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en23wr
How do I get a constant memory to stop?
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help-seeking
2
I posted this on a sexual abuse subreddit earlier but thought it might fit in or be answered better here. Sorry for the long post. I was sexually abused and manipulated for a couple months in 2014 when I was 16 by my first boyfriend. A lot of it I had blocked out and hadn’t dealt with the trauma for years because I h...
beckyboo777
1
0
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2020-01-11 03:27:33
ptsd
I posted this on a sexual abuse subreddit earlier but thought it might fit in or be answered better here. Sorry for the long post. <es>I was sexually abused and manipulated for a couple months in 2014 when I was 16 by my first boyfriend.<ee> <es>A lot of it I had blocked out and hadn’t dealt with the trauma for years...
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how do the flashbacks make you feel
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f45o3e
How can I ever feel comfortable with sex again
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help-seeking
1
My sexual assault happened 1.5 years ago. That was the first ever sexual experience I've had. Before that I wanted to have sex. I trusted men. I wanted be intimate with people. But now I dont feel like I can trust anyone that much. Sexual feelings that I have give me chest pains. I cant masturbate without thinking of h...
guinteapig
1
0
3
2020-02-15 06:27:53
rapecounseling
<es>My sexual assault happened 1.5 years ago.<ee> <es>That was the first ever sexual experience I've had.<ee> <es>Before that I wanted to have sex.<ee> <es>I trusted men.<ee> <es>I wanted be intimate with people.<ee> <efs>But now I dont feel like I can trust anyone that much.<efe> <es>Sexual feelings that I have give m...
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f3d98v
How do I find motivation as a suicidal leech?
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help-seeking
1
I'll try to keep this clear and straight to the point. So, like most of everyone else struggling with depression, I have trouble leaving my home, finding the motivation to go to the gym (being active is something I loved to do) and maintaining a clean home. Leaving my bed is an extremely difficult task to the point tha...
MurkyNun
1
0
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2020-02-13 17:19:08
getting_over_it
I'll try to keep this clear and straight to the point. <es>So, like most of everyone else struggling with depression, I have trouble leaving my home, finding the motivation to go to the gym (being active is something I loved to do) and maintaining a clean home.<ee> <es>Leaving my bed is an extremely difficult task to t...
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How did X make you feel?
the suicidal thoughts
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eoqnhu
First post and wondering if someone can help me, I’m 15 years old by the way
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help-seeking
3
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Dre239
1
0
16
2020-01-14 20:09:50
addiction
<rs>First post and wondering if someone can help me, I’m 15 years old by the way<re> nan
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ejbzv5
Bpd episode?
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survey
1
Hi! In your experience....What does a bpd episode look like? How do you react, respond, behave, feel and think? can you control it..are there certain words or things that trigger you? Just trying to reach out, see how others experience are. Thanx.
livingawareness1
1
0
12
2020-01-03 07:15:21
BPD
Hi! <rs>In your experience....What does a bpd episode look like? <re> <rs>How do you react, respond, behave, feel and think? <re> <rs>can you control it..are there certain words or things that trigger you?<re> <rs>Just trying to reach out, see how others experience are.<re> Thanx.
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control your bpd episodes
Why are you wanting X ?
to know how to react to a bpd episode
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eibjo6
I feel like closing my eyes and pressing the x as hard as I can when I’m driving and just dying
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rant
1
I don’t wanna die but I don’t care about being alive. I could close my eyes, press the X and drive into the ocean. No one else would die bc no one else will be around. Everything would be so fuvking peaceful and maybe then someone would care about my existence b
thegirlflower
1
0
2
2020-01-01 00:42:53
BPD
<es>I don’t wanna die but I don’t care about being alive.<ee> <es>I could close my eyes, press the X and drive into the ocean.<ee> No one else would die bc no one else will be around. Everything would be so fuvking peaceful and maybe then someone would care about my existence b
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why you don't care about being alive
How did X make you feel?
not caring about being alive
What do you need help with now that X?
you dont' care about being alive
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eij12x
Anyone wanna chat?
1a
chitchat
1
^ Just a heads up, im an anxious person
cyfrifffug
1
0
12
2020-01-01 14:46:26
Anxiety
<rs>Anyone wanna chat?<re> ^ Just a heads up, im an anxious person
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anxiety
How did X make you feel?
your anxiety
Can you elaborate more on X ?
why you want to chat with someone
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ekfgii
Really proud of myself
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chitchat
1
I’m 28 days clean. I’ve gotten up before 10am today I’m accepting that I do in fact have a mental illness I stood up for myself I’m genuinely proud of myself and I’m gonna reward myself today by taking a really nice bath tonight instead of a quick shower like normal.
ewwhoisluke
1
0
0
2020-01-05 16:50:13
mentalillness
I’m 28 days clean. I’ve gotten up before 10am today I’m accepting that I do in fact have a mental illness I stood up for myself I’m genuinely proud of myself and I’m gonna reward myself today by taking a really nice bath tonight instead of a quick shower like normal.
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euepla
Unhappy/Unfulfilled
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help-seeking
1
Any advice on how to stop feeling unfulfilled and unhappy ? Everything makes me unhappy. My marriage, my life... I just constantly feel like there is a weight on my chest. Like I am suffocating. I try to explain to my husband how I am feeling and he just brushes me off. I literally feel like my life is wasting away, an...
Mivida0405
1
0
19
2020-01-26 23:06:03
selfhelp
<rs>Any advice on how to stop feeling unfulfilled and unhappy ?<re> <es>Everything makes me unhappy.<ee> <efs>My marriage, my life... I just constantly feel like there is a weight on my chest.<efe> <efs>Like I am suffocating.<efe> <es>I try to explain to my husband how I am feeling and he just brushes me off.<ee> <efs>...
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eipbxa
I’m having a panic attack right now
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help-seeking
1
I lost the small blade I usually use, and I’m scared my parents found it and saw the little bit of dried blood on it. I’m scared that I’m gonna start using something bigger and sharper like an actual knife. Please someone help. I’m scared to ask my parents for a new blade, because yes it is an artist knife, but if they...
wigglywarfstache
1
0
3
2020-01-01 23:06:55
selfharm
<es>I’m having a panic attack right now<ee> <es>I lost the small blade I usually use.<ee> <efs>I’m scared my parents found it and saw the little bit of dried blood on it.<efe> <efs>I’m scared that I’m gonna start using something bigger and sharper like an actual knife.<efe> <rs>Please someone help.<re> <efs>I’m scared...
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why you cut yourself
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ej7o8d
Welcoming the New Year sober!
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chitchat
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I have 18 days sober today. I woke up new years day, I wasn't hungover, both of my cats were snuggled in bed with me and the sun was shining through the windows. I celebrated at a meeting, solidified a sponser and ended the day feeling very loved and supported. Bring it on 2020 💕
OxidativePhos17
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2020-01-03 01:09:13
alcoholicsanonymous
I have 18 days sober today. I woke up new years day, I wasn't hungover, both of my cats were snuggled in bed with me and the sun was shining through the windows. I celebrated at a meeting, solidified a sponser and ended the day feeling very loved and supported. Bring it on 2020 💕
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elzop8
My husband just whipped his phone at me
1b
rant
2
He got upset at me because his sister asked if we were available for lunch this weekend. He asked me if lunch or dinner was better. I said I didn't know or care. I had wanted us to go snowshoeing this weekend but he had said a few weeks back that we had too much work to do on the house to go. So I was a bit pissed that...
kanilanana
1
0
4
2020-01-08 22:00:53
domesticviolence
<es>He got upset at me because his sister asked if we were available for lunch this weekend.<ee> <es>He asked me if lunch or dinner was better.<ee> <es>I said I didn't know or care. <ee><es>I had wanted us to go snowshoeing this weekend but he had said a few weeks back that we had too much work to do on the house to go...
