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How to deal with that weighted feeling I've never really talked with people about depression so I'm not sure if anyone else feels this. It's that combined feeling of weight in your gut and emptiness. It's always there, sometimes stronger than normal and some days it's crushing me. Does anyone know ways to possibly help... | self.depression |
My personality is repulsive This is going to be written terribly, I apologize in advance.
To say I'm insecure would be an understatement, I'm a neurotic train wreck of a person.
I hate myself so much. I constantly pester my friends to ask if they still like me, though I know all I'm really accomplishing is making th... | self.depression |
Life is good...now the symptoms are more obvious Hello,
I am at a new college after a horrible experience. I’m making friends like I haven’t since I was kid. There are bumps but everything is overall good. However because of this, I can more clearly see when I’m having an episode, the severity of it, and how well I’m ... | self.bipolar |
I miss you. I called you Pup, I’ll never wash your paw prints off my heart. | self.offmychest |
who knows anymore hi.
i had another account somewhere but i forgot the login to it, haha. but that's okay. i just wanted to check in, as a sort of outlet for myself since i don't really get the chance ever to just put my thoughts out there.
it's the new year. happy 2018, by the way. i hope you all achieve what you ... | self.depression |
An introduction Hey friends,
Long time lurker, first time poster elsewhere but
Not here.
I've worked really hard with therapy, meditation and mindfulness, medicines and every other thing I can think of. Based off of where i am its not worked.
Some time ago it got worse rather than better. Better older and growing i... | self.Anxiety |
Friend felt me up while I was sleeping, he thought I was awake. Trying not to ruin a friendship. My friend and I have been through a lot together; literally we have seen people die together. I'm a paramedic and he hurt his arm pretty bad so I went over to his place to check it out for him. He asked if he could touch my... | self.offmychest |
My limited experience so far with Betterhelp Online Therapy [deleted] | self.depression |
I broke up with my depressed girlfriend and she says that she doesn't know how to live now and that i am the worst person. Before two days i decided to break up with my girlfriend who deals with depression.The last two years we had broke up once more (her decision) but the last 6 months we said to try again.
However,fo... | self.depression |
I’m at an all time low and I’m afraid. [deleted] | self.depression |
I need help. This is my first time reaching out for help in any way, I have not been diagnosed by any doctor. I just feel completly broken. I think about killing myself everyday. I dont know what to do anymore. | self.depression |
Afraid to go to the hospital Things have been been rough this year and i;m scared to go to the hospital. I work a high stress job in sales and worried if i leave everything will be ruined that i worked for. Meanwhile i go nuts. | self.bipolar |
23, lost a few hundred thousand. time to die over past 8 months made 600k
then recently lost it all in one night (markets)
im in 30k debt now with no income
people liked me cause i had money, im worthless now
parents making me get a 9-5 job now
I think about killing myself so much everyday
I can't stop thinking ab... | self.offmychest |
I don’t dare to be attached to anyone because I don’t want to get hurt. I want to change tho. I think I got quite a lot of friends but I can’t really tell who my “besties” are. I’m the kind of person who tends to put my all in a relationship if I’m attached to a certain person. I’m also a very sensitive person, if I se... | self.offmychest |
What did I do What did I do to deserve these thoughts constantly running rampant in my mind? I had a good day today with my family, but I still just want to end my life at the end of the day. My life is in a good spot too, things are great with my family, girlfriend, high school, etc. Why can’t I ever just be happy? I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
The Calm After the Storm A year and a half ago I had a long pyschotic episode followed by a BP diagnosis and several months of depression. I had to take a year off of college but I’ve now been back at school for almost a year. With everything that’s happened— the medications, the extreme emotion levels, the social isol... | self.bipolar |
Life seems meaningless. How do people deal with life? I can't see a future for myself. I'm young, but the thought of being alive for even 10 more years seems like such work. I have no goals and I don't find enjoyment in anything. I have tried so many medications and nothing seems to help. I just feel so broken and abno... | self.SuicideWatch |
Very lonely I know I’m lonely
I have friends
But
Just so lonely all the time | self.SuicideWatch |
F*ck help got drunk watching big brother finale with boyfriend/ Russian vodka 'made' me insane... Trying to get my bf to drink less by helping him drink it *im rlly smart*
