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suicidewatch | holly-hideaway | 2019/03/05 | Need Help - I Think Everyone Hates Me This is probably gonna be a bit long. I created a throwaway account for this, don't want people to recognize me, but I'll give a few details. You can call me K, and I'm a 16 year old kinda-girl that goes to a technical high school. I've been suicidal since I was 12, and I have chro... | 3.748619 | 4.231051 | 4.730462 | 88.099385 | 71.431421 | 7.848341 | 25.481203 | 7.837336 | 1.150457 | 2,999 | 83 | 666 | 36 | 53 | 980 | 304 | 802 | 0.168 | 0.654 | 0.178 | 0.9274 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 97 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 39 | 51 | 11 | 1 | 32 | 1 | 59 | 11 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 127 | 124 | 65 | 8 | 9 | 21 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 46 | 46 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 22 | 19 | 1 | 15 | 38 | 7 | 94 | 32 | 103 | 76 | 15 | 95 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 60 | 46 | 4 | 8 | 40 | 457 | 140 | 8 | 0 | 0.048605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040683 | 0 | 0 | 0.033758 | 0.036519 | 0.038351 | 0 | 0.154168 | 0.031544 | 0 | 0.025007 | 0.045306 | 0 | 0.046218 | 0.043051 | 0 | 0.044786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043396 | 0 | 0.043011 | 0 | 0 | 0.032753 | 0 | 0 | 0.026456 | 0 | 0.105998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034269 | 0 | 0.036334 | 0 | 0 | 0.10838 | 0 | 0 | 0.078398 | 0.036868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039388 | 0 | 0 | 0.069787 | 0 | 0.089958 | 0.443714 | 0.075849 | 0.08573 | 0.039353 | 0.069942 | 0.068815 | 0 | 0.135682 | 0 | 0 | 0.036276 | 0.043669 | 0.073496 | 0.040501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027497 | 0.043343 | 0.041149 | 0 | 0 | 0.047334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145851 | 0.226927 | 0.042719 | 0.112724 | 0 | 0 | 0.086874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100208 | 0.041115 | 0.144895 | 0.036304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074049 | 0.194082 | 0.109531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041326 | 0.041341 | 0 | 0 | 0.144135 | 0 | 0.130801 | 0.030156 | 0.030418 | 0.126556 | 0.07924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043046 | 0.043688 | 0.277979 | 0.062399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113759 | 0.179096 | 0.04286 | 0 | 0.077559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044229 | 0 | 0.047953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046693 | 0.07884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039022 | 0 | 0.041071 | 0.166068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084218 | 0.101803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034758 | 0.031581 | 0 | 0 | 0.029036 | 0 | 0.065521 | 0.034297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164862 | 0 | 0 | 0.046913 | 0 | 0.109014 | 0.026286 | 0.201522 | 0 | 0.023921 | 0.094299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194961 | 0.044621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033848 | 0.145177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089703 | 0 | 0.079251 |
suicidewatch | bola981 | 2019/03/05 | I think about suicide almost daily (Disclaimer: English is not my first language, so I apologise in advance for any grammar mistakes.)
The title pretty much sums it up. I just want to get away from here, I dont want to be here anymore. Only thing that is keeping me from ending it all is the fact that this pain wont go... | 1.416316 | 3.675752 | 2.896053 | 91.219868 | 82.157895 | 4.642105 | 21.078947 | 5.683918 | 0.109821 | 365 | 11 | 73 | 2 | 10 | 119 | 65 | 95 | 0.169 | 0.717 | 0.114 | -0.8353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 55 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164166 | 0 | 0.174057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205345 | 0 | 0.111686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144463 | 0.145716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133166 | 0.298921 | 0.418218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130558 | 0.125921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TapioTapioca | 2019/10/31 | My head is spinning in dark thoughts right now. Can't really sleep. I feel so fucking horrible rn, it's like my head is just spinning in dying dreams. I want to puke. I know if I commit suicide, everyone will be sad, but it's just very difficult just to not think about this. I hate myself for being so weak, I hate mys... | 2.370124 | 3.686779 | 3.879295 | 89.736467 | 75.633663 | 7.030198 | 23.516089 | 7.645422 | 0.919167 | 750 | 22 | 166 | 10 | 16 | 249 | 111 | 202 | 0.286 | 0.621 | 0.093 | -0.9946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 37 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 29 | 4 | 22 | 24 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 108 | 39 | 0 | 0.141506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093463 | 0 | 0 | 0.27043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13082 | 0.147862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419124 | 0.290452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138265 | 0.141826 | 0.124952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300231 | 0 | 0.16573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241691 | 0.134605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147622 | 0 | 0.145254 | 0 | 0 | 0.141608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181343 | 0 | 0.11234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116757 | 0.166928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091125 |
suicidewatch | natchooo | 2019/10/31 | Dear self...I am sorry I failed you. Since my teenage years I've been contemplating suicide but I've never done it because of my parents. Now that I'm older, I still don't see purpose in living even though I've been looking for one my whole life.Staying alive because of my parents now doesn't mean as much as it did bac... | 1.371861 | 3.16245 | 3.316654 | 90.621579 | 79.745614 | 5.921805 | 22.260652 | 6.86897 | 0.529876 | 1,682 | 52 | 370 | 18 | 42 | 567 | 179 | 456 | 0.23 | 0.671 | 0.099 | -0.9966 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 52 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 11 | 26 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 55 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 63 | 91 | 31 | 5 | 8 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 18 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 5 | 73 | 15 | 53 | 64 | 9 | 37 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 29 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 261 | 84 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060785 | 0 | 0 | 0.062766 | 0.045485 | 0.047327 | 0 | 0 | 0.038679 | 0.059641 | 0 | 0 | 0.056407 | 0 | 0 | 0.093611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053438 | 0.087471 | 0.04749 | 0.069344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119379 | 0.050304 | 0 | 0.063178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097977 | 0 | 0.11806 | 0 | 0 | 0.058217 | 0 | 0.058205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075134 | 0 | 0.095844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053619 | 0 | 0.057518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068777 | 0 | 0.043943 | 0 | 0.118865 | 0.054562 | 0.06465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125314 | 0 | 0 | 0.060547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241046 | 0 | 0 | 0.25112 | 0.050335 | 0.095526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075932 | 0 | 0 | 0.123913 | 0 | 0.057298 | 0 | 0.060338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060452 | 0.041812 | 0 | 0.043867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115625 | 0.043258 | 0.060522 | 0 | 0.252623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064739 | 0.036437 | 0 | 0.112319 | 0 | 0.064431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057563 | 0.045324 | 0 | 0.237343 | 0 | 0 | 0.04705 | 0 | 0 | 0.057979 | 0.048192 | 0 | 0 | 0.573028 | 0 | 0.060624 | 0.045422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055882 | 0.090309 | 0.066332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038616 | 0.061866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167739 | 0.045147 | 0 | 0 | 0.102279 | 0 | 0 | 0.190505 | 0 | 0.054828 | 0 | 0.041408 | 0 | 0 | 0.040404 | 0.062187 | 0 | 0.036627 |
suicidewatch | Da_real_Poopeepie | 2019/10/31 | I just care too much and its killing me I'm fu*king tired of literally every thing I just wanna pause forever nothing, nothing is working out for me my friends who I would give life for im not even exaggerating I would give life for don't really care about me anymore like I get everyone's busy with their own lives but ... | 3.694167 | 4.520623 | 4.120444 | 91.169 | 71.777778 | 7.241481 | 25.048148 | 7.3011 | 0.814578 | 822 | 23 | 186 | 8 | 15 | 258 | 116 | 216 | 0.166 | 0.689 | 0.145 | -0.7981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 33 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 34 | 11 | 27 | 23 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 126 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094639 | 0 | 0 | 0.078529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.583769 | 0.196061 | 0 | 0.082203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189087 | 0 | 0.080402 | 0.091185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115392 | 0 | 0.073727 | 0 | 0.049857 | 0.274629 | 0.054234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094488 | 0 | 0 | 0.085484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220222 | 0 | 0 | 0.103078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101044 | 0 | 0 | 0.20221 | 0.186485 | 0 | 0.084264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140301 | 0 | 0 | 0.092165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183131 | 0 | 0.100135 | 0 | 0.258657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086874 | 0 | 0 | 0.097955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097277 | 0 | 0 | 0.09438 | 0 | 0.067544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063398 | 0.061146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069473 | 0 | 0 | 0.135578 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eggmat | 2019/10/31 | This post like every other will get lost in a see of despair I'm just feeling down
It been like this for months
The thoughts of sucide come and go
But the intensity has increased as the days goes
Every day I wake up with a nauseous feeling in my gut
Like this wrenching feeling of misery and self doubt
Falling... | 2.408509 | 4.922157 | 2.723626 | 92.409211 | 80.111111 | 5.789474 | 24.473684 | 7.060882 | 0.933333 | 730 | 27 | 148 | 9 | 19 | 223 | 111 | 180 | 0.152 | 0.759 | 0.089 | -0.9319 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 32 | 24 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 12 | 6 | 22 | 18 | 3 | 28 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 94 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165459 | 0.134732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124879 | 0 | 0 | 0.403481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14148 | 0.263561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316339 | 0.111738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081717 | 0 | 0.08889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124844 | 0 | 0.114978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124637 | 0 | 0.163168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129053 | 0.092254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChemicalEmilyBoo | 2019/10/31 | Suicide seems a lot harder than I realized. Not sure of the best place to post this. Just need some love.
I had attempted multiple things last year. I'm a trans girl and I began Hormones December 19th. It brought me some happiness, but it also caused so many ignorant people to pick on me. For the past year I have bee... | 2.90068 | 4.05325 | 4.087665 | 89.419355 | 74.026882 | 7.034716 | 24.576037 | 7.44753 | 0.961936 | 1,397 | 42 | 305 | 16 | 28 | 457 | 183 | 372 | 0.179 | 0.706 | 0.115 | -0.9831 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 26 | 25 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 24 | 11 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 68 | 54 | 24 | 2 | 11 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 36 | 13 | 49 | 34 | 8 | 55 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 11 | 36 | 201 | 58 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143759 | 0 | 0.081198 | 0 | 0 | 0.064846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056698 | 0 | 0.133457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069 | 0 | 0.085097 | 0.071715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166599 | 0.08578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430918 | 0.083785 | 0 | 0.160673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074113 | 0 | 0 | 0.088908 | 0.062648 | 0 | 0.042365 | 0 | 0.046084 | 0.068012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086319 | 0 | 0.080057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144149 | 0 | 0 | 0.044564 | 0.066097 | 0.09147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229099 | 0.118846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136186 | 0 | 0 | 0.068938 | 0.073185 | 0 | 0.054127 | 0.08221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064723 | 0.086183 | 0 | 0.060125 | 0 | 0 | 0.086238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077407 | 0.168648 | 0 | 0.084719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155319 | 0.082495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162366 | 0 | 0 | 0.147638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062425 | 0 | 0 | 0.114789 | 0 | 0.129513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177394 | 0 | 0.152848 | 0 | 0.060968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094149 | 0.053871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047283 | 0.186397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070034 | 0 | 0 | 0.095655 | 0.064364 | 0.195131 | 0 | 0.072908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082635 | 0.115205 | 0 | 0 | 0.104436 |
suicidewatch | Renegard | 2019/10/31 | My future has gone up in flames Failed an exam today. I studied for it for weeks. I got a tutor. I did everything I was told to do to pass the fucking exam and I still fucking failed. This is the third time I've failed this fucking class. I'm on academic probation so if I fail this course again I'm getting kicked out o... | 1.820319 | 3.617504 | 3.943617 | 86.618499 | 78.401198 | 6.369501 | 25.504591 | 7.3011 | 1.231883 | 627 | 24 | 130 | 8 | 15 | 215 | 97 | 167 | 0.211 | 0.746 | 0.043 | -0.9811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 30 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 19 | 21 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 11 | 83 | 27 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.754402 | 0.142113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096064 | 0.066445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100845 | 0.104895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079305 | 0 | 0.128916 | 0.129958 | 0 | 0.092338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109094 | 0 | 0 | 0.252154 | 0.122723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148699 | 0 | 0.087582 |
suicidewatch | TiredAndBurntout45 | 2019/10/31 | So tired I’m fucking tired of everything.
The ableism, (I’m autistic), the bigotry, the judgement.
Is it too much to ask that we get treated like fucking human beings?
I’m fucking tired of college and people who don’t understand or care.
I’m fucking tired of this depression that two decades of this life has... | 2.709786 | 5.119133 | 4.025465 | 84.094067 | 78.276018 | 6.371123 | 27.692513 | 7.520523 | 1.790256 | 897 | 39 | 165 | 13 | 22 | 294 | 109 | 221 | 0.26 | 0.662 | 0.077 | -0.994 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 26 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 18 | 28 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 54 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 27 | 46 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 14 | 6 | 14 | 4 | 4 | 103 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04513 | 0 | 0.04814 | 0 | 0.050496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.643752 | 0.027985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075668 | 0.052338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05693 | 0.078752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07427 | 0.04677 | 0 | 0 | 0.050636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.677208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036367 | 0 | 0.052325 | 0.055762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038051 | 0.058564 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | blondecity | 2019/10/31 | Everything hurts. I'm just gonna dump all of my thoughts here so I can quit burdening my loved ones with them today. Any comments appreciated since I just want to be heard.
