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suicidewatch | N7_Tinkle_Juice | 2018/12/25 | Wife showed me divorce papers. Gonna take my kid away. She gonna take my son away. I've never had the thought of killing myself as deeply and profoundly as i am now.
Always had trouble but this time looks like it is the one. Love of my life needs a clean break and that break will take her and my boy away.
I dont thin... | 0.254153 | 2.013037 | 1.62582 | 101.514194 | 83.262295 | 4.722404 | 18.363388 | 5.461319 | -0.716363 | 430 | 10 | 109 | 2 | 12 | 137 | 77 | 122 | 0.126 | 0.694 | 0.18 | 0.8626 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 27 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 19 | 4 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 66 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.575513 | 0 | 0.127864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236628 | 0.141574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216332 | 0.074816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138213 | 0.144903 | 0.102221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11355 | 0.118109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098125 | 0 | 0.121574 | 0.089296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ericdmon | 2018/12/25 | Christmas Is anyone else sobbing under the Christmas tree with no family | 8.5125 | 11.622832 | 7.773333 | 60.705 | 63.166667 | 8.133333 | 37 | 8.841846 | 4.3514 | 61 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 11 | 12 | 0.324 | 0.676 | 0 | -0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395521 | 0.579583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MissingHerBad1 | 2018/12/25 | I Miss My Ex Gf 8 months ago me and my girlfriend of 2 years broke up and I truly feel like life isn't worth living without her anymore.
I'm 24, have a great job, nice car, live in a beautiful house, amazing friends, and I've hooked up with a dozen girls since our breakup so it's not like I wouldn't be able to find a... | 2.394694 | 3.619755 | 3.481078 | 92.985375 | 75.407186 | 7.054629 | 24.223399 | 7.610547 | 0.83623 | 617 | 19 | 145 | 8 | 13 | 199 | 102 | 167 | 0.097 | 0.662 | 0.241 | 0.9794 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 27 | 19 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 9 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 85 | 35 | 1 | 0.133541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140029 | 0 | 0 | 0.132437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102685 | 0 | 0.081405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130629 | 0 | 0 | 0.135045 | 0.190803 | 0 | 0 | 0.122054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103173 | 0.246913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147229 | 0 | 0.132226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132519 | 0 | 0.147743 | 0 | 0.073391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282972 | 0.195724 | 0 | 0.471676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122946 | 0 | 0 | 0.088719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085996 |
suicidewatch | sadbudgie | 2018/12/25 | I am a failure at life. I tried, I really did. I have been suicidal for a long time.
So much happened to me in my childhood. So much you guys probably would not believe me. I decided to pretend that these things didn't happen to me and always be happy on the outside. I am known to always be smiling.
I married and hav... | 0.380667 | 2.597629 | 2.941593 | 89.454786 | 86.433628 | 5.954799 | 22.8516 | 7.32111 | 1.066938 | 419 | 16 | 88 | 7 | 13 | 145 | 67 | 113 | 0.14 | 0.737 | 0.123 | -0.2247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 24 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 75 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194385 | 0 | 0.174577 | 0.311826 | 0.187688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206495 | 0 | 0 | 0.25922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375743 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thatgirl6789 | 2018/12/25 | Just wish I NEVER existed in the first place. Wish I never existed in the first place that way suicide wouldn’t even be a consideration.
Unlike most people, am one of those few who really have nothing to live for, not my family, pets or anything. I try to live everyday for the hope that someday things are gonna chang... | 3.7304 | 6.444337 | 4.044195 | 83.680924 | 76.41573 | 7.101623 | 24.49563 | 8.167269 | 1.6964 | 382 | 13 | 68 | 7 | 9 | 119 | 66 | 89 | 0.114 | 0.711 | 0.175 | 0.6523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 47 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100514 | 0 | 0 | 0.145415 | 0 | 0 | 0.143462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234742 | 0 | 0.161846 | 0 | 0 | 0.146021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105503 | 0 | 0.317992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101102 | 0 | 0.149517 | 0.120814 | 0.088738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | boolpasta | 2018/12/25 | Impregnating girlfriend and suicide My deepest fantasy right now is to impregnate my girlfriend and commit suicide. I have about a month left until I'm sentanced to 5 years in prison. I just turned 21 years old a week ago. I just want to give my babygirl a baby, be with her, be with my family before I take my life. I h... | 1.421415 | 3.318709 | 3.794943 | 86.734491 | 80.037736 | 6.126792 | 21.920755 | 7.168622 | 0.779584 | 395 | 12 | 81 | 5 | 10 | 137 | 62 | 106 | 0.194 | 0.675 | 0.131 | -0.8762 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 54 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177239 | 0.105004 | 0.309937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200743 | 0 | 0.130502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147474 | 0 | 0.271641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217953 | 0 | 0.148204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237959 |
suicidewatch | iamasquidok | 2018/12/25 | Christmas day seems kind of a romantic day to finally give in to suicide. Sorry y'all. I hope you're coping better than me and eating some nice food. Love. | 0.358065 | 2.756785 | 2.434452 | 88.651677 | 97.709677 | 5.060645 | 19.103226 | 6.742158 | 0.657446 | 123 | 4 | 23 | 2 | 5 | 41 | 29 | 31 | 0.141 | 0.488 | 0.371 | 0.8558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301067 | 0 | 0 | 0.33233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CrispyFriedCommunist | 2018/12/25 | Suicidal thoughts eating me at night I feel like I was abandoned this year so young. Nobody else cares about what I have to say, I’m extremely sensitive to everything that happens to me in life. I want to die some days, and others I feel like I’m invincible. It’s a terribly unstable rollercoaster I’m riding in it seems... | 3.622339 | 5.100161 | 5.31127 | 80.071878 | 72.714286 | 8.270899 | 27.534392 | 8.841846 | 2.199179 | 1,380 | 51 | 265 | 27 | 27 | 470 | 182 | 350 | 0.174 | 0.65 | 0.176 | -0.3667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 35 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 43 | 62 | 23 | 8 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 48 | 14 | 32 | 45 | 5 | 43 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 15 | 3 | 4 | 28 | 188 | 71 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.079207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165509 | 0 | 0 | 0.069918 | 0 | 0.087712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166107 | 0.067804 | 0 | 0.143779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07342 | 0.136772 | 0 | 0.072947 | 0 | 0.229549 | 0 | 0.12312 | 0.173956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188127 | 0.150074 | 0.169624 | 0 | 0.046129 | 0.068078 | 0 | 0.089486 | 0 | 0 | 0.071775 | 0.172806 | 0.072709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088187 | 0.082998 | 0.05733 | 0.118961 | 0 | 0.143343 | 0.07183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073256 | 0 | 0 | 0.08229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059667 | 0 | 0.125201 | 0 | 0 | 0.152338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08517 | 0 | 0.055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080142 | 0.087142 | 0 | 0.207947 | 0 | 0.064547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084674 | 0 | 0.083316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061027 | 0.065238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107847 | 0.156024 | 0 | 0.128874 | 0 | 0 | 0.076936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089393 | 0 | 0.047874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14648 | 0 | 0 | 0.078241 | 0.088021 | 0 | 0 | 0.082715 | 0.172975 | 0 | 0 | 0.209074 |
suicidewatch | CptOcho | 2018/12/25 | Just done I can't take the way my inlaws treat my wife and child. My inlaws take everything good we do and twist it into negativity. Tonight they went after us really hard and directed at me mostly. I can't take what they do to us anymore. My wife is not supporting anymore and I can't take it anymore. | 1.892957 | 4.001788 | 4.046452 | 84.456344 | 79.483871 | 7.35914 | 23.236559 | 8.3441 | 1.502411 | 239 | 8 | 49 | 5 | 6 | 82 | 39 | 62 | 0.116 | 0.797 | 0.088 | -0.202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206383 | 0 | 0 | 0.546973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | purexslay3r | 2018/12/25 | Can not do It anymore I’m 20 years old and the first time i tried to kill my self was at 9 years old. My sister and her boyfriend at the time we’re constantly beating me up and making fun of me and I tried to kill myself and they started making fun of me. Ever since that day I’ve been torn about myself and whether life... | 0.701357 | 2.469289 | 2.892941 | 92.954774 | 81.794118 | 5.949321 | 20.020362 | 7.010147 | 0.274684 | 488 | 13 | 112 | 6 | 13 | 166 | 76 | 136 | 0.156 | 0.744 | 0.1 | -0.847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 18 | 26 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 13 | 24 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 71 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121186 | 0 | 0.128487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158915 | 0 | 0.123395 | 0 | 0 | 0.112079 | 0.134113 | 0.075792 | 0 | 0.082446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128943 | 0.320993 | 0 | 0.079726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304449 | 0 | 0 | 0.110331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151338 | 0 | 0 | 0.120002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186838 |
suicidewatch | AirAgate2297 | 2018/12/25 | I don't want to die I just wish my life didn't suck ass I am young, but I feel like its already over. I have no friends, never had a gf, bullied and mocked, loser. The constant suffering needs to stop. All the joy I once had is gone. Christmas is just another lonely day now. I don't have access to a gun so can't see my... | -0.730909 | 1.34753 | 1.877727 | 95.849091 | 91.045455 | 4.563636 | 19.363636 | 6.112484 | -0.116491 | 312 | 10 | 73 | 3 | 11 | 107 | 63 | 88 | 0.27 | 0.504 | 0.225 | -0.7113 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 19 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 46 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129457 | 0.182908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197808 | 0.236696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180842 | 0.125083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189843 | 0.197466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MikeMacklewhore | 2018/12/25 | Has any poster done it? Does anyone on this subreddit know of any posters that have actually been like "*gyuck* my live suck *gyuck gyuck* I'm gonna kill myself" and then did it? | -0.359143 | 1.465153 | 0.52 | 100.24 | 109.571429 | 4.285714 | 13.571429 | 6.182691 | -0.717857 | 138 | 3 | 31 | 2 | 7 | 42 | 31 | 35 | 0.197 | 0.741 | 0.062 | -0.755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316427 | 0.370028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400042 | 0 | 0.198718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176653 | 0 | 0.319287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DrowsyPerson | 2018/12/25 | Christmas is the worse holiday and I don't know what to do with myself anymore. It's not even Christmas yet while I write this. I never do give a shit for the holiday anyway, but it hurts every year anyway. It serves as a grim reminder for the waste of my life.
I'm here. On a Subreddit on a website on an app on my ph... | -0.559449 | 1.633764 | 2.1329 | 91.135945 | 98.477612 | 5.089694 | 19.813788 | 6.763601 | 0.587044 | 1,006 | 36 | 211 | 17 | 42 | 346 | 141 | 268 | 0.194 | 0.658 | 0.148 | -0.9543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 39 | 47 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 34 | 5 | 30 | 42 | 5 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 150 | 47 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237962 | 0.083888 | 0 | 0.098728 | 0 | 0.112159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102088 | 0 | 0 | 0.106107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237724 | 0 | 0.101083 | 0 | 0.431297 | 0 | 0.1131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092691 | 0 | 0.062681 | 0.115089 | 0.068184 | 0.100628 | 0.095954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132733 | 0 | 0.329671 | 0.097794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108281 | 0 | 0.080083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088194 | 0 | 0.092531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083174 | 0.104756 | 0 | 0.131695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139298 | 0.079705 | 0.076874 | 0 | 0 | 0.069957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141527 | 0.095229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137963 | 0 | 0 | 0.087342 | 0 | 0.122263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077259 |
suicidewatch | SandbaggingHermit | 2018/12/25 | I decided not to do it.. but I'm still going to "die" figuratively After standing on top of the bridge alone at 3:00 AM and staring down at the abyss, I eventually decided I simply just don't have enough courage to make the jump. I hate my life, but I think I'm going to continue living on.
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suicidewatch | ERyd21 | 2018/12/25 | A Barely Merry Christmas Today is supposed to be a day to celebrate what you are thankful for, those you love, and the gift that Jesus gave us by sacrificing himself (last Jesusy Thing I promise). This year has been nothing but hard things, but these things are things that should not be so hard. My grandmother had majo... | 5.788564 | 6.662601 | 5.832587 | 80.61014 | 67.047337 | 8.749005 | 32.819258 | 8.841846 | 2.692202 | 1,402 | 59 | 261 | 22 | 22 | 442 | 166 | 338 | 0.071 | 0.697 | 0.232 | 0.9964 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 41 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 61 | 65 | 27 | 1 | 9 | 25 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 32 | 17 | 31 | 41 | 11 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 192 | 56 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391327 | 0 | 0.153595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06933 | 0 | 0 | 0.168002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076909 | 0.179445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165947 | 0.078041 | 0 | 0.245577 | 0 | 0.131717 | 0 | 0 | 0.095122 | 0.079364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072832 | 0 | 0.095734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092436 | 0.155572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070781 | 0 | 0.183889 | 0 | 0 | 0.122666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094032 | 0 | 0.120399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111256 | 0.08928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094982 | 0.295614 | 0.08184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075896 | 0.079945 | 0 | 0 | 0.288442 | 0.05564 | 0 | 0.068936 | 0.1519 | 0 | 0.082308 | 0.082973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123368 | 0 | 0 | 0.111836 |
suicidewatch | sankaita | 2018/12/25 | Ill be here if you need me tonight. Happy holidays everyone,
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As everybody may know tonight for alot of people is the hardest night of the year for most people (myself this included).