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how you felt about his outburst
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you leave the relationship
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eknsjx
@delmansad
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chitchat
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livinhell456456564
1
0
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2020-01-06 03:04:42
sad
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enmwim
Motivation
1a
rant
2
I’m on day 12 now. Ive been clean of my drug of choice for 3 years but decided its time to go completely sober. I’d been drinking way too much and showing some signs of dependency, so I made it a New Years thing. No more booze, weed, drugs, or cigarettes. I figured cigs would be the hardest. Yesterday, I found two ba...
Jsgoose6
1
0
8
2020-01-12 12:29:09
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I’m on day 12 now.<ee> <es>Ive been clean of my drug of choice for 3 years but decided its time to go completely sober.<ee> <es>I’d been drinking way too much and showing some signs of dependency, so I made it a New Years thing.<ee> <es>No more booze, weed, drugs, or cigarettes.<ee> <es>I figured cigs would be the ...
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What do you need help with now that X?
you are getting withdrawls
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eibg1t
Guess who missed the start of the new decade because they couldn’t whether to hold their pee twice
1a
chitchat
2
Great start to a new decade, too bad I missed that very moment stumbling out of the toilet. About 2 minutes before I contemplated whether my peeing will compromise my chances of catching the countdown But I decided what’s the point if I can’t enjoy it because I need to pee So I start pee, realising this is a large tank...
buxtonwater3
1
0
1
2020-01-01 00:35:00
ADHD
<es>Guess who missed the start of the new decade because they couldn’t whether to hold their pee twice<ee> <es>Great start to a new decade, too bad I missed that very moment stumbling out of the toilet.<ee> <es>About 2 minutes before I contemplated whether my peeing will compromise my chances of catching the countdown<...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eia4vi
Olanzapine (Zyprexa)
0
help-seeking
2
Hello everyone! I've been diagnosed with BPD, I'm a 20 year old guy if that's relevant. And I've been taking Olanzapine 5 mg everyday before I go to sleep for a few weeks and it's been helping tremendously with my symptoms, I don't get angry as much, I don't have outbursts, it has helped with my symptoms perfectly and ...
starsinthedistance_
1
0
0
2019-12-31 22:50:20
depression
Hello everyone! <es>I've been diagnosed with BPD, I'm a 20 year old guy if that's relevant.<ee> <es><efs>And I've been taking Olanzapine 5 mg everyday before I go to sleep for a few weeks and it's been helping tremendously with my symptoms, I don't get angry as much, I don't have outbursts, it has helped with my sympto...
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f3pcub
Attacked by Parent
1b
help-seeking
2
I'm twenty but I've been physically and verbally abused by a parent for fifteen years now. She's single mom, although my dad pays child support and has always been there for my sister and I. I've dealt with this just fine for all those fifteen years now, but last night, she called the police on me for pushing her back ...
Lunnod
1
0
11
2020-02-14 08:33:25
domesticviolence
<es>I'm twenty but I've been physically and verbally abused by a parent for fifteen years now.<ee> <es>She's single mom, although my dad pays child support and has always been there for my sister and I.<ee> <es>I've dealt with this just fine for all those fifteen years now, but last night, she called the police on me f...
2
0
2
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How did X make you feel?
your mother's aggression
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eldlyu
I don't feel like I'm capable of ever being loved
1a
rant
1
I'm so scared that nobody will ever love me. I've been in one bad relationship and now I'm prone to abuse. I just want one person in the whole world to care about me and now I'll never have it
Dumbidiotloser09632
1
0
4
2020-01-07 16:16:10
domesticviolence
<efs>I'm so scared that nobody will ever love me.<efe> <es>I've been in one bad relationship and now I'm prone to abuse.<ee> <rs>I just want one person in the whole world to care about me and now I'll never have it<re>
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1
Can you elaborate more on X ?
your bad relationship
Can you elaborate more on X ?
the relationship make you feel
Can you elaborate more on X ?
what would help you get over the relationship
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ejy2my
I'm having disturbing thoughts. It's frustrating me.
1b
help-seeking
2
Hi guys, For context, I am 23 years old, nearing 24. For my entire life I have never had a meaningful connection outside of my family. I was, not necessarily depressed, but lazy and down a lot. I got into gaming and got addicted to it. I recently visitted a clinic to help my gaming addiction and I met someone there, ...
ThrowAwayForHelpStuf
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0
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2020-01-04 15:40:08
selfhelp
Hi guys, <es>For context, I am 23 years old, nearing 24.<ee> <es>For my entire life I have never had a meaningful connection outside of my family.<ee> <es>I was, not necessarily depressed, but lazy and down a lot.<ee> <es>I got into gaming and got addicted to it.<ee> <es>I recently visitted a clinic to help my gaming...
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ekp26g
Tired of Crack Addict Brother (41SM) Shenanigans
1b
help-seeking
3
My brother is 41 and has been using crack since he was 11 years old according to him. My brother and I were placed in foster care at a very young age because my mom had her issues whatever. As you can imagine we came from a very dysfunctional family and seen a lot of things children should never see and he's never spok...
rainlover24
1
0
5
2020-01-06 04:51:12
addiction
<es>My brother is 41 and has been using crack since he was 11 years old according to him.<ee> <es>My brother and I were placed in foster care at a very young age because my mom had her issues whatever.<ee> <es>As you can imagine we came from a very dysfunctional family and seen a lot of things children should never see...
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eiklc2
I’m struggling and everything feels wrong
1b
help-seeking
2
I’m not sure how to start this but here I am. There is a lot going on in my life. My life is all over the show and my mental health is barely holding it together and yes I will say I am struggling badly... But before everyone asks “have you been to a doctor/councillor/etc?” No I have not, not because I’m “making dram...
DeadShadowKitty
1
0
5
2020-01-01 17:05:35
mentalillness
I’m not sure how to start this but here I am. There is a lot going on in my life. <es>My life is all over the show and my mental health is barely holding it together and yes I will say I am struggling badly...<ee> But before everyone asks “have you been to a doctor/councillor/etc?” No I have not, not because I’m “mak...
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eiv6cp
What are team effectiveness workshops like at work?
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survey
1
Our boss said we are going to have a one-day team effectiveness training at the office this month and attendance is mandatory for everyone. We’re around 11 people at the office and I’m really worried because I don’t fit in very well with them and I always get called out for being too quiet. I’m curious to know what i...
blushingcat
1
0
3
2020-01-02 07:31:47
socialanxiety
<es>Our boss said we are going to have a one-day team effectiveness training at the office this month and attendance is mandatory for everyone. <ee> <efs>We’re around 11 people at the office and I’m really worried because I don’t fit in very well with them and I always get called out for being too quiet.<efe> <rs>I’m ...
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emqj7u
Are you aware?
0
survey
1
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anonymousVSanonymous
1
0
0
2020-01-10 12:52:34
selfhelp
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eis89x
I have bad relationship anxiety and I don’t know what to do.
1c
help-seeking
1
Honestly I don’t know how to really explain this. I get so much anxiety when my SO goes out, it’s not like I don’t trust him, my stomach just kills me and I think of the worst scenarios. I also have a huge problem of always asking if he’s okay, it’s probably about 5 times a day I ask,”Are you okay?” I also always ...
bvgomez
1
0
5
2020-01-02 02:58:09
Anxiety
Honestly I don’t know how to really explain this. <es>I get so much anxiety when my SO goes out, it’s not like I don’t trust him, my stomach just kills me and I think of the worst scenarios. <ee> <es>I also have a huge problem of always asking if he’s okay, it’s probably about 5 times a day I ask,”Are you okay?” <ee>...
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ejzcoc
Those who take beta blockers ONLY before a high stress situation such as a presentation, what dosage do you take?
