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ive been out of work for about a year and tomorrow i have my first hour shift i have to be on my foot for most of the day and am still in the process of learning what i need to do and the worst part is i will be there alone for the last hour of my shift im super anxious about this a i haven t worked an hour shift in a year or more and i wasn t super good at handling them back then either any tip for getting through longer shift with anxiety and fear of failing or getting in trouble somehow | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i ve just walked half an hour to my therapy appointment and i m not even sure if my appointment is today or not they didn t send a reminder this is my second appointment with them it should be today and i think she said next monday but i feel like i m going to embarrass myself by showing up and it s the wrong day not only that but i had another appointment today that i had to reschedule because i thought i wouldn t be able to make it but then i realised i read the time wrong and i would ve made it i m just an idiot i hate being me edit it all worked out i panicked over nothing like the idiot i am d | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
missed today s ellen | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
when i got my diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder i wa very optimistic and relieved i had been living with this condition for many year completely unaware the diagnosis wa a spark of hope perhaps one day i d be able to recover with the proper combination of therapy and medication year later now i must admit i feel exhausted with life it s really depressing to live with the knowledge that i have to be constantly alert to my condition or it will spiral and get worse yes treatment can help but needing to continually use cbt meditation grounding technique etc just to do the thing normal people do without difficulty is infuriating i feel like this isn t nearly talked about enough in mental health circle anxiety and depression are portrayed often a condition which can be fixed with the right cocktail and not also sometimes a life long condition which can exhaust not only you but your loved one i don t know just feeling bitter today | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
over lockdown i started binge eating to get through it wa fucking fantastic i d just get unbelievably stoned and eat and then suddenly it s tomorrow i didn t have to deal with anything but i don t enjoy eating anymore i don t like food it suck and i m at work and i pig out just to try make myself feel better because i guess that s what i do and i felt horrible so i thought hey is a good a year a any to develop an eating disorder so i tried throwing up in the toilet and literally couldn t get anything up i just gagged and then i pull back and suddenly the cloud change and i m just bathed in sunlight kneeling on the floor of a bathroom and i just couldn t stop thinking of those prayer add that say try praying and couldn t stop laughing for like 0 minute i wanted to share because i think it s really funny but who tf am i telling this story to so you get it anyways now i feel spewy af and need a smoke hope you enjoyed xo | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i think i am having a nervous breakdown i need help i have too much going on i cant even get into detail i had a panic attack and i kept hitting myself in the face it 0am right now i dont want to say whats going on particularly but i have absolutely nobody there for me or anybody willing to help i had a panic attack about minute ago it am a im writing this right now i got up from my bed and walked into the bathroom and i got into the bathtub and sat down and stared at the wall for minute i dont know where my head is ive been sitting here for 0 minute now i really need help right now ive never posted anything like this to a subreddit or any other website so this is almost a last resort for me | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
it s all rainy and cloudy and stuff today for me but even if it wasn t i d still feel this way | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
m i had extreme anxiety depression year of my short life i spent in a bedroom avoiding human contact at all cost didn t show up for family event had 0 friend cancelled every appointment someone else made for me to keep it short i seen no light at the end of the tunnel i realized the mental destruction wa all within myself it took me year of dark endless thought to realize that anyone in the same position please consider this if you are stuck in a bedroom move it will change you for the better go for walk get comfortable going to the grocery store get out the comfort zone you are in amp you will become a better person my dream seemed so far fetch but to others it wa normal life force yourself god ha a plan for everyone on this earth and that includes you | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my parent recorded a great deal of my early childhood so there is a lot of footage of me when i wa very young i used to be the most innocent and carefree little boy who never even once thought about what others thought about him or the way he looked i never cared about being lonely it wa just me with me and my mom and dad and i wa the happiest kid in the world the smallest thing made me smile year later i am now miserable and wishing i wa dead i barely even speak to my parent anymore and i push away and resent everybody around me my parent are heartbroken by the fact that i don t speak to anyone i m horrified by how shit my life ha become and how terrible of a person i am now due to my own mental health deteriorating beyond control i had so many friend a year ago but all i do is push people away and be a burden seeing what i used to be and comparing it to what i am now make me want to cry every time i see a little kid being happy and innocent i wish so badly that i never grew up and i could have remained a happy little boy forever | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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goodnight nobody since i have no follower nobody can see me say this | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
not even 0am and there s far too much noise in the office should have worked from home today | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
also i shouldve bern asleep an hour ago | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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stupid thing wont let me get into my old twitter page so i had to make a new one | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