That being said, i decided tonight i would say on this reddit page to talk to anyone who needs someone to talk too.
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suicidewatch | Mekaphosto | 2018/12/25 | Suicide I’m a 21 yr old male currently attending a 4 year college to earn my Theology degree. I’m a freshman and I’m supposed to start the spring semester in the middle of January. I used to be a welder and took home over $1000 a week, now I’m lucky to take home $300. I have a $1600 school bill due registration and I o... | 0.561848 | 2.062773 | 3.14693 | 92.254776 | 81.131148 | 6.731446 | 23.385991 | 7.686295 | 0.896777 | 426 | 15 | 104 | 7 | 11 | 149 | 78 | 122 | 0.049 | 0.892 | 0.059 | -0.2263 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 24 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 12 | 18 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 55 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192599 | 0 | 0 | 0.139593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158523 | 0 | 0 | 0.324777 | 0 | 0.147228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118196 |
suicidewatch | annalimo | 2018/12/25 | I don’t know what to do I can’t help my friend. He has been suicidal and I don’t know how to help him. He’s in so much pain but I have no clue what to do. I already called his family and they tried to get him in therapy and every attempt I have previously tried failed. I tried talking to him. I don’t know how to help | -1.50239 | 0.365742 | 1.474703 | 98.936469 | 92.287671 | 5.436225 | 16.330289 | 6.937598 | -0.304165 | 246 | 6 | 65 | 4 | 9 | 86 | 39 | 73 | 0.167 | 0.706 | 0.127 | -0.6045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 43 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170796 | 0 | 0.115499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177685 | 0 | 0 | 0.25281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway1939428159 | 2018/12/25 | Some of the hardest days I’ve had So the day before Christmas Eve me and my girlfriend of one year decided to do our gift exchange. Basically long story short she broke up with me. I go to bed a mess and wake up around 9 to have my mother come in my room and tell me we have to put our dog down and that he’s been throwi... | 6.286639 | 4.745054 | 6.317975 | 85.684842 | 66.438017 | 9.719559 | 30.910468 | 8.3441 | 1.879346 | 453 | 13 | 104 | 5 | 6 | 144 | 85 | 121 | 0.078 | 0.879 | 0.043 | -0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 22 | 10 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 67 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271134 | 0 | 0 | 0.213357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102697 | 0 | 0 | 0.186028 | 0.176522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135367 |
suicidewatch | bi_or_die | 2018/12/25 | I hate family oriented holidays. Dad/Abuser is arriving for a week tomorrow and I've been struggling with suicidality and disassociation for the past couple hours.
I don't want to be alive. | 4.292059 | 7.523543 | 7.160294 | 58.866324 | 78.705882 | 11.635294 | 29.088235 | 10.686353 | 4.892082 | 155 | 7 | 24 | 7 | 4 | 56 | 30 | 34 | 0.215 | 0.64 | 0.145 | -0.3658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.381345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336472 | 0 | 0.352057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189838 | 0 | 0.258172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | away_throw_trash | 2018/12/25 | Got into a car accident today and I wish I fucking died (long post) Basically some woman rear ended my dad and I while we were driving to see family for Christmas. Because of this accident, we were not able to spend Christmas with family. The woman did take responsibility. My dad started worrying about all the bills he... | 3.94336 | 5.808013 | 5.047677 | 80.71305 | 72.61165 | 8.322238 | 29.737633 | 8.976282 | 2.580589 | 2,104 | 90 | 396 | 44 | 42 | 692 | 254 | 515 | 0.179 | 0.726 | 0.095 | -0.9931 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 64 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 28 | 11 | 1 | 34 | 2 | 33 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 78 | 78 | 41 | 7 | 12 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 13 | 35 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 8 | 54 | 11 | 70 | 50 | 10 | 63 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 39 | 26 | 9 | 6 | 26 | 261 | 67 | 3 | 0.150397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102275 | 0 | 0.115053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061882 | 0.066943 | 0.0703 | 0 | 0 | 0.057823 | 0 | 0.04584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129537 | 0 | 0.39022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135167 | 0.073558 | 0.212671 | 0 | 0.038023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082451 | 0.058098 | 0.417118 | 0.078576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180429 | 0 | 0.08284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050404 | 0.079451 | 0 | 0 | 0.148111 | 0.086769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066402 | 0.066548 | 0.063148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06787 | 0 | 0.100391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075755 | 0.151565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080084 | 0 | 0.057192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143571 | 0 | 0.06566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072019 | 0 | 0 | 0.143909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059801 | 0 | 0 | 0.17977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07719 | 0 | 0 | 0.075253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078614 | 0 | 0.082255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11308 | 0.060442 | 0 | 0.069233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071279 | 0.143711 | 0 | 0.10211 | 0 | 0 | 0.078284 | 0 | 0 | 0.08282 | 0 | 0.088708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067612 | 0 | 0.067855 | 0.083956 | 0.259423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076368 | 0 | 0.106838 | 0 | 0 | 0.193701 |
suicidewatch | yadaddy420 | 2018/12/25 | i wanted to die but i didn't want to ruin christmas (grandma died on xmas) but i still want to die, im sick of waiting | -2.855556 | -1.462654 | 0.501185 | 101.087333 | 110.851852 | 2.16 | 16.511111 | 3.1291 | -1.195453 | 91 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 32 | 19 | 27 | 0.509 | 0.385 | 0.106 | -0.9404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.814021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cvmstain | 2018/12/25 | Killing myself before 2019 That's the plan. | 3.765 | 6.960116 | 2.28 | 92.965 | 81.5 | 3.2 | 20.5 | 3.1291 | -0.36865 | 36 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 8 | 0.423 | 0.577 | 0 | -0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.60966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.792663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | elitedarkpower | 2018/12/25 | christmas suck :/ idk i just feel like everyone is more suicidal and sad on christmas and honestly it makes me sad to come on here after being gone for a while and getting so so so much better... I haven't cut in atleast 3-4 months and i used to have to get stitches everytime i did... i haven't tried to kill myself at ... | 1.167885 | 3.289427 | 2.735577 | 92.815673 | 82.141026 | 5.694872 | 22.570513 | 6.907726 | 0.624174 | 587 | 20 | 127 | 7 | 16 | 192 | 103 | 156 | 0.228 | 0.676 | 0.096 | -0.9743 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 31 | 27 | 18 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 19 | 21 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 84 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0.198792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179305 | 0 | 0 | 0.185149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157635 | 0 | 0.280178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148388 | 0.183172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084834 | 0.119862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15511 | 0.262974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362462 | 0 | 0 | 0.14913 | 0.185623 | 0 | 0.092207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163937 | 0.168159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14264 | 0 | 0 | 0.111994 | 0 | 0.168557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13392 | 0 | 0.123337 | 0.124407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189543 | 0.172223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107506 | 0 | 0 | 0.097834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144908 | 0 | 0 | 0.098961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119186 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MUNGDINGDO | 2018/12/25 | Having a hard time Currently going threw a bankruptcy and divorce my future ex wife hasn’t let me see my son in 10 days.... my family is upset with me for not “making it happen” to get my son to family functions. In 2 days my brothers 10 year anniversary for killing him self is happening. I have no one. I’m currently l... | 0.785498 | 3.301503 | 2.706944 | 89.094436 | 89.60241 | 5.909748 | 22.605696 | 7.348243 | 1.217263 | 650 | 25 | 128 | 12 | 22 | 216 | 99 | 166 | 0.166 | 0.78 | 0.054 | -0.9539 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 33 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 3 | 19 | 29 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 79 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119341 | 0.142802 | 0.080702 | 0 | 0.087787 | 0.129559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409783 | 0 | 0.138372 | 0 | 0 | 0.164191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137297 | 0.170895 | 0 | 0.084891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157953 | 0.109104 | 0 | 0 | 0.272794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155666 | 0 | 0 | 0.18091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12309 | 0 | 0.161142 | 0 | 0.158558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098976 | 0 | 0 | 0.090071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099471 |
suicidewatch | Renew2019 | 2018/12/25 | Merry Christmas-thank you I’ve been a lurker in here for a few weeks and it has brought me great comfort to know that I’m not alone in my problems or struggles. I woke up this morning convinced I wouldn’t be able to fight off the thoughts of hopelessness in my head and the pain in my heart. My mind screaming for me to ... | 3.804448 | 4.916648 | 3.743152 | 92.907113 | 71.783505 | 6.367599 | 27.774669 | 6.182691 | 0.898512 | 754 | 27 | 163 | 4 | 14 | 229 | 118 | 194 | 0.143 | 0.689 | 0.168 | 0.5484 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 20 | 6 | 31 | 20 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 104 | 32 | 1 | 0.14899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154309 | 0 | 0 | 0.123972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196813 | 0 | 0 | 0.142367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152907 | 0 | 0 | 0.176554 | 0.099865 | 0 | 0 | 0.147981 | 0.146725 | 0 | 0.159497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155151 | 0.163762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099452 | 0.151053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10096 | 0 | 0.158536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103291 | 0.130093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118726 | 0.135635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124563 | 0 | 0.155757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274341 | 0 | 0 | 0.098983 | 0 | 0 | 0.236563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303464 | 0 | 0.145542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087878 | 0 | 0.119511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | angelicroyalty | 2018/12/25 | Hurting in another holiday. I don’t want to kill itself, but I right now don’t have the emotional capacity and energy to live.
Please, just 26 more hours and Christmas is over. I just need to hang on until then.
Everything hurts. I don’t want to pretend to be happy anymore. | 1.91 | 4.431124 | 4.09037 | 81.766667 | 82.333333 | 8.044444 | 25.666667 | 8.841846 | 2.458689 | 216 | 9 | 41 | 6 | 6 | 74 | 40 | 54 | 0.165 | 0.567 | 0.268 | 0.6757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256421 | 0 | 0 | 0.242517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240822 | 0 | 0.523569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheCuriousPsychonaut | 2018/12/25 | I’m supposed to be happy It’s Christmas Eve and I’m with my family. Everything is “good” why do I feel like the only thing left for me is to die. Why am I crying. Why am I so sad all the time. Why can’t be ok for at least one fucking night. I hate this so fucking much I just want it to end so badly I’ll do anything to ... | -2.529444 | -0.802374 | 0.882006 | 100.761528 | 100.481481 | 3.687654 | 15.391975 | 5.461319 | -0.933314 | 267 | 7 | 69 | 2 | 12 | 95 | 52 | 81 | 0.202 | 0.638 | 0.16 | -0.7844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 9 | 16 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 41 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147068 | 0 | 0.154265 | 0 | 0.165482 | 0.116904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174197 | 0 | 0.16156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177795 | 0 | 0 | 0.079946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174271 | 0.110886 | 0.124455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.590636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UserTheCruiser | 2018/12/25 | Finally decided to try and get help I've been putting this off for a while, but I decided I should probably get at least some advice on it, so I made an alt account. I'm not sure if I'm doing this right or if this is the right place. If it isn't, just let me know where I can post.
