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suicidewatch | mmatily | 2019/07/17 | I’m so useless... It’s so hard for me to ask for help, but if I do this it means that I really need it!
I don’t know how to say this but I will start directly.I made a Foap account thinking that I can make some sales and help my family.If you want to buy my photos the links are at the end.It’s a though period and I fee... | 3.937103 | 6.087207 | 3.854956 | 88.034444 | 73.351852 | 6.23351 | 21.756614 | 7.02168 | 0.361502 | 1,347 | 33 | 277 | 13 | 28 | 410 | 129 | 324 | 0.103 | 0.72 | 0.177 | 0.9604 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 67 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 54 | 58 | 25 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 49 | 9 | 36 | 49 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 180 | 75 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074998 | 0 | 0 | 0.061293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074172 | 0 | 0.168524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075257 | 0.164832 | 0 | 0 | 0.101549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084969 | 0 | 0.136721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047091 | 0 | 0.051224 | 0.302396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101586 | 0 | 0.362484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093859 | 0.049535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063663 | 0.044034 | 0.090337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170571 | 0.060164 | 0 | 0.09055 | 0.098181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066258 | 0.066832 | 0.069516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057741 | 0.092671 | 0 | 0 | 0.102103 | 0 | 0.171474 | 0.286708 | 0 | 0 | 0.143648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069389 | 0 | 0.100896 | 0.063796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07878 | 0.082982 | 0 | 0 | 0.11976 | 0.115507 | 0.088555 | 0.071555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074369 | 0.372138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196853 | 0 | 0 | 0.064028 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrReaper720512 | 2019/07/17 | I’m done Anyone know a easy painless way to off yourself? I’m done. I just Wanta sleep.. | -1.406491 | 0.571197 | 1.164211 | 97.99614 | 100.578947 | 2.533333 | 16.859649 | 3.1291 | -1.032382 | 68 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 15 | 19 | 0 | 0.718 | 0.282 | 0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.795988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Crispedlist5 | 2019/07/17 | End it all Wish i had the balls to end it all everything is going down the drain | -1.945 | -0.152539 | 0.516667 | 102.045 | 104 | 4.622222 | 11.555556 | 6.427356 | -0.982911 | 63 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 21 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 0.856 | 0.144 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.749159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | calcifer_86 | 2019/07/17 | I don’t deal with negative emotions very well. When I’m sad, angry or bored, my immediate thought is to commit suicide. The older I get, the stronger the urge to finally put a rope around my neck. Anyone have any advice/tips on how to manage depression? I know that I’ll eventually feel better once I cry it all out. I’m... | 3.3445 | 4.680351 | 4.700179 | 84.741696 | 73.190476 | 7.535714 | 25.505952 | 8.076483 | 1.446167 | 406 | 13 | 83 | 6 | 8 | 135 | 75 | 105 | 0.235 | 0.589 | 0.176 | -0.8576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 11 | 15 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 51 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155318 | 0 | 0 | 0.197742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243999 | 0 | 0.229006 | 0.19132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224631 | 0.158689 | 0 | 0.243332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116053 | 0 | 0.126241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176346 | 0.129525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | raininadesert_ | 2019/07/17 | Avalanche When you have depression it’s like it snows every day. Some days it’s only a couple of inches. It’s a pain in the ass, but you still make it to work, the grocery store. Sure, maybe you skip the gym or your friend’s birthday party, but it IS still snowing and who knows how bad it might get tonight. Probably be... | 2.19474 | 4.2511 | 2.466529 | 96.420462 | 78.251701 | 5.568881 | 19.534447 | 6.486788 | -0.134759 | 2,282 | 52 | 507 | 19 | 55 | 692 | 248 | 588 | 0.14 | 0.795 | 0.065 | -0.9943 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 80 | 0 | 42 | 8 | 6 | 41 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 43 | 0 | 35 | 20 | 9 | 6 | 9 | 83 | 64 | 42 | 2 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 39 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 16 | 51 | 10 | 70 | 54 | 13 | 91 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 63 | 51 | 2 | 15 | 33 | 326 | 90 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064627 | 0 | 0 | 0.053626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061225 | 0.250541 | 0.054411 | 0.039724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133083 | 0 | 0.066441 | 0 | 0 | 0.112269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052029 | 0.072104 | 0 | 0.294185 | 0 | 0.056127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066681 | 0.054437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172165 | 0 | 0.054905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03295 | 0.046554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078798 | 0 | 0.100693 | 0 | 0.340463 | 0 | 0.037035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087358 | 0 | 0.130733 | 0 | 0.064175 | 0.225577 | 0.139522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06786 | 0.035813 | 0 | 0.07351 | 0.069001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09551 | 0 | 0.057542 | 0 | 0.054723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086997 | 0 | 0.26187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047904 | 0 | 0.05026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062528 | 0.148383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049561 | 0.069341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090355 | 0 | 0.136168 | 0 | 0.123205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055651 | 0 | 0.103645 | 0 | 0 | 0.051929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065213 | 0 | 0 | 0.050168 | 0.193351 | 0 | 0 | 0.069458 | 0.156124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061418 | 0 | 0.048996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043293 | 0.083511 | 0 | 0 | 0.113996 | 0.299593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051725 | 0.052272 | 0 | 0.058592 | 0 | 0.058802 | 0.072755 | 0 | 0 | 0.070669 | 0.189765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheTelephone | 2019/07/17 | My life and mind are a total mess. I left my girlfriend of four years yesterday because my mental health is causing her way too much pain for me to bear.
The actual mental state crept up on me soooooo fast and suddenly, but I feel like all the events have been dragging out for years.
For the last year, I was the brea... | 12.334286 | 6.992223 | 10.967156 | 68.798082 | 58.727891 | 14.20898 | 44.365986 | 10.793553 | 4.556394 | 1,785 | 66 | 352 | 27 | 15 | 564 | 224 | 441 | 0.163 | 0.712 | 0.125 | -0.9475 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 44 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 21 | 28 | 4 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 38 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 90 | 76 | 34 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 9 | 57 | 11 | 53 | 48 | 14 | 65 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 23 | 1 | 9 | 39 | 254 | 77 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.078473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066174 | 0.143172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123668 | 0 | 0.09804 | 0 | 0.068427 | 0 | 0 | 0.07112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071223 | 0 | 0 | 0.159339 | 0.07274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28462 | 0.057448 | 0.077211 | 0 | 0 | 0.136801 | 0 | 0 | 0.062128 | 0.074342 | 0.12604 | 0.077141 | 0.091403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071476 | 0 | 0 | 0.044194 | 0.131097 | 0 | 0 | 0.087371 | 0.082229 | 0.170398 | 0.235719 | 0 | 0.071008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15218 | 0.214709 | 0 | 0.080787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243117 | 0 | 0.162392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118228 | 0.059626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085567 | 0.094349 | 0 | 0 | 0.076765 | 0.055749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091529 | 0.051516 | 0 | 0.238199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064219 | 0 | 0.092115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053424 | 0.154579 | 0 | 0.12768 | 0.093781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193458 | 0 | 0 | 0.06635 | 0.142292 | 0.191488 | 0.193511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077517 | 0.087206 | 0.117085 | 0.081665 | 0 | 0.057124 | 0.087921 | 0 | 0.155353 |
suicidewatch | ThrowawayNanya | 2019/07/17 | I feel so trapped. Today we received a letter from our HOA. They don't like that we have 3 pets in our unit (Apparently they only allow 1 pet per unit but our landlord said before we moved in that it should be fine). Now this? (Either we rehome 2 of our pets or we move). We are home body and we don't really interact wi... | 0.107727 | 2.35049 | 2.431136 | 92.326705 | 88.393939 | 5.481818 | 20.977273 | 6.961327 | 0.574764 | 610 | 21 | 133 | 9 | 20 | 207 | 98 | 165 | 0.129 | 0.804 | 0.067 | -0.892 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 25 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 30 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 95 | 39 | 0 | 0.153265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169131 | 0 | 0 | 0.166062 | 0.186233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173145 | 0.151997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117851 | 0 | 0.093429 | 0 | 0.130417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144484 | 0 | 0.232486 | 0.109492 | 0 | 0.335788 | 0.140081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149755 | 0.153611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325792 | 0.112667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108875 | 0 | 0.186233 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RaNdOm_FaCeS | 2019/07/17 | My son killed him self The other day my son killed him self and we just now decided to look through his phone for answers. We found this account where he seemed to vent pretty often. I am currently crushed but amazed of the support all of you people gave to a random kid that you didn’t even know. I thank you all for th... | 2.539429 | 4.10603 | 2.889244 | 95.975882 | 75.705882 | 5.798319 | 22.731092 | 6.182691 | 0.175521 | 323 | 9 | 73 | 2 | 7 | 99 | 61 | 85 | 0.079 | 0.746 | 0.175 | 0.8765 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 49 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449683 | 0 | 0.111689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185011 | 0.424022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PeskyNgon | 2019/07/17 | Should I tell someone? I have been depressed a long time and been struggling with suicidal thoughts for many years.
I talk to people about my mental health here on Reddit because I feel like this way the only people I am burdening with my problems are people who are willing to listen and are here by there own choice.
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suicidewatch | Musicmatters504 | 2019/07/17 | Support for us people who are suicidal because of anomalistic experiences like synchronicity and psychic experiences, etc. I suffer from a severe mental disorder called OCD. This is a post that I originally posted in the OCD forums. But through my research I learned that people without OCD go through this too, so I tho... | 9.456955 | 9.610939 | 8.572621 | 66.551676 | 59.277884 | 11.556833 | 38.979635 | 11.050138 | 4.465452 | 12,068 | 538 | 1,944 | 273 | 142 | 3,773 | 647 | 2,627 | 0.126 | 0.758 | 0.117 | -0.9922 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 325 | 35 | 18 | 8 | 27 | 105 | 128 | 19 | 6 | 133 | 0 | 141 | 30 | 6 | 22 | 25 | 426 | 325 | 227 | 6 | 21 | 75 | 1 | 17 | 25 | 2 | 27 | 21 | 22 | 15 | 4 | 249 | 161 | 3 | 7 | 93 | 10 | 4 | 37 | 27 | 52 | 3 | 20 | 73 | 51 | 206 | 76 | 331 | 203 | 44 | 271 | 1 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 156 | 126 | 1 | 51 | 120 | 1,401 | 455 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0.05941 | 0 | 0 | 0.014873 | 0.013492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067183 | 0.0852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03105 | 0.01596 | 0 | 0.051583 | 0.015094 | 0 | 0 | 0.012525 | 0.013549 | 0 | 0.017315 | 0.042899 | 0.105329 | 0.050832 | 0.157726 | 0 | 0.077707 | 0.034295 | 0.015972 | 0.026922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084953 | 0.062165 | 0.034815 | 0 | 0.125081 | 0 | 0.026221 | 0 | 0.016447 | 0.051212 | 0.012152 | 0 | 0.016718 | 0.009816 | 0.031382 | 0.013109 | 0 | 0.015796 | 0 | 0.017443 | 0 | 0.013319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088252 | 0.015574 | 0.025429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033949 | 0.010053 | 0.013767 | 0 | 0 | 0.041036 | 0.491307 | 0 | 0.017127 | 0.10774 | 0.03262 | 0.014614 | 0 | 0.153019 | 0.038838 | 0 | 0.033376 | 0 | 0 | 0.079518 | 0.087603 | 0.095149 | 0.063829 | 0.024346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323016 | 0 | 0.027268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051462 | 0.018036 | 0.051008 | 0.016081 | 0 | 0.045351 | 0.014989 | 0 | 0.016293 | 0 | 0.01644 | 0.015886 | 0 | 0.013528 | 0 | 0 | 0.041823 | 0 | 0 | 0.016116 | 0.082683 | 0 | 0.032251 | 0.185893 | 0.015254 | 0.01344 | 0.040408 | 0.12781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.010159 | 0.21603 | 0 | 0.016579 | 0 | 0 | 0.153382 | 0 | 0.107575 | 0 | 0 | 0.032353 | 0.033565 | 0.011285 | 0.023477 | 0 | 0.032373 | 0 | 0.014912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092821 | 0.034727 | 0.048585 | 0.035715 | 0 | 0.032964 | 0.029058 | 0.189929 | 0.053158 | 0.079508 | 0.016707 | 0.028776 | 0.017158 | 0.131189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030601 | 0 | 0 | 0.076121 | 0.034647 | 0.029251 | 0.031297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051991 | 0.043433 | 0.084725 | 0.015238 | 0 | 0.012128 | 0.013856 | 0 | 0.12036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038688 | 0.117171 | 0.075265 | 0 | 0.021546 | 0.032445 | 0.024309 | 0.012725 | 0 | 0 | 0.034847 | 0.083241 | 0.051814 | 0 | 0 | 0.022887 | 0 | 0 | 0.028025 | 0 | 0 | 0.20223 | 0.058514 | 0 | 0.24166 | 0.044375 | 0 | 0 | 0.014543 | 0 | 0.041334 | 0.049665 | 0.014868 | 0.015845 | 0.201386 | 0 | 0.016763 | 0 | 0.017954 | 0.036243 | 0 | 0 | 0.041054 | 0.028218 | 0 | 0.016993 | 0 | 0.073358 | 0.016505 | 0.033241 | 0.015457 | 0 | 0.021624 | 0.016641 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | burneraccount333444 | 2019/07/17 | How to make aftermath business easiest for my family? So like many of us, I have severe anxiety and depression. It’s ruined any relationship I’ve ever had, and those aren’t many because it also prevents me from forming connections.