My whole life has sucked. I have nothing that normal people have because something is wrong with me that makes it hard for me to establish and mai... | 9.454477 | 7.692439 | 9.252431 | 67.864764 | 60.407186 | 12.166719 | 40.356918 | 10.91032 | 4.437976 | 7,055 | 307 | 1,215 | 141 | 76 | 2,303 | 603 | 1,670 | 0.209 | 0.685 | 0.106 | -0.9997 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 154 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 78 | 104 | 12 | 19 | 59 | 1 | 129 | 45 | 20 | 21 | 17 | 262 | 252 | 129 | 4 | 31 | 43 | 3 | 12 | 12 | 9 | 14 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 45 | 106 | 4 | 5 | 32 | 2 | 19 | 23 | 34 | 59 | 1 | 7 | 47 | 27 | 164 | 45 | 230 | 169 | 41 | 188 | 2 | 13 | 11 | 4 | 58 | 82 | 3 | 26 | 91 | 854 | 209 | 30 | 0.056978 | 0 | 0.027801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059012 | 0.062877 | 0.045566 | 0.047411 | 0 | 0 | 0.058121 | 0 | 0.108971 | 0 | 0.084761 | 0 | 0 | 0.046888 | 0 | 0 | 0.032411 | 0.026767 | 0.043813 | 0.047575 | 0.208401 | 0.062928 | 0.072727 | 0 | 0.059795 | 0.075589 | 0 | 0.12658 | 0 | 0.127213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029266 | 0 | 0.024541 | 0 | 0.061573 | 0 | 0.159224 | 0.031523 | 0 | 0.165358 | 0 | 0.049075 | 0 | 0.029567 | 0.05953 | 0.032651 | 0 | 0 | 0.029154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023799 | 0.032046 | 0.050466 | 0.029437 | 0 | 0.263436 | 0.10308 | 0.168023 | 0.027223 | 0.102417 | 0 | 0.053714 | 0 | 0.129645 | 0.040705 | 0.027354 | 0.062417 | 0.026039 | 0.024233 | 0.034449 | 0 | 0.198096 | 0.026338 | 0.253035 | 0.054659 | 0.145719 | 0.047791 | 0.045571 | 0 | 0.031384 | 0 | 0 | 0.030327 | 0.025521 | 0.084381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03376 | 0.019096 | 0.0301 | 0.028577 | 0 | 0.028056 | 0.065745 | 0.030498 | 0 | 0 | 0.059471 | 0.056542 | 0.025322 | 0.063038 | 0 | 0.062628 | 0 | 0 | 0.030166 | 0.092861 | 0 | 0.140859 | 0.16702 | 0 | 0.025156 | 0.025212 | 0.119619 | 0 | 0.062199 | 0.02422 | 0.077138 | 0.053914 | 0.190167 | 0.086651 | 0.085864 | 0.031033 | 0 | 0.0287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033366 | 0 | 0 | 0.062828 | 0 | 0.08789 | 0 | 0 | 0.05347 | 0.08374 | 0.054672 | 0 | 0.029895 | 0 | 0.057915 | 0.108336 | 0.030314 | 0 | 0.031634 | 0 | 0 | 0.177757 | 0.049751 | 0 | 0 | 0.080794 | 0 | 0.027285 | 0 | 0.061432 | 0.02726 | 0 | 0.057279 | 0 | 0.090905 | 0 | 0 | 0.018251 | 0 | 0 | 0.061173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028523 | 0.057665 | 0.045404 | 0.051871 | 0.02972 | 0 | 0.029244 | 0.188532 | 0 | 0.02851 | 0.174247 | 0.024139 | 0.065797 | 0.028177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15926 | 0.023818 | 0 | 0.178698 | 0 | 0.031163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042841 | 0.045797 | 0 | 0 | 0.09774 | 0 | 0.018927 | 0.054764 | 0 | 0.045234 | 0.14951 | 0.065488 | 0.027004 | 0.027223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02783 | 0.029658 | 0 | 0.024605 | 0 | 0 | 0.100822 | 0.045227 | 0 | 0 | 0.025615 | 0 | 0 | 0.031807 | 0 | 0.054925 | 0 | 0.02074 | 0.028932 | 0 | 0.121427 | 0.031148 | 0 | 0.055038 |
suicidewatch | CrabsAreNeat | 2019/10/31 | I’m going to do it I can’t take it anymore, I’ve decided to hang myself tonight | -2.645965 | -0.976132 | 1.785263 | 93.543509 | 103.210526 | 4.638596 | 22.122807 | 6.427356 | 0.66867 | 63 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 15 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.724869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.549556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | StackGambler | 2019/10/31 | Thanks everyone for being here If I thought I was the only one who felt this way, I would have killed myself months ago. It's a supreme comfort to know that I'm not in this alone, and other people know what I feel like. I'm not that weird after all. Thanks everyone. | 1.968 | 3.852877 | 2.86 | 94.15 | 78.272727 | 5.854545 | 20.090909 | 6.742158 | 0.112018 | 209 | 5 | 46 | 2 | 5 | 66 | 43 | 55 | 0.109 | 0.632 | 0.258 | 0.8002 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 30 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213863 | 0 | 0 | 0.249873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121988 | 0.172356 | 0.231648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266919 | 0 | 0.265181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163484 | 0.183489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171384 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dooms_day_clock | 2019/10/31 | I'm really lonely, help I'm an 18 years old male
I live in Iran
Here boys and girls go to separate schools, gyms etc. (But they don't go to to different universities)
I have never had a female friend. I have never had a girlfriend. I have never had sex. I have never seen a woman's body from close. Just like many ot... | 0.178842 | 2.214721 | 2.805933 | 91.343933 | 85.479401 | 5.180886 | 16.697533 | 6.48374 | -0.22351 | 964 | 20 | 211 | 10 | 29 | 335 | 133 | 267 | 0.061 | 0.85 | 0.089 | 0.7819 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 43 | 42 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 34 | 5 | 35 | 31 | 8 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 150 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083574 | 0 | 0 | 0.136606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08896 | 0 | 0.112018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0776 | 0 | 0.157428 | 0 | 0.114165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102707 | 0 | 0.04907 | 0 | 0.088691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073835 | 0 | 0.464795 | 0 | 0 | 0.094257 | 0 | 0 | 0.114352 | 0.105395 | 0 | 0 | 0.076389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085776 | 0 | 0.159749 | 0 | 0.101651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151037 | 0.08073 | 0.087789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06468 |
suicidewatch | Similar_Tree | 2019/10/31 | Thinking about killing my self Rn (serious) Hey guys I’m going to try to make this short as possible, long story short I was falsely accused of rape my freshman year of college ( I’m a senior now) I was cleared of all charged from the school and the girl actually got suspended from the school since her claims where pro... | 5.460634 | 6.26833 | 5.909565 | 80.004275 | 67.75 | 9.176812 | 31.637681 | 9.299571 | 2.734331 | 751 | 30 | 143 | 14 | 12 | 242 | 110 | 184 | 0.181 | 0.77 | 0.049 | -0.9763 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 30 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 89 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.159832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308806 | 0 | 0.082815 | 0.117009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139316 | 0 | 0.179583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186167 | 0 | 0.130995 | 0 | 0 | 0.162174 | 0.144835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115687 | 0.080018 | 0 | 0.144626 | 0.144946 | 0 | 0 | 0.178792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139872 | 0 | 0 | 0.163978 | 0.497281 | 0 | 0 | 0.170865 | 0 | 0 | 0.270971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15525 | 0 | 0 | 0.1112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105473 |
suicidewatch | billyonthesheets | 2019/10/31 | Does anyone know of any pro-suicide sites or forums? Looking for some info on overdosing | 3.765 | 6.960116 | 4.4925 | 77.1025 | 81.5 | 5.7 | 26.75 | 7.168622 | 2.0601 | 72 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 16 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sukacabra | 2019/10/31 | I started writing goodbye letters for “fun” and I’m scared I’ve always had the infamous “want to stop existing but don’t wanna die” attitude, but I’d never ever consider suicide. Those past few weeks however I’ve started entertaining the idea, with little games like “let’s pretend I’m going to kill myself at the end of... | 4.374487 | 5.046765 | 5.266948 | 84.129135 | 70.120332 | 8.016701 | 29.170384 | 8.076483 | 1.872288 | 935 | 34 | 189 | 12 | 16 | 306 | 133 | 241 | 0.161 | 0.633 | 0.207 | 0.7935 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 55 | 44 | 18 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 24 | 8 | 29 | 32 | 5 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 124 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116733 | 0 | 0 | 0.117512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102421 | 0 | 0.216387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229005 | 0.16178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217236 | 0.193049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242425 | 0.12782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231566 | 0 | 0.165952 | 0.113484 | 0.099982 | 0 | 0 | 0.126673 | 0 | 0 | 0.102192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087328 | 0 | 0.240837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076726 | 0.086115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11336 | 0 | 0.090228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095937 | 0 | 0.111985 | 0 | 0.240429 | 0 | 0 | 0.094663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145103 | 0.111245 | 0.08989 | 0.066024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333923 | 0 | 0.090824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130206 | 0 | 0 | 0.082431 | 0 | 0 | 0.160867 | 0 | 0 | 0.072915 |
suicidewatch | bonny-smith | 2019/10/31 | never being 'normal' (female 18 I've never felt close to my family due to many reasons including addiction within family, abuse etc and don't feel comfortable talking to my friends as i feel they won't understand or take me seriously).i feel isolated from the world and my peers. I've felt severely lonely and depressed ... | 8.289812 | 7.258894 | 8.333799 | 71.19 | 62.177305 | 11.404661 | 37.164134 | 10.546248 | 3.889439 | 2,941 | 120 | 524 | 59 | 35 | 960 | 318 | 705 | 0.192 | 0.713 | 0.094 | -0.9957 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 64 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 34 | 47 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 49 | 20 | 5 | 10 | 6 | 126 | 113 | 44 | 5 | 16 | 20 | 0 | 22 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 30 | 30 | 3 | 1 | 36 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 20 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 33 | 89 | 24 | 83 | 80 | 14 | 68 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 22 | 29 | 0 | 18 | 37 | 351 | 119 | 5 | 0 | 0.124533 | 0.051284 | 0.05729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056163 | 0.052624 | 0.054429 | 0.17398 | 0 | 0.131184 | 0 | 0 | 0.035738 | 0 | 0.040203 | 0.05937 | 0.104236 | 0 | 0 | 0.043246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04527 | 0.055101 | 0.056791 | 0 | 0.041959 | 0 | 0.057727 | 0.067784 | 0 | 0.135791 | 0 | 0.163624 | 0.054906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051482 | 0.060945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234441 | 0.069421 | 0.047537 | 0.044278 | 0 | 0.047231 | 0 | 0.148626 | 0 | 0.345439 | 0.112631 | 0.151377 | 0 | 0.144097 | 0.044701 | 0 | 0.057621 | 0.162409 | 0 | 0.08237 | 0 | 0.059734 | 0.044079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055943 | 0.141231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035225 | 0.055525 | 0.052715 | 0.104394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054851 | 0 | 0 | 0.058142 | 0 | 0.086645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114197 | 0 | 0.185598 | 0.128373 | 0 | 0.046405 | 0 | 0.088262 | 0.058793 | 0 | 0.044678 | 0 | 0 | 0.105238 | 0.05328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162128 | 0.050756 | 0 | 0 | 0.102981 | 0.050426 | 0 | 0.055145 | 0 | 0.035611 | 0.159875 | 0.05592 | 0.061659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036433 | 0.091774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059817 | 0 | 0.108066 | 0.05189 | 0.056422 | 0.059532 | 0 | 0 | 0.041792 | 0 | 0 | 0.251267 | 0 | 0.164472 | 0.05937 | 0 | 0.043472 | 0 | 0.052591 | 0 | 0 | 0.080915 | 0 | 0 | 0.037197 | 0 | 0.041969 | 0.043936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079026 | 0.08448 | 0 | 0 | 0.060099 | 0 | 0 | 0.134695 | 0 | 0.125163 | 0.091932 | 0.060402 | 0 | 0.050216 | 0 | 0.07136 | 0.057162 | 0 | 0.054709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043362 | 0.092991 | 0.041714 | 0 | 0.063995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050659 | 0.056991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149328 | 0.057458 | 0 | 0.101527 |
suicidewatch | EitherFlunky | 2019/10/31 | Done with everything I don’t know if I just need to vent or to be heard. But right now I really don’t feel like being alive. I keep getting this innate urge to start hurting myself and starving myself as a cruel punishment because I loathe myself. I do nothing but fuck up my relationships with everyone in my life. I’m ... | 4.098978 | 5.153663 | 5.172943 | 83.148157 | 71.028302 | 7.728805 | 27.340881 | 8.021204 | 1.675499 | 831 | 28 | 164 | 11 | 15 | 274 | 124 | 212 | 0.129 | 0.684 | 0.186 | 0.9344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 39 | 36 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 27 | 8 | 31 | 25 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 109 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140158 | 0 | 0 | 0.1163 | 0.125811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093345 | 0 | 0 | 0.135044 | 0.254031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071459 | 0.100964 | 0 | 0 | 0.12917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261308 | 0.147675 | 0.135573 | 0 | 0.118538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139531 | 0.145042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125618 | 0 | 0 | 0.155339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099823 | 0.069045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090537 | 0 | 0 | 0.151732 | 0 | 0.120692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100032 | 0.150635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130115 | 0.161619 | 0 | 0.093891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082409 | 0 | 0 | 0.135044 | 0 | 0.191903 | 0 | 0 | 0.147126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100394 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | T-rev_okc | 2019/10/31 | Does anyone else have that feeling to just want to “checkout”? Let me elaborate,
I am content with myself, I make decent money,
I have very little debt, live on my own, I’m fed and eat good daily, got clothes on my back, have great friends, love my family,
I’m a decently happy human being.
