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wendymarvellis | [removed] | 2021-12-04T22:00:09.000Z | r9093l | 1 | 1 | ADHD | TW: Suicidal Thoughts . Need someone to talk to . Please. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r9093l/tw_suicidal_thoughts_need_someone_to_talk_to/ |
The-daily-Jable | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:59:42.000Z | r908qo | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I think I might have ADHD! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r908qo/i_think_i_might_have_adhd/ |
KelsierSrvr | I was diagnosed with ADHD this summer at 20 years old, going into my third year of college. I’m in architecture and I love my major. It’s been my dream since I was a little kid. I love the projects and subject material. I just can’t handle the lack of structure. I always had good grades in middle and high school but as soon as I got to college it all fell apart. The pandemic and online school just made everything worse.
This semester was definitely better than the others now that I have an understanding of what ADHD is and the reason for why I was struggling so much. I went to weekly counseling, I’m trying medication (haven’t been able to find something that works yet), and I’m able to talk to my family and friends about what I am going through. I’m also trying every ADHD learning strategy and tip there is. But all of this wasn’t enough and I’m still going to end up failing several of my classes.
I just can’t keep scraping by like this. It’s a 5 year program and I’m already going to have to do an extra year to make up for all of the classes I failed/dropped. I’m wasting time and my parents money since they’re paying for college. They say it’s not a waste and that I’m figuring things out and it doesn’t matter when I graduate but the guilt is eating me up.
I feel caught in this spiral of depression and anxiety. I see my past as nothing but a string of failures and I see the future as an endless list of impossible tasks. I feel trapped in the middle and completely paralyzed.
All that to say, I’m considering dropping out at this point. I do want to return one day and finish my degree but when I’m in a better place mentally.
I just don’t know what to do instead. I’ve only ever wanted to be an architect so I never thought about other careers.
So I want to ask, what did y’all do instead? What type of job did you do that doesn’t require a major? Did you regret leaving college or was it a good decision in the end? Did you ever go back?
TL;DR: In college and recently diagnosed with ADHD and realizing that I just can’t keep doing this. | 2021-12-04T21:58:13.000Z | r907lh | 15 | 15 | ADHD | For those who realized that college wasn’t for them, what did you do instead? | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r907lh/for_those_who_realized_that_college_wasnt_for/ |
honeyborn | In 2019 I was so depressed, my emotions were too overwhelming to deal with, I went through a phase of thinking I was bipolar or something like it.
I have a cancer and dealing with that has been a struggle if its own, couldn’t understand why I wasn’t one of these cancerous people who’s life and health choices are better - or they turn around all their unhealthy eating/ smoking habits which I can’t seem to do.
I was smoking 8 joints a day so I asked the GP to refer me to a psychologist. After waiting a while, I get contacted by a psychiatrist for an assessment and I’m honest - tell them about my issues, including the cannabis addiction - and she discharged me based on the grounds that cannabis was the reason I felt the way I did “quit and you’ll be fine she said”.
I move to another city, I re-referred myself but this time I had read on ADHD - so I suggest it to the mental health nurse I believe I might have ADHDx as I didn’t know all of my symptoms could be gathered under the same umbrella, and he told me it was impossible for me to have such a diagnose since I was an adult, so I took his freaking word for it AND oh I wished I pushed through.
Since I was 15/16 I have been struggling with depression and anxiety, I went from being an extroverted social butterfly to be an introverted emotional mess.
I always lose things, misplace things, so much I waste time every day looking for them.
I interrupt people as they speak (boss, teacher, friends…), I am impulsive with my finances, and my health. I have a chronic cancer for which I take oral chemotherapy, and I’ve been forgetful with my treatment & appointments - my doctors even threatened to discharge me if I missed another appointment. In 2017, I stopped taking my treatments in hopes of getting sick enough to get a transplant and started partying like there’s no tomorrow until I finally came to my senses.
I’ve been dealing with anger outbursts, where if I was proper ticked off I would things to be heard, being unable to focus at uni or now at work, getting frustrated/ overwhelmed in big crowds or in shops - to the point of snapping at strangers, hell I can’t even queue. I had an OCD for a while, I would occupy my time dusting every room and corners I walked into to, I was so ashamed and it was like literally my dirty secret, I could spend hours doing this. Even someone else’s house & I don’t know how I kicked the habit but I stay away from shelves, TV & TV stands, and hidden corners now. I also have obsessive thoughts, I fixate on something and can’t seem to let go until I’ve hurt myself enough with it, replaying every scenario in my head.
I can barely keep up with convos, I always space out or interrupt when a thought emerge - I talk excessively and so forgetful that I tend to let it out before another thought comes in. I’ve been spacing out and retreated into my own world since I’m a child and now feels like a sickness.
I used to think it was just my personality, when I was younger people would say “when Nancy passes, all heal break loose”. I’ve had boyfriends telling me I had to try harder to be less clumsy, that it was a choice and boy that did not help my self esteem.
I’ve recently lost a job because I can’t focus on important details, I did stupid careless mistakes that led my boss to believe I was incompetent. I felt depressed in the office and can’t seem to put my mind into the same repetitive task.
I’ve talked to another GP and this time she believed me, I told her why I felt I had ADHD - she told me not everyone has all the symptoms, completing the list of possible symptoms and I’m ticking practically all the boxes but it will take 18 MONTHS to be screened. I am fuming, that means 18 MONTHS of being that way with no support - I am 25, I am no where near having my life together and it sickens me. I also understand why it’s so hard for me to keep up with my treatment and I don’t understand why my Hematology doctors would threaten me with such a harsh decision when they know I’ve been struggling with mental health.
I feel like I have no control or self control over my life, and I know I should, I read so many things on how to apply certain things to my improve my life but I can’t keep up it’s so frustrating.
Can anyone with cancer relate?
Edit: I’m asking as I beat myself up about not being more thorough, focused or even careful with my health/ treatment
Edit: pretty sure there is one or more underlying mental health issues boiling in me | 2021-12-04T21:56:24.000Z | r906by | 2 | 2 | ADHD | ADHD, Blood Cancer & incompetent mental health professionals?? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r906by/adhd_blood_cancer_incompetent_mental_health/ |
laneymadison | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:55:24.000Z | r905kq | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Extreme burnout, please help | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r905kq/extreme_burnout_please_help/ |
ForgetfulPossum | I (27, F, UK) was diagnosed in April, tried methylphenidate (Xaggitin) but couldn’t tolerate it at all and had horrific physical and mental side effects, then was given lisdexamphetamine (Elvanse). Worked up to 60mg but came to realise I was a little anxious, on edge, and struggled with my appetite. Now I take 50mg and get the same sort of output as the higher dose.
I’ve taken Elvanse for 6 months now but I still struggle with focus, motivation, completing tasks, taking too long to do tasks, paralysis, and time is flying by at a rate I can’t keep up with. I have seen some improvements for sure but not to the extent that I feel good about my day to day functioning. I feel like my medication is becoming less effective but a higher dose isn’t helpful. I track my symptoms but they don’t show anything interesting other than the fact life sucks. I understand part of managing ADHD is learning better strategies and what not but it seems like such an impossible uphill battle even with medication.
Has anyone else felt like this, and if so what helped you to get the best out of treatment?
I don’t have any other options in terms of stimulant medication - methylphenidate is a definite no, mixed amphetamine salts like Adderall aren’t prescribed here, which only leaves me with amphetamines. My doctor won’t let me have immediate release so dexamphetamine is out, but a higher dose of Elvanse isn’t helpful. I’ve heard that a combination of stims and non-stims can be effective though, has anyone tried this? Can’t afford therapy or coaching unfortunately. | 2021-12-04T21:53:48.000Z | r904fs | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I can’t tell if my meds aren’t reducing symptoms enough or if I need to work harder | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r904fs/i_cant_tell_if_my_meds_arent_reducing_symptoms/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:52:34.000Z | r903jf | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Really important thing | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r903jf/really_important_thing/ |
MiserableSeaview | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:46:30.000Z | r8zz23 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | i just poured frozen spinach instead of blueberries on my chocolate mousse | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zz23/i_just_poured_frozen_spinach_instead_of/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:43:10.000Z | r8zwiv | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Has anyone else who was diagnosed as an adult experienced a lot of pain, grief and almost mourning over all of the moments you remember trying to reach out to someone about your struggles and being ignored or dismissed as a kid? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zwiv/has_anyone_else_who_was_diagnosed_as_an_adult/ |
dr3wbarrymore | so i’m very curious to find out if anyone here has a hard time taking naps during the day???whenever i’m on my meds (vyvanse) i can’t seem to nap. i have seen other people here say that their meds help them nap better which sounds crazy to me. i’m not really looking for a solution here i’m just really curious about your experiences. | 2021-12-04T21:40:16.000Z | r8zu9s | 3 | 1 | ADHD | i can’t take naps??!! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zu9s/i_cant_take_naps/ |
fuckedlizard | I went through all the testing for adhd and finally got my results. All of the test are not normal but they didn't give me a diagnosis. (There was a recommendation that i should use planners and not be on my phone when I'm supposed to be doing stuff. Thanks for nothing i guess.)
I scheduled another appointment and asked about it. My doctor told me that there is no clear way to diagnose adhd and that they couldn't be sure i have it.
I told her that i tried everything and that nothing is helping me. She said that we could try medication. I got my prescription yesterday but I'm not sure if I'm even diagnosed.
Can you even get meds without a diagnosis?
