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suicidewatch | cleetusburns | 2019/07/25 | Winner winner chicken dinner Tonight I type not with my fingers, but from the aching sorrow that resides in my chest and floods my skull with irreparably abhorrent thoughts and emotion. In this world you are either a Great White Shark of large proportion, unable to think or feel and only capable of taking space and eat... | 9.263651 | 8.018114 | 8.701785 | 70.019016 | 60.399046 | 11.502724 | 38.772708 | 10.4301 | 3.983266 | 2,699 | 112 | 474 | 49 | 30 | 859 | 307 | 629 | 0.229 | 0.587 | 0.185 | -0.9936 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 58 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 5 | 14 | 39 | 7 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 39 | 15 | 5 | 10 | 9 | 99 | 75 | 51 | 5 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 38 | 3 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 16 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 60 | 20 | 82 | 58 | 13 | 55 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 47 | 27 | 3 | 10 | 20 | 324 | 100 | 4 | 0 | 0.094558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271356 | 0.167368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055803 | 0 | 0.065674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066635 | 0.048649 | 0.08814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068746 | 0.167351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081662 | 0 | 0.179543 | 0.070685 | 0.082462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16141 | 0.057014 | 0.076627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061658 | 0 | 0.041696 | 0.076558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106985 | 0 | 0 | 0.079266 | 0 | 0 | 0.085435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070936 | 0.088294 | 0.083106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08671 | 0 | 0.05637 | 0.194947 | 0 | 0.070471 | 0 | 0.134035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216086 | 0.075515 | 0.213086 | 0 | 0 | 0.086933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080582 | 0 | 0 | 0.084822 | 0 | 0.059176 | 0.061552 | 0.077078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076577 | 0 | 0 | 0.084991 | 0 | 0.182089 | 0.08492 | 0 | 0 | 0.086423 | 0 | 0.276639 | 0.139368 | 0 | 0.087604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083256 | 0 | 0.08192 | 0 | 0.089706 | 0 | 0 | 0.06762 | 0 | 0.078931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05302 | 0.204547 | 0 | 0.063357 | 0 | 0 | 0.075647 | 0 | 0 | 0.108367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068927 | 0 | 0.065849 | 0.047072 | 0.063347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073981 | 0.072013 | 0.089101 | 0 | 0.076931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08133 | 0 | 0.174512 | 0 | 0.051393 |
suicidewatch | RobVanWham94 | 2019/07/25 | Not sure what to say Not sure if this is the right place to post this but I’m not really sure what to do. I have been suicidal for a while but lately I feel as if there is no way to stop feeling this way, I feel like I hurt more now than I used to and I need to talk someone but have no one to talk to. I don’t know what... | 0.426417 | 0.942669 | 2.885 | 98.126667 | 79.25 | 6.333333 | 18.333333 | 6.427356 | -0.456417 | 387 | 6 | 108 | 3 | 9 | 135 | 58 | 120 | 0.22 | 0.68 | 0.1 | -0.9274 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 28 | 24 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 6 | 18 | 21 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 74 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207762 | 0.097848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075273 | 0 | 0.154503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116968 | 0 | 0.326762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137065 | 0 | 0.232101 | 0.105443 | 0 | 0.153322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149818 | 0 | 0.516354 | 0 | 0 | 0.330264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hater_lzl | 2019/07/25 | IAMNOTHING Iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing iamnothing i... | 41.17 | 42.043278 | 20.1 | 6.17 | -1.322581 | 12.4 | 131 | 3.1291 | 17.2782 | 310 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 62 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | breadly- | 2019/07/25 | idk where else to go Im in highschool and alone. I just got out of an almost year long relationship and I alienated myself from everyone but her. Now she’s gone and I have no one to go to. I just don’t see the point in going on. It’s all bullshit, life is a pointless endeavor. I don’t see the point in going on without ... | 0.81771 | 2.626178 | 3.186732 | 90.789726 | 81.60274 | 6.363209 | 21.387476 | 7.44753 | 0.66263 | 264 | 8 | 60 | 4 | 7 | 91 | 52 | 73 | 0.196 | 0.804 | 0 | -0.9173 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 41 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21091 | 0.218144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.478812 | 0 | 0.168456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135635 |
suicidewatch | Unimportant-Name | 2019/07/25 | Just did my third attempt About two days ago, I was dog sitting for my neighbors while they were out of town. As I was cleaning I found their shotgun. Me, being suicidal for as long as I remember immediately sat down and thought for a long time about it before I ran over to it, pointed it to myself and tried the trigge... | 2.786846 | 4.040537 | 4.275385 | 87.564615 | 74.461538 | 7.046154 | 27.615385 | 7.554174 | 1.446138 | 489 | 19 | 105 | 6 | 10 | 163 | 86 | 130 | 0.128 | 0.835 | 0.037 | -0.8886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 20 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 73 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17968 | 0 | 0 | 0.159178 | 0 | 0.205185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166335 | 0 | 0 | 0.102845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205419 | 0.176904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148565 | 0.218241 | 0 | 0 | 0.178817 | 0 | 0.254106 | 0 | 0.182805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ShawtyLikeChungus | 2019/07/25 | Today is my birthday and i’m more depressed than ever I’ve had a whooping 4 people tell me happy birthday today. Only 1 of my “friends” told me happy birthday. The other 3 were family members. No i’m not posting this for sympathy or for someone to tell me happy birthday. guess i’m doing this to vent since i have no one... | 2.677333 | 4.33835 | 4.561111 | 83.735 | 75.555556 | 6.355556 | 25.888889 | 7.031649 | 1.250956 | 692 | 25 | 134 | 7 | 15 | 236 | 107 | 180 | 0.213 | 0.692 | 0.094 | -0.9785 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 31 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 17 | 6 | 17 | 25 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 84 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087109 | 0.139251 | 0.232671 | 0 | 0 | 0.141119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122178 | 0.113802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127332 | 0 | 0.136591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208709 | 0 | 0.141137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297589 | 0 | 0 | 0.431353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152365 | 0 | 0.146754 | 0 | 0.095404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141733 | 0 | 0.091527 | 0.102727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09364 | 0.117938 | 0 | 0 | 0.127685 | 0 | 0.12936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138647 | 0.111731 | 0 | 0.135167 | 0 | 0.114444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155243 | 0.256061 | 0.129065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086981 |
suicidewatch | InTheBlinkOfAnI | 2019/07/25 | Don't know what to do. My wife of 3 years and I just decided to seperated two weeks ago. Not a day goes by that I haven't considered suicide. No more than two days have gone by where I haven't had at least two drinks. I'm a wreck and I don't think I'll ever be able to fix it. Even if I could move on, I don't feel worth... | -0.178208 | 1.321778 | 1.902491 | 100.302415 | 83.433962 | 5.372075 | 16.260377 | 6.2581 | -0.751548 | 359 | 6 | 95 | 3 | 10 | 120 | 73 | 106 | 0.048 | 0.836 | 0.115 | 0.744 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 58 | 13 | 0 | 0.179834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143583 | 0 | 0 | 0.231956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118778 | 0.16267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181859 | 0.128473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210619 | 0 | 0.191135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11523 | 0 | 0 | 0.104862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.702686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115807 |
suicidewatch | urldeath | 2019/07/25 | Life sucks... So story short.. haven’t been to school since I was 12..parents isolated me..I’m 19 now.. I surprisingly have a gf and she has been my only relationship for 3 years.. ive wasted lots of her time and rubbed off on her...she’s leaving to go with her “best friend” for a few years so she can have her time and... | 0.298325 | 2.38874 | 2.602975 | 92.636049 | 85.455696 | 5.840247 | 18.820026 | 7.168622 | 0.264873 | 864 | 23 | 196 | 13 | 26 | 294 | 130 | 237 | 0.147 | 0.762 | 0.091 | -0.9211 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 49 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 48 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 27 | 5 | 28 | 32 | 7 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 130 | 35 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161596 | 0.113866 | 0 | 0.154001 | 0 | 0.16752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153475 | 0.24299 | 0 | 0 | 0.312111 | 0 | 0 | 0.1041 | 0.072003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160884 | 0.125298 | 0 | 0 | 0.098378 | 0 | 0.148064 | 0.160541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099869 | 0.11209 | 0 | 0 | 0.163649 | 0 | 0 | 0.102175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121915 | 0 | 0 | 0.150236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154075 | 0 | 0.161211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086929 | 0.116984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104695 | 0 | 0 | 0.189817 |
suicidewatch | MGOZ29 | 2019/07/25 | Told my mom I was going to kill myself soon. Neither one of my parents care about me, not that they should, or ever have. I told my mom multiple times today and in the last few days I'm going to kill myself soon and she either laughs thinking I'm joking I guess or ignores it. I texted my sister that I can't take it... | 2.586679 | 3.54359 | 3.887558 | 91.309901 | 74.538462 | 6.89359 | 23.387821 | 7.168622 | 0.643936 | 1,190 | 32 | 272 | 12 | 24 | 391 | 162 | 325 | 0.223 | 0.657 | 0.12 | -0.9907 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 30 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 29 | 8 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 51 | 55 | 22 | 7 | 8 | 16 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 56 | 15 | 34 | 43 | 11 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 183 | 73 | 2 | 0.081378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248909 | 0.083597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084085 | 0 | 0.107498 | 0.073611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082294 | 0.058136 | 0 | 0 | 0.148755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127549 | 0 | 0.184995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072898 | 0 | 0 | 0.0865 | 0 | 0 | 0.109091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080755 | 0.072332 | 0.540193 | 0 | 0.044723 | 0.066334 | 0 | 0.086167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069184 | 0 | 0 | 0.10864 | 0 | 0.163509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082009 | 0 | 0 | 0.190617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09036 | 0.088124 | 0.155368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087739 | 0.077867 | 0 | 0.081807 | 0 | 0 | 0.0814 | 0 | 0.052133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061186 | 0 | 0.071128 | 0.149843 | 0.093062 | 0 | 0 | 0.104287 | 0 | 0 | 0.094904 | 0 | 0.077136 | 0.155519 | 0.090413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067145 | 0.095997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052404 |
suicidewatch | vampirenessdeath | 2019/07/25 | Fucking bullshit You know how they say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem? Yea my question is how the hell is the problem temporary? It's just one thing after another, everything is just piling up and there's no such thing as downtime anymore because it's still just more problems. Maybe I need a per... | 4.974121 | 7.550961 | 5.548022 | 75.132692 | 71.692308 | 8.559707 | 35.501832 | 9.236283 | 3.910137 | 345 | 19 | 53 | 8 | 7 | 111 | 56 | 78 | 0.305 | 0.615 | 0.08 | -0.9727 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 42 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20898 | 0 | 0 | 0.197649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135049 | 0.151574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.572101 | 0 | 0 | 0.223258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | n00neImportant | 2019/07/25 | I dunno how much time I have left I can feel the urges getting closer. It's a harder fight each night to keep them out of my head. The other me, the suicidal me, the me that's made the choice and fights against conscious me, grows stronger each day, and soon she's coming back, taking control of me and plotting on how t... | 6.219629 | 5.200804 | 6.51508 | 82.517587 | 66.298578 | 9.378888 | 33.873761 | 8.296473 | 2.397508 | 1,618 | 62 | 344 | 18 | 22 | 523 | 215 | 422 | 0.153 | 0.743 | 0.103 | -0.9445 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 30 | 22 | 7 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 32 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 71 | 59 | 33 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 27 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 59 | 10 | 41 | 43 | 11 | 45 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 17 | 1 | 10 | 18 | 235 | 78 | 10 | 0.082783 | 0 | 0.080784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147389 | 0 | 0.094178 | 0 | 0.190965 | 0 | 0.201855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084403 | 0 | 0 | 0.07131 | 0 | 0 | 0.092848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138309 | 0 | 0 | 0.085537 | 0 | 0.328064 | 0 | 0.069748 | 0.158205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191874 | 0 | 0.173003 | 0 | 0.094095 | 0 | 0.066209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083038 | 0 | 0.081525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410747 | 0.220744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089944 | 0 | 0 | 0.080887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185226 | 0.090367 | 0 | 0 | 0.078331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096954 | 0.066077 | 0 | 0.12171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056096 | 0.06296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079026 | 0.114783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271654 | 0.093941 | 0 | 0 | 0.186728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053044 | 0 | 0 | 0.048271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048828 | 0.131419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074699 | 0 | 0 | 0.0798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | girafarig94 | 2019/07/25 | I'm 24 and with no hope for the future I'm an atheist and believe that life is pointless. I wish I could stop existing, I wish that I had the courage to kill myself but I've never been able to. The only time I've tried to commit suicide was when I was 11 and it was a very pathetic attempt. I've been abused most of my e... | 3.608652 | 5.04452 | 5.026501 | 82.266376 | 72.682243 | 8.1354 | 28.188967 | 8.700769 | 2.101672 | 2,103 | 81 | 422 | 39 | 41 | 704 | 244 | 535 | 0.237 | 0.587 | 0.176 | -0.9942 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 54 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 27 | 41 | 5 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 58 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 91 | 102 | 38 | 4 | 18 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 10 | 71 | 28 | 46 | 57 | 18 | 55 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 27 | 20 | 0 | 17 | 30 | 306 | 102 | 2 | 0.117025 | 0.415966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051868 | 0 | 0 | 0.242405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044992 | 0.048855 | 0.142675 | 0 | 0 | 0.131847 | 0.122811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059748 | 0.066923 | 0.119315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100793 | 0 | 0 | 0.061133 | 0 | 0.05989 | 0 | 0.119757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038647 | 0.105856 | 0 | 0 | 0.052587 | 0 | 0.275802 | 0 | 0.2071 | 0.125404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049771 | 0 | 0 | 0.180826 | 0 | 0.03057 | 0 | 0.066508 | 0.049078 | 0 | 0 | 0.064458 | 0 | 0 | 0.062288 | 0 | 0.057769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03922 | 0 | 0 | 0.058116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064735 | 0 | 0.032157 | 0.095391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165316 | 0.114345 | 0 | 0.051668 | 0 | 0.049136 | 0 | 0.063873 | 0 | 0.05281 | 0.110732 | 0.117173 | 0.059322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046704 | 0 | 0.086027 | 0 | 0.045128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05733 | 0.056144 | 0 | 0.061399 | 0 | 0.079299 | 0.089003 | 0.062261 | 0 | 0.064971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058821 | 0.131095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057774 | 0.188462 | 0.066283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046627 | 0.053268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05787 | 0 | 0.041415 | 0 | 0.046728 | 0.048919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051142 | 0.05387 | 0 | 0 | 0.038873 | 0.074985 | 0 | 0.046452 | 0.068238 | 0 | 0 | 0.055911 | 0.06501 | 0.039726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096558 | 0.034512 | 0.046444 | 0 | 0 | 0.10522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059629 | 0.083131 | 0 | 0 | 0.07536 |