Don’t have any worries that I... | 4.268718 | 4.863198 | 5.755769 | 80.810064 | 70.318681 | 8.264469 | 28.35348 | 8.3441 | 1.954933 | 350 | 12 | 69 | 5 | 6 | 119 | 64 | 91 | 0.052 | 0.672 | 0.275 | 0.9665 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 8 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149053 | 0.218417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186546 | 0.218146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218125 | 0.178075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200957 | 0 | 0.107785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178796 | 0.170491 | 0.23502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21798 | 0 | 0.104144 | 0.213652 | 0.188232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192394 | 0 | 0.142292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175887 | 0.251465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Local_700_VFX_Editor | 2019/10/31 | Is this bullshit? Sister says therapist asked her to write a "safety" note that looks like a suicide note... My mother found out about a note my sister had written, the gist of which was "If I kill myself, please call these three people: [Person A], [Person B], and [Person C]"
This was of course alarming. When my moth... | 4.216373 | 6.788972 | 4.458225 | 82.072023 | 74.020408 | 7.526176 | 26.162378 | 8.456263 | 2.001431 | 1,057 | 38 | 187 | 20 | 23 | 330 | 133 | 245 | 0.084 | 0.846 | 0.07 | -0.6764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 38 | 36 | 15 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 27 | 5 | 29 | 18 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 132 | 45 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06424 | 0.087978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098356 | 0.069483 | 0.093385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109795 | 0 | 0.101515 | 0 | 0 | 0.107604 | 0.101282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068698 | 0.14255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150027 | 0.093935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067428 | 0.254772 | 0 | 0.213526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092517 | 0.077345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222452 | 0.564635 | 0 | 0 | 0.095558 | 0.077214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066034 | 0 | 0 | 0.101252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070807 | 0 | 0 | 0.069091 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RikiMaroX2 | 2019/10/31 | Will I be an a-hole if I wanted to tell my parents about my cousin's depression even though I promised not to? Sorry for my bad english, it's not my native language.
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Hello, I'll just get straight to the point. My entire family is muslim and so is my cousin's family, I'm the only one who isn't religious.... | 3.298085 | 4.029083 | 4.407215 | 89.102204 | 72.621053 | 7.525997 | 25.551834 | 7.686295 | 1.12194 | 1,768 | 53 | 394 | 21 | 33 | 579 | 168 | 475 | 0.218 | 0.687 | 0.096 | -0.9964 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 65 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 24 | 34 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 55 | 88 | 39 | 2 | 13 | 18 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 87 | 11 | 44 | 65 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 77 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 260 | 112 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.058284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049697 | 0.064713 | 0.072574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067473 | 0 | 0.125285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111671 | 0 | 0 | 0.045926 | 0.099737 | 0.109225 | 0 | 0 | 0.067291 | 0 | 0.052823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065606 | 0 | 0 | 0.360093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112609 | 0 | 0.120797 | 0.042668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062409 | 0 | 0.033944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052816 | 0 | 0 | 0.058967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098472 | 0.048685 | 0.067374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058358 | 0 | 0 | 0.052856 | 0.050155 | 0.133636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062672 | 0 | 0.040472 | 0.136273 | 0 | 0 | 0.265275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056813 | 0.237483 | 0 | 0.120892 | 0.047594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066858 | 0.042274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136744 | 0.130661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469828 | 0.109975 | 0.136604 | 0 | 0 | 0.03827 | 0.117361 | 0.047416 | 0.034827 | 0 | 0 | 0.228283 | 0 | 0.0811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072574 | 0.153846 |
suicidewatch | Rangislayer | 2019/10/31 | A nail in the haystack.... Let's be real here people. The human species is a parasite. We don't help the foodchain in any way other than fucking it up. Anyways the "meaning" is for us to reproduce. That's pretty much it. People around me says stuff like "find meaning in your life". It sounds so npc'ish and doesn't soun... | 2.790897 | 5.459949 | 3.443086 | 86.876077 | 79.795455 | 6.432536 | 25.740431 | 7.66913 | 1.621982 | 732 | 29 | 135 | 12 | 19 | 230 | 113 | 176 | 0.149 | 0.724 | 0.127 | -0.9033 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 25 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 3 | 16 | 21 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 87 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.126121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106355 | 0.115052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119482 | 0.067523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128252 | 0.114876 | 0.142987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132158 | 0.182574 | 0.189423 | 0 | 0.114123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122175 | 0 | 0 | 0.131485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29421 | 0.248386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102778 | 0 | 0 | 0.102989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085862 | 0.082813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07623 | 0.102586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bruh_Bruh_Bruh_ | 2019/10/31 | I want to hurt myself I want to hurt myself i just dont know what else to do | -3.637544 | -2.213995 | -0.077895 | 106.901404 | 105.315789 | 2.533333 | 6.333333 | 3.1291 | -2.741856 | 59 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 11 | 19 | 0.333 | 0.539 | 0.127 | -0.7351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.740979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | one98nine | 2019/10/31 | Please, I am sorry for this post, but I got no one to talk this with I feel I didn´t understand sadness until now (wow, what a wannabe phrase to use). I used to believe I was a sad person, but it is until know that I am. I felt it creeping this week, like a shadow and the thoughts of ending it all came on intermitents,... | 1.104698 | 3.055976 | 3.146667 | 90.709444 | 81.355072 | 5.538164 | 23.2657 | 6.605767 | 0.632308 | 1,021 | 36 | 219 | 10 | 27 | 345 | 134 | 276 | 0.246 | 0.701 | 0.054 | -0.9961 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 53 | 55 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 43 | 4 | 22 | 44 | 8 | 26 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 166 | 60 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237114 | 0 | 0.089394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082611 | 0.089704 | 0 | 0 | 0.182838 | 0.121042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089748 | 0 | 0.095155 | 0 | 0 | 0.07096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162967 | 0.076752 | 0.103154 | 0.11769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099322 | 0.280652 | 0 | 0.061058 | 0 | 0.085926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121281 | 0 | 0 | 0.213225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10986 | 0 | 0.104975 | 0 | 0.094867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078977 | 0 | 0.08286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281424 | 0 | 0.117931 | 0 | 0 | 0.102893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080778 | 0.086352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071375 | 0 | 0 | 0.085291 | 0.125292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111844 | 0 | 0.185579 | 0 | 0 | 0.063368 | 0 | 0.086178 | 0 | 0.096597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109105 | 0 | 0.076319 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | benzaib | 2019/10/31 | Humanity is fucked Sure there are some beautiful things in life I'm not saying there are not. What I'm saying is if all you experienced form humanity was being treated like shit by everyone including family for the majority of your life, would you want to live with it?
People in experience suck. I've experienced clear... | 3.512535 | 5.730025 | 5.003497 | 79.019697 | 74.808383 | 8.285669 | 27.300998 | 9.029199 | 2.430984 | 687 | 27 | 128 | 16 | 15 | 230 | 106 | 167 | 0.251 | 0.632 | 0.118 | -0.9863 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 7 | 20 | 24 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 83 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13922 | 0.148337 | 0 | 0.111849 | 0 | 0 | 0.091411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128445 | 0 | 0.262979 | 0.12672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12427 | 0.070229 | 0 | 0.076395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180199 | 0 | 0 | 0.13351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146049 | 0.137455 | 0.474728 | 0.131343 | 0 | 0.356089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093191 | 0.117371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122372 | 0 | 0 | 0.137981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089303 | 0.086132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136986 | 0.190978 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | selfbeliefs | 2019/10/31 | i discipline myself because i feel like i deserve it Ever since I was young, my life had always been a mess. Named after a broken friendship, raped & molested by trusted family members, beaten and looked down upon by community members. With the past, it’s been an ugly future so far. Although I do succeed in my scho... | 2.960266 | 4.668242 | 4.283095 | 85.827183 | 74.898618 | 6.296877 | 26.802099 | 6.937598 | 1.280274 | 846 | 32 | 165 | 8 | 18 | 279 | 128 | 217 | 0.16 | 0.742 | 0.098 | -0.9318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 24 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 38 | 6 | 23 | 17 | 7 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 116 | 46 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111882 | 0.145688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126331 | 0 | 0.112269 | 0.163932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112325 | 0 | 0 | 0.138934 | 0 | 0 | 0.121628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253516 | 0 | 0.203963 | 0.288177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128987 | 0.076417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28475 | 0 | 0 | 0.094974 | 0.197073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121356 | 0 | 0 | 0.136322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157479 | 0 | 0.142911 | 0.098844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101098 | 0 | 0.117525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086157 | 0 | 0 | 0.078405 | 0 | 0.254907 | 0 | 0 | 0.09129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChancesAreMoFo | 2019/10/31 | Does it make sense that I want to live? But I feel so fucking helpless, stuck and think, at some point, suicide will be my only choice. One day, life will become completely intolerable, it won't just be a feeling that pops up a few times a day. It feels inevitable. I really wish the little things didn't get to me so mu... | 3.257846 | 4.628522 | 4.184615 | 88.215385 | 73.461538 | 7.046154 | 23.769231 | 7.554174 | 0.871831 | 251 | 7 | 54 | 3 | 5 | 81 | 52 | 65 | 0.178 | 0.758 | 0.064 | -0.8267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218837 | 0.123673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167197 | 0 | 0.237249 | 0.209022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160403 | 0.180031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157262 | 0.151676 | 0 | 0 | 0.138029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Julztine | 2019/10/31 | I'm terrified I don't trust myself. I ruin my relationships over nothings. Medication doesn't help much, life is nothing but a loop of pain that comes in waves, and the next is always worst. I might kill myself. I might be doing it now somehow. Maybe i'm losing myself every time i break down. Maybe that's why each time... | 1.282288 | 3.609701 | 3.278839 | 87.839375 | 83.296875 | 5.532143 | 19.299107 | 6.86897 | 0.348842 | 493 | 13 | 99 | 6 | 14 | 166 | 80 | 128 | 0.28 | 0.618 | 0.103 | -0.9816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 26 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 12 | 20 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 70 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130183 | 0 | 0 | 0.106395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155162 | 0 | 0 | 0.12875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104869 | 0 | 0 | 0.155396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34619 | 0.325849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314361 | 0 | 0 | 0.157612 | 0 | 0.331949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115013 | 0 | 0.120668 | 0 | 0.166392 | 0 | 0 | 0.300247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118991 | 0.16648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100229 | 0 | 0 | 0.167975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | angelmarissa7 | 2019/10/31 | Today i was given the opportunity to shoot a gun in the middle of the woods. I wanted to put it to my head so badly but i didn’t. I held my first gun, i shot my first gun. In the middle of the woods. The other person looked away while i had it in my hands getting ready to shoot, and i wanted to put it to my head and pu... | 0.813058 | 1.968991 | 3.464537 | 91.774988 | 79.413223 | 5.501157 | 19.538017 | 5.683918 | -0.296839 | 416 | 9 | 101 | 2 | 10 | 147 | 59 | 121 | 0.157 | 0.667 | 0.177 | 0.5672 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 20 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 18 | 5 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 74 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19428 | 0 | 0.345311 | 0.126053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191168 | 0.108036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183799 | 0 | 0 | 0.113643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Xblacksabbathx | 2019/10/31 | How do i get over the feeling of nkt wanting to disapoint loved ones I wish no one cared for me, i just ws t to disappoint my friend family and girlfriend any further, bu ending , hiw do i overxome this | 17.220732 | 6.136493 | 15.653659 | 55.859024 | 57.780488 | 19.326829 | 58.073171 | 13.023867 | 7.058249 | 158 | 7 | 32 | 3 | 1 | 53 | 36 | 41 | 0.102 | 0.604 | 0.294 | 0.8481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321047 | 0 | 0.172196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263114 | 0 | 0.177927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thebrick621 | 2019/10/31 | My mental health has dipped lower than ever before Ive never been this depressed in my life. After past attempts at suicide and after crying for hours and not leaving bed for days I can't be more depressed than now. My feelings from the moment I wake up until I got bed I'm just sad. People can do things that improve my... | 3.049054 | 3.521137 | 4.373892 | 90.064351 | 73.009009 | 6.460541 | 21.556757 | 5.683918 | 0.071317 | 805 | 15 | 181 | 3 | 15 | 267 | 129 | 222 | 0.178 | 0.71 | 0.113 | -0.9105 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 34 | 34 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 23 | 5 | 25 | 24 | 5 | 36 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 119 | 34 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105577 | 0 | 0.119263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101347 | 0 | 0 | 0.105336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131784 | 0.130828 | 0.384055 | 0 | 0.307747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133974 | 0.105489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067688 | 0 | 0.095257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2532 | 0 | 0 | 0.079832 | 0 | 0 | 0.23659 | 0.117291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126112 | 0 | 0 | 0.084125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112697 | 0.079502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087554 | 0 | 0.091859 | 0 | 0 | 0.111769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227393 | 0.165141 | 0.103995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113293 | 0 | 0 | 0.120538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084301 | 0 | 0.095115 | 0.099575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08955 | 0 | 0.1041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138899 | 0 | 0.112895 | 0 | 0 | 0.161725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070249 | 0 | 0.191073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086708 | 0 | 0.121375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Adhderalll | 2019/10/31 | Today’s the day I end it all, this isn’t some sort of bs, I have it all planned, going to execute my plan(pun not intended)soon, although we’ve never met I wish anyone reading this peace and prosperity and to never have to endure the suffering I’ve experienced/experience day in and day out sincerely Drew | 27.788136 | 8.313364 | 24.42 | 25.068644 | 52.220339 | 28.345763 | 77.644068 | 18.243606 | 11.265054 | 247 | 11 | 44 | 7 | 1 | 85 | 43 | 59 | 0.09 | 0.789 | 0.121 | 0.4342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 29 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.56092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Intrestingpiglet | 2019/10/31 | I need help, i don't want to do what I want to do I feel so alone and I don't feel i can talk to anyone. I can't express myself due to past abuse.