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survey
1
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DarthChewbacc
3
0
4
2020-01-04 17:18:49
socialanxiety
<rs>Those who take beta blockers ONLY before a high stress situation such as a presentation, what dosage do you take?<re> nan
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What happened that you want X ?
to take beta blockers
Why are you wanting X ?
to take beta blockers
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f8kyhr
English class pisses me off.
1a
rant
1
I'll be the first to admit that I'm an angry person, I feel ambient anger to begin with but something about my English class/teacher makes me wanna throw a desk at my teacher. Maybe it's the fact that my teacher is stupendously old and every question of ours she "answers" just leads to more questions. Or maybe it's the...
DjLongPickle
1
0
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2020-02-24 03:20:19
Anger
<es>I'll be the first to admit that I'm an angry person, I feel ambient anger to begin with but something about my English class/teacher makes me wanna throw a desk at my teacher.<ee> <es>Maybe it's the fact that my teacher is stupendously old and every question of ours she "answers" just leads to more questions.<ee> <...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
null
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What do you need help with now that X?
english classes make you angry
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eva7t3
I’m really agressive and believe I might have anger issues.
1a
rant
1
Usually I’m a serious person, it’s just how I am, most of the time I don’t feel anything, sadness, happiness...etc. Don’t get me wrong, I can have fun with friends if we’re having a good time. But I snap pretty easily. Some of my friends call me a sadist when I’m angry. I’m just not a guy who enjoys being pranked or ...
__Null_
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2020-01-28 19:29:43
Anger
<es>Usually I’m a serious person, it’s just how I am, most of the time I don’t feel anything, sadness, happiness...etc.<ee> Don’t get me wrong, I can have fun with friends if we’re having a good time. <es>But I snap pretty easily. <ee> <es>Some of my friends call me a sadist when I’m angry.<ee> <es>I’m just not a guy ...
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
how does anger make you feel
What do you need help with now that X?
you get aggressive due to anger
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em6qdn
How I start becoming motivated?
0
help-seeking
1
I went through a recent break up, it hurts a lot because he's also my bestfriend and everything just too fast. How I try to regain myself and heal properly so I can be productive once again
c0ndensada
1
0
13
2020-01-09 08:08:57
selfhelp
<es>I went through a recent break up, it hurts a lot because he's also my bestfriend and everything just too fast.<ee> <rs>How I try to regain myself and heal properly so I can be productive once again<re>
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why did you break up
How did X make you feel?
the break up
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eio9w9
Recording Times I feel angry and depressed. What else should I put?
1a
help-seeking
1
Hi, I get really angry and depressed every now and then. A lot of shitty people messing with me because I have Autism. I am trying to get out of this rut by noting the time I become aware that I was or am angry, and the estimated time period before self awareness. I also take medications, setraline, and Adderall XR. I ...
WarPigs01
1
0
4
2020-01-01 21:43:11
Anger
<efs>Hi, I get really angry and depressed every now and then.<efe> <es>A lot of shitty people messing with me because I have Autism.<ee> I am trying to get out of this rut by noting the time I become aware that I was or am angry, and the estimated time period before self awareness. <es>I also take medications, setralin...
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how notating would help you
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eih36c
2019 In Pixels. Hoping to kick depression’s ass in 2020!
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chitchat
1
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TheLolFactor101
1
0
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2020-01-01 10:40:26
mentalillness
<rs><es>2019 In Pixels. Hoping to kick depression’s ass in 2020!<ee><re> nan
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what caused your depression
How did X make you feel?
depression
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how you want to get relief from depression
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eibqfj
Test testing 1 two one 2 🌲
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chitchat
2
Hello? Can anyone see this? No? Ah okay.
ThatNuggaBilly
1
0
2
2020-01-01 00:59:10
depression
Hello? Can anyone see this? No? Ah okay.
0
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eixhu7
I cant get myself together
1a
rant
1
I returned from Ireland to my home Germany in november. My initial plan was to find a job and a new apartment as soon as I had the money. Until then I'm living with my (abusive) mother again. At first everything seemed pretty well, I wrote a few applications and got invinted to an interview. I didnt get the job. Since ...
hazeprincess
1
0
7
2020-01-02 12:11:40
ADHD
<es>I returned from Ireland to my home Germany in November.<ee> <es>My initial plan was to find a job and a new apartment as soon as I had the money.<ee> <es>Until then I'm living with my (abusive) mother again.<ee> <es>At first everything seemed pretty well, I wrote a few applications and got invinted to an interview....
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ej9zyg
I think I’m going crazy
1a
help-seeking
2
I struggled with anxiety and depression growing up. I overcame depression. Living with an extremely narcissistic mother was difficult and overcoming depression under her roof was hard but I did it. I learned to ignore her comments and live for myself But the last few months I’m turning into a darker place than I was ...
hdndjdjd
2
0
5
2020-01-03 04:12:10
mentalillness
<es>I struggled with anxiety and depression growing up.<ee> I overcame depression. <es>Living with an extremely narcissistic mother was difficult and overcoming depression under her roof was hard but I did it.<ee> I learned to ignore her comments and live for myself <es>But the last few months I’m turning into a dark...
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you are overwhelmed by dark and lonely feelings
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eii6p5
Anyone here goes to Cornell
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Will regret this later, but it’s hard to find someone on campus who can truly relate to how I feel and what I’m going through.
gideonmt
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2020-01-01 13:09:42
BPD
<rs>Anyone here goes to Cornell<re> <es>Will regret this later, but it’s hard to find someone on campus who can truly relate to how I feel and what I’m going through.<ee>
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what you are going through
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what you are going through in campus
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what would help you out of your situation
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eiv8a1
I’m crying so hard
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WHY WONT SOMEONE HELP ME??
tyi-smartie
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2020-01-02 07:37:48
selfharm
WHY WONT SOMEONE HELP ME??
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ekyg0h
Help.
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I (29 M) am recently having problems with anger and depression. I don't know what to do. I know it's the external things that are affecting me, but how do I at least keep calm enough to stop being so angry. I'm not even sure what emotions are coming. It's like a huge wave of hurt, fear, mad, high blood pressure... I'm ...
Tim-jasper-jim
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2020-01-06 18:56:32
Anger
<es>I (29 M) am recently having problems with anger and depression.<ee> I don't know what to do. <es>I know it's the external things that are affecting me, but how do I at least keep calm enough to stop being so angry.<ee> <efs>I'm not even sure what emotions are coming.<efe> <rs><efs>It's like a huge wave of hurt, fea...
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what caused the anger issues
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eqkqh3
Go to favorite non alcoholic drinks??
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Hi! I’m 24f, 8 months sober~ my housemate is having a house party here tonight and it’ll be my first time at a real house party since I got sober. I’ve been avoiding them bc I don’t fully trust myself. I feel pretty good right now and I want to feel fun and included tonight without drinking all the margaritas and punch...
zrep3443
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2020-01-18 19:07:50
alcoholicsanonymous
Hi! I’m 24f, 8 months sober~ my housemate is having a house party here tonight and it’ll be my first time at a real house party since I got sober. I’ve been avoiding them bc I don’t fully trust myself. I feel pretty good right now and I want to feel fun and included tonight without drinking all the margaritas and punch...
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elf5bq
Mad? True Madness is have been wrangled, tortured, and spit on. After that you make a choice; keep trying for your life; or run, run, RUN and never look back. Fall down the rabbit hole, and engulf yourself in MADNESS. And sometimes, you arent given a choice.
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ashhtreeee
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2020-01-07 18:05:53
mentalillness
Mad? True Madness is have been wrangled, tortured, and spit on. After that you make a choice; keep trying for your life; or run, run, RUN and never look back. Fall down the rabbit hole, and engulf yourself in MADNESS. And sometimes, you arent given a choice. nan
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ei8lds
Finally feeling back to myself!
