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Having trouble with expressing how I feel So I was diagnosed with bipolar depression which completely made sense when the doctor told me but ever since I’ve been super conscience about it. I grew up in a Mexican Family so expressing feelings is already hard enough to my tradition hard ass family. I was in a really bad ... | self.bipolar |
At work, trying not to scream (99 PROBS ANS BIPOLAR IS MOST OF EM) Tl;dr version: super under appreciated and paid, because my boss is a fucking idiot. Today is extra taxing. I’ve been doubling numbers in my head all day to keep from slamming things.
Pray (to Satan) for me!!
IS IT PARANOIA OR ARE THEY WHISPERING
... | self.bipolar |
Why am I my own worse enemy? I want to start by saying, if this is in the wrong sub reddit, please say so and I will repost.
I just want to know if I'm the only one here who feels this way.
I'm 28 years old, single, sales rep for a rapidly grown tech company, mildly attractive, with my own condo and a few bucks in t... | self.depression |
Have GAD for years and finally discovered what my specific triggers are. [NSFW] [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
May be going to prison for a crime i didnt commit H | self.SuicideWatch |
Is this my fault from age 18-21 i was dating a woman 9 olders 27-30
the last 2 years of the relationship i was doubting the relationship much (because of the age difference) but never told her i think i stayed for the conformt
i know it was wrong and i wont do it again but since i discovered it is difficult to marry ... | self.Anxiety |
Alternatives to antipsychotics I have a multitude of diagnosis. Particularly cyclothymia, complex PTSD, and ADHD. I have been on a mood stabilizer (oxcarbazepine) for the past few years at 600mg once a day. It has worked well but I am still generally depressed and suffer from intrusive thoughts.
Both my previous and... | self.bipolar |
I have a great life but I can't seem to enjoy it I have friends. I have a loving boyfriend who I adore. I have goals, a good background, career, and ambition. I have a lot of things people would like.
Yet I can't seem to enjoy it fully at all.
I seem to be stuck on the perception others have of me. I am constantly l... | self.offmychest |
In a weird situation So I've wanted nothing more than to kill myself for the past 8(almost9) years now. When I first was going to do it I was told to not do it because things will get better and I was just a teen so I didn't know how I really felt. So while I was waiting I decided that I would kill myself after I move ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just writing my thought to see if it'll help me. I want to die. I would prefer to be dead. I would like it very much if I was killed. Please kill me. Someone kill me. I wish I was never born. I want to die. Why am I alive? What's the point of anything? In a few thousand years nothing I do will matter, most probably. Wh... | self.depression |
The only reason I won't do it ...is I'm too afraid to fail. A friend of my mother's failed. He's blind. I also don't own, nor plan to procure, a gun. I don't want anyone to have to clean up the mess. I don't mean loved ones, I don't have any of those. I mean anyone, ever. I don't want to affect anyone, I don't even wan... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anybody else struggle to differentiate between where their bipolar disorder ends and where their personality begins? | self.bipolar |
Our second xmas in our new home And we’re still getting xmas cards from the previous three sets of tenants. Seriously if you care enough to send these people cards, how can you not know they moved home years ago? | self.offmychest |
My problem with anxiety... So... I hope this is a short one. I normally don't feel anxious. By this, what I mean is that my worry starts usually with a physical symptom. Let's take today for example. I wake up and I realize that for the first time in a long time I was able to sleep 9 hours straight. I quickly notice th... | self.Anxiety |
I feel empty after I talk to people I went to this bar and had a dope conversation with the bartender about sports. But now that I'm home, I feel like he was only being cool to me cause he wanted a good tip. and he's probably telling his co-workers how painful it was to hold a convo with me and how lame I am. I just wa... | self.depression |
I'm just so done. I just. I do not understand people. I don't get them at all. Why they get so mad when you question things. Why they get so vicious. Why they go on and on about their SJW-ism and their concern but the instant they encounter someone who actually is different they flip the fuck out and go on the attack b... | self.depression |
I've just about lost everything Back in April I found out my wife had been having an affair. I let this affect my Work, and had to go on a performance review. I focused on work and lost most of my friends. In my depression, I lost a bunch of weight and started drinking. I got a dui after falling asleep in my car outsid... | self.SuicideWatch |
Difference between antidepressant starting side-effects and hypomania? Hey all,
So I've read about how SSRIs can send bipolar people who are misdiagnosed with unipolar depression / anxiety into hypomania or mania. I've also read that SSRIs can have activating effects during the start up period (including insomnia, res... | self.bipolar |
Did this awesome thing and moved across the country ... I lived in Florida and had a great job at a local bar and made good money for the work. Lived at a guys house and had a good life.