I'm confused | 2021-12-04T21:36:03.000Z | r8zr4i | 6 | 2 | ADHD | Meds but no diagnosis? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zr4i/meds_but_no_diagnosis/ |
mumu95 | Hi guys, first time posting here. I'm basically looking into moving out of my current place to a place that would allow me to attain and maintain a much healthier lifestyle (sleeping habits, late night activities etc.) but before I even start looking, I was wondering if this would even work ? I feel like it would since I've had an experience similar to what I am looking for when I was in shared housing but that was a little different since there were house rules there and all. Thanks again for the help!! | 2021-12-04T21:35:07.000Z | r8zqdn | 1 | 3 | ADHD | Looking for a calmer living situation. Wanted to know if surroundings can influence habits. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zqdn/looking_for_a_calmer_living_situation_wanted_to/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T21:32:21.000Z | r8zo9g | 2 | 1 | ADHD | I’m on medication and it was good, now I feel I’m back to the hell of adhd | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zo9g/im_on_medication_and_it_was_good_now_i_feel_im/ |
blaze13579 | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:29:40.000Z | r8zm4c | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Adderall and back pain?!? Is this a real thing or am I crazy? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zm4c/adderall_and_back_pain_is_this_a_real_thing_or_am/ |
SkyHigh9181 | Hi fellow ADHD friends, I'm coming to get some advice on whether or not to begin taking SSRIs again after getting diagnosed with ADHD and being prescribed Adderall. In high school, I entered multiple depressive episodes and started doing much worse in school (as I actually had to do work, and got burnt out). I was prescribed Zoloft and took it for a few years, but it didn't really seem to have much of an affect. After some continued problems in college (repeating burnout cycles), I finally realized that my depressive episodes episodes were pretty much always triggered by things like me being unable to do work I needed to do, not being able to live up to expectations, etc. Adderall has been incredibly helpful for me in terms of focus, not procrastinating as much and feeling like a normal person, but I still have problems with a lot of general anxiety, sleep problems, and little motivation, even if my mood is usually ok. I guess my question is are there other people with similar experiences? I feel like SSRIs really didn't do much before, but with the Adderall as well, would they now be helpful? And how do SSRIs and stimulants behave together for other people here? I've already had conversations with my psychiatrist and he's open to either taking the SSRIs or not, but I wanted to ask some fellow people with ADHD. Thanks! | 2021-12-04T21:28:27.000Z | r8zl9b | 1 | 1 | ADHD | ADHD Meds and SSRIs | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zl9b/adhd_meds_and_ssris/ |
Ivy78902 | Hi all, I've posted on here before about my relationship and found it helpful. I'm with someone who has pretty severe ADHD and we love each other a lot, and find the kind of connection we have to be rare so want to make it work. He says often it is the deepest, most profound relationship he has had and we are in our 30sF (me) and him 40sM. So we both are in it.
What I struggle with the most, I think, is his "out of sight, out of mind" when it comes to people. I think at its worst was when he came over for his lunch break, we were intimate and then he left right after and forgot about me for the next 36 hours. I felt super used and unloved, and told him and he felt awful about it of course. It doesn't help that I'm the opposite of him in this way. I'm super focused and attuned and attentive to people at just about all times, if they are with me or away. I'm wondering what might help here? Help me not feel forgotten about. Help him remember me. Help me not take it so personally when it does happen. What has helped you, or your partner?
As a little aside, I know some people on here have said things like if you don't accept him as he is exactly, just leave. But that's not how either of us work. I actually said to him once, in my worrying if we should be together, that I couldn't just accept him the way his ex-wife of 15 years did, who seemed to have no issues at all with his ADHD or him in general. That I struggled with certain things about him that she didn't...and he told me he disliked that about her. He wants someone to challenge him to be a better person, he sees constructive criticism as a high form of love, and found her "acceptance" to feel like a disinterest in him and a lack of attention to him, and a lack of interest in his growth as a person. He actually started therapy recently, and he has already grown so much it is inspiring. <3 | 2021-12-04T21:28:27.000Z | r8zl9a | 6 | 4 | ADHD | "Out of Sight, Out of Mind" - Girlfriend to someone with ADHD could use advice! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zl9a/out_of_sight_out_of_mind_girlfriend_to_someone/ |
[deleted] | I don't have the privilege of being able to afford therapy.
I don't have supportive family members who are willing to take the initiative to learn.
I've virtually no friends. Never had a partner.
I am isolated. There is no one, and I mean no one, that I can talk to without feeling I'm burdening or inconveniencing them.
So, naturally, I come to Reddit to vent, and I vent about work. That's predominantly the thing I struggle with the most. It's so lovely when you've Bootlicker Ben telling you, you need to stop blaming everyone; you need to stop being pissy, you just Need A Goal and to Just Go For It.
I hate this bullshit. I hate feeling lazy, albeit knowing that I am. I hate being depressed and struggling with anxiety, and wrestling with the guilt and shame of having job-hopped twenty times. I hate the ideation that comes with these feelings. I hate knowing I need help, and being more than willing to get it, but not being able to access it. I hate having goals I feel I'm too stupid to pursue. I hate wanting to have opportunities I know I can't fund due to finances.
I can't do this. I can't deal with the constant blame and shit people throw at me, calling me lazy, useless, helpless. I can't. I feel so fucking lonely. So shitty. This isn't where I thought I'd be at 12; 9 years later essentially crying myself to sleep every night, living with my mum, and patting myself on the back every time I manage to do laundry.
I have a job now and I cannot fucking stand it, and it's all my fucking fault. | 2021-12-04T21:17:58.000Z | r8zdno | 5 | 10 | ADHD | I hate it when people just Don't Get It | 0.86 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zdno/i_hate_it_when_people_just_dont_get_it/ |
ellybizzle | Completely underplayed my symptoms at my ADHD assessment. Was like my brain somehow forgot how much I’ve been struggling or I didn’t want to seem completely crazy/incapable. I still got diagnosed though, but feel like my Dr won’t take me seriously now and I won’t get the help I desperately need. I know I just need to explain this all to him, but I’m worried he’ll think I’m making it up just to get on meds. Really pissed off at myself right now, especially as I waited so long for this appointment and feel like I need help ASAP.
Anyone else experienced this? | 2021-12-04T21:17:13.000Z | r8zd3y | 6 | 3 | ADHD | Underplayed my (27F) symptoms at my assessment. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zd3y/underplayed_my_27f_symptoms_at_my_assessment/ |
s0ulbrother | So I’m really great about opening emails meaning I’m terrible at it. I always say “today is the day I will delete or open them. I will once in a while delete a couple hundred of them and I’m currently at over 10k I’m my inbox. I tend to just quickly look at subjects or who sent it but I never take the time to delete them or even click on them as read. I plan to quit my current job soon. Maybe I’ll do it in my last two weeks. | 2021-12-04T21:14:42.000Z | r8zbba | 3 | 2 | ADHD | How large is your inbox at work. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zbba/how_large_is_your_inbox_at_work/ |
two_cat_morty | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:13:58.000Z | r8zasq | 4 | 4 | ADHD | Is that really weird, brief homesick feeling related to ADHD? | 0.84 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8zasq/is_that_really_weird_brief_homesick_feeling/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:11:04.000Z | r8z8na | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Mad at the mental health professional who told me it was unlikely I had ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z8na/mad_at_the_mental_health_professional_who_told_me/ |
krakensmama222 | It’s been a couple of “those weeks,” and today is one of “those days.”
My 4 yo lab/Weimaraner mix often brings me gifts to say he loves me, to welcome me home, and to cheer me up. He brings me shoes, jackets, cracker boxes, his sister’s Mickey Mouse and pink Troll stuffies, favorite toys or bones, smelly containers from recycling, and other treasures he finds around the house.
This morning, he brought me a copy of a “wellness recovery action plan” given to me by a counselor. I’ve had difficulty adhering to it, and experience involuntary eye rolls and annoyance every time I try to read it.
What are you trying to say buddy?😂❤️ | 2021-12-04T21:10:44.000Z | r8z8e8 | 1 | 5 | ADHD | When my ADHD, Depression and anxiety get the better of me, my dogs keep me going. | 0.86 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z8e8/when_my_adhd_depression_and_anxiety_get_the/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T21:09:37.000Z | r8z7k3 | 4 | 2 | ADHD | Meds not helping like they should. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z7k3/meds_not_helping_like_they_should/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T21:09:13.000Z | r8z7a0 | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Spiraling into depression due to poor decisions and inability to make new friends | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z7a0/spiraling_into_depression_due_to_poor_decisions/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:05:16.000Z | r8z4dr | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Being passive | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z4dr/being_passive/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:04:37.000Z | r8z3wi | 5 | 2 | ADHD | Adderall intolerance after years of taking it | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z3wi/adderall_intolerance_after_years_of_taking_it/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T21:02:39.000Z | r8z2df | 0 | 1 | ADHD | What time do you take your medicine? Does it make a huge difference? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z2df/what_time_do_you_take_your_medicine_does_it_make/ |
muffin_lewds | I dream of the day that my head will simply stay quiet. Not actively seeking constant stimulation that stresses me out. No longer buzzing with painfully loud thoughts that drive me to screw up my job and decision making skills, just to calm them momentarily.
My head is in so much pain but is so focused on so many topics at once and I could make reddit posts and journal all damn day but it won’t make a difference. Being addicted to sleep aids because it simply won’t calm down at night, is wrecking my system.
It’s like holding a screaming toddler all fucking day. It screams about its gender identity, c-ptsd flashbacks, how over weight I am, how horrible I am for not doing everything perfectly, how much we need to research a new stupid topic, and so on…
Guys I am so tired. I have never really experienced a calm moment before and I am at my wits end. I need medication or Something and this long wait to get Officially Diagnosed so I may get pills to function like a real human, is draining me.
I just needed to get 1/100,000,000 thoughts off my chest. I apologize. I guess I should stop procrastinating on reddit while at work haha.. | 2021-12-04T21:00:55.000Z | r8z10m | 3 | 26 | ADHD | I just want to rest…for even a day. | 0.97 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8z10m/i_just_want_to_restfor_even_a_day/ |
Eden_Rosette | Hi friends, I’m a 27-year-old mom and I was just diagnosed with ADHD this past Monday. I handled being diagnosed pretty well and I was honestly relieved to have answers on why my brain works the way that it does, and I was hopeful for help.