suicidewatch | UliferAteMyCat | 2019/07/25 | My friend is suicidal and IDK what to do Comment stuff that’ll either make him laugh or smile so I can screenshot and send to him | 10.212222 | 5.751686 | 8.925185 | 79.163333 | 61.592593 | 12.281481 | 38.111111 | 8.841846 | 3.011622 | 104 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 24 | 27 | 0.185 | 0.557 | 0.259 | 0.3954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.607625 | 0.580595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TreesRlivinFractals | 2019/07/25 | A friend confided in me that he was planning on killing himself. I told our mutual friends so they could offer support and act as a safety net. I dont know if I did the right thing. I was really worried about him and didnt know what to do. The way he said it made it sound like he might just shoot himself any second. I ... | 1.308945 | 3.162793 | 3.37011 | 89.856661 | 80.208054 | 6.67325 | 24.736817 | 7.709487 | 1.267707 | 551 | 21 | 120 | 9 | 14 | 187 | 88 | 149 | 0.112 | 0.728 | 0.16 | 0.6839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 29 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 26 | 6 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 86 | 32 | 0 | 0.139363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094772 | 0.146134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123872 | 0.154184 | 0 | 0.306361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068086 | 0 | 0.12306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304262 | 0 | 0.12578 | 0.131869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23803 | 0.132566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15244 | 0.316295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112015 | 0.121809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Irishrocker13 | 2019/07/25 | I’m done ( help) I have an incurable disease and feel that I can’t achieve the one dream I have in life . Seriously what done have left? I don’t want to disappoint anyone but at the same time I’m tired of feelings my line I’m physically drowning ( please help me ) | 1.037778 | 3.342263 | 2.779259 | 91.166667 | 84.185185 | 6.562963 | 23.814815 | 7.793538 | 1.199059 | 206 | 8 | 46 | 4 | 6 | 68 | 40 | 54 | 0.13 | 0.701 | 0.169 | 0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.570953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303095 | 0 | 0.19704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162666 | 0.320628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lazy-Hazy | 2019/07/25 | im exhausted. I think it is time. I proved I could be sober. My life feels so fucking weird. Nothing I do matters. The only person who seemingly cares for me is an eye doctor who doesn't have an agenda. My family constantly lies to me and keeps stuff from me. My family actively fucks with me on purpose, I d... | 0.684084 | 3.170843 | 3.05761 | 86.647807 | 89.659341 | 6.989377 | 21.869048 | 8.076483 | 1.644142 | 354 | 13 | 70 | 9 | 12 | 121 | 64 | 91 | 0.208 | 0.718 | 0.074 | -0.8989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 44 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190845 | 0 | 0.141003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332972 | 0 | 0.089296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190762 | 0 | 0 | 0.156973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122434 | 0.154203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11316 | 0 | 0 | 0.205958 | 0.405959 | 0.167399 | 0 | 0 | 0.119902 | 0 | 0 | 0.18385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DGPlayer | 2019/07/25 | My parents are driving me into suicide. I'm not an innocent little angel of a son, but every time we fight, they always manage to sour my mood, drop every bit of hope for a nice future and make me consider killing myself on the spot.
Fuck you, you unfair pieces of shit. Let my voice be heard and listen to my side of ... | 5.689 | 5.439913 | 6.743571 | 77.883929 | 67.142857 | 8.714286 | 27.5 | 8.076483 | 1.794857 | 273 | 7 | 51 | 3 | 4 | 92 | 56 | 70 | 0.356 | 0.568 | 0.077 | -0.9827 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241069 | 0 | 0 | 0.236282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway34789263 | 2019/07/25 | After Robin Williams died, my dad said it was selfish and terrible of him. That's easy to say for someone who hasn't even thought about it. I've been depressed since I was 6 and it never gets better. I got a glimpse of feeling alright, but like always life fucked it up. I've been closer to death, but damn it's hard. So... | 2.23324 | 3.902158 | 3.08101 | 93.837683 | 76.804878 | 5.661324 | 26.348432 | 6.182691 | 0.741921 | 310 | 12 | 68 | 2 | 7 | 98 | 62 | 82 | 0.286 | 0.629 | 0.085 | -0.9633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 40 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213864 | 0 | 0.257701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229554 | 0.129729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219575 | 0 | 0.222432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175385 | 0.121309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184115 | 0.191508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236195 | 0.197462 | 0 | 0 | 0.197867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1599 |
suicidewatch | sidthewanker | 2019/07/25 | how do 'normal' people get through life life is dull and it will forever and always be. no matter how shit things are, they can always get worse and if they get better ill always have the existential dread at the back of my head. a voice telling me that everything is insignificant. i believe that voice is 100% correct.... | 5.091667 | 6.8803 | 5.371099 | 79.857327 | 69.509554 | 9.054989 | 28.369958 | 9.516145 | 2.623744 | 666 | 24 | 121 | 15 | 12 | 211 | 93 | 157 | 0.344 | 0.609 | 0.047 | -0.9961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 22 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 24 | 30 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 8 | 21 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 83 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096793 | 0.105103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141822 | 0 | 0.111329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083141 | 0.113864 | 0 | 0 | 0.113131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139266 | 0 | 0.138359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266734 | 0.061498 | 0 | 0.111153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123334 | 0.241567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TrainingMemory9 | 2019/07/25 | I wish my parents didn't care. My father committed suicide when I was 7, so I know firsthand how much pain I would be inflicted on my mother and other relatives. My parents are loving and have invested a lot into me. If not for them, I would have already done it. I wish they didn't care about me so that I could just ge... | 1.964905 | 3.586588 | 3.794286 | 88.639048 | 77.428571 | 6.952381 | 24.52381 | 7.793538 | 1.232952 | 261 | 9 | 56 | 4 | 6 | 88 | 50 | 70 | 0.171 | 0.68 | 0.149 | -0.3931 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 48 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172529 | 0.183158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215938 | 0 | 0.450673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28832 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cash-money-freal | 2019/07/25 | Why not I honestly feel like nothing goes my way anymore and its a really stressful time in my life and i dont know what to do and im seriously considering just ending it please help | 1.540263 | 3.830485 | 4.262368 | 81.424079 | 81.894737 | 8.010526 | 25.289474 | 8.841846 | 2.216558 | 147 | 6 | 30 | 4 | 4 | 52 | 32 | 38 | 0.236 | 0.645 | 0.119 | -0.5971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144787 | 0.204568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202257 | 0.139896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ziyal79 | 2019/07/25 | There's something very, very wrong with me My psychiatrist put me on 10mg of abilify 2 weeks ago. This was done in an attempt to titrate me across to something similar to seroquel so that I can wean off of it. The longer I took the abilify, the more my suicidal ideation climbed and climbed to the point that on sunday I... | 5.116646 | 5.818126 | 5.995681 | 79.461082 | 68.471545 | 9.076829 | 33.667683 | 9.188382 | 2.918627 | 985 | 45 | 193 | 18 | 16 | 325 | 135 | 246 | 0.157 | 0.792 | 0.051 | -0.9719 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 27 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 28 | 3 | 33 | 17 | 7 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 133 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125574 | 0.113912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078335 | 0 | 0.109348 | 0 | 0.134858 | 0.113652 | 0.140294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16575 | 0.132483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13153 | 0.224911 | 0.131505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099283 | 0 | 0.134277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148278 | 0.137567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188932 | 0 | 0.099111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102402 | 0 | 0.134059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128598 | 0 | 0 | 0.197859 | 0.127095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31809 | 0 | 0.102001 | 0.103079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1405 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sooners84 | 2019/07/25 | I need help on preventing my friends suicide One of my close friends just cut herself for the first time and she’s been getting worse over the past couple months, she’s tried multiple times to end her life and I’ve stuck by her side and tried to help in every way I can.
She’s been talking about ending it and I really d... | 2.702974 | 4.422428 | 3.573882 | 90.590296 | 75.631579 | 6.855263 | 24.506579 | 7.645422 | 1.082395 | 367 | 12 | 78 | 5 | 8 | 117 | 66 | 95 | 0.12 | 0.75 | 0.13 | 0.2357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 46 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1509 | 0 | 0 | 0.274124 | 0 | 0.185373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141602 | 0 | 0 | 0.263086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104638 | 0.140815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lilypey | 2019/07/25 | This feeling will stop? I don't wanna live like this forever, so why should I stay here? Hello hello.
I have depression since long time ago and I being learning how deal with that sickness. Buy now Im felling suicidal again and even with medical treatment and therapy that feeling never ends. It always gets back.
But t... | 0.8445 | 3.293108 | 2.464904 | 91.861971 | 87.25641 | 5.50641 | 21.458333 | 6.996648 | 0.705141 | 754 | 26 | 155 | 11 | 24 | 246 | 110 | 195 | 0.185 | 0.736 | 0.079 | -0.9734 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 38 | 33 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 5 | 13 | 23 | 6 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 105 | 34 | 1 | 0.105448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099072 | 0.081083 | 0.088045 | 0 | 0 | 0.179458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108713 | 0.181645 | 0 | 0 | 0.110171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093396 | 0 | 0 | 0.069648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099407 | 0 | 0.213272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081469 | 0 | 0.110185 | 0 | 0.059929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.569512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107828 | 0.074481 | 0.15455 | 0 | 0.093113 | 0.093319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112394 | 0 | 0.08816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120589 | 0 | 0 | 0.067567 | 0 | 0 | 0.245951 | 0.121197 | 0.099953 | 0 | 0.117157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115291 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Opertsero | 2019/07/25 | Help me Please | -1.09 | -2.143827 | -2.62 | 119.19 | 149 | 1.2 | 3 | 3.1291 | -3.6434 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0.167 | 0.833 | 0.6124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.521146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.853468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | autisticyeehaw | 2019/07/25 | I push people away so that I won't hurt anyone For almost the whole time I've been actively suicidal, the only thing keeping me here were my friends, the ones that I'd never want to hurt. Every time I try to kill myself, I get overwhelmed with guilt because of the sorrow I'd leave in my wake. So over time my depression... | 9.199542 | 6.294635 | 8.980936 | 73.197687 | 61.879581 | 11.644241 | 38.534686 | 9.516145 | 3.497528 | 758 | 28 | 148 | 10 | 8 | 247 | 117 | 191 | 0.155 | 0.671 | 0.174 | 0.5961 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 19 | 26 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 21 | 8 | 21 | 20 | 7 | 31 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 92 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114531 | 0 | 0.126217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32238 | 0.087948 | 0 | 0.27889 | 0.126319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073763 | 0 | 0.098512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10346 | 0.096367 | 0.109291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2651 | 0 | 0.059757 | 0 | 0.130005 | 0.095933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101663 | 0.12654 | 0 | 0 | 0.093232 | 0 | 0.121108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206458 | 0.108225 | 0.076347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088214 | 0.110465 | 0.12164 | 0 | 0 | 0.109747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077504 | 0.086988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tossedsalud | 2019/07/25 | My daughter is literally the only thing keeping me alive I feel so abhorrently unwanted. My mother is more like my sister most of the time, up to and including adult family members asking me if she makes it home safely after events because she's so intoxicated. I've tried talking to her about it but she blames her past... | 5.631156 | 5.696868 | 6.430426 | 79.010128 | 67.237082 | 9.42349 | 29.637752 | 9.197008 | 2.356162 | 2,602 | 84 | 511 | 44 | 39 | 861 | 298 | 658 | 0.171 | 0.761 | 0.068 | -0.9972 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 86 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 34 | 25 | 3 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 51 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 94 | 87 | 50 | 4 | 17 | 22 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 28 | 26 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 19 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 10 | 92 | 13 | 67 | 60 | 11 | 71 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 94 | 24 | 0 | 12 | 41 | 348 | 120 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120306 | 0.072521 | 0 | 0.070282 | 0 | 0 | 0.112929 | 0 | 0 | 0.046147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047449 | 0 | 0.167527 | 0 | 0.126878 | 0 | 0.191268 | 0.05218 | 0 | 0.124099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138584 | 0 | 0.138374 | 0 | 0 | 0.058455 | 0 | 0 | 0.15222 | 0 | 0 | 0.07454 | 0.043764 | 0.06996 | 0 | 0 | 0.070427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076333 | 0.120206 | 0.070117 | 0 | 0.134461 | 0 | 0.057174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191915 | 0 | 0.068623 | 0.048479 | 0 | 0.074336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052428 | 0 | 0.070907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069643 | 0 | 0.229447 | 0 | 0 | 0.071697 | 0.136137 | 0.0674 | 0.066828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070827 | 0 | 0.120633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055314 | 0 | 0.071853 | 0.147459 | 0.138781 | 0.143793 | 0.099458 | 0 | 0.119842 | 0 | 0 | 0.075917 | 0.074076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090593 | 0 | 0 | 0.073919 | 0 | 0 | 0.068386 | 0 | 0 | 0.079476 | 0.054165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104674 | 0.065539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091966 | 0.36127 | 0.072207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064779 | 0.09409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067878 | 0.077239 | 0.086945 | 0.069771 | 0 | 0.072855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107929 | 0 | 0 | 0.054075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056134 | 0 | 0 | 0.069174 | 0 | 0.104483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074227 | 0.077006 | 0 | 0 | 0.051022 | 0.109085 | 0.059312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158277 | 0.077994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184288 | 0.073811 | 0 | 0.070644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061014 | 0 | 0.061232 | 0 | 0 | 0.065414 | 0 | 0.049402 | 0 | 0 | 0.096411 | 0 | 0 | 0.087398 |
suicidewatch | ryxntumblzz | 2019/07/25 | Help me please I was going to talk about my problems and why I want to kill myself tonight but I'm scared of people can someone please text me on snapchat @ryxntumblzz | 3.480909 | 5.741556 | 3.00303 | 93.124545 | 75.060606 | 5.612121 | 26.151515 | 6.427356 | 0.840261 | 136 | 5 | 27 | 1 | 3 | 40 | 28 | 33 | 0.218 | 0.587 | 0.194 | -0.4497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202329 | 0 | 0 | 0.640718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | introverted_blonde | 2019/07/25 | When you text a friend that you have your life And then they respond “why”.
