly teachers who had taught me multiple years in a row in high sc... | self.depression |
Point of the goal of life is to love and love isn't right for me then what's the point of living?😿😿😿 | self.depression |
didn't know where else to put this!! I wrote this and felt like I wanted to share it somewhere, probably because I'm a little manic at the moment. Did anyone else have experiences like this? I haven't really ever talked to anyone else who is bipolar!!!
The sun was setting in the Guatemalan Western Highlands as I us... | self.bipolar |
Sleep and bad anxiety?? Hi, I posted this in r/panicattack earlier but haven't gotten an answer so I decided to come here.
I'm usually a person who never gets panic attacks, so I got really nervous when I had one this morning, which I woke up with. I've been having some anxiety lately, but nothing too serious.
But, s... | self.Anxiety |
You know what sucks? I know I post here way too often, I just need to get something out of my system.
You know what sucks? Opening up. You know what sucks even more? Opening up to the wrong person. And you know what sucks the most? When they backstab you over and over and you let them do it because you don't want to be... | self.depression |
I don't remember what it is like to not be afraid. I live in constant fear of making a mistake. I married an abuser, and every time he wants to flex his muscles, he uses the court to push himself into my life. I never know when it will hit, or for why. I can't stand up for my kids without retribution.
He lets his wife... | self.offmychest |
I dont really know what happiness is anymore... Sorry about grammar, on mobile.
Kinda just moving through life. With invisible strings dragging me through the motions. Ive lost the ability to feel love towards my relatives. The only person I think i genuinely care for is my sister. And even that I feel is getting weak... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm not normally one to complain or even voice my problems but I feel like I need to. This year has been one problem after another and I have no idea what I'm doing or where I'm going in life. I feel utterly alone and it sucks.
So first off my relationship of two years ended earlier th... | self.offmychest |
pyrrhic im tired. i fucked up. i let my friends see who i was inside and they got scared. they freaked out. i fucked up.
ive convinced them i'm getting better or atlease act like im improving this year but i cant. im done. ill have my relief soon | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to die but I can’t even do that right. Over the last few days the thoughts and the screaming inside my head have gotten worse. I don’t feel real. I’m not important I’m not useful I am nothing. There are no good qualities about me. Sometimes I don’t even feel like I exist. Today I was in a room full of people and... | self.SuicideWatch |
can some anxiety thoughts last forever? I've had a thought that has ruined my life for the last 6 months and the only time it isn't there is when I'm sleeping. What's the fucking point anymore, nothing helps | self.Anxiety |
I need to confess something I’m suicidal. I won’t actually kill myself I know that much. I have several plans but none are perfect. But I just had to tell someone. Someone that understood. I’ve been hatching plans on how to do it for weeks now. Maybe if I found the perfect way I might. But probably not. I’ve been overw... | self.bipolar |
My life is falling apart and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m 29 and I have been feeling lonely lately, mainly because two years ago I moved for a new job over 600 miles away from my hometown. Hadn’t made any friends to hang out with and I got into debt. Not only that, but my loneliness led to me getting way overw... | self.depression |
What are the negative side effects of anxiety meds? My counselor said that I should see a psychiatrist and to get meds for depression and anxiety. | self.Anxiety |
Not sure if these are hallucinations? The past several nights, when I am laying down to go to sleep, as I start to get tired I hear whispers. It's like what being in the next room from a tv sounds like - muffled and unclear, but there are clearly a male and a female voice. It happens as I start to get more sleepy, but ... | self.bipolar |
How common is it to feel like you don't even deserve to be okay. I received the cruelest Christmas "gift" ever this year. Someone I care for deeply, who I had taken the risk of opening up my vulnerabilities to, let me know that they had been deceiving me for a long time. That I just wasn't that important to them anymor... | self.depression |
Finally admitting the past, today is day one of feeling feelings and I feel like my house is a combat zone My husband suggested I come to this site to try to find people who understand what I'm going through and might be able to offer some advice. He said he doesn't understand my PTSD but he wishes I could get help. So... | self.depression |
This is my life story.My way out of Depression. [deleted] | self.depression |
Had a disappointing first/probably only psychiatrist session So I was debating whether to post this but I thought I should.
