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suicidewatch | StrongThanks4 | 2019/03/05 | I want to die because I don’t have, and essentially never will have, a girlfriend. How will I be helped by any of these: crisis hotline, calling 911, going to an emergency room? Note that giving up my sexual and emotional needs, or getting them met in any other way than having a girlfriend, is not an option. It seems t... | 6.166 | 7.314075 | 7.004762 | 71.558571 | 66.333333 | 9.809524 | 32.142857 | 9.957138 | 3.363571 | 448 | 18 | 75 | 10 | 7 | 149 | 74 | 105 | 0.13 | 0.82 | 0.049 | -0.8924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 59 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171869 | 0 | 0.136253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251424 | 0 | 0 | 0.249278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233555 | 0.214416 | 0.254058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165734 | 0.172389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131835 | 0.177416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | peglegpeggypoo | 2019/03/05 | need some advice (serious)
People who have known people who committed suicide, would you have preferred that it had been an accident? I'm going to kill myself soon. I don't need anyone to talk me out of doing it. I've tried to find a reason to live for quite some time now but every time I analyze my life and futu... | 6.585873 | 5.810922 | 6.744316 | 80.372135 | 65.455026 | 9.746949 | 30.011111 | 8.936278 | 2.194657 | 2,235 | 63 | 449 | 31 | 30 | 719 | 238 | 567 | 0.214 | 0.672 | 0.114 | -0.9976 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 8 | 13 | 30 | 4 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 71 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 114 | 108 | 36 | 9 | 23 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 50 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 71 | 10 | 70 | 71 | 22 | 46 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 47 | 20 | 0 | 25 | 18 | 355 | 121 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064607 | 0 | 0.057913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082879 | 0 | 0 | 0.052758 | 0.055405 | 0 | 0.111362 | 0 | 0 | 0.036127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060424 | 0.121762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061099 | 0 | 0 | 0.123015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049508 | 0.066665 | 0.052491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049933 | 0 | 0.053263 | 0.057972 | 0.05587 | 0 | 0.029966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054167 | 0 | 0 | 0.064981 | 0.045788 | 0 | 0 | 0.056852 | 0.067363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05309 | 0 | 0 | 0.062996 | 0.066796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117727 | 0 | 0 | 0.190332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065568 | 0 | 0.195422 | 0.048309 | 0 | 0.062753 | 0.064391 | 0 | 0.125581 | 0 | 0 | 0.052332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064694 | 0.201539 | 0.106977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064557 | 0 | 0 | 0.059725 | 0.062871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043566 | 0.087888 | 0.045709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040159 | 0 | 0.315309 | 0 | 0.131613 | 0.128356 | 0.056575 | 0.24652 | 0.051748 | 0.061919 | 0 | 0 | 0.066812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126071 | 0 | 0 | 0.075933 | 0.060934 | 0 | 0 | 0.067135 | 0 | 0 | 0.04713 | 0 | 0 | 0.047226 | 0.053952 | 0.061826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061956 | 0 | 0.32413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089119 | 0.047635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0489 | 0.034956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AntW2000 | 2019/03/05 | I'm Done I know I said that I'm not killing myself until I'm move out of my parents' house, but I can't stand myself anymore. I just missed the bus because I slept in too late. I'M 18. I'M A FUCKING ADULT. THIS IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN. The only reason I didn't kill myself already is so... | 0.435152 | 2.589959 | 2.81899 | 90.881818 | 85.464646 | 4.812121 | 21.121212 | 6.112484 | 0.244952 | 365 | 12 | 77 | 3 | 11 | 125 | 66 | 99 | 0.102 | 0.819 | 0.079 | -0.472 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 25 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 50 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17863 | 0 | 0 | 0.148223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166518 | 0.094105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207834 | 0.192822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398551 | 0 | 0.098989 | 0 | 0.203183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382877 | 0 | 0 | 0.138919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136989 | 0 | 0 | 0.400003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway3981124 | 2019/03/05 | What should I include in my suicide note? (X-post from r/depression) I’m gonna show my appreciation to my parents for raising me up to this while. I’m gonna say that I love them. I’m gonna say that none of these are their faults. I’m gonna convince them I’m not going to hell(?) because they might be devastated if they ... | 2.191988 | 4.296663 | 3.494035 | 88.81269 | 78.473684 | 6.327485 | 23.71345 | 7.38713 | 0.981678 | 740 | 25 | 153 | 10 | 18 | 241 | 105 | 190 | 0.073 | 0.717 | 0.21 | 0.9796 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 30 | 44 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 31 | 8 | 21 | 28 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 97 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075701 | 0 | 0.164692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321773 | 0 | 0 | 0.10045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138767 | 0.147408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150839 | 0 | 0.250282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lost1alone2broken3 | 2019/03/05 | Empty After I turned 12 its been the same. I dont want to live, but I don't want to die either. Im 18 and im still the same. constantly thinking about suicide but I dont have the balls to do it. I dont even know what it feels like to be happy anymore. I wake up and its just blank...nothing, I hate all the things I used... | -0.911457 | 0.984573 | 1.166372 | 102.182219 | 89.176991 | 3.830905 | 14.886998 | 4.713531 | -1.311823 | 388 | 7 | 99 | 1 | 13 | 128 | 66 | 113 | 0.123 | 0.681 | 0.196 | 0.9182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 22 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 10 | 18 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 68 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153967 | 0 | 0 | 0.157282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12891 | 0.150387 | 0 | 0.096131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073592 | 0.103977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154935 | 0 | 0.143696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071106 | 0 | 0.128519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193387 | 0.093259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125704 | 0 | 0 | 0.171692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PleaseMakeItStop651 | 2019/03/05 | I'm mentally ill, but I don't let on how bad it is. I've always been an avoider. When I was a kid, any time I did anything bad there would be punishments ranging from facing the wall for hours at a time, up to beatings. I learned that if I just kept quiet, things had a chance of working themselves out.
I've been able ... | 1.426519 | 2.697761 | 3.202099 | 93.81238 | 78.025641 | 6.105769 | 22.44391 | 6.627428 | 0.338237 | 694 | 20 | 164 | 6 | 16 | 232 | 117 | 195 | 0.268 | 0.649 | 0.083 | -0.9923 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 29 | 32 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 18 | 4 | 24 | 18 | 0 | 26 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 107 | 28 | 2 | 0.161326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134236 | 0 | 0 | 0.109707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159992 | 0 | 0 | 0.132758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12405 | 0.269402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138968 | 0.169148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135924 | 0 | 0.14499 | 0 | 0.304168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164967 | 0.227899 | 0 | 0 | 0.284908 | 0 | 0 | 0.180483 | 0 | 0 | 0.145603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155513 | 0 | 0.117447 | 0 | 0 | 0.114602 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WorldlyBite0 | 2019/03/05 | My gf and I lost our unborn child. I need help finding therapist fast. Last week we suffered the loss of our unborn child to fetal abnormality. Everything has felt surreal and awful because even though it was unplanned, we decided to keep the child. After our child was found to be non-viable, we had to go through the p... | 4.751743 | 6.351834 | 4.947415 | 83.303094 | 70.079812 | 7.954108 | 29.744425 | 8.472885 | 2.205451 | 883 | 35 | 166 | 14 | 16 | 277 | 124 | 213 | 0.162 | 0.708 | 0.13 | -0.6875 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 42 | 40 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 28 | 4 | 21 | 25 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 107 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214822 | 0.240916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181292 | 0 | 0.084355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089095 | 0 | 0.093454 | 0 | 0.150374 | 0.141642 | 0.095184 | 0 | 0.181212 | 0 | 0 | 0.108695 | 0.07659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108216 | 0 | 0 | 0.093802 | 0.132345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099866 | 0 | 0.105165 | 0.100096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294024 | 0.076458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105485 | 0 | 0 | 0.107352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230203 | 0 | 0 | 0.292194 | 0.078701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23849 | 0 | 0 | 0.081795 | 0.058471 | 0 | 0.079519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107506 | 0.07217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240916 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GramTooNoob | 2019/03/05 | I tried, can I go now? I haven't spoke or brought my problems onto Reddit since the end of 2018 cause I learnt that living in Singapore, it almost impossible to find someone else online that can relate when everyone just think from their position where better options exist. Not to mention when the social worker that ... | 5.158275 | 6.460183 | 5.205588 | 82.97348 | 68.764706 | 7.784314 | 26.911765 | 8.076483 | 1.676941 | 2,112 | 65 | 389 | 27 | 36 | 660 | 246 | 510 | 0.13 | 0.7 | 0.169 | 0.9703 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 34 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 45 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 105 | 85 | 29 | 1 | 17 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 31 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 56 | 19 | 59 | 64 | 12 | 50 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 35 | 26 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 279 | 87 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185644 | 0 | 0 | 0.049419 | 0.05142 | 0 | 0 | 0.042024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051598 | 0 | 0 | 0.052585 | 0 | 0 | 0.054655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315033 | 0.190449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103248 | 0 | 0.164203 | 0.063853 | 0 | 0.081633 | 0 | 0 | 0.236201 | 0.05554 | 0 | 0.058257 | 0 | 0.031247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143234 | 0 | 0.032287 | 0 | 0.105363 | 0.051833 | 0.049425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124265 | 0.065292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054928 | 0.06837 | 0 | 0 | 0.050373 | 0 | 0.065435 | 0 | 0.063192 | 0.130948 | 0 | 0 | 0.163705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067459 | 0.052538 | 0 | 0.058474 | 0.206251 | 0.062653 | 0 | 0.134631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045428 | 0.091644 | 0 | 0 | 0.065722 | 0 | 0 | 0.059296 | 0.070357 | 0 | 0.065812 | 0 | 0.187999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042843 | 0.053959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295659 | 0 | 0.062124 | 0.138455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052775 | 0 | 0.098288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05112 | 0 | 0 | 0.125989 | 0.157082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065868 | 0.049352 | 0.051665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164222 | 0.039597 | 0.060716 | 0.04906 | 0.036035 | 0.142054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209782 | 0 | 0 | 0.064333 | 0 | 0.106746 | 0 | 0 | 0.109349 | 0.049052 | 0.04957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087798 | 0.135132 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HandOfBl00d | 2019/03/05 | 3 year relationship ended, student loan payments went up, already had a mental breakdown and waiting for another one. I just feel like I've fucked up somewhere along the line and I'm being punished for it right now. My ex and I are friendly still but we were engaged to be married and that's gone. I was already struggli... | 2.507508 | 3.76059 | 3.975689 | 89.439268 | 75.167665 | 6.336066 | 24.822202 | 6.671995 | 0.781679 | 621 | 20 | 134 | 5 | 13 | 206 | 110 | 167 | 0.119 | 0.769 | 0.112 | -0.0644 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 12 | 7 | 20 | 19 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 77 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08531 | 0.120533 | 0 | 0 | 0.154207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130352 | 0.155979 | 0.088149 | 0 | 0.191774 | 0 | 0.13494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119172 | 0.082428 | 0 | 0.148982 | 0 | 0 | 0.188754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13467 | 0 | 0 | 0.125103 | 0 | 0.16295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181142 | 0 | 0.144086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13474 | 0 | 0 | 0.176382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193918 | 0.159926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135337 | 0 | 0 | 0.156405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10865 |
suicidewatch | A-Adel | 2019/03/05 | Feeling weakness Getting into a problem and not being able to get your right is such a bad feeling that stuck in my head and stops me from being able to deal with anyone i just can’t talk to anyone I know i will show them my weakness | 4.615442 | 4.707164 | 5.22898 | 86.66483 | 69.408163 | 6.533333 | 28.578231 | 3.1291 | 0.908178 | 186 | 6 | 38 | 0 | 3 | 60 | 37 | 49 | 0.288 | 0.655 | 0.056 | -0.9081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0.531206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Not_Quinn | 2019/03/05 | 6years of depression It all started when my parents got divorced when I was 9 now I am 15. Ever since then I've felt nothing but pain. Tried to get into relationships realised I contribute nothing and people only hang around me out of pitty . I used to be excelling in school now I'm failing, life isn't the way it used... | 0.897949 | 3.249325 | 2.766923 | 90.66141 | 85.410256 | 5.005128 | 22.769231 | 6.427356 | 0.590092 | 298 | 11 | 61 | 3 | 9 | 99 | 58 | 78 | 0.086 | 0.809 | 0.105 | 0.3618 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 36 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154188 | 0.215722 | 0 | 0.225111 | 0 | 0 | 0.140549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350192 | 0 | 0.167276 | 0 | 0.16092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | attentionseeker15 | 2019/03/05 | I want help. I needed help. Every time my suicidal thoughts attack me, i write it down on a journal. These past few months i want someone, anyone to find it. I need help. I want someone to read it and reach out for me. please. I need help. | -0.969337 | 1.088069 | 0.766097 | 100.479349 | 101.040816 | 3.266327 | 16.329082 | 5.148861 | -0.868655 | 181 | 5 | 41 | 1 | 8 | 58 | 32 | 49 | 0.136 | 0.539 | 0.325 | 0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.51231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152519 | 0 | 0 | 0.425052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151697 | 0.111421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AidanTheAlien | 2019/03/05 | Everyday is agonising Most of my friends are dead or in jail, or doing drugs and stay away from me since I don’t do the same. All my neighbours hate me. My girlfriend is a great person but she doesn’t want to be around me much anymore. My family hates me and thinks I’m a joke. My cat, my only real friend is sick. The r... | 0.198274 | 2.203594 | 2.308333 | 95.136667 | 85.130952 | 5.638095 | 20.047619 | 6.937598 | 0.232676 | 605 | 18 | 142 | 8 | 18 | 203 | 105 | 168 | 0.205 | 0.643 | 0.151 | -0.913 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 31 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 8 | 16 | 23 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 91 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143499 | 0 | 0 | 0.15145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142565 | 0.175985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151962 | 0 | 0.163012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24908 | 0 | 0.084219 | 0 | 0 | 0.135204 | 0 | 0.17772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111754 | 0.140751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16124 | 0.183477 | 0.103267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165466 | 0.133344 | 0 | 0.161313 | 0 | 0.136581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103288 | 0 | 0 | 0.093995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwthisaway2118 | 2019/03/05 | I can’t do this anymore I just can’t do this anymore. I am trying to get a promotion at work and my boss just tore me a new one. I honestly feel like a failure at life. I know realistically every day won’t be perfect but it seems like as soon as something good happens something worse happens.