Me : “you wouldn’t get it”
Them:” ok” (go think about suicide and easy ways to commit) | -0.5675 | 1.625625 | -0.18775 | 107.80775 | 98.375 | 2.56 | 12.65 | 3.1291 | -1.957733 | 120 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 5 | 35 | 29 | 32 | 0.116 | 0.67 | 0.214 | 0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35475 | 0 | 0.239895 | 0 | 0.260954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | its_ya_boo | 2019/07/25 | I’m not sure if I’m going to survive a whole year. I’ve just felt like garbage for so long and I’ve tried to improve but have failed at every turn. I’m still a piece of trash and a waste of space. I’m starting my senior year of college in a couple weeks and the thought crossed my mind, what should I do after that? And ... | 1.933776 | 2.975585 | 3.095385 | 96.024615 | 76.272727 | 6.039161 | 24.888112 | 6.112484 | 0.410908 | 512 | 17 | 124 | 3 | 11 | 165 | 78 | 143 | 0.105 | 0.774 | 0.121 | 0.2921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 32 | 28 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 7 | 15 | 18 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 73 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063997 | 0 | 0.121525 | 0.138649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061835 | 0 | 0.111762 | 0.560044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089586 | 0 | 0.202155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401924 | 0.073803 | 0 | 0.119972 | 0 | 0 | 0.085931 | 0.13767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179821 | 0 | 0 | 0.244517 |
suicidewatch | Mhalin | 2019/07/25 | Thank you for this community. Hello everyone. I wanted to post on behalf of myself, as someone who has posted here before when I was reaching out for help. Thank you all for listening and offering support. It's people like us that understand each other's needs. Life is not easy. Sometimes, it's like we're drowning. I'm... | 0.472597 | 2.861224 | 2.544485 | 90.941554 | 88.752252 | 5.06332 | 19.865508 | 6.627428 | 0.343743 | 1,691 | 53 | 349 | 21 | 56 | 566 | 210 | 444 | 0.103 | 0.714 | 0.183 | 0.9874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 73 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 27 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 77 | 80 | 24 | 5 | 17 | 17 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 10 | 57 | 22 | 54 | 63 | 9 | 35 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 233 | 84 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070833 | 0.149824 | 0.073182 | 0.058776 | 0 | 0.066772 | 0 | 0 | 0.05492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060776 | 0 | 0.074955 | 0.063169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072821 | 0 | 0 | 0.061525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057026 | 0 | 0.078456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094349 | 0 | 0 | 0.204745 | 0 | 0.069866 | 0.134664 | 0 | 0.18057 | 0.051025 | 0 | 0 | 0.13056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055182 | 0 | 0.037316 | 0.068516 | 0.040592 | 0.059907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143622 | 0 | 0 | 0.07094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126969 | 0 | 0.074377 | 0.039253 | 0 | 0 | 0.151255 | 0 | 0 | 0.201795 | 0.104682 | 0 | 0.063069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072413 | 0.071755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10592 | 0.055086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096797 | 0.054321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198065 | 0 | 0.074623 | 0.078402 | 0 | 0 | 0.205213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151936 | 0.071443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059082 | 0.080283 | 0 | 0 | 0.121034 | 0 | 0.07064 | 0 | 0.050554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234378 | 0.324203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114815 | 0 | 0.26303 | 0 | 0 | 0.094902 | 0.137296 | 0.070174 | 0.113405 | 0.041648 | 0 | 0 | 0.068248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074355 | 0.085914 | 0.061687 | 0 | 0 | 0.210638 | 0.056693 | 0 | 0 | 0.064219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164268 | 0 | 0 | 0.051997 | 0.145069 | 0 | 0.101475 | 0.078091 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kryptic_Nave | 2019/07/25 | I fucked up and it seems to not matter how hard I try I misread a situation with the love of my life. This has been ongoing for a while now and no matter what I try it seems to have no effect. I'd rather not add to her problems but I'd rather sell all of my things and pass them off to my friends. I'm getting close to t... | 2.41578 | 3.470901 | 3.312209 | 94.889176 | 75.088889 | 6.894118 | 22.124183 | 7.285733 | 0.372697 | 823 | 20 | 199 | 9 | 17 | 262 | 115 | 225 | 0.153 | 0.629 | 0.218 | 0.9669 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 49 | 34 | 17 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 6 | 30 | 25 | 7 | 28 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 21 | 19 | 7 | 7 | 8 | 142 | 50 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19236 | 0 | 0 | 0.095561 | 0 | 0.100237 | 0.119649 | 0.053763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082149 | 0.589793 | 0.055552 | 0.305999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113188 | 0.095249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105608 | 0 | 0 | 0.113827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225308 | 0 | 0 | 0.18778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | loganbobertson | 2019/07/25 | I'm trying... I'm acting like I'm trying to live to keep everyone at bay and not suspect anything. I'm going to do it by hanging myself. I can't decide to in my garage or go for a walk and do it in the woods. I think the woods will be more better so they don't have to think about it in this home. I don't feel loved any... | -0.923736 | 0.704154 | 2.014483 | 97.837126 | 86.758621 | 4.901149 | 15.701149 | 5.985473 | -0.766406 | 386 | 7 | 99 | 3 | 12 | 136 | 71 | 116 | 0.109 | 0.799 | 0.093 | -0.4147 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 26 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 14 | 22 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 59 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195943 | 0 | 0 | 0.162589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151925 | 0.164969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130498 | 0 | 0 | 0.188793 | 0 | 0 | 0.186258 | 0 | 0.199802 | 0.141149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217653 | 0.195632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196065 | 0.175616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289578 | 0 | 0.174464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215679 | 0 | 0.178321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253199 | 0.194118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268284 | 0.214907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway8383736372 | 2019/07/25 | There are no solutions I’m going to commit suicide soon, but I know that it will cause a lot of problems. My parents and friends that love and care about me so much will get affected negatively for so many years. I hate that and I hate myself for it because I love and care about them so much. The reason I’m committing ... | 3.830431 | 3.943677 | 5.246545 | 85.783273 | 71.114286 | 9.335065 | 28.480519 | 9.33951 | 2.106143 | 643 | 22 | 147 | 13 | 11 | 217 | 82 | 175 | 0.189 | 0.524 | 0.287 | 0.9689 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 28 | 37 | 15 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 9 | 17 | 26 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 109 | 39 | 0 | 0.254849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259835 | 0.1309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121759 | 0 | 0 | 0.120124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196896 | 0 | 0.066574 | 0 | 0.072418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180007 | 0 | 0.127713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108332 | 0.460022 | 0 | 0 | 0.129188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281015 | 0 | 0.098278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082057 |
suicidewatch | NoahMan2 | 2019/07/25 | My dog was taken from me and I have thoughts of suicide Almost a year and a half go my mom and brother told me we were going to go and get a dog. I was not an much of an advocate for this idea but I decided it would be OK anyways. Little did I know that dog would change my life.
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suicidewatch | imaydeletethislater | 2019/07/25 | I probably won't live out the summer i have no money
my hair is thin and falling out
im tired all the time
i'm ugly
and i'm going to college in a place that i don't want to be in (it's ugly and smalltown)
i've worked so hard and achieved none of my goals
i've lived for 19 years
and i think i'm done | -2.682192 | -1.006114 | 0.673438 | 103.236459 | 98.041096 | 3.467945 | 14.149315 | 4.935629 | -1.367865 | 234 | 5 | 64 | 1 | 10 | 83 | 50 | 73 | 0.24 | 0.76 | 0 | -0.9244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184384 | 0 | 0 | 0.167794 | 0.330736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185307 |
suicidewatch | polarbear69holyshit | 2019/07/25 | I really can’t anymore Today and many years before I’ve been called fat,ugly,dumb and anything imaginable that’s an insult. The other day I was slammed on to the ground for saying my opinions on this. I’ve been trying to lose weight and get some people that care but it seems that no one does. My mom calls me a disgrace... | 3.542449 | 4.185898 | 4.832796 | 86.596133 | 71.993197 | 7.512653 | 25.584354 | 7.554174 | 1.137194 | 550 | 16 | 119 | 6 | 10 | 183 | 91 | 147 | 0.166 | 0.704 | 0.129 | -0.7096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 15 | 4 | 14 | 20 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 72 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158128 | 0 | 0 | 0.131211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097197 | 0 | 0.135677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325626 | 0 | 0.325133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176425 | 0 | 0.10283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152358 | 0 | 0 | 0.150312 | 0 | 0.161242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123188 | 0 | 0.083304 | 0.152956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11054 | 0 | 0 | 0.175025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126798 | 0.159634 | 0 | 0 | 0.145154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151137 | 0 | 0 | 0.108254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102678 |
suicidewatch | WardenWars | 2019/07/25 | The Endless Cycle: Fear of Life and Of Death I'm scared of living. The fear of people, myself and their thoughts scare me. So, that makes me want to do it. However, at the same time, I fear the Beyond. Such as whats beyond the veil of death. Is it better or worse. Should I live or die. This endless cycle of fear. It ma... | -0.564524 | 1.596603 | 1.075979 | 101.088333 | 91.777778 | 3.456085 | 12.343915 | 4.655896 | -1.591097 | 390 | 5 | 92 | 1 | 14 | 125 | 65 | 108 | 0.294 | 0.681 | 0.025 | -0.9828 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 60 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085563 | 0.125382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.826196 | 0.061874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086433 | 0 | 0 | 0.216108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104503 | 0 | 0 | 0.245026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097147 | 0.071354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rantingwaste | 2019/07/25 | Is stabbing the way to go? Today I was thinking about how easy it would be to just take a knife from the kitchen and off myself. The thought was jarring to me at first since I've never made a plan before. I just need to die before the school year starts. I think I would have a pretty good time frame to be able to fully... | 3.7796 | 4.33495 | 4.262667 | 91.218 | 71.4 | 6.533333 | 24.333333 | 5.683918 | 0.398333 | 282 | 7 | 62 | 1 | 5 | 89 | 55 | 75 | 0.051 | 0.83 | 0.119 | 0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 42 | 9 | 1 | 0.214172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19575 | 0.182175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121719 | 0.179637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158806 | 0.165183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274466 | 0 | 0.170029 | 0.124886 | 0 | 0.20301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304284 | 0 | 0 | 0.13792 |
suicidewatch | KesVanLo | 2019/07/25 | It all came back I didn't have suicidal thoughts in a long time. At least since a year. I pushed them away. Fooled myself into believing that i can change anything. Fool of hope and belief in success. Fueled by hatred to those that wanted to convince me that everything is fine. I would show them. They told me i can alw... | 0.913675 | 3.170646 | 2.265551 | 94.963382 | 84.28169 | 4.752292 | 18.688243 | 6.0157 | -0.229762 | 1,611 | 41 | 347 | 12 | 47 | 517 | 188 | 426 | 0.153 | 0.727 | 0.121 | -0.8734 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 20 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 40 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 63 | 77 | 21 | 2 | 15 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 7 | 65 | 11 | 54 | 52 | 7 | 54 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 40 | 20 | 1 | 5 | 25 | 242 | 87 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193329 | 0 | 0 | 0.052667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153616 | 0 | 0 | 0.063733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072765 | 0.059553 | 0 | 0.047212 | 0 | 0 | 0.087258 | 0 | 0.068497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08858 | 0.078964 | 0 | 0.16386 | 0.13343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059836 | 0.0716 | 0 | 0.074295 | 0.132047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051912 | 0 | 0 | 0.076924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063131 | 0 | 0 | 0.084148 | 0 | 0.109408 | 0.037837 | 0 | 0 | 0.137078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075883 | 0.148627 | 0 | 0 | 0.08248 | 0.104962 | 0.235611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083869 | 0 | 0.214771 | 0.13525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088153 | 0 | 0.07963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082549 | 0.247401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061485 | 0.045161 | 0.356061 | 0 | 0.222015 | 0 | 0.052582 | 0 | 0.075656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069885 | 0 | 0.089062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165051 | 0.084677 | 0 | 0.149622 |
suicidewatch | balkjack | 2019/07/25 | The reason the police, doctors, other enforcers of the state, even society at large refuse to let you die. Here's a hint: IT'S NOT BECAUSE THEY GIVE A FUCK. Capitalism is designed for one purpose: to extract every last bit of value from every individual. Working a shitty job? Paying rent? You are producing value. Even... | 2.848804 | 5.694242 | 3.507083 | 85.280625 | 81.391304 | 5.478986 | 26.016304 | 6.907726 | 1.387317 | 585 | 24 | 102 | 7 | 16 | 184 | 99 | 138 | 0.209 | 0.668 | 0.123 | -0.9643 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 17 | 11 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 65 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172725 | 0.175736 | 0 | 0 | 0.161551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328396 | 0 | 0 | 0.161935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208993 | 0 | 0.266599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122233 | 0.292527 | 0 | 0.15177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157 | 0 | 0.175037 | 0.164752 | 0 | 0.128963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lordxanx | 2019/07/25 | Just found this sub and thought I’d share my experiences I’m 21 and still depressed. I have friends and stuff but life just seems so meaningless. Like we just work to pay bills and repeat the process.