I dont want to be alone but i do want to be left alone.
I just don't want to be on this earth right now. I don't want to hurt those who love me, either by telling them ho... | -1.829 | -0.531994 | 0.765556 | 107.385 | 88 | 4 | 13.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.859 | 279 | 3 | 85 | 0 | 9 | 95 | 47 | 90 | 0.185 | 0.621 | 0.194 | 0.8334 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 13 | 22 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 55 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0.192683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.505289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130711 | 0.142141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.57552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Echo_Of_Venus | 2019/10/31 | Hopefully this time I sleep, I won't wake up. I don't want to exist in this colourless prison; I just want to be free. | 1.555 | 2.50273 | 3.095385 | 96.024615 | 77.076923 | 6.738462 | 20.692308 | 7.168622 | 0.147831 | 91 | 2 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 19 | 26 | 0.215 | 0.561 | 0.224 | 0.3085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.611659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anon54793 | 2019/10/31 | I just don’t want to think anymore Everyday I wake up and it’s just full of anxiety and it has been since I was little. I just don’t want to worry anyway and if I’m dead I won’t think so therefore I won’t worry. I’m just an annoyance and a burden now and I constantly scare my family who are amazing and I don’t deserve. | -0.543801 | 1.334868 | 2.839983 | 90.953947 | 87.219178 | 6.389726 | 20.083904 | 7.645422 | 0.754536 | 253 | 8 | 59 | 5 | 8 | 92 | 43 | 73 | 0.278 | 0.634 | 0.088 | -0.93 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 42 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208394 | 0 | 0.270159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.553294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SmarfForPresident | 2019/10/31 | Is there a way to write a suicide note that will make those who read it understand where I'm coming from and not feel guilty? The title pretty much sums up my question. I'm assuming there's no set of words I could put in a note that will make those I leave behind understand my feelings. Also I just don't wan't people t... | 6.97697 | 5.808546 | 6.792606 | 81.628909 | 64.858586 | 9.940202 | 30.911111 | 8.841846 | 2.21152 | 389 | 11 | 80 | 5 | 5 | 123 | 70 | 99 | 0.085 | 0.858 | 0.057 | -0.4075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 22 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 58 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204034 | 0 | 0 | 0.219582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216974 | 0.241785 | 0 | 0.215894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ProgenitorMimic | 2019/10/31 | Tying up my loose ends, then I'm outta here. My boyfriend hid his gun last night, but it was in the first place I checked. I just want to be methodical about my belongings and make sure they end up in the right hands, so I'm going to finish:
1) my will, 2) adding beneficiaries to all my financial accounts, 3) compilin... | 4.533115 | 5.151909 | 5.349303 | 83.872643 | 69.737705 | 8.395082 | 28.364754 | 8.472885 | 1.832505 | 475 | 16 | 99 | 7 | 8 | 155 | 86 | 122 | 0.094 | 0.797 | 0.109 | 0.6059 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 56 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.584005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374734 | 0.184349 | 0.175786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DJFishboy | 2019/10/31 | My girlfriend left me, and started seeing someone else immediately I dated a girl for 3 years. One month ago today, she left me. She was my everything, my life was devoted to this woman. And she always told me it would take her months to move on, if not years. She told me last week she had been dating someone for a wee... | 3.354348 | 4.381581 | 4.214222 | 89.428 | 72.768116 | 6.486184 | 24.911111 | 6.427356 | 0.686949 | 786 | 23 | 168 | 5 | 15 | 253 | 117 | 207 | 0.107 | 0.855 | 0.038 | -0.9351 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 26 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 34 | 6 | 24 | 15 | 2 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 118 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101135 | 0 | 0.124729 | 0.105116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099287 | 0 | 0.210537 | 0 | 0 | 0.157003 | 0 | 0 | 0.113569 | 0.106818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101096 | 0 | 0 | 0.091826 | 0 | 0.062096 | 0 | 0.135094 | 0 | 0.095058 | 0 | 0 | 0.117683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096881 | 0 | 0 | 0.258269 | 0 | 0.083949 | 0 | 0 | 0.104949 | 0 | 0 | 0.132966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126084 | 0 | 0 | 0.189735 | 0.252644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113057 | 0 | 0.118993 | 0 | 0.094711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078961 | 0 | 0 | 0.094356 | 0.207913 | 0 | 0.337977 | 0.227138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121121 | 0.08443 | 0 | 0 | 0.229613 |
suicidewatch | Dial911ICE | 2019/10/31 | I need help I have a family people that love me a brand new baby I love so much...i just lost my job I'm depressed and uneasy I need help I'm suicidal I have dealt with depression my whole life I have met an end...my tears are real and I don't care for punctuation or grammar I don't know where to turn | -2.319461 | -0.702015 | 1.022941 | 97.821569 | 107.382353 | 4.619608 | 13.019608 | 6.427356 | -0.624739 | 235 | 5 | 58 | 4 | 12 | 83 | 46 | 68 | 0.279 | 0.54 | 0.182 | -0.75 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 31 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228677 | 0 | 0.378137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153995 | 0.310661 | 0 | 0.202322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | marnerfan | 2019/10/31 | Just realized the one person that I thought cared ... doesn’t I feel so alone. The last person who I thought cared doesn’t and now I really don’t have any reason to live. I feel like I have to beg someone to want to talk to me. Why is asking not enough? I know I’ve done this to myself but it still hurts. I feel so e... | -0.52109 | 1.477832 | 1.291923 | 101.23641 | 88.423077 | 4.235897 | 15.397436 | 5.461319 | -1.042087 | 366 | 7 | 91 | 2 | 12 | 119 | 67 | 104 | 0.124 | 0.716 | 0.161 | 0.2721 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 16 | 4 | 10 | 19 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 59 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272944 | 0.128547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098888 | 0.146672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087908 | 0 | 0.158887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121929 | 0 | 0.191465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115272 | 0.185004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Altinaway | 2019/10/31 | Worse today than ever before I’ve always known that something is not quite right in my life. I can never really truly be happy and suicide has always been in the back of my mind.
It only got worse this year when my girlfriend broke up with me. She said she needed time to herself and that it wasn’t anything I did, but... | 2.834935 | 3.990243 | 4.113243 | 89.1615 | 74.19337 | 6.918187 | 24.109464 | 7.3138 | 0.846765 | 2,034 | 59 | 446 | 22 | 41 | 669 | 222 | 543 | 0.115 | 0.701 | 0.184 | 0.9945 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 33 | 38 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 39 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 93 | 81 | 54 | 1 | 8 | 24 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 34 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 4 | 68 | 24 | 63 | 53 | 18 | 59 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 18 | 0 | 10 | 34 | 302 | 95 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060924 | 0.063013 | 0 | 0 | 0.151875 | 0 | 0 | 0.041374 | 0.063798 | 0 | 0 | 0.060338 | 0.042542 | 0 | 0.250336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051772 | 0 | 0 | 0.053809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062126 | 0 | 0.062032 | 0.062501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097154 | 0 | 0.066831 | 0 | 0 | 0.052403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062256 | 0.152476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110069 | 0 | 0.058137 | 0.109361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111216 | 0.051752 | 0 | 0 | 0.23503 | 0 | 0.031787 | 0 | 0.034578 | 0.153093 | 0.04866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1943 | 0.054502 | 0.060068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049594 | 0.068632 | 0 | 0.066104 | 0 | 0.343793 | 0.089172 | 0.060979 | 0.053724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081224 | 0.061684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064543 | 0.122865 | 0 | 0.048563 | 0 | 0.268353 | 0.045113 | 0.046925 | 0.058761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323908 | 0.06474 | 0 | 0 | 0.065885 | 0 | 0.04218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06859 | 0 | 0.061898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064712 | 0 | 0 | 0.155906 | 0 | 0 | 0.065321 | 0 | 0.051958 | 0.057874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060885 | 0 | 0.051551 | 0.093677 | 0 | 0 | 0.086128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066551 | 0 | 0.057342 | 0 | 0.228726 | 0 | 0.053178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096603 | 0.177386 | 0 | 0.173012 | 0 | 0 | 0.041307 | 0.066178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050201 | 0.107657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124005 | 0.04322 | 0 | 0 | 0.07836 |
suicidewatch | Slicethedice2 | 2019/10/31 | I think it’s over I’m done I’m sick of living and I’m sick of this endless hell. I’m going to leave this earth tonight thanks for everyone who tried to help me. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. Goodbye | -0.589933 | 1.463395 | 1.112 | 101.932667 | 89.6 | 4.133333 | 18.333333 | 5.461319 | -0.675267 | 177 | 5 | 44 | 1 | 6 | 57 | 35 | 50 | 0.221 | 0.607 | 0.171 | -0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.605943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sneakytrent | 2019/10/31 | have no one to talk to about how life is hard. im 14 years old with my friends being 12/13/14 and many of them dont notice red flags. hiding depression has messed me up mainly cause everytime my friends talk about something semi-serious and i say something i relate in it they shut me off and tell me i have it easy. ope... | 1.185218 | 3.660123 | 2.497143 | 92.171525 | 85.525424 | 5.405327 | 21.987893 | 6.86897 | 0.671884 | 461 | 16 | 94 | 6 | 14 | 148 | 84 | 118 | 0.167 | 0.71 | 0.123 | -0.5969 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 19 | 4 | 16 | 7 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 64 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150774 | 0 | 0.17032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175355 | 0.146498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112343 | 0 | 0 | 0.162528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193648 | 0.17848 | 0 | 0.230514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273423 | 0.148666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109532 |
suicidewatch | bookDJnr1 | 2019/10/31 | What's the point? I'm on medication but i still feel like shit all the time, if i miss my medication one day I'll get a nervous outburst and almost kill myself if nobody stops me, i can't get any help from professionals because they just put me on hold or in a nut house, I'm already beyond saving so what even is the po... | 5.223592 | 4.726674 | 6.622641 | 79.196215 | 68.15493 | 9.353521 | 29.017606 | 8.841846 | 1.973082 | 268 | 8 | 58 | 4 | 4 | 92 | 54 | 71 | 0.262 | 0.696 | 0.042 | -0.9524 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 34 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21934 | 0 | 0.24172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110755 | 0.156485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174928 | 0.18313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jasmine1742 | 2019/10/31 | I feel so isolated I don't even want to make connections anymore; I just want the pain to stop. Welp, 2 weeks running of crying myself to sleep (if I sleep) because I just. can't. stop. It hurts so much. I feel so alone, so goddamn isolated from everyone. I NEED to know I'm human, that I can feel security and comfor... | -0.364321 | 1.815061 | 2.000113 | 94.860327 | 90.496063 | 4.749803 | 22.89813 | 6.322622 | 0.476559 | 461 | 19 | 104 | 5 | 16 | 156 | 62 | 127 | 0.358 | 0.521 | 0.121 | -0.986 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 24 | 12 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 11 | 22 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 58 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233012 | 0 | 0 | 0.096674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196177 | 0.071613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098137 | 0 | 0.31215 | 0 | 0 | 0.077593 | 0 | 0 | 0.112255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086359 | 0.087108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235124 | 0 | 0.099538 | 0 | 0 | 0.131506 | 0.083151 | 0 | 0 | 0.294649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415747 | 0 | 0.094233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheSecondArK | 2019/10/31 | Short. But it’s important Taking your own life, isn’t the right thing, if it ever comes to your mind don’t ignore it, talk to someone, it’s 1 of the most important things because it gives emotional support, and here is something else that is important: “taking your own life, is mostly taking your life from others”
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suicidewatch | perpetualheartache | 2019/10/31 | I dreamed that I loved somebody. I had a dream where I truly loved and trusted a person. I was absolutely sure, without a single doubt, that they felt the same about me. That's the only time I've ever loved or trusted anyone. It felt so good. But that'll never happen. I wish I didn't experience it, because it was fake.... | 0.73852 | 2.989969 | 2.995911 | 89.464957 | 85.043614 | 5.560436 | 21.689252 | 6.937598 | 0.669854 | 1,207 | 41 | 252 | 16 | 36 | 411 | 150 | 321 | 0.202 | 0.58 | 0.218 | 0.1476 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 30 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 23 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 67 | 57 | 24 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 34 | 17 | 23 | 37 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 22 | 165 | 56 | 0 | 0.083047 | 0 | 0.243126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086012 | 0.091644 | 0 | 0.069102 | 0 | 0 | 0.11295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084672 | 0 | 0 | 0.071538 | 0 | 0.089744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054852 | 0.150242 | 0 | 0 | 0.074637 | 0.081236 | 0 | 0 | 0.167964 | 0 | 0.239215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073438 | 0.265215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081785 | 0 | 0.177807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091879 | 0.086481 | 0.091281 | 0.067694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117317 | 0.040573 | 0 | 0.073332 | 0.073494 | 0 | 0 | 0.090656 | 0 | 0.299813 | 0 | 0.055435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063161 | 0.176736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057574 | 0.072513 | 0 | 0 | 0.157013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055173 | 0.053213 | 0 | 0 | 0.096851 | 0.09545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048983 | 0.065919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2865 | 0.080054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ExcitableEmu | 2019/10/31 | Can't see any paths forward I know my reason is clouded. I know this is temporary. But how temporary when I just end up back here again, incapable of working properly, taking care of myself and .... anything ?? Probably chatting with someone would be good. The hotlines are like talking to cardboard cut outs. I understa... | 3.326478 | 6.100114 | 4.329779 | 80.697899 | 78.417476 | 6.852251 | 32.664607 | 8.000946 | 2.898076 | 439 | 24 | 73 | 8 | 11 | 142 | 74 | 103 | 0.085 | 0.816 | 0.099 | 0.3313 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 10 | 20 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 52 | 15 | 1 | 0.203576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156537 | 0 | 0.124098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207874 | 0 | 0.207559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228995 | 0.180308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10636 | 0 | 0 | 0.17075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153064 | 0.163626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21193 | 0 | 0 | 0.22421 | 0 | 0.120074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148206 | 0 | 0 | 0.144614 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway53941 | 2019/10/31 | Has anyone else here squandered a whole lot of opportunity? I feel like my life is a waste. I feel like I fucked it all up. I keep wishing I could go back knowing what I know now and do it all differently, but I know I can’t. I just don’t even know where to start from here.