In any case, I’ve always struggled with suicidal thoughts—like it’s a daily occurrence—... | 3.811749 | 5.390575 | 5.522519 | 78.342066 | 72.401639 | 9.399137 | 30.05522 | 9.811844 | 3.020315 | 975 | 42 | 190 | 26 | 19 | 333 | 130 | 244 | 0.132 | 0.729 | 0.139 | -0.2971 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 42 | 20 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 4 | 28 | 35 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 133 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139911 | 0.101391 | 0.105496 | 0 | 0 | 0.172438 | 0 | 0.096991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105861 | 0.077288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130711 | 0.109201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105913 | 0.142617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239045 | 0 | 0.064107 | 0 | 0 | 0.138888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06624 | 0.121625 | 0.144111 | 0.106342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112116 | 0 | 0.113575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253892 | 0.257082 | 0 | 0.138107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101199 | 0 | 0.186405 | 0.09401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281562 | 0 | 0.121032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143232 | 0 | 0.104879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132544 | 0 | 0.138683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168462 | 0 | 0.124567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152508 | 0 | 0 | 0.104612 | 0.074782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128757 | 0 | 0.090065 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zzzsplz | 2019/07/17 | I’m kind of done I’ve been very anxious due to work recently and depressed for as long as I can remember. I’m just tired all the time and don’t have any want to feel better. I have tried so many times to get my life in order and improve myself. But it takes everything out of me and I just feel worse then I did before. ... | 2.802431 | 4.683981 | 4.210667 | 85.425462 | 75.8 | 7.015385 | 24.205128 | 7.882392 | 1.296597 | 1,176 | 38 | 235 | 18 | 26 | 389 | 161 | 300 | 0.119 | 0.686 | 0.195 | 0.9774 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 20 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 23 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 60 | 48 | 27 | 0 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 26 | 14 | 43 | 38 | 5 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 162 | 36 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101169 | 0 | 0 | 0.081279 | 0 | 0 | 0.132854 | 0 | 0 | 0.110353 | 0.096874 | 0 | 0 | 0.080384 | 0 | 0.09132 | 0 | 0.091776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08312 | 0 | 0 | 0.086392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109045 | 0 | 0 | 0.099593 | 0 | 0.103335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175581 | 0 | 0.092086 | 0 | 0.197564 | 0.069784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083088 | 0 | 0 | 0.075469 | 0 | 0.10207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086824 | 0 | 0.101721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137991 | 0.143168 | 0 | 0.086255 | 0.086446 | 0.082028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264486 | 0 | 0 | 0.099034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07243 | 0.150677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104028 | 0.066192 | 0.074292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135441 | 0 | 0.102057 | 0 | 0.277023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109426 | 0 | 0.097708 | 0 | 0.250311 | 0 | 0.096449 | 0 | 0.110655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100269 | 0 | 0 | 0.097753 | 0 | 0.082766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113918 | 0.224542 | 0 | 0.093339 | 0 | 0.132639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084366 | 0 | 0.080598 | 0.172846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11233 | 0.094162 | 0 | 0.142227 | 0 | 0.099546 | 0.208172 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | keelsbewick | 2019/07/17 | Why live? Honestly don’t know what the hell others people wills to live are because I lost mine a long time ago. I spent years just stuck in this pool of depression. Get out of it for a bit but there you go. Right back down there. Ever think about having children and thinking their mum will be this suicidal freak. I ha... | 1.072667 | 3.385818 | 2.211111 | 95.24 | 84.111111 | 5.377778 | 17.888889 | 6.742158 | -0.082311 | 344 | 8 | 75 | 4 | 10 | 109 | 73 | 90 | 0.311 | 0.588 | 0.101 | -0.9782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 21 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 49 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152814 | 0 | 0.121146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20766 | 0 | 0.112945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140371 | 0 | 0 | 0.526455 | 0.175873 | 0 | 0 | 0.216941 | 0 | 0.179365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254681 | 0 | 0 | 0.115883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127978 |
suicidewatch | v_ethereal_undine_v | 2019/07/17 | Going to kill myself Don’t tell me to call worthless hotlines because I don’t trust them. Don’t tell me that things will get better because you don’t know my circumstances. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to die. I want to have a chance at life. But I don’t. All I have is a son that I have miserably fa... | -0.768133 | 0.631608 | 2.083417 | 98.774769 | 84.898876 | 5.087112 | 17.773959 | 5.900189 | -0.589711 | 583 | 13 | 155 | 4 | 17 | 205 | 82 | 178 | 0.2 | 0.673 | 0.127 | -0.9665 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 43 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 3 | 13 | 41 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 105 | 43 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113419 | 0.165612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128056 | 0 | 0.068684 | 0 | 0 | 0.148804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07097 | 0.130309 | 0.0772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150285 | 0 | 0.149307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289083 | 0 | 0.150833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scribbledoll | 2019/07/17 | im so sorry. im so so so sorry. i relapsed last night and cut myself. afterward i counted 50, but i might have miscounted. this morning i cut a few more times.
one of my best friends is part of a friend group and theyve known each other for over a decade now. he introduced me to the group when he and i were dating (we... | 1.967816 | 3.915847 | 3.336222 | 90.436252 | 78.517974 | 6.456926 | 21.697871 | 7.461838 | 0.688056 | 4,673 | 133 | 1,005 | 65 | 113 | 1,525 | 368 | 1,224 | 0.188 | 0.605 | 0.207 | 0.9929 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 201 | 13 | 2 | 30 | 22 | 54 | 115 | 9 | 6 | 55 | 7 | 122 | 20 | 6 | 22 | 12 | 226 | 189 | 124 | 4 | 29 | 52 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 12 | 21 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 55 | 80 | 2 | 5 | 22 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 34 | 40 | 2 | 15 | 39 | 16 | 152 | 75 | 111 | 117 | 45 | 92 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 10 | 123 | 41 | 2 | 27 | 48 | 707 | 207 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075674 | 0 | 0.128162 | 0.143729 | 0.016088 | 0 | 0.018098 | 0 | 0.023461 | 0.033083 | 0.024239 | 0.058403 | 0 | 0.066348 | 0 | 0.022226 | 0 | 0.197526 | 0.057684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173786 | 0.104613 | 0.051655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.018888 | 0.052352 | 0 | 0.015257 | 0.024389 | 0.020376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027113 | 0 | 0 | 0.024209 | 0.083177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039525 | 0.026611 | 0 | 0.024444 | 0 | 0.062501 | 0 | 0 | 0.090421 | 0.021261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059808 | 0.033801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08049 | 0 | 0.025939 | 0.219328 | 0.02187 | 0.086519 | 0.022694 | 0.013445 | 0.198423 | 0.037841 | 0 | 0.052122 | 0.023424 | 0 | 0 | 0.042384 | 0 | 0.024279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025325 | 0 | 0.587732 | 0.024692 | 0 | 0 | 0.078519 | 0.024635 | 0.065006 | 0.038567 | 0 | 0 | 0.025703 | 0 | 0.033419 | 0.104018 | 0.047421 | 0.083558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060337 | 0.128108 | 0.089539 | 0.157912 | 0 | 0.023767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023841 | 0.150578 | 0 | 0.027707 | 0 | 0.025144 | 0.052172 | 0 | 0.018246 | 0 | 0 | 0.044401 | 0.046358 | 0.022699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176336 | 0.017992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076855 | 0 | 0.114805 | 0.206564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.022637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030311 | 0 | 0 | 0.025399 | 0 | 0.040406 | 0 | 0.056439 | 0.094739 | 0.071826 | 0 | 0.021536 | 0 | 0 | 0.024284 | 0.019569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040089 | 0.036425 | 0 | 0.13241 | 0.050234 | 0 | 0.018892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054163 | 0.025877 | 0 | 0.022296 | 0 | 0.017787 | 0.038029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078583 | 0.045475 | 0.023243 | 0 | 0.027589 | 0 | 0 | 0.067816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024628 | 0.028456 | 0 | 0 | 0.039039 | 0 | 0.131445 | 0 | 0 | 0.042541 | 0 | 0 | 0.052824 | 0 | 0.045609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151247 | 0.129326 | 0.143729 | 0.015234 |
suicidewatch | crt_bby | 2019/07/17 | Don’t see the value in living Title says it all. I’m 17, and it’s kindle funny when I look back in myself rejecting everyone and pushing friends away. You never truly know how bad it is until it’s too late, and I feel as though I’ve gotten to that stage. Made a few mistakes like everyone does, but their not the reason.... | 3.167524 | 4.001432 | 4.407822 | 88.594112 | 73.015748 | 6.904287 | 22.772528 | 6.937598 | 0.590913 | 473 | 11 | 102 | 4 | 9 | 156 | 93 | 127 | 0.13 | 0.734 | 0.136 | -0.0363 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 25 | 19 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 14 | 5 | 11 | 16 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 67 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151842 | 0.124272 | 0.134942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30886 | 0 | 0 | 0.152356 | 0 | 0.163435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143651 | 0 | 0 | 0.088819 | 0 | 0.182309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078957 | 0 | 0.142709 | 0 | 0.135716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179454 | 0 | 0 | 0.112043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181046 | 0 | 0.161659 | 0 | 0 | 0.166167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385568 | 0 | 0 | 0.128786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15232 | 0 | 0 | 0.1299 | 0 | 0.148793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158786 | 0 | 0.094239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | I-need-something | 2019/07/17 | I feel pretty low I don't know, kinda feel pretty worthless. 😕 | -1.510256 | -0.466123 | 1.530769 | 91.805897 | 120.538462 | 1.733333 | 12.025641 | 3.1291 | -1.416621 | 49 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 10 | 13 | 0.294 | 0.31 | 0.397 | 0.3947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.8704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thisnameisafalsehood | 2019/07/17 | I'm already dead. My body just hasn't caught up yet. This is how I feel. Every single day. If I found out that I was going to die a certain day, it would be like a doctor's appointment. I don't care about anything, really. Apathy has eaten me alive.
No, I don't want to do drugs or fly out to an exotic place or any of ... | 0.022127 | 1.890964 | 2.202841 | 96.451772 | 84.792683 | 5.078336 | 16.354376 | 6.227272 | -0.573658 | 579 | 11 | 139 | 5 | 17 | 195 | 103 | 164 | 0.189 | 0.731 | 0.08 | -0.947 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 30 | 12 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 20 | 22 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 87 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119821 | 0 | 0 | 0.165648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148455 | 0 | 0 | 0.125427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151116 | 0 | 0 | 0.149034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147245 | 0.104021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172544 | 0 | 0.153841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205692 | 0.142271 | 0 | 0.128573 | 0.128857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107037 | 0 | 0.1123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106003 | 0 | 0 | 0.103434 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwmelntotheabyss | 2019/07/17 | Last day My mom took me to get my nails and hair done today. At least I'll look pretty when I swallow all the fucking pills tomorrow. | 3.2325 | 4.13526 | 4.198571 | 89.896429 | 72.928571 | 7.028571 | 24.714286 | 7.168622 | 0.860443 | 105 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 26 | 28 | 0 | 0.887 | 0.113 | 0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317095 | 0.179202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325121 | 0 | 0.381083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Milan-CL-pls | 2019/07/17 | The Effects of Suicide About a week ago, my older brother made a post to this subreddit called “I can’t take this anymore. I’m going to do it soon” You can see the post [here.](https://reddit.app.link/mFof9u1DoY) He’s 22 years old and I’m 16.
Yesterday, my parents woke up and found a cord tied to the outside door hand... | 5.290726 | 6.048997 | 5.220865 | 84.967721 | 68.107649 | 7.838847 | 28.520631 | 7.742559 | 1.609613 | 2,855 | 93 | 564 | 30 | 46 | 887 | 324 | 706 | 0.093 | 0.754 | 0.153 | 0.995 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 93 | 9 | 15 | 8 | 7 | 30 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 0 | 50 | 20 | 9 | 3 | 17 | 102 | 94 | 43 | 5 | 10 | 15 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 30 | 36 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 10 | 84 | 24 | 98 | 60 | 17 | 89 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 101 | 40 | 0 | 13 | 39 | 375 | 114 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.056077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056989 | 0.04018 | 0 | 0.141865 | 0.102311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07006 | 0 | 0.097796 | 0.194228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058678 | 0 | 0.175767 | 0 | 0 | 0.049501 | 0.06025 | 0 | 0 | 0.045881 | 0 | 0.252488 | 0.03706 | 0.059243 | 0.049494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06464 | 0 | 0.059376 | 0 | 0.075909 | 0.20792 | 0.048416 | 0.05491 | 0 | 0 | 0.108345 | 0 | 0.058112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105043 | 0 | 0 | 0.18902 | 0.044397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065317 | 0 | 0.04596 | 0 | 0.063304 | 0 | 0.101631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064767 | 0 | 0.115552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061517 | 0.06487 | 0 | 0 | 0.057025 | 0 | 0 | 0.179521 | 0.063162 | 0 | 0.064822 | 0 | 0.124871 | 0 | 0.040589 | 0.084223 | 0.115189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207456 | 0.054374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057911 | 0.060961 | 0 | 0.134603 | 0 | 0 | 0.126729 | 0 | 0.310241 | 0 | 0 | 0.053926 | 0 | 0.055139 | 0 | 0.120599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061146 | 0 | 0.127615 | 0 | 0 | 0.199193 | 0 | 0 | 0.126157 | 0.054322 | 0 | 0.11007 | 0 | 0 | 0.054986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049074 | 0.054662 | 0.091396 | 0 | 0 | 0.045792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047535 | 0.064592 | 0.057506 | 0 | 0 | 0.044239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122499 | 0.091782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216031 | 0.046188 | 0.150679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04562 | 0.16754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117044 | 0.062505 | 0 | 0 | 0.138245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045613 | 0.046095 | 0 | 0.051667 | 0 | 0.051853 | 0.064157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122463 | 0 | 0 | 0.037005 |
suicidewatch | imjusttiredlol | 2019/07/17 | What's the point of my life if it's just suffering I feel like there's nothing going right in my life, only awful things piling on top of each other. Mental illness has robbed me of so much and continues to make me feel like a prisoner in my own life. I feel like I have no one, and I'm scared the only person I feel is ... | 4.066525 | 4.815756 | 4.6625 | 87.906123 | 70.864407 | 7.594915 | 25.766949 | 7.645422 | 1.179675 | 454 | 13 | 96 | 5 | 8 | 145 | 77 | 118 | 0.239 | 0.668 | 0.093 | -0.9627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 3 | 14 | 16 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 66 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096597 | 0.154419 | 0.129007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378672 | 0.321013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423182 | 0.219528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150945 | 0.158895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202992 | 0.227832 | 0.159379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10384 | 0.130784 | 0 | 0 | 0.141592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127913 | 0 | 0 | 0.149958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BloodIsRedDuh | 2019/07/17 | Not sure if I'm in the right place About a month ago my partner of 2 years and I experienced a profound loss of her mom, since then I've been trying to be the rock she needs.