One time when I was 14 my mom suggested that me, her, and my sister just go into the garage, close the door, let the ... | 0.850101 | 2.94397 | 2.410109 | 94.852264 | 83.173913 | 5.746377 | 20.452899 | 6.996648 | 0.304377 | 854 | 25 | 194 | 11 | 24 | 278 | 125 | 230 | 0.183 | 0.779 | 0.038 | -0.9903 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 25 | 20 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 26 | 3 | 32 | 17 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 122 | 38 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103617 | 0 | 0 | 0.125692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11768 | 0.113411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131907 | 0.092946 | 0 | 0.125707 | 0 | 0.068371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266196 | 0 | 0.066116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123018 | 0.339896 | 0.058774 | 0 | 0.10623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077069 | 0 | 0.118785 | 0 | 0.272561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095866 | 0.10952 | 0.125503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095508 | 0.1403 | 0.276542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141916 | 0.095491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262747 | 0 | 0 | 0.08546 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Frodohardt | 2019/07/25 | My first post on Reddit. I've been wanting to load my dads rifle and end my miserable fucking life. I'm lazy I dont have a driver's license or a job, college is coming soon and its stressing me out, i need to get job to pay for it. I have friends but I feel like a burden, I never get asked to hangout or go some p... | -0.616986 | 0.918475 | 2.427297 | 95.805117 | 85.07362 | 5.301994 | 17.549463 | 6.322622 | -0.391711 | 544 | 12 | 138 | 5 | 16 | 194 | 94 | 163 | 0.141 | 0.696 | 0.163 | 0.8258 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 7 | 16 | 28 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 85 | 24 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160095 | 0 | 0 | 0.146218 | 0 | 0 | 0.123537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127021 | 0.148183 | 0 | 0.094722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135196 | 0 | 0.21754 | 0.307361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121986 | 0 | 0 | 0.1108 | 0.132582 | 0.224781 | 0 | 0.244513 | 0.120287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101296 | 0.210192 | 0 | 0.126635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212676 | 0.110608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149835 | 0 | 0.135571 | 0 | 0.137349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084588 | 0 | 0.115037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CHlCKPEA | 2019/07/25 | Bridge and alcohol A 430 ft bridge may seem scary. If I'm high on phenibut and alcohol will I be afraid, or do I postpone the inevitable suicide with xanax? | 1.285 | 3.900886 | 1.897016 | 95.265524 | 87.709677 | 5.680645 | 27.104839 | 7.168622 | 1.436929 | 124 | 6 | 26 | 2 | 4 | 38 | 26 | 31 | 0.286 | 0.714 | 0 | -0.8625 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.769763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | osmitee | 2019/07/25 | i don’t think anybody wants me to stay alive told my parents i wanna die, didn’t acknowledge it. told all my friends i wanna die, only one was kinda concerned the others just laughed it off. told my ex who did not give a shit lol.
have been self harming every single day. i’ve planned how to do it, but it’s going to t... | -0.966917 | 1.148747 | 1.246767 | 98.591654 | 95.842105 | 3.401504 | 16.022556 | 4.98256 | -0.923322 | 479 | 12 | 109 | 2 | 19 | 159 | 94 | 133 | 0.158 | 0.636 | 0.206 | 0.7576 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 26 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 67 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173186 | 0.10168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121811 | 0 | 0 | 0.302491 | 0.089604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222725 | 0 | 0 | 0.27844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106837 | 0.11991 | 0 | 0 | 0.175067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125638 | 0 | 0.164478 | 0 | 0.16184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101025 | 0 | 0 | 0.091935 | 0 | 0 | 0.451964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092994 | 0.125146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181306 | 0 | 0 | 0.114781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChickenBatnana | 2019/07/25 | I hate my psychologist but dont wanna switch SIGh so i honestly just have to get this off my chest, it feels like my psychologist constantly denies my feelings. She'll ask me if going biking for the first time in a year made me feel happy and I'll be like 'no not really, it was just normal' and then she tells me my aut... | 1.592507 | 3.694608 | 3.722652 | 86.423887 | 80.480076 | 6.938097 | 22.089075 | 8.012644 | 1.146775 | 2,009 | 63 | 422 | 38 | 52 | 686 | 226 | 527 | 0.169 | 0.703 | 0.128 | -0.9774 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 31 | 32 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 41 | 14 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 96 | 94 | 53 | 4 | 12 | 31 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 26 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 23 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 13 | 81 | 18 | 34 | 78 | 11 | 45 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 53 | 14 | 5 | 9 | 26 | 293 | 117 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.250868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141844 | 0.256978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067391 | 0.049165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105775 | 0 | 0.060083 | 0 | 0 | 0.049419 | 0.053662 | 0.156711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113681 | 0 | 0.071388 | 0 | 0 | 0.131251 | 0 | 0.065526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198775 | 0.110709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073658 | 0 | 0.112484 | 0 | 0.075323 | 0 | 0 | 0.065763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057761 | 0 | 0.060587 | 0 | 0.194977 | 0.045914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054667 | 0.077714 | 0 | 0 | 0.118831 | 0.134311 | 0 | 0.292203 | 0 | 0.102803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056833 | 0.068415 | 0 | 0.126904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138843 | 0 | 0 | 0.057125 | 0.142208 | 0 | 0.105961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065719 | 0 | 0.188391 | 0 | 0.05675 | 0 | 0.05397 | 0 | 0.070157 | 0.054639 | 0.058005 | 0.060813 | 0.0429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075271 | 0 | 0 | 0.047245 | 0 | 0.198272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069597 | 0 | 0.044556 | 0.056117 | 0.067147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071996 | 0 | 0 | 0.073152 | 0.082344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102218 | 0.064344 | 0.065043 | 0.102428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054455 | 0.098954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096644 | 0 | 0.337042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041181 | 0 | 0 | 0.112427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055508 | 0 | 0.053028 | 0.075815 | 0.051014 | 0 | 0.078262 | 0.057785 | 0 | 0 | 0.071754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082774 |
suicidewatch | bratbones | 2019/07/25 | I hate myself I’m a horrible person and I don’t deserve to live I manipulate my boyfriend constantly, I make him give up things that take him away from me, I get upset and make him worry if he doesn’t do what I want. I don’t mean to hurt him I adore him more than anything, I think I know whats best for him, I want him ... | 2.848592 | 3.755141 | 4.920719 | 84.344028 | 73.847328 | 8.263881 | 24.858176 | 8.689479 | 1.587089 | 967 | 29 | 209 | 18 | 19 | 336 | 121 | 262 | 0.228 | 0.667 | 0.105 | -0.9817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 20 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 55 | 59 | 23 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 46 | 5 | 25 | 45 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 150 | 58 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087355 | 0.203818 | 0 | 0 | 0.089215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398955 | 0.21138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051529 | 0.094613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087216 | 0 | 0 | 0.292124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108407 | 0 | 0 | 0.104433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144554 | 0 | 0.08709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197505 | 0.099993 | 0 | 0.107435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073131 | 0.228204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136753 | 0.172236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065524 | 0.063197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085183 | 0 | 0 | 0.407214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100162 | 0 | 0 | 0.107834 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SilverLineSting | 2019/07/25 | What should I do before I take my life? Not looking for anyone to talk to me out of it. Not going to discuss the reasons. Just want some ideas of how to spend my last days on earth. | 0.231923 | 2.120995 | 1.827885 | 99.323365 | 84.128205 | 3.9 | 17.442308 | 3.1291 | -1.014031 | 139 | 3 | 33 | 0 | 4 | 45 | 32 | 39 | 0 | 0.965 | 0.035 | 0.0772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270761 | 0.289446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hungry_for_death | 2019/07/25 | Bored and being mentally imprisoned My life is boring and very hard. I have 2 sisters that mock me for being fat and my parents not letting me do anything I want. Every day is just me sitting down on my computer watching YouTube or playing free games. Every time I attempt to try something new it gets boring fast. Schoo... | 3.20969 | 5.140548 | 3.878571 | 88.034762 | 74.785714 | 5.52381 | 28.809524 | 5.985473 | 1.237881 | 559 | 24 | 106 | 3 | 12 | 177 | 92 | 140 | 0.181 | 0.719 | 0.1 | -0.8932 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 6 | 15 | 17 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 70 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121962 | 0 | 0.164951 | 0 | 0.179431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161423 | 0.223003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121529 | 0 | 0 | 0.111734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09205 | 0 | 0.149633 | 0 | 0 | 0.107177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130251 | 0.09311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112139 | 0 | 0 | 0.101657 |
suicidewatch | MrGandiik | 2019/07/25 | please stip me Buye | -0.59 | 0.32178 | -2.23 | 118.175 | 124 | 1.6 | 4 | 3.1291 | -3.4762 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0.566 | 0.434 | 0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tno2s | 2019/07/25 | Genuinely at the end of my rope. Why does my psychiatrist care if I kill myself? She kept saying it wasn’t good and I should have a plan, but emotions aren’t like... real things like they’re just brain chemicals and processes. So someone dying isn’t a tragedy bc everything that’s ever happened is a neutral event in the... | 2.615706 | 4.332399 | 3.718672 | 89.470767 | 75.865979 | 6.463666 | 24.406588 | 7.217587 | 0.942483 | 1,867 | 61 | 390 | 21 | 41 | 604 | 223 | 485 | 0.271 | 0.646 | 0.083 | -0.999 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 30 | 35 | 7 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 47 | 14 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 84 | 75 | 53 | 7 | 10 | 16 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 35 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 58 | 11 | 47 | 52 | 7 | 59 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 19 | 25 | 2 | 9 | 30 | 263 | 80 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064714 | 0 | 0 | 0.151221 | 0.080562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102093 | 0 | 0.120153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060956 | 0.089006 | 0.080628 | 0.124243 | 0 | 0 | 0.064566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081497 | 0 | 0 | 0.074433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058288 | 0 | 0 | 0.094164 | 0 | 0.062879 | 0 | 0.303068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08212 | 0.06466 | 0 | 0 | 0.096437 | 0.19811 | 0.246037 | 0.069759 | 0.131223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067491 | 0.076284 | 0 | 0.08298 | 0.061233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064558 | 0 | 0.130795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07251 | 0 | 0 | 0.156305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072446 | 0 | 0.242306 | 0 | 0.080243 | 0.059508 | 0 | 0 | 0.079319 | 0 | 0.051565 | 0.106999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048731 | 0.14803 | 0 | 0.079523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171004 | 0 | 0 | 0.107333 | 0 | 0 | 0.070508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04947 | 0.055523 | 0.233045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069013 | 0.082301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0827 | 0.062345 | 0.069444 | 0.058056 | 0 | 0 | 0.11635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073057 | 0 | 0.061856 | 0.112405 | 0 | 0 | 0.051673 | 0.077813 | 0 | 0.061035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083487 | 0 | 0.048501 | 0.046778 | 0 | 0 | 0.085139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09913 | 0 | 0 | 0.076 | 0 | 0.063052 | 0 | 0 | 0.04306 | 0.057947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053148 | 0 | 0.148795 | 0.05186 | 0.079819 | 0 | 0.141037 |
suicidewatch | i_should_have_died | 2019/07/25 | My boyfriend will not talk to me. I am desperate. I just want to work through our issues and talk to him I don't know if i should go to the hotel tonight alone or stay home and wait for him. He will be tired when he is home from work and will not have energy to talk to me. I have been writing down all of the things I n... | -0.56375 | 1.108013 | 1.389741 | 102.575949 | 85.687898 | 4.434554 | 15.544984 | 5.148861 | -1.181102 | 532 | 9 | 141 | 2 | 16 | 175 | 84 | 157 | 0.112 | 0.807 | 0.081 | -0.7722 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 30 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 1 | 25 | 22 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 94 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243353 | 0.141949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121308 | 0.121576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091268 | 0.088027 | 0 | 0 | 0.080107 | 0.315793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Final_Procedure | 2019/03/05 | no one to talk to who understands so I have a date set for this later in the year. in the meantime, i have no one to talk to who is going through the same situation... talking with non-suicidal people feels awkward... i want to make friends but i don't want to abandon them when I die | 0.969548 | 3.01553 | 2.845 | 92.17959 | 82.389831 | 5.967232 | 25.087571 | 7.168622 | 1.015744 | 219 | 9 | 49 | 3 | 6 | 73 | 41 | 59 | 0.142 | 0.73 | 0.129 | -0.4197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 36 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.599462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160094 |