Since being formally diagnosed Monday, I’ve tried Adderall IR (10mg twice daily), Adderall XR (15mg once daily) because the drop offs were awful on the IR, and today my phycologist and I are experimenting with Adderall IR in the morning and Adderall XR in the afternoon to ease drop offs. Just taking the XR makes me drained, unmotivated and miserable, and just taking the IR does nothing other than make me anxious at the drop offs. Together, I didn’t feel the drop off, but I still feel drained, unmotivated and miserable.
I realize that there are so, so many more medications to try. But will I really find something that will help me? This has been the longest, most draining week. I mean this is my brain here…I can’t do anything without my brain functioning properly and I feel so lost and discouraged. I’m very pro medication. But this is really hard. | 2021-12-04T20:57:07.000Z | r8yy0a | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Everything’s going to be okay, right? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8yy0a/everythings_going_to_be_okay_right/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T20:52:16.000Z | r8yuee | 11 | 6 | ADHD | So That’s Why Everything is Difficult, All the Time | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8yuee/so_thats_why_everything_is_difficult_all_the_time/ |
Interesting_Beat_101 | [removed] | 2021-12-04T20:49:55.000Z | r8yska | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Grocery Shopping: A Nightmare | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8yska/grocery_shopping_a_nightmare/ |
Ki--You | First of all i want to say that im not diagnozied as ADHD, but im fairly sure that i have it, this is my last year at highschool, and i've never been a great student, i crave school subjects that interest me, and have problems doing some others really important, the fact is that now that im noticing that im not entirely the problem, i want to fix it, or get over it, or idk, but i would really REALLY pike some advices to how to start studying that subjects at home without remaining in my bed and feeling my brain scream me to start doing it without actually doing it, im not good at talking but i really hope someone can advice me a little. | 2021-12-04T20:46:52.000Z | r8yq8c | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Im at the last year of highschool, and im having huge trouble trying to study | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8yq8c/im_at_the_last_year_of_highschool_and_im_having/ |
Realistic_Hotel_1419 | I wait for night to come so i would start studying, not like 8-9pm, more like 1am to 5 pm, cause thats the only time i can focus because i feel like im alone, not alone in that "there is nobody home" feeling but rather "the world is mine, im all by myself" alone, and thats the only time i can study | 2021-12-04T20:42:46.000Z | r8ynay | 2 | 14 | ADHD | Do other people with adhd experience this? | 0.95 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8ynay/do_other_people_with_adhd_experience_this/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T20:40:41.000Z | r8ylqh | 0 | 2 | ADHD | How can I focus on a conversation whether it'd be irl or online? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8ylqh/how_can_i_focus_on_a_conversation_whether_itd_be/ |
JaguarGreeen | I'm aware is normal to have a hyperfixation over a character. The problem is...he doesn't have the amount of content I would like.
The character is Pagan Min, Far Cry 4 villain, and he doesn't appear much during the games. I'm starting to feel stressed out because of it. I feel ashamed about it. I don't know if is normal to feel stressed about it. It never happened to me, usually I can enjoy it without problems. Any advice??? | 2021-12-04T20:34:31.000Z | r8yh6l | 3 | 3 | ADHD | Hyper fixation on a character | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8yh6l/hyper_fixation_on_a_character/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T20:32:26.000Z | r8yfnu | 2 | 2 | ADHD | What can cause random aversion to conversation with specific people you normally enjoy talking to? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8yfnu/what_can_cause_random_aversion_to_conversation/ |
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kalkail | [removed] | 2021-12-04T20:29:28.000Z | r8ydbz | 0 | 1 | ADHD | ADHD on TV Competition Shows | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8ydbz/adhd_on_tv_competition_shows/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T20:24:37.000Z | r8y9tf | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Maybe Unknown Vyvanse Side Effect? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8y9tf/maybe_unknown_vyvanse_side_effect/ |
Malefiicus | [removed] | 2021-12-04T20:24:11.000Z | r8y9i1 | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Change the way you talk about ADHD (Positive self talk/growth mindset) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8y9i1/change_the_way_you_talk_about_adhd_positive_self/ |
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Bewbz_lol | I’m typically good with my daily meal planning, but I’ve been so stressed out at work lately that I’ve been living off of quick snacks. I’d say the snacks that I’ve been eating are healthy or healthy adjacent, but obviously it hasn’t been enough to properly fuel this mound of human flesh.
For the past few days I’ve been crazy nauseated and a little lightheaded, but I had no hunger or hunger pains so naturally I thought I had food poisoning.
Nope.
Just… gotta eat bud.
I realized it this morning when I told my wife “I still feel like ass, but I feel like my body is telling me to eat a big greasy meal.”
I ate a big ass burger and now I feel a million times better.
Don’t forget to eat
Edit: I’ve been on Vyvanse for about 2 years now so the appetite suppression isn’t as intense as it used to be. I think this incident happened because I moved to nights at work, I have a puppy who is draining my soul, and work has been extra stressful lately. All that plus the remaining appetite suppression from Vyvanse is enough for me to forget food exists i guess | 2021-12-04T20:17:08.000Z | r8y4gz | 156 | 1,123 | ADHD | I thought I was sick for nearly 3 days, but I ended up just being really hungry. Thank you Vyvanse | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8y4gz/i_thought_i_was_sick_for_nearly_3_days_but_i/ |
Buckshot_LeFonque | [removed] | 2021-12-04T20:12:47.000Z | r8y1bk | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Happens more often than I’d care to admit | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8y1bk/happens_more_often_than_id_care_to_admit/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T20:12:44.000Z | r8y1ac | 2 | 5 | ADHD | I’m starting to question if I’m undiagnosed at 40yo, self employed. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8y1ac/im_starting_to_question_if_im_undiagnosed_at_40yo/ |
bhocolatebhipbookiez | [removed] | 2021-12-04T20:07:26.000Z | r8xx5x | 14 | 5 | ADHD | First time taking Adderrall XR | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xx5x/first_time_taking_adderrall_xr/ |
cosmiicsloth | I'm not sure if this is an ADHD thing or related to something else, but I experience an extreme attachment to people if we really click. This is apparent with my current partner, as we've only known each other for 2 months and dated for one, but I can already feel myself falling for them. I don't know if I'm in the infatuation stage but I definitely have to rein my feelings in sometimes, I'm scared I'll blurt out the L word otherwise. So, what about everyone else? How long does it take to fall for someone, how quickly would you say you love them? | 2021-12-04T20:05:30.000Z | r8xvok | 9 | 4 | ADHD | How fast do you fall for someone? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xvok/how_fast_do_you_fall_for_someone/ |
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usuallynotcrazy | Recently I was officially diagnosed with ADD (ADHD inattentive type) by a psychologist. I went in today to inform my doctor. She wants me to see a psychiatrist first to confirm the diagnosis and then to assess me herself after, before prescribing pills.
When I came in for bipolar disorder, they started me on the medication before I was even diagnosed.. I waited a year and a half (while taking bipolar medication) before I got a psychologist to diagnose me officially.
The psychiatrist she has me talking to is awful. He didn't want to diagnose me, he doesn't listen and he judges me. I have bipolar disorder, PSTD, OCD and ADHD, I am not functioning properly. I need to talk to a sympathetic psychiatrist, not this one. The doctor said he is the only psychiatrist she can find that is accepting patients and if I can find a better one she would use that one.
So why now that I am diagnosed do they want to get a second opinion before medicating me? So now I have to trust this psychiatrist to diagnose me properly (if he even will) before I can get medication.
When I was officially diagnosed, I was so relieved because that meant some more of my problems will be improving soon. I had so much hope for today at the doctors. Now I feel deflated. I just think it's bizarre that they would medicate me for bipolar disorder and not diagnose me, but won't medicate me when I have a diagnosis for ADHD. | 2021-12-04T20:01:42.000Z | r8xsqp | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Diagnosed ADHD but doctor wants second opinion, medicated for bipolar without being diagnosed | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xsqp/diagnosed_adhd_but_doctor_wants_second_opinion/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T20:00:48.000Z | r8xs1p | 1 | 9 | ADHD | Extreme physical painful boredom | 0.92 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xs1p/extreme_physical_painful_boredom/ |
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funkymonkey_444 | This is my first time making a post so sorry if i screw up the formatting or anything.
Anyways, I’m 17, a senior in high school, and have pretty bad diagnosed inattentive adhd. I just got it diagnosed last year. I’ve always been really bad at school, my grades ranging from As to Ds. Usually, the higher grades are, of course, what I have interest in (english, art, etc) while the lower grades are subjects I can’t be bothered to care about (math, science, etc). My biggest struggle is executive dysfunction, so I struggle to complete work outside of school to the point where sometimes I am not completing any homework at all. It also gets to the point where my inschool work doesn’t get done either, I tend to burn out and give up.
I’ve always had this idea that college is where things would get better for me because I could narrow down my education to pursue subjects I actually have interest in, and that this will increase my diligence to get work done. However, I have strong doubts. I always hear that college is much harder than high school and much more work. I’ve been living in this pattern for so long I don’t know if I will ever be successful in an academic setting.
I have aspirations to pursue either art or writing. As of right now I am planning to go to community college and then go from there. I don’t want to disappoint my parents and not go to college and I also want a stable job to support myself.
Am I wasting my time and money? Is there any way I could succeed in this type of environment? Should I go a different route?
I know only I can answer these questions, but I just need opinions or advice or guidance from people who know what it’s like to live with ADHD. Even hearing about y’all’s experiences would help. | 2021-12-04T19:56:09.000Z | r8xof3 | 3 | 4 | ADHD | Is it worth it to go to College? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xof3/is_it_worth_it_to_go_to_college/ |
ikedla | I'm so tired. I'm tired of constantly making excuses as to why I'm always late. I know it sounds small and stupid but it's so embarrassing being the one your entire class has a joke about being late all the time. I was like 2 minutes early once and everyone was like "wooowwwww she can be on time!". And I genuinely believe that none of it is malicious but I'm sensitive as hell, and when it's stuff that I feel I have no control over, it gets to me.