I have made a few mistakes not taking her into full consideration over that time as well as had points where I showed emotion.
Our lives are for... | 2.495208 | 3.797926 | 3.280779 | 94.209675 | 75.285714 | 6.519481 | 21.298701 | 6.980633 | 0.182857 | 522 | 12 | 123 | 5 | 11 | 165 | 93 | 140 | 0.147 | 0.753 | 0.1 | -0.7809 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 29 | 24 | 17 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 21 | 5 | 18 | 14 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 87 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160394 | 0 | 0 | 0.187402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203536 | 0.160261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191951 | 0 | 0.211917 | 0.144426 | 0 | 0 | 0.268333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189046 | 0 | 0.171049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154524 | 0 | 0 | 0.181155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205331 | 0.170536 | 0 | 0.136046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116521 |
suicidewatch | essieelf | 2019/07/17 | I’m supposed to be better now I’m just hiding more than I ever was. I keep taking new jobs to fill time but I have horrible panic attacks before almost every shift. I spend my time off thinking about how to kill my self and how I can best arrange my belongings. I don’t know what do do anymore. The three people closest ... | 0.940256 | 2.527409 | 3.375333 | 90.653222 | 80.3 | 5.244444 | 21.111111 | 5.822114 | 0.116178 | 357 | 10 | 78 | 2 | 9 | 124 | 64 | 100 | 0.192 | 0.669 | 0.14 | -0.775 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 25 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 10 | 17 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 54 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150399 | 0 | 0.185486 | 0.468957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319757 | 0.148918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175395 | 0.157101 | 0.195545 | 0 | 0.194272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226506 | 0 | 0 | 0.206126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125556 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Rustystatue | 2019/07/17 | It's about to be all over I just wanted to leave a lasting note I guess, the rope is about to be bought and I'm done, I have wrote some letters out to a few people that I have wronged in the past, I don't have any freinds, haven't seen any of my family in a couple of years, I have lost my job, I'm about to be homeless,... | 4.037362 | 3.050158 | 5.383025 | 88.738445 | 70.720779 | 8.28602 | 24.611154 | 7.048012 | 0.696219 | 1,073 | 20 | 264 | 8 | 17 | 363 | 146 | 308 | 0.066 | 0.863 | 0.071 | 0.6597 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 23 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 40 | 63 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 32 | 6 | 46 | 42 | 9 | 46 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 195 | 49 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21111 | 0.108508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07957 | 0 | 0.063081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086444 | 0 | 0.274958 | 0 | 0 | 0.068348 | 0 | 0 | 0.09888 | 0.093001 | 0 | 0.097552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05881 | 0.086794 | 0 | 0.114087 | 0.113995 | 0.102462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205376 | 0.183956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253051 | 0.11673 | 0.109571 | 0 | 0 | 0.073091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091577 | 0 | 0 | 0.112961 | 0 | 0.093395 | 0 | 0.069074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109776 | 0 | 0 | 0.082597 | 0.109983 | 0 | 0 | 0.07981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070121 | 0.078701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098784 | 0.286961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103508 | 0 | 0.066292 | 0 | 0 | 0.111099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073244 | 0 | 0.082639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095271 | 0 | 0 | 0.068748 | 0 | 0 | 0.082152 | 0.18102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089374 | 0 | 0 | 0.122071 | 0.082138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113139 | 0 | 0.199914 |
suicidewatch | UglyBisen | 2019/07/17 | :(
I feel like cutting myself
I can't stand this anymore
I feel like trashhhhhh
I dont find anything comforting anymore | 2.086818 | 4.744488 | 4.255 | 74.3525 | 99.454545 | 5.836364 | 32.772727 | 7.168622 | 3.111418 | 97 | 6 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 33 | 16 | 22 | 0.281 | 0.507 | 0.211 | -0.1675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.602459 | 0 | 0 | 0.249953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307161 | 0.433986 | 0 | 0 | 0.277614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hyene | 2019/07/17 | My community wants me to kill myself (thanks, Montreal!) I can't even complain on the /r/montreal board about the state of health care and social services in Quebec without being censored, any criticism of the Quebec gov't is considered Quebec-bashing, even if the gov't is failing miserably and the health care system i... | 7.691012 | 8.56675 | 7.250626 | 72.100803 | 62.880866 | 9.477936 | 34.525165 | 9.402419 | 3.343997 | 2,467 | 101 | 390 | 41 | 34 | 774 | 235 | 554 | 0.257 | 0.606 | 0.137 | -0.9985 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 94 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 24 | 39 | 13 | 1 | 47 | 0 | 34 | 14 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 67 | 58 | 32 | 8 | 11 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 20 | 16 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 15 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 72 | 51 | 11 | 62 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 23 | 5 | 13 | 23 | 260 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 0.480637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293019 | 0.328612 | 0.061302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0447 | 0 | 0 | 0.037091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037634 | 0 | 0.04978 | 0 | 0.050782 | 0.094603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321684 | 0 | 0 | 0.038826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046572 | 0 | 0.178622 | 0 | 0.075952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083338 | 0.023549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049693 | 0 | 0 | 0.039858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287463 | 0 | 0 | 0.060423 | 0 | 0 | 0.044768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04068 | 0 | 0.030087 | 0 | 0 | 0.049098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033134 | 0.033421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094593 | 0 | 0.152713 | 0.10284 | 0.047961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072456 | 0 | 0.041497 | 0.051545 | 0 | 0.029944 | 0.028881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043069 | 0 | 0 | 0.049026 | 0 | 0 | 0.054217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026585 | 0.035777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040671 | 0 | 0 | 0.043449 | 0 | 0.032814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328612 | 0.174153 |
suicidewatch | throwaway2133413251 | 2019/07/17 | im planning on ending my life so i wont be a pain to my parents Hello, I'm a 13-year-old living in Europe, recently, my laptop broke due to a hardware issue, and my parents wasted precious hours getting it too, and back from the repairs shop. I love them so much, but now I've managed to spill a drink on it, completely ... | 4.877326 | 4.689007 | 5.99508 | 82.359679 | 68.839572 | 8.51123 | 31.438503 | 8.000946 | 2.114833 | 707 | 27 | 146 | 8 | 11 | 237 | 98 | 187 | 0.177 | 0.683 | 0.139 | -0.7561 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 18 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 27 | 5 | 18 | 20 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 96 | 36 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099954 | 0 | 0.079241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133536 | 0 | 0 | 0.136292 | 0 | 0 | 0.103787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065727 | 0.092865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120174 | 0.067915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140412 | 0.135676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183632 | 0.063507 | 0 | 0.114784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276638 | 0 | 0.577355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133652 | 0.12835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103198 | 0.075798 | 0 | 0 | 0.124211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135324 | 0 | 0.11227 | 0 | 0 | 0.153343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083709 |
suicidewatch | Nanamagari1989 | 2019/07/17 | Reassurance in the end? I don’t know why I’m on here at 5AM; I should be asleep.
Does anyone else feel very happy knowing In the end; they’re going to kill themself? Like I don’t plan on doing it right now; I wanna get somewhere in my music career, once I leave my digital footprint; then I’ll end it. I just feel so sa... | 3.998148 | 4.004865 | 5.368741 | 85.425333 | 70.728395 | 8.208395 | 28.545679 | 7.908726 | 1.606541 | 596 | 20 | 132 | 7 | 10 | 201 | 100 | 162 | 0.274 | 0.6 | 0.126 | -0.9848 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 25 | 11 | 6 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 6 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 75 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113663 | 0.166558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165736 | 0 | 0 | 0.140027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140009 | 0 | 0.168707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135795 | 0 | 0.431929 | 0 | 0 | 0.107367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084929 | 0 | 0.092384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179844 | 0 | 0.178673 | 0 | 0 | 0.172123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079417 | 0 | 0 | 0.143857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184144 | 0.138822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160772 | 0 | 0 | 0.173263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104159 | 0 | 0.129051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104681 |
suicidewatch | fakenamemcgee96 | 2019/07/17 | Define Suicidal I think about killing myself sometimes...does that make me suicidal? I have a plan on what I'm going to do when I do it, but I currently have to support my family so I can't just up and kill myself, leaving them to find a new home and extra work. I read some of these posts and they always seem so emotio... | 4.1564 | 4.805339 | 5.678667 | 81.066 | 70.6 | 9.2 | 29 | 9.3871 | 2.4244 | 576 | 21 | 118 | 12 | 10 | 196 | 89 | 150 | 0.267 | 0.658 | 0.074 | -0.9892 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 26 | 16 | 7 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 3 | 16 | 23 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 91 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.128022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29514 | 0.116195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123673 | 0 | 0.066333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435424 | 0 | 0.072098 | 0 | 0 | 0.13891 | 0 | 0 | 0.092663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100996 | 0 | 0.146856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573999 | 0.148872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144486 | 0 | 0.077379 | 0.104132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _Familiar_Stranger_ | 2019/07/17 | Where is the best placement for a noose Ive spent the past while learning how to tie the hangman's knot. I plan on hanging from a tree, so I'm aware that the drop should snap my neck and kill me, however is there a specific position for the rope to be, I have quite a large Adams apple and am curious if it should be pla... | 7.527717 | 4.706588 | 8.13 | 77.74 | 64.978261 | 11.808696 | 33.869565 | 10.125757 | 2.905491 | 341 | 10 | 77 | 6 | 4 | 115 | 68 | 92 | 0.072 | 0.799 | 0.129 | 0.6486 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 51 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314919 | 0 | 0 | 0.344667 | 0.362122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SinisterTheFish | 2019/07/17 | What would you consider suicidal thoughts? For about the past few months I’ve been having these thoughts but I’m not too sure if they’re actually suicidal. I’ve been taught that suicidal thoughts are when you want to commit suicide and all. My thoughts are more of what I’d do if I decided to do it. I have a plan but I ... | 3.179487 | 5.089262 | 3.596932 | 90.113346 | 74.811966 | 7.756923 | 24.520513 | 8.548687 | 1.43765 | 466 | 15 | 100 | 9 | 10 | 145 | 72 | 117 | 0.234 | 0.734 | 0.032 | -0.9853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 34 | 30 | 10 | 5 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 10 | 16 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 68 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.109416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121165 | 0 | 0.089521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107034 | 0.155464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.613221 | 0 | 0.105675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074489 | 0.143688 | 0 | 0.445065 | 0.06538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096838 | 0 | 0 | 0.066133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398245 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | onenightconvo | 2019/07/17 | Do you guys ever feel like a video game character? Never thought I'd be posting on this sub before. I'm pretty surprised at my mood. I'm not really sad, or feeling anguish, or emotional. Rather I'm quite calm and collected. It feels like it makes sense and it's the right answer.
On to my topic title. I feel like I'm a... | 3.273201 | 4.971844 | 4.422945 | 85.190217 | 74.035461 | 7.173851 | 23.608387 | 7.89386 | 1.147216 | 1,112 | 32 | 224 | 16 | 23 | 364 | 152 | 282 | 0.149 | 0.703 | 0.148 | -0.5341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 65 | 41 | 19 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 30 | 15 | 27 | 31 | 7 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 14 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 143 | 46 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096894 | 0 | 0.097378 | 0 | 0.086539 | 0 | 0 | 0.088194 | 0 | 0.108769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136913 | 0.093753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366843 | 0.370221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162451 | 0.099426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114177 | 0.102625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056961 | 0 | 0 | 0.219491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264346 | 0 | 0.098072 | 0.138368 | 0 | 0.104126 | 0.1129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099264 | 0.105444 | 0.111747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110239 | 0 | 0 | 0.066398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082283 | 0.060436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114151 | 0.085518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073627 | 0.11332 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sorta-suffering | 2019/07/17 | Shaken Up This is a bit of a train wreck.
My town was the epicenter of a 6.4 and 7.1 earthquake. Homes were destroyed by gas fires, floods, and the earthquake. People lost power, water, and food. Our movie theater was destroyed. We’re still dealing with the aftershocks, which has everyone on edge.