I've been depressed for almost a yea... | 4.281949 | 4.760507 | 5.545415 | 82.744918 | 70.237323 | 8.677713 | 27.779475 | 8.751876 | 1.922385 | 1,885 | 61 | 392 | 31 | 32 | 632 | 213 | 493 | 0.169 | 0.66 | 0.171 | -0.4293 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 49 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 22 | 34 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 40 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 85 | 89 | 31 | 4 | 16 | 26 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 9 | 60 | 19 | 58 | 61 | 12 | 63 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 33 | 0 | 23 | 21 | 264 | 86 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.1235 | 0 | 0 | 0.061834 | 0 | 0 | 0.063363 | 0.065537 | 0 | 0 | 0.052652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048407 | 0 | 0 | 0.044245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064614 | 0 | 0.129032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066345 | 0.205142 | 0 | 0.050522 | 0 | 0.069508 | 0 | 0 | 0.163503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125383 | 0 | 0.106628 | 0 | 0.05687 | 0 | 0.178958 | 0 | 0.19197 | 0.135617 | 0.121513 | 0.069318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097776 | 0 | 0.19836 | 0 | 0.071924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084827 | 0.066856 | 0 | 0.125698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056244 | 0.070007 | 0.065894 | 0.104327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129411 | 0 | 0.123657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13815 | 0 | 0 | 0.059875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127538 | 0.26851 | 0 | 0 | 0.050508 | 0 | 0.046516 | 0 | 0.097607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042879 | 0.096251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175475 | 0 | 0.132223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121205 | 0 | 0.068224 | 0.060548 | 0 | 0.190835 | 0 | 0 | 0.063295 | 0 | 0.081075 | 0.06506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128081 | 0.050424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138431 | 0 | 0.059638 | 0 | 0.047577 | 0.05086 | 0.110615 | 0.058258 | 0 | 0 | 0.042039 | 0.040546 | 0 | 0.050235 | 0.036898 | 0 | 0 | 0.120929 | 0 | 0.042961 | 0.068828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109303 | 0 | 0.052211 | 0.074646 | 0.100454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121995 | 0 | 0 | 0.128523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040749 |
suicidewatch | maaagnolia | 2018/12/25 | Been thinking of killing myself these past few years Im just so bored w life in general. I know that theres gonna be fun new things that i'll experience next year but it all seems like a loop to me. It feels like whatever i do or whatever happens to me i just circle back to thinking about suicide. Im just so bored w ev... | 0.545689 | 2.66846 | 2.507871 | 93.508179 | 84.662651 | 6.098527 | 22.475234 | 7.38713 | 0.793703 | 306 | 11 | 70 | 5 | 9 | 102 | 56 | 83 | 0.163 | 0.702 | 0.135 | -0.5473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 38 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169805 | 0.184817 | 0 | 0 | 0.191065 | 0.269954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40817 | 0 | 0 | 0.167937 | 0.209032 | 0 | 0.103835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266905 | 0.276916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182477 | 0.200937 | 0 | 0 | 0.181291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125522 | 0.242127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243339 |
suicidewatch | Bren_throwaway | 2018/12/25 | I've decided I'm going to actively work towards suicide before my 25th birthday I've done everything I can and have tried to improve myself in every capacity. It doesn't matter. Nothing does. I'm done. This Christmas feels the most empty, which is shocking to me. Fuck 2018 | 2.301786 | 5.20566 | 4.099451 | 78.902692 | 86.884615 | 6.048352 | 28.582418 | 7.44753 | 2.398211 | 221 | 11 | 35 | 4 | 7 | 74 | 42 | 52 | 0.239 | 0.672 | 0.09 | -0.8256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255426 | 0.59739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245922 | 0 | 0.262323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269839 | 0 | 0 | 0.165882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BluePassionFlower | 2018/12/25 | How serious or abnormal are suicidal thoughts? When should you take them seriously? | 6.819231 | 10.855747 | 6.914231 | 57.068269 | 82.076923 | 14.907692 | 44.961538 | 11.208143 | 8.890262 | 69 | 5 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 13 | 13 | 0.44 | 0.56 | 0 | -0.782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.707241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MyLipstickObsessions | 2018/12/25 | *Bleep* 2018, Seriously to hell with it It's been a long year. I thought the pain, the suffering, the bad luck would stop, but it persists. Now, I just feel like I want to kill myself. I see everyone living their life, having fun, making memories. And I'm just here a shadow. Nothing goes right. I've been on x amount of... | 0.800652 | 3.204415 | 2.290741 | 93.436026 | 86.731481 | 5.360114 | 21.733618 | 6.844919 | 0.576361 | 829 | 29 | 176 | 11 | 26 | 268 | 124 | 216 | 0.228 | 0.645 | 0.127 | -0.9818 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 43 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 30 | 36 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 22 | 6 | 24 | 22 | 4 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 113 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114656 | 0.167417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142515 | 0.143469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069433 | 0.098101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156083 | 0.115177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408804 | 0 | 0.151923 | 0 | 0.150934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290977 | 0.067087 | 0 | 0.363765 | 0.121523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104437 | 0.146117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109663 | 0.114805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087988 | 0 | 0.109016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097547 | 0.150137 | 0 | 0.176858 |
suicidewatch | degenerateanon | 2018/12/25 | Please kill me I cannot even sleep nowadays | 1.91 | 4.431124 | 1.031111 | 103.7 | 82.333333 | 3.6 | 20.111111 | 3.1291 | -0.835756 | 36 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 9 | 0.392 | 0.417 | 0.192 | -0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.562634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EndItNowPlease1 | 2018/12/25 | Help Me I don't know what to do. My parents are racist narcissists. I'm repeatedly compared to others, told that I'm not good enough, and told that I'm not going to get anywhere in life. I always try to fit the son they want but it's never good enough. They don't accept the few friends I have and try to isolate me as m... | 1.40111 | 2.918301 | 3.300335 | 92.024187 | 78.727273 | 6.086124 | 20.215311 | 6.836019 | 0.149864 | 796 | 19 | 184 | 8 | 19 | 268 | 115 | 220 | 0.16 | 0.624 | 0.216 | 0.881 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 43 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 18 | 12 | 23 | 35 | 9 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 111 | 34 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093769 | 0.437568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160593 | 0.226901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081795 | 0.19575 | 0.055313 | 0 | 0.180505 | 0.266396 | 0.084674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212887 | 0 | 0.106196 | 0.105153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116367 | 0.086298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074779 | 0.155168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077827 | 0 | 0.081654 | 0 | 0 | 0.099352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105947 | 0 | 0.089703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061734 | 0 | 0 | 0.202327 | 0 | 0.215637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | twixieshores | 2018/12/25 | I'm going to jump off a bridge Luckily for me, I'm up at my grandmother's for the holiday. And there's a really high bridge. Tomorrow is a good enough time to get completely hammered, go out without a coat and jump. If I manage to survive the fall, the icy temps of the river will surely kill me. | 3.944516 | 4.292362 | 5.871129 | 80.576694 | 70.935484 | 10.070968 | 28.403226 | 10.125757 | 2.678374 | 232 | 8 | 49 | 6 | 4 | 81 | 45 | 62 | 0.073 | 0.744 | 0.183 | 0.7269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17092 | 0 | 0.37185 | 0.274395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ManySuicidalThoughts | 2018/12/25 | Been having Suicidal thoughts more often past month Honestly ever since my Dad got bit by a spider at age 10 my life has been a downward spiral. I keep trying to tell myself it will get better or life goes up but next thing you know I'm 27 and still genuinely not that happy in life. I have my masters degree that I fini... | 2.849111 | 4.195962 | 4.612174 | 84.840251 | 74.457627 | 7.164333 | 23.334562 | 7.742559 | 1.100132 | 1,119 | 31 | 227 | 15 | 23 | 380 | 153 | 295 | 0.113 | 0.815 | 0.072 | -0.9327 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 48 | 43 | 26 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 32 | 7 | 30 | 32 | 8 | 43 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 153 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064812 | 0 | 0 | 0.15528 | 0 | 0.420773 | 0.471883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067924 | 0.057243 | 0.070662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244065 | 0 | 0.032727 | 0.046239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050006 | 0 | 0.033816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051766 | 0 | 0.071301 | 0 | 0 | 0.0689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072949 | 0 | 0.043383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05753 | 0 | 0 | 0.106712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228584 | 0.031621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075804 | 0.051662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099839 | 0 | 0.068835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043859 | 0.049226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123573 | 0.044872 | 0.056515 | 0 | 0 | 0.122371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082928 | 0.066547 | 0 | 0.06949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052023 | 0.056572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043 | 0 | 0 | 0.051384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045978 | 0 | 0.471883 | 0.04168 |
suicidewatch | EndItNowPlease21 | 2018/12/25 | Help Me I want it to end. I hate life so much. My parents are racist narcissist who compare me to everyone else and don't accept me for who I am. I don't know if they're trying to help me or just pushing me down because they're sadists. My parents always fucking fight among each other. They're always yelling the most v... | 1.90795 | 3.598138 | 3.372617 | 91.29684 | 77.791946 | 5.658441 | 23.542075 | 6.297961 | 0.494121 | 557 | 18 | 120 | 4 | 13 | 183 | 86 | 149 | 0.205 | 0.722 | 0.073 | -0.9698 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 24 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 4 | 15 | 21 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 7 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 74 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111672 | 0 | 0.118401 | 0.138127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225262 | 0.127737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.617924 | 0.069842 | 0 | 0 | 0.112124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127737 | 0 | 0.18152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayhfgf | 2018/12/25 | my mental health is going to shit ever since i got on birth control(about 2 months ago) ive been extremely depressed. id like to think i can deal with it but so much stuff has also happened in the past 4 months that has killed me inside and ive reached my breaking point. i used a throwaway account because ive posted in... | 4.517194 | 5.066814 | 5.313835 | 84.360175 | 69.743034 | 8.133805 | 29.312841 | 8.115594 | 1.819853 | 1,252 | 45 | 261 | 16 | 21 | 408 | 162 | 323 | 0.238 | 0.599 | 0.163 | -0.987 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 27 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 36 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 8 | 48 | 60 | 19 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 43 | 11 | 32 | 45 | 10 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 167 | 61 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059488 | 0 | 0.154238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059794 | 0.129856 | 0.094806 | 0 | 0.06617 | 0 | 0.081606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084033 | 0.087217 | 0.062087 | 0 | 0.085418 | 0 | 0.080169 | 0.066976 | 0 | 0.080705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06496 | 0 | 0.068874 | 0.080349 | 0 | 0 | 0.14068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117956 | 0.111106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085262 | 0.180236 | 0 | 0.081255 | 0 | 0.132582 | 0 | 0.062193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137529 | 0.082779 | 0 | 0 | 0.079806 | 0.082657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089727 | 0 | 0 | 0.335985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258096 | 0 | 0.170944 | 0.063386 | 0 | 0.082339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151962 | 0.155876 | 0.068665 | 0 | 0 | 0.086996 | 0.084886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078366 | 0.082493 | 0 | 0 | 0.124138 | 0 | 0.114328 | 0 | 0.059975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081598 | 0 | 0.052693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14702 | 0 | 0.074474 | 0.079112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079821 | 0.128651 | 0 | 0.233454 | 0 | 0.065887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05504 | 0 | 0 | 0.065012 | 0.089076 | 0 | 0.089019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103323 | 0.049827 | 0 | 0 | 0.045344 | 0.089376 | 0.073709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0.134323 | 0 | 0 | 0.091732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hunsac313 | 2018/12/25 | I wanna kill myself I hate my life most days especially now. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. I’ve been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, then later on, with borderline personality disorder based on the psychiatrists/ nurses I’ve seen. Everyday I battle with my emotions and people around me. Everything... | 2.858043 | 5.200787 | 4.179833 | 83.52975 | 77.405797 | 7.425024 | 23.393478 | 8.395992 | 1.561462 | 840 | 27 | 163 | 17 | 20 | 276 | 130 | 207 | 0.187 | 0.759 | 0.055 | -0.9713 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 16 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 38 | 36 | 13 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 28 | 2 | 20 | 23 | 7 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 109 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138972 | 0 | 0 | 0.113003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082214 | 0 | 0.109798 | 0.129389 | 0.132304 | 0.133189 | 0.146103 | 0 | 0 | 0.130456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286795 | 0.112909 | 0 | 0 | 0.084199 | 0 | 0.107407 | 0 | 0.114571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141037 | 0 | 0.140119 | 0 | 0.143803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128422 | 0 | 0 | 0.128718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281137 | 0 | 0.196641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133769 | 0 | 0 | 0.193908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088378 | 0.222621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084692 | 0.081684 | 0 | 0 | 0.074334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150382 | 0.101188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090558 | 0.139379 | 0 | 0.082093 |
suicidewatch | SicklySweetFeep | 2018/12/25 | Tell me about your happy holidays I love the holidays and this ones been bleak. I just want to interact with somone about the happy times in Christmas. Thank you. | 3.98 | 6.719822 | 3.65 | 86.705 | 75.666667 | 8 | 23.333333 | 8.841846 | 1.845333 | 130 | 4 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 39 | 25 | 30 | 0 | 0.505 | 0.495 | 0.9618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.747789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306993 | 0.323368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ill-gotten-Redemp | 2018/12/25 | Did anybody else cry TODAY? As tears roll down my cheek. I say to you, let's see this through. A trigger on the calendar, but there are 394 others.
Please please believe in the plan. I need you all to try harder for me too. | -0.087754 | 2.197693 | 1.252174 | 99.74029 | 90.956522 | 3.936232 | 18.536232 | 5.461319 | -0.53509 | 171 | 5 | 39 | 1 | 6 | 54 | 41 | 46 | 0.074 | 0.802 | 0.124 | 0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.628133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227529 | 0 | 0 | 0.227995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271202 | 0 | 0 | 0.194252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JeffMangumStains | 2018/12/25 | I don't know if this is against the rules, but I want to have an Xmas post we can all keep eachother company in. So, where are you and what are you doing right now for the holidays? What's troubling you? Where do you wish you could be or be doing?
