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suicidewatch | moveimqueer | 2019/07/17 | God forbid a trans person have an opinion on this hellsite Reddit is great, it's one of the places where simply existing as a trans person means you can get banned from a subreddit run by a bunch of power-tripping assholes because god forbid you use a naughty word. Christ, I'm so fucking done with this shit. It seems s... | 6.035775 | 7.539729 | 6.152225 | 76.245944 | 66.887324 | 8.496901 | 31.101408 | 8.841846 | 2.659099 | 614 | 24 | 104 | 10 | 10 | 195 | 103 | 142 | 0.227 | 0.644 | 0.13 | -0.9352 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 19 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 70 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127067 | 0 | 0.169701 | 0 | 0.204485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3643 | 0.102939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157582 | 0.217225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139167 | 0 | 0.197475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344076 | 0.205853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179368 | 0 | 0 | 0.202247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rachsteef | 2019/07/17 | feeling hopeless over the last 2 years i’ve lost each of my 3 best friends due to varying forms of betrayal. i have no support system left, every day i wake up and do the same job during what is supposed to be my summer... and will have to continue till my break is over.
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suicidewatch | Jeuz8wbam | 2019/07/17 | I want to talk about my depression but I don't want them to feel they failed as parents. Throwaway account because some of my IRL friends and family know my main account because of things I share.
Warning: I'm going to be as honest as I can be, so somethings may or may not be phrased properly and can offend people.
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suicidewatch | GrooviestKramer | 2019/07/17 | life's tough for years ive thought of suicide, especially when my life got to a very low point in eighth grade. i thought that life was looking up, seeing as ive found someone and i have more friends. however, it seems that my mental health is at a standstill or even declining. the suicidal thoughts are returning and b... | 3.360938 | 5.191745 | 3.84 | 88.905 | 74.104167 | 7.3 | 31.791667 | 8.076483 | 2.216817 | 383 | 19 | 79 | 6 | 8 | 120 | 73 | 96 | 0.121 | 0.854 | 0.025 | -0.7506 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 20 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 50 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111202 | 0.20147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200015 | 0.140938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103674 | 0 | 0.145899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145366 | 0.166069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117473 |
suicidewatch | MilkBubbleMilkTea | 2019/10/17 | I cant stop thinking about how much better i’d feel if i was dead my anxiety is causing me physical pain. i’ve been throwing up constantly, always have headache, stomachache.. sharp pain throughout my body whenever i have even a small amount of stress. my mind keeps filling with thoughts that i wouldn’t feel pain anymo... | 6.5875 | 7.339358 | 5.584375 | 83.523125 | 65.25 | 8.9 | 36.3125 | 8.841846 | 3.038325 | 272 | 13 | 51 | 4 | 4 | 81 | 51 | 64 | 0.309 | 0.624 | 0.066 | -0.9553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154149 | 0 | 0.199837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178213 | 0 | 0.223825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.643241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168466 | 0.230821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129115 | 0 | 0.159971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TizneTheCoalMonster | 2019/10/17 | fuck this... I'm going to go say goodbye to my family. Enjoy theselast couple hours with them, and ending it. I'm fucking tired of this shit.
I'm tired of being me.
I'm tired of the rage and the violence that I can't stop.
This is the closest thing I'll leave to a note, and no one that knows me has reddit (that I kn... | 0.097273 | 2.218281 | 2.323818 | 94.075727 | 86.727273 | 5.338182 | 17.890909 | 6.742158 | -0.020458 | 320 | 8 | 72 | 4 | 10 | 108 | 56 | 88 | 0.292 | 0.632 | 0.076 | -0.9701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 43 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344371 | 0 | 0 | 0.211701 | 0.156218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204717 | 0.151819 | 0 | 0.197212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.642202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EternityGods | 2019/10/17 | 16 years old and ready to die. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I havent met anyone who has had a worse upbringing than mine. I have never seen my dad, my mother is an alcoholic and is responsible for my siblings being put into foster care, and me being consequently bought up by my grandmother, who is unemplo... | 6.779632 | 6.738547 | 7.578185 | 72.112207 | 64.837838 | 10.939511 | 33.835264 | 10.608841 | 3.626445 | 1,524 | 60 | 275 | 36 | 21 | 511 | 209 | 370 | 0.138 | 0.749 | 0.113 | -0.8417 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 43 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 45 | 62 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 49 | 11 | 48 | 38 | 4 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 20 | 1 | 6 | 21 | 206 | 60 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083353 | 0 | 0 | 0.076187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222182 | 0.111931 | 0 | 0.187717 | 0 | 0.117746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143933 | 0.09856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102717 | 0 | 0.110186 | 0.07784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084182 | 0.100731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230744 | 0.118384 | 0 | 0.230883 | 0.159696 | 0 | 0.288639 | 0 | 0.091498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09834 | 0.2062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118688 | 0 | 0.109765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106757 | 0 | 0 | 0.114334 | 0 | 0 | 0.082868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075539 | 0 | 0.113839 | 0 | 0.103002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110272 | 0.086826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262129 | 0.282317 | 0 | 0.089903 | 0 | 0 | 0.174801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105033 | 0 | 0.079324 | 0.110653 | 0.111039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070166 |
suicidewatch | throwaway58964215799 | 2019/10/17 | I can’t no longer fight this battle. I have been in a battle with bipolar for years now, and recently it has started to take over. I am exhausted from the constant battle inside me and have run out of fight. I can not do this for the rest of my life and have decided that I will end it all today. I need to know if I tak... | 4.970348 | 4.505054 | 6.132776 | 82.390244 | 68.674797 | 9.630197 | 28.953542 | 9.236283 | 2.086032 | 460 | 14 | 102 | 8 | 7 | 155 | 77 | 123 | 0.195 | 0.763 | 0.042 | -0.9454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 24 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 18 | 18 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 78 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34368 | 0.20047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17245 | 0 | 0 | 0.106626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154861 | 0 | 0 | 0.14386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216611 | 0 | 0.187024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137823 | 0 | 0 | 0.12494 |
suicidewatch | lyloathes | 2019/10/17 | Back to the Library. Last night at work I spent some time staring at myself in the mirror wondering who I’d become under this immense depression. The person who I was two years ago would be so disappointed, so confused. I wondered how my boyfriend could ever love me as I’ve failed to love myself.
So I went home to sle... | 5.608665 | 5.801776 | 5.803889 | 83.045385 | 67.287037 | 8.683191 | 33.282051 | 8.384062 | 2.446287 | 859 | 36 | 172 | 11 | 13 | 273 | 127 | 216 | 0.163 | 0.763 | 0.074 | -0.9679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 35 | 21 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 24 | 5 | 43 | 11 | 5 | 37 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 124 | 31 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196946 | 0 | 0.078067 | 0.141436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102249 | 0 | 0 | 0.082591 | 0 | 0.220602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197884 | 0.118393 | 0.133816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128458 | 0 | 0 | 0.147768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141684 | 0 | 0 | 0.104389 | 0 | 0.135601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258616 | 0 | 0.102219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136197 | 0.120179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086947 | 0 | 0.1251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27776 | 0.279696 | 0.130055 | 0 | 0.090973 | 0 | 0 | 0.164938 |
suicidewatch | BPKittie | 2019/10/17 | To those who want to help First of all, thank you. Just the fact that you want to help means a lot to a lot of people. But don’t treat us like we are children, or like we are so ill we cant handle ourselves. I’m in my early twenties, female recently was hospitalized for 4 days because I overdosed. Physically I was okay... | 4.10548 | 5.381584 | 4.763415 | 85.253089 | 71.243902 | 8.003252 | 25.861789 | 8.447377 | 1.554993 | 814 | 25 | 167 | 13 | 15 | 261 | 125 | 205 | 0.154 | 0.686 | 0.159 | -0.7769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 38 | 35 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 28 | 12 | 20 | 26 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 35 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 118 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123083 | 0 | 0.247396 | 0 | 0 | 0.160516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116611 | 0.136039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128788 | 0 | 0 | 0.066571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11056 | 0 | 0 | 0.223863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182551 | 0.114959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210286 | 0.110073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098991 | 0 | 0.230151 | 0.121214 | 0 | 0 | 0.087468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125806 | 0 | 0.089388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155312 | 0.104505 | 0 | 0 | 0.118377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093527 | 0.143948 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidalbitchboy | 2019/10/17 | Why won’t you help me Please just help me | -0.887 | 0.643976 | 0.11 | 112.085 | 86 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -2.473 | 33 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0.438 | 0.562 | 0.7717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taylor_246 | 2019/10/17 | I dont know I just cut my thumb open for the second time. It's still bleeding. So I'm thinking, wrist wont be much more? | -1.119405 | 0.558635 | 1.114286 | 103.697381 | 87.928571 | 3.733333 | 16.47619 | 3.1291 | -1.307681 | 93 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 25 | 28 | 0 | 0.92 | 0.08 | 0.2057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.617322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337506 | 0 | 0 | 0.30714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | soontobeacorpse | 2019/10/17 | Holding on for the little things, but I feel like everything is falling apart. I wish I did more soul searching and listened to myself (rather than everyone around me) before going to college. Now I've dropped out from a major university with $5k in debt under my belt and I'm flunking out of the community college I joi... | 2.202409 | 4.200059 | 3.720381 | 87.723376 | 77.985314 | 6.58502 | 23.271628 | 7.586125 | 1.011584 | 2,895 | 93 | 601 | 42 | 69 | 957 | 304 | 749 | 0.154 | 0.697 | 0.148 | -0.9317 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 108 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 40 | 45 | 2 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 56 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 117 | 124 | 46 | 2 | 10 | 23 | 9 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 38 | 3 | 4 | 17 | 3 | 6 | 19 | 15 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 15 | 105 | 29 | 92 | 92 | 14 | 96 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 59 | 36 | 0 | 15 | 46 | 404 | 140 | 13 | 0 | 0.057464 | 0 | 0 | 0.058287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038785 | 0.080711 | 0 | 0 | 0.032981 | 0 | 0.074204 | 0 | 0.048098 | 0.033912 | 0.049693 | 0.039911 | 0.043175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149172 | 0 | 0.029565 | 0.053564 | 0.041269 | 0 | 0.050897 | 0.085787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05547 | 0.049448 | 0 | 0 | 0.041778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038723 | 0 | 0.053274 | 0.062556 | 0.050001 | 0.125317 | 0 | 0.050335 | 0.050671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040515 | 0 | 0.042956 | 0.050113 | 0.05409 | 0.128133 | 0.04387 | 0 | 0.046343 | 0.043588 | 0.047442 | 0.045721 | 0 | 0.122614 | 0.17324 | 0 | 0 | 0.044327 | 0.041253 | 0.058646 | 0.053177 | 0.112411 | 0 | 0.101356 | 0 | 0.275633 | 0.081358 | 0.077579 | 0 | 0.21371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065016 | 0.051242 | 0.048649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048128 | 0.086217 | 0 | 0 | 0.106616 | 0.039533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099188 | 0.171282 | 0.213249 | 0.097218 | 0.042826 | 0 | 0.081454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17509 | 0 | 0.129495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25725 | 0 | 0.170405 | 0 | 0.051547 | 0 | 0.107885 | 0.074811 | 0.046841 | 0.206318 | 0 | 0 | 0.046536 | 0 | 0 | 0.1033 | 0.098593 | 0.073772 | 0 | 0 | 0.107705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042348 | 0 | 0 | 0.045848 | 0.054676 | 0 | 0.049341 | 0.104581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048512 | 0 | 0.186419 | 0.199461 | 0 | 0.05207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038648 | 0.044152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080238 | 0 | 0 | 0.049439 | 0.082187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04571 | 0 | 0 | 0.038982 | 0.127172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161104 | 0.031076 | 0.04765 | 0 | 0.02828 | 0 | 0 | 0.046343 | 0 | 0.032928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120051 | 0.028606 | 0.038496 | 0 | 0.118118 | 0.043607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055772 | 0.093503 | 0 | 0.035308 | 0 | 0 | 0.034453 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idkidkidkidkidk0 | 2019/10/17 | I don’t have an interesting title. I have really been struggling these past few weeks. I feel like I want to die. I don’t have a definite plan or anything because practically I know that if I’m gone, my kids will be devastated. I’m a single parent and that’s the only reason I can think of that I shouldn’t just disappea... | 2.900558 | 3.939285 | 4.859429 | 84.327238 | 73.876847 | 8.171954 | 25.848604 | 8.648137 | 1.677773 | 757 | 25 | 164 | 14 | 15 | 261 | 118 | 203 | 0.135 | 0.735 | 0.131 | -0.5838 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 37 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 27 | 7 | 19 | 28 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 109 | 32 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.274772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158364 | 0 | 0.145469 | 0 | 0.092987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14237 | 0.201154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073554 | 0 | 0.080011 | 0 | 0.112599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099441 | 0.137561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157502 | 0.153683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164886 | 0 | 0 | 0.206986 | 0 | 0.108582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107073 | 0 | 0 | 0.31265 | 0 | 0.134395 | 0 | 0.122928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09019 | 0.14475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180419 | 0 | 0 | 0.164186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166077 | 0 | 0.112929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135712 | 0 | 0.102493 | 0 | 0 | 0.10001 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | datterrbear | 2019/10/17 | I don't know why I'm living if everything hurts and there is no light at the end of the tunnel https://docs.google.com/document/d/1a2sJ9hMnWnFWEIDbkT6tt-D0TduYzE5hJ028R9Dym1o/edit?usp=drivesdk
Ok so i apologize that some a lot of this may be copy/paste .. but it is a representation of how i really feel. Above is basic... | 1.535801 | 3.481822 | 3.606493 | 87.984916 | 79.886598 | 6.031824 | 20.440385 | 7.07983 | 0.365808 | 1,822 | 48 | 398 | 22 | 46 | 620 | 223 | 485 | 0.139 | 0.73 | 0.131 | -0.2453 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 112 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 39 | 20 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 75 | 76 | 37 | 3 | 9 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 6 | 50 | 16 | 59 | 53 | 8 | 43 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 24 | 21 | 8 | 14 | 13 | 265 | 77 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056797 | 0 | 0.057081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062173 | 0.071204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153565 | 0 | 0.109204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093877 | 0.168499 | 0.031742 | 0.174843 | 0.069056 | 0 | 0.097182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130078 | 0 | 0.459376 | 0 | 0.060289 | 0.108003 | 0 | 0.063266 | 0.033389 | 0 | 0.068534 | 0 | 0.06601 | 0 | 0.429126 | 0.029682 | 0.060892 | 0.160942 | 0 | 0.051018 | 0 | 0 | 0.051651 | 0.054833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061345 | 0 | 0 | 0.064572 | 0.044661 | 0.045049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123506 | 0 | 0.064647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13338 | 0.114865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068059 | 0.129239 | 0.060771 | 0 | 0.077842 | 0 | 0.059988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048314 | 0 | 0 | 0.048413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051477 | 0 | 0 | 0.06801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069549 | 0.066455 | 0.137887 | 0 | 0 | 0.137039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040362 | 0.116787 | 0 | 0.096464 | 0.070853 | 0 | 0.057588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048224 | 0 | 0 | 0.054625 | 0.05632 | 0.328928 | 0 | 0.069865 | 0 | 0 | 0.04423 | 0 | 0 | 0.043158 | 0.066425 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Defective_droid | 2019/10/17 | Going to pop a month supply of colodadin with a few drinks. Wish me luck. I've been reaching out the past few weeks, but no one has helped. I'm not confident this will do it but I'm sick and sleep deprived so I am gonna try and see if it will be enough to pull my plug ✌ | -0.386075 | 1.156699 | 1.572258 | 102.195054 | 84.322581 | 4.778495 | 16.784946 | 5.461319 | -0.951944 | 209 | 4 | 56 | 1 | 6 | 69 | 51 | 62 | 0.221 | 0.701 | 0.078 | -0.9117 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | a420panda | 2019/10/17 | I don’t belong I love my family but every time I travel to see them I feel like I don’t belong in the family. I’m ugly fat and a loner never been good at making people like me . Complete opposite to my parents especially my dad and my sister who everyone likes without them making any effort. I’m sitting at a table with... | 0.769558 | 2.450266 | 3.311337 | 90.468866 | 81.186047 | 5.974419 | 17.261628 | 6.961327 | -0.054251 | 768 | 14 | 173 | 9 | 20 | 268 | 112 | 215 | 0.119 | 0.661 | 0.22 | 0.9785 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 40 | 36 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 42 | 12 | 23 | 23 | 6 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 123 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251464 | 0 | 0 | 0.128328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135426 | 0 | 0.078934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110712 | 0.103122 | 0.116953 | 0 | 0 | 0.346146 | 0 | 0.185658 | 0.262315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069559 | 0.102658 | 0.09789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120533 | 0 | 0.131025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125156 | 0.08645 | 0.358773 | 0 | 0.108076 | 0 | 0.10278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22093 | 0 | 0.245097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089974 | 0 | 0.283193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082937 | 0.093086 | 0 | 0 | 0.135904 | 0 | 0 | 0.084852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078425 | 0 | 0 | 0.142738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086945 | 0.133818 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FantasticAverage3 | 2019/10/17 | I wish I had the guts to just end it. I hate myself. If I could switch places with a different person, I would in a heartbeat.