Especially as someone with anxiety and ADHD, it's even more embarrassing and stressful. It's like I have two disorders fighting each other and making each other worse constantly. I hate being late to things, it makes me super anxious. But my ADHD always wins. And nothing works. Planners don't work, alarms don't work, telling myself class starts at 8:20 instead of 8:30, nothing. I'm one of those people who has to learn things the hard way and I'm such a stubborn moron that I'm afraid I'm going to have to get in trouble to finally be able to pull my head out of my ass.
I'm also tired of always looking lazy and like I don't care. I try so hard in my classes and I love my major and care about my future career, but without fail, every semester I always forget quizzes, papers, and due dates at some point. I just feel like I'm throwing excuse after excuse at my teacher and it's so frustrating. That's all I have to rant about, for now, finals are getting to me, friends. Like my hair is falling out level of getting to me. I hope everyone else is doing alright | 2021-12-04T19:54:19.000Z | r8xmyi | 3 | 5 | ADHD | ADHD is exhausting | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xmyi/adhd_is_exhausting/ |
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SiriusBark | [removed] | 2021-12-04T19:53:13.000Z | r8xm5h | 1 | 1 | ADHD | You ever just feel like there is something you need to google and you can’t figure it out for weeks? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xm5h/you_ever_just_feel_like_there_is_something_you/ |
TheNewGuyGames | Not seeking empathy or support, I don't think, just....a rant longer than I intended it to be. But here it is.
A couple of years ago my insurance changed and I had to find a new psychiatrist. I had been talking to my original psychiatrist for around three years during which time I got my first job, lost 180 pounds, and finally started really progressing in my life thanks to their help. However, with a change in insurance, that place would have costed me $300-$500 per visit, or $100 if I spoke to a resident instead. So, I found a new place that accepted the local insurance I am now on. This new psychiatrist has seemed to constantly doubt me, seemed to crack a quick chuckle at one of the things I had mentioned that had messed me up before, and has been HARD pushing anxiety medication onto me at every appointment.
I take/took quick release Adderall, 15mg twice a day (so 30mg total). The new doctor told me she saw my medical record from the old place and new my prescription. it would now be 30$ a month for it if I got it from my normal pharmacy but this insurance/health system has their own pharmacy where it would only be 3$, sure, w/e. I get my prescription refilled by the new doctor and head to the new pharmacy. "We don't carry quick release, we contacted your doctor about it and changed it to long release"....okay. And this was only 10mg...one month later at my next appoint she bumped it to 15, still not working as well one month later she says "but this is how much you were taking before, why do you need more than 15?"....I said it was 15 TWICE a day to which she seemed confused and surprised. Then raised me to 20mg, still not great. Three months of that.
Eventually I said screw it switch me back to quick release I'll pay the 30$ a month at my old pharmacy. Done, deal, got it. She said 5 days before I'm going to run out to contact my pharmacy for a refill and they would contact her to get a new order set up. Today, I have 10 pills left. The pharmacy informed me they do not do refill requests for drugs such as Adderall and that I have to contact my doctor. It's impossible for me to contact her or her office without setting up and appointment and going in, and I think many of us know how long that can take.
Oh, right, icing on the cake for all of this. She seems to doubt that I even take this pill. You know the pill that I have a long history with taking and getting refilled prescription. The pill that once I was prescribed I kicked off weight loss, healthy living, working out, got a job, and now started college? Yah, I totally have not been taking it. She even did a drug test on me last time and told me if it came back with no Adderall that I would be kicked off. I had taken a pill that morning, though an old expired one as I forgot to get my new prescription right away, but it came back negative (or at least under w/e amount was set). I got my next prescription at that time so I have no idea what the hell is going in.
Okay wow I typed a lot more than I intended too, I should be studying for finals and not worrying about this shit but I had to rant. I should find a new phych but as annoying and seemingly uninformed as this women is, she at least fills my prescription where as I could find someone worse than her... | 2021-12-04T19:52:37.000Z | r8xlpc | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Finding a new psychiatrist sucks | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xlpc/finding_a_new_psychiatrist_sucks/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T19:47:53.000Z | r8xi52 | 15 | 66 | ADHD | Hyperfocus followed by depression | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xi52/hyperfocus_followed_by_depression/ |
Rex_19_94 | For anybody in my situation who successfully graduated college with ADHD as an adult is there any tips that you could share to increase the odds of graduating? I failed miserably when I first attempted college but I’m sick and tired of a boring job and want to be successful for once but I’m terrified I’m going to fail again. I want the so bad but my attention span is awful and I just constantly drift off in random thoughts which obviously is a recipe for disaster. Any help would be much appreciated, thanks. | 2021-12-04T19:42:32.000Z | r8xe4u | 38 | 24 | ADHD | Going back to college as an adult with ADHD. (27 years old) if that matters. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xe4u/going_back_to_college_as_an_adult_with_adhd_27/ |
flintstone15 | So starting off it might sound a bit strange, but size and quantity is a factor for when im snacking.
If you put an apple infront of me and a bowl of berries next to it with the same weight (taste is not a factor in this "theory") i would go to town on the berries rather than eating the apple,
If its smal and there is alot of it, i'm way more likely to eat it so im wondering if this is common between
All people with adhd? Thanks in advance. | 2021-12-04T19:41:49.000Z | r8xdlk | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Eating habits "theory" | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xdlk/eating_habits_theory/ |
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bustasweenut | I’ve been on vyvanse 30 for a while. I also changed doctors about two years ago now and am under a different insurance policy. My new doctor seems skeptical of my prescription and has tried to convince me to ease off of it in the past, despite it being a relatively low dose. I also have to basically justify the fact that my medication is absolutely necessary to my insurance company more often than I’d like. I know I need a higher dose, but I’m worried my doctor will turn me down or treat me like an addict or something :(. Does anyone have any advice for me? I really do need a higher dose but if there’s a chance that asking for it may make things harder than they already are then I don’t want to do it. | 2021-12-04T19:39:56.000Z | r8xc6e | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Will requesting a higher dose just complicate things for myself? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8xc6e/will_requesting_a_higher_dose_just_complicate/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T19:27:09.000Z | r8x2n5 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | At what time do you take your medicine? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8x2n5/at_what_time_do_you_take_your_medicine/ |
raccoon8182 | [removed] | 2021-12-04T19:24:58.000Z | r8x109 | 3 | 6 | ADHD | What are we good at. | 0.88 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8x109/what_are_we_good_at/ |
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CrossedRoses | So, my younger sister is 17 and was diagnosed about 5-6 months ago. She was referred to the adhd-center at a local psychiatric hospital, and the psychiatrist there prescribed her Medikinet (Methylphenidate).
At the beginning, she felt nothing and when they increased the dosage, she started getting headaches and feeling really tired and nauseous. She barely gets any positive effects. She is rather thin/slim but she eats properly and even started eating more when the psychistrist told her that it could help with the nausea (it didn't).
She has been on the medication for about 4 months now, and is at a point where she can actually study better without the meds because they make her feel so sick. She told the psychiatrist and asked if she could try different meds, but the psychiatrist said no, because all adhd meds are methylphenidate (adderal isn't available in our country) and therefore all work the same and have the same side effects. She works at an adhd center, so you'd think she knows stuff, but i've heard and read from so many people with adhd who said the exact opposite.
What are your opinios on that?/Did anyone have similar experiences and what did you do? | 2021-12-04T19:18:09.000Z | r8wvix | 6 | 5 | ADHD | My sisters psychiastrist says all adhd medications work the same? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8wvix/my_sisters_psychiastrist_says_all_adhd/ |
DilemmaRidden | TL;DR: below.
Disclaimer:
Sorry for the wall of text. I know it's basically an exercise in futility to ask a community in which its collective struggle is the inability and unwillingness to focus on anything longer than a sound-bite to read a whole essay but I'm hoping that someone out there that has had similar experiences or similar conflicting thoughts can maybe find this helpful in addressing their own dilemmas with their medication. And maybe something good can come of it.
The good:
I've been taking prescription Adderall for the better part of a decade now after my diagnosis of adult-ADHD, and I can certainly credit it for being a massive asset in getting my degree as well as my great work-performance in the field of my study, year after year since I graduated. The "mind-unclogging" feeling I get when I'm on my medication is absolutely essential for me to excel at my work, which heavily revolves in problem-solving and needing hours worth of dedicated focus to come to an optimal solution. There had been times where I was out of my meds for a week or two due to pharmacy shortages and boy does my performance and just overall focus and willingness to do anything of importance take a very obvious dive. I don't think I'm being hyperbolic in saying that getting my diagnosis and my prescription in my freshman year of college has been a huge factor in my educational and professional success. This is why this next part has taken me so long to accept; every time I would think about quitting (reasons below), I immediately dismiss the thought as nonsense because of all of its benefits. And I have either entirety ignored, dismissed, or even gaslit myself into thinking that the negatives were not as bad as the positives are good.
The bad:
While my life in the above paragraph seems to indicate that I'm doing pretty well for myself, this couldn't be further from the truth. Prior to my diagnosis, I was in my early 20s with about $25k in savings, 785 credit score, and daily offers from every "exclusive" credit card on the market, with all the perks that they bring. It is only after my diagnosis and monthly refills that all of that took a nosedive. Fast. I am now in my early 30s, and severely delinquent in multiple banks. I have creditors calling me all day, every day. My credit score is 460. I literally (like actually literally) do not have a single dollar to my name today. Even my phone bill is months past due and it is only thanks to the pandemic relief efforts that have kept my phone company from disconnecting my line. This has all happened (/is happening) to what essentially can be boiled down to a gambling problem that developed from, and is only triggered by, the same medication that is helping me succeed. Just like we all have hyper focused on the "wrong thing" (making a playlist instead of homework, etcetera), only to realize it hours later, I find myself in this loop almost on a daily/weekly basis with wasting my money in this pursuit to "make it back". This pursuit is nonsensical to me when I'm off my meds. It is only after I take my pills and my mind starts "waking up" that I begin rationalizing why *this* time it'll be different and I'll make it all back. Only to hate myself for it the day after.