Or share anything else on your mind. | 0.84 | 2.799922 | 1.88 | 99.395 | 82.333333 | 5.333333 | 20 | 6.427356 | -0.1495 | 220 | 6 | 53 | 2 | 6 | 69 | 47 | 60 | 0.07 | 0.756 | 0.174 | 0.7176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 42 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325846 | 0 | 0 | 0.201471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | grendedek | 2018/12/25 | I have everything, I have nothing I have a wife, a house, a job, a dog, a loving family, a car, good friends. Reading some of the other posts just makes me hate myself more, because I have all these things and yet I don't want to be alive. The pain is too much. The agony is too much. I've written my note. I know where ... | 0.149768 | 1.741505 | 2.086911 | 98.929324 | 82.783784 | 5.309653 | 18.679537 | 6.182691 | -0.40516 | 256 | 6 | 65 | 2 | 7 | 85 | 51 | 74 | 0.146 | 0.689 | 0.166 | 0.3565 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 47 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228529 | 0 | 0.239711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144512 | 0.213277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229497 | 0 | 0.169733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Stonedmonkey420 | 2018/12/25 | I just want it all to stop I’ve had so many bad thoughts leading up to Christmas and I’ve been trying my best to keep it under control but tonight it’s gotten too much and everything has just broke through. I just want to die. It’s so simple. just to have everything all the pain, stress, anger, failures to stop all at ... | 2.404901 | 3.798356 | 3.645745 | 91.132602 | 75.691729 | 6.190508 | 23.496319 | 6.627428 | 0.550276 | 1,491 | 44 | 326 | 12 | 32 | 486 | 173 | 399 | 0.217 | 0.643 | 0.141 | -0.9918 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 27 | 7 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 74 | 61 | 32 | 4 | 8 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 16 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 56 | 10 | 50 | 50 | 16 | 41 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 244 | 77 | 1 | 0.081074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076172 | 0.062341 | 0.20308 | 0.197688 | 0.08954 | 0.068988 | 0 | 0.085082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090931 | 0 | 0.089707 | 0 | 0.104572 | 0.167168 | 0 | 0 | 0.084142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107097 | 0 | 0.068308 | 0 | 0.145728 | 0 | 0.152859 | 0.091231 | 0.163974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125275 | 0 | 0.127074 | 0 | 0.046076 | 0 | 0.129685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071694 | 0.086305 | 0 | 0.080044 | 0 | 0.172356 | 0 | 0 | 0.054342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144125 | 0.269089 | 0.084426 | 0.089112 | 0 | 0 | 0.085846 | 0 | 0 | 0.057265 | 0.039609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068926 | 0.073173 | 0 | 0 | 0.082196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163407 | 0.086007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238395 | 0.060115 | 0.062529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085074 | 0.086341 | 0.109876 | 0.06166 | 0.086269 | 0 | 0 | 0.175591 | 0.077394 | 0 | 0.070791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069237 | 0.07712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068694 | 0.062415 | 0 | 0.090756 | 0 | 0 | 0.064746 | 0.203345 | 0.09287 | 0.169512 | 0.185621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053862 | 0.103898 | 0 | 0.064364 | 0.09455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070022 | 0 | 0 | 0.239098 | 0.064353 | 0 | 0 | 0.072895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LordVanitas | 2018/12/25 | Merry Christmas My gift is less pollution and the end of my pain. | 0.66 | 3.166711 | 2.375769 | 89.606731 | 95.153846 | 5.676923 | 21.884615 | 7.168622 | 1.180262 | 52 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 13 | 0.168 | 0.508 | 0.325 | 0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.639749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.768584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Freshgrapefruitsoda | 2018/12/25 | I wanna get married so my mom can't bury me Don't want to get into the whole spiel of my life and why/when I started feeling suicidal. But, to sum it up, my mom is narcissistic and sociopathic. She's increased her torture on me--the last blow was evicting me while I was trying to heal from the last time she kicked me o... | 1.323368 | 2.482748 | 3.369918 | 92.967901 | 78.058296 | 6.390533 | 22.25436 | 6.937598 | 0.398709 | 784 | 22 | 189 | 8 | 18 | 267 | 112 | 223 | 0.152 | 0.75 | 0.099 | -0.9271 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 20 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 33 | 39 | 21 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 36 | 7 | 28 | 30 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 123 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101614 | 0 | 0 | 0.220148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077633 | 0 | 0.209993 | 0 | 0.057107 | 0.08428 | 0.080365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055223 | 0.245721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212922 | 0 | 0 | 0.088728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.588422 | 0 | 0 | 0.073866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064385 | 0 | 0 | 0.058592 | 0.230981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07138 | 0 | 0 | 0.064708 |
suicidewatch | swabonthego | 2018/12/25 | I feel empty Hi Reddit, I made an account to post this. I'm a long time lurker, though not of this sub. I'm in my mid-20s, and I've struggled with 'depression and anxiety' since my early teens. I've been to the doctor, I've had therapy, and I've repeated the process for my entire adult life. I feel so tired.
I have s... | 2.272998 | 3.503976 | 4.015885 | 89.006012 | 75.728111 | 6.9492 | 23.363784 | 7.510576 | 0.888568 | 798 | 23 | 175 | 10 | 17 | 269 | 125 | 217 | 0.174 | 0.747 | 0.08 | -0.9517 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 37 | 33 | 22 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 28 | 3 | 25 | 21 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 116 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109784 | 0.080151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109838 | 0 | 0.116456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123952 | 0 | 0.398894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07226 | 0.107177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248827 | 0 | 0.133304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104949 | 0 | 0.096656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168464 | 0.135188 | 0 | 0 | 0.148946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109927 | 0 | 0.274911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150364 | 0 | 0 | 0.168499 | 0.258365 | 0 | 0.076669 | 0.151122 | 0 | 0 | 0.146084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093403 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kalidoesredditstuff | 2018/12/25 | Thanks to those people who go through these posts just to help others out, really Majority of people who go here are just here to talk about themselves and get help or just to vent out their frustrations it seems (which is a good reason to come here don't get me wrong) but there are some people who don't do much else h... | 6.714041 | 5.690083 | 6.517264 | 82.920216 | 65.309013 | 9.655079 | 29.717096 | 8.598638 | 1.926359 | 912 | 24 | 192 | 11 | 12 | 287 | 123 | 233 | 0.071 | 0.738 | 0.191 | 0.982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 41 | 35 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 11 | 26 | 32 | 7 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 129 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057931 | 0 | 0 | 0.107069 | 0 | 0.084048 | 0.103751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081862 | 0.09964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125536 | 0 | 0 | 0.090807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144154 | 0.135782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099301 | 0 | 0.108018 | 0.159417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097177 | 0 | 0.092856 | 0 | 0.083915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461184 | 0 | 0.198577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12176 | 0.097709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162314 | 0 | 0.22672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078612 | 0 | 0.095101 | 0 | 0.080521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076383 | 0.083062 | 0.262479 | 0 | 0 | 0.063135 | 0 | 0.093369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103903 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | oopsnotgoo | 2018/12/25 | Back in the dark pit's of my head My social anxiety led to my depression, I'm so comfortable with death at this point I made an ultimatum I kill myself if things don't work out. Or I keep going I've ran away once so ik I will do this. Sometimes I feel so shitty then a pretty girl compliments me, or do some drugs that ... | 2.309517 | 3.974875 | 3.962092 | 87.618643 | 76.581699 | 7.322071 | 22.226747 | 8.13951 | 1.02092 | 580 | 16 | 126 | 10 | 13 | 194 | 111 | 153 | 0.215 | 0.626 | 0.159 | -0.9022 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 27 | 23 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 5 | 11 | 17 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 73 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132105 | 0.108118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16306 | 0.143876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213286 | 0.10045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170023 | 0 | 0 | 0.129989 | 0.073461 | 0 | 0.159821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149679 | 0 | 0 | 0.432911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124978 | 0.155561 | 0 | 0 | 0.114614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14378 | 0.099315 | 0.068694 | 0 | 0.124159 | 0 | 0 | 0.157303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133046 | 0.093856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104258 | 0.108445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137765 | 0 | 0 | 0.147544 | 0.149742 | 0.095279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132919 | 0.158513 | 0 | 0.143048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116312 | 0 | 0 | 0.143331 | 0 | 0 | 0.139064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | casual-noob | 2018/12/25 | This is the first time I’ve actively wanted to die since I was a young teenager. I know in my head that it isn’t right and that things will get better. My brain knows that I have people who love me, care about me, and would go to the ends of the world for me. I can’t shake this feeling though. It’s a feeling deeper tha... | 1.886419 | 2.513829 | 3.215845 | 96.719443 | 75.846847 | 6.270721 | 21.082207 | 5.985473 | -0.158704 | 386 | 8 | 98 | 2 | 8 | 126 | 68 | 111 | 0.162 | 0.661 | 0.177 | 0.1823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 23 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 63 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400798 | 0 | 0 | 0.183028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158998 | 0 | 0 | 0.118568 | 0 | 0 | 0.171535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272306 | 0.128246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187579 | 0 | 0.102023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119262 | 0 | 0.352746 | 0 | 0.104677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127523 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HakuryuxX | 2018/12/25 | How was your day? For everyone here, how was your day? | -1.124545 | 0.735499 | 0.500455 | 101.270682 | 106.272727 | 5.836364 | 14.590909 | 7.168622 | 0.010055 | 41 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.803524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.595272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JohnHarris164 | 2018/12/25 | sorry. Typed a long post, decided it doesn't matter. I'm sorry. | -1.510256 | -0.466123 | 2.438462 | 85.298205 | 120.538462 | 4.810256 | 12.025641 | 6.427356 | 0.071841 | 49 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 12 | 13 | 0.344 | 0.656 | 0 | -0.1714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.864113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LunairCinderella | 2018/12/25 | I Have A Plan I believe I've suffered from social anxiety and depression most of my life. It has yet to get better so I've decided to off myself when I turn 40 if nothing improves by then. Im 23 turning 24 on February 2nd, I will hopefully buy a laptop for my birthday so I can write my last will and testament as well a... | 2.84801 | 3.655272 | 4.981224 | 84.285204 | 73.744898 | 8.253061 | 26.755102 | 8.63404 | 1.784218 | 719 | 25 | 157 | 13 | 14 | 251 | 124 | 196 | 0.139 | 0.789 | 0.072 | -0.8661 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 30 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 6 | 25 | 24 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 105 | 29 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333079 | 0 | 0.169893 | 0 | 0.133365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099598 | 0 | 0 | 0.14409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101074 | 0 | 0 | 0.149772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162883 | 0 | 0.149639 | 0 | 0 | 0.157028 | 0 | 0.122917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21302 | 0.14734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144691 | 0 | 0.316465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100181 | 0.096622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102379 | 0.32804 | 0.147303 | 0 | 0 | 0.260475 | 0 | 0 | 0.177884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sugarxxfree | 2018/12/25 | What I something that has stopped you from going through with suicide? I’ve been contemplating suicide for as long as I can remember. I have never wanted to be here. I’ve been sticking around for years because ‘it gets better!’. That’s what they all tell me. But it hasn’t. It gets worse. I have a health condition. I’m ... | 1.803547 | 3.795753 | 3.23834 | 90.725057 | 79.226415 | 6.051321 | 24.939623 | 7.087007 | 0.992716 | 1,009 | 38 | 214 | 12 | 25 | 330 | 140 | 265 | 0.162 | 0.778 | 0.06 | -0.9812 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 26 | 46 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 35 | 2 | 32 | 30 | 3 | 33 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 135 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105455 | 0 | 0 | 0.099737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367836 | 0 | 0.085577 | 0 | 0 | 0.088945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084012 | 0 | 0.089074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084734 | 0.096098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092974 | 0.157629 | 0 | 0.057156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099291 | 0 | 0.1069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218537 | 0.102839 | 0.355174 | 0.049133 | 0 | 0.177609 | 0.089 | 0 | 0 | 0.109783 | 0 | 0.090767 | 0 | 0.067131 | 0 | 0.20207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106889 | 0 | 0 | 0.15513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096499 | 0 | 0.10553 | 0.107103 | 0 | 0.076487 | 0 | 0 | 0.22334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087813 | 0 | 0 | 0.19014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107973 | 0.113925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118636 | 0.079827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323816 |
suicidewatch | txtiana | 2019/07/17 | I’m pushing my friends away I want them to hurt less when I’m gone so distance is the best option for now but I’m hurting them by keeping them st an arms length
I’ve noticed I’m picking aruguments with people I’m close to a lot more often and it’s only just clicked why I’m doing it and I’m scared
I did this before my l... | -0.22199 | 1.613961 | 1.857597 | 98.764018 | 85.511628 | 3.822222 | 22.346253 | 3.1291 | -0.356032 | 300 | 11 | 72 | 0 | 9 | 100 | 60 | 86 | 0.117 | 0.794 | 0.089 | -0.6542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 42 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213046 | 0 | 0.262748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jesus-Fistikus | 2019/07/17 | I know i need help. But i cant get any. I need help. I have tried to kill myself about 2 hours ago by shortdropping for the first time but failed, just like my other 2 suicide attempts. My neck hurts so much. I cant swallow without it hurting like hell. I just cant get myself to call an ambulance or go to a doctor.