My boss can’t be happy f... | 3.304707 | 4.08933 | 4.967429 | 84.893 | 72.65 | 7.914286 | 27.285714 | 8.192908 | 1.533471 | 747 | 26 | 167 | 11 | 14 | 254 | 108 | 200 | 0.136 | 0.691 | 0.173 | 0.7942 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 42 | 38 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 26 | 9 | 17 | 32 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 108 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224664 | 0.131047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256512 | 0.181212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066262 | 0 | 0.072079 | 0.212754 | 0 | 0 | 0.139715 | 0 | 0.224307 | 0.135011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139403 | 0 | 0.143067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089582 | 0.185885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094041 | 0 | 0.122491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101065 | 0.346378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107461 | 0.195277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100687 | 0.073954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184664 | 0 | 0.129248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jonesyymufcc | 2019/03/05 | My Friend josh keeps hitting him self getting really worried Hi all,my friend has recently ended his realationship with his ex after finding out she has cheated on him . Ever since then he's been drinkiny heavily and hitting him self I'm getting really worried . He's now been saying he's going to hang him self . What s... | 3.706667 | 6.207397 | 4.800238 | 79.348929 | 75.349206 | 7.374603 | 29.547619 | 8.3441 | 2.551076 | 266 | 12 | 45 | 5 | 6 | 87 | 44 | 63 | 0.124 | 0.78 | 0.096 | -0.223 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 25 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309759 | 0 | 0.209471 | 0 | 0.11393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256847 | 0 | 0.197936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.62739 | 0 | 0 | 0.165828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hxs214 | 2019/03/05 | My moods are up and down like crazy and right now is a huge “down” and I don’t know what to do with myself Lately life has been so hectic and it’s all coinciding with finals and I’m so overwhelmed. I don’t have bipolar depression or anything, I am diagnosed with dysthymia/chronic depression so normally I’m in a constan... | 2.384135 | 3.80035 | 4.488483 | 84.975727 | 75.792453 | 7.911959 | 24.925696 | 8.593346 | 1.625235 | 2,180 | 73 | 468 | 43 | 47 | 753 | 232 | 583 | 0.114 | 0.758 | 0.129 | 0.4434 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 24 | 34 | 3 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 55 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 96 | 96 | 49 | 2 | 12 | 25 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 25 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 6 | 61 | 17 | 75 | 80 | 4 | 65 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 38 | 1 | 12 | 27 | 316 | 81 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0.205757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049143 | 0 | 0.17351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128531 | 0 | 0.059805 | 0 | 0 | 0.062159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07369 | 0.07595 | 0 | 0.11223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181603 | 0.071335 | 0 | 0.146861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062249 | 0 | 0 | 0.185684 | 0.063575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132512 | 0 | 0.142148 | 0.05021 | 0 | 0.153982 | 0.256948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1086 | 0.064975 | 0.146879 | 0 | 0.159773 | 0 | 0.056211 | 0 | 0 | 0.069591 | 0.062151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070499 | 0 | 0.069214 | 0.081097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077757 | 0 | 0.115876 | 0.05729 | 0.079282 | 0.074419 | 0.076362 | 0 | 0.198571 | 0.240356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066503 | 0.046914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074699 | 0 | 0.052114 | 0.054206 | 0 | 0 | 0.065955 | 0.137724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142876 | 0.053453 | 0 | 0 | 0.156081 | 0 | 0 | 0.048725 | 0.061368 | 0 | 0.077149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300105 | 0.066855 | 0 | 0.070365 | 0.213389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1191 | 0 | 0 | 0.078676 | 0 | 0 | 0.056128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076878 | 0.079756 | 0.06624 | 0 | 0 | 0.05649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046693 | 0.045034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115981 | 0.207272 | 0.055787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | equalsmilk | 2019/03/05 | Content Mind The back of my mind always gives me negative thoughts, wanting to die, calling myself useless and not finding meaning to life.
Whilst I'm visibly happy in the sense of life. I get good grades, great friends, supportive mother and family. Potential girlfriend and have a goal to learn languages. Plays games... | 3.813333 | 6.617797 | 4.32023 | 81.306092 | 76.701149 | 8.004598 | 29.206897 | 8.841846 | 2.834255 | 377 | 17 | 65 | 9 | 9 | 119 | 62 | 87 | 0.152 | 0.645 | 0.203 | -0.2065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 36 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131504 | 0 | 0.088928 | 0.163281 | 0 | 0.142764 | 0 | 0.187657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | irradiatedcookie | 2019/03/05 | I'm just fucking done. I'm going to kill myself after class. I've spent the past week trying to finally get my life under control and so much has gone wrong. More than usual. It's like the world's way of saying "Fuck off and die" and it's working. I want to. I can't take anymore of this shitty fucking year. I'm fucking... | -0.164469 | 2.045982 | 2.358369 | 92.496873 | 89.653595 | 4.266804 | 18.510148 | 5.750288 | -0.188339 | 560 | 16 | 118 | 4 | 19 | 192 | 90 | 153 | 0.25 | 0.645 | 0.105 | -0.9653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 31 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 16 | 25 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 64 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093977 | 0 | 0 | 0.097676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092259 | 0 | 0.097818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105531 | 0.099257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408405 | 0.173103 | 0 | 0.062766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078008 | 0.053956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094316 | 0 | 0.087827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093577 | 0 | 0 | 0.37089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121635 | 0 | 0.065141 | 0.175326 | 0.088589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12075 | 0 | 0.071121 |
suicidewatch | kewl_d00d_2 | 2019/03/05 | I know this is not fitting for the sub, but do you people have any recommendations for subreddits and other such forums were I can discuss suicide methods? Given I don't want help and am currently questioning whether I should eventually end it or not I have some questions regarding methods of suicide. I was banned from... | 7.067253 | 9.384094 | 6.726154 | 69.993846 | 65.373626 | 9.156044 | 36.076923 | 9.606745 | 3.941567 | 425 | 21 | 63 | 9 | 7 | 133 | 69 | 91 | 0.288 | 0.643 | 0.069 | -0.9766 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 21 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 49 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.519288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205011 | 0 | 0 | 0.140007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SSAchristian | 2019/03/05 | Who do you go to? I just came through a few days of extreme depression; due to multiple issues that have been on going. I stayed medication compliant, if I miss it usually takes me a few days to get back to normal.
The question is, who do you talk to? Last time it told my psych I ended up in the hospital for 10 days. ... | 2.615196 | 3.937674 | 4.421716 | 86.070221 | 75.013072 | 8.498693 | 25.821895 | 9.075115 | 1.924774 | 574 | 20 | 125 | 13 | 12 | 195 | 101 | 153 | 0.069 | 0.857 | 0.074 | 0.1911 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 17 | 17 | 3 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 76 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409533 | 0 | 0.136735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149659 | 0 | 0.080271 | 0.113414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122653 | 0 | 0.082943 | 0 | 0.180447 | 0.133156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165698 | 0.157539 | 0.141108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177841 | 0 | 0 | 0.180697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180152 | 0 | 0 | 0.119363 | 0.127601 | 0.138758 | 0 | 0 | 0.184326 | 0 | 0.101723 | 0 | 0 | 0.092571 | 0 | 0 | 0.151697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spicecakes74 | 2019/03/05 | I just have a question if anyone is willing to anwser I have been dealing with depression with many many years im feel like a huge burden to everyone i know and i was just wondering if it would be better to kill myself somewhere where no one will find my body so it would seem like i had run away. If i left a note sayin... | 1.043913 | 2.504121 | 2.832681 | 95.236413 | 79.57971 | 6.049275 | 17.297101 | 6.816662 | -0.295316 | 490 | 8 | 118 | 5 | 12 | 163 | 81 | 138 | 0.139 | 0.715 | 0.146 | -0.2439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 31 | 10 | 2 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 17 | 5 | 14 | 12 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 84 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084355 | 0 | 0 | 0.107396 | 0 | 0 | 0.340039 | 0 | 0.10073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135921 | 0 | 0.213394 | 0 | 0.134005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124376 | 0.103908 | 0 | 0.125206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121999 | 0.086186 | 0 | 0 | 0.110264 | 0 | 0 | 0.132277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129149 | 0.136189 | 0.390939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133471 | 0 | 0.066301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131077 | 0 | 0 | 0.176817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13083 | 0 | 0 | 0.122943 | 0.4285 | 0 | 0 | 0.077689 |
suicidewatch | frankchen1111 | 2019/03/05 | Incel Lol.
With many disease. acne, GERD, poor eyesight, poor teeth, aspergers, anxiety, depression, PTSD, fat, dizziness, dysautonomia..... How could I become so pathetic?