I am 19 and have been depressed and anxious for about 5 years. Initially, the depression was the bigger of the two problems and after a failed suicide attempt saw a therapist that sort of put me ... | self.Anxiety |
Are there worse jobs for anxiety disorders than retail or customer service? Especially during the rush of the holidays? And especially seasonal jobs? I feel like every morning before work is torture, and every moment after work is dreading the near-panic attack levels of anxiety I know I'll feel when the next shift rol... | self.Anxiety |
I should have been more willing to wait for sex... That was so fucking wrong of me.. I was taking your virginity. We should have waited longer to be official and even longer to have sex.. granted your trauma from previous relationships I should have been more fuvking mindful. And now I've made it even worse, I ate you ... | self.offmychest |
Idea creating blog about people life with bipolar disorder [deleted] | self.bipolar |
24 failing school, no where near graduating, dont wanna go to class or work, dont wanna do anything, feel miserable 24/7, just wanna disappear, no close friends/bf, wish i were dead, everyone telling me to get it together but i cant. fuck my life in the ass. | self.depression |
i've been trying to figure out the root of my depression and lack of motivation and i can't find a reason, so why do i feel like this? ^ ^ ^ ^ | self.depression |
Having a bad dip in my depression and it’s affecting my relationship I have mdd and maybe sad(becoming more and more likely as I’ve seen patterns in my depression)and gad. Theres not a day i don’t deal with depression in one way or another. But during the fall winter i tend to get into a deeper depression and rn its re... | self.depression |
i am not manic so i just moved to a new town, found a doctor. first appt was okay, he wanted to kind of see a baseline but said i seemed a little bit hypo. whatever. med adjustment to help tone down paranoia that was getting really bad.
went again yesterday. i've been making a conscious effort to be a better me in the... | self.bipolar |
Vocational Rehab experiences? I haven’t worked in almost a year and I’ve had horrible work experiences in the past (mostly my fault, but it is what it is - I was undiagnosed and untreated for years). My new therapist suggested I try voc rehab to help me get out of the house and hopefully back into the work force. Appar... | self.bipolar |
So sick and tired of everything, jesus fucking christ I don't even know where to start. I know that's a common phrase that people use when they need to get into a big wall of information and don't know where to start, but I literally mean *I don't fucking know where to start.*
I'm so depressed. I have anxiety, and app... | self.offmychest |
Dating someone with depression - What books can I read specifically for SO's? I've been seeing this girl for about 2 months now. She's in her mid 30's and on our first date she mentioned that she suffers from depression.
I haven't experienced it directly yet. Every time we hang out she is in great spirits and seems ... | self.depression |
Why am I such a loser :( I literally never do anything right. Someone was trying to ask me on a date tonight who I've liked for a very long time. I misspelled "duct tape" and instead said duck and they instantly got turned off the idea. I always put people off and never say the right thing I'm such a fucking loser who ... | self.depression |
I have accepted my depression a debilitating disease that doesn’t come with a wheelchair and social empathy Depression...I ignored it... accepted it..talked about it...cried about it...laughed about it.. gave up got back up attempted treating it took antidepressants stopped antidepressants
I have accepted it
I have e... | self.depression |
Begging for Love Never Works I’m crying as I write this.
My life has been very hard. From the beginning I have been starved for love and affection. It’s been a lifelong affliction and it started a long time ago. Bear with me, it’s a long story.
My father was a private person who didn’t express affection openly. His ... | self.depression |
I lost my dream job two years ago. Can't get over it. When I was growing up, my parents would tell everyone that I'd be a star. That I'd be this star athlete, or math wiz, or something. Anything, really. Truth is, my greatest accomplishment was learning to read faster than other kids in kindergarten. But soon my parent... | self.depression |
To that random guy on Overwatch. So it's like midnight our team lost and you call me and my friend trash. I get it, it's late your tired and grumpy and us not winning pissed you off.
My friend challenges you to a 1v1
You accept.
What happened the next 30 minutes was the most cringey bullshit I have ever watched. A... | self.offmychest |
I can’t even enjoy anything anymore because I’m always thinking about money every single minute. I'm always thinking about needing to work for the sake of living.
Living for the sake of being alive.