Decided to move to Colorado well just because I had the money saved up and I was bored with life. I packed up my car to the top, fo... | self.depression |
I have a thing for a depressed girl and I don’t know what to do about it [deleted] | self.depression |
downward spiral i dont know why im writing this, maybe to hold myself accountable in the future idk, maybe for advice? Im not really sure. Ive gotten into drugs and i fucking hate myself for it or maybe i just hate myself, it's hard to be certain. Its hard to be sure if my self loathement is what drove me to drugs or i... | self.offmychest |
So god damn alone You know the worst part about my loneliness? I did it to myself.
I distance myself from all my friends as soon as they got a little bit further away. Less than a week ago, I made one new friend. The first in two years. It hasn't been a week and the crippling fear of being alone again is kicking in. S... | self.offmychest |
Doesn’t feel like thanksgiving I see all my friends on Snapchat have fun and hang out with their friends and family on thanksgiving but for me, my thanksgiving has been pretty lackluster. It was just a regular dinner with my brother and dad. We barely spoke (like our usual dinners)
I feel like this happens to every hol... | self.depression |
The History of My Teeth For some people it is not a secret that I have a problematic relationship with my teeth. I used to drink a lot of energy drinks, soda, and eat/drink a bunch of other things that did my teeth no favour. I was also terrible when it came to brushing my teeth. My technique was probably nothing to br... | self.offmychest |
im going to fucking do it it's fucking time I have shit stacked in front of my door and I've already burnt fucking cigarette holes into my shoulder it's fucking time I can't do this anymore there's no point
update: im ok... Just in the hospital fucked up my arm really bad .. | self.depression |
Constant physical dysphoric feeling in chest most of the time I can only describe it similar to a hard drug comedown (coke or mdma) but not quite as intense but thats there most of the time. I see alot of people on this sub have alot of things that bother them and lots of cycling negative thoughts. I generally dont rum... | self.depression |
I'm going to jump off a freeway bridge. I've been depressed and suicidal for 4 years now and I can't deal with it anymore. I've tried everything. I've been on numerous anti depressants, talked to a therapist and other family members about it and I can't seem to find a solution. So I'm going to kill myself because I do... | self.SuicideWatch |
Would any one really miss me? I'm 41 got a great woman. Well had idk I cheated on her lied to her. Now she's been really searching everything in my phone. Well I believe I'm losing her and skiing with her there is two great kids. I love them all with all my heart and soul would and have have to everything for them . B... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'd rather suffer in silence and pretend things are ok, than face resentment I literally don't know how to stand up for myself: I've always had trouble with it in the past, and it ends up other people have to ask certain things for me. I am faced with my room being closest to the kitchen and currently a housemate is ta... | self.depression |
Dissociation (a poem) I saw a light in her eyes, in an old photo;
it was gone before I met her.