My family and I wer... | 2.81211 | 4.036061 | 4.053708 | 89.296415 | 74.351682 | 7.189187 | 23.783364 | 7.699297 | 0.966991 | 1,229 | 35 | 268 | 16 | 25 | 403 | 169 | 327 | 0.166 | 0.767 | 0.067 | -0.9809 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 50 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 15 | 3 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 51 | 51 | 25 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 27 | 4 | 40 | 34 | 9 | 54 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 181 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082848 | 0 | 0.107403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166549 | 0 | 0.132035 | 0.119607 | 0.184308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114565 | 0 | 0.113549 | 0 | 0.121466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139687 | 0.111651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09592 | 0 | 0 | 0.07153 | 0.097962 | 0 | 0.103484 | 0.097331 | 0 | 0.102094 | 0 | 0.054759 | 0.077368 | 0 | 0 | 0.098983 | 0 | 0.130955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113163 | 0 | 0.123097 | 0 | 0.086616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108632 | 0 | 0 | 0.124962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110742 | 0 | 0.105818 | 0.108543 | 0.095629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115104 | 0.079612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121319 | 0 | 0 | 0.123267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076654 | 0 | 0.518922 | 0 | 0.124055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071948 | 0.069393 | 0 | 0 | 0.06315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093535 | 0 | 0 | 0.191631 | 0.085962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100393 | 0.097722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Voixe69 | 2019/07/17 | Im really scared of myself Im scared of how suicidal ive been lately, i dont want to hurt my family but im in so much pain i cant take it anymore. Im tired and i dont want to be here anymore. I dont know what im capable of and the person im with (and live with) shuts me down when i try to talk about feeling like this. ... | -2.812967 | -1.264452 | 1.382857 | 99.534066 | 95.190476 | 5.135531 | 13.791209 | 6.671995 | -0.72711 | 325 | 6 | 92 | 5 | 13 | 123 | 57 | 105 | 0.237 | 0.584 | 0.178 | -0.7037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 18 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 52 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08905 | 0 | 0.095525 | 0.134967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202246 | 0 | 0.714244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104508 | 0 | 0.051914 | 0 | 0.106557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092298 | 0 | 0.083411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071023 | 0.075925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Heretohelp92 | 2019/07/17 | Spent 8 weeks in a psyche ward for suicidality and was suicidal for a year and am now recovering If anyone who’s still suicidal or recovering from suicidality want to talk about their experience I’m all ears and if they want to hear mine I’m happy to share. I want the best for people and it’s always nice to have a disc... | 2.851071 | 4.064367 | 5.374464 | 79.907411 | 74.238095 | 8.678571 | 23.60119 | 9.188382 | 1.68969 | 395 | 11 | 85 | 9 | 8 | 141 | 64 | 105 | 0.08 | 0.702 | 0.218 | 0.8885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 15 | 9 | 4 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 16 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 51 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121078 | 0 | 0 | 0.098953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203491 | 0 | 0.119744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.636667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257481 | 0 | 0.116721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18741 |
suicidewatch | leah128 | 2019/07/17 | I'm sick of living My boyfriend broke up with me, told his friends that he never loved me (although he would say it all the time to me). He told me I pressured him into loving me, then he said his definition of love is different. Even after he had made up his mind he pretended everything was fine and continued to be l... | 2.663683 | 3.91102 | 3.968731 | 89.66689 | 74.762004 | 7.182554 | 23.175591 | 7.730073 | 0.841525 | 1,792 | 49 | 402 | 24 | 37 | 589 | 213 | 479 | 0.193 | 0.707 | 0.099 | -0.9938 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 31 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 40 | 22 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 68 | 84 | 41 | 6 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 32 | 14 | 65 | 18 | 48 | 42 | 8 | 54 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 62 | 27 | 2 | 14 | 22 | 261 | 89 | 0 | 0 | 0.084903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070023 | 0 | 0 | 0.071755 | 0 | 0 | 0.057305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054818 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067325 | 0 | 0.059831 | 0.087364 | 0 | 0.060976 | 0.080734 | 0 | 0 | 0.078232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147225 | 0 | 0 | 0.075132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078713 | 0.046213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07437 | 0.074867 | 0.082126 | 0 | 0.062708 | 0.146662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094659 | 0.064819 | 0 | 0 | 0.064401 | 0 | 0.067553 | 0 | 0.072465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166088 | 0.066247 | 0.074877 | 0.068741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079003 | 0.157878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050614 | 0.035008 | 0 | 0.063275 | 0 | 0.060175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452718 | 0.067804 | 0 | 0.07265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072354 | 0 | 0.057197 | 0 | 0.052677 | 0 | 0.165801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097114 | 0 | 0.076249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230801 | 0 | 0.122391 | 0.272652 | 0.056985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0.073556 | 0.059276 | 0 | 0.07171 | 0 | 0 | 0.110331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076378 | 0 | 0.059909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107756 | 0.115192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142819 | 0.045915 | 0 | 0 | 0.083569 | 0 | 0 | 0.342361 | 0.079614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169063 | 0.056879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080003 | 0 | 0 | 0.07771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101807 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TinaTheCrosstrek | 2019/07/17 | Why do I feel like this I like to think I’m smart. I know it will only put my pain on the ones I love. But at the moment my pain is more than the love I have for others. I’d rather go out than linger on like this. I’m at the point where oh your dad I killed my self, should said or done something while I was here | -1.447089 | 0.207225 | 0.415325 | 108.337509 | 89.136986 | 3.65 | 10.494863 | 3.1291 | -2.262451 | 239 | 1 | 69 | 0 | 8 | 77 | 50 | 73 | 0.133 | 0.645 | 0.222 | 0.7579 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 43 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112085 | 0.158364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24525 | 0 | 0.121827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150213 | 0.168594 | 0.471755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aa1123 | 2019/07/17 | I don’t know what it feels like too not want to kill my self I’ve been feeling like this for the past 3 and a half years, at this point I don’t even know what I feels like to want to be alive. I tried killing my self before and ever since that happened I can’t stop thinking about it, it doesn’t matter how good my day ... | 1.276825 | 2.76618 | 2.471005 | 97.956667 | 79 | 5.863139 | 19.59612 | 6.543119 | -0.229084 | 582 | 13 | 145 | 5 | 14 | 186 | 85 | 162 | 0.135 | 0.63 | 0.235 | 0.9499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 35 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 23 | 11 | 17 | 29 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 89 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141251 | 0 | 0.098586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076523 | 0.1048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292905 | 0.413844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102453 | 0.123333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256359 | 0 | 0.127345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110599 | 0.080321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074221 | 0.119121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092135 | 0.115994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362594 | 0 | 0 | 0.095839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123489 | 0 | 0.193724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082302 | 0 | 0 | 0.074609 |
suicidewatch | Whosthat1313 | 2019/07/17 | Is my friend genuinely depressed or just wanting attention? So my 'friend' started messaging a group chat at 10 pm with my other friends of how he is emotionally sad. He has ideas of killing himself using a knife next to him while saying he was intoxicated by sending a past photo of alcohol from a social event. We try ... | 8.408892 | 7.814988 | 8.246619 | 70.491938 | 61.706186 | 11.162062 | 37.441237 | 10.467255 | 3.952443 | 1,659 | 70 | 285 | 33 | 20 | 535 | 202 | 388 | 0.196 | 0.757 | 0.047 | -0.9966 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 28 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 68 | 49 | 25 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 28 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 7 | 35 | 8 | 62 | 24 | 9 | 45 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 75 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 207 | 55 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074721 | 0.083798 | 0 | 0.072314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122783 | 0.064471 | 0 | 0 | 0.053028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211257 | 0.078875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088951 | 0 | 0.118796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05761 | 0.077574 | 0 | 0 | 0.076912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06974 | 0.049267 | 0.066215 | 0 | 0.063031 | 0.05866 | 0.08339 | 0 | 0.319684 | 0 | 0.072061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055156 | 0 | 0 | 0.204853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079574 | 0 | 0.077851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061298 | 0.228892 | 0 | 0.0379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069499 | 0.073159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065833 | 0.04781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0656 | 0.109684 | 0 | 0.209383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07079 | 0 | 0.077517 | 0 | 0.070299 | 0.058432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41477 | 0.178686 | 0 | 0 | 0.122029 | 0 | 0.110636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0754 | 0.083798 | 0.08882 |
suicidewatch | Fumple | 2019/07/17 | Fresh start? or just end it all? Hi Y’all!
I’ve made plans to kill my self at the end of the spring semester in 2020. I would do it right this minute but there are some complications that have lead me to believe that spring 2020 is the right time to do it. I won’t go into detail, but essentially doing it then will al... | 7.465857 | 5.813831 | 7.420408 | 79.077724 | 64.188917 | 10.373008 | 32.733528 | 8.990254 | 2.47666 | 1,555 | 47 | 322 | 20 | 19 | 500 | 191 | 397 | 0.165 | 0.72 | 0.115 | -0.9814 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 19 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 35 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 80 | 57 | 31 | 4 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 43 | 8 | 57 | 41 | 10 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 22 | 0 | 14 | 20 | 240 | 72 | 5 | 0.091987 | 0.10899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10151 | 0.073562 | 0.076541 | 0 | 0 | 0.062555 | 0.096457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163777 | 0 | 0 | 0.17285 | 0 | 0.230417 | 0.056075 | 0 | 0 | 0.207277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162947 | 0.095048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173435 | 0 | 0.093023 | 0.065716 | 0 | 0 | 0.084075 | 0.078244 | 0 | 0 | 0.142138 | 0 | 0.096119 | 0 | 0.104557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091283 | 0 | 0.305311 | 0 | 0.101108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19492 | 0.089881 | 0 | 0.162453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087041 | 0.122805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092702 | 0 | 0.092881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067621 | 0 | 0 | 0.088842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127545 | 0.08032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186192 | 0.146604 | 0 | 0.191926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130218 | 0 | 0 | 0.076906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080401 | 0.08469 | 0 | 0 | 0.122225 | 0.117884 | 0 | 0 | 0.107277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054257 | 0.073015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326726 | 0 | 0 | 0.177711 |
suicidewatch | hoopiedoopieimdeady | 2019/07/17 | Man, fuck depression I've been dealing with depression for a really long time, when I was in primary school I tried to hang myself in the school bathroom, i've never ever felt happy to the point were i forgot that life is pointless. Recently i just talked with my mom beacause she learned about a friend a her who got a ... | 7.280769 | 6.352069 | 7.143205 | 78.580962 | 64.128205 | 10.876923 | 32.320513 | 10.125757 | 2.937451 | 471 | 15 | 93 | 9 | 6 | 150 | 79 | 117 | 0.242 | 0.692 | 0.066 | -0.9705 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 14 | 7 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 62 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157045 | 0.092204 | 0.147395 | 0.615698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110458 | 0.132173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114346 | 0 | 0.157497 | 0 | 0 | 0.304388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146196 | 0.100984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09159 | 0 | 0.141165 | 0 | 0 | 0.122095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166733 | 0 | 0 | 0.136614 | 0 | 0.097067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FriendlessFellow | 2019/07/17 | What actually happens when you commit suicide? Like, obviously if you have people who care about you it will heavily affect them. But what if, like, you have no one who cares about you and you just pull the trigger? What then? Someone will eventually figure out you're dead, either your neighbors realize you never leave... | 5.050909 | 7.701507 | 4.790909 | 80.306364 | 71.727273 | 7.127273 | 26.909091 | 8.076483 | 1.931586 | 392 | 14 | 65 | 6 | 8 | 120 | 61 | 88 | 0.162 | 0.703 | 0.135 | -0.7195 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 52 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.220206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46014 | 0 | 0 | 0.194381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.52075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | abecido | 2019/07/17 | I have suicide thoughts so often that I'm used to it It's like when there are moments I don't have them I feel like something is wrong | 0.526 | 2.407932 | 1.683333 | 100.805 | 83 | 4 | 23.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.307667 | 108 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 24 | 30 | 0.233 | 0.613 | 0.153 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205035 | 0.289692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443355 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throawaythetrash9876 | 2019/07/17 | Why try I'm worthless and alone. I typed up a while other post and thought I had copied it and now it's lost. It's just another hit today. I'm gonna die alone and miserable. Why prolong it. How much longer do I have to endure?
I try to fix my situation time and time again. It never works. It's hopeless. I'm hopeless.... | -0.492768 | 1.66536 | 1.878 | 95.609655 | 91.033898 | 4.841582 | 18.036158 | 6.427356 | -0.16427 | 426 | 12 | 99 | 5 | 15 | 144 | 77 | 118 | 0.135 | 0.718 | 0.147 | 0.1306 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 19 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 57 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215173 | 0.15878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139161 | 0 | 0.146004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212787 | 0.189442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150287 | 0.220771 | 0 | 0.179439 | 0 | 0 | 0.257052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ray1235225 | 2019/07/17 | Is my friend genuinely depressed or just wanting attention?