Disclaimer II:
Please, I know what some of you might be thinking by this point. "A person with a gambling problem is using the medication as an excuse to not face the real issue, gambling, head on." Trust me when I tell you I am aware of how this sounds. This is how I rationalize it to myself sometimes. I am somehow more at ease with convincing myself that I'm a degenerate gambler than I am with admitting that the problem really is due to the effects of the medication. I've been dealing with this loop for years. This is the first time I've come to terms that while yes, not everyone on Adderall is a gambling addict, it does not mean that my assessment is incorrect and that it is the Adderall that's causing and exacerbating this problem.
Allow me to use just my most recent experience to try and paint a clearer picture:
For the last 2 weeks I have been completely stone cold sober from my meds. Not because of any stance against them, but mainly due to fulfillment issues and doctor unavailablity. In those two weeks, the thought of even watching a poker video, reading up on stocks, or looking at any sort of gambling activity did not even exist in my head. The few and far between times where I would accidentally come across such activity, it would make me physically recoil thinking just how much time and money I've wasted and that I have no interest whatsoever in wasting a second or a penny back into them. My checking account had a modest $1400 which I had budgeted to pay some of my past due balances, and I was able to pay some of my bills that were due on the first of the month on time. Around 40 hours ago I finally was able to pick up my Adderall prescription. Today I am at $-160 in my account, in addition to a few pay day loans that will now be eating away at the next paycheck.
The problem:
I honestly don't know what to do. If I tell my doctor about these negative effects, I have no doubt he will pull me from the meds. Which you might think is probably for the best but what I didn't mention, was that also during these last 2 weeks of sobriety, I was struggling big time at work: couldn't focus on anything. Lethargic. Falling asleep in meetings. Haven't met of my soft deadlines that I will be addressing head on first thing come Monday now that I have my meds again.
But I can't keep living like this. Every penny I have made in the last 5 years since my college graduation has been gambled away in mere hours. Before my diagnosis, I could walk through a casino and the only thing that would grab my attention are the free drinks. Nowadays, I'm not leaving until I am flat broke, or I've been up long enough that the effects have worn off. And if I'm not near a casino (or website) I will go out of my way to get to one (or log on).
And this story has happened in one way or another basically like clock work every month for the last 5 years or so.
In conclusion:
Just wanted to hear your thoughts if you made it this far. I haven't told anyone about this. I've mostly been able to "keep up appearances" and would basically have to cancel plans with friends as well as dates all the time and make up excuses when in fact it was almost always that by the time said plans are about to happen, I have more likely than not already wasted my last dime and can no longer afford to leave the house.
To be honest, this is the first time I really lay it all out there even for myself but I just can't ignore this any longer. While I am single now, I do have the hopes of meeting someone sometime in the near future and maybe starting a family. I can't do that with $-160 in my checking account every week for the rest of my life.
TL;DR:.
**With meds:**
Pros: Outstanding performance in educational & professional pursuits. Can very much contribute my success largely thanks to the focus and drive that I get from my ADHD medication.
Cons: Devastating gambling financial losses due to inability to mitigate proper impulse control, and instead will rationalize basically anything to have another shot. This is only triggered by the medication. I've tried gambling sober. Got bored and went onto to do something else lol. Typical.
**Without meds:**
Pros: zero inhibitions to gamble, and on my way to try and become more financially stable as I was before my diagnosis/prescription. Able to focus my free time on other healthier hobbies.
Cons: Educational / Professional life is basically unmanageable. No focus. No drive. Constant need of motivation to do mundane tasks.
Okay that is the end of my wall of text. I apologize if i was rambling, as this was mostly just a stream of consciousness and shame. But I needed to come clean about it all for once. Very much interested in what this community has to say and especially if someone went thru/is going through similar predicaments. Thanks, and I hope y'all are doing alright. | 2021-12-04T19:16:50.000Z | r8wui5 | 10 | 6 | ADHD | I've come to realize that I'm at a point where my medication is both essential and devastating to me. It has simultaneously tremendously improved, and absolutely ruined my life. | 0.87 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8wui5/ive_come_to_realize_that_im_at_a_point_where_my/ |
TealedLeaf | Currently working retail. It paid the same amount as the psych hospital I was working in that burned me out. Stayed at the hospital for a year, and I've been back in retail for 3 months. I have no idea what to do next. Maybe I'll stay and see about moving to the floral side of things at this place and try to get an actual career in that? My problem is I'd love a career in the art fields, but I'm bad at traditional art and like crafts and ceramics, so there's not a real market. I started an Etsy store, but I know that has to be a side thing I do for myself and not for the profit.
I've been searching for another job that I'll actually like that pays 16+ the entire time though.
Wondering if others are like this and constantly looking for a new job.
Right now my long term career is looking like I'll find my way into floral/plant stuff, but boy would it be nice to work as a text help person at home. Just can't find anything that isn't sales driven or also do calls often. | 2021-12-04T19:16:08.000Z | r8wtwn | 1 | 1 | ADHD | How often do you change jobs? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8wtwn/how_often_do_you_change_jobs/ |
Bi_ciuin | I just started taking clonidine by itself 2 days ago and I'm curious about others experiences. What specific symptoms did it help you with. I haven't noticed any change yet with the ADHD, but the anxiety help is very noticeable. My entire body feels calmer. It's only been 2 days, but my head also seems quieter, less rumination and overthinking. Maybe too early to tell since the overthinking was never constant, I guess time will tell.
I do have a couple side effects that seem minor and hopefully will go away. It's made me very tired. More of my brain going to sleep than my body though. I've noticed this more with the evening dose than the morning one, maybe the coffee is balancing it out? I'm also way more sensitive to light, not just bright light, but all of it. And my tinnitus is louder and more noticable than usual. Other than that I feel great. My smart watch has told me I'm waking up more than usual the past 2 days, but I've waken up just before my alarm actually feeling well rested.
What has your experience been? In which ways has clonidine helped you?
My doctor is planning on prescribing something in addition to the clonidine, I just have to wait a few more weeks for my next appointment. | 2021-12-04T19:09:21.000Z | r8woh1 | 4 | 2 | ADHD | If you've tried clonidine, what ADHD symptoms has it helped with.? | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8woh1/if_youve_tried_clonidine_what_adhd_symptoms_has/ |
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Bustapepper1 | [removed] | 2021-12-04T19:02:40.000Z | r8wiy7 | 0 | 1 | ADHD | Am new to Adderall XR 10mg and am hesitant to continue with my choice to take them. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8wiy7/am_new_to_adderall_xr_10mg_and_am_hesitant_to/ |
O1298035743592348013 | I started Vyvanse early last month and even on the best days where is works very well (never for more than 3 hours before an anxious/tired crash), it just doesn't sound like I've ever experienced euphoria. This is what it felt like on my:
First Day:
- Emotionally secure. More confident posture.
- A few anxious thoughts but once I thought about something else I no longer felt anxious (usually the feeling remains even after thoughts move on)
- Tasks seem achievable when I think about doing them. I cleaned my room and went to work and then slept as soon as I got back.
- Not as much time spent debating whether to do things
- Easier to move e.g sit down / stand up / turn head to look to the side (Perhaps I also have hypertonia which the meds fixed? Dunno)
- I took my meds and played a game while waiting to see if I noticed anything different. For maybe 5 mins I had this weird feeling where I kept coming to the realisation "Oh look, I'm playing this game" and then I'd just continue playing and then I'd notice it again. Not sure how to explain but I found it hard to focus.
Other days which the meds work:
- I feel emotionally secure and calm. Even if I'm sad I still feel comfortable and strong.
- Generally satisfied with existing
- Anxious thoughts are easily dismissed and relationship problems seem small and fixable. I consider planning to meet.
- Anxious thoughts about partner are replaced with thoughts of appreciation and empathy
- No longer have to change to the next song every 10 seconds.
Sometimes when I sleep while on meds:
- My visual thoughts just have this feeling of precision and clarity, like they are in 4k HD. Once after playing a game (League of Legends) for hours I felt tired and laid in bed, and as I thought about other things, I was visualising playing the game and it felt so clear and hd, like the thought had more weight.
Does any of this sound like euphoria or has anyone else felt stuff like this?
EDIT: Also on my second day I kinda felt nothing. I got really worried the effects of the medicine one the first day were just placebo. | 2021-12-04T19:01:48.000Z | r8wi8p | 7 | 4 | ADHD | I've heard about Vyvanse euphoria but not sure if this is it? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8wi8p/ive_heard_about_vyvanse_euphoria_but_not_sure_if/ |
IcyRadio6528 | Sorry if my writing isn’t good, English is not my first language ^^
I’m 18 years old and I’ve been suspecting that I have ADHD for a few years, but haven’t seen a professional about it.
I used to be an honours student and was in advanced classes, teachers always loved me and said I was an excellent student- but had an issue with deadlines and organisation. All that changed in my senior year of high school and it’s only getting worse now, in my first year of university. It’s gotten so bad I feel like I’m barely functional. I have to actively remind myself to brush my teeth and to use the toilet. I completely forget to eat and only do so when my mom tells me it’s time for lunch/dinner. I can’t even remember the last time I showered. Could have been two days or two weeks ago, I have absolutely no idea. I’m not sure what made it get so out of hand so fast, but lockdown and having more independence were definitely catalysts. I’m currently having a bit of a breakdown because I might fail two very important classes, which was preventable. For one of them I finished a project days before the deadline, but forgot to submit it. Fucking forgot to submit it. The other, I had an entire five months to work on it, but only starting now, four days before the deadline. I’m so annoyed with myself, and ashamed.