I’m a 22 year old guy who’s severely lonely and depressed. I suffer from mild autism. For most of my childhood, I was bullied severely and I suffer from extremely low self esteem because of t... | 2.21323 | 3.838099 | 3.908456 | 88.074946 | 76.741935 | 6.981874 | 22.696621 | 7.793538 | 0.993222 | 934 | 27 | 198 | 14 | 21 | 313 | 132 | 248 | 0.207 | 0.624 | 0.169 | -0.821 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 29 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 44 | 34 | 19 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 35 | 15 | 27 | 20 | 5 | 22 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 137 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200232 | 0 | 0.120637 | 0.121444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097102 | 0 | 0.205905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111607 | 0 | 0.10624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132122 | 0.097495 | 0 | 0.128153 | 0 | 0.115094 | 0 | 0.123738 | 0 | 0.114761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257201 | 0 | 0.063882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10491 | 0.109988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113889 | 0 | 0 | 0.121973 | 0 | 0.078766 | 0.176809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080585 | 0.101495 | 0.121444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264609 | 0.223396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242524 | 0.262633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11849 | 0.098488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077224 | 0.074481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104512 | 0 | 0 | 0.129776 | 0.267337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082572 | 0 | 0 | 0.074854 |
suicidewatch | adenaden4 | 2019/10/17 | Using pills to kill myself, is it effective? Is there any combination of easy to get pills that would kill me without risk of going into a coma? And if so, how much would I need? I'm only about 55-60 kgs so I'm not too heavy, if that's something to consider | 1.197273 | 2.89072 | 3.718182 | 87.997273 | 79.909091 | 6.581818 | 20.090909 | 7.554174 | 0.582745 | 200 | 5 | 44 | 3 | 5 | 70 | 42 | 55 | 0.161 | 0.713 | 0.127 | -0.6281 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 29 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151393 | 0 | 0.164683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.641177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213015 | 0.214861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41169 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bustorice | 2019/10/17 | Haha, kind of want to die? im 13 and have thought of killing myself since 11, i remember sewrching for sleeping pills in my dads room, i remember taking 10 anti depressants i stole from my dad, im tired of this fucking bullshit, the thing is i have alot of friends and alot of family members who love ke and i kinda feel... | 4.295034 | 4.307174 | 5.22898 | 86.66483 | 70.088435 | 8.710204 | 29.258503 | 8.515129 | 1.871512 | 548 | 19 | 122 | 8 | 9 | 180 | 97 | 147 | 0.222 | 0.719 | 0.059 | -0.9769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 21 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 18 | 4 | 16 | 13 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 73 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117391 | 0 | 0.147268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117376 | 0 | 0.424304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113843 | 0 | 0 | 0.140811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256941 | 0 | 0.068906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105288 | 0.125987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150771 | 0.141912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11273 | 0 | 0.272752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090537 | 0 | 0 | 0.108189 | 0 | 0.156631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096808 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jerkma | 2019/10/17 | can’t even write a suicide note Anyone else so depressed that they can’t work up the motivation to write a suicide note but they don’t want to leave this world without saying goodbye?? Hahaha | 4.595045 | 6.59095 | 4.847027 | 82.278829 | 71.162162 | 7.095495 | 28.54955 | 7.793538 | 1.861728 | 156 | 6 | 28 | 2 | 3 | 49 | 28 | 37 | 0.327 | 0.598 | 0.075 | -0.8889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203886 | 0.298768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.637903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281082 | 0 | 0.212281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thatblackgentleman | 2019/10/17 | I don't want my parents to suffer I honestly don't want to live anymore. I don't care about what life "has to offer", I just want it to end. I already wrote my note and bought some razor blades. I tried to fulfill my family's expectations but I can't. I've had a shitty self esteem my whole life and now I'm diagnosed wi... | 1.304286 | 3.051317 | 3.248613 | 91.236618 | 79.784314 | 6.201494 | 22.039683 | 7.168622 | 0.585721 | 561 | 17 | 126 | 7 | 14 | 189 | 84 | 153 | 0.18 | 0.724 | 0.095 | -0.8728 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 33 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 21 | 24 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 81 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129458 | 0 | 0 | 0.09654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152207 | 0.080328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20648 | 0.071408 | 0 | 0.129065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155529 | 0 | 0.486893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152802 | 0 | 0.15988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094125 |
suicidewatch | letsgetsomenudes | 2019/10/17 | I went back on my bupropion hcl xl 150 mg but I dont think its enough. Teetering on the edge 28 M Ive been in and out of Baker act 2 times for suicide ideology/attempt. Ive been in and out of therapy/psychiatrist for about 6 months due to Manic/Major Depression Disorder and Major Anxiety disorder. Ive tried writing i... | 2.958735 | 4.153907 | 4.363927 | 87.328563 | 73.943567 | 7.140568 | 23.269027 | 7.597988 | 0.906507 | 3,344 | 89 | 712 | 41 | 67 | 1,111 | 328 | 886 | 0.154 | 0.7 | 0.147 | -0.878 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 79 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 64 | 55 | 4 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 79 | 18 | 4 | 8 | 16 | 155 | 137 | 60 | 1 | 16 | 39 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 48 | 51 | 4 | 2 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 19 | 27 | 22 | 5 | 2 | 35 | 6 | 103 | 33 | 120 | 84 | 22 | 120 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 33 | 43 | 3 | 17 | 63 | 514 | 151 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.047489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121476 | 0.105454 | 0.118264 | 0.033093 | 0.051028 | 0.037228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040046 | 0.173284 | 0 | 0 | 0.045721 | 0.224517 | 0 | 0.05933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055658 | 0.099232 | 0.049991 | 0 | 0.125759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038854 | 0 | 0 | 0.062768 | 0.05017 | 0.083828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057034 | 0.095344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172407 | 0.050283 | 0 | 0.032142 | 0.088038 | 0.041001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183503 | 0 | 0.024606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075195 | 0.089978 | 0.05085 | 0 | 0.110627 | 0.040817 | 0.038921 | 0 | 0.053609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054848 | 0.057667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053489 | 0.039667 | 0.054895 | 0.051528 | 0.052873 | 0 | 0.103118 | 0.166423 | 0.146322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159367 | 0 | 0.087842 | 0.138141 | 0.064967 | 0 | 0.048889 | 0 | 0 | 0.049024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116529 | 0 | 0 | 0.036084 | 0.075065 | 0.047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065952 | 0.111033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105396 | 0.046455 | 0.236161 | 0.212457 | 0 | 0 | 0.046003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046565 | 0 | 0.048921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218227 | 0 | 0 | 0.052247 | 0 | 0.124676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044302 | 0.050767 | 0 | 0.049953 | 0 | 0 | 0.048699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040685 | 0 | 0.050874 | 0 | 0.05323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073178 | 0.039114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12932 | 0.031182 | 0.047812 | 0.077267 | 0.170257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054067 | 0.132158 | 0.105864 | 0 | 0.050661 | 0 | 0.04203 | 0.053596 | 0.040153 | 0.086109 | 0.038627 | 0.039035 | 0 | 0.218773 | 0.045112 | 0.043911 | 0 | 0.055961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247963 | 0.034569 | 0.053206 | 0.118264 | 0.031338 |
suicidewatch | norton8888 | 2019/10/17 | Wanting to die even when I'm having a good life I'm not asking for help just getting shit of my chest it not my fault if you waste your time reading my thoughts.
I've wanted to die pritty much my whole life my mother said that I told her when I was 8 that I didn't want to live anymore and that's stayed with me for th... | 2.701627 | 3.535435 | 3.745404 | 92.907929 | 74.120192 | 6.508205 | 22.520513 | 6.427356 | 0.256271 | 1,519 | 36 | 353 | 10 | 30 | 491 | 179 | 416 | 0.204 | 0.696 | 0.1 | -0.9932 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 23 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 26 | 15 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 77 | 69 | 36 | 6 | 18 | 29 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 46 | 13 | 38 | 46 | 7 | 40 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 9 | 5 | 14 | 32 | 216 | 72 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051336 | 0 | 0 | 0.041955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061186 | 0.086278 | 0.063215 | 0.203081 | 0 | 0.057677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253514 | 0.065266 | 0 | 0 | 0.066671 | 0 | 0.049259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384182 | 0.064459 | 0 | 0.063148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051539 | 0 | 0.054644 | 0 | 0 | 0.122248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174484 | 0 | 0.031195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047666 | 0.057037 | 0.0967 | 0.059184 | 0.035063 | 0.103495 | 0.049344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217887 | 0.120566 | 0 | 0.163435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058378 | 0.041182 | 0.06255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045353 | 0 | 0.095167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060449 | 0.177596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058895 | 0.085544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061712 | 0.070223 | 0.039524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052688 | 0.058687 | 0.098126 | 0 | 0 | 0.049163 | 0 | 0.064362 | 0 | 0.253319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069063 | 0 | 0.065759 | 0.09854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070627 | 0 | 0.070012 | 0 | 0 | 0.046387 | 0.049589 | 0 | 0 | 0.070554 | 0 | 0 | 0.079064 | 0 | 0.048979 | 0.215851 | 0 | 0 | 0.176859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050905 | 0.327507 | 0 | 0.049489 | 0 | 0.055472 | 0.057193 | 0 | 0.068881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08983 | 0 | 0 | 0.13148 | 0 | 0 | 0.15892 |
suicidewatch | hellojustsmile | 2019/10/17 | Am I selfish for feeling sad I feel like shit right now I dont have it bad I'm not Ill but I feel selfish for feeling sad it's just extreme shame and I crushes me evryday i have lied so many times school is hell i socialize but i know it's all for nothing I feel like nobody will ever help me and I feel like so many peo... | -1.942974 | -0.096355 | 0.872832 | 100.120098 | 101.592593 | 3.281917 | 18.389978 | 5.088556 | -0.618251 | 374 | 13 | 90 | 2 | 17 | 128 | 62 | 108 | 0.247 | 0.524 | 0.229 | -0.7513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 5 | 5 | 22 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 57 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317749 | 0 | 0 | 0.13183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486009 | 0.343339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083697 | 0 | 0.091045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107378 | 0 | 0 | 0.159114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113153 | 0.234796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111062 | 0.13988 | 0 | 0 | 0.15144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway3858383 | 2019/10/17 | I didnt want to be born I hate being thrown into this world, why do we birth children and throw them into a hot building wasting their time not allowing them to explore the world around them, rather have them sit in a building and look at ink on processed wood all day
And we arent allowed to do stuff on our own accord... | 6.988889 | 4.824413 | 6.928444 | 83.861 | 65.481481 | 9.751111 | 31.785185 | 7.554174 | 1.870039 | 808 | 22 | 180 | 6 | 10 | 258 | 120 | 216 | 0.084 | 0.858 | 0.057 | -0.595 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 37 | 28 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 23 | 4 | 36 | 18 | 6 | 42 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 124 | 35 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103108 | 0 | 0 | 0.10882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120207 | 0 | 0 | 0.11855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060513 | 0 | 0.065825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163619 | 0.113171 | 0.116086 | 0.204549 | 0.1025 | 0.194525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110567 | 0.160595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.731589 | 0 | 0 | 0.11165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298346 |
suicidewatch | justSoTiredAndAlone | 2019/10/17 | "If only I would have known..." Whenever someone commits suicide, there always seems to be people who say "If only I would have known, I would have \_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_" or "I wish they would have reached out for help", or something similar. But how are you supposed to let people know you're serious?