Every day is a fight against other people’s... | 3.256284 | 4.899177 | 4.76011 | 82.986795 | 73.961538 | 7.260073 | 25.842491 | 7.957252 | 1.516864 | 1,021 | 35 | 202 | 15 | 21 | 342 | 139 | 260 | 0.136 | 0.687 | 0.177 | 0.9126 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 21 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 50 | 47 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 31 | 13 | 28 | 37 | 7 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 141 | 44 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109988 | 0.079706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098845 | 0.139382 | 0.204246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07664 | 0.08322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159156 | 0 | 0 | 0.064278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131661 | 0 | 0.167951 | 0 | 0.179153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201583 | 0.284815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092143 | 0 | 0 | 0.113289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265772 | 0 | 0.10379 | 0.328654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140799 | 0.194774 | 0 | 0 | 0.088204 | 0.083697 | 0 | 0 | 0.084735 | 0 | 0.09431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201275 | 0 | 0.079555 | 0 | 0.073268 | 0.073904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07673 | 0 | 0 | 0.070546 | 0.106234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111277 | 0.114615 | 0 | 0 | 0.07256 | 0 | 0.101572 | 0.070802 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Octothorpe110 | 2019/10/31 | Life just doesn’t seem like it’s for me I wouldn’t say I’m morbidly depressed as much as I’m just not thrilled with the idea of living. I don’t want to work day in and day out to maybe make a living and buy myself some precious free time. I’m not interested in overcoming any more obstacles or experiencing anything mo... | 2.810157 | 3.471946 | 4.259429 | 89.969 | 73.7 | 7.714286 | 24.285714 | 7.957252 | 0.933171 | 363 | 10 | 87 | 5 | 7 | 121 | 66 | 100 | 0.079 | 0.785 | 0.136 | 0.6566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 14 | 13 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 49 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266959 | 0 | 0.178265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292381 | 0.101116 | 0 | 0.54828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17596 | 0.1868 | 0 | 0.138155 | 0 | 0.207931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164592 | 0 | 0 | 0.16493 | 0.188419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | alixxmariee | 2019/10/31 | Seriously considering it I think I'm gonna do it. I cant help but to think it's the only way to end all suffering. Nothing is gonna help. I don't care if I'm being selfish. They'll get over it, they'll move on, I wont be their worry/burden anymore. I'm hardly invested in their lives and they're not even invested in min... | -0.564787 | 1.375449 | 2.773263 | 90.972175 | 87.947368 | 5.65193 | 20.896742 | 7.031649 | 0.555477 | 464 | 16 | 107 | 7 | 15 | 168 | 80 | 133 | 0.226 | 0.658 | 0.116 | -0.9349 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 36 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 5 | 8 | 28 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 57 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309736 | 0 | 0 | 0.128506 | 0 | 0.145988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138311 | 0 | 0 | 0.103142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236877 | 0.11156 | 0.149938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139888 | 0.154175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076292 | 0 | 0.137892 | 0 | 0 | 0.174702 | 0 | 0 | 0.14094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157676 | 0 | 0 | 0.331945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105818 | 0.118766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200121 | 0 | 0 | 0.091058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mxrpx | 2019/10/31 | A goodbye. I guess I couldn't really find anywhere better to put this. I'm done. I'm 19 I've gone through so many surgeries I've been diagnosed with PTSD and depression. I've been battling this for years. Recently my girlfriend of 3 years moved across the country then dumped me for some dude she just met. She was my ro... | 0.997 | 2.995917 | 2.765 | 93.05 | 82 | 5.571429 | 20.714286 | 6.709753 | 0.272429 | 1,036 | 30 | 229 | 11 | 28 | 343 | 134 | 280 | 0.11 | 0.805 | 0.085 | -0.0923 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 27 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 37 | 48 | 13 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 35 | 8 | 31 | 30 | 10 | 25 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 159 | 52 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199211 | 0.070227 | 0 | 0.165301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210803 | 0.088827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102401 | 0.103175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16038 | 0 | 0 | 0.064773 | 0 | 0.086505 | 0.10194 | 0 | 0.104934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103777 | 0 | 0.066337 | 0.1817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05708 | 0.168482 | 0 | 0 | 0.110642 | 0 | 0.088815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090647 | 0 | 0 | 0.101826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106748 | 0 | 0.074472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068058 | 0.305544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096104 | 0.117404 | 0.201932 | 0 | 0 | 0.100463 | 0 | 0.064342 | 0.103265 | 0.099168 | 0 | 0.113774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077321 | 0 | 0.44972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230993 | 0 | 0 | 0.073119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129355 |
suicidewatch | throw_away103119 | 2019/10/31 | I let someone hurt me and now I just want to die I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop remembering it. Everything was fine until it happened. I don't know why it had to happen. I don't know why it had to happen to me. I guess I deserved it.
I want to just end everything. I can't take it anymore. The pain is too... | -1.50437 | 0.477804 | 1.319832 | 98.067815 | 96.983193 | 4.480672 | 18.764706 | 6.227272 | -0.141071 | 415 | 14 | 101 | 5 | 17 | 143 | 57 | 119 | 0.13 | 0.729 | 0.141 | -0.5734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 32 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 14 | 27 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 73 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161293 | 0 | 0 | 0.152548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158581 | 0 | 0 | 0.159641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160729 | 0 | 0.087419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16945 | 0 | 0.408067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144349 | 0 | 0.147594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chunghazelnut | 2019/10/31 | just wanna vent out hhhhh idk what to do anymore. for the past months, i have been taken over by suicidal thoughts and it sucks so bad.
my friends often say that they're here for me but whenever there are times when i needed them the most, they just wouldn't listen. and i am not the type to often open up to ppl so it ... | 3.107317 | 4.135502 | 4.226179 | 89.104797 | 73.363144 | 7.634688 | 23.693767 | 8.045849 | 1.021069 | 1,387 | 37 | 309 | 20 | 27 | 453 | 167 | 369 | 0.226 | 0.66 | 0.114 | -0.9931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 34 | 30 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 33 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 59 | 62 | 28 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 51 | 16 | 45 | 45 | 8 | 30 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 15 | 6 | 7 | 14 | 219 | 75 | 3 | 0.08301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199149 | 0.069071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06931 | 0.151806 | 0 | 0 | 0.187047 | 0 | 0.073416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073522 | 0 | 0 | 0.274136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223812 | 0 | 0.078254 | 0 | 0.041972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091016 | 0.128267 | 0.076741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278499 | 0 | 0 | 0.091445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176471 | 0 | 0 | 0.05564 | 0 | 0 | 0.082448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293162 | 0 | 0 | 0.073299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18123 | 0.070572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066258 | 0 | 0.061022 | 0.061551 | 0 | 0.080171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158485 | 0 | 0.072481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079501 | 0.084451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062413 | 0.06672 | 0.072554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27574 | 0.053189 | 0 | 0.197702 | 0.096807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071694 | 0 | 0 | 0.048961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | circuspant5 | 2019/10/31 | Literally the only reason why I’m still here Is because I haven’t tried weed yet. I know it’s a stupid fucking reason, but it’s my last resort for this medical condition I have. It’ll also curb my anxiety hopefully. The only problem is that I have no clue how I can get access to it. I live in an abusive home where my p... | 1.873017 | 3.78141 | 4.655848 | 81.052047 | 78.655172 | 7.568391 | 25.817529 | 8.472885 | 1.957553 | 330 | 13 | 66 | 7 | 8 | 118 | 60 | 87 | 0.198 | 0.717 | 0.085 | -0.8519 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 48 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0.223084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145466 | 0.174064 | 0.09837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188862 | 0.187007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103475 | 0.153475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286394 | 0 | 0 | 0.209065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Stolen_cheesecake | 2019/10/31 | I don't know if i should write this I can't feel happy. I've been in depression for almost a year and I can't get out of it.
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Whenever i do something I like to ask myself "Why do i do this ?"
Why do i need to go to school ? To get a good job.
Why do i need to get a good job ? To earn money.
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suicidewatch | _Zerv_ | 2019/10/31 | Everything gets worse and worse I feel like everything is a shit hole right now. My grades are failing even though I spent many sleepless nights. I've exerted a lot of effort into my works and everything seems to go wrong. I'm burned out every single day just to reap nothing. Is it too late for me to try again? I getti... | 0.490141 | 2.685132 | 2.249398 | 94.779968 | 85.627635 | 5.338193 | 19.902859 | 6.723291 | 0.159409 | 1,584 | 47 | 358 | 19 | 48 | 520 | 172 | 427 | 0.17 | 0.685 | 0.145 | -0.9536 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 47 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 31 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 32 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 62 | 82 | 24 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 60 | 13 | 45 | 73 | 6 | 39 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 27 | 239 | 91 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056305 | 0.175753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13965 | 0.04923 | 0 | 0.057939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154678 | 0.090814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12472 | 0 | 0 | 0.13951 | 0 | 0.059321 | 0 | 0.316387 | 0 | 0.066374 | 0 | 0.2492 | 0.150897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054396 | 0 | 0.183924 | 0 | 0.080028 | 0.177163 | 0.112622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07495 | 0.063071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154776 | 0 | 0.079422 | 0.074551 | 0.076498 | 0 | 0 | 0.171987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078768 | 0 | 0.059858 | 0 | 0 | 0.046997 | 0.071382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056198 | 0 | 0.051757 | 0.104412 | 0 | 0.068 | 0 | 0.066072 | 0 | 0.202673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048811 | 0.061477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120255 | 0 | 0.223962 | 0 | 0 | 0.056105 | 0.192288 | 0 | 0 | 0.144544 | 0 | 0.158281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093551 | 0.090228 | 0.138349 | 0.055895 | 0.041055 | 0.080923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060809 | 0 | 0 | 0.249168 | 0.055886 | 0.056476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102514 | 0 | 0.215253 | 0 | 0.076979 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | baybehgoats | 2019/10/31 | Today is the day I just finished writing my suicide note to my now ex and i'm ready to down the rest of my antidepressants and various other prescriptions. I am so tired of being alive. Every day is painful and it has become not worth it. I've made my amends to everyone I can and made sure all of my things were in orde... | 2.009524 | 4.347206 | 3.642889 | 86.270229 | 80.401869 | 6.1339 | 24.680544 | 7.348243 | 1.239344 | 422 | 16 | 83 | 6 | 11 | 140 | 72 | 107 | 0.11 | 0.75 | 0.14 | 0.3384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 11 | 14 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 61 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134471 | 0 | 0.171535 | 0.194541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385288 | 0 | 0 | 0.204536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207537 | 0.172503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222697 | 0 | 0.191883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187441 | 0 | 0 | 0.135258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233999 | 0.192982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | edmundolee | 2019/10/31 | I received death threats today Hello. Where I am it's midnight. At around 2 pm today, I received a call from an unknown caller who identified himself as a member of a militant group in my country. He demanded that I send him money, USD 1,500, in exchange for my safety. I would have brushed this off, but he knew who I w... | 3.338942 | 5.282488 | 4.124303 | 86.357805 | 74.457317 | 6.636934 | 24.519164 | 7.44753 | 1.136129 | 1,317 | 42 | 256 | 16 | 28 | 421 | 175 | 328 | 0.075 | 0.834 | 0.09 | 0.5683 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 47 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 38 | 56 | 15 | 3 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 44 | 4 | 24 | 28 | 4 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 52 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 173 | 62 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119507 | 0.086604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090422 | 0.066016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442327 | 0.123861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095918 | 0 | 0 | 0.071528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204183 | 0 | 0.109515 | 0.077366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124959 | 0 | 0.122252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059516 | 0.088275 | 0 | 0.114669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052908 | 0 | 0.095627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113146 | 0 | 0.102374 | 0 | 0.103717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206028 | 0.172242 | 0.108423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083371 | 0 | 0.242456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205303 | 0.206962 | 0.12032 | 0.073526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124535 | 0 | 0 | 0.07884 | 0 | 0 | 0.38465 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhah | 2019/10/31 | i hate this i can’t do this anymore. what’s even the point of living if i’ve become so toxic that i continuously hurt my loved ones and wallow in so much self pity that i can’t even begin to get better? all i want to do anymore is sleep. nobody believes me when i say how bad i’m doing mentally and nobody wants to help.... | 3.027838 | 3.494651 | 4.533351 | 88.921108 | 73.054054 | 6.730811 | 22.232432 | 6.2581 | 0.28233 | 536 | 11 | 121 | 3 | 10 | 180 | 89 | 148 | 0.188 | 0.674 | 0.138 | -0.8776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 28 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 12 | 25 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 85 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114875 | 0 | 0.151949 | 0 | 0.155008 | 0 | 0.12168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121857 | 0 | 0 | 0.272615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092218 | 0 | 0 | 0.13665 | 0 | 0 | 0.147285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097178 | 0 | 0 | 0.242975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093229 | 0.104637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109411 | 0 | 0.139241 | 0 | 0.12525 | 0.143528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097734 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | veronicalan_ | 2019/10/31 | bye i am 15 (female),