Although I’ll never see her again,
I hope it comes back. | self.offmychest |
Don't get in a long-distance relationships if you're depressed and suicidal. Because going from a few weeks of spending every single hour with your loved one, then suddenly having to go back to instant messages and video chats, it fucks you up real good. I'm suicidal as fuck, but the guilt of hurting him is stopping me... | self.SuicideWatch |
20th birthday today... I could not feel any worse. I've only been depressed for a year and a half and don't understand how people can go an entire lifetime feeling like this. It has been almost 2 years since I graduated high school and I'm still a kissless virgin, no friends, unemployed, $0 to my name. I live at home w... | self.depression |
Coping mechanism I've used, weird I like those dreams where you feel like you're falling. No kidding the second I realize it's one of those dreams my mood is brought up from the adrenaline rush and when I wake up I feel so incredible though not scared.
So I use this as a coping mechanism: imagine myself freefalling (no... | self.Anxiety |
How do you know you feel how you want vs how bipolar makes you feel? Haven't been diagnosed yet, positive its coming though. How long does it normally take?
Recently I decided I wanted my hair cut and dyed. I've got this way before but im on meds and I don't know if they are kicking in and I really want my hair cut an... | self.bipolar |
It's been a year since that New Years kiss, and I still think of you. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How to deal with an asshole psychiatrist? I'll keep this short:
She lies to me about medication not having side effects.
She doesn't trust anything I say or think.
When I complain about a doctor she tells me that I am paranoid (previous doctor told me to quit my meds due to the fact that I hadn't a chance to go to a la... | self.bipolar |
Exes are off limits. Seems to be a polarizing opinion but most of my friends agree that it's pretty shitty of my so-called friend to start dating my ex. Not just any ex, the one who was basically my first everything, and the one who cheated on me, lied to me, manipulated me, etc. And one of my closest friends who I've ... | self.offmychest |
Finally, actually want to be dead I've been suicidal on and off for 25 years. I've had good years and bad, and my family and loved ones were who I lived for when times were bad. About 6 years ago I stopped talking to my mother. Last year my wife and I split up. Last month my dad died. And now the closest thing I have t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I know Im ruining my life but dont care enough to do anything about it [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want to talk to someone I posted here before right before I ended up admitting myself into a mental hospital (17f). I still feel low a month and a half out of there and I started counting out pills the other day and I know I'm still not okay. Diagnosed almost 2 years ago as bipolar. Just stopped seeing my therap... | self.SuicideWatch |
Still afraid to start my Trileptal.... I was supposed to start on Trileptal (300 mg for three nights, then 600 mg every night) two and a half weeks ago on top of the 37.5 mg Effexor XR I take in the morning. I’ve heard/read it’s a deadly combo. I go back to my psychiatrist next Friday and he called me today to see how ... | self.Anxiety |
Can't tell my therapist- help? I feel embarrassed to tell my therapist I'm going through depression again. It's been mostly anxiety and I've been pretty stable since I started seeing her this year and she's very helpful with my anxiety and confidence issues in that she tells it how it is and is a badass and I look up t... | self.SuicideWatch |
No one to talk to. I’m fucking depressed. My family is not a family to me. Just people I live with. My boyfriend is a piece of shit. I typed out a long and lengthy post about what’s going on and it keeps saying something went wrong. Story of my life. I wish ending it all was easy. I feel like I don’t want to die becaus... | self.depression |
being in a relationship while having depression, whats it like? [deleted] | self.depression |
Sometimes i just want to be gone in this world. Tired of fighting. Doing the same human things everyday. | self.SuicideWatch |
Inability to Focus On Other Things I have a horrible time focusing on things around me. I feel so unaware of things around me because I am so focused on whats going on in my own head. Every ache and pain gets laser-focused on. Every day is filled with over-thinking. I have a hard time with mistakes and I generally avoi... | self.Anxiety |
I'm a straight man but I really want to wear overalls You know those overalls, those ones that go down to your knees? I don't know why but I really want to buy a pair of them at a store and just walk around and wear them. I can't explain why: I like the big pocket in the front and the little straps that go over your sh... | self.offmychest |
I have a crippling drug addiction and want to end everything [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone have any advice regarding increasing motivation and energy? I’ve been suffering from major depressive disorder for 14 years now. It’s only been in the last 3 years that I’ve found a combination of meds and therapy that have been helpful in terms of making “function” somewhat normally. I’m currently on 40 mg... | self.depression |
Jordan Peterson's message about overcoming existential fear and anxiety translates perfectly to Lord Huron's album "Strange Trails" -links inside. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I Love You More Than You Love Yourself I've been listening to this song by Austra on repeat for weeks now. The music video is pretty cool as well.