The issue right now is that I’m afraid that I just have bad personality traits (laziness, carelessness, etc.), but clinging to ADHD to excuse my actions. I do plan to get an assessment at some point, hopefully start actively seeing a professional this summer, but I’m really anxious about this. What if I’m faking it to feel better about my failures? Or for attention? How do I know? How did YOU know? Any help would be appreciated! | 2021-12-04T19:01:02.000Z | r8whjm | 14 | 15 | ADHD | Am I faking it? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8whjm/am_i_faking_it/ |
Mud_Rare | Hi I’m 22F and just got diagnosed with ADHD. I have have a psychiatrist for the last half of the year but she doesn’t do ADHD assessments for Adults so I had to get assessed somewhere else (anyways it was a low income place so it took a while to get assessed).
Before I got assessed she mentioned a couple of times that maybe I have BPD instead of adhd. Once I got my diagnosis last month she didn’t even read the report and told me to start strattera.
Again she didn’t read my report that goes over my symptoms and why they determined I had ADHD (amongst other mental issues). She didn’t go over my options and she didn’t explain to me what strattera was and how it worked. I had to do my own research because she didn’t bother.
I’m not upset because she didn’t put me in stimulants. I’m upset because she didn’t explain my options or anything to me and I had to look it up myself.
It just makes me feel like maybe she’s not taking it seriously enough… | 2021-12-04T18:53:25.000Z | r8wbdk | 2 | 3 | ADHD | Kinda rant | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8wbdk/kinda_rant/ |
macing13 | I'd been procrastinating all day starting on the essay I'm working on, but I wasn't stuck in paralysis, it was more I just didn't want to do it.
But actually asking myself why I didn't want to do it is helpful. Turns out I didn't believe I would actually finish it, so not starting it and starting it both had the same end result of failure. So I was choosing the failure without the additional work.
And the reason why I didn't believe I'd finished is I had a vague idea of what I wanted to do, but nothing more concrete. So it was like I had a direction to walk in, but no map, so naturally I was scared I'd get lost
And I'd just been assuming I was being lazy, wanting to do more fun things instead of work.
Now I've made an overall roadmap, and will continue to make smaller checkpoints when I reach each larger checkpoint. And the work seems much more manageable now. | 2021-12-04T18:48:45.000Z | r8w7sq | 3 | 10 | ADHD | When doing work (or not doing it) remembering to check in to discuss with yourself what's working or not working is really important | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8w7sq/when_doing_work_or_not_doing_it_remembering_to/ |
rcrow2009 | Saw my primary care doctor about possible undiag used ADHD. I'm 30, was identified as gifted in school which masked a lot of these issues as a kid, but have struggled with organization and executive function for as long as I can remember. My doctor agreed it was worth looking into, prescribed me straterra to try while I wait on a diagnosis, and gave me a referral to get evaluated by a psychiatrist.
Referral 1- call, voice mail says they arent seeing patients at all right now, never call me back.
Tell primary care doctor. Get a second referral.
Referral 2- call, leave message. Call leave message. Call leave message. Finally get a call back- psychologist "isnt comfortable" doing evaluations for people who arent looking to become therapy patients/ are talking to their doctor about medication. Also they dont take my insurance.
Tell primary care doctor. Get a third referral.
Referral 3- they say they do evaluations AND take my insurance! Can get me in 2 weeks. Incredible. I am very clear that all I'm wanting is an evaluation, they say no problem. Appointment is this monday. Get a reminder email from the office on Thursday- I ask if I need to do anything extra to be able to do the evaluation while I'm there, any forms to fill out in advance, etc. They say no. I'm good to go.
Yesterday, doctor emails me- he's out of the office Monday. Can we do the appointment as a video call. Can you do adhd evaluations as a video call? If so, that's fine. OH, he tells me, he doesnt DO evaluations. Just therapy for people who already have a diagnosis. Does anyone at your office fo adhd evaluations? No. Does anyone in your organization in the entire city do adhd evaluations? NO?
..... why. Am I getting referrals to doctors that dont or wont do the *one thing* that I need them to do?
🙃🙃🙃 this shouldnt be this difficult. | 2021-12-04T18:40:54.000Z | r8w1o8 | 7 | 2 | ADHD | Venting- I just want to get an evaluation. Why is this so hard? | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8w1o8/venting_i_just_want_to_get_an_evaluation_why_is/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T18:40:13.000Z | r8w14h | 1 | 0 | ADHD | Atypical Music Taste/Experiences and ADHD | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8w14h/atypical_music_tasteexperiences_and_adhd/ |
mnemosyne64 | [removed] | 2021-12-04T18:37:42.000Z | r8vz2y | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Songs about adhd/mental illness | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vz2y/songs_about_adhdmental_illness/ |
Raphendoom | [removed] | 2021-12-04T18:34:17.000Z | r8vwiq | 104 | 1,003 | ADHD | I try to have a positive outlook on my ADHD, but it’s so fucking hard | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vwiq/i_try_to_have_a_positive_outlook_on_my_adhd_but/ |
xnmanbearpig | A little background: I’m a petroleum engineer and geologist in the oil industry. I work 60-90 hour weeks that require focus and quick decision making.
I’ve been working 20-35 hour shifts trying to get some things done before the holidays. My question would be to someone that has had or is having a similar experience to mine.
I normally take my Adderall right after breakfast 5am-6:30am and it’s generally worn off by 3pm. It’s 20mg extended and it works great. Have you ever took another extended release on really long work/study shifts? I’m very healthy with a resting heart rate of 45bpm, and I have a healthy blood pressure considering the stress levels of my job.
TIA | 2021-12-04T18:33:55.000Z | r8vw8a | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Unpredictable work schedule, Adderrall. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vw8a/unpredictable_work_schedule_adderrall/ |
Unlikely_Self_2561 | It's so frustrating, all day I tried to do only one thing and that was watch the lesson I had on Sunday. No matter how much I tried every three minutes my brain started thinking of something else and I couldn’t finish even half an hour of the lecture.
It's so frustrating to me that I want to scream, I'm behind in school and it's scary me to fail a course but how the hell am I supposed to do that when my mind is not listening to me.
Sorry if this post is unnecessary I wanted to talk about it somewhere lol. | 2021-12-04T18:28:05.000Z | r8vroq | 2 | 5 | ADHD | My brain is like a TV that switches channels without asking me | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vroq/my_brain_is_like_a_tv_that_switches_channels/ |
O1298035743592348013 | I've been on it for a month. I'm not sure if it's causing the anxiety or just amplifying existing anxiety, but I'm only anxious about a situationship I'm in, and it's made me assume that they think negatively of me when i read their text messages, but I don't have this problem in real life. My heart beat can also beat strongly while anxious but also while I'm exited playing a game.
What confuses me is how these side effects are present after meds wear off, and if there is a crash then the side effects still remain after that, and even the morning after. I don't think it's due to any crash, it's just the way I am now. Much more sensitive. Occasionally meds will fix my emotional problems and I'm all good and unbothered by anxious thoughts or anxious physical feelings but it can come and go fast.
Anyone else felt this? | 2021-12-04T18:27:09.000Z | r8vqyv | 5 | 2 | ADHD | Vyvanse making me emotionally vulnerable? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vqyv/vyvanse_making_me_emotionally_vulnerable/ |
GoogleBot_ | Basically everything’s in the title. I can’t decide anything, I can’t make any choices even when it’s small things as if my life depends on it. So
I was wondering if it was related to ADHD or if some of y’all had experienced some related issues especially because of the Christmas period and people asking you which present they could get you.
Thanks for reading this, I hope you had a great day/ night or whatever :) | 2021-12-04T18:24:38.000Z | r8vp4j | 11 | 10 | ADHD | Is not being able to chose anything related to ADHD? | 0.92 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vp4j/is_not_being_able_to_chose_anything_related_to/ |
BlevelandDrowns | I just started taking meds, it’s my 3rd day now.
Each night I take a pill out for the next morning and place it on my nightstand so I can roll over and take it easily when my alarm goes off.
Last night I took the pill out of the bottle, and I’m pretty sure I accidentally ate it. When I woke up, the pill wasn’t there, and I searched frantically all over for it to no avail.
So I’m pretty sure I must’ve ate it. I still slept though! My dog gamn ADHD brain farted at the worst time.
AMA! | 2021-12-04T18:24:29.000Z | r8vozp | 50 | 117 | ADHD | I accidentally took a Vyvanse at 4AM. AMA! | 0.93 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vozp/i_accidentally_took_a_vyvanse_at_4am_ama/ |
MrIv0ry | I recently saw an ad that said circle medical does virtual adhd appointments. I did some reading on here and am wondering: Does anyone know if circle medical just asks about your medical history, or do they pull your record and review it? Thank you in advance, and let me know if you have any questions | 2021-12-04T18:23:07.000Z | r8vnyd | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Question Regarding Circle Medical | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vnyd/question_regarding_circle_medical/ |
Vik7800 | Hey. New to this sub. I saw tons of tiktoks talking about ADHD recently and I know some might feel like 'not one of these kids who assume they're mentally ill again'. It's not that I can relate to all of them but most of them, perhaps?
My mom told me that when I was a child, I wasn't really an active child but I zoned out a lot. I was a curious kid, always asking a lot of stuffs but had trouble making friends. I could say that I behaved nicely, but there were times when I did impulsive amd questionable things but hey every kid did that right? Honestly, I don't remember much of my childhood so I can't say more on that.
The comment about how I always zone out sticks until today. Sometimes when people are talking to me, I could listen to them clearly but my brain gets way too distracted from actually looking and listening at them, and so my eyes wander around looking the other way. I did eventually respond to them usually but it takes some time to process. And my thoughts process are so god damn random like I could jump from thinking about history of different kind of eras eg from ancient egypt to greeks to hellenistic to hindus to the islamic age till the modern age. People of whom I told this thought I was smart or diligent, but it's more of my brain being distracted and having too many questions to be answered.