I've been depressed m... | 5.019126 | 4.113284 | 6.158782 | 83.71706 | 68.685714 | 9.768421 | 29.56391 | 9.134996 | 2.064429 | 1,281 | 39 | 294 | 21 | 19 | 432 | 158 | 350 | 0.146 | 0.758 | 0.096 | -0.9729 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 55 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 70 | 74 | 33 | 5 | 16 | 23 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 40 | 7 | 36 | 56 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 32 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 191 | 53 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085646 | 0.182509 | 0 | 0.068808 | 0 | 0 | 0.056235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077693 | 0 | 0.069046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071224 | 0 | 0.085823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054618 | 0 | 0 | 0.158035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125437 | 0.118153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063889 | 0 | 0.129612 | 0 | 0.046997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221711 | 0 | 0.082949 | 0 | 0.081437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181785 | 0 | 0.186564 | 0 | 0 | 0.08456 | 0.116818 | 0.1616 | 0 | 0.07302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055199 | 0.083838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08789 | 0.060789 | 0.061316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056035 | 0.251569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089549 | 0 | 0.171988 | 0.14441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094124 | 0.105951 | 0.170046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197284 | 0 | 0 | 0.131792 | 0.075281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070066 | 0.063662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094664 | 0.27136 | 0 | 0.077938 | 0 | 0.062175 | 0.066466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054938 | 0.052987 | 0 | 0.06565 | 0 | 0.095044 | 0 | 0.237052 | 0 | 0.112287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095094 | 0 | 0 | 0.120404 | 0 | 0.168544 | 0.352459 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Velkorpz | 2019/10/17 | Why does anithing matter When you lose everything that interest you it's really hard to do stuff and why does anithing matter if we are all just going to die what's the point in trying there is no point | 2.535 | 4.832036 | 3.085549 | 91.197104 | 78.268293 | 7.026829 | 20.006098 | 8.076483 | 0.808312 | 164 | 4 | 34 | 3 | 4 | 51 | 33 | 41 | 0.22 | 0.671 | 0.109 | -0.7425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anhoegamer | 2019/10/17 | Please read and help! Ok so let's start at the beginning.
It was the start of summer 2019 and I thought it was going to be a great summer! I was super excited.
I was very wrong.
At the beginning of summer I found out my only true best friends are talking shit being my back and purposefully excluding me out events/from ... | 0.256207 | 2.565784 | 2.220655 | 93.540464 | 88.648438 | 5.473268 | 20.454002 | 6.972516 | 0.477761 | 2,877 | 95 | 631 | 43 | 95 | 954 | 280 | 768 | 0.243 | 0.656 | 0.101 | -0.9993 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 101 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 42 | 47 | 12 | 3 | 22 | 2 | 76 | 20 | 6 | 5 | 8 | 114 | 141 | 65 | 7 | 16 | 25 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 22 | 36 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 20 | 28 | 0 | 4 | 62 | 18 | 138 | 19 | 82 | 66 | 8 | 76 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 92 | 27 | 5 | 10 | 38 | 439 | 160 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091274 | 0 | 0 | 0.075737 | 0 | 0.04302 | 0 | 0 | 0.035385 | 0.076846 | 0.028052 | 0 | 0.039158 | 0 | 0.048293 | 0 | 0 | 0.051115 | 0 | 0 | 0.093978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03964 | 0.048249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303289 | 0.059355 | 0 | 0.039635 | 0 | 0.143277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212759 | 0.041626 | 0 | 0 | 0.165431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084118 | 0.039143 | 0 | 0.050456 | 0.035553 | 0.127628 | 0.024042 | 0 | 0.026153 | 0 | 0.257631 | 0.050735 | 0 | 0 | 0.081386 | 0 | 0 | 0.090866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054531 | 0.215912 | 0 | 0.046159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047056 | 0 | 0.022482 | 0.046122 | 0 | 0 | 0.231859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124598 | 0.043543 | 0.030717 | 0 | 0.046231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269476 | 0.036731 | 0.048909 | 0 | 0.034121 | 0 | 0.044444 | 0 | 0.043184 | 0 | 0.044155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062365 | 0.034998 | 0 | 0 | 0.153291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15154 | 0 | 0.051878 | 0 | 0.046816 | 0 | 0.044033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04603 | 0 | 0.1474 | 0.047314 | 0.045437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182975 | 0.046072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094473 | 0 | 0 | 0.046051 | 0 | 0.038991 | 0.035427 | 0 | 0 | 0.130286 | 0 | 0.110249 | 0 | 0 | 0.048108 | 0.052679 | 0.201343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184936 | 0 | 0 | 0.2105 | 0 | 0.030572 | 0.029486 | 0.045212 | 0.146131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051127 | 0.156215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055353 | 0.039744 | 0 | 0.113908 | 0.189997 | 0.036527 | 0.073825 | 0 | 0 | 0.042659 | 0.041524 | 0.051377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093792 | 0 | 0.050313 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yobatty | 2019/10/17 | My puppy is dying and so will I. I don't know what to say. I've raised a special needs puppy from the day she was born. This weekend she took a turn for the worse and has been at our vet. Today she was sent in emergency to a Veterinary college in our state and I took her the three hours out there under a lot of false p... | 3.16306 | 4.447993 | 3.966339 | 90.025984 | 73.566929 | 7.144936 | 25.211422 | 7.629822 | 1.098224 | 1,458 | 46 | 315 | 18 | 29 | 466 | 194 | 381 | 0.225 | 0.625 | 0.15 | -0.9895 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 17 | 30 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 29 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 47 | 53 | 27 | 4 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 4 | 47 | 17 | 47 | 28 | 6 | 58 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 25 | 3 | 9 | 21 | 211 | 62 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088047 | 0 | 0 | 0.102872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076376 | 0 | 0.060548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079304 | 0 | 0 | 0.064057 | 0 | 0.08555 | 0 | 0.103085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175947 | 0.102631 | 0 | 0.196813 | 0 | 0 | 0.094911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103788 | 0 | 0 | 0.08331 | 0 | 0.219015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066576 | 0 | 0 | 0.295961 | 0.195633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098566 | 0 | 0.10989 | 0.103433 | 0.054587 | 0.080964 | 0 | 0.105172 | 0 | 0 | 0.070157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111121 | 0.216853 | 0.084444 | 0.089646 | 0.093985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107091 | 0 | 0 | 0.09985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094482 | 0.078988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202502 | 0.084159 | 0 | 0.196473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115836 | 0 | 0.09415 | 0.094911 | 0.331066 | 0.067436 | 0.108039 | 0.097027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245864 | 0.058585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101222 | 0.070559 | 0 | 0 | 0.063963 |
suicidewatch | witibo | 2019/10/17 | I don't know what I feel I am so tired. I want to stop living so bad as life has gotten mundane and unbearable. I really need someone to talk to about my feelings, not with my therapist, but with a friend, someone who cares, someone who is in the same boat as me. I don't know if I am just whining... I don't know if I ... | 4.865068 | 4.596267 | 6.109009 | 81.806735 | 68.87041 | 8.759907 | 30.107111 | 8.28583 | 1.986274 | 1,742 | 60 | 369 | 22 | 27 | 589 | 184 | 463 | 0.136 | 0.738 | 0.125 | -0.7445 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 49 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 52 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 65 | 94 | 33 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 14 | 76 | 16 | 67 | 65 | 10 | 53 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 26 | 0 | 8 | 23 | 278 | 92 | 3 | 0.133133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09309 | 0 | 0 | 0.059258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111161 | 0.284049 | 0 | 0 | 0.074998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149757 | 0 | 0.068781 | 0 | 0 | 0.120427 | 0.056085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302923 | 0.09511 | 0.063914 | 0 | 0 | 0.056622 | 0 | 0 | 0.154288 | 0 | 0.104335 | 0 | 0.113494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068069 | 0.141054 | 0.097563 | 0 | 0.05878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070617 | 0.067213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097868 | 0.098717 | 0.05134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147829 | 0 | 0 | 0.046149 | 0.116247 | 0.069548 | 0.07307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070802 | 0 | 0 | 0.085289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056848 | 0 | 0.052936 | 0 | 0.067369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110129 | 0 | 0 | 0.067856 | 0.225607 | 0.102493 | 0 | 0 | 0.094232 | 0 | 0 | 0.055653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160511 | 0.058182 | 0 | 0 | 0.154578 | 0.088448 | 0.085306 | 0 | 0 | 0.077631 | 0.076509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054924 | 0.117788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047287 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Modrzewianka | 2019/10/17 | Life not worth living I'm not urgent suicidal, nothing of this kind, not jumping off the bridge the next minute... But I'm worried that in not such long time I'll just do it because of being tired with putting all my strength in surviving a life that in fact doesn't give me anything back.
I don't feel positive emotion... | 3.956855 | 6.090209 | 4.169556 | 85.874335 | 73.247312 | 6.37043 | 26.141129 | 7.168622 | 1.304829 | 773 | 27 | 141 | 8 | 16 | 240 | 117 | 186 | 0.302 | 0.584 | 0.115 | -0.9913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 37 | 23 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 19 | 20 | 9 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 98 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072865 | 0 | 0.057765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096964 | 0 | 0.106593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125177 | 0 | 0.07984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049509 | 0.181806 | 0.053855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084228 | 0 | 0.098679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133865 | 0 | 0.094975 | 0.083675 | 0.16772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06966 | 0 | 0.073085 | 0 | 0.100779 | 0 | 0 | 0.181851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07207 | 0.100832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181346 | 0 | 0.095261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325644 | 0 | 0 | 0.103653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110511 | 0.653481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137974 | 0.096234 | 0 | 0.067315 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aquariusad | 2019/10/17 | almost over i have 9 days left here. that is if i follow through with it finally. i’ve had this planned for months. i have no one. i feel terrible for the way my family will feel. but idk what else to do anymore.
it will not get better. i’ve been dealing with this for too long. i don’t want to live if it means having ... | -0.880269 | 1.251966 | 1.16874 | 98.491401 | 97.659218 | 4.439561 | 16.685496 | 6.238725 | -0.355967 | 655 | 18 | 151 | 8 | 27 | 215 | 100 | 179 | 0.18 | 0.697 | 0.123 | -0.8695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 39 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 25 | 6 | 18 | 29 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 105 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399944 | 0 | 0 | 0.110621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103365 | 0 | 0.081945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086694 | 0.277175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120813 | 0 | 0.126725 | 0 | 0.271879 | 0.192068 | 0 | 0.147257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103857 | 0 | 0.070232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238968 | 0 | 0 | 0.073877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146054 | 0 | 0 | 0.131348 | 0 | 0.118701 | 0.118963 | 0 | 0 | 0.146742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141058 | 0 | 0.091091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079288 | 0.213402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dragons_of_eden | 2019/10/17 | meh every aspect of my life is a mess. no idea where to start. kinda just feel like necking. nothing works.
recently dx with ADHD. doc just tried me on ritalin and now concerta. helps a bit i guess, but now im always hungry but dont feel like eating.