I think it really captures the essence of how a partner of a depressed person feels in a relationship sometimes. At least I think mine does feel like this when I'm going th... | self.depression |
Anyone else get so hung up on thinking about what could go wrong that they forget what could go right? It seems like whenever I have the option to take a risk I always think too much about what could go wrong then remove the possibility that it can turn out positive from my mind.
For example if I like a girl and want ... | self.Anxiety |
I am in a financial black hole and want to kill myself to save my son from this life. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I just realized something... Ever since I was extremely depressed from summer 2016 I've been getting better and better with each day, to a point where I've been "good", at least the same as before I got it (to clarify: the beginning was a burst into depression no "fade in" while getting out of it was slowly "fade out")... | self.bipolar |
I think I'm heartbroken The future is terrifying but the future with nobody who loves me? That's even worse man | self.SuicideWatch |
My brother Ive told my brother about me wanting to die, I’ve shown him my self harm cuts, I’ve told him why, and I’ve even told him how I want to commit suicide. And you know what that jackass decides to do? First, he doesn’t care about the fact Im even considering this shit, second, he calls me selfish, third, he mock... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish people would actually show me they care instead of just saying it in hopes of making me feel better.. it Just makes me feel like they’ll say anything to get me to shut up.. | self.depression |
I dont know what to do anymore For the past few days, I've been miserable. Hit a new low kinda miserable. My parents snapped at me, not knowing so. They threatened to kick me out and so i just walked out. Grabbed my pack and just ran. They tried to bring me back. T'was a whole chase scene with jumping over walls and sh... | self.depression |
Just bipolar things... I was reading a post recently^[1](https://www.reddit.com/r/BipolarReddit/comments/7utgjj/have_you_ever_felt_a_kindredness_of_mind_with/) that reminded me of a post^[2](https://www.reddit.com/r/BipolarReddit/comments/3f0sae/you_know_you_are_bipolar_when/?sort=confidence) from more than two years a... | self.bipolar |
Why is it that a constant self-blame always always accompanies my anxiety? It’s as if I could have prevented everything that could or has gone wrong, and I’m just calling myself garbage more and more.
Like if I’m stressed about homework I tell myself I should be more committed or done some of it earlier in the week, in... | self.Anxiety |
Just found out that the chances of death per attempt for suicide among young people is less than 1% Sobering | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you ever wished you would just die I sometimes just think "Why am I not dead. why world, why just won't kill me" honestly if there was a god why would he let me be so alone and miserable | self.depression |
i want to hurt myself for attention this is something i've felt like for a while, but an incident (dumb fight that i wasn't really involved in but had to run damage control on between my friends) brought up the feelings again, full-force. all of my friends have very visible breakdowns that cause them to have attention ... | self.offmychest |
I never believe people when they say they like me. No matter how hard I try, I just can't process the concept that someone likes me. When they say it, I feel like I'm someone other than myself and that *that's* the person they're talking to, not actually me. I really don't know how to process the thought of someone lik... | self.depression |
I just started a class and I already want to give up Hey, new here, I was hoping I could share/vent a little.
So, I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for most of my life, I have been to therapy but last year it was decided it was time for me to try to fly on my own, and while certain things improved, almost ... | self.depression |
Why does it have to get worse not better even if I'm trying Hi,
My name is Martins and I'm 23y old M..
For years I've been fighting depression, but never actually doing enough to improve my quality of life.
Life became increasingly stressful at the end of last year due to the car issues, financial issues, tight sc... | self.depression |
I think the rain clouds are going away I had a very awkward conversation with my mom in which I came clean. I mentioned my suicidal thoughts and issues with self-esteem as well as the child abuse I’ve suffered.