love is a joke with no punch line | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i 0m have had a rough past year my brother ha been in and out of psychiatric institute due to drug induced psychosis changed major life choice around my recent ex of year and am now living by myself in a college town doing all online class all of my friend are hour away and i can not seem to find connection with anybody where i live currently my mental health is on a steady decline despite being on medication and having therapy i drink alone frequently self harm almost every other day and when i try to get ahead i m constantly being pulled back i ve considered killing myself during the height of these past event yet for the first time i am enticed by the idea while having a relatively clear and calm conscious my studio apartment is hell for me a i am stuck in my head almost indefinitely i have no motivation to work on school or go to work regularly despite being a relatively driven person both ex i ve ever had see me a an emotionally abusive and controlling person and seem to have a lot of hatred for me i have always tried my best to be loving to everybody and never intentionally wronged them yet i allow them to hold power over my life even though i never see them after explaining these circumstance to my therapist she told me that it doe not classify a emotional abuse yet i still cling to those word i feel like i ruin everything around me without ever trying every time i get into my car i think about how easy it would be to just speed into a building of off a cliff i honestly don t know if i d be around to type this if i had a gun the only thing holding me back is my family and few close friend but sometimes i can completely disassociate from that reality the future scare the living hell out of me and i don t think i have a place on this earth people always say it get better but i have trouble believing that anymore i ve failed a a boyfriend brother son when all i ve ever wanted wa for people to see my true intention i don t want to go on living if it mean i continue to hurt people that i love | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i just wish i didn t have people and pet that wouldn t be bothered without me i have all the general visible asset of my gender identity but i still know i ll never be a girl | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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bugger the spray paint just showed up i spose that mean no riding and doing work for me now sad day | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
michigan state you make me sad | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
maybe an insomniac or just nocturnal | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depression is real lady lere jesa pay tsa rona bohloko | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
you know what suck finding out i have a burned out tail light when the store are closed plus they are not open before i work | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
morning folk 00 am yawn up amp away to see to horse hope twitter is better behaved today last night wa a travesty | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
ridley 0 i agree the shapeshifting is a copout i wa so excited for angela s ep i thought it wa this week noah wa awesome tho | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
rcompo rachel hang outage is neccessary i wa gon na be home this wekend but dumb folk make me work so im free f and sat until | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
sometimes i feel like a footnote in everyone life and that if i disappeared one day that no one would notice | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i just want someone to give me a reason not to go down this spiral and no one will everyone ha their own life and he s going to leave me soon i know it he s tired of the cry and self harm if he leaf me i ll just be alone and i ll have nothing left to live for | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
why is it that whenever i try to change or become better and i so i go chase new experience and end up going through learning or doing different thing it just becomes a bad memory i feel a if everything i had positive aspect to turn into something negative thing i think will turn out for the better turn out to be bad and miserable which make everything in my past and present miserable can anyone else relate or understand what i m trying to say it s hard to explain in word | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i miss my old version with zero depression lot of motivation drug free zero anxiety | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my family are all logical people who like to study and read lot of book the thing they study and read are about politics philosophy economics all that fun stuff since this is their favourite way to absorb information i wa wondering if there were any book suggestion out there to sort of educate my family they are open to it thanks in advanced | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i just got done with my psychiatrist appointment i don t feel good about it medication dosage got increased again that s all my life is medication therapy trying to make thing work and get better but it never happens i feel numb i don t feel anything at all right now the pain is so overwhelming i just can t feel anything i m one day away from being three week clean it doesn t matter i really feel like i m going to kill myself today i don t have enough medication to do it here and i need another method i know nobody care not really at the end of the day nobody care i m tired of being alone i m sure it s my own fault somehow everything s always my own fault i m tired i don t want to sleep i want to die | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
yay hannah montana on disney channel fun not | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
pissed coz a friend is too busy to see me day | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