suicidewatch | PoroRican- | 2019/03/05 | I think I need help I can’t feel anything but anger or sadness.. I hate myself for putting others first and myself last and know I’m here a broken mess, but I can’t blame them only myself, I’ve become so toxic as a means to not let anyone in that I chose to never talk or interact in any way.I feel like I’m slowly shutt... | 2.721667 | 2.849069 | 4.498696 | 90.119493 | 73.565217 | 7.292754 | 22.57971 | 6.937598 | 0.464458 | 483 | 10 | 115 | 4 | 9 | 165 | 88 | 138 | 0.156 | 0.632 | 0.211 | 0.8258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 27 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 6 | 15 | 23 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 70 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113483 | 0 | 0.133559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098936 | 0.179247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143541 | 0.354378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328254 | 0.115947 | 0 | 0.177791 | 0 | 0.138052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084795 | 0 | 0.092238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172771 | 0 | 0.160237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108786 | 0.171478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144259 | 0 | 0 | 0.178391 | 0.132296 | 0 | 0 | 0.176339 | 0.165962 | 0.114637 | 0.079291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119309 | 0.120343 | 0.125175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172844 | 0 | 0.123436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107824 | 0.103995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095728 | 0.128826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115293 | 0.177449 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | petiteluda | 2019/03/05 | I can't do this anymore I can't do this anymore. I hate waking up early and crying on the way to school, getting there and pretending im ok, then crying on the way back and pretending im ok in front of my family, and then crying alone in my room at night. I have zero motivation to do well in school, I haven't handed in... | 1.20871 | 2.88596 | 3.776514 | 87.668119 | 79.81448 | 6.41095 | 22.814706 | 7.365786 | 0.886994 | 803 | 26 | 174 | 11 | 20 | 282 | 104 | 221 | 0.194 | 0.714 | 0.092 | -0.9792 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 31 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 6 | 34 | 25 | 1 | 37 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 115 | 34 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096899 | 0 | 0.203281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083299 | 0 | 0.05633 | 0 | 0 | 0.090432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349383 | 0 | 0 | 0.095833 | 0 | 0.112275 | 0.059254 | 0.087885 | 0 | 0.114163 | 0 | 0.11025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082 | 0 | 0 | 0.359155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107944 | 0.32735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069085 | 0 | 0 | 0.062869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063593 | 0.171161 | 0 | 0 | 0.096941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069431 |
suicidewatch | Fultons01 | 2019/03/05 | I'm Numb I feel pathetic for saying it but i'm starting to cry just typing this. I've held back a breakdown for a few months now. I'm really struggling. I just feel numb. I think of nothing but how euphoric death would be and how great it would feel to go. I never used to be like this. I was diagnosed depressed alongsi... | 1.178825 | 3.095775 | 2.530949 | 95.395941 | 80.927711 | 5.354819 | 21.218373 | 6.322622 | 0.110784 | 614 | 18 | 139 | 5 | 16 | 198 | 86 | 166 | 0.236 | 0.628 | 0.136 | -0.9569 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 38 | 37 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 15 | 4 | 16 | 26 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 90 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230039 | 0.124895 | 0.091184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164309 | 0 | 0 | 0.128835 | 0.151823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302533 | 0.106862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085011 | 0 | 0 | 0.164915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152958 | 0 | 0.219235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136174 | 0.156047 | 0 | 0.153544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115156 | 0 | 0 | 0.105875 | 0 | 0 | 0.125058 | 0 | 0.156376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191693 | 0.146964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129191 | 0 | 0 | 0.264683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212518 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WorthlessBubbless | 2019/03/05 | 29th birthday on Friday. I don’t think I can make it until then. I should have died when I was 18, that was my first real attempt. Been contemplating since 13. I can’t imagine my life continuing past today, let alone making it to my 30s.
It’s just too hard. There’s too much against me, and I don’t see much worth holdi... | 0.831655 | 2.715115 | 2.633623 | 94.387705 | 81.934783 | 5.393237 | 18.917874 | 6.427356 | -0.179431 | 335 | 8 | 78 | 3 | 9 | 111 | 60 | 92 | 0.125 | 0.852 | 0.022 | -0.8271 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 18 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 54 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217703 | 0.300753 | 0 | 0 | 0.187993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203236 | 0.147597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242325 | 0.136388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kareemsmith | 2019/03/05 | Dying from the inside How can you be alive when you are dying from the inside?
When the days keep repeating it self over and over
And you don't leave your room for few months just because you don't have the power to step outside. Because you already know what's out there ..
Nothing. Just the same community and the sam... | 3.189498 | 4.33846 | 4.4384 | 87.197376 | 73.312268 | 7.015688 | 24.230669 | 7.365786 | 0.949788 | 1,022 | 29 | 215 | 11 | 20 | 337 | 131 | 269 | 0.131 | 0.797 | 0.071 | -0.9734 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 49 | 36 | 21 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 28 | 5 | 30 | 23 | 5 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 25 | 161 | 44 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.090438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0825 | 0.086639 | 0 | 0 | 0.071261 | 0 | 0.225976 | 0 | 0 | 0.208826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073994 | 0 | 0 | 0.059768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164748 | 0 | 0 | 0.050932 | 0 | 0 | 0.196259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090553 | 0 | 0.327335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.571814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090802 | 0.088924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062799 | 0.070484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278101 | 0 | 0.05937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059382 | 0 | 0 | 0.05404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119359 |
suicidewatch | RinArenna | 2019/03/05 | I think this is finally it I dont know who else to talk to.
I'm sorry if I rant a bit, but I cant help it.
I've lost everything that matters most to me.
It was my own fault. I didnt try hard enough. The person I loved more than anything doesn't love me anymore because I couldn't provide for her or stand up on my o... | -1.017696 | 0.67695 | 1.923954 | 97.946443 | 87.640777 | 5.298853 | 18.1015 | 6.574016 | -0.250177 | 688 | 18 | 178 | 8 | 22 | 242 | 99 | 206 | 0.225 | 0.736 | 0.039 | -0.9882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 23 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 41 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 38 | 4 | 27 | 33 | 8 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 121 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092232 | 0 | 0 | 0.087232 | 0 | 0 | 0.072383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08264 | 0 | 0 | 0.053619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090012 | 0.618522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073478 | 0 | 0 | 0.090885 | 0 | 0.058096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237155 | 0 | 0.08292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058957 | 0 | 0.08823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095568 | 0 | 0.124256 | 0 | 0 | 0.233008 | 0 | 0 | 0.196807 | 0.096017 | 0 | 0.317545 | 0 | 0 | 0.089176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18709 | 0 | 0 | 0.253197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059718 | 0.095674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056643 |
suicidewatch | sayhellotome11 | 2019/03/05 | F*cking stupid existence F\*ck this life. I just hope there is an afterlife, a place where i will feel peace and be loved. I pray this isn't the end. God, if this is a test, please know that i failed it, just please let me feel happiness and love. | 1.5622 | 3.701499 | 1.762 | 100.241 | 80.8 | 6.4 | 18 | 7.554174 | -0.0128 | 191 | 4 | 46 | 3 | 5 | 57 | 38 | 50 | 0.13 | 0.488 | 0.382 | 0.9476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264528 | 0.182721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270276 | 0.567929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | glitchings | 2019/03/05 | I am selfish. I feel extremely selfish for being suicidal.
I’m not an adult by any means, I’m still a teenager. And really, I haven’t been through any significant trauma throughout my life. I’ve been very suicidal since I was twelve or so, just barely making my way through life. I feel terrible for being so suicidal s... | 3.256515 | 4.466715 | 4.640555 | 85.575157 | 73.229075 | 7.808137 | 27.890386 | 8.313333 | 1.829154 | 868 | 33 | 181 | 14 | 17 | 289 | 122 | 227 | 0.183 | 0.692 | 0.125 | -0.9333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 43 | 15 | 5 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 24 | 6 | 26 | 35 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 117 | 33 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068573 | 0 | 0.09158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161288 | 0 | 0 | 0.116477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082149 | 0 | 0.055552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450615 | 0.051946 | 0 | 0.187779 | 0.094097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070975 | 0 | 0 | 0.115822 | 0 | 0 | 0.107153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115143 | 0 | 0 | 0.092841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101833 | 0 | 0.114639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31907 | 0 | 0.068116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090091 | 0 | 0 | 0.119025 | 0 | 0 | 0.084913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068131 | 0 | 0.084412 | 0.124001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087732 | 0.12543 | 0.168796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | prettyinsink | 2019/03/05 | I'm ready to die. I've been trying to vent in hopes someone would respond but these mods on this site keep deleting my posts from the various subreddits.
I'm ready to die anyway. It was a waste of time to reach out. Life isn't a great thing for me and honestly there isn't anyone here that would get that.
I'm ready ... | 2.03625 | 3.538037 | 2.856667 | 95.955 | 76.916667 | 6.466667 | 20.333333 | 7.168622 | 0.157233 | 267 | 6 | 63 | 3 | 6 | 84 | 53 | 72 | 0.187 | 0.633 | 0.179 | -0.5634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 36 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370515 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrRemingtune | 2019/03/05 | Found a place I found a place that is, for lack of a better term, perfect. A bridge that is not far from where I live that has a huge gap between the barriers . It's high up, it's a death sentence and it always has been . If I don't die from the fall the water will carry me away and I will either drown or freeze. Doesn... | 3.009068 | 4.565044 | 4.248738 | 86.758239 | 74.434084 | 7.41973 | 24.65865 | 8.109357 | 1.343264 | 1,203 | 38 | 250 | 19 | 25 | 395 | 160 | 311 | 0.143 | 0.737 | 0.12 | -0.6769 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 33 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 46 | 66 | 17 | 6 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 34 | 8 | 27 | 51 | 8 | 43 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 21 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 171 | 55 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120089 | 0 | 0.181098 | 0 | 0 | 0.074003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102243 | 0.083678 | 0 | 0.066337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096232 | 0 | 0 | 0.10744 | 0 | 0.115673 | 0 | 0.128955 | 0 | 0.114977 | 0 | 0.216171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10799 | 0.29018 | 0.120396 | 0 | 0.119612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153729 | 0 | 0 | 0.096092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104418 | 0 | 0 | 0.115893 | 0 | 0.082765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150888 | 0.09502 | 0.34109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208444 | 0.110712 | 0.117329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139429 | 0 | 0 | 0.116835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083777 | 0 | 0 | 0.154051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072297 | 0.139458 | 0 | 0.086393 | 0.126911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119853 | 0 | 0.192559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Avoider5 | 2019/03/05 | Can someone lie to me and tell me that everything will be okay? Thanks! | 0.91 | 3.491846 | 1.468571 | 97.001429 | 91.857143 | 5.657143 | 21.285714 | 7.168622 | 0.727543 | 56 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 0.702 | 0.298 | 0.6239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.478369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49347 | 0.519792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IllybrynRibcage | 2019/03/05 | I'm completely trapped I work in a fluorescent-lit office full of people I don't like, doing work that whittlesaway at me and I HAVE to do it to fund a house that has become my hell and it's all my fault.