Worrying about not have a real relationship with good romance and sex. I have been with a trans woman only for months when I was 19, but anything... | 2.940308 | 5.684347 | 4.025371 | 82.455317 | 79.821918 | 7.12032 | 25.106735 | 8.212053 | 1.9386 | 921 | 35 | 165 | 19 | 24 | 298 | 136 | 219 | 0.203 | 0.666 | 0.131 | -0.9649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 71 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 25 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 37 | 33 | 20 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 18 | 24 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 105 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1487 | 0 | 0.083639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087293 | 0 | 0 | 0.07051 | 0 | 0.094168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057122 | 0 | 0 | 0.183406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443384 | 0.109839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174536 | 0 | 0.080372 | 0 | 0.084324 | 0 | 0.348829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124444 | 0.070041 | 0 | 0 | 0.117382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295967 | 0.122066 | 0.125727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111032 | 0 | 0 | 0.119538 | 0 | 0.21122 |
suicidewatch | DubiousBlazeHazmat | 2019/03/05 | things to keep in mind depression really sucks.
life can wear down on you.
traumas can happen that hurt so much you can't even utter them.
anxiety can pull you away from things you like.
people may not understand you.
and here you are.
somehow despite how terrible life can be you've made it this far.
maybe it's ... | 1.34931 | 3.904076 | 2.39757 | 92.533106 | 85.82243 | 6.282962 | 18.511143 | 7.610547 | 0.561372 | 424 | 11 | 89 | 8 | 13 | 134 | 73 | 107 | 0.084 | 0.755 | 0.161 | 0.9005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 60 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374873 | 0.08643 | 0.177312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167398 | 0 | 0 | 0.177731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187675 | 0.17863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168882 | 0.122648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200757 | 0 | 0 | 0.133015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | paws4georgia | 2019/03/05 | Need a chat? I’m here I’m here to listen to you, vent with you, and chat with you about absolutely anything and everything you want, my dms are open 24/7 | -1.100833 | 0.701022 | 0.87125 | 98.315417 | 107.75 | 4.633333 | 14.708333 | 6.427356 | -0.419204 | 120 | 3 | 28 | 2 | 6 | 39 | 22 | 32 | 0 | 0.956 | 0.044 | 0.0772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.582244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Linguist_Rick | 2019/03/05 | I can’t see a way out Why should I be here still what’s the point. I’m a total loser. | -4.764091 | -3.808022 | -0.572273 | 108.961591 | 114 | 2.2 | 5.5 | 3.1291 | -2.928127 | 65 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 19 | 22 | 0.195 | 0.805 | 0 | -0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.497492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | violeddit | 2019/03/05 | I’ve been suicidal for 9 years and it never got better, so why should I keep trying? People keep saying that it will get better, tomorrow or some day.
i’ve tried to live, nine years of being suicidal and i fought with myself and made the choice every day to live, because of family and friends and the hope that one da... | 2.163537 | 4.267269 | 3.506861 | 88.690286 | 78.562044 | 6.843122 | 20.027513 | 7.882392 | 0.78725 | 533 | 13 | 109 | 9 | 13 | 174 | 75 | 137 | 0.163 | 0.717 | 0.121 | -0.7588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 23 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 13 | 11 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 74 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125524 | 0.211571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231416 | 0 | 0.10302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184821 | 0 | 0.062491 | 0 | 0.067977 | 0 | 0.095663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21263 | 0 | 0 | 0.065735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129526 | 0 | 0.165845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385126 |
suicidewatch | fishwhisperer4321 | 2019/03/05 | Out with a bang I want to go out looking like I was killed. I want my kids to be proud of what I did and I don't want them to know that I did it to myself. Help appreciated. | -2.280976 | -0.622168 | 1.134829 | 101.531512 | 93.634146 | 4.25561 | 13.078049 | 5.683918 | -1.430058 | 131 | 2 | 38 | 1 | 5 | 47 | 29 | 41 | 0.1 | 0.556 | 0.344 | 0.7906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438242 | 0 | 0.217694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.700915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sangriahallucination | 2019/03/05 | It was better before the highs I'm not sure how to explain it. When I was 19 I went through some terrible things. I tried to end it a couple weeks later but only succeeded in being rushed to the emergency room. I dropped out of uni and moved back in with my mom for a couple years. During that time I closed myself off f... | 0.961649 | 3.127759 | 2.474159 | 94.125891 | 83.275618 | 4.904075 | 18.973969 | 6.079149 | -0.194036 | 1,062 | 27 | 232 | 8 | 30 | 345 | 160 | 283 | 0.165 | 0.681 | 0.154 | -0.5524 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 46 | 43 | 25 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 30 | 12 | 40 | 19 | 2 | 57 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 24 | 1 | 5 | 26 | 155 | 47 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.102885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221158 | 0 | 0 | 0.093855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08107 | 0.17606 | 0 | 0 | 0.089714 | 0 | 0 | 0.093245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107656 | 0 | 0 | 0.108306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053309 | 0 | 0.20246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115599 | 0.081455 | 0 | 0.055083 | 0 | 0.059919 | 0.08843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104393 | 0.093232 | 0 | 0.094445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104623 | 0 | 0.116643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323429 | 0.074469 | 0.154524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106455 | 0.123479 | 0 | 0.112056 | 0 | 0 | 0.081314 | 0.305476 | 0.112126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110632 | 0 | 0 | 0.080185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213403 | 0 | 0.09598 | 0 | 0.119106 | 0.108223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081166 | 0 | 0 | 0.149248 | 0 | 0.084197 | 0.088145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07158 | 0.114678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086991 | 0.124371 | 0 | 0.08457 | 0 | 0 | 0.097735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067894 |
suicidewatch | orange8821 | 2019/03/05 | Life is hard I'm still a depressed fuck, but Jordan Peterson has motivated me to take on more personal responsibility. It helps give life meaning. Watching YouTube videos of him has helped me quite a bit | 5.740721 | 8.021185 | 6.122703 | 73.132883 | 68.72973 | 9.257658 | 33.954955 | 9.725611 | 3.520377 | 165 | 8 | 29 | 4 | 3 | 53 | 33 | 37 | 0.133 | 0.69 | 0.176 | 0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260577 | 0 | 0.270388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | leafandflower | 2019/03/05 | Advice please How can I make it so my organs can still be used for people who want and deserve to live? | -0.42197 | 1.813109 | 1.215455 | 99.409848 | 93.090909 | 2.933333 | 11.878788 | 3.1291 | -1.734776 | 81 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 21 | 22 | 0 | 0.841 | 0.159 | 0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293031 | 0 | 0 | 0.463972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365057 | 0 | 0 | 0.249306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ineedhelp11a | 2019/03/05 | I think it's all over now If some of you want to know why, you can read my other post and add the fact that they're together since yesterday...
Feel sad about leaving people alone... but I'm tired
Don't really know how I'll do but I'll try to end this this afternoon
Hope you won't ever see me again... | -0.016623 | 1.907896 | 2.032597 | 97.283182 | 85.363636 | 6.195671 | 15.489177 | 7.44753 | -0.213391 | 234 | 4 | 58 | 4 | 7 | 78 | 54 | 66 | 0.091 | 0.832 | 0.077 | -0.2263 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 31 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296639 | 0 | 0 | 0.285765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269954 | 0 | 0.172892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AURNSK | 2019/03/05 | Im dead inside I was kicked of of my work. Was workless for a month and than finally found a new job that is a bit far away. So I bought me a new car with my last money I got at all.
I worked 2 days in the new company and the work was lit. And my coworkers was very gentle to me as well.
Yesterday I had a car accident... | -0.564437 | 0.942918 | 2.079254 | 98.514483 | 84.746269 | 5.914122 | 17.770379 | 7.010147 | -0.221181 | 447 | 10 | 119 | 6 | 13 | 155 | 72 | 134 | 0.154 | 0.805 | 0.041 | -0.9284 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 18 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 73 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110635 | 0 | 0 | 0.089364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148339 | 0 | 0.149676 | 0 | 0.275013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112951 | 0 | 0 | 0.301107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110603 | 0 | 0 | 0.102746 | 0 | 0.535316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RedSaucin | 2019/03/05 | I made a post in DP/DR Check my recent post its what I feel currently. Why does it matter if I die...we are a speck in this universe. We work and slave to society when in reality none of this fucking matters. Boosting egos, Getting money. Literally all of this shit is pointless. There's no reason to be alive. We are sh... | 1.036618 | 3.459528 | 3.169118 | 87.481029 | 85.617647 | 5.752941 | 24.676471 | 7.168622 | 1.233847 | 263 | 11 | 53 | 4 | 8 | 89 | 53 | 68 | 0.095 | 0.792 | 0.114 | -0.1726 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255025 | 0.144124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.528389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283627 | 0.272375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | destroyeddefeat2010 | 2019/03/05 | trying to commit suicide year later. failure after fucking failure TRIED HANGING
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TRIED FUCKING GETTING HELP BUT YOU CUNTS ARE LIARS. LITTERALLY DOING THERAPY IS A PIECE OF SHIT. BEING IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL IS BULLSHIT. IT HELPS NOTHING. IM THE 1/20 WHO ACTUALLY WANTS TO DIE. NOT JUST THINKS ABOUT IT BUT D... | 3.64813 | 6.382863 | 4.177815 | 73.760882 | 102.676471 | 5.472269 | 32.798319 | 6.86897 | 3.29682 | 327 | 19 | 41 | 6 | 14 | 103 | 54 | 68 | 0.455 | 0.466 | 0.079 | -0.9939 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306482 | 0.343709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392253 | 0.073892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161739 | 0 | 0 | 0.090624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343709 | 0.091077 |
suicidewatch | psychedelicelephowl | 2019/03/05 | Nicaragua boy wants to commit suicide Boy of the Name Martin Alejandro Carrion Rios living in Nicaragua, Managua. Wants to commit suicide please help if you can, contact local authorities or just reach out to anyone in Managua. Share this to everyone you can, let Martin Alejandro know that people do care about him. He ... | 7.801486 | 9.453959 | 6.606324 | 74.058946 | 62.918919 | 8.622703 | 36.421622 | 8.841846 | 3.457668 | 343 | 16 | 51 | 5 | 5 | 103 | 58 | 74 | 0.098 | 0.695 | 0.207 | 0.7269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264947 | 0.183009 | 0 | 0 | 0.228789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179627 | 0 | 0 | 0.284413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.566825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166851 |
suicidewatch | BananaBoatDope | 2019/03/05 | Feelings I feel super useless as is my life doesn't really matter and I'm not sure what to do anymore | 1.625455 | 3.425252 | 4.254545 | 84.151818 | 79 | 6.218182 | 24.636364 | 7.168622 | 1.2342 | 82 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 21 | 22 | 0.243 | 0.601 | 0.156 | -0.0394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tom-gately | 2019/03/05 | The dimming light at the end of the long tunnel I’m 15. I’m a normal teenage boy, I like video games, soccer, music and talking to girls. In September 2018 I was clinically diagnosed with depression and bi-polar disorder. The following December I was diagnosed with an incurable disease (won’t go into details) and now e... | 3.286379 | 5.270055 | 4.547644 | 83.089427 | 74.719424 | 7.654916 | 28.130096 | 8.472885 | 2.152345 | 1,117 | 46 | 214 | 21 | 24 | 368 | 163 | 278 | 0.128 | 0.733 | 0.14 | 0.1292 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 23 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 38 | 43 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 22 | 7 | 31 | 23 | 10 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 132 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110439 | 0 | 0 | 0.090258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161817 | 0 | 0.11294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105971 | 0 | 0.145793 | 0 | 0 | 0.228633 | 0.269428 | 0 | 0 | 0.152115 | 0.135851 | 0 | 0.135825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117556 | 0.137141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125122 | 0 | 0.06711 | 0.094819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072943 | 0.108189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093748 | 0.129686 | 0 | 0 | 0.117458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133707 | 0.133757 | 0.140801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124554 | 0.130043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21336 | 0 | 0.122196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085045 | 0 | 0 | 0.077394 | 0.152549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078285 | 0 | 0.319394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085471 |
suicidewatch | thisguyjas | 2019/03/05 | Is anybody out there? Feels as if everything I say or write nobody sees.