So my 'friend' started messaging a group chat at 10 pm with my other friends of how he is emotionally sad. He has ideas of killing himself using a knife next to him while saying he was intoxicated by sending a past photo of alcohol from a social event. We t... | 8.408892 | 7.814988 | 8.246619 | 70.491938 | 61.706186 | 11.162062 | 37.441237 | 10.467255 | 3.952443 | 1,659 | 70 | 285 | 33 | 20 | 535 | 202 | 388 | 0.196 | 0.757 | 0.047 | -0.9966 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 28 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 68 | 49 | 25 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 28 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 7 | 35 | 8 | 62 | 24 | 9 | 45 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 75 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 207 | 55 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074721 | 0.083798 | 0 | 0.072314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122783 | 0.064471 | 0 | 0 | 0.053028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211257 | 0.078875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088951 | 0 | 0.118796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05761 | 0.077574 | 0 | 0 | 0.076912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06974 | 0.049267 | 0.066215 | 0 | 0.063031 | 0.05866 | 0.08339 | 0 | 0.319684 | 0 | 0.072061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055156 | 0 | 0 | 0.204853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079574 | 0 | 0.077851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061298 | 0.228892 | 0 | 0.0379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069499 | 0.073159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065833 | 0.04781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0656 | 0.109684 | 0 | 0.209383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07079 | 0 | 0.077517 | 0 | 0.070299 | 0.058432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41477 | 0.178686 | 0 | 0 | 0.122029 | 0 | 0.110636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0754 | 0.083798 | 0.08882 |
suicidewatch | AlexD9018 | 2019/07/17 | Perfect.. Why can’t I never do anything right all I do is fuck it up I just want to do everything perfect I know there’s no such this as perfect but damn it I’m tired of people always choosing others to do something instead of me because I can’t do it and they get frustrated with me to easily. I just wish I could do mo... | 0.756745 | 3.102932 | 2.85675 | 89.779917 | 86.109375 | 5.288333 | 25.720833 | 6.742158 | 1.18443 | 487 | 22 | 98 | 6 | 15 | 164 | 74 | 128 | 0.279 | 0.624 | 0.097 | -0.9851 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 29 | 28 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 3 | 15 | 25 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 74 | 25 | 0 | 0.182094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180589 | 0 | 0 | 0.299696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375462 | 0.156837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168343 | 0.095137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144562 | 0 | 0.20929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164312 | 0 | 0.209399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | baffoonery_edits | 2019/07/17 | HELP @HAUNTXR2 ON TWITTER I do not know this person at all, I'm not sure what to do but I want to try and save him, someone please help, I am unsure what to do!! | -1.868333 | 0.016013 | 0.329111 | 105.527 | 96.777778 | 2.88 | 15.533333 | 3.1291 | -1.496993 | 122 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 26 | 36 | 0.09 | 0.568 | 0.342 | 0.9015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.526559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34297 | 0 | 0.431166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway8536899 | 2019/07/17 | How does euthanasia work in belgium? Do i just go to the doctor and tell him to end it? | -0.071053 | 1.818957 | 2.399211 | 94.781974 | 85.315789 | 5.905263 | 20.026316 | 7.168622 | 0.3434 | 67 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 18 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498556 | 0.426255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway642649 | 2019/07/17 | This is a post I tried to make an r/amitheasshole but it didn't work out if this doesn't belong here I will delete it no problems. Not a judging sub so I guess I'm not really asking for that anymore. To start this post I want to say this is a throwaway account. If anyone I know got a hold of this post I feel like my l... | 1.829655 | 3.975648 | 3.155804 | 90.567139 | 79.894428 | 6.24173 | 22.202565 | 7.3744 | 0.748728 | 5,262 | 164 | 1,121 | 74 | 134 | 1,708 | 435 | 1,364 | 0.157 | 0.709 | 0.133 | -0.992 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 116 | 10 | 12 | 7 | 11 | 67 | 76 | 6 | 8 | 55 | 3 | 122 | 17 | 5 | 10 | 14 | 235 | 233 | 100 | 7 | 30 | 49 | 30 | 11 | 7 | 13 | 18 | 9 | 17 | 12 | 5 | 59 | 80 | 2 | 8 | 33 | 10 | 1 | 30 | 38 | 38 | 1 | 3 | 95 | 41 | 217 | 38 | 138 | 100 | 29 | 179 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 171 | 71 | 2 | 24 | 73 | 769 | 276 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.024843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056185 | 0.020358 | 0.042365 | 0 | 0 | 0.034623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025247 | 0.0178 | 0 | 0.062847 | 0.022662 | 0.071397 | 0 | 0.047836 | 0.019575 | 0.042511 | 0.093111 | 0 | 0.021662 | 0.028681 | 0.026716 | 0.022515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233951 | 0.23293 | 0 | 0 | 0.053861 | 0.043858 | 0.053383 | 0 | 0 | 0.081302 | 0 | 0.027963 | 0.049253 | 0 | 0.087705 | 0 | 0 | 0.026597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.022547 | 0 | 0.056783 | 0.016814 | 0.023027 | 0.021449 | 0.145952 | 0.068638 | 0 | 0.023999 | 0.028646 | 0.090103 | 0.036373 | 0.048886 | 0 | 0.023267 | 0.043308 | 0 | 0.027912 | 0.255686 | 0.023535 | 0 | 0.048842 | 0.043404 | 0 | 0.101802 | 0 | 0.028044 | 0 | 0.045023 | 0 | 0.022805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057384 | 0 | 0.034127 | 0 | 0.127678 | 0.025285 | 0.02507 | 0.205619 | 0.027252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111925 | 0 | 0 | 0.026955 | 0.082978 | 0.026032 | 0.125868 | 0.08706 | 0.05103 | 0 | 0 | 0.106888 | 0 | 0 | 0.043286 | 0 | 0.072265 | 0.016993 | 0.02581 | 0.05115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054012 | 0 | 0.596302 | 0.101598 | 0.081171 | 0.018714 | 0.018876 | 0.078537 | 0 | 0.027074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026713 | 0 | 0 | 0.096807 | 0 | 0 | 0.056534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097524 | 0.051798 | 0 | 0.024359 | 0 | 0.025591 | 0 | 0 | 0.050928 | 0 | 0.130468 | 0.026174 | 0.025136 | 0 | 0 | 0.065221 | 0.145294 | 0.040489 | 0 | 0 | 0.060858 | 0 | 0.026557 | 0 | 0.026131 | 0 | 0.05723 | 0 | 0 | 0.02157 | 0.039196 | 0 | 0 | 0.126131 | 0.108536 | 0.06099 | 0 | 0 | 0.053227 | 0 | 0.055692 | 0 | 0.047986 | 0 | 0 | 0.040923 | 0.066752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050738 | 0.048936 | 0 | 0.04042 | 0.029689 | 0 | 0 | 0.072976 | 0.028284 | 0.069135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028037 | 0.04201 | 0.015015 | 0.06062 | 0.02042 | 0 | 0.022889 | 0.023599 | 0.045942 | 0.028422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.018533 | 0 | 0 | 0.126588 | 0 | 0 | 0.016394 |
suicidewatch | ListerLean_0 | 2019/07/17 | I'm going out to suicidal thoughts by Biggie This will be my last time talking to guys. Please tell me mother and Father aka love them with all my heart. Hopefully they see this and ca n understand that this was selfish move and had nothing to do with them. | 3.877353 | 5.51332 | 4.190343 | 87.729044 | 72.333333 | 7.452941 | 26.47549 | 8.076483 | 1.546408 | 205 | 7 | 41 | 3 | 4 | 64 | 42 | 51 | 0.125 | 0.724 | 0.151 | 0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216964 | 0.235936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214299 | 0.157402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FnckTheDnck | 2019/07/17 | I‘m gonna starve myself to death My goal is to get very skinny and die.
I want to make it easy for the mortician. I know it can be annoying if you are a heavy corpse. I‘m just concerned I‘ll fail and eat like a pig and gain all the weight back and have to start again. Today is my third day without food and I hope I ca... | 0.292308 | 2.196378 | 1.525321 | 101.492596 | 84 | 4.925641 | 14.878205 | 5.985473 | -1.018133 | 279 | 4 | 70 | 2 | 8 | 88 | 60 | 78 | 0.236 | 0.578 | 0.186 | -0.7888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 6 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 40 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135665 | 0 | 0.147574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230803 | 0 | 0 | 0.142706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214252 | 0.153158 | 0 | 0 | 0.316203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298603 | 0.250309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | edtheroach | 2019/07/17 | Nervous about this afternoon I'm going to my gyno today because even though I've had suicidal thoughts before, off and on for years, it seems that this round came shortly after stopping birth control. I'm going to my gyno to see if this is normal because I promised my partner that I would ask if I should start taking ... | 5.56205 | 4.436891 | 6.790323 | 80.357407 | 67.669355 | 9.727543 | 31.173697 | 8.841846 | 2.313573 | 919 | 30 | 196 | 13 | 13 | 314 | 124 | 248 | 0.083 | 0.839 | 0.079 | 0.2694 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 40 | 50 | 15 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 35 | 5 | 29 | 35 | 2 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 18 | 138 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143077 | 0 | 0 | 0.114264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174201 | 0 | 0.243167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223952 | 0 | 0.162408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11386 | 0.130076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101134 | 0 | 0.114107 | 0.119457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214861 | 0 | 0.124886 | 0 | 0 | 0.165899 | 0 | 0.091554 | 0.140382 | 0.113434 | 0 | 0 | 0.270874 | 0 | 0 | 0.097009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168553 | 0.113414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145105 | 0 | 0.1015 | 0 | 0 | 0.092012 |
suicidewatch | quadratixz | 2019/07/17 | I am empty and meaningless. Im 19. Homeschool was a mistake my parents made that I will never forgive them for. It's something in the past but all of it has effected me now, with my psychological state and social life. No joy came out of being educated at fucking home, other than beatings and refusing to let me play ou... | 5.942776 | 5.834185 | 7.377647 | 73.076002 | 66.59322 | 10.059821 | 32.268195 | 9.773938 | 3.097429 | 1,171 | 44 | 214 | 23 | 17 | 405 | 156 | 295 | 0.165 | 0.657 | 0.178 | 0.8224 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 28 | 7 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 27 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 52 | 44 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 41 | 16 | 34 | 19 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 23 | 7 | 6 | 5 | 13 | 166 | 58 | 2 | 0.098651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103528 | 0 | 0.107701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456006 | 0 | 0 | 0.056066 | 0.082744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105016 | 0 | 0.097397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132247 | 0 | 0.098955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100877 | 0.20904 | 0.144588 | 0.098874 | 0.087111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186692 | 0.131701 | 0 | 0.099108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066848 | 0.225086 | 0 | 0 | 0.10954 | 0 | 0.094174 | 0.068392 | 0.086138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112286 | 0 | 0.10143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09384 | 0.078451 | 0.098767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081605 | 0 | 0 | 0.100562 | 0 | 0.075946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065539 | 0 | 0 | 0.078318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095096 | 0 | 0.071819 | 0 | 0 | 0.070079 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kadoodlez | 2019/07/17 | Soon. i know it’ll happen soon. i thought this was something that would never happen to a guy like me. it’s just that life is hitting me harder than it used to and i’m not sure i can keep getting back up from all the blows. i wish things were different, i wish i didn’t push everyone away, i wish i talked to someone ab... | -0.321528 | 1.754194 | 1.425706 | 100.061364 | 88.361702 | 4.269246 | 15.992263 | 5.565023 | -0.886413 | 336 | 7 | 81 | 2 | 11 | 109 | 65 | 94 | 0.037 | 0.775 | 0.188 | 0.9219 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 20 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 10 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 55 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144733 | 0.118453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152531 | 0.272448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136925 | 0 | 0 | 0.084661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108808 | 0.07526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130524 | 0.118593 | 0 | 0.172444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145188 | 0 | 0 | 0.123818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102342 | 0 | 0 | 0.122297 | 0.089826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.708589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109431 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | haleycakes11 | 2019/07/17 | this boy took advantage of me sexually and idk what to do with myself i feel so disgusting :( I feel like I asked for it... idk what to do i’m literally shaking. i’m sorry to bring this online i’m just overwhelmed and have no one to talk to. | -0.002353 | 2.162502 | 2.995588 | 88.725147 | 87.823529 | 6.537255 | 20.264706 | 7.793538 | 0.896788 | 186 | 6 | 42 | 4 | 6 | 66 | 34 | 51 | 0.272 | 0.629 | 0.1 | -0.8336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404881 | 0.286026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DoinItForScience | 2019/07/17 | Staying happy is hard. I tried to find things that would make me happy, and for a short while, I had them. They're not the most normal.ways to stay happy, but i had them. From finding pleasure in being on a video game team and talking with the guys on it to things like buying stuff I've fantasized about. But recently I... | 3.890461 | 4.141157 | 4.64234 | 89.683333 | 71.021277 | 7.756028 | 26.304965 | 7.492282 | 1.061754 | 698 | 20 | 160 | 7 | 12 | 225 | 109 | 188 | 0.135 | 0.723 | 0.141 | 0.5102 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 34 | 37 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 19 | 8 | 26 | 24 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 109 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13659 | 0.145535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124327 | 0 | 0.066684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241076 | 0 | 0.159472 | 0 | 0.101892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130584 | 0 | 0.421173 | 0.11814 | 0.130206 | 0.135349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234446 | 0 | 0 | 0.072479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186304 | 0.128862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119029 | 0 | 0.088032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175233 | 0.084505 | 0 | 0 | 0.076902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233362 | 0.104682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093685 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AgonizingAnxiety | 2019/07/17 | I really hate myself I have wanted to die for a few years now. I just cant handle it. Nobody supports me and nobody cares. They make empty promises and lie to me all the time. At the same time I'm living a lie. Most of the things I've told anyone I know irl is a lie. I wish I could tell the truth to them but it would s... | -0.063525 | 1.78122 | 2.458138 | 94.63779 | 84.954693 | 5.027549 | 18.394114 | 6.158741 | -0.251543 | 1,085 | 27 | 254 | 9 | 32 | 374 | 156 | 309 | 0.27 | 0.637 | 0.093 | -0.9973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 29 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 54 | 60 | 23 | 4 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 39 | 10 | 37 | 48 | 12 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 181 | 55 | 2 | 0.108075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082677 | 0 | 0 | 0.075569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180476 | 0.065881 | 0 | 0 | 0.121763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11019 | 0 | 0.114329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083498 | 0.099914 | 0 | 0 | 0.245686 | 0 | 0.086437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096814 | 0.320105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096062 | 0 | 0 | 0.11879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076337 | 0.1056 | 0 | 0.095432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091881 | 0 | 0 | 0.144282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079448 | 0 | 0.166708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074926 | 0.188734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085946 | 0.108202 | 0.218755 | 0 | 0.098387 | 0.112746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236433 | 0.122642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189058 | 0.124216 | 0 | 0.10327 | 0 | 0.073376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093342 | 0 | 0.089173 | 0.254982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076773 | 0 | 0 | 0.069597 |
suicidewatch | Inceptiona | 2019/07/17 | I can't escape I hate everything that is going on, This all started when I thought moving in to a new place with new people would be better, I wish I never moved out to the city, I hate my job and I hate the people I live with, and how shitty people can be. Recently someone toxic have been living in the same house as ... | 1.61186 | 3.460577 | 3.101588 | 92.170563 | 79.230179 | 5.572066 | 20.324027 | 6.427356 | 0.069239 | 1,462 | 37 | 322 | 12 | 36 | 479 | 165 | 391 | 0.067 | 0.827 | 0.106 | 0.6943 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 144 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 24 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 42 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 64 | 72 | 28 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 32 | 8 | 44 | 47 | 10 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 204 | 50 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045062 | 0 | 0.106067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060549 | 0.049555 | 0.161429 | 0.078571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11416 | 0 | 0 | 0.042566 | 0.11659 | 0 | 0 | 0.05792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123756 | 0 | 0.058902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099582 | 0 | 0.03367 | 0.061822 | 0.073252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043197 | 0.068091 | 0.129289 | 0.064009 | 0 | 0.148724 | 0.137981 | 0.072752 | 0 | 0 | 0.063953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141671 | 0 | 0 | 0.341195 | 0 | 0 | 0.18208 | 0 | 0 | 0.113814 | 0 | 0.054118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205487 | 0.09475 | 0 | 0.347933 | 0.124485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178715 | 0.225087 | 0.134665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127265 | 0.069191 | 0 | 0 | 0.061303 | 0.15375 | 0 | 0.065223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102326 | 0.037579 | 0.074071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183122 | 0 | 0 | 0.041501 |