writing i made when i wa really unhinged and on the brink i m okay now but just thought i d share because i feel like it s okay writing no instruction or specific included it s mostly poetic and broad i think i m going to go for a drive a nice long drive not to clear my head but to say goodbye say goodbye to that lovely wind that touch my face a i push my hand out through the window and dance with the gust a it glide and surf through the earth breath say goodbye to the random song i used to love that turn on on the radio that i had forgotten from a time of pure bliss goodbye to the really pretty white cloud that are shaped so smoothly a it contrast the bright blue say goodbye to the nice feeling i get in my body a a smile slowly creep in my face by this time i plan to have my note already written out all sitting neatly folded in my pocket this is no time for emotional anguish or the opening of floodgate of all distraught that s already been done with the ink that lie on those paper all my pain all my misery they re all tucked away in my pocket gone from my body my leg my face my eye my throat my breath i feel free free of chain that brought my neck so bent over the ground that feel so grey free from all thing holy and unholy a sort of satisfaction for a coward dy a thousand death and i am no longer scared i m going to redacted park to hike one last time to say goodbye to that long river that flow across the center to the tall tree that shaded enough sun to keep you warm yet comfortable i think i will do it there somewhere i ve never felt any sadness it s been many year of pain so maybe the last thing i ll do on this earth is smile | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
ive wanted to go for a while now and im just getting tired honestly i hope ill find a way before year because i dont wan na live much longer n i really dont have a future ahead of me | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
erickaaa im at workkkk im freezing too i need a mass hug from you can i call u night babe xxx | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
elmartinsz she said it will spiral her back into depression she might actually need help sha and maybe the parent too sef are being hurtful we don t exactly know her struggle but omo we always tend to support parent in these sort of situation | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i have the worst tmj right now how do you get yourself to be more mindful of this lol also are there any stretch massage that work for you in relieving tmj | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
reassure me i am fine my overactive mind is annoying i have been working graveyard shift at a food production plant the boss seem to really like me and have been training me on better paying position in the plant i have always been on time since i started in december today i somehow didn t hear my alarm go off woke up after my shift wa supposed to to start so i called and told them i wa having car trouble and i wouldn t make it in i guess my body wa so exhausted i just didn t wake up graveyard shift is new to me and my body still isn t used to it i ended up sleeping a total of hour a i went right back to sleep after calling in i must have been really sleep deprived totally unlike me to do and now i am just anxious about going in tomorrow there were some people missing multiple time a week and they got let go recently which is what make me anxious | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
join u next wednesday at am a we cover the urbanhealthcouncil s recent work on ecological health report present urbanisation role in disease development such a depression and it link to air pollution urban planning is healthcare http t co xoz rsunxh | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i am feeling worried for myself it almost a m and i can t sleep im not sure if it just because i can t sleep or if it my inner fight between staying alive or ending it these thought never go away it suck when people don t understand my sudden mood change or decision but i understand why they don t im just saying what i am feeling or thinking my heart always feel so heavy a if i put weight on it i feel like cry all the time everything in life is so boring or doesn t feel right i often get confused on what is real and what isn t real i don t have a therapist anymore because money is tight so im using this reddit post a a venting place because no one know me here and it s nice | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
feeling ill and sorry for myself | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
how do you deal with a relapse in your anxiety or stop it before it really take control been doing very well with my anxiety for the past month or so still currently taking mg zoloft but recently have been having some stressful family drama pop up in my life for the past day i ve been very on edge anxious and no appetite the stressful event sort of got resolved yesterday morning so you would think i would be feeling okay now but i m still having trouble shaking this anxiousness any tip | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
symptom of panic disorder include http www nimh nih gov health publication panic disorder when fear overwhelms sudden and repeated panic attack an intense worry about when the next panic attack will happen fear of impending doom avoidance of place where panic attack have occurred before panic attack can come on suddenly at any time and often do not have an apparent cause there are many different symptom that can occur during a panic attack the symptom of a panic attack include http www nh uk mental health condition panic disorder chest pain http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition chest pain a racing heartbeat or both sweating http www healthgrades com right care skin hair and nail hyperhidrosis excessive sweating nausea http www healthgrades com right care digestive health nausea dizziness http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition dizziness or both feeling faint shortness of breath http www healthgrades com right care lung breathing and respiration shortness of breath with or without a sensation of choking trembling chill http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition chill or hot flash http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition hot flash numbness http www healthgrades com right care symptom and condition numbness dry mouth http www healthgrades com right care oral health dry mouth a feeling of dread feeling a though you are not connected to your body ringing in your ear not everyone will experience a panic attack in the same way most panic attack last 芒聙?0 minute though some can last up to an hour | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