:( can anybody talk? I feel awful. | 0.1455 | 2.095137 | 1.7 | 91.78 | 108.5 | 4 | 20 | 5.985473 | 0.4215 | 81 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 26 | 18 | 20 | 0.269 | 0.731 | 0 | -0.7399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.522644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410999 | 0 | 0 | 0.411842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dr_W_Breen | 2019/03/05 | Suicide and life insurance If it's determined that you died because of suicide, what happens to your life insurance? Does the person you designated as the beneficiary get nothing? | 6.806 | 10.247733 | 7.583333 | 58.505 | 69.666667 | 10.666667 | 43.333333 | 10.504224 | 6.274333 | 148 | 10 | 19 | 5 | 3 | 49 | 25 | 30 | 0.305 | 0.565 | 0.13 | -0.8577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.638643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Just_An_other_Person | 2019/03/05 | See my psychiatrist tomorrow morning. Have to tell him about the rape/ flashbacks/suicide ideations What do I do? I haven't told anyone yet except my partner. (Don't feel like typing all the details of my exp but flashbacks of rape when I was about 3) Please help. I'm freaking out and I have 7 hours to go. I haven't de... | 4.43568 | 6.269586 | 5.23122 | 80.026726 | 71.256098 | 8.460788 | 32.12758 | 9.057497 | 2.884597 | 681 | 32 | 127 | 14 | 13 | 221 | 104 | 164 | 0.22 | 0.675 | 0.106 | -0.9742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 28 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 19 | 5 | 18 | 23 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 80 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093548 | 0.132173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105147 | 0.15518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12401 | 0 | 0 | 0.183759 | 0.1822 | 0 | 0 | 0.208857 | 0 | 0.193105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180776 | 0.185431 | 0.16337 | 0.163731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205508 | 0.186381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237097 | 0 | 0 | 0.107882 | 0 | 0 | 0.176788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | user_name_pqrst | 2019/03/05 | Why do I get bullied/harassed? I am a 20 year old university student. In my school life there was a boy in my class who used to beat me and make fun of me (every once in a month or so). In my high school, there was another guy who used to bully me. I was very happy when I got admission in one of the best universities ... | 4.182864 | 4.30919 | 6.064746 | 80.178057 | 70.349481 | 9.467205 | 31.280469 | 9.444779 | 2.688693 | 1,079 | 44 | 227 | 22 | 18 | 377 | 141 | 289 | 0.178 | 0.696 | 0.126 | -0.9728 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 27 | 49 | 18 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 46 | 7 | 33 | 32 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 160 | 56 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074965 | 0.109851 | 0.088226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179035 | 0.065356 | 0 | 0.09123 | 0 | 0.112513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092342 | 0 | 0.222539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085747 | 0 | 0 | 0.106157 | 0 | 0.114129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113275 | 0.107543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151454 | 0.052378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091148 | 0 | 0.101447 | 0.071565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085576 | 0 | 0 | 0.079496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112501 | 0.114177 | 0.145299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12145 | 0 | 0.101983 | 0 | 0 | 0.217009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241022 | 0 | 0 | 0.181681 | 0.247611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234545 | 0.121663 | 0 | 0 | 0.08061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185194 | 0 | 0.176922 | 0 | 0.0851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099387 | 0.193485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11722 | 0 | 0.069041 |
suicidewatch | taybabynicole | 2019/03/05 | I want to end it all Literally just fuck it. I’m bipolar, major depression, PTSD. I can’t do it anymore. Last time I tried to do the right thing and get help in crisis I was made to feel like a criminal.
My anxiety keeps me stuck in this god forsaken life. Bc “I DoNt WAnnA HuRT anYoNeS FeeLiNGs” No one cares. My fianc... | -0.840641 | 1.305539 | 2.063931 | 92.264293 | 96.96875 | 5.194737 | 20.018092 | 6.836019 | 0.552025 | 468 | 17 | 103 | 8 | 19 | 163 | 82 | 128 | 0.226 | 0.614 | 0.16 | -0.8891 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 10 | 19 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 64 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14958 | 0 | 0.193913 | 0.136719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184328 | 0 | 0.197731 | 0.139686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151066 | 0.180764 | 0.102156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138108 | 0.191052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218302 | 0 | 0.188483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138899 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Unlock38 | 2019/03/05 | Why am I inferior? I'm tired of feeling down.
I've always had a problem with envy, I envy people, I envy everyone.
All I can see is people having way better lives than me. I never get the admiration I crave.
I never get the feeling of being important for anyone, no way.
Why don't I get respected? I even try and be ... | 0.997455 | 2.641271 | 4.218788 | 84.408182 | 80.333333 | 6.824242 | 20.090909 | 7.793538 | 0.799109 | 593 | 15 | 127 | 10 | 15 | 217 | 91 | 165 | 0.256 | 0.607 | 0.137 | -0.9683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 33 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 25 | 9 | 16 | 27 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 96 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088278 | 0 | 0 | 0.072147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111338 | 0.093831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093967 | 0 | 0 | 0.070074 | 0 | 0 | 0.101377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108488 | 0.074937 | 0 | 0 | 0.093682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08437 | 0 | 0 | 0.084543 | 0 | 0.110678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168424 | 0 | 0 | 0.095391 | 0 | 0.765862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mar0530 | 2019/03/05 | I feel like I have to sacrifice my life in order to save my dad In the best of way to make a long story short that happened about a month ago,
I have a dream of being successful with making music and being the greedy lazy fucking piece of shit that I am, instead of working hard to just pay for studio time myself, I e... | 6.942768 | 5.102213 | 7.314881 | 80.021786 | 65.339286 | 9.947619 | 33.5 | 8.2785 | 2.349236 | 1,275 | 42 | 273 | 13 | 16 | 419 | 172 | 336 | 0.144 | 0.768 | 0.088 | -0.957 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 42 | 47 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 32 | 7 | 58 | 29 | 7 | 51 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 23 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 185 | 43 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249612 | 0 | 0.129837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210667 | 0 | 0 | 0.07855 | 0 | 0.100201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060133 | 0.084961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109946 | 0 | 0 | 0.135178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315499 | 0 | 0.106535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140929 | 0.079714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130718 | 0.096941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168003 | 0.058102 | 0 | 0 | 0.105246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107336 | 0.112531 | 0.158769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100766 | 0.091556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13623 | 0 | 0 | 0.130086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069347 | 0 | 0 | 0.11364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PeriodDysphoriaGirl | 2019/03/05 | I wish i felt comfortable telling my parents i want to commit suicide Nearly a year ago i told them i self harm and they just accused me of "doing it for attention" my dad was never there when i was kid and he only cares about me when he wants me to do something for him , my mom doesnt care about me at all
I wish i co... | 2.921733 | 4.014053 | 3.832249 | 91.505 | 73.893617 | 6.648024 | 25.130699 | 6.86897 | 0.792172 | 352 | 11 | 78 | 3 | 7 | 113 | 62 | 94 | 0.138 | 0.637 | 0.226 | 0.8112 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 23 | 6 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 58 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089902 | 0 | 0.170719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135227 | 0 | 0 | 0.394858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142911 | 0.155407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114499 |
suicidewatch | Johnox | 2019/03/05 | If I had a gun it’s be all over by now I need to quit being a bitch and find a way out. I’m 26 and looking forward to joining the 27 club but I really don’t think I can make it that long. Pray for me. | -3.039133 | -1.594128 | 0.876 | 103.624667 | 94.8 | 4.133333 | 14.333333 | 5.461319 | -1.259467 | 151 | 3 | 45 | 1 | 6 | 56 | 41 | 50 | 0.093 | 0.84 | 0.067 | -0.0387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364293 | 0.345678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437835 | 0 | 0 | 0.26371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JohnRambo1137 | 2019/03/05 | Girlfriend broke up with me because I am suicidal I told her that I had a suicidal episode last week and she broke up with me. Its made my depression so much worse to deal with and Idk what to do. She told me she couldn’t deal with it. That a previous boyfriend had attempted suicide and that she couldn’t worry about th... | 2.041621 | 3.474486 | 2.975548 | 95.399532 | 76.739726 | 6.784475 | 23.125571 | 7.492282 | 0.641527 | 539 | 16 | 128 | 7 | 12 | 171 | 73 | 146 | 0.264 | 0.693 | 0.043 | -0.9894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 24 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 32 | 2 | 26 | 15 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 96 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092449 | 0 | 0.146582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371854 | 0.207107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106865 | 0 | 0 | 0.066075 | 0.098003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088382 | 0 | 0.092728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.520787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070107 | 0 | 0 | 0.229769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283658 | 0 | 0.096441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122099 | 0.122524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TripleJman | 2019/03/05 | Not afraid to die Ive been depressed for years. Tried killing myself a couple times and cutting, all that.. I OD'd on cough medicine once, but it had something in it other than just DXM and it made you tired. I went to the bathroom high as balls and then.. I woke up with a headache and feeling like I just died. I saw a... | 1.245613 | 2.968278 | 2.783518 | 94.617381 | 79.871369 | 5.377669 | 22.157865 | 6.112484 | 0.164152 | 880 | 27 | 201 | 6 | 22 | 288 | 143 | 241 | 0.18 | 0.625 | 0.194 | 0.6103 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 19 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 41 | 37 | 18 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 25 | 11 | 34 | 21 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 130 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329429 | 0 | 0 | 0.091117 | 0 | 0.103513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067497 | 0 | 0.094219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123606 | 0 | 0 | 0.112892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122515 | 0.121626 | 0.071409 | 0 | 0.095367 | 0 | 0.459661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073133 | 0.100157 | 0 | 0 | 0.099513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111972 | 0.079102 | 0.106313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122075 | 0 | 0 | 0.097914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122501 | 0 | 0.060852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113224 | 0.078208 | 0.216379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104771 | 0 | 0 | 0.111238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12968 | 0 | 0 | 0.081396 | 0 | 0.085398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106244 | 0 | 0 | 0.117919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093817 | 0.085242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088425 | 0.092571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064565 | 0.127262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071303 |
suicidewatch | TraversingAce | 2019/03/05 | Thinking about it. Hey guys. First time posting really anything, usually just a lurker but now seems like a better time than ever the just say it. I really want to die. I don't feel like I'm in this dark abyss like some might feel I'm literally just so over everything. I'm currently away from home due to my line of wor... | 6.019407 | 5.281152 | 6.62978 | 80.608077 | 66.589744 | 9.89011 | 30.622711 | 9.236283 | 2.317656 | 1,504 | 47 | 318 | 24 | 21 | 495 | 189 | 390 | 0.158 | 0.69 | 0.152 | -0.8297 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 44 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 22 | 23 | 6 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 70 | 59 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 29 | 13 | 57 | 48 | 11 | 58 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 28 | 3 | 12 | 27 | 204 | 52 | 5 | 0.080539 | 0 | 0.078595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11263 | 0 | 0.066277 | 0.071697 | 0 | 0 | 0.075669 | 0.06193 | 0.067247 | 0.147288 | 0 | 0 | 0.09074 | 0 | 0.142461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08224 | 0 | 0.082115 | 0 | 0.0852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249656 | 0.089823 | 0.053195 | 0.072852 | 0.067858 | 0 | 0.072384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122169 | 0.057537 | 0 | 0 | 0.073612 | 0.068507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148915 | 0.126235 | 0.077261 | 0.091545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080788 | 0 | 0.079315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08528 | 0.087506 | 0 | 0 | 0.15739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07728 | 0 | 0 | 0.085772 | 0 | 0.061254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077134 | 0.081937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161929 | 0 | 0.171327 | 0 | 0.091671 | 0.206382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068241 | 0.062003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151815 | 0 | 0 | 0.194203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051606 | 0 | 0.063939 | 0.187853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088703 | 0.066453 | 0.142513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077637 | 0 | 0.234534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088057 | 0 | 0.051865 |
suicidewatch | DirtiestSpider1 | 2019/03/05 | I called the suicide hotline Guy on the phone didn’t give a god damn about my problems. He only wanted my address so he could send 911. Some bullshit. | 1.003 | 3.577634 | 1.888333 | 94.8825 | 89.333333 | 3 | 24.166667 | 3.1291 | 0.033667 | 119 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 27 | 30 | 0.362 | 0.582 | 0.056 | -0.9118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | icd2020 | 2019/03/05 | My letter is the only thing left I found out last night a relative of mine who was chronically I'll killed themselves. Nothing was left. No letter. This is the third person in my life to not leave a letter. I've been planning my own suicide for a few months now. I purchased all the materials and set aside some vacation... | 2.480952 | 3.73314 | 4.279935 | 87.235141 | 75.233766 | 7.211255 | 23.655844 | 7.793538 | 1.032465 | 858 | 25 | 187 | 12 | 18 | 291 | 120 | 231 | 0.169 | 0.792 | 0.039 | -0.9819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 41 | 43 | 10 | 6 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 24 | 1 | 28 | 36 | 7 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 128 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094895 | 0.066906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09792 | 0.448572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087455 | 0 | 0 | 0.104915 | 0 | 0 | 0.099984 | 0 | 0.108761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105862 | 0.099642 | 0.105173 | 0.155993 | 0 | 0.40527 | 0.207926 | 0 | 0.067586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089795 | 0 | 0.091813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129678 | 0.072773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066337 | 0.083549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122598 | 0.196762 | 0 | 0 | 0.108393 | 0.081715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127139 | 0.061312 | 0 | 0 | 0.055795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103767 | 0.06966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | World79 | 2019/03/05 | Pretty severe suicidal ideation but I don't think I'm even depressed. Pretty much every night for the past week, while I've been falling asleep, I think about killing myself. I don't even feel depressed right now. I've always been depressed, and had suicidal thoughts, but more along the lines of "I wish I didn't exist.... | 3.448072 | 4.793211 | 4.495354 | 86.27482 | 72.946078 | 7.2253 | 27.376977 | 7.717688 | 1.497063 | 1,585 | 58 | 327 | 20 | 31 | 517 | 204 | 408 | 0.209 | 0.687 | 0.103 | -0.9947 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 57 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 23 | 3 | 4 | 17 | 1 | 31 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 62 | 27 | 7 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 8 | 46 | 9 | 45 | 42 | 5 | 49 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 0 | 11 | 24 | 199 | 60 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0.075843 | 0 | 0 | 0.075947 | 0 | 0 | 0.233475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129338 | 0.084209 | 0.094438 | 0.052852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119523 | 0.064893 | 0.142131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085371 | 0.100245 | 0 | 0.200819 | 0 | 0.080661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068836 | 0 | 0 | 0.102666 | 0 | 0.065482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157189 | 0.111046 | 0.074623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040605 | 0 | 0.08834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085617 | 0 | 0 | 0.082734 | 0.139243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154249 | 0 | 0.17197 | 0.080933 | 0.128138 | 0.063352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07594 | 0 | 0.068628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057133 | 0 | 0.059942 | 0 | 0 | 0.145869 | 0.076149 | 0.074574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052665 | 0.059109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07347 | 0 | 0 | 0.158137 | 0.083795 | 0.074367 | 0 | 0.07813 | 0 | 0.082664 | 0 | 0 | 0.049789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066372 | 0 | 0.061806 | 0 | 0.314625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087801 | 0 | 0 | 0.08736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062067 | 0 | 0.089027 | 0 | 0 | 0.34005 | 0 | 0.07325 | 0 | 0 | 0.124936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090238 | 0.051633 | 0.248998 | 0 | 0.185102 | 0.090638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091682 | 0 | 0.062342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089374 | 0 | 0 | 0.056581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094438 | 0.050049 |
suicidewatch | gone1283951u89 | 2019/03/05 | I think I'm going to take my life. Hi. I don't know where else to go so I wanted to let out my thoughts here.