suicidewatch | highplainsdrifter0 | 2019/07/17 | Anyone else feel like they don’t deserve a happy life due to how much pain and suffering millions of other people have gone through? Plenty of innocent people have gone through terrible things throughout the course of human history, why should I get a normal, peaceful life? | 12.55 | 10.405697 | 10.486667 | 62.625 | 54.833333 | 12.933333 | 44.833333 | 11.208143 | 5.272383 | 224 | 10 | 32 | 4 | 2 | 68 | 40 | 48 | 0.162 | 0.631 | 0.207 | 0.3939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198137 | 0.290343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143279 | 0.202437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400301 | 0.138439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaytrane | 2019/07/17 | I feel hopeless and dead inside. Ever waking moment of my life is ruled by anxiety and dread. Last year I got in trouble for juvenile delinquency and was expelled from school and put under court supervision (probation without a conviction basically) for the next year and a half. As a result I am absolutely ashamed and ... | 6.767471 | 7.833164 | 7.684241 | 67.51823 | 64.948276 | 10.841839 | 37.449425 | 10.793553 | 4.502578 | 1,008 | 51 | 164 | 27 | 15 | 339 | 142 | 232 | 0.152 | 0.742 | 0.107 | -0.7891 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 47 | 28 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 21 | 6 | 25 | 20 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 112 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090026 | 0 | 0.202547 | 0 | 0.262579 | 0 | 0 | 0.108941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114037 | 0 | 0.14306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1248 | 0 | 0.200812 | 0.094575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088734 | 0.139871 | 0 | 0.131487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137858 | 0 | 0.107911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093507 | 0.064676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088367 | 0.134217 | 0 | 0.144205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140792 | 0 | 0 | 0.127026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126376 | 0.091778 | 0.115593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12477 | 0 | 0 | 0.106405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105098 | 0.077194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341004 |
suicidewatch | cookiecookiemycookie | 2019/07/17 | .please help me I don't want to die but why am I living this is so scary and i am terrified. i am so scared because I do not think reality exists, I don't know where I am i have been living here for a long time i think and i dont know where i came from or Why I came here . I do not feel like i am actually existing so ... | -0.742514 | 1.205236 | 1.970783 | 96.339643 | 88.942197 | 5.194104 | 17.031503 | 6.627428 | -0.319125 | 1,202 | 29 | 298 | 15 | 40 | 416 | 134 | 346 | 0.203 | 0.683 | 0.114 | -0.9877 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 43 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 62 | 74 | 27 | 4 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 44 | 7 | 29 | 66 | 8 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 203 | 72 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063219 | 0 | 0 | 0.052458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119784 | 0 | 0.053226 | 0.038859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145818 | 0.064994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055785 | 0.065235 | 0.149421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05646 | 0 | 0 | 0.042104 | 0.057662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096696 | 0.091081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058933 | 0.06661 | 0 | 0.217372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09343 | 0 | 0.225157 | 0.056414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057534 | 0.060318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061166 | 0 | 0 | 0.067888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044194 | 0 | 0 | 0.069975 | 0.060261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507902 | 0.040838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122539 | 0 | 0 | 0.037171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaw444yyy | 2019/07/17 | Most painless way to kill yourself?? Im tired... I don’t care if I will be missed I cut everyone off anyway | -1.762826 | 0.016529 | 1.017717 | 98.007446 | 105.521739 | 4.03913 | 18.793478 | 5.985473 | -0.081861 | 82 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 28 | 20 | 23 | 0.334 | 0.463 | 0.203 | -0.5672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shirtzip | 2019/07/17 | I just want to die without it being anyone else’s fault Do you guys ever wish you get a fatal disease so that when you die your family and friends won’t feel guilty because “they could have helped you”? I want to die, but I know that if I kill myself, my family will blame themselves and I’ll completely destroy them. Re... | 4.886053 | 5.617336 | 5.553789 | 82.317526 | 69 | 8.711579 | 25.726316 | 8.841846 | 1.766177 | 302 | 8 | 59 | 5 | 5 | 98 | 55 | 76 | 0.342 | 0.574 | 0.084 | -0.9784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 14 | 7 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 40 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248191 | 0.181845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18608 | 0 | 0 | 0.1417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334617 | 0 | 0.089737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137118 | 0 | 0.092724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196351 | 0 | 0.097536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204089 | 0.171081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway43938238238 | 2019/07/17 | Overdosed on pills...what should i do? Kinda went manic and made a bad choice what do I do now? | -1.140667 | 0.928568 | 0.58 | 102.778333 | 98 | 2.666667 | 11.666667 | 3.1291 | -1.891333 | 72 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 16 | 20 | 0.205 | 0.795 | 0 | -0.594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.604293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.592022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ignecratic | 2019/07/17 | Just because others want me around doesn’t mean I want myself around. Whats the point if other people want me around when I don’t want myself around? I don’t like myself. I’m paranoid about everything, i get angry over video games and petty arguments, I’m terribly pessimistic, I complain too much. I just want to split ... | 4.393077 | 6.045717 | 4.608205 | 85.178462 | 71.051282 | 6.909402 | 22.401709 | 7.38713 | 0.857489 | 480 | 11 | 89 | 5 | 9 | 150 | 75 | 117 | 0.265 | 0.653 | 0.082 | -0.9798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 17 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 13 | 16 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 63 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088779 | 0 | 0.11325 | 0 | 0.120803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124264 | 0.070226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186372 | 0.117365 | 0 | 0 | 0.25413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10671 | 0.078378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.554967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anon_10989 | 2019/07/17 | I need help I don’t think I can go on anymore. My family despises me and wishes I were dead. My father even admitted I’m his least favorite and he’s even said he wishes I was never born at random. My grandma hates me and just dislikes me in general, she usual tries to make me feel like a horrible human being. I never r... | 0.311566 | 2.595353 | 3.427723 | 85.270741 | 87.795181 | 6.211566 | 17.938554 | 7.554174 | 0.758423 | 310 | 8 | 61 | 6 | 10 | 111 | 61 | 83 | 0.239 | 0.626 | 0.135 | -0.9115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 42 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162862 | 0 | 0 | 0.2429 | 0 | 0.154926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173344 | 0 | 0.185949 | 0.131363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195742 | 0 | 0.181542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129879 | 0.089834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136344 | 0.283637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.634354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HeyImJanC | 2019/07/17 | Friend loss I was in a school abroad. I met alot of great people who are my friends today but what fucks with my head is that I dated a girl there that is probably never going to alk to me again and her friend (a she) who was an even better friend of mine ended up not being my friend at the end of the semester. We shar... | 3.76824 | 4.402637 | 4.248933 | 91.019616 | 71.47191 | 7.281648 | 23.822097 | 7.168622 | 0.667605 | 672 | 16 | 150 | 6 | 12 | 212 | 112 | 178 | 0.147 | 0.689 | 0.165 | 0.4104 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 21 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 28 | 10 | 21 | 13 | 5 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 106 | 36 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109265 | 0 | 0 | 0.127663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14098 | 0.125675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218348 | 0 | 0 | 0.081414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.476162 | 0.113954 | 0.0644 | 0 | 0.070053 | 0 | 0 | 0.135898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110419 | 0 | 0.253006 | 0 | 0 | 0.146067 | 0.08262 | 0 | 0.123643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136372 | 0 | 0.067742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124969 | 0.123834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098387 | 0 | 0.090612 | 0.091398 | 0.190136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105266 | 0 | 0.098023 | 0 | 0.124748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134829 | 0.139877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121105 | 0.097857 | 0.071875 | 0 | 0.116839 | 0 | 0 | 0.083687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AutomaticPermit7 | 2019/07/17 | The time has come For me to end my life. It's been a good run. Definitely not what I was hoping for, but that's life if you don't try like I did. It would have been nice having a friend too but that's just not possible for someone like me. Sorry for making you waste your time to read this. Since I don't matter. | 0.83913 | 2.248475 | 2.576159 | 97.075543 | 80.014493 | 5.75942 | 15.847826 | 6.427356 | -0.718287 | 242 | 3 | 61 | 2 | 6 | 80 | 48 | 69 | 0.179 | 0.662 | 0.159 | 0.1388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 41 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371474 | 0.256938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222806 | 0 | 0 | 0.294363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1868 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadthrowaway50000 | 2019/07/17 | pushing my friends away before i go I've been trying to live through this summer, and it's been pretty rough really. I live in a quiet town and it's really hard to be motivated to live a bit longer. I don't really have any friends in this town aside from my ex that I'm romantic with again, but I don't really have anyth... | 3.178576 | 3.185169 | 4.575165 | 90.40243 | 72.512658 | 8.092152 | 23.078481 | 7.908726 | 0.743026 | 1,121 | 23 | 273 | 14 | 20 | 375 | 142 | 316 | 0.163 | 0.737 | 0.1 | -0.9578 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 52 | 48 | 22 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 38 | 6 | 48 | 40 | 6 | 45 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 26 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 167 | 55 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096164 | 0 | 0 | 0.081247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103604 | 0.060827 | 0.097238 | 0 | 0 | 0.195774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078791 | 0 | 0.083538 | 0 | 0 | 0.062296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080227 | 0 | 0 | 0.29148 | 0 | 0.098555 | 0 | 0.053603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076882 | 0 | 0 | 0.204954 | 0 | 0.06662 | 0 | 0 | 0.333138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178492 | 0.062958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110464 | 0.075284 | 0.100245 | 0.138669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089161 | 0.106329 | 0 | 0.095955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302113 | 0 | 0 | 0.101262 | 0 | 0.080547 | 0 | 0.075005 | 0 | 0.095455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096816 | 0.078021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066759 | 0.201061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107972 | 0 | 0 | 0.088894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SP3CTR4M | 2019/07/17 | I don’t know how to say this but I know I want to For the past year I have been relentlessly bullied by the people who I told myself were my friends for years despite the fact that I had proof (that I refused to acknowledge) that they spread rumors, made fun of me, etc. behind my back in addition to the relentless teas... | 5.309548 | 5.604752 | 6.182062 | 79.723768 | 67.938547 | 9.190655 | 29.680549 | 9.095869 | 2.379264 | 707 | 24 | 137 | 12 | 11 | 234 | 109 | 179 | 0.176 | 0.619 | 0.205 | 0.6273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 34 | 29 | 14 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 26 | 8 | 22 | 17 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 107 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115717 | 0 | 0.091737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131694 | 0.154002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167835 | 0.198793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13525 | 0 | 0.283735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166493 | 0 | 0.248114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142396 | 0 | 0.152572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143659 | 0.41732 | 0.131401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143798 | 0 | 0.102172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173055 | 0 | 0.163199 | 0 | 0.152829 | 0 | 0.213806 | 0 | 0 | 0.19382 |
suicidewatch | fulloffreckles97 | 2019/07/17 | How do I tell my fiancé that I still feel suicidal? I’ve been dating my fiancé for 10 wonderful months. We met through a suicide/depression support chat. He has given me happiness, stability, unending love/understanding, and future goals (something I never thought I would have). He has truly changed my life. However, I... | 5.281487 | 5.652361 | 6.128276 | 79.821533 | 68.011494 | 9.478927 | 31.51341 | 9.444779 | 2.71349 | 1,723 | 67 | 342 | 33 | 27 | 569 | 205 | 435 | 0.123 | 0.728 | 0.149 | 0.7107 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 49 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 20 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 48 | 15 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 71 | 85 | 31 | 4 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 23 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 6 | 70 | 13 | 44 | 61 | 5 | 35 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 237 | 87 | 8 | 0.080901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056568 | 0 | 0 | 0.144039 | 0 | 0 | 0.07601 | 0.062208 | 0.067549 | 0.098634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064593 | 0 | 0 | 0.052175 | 0 | 0.06968 | 0 | 0.083963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068163 | 0 | 0.218127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122719 | 0.115592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088704 | 0 | 0 | 0.042268 | 0 | 0.137934 | 0.067856 | 0 | 0 | 0.178244 | 0 | 0 | 0.086121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240847 | 0.071909 | 0 | 0 | 0.044461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228572 | 0.118573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146033 | 0 | 0.162007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064575 | 0 | 0 | 0.179962 | 0.062396 | 0 | 0 | 0.075921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109642 | 0 | 0.086085 | 0 | 0 | 0.087608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155483 | 0.08318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168796 | 0 | 0 | 0.066923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068548 | 0.124564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176986 | 0.183612 | 0.076249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079485 | 0.064227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084221 | 0 | 0.069873 | 0 | 0 | 0.238589 | 0 | 0 | 0.098516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155972 | 0.087734 | 0.058897 | 0 | 0.082445 | 0.05747 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Idont_have_ausername | 2019/07/17 | Alone 32, male, single, dropped out of high school, got my GED then dropped out of college, barely worked in my adult life, on disability, in debt, no friends, family is done with me, can't say I blame them, no reliable transportation, trapped with a thuggish, threatening landlord and have no means or money to move...
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suicidewatch | KevinRokeh | 2019/07/17 | Thought I’d let someone know Goodbye | 2.928571 | 6.011782 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 87.571429 | 2.8 | 49.857143 | 3.1291 | 3.518257 | 31 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.622794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | heartfullxo | 2019/07/17 | It would be too easy to cut an artery. These are just fun cuts. Blood running down my legs. I made it happen so easily. | -1.1606 | 0.867889 | 0.5355 | 102.35525 | 100.6 | 4.1 | 10.25 | 5.985473 | -1.4148 | 91 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 24 | 25 | 0.132 | 0.583 | 0.286 | 0.7198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480909 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ConDezNutz | 2019/07/17 | Help I'm just 12 but ever since my dad left me when I was 10. I can't talk to my mom about it because she also has depression. I don't want to call the hotline but I think she'll think im making a seen. Right now I'm typing this in secret. I'm thinking about killing myself in someway. | 0.14559 | 1.640474 | 2.613462 | 95.620705 | 82.384615 | 4.948718 | 20.064103 | 5.461319 | -0.285359 | 223 | 6 | 54 | 1 | 6 | 77 | 48 | 65 | 0.197 | 0.774 | 0.029 | -0.9124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jhhh0ivfd | 2019/07/17 | Thinking about it My job gives me so much stress that I actually have hives /bruises on my skin. I'm looking for other jobs but I might just end it | 0.221452 | 2.573178 | 1.897016 | 95.265524 | 89.967742 | 4.390323 | 20.653226 | 5.985473 | -0.024039 | 117 | 4 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 27 | 31 | 0.07 | 0.93 | 0 | -0.2591 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.298472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.60703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Chosen-Hawk | 2019/07/17 | Guys actually help me rn I have a loving family, many friends and even a girlfriend by my side... absolutely no reason why I should kill myself
But lately i’ve been feeling down. I just feel like im useless and have served no purpose in this world. no matter how much I look at what I have it just hits me again even in... | 3.230882 | 4.706282 | 3.843284 | 90.217279 | 73.705882 | 6.668627 | 24.02451 | 7.168622 | 0.752927 | 792 | 23 | 170 | 8 | 16 | 250 | 109 | 204 | 0.109 | 0.725 | 0.166 | 0.8782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 37 | 35 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 32 | 8 | 22 | 26 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 120 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096622 | 0.104524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103994 | 0 | 0 | 0.232653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221376 | 0 | 0.237473 | 0.083881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232517 | 0 | 0.12499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126828 | 0 | 0 | 0.104363 | 0.389705 | 0 | 0.064528 | 0 | 0.132449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105971 | 0 | 0.078375 | 0.11904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0814 | 0 | 0.122673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083106 | 0 | 0.281302 | 0.098164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150469 | 0 | 0.093214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202817 | 0 | 0 | 0.138508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166816 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spiritmaliseet | 2019/07/17 | An Ominous Notation Hi. My name is Nate, and I'm from West Michigan, and in November of 2019, I'm purchasing a firearm to carry out my final actions on the Earth.