just feel like trash all the time. still an addict, chronic procr... | 1.708306 | 4.369993 | 3.444295 | 84.855077 | 85.393443 | 6.204153 | 21.248087 | 7.554174 | 1.120631 | 494 | 16 | 93 | 9 | 15 | 164 | 90 | 122 | 0.158 | 0.745 | 0.097 | -0.8341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 10 | 15 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 55 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167387 | 0.184532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359908 | 0 | 0 | 0.157115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101415 | 0 | 0.129369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144749 | 0 | 0.232912 | 0.329079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14195 | 0 | 0.147295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173334 | 0.165855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216907 | 0.225044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10868 | 0 | 0.122622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090565 | 0 | 0.123165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111783 | 0 | 0 | 0.109074 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | M1dnightM4d | 2019/10/17 | Im 12 I want a way out thats not suicide and im to weak to talk to someone in person so what | -4.9286 | -3.835992 | 0.0635 | 105.73925 | 108.6 | 2.5 | 14.25 | 3.1291 | -1.67 | 71 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 20 | 25 | 0.117 | 0.686 | 0.197 | 0.2477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.721404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196961 | 0.265058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TaylorC72 | 2019/10/17 | Please help I just don't see the point in continuing any longer. I've seeked help countless times from my parents, school counsellor, my go and they all do nothing just pass me off to the side without listening to what I'm saying or how I look. I attempted to overdose two days ago which started as a suicide attempt but... | 3.079738 | 4.470058 | 4.305397 | 87.095 | 73.944444 | 7.809524 | 25.357143 | 8.418075 | 1.515464 | 1,382 | 45 | 294 | 24 | 28 | 454 | 185 | 360 | 0.182 | 0.704 | 0.114 | -0.9814 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 63 | 69 | 21 | 3 | 7 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 16 | 40 | 9 | 41 | 47 | 8 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 26 | 18 | 2 | 9 | 24 | 189 | 62 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.083098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093969 | 0.068097 | 0.070855 | 0 | 0 | 0.057907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070074 | 0 | 0.079607 | 0.096874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103818 | 0 | 0.072459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086951 | 0.097393 | 0 | 0.087476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067988 | 0 | 0.093537 | 0.054917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176752 | 0.088967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071135 | 0 | 0.150841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172225 | 0.182501 | 0.245282 | 0.093281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157446 | 0 | 0 | 0.048395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281419 | 0.084315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228306 | 0 | 0.085416 | 0 | 0.083859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187193 | 0.069411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060146 | 0.24961 | 0.085346 | 0 | 0.075358 | 0.071507 | 0.095265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085815 | 0 | 0.085981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173107 | 0.064763 | 0 | 0.099909 | 0.094553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093473 | 0.160995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081 | 0.067717 | 0 | 0.08618 | 0.203569 | 0.077521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120544 | 0 | 0.068004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093144 | 0.096631 | 0.080256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054563 | 0 | 0 | 0.148961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094609 | 0 | 0 | 0.166365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bestarizonagreentea | 2019/10/17 | Just want to get away All I fantasize about is going to a beach with a small group of people, without internet, without electronics. Just to support each other and make a community, just so there would be genuine human connection. Tired of feeling trapped in society, especially when the world is dragging me along with... | 7.147376 | 8.207011 | 7.090213 | 72.133333 | 64.106383 | 10.521986 | 36.943262 | 10.504224 | 4.162233 | 414 | 20 | 69 | 10 | 6 | 132 | 68 | 94 | 0.088 | 0.809 | 0.103 | -0.3839 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 20 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 55 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239437 | 0 | 0.128424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132698 | 0 | 0.144347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.489671 | 0 | 0.184906 | 0 | 0 | 0.180426 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slaatee | 2019/10/17 | goodbye im sorry I dont think i can go on anymore i think today is finally it. its strange because I always thought that when the day came it would feel spooky or something silly like that but i actually strangely feel calmer than i have in years. if my parents somehow find this im so sorry to do this to you its always... | -0.804151 | 1.33879 | 1.528899 | 97.092761 | 94.080645 | 3.562808 | 19.390892 | 5.088556 | -0.437843 | 447 | 15 | 101 | 2 | 17 | 150 | 68 | 124 | 0.163 | 0.712 | 0.125 | -0.4587 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 26 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 18 | 6 | 9 | 18 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 70 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126348 | 0 | 0 | 0.136867 | 0.114194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133753 | 0 | 0.404875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096186 | 0 | 0.419586 | 0 | 0 | 0.099779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240173 | 0 | 0.09919 | 0 | 0 | 0.11843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088755 | 0 | 0 | 0.080458 |
suicidewatch | GornoP | 2019/10/17 | All these horrors are man made The species used its clever brains and thumbs to defeat the natural threats -- predation, starvation, exposure, etc...
And then we spent 10,000 years actively inventing new and more horrible things to inflict upon one another. Unfathomable amounts of creativity have gone into creating t... | 8.611239 | 10.67101 | 7.459728 | 67.183505 | 61.347826 | 11.663043 | 42.201087 | 11.456787 | 5.75163 | 558 | 32 | 79 | 17 | 8 | 170 | 93 | 115 | 0.256 | 0.638 | 0.106 | -0.9746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 20 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 51 | 9 | 1 | 0.233333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260228 | 0.154114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179961 | 0.225354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158112 | 0 | 0.248282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242908 | 0 | 0.201525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150259 |
suicidewatch | throwaway013843 | 2019/10/17 | I don't think I'm supposed to live much longer I have always, always had this feeling that I am supposed to die young. It is literally impossible for me to see anything beyond the age of 30. I am 24 right now and I feel like my death is closing in. My life is starting to fall apart and I think it's a sign that I'm fina... | 2.546703 | 3.279128 | 4.522747 | 87.572253 | 74.384615 | 7.797802 | 26.637363 | 8.13951 | 1.455031 | 656 | 23 | 151 | 10 | 13 | 226 | 94 | 182 | 0.186 | 0.731 | 0.082 | -0.9782 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 21 | 37 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 15 | 5 | 19 | 25 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 100 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0.169581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217106 | 0.102249 | 0 | 0.470362 | 0.130814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298087 | 0.078658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303282 | 0.069924 | 0 | 0.126383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190173 | 0.183419 | 0 | 0 | 0.083458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092168 |
suicidewatch | connor36082 | 2019/10/17 | Hate myself, can’t live I do nothing of meaning in life. I don’t see a happy ending. I just feeling like killing myself. I can’t stand BPD anymore. | -0.857419 | 1.239405 | 1.673161 | 94.109742 | 100.290323 | 2.48 | 22.329032 | 3.1291 | -0.172554 | 115 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 39 | 23 | 31 | 0.24 | 0.533 | 0.228 | -0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147748 | 0.208752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311058 | 0 | 0.288492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206393 | 0.142757 | 0 | 0.258023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kal-nico | 2019/10/17 | I can’t do it anymore. is it possible to overdose on trazadone. | -0.064615 | 2.262118 | 2.375769 | 89.606731 | 96.692308 | 5.676923 | 37.269231 | 7.168622 | 3.175646 | 50 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.660502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.750825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DesperateLandscape | 2019/10/17 | Trying not to do it I've lost everything, the thing that kept me sane and grounded was taken from me. Guys give me a reason to keep trying and endure the pain, anything. Ps you guys r often the only thing that helps. I hope we all heal from our torment. | 1.613654 | 3.629855 | 2.989077 | 92.155923 | 79.961538 | 4.929231 | 18.092308 | 5.683918 | -0.344582 | 197 | 4 | 41 | 1 | 5 | 64 | 40 | 52 | 0.102 | 0.799 | 0.1 | -0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166938 | 0 | 0 | 0.24737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189419 | 0.265015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _Yak0_ | 2019/10/17 | Loosing everything that never was I lost everything, but I never really had anything, did I?
I don't know. I don't care. I have enough of this life. What's the point of living if it's no fun, but just frustration, despair and anger.
These last few months were hell. I'm not the oldest guy being honest, but if it's a... | 1.178182 | 3.68682 | 2.884066 | 89.079432 | 86.121212 | 5.724242 | 20.876263 | 7.168622 | 0.804451 | 777 | 25 | 152 | 12 | 24 | 256 | 111 | 198 | 0.224 | 0.602 | 0.174 | -0.9406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 33 | 30 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 26 | 7 | 15 | 20 | 5 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 112 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150667 | 0 | 0.113606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139204 | 0 | 0 | 0.11761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10901 | 0 | 0 | 0.088052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142647 | 0 | 0 | 0.11948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141074 | 0 | 0.180356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368119 | 0 | 0.12871 | 0 | 0.069035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105484 | 0 | 0.071332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075034 | 0.111292 | 0 | 0 | 0.148343 | 0.139613 | 0.096437 | 0 | 0 | 0.12056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131006 | 0.155443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185393 | 0 | 0 | 0.142135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Wanderer_Guzma | 2019/10/17 | Will this let me kill myself? I have about 4 different anti depressents and want to know if they will be lethal enough for an overdose. I currently have Well Butrin, Lithium, Venlafaxine, and Lorazepam. There is about 6 plus of everything except Well Butrin and Venlafaxine, which has about 35 pills for the Butrin and 2... | 8.85774 | 8.997032 | 6.883664 | 78.21536 | 60.506849 | 10.587671 | 33.318493 | 10.125757 | 3.167907 | 328 | 11 | 57 | 6 | 4 | 95 | 49 | 73 | 0.096 | 0.833 | 0.072 | -0.594 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 47 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238287 | 0 | 0 | 0.289051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.571727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306083 | 0 | 0.152045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.497501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AngryMantra | 2019/10/17 | It’s minutes to midnight on my suicide watch My life just keeps getting worse.
I’ve been living in a breaking-down car and doing DoorTrash to make money. I just got something major fixed on it due to my recent full-time job with good pay! For once, things might be getting better!
Until, of course, the car stoppe... | 3.643875 | 5.447435 | 4.393836 | 85.345298 | 73.27673 | 6.150169 | 24.180455 | 6.671995 | 0.819293 | 640 | 19 | 122 | 5 | 13 | 205 | 108 | 159 | 0.159 | 0.731 | 0.11 | -0.8241 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 29 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 23 | 15 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 83 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09319 | 0.136558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067389 | 0.095213 | 0 | 0.145998 | 0 | 0.113365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278526 | 0 | 0 | 0.111786 | 0.106593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264513 | 0.118462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136284 | 0.094137 | 0.065112 | 0 | 0.117686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088963 | 0 | 0.133894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282771 | 0 | 0.156092 | 0.10638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139246 | 0 | 0 | 0.150249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102603 | 0.131814 | 0 | 0.094334 | 0 | 0 | 0.111425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115108 | 0 | 0 | 0.07861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194054 | 0 | 0.27164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KevYoshi | 2019/10/17 | Ending it hopefully soon 18, Germany. Escaped from home the 4. time now because I fucked it up with my girlfriend once again. Now I got caught while driving under thc. My parents which I ignored bcs i didn't want to come back home until my gf messages me (i don't wanna live without her) have to drive 250km to pick me u... | 0.254907 | 2.267498 | 2.291347 | 95.300859 | 84.954198 | 4.353544 | 20.044166 | 5.288315 | -0.274913 | 473 | 14 | 106 | 2 | 14 | 158 | 86 | 131 | 0.069 | 0.855 | 0.076 | 0.4356 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 21 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 22 | 1 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 70 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24696 | 0 | 0.097891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483239 | 0.159497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226852 | 0 | 0 | 0.141799 | 0.142112 | 0 | 0 | 0.175297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171018 | 0 | 0.122132 | 0.170874 | 0 | 0.17831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stardustDe | 2019/10/17 | Coming to an end Hello,
first I want to apologize for my english as this is not my first language.
Well, I \[21F\] am going to end my misery tomorrow and hopefully will succeed.
Since a few months I'm taking new medication for anxiety and depression. I'm really calm and feel like I am being able to think rationally ... | 5.040472 | 5.582591 | 6.045253 | 79.604692 | 68.581498 | 9.301717 | 29.752089 | 9.360067 | 2.462798 | 3,594 | 128 | 716 | 69 | 58 | 1,195 | 328 | 908 | 0.182 | 0.704 | 0.114 | -0.9983 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 110 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 11 | 36 | 51 | 4 | 10 | 44 | 1 | 96 | 17 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 123 | 165 | 60 | 15 | 23 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 30 | 27 | 4 | 12 | 45 | 2 | 115 | 24 | 113 | 106 | 20 | 95 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 24 | 1 | 20 | 55 | 522 | 158 | 12 | 0.039932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031933 | 0.132905 | 0 | 0 | 0.027155 | 0.083744 | 0.061095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126727 | 0.103193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10301 | 0.041168 | 0.171965 | 0.04053 | 0.207213 | 0 | 0 | 0.122615 | 0 | 0.040864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14147 | 0 | 0 | 0.026374 | 0 | 0.033644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044934 | 0.040381 | 0.028527 | 0 | 0 | 0.072994 | 0.203795 | 0 | 0.043783 | 0 | 0.036916 | 0.062588 | 0.076612 | 0.136164 | 0 | 0 | 0.044025 | 0.087978 | 0 | 0.035311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026765 | 0 | 0 | 0.198305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088357 | 0.041583 | 0.043891 | 0.03255 | 0 | 0 | 0.086772 | 0.040833 | 0.169229 | 0.019509 | 0 | 0.211562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033948 | 0.03604 | 0.037784 | 0.053309 | 0.040484 | 0 | 0 | 0.044355 | 0.080454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092393 | 0.038566 | 0.042468 | 0 | 0.039124 | 0 | 0 | 0.083803 | 0 | 0.108235 | 0.091109 | 0.04249 | 0 | 0 | 0.172968 | 0 | 0.110734 | 0.069733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090034 | 0 | 0.040625 | 0.129159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051162 | 0.082113 | 0 | 0 | 0.045235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039978 | 0.040413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066064 | 0.08977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0447 | 0 | 0.042562 | 0.063779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090071 | 0.032096 | 0.17451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07676 | 0 | 0.25361 | 0.093138 | 0.045895 | 0 | 0.038156 | 0.044365 | 0.081333 | 0.043434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065895 | 0.211974 | 0.095088 | 0 | 0 | 0.143613 | 0.037017 | 0.072064 | 0 | 0.045919 | 0.038493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056733 | 0 | 0 | 0.282861 |
suicidewatch | Odium01 | 2019/10/17 | It’s over for me I’ve wanted to die before. But not like this. Before I wanted to die but I was afraid. I wanted to die but still a small part of me still wanted to live.