For the past couple years now, I've planned my death in so many different ways. I've finally reached the day, and I don't know how to feel.
I remember reading through these forums a few years ago, reading the... | 2.068638 | 3.561693 | 3.963407 | 88.091476 | 76.807309 | 6.942246 | 24.332359 | 7.699297 | 1.142806 | 1,117 | 37 | 241 | 16 | 25 | 379 | 158 | 301 | 0.105 | 0.784 | 0.111 | 0.2677 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 15 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 52 | 54 | 22 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 38 | 5 | 34 | 40 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 160 | 60 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158787 | 0 | 0 | 0.129771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094626 | 0.066717 | 0.097764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076181 | 0.105575 | 0.104809 | 0.12307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159415 | 0 | 0.169019 | 0 | 0 | 0.063021 | 0.086309 | 0.080392 | 0.091174 | 0.085753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09649 | 0 | 0 | 0.104523 | 0.087208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049851 | 0 | 0.108454 | 0.08003 | 0 | 0 | 0.315332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085473 | 0.094203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105563 | 0 | 0.209751 | 0 | 0 | 0.101031 | 0 | 0.097569 | 0.202184 | 0 | 0 | 0.084254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063691 | 0.096736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091085 | 0.198447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286324 | 0 | 0.122251 | 0.098103 | 0 | 0 | 0.216174 | 0 | 0.090762 | 0.075878 | 0 | 0 | 0.076034 | 0 | 0.099539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143481 | 0 | 0 | 0.087846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122277 | 0 | 0.227248 | 0.055637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056278 | 0.151473 | 0 | 0 | 0.08579 | 0 | 0.086098 | 0 | 0.109723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122889 |
suicidewatch | mahershala456 | 2019/03/05 | Im Dead inside Help me | -4.3 | -3.092464 | 0.516667 | 102.045 | 109 | 2.4 | 6 | 3.1291 | -2.5968 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 6 | 0.43 | 0.3 | 0.27 | -0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.849701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Goddamnporkchop | 2019/03/05 | After a month long high (Bipolar) I have just hit, 3 days ago, the biggest low I have felt in a long time. I need help, please. I don't have anybody to talk to. My SO, who already puts up with a fuck ton from me, is working long shifts this week so I have only seen her for a few minutes each day. She knows, she can alw... | 2.10643 | 3.756121 | 3.318193 | 92.083634 | 77.108108 | 6.475486 | 24.296823 | 7.273562 | 0.846348 | 834 | 28 | 186 | 10 | 19 | 270 | 134 | 222 | 0.151 | 0.777 | 0.072 | -0.9622 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 43 | 17 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 29 | 2 | 25 | 34 | 8 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 129 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137869 | 0 | 0.103956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161146 | 0 | 0.107607 | 0 | 0.259326 | 0.130531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252684 | 0 | 0.119958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115501 | 0.065274 | 0 | 0.071004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083742 | 0.132001 | 0 | 0 | 0.123036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125218 | 0 | 0.331692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083395 | 0.126665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099722 | 0 | 0 | 0.092638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262197 | 0 | 0.084659 | 0.095019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137141 | 0.118104 | 0.140846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125595 | 0 | 0 | 0.124969 | 0 | 0.080037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100418 | 0.109199 | 0.115024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080054 | 0 | 0.198369 | 0.145702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137599 | 0 | 0.07369 | 0.099168 | 0.100216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143669 | 0 | 0 | 0.090954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fagohtron | 2019/03/05 | Why cant I leave on my own terms? Please dont tell me to smell some flowers or realize how amazing my future could potentially be, I already know. I didnt ask for the life I was given and maybe I want to leave. Where do I turn to accomplish this, everyone seems to have a weird agenda of keeping people who are suffering... | 6.148333 | 5.748204 | 6.671667 | 79.29 | 66.222222 | 9.977778 | 31.888889 | 9.516145 | 2.690989 | 284 | 10 | 57 | 5 | 4 | 93 | 58 | 72 | 0.064 | 0.695 | 0.241 | 0.8806 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 36 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202809 | 0 | 0 | 0.125397 | 0 | 0 | 0.483202 | 0 | 0 | 0.161164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152306 | 0 | 0.229229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158185 | 0 | 0 | 0.250464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Flopdog3 | 2019/03/05 | Wanting to die sucks I couldn't think of a better title lol
Ugh I just need to rant
I want to die I've been suicidal for like 12 years
I felt better when I was an alcoholic bc being drunk I felt it drowned my desires to die
Then I got sober and was super suicidal
Then I started doing drugs
I have no active physic... | 0.574681 | 3.063356 | 2.645313 | 88.998033 | 91.38806 | 5.733118 | 19.183542 | 7.222846 | 0.694242 | 1,046 | 32 | 210 | 19 | 37 | 350 | 138 | 268 | 0.281 | 0.558 | 0.16 | -0.9894 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 28 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 51 | 18 | 9 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 32 | 16 | 18 | 35 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 21 | 130 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055539 | 0 | 0.074173 | 0 | 0.357507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192088 | 0.05688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217719 | 0.184568 | 0.165373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048943 | 0 | 0.068876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170047 | 0 | 0.091539 | 0 | 0 | 0.173169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076545 | 0.095277 | 0 | 0 | 0.070198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060828 | 0.252437 | 0 | 0.076044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063855 | 0 | 0 | 0.091587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097289 | 0.176797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203178 | 0.068356 | 0.138157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110914 |
suicidewatch | imannoyingaf | 2019/03/05 | I’m disgusting and romantically unlovable I’m just gonna dump it all; I’m a 20 year old guy in college for context.
- I have gynecomastia. My chest is big and makes me look bad, and I hate it but I’m terrified of a surgery going wrong (my cousin got surgery and he’s fine but his nipples look inverted)
- I sweat a lot... | 0.677894 | 2.90289 | 2.996845 | 89.53818 | 85.051502 | 6.331397 | 21.837075 | 7.610547 | 0.941524 | 872 | 30 | 191 | 16 | 26 | 298 | 134 | 233 | 0.198 | 0.708 | 0.094 | -0.9775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 36 | 39 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 26 | 5 | 21 | 33 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 110 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107249 | 0 | 0 | 0.136544 | 0 | 0 | 0.144109 | 0 | 0.128069 | 0.093501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158132 | 0.264218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129232 | 0.146565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155111 | 0.219155 | 0 | 0 | 0.14019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160273 | 0 | 0.087171 | 0 | 0.122675 | 0 | 0 | 0.303748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257607 | 0 | 0 | 0.130401 | 0 | 0 | 0.102385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113732 | 0.118299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174628 | 0.16095 | 0 | 0.103937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128236 | 0.1757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098282 | 0 | 0.121769 | 0.089439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09047 | 0 | 0.123035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111665 | 0 | 0 | 0.108959 | 0.167701 | 0 | 0.098774 |
suicidewatch | drugdealingaccount | 2019/03/05 | Life is pointless I just feel empty as fuck and hopeless. It wouldve been much better if I wasnt born at all. Idk what's the point of existance at all. In the aftermath it doesnt even make any difference. Life seems like a cruel joke. Nothing makes sense. These thoughts are triggered by my depressive state, but still a... | 2.197115 | 4.981681 | 2.464904 | 91.861971 | 84.384615 | 6.326923 | 23.509615 | 7.645422 | 1.301038 | 270 | 10 | 53 | 5 | 8 | 82 | 57 | 65 | 0.165 | 0.717 | 0.117 | -0.2951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 32 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238034 | 0 | 0 | 0.288744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390412 | 0.135019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Vileoss | 2019/03/05 | Someone just mentioned that they plan not to wake up tomorrow, on my AskReddit post. What can I do? u/BurtReynoldsStache commented,
"I'm not waking up tomorrow. This is my last post.
Adios."