I went to see a psychiatrist and I have more appointments soon. I’ve been prescribed faverin and I’m feeling... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I'm not allowed to be happy right now Hello all.
A little backstory to make this *hopefully* make more sense.
One of my small victories in life is doing grocery shopping alone. Being able to go at my own pace, see what new items they have, check out sales, etc.
A few months ago my brother in law moved... | self.Anxiety |
Trans and I Am Objectively Lesser Because of It there is no upside to being defective like this. i don’t understand what pride i’m supposed to find in myself or what contentment exists when i am not even a person i can tolerate being, much less a person i want to be. for all my schooling and all the effort i put into t... | self.SuicideWatch |
The only way I can get anyone to give me attention or talk to me is by taking my clothes off. People are only interested when it is sexual. I feel very sad. | self.depression |
I’m ready to give up I’m a 17 year old girl, and I’m just done with everything. I’m so depressed and lonely, and most of it is my fault because I fuck everything up. I can’t keep on going like this. I’ll think I’m getting better, and then I come crashing down again. I can’t escape my OCD and depression. I absolutely ha... | self.SuicideWatch |
There is something wrong with me, and I don't know what to do. I know there are a lot of comments and memes around claiming they don't like company, prefer animals to humans, want to be left alone, hate parties, don't care about humanity and all those things; but iIm not that, I actually feel a lot like that.
I've had... | self.offmychest |
Driving I woke up this morning before my alarm after 4 hours of sleep, so that should have given me a clue. But, I didn't realize I'm probs going hypo until I began the usually 1 hour drive to a nearby city. I caught myself thinking "why is everyone driving so slow, it's like 6:30 am? Why doesn't my car have a gear hig... | self.bipolar |
Im starting on Zoloft today, has anyone had any luck with it? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Ladies of r/bipolar... I would love to have kids some day. I’m 25, and I’m watching so many of my peers get married and have kids. I’m only beginning my journey of getting better, and have only been on the right combo of psych meds for about two weeks now, but it’s really got me panicked about what a shit show it’ll be... | self.bipolar |
It keeps coming back I'm honestly not sure _why_ I'm submitting this but I suppose I should do something.
I've tried, 3 times, throughout my life, each time getting worse in terms of impact on other people. The last one still makes me more uncomfortable than I'd think because I snapped out of it when it would have bee... | self.SuicideWatch |
I need some help. I am a 13 year old male and an only child. I just don't get why i am sad and want to die sometimes. My parents love me and don't do anything bad to me. They get me a lot of things and they make me happy. But I still feel sad. At school and at home I feel sad. At lunch I get happy because I talk to m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does Anxiety make anyone else itch? I get really bad itches all over my head when I’m having a bad episode of anxiety. Isn’t it just great when your heart is thumping, you’re talking to yourself, your body is shaking, you’re over analysing everything then all of a sudden you skin itches. How I’ve survived 37 years of t... | self.Anxiety |
I'm everyone's biggest cheerleader, but I'm unable to do the same for myself I believe in everyone but myself.
It makes me want to sit and cry. I'm convincing my boyfriend's sister to chase a dream that was once mine, but that I could never achieve because I hate myself.
I want to die. | self.depression |
Called out of work cus of my depression today I’ve only done this one other time but I really hate myself for when I do this. I just wake up some days paralyzed with fear. It’s weird because I couldn’t sleep all night and I felt haunted by the demons that surround me but I kept shrugging it off. Then it got too close t... | self.depression |
What kind of medication works for you? How can I know if I have an anxiety disorder or not?
Who do I go to to get diagnosed and get meds?
What kind of meds work for you?