I went insane writing about my insane abusive father on FB. In veiled posts, couldn't take it down for a while, feeling like he would come after my... | self.bipolar |
There's nothing to fight for You should help the people who are at a dangerous level. I am at a mild level. But if you want to hear what I want to say. I'd rather do it over PMs. If that's not your thing, I understand and let this thread die. | self.SuicideWatch |
I have severe anxiety. I made a song about how I've felt through it all these past few months. This song means a lot because I've been struggling through anxiety for years, but these past few months have been the worst for me. Its ramped up to extreme levels and has been really hard to cope with, which has led to me ta... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone have any tips to help me overcome my fear of singing at home? So basically, I was a singer as a little kid for a few years. Got a lot of attention, got asked to be involved in musicals, hell I even got paid once. Unfortunately I was super scared of my sexuality (I'm gay), and I wanted to disassociate myself from... | self.Anxiety |
I wish I could end it all right this second [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont even know anymore Ive been trying to hold on for about 2 years now. Everything seems to fall apart and i really have been holding on for a long time but i dont see the point anymore. People say we need to hold on for a little longer but whats the point. Days become weeks, weeks become months, months become years... | self.offmychest |
I wish I was born in a lower class family/area? Now I know what practically everyone's initial reaction to this is going to be confused or even angry, but let's go ahead and put in some context and reasoning.
I'm 18 at the moment and I live in the Silicon Valley. I live in South Sunnyvale/San Jose and we come from Fra... | self.offmychest |
I went on a date for the first time in forever last night! I’ve been trying to get back into dating after a long, long time of being super self conscious about who I am, what I look like, and so on. Been doing the whole tinder thing, with no luck until recently.
I meet this girl off tinder, and after a couple days of... | self.offmychest |
Hate this Disease! I'm so sick of starting over. I thought I was pretty healthy over the past 15-20 years, as I had managed to graduate college, get a good paying job, build a home, get a better job with seniority, security, state pension, and find a husband and raise a son. Who now hates me for everything that's gone... | self.bipolar |
I want to die. I’m better off not being around. I just want validation that I should just kill myself. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm 21, still in college, future dad so yeah I'm still in college, and had unprotected sex with my gf...im becoming a dad soon...we're not ready yet.. | self.depression |
Living life like a ghost My whole life I've felt like a ghost just kind of floating in and out of the picture. Or maybe a better analogy is of a jellyfish trying to control where I am going but failing miserably. In a couple of days it's my birthday the big 30 and I have nothing to show for it. I am still no closer to ... | self.depression |
Even though my friends are here I feel really alone I just sat on the floor of my bathroom with all my friends downstairs holding an entire bottle of pills, trying to get myself to take them. I couldn't bring myself to do it but I really fucking wanted to. I don't want to start this new year. It needs to end now. | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t feel like I matter but here is why I do. Im trying to be honest with myself. I think nothing but negative thoughts all the time. I feel like I hate myself, but maybe this will help.
I am kind to people around me
I am really good at my job and my boss likes me
I am good at conversation even if I shake someti... | self.depression |
Beauty I felt like I needed to share something. I feel like everyone can benefit from this
Regardless of where you are in life, how well you've done, if you're wealthy, if you're not, if you feel like a loser, it's ok. Beauty is the most amazing thing. It can temporarily numb your problems. And it can be found anywher... | self.SuicideWatch |
Bipolar ruining (yet another) relationship I'm 25 and I've been with my 35 year old boyfriend for a year and a half. We're so good together in so many ways. He's been there through my seeking out therapy, getting a diagnosis, starting meds, being hospitalised from my meds, starting new meds, and becoming (mostly) stabl... | self.bipolar |
don't know what i feel it's such a weird sensation, i've never had it before. It's like I'm not sad nor happy nor neutral nor anything. I feel an urge to laugh and cry and I just stay there without doing anything. If I try faking a laugh I end up wanting to cry and it hurts.
what if i never get out of this? what if i... | self.depression |
Failing school because of Depression and Anxiety I am failing all my classes. In gym I don't want to play because my teacher is a creep and I'm scared everytime I go into the gym because when the teacher says "pair up" I want to die inside because no one wants to partner up with me.