i dont know what to do anymore. i went through so much. i am grateful for what i have but i hate being privelaged i just want to be a normal middle class person. i have to constantly care about my appearance and go to dumb fucking parties and shit. honestly i love my parents but i feel like im a b... | 1.063243 | 3.109906 | 3.30318 | 89.020266 | 82.048544 | 6.213966 | 22.913555 | 7.39531 | 0.954593 | 1,918 | 67 | 410 | 29 | 52 | 656 | 244 | 515 | 0.256 | 0.588 | 0.156 | -0.9973 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 25 | 44 | 14 | 1 | 20 | 3 | 36 | 24 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 78 | 77 | 49 | 5 | 7 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 36 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 4 | 85 | 15 | 53 | 49 | 9 | 55 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 49 | 13 | 5 | 3 | 36 | 277 | 102 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047621 | 0 | 0.061736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063469 | 0.063948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040146 | 0.064178 | 0.107233 | 0.126366 | 0.064606 | 0 | 0.071344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072957 | 0 | 0 | 0.063698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123348 | 0.056309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031476 | 0.044472 | 0 | 0.136385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048095 | 0.115099 | 0.032523 | 0 | 0.070757 | 0.052213 | 0.099575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53793 | 0.064973 | 0 | 0 | 0.137742 | 0 | 0.034211 | 0.101485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131908 | 0.030412 | 0 | 0 | 0.05509 | 0 | 0 | 0.067954 | 0 | 0.224734 | 0.058903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062734 | 0 | 0 | 0.218721 | 0.049688 | 0 | 0.137284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060992 | 0 | 0 | 0.130643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066239 | 0 | 0.069122 | 0 | 0 | 0.043157 | 0.108709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063331 | 0 | 0.059565 | 0.072768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059214 | 0.049504 | 0 | 0.063001 | 0 | 0 | 0.064941 | 0 | 0.127799 | 0.051494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220306 | 0 | 0 | 0.052044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068092 | 0 | 0.117341 | 0 | 0.046805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071189 | 0 | 0.041356 | 0.039888 | 0.183482 | 0 | 0.072598 | 0 | 0 | 0.118966 | 0 | 0.084528 | 0 | 0.06081 | 0.064805 | 0 | 0.053764 | 0 | 0 | 0.110151 | 0.049412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057707 | 0.112343 | 0.0695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045319 | 0 | 0.063439 | 0.044221 | 0 | 0 | 0.080175 |
suicidewatch | unclebitches | 2019/10/31 | I got a DUI and I have no choice but to hide it or I'll become homeless. I feel awful. I'm so scared and ashamed and sad. I could have fucking killed someone. I think I might be an alcoholic. I'll probably have to go to jail, since I was underage when it happened and even first offenders in WA state go to jail. I can't... | 0.387935 | 2.368337 | 2.604031 | 93.454127 | 84.164835 | 5.589821 | 22.21631 | 6.836019 | 0.503193 | 658 | 23 | 151 | 8 | 19 | 223 | 106 | 182 | 0.335 | 0.642 | 0.024 | -0.9969 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 38 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 24 | 1 | 16 | 28 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 93 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149533 | 0.135458 | 0 | 0.138185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281136 | 0 | 0 | 0.125514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126731 | 0 | 0.08101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1121 | 0.104327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.566942 | 0.06408 | 0 | 0.13941 | 0 | 0.098095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086632 | 0 | 0 | 0.108303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128701 | 0 | 0 | 0.093281 | 0 | 0 | 0.136189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122795 | 0 | 0.097737 | 0 | 0.127951 | 0 | 0 | 0.101458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072342 | 0.097354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078983 |
suicidewatch | Bradathon-Nu | 2019/10/31 | Everybody hates me You probably do as well. There’s nothing I can do about it. | 0.82125 | 3.285209 | 3.0175 | 87.6775 | 87.75 | 8.2 | 26.75 | 8.841846 | 2.65635 | 62 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 15 | 16 | 0.171 | 0.706 | 0.124 | -0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.548326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dracula64 | 2019/10/31 | Survived a very close suicide attempt over the summer. My life has been a car wreck since Some days I can ignore it.
Others its literally like some is screaming "you should be dead" "they would have been so better off if you died that night" and in many ways it just feels like that's true.
My relationship is in shambl... | 4.632222 | 5.67025 | 5.020256 | 84.796966 | 69.769231 | 7.623932 | 27.521368 | 7.793538 | 1.513265 | 520 | 17 | 104 | 6 | 9 | 165 | 102 | 130 | 0.182 | 0.654 | 0.164 | -0.5898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 24 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 7 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 69 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112946 | 0.154682 | 0.144078 | 0.163401 | 0 | 0 | 0.161207 | 0.192426 | 0.172929 | 0.24433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132117 | 0.15809 | 0.089342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120785 | 0.250631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114146 | 0.173371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18705 | 0 | 0.161169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141096 | 0 | 0.271469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121476 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway722908 | 2019/10/31 | I’m suicidal but I’m scared of death I don’t know what is wrong with me. I am so depressed, I feel disconnected from life, I want to just sleep. I just want to sleep and not wake up. I want it all to end, but I’m terrified of death and don’t want to die. Why do I feel this way? I don’t know how to fix me. I feel like m... | -1.88373 | -0.07739 | 1.46466 | 98.648652 | 93.827586 | 5.922257 | 15.955068 | 7.348243 | -0.181451 | 288 | 7 | 80 | 6 | 11 | 103 | 45 | 87 | 0.363 | 0.551 | 0.086 | -0.9892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 20 | 7 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 47 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178557 | 0 | 0.215156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314468 | 0.148103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29286 | 0.101282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48911 | 0.164554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226662 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | marcospizzadave | 2019/10/31 | Do i really belong anywhere at this point? Sorry for bad grammar or lack of focus.
My family has been but a drop of water in a stream my entire life. Military families aren't tough for most, but a schizophrenic coward whos (i think i shouldn't use an apostrophy, isnt it supposed to be possesive?) parents didn't acce... | 2.969703 | 4.386996 | 3.786146 | 90.59967 | 74.272436 | 6.568237 | 23.311617 | 7.04301 | 0.656212 | 2,389 | 66 | 512 | 23 | 49 | 762 | 282 | 624 | 0.147 | 0.66 | 0.194 | 0.9908 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 84 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 7 | 28 | 37 | 5 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 54 | 21 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 97 | 100 | 47 | 1 | 12 | 24 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 30 | 37 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 19 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 65 | 26 | 84 | 80 | 13 | 85 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 43 | 36 | 4 | 9 | 34 | 347 | 95 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055212 | 0 | 0.062723 | 0 | 0.063036 | 0 | 0.05602 | 0.040899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07041 | 0.059338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068405 | 0 | 0 | 0.173383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073698 | 0.173077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132942 | 0 | 0.113057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252996 | 0 | 0.067848 | 0 | 0 | 0.073497 | 0 | 0.057069 | 0 | 0 | 0.207342 | 0.062026 | 0.105159 | 0.128723 | 0.076261 | 0.056274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071421 | 0.060102 | 0 | 0.068856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044971 | 0.070887 | 0.134599 | 0.266553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11927 | 0 | 0.069867 | 0.036872 | 0.109379 | 0 | 0.071041 | 0 | 0 | 0.094779 | 0.065556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302769 | 0 | 0.044785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213927 | 0.147962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125924 | 0.065737 | 0.128754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045464 | 0.051027 | 0.071391 | 0 | 0.148997 | 0 | 0 | 0.186054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067111 | 0 | 0.042981 | 0 | 0 | 0.072032 | 0 | 0.057297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271605 | 0.053464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206609 | 0 | 0 | 0.067141 | 0 | 0.056847 | 0 | 0 | 0.075105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053927 | 0 | 0.06177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085981 | 0 | 0.053264 | 0.117367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173839 | 0 | 0 | 0.079146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060324 | 0 | 0.060541 | 0 | 0 | 0.064675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086411 |
suicidewatch | spyrococo | 2019/10/31 | I have no loved ones. At 26, I have lived a life of pure loneliness. My dad ditched me when I was 5. My mom was abusive and cruel to me as a kid, so I no longer want her in my life. My siblings don 't like me. I have one childhood friend but I'm pretty sure he only tolerates me out of pity. And I've never had a girlfri... | 2.561 | 3.979652 | 4.271 | 86.7055 | 75.333333 | 7.133333 | 23.833333 | 7.793538 | 1.100933 | 1,130 | 34 | 240 | 16 | 24 | 381 | 171 | 300 | 0.176 | 0.632 | 0.192 | 0.8334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 22 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 43 | 41 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 36 | 12 | 39 | 30 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 30 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 159 | 44 | 1 | 0 | 0.129048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076157 | 0 | 0 | 0.096959 | 0.101822 | 0 | 0.102331 | 0 | 0.090941 | 0.132789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131702 | 0 | 0.084149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097568 | 0 | 0.11178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146009 | 0 | 0 | 0.108179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11342 | 0.119715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153862 | 0.053211 | 0 | 0.096175 | 0 | 0.274387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295218 | 0.165672 | 0.115895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108946 | 0 | 0.069775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307957 | 0 | 0 | 0.262629 | 0.095198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104074 | 0 | 0.073947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094069 | 0 | 0 | 0.064242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077371 | 0 | 0 | 0.140277 |
suicidewatch | XxTheCrowXx | 2019/10/31 | Struggling to find reasons to live Why shouldn't I kill myself is the real question. The only reason I exist is to go to work and earn money. I have been saving up for about 6 months now and I have no idea what to do with it, except buy a gun and blow my brains out. Yeah I'm going to college to pursue a career in compu... | 1.335211 | 3.23504 | 3.305342 | 90.125945 | 80.329114 | 5.732321 | 20.027004 | 6.742158 | 0.285983 | 587 | 15 | 124 | 6 | 15 | 198 | 92 | 158 | 0.107 | 0.754 | 0.139 | 0.6716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 26 | 28 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 24 | 21 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 87 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128432 | 0 | 0.158394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134156 | 0.333969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169079 | 0 | 0 | 0.171794 | 0.290073 | 0.310367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157787 | 0 | 0.165095 | 0 | 0.142252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100273 | 0.193423 | 0 | 0 | 0.08801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204946 | 0.164171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109881 | 0 | 0 | 0.107218 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AlephVoidandNull | 2019/10/31 | Honestly at my worst. I dislike posting long rants, but here goes an exception:
I can honestly say I have never been so stressed in my life.
My mother just goes on and on without listening to me. God only knows how I want to work and support, and there are many ways for me to do that, but she doesn't understand how d... | 4.119375 | 5.051443 | 5.390583 | 82.06275 | 70.875 | 8.398889 | 28.983333 | 8.697196 | 2.157368 | 1,122 | 42 | 224 | 19 | 20 | 375 | 161 | 288 | 0.115 | 0.771 | 0.114 | -0.5489 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 47 | 49 | 21 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 38 | 6 | 46 | 40 | 10 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 171 | 51 | 4 | 0.123609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226053 | 0 | 0.105182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222184 | 0.120914 | 0 | 0 | 0.250002 | 0.088306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261926 | 0.060389 | 0.123889 | 0 | 0.10939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098664 | 0 | 0 | 0.183309 | 0.095335 | 0 | 0.13146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13164 | 0.167522 | 0.09401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105562 | 0 | 0.098299 | 0 | 0.125099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09516 | 0 | 0 | 0.087491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141594 | 0 | 0 | 0.135208 | 0.14027 | 0 | 0 | 0.092939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141358 | 0 | 0.08212 | 0 | 0.121445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137334 | 0.167845 | 0 | 0 | 0.128682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145816 | 0.19623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138005 | 0 | 0.23831 | 0 | 0.089989 | 0 | 0 | 0.087808 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ymre1899 | 2019/10/31 | I don't know what's going on. So you know there is a feeling of suicide. Like you need it but it scares the shit out of you. That feeling worn out of me. I accepted suicide as a mean of solving my crippling loneliness. I don't know how long can i hold it together. What the fuck is going on | -0.671071 | 1.441549 | 1.903472 | 95.441875 | 91.380952 | 5.054762 | 22.160714 | 6.627428 | 0.516938 | 225 | 9 | 52 | 3 | 8 | 77 | 40 | 63 | 0.287 | 0.516 | 0.197 | -0.8847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234912 | 0 | 0 | 0.288823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124141 | 0 | 0 | 0.224871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.55589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DeathSg1 | 2019/10/31 | Smile It's take a big man to admit what's he done , it takes a bigger man to give a girrafe a haircut. | -0.1225 | 0.843105 | 2.856667 | 95.955 | 81.5 | 4.8 | 20.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.512767 | 78 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 17 | 24 | 0 | 0.788 | 0.212 | 0.5106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.497642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.731257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EveryVillianIsLemon | 2019/10/31 | Hanging failures Has anyone here tried to hang themselves and failed? What was it like? | 4.614 | 8.08552 | 2.281667 | 92.0625 | 81.666667 | 3 | 27.5 | 3.1291 | 0.575 | 71 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 15 | 15 | 0.315 | 0.567 | 0.118 | -0.6322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.641369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.622759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ImQuestionable | 2019/10/31 | I am scared. Please help me. I’m in danger. I can’t call the hotline like this. I’m fighting so hard I’m shaking but I won’t win this time. I feel like this is it and I am so scared. | -4.213283 | -3.411397 | -0.810606 | 109.581869 | 119 | 1.955556 | 11.707071 | 3.1291 | -2.145987 | 138 | 3 | 40 | 0 | 9 | 48 | 28 | 44 | 0.257 | 0.466 | 0.278 | 0.4651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163451 | 0.230939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.647284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | starryeyedwallflower | 2019/10/31 | i just need to rant. (skip to the last two paragraphs if you don’t want to endure this college thesis i wrote.)