Living because other people don't want me to die but also consequently ignore or forget me otherwise when things simmer... | self.depression |
if they had told me how hard life would be i would have never left the womb
Seriously screw this world. Kids abused. People lonely, homeless and in pain.
me personally i toil away at a job that takes over 55 hours of my life a week. i was in a store today saw young twenty somethings with their significant other. saw... | self.depression |
Anyone else freaking out seeing sunday night slowly come to an end? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Permanent solution temporary problem blah blah blah fuck you I’m tired of panicking every. fucking. day. I’m tired of being in pain every night. I’m tired of pretending I’m recovered. I never was. I’m tired of existing in this body and going through the motions of being normal. I’m tired of useless platitudes. It doesn... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tired I have become really tired of living this life, I don't know what's wrong I'm so sad I have no clue how to fix it I've been having some self destructive thought lately I need someone to vent or some advice either or | self.depression |
Overdosed on NyQuil? Please respond I bought a 8 oz bottle of NyQuil and drunk maybe 1/4 of the bottle(down to the top off the rapper) 7 hours ago. I was drowsy for a bit and now it's just minor head pain(nothing major or severe) and I can't sleep at all. I looked it up and people are saying they've drunken far more fr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there a reason to not commit suicide? I'm depressed and bipolar. Life is about to take a really big shit on me. I've been staying afloat on borrowed time. In my current state, I really don't see how I can come out this anywhere near "OK" if you would.
I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts since I was a freshm... | self.depression |
I had a good day but I went to university this morning, had late lunch with some great friends, then went to see a musical for the first time in my life (KinkyBoots, it was very good). I got home. I watched Netflix, gamed a little, called my mum, done some online shopping, got a new jeans & a pair of new shoes. Now... | self.depression |
I am a embarrassment to my family and don't deserve them. I live very happy getting most things that I want. I am currently attending a community college and have already dropped one class and failing another. I have temper tantrum at video games and get mad at the smallest things that annoy me. Not much is excepted of... | self.offmychest |
Any experiences with the ketogenic diet for anxiety? My mom is doing the ketogenic diet right now and won't stop talking about how great and energetic it's made her feel. She also says she's heard it can be helpful for people with anxiety and she really wants me to try it. Does this have any merit? I'm usually skeptica... | self.Anxiety |
Longest manic episode? What's the longest episode of mania or hypomania you fellow bipolar reditors have experienced? the reason why I ask is because I'm currently riding an approximate 35 day streak of consistent good days in a row- which is a little bit scary because of the possible back lash it may cause. or perhaps... | self.bipolar |
I can’t rn I’m just literally so depressed rn.Im having trouble sleeping, even breathing.i can’t concentrate and no one likes me.People around me just ignore it tho | self.depression |
Why do I deserve to live? I have a pretty good life. My family has enough money to get by and be comfortable, they support me in most things and have always given me positive outlooks on life, and they always advocate help. Despite all that, for the past few months, I have seriously been looking into committing suicide... | self.SuicideWatch |
not doing so hot She's the only person I've ever loved. We'll call her Kate. It was the first time I had ever been in what felt like a truly adult relationship. We communicated. We supported each other. We openly worked on our relationship. I loved her.
Kate left me around 7 months ago. I never saw it coming. She just... | self.depression |
What were some of your craziest, most debilitating, and most terrifying physical symptoms that, in the end, just ended up being anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
I'm uninteresting. People don't seem to get that at first. [deleted] | self.depression |
Is suicidal thoughts normal? How often should one have them before seeking help? I have a stressful home environment and whenever i feel stressed i have suicidal thoughts and when that happens i lock my self inside my room until the thoughts are gone. Rinse and repeat. Is this concerning? Or normal? | self.depression |
I need to find a job, struggling with what's the point/I can't pass a background test. I went to my therapist today and left early to buy beer in the rain. I don't know what to do anymore. every time I try to put on a brave face, I end up impatiently expecting to be rewarded by the universe for trying and when I hear n... | self.depression |
Not being to able to forget the past? So, I'm 22 now and my story started about 5 years ago when I've met my first girlfriend. It came suddenly, because I've never felt like I'm alone or that I would need a partner in my life before. The first 4 months was like the heaven. I loved her much and I didn't think anything c... | self.offmychest |
How to tell if it's anxiety or you're dying Please help. I'm so scared all the time. | self.Anxiety |
Why is the best time the worst time. Why is it the best time to kill my self the worst time in everybody else’s life. | self.depression |
I'm so fucking sorry. I wish I could choke myself to death. So I can feel all the pain that I've caused you and myself. | self.depression |
Has anyone had wellbutrin cause shortness of breath and tightness in their chest? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Death day Someone who I worked with died last week. I didn’t really know him, I knew who he was but never spoke to him. We’d exchanged a polite smile here or there, the sort that two strangers passing each other in an office would do but that’s it. However, I can’t get his death off my mind, for a number of reasons and... | self.offmychest |
Sudden anxiety Hello , first time posting here.