on [this](https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/axh10x/what_are_you_most_worried_about_right_now/) thread, and then deleted... | 8.08971 | 12.107923 | 4.753839 | 77.264375 | 68.84375 | 7.407143 | 32.580357 | 8.418075 | 3.157279 | 339 | 15 | 46 | 6 | 7 | 91 | 47 | 64 | 0 | 0.88 | 0.12 | 0.8053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 33 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.721744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BeefSamples | 2019/03/05 | Why do i want to die? I love my wife, i have one amazing son and one on the way. I make hilariously good money and live very comfortably. I travel frequently. My work is weird but not stressful. My life is objectively fantastic. I constantly think about fucking offing myself. I don’t expect anyone to feel bad for me b... | 0.476098 | 2.819696 | 3.005561 | 88.119317 | 87.780488 | 6.206829 | 20.395122 | 7.554174 | 0.86165 | 310 | 10 | 66 | 6 | 10 | 107 | 55 | 82 | 0.16 | 0.605 | 0.235 | 0.6186 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 18 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 45 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21633 | 0.122256 | 0 | 0 | 0.196269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165282 | 0 | 0 | 0.206627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211195 | 0 | 0.156198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193076 | 0.13802 | 0.185739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21115 | 0 | 0.26909 | 0 | 0 | 0.170356 | 0 | 0 | 0.166228 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chloe2120 | 2019/03/05 | Is it normal to think about shooting yourself in the head multiple times a day? Like I have no plans to, but I just think about it all the time whenever i get even slightly anxious. Is this something I should be concerned about? | 5.278561 | 6.36945 | 4.88 | 86.198333 | 68.318182 | 7.684848 | 32.848485 | 7.793538 | 2.213858 | 181 | 8 | 35 | 2 | 3 | 55 | 34 | 44 | 0.096 | 0.862 | 0.042 | -0.3117 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446213 | 0 | 0 | 0.406065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dippy-Lippy | 2019/03/05 | Nothing makes me happy anymore For the last few weeks I have had trouble finding ways to make me happy. Anything I do just makes me sad, even the things I love, sports, video games, hanging out with friends. I have fun in the moment but the second it’s over I just fall into this complete sadness where I don’t want to d... | 3.043273 | 4.016655 | 3.717955 | 92.896932 | 73.454545 | 5.5 | 26.477273 | 3.1291 | 0.399273 | 411 | 14 | 90 | 0 | 8 | 130 | 76 | 110 | 0.282 | 0.626 | 0.091 | -0.9779 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 61 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187494 | 0 | 0 | 0.311156 | 0 | 0.176743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133537 | 0.092364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170631 | 0 | 0.378591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125601 | 0 | 0 | 0.15009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111511 | 0.150065 | 0.15165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EmilyK25 | 2019/03/05 | I was raped, feeling suicidal. Please help me
Hi my name is Emily, I’m a 14 girl from a small country called New Zealand just under a year ago I met a boy names Ben O’Brien we met on Fortnite we met because we each qued up for a random duo. we had a good match and added each other afterwards we played for the whole ... | 1.508057 | 2.945205 | 2.661384 | 97.070103 | 78.206081 | 5.411676 | 19.779189 | 5.683918 | -0.400031 | 2,139 | 47 | 518 | 10 | 50 | 684 | 239 | 592 | 0.097 | 0.814 | 0.089 | -0.9621 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 21 | 2 | 6 | 26 | 2 | 53 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 92 | 118 | 52 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 31 | 45 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 61 | 17 | 83 | 11 | 71 | 48 | 6 | 72 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 99 | 30 | 0 | 10 | 31 | 328 | 114 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052447 | 0.047577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044167 | 0.047779 | 0.401405 | 0 | 0.050426 | 0 | 0 | 0.065435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128557 | 0 | 0 | 0.069227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054925 | 0.188708 | 0.052578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054276 | 0 | 0.051533 | 0 | 0 | 0.045653 | 0 | 0.058848 | 0.041467 | 0 | 0.056082 | 0 | 0.061006 | 0.090034 | 0.085852 | 0 | 0 | 0.053143 | 0.142385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107925 | 0 | 0.107674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057457 | 0 | 0.115949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152356 | 0 | 0.054415 | 0 | 0.058464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039455 | 0 | 0 | 0.155509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037209 | 0 | 0 | 0.117831 | 0 | 0 | 0.051403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045835 | 0.510539 | 0 | 0.268673 | 0.162955 | 0.042769 | 0.097721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090951 | 0.041319 | 0 | 0 | 0.151956 | 0 | 0.042862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215696 | 0.046911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052732 | 0 | 0.062593 | 0 | 0 | 0.153856 | 0 | 0.036439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06456 | 0 | 0 | 0.044285 | 0.158284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049754 | 0.145291 | 0.059922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038127 | 0.058681 | 0 | 0.034563 |
suicidewatch | StrikerZane | 2019/03/05 | News from a couple days ago, a dear old friend of mine, took their own life. An old friend from High school took their own life 5 days ago. I've been an emotional wreck more than usual since then. But not publicly so.. I went ahead let everyone around me know about my mental state earlier tonight. And expressed my grat... | 3.153462 | 5.552114 | 3.291641 | 89.986692 | 76.692308 | 6.211282 | 24.502564 | 7.3011 | 1.065098 | 642 | 22 | 125 | 8 | 15 | 196 | 105 | 156 | 0.093 | 0.703 | 0.204 | 0.9676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 26 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 13 | 8 | 16 | 10 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 82 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096247 | 0 | 0 | 0.122536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152305 | 0 | 0.177544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154836 | 0.121916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131529 | 0.123709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092263 | 0.145433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140755 | 0.19445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116629 | 0 | 0 | 0.308172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305865 | 0 | 0.149722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1516 | 0.113574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123762 | 0.127601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Foxmanrox | 2019/03/05 | I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts since I was 12 I've been depressed since I was 7 years old and suicidal since 12 because I want a relationship, I want love. I'm currently 26 and the thoughts havent gone away. 2 years ago my fwb that took my virginity broke it off and made me try to attempt to kill myself and l... | 4.413992 | 4.850585 | 4.805238 | 88.31754 | 69.928571 | 8.793651 | 28.412698 | 8.841846 | 1.811175 | 537 | 18 | 121 | 9 | 9 | 170 | 79 | 140 | 0.138 | 0.789 | 0.073 | -0.875 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 27 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 66 | 21 | 3 | 0.124727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117185 | 0.191814 | 0 | 0.076032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128588 | 0.107427 | 0 | 0 | 0.130313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110863 | 0.275983 | 0 | 0 | 0.101669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112571 | 0.118019 | 0.083256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119679 | 0 | 0.13088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281811 | 0 | 0.309525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138576 | 0.338725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24096 |
suicidewatch | ihatepve | 2019/03/05 | I want my mind to be at peace I want to die so bad. My mind is a mess. The only person that made me feel better and stopped me killing myself before walked out of my life. He says I’m too young and have too many problems. I’m sick of getting professional help I always feel worse than before when I go. Even if there was... | -0.472637 | 1.430404 | 1.704055 | 99.053445 | 87.131868 | 4.519121 | 15.693407 | 5.683918 | -0.911832 | 317 | 6 | 79 | 2 | 10 | 106 | 63 | 91 | 0.245 | 0.595 | 0.16 | -0.92 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 44 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143236 | 0 | 0 | 0.117063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143732 | 0 | 0 | 0.292961 | 0 | 0 | 0.304492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152467 | 0 | 0 | 0.113699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179875 | 0 | 0.097833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162885 | 0 | 0.174526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183481 | 0 | 0.143919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406137 | 0.136639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kinddread | 2019/03/05 | Idk how much I got left in me. (first time posting here, sorry for the wall of text)
I've been faking smiles for 2 years now out of a total 7 that I've been severely depressed. idk how to go about life anymore. i feel so drained, so worthless, so empty, so pointless. it's like i dont belong here but do at the same ti... | 1.235823 | 3.409385 | 3.010949 | 90.638997 | 82.238994 | 5.741338 | 22.843911 | 6.980633 | 0.739785 | 1,205 | 42 | 255 | 15 | 33 | 400 | 158 | 318 | 0.248 | 0.593 | 0.159 | -0.9721 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 23 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 36 | 50 | 14 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 28 | 8 | 41 | 41 | 5 | 32 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 150 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063545 | 0 | 0 | 0.059207 | 0.049464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.740375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054876 | 0.051614 | 0 | 0.054139 | 0 | 0.058076 | 0.041028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048849 | 0 | 0 | 0.04437 | 0 | 0.060009 | 0 | 0.065277 | 0 | 0.091863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061135 | 0 | 0.0567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060809 | 0.062397 | 0 | 0.081128 | 0.056114 | 0 | 0 | 0.050823 | 0.048226 | 0.064249 | 0.062691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038335 | 0.058224 | 0 | 0 | 0.063791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06116 | 0 | 0.087355 | 0.122218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054823 | 0 | 0.050145 | 0 | 0 | 0.054289 | 0 | 0.055001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045764 | 0.052282 | 0 | 0.064879 | 0 | 0.047506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04866 | 0 | 0 | 0.064288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06517 | 0 | 0 | 0.08636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045593 | 0.100463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110948 |
suicidewatch | cooledcelery205 | 2019/03/05 | I need help Okay so I'm 12 in middle school my mom and my step dad call me names like fag ect etc. So I pretty much starve myself I barely eat I'm always told I'm worthless I'm a mistake. I just got call a waste of space and I should die what do I do | -3.2795 | -1.818497 | -0.073333 | 106.275 | 106.833333 | 2.4 | 9.333333 | 3.1291 | -2.327967 | 193 | 2 | 53 | 0 | 10 | 67 | 42 | 60 | 0.273 | 0.568 | 0.158 | -0.8258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302472 | 0 | 0 | 0.189851 | 0.191497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | freckless1627 | 2019/03/05 | Hasn’t gotten better. I tried to commit suicide when I was 12 years old after being raped. Was in the hospital for about 2 1/2 weeks. Got kicked out of my relatives house who I was staying with at the time because of the attempt. Only one person knows about the rape, my s.o. It took me forever to build myself back up f... | 0.921984 | 2.890912 | 2.759187 | 93.153093 | 82.092784 | 5.525821 | 20.343761 | 6.647476 | 0.174415 | 1,071 | 30 | 240 | 11 | 29 | 356 | 154 | 291 | 0.162 | 0.774 | 0.064 | -0.9802 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 39 | 49 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 32 | 4 | 39 | 37 | 1 | 45 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 150 | 44 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109345 | 0 | 0.12352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231789 | 0.094851 | 0 | 0.225585 | 0 | 0.104964 | 0.138977 | 0 | 0.109096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106244 | 0 | 0.128021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124742 | 0 | 0 | 0.135127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095302 | 0 | 0.064447 | 0 | 0 | 0.103463 | 0.098657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109642 | 0 | 0 | 0.135583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129438 | 0 | 0.167174 | 0.093816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140403 | 0 | 0.126827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08731 | 0.131478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121194 | 0 | 0.143856 | 0.425329 | 0.116924 | 0 | 0.13705 | 0.083749 | 0 | 0.120498 | 0 | 0 | 0.106537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097912 | 0.098946 | 0 | 0 | 0.11435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089802 | 0 | 0 | 0.087626 | 0 | 0 | 0.158871 |
suicidewatch | AcheBae | 2019/03/05 | I don’t know how much longer I can go on I’m done. My life is shit. I’m a huge fuck up and I just overall hate myself. I don’t have a family. Most of my friends only care about themselves. My job is shit but I can’t get a better one because I have a felony. I feel so stupid in school. I’m constantly struggling and I wa... | -2.409429 | -0.652049 | 0.850476 | 101.432857 | 98.904762 | 3.561905 | 13.666667 | 5.2151 | -1.274219 | 346 | 7 | 90 | 2 | 15 | 122 | 65 | 105 | 0.215 | 0.655 | 0.129 | -0.8767 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 24 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 53 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181666 | 0 | 0.097438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148884 | 0.178153 | 0.201362 | 0.184861 | 0.219038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130582 | 0.146561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MalevolentFrog | 2019/03/05 | I hope this is ok to post here This is exceptionally hard to write.
I'm old, from most of the posts here. And I'm incredibly lost and confused.
When I was younger I had issues with depression and attempted suicide. After I started college...something just shifted. I can't explain it, but for the next decade I wa... | 2.419044 | 4.811734 | 3.825301 | 85.225546 | 79.227848 | 6.785443 | 26.583861 | 7.908726 | 1.798227 | 1,586 | 66 | 304 | 28 | 40 | 521 | 193 | 395 | 0.14 | 0.771 | 0.089 | -0.9633 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 69 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 18 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 36 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 87 | 67 | 42 | 4 | 11 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 23 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 38 | 7 | 48 | 35 | 5 | 50 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 11 | 27 | 225 | 62 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.088853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197309 | 0.221276 | 0 | 0.190952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102122 | 0.145395 | 0 | 0 | 0.058721 | 0 | 0.078423 | 0 | 0.094497 | 0.09513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076715 | 0 | 0 | 0.089066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08322 | 0 | 0 | 0.099834 | 0 | 0 | 0.142712 | 0 | 0.155241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080517 | 0.096926 | 0.081565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18309 | 0 | 0 | 0.090435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095034 | 0.18071 | 0 | 0.100735 | 0 | 0.05004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064313 | 0.044483 | 0 | 0.0804 | 0 | 0.076461 | 0.101864 | 0.099394 | 0 | 0 | 0.086155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096835 | 0.085446 | 0.089211 | 0 | 0 | 0.095544 | 0 | 0 | 0.069249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174405 | 0 | 0 | 0.087124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280385 | 0 | 0 | 0.128894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058342 | 0 | 0.072285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094788 | 0 | 0.07864 | 0 | 0 | 0.053705 | 0.144545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104705 | 0.087771 | 0 | 0.066287 | 0 | 0 | 0.194042 | 0 | 0.221276 | 0.175903 |
suicidewatch | BlankName2403 | 2019/03/05 | Almost attempted today I have had 3 instances now where I was seconds away from attempting. I guess i'm happy to still be here but nothing has really gotten better in the last couple months. | 4.718333 | 6.886285 | 5.806667 | 74.805 | 71.222222 | 8.133333 | 25.888889 | 8.841846 | 2.365289 | 154 | 5 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 51 | 33 | 36 | 0 | 0.814 | 0.186 | 0.7662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341471 | 0 | 0 | 0.329973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lindzy93 | 2019/03/05 | I never knew you... I never knew you, but I think about you often. I never met you, but the effect you had on others told me the kind of person you were. We never spoke, but you taught me several life lessons when you decided to end yours...