The roof is leaking again causing more damage to this shit hole that I can't afford to pay for. I borrowed money f... | 1.331938 | 3.011031 | 3.200435 | 91.931889 | 79.449438 | 6.472472 | 20.675562 | 7.41366 | 0.483302 | 650 | 17 | 148 | 9 | 16 | 218 | 105 | 178 | 0.184 | 0.777 | 0.039 | -0.9748 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 30 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 97 | 32 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156697 | 0 | 0 | 0.165378 | 0 | 0 | 0.107301 | 0.194402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180823 | 0 | 0 | 0.184555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168196 | 0 | 0 | 0.165937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135994 | 0 | 0.091964 | 0 | 0.200074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143481 | 0 | 0.186381 | 0 | 0.179994 | 0 | 0.085995 | 0.17642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122031 | 0 | 0.183905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256292 | 0 | 0.358762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | newport1oos | 2019/03/05 | suicidal hi. i dont know where to start this so im just going to let it all out. i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder about a year ago. ever since then i've been on zoloft for the anxiety but it made my depression a hundred times worse. i talked to my doctor about it and she t... | 3.06399 | 4.198054 | 4.445344 | 87.084601 | 73.6 | 7.32949 | 25.778271 | 7.765009 | 1.287563 | 2,077 | 68 | 443 | 27 | 41 | 690 | 232 | 550 | 0.245 | 0.714 | 0.041 | -0.9992 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 59 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 35 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 39 | 24 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 70 | 85 | 31 | 6 | 7 | 17 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 31 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 8 | 65 | 6 | 73 | 53 | 10 | 73 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 28 | 1 | 9 | 37 | 292 | 96 | 9 | 0.051421 | 0 | 0.05018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041122 | 0 | 0.055715 | 0 | 0.069937 | 0 | 0.118011 | 0 | 0.101992 | 0 | 0 | 0.042315 | 0.045776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094038 | 0 | 0.043756 | 0 | 0 | 0.045478 | 0 | 0.057117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044295 | 0 | 0 | 0.057673 | 0 | 0 | 0.056484 | 0.099487 | 0 | 0.132867 | 0.052192 | 0.213469 | 0 | 0.117867 | 0.263159 | 0.044999 | 0.052622 | 0.120531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042956 | 0 | 0.045544 | 0 | 0 | 0.033963 | 0.046514 | 0.086649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078 | 0.036735 | 0.049373 | 0.05633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039728 | 0 | 0.026866 | 0 | 0.204567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045472 | 0.054739 | 0 | 0 | 0.052773 | 0.109317 | 0 | 0 | 0.034467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05652 | 0.08383 | 0 | 0.054448 | 0 | 0.052582 | 0.108961 | 0.075366 | 0.051538 | 0.181624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048656 | 0.102972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060224 | 0.082088 | 0 | 0.037801 | 0.038128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048255 | 0 | 0.14802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139378 | 0.039108 | 0.054716 | 0 | 0.228389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053724 | 0 | 0.194439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110882 | 0.049203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05287 | 0.050772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048913 | 0 | 0 | 0.052041 | 0.081952 | 0.046812 | 0 | 0 | 0.052783 | 0.042536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079173 | 0 | 0 | 0.109189 | 0 | 0.041065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231975 | 0.082661 | 0.089889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164744 | 0.050521 | 0.040823 | 0.089953 | 0 | 0 | 0.098271 | 0 | 0.034912 | 0 | 0.050231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0464 | 0 | 0 | 0.049568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104805 | 0.036528 | 0.112442 | 0 | 0.066227 |
suicidewatch | williamsalex027 | 2019/03/05 | Considering suicide, again and still Hi.
I feel a bit scared, because i really don't know how any of you will react to all this. Mostly because of my age, i'm turning 17 this year. I'm scared because we're all told that we're just spoiled brats, and we know nothing about the world and about life and that's really not... | 2.92 | 3.969469 | 4.340359 | 88.02593 | 73.842958 | 7.596669 | 24.36148 | 8.04248 | 1.156841 | 3,686 | 107 | 813 | 54 | 73 | 1,226 | 367 | 987 | 0.145 | 0.712 | 0.143 | -0.8785 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 108 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 52 | 60 | 5 | 2 | 42 | 5 | 68 | 20 | 8 | 14 | 14 | 185 | 174 | 82 | 1 | 24 | 38 | 3 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 38 | 53 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 32 | 21 | 1 | 7 | 27 | 25 | 118 | 39 | 95 | 135 | 36 | 99 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 10 | 42 | 39 | 4 | 19 | 63 | 522 | 156 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.038406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07882 | 0 | 0.043431 | 0.031474 | 0.065496 | 0 | 0 | 0.053528 | 0.041269 | 0.030108 | 0.044462 | 0.039031 | 0.082557 | 0.040326 | 0.097162 | 0.035036 | 0.036793 | 0 | 0.036977 | 0.030263 | 0.032861 | 0.143949 | 0 | 0.066979 | 0 | 0.041302 | 0.069616 | 0.042967 | 0.087433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031423 | 0 | 0.216158 | 0.025382 | 0 | 0.169489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045106 | 0 | 0.034441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032878 | 0 | 0.139434 | 0 | 0 | 0.129974 | 0.0356 | 0.03316 | 0.037607 | 0.141485 | 0 | 0.037102 | 0 | 0.1592 | 0.168699 | 0.037789 | 0 | 0.107914 | 0.066954 | 0 | 0 | 0.030407 | 0.109154 | 0.061687 | 0.037755 | 0.111837 | 0.033011 | 0.094432 | 0 | 0 | 0.038969 | 0.034803 | 0.041896 | 0 | 0.038857 | 0 | 0 | 0.044358 | 0 | 0.05276 | 0.041583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045412 | 0.084264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034982 | 0 | 0.040984 | 0.194665 | 0 | 0 | 0.041673 | 0.042761 | 0 | 0.083396 | 0.269188 | 0.039446 | 0.069505 | 0.034829 | 0.132199 | 0 | 0.042963 | 0.100379 | 0.177605 | 0.03724 | 0.105084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046094 | 0.031414 | 0 | 0.17359 | 0.029183 | 0.030354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038561 | 0.037764 | 0 | 0.041298 | 0.041914 | 0.080007 | 0.059865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075318 | 0 | 0.039564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151278 | 0.080931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03361 | 0 | 0 | 0.078806 | 0.199156 | 0.188173 | 0 | 0.082115 | 0 | 0 | 0.130225 | 0 | 0.07877 | 0 | 0.066694 | 0.030299 | 0 | 0 | 0.167141 | 0 | 0.125721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04305 | 0.089323 | 0 | 0 | 0.029591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090016 | 0.137089 | 0 | 0.151309 | 0 | 0 | 0.045898 | 0 | 0 | 0.075214 | 0 | 0.026721 | 0.085618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033992 | 0 | 0.09742 | 0.185709 | 0.03124 | 0.03157 | 0 | 0.035386 | 0.036484 | 0.071027 | 0 | 0.135775 | 0.037938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080216 | 0.027958 | 0.04303 | 0 | 0.076033 |
suicidewatch | fuckthisimoutt | 2019/03/05 | All I do is eat, sleep, and think about wanting to die And one day I won’t be able to take anymore and probably kill myself | 2.066667 | 2.913683 | 3.660185 | 92.865833 | 75.666667 | 6.881481 | 24.611111 | 7.168622 | 0.754422 | 96 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 23 | 27 | 0.281 | 0.719 | 0 | -0.8625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0.321172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DupIsGay | 2019/03/05 | Feeling like ending it NOW Baby girl passed away 6 months ago to cancer.... and I'm a single mom to two other kids that I love so deeply... But my want and desire is to be free from my addiction and free from this depression and be with my babygirl.... | 4.801765 | 4.594677 | 5.616471 | 85.074118 | 69 | 8.368627 | 24.843137 | 7.793538 | 1.114655 | 192 | 4 | 41 | 2 | 3 | 63 | 40 | 51 | 0.06 | 0.634 | 0.306 | 0.9201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353441 | 0 | 0 | 0.287396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163932 | 0.231618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379715 | 0.258784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unfoldedsquid | 2019/03/05 | Am I suicidal or progressive towards being suicidal? ​
Today it was my birthday and I didn't want the fucking attention at all. I turned off my facebook account and slept all motherfucking day. I woke up at about 11pm to a digger doing groundwork out the front of my hotel (at that time really) and I stepp... | 6.111044 | 7.379174 | 6.688204 | 73.342374 | 66.530864 | 10.08844 | 37.566779 | 10.230975 | 4.218573 | 694 | 37 | 117 | 17 | 11 | 227 | 101 | 162 | 0.167 | 0.758 | 0.075 | -0.9308 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 27 | 14 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 14 | 2 | 23 | 15 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 92 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413004 | 0.46317 | 0 | 0 | 0.0729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061457 | 0 | 0.082077 | 0 | 0.0989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240069 | 0 | 0 | 0.081016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09532 | 0 | 0.061048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055567 | 0 | 0.090328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135388 | 0 | 0.46317 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LSDLACEDBUD | 2019/03/05 | How does one get better? I cant get better its only worse from here, tell my GF i wanna die shell be sad and blame herself if i tell my parents or family they just say im immature and stupid i cant tell myfriends because then theyll either ignore it or just assume im joking , i have no other people i trust and im not o... | 0.40825 | 2.260935 | 2.666667 | 93.755 | 83.25 | 5 | 16.666667 | 5.985473 | -0.497833 | 429 | 8 | 97 | 3 | 12 | 146 | 81 | 120 | 0.189 | 0.685 | 0.126 | -0.802 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 12 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 11 | 8 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 69 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.495361 | 0.159551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156315 | 0.107973 | 0.074682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103585 | 0.116261 | 0 | 0 | 0.169738 | 0 | 0 | 0.317932 | 0.133476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 395829479283 | 2019/03/05 | I don't know. I'm 14. And I don't want to live anymore. I am nobody. I'm forcing myself to go to school, then coming back home to spend my whole day with pointless things, spending my day on shit sites and then we persuade me and my environment that I "work" with my computer. I don't know how I get those marks in scho... | 2.041387 | 3.975975 | 3.800324 | 87.259927 | 78.236641 | 6.504071 | 23.130407 | 7.492282 | 0.99729 | 501 | 16 | 103 | 7 | 12 | 168 | 84 | 131 | 0.137 | 0.833 | 0.03 | -0.9251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 23 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 17 | 17 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 70 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15724 | 0.110862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148964 | 0.121916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12659 | 0 | 0.17416 | 0.306756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104721 | 0 | 0.133586 | 0 | 0.142495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293155 | 0.082836 | 0 | 0.180216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304267 | 0.180511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16275 | 0 | 0 | 0.158665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18409 | 0.105334 | 0.101593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146978 | 0 | 0.177016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115427 | 0 | 0 | 0.11263 | 0 | 0 | 0.102101 |
suicidewatch | _log1 | 2019/03/05 | Suicidal thoughts are relatively new to me, figured I would post here Though I would post here because I have been thinking about it everyday for a few months. Option 1 is carry on like this forever. Option 2 is try to do things to better myself like get a new job, but thoughts like that give me a very violent "I shoul... | 4.358625 | 4.667792 | 5.121915 | 86.44911 | 70.009901 | 8.530322 | 28.454517 | 8.472885 | 1.75414 | 1,919 | 64 | 421 | 28 | 32 | 623 | 220 | 505 | 0.226 | 0.642 | 0.132 | -0.9966 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 47 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 32 | 33 | 4 | 6 | 34 | 0 | 47 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 78 | 88 | 25 | 9 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 32 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 15 | 68 | 20 | 55 | 62 | 9 | 65 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 23 | 25 | 1 | 7 | 41 | 298 | 100 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.123603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066462 | 0.056011 | 0.069141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071031 | 0 | 0 | 0.069566 | 0.081686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056092 | 0 | 0.07063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096066 | 0.045243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058548 | 0.13235 | 0.121505 | 0.071984 | 0 | 0 | 0.139644 | 0 | 0.062707 | 0 | 0 | 0.056732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062846 | 0.056291 | 0.070066 | 0.065949 | 0.06961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12952 | 0 | 0.340341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084547 | 0.064207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063946 | 0 | 0.05055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059868 | 0 | 0.121306 | 0.06443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063665 | 0 | 0 | 0.063348 | 0 | 0.121714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108168 | 0.060242 | 0 | 0.25362 | 0 | 0.100933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048755 | 0.125271 | 0 | 0.089651 | 0.135004 | 0.101152 | 0.052947 | 0 | 0 | 0.072498 | 0.346367 | 0 | 0.059688 | 0 | 0.047617 | 0 | 0.055354 | 0.058306 | 0.072424 | 0 | 0.084148 | 0.04058 | 0.062222 | 0.452497 | 0.147714 | 0 | 0.06003 | 0 | 0 | 0.085995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052254 | 0.112062 | 0.100538 | 0 | 0 | 0.056942 | 0 | 0.057146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064539 | 0.089976 | 0.069242 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | big_chungus616 | 2019/03/05 | I’m tired All I hear are fights all I hear are doors slamming, arguments, violence, betrayal, depression I’m tired of life I wish I could go back to when I was a kid everything was simple and easy to understand and i don’t know what i did to be caught up in all of this. | -0.152488 | 2.01881 | 2.289704 | 93.40431 | 88.827586 | 7.452217 | 20.35468 | 8.418075 | 1.258475 | 211 | 7 | 50 | 6 | 7 | 72 | 39 | 58 | 0.343 | 0.572 | 0.084 | -0.9531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.562949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cashmerecat999 | 2019/03/05 | I'm so tired, everyone. 29/M/USA here. I'm in school and working as well.