the entirety of my life has been painful, but the last several weeks or so have been an endurance test. and after so many years of fighting, i don’t know if I can handle it anymore.
i grew up in many abusiv... | 5.307773 | 7.745295 | 6.352012 | 70.364613 | 70.290909 | 9.480851 | 32.065764 | 9.898777 | 3.743868 | 2,439 | 112 | 387 | 66 | 47 | 810 | 279 | 550 | 0.249 | 0.659 | 0.092 | -0.9989 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 84 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 28 | 7 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 27 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 69 | 56 | 38 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 42 | 8 | 77 | 40 | 15 | 70 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 34 | 26 | 3 | 9 | 31 | 265 | 57 | 12 | 0 | 0.323065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054513 | 0.11344 | 0 | 0 | 0.092711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052416 | 0.056916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108851 | 0 | 0 | 0.043962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234375 | 0 | 0 | 0.069758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045023 | 0.061661 | 0.057433 | 0 | 0 | 0.06668 | 0 | 0.076706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052665 | 0.189057 | 0.035614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091381 | 0.216065 | 0 | 0.067705 | 0 | 0 | 0.072974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037463 | 0.11113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144444 | 0 | 0 | 0.24077 | 0 | 0.057243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061523 | 0 | 0 | 0.138221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137341 | 0.206088 | 0 | 0 | 0.239508 | 0 | 0.07245 | 0 | 0.050545 | 0.052574 | 0.131672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072534 | 0 | 0 | 0.073818 | 0 | 0.141774 | 0.05952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043669 | 0.070087 | 0 | 0.292742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206965 | 0 | 0 | 0.071113 | 0.077009 | 0 | 0.056388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066973 | 0 | 0 | 0.078348 | 0.129228 | 0 | 0 | 0.046281 | 0.074146 | 0.066589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040206 | 0 | 0.054679 | 0 | 0 | 0.063191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131691 |
suicidewatch | SamiraMifsud | 2019/10/31 | I am cursed and I want to die to prevent the inevitable. I was born into an abusive family. I have autism spectrum disorder which makes me weird and terrible at interacting with people. I'm terrible at the sciences and life in general. Yet I decided to go into psychology because I'm very interested in the subject, it's... | 3.621667 | 5.045188 | 5.972373 | 75.546499 | 72.630573 | 8.800212 | 30.280786 | 9.299571 | 2.873298 | 617 | 27 | 115 | 14 | 12 | 219 | 93 | 157 | 0.132 | 0.763 | 0.105 | -0.7314 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 22 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 3 | 25 | 18 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 81 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0.181337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186593 | 0 | 0 | 0.172432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122196 | 0 | 0 | 0.098703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317679 | 0 | 0.175406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086981 | 0.128369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166287 | 0 | 0.216204 | 0 | 0 | 0.135144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102161 | 0.155166 | 0 | 0.166714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1777 | 0.101678 | 0.098067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12628 | 0.180543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MLR94 | 2019/10/31 | Fuck this I just found out that I don't get help from the help centre. They dont direct me to psychiatrist and i have to live in this fucking pain. Im done. Im going to fucking kill myself. I have already tried but now im going to end it all for ever. | -1.245414 | 0.68095 | 1.869925 | 96.159474 | 91.631579 | 3.958897 | 15.160401 | 5.288315 | -0.960181 | 195 | 4 | 47 | 1 | 7 | 69 | 40 | 57 | 0.201 | 0.799 | 0 | -0.8317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182059 | 0.208503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195064 | 0 | 0.493411 | 0.092948 | 0 | 0.202215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.576504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RegretsAndNeopets | 2019/10/31 | Today is perfect, but so was any other day. I kept stopping myself from going through with it because of my son. But now I look at him and I see how much of a disappointment I’ll be. I’ve been trying to get everyone else to stop worrying but they’re so used to me trying anything and everything to get them off my back. ... | -0.931836 | 1.117238 | 2.078 | 94.175757 | 91.966102 | 4.841582 | 16.341243 | 6.427356 | -0.300965 | 415 | 10 | 96 | 5 | 15 | 146 | 73 | 118 | 0.195 | 0.729 | 0.076 | -0.9428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 16 | 13 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 63 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13512 | 0 | 0.107119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16791 | 0.157928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183616 | 0 | 0.199734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155166 | 0 | 0.147563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165616 | 0 | 0 | 0.141239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102465 | 0 | 0.166564 | 0 | 0 | 0.477216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wowiam--sad-- | 2019/10/31 | Depression, but with extra steps Don't get me wrong, I am *always* depressed and *always* some degree of suicidal; but it changes once the summer ends. I live in Northern Ontario where the sky is always filled with clouds come mid-September. In the summer I am smiling and as close to happy as I get most days usually du... | 3.022679 | 5.169514 | 3.972249 | 86.175742 | 76.033493 | 6.792344 | 22.483254 | 7.762749 | 1.060588 | 1,682 | 48 | 326 | 25 | 38 | 541 | 202 | 418 | 0.118 | 0.702 | 0.179 | 0.9829 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 50 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 1 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 70 | 57 | 32 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 54 | 14 | 65 | 50 | 15 | 69 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 29 | 0 | 8 | 35 | 241 | 67 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.07266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077115 | 0 | 0 | 0.247818 | 0.080674 | 0.090474 | 0.050634 | 0.078075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090777 | 0 | 0.063358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076029 | 0 | 0.151828 | 0 | 0.078766 | 0.128277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059448 | 0 | 0 | 0.096038 | 0 | 0.19239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131894 | 0 | 0 | 0.098357 | 0.067351 | 0.062733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188239 | 0.106385 | 0.071491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172577 | 0 | 0.155603 | 0.071426 | 0 | 0 | 0.05955 | 0 | 0.082023 | 0 | 0 | 0.158522 | 0.066699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052591 | 0.145504 | 0 | 0.197241 | 0 | 0.062525 | 0 | 0 | 0.063301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054735 | 0 | 0.057426 | 0.071911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071444 | 0 | 0 | 0.158589 | 0.201817 | 0.056628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08063 | 0 | 0.154858 | 0.065013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084749 | 0.238496 | 0 | 0.073518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126175 | 0 | 0.07364 | 0 | 0.158104 | 0 | 0.059462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047709 | 0.073154 | 0 | 0.086833 | 0 | 0 | 0.071147 | 0 | 0.050552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082004 | 0 | 0.131751 | 0 | 0.059725 | 0 | 0.133892 | 0 | 0.201558 | 0 | 0.085622 | 0 | 0.242237 | 0.054206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081407 | 0.090474 | 0.047948 |
suicidewatch | lil-i-wanna-die | 2019/10/31 | how do i kill myself? i need to go, but i don’t wanna feel pain and i don’t wanna it to take enough time for me to regret | -1.986 | -0.727989 | 1.683333 | 100.805 | 88.333333 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -2.037 | 92 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 21 | 30 | 0.344 | 0.656 | 0 | -0.9001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suzy_sweetheart86 | 2019/10/31 | I just don't want to be anymore I'm a single mom and I work two jobs and still barely have enough money to get by. I feel like my life is pointless. My bipolar meds have made me gain 50 lbs and I barely recognize myself. I am too poor to buy new clothes so nothing I own fits me and I look like shit every day. I have no... | -1.824396 | 0.065251 | 0.560385 | 102.622115 | 100.428571 | 3.03956 | 14.192308 | 4.655896 | -1.380727 | 316 | 7 | 78 | 1 | 14 | 105 | 62 | 91 | 0.153 | 0.723 | 0.124 | -0.1635 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 47 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101037 | 0.142754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282282 | 0.195247 | 0 | 0.176447 | 0 | 0.167801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205116 | 0 | 0 | 0.199967 | 0 | 0.169309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | threwaway0002 | 2019/10/31 | My only friend left me. All alone and suicidal My only friend who I was really close with left me. She said I depended on her too much so now my depression is even worse. I want to die now and atleast in the past I still had our friendship to hold onto. A few days before it happened I was putting my frustrations of lif... | 0.418019 | 2.391927 | 2.032581 | 97.633157 | 84 | 5.148701 | 18.066558 | 6.322622 | -0.34544 | 557 | 13 | 132 | 5 | 16 | 181 | 84 | 154 | 0.222 | 0.648 | 0.13 | -0.9439 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 21 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 30 | 7 | 17 | 13 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 93 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136478 | 0.145416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084983 | 0 | 0.226994 | 0 | 0.136761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145789 | 0 | 0.07242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286346 | 0 | 0.279228 | 0 | 0 | 0.116359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LeWisePete | 2019/10/31 | Does this count as being suicidal? I've had a rough week and since this morning, I have thought multiple times that "I just want to die/shoot myself". I'm not obsessing over it, it's just passing thoughts, but it nonetheless has me worried. There's been a lot of change in my life this year, new thoughts and feelings, ... | 7.564146 | 6.523267 | 7.812227 | 74.378116 | 63.621849 | 11.294678 | 38.320728 | 10.504224 | 3.964411 | 482 | 22 | 91 | 10 | 6 | 158 | 79 | 119 | 0.201 | 0.681 | 0.117 | -0.9331 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 19 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 13 | 13 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 61 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201602 | 0 | 0.140708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161752 | 0.155885 | 0 | 0.08361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255511 | 0 | 0.086393 | 0 | 0.093977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116798 | 0 | 0 | 0.146015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542627 | 0 | 0.155849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393829 | 0.096422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195066 | 0 | 0.132641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106486 |
suicidewatch | Sovio | 2019/10/31 | Im tired i have had enough already. Nobody seems to care about me. I have told my parent about my depression and they jsut act like Im just thinking by myself because im only 15. I asked them to change and nothing changed. School is hitting me hard. I can’t really focus anymore. A girl that I love so much act like im n... | 0.136116 | 2.475321 | 1.928986 | 94.914878 | 90.420118 | 4.966218 | 17.74099 | 6.574016 | -0.040127 | 636 | 17 | 138 | 8 | 22 | 208 | 95 | 169 | 0.178 | 0.692 | 0.13 | -0.8341 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 30 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 30 | 6 | 14 | 24 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 94 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116238 | 0 | 0.087646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093769 | 0.098473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214789 | 0 | 0.222858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094358 | 0 | 0.108103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225524 | 0 | 0.455114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154865 | 0.078104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21413 | 0.080111 | 0.224165 | 0 | 0.233921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106603 | 0.083937 | 0.191784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121066 | 0 | 0.100651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074826 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | drifterlord | 2019/10/31 | Tell them I love them I've always tried to find the easy way out.
Life is hard.
Is this all there is.
I miss my son.
I've found someone I can see myself with for the rest of my life, but that's not enough.