I remember waiting for my husband to get home the day they told your crew at ... | 2.294971 | 4.43697 | 3.015376 | 92.185965 | 78.308855 | 6.023346 | 22.61776 | 7.075747 | 0.661095 | 1,815 | 56 | 378 | 21 | 44 | 569 | 219 | 463 | 0.107 | 0.803 | 0.09 | -0.9377 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 64 | 3 | 36 | 5 | 5 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 40 | 9 | 5 | 5 | 14 | 88 | 76 | 30 | 3 | 8 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 41 | 13 | 102 | 9 | 44 | 25 | 7 | 59 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 85 | 20 | 1 | 6 | 30 | 269 | 111 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063286 | 0 | 0.100342 | 0 | 0.070033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087065 | 0.070896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131424 | 0 | 0 | 0.159235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072896 | 0 | 0 | 0.05436 | 0 | 0.069343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077588 | 0.092613 | 0.041615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043 | 0 | 0.046774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082556 | 0 | 0.243154 | 0 | 0.088107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085705 | 0.271388 | 0.134175 | 0 | 0.174293 | 0.089422 | 0.08416 | 0.174398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074281 | 0.155753 | 0.054938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061026 | 0.571291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05577 | 0.12519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057058 | 0.071863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279698 | 0 | 0 | 0.06545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090026 | 0 | 0.077569 | 0 | 0.061881 | 0.066152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052736 | 0.161724 | 0 | 0.095983 | 0 | 0 | 0.157287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065328 | 0.066018 | 0 | 0.074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119835 | 0 | 0 | 0.116931 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 49HoursOfPorn | 2019/03/05 | Should I ask someone in my life for help? People often talk about how they wished "person who committed suicide had reached out for help".
Let's say I don't and I just get it over with and leave behind 5 people that feel that way. Now let's say I reach out to 1 of those people and then go through with it anyway. I fe... | 4.704719 | 4.052399 | 4.654622 | 93.394966 | 69.262172 | 7.719251 | 25.665169 | 6.079149 | 0.508576 | 977 | 21 | 237 | 4 | 15 | 301 | 122 | 267 | 0.096 | 0.771 | 0.134 | 0.0993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 24 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 52 | 45 | 24 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 31 | 10 | 35 | 31 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 156 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060364 | 0 | 0 | 0.076852 | 0.080707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072082 | 0 | 0 | 0.073461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264458 | 0 | 0 | 0.088685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068928 | 0 | 0 | 0.111351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076463 | 0 | 0 | 0.11404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261906 | 0.185023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133397 | 0 | 0.090208 | 0 | 0.14719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189779 | 0 | 0 | 0.091411 | 0 | 0.353113 | 0.121955 | 0.168706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081688 | 0.057626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299252 | 0.15076 | 0 | 0 | 0.08161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073725 | 0 | 0.137306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138778 | 0.075456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114708 | 0 | 0.084819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05092 | 0.068525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | churrosmmm | 2019/03/05 | Anyone else dread that life is taking so long? I’m simultaneously irate that I’m nearing 30, and that many of my “youth” years are behind me or wasted but also deeply concerned that barring no accidents or diseases I could potentially have to live this life for another 30-40 years. It just seems so long. Does anyone el... | 6.366719 | 7.06374 | 6.50625 | 76.91375 | 65.71875 | 8.9 | 28.5 | 8.841846 | 2.076138 | 269 | 8 | 50 | 4 | 4 | 86 | 49 | 64 | 0.187 | 0.813 | 0 | -0.8924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29183 | 0.427638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294796 | 0 | 0 | 0.18427 | 0.369353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268768 |
suicidewatch | 07RTZNorth07 | 2019/03/05 | Just another thing Does anyone else feel they just keep adding reasons why they should die? I just feel I’m constantly fucking everything up. I feel like I never make those around me happy. I feel I’m constantly judged when I’m not but it’s just my retarded thoughts. I scared my mom and texted her what to do just in c... | 0.618674 | 2.783831 | 2.442073 | 93.821601 | 84.729927 | 6.281071 | 20.447202 | 7.554174 | 0.645779 | 1,017 | 31 | 230 | 18 | 30 | 336 | 133 | 274 | 0.256 | 0.657 | 0.087 | -0.9953 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 83 | 69 | 21 | 4 | 11 | 20 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 15 | 39 | 6 | 21 | 58 | 1 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 14 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 142 | 52 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078386 | 0.057187 | 0 | 0 | 0.05227 | 0.076595 | 0 | 0.133094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076217 | 0.076793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04821 | 0 | 0.064386 | 0 | 0.232749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067619 | 0.062984 | 0.142862 | 0.134369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.56697 | 0.053404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276436 | 0.078112 | 0.143422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199335 | 0 | 0 | 0.205415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076441 | 0 | 0.036521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150669 | 0 | 0 | 0.175102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055429 | 0.11531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065338 | 0.068824 | 0 | 0 | 0.049663 | 0 | 0 | 0.059346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073024 | 0.077822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06168 | 0.088184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134908 | 0 | 0 | 0.07206 | 0 | 0.054422 | 0 | 0 | 0.212413 | 0.081732 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AquaticNeverBoned | 2019/03/05 | I don't want to die, I just want to live in my thoughts. Life in my head has and always will be the best, I can be whoever I chose to be. My character would always be happy, have amazing and quirky friends, It is my world.
I hate my real life, I don't want to live with a role, I want to die and live in head my head. ... | 0.334781 | 1.127607 | 2.547368 | 99.359912 | 79.921053 | 6.119298 | 19.245614 | 6.427356 | -0.363449 | 249 | 5 | 69 | 2 | 6 | 85 | 39 | 76 | 0.117 | 0.632 | 0.251 | 0.9458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 44 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167264 | 0 | 0.15513 | 0.483771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221966 | 0 | 0 | 0.416236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111618 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jordanles | 2019/03/05 | I'm feeling worse than I was before. Last time a posted was a few months back and it's gotten worse every single day. I keep forgetting even more things than before and I no longer have a will to live.
I no longer have the motivation to go to school or even try. I haven't gone to for a while and only went once last w... | 1.928524 | 3.707321 | 3.481944 | 90.13625 | 78.015873 | 6.531746 | 21.72619 | 7.44753 | 0.690095 | 1,186 | 33 | 256 | 16 | 28 | 392 | 162 | 315 | 0.243 | 0.658 | 0.099 | -0.9953 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 43 | 49 | 20 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 35 | 8 | 39 | 33 | 8 | 35 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 181 | 52 | 3 | 0.080624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262069 | 0.293902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061995 | 0 | 0 | 0.089043 | 0.274421 | 0.090836 | 0 | 0.142611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051996 | 0.08312 | 0.138883 | 0 | 0.083675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070555 | 0.082507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142818 | 0 | 0 | 0.159755 | 0 | 0.067929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076005 | 0 | 0.040766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042123 | 0 | 0.091641 | 0.067624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072223 | 0.0796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174176 | 0 | 0 | 0.143325 | 0.178398 | 0.083958 | 0 | 0.131439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056947 | 0.039389 | 0 | 0.142385 | 0 | 0.067704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053817 | 0 | 0 | 0.087823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081408 | 0 | 0.064354 | 0 | 0.059268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077361 | 0 | 0 | 0.085862 | 0 | 0.183955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111789 | 0.070398 | 0 | 0 | 0.076216 | 0 | 0.077216 | 0 | 0.086927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064116 | 0 | 0.081596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214253 | 0.051661 | 0 | 0.064007 | 0.094025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133047 | 0 | 0.063996 | 0.064672 | 0 | 0 | 0.074739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246489 | 0 | 0.08815 | 0.293902 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tylermt95 | 2019/03/05 | i can't take my mind off it the sunset tonight was beautiful. deep blue sky and pink-red clouds. it broke my train of thought for just long enough for me to realize that my default state of mind is very fucking off. haven't been to class in two weeks and everything i see, everything i do, i see ways to die. im spending... | 1.261206 | 3.413024 | 2.760646 | 92.595463 | 81.990654 | 6.881563 | 25.615123 | 8.000946 | 1.508316 | 405 | 17 | 90 | 8 | 11 | 132 | 76 | 107 | 0.184 | 0.73 | 0.086 | -0.8863 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 51 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207332 | 0.1733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280887 | 0.103155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145966 | 0.104344 | 0.14042 | 0.141903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ARoamingNomad | 2019/03/05 | I feel so alone I know Im not totally alone. I have some really damn good friends. And I thank god for them. Their 100% the *only* reason Im here. Plus my family. I have a twin and I couldnt do anything to hurt her (seems relevant to mention Im a male) but Im just at a point where I feel hopeless. Ive had some great re... | -0.90746 | 1.182976 | 1.588672 | 97.195836 | 93 | 4.988257 | 17.34869 | 6.605767 | -0.219616 | 728 | 20 | 177 | 10 | 27 | 247 | 114 | 205 | 0.259 | 0.576 | 0.165 | -0.9653 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 22 | 6 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 40 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 24 | 9 | 21 | 34 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 12 | 6 | 3 | 10 | 107 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093183 | 0 | 0.180611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071752 | 0 | 0.081514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077227 | 0 | 0 | 0.11518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082198 | 0 | 0.132262 | 0.062291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13473 | 0.322433 | 0 | 0 | 0.049554 | 0.073133 | 0 | 0.09613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093342 | 0 | 0.659283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123174 | 0.042598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055858 | 0.089649 | 0 | 0.093612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079377 | 0 | 0 | 0.089502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070082 | 0 | 0.080275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102857 | 0 | 0.069941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056149 |
suicidewatch | TheVeryHungryCocoon | 2019/03/05 | Not allowed to end it. I get so angry about being told how selfish I was to try to kill myself.
I think it's fucked up that I have to suffer through this for the sake of other people's ability to deal with it. Taking one for the team.
I'm pissed off and terrified that I can't kill myself and I need to figure out a ... | 1.608328 | 2.759223 | 3.526494 | 92.170455 | 77.295455 | 5.937662 | 21.662338 | 6.182691 | 0.170352 | 313 | 8 | 72 | 2 | 7 | 106 | 59 | 88 | 0.342 | 0.612 | 0.045 | -0.9878 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 54 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.606259 | 0.228412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208876 | 0 | 0.148411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DanielCherry55 | 2019/03/05 | I wanna die I have been cutting badly and realizing i can heat up the razor and give like 2nd degree burns that hurt much longer then cutting and i keep gettinf shit from school and i wanna hang rn from a rope blood dripping out of me mutilated body
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suicidewatch | Shall_I_Rant | 2019/03/05 | Lately I have been thinking First off i want to thank everyone who messaged me with my last post.
But I have been thinking for the past few days, why wont i just end it now..