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After a disastrous couple of weeks trying Vyvanse, I'm back on Adderall and all feels right with the world again. It was like all my ADHD symptoms got turned up to 11, and I even had some that haven't been problems for me before. It was a nightmare that I can barely remember now, but at least I know it's not for me. ...
TryAgainJen
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2019-12-31 20:46:32
ADHD
After a disastrous couple of weeks trying Vyvanse, I'm back on Adderall and all feels right with the world again. It was like all my ADHD symptoms got turned up to 11, and I even had some that haven't been problems for me before. It was a nightmare that I can barely remember now, but at least I know it's not for me. ...
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enk5f1
As Bill Sees It, 1.12
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To Rebuild Security, p. 301 In our behavior respecting financial and emotional security, fear, greed, possessiveness, and pride have too often done their worst. Surveying his business or employment record, almost any alcoholic can ask questions like these: In addition to my drinking problem, what character defects c...
Whtsox
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2020-01-12 06:37:54
alcoholicsanonymous
To Rebuild Security, p. 301 In our behavior respecting financial and emotional security, fear, greed, possessiveness, and pride have too often done their worst. Surveying his business or employment record, almost any alcoholic can ask questions like these: In addition to my drinking problem, what character defects c...
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eyy520
Need some advice
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I’ve been having anger problems for quite a while now but they recently got worse, no one helps me or gives me advice on what I could do. I came to this subreddit looking for help because it’s actually making me quite upset as I don’t know what to do, does anyone have any suggestions on what I should do?
OhFroh261
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2020-02-04 22:12:09
Anger
<es>I’ve been having anger problems for quite a while now but they recently got worse, no one helps me or gives me advice on what I could do.<ee> <efs>I came to this subreddit looking for help because it’s actually making me quite upset as I don’t know what to do, does anyone have any suggestions on what I should do?<e...
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what causes your anger
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your anger problems have gotten worse
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f1ka4h
Rage/destruction when fighting
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Sometimes when I get in a fight with my wife, we get to such an emotional impasse and the only way I can find out of it is to punch a wall, throw something, or break something. When we come down, she will even understand my level of frustration but of course wants me to stop. It’s never anything at her and I never have...
qwerty1799
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2020-02-10 03:24:48
Anger
<es>Sometimes when I get in a fight with my wife, we get to such an emotional impasse and the only way I can find out of it is to punch a wall, throw something, or break something.<ee> <es>When we come down, she will even understand my level of frustration but of course wants me to stop.<ee> It’s never anything at her ...
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all the rage during fights with your wife
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eiovux
CBT
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I’ve finally been referred for CBT in my area. Did/Does CBT work for you?
15fairyflowers
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2020-01-01 22:32:40
Anxiety
<es>I’ve finally been referred for CBT in my area.<ee> <rs>Did/Does CBT work for you?<re>
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why you were referred for CBT
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your condition
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eltc9j
Sports injury and returning to sports, how to handle unavoidable triggers?
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So, I play roller derby, a full contact sport. I had a nasty knee injury (completely torn ACL) that required surgery. I had as smooth a recovery physically as possible. Mentally, not so much. I have not been diagnosed with PTSD or seen a therapist, etc., because I am a broke grad student, but if I make a weird contact ...
smolderbyboi
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2020-01-08 14:23:48
ptsd
<es>So, I play roller derby, a full contact sport.<ee> <es>I had a nasty knee injury (completely torn ACL) that required surgery.<ee> <es>I had as smooth a recovery physically as possible.<ee> <es>Mentally, not so much.<ee> <es>I have not been diagnosed with PTSD or seen a therapist, etc., because I am a broke grad stu...
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eigaip
I feel that my fear of angering others is pushing people away
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Has any else experienced this? Perhaps overcome it? I would love some insight/help. Thank you. Context: I am a 26F that was verbally, physically, and sexually abused by my father. He expressed his anger and I learned to fear it. I shunned it. Now I feel like I don't know how to deal with it. I don't feel that being a...
gravymadefromscratch
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2020-01-01 08:50:55
ptsd
<rs>Has any else experienced this?<re> <rs>Perhaps overcome it?<re> <rs>I would love some insight/help.<re> Thank you. <es>Context: I am a 26F that was verbally, physically, and sexually abused by my father.<ee> <es>He expressed his anger and I learned to fear it.<ee> <es>I shunned it.<ee> <efs>Now I feel like I don'...
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emtpop
Help advice needed
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I tapered off Suboxone and went off 3 days ago. I’ve quit Methadone and Heroin in the past and this is by far way harder. I feel like I caught a stomach Flu. I through up all night last night and yawned non stop. Also I this all started when I tried using Kratom to help, I’m wondering if I had a bad reaction to t...
swar5484
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2020-01-10 16:57:33
OpiatesRecovery
<es>I tapered off Suboxone and went off 3 days ago. <ee> <es>I’ve quit Methadone and Heroin in the past and this is by far way harder.<ee> <efs>I feel like I caught a stomach Flu.<efe> <efs>I through up all night last night and yawned non stop.<efe> <ee>Also I this all started when I tried using Kratom to help.<ee...
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suboxone usage
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es406r
2 months ago I was sexually assaulted by my now ex-boyfriend
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Both of us are 19. Two months ago sexually assaulted me. I’ve talked about it so much with friends at this point that discussing it has become tiresome and honestly quite triggering. I will not go into detail for this reason, but what occurred is essentially what is known as “stealthing.” These past months have been t...
francinebeenfrensky
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2020-01-22 00:36:47
rapecounseling
<es>2 months ago I was sexually assaulted by my now ex-boyfriend<ee> <es>Both of us are 19.<ee> <es>Two months ago sexually assaulted me.<ee> <efs>I’ve talked about it so much with friends at this point that discussing it has become tiresome and honestly quite triggering.<efe> <es>I will not go into detail for this rea...
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you have lost your hope and will to live
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eike9z
A little over 4 months and each day is getting better. Those going through this hell right now please read for inspiration.
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I am a little over 4 months sober and the constant headaches aren’t always there. ( I think mine was related to stress) The horrible anxiety, fear, and intrusive thoughts are getting less and less. From how I am today to how I was 2 months ago. I have no idea how I made it through it. It has literally been the worst he...
saultarus
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2020-01-01 16:50:03
alcoholicsanonymous
I am a little over 4 months sober and the constant headaches aren’t always there. ( I think mine was related to stress) The horrible anxiety, fear, and intrusive thoughts are getting less and less. From how I am today to how I was 2 months ago. I have no idea how I made it through it. It has literally been the worst he...
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eybhgg
Miserable human haunted with vengeful thoughts
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I'm a 23 year old male. I was sexually abused by a much older cousin between the ages of 4 and 9. I've already told my family about this even to his parents. I go to therapy once a week. But I still live everyday wanting to murder this piece of garbage. Also he is my neighbour so that is even more sinister for me. I'm...
aldoushuxley96
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2020-02-03 18:33:37
rapecounseling
I'm a 23 year old male. I was sexually abused by a much older cousin between the ages of 4 and 9. I've already told my family about this even to his parents. I go to therapy once a week. But I still live everyday wanting to murder this piece of garbage. Also he is my neighbour so that is even more sinister for me. I'm...
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eii8uh
Strange ways of remembering things
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Does anyone else remember things through backtracking? Like if you’re watching a show and you have a certain thought that you forget a few seconds later, do you have to rewind to the part where you first had that thought to remember it? Kind of like when you walk into a room looking for something, forgetting what you’r...
anon23075
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2020-01-01 13:16:57
ADHD
<rs>Does anyone else remember things through backtracking?<re> <es>Like if you’re watching a show and you have a certain thought that you forget a few seconds later, do you have to rewind to the part where you first had that thought to remember it? <ee><es>Kind of like when you walk into a room looking for something, f...