English class. Slam poems and short ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Being forced to tell someone something I don’t want to because my anxiety Does anyone else do this? I am quite literally forced to tell someone something that I don’t necessarily want to tell them. I have so much anxiety I feel guilty and end up not being able to not tell them... help?... | self.Anxiety |
Suicide Well last night I tried to kill myself. It obviously didn’t work. I would rather not go into detail. | self.depression |
please tell me the most efficient ways to help your depression that you’re clearly able to tell works? i’ve been dealing with it for about a year and a half and take lexapro which helps a little but i know there are more ways! | self.depression |
Update on my wife Story starts here: https://www.reddit.com/r/bipolar/comments/79c9un/how_do_i_make_it_though_this_with_my_wife
My wife is leaving me. It's so far very cordial, and for the moment we're still sharing a bed, but she can't deal with it. She just told me today at couples counseling, so I don't know what t... | self.bipolar |
I've beaten up my little kitten and now I'm so regretful I always loved cats, always liked them. I decided to take a little kitten home a month ago or so. I'm kind of obssesive with order, sleep cycles and cleaning mostly. My little kitten is very energetic, she plays all day and sometimes have agressive attitudes. I k... | self.offmychest |
I feel like a waste All I do all day is smoke weed. And of course I’m skipping all my classes and my mother is paying my rent. I don’t have a job. I’m failing all my classes. I’m single. And people still like me. Why don’t they know there’s something wrong? | self.depression |
Coming to terms with having bipolar and happy that I made the right choice before possibly getting out of control Caution: long rambling (pms are welcome if anyone wants to make supportive friends and also enjoy writing and reading long messages!)
Today is the day that I finally accepted my bipolar disorder diagnosis ... | self.bipolar |
People will always go with the better option After waking up at 11am with a headache from staying up all night and excessively eating, a friend from basic training texted me and asked if I wanted to grab some grub for veterans day. I was shocked that someone noticed I existed over the weekends, people usually forget ab... | self.depression |
I want to die. Cliché. I just wish I had the guts to overdose on Ibuprofen and die from liver and kidney failure. At least, die way sooner. Because I'm tired of my daily life. The only thing that gets me through the day is my best friend, my cat, and music.
Every day, I wake up being disappointed because I didn't die.... | self.SuicideWatch |
For the last two months my mind has been clinging to a thought that is giving me daily panic attacks. I'm not going to mention what it is- simply because the second I do most places the advice they give me is to "accept the thought" and "accept it" which? I don't want to.
What medication/supplement would you guys reco... | self.Anxiety |
Why does my job feel like torture? I used to love this job. And if I think logically, I should have lots to be grateful for with it.
But sitting here feels like I'm having my teeth pulled out. Every second I think when will be the moment I quit? When will be the breaking point?
I imagine going to my boss and telling... | self.depression |
Scared to be alone with my thoughts Does anyone else experience this? And if you do, have you figured out ways around it?
Sometimes when things aren’t going right in my head, I get nervous to be left alone with my thoughts. I won’t realize it but I’ll avoid listening to music, driving, and or falling asleep without t... | self.Anxiety |
After my exam I think I will fail, I thinks it's best to end it [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Edging towards a Hypomanic episode and worried about one thing in particular... [deleted] | self.bipolar |
shoot...I have to choose a medication now. Xanax, trazodone or amitriptyline Hey everyone. I am looking for general experiences with any of these 3 meds. I was given Trazodone for insomnia which is caused by ADD and anxiety at night. Im on a low dose and have no idea if it actually helps me because I still have to take... | self.Anxiety |
I want to die, I'm so sorry I never thought I would feel like this. I don't actually want to stop living, but right now I want to die to make this all stop. I can't do this anymore. I feel like I'm not really here anymore.