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suicidewatch | skittymcnando | 2019/07/17 | Am I being too impulsive? Please help... (This will be stupid long but I would appreciate it if someone would read it all...) Hello all. I haven’t posted here on my main account I don’t think, although I have posted here on throwaways. As you can tell I’m still around. This is going to be a wall of text and slightly (h... | 1.960122 | 3.597536 | 3.58684 | 90.052112 | 77.486659 | 6.768678 | 22.935235 | 7.611843 | 0.844013 | 9,371 | 284 | 2,086 | 133 | 216 | 3,116 | 598 | 2,511 | 0.166 | 0.726 | 0.108 | -0.9995 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 302 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 46 | 132 | 102 | 17 | 4 | 85 | 3 | 231 | 19 | 2 | 24 | 24 | 405 | 418 | 180 | 23 | 65 | 87 | 1 | 31 | 6 | 17 | 18 | 12 | 8 | 7 | 5 | 103 | 122 | 3 | 10 | 70 | 6 | 2 | 36 | 70 | 42 | 0 | 17 | 101 | 45 | 365 | 59 | 290 | 266 | 40 | 300 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 177 | 110 | 0 | 41 | 139 | 1,408 | 468 | 26 | 0 | 0.045908 | 0.018905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034346 | 0 | 0.058198 | 0.040129 | 0.064136 | 0.06197 | 0.064479 | 0 | 0 | 0.144917 | 0.020314 | 0 | 0 | 0.019213 | 0 | 0 | 0.047827 | 0.017246 | 0 | 0 | 0.018202 | 0.059586 | 0.048527 | 0.129905 | 0 | 0.016485 | 0.043653 | 0.081323 | 0.068535 | 0.02115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059346 | 0.08863 | 0.079008 | 0 | 0.040988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.021728 | 0.108274 | 0.021436 | 0.127682 | 0.149927 | 0 | 0.033372 | 0.019663 | 0.120636 | 0 | 0 | 0.019829 | 0.016953 | 0.03965 | 0.022705 | 0 | 0 | 0.039647 | 0 | 0.196128 | 0.017159 | 0 | 0 | 0.115161 | 0.035048 | 0.016323 | 0.018512 | 0.087056 | 0 | 0.054789 | 0 | 0.17632 | 0.02768 | 0.148809 | 0.021222 | 0 | 0.065914 | 0 | 0.042483 | 0.194577 | 0 | 0.070851 | 0.018584 | 0.099091 | 0 | 0.046483 | 0.042717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034709 | 0.076507 | 0 | 0.08237 | 0 | 0.022957 | 0.090897 | 0 | 0.077731 | 0.019242 | 0.095392 | 0 | 0.020739 | 0.043739 | 0 | 0.080881 | 0.134573 | 0.034439 | 0.1286 | 0 | 0.17035 | 0.078958 | 0 | 0.020513 | 0.063146 | 0.01981 | 0.027367 | 0.056788 | 0 | 0.15396 | 0.102867 | 0 | 0.021673 | 0.021148 | 0.082351 | 0.03497 | 0.073325 | 0.090521 | 0.019641 | 0.077851 | 0 | 0.021519 | 0 | 0.078093 | 0 | 0.019561 | 0 | 0 | 0.082361 | 0.085448 | 0.100554 | 0.074708 | 0 | 0 | 0.01818 | 0.018981 | 0.018589 | 0.022056 | 0 | 0.041263 | 0.065638 | 0.117872 | 0 | 0 | 0.021511 | 0.020979 | 0.036987 | 0.026862 | 0.033831 | 0.020241 | 0.063797 | 0.018314 | 0 | 0.055662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058425 | 0 | 0.123633 | 0.038756 | 0.088203 | 0.049643 | 0 | 0 | 0.062398 | 0 | 0.049633 | 0.036856 | 0.061625 | 0 | 0 | 0.046313 | 0.017636 | 0.04042 | 0 | 0 | 0.064102 | 0.021776 | 0.019387 | 0 | 0.032829 | 0.044743 | 0.095802 | 0.021686 | 0 | 0.123894 | 0.046414 | 0.032393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148336 | 0.021984 | 0.054776 | 0.040272 | 0.101962 | 0.077856 | 0.050798 | 0 | 0.022155 | 0.089974 | 0.077223 | 0.07448 | 0.038068 | 0.01538 | 0.079076 | 0 | 0 | 0.166605 | 0.064572 | 0.092071 | 0 | 0.132472 | 0.040336 | 0.06991 | 0 | 0 | 0.063939 | 0.182827 | 0.076887 | 0.202017 | 0.023591 | 0 | 0 | 0.017481 | 0.021629 | 0 | 0.056024 | 0 | 0.155141 | 0.039348 | 0.059228 | 0.20643 | 0.021181 | 0 | 0.049902 |
suicidewatch | basicallyaperson | 2019/07/17 | I don't know... Yesterday I got broken up with...My PTSD is getting worse as I'm going through the trauma narrative. I just wanna end it all man, the only thing keeping me alive is my mom and my sister...used to be my ex but now I feel I have nothing. My heart hurts so much. I'm sick of this. Can Prozac make you die? I... | -1.218392 | 0.832257 | 1.395967 | 97.683881 | 95.923077 | 3.862005 | 14.783217 | 5.565023 | -0.878631 | 276 | 6 | 64 | 2 | 11 | 94 | 62 | 78 | 0.202 | 0.735 | 0.064 | -0.9014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120816 | 0 | 0.131422 | 0 | 0.184948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274027 | 0 | 0.244324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205542 | 0 | 0 | 0.127087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270832 | 0 | 0 | 0.169992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234033 | 0.184273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | demonmuffin505 | 2019/07/17 | Happy birthday Today I turn 23 I never asked to be born. Every year just keeps harder and harder. I hope I won't have to face another birthday next year. | 0.829194 | 3.331869 | 3.038952 | 87.078427 | 88.677419 | 4.390323 | 17.427419 | 5.985473 | -0.02049 | 121 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 41 | 24 | 31 | 0 | 0.784 | 0.216 | 0.765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231919 | 0 | 0.319798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387282 |
suicidewatch | tulipsandfeathers | 2019/07/17 | Please give me the strength to end it I want to end my life, I’ve felt this way for some time as life is just too much, the ONLY thing that stops me is my daughter. She’s 9, but she has a stepfather who cares for her, although I know she’d miss me, she has a ready made family, so as much as she loves me, she doesn’t ne... | 1.736552 | 2.028535 | 3.289138 | 97.307155 | 75.896552 | 7.524138 | 22.258621 | 7.645422 | 0.373452 | 392 | 9 | 107 | 5 | 8 | 130 | 67 | 116 | 0.088 | 0.69 | 0.222 | 0.9576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 13 | 19 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 73 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.572208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155077 | 0.176929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309875 | 0.091791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145771 | 0.152827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23746 | 0.239519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190528 | 0.128201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | --upp-- | 2019/07/17 | I’m obsessed with the idea of killing myself Yay I’m a psychopath. Can’t wait to act on it | -1.781429 | 0.131931 | 0.625714 | 103.044286 | 97.571429 | 2.8 | 21.285714 | 3.1291 | -0.6546 | 72 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 19 | 21 | 0.26 | 0.596 | 0.145 | -0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.714197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.699945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | robbielynden | 2019/07/17 | I Wonder if anyone’s reading this You ever feel like the best remedy for problems is to make them quiet? I feel like that sometimes but then those problems pop up like ads on an insecure site and they compile too fast for me to click the x and then all of a sudden I have an idea let’s try and reboot the computer so I d... | 1.972721 | 3.317304 | 3.188649 | 94.168559 | 76.72973 | 6.230631 | 20.981982 | 6.742158 | 0.143674 | 677 | 16 | 158 | 6 | 15 | 219 | 110 | 185 | 0.129 | 0.701 | 0.17 | 0.8134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 40 | 21 | 24 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 21 | 8 | 20 | 19 | 6 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 103 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147982 | 0.124712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285196 | 0.302213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144193 | 0 | 0.344453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094125 | 0 | 0.141664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112553 | 0 | 0.103659 | 0 | 0.108756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158501 | 0.141112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093681 | 0.090354 | 0 | 0 | 0.082224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | itsmeowth69 | 2019/07/17 | I am desperate, couldn’t tell anyone so created a Reddit looking for one last hope. I’m a girl, I’m 23, I moved out to live with my grandma when I was 16 because I couldn’t stand living with my mother anymore because of her heavy alcoholism problem (her husband, my dad died because of it, drunk driving, I was there, an... | 8.437769 | 5.609806 | 8.501487 | 75.805258 | 63.252427 | 11.577229 | 36.127538 | 9.631236 | 3.143408 | 3,972 | 131 | 824 | 57 | 44 | 1,306 | 347 | 1,030 | 0.139 | 0.722 | 0.14 | 0.5971 | 15 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 79 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 47 | 51 | 7 | 2 | 45 | 0 | 74 | 21 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 162 | 158 | 65 | 8 | 29 | 27 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 39 | 58 | 6 | 3 | 20 | 10 | 7 | 22 | 25 | 19 | 3 | 5 | 51 | 12 | 143 | 32 | 150 | 86 | 22 | 133 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 73 | 60 | 2 | 20 | 49 | 574 | 182 | 22 | 0 | 0.042334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038184 | 0.035778 | 0.037005 | 0 | 0.028573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070869 | 0.124915 | 0.036609 | 0 | 0.127228 | 0 | 0 | 0.134277 | 0 | 0.029833 | 0.326707 | 0.039461 | 0.030403 | 0 | 0.074992 | 0.0948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036484 | 0.081731 | 0.145715 | 0 | 0 | 0.092334 | 0 | 0.038611 | 0 | 0.114109 | 0.039534 | 0.039247 | 0.069128 | 0 | 0.092322 | 0 | 0.111245 | 0.07466 | 0 | 0 | 0.031267 | 0.073128 | 0 | 0.140006 | 0.124305 | 0 | 0.059695 | 0 | 0.063292 | 0 | 0 | 0.047198 | 0.03232 | 0.030104 | 0.068283 | 0.032112 | 0 | 0.101048 | 0 | 0.072264 | 0.051051 | 0.171531 | 0 | 0.032656 | 0.030392 | 0 | 0 | 0.055209 | 0.066063 | 0.074669 | 0.034275 | 0.10153 | 0.089905 | 0.114305 | 0 | 0.078721 | 0 | 0 | 0.114105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037979 | 0 | 0 | 0.047898 | 0.188752 | 0.179199 | 0.035488 | 0 | 0.082455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248194 | 0.031758 | 0.03953 | 0 | 0.078544 | 0.029124 | 0 | 0.075665 | 0 | 0 | 0.151422 | 0.052367 | 0.071621 | 0.0631 | 0 | 0.060008 | 0 | 0.039003 | 0 | 0.032247 | 0 | 0.0477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209231 | 0.028519 | 0.1519 | 0.052531 | 0 | 0.110228 | 0 | 0.037999 | 0 | 0.035008 | 0 | 0 | 0.074985 | 0 | 0.072634 | 0.027174 | 0.076038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049541 | 0.031198 | 0.07466 | 0 | 0.067552 | 0 | 0 | 0.03635 | 0 | 0.034189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038003 | 0.071479 | 0.040668 | 0.183115 | 0 | 0 | 0.03836 | 0 | 0.030513 | 0 | 0 | 0.035772 | 0.216962 | 0 | 0.032527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036422 | 0.030274 | 0.027506 | 0 | 0 | 0.050579 | 0.038083 | 0.028534 | 0.029872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039083 | 0.040546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028718 | 0.093688 | 0.032895 | 0 | 0 | 0.047474 | 0 | 0.035104 | 0 | 0.083337 | 0 | 0 | 0.068283 | 0 | 0.024258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123436 | 0 | 0 | 0.210743 | 0.056721 | 0 | 0 | 0.096376 | 0.066244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034442 | 0 | 0.052023 | 0.036285 | 0.036412 | 0.101525 | 0 | 0 | 0.092035 |
suicidewatch | SephirothYggdrasil | 2019/07/17 | Why I haven't gone through with it. I think about suicide every day,and the one of the two reasons is I'm very sensitive to pain and every method I've looked into will be painful. | 2.627807 | 3.990166 | 3.323684 | 93.794123 | 75.052632 | 6.119298 | 25.824561 | 6.427356 | 0.704972 | 143 | 5 | 32 | 1 | 3 | 45 | 32 | 38 | 0.274 | 0.726 | 0 | -0.8993 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180702 | 0 | 0.56751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JawohlBitte123 | 2019/07/17 | Just want it to end. I want to die so bad, I'm so tired of feeling worthless and unwanted, every night I pray I'll die in my sleep, but wake up to the same old shit. Why won't I just die all ready. I don't know what comes next, but it's got to be better than this. | -0.036452 | 0.780386 | 2.187935 | 101.461903 | 80.935484 | 5.605161 | 17.23871 | 5.683918 | -0.868333 | 200 | 3 | 57 | 1 | 5 | 68 | 46 | 62 | 0.313 | 0.521 | 0.166 | -0.9179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.644996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220316 | 0.194405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212646 | 0 | 0 | 0.207309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IIGamingReaperII | 2019/07/17 | Im stuck in a loop and i want to get out English isnt my main language so im sorry for any grammatical errors. I’m also sorry if the formatting is bad as i wrote this on my phone.
Everytime i try to stay consistent with something i always fail and hurt myself for it.