For the sake of anyone who might be curious of any details post-mortem, or in the instance that the WPD took my note, I'll resort to explaining here.
I a... | 9.521101 | 8.607603 | 9.47619 | 63.607021 | 59.677165 | 13.106934 | 42.688595 | 12.190836 | 5.468785 | 2,792 | 141 | 454 | 78 | 31 | 919 | 320 | 635 | 0.198 | 0.707 | 0.094 | -0.9972 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 82 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 28 | 3 | 5 | 47 | 0 | 30 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 95 | 62 | 39 | 5 | 13 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 35 | 28 | 1 | 7 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 53 | 11 | 101 | 47 | 8 | 56 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 21 | 30 | 0 | 18 | 13 | 321 | 88 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087887 | 0 | 0 | 0.070188 | 0.146061 | 0 | 0 | 0.119371 | 0.184066 | 0 | 0 | 0.087043 | 0.184109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073283 | 0.053503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178972 | 0 | 0.092847 | 0 | 0.092024 | 0.189693 | 0.19688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08274 | 0 | 0.221892 | 0 | 0 | 0.192292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073616 | 0 | 0.096765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208012 | 0 | 0.092732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097103 | 0 | 0.09647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079214 | 0 | 0 | 0.088983 | 0 | 0.095606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093108 | 0.088621 | 0 | 0 | 0.093284 | 0.06452 | 0.065079 | 0.067692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092098 | 0 | 0.118948 | 0.133504 | 0.093392 | 0 | 0 | 0.095045 | 0 | 0 | 0.153272 | 0.091699 | 0 | 0.08297 | 0 | 0.168116 | 0 | 0 | 0.167965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0999 | 0 | 0.090241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13988 | 0.239703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091755 | 0 | 0 | 0.099599 | 0.082721 | 0 | 0.065991 | 0 | 0 | 0.080805 | 0 | 0 | 0.116619 | 0 | 0.172464 | 0 | 0.153535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097514 | 0 | 0 | 0.085737 | 0.09137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072418 | 0.103536 | 0.139333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100929 | 0 | 0 | 0.063896 | 0 | 0 | 0.062348 | 0 | 0 | 0.11304 |
suicidewatch | hauntedbundy_ | 2019/07/17 | Wish I had the courage to do it I’ve wanted to die for a while, but I’m afraid. That’s what stops me. Nobody in my family knows I’m suicidal due to another relative having a mental illness. I’m expected to be strong and I couldn’t imagine burdening my family with ANOTHER “mad” person in the family. All I want to do is ... | 0.176842 | 2.128423 | 3.796579 | 84.763553 | 84.789474 | 8.536842 | 21.342105 | 9.188382 | 1.959189 | 272 | 9 | 60 | 9 | 8 | 101 | 51 | 76 | 0.303 | 0.586 | 0.111 | -0.964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 38 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.584715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Vibe2002 | 2019/07/17 | Need something to push me over the edge... (mobile sorry for format)
Long story short I need something to push me and finally make me kill myself. I just recently lost my last true friend and I dont like how bleak my future looks. I constantly go outside to walk or play sports by myself to avoid my thoughts, but... | 1.93294 | 3.663711 | 3.174821 | 92.560804 | 77.846154 | 6.308242 | 20.715659 | 7.168622 | 0.375911 | 683 | 17 | 151 | 8 | 16 | 221 | 113 | 182 | 0.177 | 0.689 | 0.134 | -0.7615 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 28 | 30 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 30 | 10 | 22 | 22 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 99 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117441 | 0 | 0.157284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126514 | 0 | 0.067857 | 0.095874 | 0 | 0.147012 | 0.122658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103684 | 0 | 0.210345 | 0 | 0.228811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089953 | 0 | 0.134616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148475 | 0 | 0 | 0.109393 | 0 | 0 | 0.145811 | 0 | 0 | 0.262258 | 0 | 0 | 0.118765 | 0.112696 | 0 | 0.146498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265017 | 0 | 0 | 0.114608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137757 | 0.111014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206631 | 0 | 0.150228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089158 | 0 | 0 | 0.319625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115908 | 0.147805 | 0 | 0.079156 | 0.106524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | puttingmyfaithindog | 2019/07/17 | What suicidality is for me I'm having a hard night. Seeing and hearing things. Who cares. Anyways...
For me, the suicidal... Everything? Its always there. I told a nurse once that it's like the buzzing of high tension lines on a hot summer day. It's just omnipresent. In any case, I feel like a beach umbrella trying to... | 1.389348 | 3.680977 | 3.096452 | 89.545627 | 82.523132 | 5.881898 | 21.110439 | 7.168622 | 0.605591 | 1,082 | 33 | 227 | 15 | 30 | 358 | 154 | 281 | 0.295 | 0.597 | 0.108 | -0.9976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 47 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 45 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 30 | 13 | 29 | 24 | 5 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 148 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078506 | 0 | 0 | 0.064161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083991 | 0 | 0 | 0.088644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143117 | 0.134806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072894 | 0 | 0 | 0.090508 | 0.053621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106338 | 0 | 0 | 0.099685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066642 | 0.184377 | 0.189125 | 0.083312 | 0.083496 | 0 | 0.105553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10009 | 0.095266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139918 | 0 | 0.182246 | 0 | 0.08854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099004 | 0.100479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.619217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165047 | 0 | 0 | 0.270464 | 0.209651 | 0.064057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114892 | 0.084831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zraca | 2019/07/17 | Spiraling again Just got hit with another reminder of why life isn't worth it; because I can't really find anyone I feel I can fully trust and get close to.
I had a friend of 5+ years, whom I thought I was very close with. Long story short, we got in a fight, and I guess all the things I did (taking initiative in sett... | 4.612237 | 4.167547 | 5.576583 | 86.007768 | 69.418848 | 8.830271 | 26.78772 | 8.296473 | 1.440137 | 704 | 18 | 159 | 9 | 11 | 233 | 109 | 191 | 0.101 | 0.733 | 0.166 | 0.9229 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 36 | 39 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 21 | 7 | 22 | 24 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 98 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137593 | 0 | 0 | 0.110542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185784 | 0 | 0.109325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110924 | 0.080984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148163 | 0.087746 | 0 | 0.111932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201519 | 0.094908 | 0 | 0 | 0.364268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20528 | 0 | 0.069409 | 0.127442 | 0 | 0 | 0.212505 | 0 | 0.14635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118083 | 0 | 0 | 0.146022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093836 | 0.064904 | 0 | 0 | 0.117568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092102 | 0.116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26478 | 0 | 0 | 0.210937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126944 | 0 | 0.090197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085551 |
suicidewatch | MrsSterlingArcher | 2019/07/17 | Suicide feeling like a matter of fact I’ve dealt with suicidal ideation for as long as I can remember. It was more romanticized, and was used as an escape of thought. The visualization of all things letting go in its purest form. The past 6 months, it’s become more of a simple matter of just not wanting to be alive. No... | 3.839491 | 5.241528 | 5.028821 | 82.608137 | 72.056604 | 8.318868 | 29.099057 | 8.841846 | 2.22806 | 1,049 | 42 | 213 | 20 | 20 | 347 | 147 | 265 | 0.183 | 0.682 | 0.134 | -0.9751 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 43 | 54 | 18 | 5 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 15 | 9 | 34 | 41 | 7 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 137 | 29 | 3 | 0.11051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067366 | 0.12205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088233 | 0 | 0 | 0.07127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114186 | 0 | 0.145982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167631 | 0.157897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115474 | 0 | 0.125611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115079 | 0.1822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113004 | 0.078056 | 0.107979 | 0 | 0.097582 | 0.097798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09974 | 0 | 0 | 0.11204 | 0.222044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117689 | 0 | 0 | 0.11759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105494 | 0.153227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078219 | 0.117789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146836 | 0.07081 | 0.108575 | 0.175465 | 0.064439 | 0.127015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095445 | 0 | 0 | 0.260726 | 0.087718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239687 | 0.160905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | heygirllllll | 2019/07/17 | Cost? how much does a failed suicide attempt cost? | 1.753333 | 3.756916 | 0.587222 | 98.8675 | 111.222222 | 1.8 | 26.722222 | 3.1291 | 0.216289 | 40 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 9 | 0.576 | 0.424 | 0 | -0.8466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.553169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.691432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gracelessgalaxy | 2019/07/17 | I can't do this. I'm sorry for posting this. I'm losing my mind. | -4.338958 | -3.341375 | 0.5025 | 100.959167 | 114.625 | 2.133333 | 11.583333 | 3.1291 | -1.829517 | 49 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 12 | 16 | 0.281 | 0.719 | 0 | -0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ForwardCity1 | 2019/07/17 | i hate life every morning i wake up and want t fucking kill myself its getting worse and i give signs to my mum but she doesn't understand. | 0.222931 | 2.623828 | 1.885776 | 94.45556 | 92.103448 | 4.27931 | 21.043103 | 5.985473 | 0.199959 | 111 | 4 | 23 | 1 | 4 | 36 | 26 | 29 | 0.259 | 0.701 | 0.04 | -0.7389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328385 | 0.185582 | 0.340749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mahogafrick | 2019/07/17 | I Wish My Family Hated Me They're pretty much the only reason why I am alive right now, even though I wake up and wish I were dead every day. I've had bouts of depression and serious suicidal thoughts ever since I was 5, and I really just want it to fucking end. Even when I'm genuinely happy I think about how I wouldn'... | 3.846673 | 4.366725 | 5.184676 | 84.795144 | 71.229965 | 8.27207 | 24.164497 | 8.371476 | 1.24959 | 1,080 | 26 | 233 | 16 | 19 | 362 | 153 | 287 | 0.198 | 0.625 | 0.177 | -0.9163 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 34 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 29 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 55 | 52 | 22 | 5 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 33 | 12 | 31 | 39 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 158 | 45 | 0 | 0.10778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219778 | 0 | 0 | 0.092843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069509 | 0 | 0.092831 | 0 | 0.111859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110286 | 0 | 0 | 0.286383 | 0 | 0 | 0.142375 | 0.097493 | 0.090809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083271 | 0.199282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229468 | 0 | 0.212821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228385 | 0.105312 | 0 | 0.095172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079231 | 0.079917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276186 | 0.110816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092044 | 0 | 0.171422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110635 | 0.089157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091322 | 0.165949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071604 | 0.138122 | 0.105893 | 0.085565 | 0.062847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093087 | 0 | 0 | 0.317857 | 0.085551 | 0 | 0 | 0.096907 | 0 | 0.097255 | 0 | 0.247883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Miztr | 2019/07/17 | I've told my father i wanted to die for the first time and he told me to stop saying stupidities I don't know where to start, i've been feeling awful some years, but right now i feel completely lonely, i've been stopping myself when i cried so my family wouldn't see me like this, i just feel i have no one to talk to, i... | 10.564286 | 5.018392 | 9.961379 | 75.296552 | 62.20197 | 13.373399 | 38.852217 | 9.606745 | 3.371091 | 754 | 20 | 170 | 9 | 7 | 245 | 112 | 203 | 0.251 | 0.695 | 0.054 | -0.992 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 38 | 18 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 35 | 4 | 17 | 22 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 110 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097587 | 0 | 0 | 0.080975 | 0.087598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206343 | 0 | 0 | 0.078565 | 0 | 0.216177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092763 | 0 | 0.149263 | 0 | 0.18896 | 0.107793 | 0 | 0.0837 | 0 | 0 | 0.076024 | 0 | 0.05141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100988 | 0 | 0 | 0.116605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096905 | 0 | 0.10534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108157 | 0.08021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066679 | 0.074838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084034 | 0 | 0.234757 | 0 | 0 | 0.078413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139297 | 0 | 0.078583 | 0.32907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111664 | 0.092742 | 0 | 0 | 0.316363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065373 | 0.063051 | 0 | 0 | 0.057378 | 0 | 0 | 0.470131 | 0 | 0.066808 | 0 | 0.096123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063367 |
suicidewatch | n_square28 | 2019/07/17 | I'm suicidal; I'm about to tell my father, need some advice. I have been having suicidal thoughts for six months now. For the last one month my tendency to self harm has increased exponentially, my left hand is a mess, these cuts look horrible, there are even cuts on scars of previous ones. I'm terrified of myself, tho... | 3.838311 | 4.950524 | 4.49152 | 87.573497 | 71.702703 | 8.432883 | 23.78491 | 8.841846 | 1.326161 | 432 | 11 | 95 | 8 | 8 | 138 | 74 | 111 | 0.213 | 0.706 | 0.081 | -0.9134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 20 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 16 | 17 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 61 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183109 | 0 | 0.234096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196061 | 0 | 0.097392 | 0.144453 | 0 | 0 | 0.192543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2829 | 0 | 0 | 0.131402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309785 | 0.163154 | 0 | 0 | 0.117733 | 0 | 0.348223 | 0.140688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NoMouth_IMustScream | 2019/07/17 | I have no mouth, but I must scream The title is a great short story, but it also hits me in another way. I need someone to talk to, but I have no one. I cannot afford therapy anymore. I cannot talk to anyone I know in real life. I tried to join forums or chat groups, and if I ever post, people ignore me or give me gene... | 3.753624 | 4.351703 | 5.26798 | 83.832305 | 71.483221 | 7.839195 | 26.309396 | 7.908726 | 1.481314 | 561 | 17 | 115 | 7 | 10 | 190 | 88 | 149 | 0.183 | 0.669 | 0.148 | -0.5882 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 25 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 6 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 74 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0941 | 0.290198 | 0 | 0 | 0.137232 | 0.193511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106403 | 0 | 0.084353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125169 | 0.233175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069967 | 0.098856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127926 | 0.072296 | 0.132743 | 0.078642 | 0 | 0 | 0.15256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097739 | 0.270414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11045 | 0 | 0 | 0.102604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397578 | 0 | 0 | 0.132407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157502 | 0.088647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333664 | 0 | 0 | 0.158245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081618 | 0.109836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mrsf16 | 2019/07/17 | Those who encourage others, more often than not, need encouragement themselves I got triggered by one of those thoughts that I try to suppress.