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ep1ovh
how do i get over this disconnect from being capable of doing beneficial things?
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I'd really appreciate some insight...I've been depressed most of my life. tried medication but didn't find it helpful. struggled with substance abuse. i notice my automatic negative thoughts. i wake up every day and dread all the responsibilities i know that are going to arise. i know that if i exercised, did yoga, pl...
agent-of-heaven
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2020-01-15 12:28:00
getting_over_it
<rs>I'd really appreciate some insight...<re><es>I've been depressed most of my life.<ee> <es>tried medication but didn't find it helpful.<ee> <es>struggled with substance abuse.<ee> <es>i notice my automatic negative thoughts.<ee> <es>i wake up every day and dread all the responsibilities i know that are going to ari...
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eiv8x4
I just cut for the first time
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I wrote fuck on my wrist
SadSkywalker
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2020-01-02 07:39:58
selfharm
<es>I just cut for the first time<ee> <es>I wrote fuck on my wrist<ee>
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why you cut yourself
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cutting yourself
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you cut yourself for the first time
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ezdqkq
Pedophiles Should Burn
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Since I was little I’ve been put into bad situations due to my home life. I’ve always been sexualized by my parents “friends” and even family members. When I turned 14 I got myself into a horrible relationship with a 27 year old man. I am now 18 and still trying to get out of this relationship. He has taken everything ...
lewcifer01
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2020-02-05 18:15:27
domesticviolence
<es>Since I was little I’ve been put into bad situations due to my home life.<ee> <es>I’ve always been sexualized by my parents “friends” and even family members.<ee> <es>When I turned 14 I got myself into a horrible relationship with a 27 year old man.<ee> <es>I am now 18 and still trying to get out of this relationsh...
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what would help you get out of the relationship
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ekjtw3
Help or advise, please!
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I am addicted to pills and have been since I was a teen. I never purchase illegally. I stopped for a long time, but when ever the opportunity arises, like I have a surgery, or my pets are prescribed tramadol I go back into the cycle. I crave the feeling of euphoria. I have had depression and anxiety for a long time, wh...
hashtageverythingsux
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2020-01-05 22:09:33
addiction
<es>I am addicted to pills and have been since I was a teen.<ee> I never purchase illegally. <es>I stopped for a long time, but when ever the opportunity arises, like I have a surgery, or my pets are prescribed tramadol I go back into the cycle.<es> <es>I crave the feeling of euphoria.<ee> <es>I have had depression and...
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how anxiety makes you feel
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eiawpx
.. bruh idk what to put lmao
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so basically, ive made this account a secret one for the moment to get some stuff out, please bare with me lmao. im making this about half an hour before the new year comes in the hopes that maybe 2020 will be the year im actually able to be satisfied with myself, and for others to be nice to me for once. and anaïs...
mik_mak_dvlmn
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2019-12-31 23:52:33
depression
so basically, ive made this account a secret one for the moment to get some stuff out, please bare with me lmao. im making this about half an hour before the new year comes in the hopes that maybe 2020 will be the year im actually able to be satisfied with myself, and for others to be nice to me for once. and anaïs...
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you are so upset and blaming yourself
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ej93ka
I keep thinking I'm faking a mental illness.
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Or something like that. I read stuff about how bad people have it and it seems so much worse than my situation and that my problems mean nothing and are just basically me making a big deal out of nothing. I don't really know how to explain it except that everybody elses issuses to me are very valid but i think of my ow...
Jellyoscar
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2020-01-03 02:59:54
selfharm
<es> I keep thinking I'm faking a mental illness. <ee> <es>Or something like that.<ee> <es>I read stuff about how bad people have it and it seems so much worse than my situation and that my problems mean nothing and are just basically me making a big deal out of nothing. <ee><es>I don't really know how to explain it ex...
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your mental pain
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you cut yourself due to to mental pain
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el7km0
Begin again.. Choose life .. Tides are turning.. a change is coming..
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dat_laffytaff
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2020-01-07 06:20:33
selfhelp
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elt6u4
Are you in recovery from alcohol addiction? (UK residents only)
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Hello everyone, Happy new year and hope you had a lovely Christmas. I am still looking for inspirational stories of recovery from alcohol addiction. Thank you to everyone who has already taken part; I am nearly there. This study follows the long-term trajectories of individuals in recovery from alcohol problems. ...
Psychology_Study19
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2020-01-08 14:11:19
addiction
Hello everyone, Happy new year and hope you had a lovely Christmas. I am still looking for inspirational stories of recovery from alcohol addiction. Thank you to everyone who has already taken part; I am nearly there. This study follows the long-term trajectories of individuals in recovery from alcohol problems. ...
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en3f0t
Choosing the right emotion
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I’m 19 I got kicked out almost 2 years ago because my dad and I both had a hard time choosing the right way to express ourselves. Rather than talking things out logically we’d just choose to be hostile and angry and everything was done to the extreme. Hence telling me to leave. Since then my first thought when ever I f...
farumff
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2020-01-11 05:29:45
Anger
<es>I’m 19 I got kicked out almost 2 years ago because my dad and I both had a hard time choosing the right way to express ourselves.<ee> <es>Rather than talking things out logically we’d just choose to be hostile and angry and everything was done to the extreme.<ee><es>Hence telling me to leave.<ee> <es>Since then my ...
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the discomfort you feel
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you feel discomfort on bottling up anger
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eio2r6
It’s now been 8 years since I quit opiates, cold turkey. I’m 23. Happy new year!
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Today marks my 8th year clean from opiate painkillers. Hope you’re all having a good and safe holiday!
Christiannan
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2020-01-01 21:27:58
addiction
Today marks my 8th year clean from opiate painkillers. Hope you’re all having a good and safe holiday!
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enesbq
2 years today
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Made it two years today. Was a struggle in the beginning but got easier as I went. Glad to be happier, healthier, and not at risk of making stupid mistakes that hurt myself and others.
fst58
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2020-01-11 22:55:04
alcoholicsanonymous
Made it two years today. Was a struggle in the beginning but got easier as I went. Glad to be happier, healthier, and not at risk of making stupid mistakes that hurt myself and others.
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ej4amu
I'm a A bad person.
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I've noticed a lot of things that I do that I've decided I think I'm a bad person. just today I snapped at my boyfriend and called him a dumbass. even after he expressed he was upset about it o didn't apologize. I feel bad but I haven't apologized I'm currently sitting in the bathroom at work crying . why do I hate mys...
badluckrat
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2020-01-02 21:06:17
mentalillness
<efs>I've noticed a lot of things that I do that I've decided I think I'm a bad person.<efe> <es>just today I snapped at my boyfriend and called him a dumbass.<ee> <es>even after he expressed he was upset about it o didn't apologize.<ee> <efs>I feel bad but I haven't apologized<efe> <efs>I'm currently sitting in the ba...
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you feel bad about your actions
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ew9419
im losing hope and feeling emotionally numb
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Yes this is where I'm at in my life. I am asking strangers on the internet to cheer me up and give me words of advice. I am 20 years old, married with a 6 month old boy. At face value it would seem that I got my life made. If we pull the curtain back you'll see that I don't have much. I don't have a place of my own, I ...
JKB171211
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2020-01-30 17:38:43
getting_over_it
Yes this is where I'm at in my life. I am asking strangers on the internet to cheer me up and give me words of advice. <es>I am 20 years old, married with a 6 month old boy. At face value it would seem that I got my life made.<ee> <es>If we pull the curtain back you'll see that I don't have much.<ee> <es>I don't have a...