I was okay for a while. Now I’m not. Im not afraid anymore. Im not afraid to take my last steps into my darkness, to embrace my final hours knowing I... | 0.548389 | 2.743007 | 2.397704 | 93.821263 | 85.345178 | 4.800092 | 17.076373 | 6.112484 | -0.390896 | 732 | 16 | 160 | 6 | 22 | 242 | 105 | 197 | 0.227 | 0.68 | 0.093 | -0.9829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 34 | 28 | 8 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 29 | 5 | 29 | 23 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 105 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068844 | 0.106155 | 0 | 0 | 0.200798 | 0 | 0 | 0.083309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061713 | 0 | 0.172289 | 0 | 0.106241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065289 | 0 | 0.087194 | 0 | 0.420268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066865 | 0 | 0 | 0.096735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102376 | 0 | 0 | 0.221798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218705 | 0 | 0 | 0.089983 | 0 | 0 | 0.055637 | 0.082521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049459 | 0 | 0.357573 | 0.089591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219258 | 0 | 0.210553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262306 | 0 | 0 | 0.417982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwing13243546 | 2019/10/17 | Home Depot I wonder how many Home Depot employees have helped people cut their rope they picked out to hang themselves. As I stand here, a young adult woman with a sadness in her eyes, staring at these rope options, I wonder if they can tell. | 9.72913 | 7.454779 | 8.258261 | 76.820435 | 60.304348 | 10.069565 | 33.869565 | 7.168622 | 2.312991 | 192 | 5 | 35 | 1 | 2 | 58 | 38 | 46 | 0.114 | 0.886 | 0 | -0.6124 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19808 | 0 | 0.59286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | strawfox | 2019/10/17 | I have a date set, I am planning on jumping from a high bridge, quickest way hopefully. I ll be taking myself and by myself out to few places I enjoy one last time. I am going to post how I got here. I am a 28 F, I found this subreddit through r/raisedbynarcissists and as the title entails, one of my parents is a narci... | 3.855104 | 5.287266 | 5.276866 | 80.727023 | 72.061224 | 8.192375 | 27.186477 | 8.730909 | 2.039296 | 1,361 | 48 | 264 | 25 | 26 | 457 | 189 | 343 | 0.103 | 0.75 | 0.147 | 0.9168 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 52 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 37 | 50 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 39 | 9 | 44 | 34 | 9 | 48 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 190 | 59 | 4 | 0 | 0.210436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088924 | 0 | 0 | 0.142032 | 0.147783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090678 | 0 | 0.181082 | 0 | 0 | 0.076496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092781 | 0 | 0.090894 | 0.077713 | 0.090877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074184 | 0 | 0.078654 | 0.091758 | 0 | 0.058654 | 0 | 0.074821 | 0 | 0.079811 | 0.086867 | 0.083716 | 0 | 0.179607 | 0.126883 | 0 | 0.09728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097369 | 0.068609 | 0 | 0.139189 | 0 | 0.100938 | 0 | 0.071024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119046 | 0.187652 | 0 | 0.088202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062725 | 0.08677 | 0 | 0.15683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09694 | 0 | 0 | 0.084028 | 0 | 0 | 0.089215 | 0 | 0 | 0.08946 | 0.089493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094384 | 0.195843 | 0 | 0.136982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180527 | 0 | 0.094493 | 0 | 0.295818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07754 | 0.092781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255148 | 0 | 0.095745 | 0 | 0 | 0.089272 | 0 | 0 | 0.088828 | 0 | 0.05689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066769 | 0 | 0 | 0.081758 | 0 | 0.206216 | 0.058997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114373 |
suicidewatch | anxietymanager | 2019/10/17 | I don’t think I’ll be alive much longer Figured out how i can do everything, just need to order something then I’m set. I think all my friends are tired of hearing about how miserable i am. I’ve been suicidal for eight years but this year has been the hardest. I’m ready to be done and I’m ready to be out of pain. My li... | 1.249032 | 2.869889 | 2.806469 | 94.929593 | 79.49505 | 6.865127 | 25.083608 | 7.793538 | 1.099573 | 366 | 14 | 88 | 6 | 9 | 120 | 64 | 101 | 0.245 | 0.633 | 0.122 | -0.9381 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 25 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 56 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137506 | 0 | 0 | 0.171903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14311 | 0.14435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132173 | 0 | 0 | 0.202665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250731 |
suicidewatch | farinha_lactea | 2019/10/17 | I can't find reasons to live I've been trying to find a reason to not give up of living. I'm staying still and not letting people notice it. Not even my goals are keeping me motivated anymore.
I have wonderful siblings and I don't want to make them sad. But I'm thinking of me first.
I gotta go back to my desk at work ... | -0.3525 | 1.746367 | 2.295524 | 93.566143 | 88.880952 | 4.788571 | 20.304762 | 6.2581 | 0.117456 | 301 | 10 | 68 | 3 | 10 | 104 | 61 | 84 | 0.052 | 0.792 | 0.156 | 0.865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 20 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 44 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356059 | 0.165684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186855 | 0.110701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207615 | 0.155555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211236 | 0.141806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fine_Bed | 2019/10/17 | I still haven't been to school because of the social phobia. So I suffer from PTSD social-phobia agoraphobia OCD and I also have asperger's. What medicide should I please for for the social-phobia though? I take sertraline but should I take something more effective like benzodiazepine?? What medicine would You recommen... | 4.691408 | 7.699244 | 4.510336 | 80.027941 | 74.735294 | 7.415126 | 24.420168 | 8.418075 | 1.959523 | 307 | 10 | 50 | 6 | 7 | 94 | 49 | 68 | 0.115 | 0.635 | 0.251 | 0.9016 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29215 | 0.101036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.632446 | 0 | 0.159211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146911 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SuckMyDickLife | 2019/10/17 | i feel myself slowly growing insane with every passing day. possible throwaway account. others are too old and trackable.
i'm still in my teens, or as many people call it, "prime high school years" but to me it doesnt feel like that. i'm less stable every day, i feel like crying, laughing and yelling with rage all at... | 3.706529 | 5.581131 | 4.342223 | 85.482426 | 73.269972 | 6.713278 | 27.526997 | 7.429499 | 1.559911 | 1,471 | 56 | 277 | 17 | 30 | 468 | 201 | 363 | 0.244 | 0.637 | 0.119 | -0.9948 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 61 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 62 | 47 | 30 | 5 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 42 | 12 | 39 | 40 | 4 | 47 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 18 | 2 | 7 | 24 | 176 | 57 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052708 | 0 | 0.186097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115927 | 0.06294 | 0.045952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165606 | 0.194459 | 0 | 0.129852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049789 | 0 | 0.254048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228691 | 0.21541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116479 | 0.139378 | 0 | 0 | 0.042841 | 0.063226 | 0 | 0.083108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067527 | 0.074424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080697 | 0 | 0.081425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250195 | 0 | 0.082855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053244 | 0.14731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079968 | 0.076114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080169 | 0 | 0 | 0.072331 | 0 | 0.0791 | 0.080279 | 0.05108 | 0.057331 | 0 | 0 | 0.167404 | 0 | 0 | 0.05226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080177 | 0 | 0.085801 | 0.048291 | 0.077505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07547 | 0.22887 | 0.060069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180599 | 0.063022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056677 | 0 | 0.131773 | 0 | 0 | 0.087524 | 0 | 0.048301 | 0 | 0.059844 | 0.131867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048543 |
suicidewatch | mrunagiiii | 2019/10/17 | is this normal? these past few weeks have been extra tough. i have a normal life, a family, few friends, a loving girlfriend.
but every now and then i get to the point of wanting to just get away from everything. just a moment of peace.
there are days when people around me are having a hard time and I'll come and ... | 0.905651 | 2.99522 | 2.592937 | 93.6475 | 82.925926 | 5.338624 | 15.568783 | 6.543119 | -0.441899 | 502 | 8 | 110 | 5 | 14 | 165 | 87 | 135 | 0.097 | 0.731 | 0.172 | 0.9141 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 21 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 15 | 20 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 76 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147076 | 0 | 0 | 0.155224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1392 | 0 | 0.148484 | 0 | 0.155749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127644 | 0 | 0.34527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157716 | 0.229077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139985 | 0 | 0.163401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105863 | 0 | 0 | 0.192675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097448 | 0 | 0.132525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChokeMeDaddyBoo | 2019/10/17 | I don't even know anymore Hello, it's my first time posting here and I really just need an outlet for my thoughts. I've been really down lately, and I don't feel I can go on any longer. Everything hurts and lately it's become unbearable. I just really want to feel happy but somehow things keep screwing up, school, rela... | 3.712841 | 6.031095 | 4.790909 | 80.306364 | 74.568182 | 8.490909 | 25.772727 | 9.188382 | 2.4067 | 367 | 13 | 66 | 9 | 8 | 120 | 59 | 88 | 0.074 | 0.739 | 0.187 | 0.8803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 40 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256405 | 0.120758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14378 | 0 | 0 | 0.130595 | 0 | 0 | 0.162152 | 0.096066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150245 | 0 | 0 | 0.092896 | 0 | 0.381355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433149 | 0 | 0 | 0.181479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112298 | 0 | 0 | 0.134194 | 0.098565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Milzey27 | 2019/10/17 | Give me advice plz I feel suicidal a lot of the time. How do I tell my mum I’m worried it will break her heart and my sister but I can’t do this no more | -3.452883 | -2.005699 | 0.209595 | 104.543401 | 106.027027 | 3.547748 | 11.572072 | 5.461319 | -1.536366 | 117 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 6 | 42 | 32 | 37 | 0.213 | 0.755 | 0.032 | -0.7543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChaosKnowsMyName | 2019/10/17 | Final Week This might be the week. I'm scared, I don't want to do it but what choice do I have. I'm ugly, have no life, legally cannot get a job thanks to the security office not helping me get my card back. I'm alone and everyone hates me. I have nothing. I can't even feel emotion the same anymore and I've started hea... | -0.611424 | 1.411012 | 2.008257 | 95.729595 | 89.246305 | 5.353777 | 16.340107 | 6.816662 | -0.272047 | 715 | 16 | 173 | 10 | 24 | 246 | 104 | 203 | 0.208 | 0.673 | 0.119 | -0.9572 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 31 | 46 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 6 | 16 | 39 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 108 | 38 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086918 | 0.09438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072899 | 0.116535 | 0 | 0 | 0.234627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12715 | 0.100116 | 0 | 0.126065 | 0.149319 | 0 | 0.095238 | 0.108011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057154 | 0 | 0 | 0.247651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1045 | 0.236227 | 0 | 0.064241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1116 | 0 | 0 | 0.1274 | 0 | 0.075766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09214 | 0 | 0 | 0.122814 | 0 | 0.159682 | 0.055224 | 0 | 0.099813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106535 | 0 | 0 | 0.090854 | 0 | 0.208137 | 0 | 0 | 0.075096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266687 | 0 | 0.362683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Zakronovich | 2019/10/17 | The value of a human life. Everyone subconsciously places a value on someone else, whether it be based on personality, who they hang out with, or their innate intelligence. As we can see most of these factors are based on genetics and the environment, that is essentially what makes us who we are. Our genetics and envir... | 6.12798 | 7.67074 | 7.010294 | 70.034657 | 66.705882 | 9.901961 | 32.990196 | 10.125757 | 3.598725 | 739 | 32 | 124 | 18 | 12 | 246 | 103 | 170 | 0.08 | 0.811 | 0.109 | 0.6537 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 29 | 20 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 2 | 22 | 18 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 107 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141866 | 0.194288 | 0 | 0.205239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187545 | 0.224408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181989 | 0.165354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | QuernTheBoredGuy | 2019/10/17 | What comes after it all? I'm Brazilian [M17], live in a southern state in a region colonized by Europeans (this is important later).