bengottlieb great idea with the itunes promo code they don t work in the uk itunes store though | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my parent have never really cared about what i m doing online because they trust me to be safe plus i am a teenager so i know about internet safety and stuff which is good because i don t like my parent knowing what i do online and it not think in doing anything bad i just don t like my parent knowing i don t even want them to know what show i watch i don t know why this is but recently i ve started blocking my bedroom door with my chair my room is very small so all i have to do is wheel my chair back slightly to block it and when my mum come in she always asks me why i ve blocked my door and then she asks if it because i m watching naughty thing she doe always asks this in a joking way but it make me uncomfortable i just don t know how to tell her how uncomfortable it make me so any advice with telling her would help me a lot | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
new podcast alert surrey scorcher guard caylin raftopoulos join the mvp cast to reveal his retirement plan and how he dealt with depression by learning to speak up http t co fn qbl r z | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
cufa getting lot of dentist time myself at the moment very stressfull and sore take it nice and easy for the rest of the day | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i get angry at myself because of how depressed i get and the fact that i can t control it i m genuinely a happy person so when my depression hit hard i get mad at me | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
iamigboblood nonyekings mizzzidc likeee someone who s depressed with rant they ll go low they won t even bring it to social medium doe she know what depression mean people who re depressed don t cap outside | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
the only reason i havent killed myself is because i know i d hurt the people that are close to me but is it really to sacrifice my happiness for theirs | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
a day negotiating wth insurer after spilling beer on my laptop last night probably to no avail | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i happened to notice his sudden halt of breathing and checked he s had serious medical problem since birth i ve had a worse sleep schedule than him anxiety so i keep getting a voice in my head telling me he s stop breathing or dying right now so i constantly go check him and it s stressful when i m very anxious and it s another layer of stress | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
dev dsp hrm your last two post make it sound like i m holding you back | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
marge inovera i tried tweetdeck once and i hated it with a passion or it hated me i m not sure | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
odo snape maven owwie the dictation software won t pick up whispering eh i know meleney ha it but dunno how good sound pickup is | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
day in york nice place photo coming soon feeling sick now though and i m back at work | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depressed our new app s alpha 0 0 0 is now even more complex than our last app s version 9 i long for those small dev team day | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
there too much evidence too many coincidence to many alignment god is on my side when i say that i m supposed to die of suicide and i am the only person who ha the decide whether or not i deserve to die i can justify it too | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hollaglam my fav english teacher she just had miscarriage amp u knw wht make me sad even more she wa going to name her baby tamara | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
quot fire of anatolia quot is fired costume are destroyed it s so poor situation | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
the nowhere land not 00 sick but definately not healthy either | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i just need to get everything in order i guess i have some morphine and a noose in my bag idk just wanted to tell someone i wish they got me help when i wa young and begged for it i don t think i feel guilty or selfish about it it s just how it is spent year knowing this is probably how i d end up idk edit someone to talk to would be great if you re interested dm me | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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http twitpic com y s9 he only reminds me of him because he doesn t wash his hair that s all gross i know | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
oh my gosh oh my gosh susy is going to kill me with her remedy | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i live alone and despite me being prone to loneliness a i find myself to be emotionally needy i seem to have the urge to cut important people out of my life when i get depressed friend girlfriend i feel easily annoyed and judgmental even if they did nothing wrong i can t explain it maybe by posting here i can find some people that can relate it sort of like a feeling of i am better off alone doe anyone else find themselves constantly having the urge to push people away it feel like i am being consumed by depression again | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
medicalnewstoday detail many us for this in the treatment of anxiety depression and even ptsd http t co iwivamcebt | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
depression hitting real good today | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i don t want to go to the psych ward i just want this all to stop but i m too afraid to try because if i fail again i m going to be locked up again | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i feel like shit this is not the way i want to spend my birthday s eve | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
spring is finally here cherry blossom galore such a shame they are so temporary | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
silverlines tadi di pim udah sempet lirik mesra tapi baru abis makan definitely putting it in my agenda next time i go to pim | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
rustyrockets do i sense a blog coming on too bad i have to leave in like 0 min xxx | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
moethebeat aww moe i wa planning on leaving tomorrow evening are you gon na be in town by chance | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
bleh i strongly dislike working at am everyday | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