For a decade or so i had no childhood whatsoever,n... | 1.995886 | 4.010034 | 3.552782 | 88.597537 | 78.70475 | 6.579148 | 23.893312 | 7.614382 | 1.101566 | 2,992 | 103 | 629 | 45 | 73 | 989 | 324 | 779 | 0.118 | 0.74 | 0.142 | 0.9781 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 106 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 32 | 46 | 11 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 66 | 17 | 10 | 9 | 4 | 87 | 132 | 52 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 27 | 29 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 24 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 17 | 77 | 21 | 75 | 97 | 18 | 63 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 5 | 20 | 28 | 5 | 12 | 27 | 368 | 104 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036904 | 0 | 0.028495 | 0.059298 | 0 | 0 | 0.096924 | 0 | 0.027259 | 0 | 0.070675 | 0.024915 | 0 | 0.058645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054798 | 0.029751 | 0.021721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074788 | 0.031514 | 0 | 0.039579 | 0 | 0 | 0.036384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02298 | 0 | 0.03069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072928 | 0.542889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094139 | 0.032231 | 0.030022 | 0.068096 | 0.032024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05405 | 0.025456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110117 | 0.164707 | 0.093082 | 0 | 0.060752 | 0.149433 | 0.142492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031919 | 0.140718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075295 | 0.035742 | 0.070782 | 0 | 0 | 0.038145 | 0 | 0.500356 | 0 | 0 | 0.126686 | 0 | 0 | 0.07833 | 0.05809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034816 | 0 | 0 | 0.031533 | 0.179532 | 0 | 0.194484 | 0.030293 | 0 | 0 | 0.118924 | 0.072251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034912 | 0.03419 | 0 | 0 | 0.037947 | 0.024145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034015 | 0.049406 | 0.031113 | 0 | 0 | 0.033684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033894 | 0.028336 | 0 | 0.072123 | 0 | 0 | 0.037172 | 0 | 0.036576 | 0 | 0 | 0.035658 | 0.072645 | 0 | 0.027431 | 0 | 0.079775 | 0.075662 | 0.037979 | 0.028456 | 0.05958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118362 | 0 | 0.105025 | 0.028288 | 0.020777 | 0.040954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145152 | 0 | 0.069615 | 0.074189 | 0 | 0.030775 | 0 | 0 | 0.042034 | 0 | 0 | 0.04339 | 0 | 0 | 0.064305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025941 | 0 | 0 | 0.025312 | 0.077916 | 0 | 0.022946 |
suicidewatch | idontknowanymore1346 | 2019/07/17 | Goodbye everyone I'm lonely, even though I have a fantastic family. I'm only 19 years, but so far, life sucks. I'm worthless, useless and a loser. | 0.710172 | 3.232089 | 3.920259 | 79.869353 | 91.068966 | 7.037931 | 24.491379 | 8.076483 | 2.319959 | 114 | 5 | 20 | 3 | 4 | 41 | 23 | 29 | 0.476 | 0.461 | 0.062 | -0.9455 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304813 | 0 | 0 | 0.440978 | 0 | 0 | 0.435056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297187 |
suicidewatch | kimchiiboiii | 2019/07/17 | worthless, lonely, bored, empty I'm so so tired of trying. I've had crazy social anxiety for most of my life and it was only later in high school that I started getting out of my shell. I had nobody in elementary school and middle school and when I was going into freshman year of high school I promised myself I would c... | 3.220305 | 5.242099 | 4.092405 | 86.111093 | 75.022989 | 6.509982 | 25.700242 | 7.37591 | 1.295943 | 1,748 | 62 | 336 | 21 | 38 | 561 | 197 | 435 | 0.089 | 0.726 | 0.185 | 0.9932 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 71 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 29 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 35 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 67 | 71 | 28 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 54 | 17 | 53 | 50 | 5 | 41 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 24 | 2 | 6 | 16 | 228 | 77 | 8 | 0.048608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368669 | 0.41345 | 0 | 0 | 0.037185 | 0 | 0.096413 | 0 | 0 | 0.04 | 0 | 0.045442 | 0 | 0 | 0.037377 | 0 | 0.088893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099119 | 0 | 0.051421 | 0 | 0.050965 | 0 | 0 | 0.077619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040606 | 0.054678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032105 | 0 | 0 | 0.046447 | 0.043686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122889 | 0.069451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075109 | 0.089875 | 0.076187 | 0 | 0.027625 | 0.081541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032581 | 0.154072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068667 | 0.071243 | 0 | 0 | 0.043017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045994 | 0.097339 | 0.049281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036042 | 0.074979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032938 | 0.036969 | 0 | 0 | 0.053974 | 0 | 0 | 0.067398 | 0.042443 | 0 | 0 | 0.04595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03114 | 0 | 0 | 0.052187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048665 | 0.295165 | 0 | 0.044251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04955 | 0.082371 | 0.037421 | 0.048075 | 0 | 0.06881 | 0 | 0.038819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055645 | 0 | 0.05516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195347 | 0.042486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064586 | 0.031146 | 0 | 0 | 0.028344 | 0.055868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10359 | 0.106291 | 0.41345 | 0.031302 |
suicidewatch | Hervit123 | 2019/07/17 | I screwed up my life and now I don't know what to do Wow, if 10 year old me could see me now... I intended for so much better. I'm 25, other people my age are already ahead in their careers, settled with families of their own, driving. And then there's me, I feel so pathetic and hopeless. I am about to enter my second ... | 3.557091 | 4.658094 | 4.978409 | 83.860114 | 72.363636 | 8.227273 | 28.522727 | 8.660443 | 2.028477 | 1,692 | 65 | 354 | 30 | 32 | 567 | 209 | 440 | 0.158 | 0.757 | 0.084 | -0.9743 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 47 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 26 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 40 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 69 | 71 | 37 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 63 | 8 | 46 | 45 | 6 | 63 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 21 | 22 | 2 | 4 | 32 | 243 | 77 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088246 | 0 | 0.066539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184469 | 0 | 0.146242 | 0 | 0.136092 | 0 | 0 | 0.070724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082148 | 0.084595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075386 | 0 | 0.080868 | 0.057129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167118 | 0 | 0.136342 | 0 | 0 | 0.088164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043948 | 0.130368 | 0 | 0.084674 | 0.173769 | 0 | 0.338899 | 0.078136 | 0 | 0.141225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087294 | 0 | 0.072173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084992 | 0.058785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083912 | 0 | 0 | 0.060819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068292 | 0.076067 | 0 | 0 | 0.323724 | 0.19117 | 0.072799 | 0.083423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061563 | 0 | 0 | 0.056601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053127 | 0.05124 | 0 | 0.063485 | 0.093259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1438 | 0.148261 | 0 | 0 | 0.091958 | 0 | 0 | 0.058217 | 0 | 0 | 0.227225 | 0 | 0 | 0.257481 |
suicidewatch | crasswriter | 2019/07/17 | I give up. I have no friends. Nothing tying me to this earth. Lost my final lifeline today.
I'm not doing this any more.
Goodbye. | -1.329103 | -0.239974 | 1.076923 | 95.059744 | 120.153846 | 1.733333 | 19.717949 | 3.1291 | -0.544697 | 99 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 6 | 33 | 23 | 26 | 0.163 | 0.725 | 0.112 | -0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310523 | 0 | 0 | 0.385559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gigo_989 | 2019/07/17 | Released from an involuntary hold at a psychiatric hospital and found out I lost everything. My car was repossessed, my girlfriend cheated on me, my job cut my hours drastically. Guys, I don’t want to start over. I feel the courage I have right now is stronger than my will to survive. I’m so goddamn tired of this life.... | 0.187212 | 2.49369 | 2.053077 | 94.591923 | 89.096154 | 5.507692 | 22.423077 | 7.010147 | 0.682696 | 389 | 15 | 88 | 6 | 13 | 128 | 72 | 104 | 0.202 | 0.707 | 0.091 | -0.9062 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 56 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244784 | 0 | 0 | 0.182542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ttthrowaaaway325 | 2019/07/17 | I just can't handle the world So. I'm in college, living with my family still. I have four papers due in the next week or so, haven't started three of them and one of them I've barely begun. I'm gonna fail these four courses that my father dropped over a thousand dollars on. I know I have no one to blame but myself for... | 2.489244 | 4.145243 | 4.024109 | 87.40692 | 76.058824 | 6.944874 | 23.664706 | 7.734863 | 1.045772 | 908 | 28 | 193 | 13 | 20 | 302 | 131 | 238 | 0.238 | 0.749 | 0.013 | -0.9958 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 16 | 14 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 35 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 31 | 1 | 26 | 24 | 6 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 136 | 42 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106084 | 0 | 0.120516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217229 | 0 | 0.115858 | 0.252202 | 0.243055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091055 | 0.06298 | 0 | 0.113832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102897 | 0 | 0.094766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144412 | 0.137114 | 0 | 0 | 0.082585 | 0 | 0.127286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144903 | 0 | 0 | 0.109227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091245 | 0 | 0.10295 | 0 | 0.295338 | 0 | 0.147574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082602 | 0 | 0.102342 | 0.07517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09385 | 0 | 0 | 0.183152 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | goingtodoit22 | 2019/07/17 | I can't take it anymore What's the best way that's the least painful? I can't take it anymore, I almost jumped in front of a train today.... Something healed me back from doing it. Nothing has ever gotten better, and I never really feel happy... Not for long at least. I've felt like shit for over a month now. I've been... | -0.984615 | 1.060816 | 1.067385 | 101.302615 | 92.333333 | 3.803761 | 13.782906 | 5.2151 | -1.286908 | 411 | 7 | 101 | 2 | 15 | 135 | 76 | 117 | 0.057 | 0.811 | 0.133 | 0.8091 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 11 | 16 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 64 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184559 | 0.155538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116157 | 0.15908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088922 | 0 | 0.168858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124218 | 0.085919 | 0 | 0 | 0.311269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140373 | 0 | 0.129281 | 0 | 0.135638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166699 | 0.168046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19228 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jepey27 | 2019/07/17 | Im contemplating ending it I don't think I need to go indepth, most of you have heard all the stories there is to hear. Life is meaningless and the only thing that keeps me going to nature and drugs . Parents , bad . Friendships, meaningless and over. Love life , gone. I don't see a reason to keep on going | 1.003 | 3.577634 | 2.478333 | 90.6525 | 89.333333 | 5 | 19.166667 | 6.627428 | 0.298167 | 238 | 7 | 47 | 3 | 8 | 77 | 45 | 60 | 0.145 | 0.749 | 0.106 | -0.3612 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247508 | 0 | 0 | 0.407337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17427 | 0 | 0 | 0.254431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152229 | 0.146822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Merrvet | 2019/07/17 | what's the point? i've been considering to kill myself recently but i just can't seem to get myself to do it. i just don't see a point to living. my future seems hopeless because i have no aspirations in life besides not wanting to be alive, nor do i have any reasons to live. i'm exhausted and tired of life and i just ... | 0.794104 | 2.81257 | 2.962106 | 91.249652 | 82.866667 | 5.513043 | 20.449275 | 6.70267 | 0.302119 | 828 | 24 | 180 | 9 | 23 | 281 | 117 | 225 | 0.214 | 0.674 | 0.112 | -0.9724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 23 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 45 | 12 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 4 | 27 | 39 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 118 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091338 | 0 | 0 | 0.068113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190675 | 0.053879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114093 | 0.107389 | 0.11335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291362 | 0.050382 | 0 | 0.273185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159073 | 0.099599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214482 | 0 | 0.107744 | 0 | 0.194973 | 0 | 0.197531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103153 | 0 | 0 | 0.10603 | 0.203648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082009 | 0 | 0 | 0.082177 | 0.281644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060133 | 0.237055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Newoldgoodbad | 2019/07/17 | No money, no passion, no success, keeps getting worse I don't even know how to frame this. I've been thinking about suicide for years, probably close to 8 years now. I tell myself it'll get better, I will be okay, tomorrow is a new day. It's worked so far, but every time the thought gets stronger. I have a plan, next t... | 3.177366 | 4.546742 | 4.109409 | 88.680362 | 73.662379 | 6.983976 | 26.7847 | 7.492282 | 1.285299 | 1,197 | 43 | 254 | 14 | 24 | 386 | 187 | 311 | 0.143 | 0.704 | 0.152 | 0.4596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 49 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 52 | 55 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 33 | 12 | 31 | 38 | 12 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 18 | 156 | 43 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070404 | 0.127553 | 0.098276 | 0 | 0 | 0.102145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092212 | 0 | 0 | 0.148967 | 0 | 0.099474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152565 | 0 | 0.097308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103459 | 0.114026 | 0 | 0 | 0.130169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102656 | 0.127776 | 0 | 0.190416 | 0.094143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163153 | 0.112848 | 0 | 0.203966 | 0 | 0.096985 | 0 | 0 | 0.196377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232057 | 0 | 0 | 0.116347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085637 | 0 | 0.111544 | 0.122829 | 0 | 0 | 0.221638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073988 | 0.118746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109861 | 0 | 0 | 0.116885 | 0.2761 | 0.105141 | 0.120485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086837 | 0 | 0.100946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076729 | 0.074003 | 0 | 0.091689 | 0.067345 | 0.132743 | 0 | 0.110359 | 0 | 0.156825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084081 | 0 | 0.117698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223122 |
suicidewatch | WaitingforNothing5 | 2019/07/17 | My self-disgust is worse than ever. I want to escape myself I've never been happy. That's not just something I'm saying either. I was 8 when I wanted to kill myself for the first time. I ran in front of a car intentionally but I was a kid and they thought I was just being careless.
