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his hand moves another inch up the bare skin of my thigh .
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i widen my eyes at him but he does n't react .
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`` that 's right .
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we 'll all be living at pierce 's house- '' `` our house , '' pierce corrects my mom with a smile .
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`` our house , in potomac .
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it 's got tons of space , beautiful views of the river .
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it 'll be wonderful to have the summer to bond with each other , and really become a family . ''
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nate 's hand moves another inch up my leg .
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i can feel the rough , calloused skin of his palm .
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i 've never been so turned on in my life , but i 'm struggling against it .
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what is he thinking ?
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we 're at dinner with our parents !
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`` i know you have some stuff at the old house , but we 'll have it moved to the new one .
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everything will be all set up when you get home , '' my mom says , smiling at me .
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`` mmm , '' i reply , trying to focus on her words .
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`` i was n't that attached to the old place anyway , '' i add with a shrug .
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we 'd moved a couple times after my dad left , so no one place has ever felt like home .
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nate 's hand moves another inch up my thigh , pushing up the hem of my dress so his fingers rest under it .
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my whole body is tingling .
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holy hell , i can barely breathe .
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i 'm shocked pierce and my mom do n't seem to notice that anything 's happening .
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with his other hand , nate takes a calm sip from his champagne flute .
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where 's the waitress ?
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he 'll have to move his hand when the food comes .
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he moves his hand up another inch .
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i ca n't take it any longer-another second and i 'm going to start moaning .
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as my mom moves her head to pierce 's ear to murmur sweet nothings , i slide my fork off the table and press it tongs-first into the top of nate 's hand .
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i hear him make a sharp intake of breath and then his mouth twitches as he tries to hold position through the pain .
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i press down harder .
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suddenly he yanks his hand away and i just manage to stop my hand in time so the fork does n't hit my leg .
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he turns to me and smiles , a wicked glimmer in his eyes .
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he was fucking with me , i realize .
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that 's his way of taking revenge for me showing him up in front of his dad ?
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what a goddamn creep !
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i lean toward him with a fake smile plastered on my face .
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`` if you 're that pissed about it , bring it up with your dad , do n't take it out on me .
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i did try to turn it down . ''
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i hiss into his ear .
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he turns to me with an equally fake smile .
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`` i 'll do whatever the hell i like , sis . ''
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he says quietly so our parents ca n't hear .
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the rest of the meal passes without nate making another fake pass at me .
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the gears in my brain begin to move as i think about how i 'm going to be spending the entire summer , and potentially many other seasons , living with this guy .
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my life has been completely upended tonight , and i need some time to process everything .
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after the waitress clears our coffee cups and pierce takes care of the bill with a black amex card , we stand up to say goodbye .
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they 're going to drive back to maryland tonight since it takes under three hours .
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i hug pierce goodbye , then my mom .
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`` i know this was a lot to take in , honey .
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we 'll talk everything over , i promise , '' she whispers reassuringly , then kisses me on the cheek .
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i smile at her and begin to tear up-i 'm pretty overwhelmed .
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nate surprises me by leaning in for a hug as our parents look on with a smile .
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`` great to meet you , '' he says , then whispers almost silently in my ear , `` sorry , we 'll never get a chance to have that threesome , sis . ''
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i freeze as he pats my back once and then breaks away .
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he remembered .
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and now he will always know how attracted i am to him .
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i have a feeling i 'm never going to hear the end of it .
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chapter five `` i do n't mean to question the relationship , it was just so sudden , '' i explain to my mom as she drives me home from the airport .
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i usually never fly to or from college , but pierce insisted .
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my biggest worry was that nate and i might be on the same flight , but luckily his exams ended earlier than mine .
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i want as much time as possible to prepare myself for our interactions .
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`` no , i get it , i really do , '' my mom assures me .
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`` you can ask me anything about pierce , or me and pierce , and i wo n't be upset . ''
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`` he treats you well ? ''
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`` he 's wonderful .
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he 's always surprising me with little gifts , trips , even .
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i do n't know what i 've done to deserve him . ''
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`` well , i think you 're pretty great . ''
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i offer dramatically .
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`` oh , i did n't mean it like that !
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i just mean , pierce treats me like a princess .
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and the house is basically a castle , '' she adds , pointing to her right .
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i gasp at the flagstone mansion we 're pulling alongside .
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`` shut up .
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that 's his house ! ?
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it 's huge ! ''
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`` i know , right ? ''
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my mom replies with a laugh .
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`` it has maid 's quarters !
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but you 'll get used to it , really . ''
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`` there 's a maid ? ''
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`` he used to have a housekeeper/maid who would cook for him , but now i do most of that stuff .
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i love having someone else to cook for again .
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the maid just comes once a week now to do a really thorough cleaning , '' she explains as we pull through the wrought-iron gates leading the driveway .
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`` are you still working at the salon ? ''
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she used to support herself as a manicurist at the tiny salon back in our small town in eastern maryland .
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`` nope , not anymore .
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i 'm volunteering , though , and thinking of joining some charitable boards , '' she says nonchalantly .
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my mom , a lady who lunches , i think , shaking my head .
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i do n't know if i can see it .
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my mom presses a button on the car 's dashboard and one of the two garage doors opens .
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we pull inside and i look around at the huge space as the door closes behind us .
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if i 'm this in shock about the size of the garage , i ca n't imagine how i 'll feel about the rest of the place .
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after the tour , which took over an hour because the house is so massive , my mom finally leads me to my room .
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my head is swimming at the lavishness of my new home .
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as we walk down the plushly carpeted hallway , i 'm alarmed to realize that i can actually smell nate .
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he must be nearby somewhere .
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i 've been dreading seeing him again and hoped i 'd have more time to settle in before our first confrontation .
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`` here 's nate 's room , '' my mom says as we pass a partially open door .
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`` he 's out somewhere right now . ''
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i shake my head at myself .
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