However, it doesn't mean that I am constantly reading random stuffs. Sometimes especially when I'm having a break down, things get worse because I tend to think of random traumatic experiences that are unrelated and finally blame it all onto myself. It's weird how me just thinking about my ex friend eventually led me into a crying mess who assumes that every loses and defeats including school related stuffs came down from myself. Or maybe that's just someone's normal thoughts process..?
And I can't seem to write or talk straight to the point. I get distracted while talking that I ended up telling unrelated information whenever I need to tell someone something. Like this post lol.
There are times when I can't shut my mind. Not that I'm overthinking (nowadays I'm not but before, yes. I was diagnosed with MDD but now I've recovered) but mostly it's just my brain constantly thinking about random bullshits or asking me to do spontaneous actions like making weird sounds, jumping around, wiggling my entire body, annoying my cats, and etc. I can also be a bit impulsive. Not on the online shopping department (perhaps) but it's more of other decision making related things like 'should I do that? Hell yea I'll do it because I think it's cool I wanna try that'. They're not really dangerous per se but will usually shock my friends and family. In terms of emotions, it's more of me jumping from feeling happy to sad to happy to sad to sometimes angry. I can easily change my mood after having a breakdown and be like damn did I really feel sad because of that?
I also have problem staying committed to my work and schedule. I like participating in uni or external programs but in the end I feel the intense urge to bail myself out because I don't make any progress. I keep procrastinating from completing my works. The less it requries me to work on, the more I'll leave it to be done a few hours before the deadline. And this is where my biggest problem is right now. I want to be able to commit, to be responsible and reliable but I am not consistent. I withdraw myself from others a lot. I tried joining NGOs and uni clubs but my dedication to them are goddamned limited and it changes from time to time. Another thing is I keep changing my future career goals. It seems like everything I tell my friends of my future goals will always change. Like ALWAYS change every week or month. It's tiresome because I wish I could stick with one goal, but I can't. I keep making new goals, new targets but none of them don't work out. Sometimes I want to be a historian, the other times legal advisor, but then a lawyer, and then the next day I wanna be an environmental activist, modern farmer, a normadic traveller, a journalist, a librarian yada yada yada. In the end I have no idea what I want. But deep inside I know that what I wish for the most is just a comfortable life in a small town in the mountains (again, unrelated bullshit).
And it's not just dreams. I can't commit to the friendships I've made. I have tons of friends but it drains me a lot to talk with them. I keep making new friendship that I end up with me not responding....shit, ik. I'm a terrible person. Same goes to dating life. I fall too hard and too fast for someone but I can get over them faster than lightening. Idk if it's an ADHD symptom...sorry. Might be just a problem that I have. And of course my room is a mess. Nowadays I feel like the most irresponsible person ever.
Another thing is, ever since I was a kiddo, I couldn't barely finish reading a book. Like, when everyone was talking about how much they enjoyed reading as a kid, I can't relate to them. Everytime I tried reading I got way too excited > anxiety > distracted > not being able to finish yet another book. There are books I've managed to finish but they're rare occasions. I've always questioned this. Why can't I be like someone else? Who do I get anxious when I'm too excited while I'm reading a book? I can't seem to focus because my excitement will lead me to read another books/articles instead. Like dude finish the book first. At least a chapter! I frequently get bored from reading the same book but weirdly enough I can handle reading fanfictions. But only if they're not more than 70,000 words haha or else I'll either start feeling bored or judging the entire plot.
Based on what I wrote, do you guys think that I should get myself diagnosed? Or am I just lazy and uncommitted hence needing more motivation to stay persevere ? | 2021-12-04T18:21:14.000Z | r8vmhz | 6 | 3 | ADHD | Should I get diagnosed? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vmhz/should_i_get_diagnosed/ |
ohhhhellznaw | [removed] | 2021-12-04T18:20:51.000Z | r8vm6x | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Has anyone been to Amen clinic to treat ADHD? What was you experience there? Did it help? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vm6x/has_anyone_been_to_amen_clinic_to_treat_adhd_what/ |
MrIv0ry | [removed] | 2021-12-04T18:19:51.000Z | r8vle6 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Question Regarding Circle Medical | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vle6/question_regarding_circle_medical/ |
Ok_Ganache4842 | I started taking Ritalin when I was diagnosed about three years ago. At first, it went pretty well. I became accustomed to it, and knew it was a tool not a miracle drug.
Over time though, some bad habits and expectations have crept in like
- using Ritalin to procrastinate by saying to myself that it takes an hour to kick in so I’ll start work/study/cleaning in an hour
- expecting to always feel that butterfly in stomach/ hit of adrenaline feeling when it kicks in, so when it doesn’t, saying to myself that it hasn’t kicked in yet or it’s not working
- Relying on it for things I know I don’t need it for. For example, it’s late and I need to wash a couple of dishes. Either not doing it, or talking a Ritalin and staying up.
- using it to stay up late to catch up on things I didn’t do while I was using it during the day.
Basically I’m just lying to myself over and over.
**Has anyone else gotten into bad habits with their medication? What was it like and did you manage to fix it?**
Edit: just to clarify, I’m not abusing my medication. Just not using it in a way that is helpful for me - in the same way that you might develop bad habits around using your phone instead of using it as a tool to help. | 2021-12-04T18:19:09.000Z | r8vkup | 6 | 10 | ADHD | I’ve developed bad habits with my Ritalin. | 0.92 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vkup/ive_developed_bad_habits_with_my_ritalin/ |
eaglesnestmuddyworm | I'm undiagnosed but there's no other explanation for why I act this way. It's debilitating. This morning I lost my keys to my electric bike, but they had to be in our room because I can't take out my battery without unlocking it from the bike with my keys, and I was charging my battery in our room.
I was almost late to work because I spent so long looking for them, and the only reason I wasn't was because he offered to drive me. He told me that I should have just spent a few minutes looking and asked him, but that's not the issue. The issue is that I no longer have keys. "I have to get new keys, I lost my keys and can't find them."
He doesn't understand the spiral that happens when something important is lost. I was to the point where I was crying, hyper fixating on the fact that I no longer had my transportation, and he was frustrated and he ended up raising his voice at me.
I wish he got it. I wish I could immediately make him understand and be tolerant. I love him, and he loves me, but I alone have put a really big strain on our relationship because of my illness. I'm not going to leave him, because in every other sense he's the light of my life. But when something sets off my ADHD and I have a horrible memory day or I lose something like my keys or wallet, he always tells me I "should just put it where I'll find it". He doesn't get how hard that is for me. | 2021-12-04T18:14:24.000Z | r8vh7x | 5 | 1 | ADHD | My Fiance Doesn't Get It And It Hurts | 0.6 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vh7x/my_fiance_doesnt_get_it_and_it_hurts/ |
Own_Somewhere_5939 | [removed] | 2021-12-04T18:07:44.000Z | r8vby7 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I can’t study alone | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vby7/i_cant_study_alone/ |
mlgoody | A few months ago I asked for advice on whether I should seek diagnosis/care for potential ADHD. Many offered good and encouraging advice, which I followed. I’m now on meds - at least in the morning, for the past month+ - and it’s been incredible. I didn’t realize you could experience the world without on-going internal conflict over where your attention goes. There’s a remarkable peace that I find, and ability to focus and accomplish things more linearly.
Thank you to everyone who provides encouragement here - and if my experience can be encouraging to you, please let it. You (and the world) deserve the best your mind and attention have to offer. Go for it! | 2021-12-04T18:06:47.000Z | r8vb8e | 1 | 4 | ADHD | Quick thanks! | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8vb8e/quick_thanks/ |
Mr_My_Bad | I was diagnosed with ADHD(Combined Type) when I was about 10 in Germany.
I was slower than my classmates but I performed pretty well because my mother helped me with studying and homework.
My parents wanted me to have good grades so I could go to the "Gymnasium", which is one of the 3 school degrees (Gymnasium, Realschule, Mittelschule), which you can go to after elementary based on your elementary gpa.
I had a gpa of 2.33 which is the absolute minimum requirement to be able to go to the Gymnasium(5th-11th grade)
The real struggle began from 5th grade:
-My parents couldn't help me with studying because the couldn't understand the material themselves
(We are immigrants and they can't speak german very well)
so I was on my own.
-I gradually stopped doing homework, studying or paying attention during class
-No one explained to me or my mother what ADHD is, nor did my mother do any research on it
The only thing I knew about my condition was that I had a "concentration disorder" and was "just forgetfull"
-My father doesn't believe in ADHD and told me that I was just lazy, still thinks so...
-After some time I forgot about even having ADHD and thought that I was just lazy
- Instead of studying or doing homework I watched TV all day and my parents blamed my poor school performance and forgetfulness on the television.
"You can't focus on class because you only think about watching TV !"
"You forget your jacket in school because you only think about watching TV !"
"Will the shows you watch give you the answers to your next test !?"
"Will the TV buy your bread when you become an adult !?"
The used to restrict my TV time and tell me to go study but I only played games with my little brother (now 11) or read books until I got my hands on my devices again
The same trends persisted when I got my first phone and only watched YT videos or shows, or my first console, or my first PC...
Whenever I was cought watching TV or playing video games by my father I was always asked if I had done my homework and had studied.
Of course I never did but I always lied to continue playing video games or watching TV.
I lied a lot to them because it was the only way to get what I wanted.
My father used to hit me sometimes when I was cought lying about stuff.
He also used to tell me that I was worse than an animal because at least animals learn from their mistakes start behaving when they get hit.
My parents also often used to fight about me and my mother wanted to divorce him because of his toxic behaviour towards me.
This continued until I got kicked out of school in 7th grade because I was always disrupting class, causing trouble with other kids and my grades were shit.