I'm so sorry. | self.SuicideWatch |
Breathing Issues Hello all,
I have been struggling with breathing issues since around the age of 14. At first I didn't know what was causing it, my parents took me to have an asthma test/ lung x-rays and they did not know what was causing it. I eventually learned that my anxiety was causing these issues. I feel as thou... | self.Anxiety |
People disappoint me Every single friendship I've made had deteriorated into a toxic relationship that I eventually needed to abandon because they were being such assholes to me. And this current (and only) friendship I got feels like its slowly heading down that same route. Am I destined to be friendless? Are people r... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hearing everyone talk about the endorphin kick—feeling significantly better—after working out when I have yet to experience that is so discouraging. Working out while severely depressed to the point of being crippled is hard enough as it is; fighting it for years on years, all my life; having to listen to the "don't gi... | self.depression |
Relative recently made an attempt During Thanksgiving I was told that one of my cousins (early twenties) had just been in the hospital after overdosing on a large amount of painkillers. But the people who pulled me aside to tell me about it all said that it was an drunken accident. I did not believe them and so I mess... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anybody else think reddit and social media is just bad for us? I'm not trying to be "oh the humanity" but it's all just fucked up.
Maybe it's just if you're unhappy.
I don't know if I can be totally disconnected from the world though, either. | self.depression |
I don't know how to get myself out of this hole [deleted] | self.depression |
What do you do when you’ve felt helpless, hopeless & unchangeable? For 4 yrs. I know it was my fault allowing myself to be drunk & letting something happen that made me quit my job & leave my hometown. Everyone knows everyone. Most will believe that I wasn’t raped. I deserved it. I am not the same. | self.SuicideWatch |
I have everything I could ask for, why do i feel so terrible everyday. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Why should I bother to keep trying? My life is objectively worthless and meaningless I came to the conclusion that all my attempts at losing inceldom are completely futile, so I wanted to just make new friends this new semester at uni, but I can't even make male friends either since even guys dont want to be seen anywh... | self.depression |
My therapist said she liked me this week. Really brightened my day, because I worried about that all the time. Like the idea that she was dreading having my appointment every week. | self.depression |
I can't send an email. It's been on my To-Do list for 4 months now, daily procrastinated. My former landlord didn't give my deposit back for what are obvious lies (basically claims I used $2000+ in electricity when in reality he hooked several houses illegally into the same power meter including a hot tub....hes basica... | self.Anxiety |
Parents trying to get me to kill myself. So long story short my mother is offering to help me kill myself. | self.depression |
20 m from Germany. Severe depressed for 3 years. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
No Control I never know what to do with anxiety over things I can't control. Kinda what brought this on is the while Net Neutrality deal. I already wrote a couple of letters and posted about it, but that is all I can do now. It makes me super anxious and I can't enjoy anything else or do work because I am anxious over ... | self.Anxiety |
Serious Question,Please Help. Before I actually ask my question or even give essential backstory,let me state that this is 100% serious.
I'm new to reddit,so if the subreddit I post this to is not appropiate feel free to move it somewhere else,I just need help with this.
Also,if this seems "creepy" or whatever to you... | self.offmychest |
Misbehaving in class and giving off the impression I am dumb and unintelligent due to trying to hide my anxiety Sorry, it’s me again, as I found reddit so helpful with the last question I asked related to anxiety I have some other questions to ask, one of them being: does anybody else give off the impression they are d... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else get utterly consumed by a scenario happening in their head, that is completely fabricated? I've had a really bad day today. I'm feeling so edge I'm constantly utterly petrified. I can manage it though and I know I will come through it. I always do.