I don't know how it's going to end, but it'll end today. | -1.883848 | -0.268878 | 0.615899 | 106.422419 | 90.774194 | 3.542857 | 10.470046 | 3.1291 | -2.191182 | 199 | 1 | 57 | 0 | 7 | 67 | 45 | 62 | 0.045 | 0.872 | 0.083 | 0.4678 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453173 | 0.264337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233821 | 0 | 0 | 0.280501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242494 | 0 | 0 | 0.17369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nopointCro | 2019/10/31 | I failed I can't keep up with the college program. I mean I have no idea how to write a 5 pages wiht just full text. And I have to write 7 of them... I had to write it for today and I did not. And 2 hours later I have this presentation (I suck at presentations) with very mean professor. I will fail college again, I bec... | 0.611759 | 2.473495 | 3.07233 | 91.069236 | 82.580247 | 6.025309 | 20.001543 | 7.168622 | 0.349628 | 292 | 8 | 67 | 4 | 8 | 101 | 54 | 81 | 0.229 | 0.771 | 0 | -0.9451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 49 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300494 | 0 | 0 | 0.344458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.664758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | biggestcatever | 2019/10/31 | So Long Tomorrow is my last day. I'm going to wake up and call my closest friend and tell him I love him. I'm going to finish writing my note and then watch my favourite film. I'm going to kiss my mum and dad and send them out of the house. I'm going to order my favourite food and eat in front of the TV with the AC on.... | 2.589362 | 3.284951 | 4.13595 | 90.5235 | 74.248227 | 7.05844 | 24.029078 | 7.168622 | 0.696704 | 508 | 14 | 119 | 5 | 10 | 170 | 83 | 141 | 0.071 | 0.771 | 0.158 | 0.9201 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 22 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 5 | 21 | 20 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 71 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226569 | 0 | 0.144762 | 0 | 0.097893 | 0 | 0.532435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372203 | 0 | 0.216201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152732 | 0 | 0.198399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187795 | 0 | 0.165817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hidden_sirt | 2019/10/31 | Suicidal thoughts are a daily thing now.... Again... I had a really bad time in 2016-2017 I thought it was cured, and now I see myself spiraling to hell again and suicidal thoughts are now daily again... Fuck my life.... | 2.649878 | 4.975447 | 3.373354 | 89.133689 | 78.02439 | 8.002439 | 24.884146 | 8.841846 | 1.912946 | 165 | 6 | 34 | 4 | 4 | 52 | 29 | 41 | 0.411 | 0.589 | 0 | -0.9716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.577793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175465 | 0 | 0 | 0.629028 | 0.154006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PahtS | 2019/10/31 | Happiness? I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't think I'm happy these days. I mean yeah I do have some bad experiences growing up, but now I can see some stability in my life. I have a girlfriend who loves me, and a brother whose basically my best friend, a full time job but still in spite of everything...it feel... | 1.52446 | 3.754001 | 3.261673 | 88.93251 | 81.516129 | 6.971774 | 20.655242 | 8.076483 | 0.964944 | 596 | 17 | 128 | 12 | 16 | 198 | 91 | 155 | 0.111 | 0.642 | 0.247 | 0.9766 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 35 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 23 | 8 | 13 | 28 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 91 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118176 | 0 | 0.156314 | 0 | 0 | 0.148532 | 0.125176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144304 | 0 | 0.149725 | 0 | 0 | 0.152949 | 0 | 0.113004 | 0 | 0 | 0.182556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138448 | 0 | 0 | 0.143128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125159 | 0.451999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090671 | 0 | 0.139748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217921 | 0 | 0 | 0.100179 | 0 | 0.11303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188059 | 0.272069 | 0 | 0 | 0.08253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154746 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidalthrowaway_18 | 2019/10/31 | Everything hurts I haven't left my room in a month now. I cry %75 of the time, the other 25 I'm sleeping. I was supposed to help him, but I messed everything up. Now he has forgotten me. I feel like a broken toy left behind. | -0.650625 | 1.447755 | 2.034167 | 94.7275 | 90.875 | 5.7 | 18.416667 | 7.168622 | 0.298017 | 171 | 5 | 40 | 3 | 6 | 59 | 38 | 48 | 0.27 | 0.63 | 0.1 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136418 | 0.192743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.586272 | 0 | 0 | 0.131809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WhoIsMrLonely | 2019/10/31 | My suicidal friend asked me for help, but he didn't know I was suicidal as well What should I do? Should I try to help or should I just walk away, so that I won't accidentally affect him negatively? | 3.324309 | 4.406389 | 4.993659 | 83.602358 | 72.902439 | 9.369106 | 23.422764 | 9.725611 | 1.692018 | 156 | 4 | 36 | 4 | 3 | 53 | 32 | 41 | 0.186 | 0.558 | 0.256 | -0.0927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288395 | 0 | 0.289835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.674874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PM_ME_CATGIRLS_PLZ | 2019/10/31 | My friends are all assholes and I wanna die My friends laugh every time they talk about a friend of theirs that killed himself last year. They often say he was weak or how he should have just gotten over it. All I want right now is to kill myself but I know I wouldn't be missed anyway. He is a spoiled brat who never ha... | 0.211114 | 2.062815 | 2.004102 | 98.241385 | 83.962406 | 5.294124 | 20.754107 | 6.427356 | -0.011079 | 944 | 29 | 232 | 9 | 27 | 310 | 143 | 266 | 0.174 | 0.647 | 0.179 | -0.5157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 15 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 43 | 50 | 18 | 4 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 41 | 11 | 27 | 39 | 6 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 153 | 55 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.102922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118827 | 0 | 0 | 0.115144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084208 | 0.116699 | 0.115852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115536 | 0.096396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407423 | 0.097504 | 0 | 0 | 0.11988 | 0.088462 | 0 | 0 | 0.116185 | 0 | 0 | 0.112273 | 0 | 0.208257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23337 | 0 | 0.057963 | 0.085971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071468 | 0 | 0.112226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099702 | 0 | 0.10101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119475 | 0.09007 | 0 | 0.167746 | 0 | 0 | 0.252134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099403 | 0 | 0.079299 | 0.084772 | 0 | 0.097101 | 0 | 0 | 0.070069 | 0.06758 | 0 | 0 | 0.122999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248832 | 0.167432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203755 |
suicidewatch | hospitalroom | 2019/10/31 | I’m tired of this world. I’m so exhausted from the rat race, im so exhausted from feeling like I’m lost. I’m tired of always putting so much effort, time, care and love only for shit to blow up in my face. I’m tired of a mindless job that leaves me feeling unfulfilled. I’m tired of giving you my all only to have no res... | 0.45375 | 2.086532 | 2.869306 | 93.489583 | 81.986111 | 5.655556 | 20.041667 | 6.605767 | 0.059925 | 1,012 | 27 | 241 | 10 | 27 | 349 | 129 | 288 | 0.236 | 0.633 | 0.131 | -0.9704 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 26 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 18 | 25 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 59 | 15 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 39 | 13 | 34 | 51 | 6 | 25 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 140 | 50 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060069 | 0 | 0 | 0.144779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051631 | 0 | 0 | 0.054492 | 0 | 0 | 0.035356 | 0 | 0 | 0.065345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046307 | 0 | 0 | 0.074809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06726 | 0 | 0.048451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038308 | 0 | 0.048867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054676 | 0 | 0.175956 | 0.082869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055638 | 0 | 0.048647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229048 | 0.059524 | 0 | 0.065369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062649 | 0 | 0.057555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061413 | 0 | 0 | 0.081933 | 0.056671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063313 | 0 | 0.104693 | 0 | 0.038715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039302 | 0.088222 | 0.061715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041052 | 0 | 0 | 0.145469 | 0 | 0.060633 | 0 | 0.063441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037163 | 0 | 0 | 0.03382 | 0.799935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Icantcomern | 2019/10/31 | Just OD just took an overdose and i think ill talk to someone and try to get some help | 0.176842 | 2.128423 | 1.157105 | 103.687237 | 84.789474 | 3.8 | 20.026316 | 3.1291 | -0.847126 | 68 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 16 | 19 | 0.13 | 0.744 | 0.126 | -0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.54264 | 0.331598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Saul1o | 2019/10/31 | I cant continue living like this... I feel like im going to self destruct, i can barely function on my own, i feel like i have to end my life with every day that passes. I try to act normal and happy but i just cant seem to do it, its rarely the times i can but when it happens its only for so little. I joke around more... | 1.680587 | 2.984036 | 3.609345 | 91.021769 | 77.417618 | 6.27431 | 23.516117 | 6.831383 | 0.60913 | 2,210 | 69 | 504 | 21 | 50 | 749 | 210 | 613 | 0.214 | 0.603 | 0.183 | -0.9897 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 35 | 42 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 55 | 13 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 89 | 109 | 34 | 9 | 17 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 33 | 18 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 115 | 17 | 76 | 103 | 11 | 54 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 44 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 355 | 148 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.08042 | 0 | 0 | 0.040265 | 0 | 0.044035 | 0 | 0.042676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040864 | 0.028811 | 0 | 0.033908 | 0.036681 | 0.038521 | 0.046876 | 0 | 0.063368 | 0 | 0 | 0.045507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036442 | 0 | 0.045769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043589 | 0 | 0 | 0.044528 | 0.092429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048292 | 0.040365 | 0 | 0 | 0.034421 | 0 | 0.07299 | 0 | 0 | 0.027215 | 0 | 0.069433 | 0.039373 | 0 | 0 | 0.038844 | 0 | 0.083337 | 0.058873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031835 | 0 | 0.021528 | 0.158109 | 0.070253 | 0.034561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036437 | 0.087726 | 0 | 0.325448 | 0.084576 | 0 | 0.046441 | 0 | 0.110474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04411 | 0 | 0.445081 | 0 | 0 | 0.146498 | 0.091174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04363 | 0 | 0.042135 | 0.087312 | 0.080522 | 0.041298 | 0.218307 | 0 | 0.069203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038668 | 0.040372 | 0.079074 | 0 | 0.043237 | 0.043882 | 0 | 0.062676 | 0 | 0.048345 | 0 | 0.133862 | 0 | 0.085698 | 0 | 0 | 0.04523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06567 | 0.037511 | 0.085971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041234 | 0 | 0.13965 | 0.126885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045071 | 0.046759 | 0 | 0 | 0.030981 | 0.033119 | 0.360147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148723 | 0 | 0 | 0.119159 | 0 | 0.029997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090102 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hehsjsksospapapap | 2019/10/31 | I’m an ugly male and it’s ruined my life... I’m Male 182cm tall (just under 6ft) lanky slim body framed and pale with a receding hairline so yea I’m fucked when it comes to looks. I’m a kissless virgin.And I noticed over time I get stared at like iv got 3 heads and treated poorly by most and it’s because I’m ugly. I... | 1.757732 | 2.935324 | 3.441992 | 92.818697 | 76.958412 | 6.550383 | 22.047034 | 7.071269 | 0.425272 | 1,897 | 50 | 447 | 20 | 42 | 633 | 219 | 529 | 0.147 | 0.725 | 0.129 | -0.9212 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 2 | 31 | 20 | 8 | 4 | 7 | 72 | 67 | 48 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 26 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 17 | 49 | 15 | 65 | 38 | 10 | 60 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 39 | 28 | 1 | 7 | 31 | 275 | 75 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054596 | 0.113613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056181 | 0.060775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104991 | 0.057003 | 0.249701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058809 | 0.07158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074992 | 0.088057 | 0 | 0.058801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059744 | 0.069864 | 0 | 0.066879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090184 | 0.185263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052745 | 0.063115 | 0.107005 | 0 | 0.0388 | 0.114524 | 0.109204 | 0 | 0 | 0.202795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067232 | 0.236324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111299 | 0 | 0.216865 | 0 | 0 | 0.192885 | 0.133414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401309 | 0 | 0 | 0.116082 | 0 | 0.064599 | 0.045571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050186 | 0.050621 | 0.052654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077726 | 0 | 0.145411 | 0 | 0.103845 | 0.072644 | 0 | 0 | 0.14786 | 0.130343 | 0.04733 | 0.059611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057845 | 0.105115 | 0.067521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045356 | 0.043745 | 0 | 0.108398 | 0.119427 | 0.156933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058964 | 0 | 0.11266 | 0.040268 | 0 | 0.164287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198806 | 0 | 0 | 0.048497 | 0.074643 | 0 | 0.087928 |
suicidewatch | secretblack92 | 2019/10/31 | Want to be hospitalized but dobt want to lose my job I really need to be hospitalized at this point. Im suicidal as well as having a bipolar depressive episode. I just really need a hospital before I kill myself. The problem is i dont want to lose my job and stability. If i go my job is on the line, my gf and i have bi... | 1.296635 | 3.234095 | 3.556385 | 88.088615 | 80.634615 | 7.621538 | 24.823077 | 8.548687 | 1.673592 | 387 | 15 | 87 | 9 | 10 | 133 | 65 | 104 | 0.338 | 0.558 | 0.105 | -0.9883 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 51 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138868 | 0.098103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296663 | 0 | 0.408813 | 0 | 0.151926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150738 | 0.129814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131399 | 0 | 0.138047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175944 | 0.14119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bigdt73 | 2019/10/31 | Think about it every day I think about killing myself every day. I don't want to live but I don't want to die so I can't bring myself to actually commit suicide. I plan it out in my head and think of every little detail to spare people from finding a gruesome scene and yet I can't bring myself to do it. And I hate myse... | 0.677218 | 2.646507 | 3.092188 | 90.430216 | 82.984375 | 5.188462 | 20.002404 | 6.297961 | 0.112996 | 467 | 13 | 101 | 4 | 13 | 161 | 68 | 128 | 0.269 | 0.654 | 0.077 | -0.9797 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 25 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 16 | 22 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 66 | 21 | 0 | 0.156139 | 0 | 0.152369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30831 | 0.160243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110285 | 0 | 0.156492 | 0.275747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11478 | 0 | 0.240848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | citizensfob | 2019/10/31 | savior complex everybody seems to want to “save” a suicidal person.
i want to kill myself, it’s going to happen eventually, and saying “don’t do that people love you” doesn’t help.
people don’t fucking love me. i’m literally the most worthless bastard on this planet. i’m toxic and manipulative, as people have said. i... | 3.610295 | 5.937409 | 4.791212 | 80.142273 | 74.916667 | 6.69697 | 27.575758 | 7.686295 | 1.841417 | 499 | 20 | 88 | 7 | 11 | 164 | 80 | 120 | 0.179 | 0.584 | 0.237 | 0.6602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 28 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 10 | 21 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 54 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.152187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144176 | 0.081479 | 0 | 0.088632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432472 | 0.136172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148347 | 0.12402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141974 | 0 | 0 | 0.160083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099928 | 0 | 0 | 0.090937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | babieangel | 2019/10/31 | I feel so deeply ashamed of myself I can barley go out around people without thinking that I look like a complete fool. Years and years of people humiliating me and telling me their opinions about me have finally taken its toll. I’ve ripped apart every little piece of myself to analyze and criticize. It’s a fucking nig... | 5.344348 | 7.87268 | 6.851522 | 66.42337 | 70.449275 | 8.078261 | 33.23913 | 8.841846 | 3.322583 | 308 | 15 | 47 | 6 | 6 | 105 | 54 | 69 | 0.165 | 0.799 | 0.036 | -0.8347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 34 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135855 | 0 | 0 | 0.294332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248395 | 0 | 0 | 0.1527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131266 | 0.269293 | 0 | 0 | 0.225628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346049 |
suicidewatch | daddysbabygirlnomore | 2019/10/31 | My daddy just packed up and left. I can't do this. I don't want to cry and complain but I have no reason to keep going anymore | -1.888448 | -0.011967 | 1.071983 | 100.290043 | 96.586207 | 2.9 | 14.146552 | 3.1291 | -1.474524 | 98 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 23 | 29 | 0.206 | 0.729 | 0.065 | -0.4374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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