I'm usually a high-performing student, but I developed a tolerance to my antidepressants early this term. One month has passed, and I barely accomplished anything. I finally started feeling better after one of my medication's dosages was incr... | 5.15186 | 8.605083 | 6.053636 | 66.731993 | 77 | 10.293706 | 35.734266 | 10.035473 | 5.249224 | 522 | 30 | 73 | 19 | 13 | 171 | 80 | 110 | 0.094 | 0.719 | 0.187 | 0.8694 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 45 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101058 | 0 | 0 | 0.218944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197673 | 0 | 0.141466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116544 | 0.229717 | 0 | 0 | 0.222059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220124 | 0 | 0 | 0.158644 | 0 | 0 | 0.179704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justsomeone101 | 2019/03/05 | Tonight I’m 56yrs old. In the past, I have counseled others who have wanted to commit suicide and have done my part to get them to choose not to do it that day and redirect them to help and in some cases I’ve been able to witness, they lived on to enjoy better days. I know a lot of the arguments to use. They are valid.... | 4.38349 | 4.904321 | 5.650502 | 81.930661 | 70.028744 | 9.053527 | 27.777539 | 9.164851 | 2.082461 | 2,544 | 82 | 531 | 48 | 43 | 854 | 266 | 661 | 0.088 | 0.833 | 0.079 | -0.7669 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 71 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 27 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 35 | 0 | 75 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 78 | 110 | 37 | 3 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 22 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 6 | 62 | 9 | 95 | 83 | 17 | 69 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 34 | 0 | 11 | 28 | 377 | 94 | 31 | 0.1592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043669 | 0.047241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08161 | 0 | 0.097047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054514 | 0.056138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054832 | 0 | 0.0701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040999 | 0 | 0.194076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058459 | 0 | 0 | 0.056491 | 0.047537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.579266 | 0 | 0 | 0.055261 | 0.058328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053187 | 0.234295 | 0 | 0.044563 | 0.356209 | 0 | 0.090231 | 0 | 0.050213 | 0.035422 | 0.107603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111369 | 0 | 0.071919 | 0.080719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057466 | 0.101316 | 0.110369 | 0.092672 | 0.055443 | 0.058251 | 0.050165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056443 | 0.053081 | 0 | 0.101988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135956 | 0 | 0.042201 | 0 | 0 | 0.042287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044963 | 0 | 0.052484 | 0 | 0.037561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121497 | 0.174139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105766 | 0.034003 | 0 | 0.042129 | 0.061887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055244 | 0 | 0.045833 | 0.058446 | 0 | 0.0626 | 0.21061 | 0.085134 | 0 | 0.047713 | 0 | 0.095769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1159 | 0 | 0.108159 | 0.075394 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taytay9955 | 2019/03/05 | The purpose of suicide hotlines So there have been a lot of post about hotlines and their effectiveness or lack of effectiveness lately. So let me explain what a hotline is supposed to be used for. It should be a place to receive emotional first aid, to help you come up with a safety plan until you can speak to your t... | 8.223864 | 7.653374 | 7.67825 | 74.340163 | 62.066038 | 10.3506 | 37.668954 | 9.573947 | 3.512447 | 901 | 39 | 162 | 14 | 11 | 283 | 122 | 212 | 0.078 | 0.818 | 0.104 | 0.7698 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 18 | 5 | 5 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 39 | 32 | 18 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 3 | 35 | 24 | 7 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 42 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 128 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126291 | 0 | 0.195027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111449 | 0.10372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063708 | 0.116974 | 0.0693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129614 | 0 | 0 | 0.408662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120084 | 0 | 0.130537 | 0 | 0 | 0.254543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067014 | 0 | 0.137551 | 0 | 0 | 0.12469 | 0 | 0.059573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103667 | 0 | 0 | 0.081394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122885 | 0.129357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116783 | 0 | 0.13147 | 0.350034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1243 | 0.206635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098009 | 0 | 0 | 0.139447 | 0.141579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Imachairbeech | 2019/03/05 | I hate life Every time I get somewhere good, I fuck it all up. I don’t have the balls to do it, but boy I wouldn’t be mad to die tomorrow. | -1.086364 | 0.039883 | 1.930303 | 100.815455 | 84.757576 | 5.612121 | 17.060606 | 6.427356 | -0.636103 | 104 | 2 | 30 | 1 | 3 | 37 | 25 | 33 | 0.383 | 0.565 | 0.052 | -0.9231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396668 | 0.224171 | 0 | 0 | 0.359884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eternallybroken4 | 2019/03/05 | I got screwed My anxiety just keeps getting worse. I have a panic attack about once a day and my medication isn't helping. I'm counting down the days till I have a mental breakdown at school. I feel so helpless and hopeless. I have a therapist but I don't think it's helping. I wish I was dead, but I'm scared shitless o... | 0.716667 | 2.36577 | 2.825704 | 94.039667 | 81.222222 | 5.431111 | 23.762963 | 6.2581 | 0.424556 | 384 | 14 | 90 | 3 | 10 | 130 | 67 | 108 | 0.287 | 0.563 | 0.15 | -0.9114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 26 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 56 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129563 | 0 | 0.145751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156786 | 0 | 0 | 0.216749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176137 | 0.099541 | 0 | 0.216559 | 0 | 0.15238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191934 | 0.192004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190748 | 0.192821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221214 | 0 | 0.244161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194161 | 0.135343 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BlueSamurai17 | 2019/03/05 | A look at my first attempt Hi, I’ve never posted on this subreddit before.I guess I just wanted to get it out here. I have been struggling with mental illnesses my entire life; it was only recently that I decided to act on it.
The first attempt I was at my school a year ago I had found out I was going to fail, and I ... | 2.227101 | 3.981185 | 4.11529 | 86.040761 | 77.067633 | 6.918841 | 24.060386 | 7.793538 | 1.239491 | 787 | 26 | 162 | 12 | 18 | 267 | 122 | 207 | 0.095 | 0.805 | 0.1 | -0.2401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 39 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 5 | 31 | 5 | 29 | 15 | 3 | 38 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 122 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137393 | 0 | 0 | 0.243431 | 0 | 0.156895 | 0 | 0 | 0.149521 | 0 | 0.081324 | 0 | 0.114445 | 0 | 0.157634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152102 | 0 | 0 | 0.095913 | 0 | 0 | 0.142125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101072 | 0.069909 | 0 | 0 | 0.126634 | 0.120163 | 0 | 0 | 0.121653 | 0 | 0.135399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144152 | 0.28841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220726 | 0.138201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13527 | 0 | 0.137045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09167 | 0 | 0.141288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136115 | 0 | 0.143262 | 0.289638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136732 | 0.158983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10165 | 0 | 0 | 0.092148 |
suicidewatch | Hairy_Activity | 2019/03/05 | Does anybody want to do it but can't bring yourself to begin deleting your social media first? It just feels like once I delete all social media (facebook, spotify, instagram, etc.) there's no turning back or if I do go back it'd be stupid to have to build all those profiles back up again | 4.617632 | 5.745455 | 4.872763 | 85.508092 | 69.877193 | 7.103509 | 28.285088 | 7.168622 | 1.482688 | 229 | 8 | 44 | 2 | 4 | 72 | 45 | 57 | 0.124 | 0.803 | 0.074 | -0.6124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 31 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12561 | 0.177473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.50647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ace7415 | 2019/03/05 | im so sick of this. it's been a long ass time since i've posted on here. please disregard the shitty punctuation, grammar, and lack of capital letters. anyway, i just got out of my 9th psych ward and it didn't help shit. long story short i have been molested by my dad many times (don't worry, he is out of the house no... | 2.572405 | 3.106477 | 3.881697 | 92.931584 | 74.148515 | 6.563508 | 23.339463 | 6.182691 | 0.292012 | 720 | 18 | 172 | 4 | 14 | 237 | 124 | 202 | 0.182 | 0.647 | 0.171 | -0.5514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 35 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 31 | 22 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 107 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122209 | 0 | 0.122819 | 0 | 0 | 0.159376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066098 | 0.093389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201994 | 0.362556 | 0.068298 | 0 | 0.074293 | 0 | 0.209104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087621 | 0 | 0.131127 | 0.129838 | 0 | 0.150838 | 0 | 0 | 0.141204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184668 | 0.063865 | 0 | 0 | 0.231373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228286 | 0 | 0.143496 | 0 | 0 | 0.125197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136374 | 0 | 0.134186 | 0.108136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210142 | 0 | 0.120353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152452 | 0.150248 | 0 | 0 | 0.145239 | 0.088753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132756 | 0 | 0.092862 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Enoshima11037 | 2019/03/05 | I don’t know what to do I’m scared. I’m so scared and have no one left to care for me. I feel pathetic and useless. I want to be dead so badly
But I have nothing to hold onto. My cries for help are ignored and I’m so alone. | -2.536739 | -0.848659 | 0.721348 | 103.376415 | 96.54717 | 3.783288 | 15.118598 | 5.288315 | -1.164906 | 170 | 4 | 47 | 1 | 7 | 60 | 34 | 53 | 0.437 | 0.46 | 0.103 | -0.9726 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.579465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WhatsAScience | 2019/03/05 | Lost and directionless I’m at a point in my life where I don’t know where I’m going. It seems like my education is bringing me nowhere but debt. I have no motivation to do homework or work or wash or clean. Even though I have a fucking amazing girlfriend the only thought that brings me peace is death. Idk. Pls don’t te... | 0.806295 | 2.873173 | 2.63988 | 93.299374 | 83.150943 | 5.363979 | 24.730703 | 6.574016 | 0.678558 | 392 | 16 | 89 | 4 | 11 | 130 | 68 | 106 | 0.265 | 0.535 | 0.2 | -0.8599 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 26 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 24 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 48 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23127 | 0 | 0 | 0.284345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176696 | 0.122216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273636 | 0 | 0.235774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245782 | 0.1986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bigtime-throwaway | 2019/03/05 | I’ve been ill since I was eleven, but I’m starting to wonder if it was all in my head this entire time. I fear I’ve thrown away my life on something that could have been fixed with therapy. It started when I was in fifth grade. I stopped enjoying school, I just didn’t seem to have the energy or motivation that my peers... | 5.381977 | 6.015116 | 6.136285 | 78.930103 | 67.858447 | 8.996869 | 32.385627 | 9.042354 | 2.708964 | 2,649 | 110 | 508 | 45 | 42 | 870 | 282 | 657 | 0.246 | 0.639 | 0.115 | -0.9988 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 65 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 24 | 34 | 6 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 48 | 30 | 6 | 8 | 11 | 101 | 97 | 28 | 1 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 34 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 17 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 35 | 12 | 83 | 13 | 88 | 57 | 14 | 74 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 38 | 2 | 11 | 32 | 348 | 117 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046533 | 0 | 0.054765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062526 | 0.051173 | 0 | 0.121704 | 0 | 0 | 0.149957 | 0.06984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106269 | 0 | 0 | 0.042919 | 0.06861 | 0.171958 | 0.067547 | 0.069068 | 0 | 0.152543 | 0.068116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056071 | 0 | 0 | 0.065098 | 0 | 0.074887 | 0.302846 | 0.142629 | 0 | 0 | 0.182476 | 0.056607 | 0 | 0 | 0.051416 | 0.061524 | 0 | 0 | 0.037822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065704 | 0.136598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036574 | 0.054247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282036 | 0.130051 | 0 | 0.058765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155884 | 0 | 0 | 0.146765 | 0.049346 | 0.102654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050614 | 0 | 0 | 0.073896 | 0 | 0 | 0.092274 | 0 | 0.208591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042633 | 0.068424 | 0 | 0 | 0.075388 | 0 | 0.063304 | 0 | 0.066628 | 0.202056 | 0.053032 | 0.121169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051233 | 0 | 0 | 0.188417 | 0 | 0.053147 | 0.055639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138341 | 0.050037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076105 | 0.309077 | 0.044213 | 0.085285 | 0 | 0.052833 | 0.077611 | 0.152978 | 0 | 0.063591 | 0 | 0.090366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05491 | 0.078506 | 0.105648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153058 | 0 | 0.07217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09455 | 0.072762 | 0 | 0.042856 |
suicidewatch | charles938 | 2019/03/05 | I was just mean to my best friend again. This keeps happening and I don’t know what the fuck to do about it. I keep feeling awful and taking it out on other people. I can’t understand why they don’t hate me yet, but I just made my best friend cry. Again. Over and over and over again. And I don’t want to keep poisoning ... | 0.248222 | 2.233889 | 2.11451 | 96.724183 | 84.764706 | 6.130719 | 16.503268 | 7.38713 | -0.088948 | 306 | 6 | 74 | 5 | 9 | 101 | 49 | 85 | 0.165 | 0.651 | 0.184 | 0.2287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 12 | 19 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 57 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311758 | 0.186524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178415 | 0 | 0 | 0.199196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538 | 0 | 0 | 0.110882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidalthrowaway113 | 2019/03/05 | I’ve posted here before, it keeps coming back Things were going well and they just came crashing down again. I really just wish I could do it. I don’t think I have the balls to. It’s constant suffering. I want it to end. | -0.532981 | 1.682314 | 1.338075 | 97.173696 | 97.26087 | 4.367702 | 13.093168 | 6.182691 | -0.790388 | 172 | 3 | 38 | 2 | 7 | 56 | 35 | 46 | 0.071 | 0.782 | 0.147 | 0.3134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251551 | 0 | 0.315572 | 0 | 0.233155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194006 | 0.187116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lordrandy7 | 2019/03/05 | sad whats the least painful and quickest way to kill myself with things at a normal house. | 6.671667 | 6.401521 | 5.196667 | 89.865 | 65.111111 | 7.2 | 29.111111 | 3.1291 | 0.850711 | 73 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 18 | 18 | 0.336 | 0.56 | 0.104 | -0.7502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ryfflex | 2019/03/05 | This sums up pretty much what the world really is. This may be the reason why, I would say, that almost all people suffering from depression feel this way.