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el5goi
UPDATE: still drinking
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I had posted that someone I was close to was drinking too much and the situation was bleak. Let me provide some background information here. First off, I fully understand that someone with an addiction won't seek or accept help until THEY want it. Secondly the person I was referring to is my wife. Finally here is th...
denturedude64
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2020-01-07 03:22:30
alcoholicsanonymous
<es>I had posted that someone I was close to was drinking too much and the situation was bleak. <ee> Let me provide some background information here. <es>First off, I fully understand that someone with an addiction won't seek or accept help until THEY want it.<ee> <es>Secondly the person I was referring to is my wife....
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your wife not seeking help for her addiction
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ejb4x2
do you ever cut *for* the scar?
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i cut the tops of my shoulders above my collarbones because i like the way the scars look there, and sometimes the backs of my hands as well. i like the look of being kinda perpetually beat up so sometimes i'll bruise/mark myself somewhere visible both as an outlet and because i like the aesthetic.
cellophanestyrofoam
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2020-01-03 05:51:13
selfharm
<es>i cut the tops of my shoulders above my collarbones because i like the way the scars look there, and sometimes the backs of my hands as well.<ee> <es>i like the look of being kinda perpetually beat up so sometimes i'll bruise/mark myself somewhere visible both as an outlet and because i like the aesthetic.<ee>
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cutting your tops of the shoulder
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you cut your tops of the shoulders
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eiv39x
some say that love and suffering are the same thing. do you think this is true?
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CryxianChaos
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2020-01-02 07:22:05
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f1k309
Reporting to the police, need advice
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My sister recently got out of an abusive relationship 2 weeks ago. I brought her to the police station to report it but she didnt really want to at the time so she didnt give many details. She gave pretty much the bare minimum because she didnt want to get him in trouble but also wanted me to be happy with her (she tho...
lame-ass-bitch
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2020-02-10 03:09:18
domesticviolence
<es>My sister recently got out of an abusive relationship 2 weeks ago.<ee> <es>I brought her to the police station to report it but she didnt really want to at the time so she didnt give many details.<ee> <es>She gave pretty much the bare minimum because she didnt want to get him in trouble but also wanted me to be hap...
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your sister being in an abusive relationship
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f3kjct
I might have been molested?
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I recalled a really weird memory? I was sleeping with my brother (3/4 at the time) in my parents bed. When we woke up at 5/6am both of our pj pants were on the ground and the bed. I have a good memory and have vivid memories of my childhood, so this very much did happen. My mom would have been working late in a bar, my...
elite-alien
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2020-02-14 01:23:13
rapecounseling
<es>I recalled a really weird memory?<ee> <es>I was sleeping with my brother (3/4 at the time) in my parents bed.<ee> <es>When we woke up at 5/6am both of our pj pants were on the ground and the bed.<ee> <es>I have a good memory and have vivid memories of my childhood, so this very much did happen.<ee> <es>My mom would...
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emudus
I made it.
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I've been sober since new years day. And last night I went to the bar and had a good sober time with my freinds. They respected me just ordering pop and I'll admit there was a few times I wanted to order a beer. But I made it out. Day ten in the bag.
Darth_Seiruhk
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2020-01-10 17:44:00
alcoholicsanonymous
I've been sober since new years day. And last night I went to the bar and had a good sober time with my freinds. They respected me just ordering pop and I'll admit there was a few times I wanted to order a beer. But I made it out. Day ten in the bag.
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f5223o
I’m really mad about this:
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Basically I wanted to get this off my chest, but last night I went on a sub reddit and saw a rather nsfw image of a drawing of an underage girl. It really fucking pissed me off, so I decided to report and also call out the p*** that decided to post dirty remarks at the underage drawing of a girl. I know it’s just a d...
weeboloid
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2020-02-17 03:01:04
Anger
<es>Basically I wanted to get this off my chest, but last night I went on a sub reddit and saw a rather nsfw image of a drawing of an underage girl.<ee> <efs>It really fucking pissed me off, so I decided to report and also call out the p*** that decided to post dirty remarks at the underage drawing of a girl.<efe> <e...
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you feel you were wrongly banned from the subredit
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ekmkpi
I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday and I seriously need advice.
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hi, I’m a 13 year old female and I’ve already cried multiple times today over my doctor appointment in a few days, it’s just a checkup and I was thinking about telling my doctor that I’m 99% sure I have social anxiety but I’m to scared to even do that and the worst part is, my DAD takes me to the doctors and sits with ...
throwaway9291929929
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2020-01-06 01:29:21
socialanxiety
<es>hi, I’m a 13 year old female and I’ve already cried multiple times today over my doctor appointment in a few days,<ee> <es>it’s just a checkup and I was thinking about telling my doctor that I’m 99% sure I have social anxiety but I’m to scared to even do that and the worst part is, my DAD takes me to the doctors an...
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ekhdzr
Need Some Advice
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As a sort of backstory to me I'm 18f and I have severe anxiety, adhd, bpd, and a pretty bad binge eating problem I'm quite sure is binge eating disorder. I am currently not medicated for any of these, I have been going to therapists and very few psychiatrists since I was 11\~12 years old with not much success. I'm no...
grimbarkzz
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2020-01-05 19:06:07
mentalillness
<es>As a sort of backstory to me I'm 18f and I have severe anxiety, adhd, bpd, and a pretty bad binge eating problem I'm quite sure is binge eating disorder.<ee> <es>I am currently not medicated for any of these, I have been going to therapists and very few psychiatrists since I was 11\~12 years old with not much succ...
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your anxiety
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exwaad
What happened to mee
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At first I didn't think of it as rape for some reason. It was my ex bfs friend / someone I thought was my friend, a guy whose house people went to a lot to party and hang out. It was the summer after the first year of college, I ended up hanging out at his house one night and it ended up just me and him and before I k...
maddiej2000
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2020-02-02 22:12:54
rapecounseling
<es>At first I didn't think of it as rape for some reason.<ee> <es>It was my ex bfs friend / someone I thought was my friend, a guy whose house people went to a lot to party and hang out.<ee> <es> It was the summer after the first year of college, I ended up hanging out at his house one night and it ended up just me an...
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how did the incident make you feel
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your ex bfs friend took advantage of you
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emdjcq
One month today :D
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Last time I had a month clean was about 16 months ago... I feel good. No matter how bad I feel, a part of me always feels thankful to be sober. I remember on those first couple days I thought, “‘maybe sobriety isn’t for me”. For all you struggling, it’s fucked up how hard it is. But my advice to you is try something d...
_crayton
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2020-01-09 18:15:05
OpiatesRecovery
Last time I had a month clean was about 16 months ago... I feel good. No matter how bad I feel, a part of me always feels thankful to be sober. I remember on those first couple days I thought, “‘maybe sobriety isn’t for me”. For all you struggling, it’s fucked up how hard it is. But my advice to you is try something d...
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eltie7
Can’t cry anymore &amp; don’t feel the weight of the trauma. Am I finally healing??
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I have not cried for weeks when something triggers my memories. I don’t feel it anymore or something. I usually break down every other day &amp; just sob until I can’t anymore. Is this part of healing or am I gonna get blindsided again one day?
OnTheWingsOfAPhoenix
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2020-01-08 14:37:57
ptsd
<es>I have not cried for weeks when something triggers my memories.<ee> <efs>I don’t feel it anymore or something.<efe> I usually break down every other day &amp; just sob until I can’t anymore. Is this part of healing or am I gonna get blindsided again one day?
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your trauma
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emmlyi
Is it ok to be selfish and do what makes me comfortable and happy eventhough others dont agree? Like I'm not harming my self or putting myself in danger I just want to do what I want because it makes me happy.
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I have a problem with always caring about what others think of me and to be honest I'm over it. Too much worry and stress. I'm so over it to the point that I want to change my mindset from people pleaser to Me pleaser. Pls help, advice or suggestions, opinions....thanks for reading this.