the fun thing about writing is sometimes the story pull you in and asks question that will need some researching to be done today and tomorrow are my research day and i will be cooking a great depression recipe i think it would fit the grim dark perfectly | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
sigh rain why did you decide to show up move away you were not invited to the tuesday party this is not the start i hoped for | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i feel empty inside miserable and worthless i hate this pointless point of fact but what else is there here taste disdain hate and fear within myself that s all i find even though i wish to be kind i wake each day in dreadful pain hating every breath and every night i say a prayer begging for freedom for death | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
ive definitely had a panic attack before but im not sure if the breakdown i often get are panic attack and if the one i know wa one wa just really extreme if that make any sense during the one i know wa for sure a panic attack lasted for hour and i couldnt stand up from shaking so much felt like i wa on the verge of throwing up passing out uncontrollably cry and hyperventilating lot of shaking all over huuge cold sweat and then i think i had a big sense of an impending doom or like my world wa completely broken without any hope i cant remember very well how i wa feeling emotionally sorry is that how every attack feel or wa that just an extreme one i frequently have breakdown where i emotionally feel the worst dread for every second like i cant cope at all anymore with my emotion leading to suicidal thought and like im completely unneeded or unloved by anyone and these come with painful cry hyperventilating a little shaking but i can still walk around think ok so im not really sure what to call these breakdown because emotionally theyre worse than a panic attack but physically im ok idk what to do about them though it make me feel like a different person and idk if im slowly losing my sanity it scary haha what do you guy think ive only been experiencing intense anxiety compared to how i wa feeling before for maybe month now and idk if it normal or if im really really not ok | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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long rant from a person with a diagnosed anxiety disorder tl dr at the bottom got yelled at by my bos today it s my first week working here someone ordered room service he said his food wa cold so i returned to the kitchen to ask for another dish to be made and i d hand deliver it myself so it would be piping hot i wanted to prevent this becoming a complaint so wanted to deal with it quickly returned to the kitchen manager wa sorting out further order with two other member of staff he wa in a hurry to leave so needed the order out he started barking and i mean barking order at me and i said one sec just going to ask the chef to got interrupted got told he didn t give a flying fuck that it could wait another hour and that i wa being the worst employee he had ever had a i wa being argumentative even though i never responded to him after my initial sentence of wait a sec bear in mind he s lost two member of staff since i started two week ago due to them finding work elsewhere and all i wa trying to do wa keep up customer satisfaction said resident left a negative review on the hotel website saying that a nice girl me had respectfully answered his complaint but upon phoning down to add something to his meal the manager told him that he would have to wait and he didn t care if the resident left a bad review and encouraged him to do so and when i finally came up with his food he apologised profusely he said from the attitude he got on the phone that he belief he got me in trouble and that he wa really sorry so in his review he wrote that i wa nice and the manager wa off putting and rude another employee stated that he told the resident he didn t give a fuck and had better thing to do with his time than chase after lazy people who couldn t come down to the restaurant for their dinner i never specified what happened to the resident and simply denied that i had gotten into trouble i just apologised for the long wait said everything wa fine the kitchen wa just backed up and left anyways i get paid minimum wage to not get my break minimum wage to get yelled at and told if i don t get my break then you don t either isn t fair especially considering i d been there for hour already and he had been there for 0 minute and wa leaving in an hour this entire incident resulted in me suppressing a panic attack for the remaining hour of my shift so when i left the building i broke down in tear and my mom had to pick me up off the ground don t suppress panic attack people it ll come back around honestly just not cut out for this my anxiety make me overthink thing so i can t even tell whether there is anything i could ve done differently here i just want to cry and i have work again in a few hour and he s going to be there and i m just upset i m never going to get rid of my anxiety disorder he just kindly reminds me every day tl dr got yelled at by my manager for trying to prevent an issue becoming a complaint it became one because of him and i got blamed for it get paid minimum wage work long hour and get no break can t quit because i m already a disappointment | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
penelopek that mini depression that hit you a week before your period woman go thru alot pls | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
synching my contact from my old mobile to iphone import doe not work well | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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i activated my selfcontrol block early meaning i can t check out the new qc regularizing my internal clock is might be difficult fb | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