Sorry if this is a dumb question. I come from a family that doesn't really believe in mental health so I'm clueless. | self.Anxiety |
In hospital - can't stop freaking out / shaking Admitted today for out of the blue possible appendicitis. Haven't slept for almost a day and am about to be left alone in the hospital. I'm freaking out and I can't stop shaking. I'm so scared about the possibility of surgery and something going wrong. I have this thing i... | self.Anxiety |
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think I can keep on being useless [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Sexual assaults and our opinions #NSFW
I just need to put this in words & get it out of my head a bit, it's been stewing for a while and I really need to just get it off my chest, I'm not bothered about comments, but will probably respond if you do, but if it's like "sorry you experienced xyz" I'm ok, I don't need... | self.offmychest |
Having an unattainable crush is helping me deal with depression [deleted] | self.depression |
Maybe I should drink bleach like the other teens I'm tired of living and suffering because of my disorder. I'm sick of not finding the right gas to kill myself in my sleep with. I think I'm gonna wait for the right day to drink the poison already. Life just isn't working out and it's *not* temporary. | self.SuicideWatch |
For a while, I wished I had the type of depression where you don't want to eat. Now I have it, it's worse than my old depression. I heard of people whose depression made them not want to eat. As someone who already was depressed, I envied them. My depression made me feel so bored and uninterested in everything that I k... | self.depression |
I'm miserable. I'm miserable. I'm making my boyfriend miserable. Neither of us are happy with how things are going between us right now and it's due to me and my issues.
How do I fix my relationship if I don't even know how to fix myself? How do I fix myself if I don't even know how to properly think or function?
I'... | self.bipolar |
I dropped out of college 2 times. Thus losing 5 years of my life. It was 10 years ago and it still haunts me. Depression and probably other mental illness completely destroyed my life. Now I am 34, lost, alone and what's worst: hopeless. Constant ruminations, shame, guilt, sadness. These feelings never leave me. I dont... | self.depression |
I (24) need help. My husband (31M) is depressed and I genuinely don't know what to do Hello, I am unsure if I am posting correctly but I am a 26 year old female and I am seriously at a loss. My husband is an amazing happy go lucky kind of man and he's rarely ever sad or unhappy. We got married this past November and he... | self.depression |
Constant anxiety over problems that I know won't affect me? To give some context. This hasn't happened before and as a result this is long and sounds very unreasonable but I had to try to find a solution somewhere. Anyway here's my story.
I used to be friends with someone (we'll call him Jim) throughout 8th grade to t... | self.Anxiety |
At this moment I have been more okay with dying than I have in a long time. I'm just thinking. I'll clean my room, so people don't see the disgusting hell hole I've been living in when they find me. I'll throw away anything embarrassing. I'll text a few people that I love them so they can remember it as the last commun... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm disappointed in you. We've been having issues with each other since the day I was born. From hearing from Mom that you didn't want a brother like me when we were a lot younger, yelling, cussing me out, and threatening to beat the shit out of me, and still thinking you need to be my parent has been pretty damn exhau... | self.offmychest |
Constantly feeling I have something to do when there isn't anything to be done Don't know how to explain it but my heartbeat is always fast and I constantly feel I am on the edge and there is something that has to be done. It feels like I can never relax and breathe a sigh of relief. It gets hard to endure every minute... | self.Anxiety |
I don't want to be happy, I just want peace [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
In a long distance relationship I kinda feel bad, like these long distance things are seen so negatively and I used to have that point of view too but then I met her and one thing led to another then I'm in a long distance relationship and sometimes I feel like maybe I should break it off because of how negatively its ... | self.offmychest |
I gotta admit, depression has made quite strong man Feels good to feel emotionally strong | self.depression |
I wish I had someone to stick with me through the difficult times [deleted] | self.depression |
27 CLUB I've been waiting for this day.... I said I'd kill myself on this day... Nothing has gotten better but I still don't want to kill myself.... I feel like I do have a chance... but... fuck where do I start. | self.SuicideWatch |
It's like my life was an experiment to see how quickly God could drive me to suicide. He might have been toying with me at first but now he's going for the finish line. Haha he might win by the end of this year. | self.depression |
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