Kimxoz
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2020-01-10 05:40:17
selfhelp
<rs>Is it ok to be selfish and do what makes me comfortable and happy eventhough others dont agree?<re> <rs>Like I'm not harming my self or putting myself in danger I just want to do what I want because it makes me happy.<re> <es>I have a problem with always caring about what others think of me and to be honest I'm ove...
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ekd8qr
Close Friend OD’d On Heroin Last Night
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She didn’t make it. Her daughter texted me letting me know she found her dead. Addiction I hate you for taking everything from her. That’s all.
bigfredtj
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2020-01-05 13:50:40
addiction
<es>Close Friend OD’d On Heroin Last Night<ee> <es>She didn’t make it.<ee> <es>Her daughter texted me letting me know she found her dead.<ee> <efs>Addiction I hate you for taking everything from her.<efe> That’s all.
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how you feel about the incident
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you are upset about the incident
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eib9sw
thank you
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i’m not the best at this so this may come off as weird, but i barely know any of you but we feel as if we really look out for each other. it’s nice to know that others are going through the same issues and we can help each other to continue our fight. here’s to the new year everyone.
CeeJayTW
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2020-01-01 00:21:14
depression
i’m not the best at this so this may come off as weird, but i barely know any of you but we feel as if we really look out for each other. it’s nice to know that others are going through the same issues and we can help each other to continue our fight. here’s to the new year everyone.
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elnnrq
I feel so empty and alone please help.
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I usually don't say this stuff out loud, but I'm asking for help. Lately, I have just felt so lonely. I just have that feeling where I'm num and don't want to do anything. I check on my friends a lot, and they say they're OK, and I'm a good friend, but it doesn't give me a smile I used to get. My family and I are sep...
clamb1998
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2020-01-08 04:28:53
selfhelp
<rs>I usually don't say this stuff out loud, but I'm asking for help.<re> <efs>Lately, I have just felt so lonely.<efe> <efs>I just have that feeling where I'm num and don't want to do anything.<efe> <es>I check on my friends a lot, and they say they're OK, and I'm a good friend, but it doesn't give me a smile I used t...
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es631u
Issues with female friendships &amp; jealousy [F, 24]
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I have a hard time making friends with other girls. I have a mix of emotions that swarm me when meeting new girls. I feel anxious, intimidated, scared, jealous, petty, sad. I feel like everything BUT myself. As a women, I think girls should stick together! I love seeing women excel and do cool shit, but I get so jeal...
zombiecabbage
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2020-01-22 03:23:51
selfhelp
<es>I have a hard time making friends with other girls.<ee> <es>I have a mix of emotions that swarm me when meeting new girls.<ee> <efs>I feel anxious, intimidated, scared, jealous, petty, sad.<efe> <efs>I feel like everything BUT myself. <efe> <es>As a women, I think girls should stick together!<ee> <es>I love seeing...
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why you feel the negative emotions on meeting other girls
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eiyknk
Is it just me or does anyone else hate the healing process for deeper cuts and just want them to heal tf up already?
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I've had this cut for nearly 3 weeks and it's not healed yet ughhhh Also I relapsed on New Year's Day so that's fun but I didn't make it my resolution so stop so its ok haha
throwa2772
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2020-01-02 14:01:18
selfharm
<efs>Is it just me or does anyone else hate the healing process for deeper cuts and just want them to heal tf up already?<efe> <es>I've had this cut for nearly 3 weeks and it's not healed yet ughhhh<ee> <es>Also I relapsed on New Year's Day so that's fun but I didn't make it my resolution so stop so its ok haha<ee>
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why do you hate the healing process
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you relapsed on New Year's day
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eiohm3
I read my way out of addiction and into a master's degree
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“I read my way out of addiction and into a master’s degree.” by Karyn Dowdall https://link.medium.com/HRMigah8T2
karynlackey
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2020-01-01 21:59:21
addiction
“I read my way out of addiction and into a master’s degree.” by Karyn Dowdall https://link.medium.com/HRMigah8T2
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ei7ept
I swear I'm going to kill myself
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My freinds over and my mum keeps saying to me how hes doing something better and he's going along with it and rubbing it in my face. I think I'm just a waste of space for her why am'i even here.
barnstormer6
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2019-12-31 19:17:06
selfharm
<efs>I swear I'm going to kill myself<efe> <es>My freinds over and my mum keeps saying to me how hes doing something better and he's going along with it and rubbing it in my face.<ee> <efs>I think I'm just a waste of space for her why am'i even here.<efe>
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you feel upset about being compared with your friends
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eo95dh
My Wife Needs Help
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Hi Reddit, This is a throwaway account for obvious reasons. I am desperate and looking for some help in identifying what mental illness/disorder my wife (34 F) might be suffering from and how to best help her. I believe it is some sort of anxiety disorder. The best way I can explain what happens is that she gets th...
TurdJFerguson
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2020-01-13 19:46:41
mentalillness
Hi Reddit, This is a throwaway account for obvious reasons. <rs>I am desperate and looking for some help in identifying what mental illness/disorder my wife (34 F) might be suffering from and how to best help her.<re> <es>I believe it is some sort of anxiety disorder.<ee> <es>The best way I can explain what happens...
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how your wife feels about her situation
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elon9b
Understanding Your Loved One's Addiction: 7 Insights - Video
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"Understanding Your Loved One's Addiction: 7 Insights", is Dr. John's latest topic in the "Shooting Up in the Dark" series. It is for anyone interested in addiction, but particularly those who want to better understand the experience a person addicted to opioids goes through. Web link: https://youtu.be/vHNQXpmCkN...
JohnBray-MorrisMD
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2020-01-08 05:58:08
addiction
"Understanding Your Loved One's Addiction: 7 Insights", is Dr. John's latest topic in the "Shooting Up in the Dark" series. It is for anyone interested in addiction, but particularly those who want to better understand the experience a person addicted to opioids goes through. Web link: https://youtu.be/vHNQXpmCkN...
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f3tmrk
Impulse anger and stress (trigger warning)
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Im gonna save my rant for another subreddit but. But has anyone ever had that stress build up for weeks and until one day that stress came out as anger? I had that today. I was not totally angry like usual but I jist got ticked then I cried afterwards. I used to self harm hard and I cut or ounch the walls till my fists...
nofuture2020
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2020-02-14 15:21:19
Anger
Im gonna save my rant for another subreddit but. <es>But has anyone ever had that stress build up for weeks and until one day that stress came out as anger?<ee> <es>I had that today.<ee> <es>I was not totally angry like usual but I jist got ticked then I cried afterwards.<ee> <es>I used to self harm hard and I cut or o...
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destroying the thing in anger
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ej0q6w
Junk food &amp; sugar vs Clean eating
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DAE hates their body weight and want to lose some and wants to resolve hair &amp; skin issues but can’t because they eat loads of junk &amp; sugar in destructive mode but also wants to and tries to eat clean? :( I want to stick to walking for 1 hr daily and cutting off sugar + junk food &amp; I also want to sleep early...
hibaaamir
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2020-01-02 16:55:52
BPD
<es>DAE hates their body weight and want to lose some and wants to resolve hair &amp; skin issues but can’t because they eat loads of junk &amp; sugar in destructive mode but also wants to and tries to eat clean? :(<ee> <es>I want to stick to walking for 1 hr daily and cutting off sugar + junk food &amp; I also want to...
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eating junk food
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you are unable to eat clean
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ejpevd
For me, it is about attention *TW*
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I realize this is NOT how it is for most people, and I often snap out of this thinking afterward and do my best to hide what I've done. But, in the moment, I just keep thinking that I want someone to see how much pain I'm in. I want someone to help me, to tell me it's going to be ok, to give me a hug and to check up on...