I'm imagining something will happen that I know couldn't n... | self.Anxiety |
Why You asked me what my story was when we were getting ice cream and I dodged it pretty much. But my story is I destroy people in a really pretty way. I get to know them like no one else bothers to, I make them feel special, I remember all the “little things”, and right as they realize how much they adore me I leave b... | self.offmychest |
I feel like my life is already over I'm a 17 yr old girl i have severe bipolar and ptsd and I'm failing school and on the verge of dropping out I haven't gone to school this week at all I'm too depressed and suicidal to do anything anymore I can't even do simple things like watch shows or go outside or even do things I... | self.bipolar |
I just don't like my life anymore When I was younger my life seemed beautiful, full of opportunities and things to do. It seemed that a certain point what I wanted could be just there, around the corner, waiting to come outside.
Now I'm 27, no car, still at hometown with parents, same old friends, no girlfriend, a good... | self.offmychest |
Confusing my Partner?? Hey guys, first post here.
My boyfriend and I recently moved in together (we've been dating for 2+ years). I'm noticing that my mood swings have interrupted our lifestyle. When I'm depressed, I really struggle to do chores and I make mornings a drag. When I'm manic, I'm just so all over the place... | self.bipolar |
I decided to go sleep for 24 hours on my birthday. Fuck it. I'm not going to make a throwaway account.
It's been two years I haven't celebrated my birthday. It's been two years of not celebrating the holidays. I've been away from my family due to being in the Army. I can go out with friends, but what friends? So fuck... | self.depression |
Should I even apply for a retail job? I've worked before in a restaurant briefly and it didn't work out, so I had quit.
I haven't been motivated to find a new job (depression and all). I did go to a school job fair, saw part time at Walgreens. The people at the booth felt intimidating.
I'm hesitating to apply. All th... | self.Anxiety |
I'm tired of living. I want to grab my dad's gun and end it all. I've completely given up hope. If I aim the gun towards the roof of my mouth, it should be effective and the less painful choice rather than ODing unless the caliber is small. idk
I'm tired of everything. The depression, anxiety, and stress are constantl... | self.SuicideWatch |
Should I Tell My Boss The Truth? Hello friends,
Monday I attempted suicide after struggling with a mixed episode for a few weeks. I overdosed on pretty much all the pills I had, worst was the lithium though. So was in the regular hospital 4 days and psychiatric hospital 5 days.
My boss knows I was in the hospital, but... | self.bipolar |
What is a thoughtful gift I can get my girlfriend who has anxiety and panic attacks? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Do you ever have problems with sudden rage? A few days last week I had this problem where I would become extremely angry in a short amount of time over really small things. Like I entered my email password incorrectly and had to try again and I wanted to put my fist through a wall--literally, I was furious when minutes... | self.bipolar |
No motivation for school. Antidepressants and therapy don't work. [deleted] | self.depression |
Jive Simply judging by your tone
I can guess who's on the phone
With no teeth left to pick the bone
I'm apathy the buzzards drone
Baby brother he could jive
Pedant trite contrite contrived
Upped the dose too many times
What freed his soul enslaves his mind
Simply judging by your tune
I know you just heard the ... | self.bipolar |
I don't know if this is the right place for this, but I'm wondering if homemade gifts seem cheap. I can't afford to spend my usual amount of money on Christmas gifts for my family this year due to finishing school and being pretty darn broke. The money I was going to use towards Christmas has to go to fixing my car bec... | self.offmychest |
Night Terrors I'm not sure if this has been addressed yet so if this is a duplicate post I'm sorry. I definitely have had anxiety with on and off severity for a long time and I'm at this point where I've been having terrible nightmares basically every night. If anyone has dealt with this or is dealing with it please le... | self.Anxiety |
I shared my story and something wonderful happened. Would you mind sharing your story? December was a very difficult month for me, and this subreddit became a sanctuary during some especially hard moments. So first of all - thank you to all of you. You have helped me to realize I am not alone in this.