Today, I was too weak to push it away.
Instead, now I'm fighting my hardest thoughts, to keep my hand away from the pills. To stow the blade away. To stay alive. My thoughts ... | 2.558287 | 4.89379 | 2.583636 | 94.624301 | 78.393939 | 4.970629 | 23.032634 | 5.873415 | 0.232647 | 530 | 17 | 109 | 3 | 13 | 159 | 86 | 132 | 0.126 | 0.693 | 0.181 | 0.858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 16 | 7 | 21 | 11 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 73 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26367 | 0 | 0 | 0.417417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310831 | 0.130977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104603 | 0.144702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35271 | 0 | 0 | 0.140376 | 0 | 0 | 0.100546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KrispyKreamie_Donuts | 2019/07/17 | It's all gone to hell. 3 months ago I escaped from my toxic parents in hope that I would have a better life. I went to live with my grandparents. Now my parents knew about this, and said it was fine. A little while later my grandparents say they are moving. But, I get to come along with. I will miss my friends, but I a... | -0.108437 | 2.035685 | 1.786787 | 97.34477 | 88.130435 | 4.63171 | 18.411572 | 6.059677 | -0.31025 | 584 | 16 | 135 | 5 | 19 | 192 | 100 | 161 | 0.24 | 0.644 | 0.116 | -0.9813 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 34 | 10 | 3 | 10 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 36 | 8 | 16 | 23 | 2 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 93 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126469 | 0 | 0 | 0.208045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116533 | 0 | 0.146191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104518 | 0.125065 | 0.070679 | 0 | 0.076883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095553 | 0.066091 | 0.135587 | 0.119456 | 0 | 0.113602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316879 | 0.10798 | 0.143782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128683 | 0.107581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101714 | 0.108734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125407 | 0.24414 | 0 | 0.155566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288299 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | efgere | 2019/07/17 | I hate myself I hate myself so much
I know my family loves me and my girlfriend and friends love me and would support me in a heartbeat if I'd only ask
But I can't
I never ask
When I ask for help I dont get it and I've given up
I deserve to die, I'm a horrible person and I fuck everything up. I fucked up my education... | -0.939948 | 0.694666 | 2.029704 | 97.665505 | 86.868852 | 5.382686 | 17.281852 | 6.596605 | -0.391212 | 609 | 14 | 160 | 7 | 19 | 215 | 87 | 183 | 0.195 | 0.656 | 0.148 | -0.8804 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 39 | 20 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 7 | 11 | 35 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 22 | 7 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 112 | 47 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090678 | 0 | 0.309041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195193 | 0 | 0 | 0.218341 | 0 | 0 | 0.105292 | 0.099033 | 0 | 0.103878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085133 | 0.40748 | 0.05757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09871 | 0.326373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109348 | 0.097943 | 0 | 0 | 0.121116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243009 | 0 | 0.084986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076393 | 0.096215 | 0 | 0 | 0.104166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118304 | 0 | 0.094103 | 0 | 0.087628 | 0 | 0 | 0.087808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156553 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | betteroffleftalone | 2019/07/17 | Wanna die rn I am 16 and I feel that I can’t change anything, I cann’t do anything, completely alone, I can't talk at least about simple things, I just can't walk, I haven’t gone out for a long time | 2.388333 | 2.76136 | 3.807273 | 93.889242 | 74.454545 | 6.775758 | 21.484848 | 6.427356 | 0.077267 | 154 | 3 | 38 | 1 | 3 | 51 | 33 | 44 | 0.171 | 0.829 | 0 | -0.7346 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.532768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34244 | 0 | 0.339402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IcefoxX5 | 2019/07/17 | I'm in fear of losing the last bit of my sanity M/17
I'm at an absolute low point in my life, I've got an overwhelming fear that this is the last time in my life where I can still turn everything around.
So I've been extremely ugly and overweight my whole life until a few years ago, and everyone has always mocked me ... | 7.223055 | 6.253573 | 7.358293 | 77.12507 | 64.264026 | 10.459619 | 33.409773 | 9.618344 | 2.937797 | 2,429 | 84 | 469 | 40 | 31 | 787 | 293 | 606 | 0.205 | 0.724 | 0.071 | -0.9978 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 87 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 31 | 40 | 6 | 7 | 24 | 0 | 32 | 17 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 94 | 79 | 40 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 18 | 45 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 6 | 30 | 9 | 87 | 10 | 84 | 43 | 20 | 86 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 54 | 39 | 2 | 6 | 40 | 325 | 105 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061115 | 0.166318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069016 | 0 | 0.05204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111351 | 0.058468 | 0 | 0 | 0.048091 | 0.104439 | 0.038125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065634 | 0 | 0.068279 | 0.06947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069201 | 0 | 0.040334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129817 | 0 | 0 | 0.064014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06975 | 0.041308 | 0.056572 | 0.105388 | 0.059761 | 0.112417 | 0 | 0.058959 | 0.140753 | 0.031623 | 0 | 0.06005 | 0 | 0.057162 | 0.053198 | 0 | 0.068574 | 0.289917 | 0.057819 | 0.098026 | 0 | 0.071088 | 0.052457 | 0.150061 | 0 | 0 | 0.061926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070489 | 0.074112 | 0.04192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065277 | 0 | 0.05559 | 0.138386 | 0 | 0 | 0.152939 | 0 | 0.066223 | 0 | 0.063953 | 0.1767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279872 | 0.068272 | 0.159512 | 0 | 0.118357 | 0.041747 | 0.190222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04238 | 0.047566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067726 | 0 | 0.130075 | 0 | 0.065343 | 0 | 0.059122 | 0 | 0 | 0.063627 | 0.06743 | 0.179532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200329 | 0.064303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059491 | 0.049736 | 0 | 0.126591 | 0 | 0 | 0.065245 | 0 | 0.064198 | 0.10347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123711 | 0 | 0.132802 | 0 | 0.049946 | 0.052288 | 0.071641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12465 | 0.160297 | 0 | 0.148953 | 0.182343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084923 | 0.068027 | 0.061094 | 0 | 0.07523 | 0 | 0 | 0.051603 | 0.147555 | 0.049643 | 0.050167 | 0.076159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080549 |
suicidewatch | throwawayrepper223 | 2019/07/17 | There is no other way. I just want to be forgotten IDK where to even start. for the last 4 years I have been harassed in a small town by the sherrif's department. There are legal charges that require me to be in group counsiling and my c"Therapist" recently inadvertinly told me he wants me in prison as well as my PO ... | 5.927687 | 5.456098 | 6.391581 | 81.353732 | 66.694974 | 9.777491 | 31.202827 | 9.271963 | 2.44239 | 2,247 | 76 | 467 | 37 | 32 | 731 | 244 | 577 | 0.12 | 0.81 | 0.07 | -0.9841 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 59 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 22 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 31 | 0 | 55 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 71 | 100 | 26 | 2 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 28 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 6 | 21 | 2 | 85 | 7 | 78 | 61 | 3 | 79 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 45 | 31 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 326 | 109 | 9 | 0 | 0.070971 | 0.058453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129801 | 0.145568 | 0 | 0.062809 | 0 | 0 | 0.059404 | 0 | 0 | 0.049292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255597 | 0 | 0.152909 | 0 | 0.06286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062166 | 0.125164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118688 | 0 | 0.050468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055376 | 0.093884 | 0 | 0.068084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040149 | 0 | 0 | 0.118987 | 0 | 0.069116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118881 | 0 | 0.066269 | 0 | 0.098757 | 0.097651 | 0 | 0.063424 | 0 | 0.122502 | 0.084617 | 0 | 0.060035 | 0.211568 | 0.053009 | 0 | 0.067012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113356 | 0.039983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060364 | 0 | 0.060481 | 0 | 0.047811 | 0.19099 | 0.044033 | 0 | 0 | 0.057851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081178 | 0.091112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083053 | 0.052302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061586 | 0.059143 | 0 | 0 | 0.204614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047732 | 0 | 0 | 0.067669 | 0 | 0 | 0.067329 | 0 | 0 | 0.152257 | 0.046113 | 0.059242 | 0 | 0.042397 | 0 | 0.047835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112908 | 0 | 0.13511 | 0 | 0.052354 | 0 | 0.0685 | 0.139095 | 0.079589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209566 | 0 | 0 | 0.171708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42396 | 0.047545 | 0.048047 | 0 | 0.107713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043607 | 0 | 0 | 0.127652 | 0 | 0.145568 | 0.115719 |
suicidewatch | Darkthoughts33343 | 2019/07/17 | I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve suffered from major depression since I was 13. I’ve attempted suicide 4 times, when I was 13 16 18 and 19. I’ve always hated the way I look I feel like a failure. My doctor suggested that I get a dog to help and at first he was sweet and adorable but now he’s gotten to aggressive an... | -0.416 | 1.231961 | 2.076667 | 97.985 | 85 | 5.666667 | 18.333333 | 6.816662 | -0.177167 | 408 | 10 | 105 | 5 | 12 | 140 | 78 | 120 | 0.183 | 0.659 | 0.158 | -0.5003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 20 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 63 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231404 | 0.193324 | 0 | 0.23295 | 0 | 0 | 0.22974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113492 | 0.160352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20258 | 0 | 0.149826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dscontd | 2019/07/17 | I can’t tell if this feeling is just temporary or if its here to stay and kill me this time. Well here goes nothing but, I know this isn’t just edgy teen angst I feel so alone. I have great friends and I only talk to three family members and they don’t even know anything about me.
I’ve been homeless for a year and I’ve... | 3.156086 | 5.031711 | 4.424837 | 84.300995 | 74.784314 | 7.975666 | 27.128708 | 8.730909 | 2.069057 | 1,215 | 47 | 243 | 25 | 26 | 400 | 172 | 306 | 0.147 | 0.698 | 0.155 | -0.5252 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 48 | 29 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 34 | 11 | 26 | 30 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 161 | 49 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.110662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100522 | 0.12119 | 0 | 0.117448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087197 | 0.094684 | 0.138255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09054 | 0 | 0 | 0.073133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131507 | 0.116036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106903 | 0 | 0.229353 | 0.081013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087612 | 0 | 0.059247 | 0 | 0.064448 | 0 | 0.181392 | 0.125023 | 0 | 0.112283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12546 | 0 | 0.186964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123209 | 0 | 0 | 0.110803 | 0 | 0.100134 | 0 | 0.095227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223937 | 0.121749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114766 | 0.090365 | 0 | 0.236601 | 0 | 0 | 0.187611 | 0.127466 | 0 | 0.115597 | 0.096083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120869 | 0.090561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129815 | 0.124041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091146 | 0.099116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075338 | 0.072662 | 0.111414 | 0.090027 | 0.066124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076991 | 0.123346 | 0.110775 | 0 | 0 | 0.097941 | 0 | 0.093567 | 0.133772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292102 |
suicidewatch | chimicsmimics | 2019/07/17 | I need an explanation please Can someone please explain to me what's with this depression trend going on? Everybody is having depression, suicidal thoughts. Your behaviors are exactly copy pasted from others. Nobody is really serious or just crying for attention/meaningless sympathy from others. Only drama queens. ... | 6.883261 | 10.911043 | 7.177951 | 57.085849 | 76.54717 | 12.085175 | 33.986523 | 10.608841 | 6.347169 | 276 | 14 | 30 | 12 | 7 | 89 | 46 | 53 | 0.276 | 0.617 | 0.107 | -0.9217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281702 | 0 | 0 | 0.441765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563017 | 0.242431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sel-Sur-Les-Plaies | 2019/07/17 | Tried to find reasons to not end it all tonight Reasons to die
Imminent school failure
Impossibility to succeed professionally
Too many mental problems
Too much gaps to get a general culture better than mediocre
Impossibility to create social connection
No friends that don't stay with me for other reasons than pity
No ... | 13.564744 | 8.616764 | 12.609808 | 56.753942 | 56.008547 | 15.118803 | 48.480769 | 12.161745 | 5.788036 | 1,012 | 45 | 170 | 20 | 8 | 333 | 140 | 234 | 0.125 | 0.746 | 0.128 | 0.6963 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 39 | 31 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 12 | 34 | 25 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 123 | 41 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116086 | 0 | 0.087531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080889 | 0.087834 | 0.064126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110396 | 0.093037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093172 | 0.21739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192293 | 0.089479 | 0 | 0 | 0.162547 | 0 | 0.274801 | 0.100913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089433 | 0 | 0 | 0.140438 | 0.106652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077331 | 0.078001 | 0 | 0 | 0.111877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100421 | 0.072929 | 0.091853 | 0 | 0 | 0.099444 | 0 | 0 | 0.107022 | 0 | 0.201316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105224 | 0.359206 | 0 | 0.432634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118244 | 0 | 0.107234 | 0 | 0.080985 | 0 | 0.117758 | 0 | 0.112124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09685 | 0 | 0 | 0.069887 | 0.13481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224183 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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