Since I was small I couldn't make friends. Never got to play hide n' seek or eat in a table not alone. From a young I had my problems, astigmatism, strabism and hipermetropia combo'ing ... | 4.444539 | 6.059894 | 5.103333 | 81.826544 | 70.864407 | 8.091902 | 28.365348 | 8.648137 | 2.179042 | 2,420 | 90 | 450 | 42 | 45 | 779 | 305 | 590 | 0.178 | 0.727 | 0.096 | -0.994 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 79 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 19 | 43 | 6 | 4 | 33 | 1 | 33 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 80 | 68 | 35 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 37 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 7 | 60 | 22 | 81 | 45 | 14 | 79 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 31 | 3 | 7 | 43 | 298 | 82 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078805 | 0.065081 | 0 | 0 | 0.042226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141251 | 0.071159 | 0 | 0.17901 | 0.072628 | 0 | 0 | 0.110613 | 0 | 0 | 0.044673 | 0 | 0.059662 | 0 | 0 | 0.144745 | 0.079389 | 0 | 0.060619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07088 | 0 | 0 | 0.061353 | 0 | 0 | 0.183009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155896 | 0.105075 | 0.049486 | 0 | 0.151764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160553 | 0.064039 | 0 | 0.06645 | 0.039368 | 0.174301 | 0.166205 | 0 | 0 | 0.068588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082085 | 0.09286 | 0.146375 | 0 | 0 | 0.136434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153274 | 0.144268 | 0.038069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150524 | 0 | 0.097855 | 0.101525 | 0 | 0.122333 | 0 | 0 | 0.154991 | 0 | 0.058891 | 0 | 0.065545 | 0.092476 | 0.070229 | 0.069591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152764 | 0 | 0.053425 | 0.066901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046939 | 0.158049 | 0 | 0 | 0.076916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060484 | 0 | 0 | 0.065482 | 0.078091 | 0 | 0 | 0.074685 | 0.132564 | 0 | 0 | 0.077598 | 0.073677 | 0 | 0 | 0.044376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057301 | 0 | 0.06932 | 0.141224 | 0 | 0.106655 | 0 | 0 | 0.196119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04602 | 0.044385 | 0 | 0.054993 | 0.040392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235149 | 0 | 0.067667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049207 | 0 | 0 | 0.133823 |
suicidewatch | digital_kid01 | 2019/10/17 | Should I be worried? Sometimes i feel like killing myself but it lasts for day or two. I just start feeling worthless,my life suddenly becomes meaningless, and i start aggressively thinking about it. I know i'll never do it, but i feel really worthless at these times. Usually happens after insomnia, but i slept well to... | 4.424924 | 5.890602 | 5.464164 | 79.805 | 70.702128 | 8.775684 | 31.513678 | 9.236283 | 2.89281 | 382 | 17 | 71 | 8 | 7 | 126 | 64 | 94 | 0.221 | 0.695 | 0.084 | -0.939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 50 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318346 | 0.149929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232187 | 0 | 0.230675 | 0.17107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148236 | 0.102531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207564 | 0 | 0.297091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268949 | 0 | 0 | 0.122375 | 0 | 0.19893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231139 | 0.173163 | 0 | 0.166583 | 0 | 0 | 0.188696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sleepy-redhead | 2019/10/17 | I can’t stop thinking about dying I feel like I am constantly just thinking about killing myself and I don’t think I would ever be able to actually follow up on it but I’m scared that if I don’t stop thinking about it I will be more likely to hurt myself. I feel that I have no reason to be so depressed because I genera... | 3.290776 | 3.94863 | 4.822797 | 86.38581 | 72.581662 | 7.421251 | 28.008715 | 7.492282 | 1.446395 | 1,293 | 47 | 281 | 14 | 24 | 436 | 140 | 349 | 0.179 | 0.676 | 0.145 | -0.9571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 42 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 66 | 83 | 20 | 5 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 41 | 10 | 43 | 71 | 3 | 37 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 196 | 59 | 4 | 0.076035 | 0 | 0.148399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060805 | 0.063267 | 0 | 0 | 0.051707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150813 | 0 | 0 | 0.062571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082167 | 0.08528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065489 | 0 | 0.236738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202034 | 0 | 0 | 0.100441 | 0.206335 | 0 | 0 | 0.068336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384458 | 0.271598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119176 | 0 | 0.129638 | 0.063775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084122 | 0 | 0.083574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107412 | 0.222882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064643 | 0.068625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078177 | 0 | 0.163267 | 0 | 0.129868 | 0 | 0.060466 | 0.152249 | 0.076952 | 0.06059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053818 | 0 | 0.121444 | 0.190707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389763 | 0 | 0.060364 | 0.044337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134543 | 0.060353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054013 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Misrta | 2019/10/17 | Long-term physical struggles with devastating fatigue. What should I do? For many years I've suffered from debilitating fatigue, numbed out from reality, headaches, visual disturbances, brain fog, constant feelings of terror, altered and enhanced vision and hearing, hyper-awareness, buzzing sensations, stuck thoughts, ... | 7.90475 | 8.383596 | 8.255054 | 66.445642 | 62.417323 | 11.085337 | 39.681847 | 10.816535 | 4.680844 | 2,798 | 143 | 442 | 67 | 37 | 923 | 309 | 635 | 0.142 | 0.771 | 0.087 | -0.988 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 77 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 19 | 34 | 4 | 6 | 31 | 0 | 48 | 35 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 86 | 83 | 49 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 26 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 33 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 71 | 17 | 66 | 57 | 18 | 50 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 21 | 1 | 10 | 26 | 320 | 98 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0.053883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132469 | 0.045944 | 0 | 0 | 0.075098 | 0.057899 | 0.04224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045438 | 0 | 0.05162 | 0 | 0.051877 | 0 | 0 | 0.134637 | 0.060982 | 0.046985 | 0 | 0.057946 | 0 | 0 | 0.122666 | 0 | 0.184919 | 0 | 0 | 0.112593 | 0 | 0.058411 | 0 | 0 | 0.059669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063283 | 0.169548 | 0.09664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046126 | 0 | 0.09781 | 0 | 0.061581 | 0.03647 | 0 | 0.046522 | 0 | 0.09925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04266 | 0 | 0.057696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062233 | 0 | 0.03701 | 0 | 0 | 0.109684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049079 | 0 | 0 | 0.091036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117003 | 0.107903 | 0.055341 | 0 | 0.048865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055981 | 0 | 0 | 0.061333 | 0.667494 | 0.11129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044073 | 0 | 0.04059 | 0.081884 | 0 | 0.053328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037416 | 0.125983 | 0.058754 | 0 | 0.122622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056771 | 0 | 0.059282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124757 | 0 | 0.091351 | 0 | 0.055256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078165 | 0 | 0.044096 | 0 | 0 | 0.173172 | 0 | 0.060398 | 0 | 0 | 0.172172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073366 | 0.03538 | 0.108499 | 0.043836 | 0.032197 | 0 | 0 | 0.052761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091118 | 0.032568 | 0 | 0.044291 | 0 | 0.049646 | 0 | 0.049824 | 0.061647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106672 |
suicidewatch | skyhawk44 | 2019/10/17 | GF of 4 years does not see future with me anymore. Wants to be alone. Long post_
Backstory- I’m a 24M my girlfriend is 24. Met in college, we were each others firsts. We started dating late into sophomore year and everything was amazing. She had to stay an extra year while I’ll worked close by. It started to take a tur... | 3.894084 | 5.129618 | 4.48 | 87.239359 | 71.706767 | 7.185734 | 27.36283 | 7.51619 | 1.397452 | 2,090 | 73 | 427 | 23 | 39 | 665 | 245 | 532 | 0.097 | 0.796 | 0.107 | 0.9285 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 43 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 90 | 91 | 33 | 2 | 21 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 34 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 10 | 84 | 10 | 68 | 57 | 14 | 89 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 68 | 31 | 1 | 6 | 47 | 294 | 104 | 10 | 0.06325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196524 | 0.139596 | 0.050581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125454 | 0.044226 | 0 | 0.052049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059425 | 0.048635 | 0 | 0.11567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064585 | 0 | 0 | 0.064975 | 0.06691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166052 | 0 | 0 | 0.061961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053291 | 0 | 0.056845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063962 | 0.045186 | 0.06073 | 0 | 0 | 0.0538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058474 | 0.033046 | 0.060675 | 0.071893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055932 | 0 | 0.05666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074952 | 0.042395 | 0 | 0 | 0.062822 | 0 | 0 | 0.06771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188298 | 0.05622 | 0.069977 | 0 | 0.069521 | 0.103114 | 0.071349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178701 | 0.092702 | 0 | 0.055851 | 0.111949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114171 | 0.119697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127729 | 0 | 0.151457 | 0 | 0.139488 | 0.046899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059356 | 0.061972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04286 | 0.192418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120759 | 0.04385 | 0 | 0 | 0.06943 | 0 | 0 | 0.121152 | 0.064348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062452 | 0.135814 | 0 | 0 | 0.060165 | 0.050299 | 0 | 0.064012 | 0.201608 | 0 | 0.065984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179075 | 0.134832 | 0.050512 | 0.05288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047556 | 0 | 0.055283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168082 | 0.081056 | 0 | 0.050213 | 0.036882 | 0 | 0.059954 | 0.060438 | 0 | 0 | 0.068798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208752 | 0.373065 | 0.050205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121942 | 0 | 0.184187 | 0 | 0 | 0.224655 | 0 | 0 | 0.122193 |
suicidewatch | ColaMelon_ | 2019/10/17 | I've made up my mind I wanna end my life I am going to be making videos addressed to my family and then I will be ending my life. I don't know when I am going to do it or how all I need is a fast painless death | -1.461176 | -0.139635 | 2.270353 | 96.952588 | 86.843137 | 4.864314 | 14.121569 | 5.683918 | -1.03858 | 161 | 2 | 43 | 1 | 5 | 60 | 35 | 51 | 0.085 | 0.868 | 0.048 | -0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 31 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291644 | 0.205739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bigbadgirl007 | 2019/10/17 | I wish my bf wasn’t asleep next to me so I could self harm Just so depressed Im in medication but it doesn’t do shit. Today has been so shit just can’t stop crying I just want to do it and stop the pain | -1.12625 | 0.471697 | 1.429 | 101.916 | 87.333333 | 4.673333 | 13.766667 | 5.683918 | -1.323838 | 158 | 2 | 44 | 1 | 5 | 54 | 34 | 48 | 0.455 | 0.492 | 0.052 | -0.9806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189785 | 0 | 0.261104 | 0 | 0 | 0.204732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247975 | 0 | 0.487995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iseeu1001 | 2019/10/17 | I want to kill myself but not sure how I really want to die because this world is not meant for me. My mom passed away 5 yrs ago. I never knew my dad but I do have 5 other siblings. To make this story short. I asked someone out and she said no let’s be friends but the problem with that is I love that person. I am only ... | -1.038459 | 0.717349 | 1.169663 | 102.929289 | 88.269406 | 4.380594 | 15.517694 | 5.461319 | -1.10825 | 736 | 14 | 197 | 4 | 24 | 245 | 118 | 219 | 0.239 | 0.614 | 0.146 | -0.9859 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 47 | 46 | 18 | 5 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 36 | 7 | 23 | 36 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 132 | 49 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1146 | 0 | 0.115173 | 0 | 0 | 0.074727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189418 | 0 | 0.128091 | 0 | 0 | 0.102818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135622 | 0 | 0.134739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125351 | 0.173171 | 0 | 0 | 0.108245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110638 | 0 | 0.245479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14033 | 0.134088 | 0 | 0.23107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.506126 | 0.097302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | N6ES2 | 2019/10/17 | I'll buy a gun soon so i can end this all Finally i'm not gonna feel alone, too bad i didn't die when i tried to overdose, it's actually harder than it seems y'know? | -1.950769 | -0.145307 | 1.672513 | 96.964154 | 94.384615 | 5.171282 | 15.492308 | 6.742158 | -0.431609 | 129 | 3 | 34 | 2 | 5 | 47 | 34 | 39 | 0.16 | 0.707 | 0.133 | -0.2533 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183037 | 0 | 0 | 0.396551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TodayIDieAndItsOk | 2019/10/17 | It's about time it all stopped I've spent 3 days writing a goodbye note. It's finally finished. I've outlined everything that has been wrong, everything I've been struggling with. I'm hoping it will leave my family with some sort of closure. It's got to happen tonight. I was going to do it today, I called in sick to wo... | 0.827013 | 3.014733 | 2.674206 | 92.347309 | 84.021645 | 5.427602 | 20.928312 | 6.742158 | 0.362266 | 865 | 27 | 188 | 10 | 25 | 287 | 123 | 231 | 0.107 | 0.813 | 0.08 | -0.6183 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 44 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 21 | 7 | 29 | 29 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 116 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183175 | 0 | 0 | 0.221938 | 0.118262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103763 | 0 | 0.109612 | 0.20619 | 0 | 0.216279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125661 | 0.104844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059932 | 0.110042 | 0.260772 | 0.096214 | 0.091745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304317 | 0 | 0.102759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121463 | 0 | 0 | 0.243072 | 0.056042 | 0.114971 | 0 | 0.203032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191808 | 0 | 0.239842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076209 | 0 | 0 | 0.091068 | 0.066889 | 0 | 0.217466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06766 | 0.091053 | 0.092015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125419 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BrotherHex | 2019/10/17 | Why was i even born? Living feels redundant.
There hasn't been a single day where i haven't thought about killing myself.
I am always on the verge of having a breakdown.
I don't know what to do with my life and it's been like this for the past 10 years (i am 21).
My own family mentally abused me as a child, whi... | 7.909055 | 5.901707 | 8.312507 | 74.164663 | 63.58159 | 11.787143 | 37.626854 | 10.537671 | 3.766085 | 1,875 | 76 | 373 | 37 | 22 | 625 | 219 | 478 | 0.112 | 0.835 | 0.053 | -0.9798 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 18 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 65 | 71 | 29 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 10 | 68 | 8 | 67 | 45 | 9 | 46 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 272 | 92 | 8 | 0 | 0.171492 | 0.070622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075886 | 0.110725 | 0 | 0 | 0.050602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074777 | 0 | 0.047799 | 0 | 0 | 0.069152 | 0.065041 | 0 | 0.136447 | 0 | 0.109776 | 0 | 0.138972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111825 | 0 | 0.22686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075535 | 0.143631 | 0 | 0.160132 | 0 | 0.079545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07863 | 0 | 0.15335 | 0.106068 | 0 | 0.063903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078831 | 0 | 0 | 0.072931 | 0 | 0 | 0.169516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160983 | 0.111631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080358 | 0.078369 | 0.069085 | 0 | 0.06319 | 0 | 0 | 0.068412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061803 | 0 | 0.172653 | 0.072454 | 0.073242 | 0 | 0 | 0.075497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122637 | 0 | 0 | 0.162023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046371 | 0.071103 | 0.17236 | 0.084398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24567 | 0 | 0 | 0.075339 | 0 | 0.062504 | 0.079705 | 0 | 0.042685 | 0.114887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134174 | 0.065302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105372 | 0 | 0 | 0.051409 | 0 | 0 | 0.093207 |
suicidewatch | DTIvet8541 | 2019/10/17 | I've had a pretty fucked up life but the best thing is my children. I am the youngest boy of 4 my father was a good man but he had issues from Vietnam. All my brothers and father ever thought me was that if I fought I better fucking win or get it kicked again when I got home. So as it be I was very very good at figh... | 1.4924 | 3.551782 | 3.296008 | 89.576896 | 80.595092 | 6.283589 | 24.911426 | 7.41366 | 1.198473 | 617 | 24 | 130 | 9 | 16 | 206 | 108 | 163 | 0.251 | 0.594 | 0.155 | -0.9744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 27 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 18 | 5 | 13 | 11 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 91 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174595 | 0.147141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46142 | 0.086922 | 0 | 0.094552 | 0.279087 | 0.133061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173647 | 0 | 0 | 0.184064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110529 | 0 | 0 | 0.132079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274546 | 0.098129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107137 |
suicidewatch | JenJ2006 | 2019/10/17 | is it all a fantasy? i cant find a will to live. ever since a conversation with a friend that led to her joking about how this whole world may be just my imagination, i cant stop thinking abt it. What if im in a coma, and this is a dream? Or i have dementia, and im imagining back my childhood? what if im dead and just ... | -0.177727 | 1.994135 | 3.003258 | 88.224886 | 89 | 6.633333 | 18.856061 | 7.865859 | 0.792279 | 480 | 14 | 109 | 11 | 16 | 172 | 80 | 132 | 0.172 | 0.727 | 0.102 | -0.8839 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 29 | 16 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 74 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060805 | 0.085911 | 0 | 0 | 0.109912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.779386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084941 | 0.058751 | 0 | 0.212377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080272 | 0 | 0 | 0.130995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077039 | 0 | 0 | 0.12911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | allmyfault2019 | 2019/10/17 | Why won't it work? I'm sitting in my car with a hose in my exhaust and it won't kill me. I'm breathing in the fumes and it won't work. I can't even succeed at killing myself. I'm so fucking worthless | -1.880142 | -0.061802 | 1.022447 | 101.684167 | 94.106383 | 3.133333 | 22.72695 | 3.1291 | -0.416543 | 156 | 7 | 40 | 0 | 6 | 54 | 30 | 47 | 0.279 | 0.646 | 0.075 | -0.8427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.732651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | vatoblanco | 2019/10/17 | I want to escape this state and do my best Kurt Cobain impression. Simply tired of existence. It's been a wasted 34 years with nothing to show for it.