missing vemsteroo unwell still so having phoned the office am going back to bed it seems empty this morning sigh | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i thought you could buy silent hill for the psp on the p store i can t find it anywhere | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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recently me and my boyfriend had issue that have been accumulating come to a head for a week i wasn t sure if he wa going to leave because of them and for a week i tried to decide what i wa going to do if he did everything is fine now thankfully we talked and we re working on our issue the main one being that he need my help to open up emotionally so he doesn t bottle them up the reason his flight instinct kicked in and he almost broke it off wa because i had stopped checking in on him and thus he thought that meant i didn t want to know i know this sound odd but this is what he told me in actuality i did want to know we just got to the point that i thought he d just tell me i wa wrong this is going exactly the way you think it is during that week i decided that if he left me i wa going to end my life at the time i didn t know that him bottling thing up wa the reason he wa talking about a lot of other thing namely my increased anxiety and me not coping well with it on my own he said i wa overloading him which i understand he also said that i seemed more angry with him over time and more anxious and that that made him feel badly about himself i didn t know any of this i thought he would tell me i ve had a traumatic life spent year feeling unloved by my family lived in a home where i wa unwelcome accumulated five mental disorder and last year wa committed for suicidality i spend the majority of my time trying to be a good of a person a i possibly can and i wa doing that with him a well and i failed obviously i came to the conclusion that if he decided that the issue we had were too fundamental to who i am and therefore unfixable that he wa probably right i spent the last few day of that week planning my death decidng what my note would look like of which there would be many one for each member of my family and for the first time actually wanted to die when i wa committed before i wa delusional i didn t want to die i thought that i had to to end the suffering this time i just didn t want to go on i figured i had given it my best shot and now the only way i could be of any use wa to leave my loved one alone and write them letter to soothe their grief and i knew some would be sad some would be angry but i just couldn t do it anymore and now he s saying these issue are fixable that he love me and want to stay that he still see good in me but now i feel confused i wa expecting to die this week i expected him to end it today or over the weekend and that didn t happen emotionally i am a wreck and neither he nor anyone else know i didn t tell him because i didn t want that to affect his decision and i would rather cut off my arm then manipulate people i love i won t tell him now either if he ever doe decide to leave he need to feel free to do so and now i just i ve discovered how dependent i am on others to give me value i simply don t believe that everyone ha value some people namely rapist serial killer people who hurt people over and over with no remorse etc don t and thus that mean that to keep myself from being hypocritical i have to apply my belief system to myself a well in the past i told myself that i am simply too unwell to make that decision objectively but now that feel like running away from the question i am just reconciling this relationship is inherently unstable because me and him are both highschoolers and i have enough illness to mark me insane i ve realized that i won t be able to handle loosing him because i think he is such a great human being and he s treated me so well if we ever split i ll know it wa my fault and apparently that mean more to me than i thought no one in my life can know this happened specifically because i recently went off of my anxiety medication and they ll say thats why this happened this doesn t make sense because when i wa commited last year i wa taking the medication and that didn t prevent me from being suicidal and because the side effect of the medication made my life significantly worse and harder so i doubt going back on it would really help i will not discus why because it is horribly embarrassing and feel dehumanizing and i don t want anyone s opinion i just want to know how do i move on all it took wa a week for those thought to become instinct again and they re still following me typically i move on quickly partly because of my dissociative disorder and it d only take a day or two to forget but this isn t dissapearing i ve damaged my psyche and i don t know what to do about it i can t talk to a therapist in my experience they don t actually know how to help you move on from a period of suicidality they only know how to keep you from doing it i think cbt the therapy not the drug could help honestly but i doubt seriously i could find a therapist who doesn t think suicidal thought disappear after you re commited at least thats how they treated it at the psych ward they act like your thought should be gone in a week last time i opened up about this i felt like i wa being punished by my family and by my doctor actually i m still being punished at least by my family everyone ha an opinion about your suicidality and everyone make it about themselves i just mean to say opening up isn t an option i don t need further punishment or have people angrier with me than they were before how can i in my own time and on my own term move foward i know there s a way especially since i m motivated though my heart is probably in the wrong place because my reason for being motivated is so that it doesn t affect my boyfriend and i feel i should specify i don t mean how can i tackle the root i can actually do that in therapy without risking hospitalization i just mean a of now how can i wrangle myself together and keep moving | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? 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i struggle with boundary i either come across a defensive or a complete push over and people pleaser and both of these behaviour come from a place of fear and anxiety i always have self doubt and in conflict with others i straight away believe i have done something wrong and it s not until later i realise i haven t i feel my anxiety wa life long but worsened by an abusive relationship in which i lost any sense of self or autonomy how have you worked through your anxiety to come to a place of self compassion self esteem and healthy boundary i feel unable to find the balance thanks so much in advance | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i am worried that i won t get my 900 even though i paid a buttload of tax last year | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
laying in bed and contemplating the meaning of life with a half empty glass that is leaking on the bottom | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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have watched that considering today yaknow shawnna tomomorrow i need my bestfriend | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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