As a sort of the... | self.bipolar |
My school transfer request is denied. I don't want to go back to my old school. I can't catch up with my studies and I feel like a burden on my family and people around me. I'm just a loser who always get bullied. The day I posed it here that I would go and kill myself. I decided not to go school the next day. I told m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Severe anxiety and passive suicidal thoughts Hey all, I've really struggling with passive suicidal ideation recently.
For the past year and a half, I've been trying to cope with severe anxiety issues. The anxiety problems appeared out of nowhere one day, and since then I've been bouncing from medication to medication w... | self.SuicideWatch |
I will be a sexually depraved, homeless, drug addict Can't really see myself as anything else in the future. It doesn't sound too bad when you write it, it actually sounds funny.
Should I wait? | self.depression |
I was recently asked if I could live my life over again, would I? Assuming it would be the exact same life, without hesitation I said absolutely not.
The person who asked me this seemed surprised by my answer and decided to probe further.
Usually I don’t open up about myself at all. Trust, with me, is rarely given.... | self.depression |
Well, it's been a year now since I tried killing myself A year ago on December 1st I tried to kill myself. I spent a week in a psych ward and have been on lots of meds and doing lots of therapy since then. The therapy has helped quite a bit, I've slowly learned how to listen to myself and how to take things one day at ... | self.depression |
Can anyone relate? I can’t finish anything without getting distracted. The amount of books I’ve semi-abandoned is absurd. and I promised I would go back to them😓 (I promised the books, I cherish them haha. Not like I promised any people)
This has bled over into my actual life, with school and work. I start off with ... | self.depression |
Can’t call in sick for depression These days are the hardest. I’m sitting in my car trying to stuff my tears down for the second time today so I can be your friendly neighborhood librarian but it’s exhausting. Everything hurts even this fake smile I throw on my face. I want to scream I want to cry I want it to end. I ... | self.depression |
I’ve always thought that I’m the biggest disappointment to my family. That was basically confirmed tonight. (Warning: Long) I’m sorry. This is probably going to be a long one with poor formatting.
You see for the longest time I’ve always felt like I was a huge disappointment to my entire family. I never helped around... | self.depression |
I got in a fight while drunk and got my behind kicked. I went to the club yesterday with my 2 of my girls. We’re all having a good time and I was dancing with this guy. All of a sudden some girl comes out of nowhere and claims she’s messing with him. Now personally Idgaf because I don’t know this guy from nowhere. It w... | self.offmychest |
I feel frustrated everytime i wish to commit suicide because im too scared to actually do this despite the strong temptation. | self.depression |
Nothing Is Coming Up Milhouse I've wanted to move to the US since I was a kid. Finally, 20 years after first conceiving the thought, I get the chance. I've been accepted to grad school in the North East.
I spend a couple of thousand dollars on fees, tickets, everything. No problem. I've got some money set aside to ge... | self.offmychest |
Manic episode while on medication I feel more social and in a better mood but not doing crazy stuffs I guess you could say im being...normal. I've been taking medication steadily for a while. Could I be hypomanic or maybe the medication is controlling the craziness? Or maybe I'm just in a good mood but not manic. Any i... | self.bipolar |
What do I do? What advice do older people have for me if any? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Goodbye Don't want to depress anyone but the alcohol is kicking in can't help myself, just wanted to say I love you. My genes are gone to void but I hope the same won't happen to you. Live well, don't be naive like me. This is not a cry for help, please don't answer the thread. Good people like us shouldn't be bothered... | self.SuicideWatch |
I probably could have done it until I read /r/suicidebereavement I hate that I opened that stupid sub. Now all I can think about is how if I kill myself, then my family isn't going to be sad for awhile, but rather they'll carry that pain for the rest of their life. It's bullshit. Maybe I should just distance myself fro... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate my highschool right now, but I fear college more. Can't wait to get out of here. It feels like two big groups of people are actively out to get me and every small thing they do ruins my day. I only actively root for about ten people and I feel like I become more socially awkward day after day. I'm not really apa... | self.offmychest |
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