(Basically only 6's and 5's, which is the equivalent of F's and D's in America)
These were without a doubt the worst years of my life.
My parents wanted me to at least graduate with a "Realschul" diploma, so I tried that and failed 2 times.
Now I'm doing my apprenticeship as a nurse and I'm failing that too.
After a few days as a nurse in a hospital, I realized that I even suck at a normal work environment and that my forgetfulness isn't just a normal "behavior".
When I started to research about ADHD for the first time in my life my life made sense. Reading about the experiences of people who went through the same shit and the realization that I was not just a lazy video game addict made me understand my own behaviour and lifted a heavy weight off my shoulders.
When my mother learned about my school performance, she of course took away my PC and PS4.
When she asked me why I returned my last test without filling anything out, for the first time in my life I told her that I didn't pay attention in class, didn't study and didn't do my homework and that I didn't intend to because my ADHD.
She then told me that if my ADHD makes it impossible for me to study and do homework, I should just choose a job that doesn't require that.
She said that she would sent me to Russia to help my uncle work on a building site. (He is a construction worker there)
After being told how smart I am and how much potential I have for my entire life, that honestly kinda hurt.
She also suggested I could get treatment in a controlled environment, where I would have supervision to make sure I did what I had do do, but I told her that I don't want that anymore.
I don't even blame my parents. My father had a very fucked up and difficult life and my mother also went through a lot.
I'm pretty sure she also has ADD and she had to fight with depression too.
They did try hard and wanted the best for me, they just didn't understand, but it's whatever.
I think it's too late for me to get treatment.
And I don't even mean the ADHD.
I don't have the strength to fix myself.
I don't want to open up.
I don't want to fight anymore.
When I turn 18 in a few months, no one has any legal power over my life decisions and I'm just gonna run away and live on the street.
Be it Germany or Russia.
Can't be worse then the last 5 years of my life.
When you have nothing to fight for, you at least have nothing to loose.
Sorry if that was a little depressing. I just had to vent a little.
Hope you're doing good!
Bye | 2021-12-04T18:04:42.000Z | r8v9kz | 3 | 8 | ADHD | I(M,17) am slowly giving up on life because of my ADHD and unsupportive parents. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8v9kz/im17_am_slowly_giving_up_on_life_because_of_my/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T18:03:46.000Z | r8v8uv | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Anyone read “ADD-friendly ways to organize your life” or similar? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8v8uv/anyone_read_addfriendly_ways_to_organize_your/ |
Dry-Objective7330 | My partner of 9 months (we are both in our 40s) is not great at communicating. Its ADHD, I get it and he has made improvements since we have met. We don’t live together and I told him that especially on the days that we don’t meet I would like a phone call a day. We rarely have long conversations so our calls usually take less than 5 minutes. I understand the difficulty with staying in touch when one has ADHD and I have been trying to be patient and understanding, but at the same time firm, as communication is important for me in a relationship and my take is that if he can’t do the bare minimum, then it is a deal breaker for me.
Today I tested positive for covid and I texted him in the morning. I feel rough and sick. Friends have been calling to ask how I am, checking on me, asking if I need any help etc. I know he had a busy day and we kept in touch over text, but because our texts are short and sometimes excruciating I don’t really engage much as I don’t expect him to respond much.
It really hurts that he hasn’t called to ask how I am doing and I would really like to hear from him. I always check on him all the time when he is unwell and offer to help. I don’t need any help, just for him to show that he cares.
I am trying to rationalise that it is ADHD but at the same time I can’t help but feel hurt. Is it that he doesn’t care or is it because he has a lot going on today (a lot of things planned but didn’t materialised because one of his kids was unwell, but he’s fine now) and I didn’t cross his mind? | 2021-12-04T18:00:39.000Z | r8v69z | 4 | 2 | ADHD | ADHD and staying in touch | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8v69z/adhd_and_staying_in_touch/ |
skatedog_j | I'm sure you've all had this experience but the ADHD tax has snowballed me in the worst way. I was trying to register my car a year after purchase because ADHD, PTSD, anxiety, and existing under capitalism make it hard. The DMV basically told me my paperwork wasn't enough and sent me out. I didn't take my meds bc I wanted to be able to exercise after and honestly forgot how loud and distracting and overstimulating the DMV is. Now I have to try a different DMV and hope they'll listen to me explain the paperwork. And I'm registering it only now because I am applying to law school and they ask where your car is registered. Any inconsistency intentional or not on my personal details of my application can have me barred from law school. I have a nauseating headache from the stress of all this and I am just so tired of this. Between this and my EDS I just feel like I get emotionally/physically hit by a bus regularly. | 2021-12-04T17:58:17.000Z | r8v4c0 | 3 | 35 | ADHD | I'm so sick of the ADHD tax. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8v4c0/im_so_sick_of_the_adhd_tax/ |
Objective-Area-7980 | I’m a 20 year old college girl currently out of state at a university. I’ve struggled with anxiety and adhd for as long as i can remember but just recently got diagnosed with adhd in college. I’ve just about screwed up every school year and job i’ve had in my life and it’s starting to really affect me in adulthood. I’m failing out of school right now and i’m on academic probation all while my parents are working their asses off to pay for my school. I’m away from home and live alone in my apartment and I have days where i cannot get out of bed and have work to do but i physically cannot do it. I have a hard time differentiating my depression from my adhd because they can both be debilitating. My friends think i’m a bum and lazy i’m sure because they work hard and i can barely ever do the bare minimum. I’m also know as the “lazy” one in my family and that really affects my self esteem. I guess i’m just stuck and am wondering what my first steps should be? I have a horrible memory and lose everything also. I was on stimulants (focalin) for a while but i found that it made me more tired. This led to me questioning whether or not i actually have adhd and if i might just be a lazy person looking for excuses. Sorry if this was all over the place. | 2021-12-04T17:57:31.000Z | r8v3re | 12 | 32 | ADHD | I’m a horrible student and horrible work ethic | 0.98 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8v3re/im_a_horrible_student_and_horrible_work_ethic/ |
jasonlou89 | I'm undiagnosed (32M), I went to my first consultation yesterday. My marriage is a dumpster fire mostly because of me and my unrealized ADHD along with other things like immaturity and unrealistic expectations from a SO. I'm starting to feel helpless and unable to control my life. I know things I need to do to improve our marriage and I'm aware of my wife's needs and I make efforts to improve things for a short time, a week or two, then I just taper off and stop. We don't live in misery, we carry on with our lives raising our two young kids and taking care of our obligations but it's like the marriage gets lost in life and I kinda forget? lose focus I feel that's so stupid, how can something so important just get put on the back burner. It's like life is just one big distraction and every few weeks the wife has a meltdown or we have an argument and I snap out if it, I remember the FUBAR marriage and frantically resume working on the marriage. It makes my wife feel like our marriage is not all that important to me and that is just not the case at all. We don't know what to do, the wife has done so much to try and help me and our marriage but it's like I can't be a better husband or don't know how to be a better husband, I can't seem to get that part of me working properly. Btw this took me like 45 minutes to write. | 2021-12-04T17:45:01.000Z | r8uu8q | 11 | 1 | ADHD | My marriage is failing because I can't control my brain. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8uu8q/my_marriage_is_failing_because_i_cant_control_my/ |
drbrungus | Sometimes at some point in the day I literally feel so relaxed and cheerful. I think it might be because I’ve spent most of my life being so dopamine deficient, and after about a decade of literally depending on caffeine to keep me going, it’s just so odd to actually feel generally good!
If I’ve had poor sleep I usually don’t feel like that the following day, but I’m realising I at least no longer feel dreadful with awful anxiety. I reckon the caffeine was making that so much worse.
I don’t mean to sound dramatic with any of that! And I am not complaining, I’m just keen to hear from others on if they experience anything similar.
For anyone interested, I’m 3 months in and seem to metabolise methylphenidate very quickly so I take 2 separate doses of 36mg Xaggitin XL (aka Concerta) spaced about 4 hours apart + an optional 5mg Medikinet (aka Ritalin). | 2021-12-04T17:43:21.000Z | r8uszu | 1 | 0 | ADHD | Sometimes I feel high on Concerta (not talking about first time) | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8uszu/sometimes_i_feel_high_on_concerta_not_talking/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-12-04T17:43:14.000Z | r8uswx | 6 | 0 | ADHD | Calling all Vyvanse/Elvanse users! How many hours does it last for you? | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8uswx/calling_all_vyvanseelvanse_users_how_many_hours/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-12-04T17:41:21.000Z | r8urgd | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Sometimes I feel high on Concerta, anyone else? (Not talking about first time) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8urgd/sometimes_i_feel_high_on_concerta_anyone_else_not/ |
annetroverted | so earlier today i (F, 21) finally had the opportunity to talk to a psychiatrist,
the consultation was mainly to ask if im really experiencing depression because i currently stopped my studies 'cause of difficulties, to which she confirmed i do have a major depressive disorder
reaching the end of our meeting, when she asked me if i have any other questions, i briefly asked if have "attention deficit-", so then she proceeded to ask me the following questions:
"where you hyperactive as a child? for example when they let you sit, did you have a difficulty staying still? or did you get easily distracted and lose focus?" to which i told her besides being easily distracted and losing focus, i said not really
then she told me "so probably you dont, because ADHD usually starts in childhood, so for us to say you have it now we must see these symptoms when you were young"
now i dont know how to feel about it. because now i dont know if my tardiness since grade school to college, having difficulty in managing priorities, my messiness, my forgetfulness, my clumsiness, are all just an excuse, or is all just... me. | 2021-12-04T17:41:15.000Z | r8urdg | 9 | 0 | ADHD | asked my psychiatrist today if i may have ADHD/ADD but told me i probably don't because i told her i wasn't really 'hyperactive' as a child | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r8urdg/asked_my_psychiatrist_today_if_i_may_have_adhdadd/ |
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