Have any of u ever felt this sudden anxiety and helplessness and fear?
It all happened to me all of a sudden when i started getting some muscle twitches. I started googling symptoms for a week and i kind of ignored the fact that i had something wrong. The twitches contin... | self.Anxiety |
I Sexually Assaulted a Woman at a Party Three Years ago. I don't know what I really expect from posting this, but it has been on my mind for the past few weeks with the allegations levied against several celebrities lately. It was about three years ago, I was a sophomore in college. I was invited to a frat party by a c... | self.offmychest |
Skipped trip due to anxiety For the past couple of years I have had some form of anxiety, panic attacks every once in a while, normal public speaking, meeting new people, always been really awkward.
I am 24 male, been with my fiancé for 4 years, and just recently was supposed to go on a work trip for a couple of days ... | self.Anxiety |
Really don’t see the point of living anymore, completely empty. [deleted] | self.depression |
What helps you get through the day? We’re still here because we haven’t killed ourselves yet. So what’s keeps you going? | self.depression |
Anyone initially lose weight on lexapro/escitalopram? I noticed that I may be losing some fluid weight since I re-started on Escitalopram 1 week ago-- I lost a few pounds, and seem to be peeing a lot more. I also noticed some hunger pangs at night-- which i just ignore. These were not there before I re-started on the m... | self.Anxiety |
The downward spiral into oblivion I am lost, I have no idea what to do and I am so alone. I don't expect anything, I just need to get it out into the world instead of trapped inside my own head.
About 5 years ago I had many friends, a vibrant social life and was partying 24/7 with almost no care in the world. At leas... | self.depression |
ending my life tomorrow thanks to everyone who has offered me messages of support on this website over the last couple of months after having my heart shattered. It has gotten this bad and I am ending my suffering tomorrow evening. There is no light at the end of this tunnel, and especially after this year, I see that ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Woke up to my gay step brother touching and didn't full stop him We are both the same age at 21 and I never sleep in his room because he is gay(sounds bad I know, but should have stuck to this rule). One night we were playing games until about 4:00am and I was calling it a night, but when I was going to go down stairs ... | self.offmychest |
Seeking medical help I don’t want to make this long. So the story goes something like this: Winter has sucked for me (I live in the south hemisphere) and the only friend who knows how bad i was really insisted I called my medical service (things work different here) and asked for a meeting with a doctor specialized on ... | self.depression |
I can't get rid of the voices. I just want to clarify that I'm not schizophrenic. My inner monologues - you know the ones that kick in voicing your insecurities and your fears and all the things you hate about yourself - have been insane recently. I've been able to put a cap on it for the past 7 years by not really car... | self.offmychest |
Iv Recently been told by a doctor that i might not have bipolar and i feel like a fraud. Iv asked for advice here a few times before, Im really sorry for taking up your time. I know there is something not right about me and now that this other doctor might not think its bipolar its put me in a real spin. Im so sorry ev... | self.bipolar |
Questioning Medication? This probably isn't a universal experience, but since I've been on meds things have gotten a lot better. I still have the swings but I can manage to get through them without hospitalization now. But... I really just want to go off my meds. I feel like I might have been making up how bad it is. I... | self.bipolar |
Emotional numbness anxiety/depression I cry, laugh, smile... It's a natural response. But I no longer feel.. pleasure. I can feel sad. I can act like I'm happy. However, pleasure and love is something I can never get my head around. I don't even feel like I love my own family. I also don't feel pleasure... I'm someone ... | self.Anxiety |
Just one story that's bad but not as bad as it could be. [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm extremely scared. What do I do? I'm really frightened and I don't know what to do with myself.
Every flicker of light, every movement, every sound. They cause me to panic. I feel as though someone or someTHING is out to get me. Or maybe that my house is going to catch on fire, or that my house is going to get hit ... | self.Anxiety |
I talked to my parents that I feel depressed. They said, "You're not depressed." "Stop talking nonsense."
And they saw my cuts a few months ago.
They said I can't be depressed because I never experienced to become financially unstable, because I have a nice home and I get to eat anything.
I feel so invalidated, like... | self.SuicideWatch |
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