I'm 26 now and I've been living wit... | 0.734986 | 2.508491 | 2.823276 | 93.468221 | 81.709552 | 5.279373 | 20.410908 | 6.182691 | 0.022148 | 1,844 | 51 | 419 | 14 | 49 | 623 | 205 | 513 | 0.259 | 0.655 | 0.086 | -0.9989 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 60 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 34 | 14 | 1 | 26 | 1 | 39 | 11 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 83 | 87 | 38 | 3 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 25 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 63 | 9 | 62 | 64 | 13 | 49 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 13 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 25 | 287 | 92 | 0 | 0 | 0.153106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053947 | 0.078772 | 0.071357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070972 | 0 | 0 | 0.111298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053974 | 0.072678 | 0.114452 | 0.3338 | 0 | 0.042675 | 0.116888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163345 | 0.046158 | 0 | 0.070778 | 0 | 0.054958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238926 | 0.101269 | 0 | 0.03672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068779 | 0 | 0.06379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142964 | 0 | 0.035508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045636 | 0.126262 | 0 | 0.114105 | 0.057178 | 0.217027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086256 | 0 | 0 | 0.07038 | 0 | 0 | 0.130225 | 0 | 0.260953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047496 | 0.191632 | 0.099663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063305 | 0.123991 | 0 | 0 | 0.068808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069967 | 0 | 0.089586 | 0.112831 | 0.067504 | 0.070923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061824 | 0 | 0.064952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073541 | 0.082782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102762 | 0.064687 | 0 | 0.051486 | 0.058819 | 0.134806 | 0 | 0 | 0.053447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109489 | 0.04974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051932 | 0.056473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128773 | 0 | 0 | 0.051294 | 0.113025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152436 | 0.051285 | 0 | 0 | 0.116185 | 0.059895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131688 | 0 | 0.211925 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cheymaloc | 2019/07/17 | Too scared to be alone, but can't be around others. I think I'm getting close to a suicide attempt. I can feel it. I've been having bad day after bad day and I can't fucking take it anymore. I'm terrified of what I can end up doing, but being around others is mentally exhausting. I have a plan. I wanna go through with ... | 0.041393 | 1.889148 | 2.430296 | 94.970127 | 84.573123 | 5.473335 | 20.007449 | 6.671995 | 0.122538 | 892 | 26 | 211 | 10 | 26 | 305 | 118 | 253 | 0.35 | 0.549 | 0.101 | -0.9979 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 30 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 47 | 63 | 20 | 4 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 26 | 6 | 28 | 49 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 134 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184087 | 0 | 0 | 0.073948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088136 | 0.062141 | 0 | 0 | 0.316457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148407 | 0.054175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16984 | 0.079872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089872 | 0.06349 | 0 | 0 | 0.081227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24648 | 0.046432 | 0.085253 | 0.050508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097211 | 0 | 0.08376 | 0 | 0.06682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059042 | 0.170835 | 0 | 0.141108 | 0.051821 | 0.612866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097879 | 0 | 0.157256 | 0.070542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05723 |
suicidewatch | stalingulag | 2019/07/17 | 28m virgin. No friends, no loved once, shitty dead end job. Miserable. Drunk. Wanna end it. i don't even know what you can say,it's just i'm actually scared of death, but this life is just unbearable | -0.207236 | 2.098055 | 1.753049 | 94.66502 | 95.097561 | 5.660163 | 16.589431 | 7.168622 | 0.157289 | 155 | 4 | 35 | 3 | 6 | 51 | 36 | 41 | 0.357 | 0.545 | 0.098 | -0.8338 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.301263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.546863 | 0 | 0 | 0.203905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245504 | 0.30908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jojoharman55 | 2019/07/17 | I feel like I'm at my breaking point I just can't take waking up another day feeling this way anymore. I can't handle not being in control of my own life. No matter what I've tried I can't make the changes needed for my life to improve. I get stopped and discouraged and forbidden by people in my life constantly. And si... | 0.923271 | 2.81548 | 2.935709 | 92.294818 | 81.666667 | 5.541161 | 21.032389 | 6.596605 | 0.282846 | 713 | 21 | 158 | 7 | 19 | 240 | 103 | 195 | 0.091 | 0.833 | 0.076 | -0.164 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 31 | 36 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 2 | 19 | 30 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 102 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086252 | 0.132998 | 0 | 0 | 0.503146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134175 | 0 | 0 | 0.137064 | 0.142256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192395 | 0.181222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066266 | 0 | 0.144167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26964 | 0 | 0 | 0.17003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35835 | 0.123931 | 0 | 0.223996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149621 | 0.201352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | once_upon_anime | 2019/07/17 | I’m considering killing myself If you go read my other post I just did you understand that any guy who enters my life treats me like shit and uses me then leaves
I’m tired of it. I know that no guys in my entire town and high school are gonna treat me any better. I know I’m gonna have to wait probably another five ye... | 1.116111 | 2.693125 | 2.695278 | 95.77625 | 79.740741 | 5.685185 | 18.657407 | 6.427356 | -0.269704 | 485 | 10 | 116 | 4 | 12 | 159 | 89 | 135 | 0.096 | 0.746 | 0.159 | 0.765 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 8 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 64 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299233 | 0.153802 | 0 | 0 | 0.145462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12481 | 0 | 0 | 0.129722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129911 | 0 | 0 | 0.096878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074163 | 0.104785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162274 | 0 | 0.161218 | 0 | 0 | 0.155308 | 0 | 0 | 0.103601 | 0.143316 | 0 | 0.129517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111553 | 0 | 0 | 0.162866 | 0 | 0 | 0.101686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138656 | 0 | 0.140474 | 0 | 0.158141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146715 | 0 | 0 | 0.150807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148443 | 0.233762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152694 | 0 | 0.12668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094454 |
suicidewatch | commaoxford | 2019/07/17 | Wouldn’t It Be Easier Than Living? For those that have been here, mentally, I would love to hear the things that made you decide that living was better than not. Every time I’m idealizing suicide, I think to myself that it would be so much easier if I just didn’t have to do it anymore, if all the problems I have just w... | 4.493404 | 5.661912 | 4.721766 | 86.3235 | 70.205674 | 7.342128 | 25.447518 | 7.554174 | 1.18025 | 565 | 16 | 112 | 6 | 10 | 177 | 76 | 141 | 0.104 | 0.727 | 0.17 | 0.8333 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 33 | 9 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 10 | 5 | 10 | 20 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 83 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149407 | 0.211096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166517 | 0 | 0.099029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208711 | 0.14436 | 0 | 0.26092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133344 | 0.139798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22748 | 0.292244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196308 | 0.189336 | 0 | 0 | 0.08615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209905 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | elusive1988 | 2019/07/17 | Failed suicide attempt Yesterday I clean my house, packed my bag with robe and went into the woods. I arrived there at 10pm and smoked a few sigartes and listened to the animal noises. I prepared my rope and let myself drop. The first minute was peacefull but then I started having a panic attack and started seeing all ... | 0.826903 | 3.121015 | 2.883302 | 90.123884 | 85.084906 | 5.608805 | 21.097484 | 6.996648 | 0.636131 | 803 | 26 | 166 | 11 | 24 | 270 | 121 | 212 | 0.268 | 0.567 | 0.165 | -0.9714 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 48 | 18 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 26 | 8 | 17 | 36 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 108 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161277 | 0.133192 | 0 | 0.118367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120585 | 0 | 0 | 0.109527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144963 | 0 | 0.069259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208426 | 0.105116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16633 | 0 | 0 | 0.13533 | 0.294844 | 0.123783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141802 | 0 | 0.181635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200683 | 0 | 0 | 0.118521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | It_Is_Me_Official | 2019/07/17 | This is so hard. I want to kill myself, no courage to do it but I'm getting close Hopefully writing this means I ain't going to carry out with it but it's so god damn tempting.
I honestly can't keep living like this, I am sick of myself and my head burning all the time.
It doesn't matter how much self improvement I p... | -0.154538 | 1.638546 | 2.493526 | 94.551058 | 84.948718 | 5.335897 | 18.467949 | 6.508806 | -0.119313 | 679 | 17 | 161 | 7 | 20 | 236 | 104 | 195 | 0.222 | 0.547 | 0.232 | 0.3391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 31 | 44 | 13 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 30 | 11 | 22 | 32 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 116 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117218 | 0 | 0 | 0.087412 | 0 | 0 | 0.126461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066917 | 0.094547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138289 | 0 | 0.225644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118555 | 0 | 0.135824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117634 | 0.292839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186958 | 0.193971 | 0 | 0.116863 | 0 | 0 | 0.14806 | 0 | 0 | 0.119446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105691 | 0 | 0.1516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084801 | 0 | 0 | 0.154342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156121 | 0.105049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15219 | 0.255151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HipHop_Junkie | 2019/07/17 | I'm tempted to end it tonight Everyday i wake up thinking of suicide, i wanna put it into action tonight. My depression is coming back after i thought it was gone for good. I pray to god, I hope and nothing happens to get better. I've been going to community college and failed almost every class. My own family is plann... | 2.66267 | 4.292055 | 4.273459 | 85.916063 | 75.519337 | 7.257606 | 26.431308 | 8.021204 | 1.598127 | 1,388 | 52 | 286 | 22 | 30 | 465 | 194 | 362 | 0.195 | 0.624 | 0.181 | -0.8648 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 42 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 28 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 25 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 61 | 58 | 27 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 45 | 19 | 41 | 47 | 8 | 41 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 187 | 59 | 6 | 0 | 0.107428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069362 | 0 | 0.089919 | 0.063398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069719 | 0 | 0.110542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072392 | 0.100324 | 0 | 0.116948 | 0 | 0.156186 | 0 | 0.0941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203981 | 0.080306 | 0.093685 | 0 | 0.179658 | 0 | 0.152785 | 0.086638 | 0.081488 | 0 | 0.085475 | 0 | 0.045845 | 0.064774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140101 | 0 | 0.142113 | 0 | 0.206117 | 0.228147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089777 | 0.080178 | 0.096519 | 0 | 0.089517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094635 | 0.089975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099659 | 0 | 0 | 0.096005 | 0 | 0.092715 | 0.192127 | 0.088593 | 0 | 0.240187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32733 | 0.085793 | 0.060522 | 0 | 0.091089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192855 | 0.085087 | 0 | 0.086999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098186 | 0 | 0.062859 | 0.079169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090735 | 0.092426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116194 | 0.089082 | 0.071981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160437 | 0 | 0.072729 | 0 | 0.081522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Quenald_ | 2019/07/17 | I wanted to die today I was in school today and all I could think about was going into the toilets and finding a way or coming up with a way to kill myself.