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suicidewatch | CFLIP200 | 2019/03/05 | Someone to talk to Think about everyday - cut everyday - can I talk | 1.98 | 4.747337 | 3.466667 | 80.895 | 95.666667 | 9.066667 | 31 | 8.841846 | 4.1432 | 52 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 9 | 12 | 0.174 | 0.826 | 0 | -0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.834291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BubblesnConky | 2019/03/05 | Drowning I hate when hope and happiness are reintroduced into my life after I had become content with my sadness only to have that hope taken away. My girlfriend recently broke up with me. Being a manic depressive with abandonment (mommy) issues, I don’t know how I’m going to make it thru this time. I’m a 34yr old man ... | 2.225178 | 4.033027 | 4.323418 | 84.305709 | 77.24 | 7.425455 | 23.363636 | 8.296473 | 1.46324 | 477 | 15 | 96 | 9 | 11 | 164 | 89 | 125 | 0.249 | 0.654 | 0.097 | -0.9584 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 24 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 15 | 18 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 57 | 19 | 1 | 0.170519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176606 | 0.188172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187307 | 0 | 0 | 0.293735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089089 | 0 | 0.09691 | 0.143023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18152 | 0 | 0.168352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177977 | 0.169214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120442 | 0 | 0 | 0.150571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178931 | 0 | 0 | 0.129687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170642 | 0 | 0 | 0.131274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RedditsBanHammer | 2019/03/05 | Why should I keep on living when only a small portion of life is happiness? Yeah I know this is so cliche and overthought but I just don't understand why I should keep on going. Sure there's things now and then in life that are fun but the majority is life is working, exhausting myself, being stressed (or at least this... | 1.618345 | 3.180988 | 3.460207 | 90.915483 | 78.241379 | 6.708966 | 21.6 | 7.554174 | 0.633623 | 1,062 | 29 | 242 | 15 | 25 | 357 | 134 | 290 | 0.179 | 0.709 | 0.113 | -0.9759 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 28 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 55 | 28 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 27 | 9 | 34 | 40 | 7 | 38 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 157 | 40 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077077 | 0.063082 | 0 | 0.050009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21163 | 0.169155 | 0 | 0 | 0.170285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171445 | 0 | 0.186496 | 0.068809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082291 | 0 | 0.080791 | 0 | 0 | 0.092611 | 0 | 0 | 0.08141 | 0.218757 | 0 | 0 | 0.045086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089134 | 0 | 0.463566 | 0.04008 | 0 | 0.289763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06524 | 0 | 0.083027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084211 | 0 | 0 | 0.082097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281922 | 0.085764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047837 | 0 | 0 | 0.235172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AlarmedDoor | 2019/03/05 | "Nothing in life comes easy" I swear to god I just want to fucking strangle the people that say this. How can I be expected to put effort into bettering myself when I can't even find a reason to take a shower? Every time someone gives me this advice I just feel even more hopeless. | 4.241786 | 5.395228 | 5.252143 | 82.342857 | 70.785714 | 7.028571 | 26.5 | 7.168622 | 1.384014 | 222 | 7 | 41 | 2 | 4 | 73 | 45 | 56 | 0.084 | 0.799 | 0.117 | 0.204 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348455 | 0 | 0.22225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243865 | 0 | 0.253047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wikitiki350 | 2019/03/05 | I can't handle the constant pain and rejection I was ghosted again the other day after two weeks of deep conversation. People say that you get used to the rejection but that's only true when you occasionally succeed
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If all you ever do is fail and get rejected the pain just keeps building up. I've been getting steadi... | 4.925511 | 4.864816 | 5.644724 | 84.475754 | 68.735099 | 8.830316 | 28.698308 | 8.515129 | 1.772893 | 576 | 18 | 126 | 8 | 9 | 188 | 91 | 151 | 0.198 | 0.678 | 0.124 | -0.9497 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 26 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 6 | 14 | 19 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 83 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142126 | 0 | 0 | 0.141211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079446 | 0.112248 | 0 | 0.172119 | 0.143606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139657 | 0 | 0.163618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22196 | 0.153524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21294 | 0.119498 | 0.334377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149991 | 0.108928 | 0.137193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313154 | 0 | 0 | 0.124737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153485 | 0 | 0 | 0.135703 | 0 | 0 | 0.370698 | 0 | 0.126034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101181 |
suicidewatch | ihavethisfornoreason | 2019/03/05 | And I'm here again I keep postponing the date of my suicide and it's really frustrating me. I had planned to do it last year in early September, it had been planned a few months prior, but things kinda got better so I decided not to do it. The "better" didn't last very long though and I ended up planning it again, this... | 1.406604 | 3.300219 | 3.312553 | 90.192981 | 80.069182 | 7.258868 | 23.178616 | 8.238736 | 1.274427 | 592 | 20 | 132 | 12 | 15 | 199 | 94 | 159 | 0.176 | 0.72 | 0.105 | -0.8353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 27 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 14 | 16 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 89 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16502 | 0 | 0.177787 | 0.156072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278773 | 0 | 0 | 0.103944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121587 | 0 | 0.164442 | 0 | 0.089439 | 0 | 0.125866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156308 | 0 | 0 | 0.168472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139881 | 0 | 0 | 0.086488 | 0.256561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15773 | 0 | 0.139271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251228 | 0 | 0.115688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104552 | 0 | 0.154619 | 0 | 0.183532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12985 | 0.278469 | 0 | 0.126236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101343 |
suicidewatch | Feircemajora | 2019/03/05 | My second post i was on the verge of doing it yesterday and i am refusing hospitalization because i hate that feeling of being trapped in a building and not being allowed to leave.
this whole losing my friend is bugging the shit out of me, i need to let go but at the end i have no answers as to why he is ignoring me,... | 3.447214 | 3.6943 | 4.666684 | 89.130989 | 72 | 7.828877 | 27.807487 | 7.686295 | 1.338059 | 619 | 21 | 144 | 7 | 11 | 205 | 104 | 170 | 0.189 | 0.671 | 0.14 | -0.8617 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 20 | 6 | 22 | 16 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 102 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093009 | 0 | 0 | 0.171901 | 0.16012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270275 | 0 | 0 | 0.100775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135617 | 0 | 0.158885 | 0.083852 | 0 | 0 | 0.161556 | 0 | 0.15602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121785 | 0 | 0 | 0.113133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121129 | 0.088969 | 0 | 0 | 0.145793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179987 | 0.121108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137676 | 0.170346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108386 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thiehis | 2019/03/05 | Hi. Honestly. Not sure what to think when I read posts. I think some might not or some will some have or some that have not. I honestly wish I could help all. I'm always open to discussions about a lot of topics. My main focus is mental health. It's kind of not fair to be diagnosed rather then heard. Sometimes we just ... | 1.124972 | 3.277397 | 2.5088 | 94.201785 | 82.52 | 6.086154 | 19.215385 | 7.32111 | 0.288452 | 471 | 12 | 106 | 7 | 13 | 152 | 77 | 125 | 0.101 | 0.814 | 0.085 | -0.2644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 13 | 16 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 69 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167536 | 0 | 0 | 0.105645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158344 | 0.515063 | 0 | 0 | 0.158838 | 0.167203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157656 | 0 | 0.100971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267091 | 0 | 0.155884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148549 | 0 | 0 | 0.380052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181248 | 0 | 0.170925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Versti | 2019/03/05 | The only reason I'm still alive... (Contain slurs)
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Basically I've been a good student until the 7th grade, after that it's been a downhill, I realized what I want to do with my life; adventure and actually f###ing live, instead of waking up at 6am, go to school at 7, get back at 3pm, study ... | 12.996898 | 4.866534 | 12.14039 | 69.227338 | 61.116402 | 14.803656 | 44.416546 | 8.57599 | 3.99597 | 1,384 | 38 | 311 | 10 | 11 | 459 | 174 | 378 | 0.102 | 0.745 | 0.152 | 0.8702 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 81 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 19 | 4 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 47 | 50 | 22 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 41 | 9 | 54 | 40 | 2 | 61 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 16 | 29 | 5 | 2 | 25 | 192 | 60 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.068252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055931 | 0 | 0.303121 | 0.33994 | 0.047562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065711 | 0.05378 | 0 | 0.127905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076826 | 0.135317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036541 | 0.134186 | 0.079497 | 0.058663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068877 | 0 | 0 | 0.078954 | 0 | 0 | 0.069405 | 0.124332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151981 | 0 | 0.148203 | 0 | 0.070099 | 0.247034 | 0 | 0 | 0.078245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047393 | 0.212771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066529 | 0 | 0.140045 | 0.283133 | 0.111467 | 0.127342 | 0 | 0 | 0.143585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139396 | 0.134445 | 0.068716 | 0 | 0.040783 | 0 | 0.066295 | 0 | 0 | 0.047485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08413 | 0.060406 | 0 | 0 | 0.247516 | 0.111031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049684 | 0 | 0.33994 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TorrentPrincess | 2019/03/05 | I'm not good at anything, I'm wasting everyone's time, I should just kill myself. It doesn't get better. Everything ends up constantly proving to me that I would be better off dead. I've never held a job down for more than a few months at 23 and I'm pathetic, I've been in and out of the hospital and done all the progra... | 0.887763 | 2.59241 | 3.180913 | 91.430135 | 80.912568 | 6.491675 | 21.693668 | 7.510576 | 0.719394 | 658 | 20 | 150 | 10 | 17 | 226 | 94 | 183 | 0.274 | 0.704 | 0.022 | -0.9922 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 38 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 20 | 27 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 90 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119691 | 0 | 0 | 0.198633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106895 | 0.124704 | 0 | 0.079714 | 0 | 0 | 0.230647 | 0.216935 | 0 | 0.22755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315275 | 0 | 0.06859 | 0.202456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108114 | 0.119155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23953 | 0.107274 | 0.133524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077333 | 0.118576 | 0 | 0.070375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085734 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway-needshelp | 2019/03/05 | Trapped in bad situation and I need help | 17F To start off, I know rule number 2 is that this isn't a hotline, but I'm in a region in which I have no other support and I don't know where to go. I've been trapped in a very unstable situation for the last two years, with extreme poverty, living in a bunch of different p... | 4.787217 | 4.859289 | 5.995597 | 81.384465 | 69.036832 | 9.307417 | 31.555835 | 9.178173 | 2.521688 | 2,074 | 82 | 437 | 37 | 33 | 698 | 233 | 543 | 0.163 | 0.783 | 0.055 | -0.9962 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 51 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 26 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 46 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 80 | 97 | 37 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 7 | 57 | 6 | 63 | 80 | 6 | 69 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 35 | 1 | 5 | 26 | 280 | 80 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.063891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070939 | 0.079555 | 0.044523 | 0.068653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054666 | 0.039911 | 0.072308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056398 | 0.068646 | 0 | 0.073432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084448 | 0.067498 | 0.112781 | 0 | 0 | 0.068404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117683 | 0.064044 | 0 | 0 | 0.132418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071786 | 0.101167 | 0 | 0.068413 | 0 | 0.186045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043884 | 0.069174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151091 | 0 | 0 | 0.070721 | 0 | 0 | 0.174583 | 0 | 0 | 0.143926 | 0.160104 | 0 | 0.069325 | 0.071135 | 0 | 0.092489 | 0.063972 | 0 | 0.173438 | 0 | 0 | 0.073246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061951 | 0.043703 | 0 | 0 | 0.071318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066108 | 0.07668 | 0 | 0 | 0.096258 | 0.194186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068702 | 0 | 0.088731 | 0.248971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114335 | 0.068404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074521 | 0.167771 | 0.067316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111825 | 0.062279 | 0.052066 | 0.262194 | 0.132522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054159 | 0.294372 | 0 | 0.13348 | 0.055474 | 0.252016 | 0 | 0.07329 | 0.139024 | 0.069784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105247 | 0.171675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043496 | 0.167806 | 0 | 0.103954 | 0.076354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054021 | 0.038617 | 0.051968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079555 | 0.084323 |
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