DonutVeins
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2020-01-04 01:31:55
selfharm
<es>For me, it is about attention<ee> <es>I realize this is NOT how it is for most people, and I often snap out of this thinking afterward and do my best to hide what I've done.<ee> <es>But, in the moment, I just keep thinking that I want someone to see how much pain I'm in.<ee> <es>I want someone to help me, to tell m...
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you do self harm just to get attention
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ek58az
Nightmares and Anxiety About Returning to Work.
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More and more nightmares. My dog has been nuzzling my hand to wake me up. She still sleeps with my spouse, but I guess she gets up to come check on me in the living room. We picked up a pup who was being trained to be a service animal, but she’s too timid around loud noises. We weren’t meaning to, but a family member c...
deeplynugget
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2020-01-05 00:33:17
rapecounseling
<es>More and more nightmares.<ee> <es>My dog has been nuzzling my hand to wake me up.<ee> <es>She still sleeps with my spouse, but I guess she gets up to come check on me in the living room.<ee> <es>We picked up a pup who was being trained to be a service animal, but she’s too timid around loud noises.<ee> <es>We weren...
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what caused the nightmares
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what would help you sleep without nightmares
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eiol87
Why does the loved ones subreddit paint us as a bunch of monsters?
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I just scrolled through that sub and it's heartbreaking. I feel for all of the people posting on it who have been hurt/abused by people with BPD but who do they have to overgeneralizing the whole disorder based on the actions of their so/ex-so?
Johnmayer69420
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2020-01-01 22:06:36
BPD
I just scrolled through that sub and it's heartbreaking. I feel for all of the people posting on it who have been hurt/abused by people with BPD but who do they have to overgeneralizing the whole disorder based on the actions of their so/ex-so?
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Just do it... Just flush your life down the toilet! Then 2 weeks later cry like a little girl because youve ran out of "dope", or you can get up on your fucking feet, stand tall, and tell yourself, lets go get this fuck. The choice is yours.
Mcoyle777
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2020-01-15 19:43:19
OpiatesRecovery
Just do it... Just flush your life down the toilet! Then 2 weeks later cry like a little girl because youve ran out of "dope", or you can get up on your fucking feet, stand tall, and tell yourself, lets go get this fuck. The choice is yours.
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f00oow
I need help...
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I have been out of an abusive relationship since December. But I feel like it isn’t over. He is still calling me. I blocked his number but Apple shows blocked voice mails still. There are 37 from this week alone. He is making fake numbers to text me. He is saying he will kill himself. And that I ruined his life by leav...
repressedemochild
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2020-02-06 22:49:46
domesticviolence
<es>I have been out of an abusive relationship since December.<ee> <efs>But I feel like it isn’t over.<efe> <es>He is still calling me.<ee> <es>I blocked his number but Apple shows blocked voice mails still.<ee> <es>There are 37 from this week alone.<ee> <es>He is making fake numbers to text me.<ee> <es>He is saying he...
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exdh6g
Advice for starting
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Potential trigger warning, I gave some vague details about my trauma. Not sure if it's considered triggering, but just wanted to give anyone reading a heads up. I'm new to this sub. Hi everyone, I've been skimming around and really appreciate some of the love and support you all give. A few weeks ago I told my therap...
JoshuaXSantiago
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2020-02-01 22:08:19
rapecounseling
Potential trigger warning, I gave some vague details about my trauma. Not sure if it's considered triggering, but just wanted to give anyone reading a heads up. I'm new to this sub. Hi everyone, I've been skimming around and really appreciate some of the love and support you all give. <es>A few weeks ago I told my th...
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ei7igp
Future Decision Making
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I recently started dating my ex boyfriend and let me say, he's the only one I feel genuinely comfortable around. The problem is when I was first with him, I split really bad and broke up with him, which was followed by a heavy Manic episode (I'm also bipolar :() We're fine now but we are talking about future plans, wh...
tapewornn
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2019-12-31 19:24:29
BPD
<es>I recently started dating my ex boyfriend and let me say, he's the only one I feel genuinely comfortable around.<ee> <es>The problem is when I was first with him, I split really bad and broke up with him, which was followed by a heavy Manic episode (I'm also bipolar :()<ee> <es>We're fine now but we are talking ab...
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you feel like you'll lose everything after moving in with him
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DAE order food on ubereats a lot (at least twice a week) to avoid having to do dishes?
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I only eat once a day, and it's at night. Am I a supreme level of laziness or is this normal?
kelliechristmas
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2020-01-02 00:26:00
BPD
<es>DAE order food on ubereats a lot (at least twice a week) to avoid having to do dishes?<ee> <es>I only eat once a day, and it's at night.<ee> <rs>Am I a supreme level of laziness or is this normal?<re>
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eating only once a day
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eouo2r
Running into my rapists often due to living in a small town. Anyone else have this issue?
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As the title says, this happens to my often (maybe every other month? One time it was 3 days in a row while at other times I can go a few months without seeing one of them) Does anyone else have this issue and if so, how do you deal? I’ve been face-to-face in gas stations, Taco Bell, etc. but I also pass by them a lo...
tbribri33
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2020-01-15 00:50:32
rapecounseling
As the title says, this happens to my often (maybe every other month? One time it was 3 days in a row while at other times I can go a few months without seeing one of them) Does anyone else have this issue and if so, how do you deal? I’ve been face-to-face in gas stations, Taco Bell, etc. but I also pass by them a lo...
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el9t0c
DAE struggle for focus on anything the day after therapy?
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survey
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I'm on a study day at work today and I am struggling to focus. I'm in lectures and I am spaced out and missing bits of what being said. The lecturer is staring at me and asking questions trying to get me to engage and I am trying but I can barely hear her. My brain keeps jumping from one thought to the next and it's m...
StephPowell31
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2020-01-07 10:25:12
ptsd
<es>I'm on a study day at work today and I am struggling to focus.<ee> <efs>I'm in lectures and I am spaced out and missing bits of what being said.<efe> <es>The lecturer is staring at me and asking questions trying to get me to engage and I am trying but I can barely hear her.<ee> <efs>My brain keeps jumping from one...
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What do you need help with now that X?
your brain is struggling to focus on the lectures
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elln8i
Day 40. Started the new job
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chitchat
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I haven’t posted in a few days because I haven’t really had much to say. I feel pretty good. Seriously. Started the new job I’m 12 hours into a 15 hour shift. No complaints. I was busy as hell. Harder I worked better I felt. Don’t really even think about dope exept in my dream. And If you asked me to do dope I’d say i...
marduk123789
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2020-01-08 01:49:39
OpiatesRecovery
I haven’t posted in a few days because I haven’t really had much to say. I feel pretty good. Seriously. Started the new job I’m 12 hours into a 15 hour shift. No complaints. I was busy as hell. Harder I worked better I felt. Don’t really even think about dope exept in my dream. And If you asked me to do dope I’d say i...
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ein3k5
I'm in med school and also may have borderline BPD.
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survey
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I just wanted to say hi. I qualify for four of the diagnostic criteria. But I'm high functioning and also not "looking" for a diagnosis (not that anyone is looking for a diagnosis, but you get know what I mean). When I was younger I may have qualified for a narcissistic dx. But really so many of us are narcissistic i...
ChairmanLebronXimes
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2020-01-01 20:14:18
BPD
<es>I'm in med school and also may have borderline BPD.<ee> I just wanted to say hi. <es>I qualify for four of the diagnostic criteria.<ee> <es>But I'm high functioning and also not "looking" for a diagnosis (not that anyone is looking for a diagnosis, but you get know what I mean). <ee> <es>When I was younger I may h...
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How did X make you feel?
having BPD
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ek7gnk
27 days clean!!!
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chitchat
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I’m officially 27 days clean!!
ewwhoisluke
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2020-01-05 03:38:53
mentalillness
I’m officially 27 days clean!!
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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