35k in debt
Living out of my car for the past year and a half
DWI a little over 6 months ago
Dead end job making less than 18k a year
Further in debt every week
Riskin... | 1.715369 | 3.452052 | 3.040132 | 93.254345 | 78.50495 | 5.677008 | 18.152915 | 6.427356 | -0.212209 | 376 | 7 | 83 | 3 | 9 | 122 | 73 | 101 | 0.194 | 0.702 | 0.104 | -0.8773 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 48 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198951 | 0 | 0 | 0.172208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101582 | 0 | 0.110499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194871 | 0.171686 | 0 | 0 | 0.217518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155193 | 0 | 0 | 0.144168 | 0.149957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11468 | 0 | 0.155961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375621 |
suicidewatch | Creepaface | 2019/10/17 | Another suicidal night There is nothing good about me. I'm just a worthless piece of shit who's lazy most of the day. I really want to sleep right now also but can't. I just wish I had someone to appreciate me and tell me that I am special. I wish I could just sleep through the whole day without question just to releav... | 0.506888 | 2.553843 | 2.506888 | 93.929021 | 84.192308 | 6.08951 | 22.916084 | 7.348243 | 0.801185 | 380 | 14 | 88 | 6 | 11 | 127 | 69 | 104 | 0.248 | 0.642 | 0.109 | -0.927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 15 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 61 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128684 | 0 | 0 | 0.207887 | 0.166163 | 0 | 0 | 0.167272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17141 | 0.15125 | 0 | 0.15465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165442 | 0 | 0 | 0.483869 | 0 | 0.136562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179944 | 0.370683 | 0.155365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 01110001110001 | 2019/10/17 | Every day is just worse and worse Working a full time job six days a week. I can't find time for any other activities. Exercising, that I used to enjoy and was my only escape from reality, feels like a chore now. I can't study because I'm so tired all the time.
I need money to help my family or otherwise, I can feel li... | 0.916904 | 2.763942 | 3.290544 | 89.97477 | 81.459893 | 6.508497 | 20.549317 | 7.594959 | 0.625124 | 681 | 19 | 154 | 11 | 18 | 235 | 102 | 187 | 0.212 | 0.629 | 0.159 | -0.9076 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 38 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 25 | 7 | 11 | 31 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 91 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079837 | 0 | 0.089812 | 0 | 0 | 0.08209 | 0 | 0.096612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077543 | 0 | 0.098916 | 0 | 0.105513 | 0 | 0.110676 | 0 | 0.296809 | 0.419359 | 0.112724 | 0 | 0.107303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233006 | 0 | 0.129887 | 0 | 0 | 0.095698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077996 | 0.075226 | 0 | 0 | 0.273831 | 0.134936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101397 | 0 | 0 | 0.20774 | 0 | 0.094172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08547 | 0 | 0.358927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075603 |
suicidewatch | Lord-Of-The-Gays-69 | 2019/10/17 | Help please Omg I hate my life so much.... So today I was just trying to get high to escape my hellish reality for just a few hours hopefully. I poured gasoline into my dads tobacco pipe, and just as I lit my match and was going to take a hit my mother burst through the door and screamed a deafening scream that lasted ... | 4.208877 | 6.137442 | 4.264652 | 86.33542 | 72.043478 | 7.08058 | 29.657971 | 7.793538 | 1.83528 | 762 | 32 | 149 | 10 | 15 | 235 | 122 | 184 | 0.151 | 0.726 | 0.124 | -0.7529 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 24 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 26 | 5 | 21 | 13 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 97 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134997 | 0 | 0.09129 | 0 | 0.099304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154514 | 0 | 0 | 0.172511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234238 | 0.184613 | 0 | 0.173548 | 0.172075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142429 | 0.197105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123418 | 0.17073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128448 | 0 | 0.134764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131376 | 0 | 0.152723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165625 | 0 | 0 | 0.118631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BDaniels_ | 2019/10/17 | Not suicidal at the moment, but it always crosses my mind I'm almost 32 and I haven't had a job in 2 years. I got a master's in accounting and was never able to get into the field because of lack of experience. Now I have $100k in debt, and I've been living off of inheritance from my grandmother who passed away. I have... | 3.481821 | 4.107345 | 5.107694 | 84.635729 | 72.12 | 8.122353 | 27.105882 | 8.313333 | 1.659704 | 932 | 31 | 200 | 14 | 17 | 317 | 145 | 250 | 0.142 | 0.798 | 0.06 | -0.9729 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 34 | 37 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 21 | 3 | 29 | 24 | 5 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 130 | 28 | 10 | 0.119405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099354 | 0 | 0 | 0.081199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118418 | 0 | 0 | 0.09826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112185 | 0 | 0 | 0.291152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157732 | 0 | 0.100604 | 0 | 0 | 0.116801 | 0 | 0 | 0.060375 | 0.085303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110388 | 0.124768 | 0 | 0.067861 | 0 | 0.095499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11667 | 0 | 0.31631 | 0.10567 | 0.10027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12667 | 0.120565 | 0.139846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088537 | 0.36837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113985 | 0.08278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13055 | 0 | 0.153786 |
suicidewatch | Americanized_whitey | 2019/10/17 | Everyday, I wish I could die in a freak accident. My fiancé left me, I have become hopelessly addicted to alcohol, and I desperately want to die everyday. I am in the middle of my masters degree that I am struggling to keep up with. I’m having indiscriminate sex but feel nothing. I miss my girl, and I hate waking up ev... | 3.569565 | 5.657084 | 5.953696 | 72.860326 | 74.217391 | 9.817391 | 29.978261 | 10.125757 | 3.58693 | 376 | 17 | 67 | 12 | 8 | 133 | 58 | 92 | 0.33 | 0.542 | 0.129 | -0.9727 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 44 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274623 | 0 | 0 | 0.110913 | 0 | 0.148126 | 0 | 0.535463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186856 | 0 | 0.121474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dabattlepenguin | 2019/10/17 | I don’t know if this is the end and I’m scared I usually take an ssri as a drug named Kanna and I smoke it with my weed. I recently got out on anti depressants and I didn’t give up my habit and I’m afraid I may have overdosed and that it might just be the end. I don’t think so but I’m having tremors and headaches and I... | -1.044 | 0.447981 | 1.552222 | 101.745 | 86.333333 | 5.333333 | 16.666667 | 6.427356 | -0.672667 | 294 | 6 | 82 | 3 | 9 | 101 | 57 | 90 | 0.118 | 0.864 | 0.018 | -0.7783 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 21 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 49 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224805 | 0.133184 | 0 | 0.187427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12879 | 0 | 0.264351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258098 | 0 | 0.138223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Alternating_forces | 2019/10/17 | How concerned should I be, if at all? I just tested out the sturdiness of my wardrobe rail to see if it would be able to support my weight. I feel pain but also quite calm right now.
Is this normal call of the void stuff?
I'm thinking about dying numerous times a day and this is the first time I've ever written about i... | 3.03549 | 4.732859 | 4.101637 | 87.251836 | 74.670103 | 7.324227 | 25.527062 | 8.076483 | 1.491681 | 379 | 13 | 77 | 6 | 8 | 123 | 72 | 97 | 0.075 | 0.837 | 0.088 | 0.307 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 55 | 17 | 1 | 0.215394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239254 | 0 | 0 | 0.219941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203054 | 0 | 0.10891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180079 | 0 | 0 | 0.246575 | 0 | 0.244427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138016 | 0 | 0 | 0.251196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30602 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mypiggybankisapinata | 2019/10/17 | I just need someone to tell me no. I just need someone to tell me no, that I shouldn't take the damn pills. I just need someone to remind me that it would wreck my dad, burden my friends and dissapoint everyone who put effort into me. I just need someone to tell me that eventually, I will get out of bed again, eventual... | 6.124935 | 5.258691 | 6.693074 | 80.663182 | 66.424242 | 9.664069 | 32.493506 | 8.841846 | 2.37246 | 508 | 18 | 109 | 7 | 7 | 167 | 62 | 132 | 0.151 | 0.754 | 0.095 | -0.8324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 3 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 79 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083583 | 0 | 0.056522 | 0 | 0 | 0.09074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.549989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081342 | 0 | 0.472792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104286 | 0 | 0.07876 | 0 | 0 | 0.076852 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -birch_tree- | 2019/10/17 | Brain.exe Stopped working. Thanks to brain fog and cognitive dysfunction ,caused by drug abuse, my ability to think is currently nonexistent. I can’t even speak, write and think anymore how am I supposed to continue like that? The condition won’t go away no matter what I do. I can’t live like that. My brain is currentl... | 2.879394 | 5.283272 | 3.947542 | 84.90573 | 77.650307 | 7.755982 | 29.205905 | 8.660443 | 2.547982 | 665 | 31 | 126 | 15 | 16 | 215 | 103 | 163 | 0.149 | 0.777 | 0.074 | -0.8721 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 29 | 28 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 5 | 17 | 23 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 79 | 25 | 3 | 0.139868 | 0.16572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138711 | 0 | 0 | 0.115099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13141 | 0 | 0 | 0.085262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162202 | 0 | 0.116842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098793 | 0.273329 | 0 | 0.123506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133955 | 0 | 0 | 0.133835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11242 | 0 | 0.128771 | 0 | 0.162397 | 0 | 0.268865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SilentHopper | 2019/10/17 | My belief in the lack of free will is making me suicidal Im trying to find an argument FOR free will to keep my alive, but every time I find something I just find a way to counter it.
IE:
People claim the environment affects personality, but environmental effects are predetermined by genetics:
Example:
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suicidewatch | whyis123456789 | 2019/10/17 | im only here for my dogs the only reason i havent killed myself is because i cant bear the thought of my dogs not seeing me again. i know its silly and they wouldnt even understand but it makes me cry every time i think about them being confused about where i went. | 3.130263 | 3.88866 | 4.251711 | 89.960724 | 73.035088 | 6.401754 | 21.267544 | 5.985473 | 0.118302 | 211 | 4 | 46 | 1 | 4 | 69 | 44 | 57 | 0.13 | 0.808 | 0.061 | -0.6961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181846 | 0 | 0.231968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3046 | 0 | 0.151308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176413 | 0 | 0.218573 | 0.160541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pleasemakeitstoph | 2019/10/17 | I can't find any other exit than suicide I am 17, i know it's a really stupid age to think about suicide and that the hormones are messing with my thoughts, but i can't take this pain no more, i'm from Brazil, so if at some point i make any mistakes, please, forgive me, it's not my native language.