That question is a hard one to answer. Im not afraid of death , or pain. in fact the pain just drives me further into what i am doing. But whe... | -0.326509 | 1.675266 | 1.377189 | 100.964355 | 87.467742 | 3.865438 | 17.728111 | 4.655896 | -0.909166 | 439 | 11 | 107 | 1 | 14 | 142 | 76 | 124 | 0.047 | 0.858 | 0.096 | 0.697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 20 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 16 | 16 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 76 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146448 | 0.136292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.519231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088059 | 0.13061 | 0.180748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108577 | 0 | 0.340994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308009 | 0 | 0 | 0.093432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | overlyparanoiduser | 2019/03/05 | I have no purpose I haven't lurked here in months. I haven't self harmed in 125 days. But tonight I'm breaking. A talk with my mom turned into arguing as usual and she told me that I don't have a purpose. Mentioning how she keeps us inside and won't let us outside led to her responding with "then go. leave. you don't h... | 0.505113 | 2.911091 | 2.078 | 94.175757 | 88.915254 | 4.841582 | 22.273446 | 6.427356 | 0.496154 | 451 | 17 | 95 | 5 | 15 | 146 | 71 | 118 | 0.208 | 0.757 | 0.035 | -0.9456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 56 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.55192 | 0 | 0.177668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203491 | 0.138683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16305 | 0 | 0.33343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166023 | 0 | 0 | 0.188987 | 0 | 0 | 0.417993 | 0 | 0.191358 | 0 | 0.102481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | alakani | 2019/03/05 | Meh All the meh. No family, no friends, blah blah blah. I don't even give a shit about suicide anymore. Even that would be pointless - the universe is such an asshole that I would probably just wake up tomorrow in an even shittier life, if I did kill myself. | 3.7542 | 5.469215 | 4.389 | 85.8595 | 72.8 | 8.2 | 30.5 | 8.841846 | 2.4816 | 201 | 9 | 40 | 4 | 4 | 64 | 38 | 50 | 0.376 | 0.528 | 0.096 | -0.9257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.520906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203107 | 0 | 0 | 0.252186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373497 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idontcare4567 | 2019/03/05 | I keep coming back here Shit never ends | -0.59 | 0.32178 | 0.72 | 97.025 | 124 | 1.6 | 4 | 3.1291 | -2.6587 | 32 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 8 | 0.375 | 0.625 | 0 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwitallaway2586 | 2019/03/05 | I'm considering suicide for moral reasons. My sister and I had several incest encounters when we were young teens. I had thought all were consensual but now I'm not sure. I can't remember. I know some were for sure but other times I don't know, and I'm afraid to ask her because we've never spoken of any of them since t... | 2.648145 | 4.39761 | 4.11634 | 86.51276 | 75.862745 | 6.799196 | 27.455505 | 7.610547 | 1.553011 | 591 | 24 | 121 | 8 | 13 | 196 | 99 | 153 | 0.146 | 0.801 | 0.053 | -0.9156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 30 | 30 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 25 | 3 | 12 | 21 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 80 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108929 | 0 | 0.122538 | 0 | 0.158857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142595 | 0.149748 | 0.182229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080992 | 0.114433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113141 | 0.078256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164693 | 0 | 0 | 0.181454 | 0.136794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180959 | 0 | 0.132504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175212 | 0 | 0.301938 | 0 | 0 | 0.128748 | 0.140005 | 0 | 0.183181 | 0 | 0.106417 | 0 | 0 | 0.127166 | 0.093403 | 0 | 0 | 0.15306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | edithesadparts | 2019/03/05 | Need help with sending my note automatically Hi im looking for any info you may give on automating sending my note to a few friends. yes i know its an odd question, but atm i have pretty much everything else in place and would just like to leave something for a long time online friend. i appreciate any tips or advice y... | 4.224091 | 5.744405 | 5.112545 | 81.918818 | 71.272727 | 7.704242 | 28.351515 | 8.238736 | 1.84401 | 267 | 10 | 53 | 4 | 5 | 87 | 53 | 66 | 0.038 | 0.645 | 0.317 | 0.9705 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361273 | 0 | 0 | 0.224286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128493 | 0 | 0 | 0.247565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114225 | 0 | 0 | 0.206909 | 0.196337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171873 | 0.173363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166088 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | victormorales72 | 2019/03/05 | I’m still in love with my ex and I can’t let go. Before I met her I was already pretty depressed. I had made plans to kill myself on my birthday. No one knew about it except I friend I told in confidence. I didn’t go through with it and I began dates this amazing woman that changed my life. We were together for a full ... | -1.229282 | 0.804191 | 1.030682 | 100.760388 | 94.739645 | 3.885876 | 15.040134 | 5.51148 | -0.996384 | 593 | 13 | 145 | 4 | 23 | 197 | 104 | 169 | 0.139 | 0.711 | 0.15 | 0.4842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 35 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 30 | 6 | 28 | 18 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 99 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13912 | 0 | 0.123636 | 0 | 0 | 0.126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135337 | 0.125952 | 0 | 0 | 0.114402 | 0.136892 | 0.077362 | 0 | 0.252461 | 0.124197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26323 | 0.163822 | 0 | 0.081378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302831 | 0.209178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16164 | 0 | 0.267285 | 0.140111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118191 | 0.157379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09486 | 0.152245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086343 | 0 | 0.140357 | 0.282982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095355 |
suicidewatch | maczombie1337 | 2019/03/05 | Question I suffer from crohn's disease, bipolar, and ankylosing spondylitis. Went through a divorce a year ago. Since then I've lost my job and child support has emptied my bank account a number of times. About to lose my house and everything else I own. My utilities get shut off almost daily, I'm actually tethering fr... | 4.941408 | 6.047981 | 5.741489 | 79.656538 | 69.106383 | 8.337807 | 32.01473 | 8.617729 | 2.602225 | 764 | 33 | 141 | 12 | 13 | 250 | 125 | 188 | 0.101 | 0.756 | 0.143 | 0.6864 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 26 | 28 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 19 | 9 | 22 | 18 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 83 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.250105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113594 | 0 | 0.12832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277693 | 0.311424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10705 | 0.144147 | 0 | 0.132409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066951 | 0.12293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114794 | 0.126518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143363 | 0.139887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12296 | 0 | 0.134468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290838 | 0 | 0 | 0.09635 | 0 | 0.112006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101734 | 0.074723 | 0 | 0.242935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118793 | 0.115632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091031 | 0 | 0.311424 | 0.247566 |
suicidewatch | Axubion | 2019/03/05 | I tried to help a friend by giving him reasons why/how I feel the same as him ...and it just made me want to kill myself too as a result... | 9.719355 | 2.781047 | 9.822581 | 79.853871 | 65.451613 | 12.4 | 34.225806 | 3.1291 | 1.878523 | 103 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 26 | 31 | 0.133 | 0.595 | 0.272 | 0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310097 | 0 | 0 | 0.385031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lilahhhh | 2019/03/05 | I think im going to leave today No particular reason why today. In fact today was pretty normal and good. Maybe a spur of the moment thought, but I know i cant keep this up anymore. I am tired and worn out. I have no desire to keep this up. I dont want to live anymore, it is tiring, boring, and i dont care if its a res... | -1.387647 | 0.433134 | 2.070098 | 95.360441 | 90.764706 | 3.792157 | 15.362745 | 4.778228 | -1.00282 | 342 | 7 | 82 | 1 | 12 | 124 | 61 | 102 | 0.221 | 0.671 | 0.108 | -0.8743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 13 | 19 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 52 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291764 | 0.107649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415902 | 0 | 0 | 0.228157 | 0 | 0 | 0.070535 | 0 | 0 | 0.135898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082238 | 0 | 0.101891 | 0 | 0.295026 | 0.364967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -1-sui | 2019/03/05 | Does anyone want to join me? I have my plan which I’ve thought a lot about. I have a way to do it that will simultaneously dispose of my body so there is no cleanup for those left behind.
I recently sorted through my belongings so that will be easy for who is left behind to sift through. March 7 is the day.
My partne... | 2.51942 | 4.028365 | 3.751609 | 90.013681 | 75.630435 | 7.08058 | 25.310145 | 7.793538 | 1.182508 | 696 | 24 | 154 | 10 | 15 | 227 | 112 | 184 | 0.145 | 0.73 | 0.125 | -0.8357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 34 | 9 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 21 | 4 | 25 | 22 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 102 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0.196658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1586 | 0 | 0 | 0.15647 | 0 | 0.083924 | 0.118576 | 0 | 0.181822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360674 | 0.169725 | 0.117236 | 0.162178 | 0 | 0 | 0.146886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106353 | 0 | 0.263538 | 0.096784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097899 | 0.131747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169147 | 0.117907 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hsd007 | 2019/03/05 | worried I wanna use the rope or belt way but I'm worried that I'll be found or fail and become a vegetable | 1.25125 | 2.558062 | 3.348333 | 92.43 | 78.583333 | 4.8 | 24.5 | 3.1291 | 0.1639 | 85 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 20 | 24 | 0.35 | 0.65 | 0 | -0.8462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.721569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Latinidealist | 2019/03/05 | Tonight is the night I’ve decided that tonight is the night I finally kill myself. I’m currently at my family business office with a rope in my bag and plan to hang myself when I get home. Am 18 in my senior year of high school with an absolute shit gpa (Last time I checked it was a 2.0 last year but I think it’s gotte... | 1.940539 | 4.16723 | 3.744946 | 86.05991 | 79.958084 | 7.201613 | 26.187665 | 8.238736 | 1.87711 | 1,953 | 81 | 393 | 40 | 50 | 655 | 233 | 501 | 0.166 | 0.745 | 0.089 | -0.9923 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 20 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 50 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 63 | 83 | 26 | 2 | 7 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 69 | 11 | 55 | 65 | 4 | 55 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 22 | 4 | 8 | 26 | 266 | 94 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168655 | 0 | 0 | 0.069973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087008 | 0.071032 | 0 | 0.075312 | 0 | 0 | 0.224648 | 0 | 0 | 0.325002 | 0.07642 | 0 | 0.240478 | 0 | 0.085988 | 0 | 0 | 0.093147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065695 | 0.07861 | 0.1777 | 0 | 0.048325 | 0.07132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150385 | 0 | 0 | 0.08395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08984 | 0.170585 | 0.084455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08438 | 0 | 0.094074 | 0 | 0 | 0.138623 | 0 | 0.090035 | 0.092386 | 0.08695 | 0.180179 | 0.041542 | 0 | 0.075084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065581 | 0 | 0 | 0.159591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115238 | 0.194009 | 0.090479 | 0 | 0.188833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091677 | 0 | 0 | 0.085479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072616 | 0 | 0.06762 | 0 | 0.086056 | 0 | 0.154818 | 0 | 0 | 0.261848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068344 | 0.222962 | 0 | 0 | 0.098727 | 0.112981 | 0.217937 | 0.083542 | 0 | 0.049582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061903 | 0 | 0.086654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219028 |
suicidewatch | thisworldsucksbad | 2019/03/05 | Tonight is the night that I kill myself. I am legally blind,have no money,no job,and i live in a small redneck piece of shit town.I have been using some wire to habd myself until i start to get dizzy but have never been able to bring myself to do it. My relative smoked me out and gave me a xanax so now that I am in a g... | 0.797265 | 2.10952 | 2.505401 | 97.964512 | 79.853659 | 5.173519 | 16.592334 | 5.288315 | -0.879054 | 285 | 4 | 71 | 1 | 7 | 94 | 59 | 82 | 0.161 | 0.823 | 0.016 | -0.8793 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 48 | 15 | 1 | 0.304778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281762 | 0.159234 | 0.29237 | 0.173212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302445 | 0 | 0.337191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235063 | 0 | 0 | 0.286013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ZippyZeebra2 | 2019/03/05 | Why does the government and people want to keep suicidal people alive? Why not just let people do what they want? | 4.23 | 6.860714 | 4.238333 | 83.3775 | 74.238095 | 8.009524 | 20.02381 | 8.841846 | 1.467267 | 91 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 17 | 21 | 0.166 | 0.628 | 0.205 | -0.3939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.581962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.504976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | calmiswhen | 2019/03/05 | Suicide notes? Is it better to leave behind one or is it just a bad idea? | -0.945 | 1.080265 | 1.5425 | 98.2525 | 91.5 | 3.2 | 14.25 | 3.1291 | -1.38365 | 56 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 14 | 16 | 0.408 | 0.469 | 0.124 | -0.7691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JackFusion07 | 2019/03/05 | I don't know what to do anymore. It's been about four years since I last attempted to commit suicide via overdose. My school tends to judge me when they find this out, and they have been threatening my future, the only thing I look foreward to, by claiming that if I mention anything like that at the school ever again, ... | 9.509714 | 6.855372 | 9.121645 | 71.648182 | 61.060606 | 11.852814 | 41.753247 | 9.957138 | 4.139597 | 671 | 30 | 124 | 10 | 7 | 217 | 104 | 165 | 0.14 | 0.797 | 0.063 | -0.9317 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 30 | 23 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 2 | 22 | 19 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 91 | 28 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11481 | 0 | 0.297675 | 0.104938 | 0 | 0.123502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247438 | 0.122334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153466 | 0.106005 | 0.073321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110325 | 0 | 0.2315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114142 | 0 | 0 | 0.166645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150255 | 0.303775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169546 | 0 | 0.124147 | 0 | 0 | 0.152986 | 0.127161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14467 | 0 | 0.109259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164087 | 0 | 0.096646 |
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