Please comfort me. | 2.176396 | 3.571568 | 4.209189 | 86.851802 | 76.297297 | 4.933333 | 20.441441 | 3.1291 | -0.147461 | 137 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 47 | 29 | 37 | 0.208 | 0.676 | 0.116 | -0.7003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.50774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157972 | 0.42518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HotRabbit999 | 2019/07/17 | What’s the point? My wife announced yesterday that she’s leaving me & taking our kids with her. My kids will know me as a weekend dad, I’ll miss all the milestones in their lives & will be just another loser in a tiny apartment living of beans & shit. If I kill myself they’ll know me as a loving dad & n... | 3.2325 | 4.13526 | 4.198571 | 89.896429 | 72.928571 | 7.028571 | 22.928571 | 7.168622 | 0.628836 | 420 | 10 | 92 | 4 | 8 | 136 | 76 | 112 | 0.175 | 0.72 | 0.105 | -0.8312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 51 | 17 | 0 | 0.131791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.713979 | 0 | 0.089623 | 0.138195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092151 | 0 | 0 | 0.117322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117142 | 0.145807 | 0 | 0.144858 | 0 | 0 | 0.139548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084429 | 0.135503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099091 | 0.105929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084447 | 0 | 0 | 0.076849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SadAssociation4 | 2019/07/17 | My online friend is experiencing suicidal thoughts and is talking about the act and I don't know what to do First thing's first, I've known this friend for a few years by this point. Three years. We met online. I do not have knowledge of their address nor their personal phone number (I suspect they worry I might try to... | 4.185473 | 5.464179 | 4.775526 | 85.232227 | 71.054054 | 7.319319 | 26.406406 | 7.662119 | 1.372205 | 1,474 | 47 | 292 | 17 | 27 | 471 | 177 | 370 | 0.115 | 0.82 | 0.064 | -0.9403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 5 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 51 | 61 | 21 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 8 | 51 | 9 | 46 | 48 | 8 | 31 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 43 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 211 | 75 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076626 | 0.054026 | 0 | 0.127165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059412 | 0 | 0.0942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079657 | 0.066548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068434 | 0 | 0 | 0.153099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07558 | 0 | 0 | 0.117203 | 0.055198 | 0 | 0 | 0.070619 | 0.131443 | 0 | 0 | 0.11939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054575 | 0.113244 | 0 | 0 | 0.068377 | 0.064883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202395 | 0 | 0 | 0.146081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077286 | 0 | 0.098996 | 0 | 0.15258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152835 | 0 | 0.054689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169031 | 0 | 0.072822 | 0 | 0 | 0.248411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102663 | 0.049508 | 0.151825 | 0.06134 | 0.135162 | 0 | 0.073238 | 0.07383 | 0 | 0.209832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066732 | 0 | 0.063752 | 0.182292 | 0.06133 | 0 | 0 | 0.069471 | 0 | 0.06972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05625 | 0.470799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099513 |
suicidewatch | Thr0waway31212 | 2019/07/17 | I'm tired I dont know how to be happy anymore. I'm 33 years old. I feel like a machine. Work 11-12 hours a day. I come home and play with my kids. I've been in a relationship for almost 12 years. I feel numb every day and I feel like I'm holding her back from real happiness. She loves me dearly but I cant get my emoti... | -0.370858 | 1.728539 | 1.824509 | 96.898554 | 89 | 4.345025 | 18.822761 | 5.7366 | -0.355148 | 720 | 21 | 167 | 5 | 24 | 241 | 128 | 201 | 0.123 | 0.697 | 0.18 | 0.8084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 34 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 30 | 9 | 20 | 27 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 97 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128027 | 0 | 0 | 0.106234 | 0.114922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107842 | 0.145214 | 0.343019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116774 | 0.108768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145267 | 0.195823 | 0.184451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067447 | 0 | 0.073368 | 0 | 0 | 0.142327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129493 | 0 | 0.127132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114745 | 0 | 0 | 0.070947 | 0 | 0.145625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116513 | 0 | 0.086172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12387 | 0.146975 | 0.135463 | 0 | 0.087478 | 0.098182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138599 | 0 | 0.110246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117523 | 0.134674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085765 | 0 | 0 | 0.102487 | 0 | 0.148375 | 0 | 0.123356 | 0 | 0.087647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076143 | 0 | 0 | 0.157203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166266 |
suicidewatch | WingzQQ | 2019/07/17 | I feel helpless and lone I've been having suicidal thoughts for some time now, but I dont have anyone to tell about it, I feel like they would make a scene out of it and blow things out of proportion or just straight look at me as if I just wanted to draw attention instead of understanding, I need someone to talk, (un)... | 8.358298 | 5.458741 | 8.136702 | 78.5825 | 63.468085 | 11.52766 | 36.265957 | 9.516145 | 2.956221 | 360 | 12 | 80 | 5 | 4 | 116 | 67 | 94 | 0.123 | 0.774 | 0.103 | 0.0348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 19 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 56 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211179 | 0.149187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167848 | 0.182525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277472 | 0.133808 | 0 | 0.165786 | 0.121769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29669 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nozomi04 | 2019/07/17 | tired i’m so sick of this.
nothing is ever going to get better. my life is always the same. i’m never going to be better. i’ve tried medicine and therapists and nothing helps. i will never be able to do anything because of my terrible anxiety. i hate myself, everything about me. i just want to be happy and whenever i t... | 2.089932 | 4.472362 | 3.857719 | 84.587138 | 80.402439 | 6.297848 | 26.110473 | 7.510576 | 1.640549 | 651 | 27 | 121 | 10 | 17 | 218 | 95 | 164 | 0.186 | 0.706 | 0.109 | -0.9342 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 27 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 8 | 19 | 23 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 89 | 32 | 1 | 0.133008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146777 | 0 | 0.110673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146103 | 0.085779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120313 | 0 | 0.127095 | 0.239078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069491 | 0 | 0.151183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283179 | 0 | 0.131318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140836 | 0 | 0 | 0.281842 | 0.129962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205168 | 0.12846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154432 | 0 | 0.085226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | woahmygolly | 2019/07/17 | Tiny hemlock seeds I'm a 37 year old woman living with bipolar, GAD and PTSD. I've got nothing going for me. I live on under $900 in disability a month, my credit score is shit and I have to rely on my 83 year old father for rides because I can't afford a car. My life is boring and I'm stuck. It's the same thing day ... | -0.24123 | 1.519104 | 2.438107 | 95.011989 | 85.058394 | 4.498227 | 18.544838 | 5.288315 | -0.517442 | 474 | 12 | 113 | 2 | 14 | 165 | 96 | 137 | 0.095 | 0.876 | 0.029 | -0.7351 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 18 | 16 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 63 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31665 | 0 | 0.148539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164233 | 0 | 0 | 0.183362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189913 | 0.131181 | 0 | 0 | 0.327991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178205 | 0 | 0.389767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190641 | 0 | 0 | 0.185856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239197 |
suicidewatch | ijustneedathrowaway3 | 2019/07/17 | I'm tired of trying. So yesterday was my birthday and it fucking sucked. I turned a big "adult" age and was super nervous about the birthday for awhile because due to my traumatic past I never really figured I would get this far in life.
Well none of my friends really even texted me for my birthday. I spent it alone ... | 5.040061 | 5.722519 | 5.947713 | 79.804985 | 68.634146 | 8.589024 | 29.196138 | 8.660443 | 2.129277 | 981 | 34 | 191 | 15 | 16 | 324 | 144 | 246 | 0.155 | 0.729 | 0.116 | -0.7569 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 37 | 39 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 23 | 8 | 27 | 27 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 133 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131779 | 0 | 0.101751 | 0.105871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237899 | 0.14475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155125 | 0 | 0.108269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10629 | 0 | 0 | 0.13147 | 0 | 0.252116 | 0 | 0.107203 | 0.243161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12867 | 0.090898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098303 | 0.117628 | 0.066476 | 0 | 0.072312 | 0 | 0.101763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089871 | 0.124323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137785 | 0.121462 | 0.08821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259404 | 0.215615 | 0.097953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084531 | 0 | 0 | 0.101012 | 0 | 0.14624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259156 | 0.138397 | 0 | 0.132458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09263 | 0 | 0 | 0.090385 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrDextra | 2019/07/17 | I am Confused, afraid, and unsure of what to do the next couple of days. This has been something I've been trying to push against for months. I feel so perturbed by the high frequency of suicidal thoughts I've been having this past month. What makes it so unsettling is why. I live a good life, my family loves me and I ... | 3.001238 | 4.37206 | 3.453175 | 93.205 | 74.111111 | 6.772487 | 24.338624 | 7.263682 | 0.754529 | 1,032 | 31 | 231 | 11 | 21 | 321 | 140 | 270 | 0.121 | 0.754 | 0.125 | -0.2283 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 21 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 26 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 45 | 52 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 43 | 9 | 38 | 36 | 2 | 43 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 159 | 54 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187467 | 0.230142 | 0.083301 | 0.060817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238966 | 0.11039 | 0 | 0.193023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176727 | 0 | 0 | 0.065895 | 0 | 0.084057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188102 | 0 | 0.201779 | 0.142546 | 0.095791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170098 | 0.083679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106802 | 0.112624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070468 | 0.146222 | 0 | 0.088095 | 0 | 0.167557 | 0.111613 | 0 | 0 | 0.090043 | 0.094401 | 0.066595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201471 | 0 | 0.159265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106103 | 0.093624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076805 | 0.098671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09802 | 0.23761 | 0.058175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090024 | 0 | 0.114726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109079 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | heeeeeeeeey-yaaaaaah | 2019/07/17 | If I don’t pass my summer classes, I WILL kill myself, no questions asked. Hey kids, just lost my job (and with that, my only “friends”) and I want to step in front of a bus. However, the literal only thing keeping me alive is the prospect of graduation in December and the bleak promise that I won’t turn out into an ev... | 3.334327 | 3.919121 | 5.041775 | 85.123301 | 72.430421 | 7.827462 | 26.688396 | 7.957252 | 1.484873 | 1,142 | 37 | 245 | 15 | 21 | 390 | 171 | 309 | 0.138 | 0.768 | 0.094 | -0.9413 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 19 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 47 | 42 | 25 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 35 | 10 | 35 | 32 | 8 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 175 | 42 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123565 | 0 | 0 | 0.104398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320189 | 0.219253 | 0 | 0.115806 | 0 | 0 | 0.11425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132762 | 0.110769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187268 | 0.112041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120266 | 0.107722 | 0.134083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085603 | 0.118418 | 0 | 0 | 0.107252 | 0 | 0 | 0.132297 | 0 | 0.109382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122135 | 0 | 0 | 0.14194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164248 | 0.184346 | 0.128958 | 0 | 0 | 0.131241 | 0 | 0 | 0.105822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121833 | 0.135765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122654 | 0.096576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080516 | 0 | 0 | 0.096214 | 0.070669 | 0.139294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131824 | 0.118388 | 0.252334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214449 | 0.192396 | 0 | 0 | 0.108968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SunnySucc2 | 2019/07/17 | Got anti depressants... So my doc prescribed me anti depressants. For other reasons, not my mental illness. I don't know what I feel about it to be honest. I took one right now. What will it do? I have no idea. Will it give me momentary escape from this hell like cocaine does? will it turn me into a zombie as some peop... | 0.386913 | 2.663538 | 2.497143 | 92.171525 | 87.220339 | 5.066344 | 18.598063 | 6.543119 | 0.095952 | 441 | 12 | 93 | 5 | 14 | 148 | 72 | 118 | 0.189 | 0.667 | 0.145 | -0.8646 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 4 | 11 | 19 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 71 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380813 | 0 | 0.290774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15359 | 0 | 0.159373 | 0.094419 | 0 | 0.132874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169886 | 0 | 0.081166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141879 | 0 | 0.132118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184583 | 0 | 0.180708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mindsalike | 2019/07/17 | My brother told me I wouldn’t live to see 20 because I would kill myself, guess he might be right Tomorrow I’m going out for a hike with a friend, I plan on doing it tomorrow. I don’t know how I’m going to do it, I don’t know if I’m going to end up backing out. I might just jump off a cliff, and die in nature.
My pare... | 1.730543 | 2.081315 | 4.073641 | 91.460027 | 75.956522 | 7.48913 | 22.201087 | 7.645422 | 0.598239 | 390 | 9 | 98 | 5 | 8 | 137 | 71 | 115 | 0.234 | 0.674 | 0.092 | -0.9623 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 29 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 15 | 21 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 65 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146755 | 0 | 0.116343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164383 | 0 | 0.198077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16904 | 0 | 0 | 0.126057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17992 | 0 | 0.096502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211152 | 0 | 0.209777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207364 | 0 | 0.269612 | 0 | 0 | 0.168528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172253 | 0.180591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135577 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PsychoChaser | 2019/07/17 | I was contemplating on ending myself today, but I found the motivation to keep going in the most unusual and shallow circumstances. I’m Latino, that’s something important to mention.
Anyway a family friend had just died, and they did a crap photoshopped a picture of him on his bike in the sky with angel wings and a ha... | 4.725562 | 6.265911 | 5.966292 | 76.205 | 70.06383 | 9.626748 | 28.322188 | 9.957138 | 2.890576 | 388 | 14 | 71 | 10 | 7 | 130 | 68 | 94 | 0.153 | 0.752 | 0.095 | -0.7856 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 52 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249121 | 0 | 0 | 0.371551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308397 | 0.217307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sammyhammy77 | 2019/07/17 | I'm the closest to suicide than I've ever been. I think I've truly given up. I've always been passive about actually commiting suicide, I've made plans and shit, you know, the usual - but I never went through with it.
I've always thought if i ever actually wanted to kill myself, I'd plan it, to make it the least painf... | 3.286361 | 4.798948 | 4.710267 | 83.907003 | 73.630072 | 8.038215 | 26.778115 | 8.666027 | 1.922659 | 1,634 | 59 | 331 | 31 | 33 | 545 | 198 | 419 | 0.143 | 0.683 | 0.174 | 0.9291 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 76 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 32 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 76 | 69 | 26 | 5 | 10 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 35 | 15 | 47 | 49 | 10 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 15 | 2 | 20 | 15 | 207 | 63 | 2 | 0.071961 | 0 | 0.210671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079411 | 0 | 0.119755 | 0 | 0 | 0.048936 | 0.075457 | 0 | 0 | 0.071366 | 0.050317 | 0 | 0.059218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076125 | 0.061988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062974 | 0.073641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166791 | 0 | 0.075193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096468 | 0 | 0 | 0.142947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159229 | 0 | 0.19774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101657 | 0.10547 | 0 | 0.063543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078554 | 0.061179 | 0.064948 | 0.068091 | 0.048035 | 0 | 0 | 0.391934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076483 | 0 | 0 | 0.166503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048763 | 0 | 0.076572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099778 | 0.062834 | 0 | 0.236975 | 0 | 0.081125 | 0.275675 | 0 | 0.232759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1844 | 0.073988 | 0.071053 | 0 | 0 | 0.061454 | 0 | 0.114453 | 0 | 0 | 0.057344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121945 | 0.110798 | 0 | 0.161109 | 0 | 0 | 0.057468 | 0.060163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115679 | 0 | 0 | 0.082294 | 0 | 0 | 0.04611 | 0.070701 | 0.057129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079255 | 0 | 0.042445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064702 | 0.066709 | 0 | 0.080342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104777 | 0.07308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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