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suicidewatch | Jogiches | 2019/10/17 | It's over I'm going to get kicked out of university, I can't find a job because I have nothing to put in resume. And now my close online friend, the only woman who wanted anything to do with me, has blocked me on Facebook. She was more than just a friend to me, and she even talked of us having sex when I come visit her... | 4.729386 | 4.35475 | 5.779528 | 84.413967 | 69.165289 | 7.575443 | 27.20307 | 6.182691 | 1.053932 | 450 | 12 | 95 | 2 | 7 | 150 | 83 | 121 | 0.132 | 0.768 | 0.1 | -0.7351 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 20 | 16 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 69 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21081 | 0 | 0 | 0.174925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328459 | 0 | 0.111058 | 0 | 0.120807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239786 | 0 | 0.230956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136887 |
suicidewatch | AlienTupperware | 2019/10/17 | [F25] slashed myself up & took a bunch of benzos Unfortunately my ex arrived home before I could get more benzos. He took away the Ativan. I really don’t see any hope for me. I’ve lost the man I love & my being suicidal makes him hate me more, which I can’t help. I take my meds. I go to therapy. I try. And I’m ... | 1.043297 | 2.072187 | 3.201635 | 94.424689 | 78.530516 | 6.514112 | 18.632698 | 7.048012 | -0.117219 | 733 | 13 | 186 | 8 | 17 | 251 | 126 | 213 | 0.257 | 0.661 | 0.082 | -0.9917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 38 | 6 | 5 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 35 | 5 | 19 | 22 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 105 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482056 | 0 | 0.075638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110307 | 0.077772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104501 | 0 | 0 | 0.067803 | 0 | 0.094646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088805 | 0 | 0.122177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098514 | 0.229854 | 0 | 0.146928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058111 | 0 | 0.063213 | 0.093292 | 0.088958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074553 | 0 | 0.111569 | 0.110473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098863 | 0 | 0 | 0.061127 | 0.090664 | 0 | 0.117773 | 0 | 0 | 0.157125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124434 | 0.121417 | 0 | 0.100386 | 0.105245 | 0.074245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083629 | 0 | 0.097217 | 0 | 0.127197 | 0 | 0 | 0.142539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106282 | 0.247154 | 0.151031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158024 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | brotherbobby420 | 2019/10/17 | Hes threatining to commit suicide https://www.reddit.com/r/Advice/comments/dj2ldx/im_a_gamer_and_im_trying_to_contact_sucker_punch/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share | 96.455714 | 122.768823 | 41.082857 | -187.012857 | -111 | 14.228571 | 49.857143 | 11.208143 | 9.981114 | 170 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 32 | 7 | 7 | 0.421 | 0.374 | 0.206 | -0.5106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.703741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.710456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | drmalttlmr | 2019/10/17 | Stop existing Just want to leave right now ugh I don’t want to stay here any longer. I just can’t. My mind is making me crazy and tells me I need to die already. I can’t do anything anymore without thinking I just need to stop exciting bc I’m just a waste of space. I’m too sensitive for this world and can’t handle it a... | 0.406258 | 2.664274 | 2.091351 | 95.27657 | 86.837838 | 5.217186 | 21.151074 | 6.671995 | 0.320379 | 414 | 14 | 93 | 5 | 13 | 135 | 64 | 111 | 0.182 | 0.719 | 0.098 | -0.8904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 16 | 19 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 52 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334265 | 0 | 0 | 0.138682 | 0.150024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088048 | 0 | 0.095777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112492 | 0.170859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188651 | 0 | 0.179626 | 0 | 0.28179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108525 |
suicidewatch | EdiciusRoad | 2019/10/17 | Suicide Note For everyone and noone,
I am stuck. Paralyzed in this nightmare. My limbs will no longer comply with me, and I have lost sight of sanity. I walk the same corridors over and over. Dark, dire corridors haunted with shadows of my wicked deeds. The walls are high and the ceiling black. There is a stench of da... | 3.059942 | 4.868059 | 3.573882 | 90.590296 | 74.873684 | 6.434211 | 24.927632 | 7.168622 | 0.933321 | 1,871 | 62 | 390 | 20 | 40 | 585 | 238 | 475 | 0.174 | 0.722 | 0.105 | -0.9868 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 61 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 25 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 43 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 82 | 71 | 35 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 28 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 21 | 59 | 12 | 72 | 54 | 9 | 51 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 33 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 282 | 85 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106508 | 0 | 0.160619 | 0 | 0 | 0.065634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217482 | 0 | 0.170722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261914 | 0 | 0.092226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048802 | 0 | 0.092671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100852 | 0.185175 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228745 | 0 | 0.101975 | 0 | 0.479313 | 0 | 0 | 0.103323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068172 | 0 | 0 | 0.170452 | 0 | 0.08105 | 0 | 0.105359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195705 | 0 | 0.105135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076754 | 0 | 0 | 0.076911 | 0 | 0.100688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108042 | 0 | 0 | 0.077078 | 0.080692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076623 | 0 | 0.110931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079636 | 0.056928 | 0.07661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107757 | 0.110989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105526 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway482628 | 2019/10/17 | Suicide Note For everyone and noone,
I am stuck. Paralyzed in this nightmare. My limbs will no longer comply with me, and I have lost sight of sanity. I walk the same corridors over and over. Dark, dire corridors haunted with shadows of my wicked deeds. The walls are high and the ceiling black. There is a stench of da... | 3.069858 | 4.880438 | 3.573882 | 90.590296 | 74.852632 | 6.434211 | 24.927632 | 7.168622 | 0.933321 | 1,872 | 62 | 390 | 20 | 40 | 585 | 238 | 475 | 0.174 | 0.722 | 0.105 | -0.9868 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 61 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 25 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 43 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 82 | 71 | 35 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 28 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 21 | 59 | 12 | 72 | 54 | 9 | 51 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 33 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 282 | 86 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106508 | 0 | 0.160619 | 0 | 0 | 0.065634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217482 | 0 | 0.170722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261914 | 0 | 0.092226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048802 | 0 | 0.092671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100852 | 0.185175 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228745 | 0 | 0.101975 | 0 | 0.479313 | 0 | 0 | 0.103323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068172 | 0 | 0 | 0.170452 | 0 | 0.08105 | 0 | 0.105359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195705 | 0 | 0.105135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076754 | 0 | 0 | 0.076911 | 0 | 0.100688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108042 | 0 | 0 | 0.077078 | 0.080692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076623 | 0 | 0.110931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079636 | 0.056928 | 0.07661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107757 | 0.110989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105526 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gonnathrowitfaraway | 2019/10/17 | what's the point Idk I realise I should be grateful that I have a great boyfriend but he lives sooooooo far away from him, I barely get to see him. What's the point going on and on with my stupid miserable life without him? He's the only thing that ever made me happy and smiling. For once I felt like I actually belonge... | 1.222817 | 3.328911 | 2.572485 | 94.149006 | 81.834225 | 5.006361 | 20.537292 | 6.059677 | -0.035282 | 704 | 20 | 155 | 5 | 19 | 227 | 111 | 187 | 0.199 | 0.665 | 0.136 | -0.9553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 23 | 7 | 18 | 15 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 91 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0.143798 | 0.118435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114027 | 0.186645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13652 | 0.214987 | 0 | 0 | 0.080161 | 0.329346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063408 | 0 | 0.068975 | 0 | 0 | 0.133806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066699 | 0.098929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42862 | 0.059293 | 0 | 0.107168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114839 | 0 | 0 | 0.243856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12925 | 0 | 0.092304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126801 | 0 | 0.229459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114385 | 0 | 0 | 0.195098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08063 | 0.077766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109122 | 0 | 0.109513 | 0 | 0 | 0.116992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258643 | 0 | 0 | 0.078155 |
suicidewatch | cutthekidsinha1f | 2019/10/17 | Not a case of if, but when 23 female, only living because I refuse to put my family through the trauma of losing a child even though I’m the biggest fucking disappointment to them they’ll be much better off. I have no passion or drive for anything, too much of an anxious and neurotic mess to try anything because I’m so... | 8.653445 | 6.556853 | 9.047205 | 69.76467 | 62.215434 | 12.101148 | 40.220717 | 10.763078 | 4.280258 | 1,253 | 56 | 233 | 25 | 14 | 421 | 172 | 311 | 0.279 | 0.619 | 0.102 | -0.9973 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 21 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 38 | 39 | 28 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 32 | 7 | 39 | 30 | 6 | 20 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 172 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124206 | 0.109036 | 0 | 0 | 0.271425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103297 | 0 | 0.091799 | 0.402127 | 0.121425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097237 | 0.120031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145235 | 0 | 0.092633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103646 | 0 | 0.111183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093519 | 0 | 0 | 0.084943 | 0.203284 | 0.114883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116163 | 0 | 0.1092 | 0 | 0 | 0.235396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097724 | 0.121637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077657 | 0.107427 | 0 | 0.097083 | 0 | 0.092326 | 0.123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161644 | 0.081523 | 0.084796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083618 | 0 | 0 | 0.122081 | 0 | 0 | 0.076222 | 0 | 0.114869 | 0 | 0 | 0.123946 | 0 | 0 | 0.118539 | 0 | 0 | 0.110525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087432 | 0 | 0 | 0.087612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088369 | 0 | 0 | 0.125731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078102 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Killerpuppydog | 2019/10/17 | That’s not your smile I’m new to reddit and just needed a place to write down my thoughts and this seems to be the place I’d guess.
I’m 19 M and I’m a sophomore in college. Lately, I’ve been on a real low. Lower than usual and I tried taking my life today by slitting my wrists. But by some miracle a close friend call... | 1.26959 | 3.545979 | 2.776491 | 91.748965 | 82.898305 | 5.308237 | 22.875112 | 6.596605 | 0.620058 | 678 | 24 | 140 | 7 | 19 | 221 | 110 | 177 | 0.093 | 0.841 | 0.066 | -0.5446 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 24 | 20 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 82 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276015 | 0 | 0.14476 | 0 | 0.077643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136489 | 0 | 0 | 0.084391 | 0.12517 | 0.346439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325386 | 0.07502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122568 | 0 | 0 | 0.113861 | 0 | 0.148307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174782 | 0 | 0 | 0.151619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279586 | 0 | 0 | 0.157624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098393 | 0 | 0.121907 | 0 | 0 | 0.145554 | 0 | 0 | 0.104255 | 0 | 0.150003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lugnut1964 | 2019/10/17 | What’s the use? You know, I did the therapy thing, the med thing. I finally realized that no amount of meds or talking will change a shitty life. It’s natural to be depressed in an actually depressing life.
Husband lost his (very good 32yr) job nearly two years ago. I had to go back to a (grueling) job.
Daughter (wit... | -0.016965 | 2.180799 | 2.017047 | 95.42479 | 88.418605 | 5.654614 | 18.012503 | 7.102934 | 0.071923 | 945 | 25 | 223 | 15 | 31 | 314 | 155 | 258 | 0.154 | 0.768 | 0.078 | -0.9651 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 43 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 33 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 22 | 5 | 28 | 19 | 4 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 123 | 36 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.08994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086593 | 0.07087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189359 | 0.292497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048153 | 0 | 0.10476 | 0.077304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109217 | 0.061777 | 0 | 0.09245 | 0 | 0.090764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130198 | 0.090055 | 0.092374 | 0.081384 | 0 | 0.077396 | 0 | 0.10061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307125 | 0.185694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215886 | 0 | 0.195915 | 0 | 0 | 0.071084 | 0.089014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193424 | 0 | 0.062454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096293 | 0 | 0.087126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07624 | 0 | 0.092232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074079 | 0 | 0 | 0.210799 | 0 | 0.122461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10025 | 0.270097 | 0 | 0.110864 | 0.079601 | 0 | 0.076046 | 0 | 0.073157 | 0.07393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059352 |
suicidewatch | sentondan | 2019/10/17 | Heart patient fighting depression About 18 months ago I had a stroke during emergancy heart surgery. I've completed therapy and everything that comes with that. The last few months these thoughts and feelings have been creeping into my head and won't go away. I can't sleep and find these thoughts getting worse at night... | 4.729003 | 7.32872 | 3.295352 | 90.891739 | 72.521127 | 6.341062 | 27.824485 | 7.32111 | 1.449085 | 624 | 24 | 115 | 7 | 13 | 176 | 84 | 142 | 0.195 | 0.771 | 0.033 | -0.9761 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 30 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 19 | 18 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 69 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095508 | 0.116249 | 0 | 0.124354 | 0 | 0.12268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173781 | 0 | 0.063012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227577 | 0 | 0 | 0.262772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090377 | 0.12507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110954 | 0 | 0 | 0.170712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126794 | 0 | 0 | 0.142087 | 0 | 0.264064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.564948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ok5677 | 2019/10/17 | Alright. I get it. Im not cut out for this world. Did not ask to be born. Im a failure. fine whatever. Im just a virgin loser. Okay society. You win. Congratz. Im every shaming word you want to use. Virgin/loser/lazy. You win. Is this want you all want? Well you got it. I dont wanna be apart of a society that doesent c... | -1.097742 | 0.935657 | 1.554781 | 97.58821 | 93.061303 | 4.603155 | 15.339306 | 6.227272 | -0.612567 | 914 | 20 | 220 | 10 | 34 | 313 | 139 | 261 | 0.129 | 0.67 | 0.201 | 0.8303 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 26 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 20 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 48 | 43 | 19 | 3 | 10 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 24 | 18 | 31 | 29 | 4 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 141 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07353 | 0 | 0.073897 | 0 | 0 | 0.047946 | 0 | 0.066928 | 0 | 0 | 0.069562 | 0 | 0.087366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080489 | 0.184361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162539 | 0 | 0 | 0.071146 | 0.132537 | 0.075156 | 0.070688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071887 | 0 | 0 | 0.086239 | 0 | 0.072713 | 0.164372 | 0 | 0.0447 | 0.131941 | 0.062906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.764627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087018 | 0 | 0.043226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213189 | 0 | 0.083692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086033 | 0 | 0.074129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067931 | 0 | 0 | 0.231958 | 0.062431 | 0 | 0 | 0.141437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jahprojectillogic | 2019/10/17 | If my highly rated music/blogs dosent go VIRAL on REDDIT I'm gonna do something schizophrenic that's gonna upset everybody Save my life save my life save my life save my life save my life save my life save my life
Hello I'm a schizophrenic writer/rapper that's been going on and off viral for the last 10 years. 39 son... | 3.316343 | 6.393456 | 3.33764 | 85.453504 | 82.308458 | 5.504557 | 19.23403 | 7.003673 | 0.408989 | 1,769 | 45 | 322 | 23 | 50 | 538 | 188 | 402 | 0.059 | 0.662 | 0.279 | 0.9988 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 49 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 33 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 2 | 27 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 57 | 61 | 23 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 11 | 43 | 29 | 40 | 34 | 8 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 189 | 65 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082576 | 0 | 0 | 0.196737 | 0 | 0.128404 | 0.189504 | 0.120468 | 0.49819 | 0 | 0 | 0.066598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159142 | 0.151088 | 0.149603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325399 | 0 | 0.149471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041389 | 0.061389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372365 | 0.220762 | 0.075482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135944 | 0.142524 | 0 | 0.152709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079027 | 0 | 0.1531 | 0.114556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0754 | 0 | 0.060014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115958 | 0 | 0 | 0.053306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096514 | 0 | 0 | 0.08783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065045 | 0 | 0 | 0.088842 | 0.059779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048498 |
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