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After 4 years of peace, I felt suicidal again. I called the hospital, who called their suicide crisis organization, who came to my house and talked to me and my parents. I feel better now, and I am thankful for their help this late at night (2 a.m.)
Anyways, It all felt like such a bad dream. I'm about to go to sleep and go to college tomorrow like normal, but I still kind of regret telling anyone somehow. I feel embarrassed, weak, and disoriented. Has anyone else been in a similar situation after seeking emergency services?
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So I was in class and my teacher had given us sheets to stick in our books. He said ‘they don’t fit unless you fold them, so fold them to suit your levels of ocd - me, I’m really ocd so I would fold it like this’. And he demonstrated. Several people answered him saying ‘I’m sooo ocd I need to fold it really small and neat’. I left the classroom - mainly because I was so outraged that a teacher would do that; if students did it I understand they would probably not know about real ocd but I would’ve thought teachers would know more about that. Basically my question is, should I speak to him about it? He doesn’t know I have ocd and I really want to make him know that ocd is NOT a fun quirk.
TLDR: should I speak to my teacher about ocd to make him know about it after he used it as an adjective and as a joke in front of an entire class?
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I’m at a point that I’m scared I won’t get better or ever will be, that I’m meant to be perpetually broken.
I do the therapy I do what’s suggested I take the medication but I don’t ever feel like I’m better. It feels likes all for nothing. And I’m scared that’s it all for nothing that I’m not getting better and that my depression and Anxiety will always hold me back
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This one’s a bit odd but I got drunk the other night at a company party and tried to explain adhd to my boss. I think this is one of the most effective explications I’ve been able to give people when it comes to ADHD symptoms:
Hyperfocus: Stopping a task feels like your stopping half way through peeing.
Paralysis: trying to force yourself to do a task you don’t want to do is like trying to force yourself to pee when you really don’t have to. You can sit there, but nothing happens.
Procrastination: procrastination is different than paralysis. Neurotypical people who procrastinate have to pee, they are just too lazy to go to the bathroom. ADHD paralysis is when someone’s in the bathroom, but doesn’t have to pee.
Pre hyper-focus induced Task distraction (hyper focused on an irrelevant task you can’t do at that specific moment): feeling like you need to pee to the point where you can’t focus on doing what you’re supposed to be doing. Only thing that makes it better is peeing. This is a big cause of paralysis.
Putting a physical sensation to a mental state is really effective when communicating needs. You can use being thirsty or hungry or something but my drunk ass apparently had to pee that night 😂
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Hi, I did an MBA a few years ago and the amount of socializing it requires is A LOT. I was okay in the beginning but as I entered into the corporate world, the jobs that I have undertaken have really took a toll on my mental health.
So I want to switch to a more aspie friendly career. And while this may seem shallow, I want it to be high paying.
So, I need some guidance regarding the career paths I could follow and I would be really grateful if you could help me with this or even if you point me to the right direction.
Thanks a lot!
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I’ve been struggling with ADHD for a really long time causing severe damage to my day to day life, relationships, work/life balance, etc.
Because of this, I struggle with severe anxiety too and I struggle to sleep or make it through the day without flashbacks, anxiety attacks or as of recently, ideation, which relapsed this week, hence my conversation with my doctor.
My doctor recently reccomended Quetiapine to help me manage my symptoms. I was wondering if anyone else was prescribed the same, and if so, what to expect when taking it. I greatly appreciate the help.
There is an eye watering backlog for mental health support in this country, so the doctor suggested this to ‘tide me over’ but I want to check that I won’t struggle with it.
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Hi all,
I’m speaking with someone through online dating who is high functioning with an Aspergers diagnosis and their values seem to match mine (same faith, same age, passionate about helping others, and good personality traits). We are both in our mid 20s. It’s still early stages but I think there is some level of mutual attraction and interest on both part. I would like someone to explain what Aspergers is, what it’s like as a high functioning person with it, if you don’t mind.
Please bear with me as the first time I’ve ever heard of Asperger was when I had a teacher who was diagnosed. And the only thing I saw about him is that he processes his emotions differently, so he would laugh and smile when he was annoyed and rightfully shouting at the naughty kids in the class, but it was not that obvious or pronounced if that makes sense. Anyways, I digress.
Please are you able to explain:
Dating
- Would I need to have a routine? And work my time around his?
- Would he understand mutual love and mutual attraction?
- Would he understand abstinence? I’ve just left a previous two year relationship because it was based on lust rather than love, and have been not wanting to have sex with anyone at all since, but focus on my faith.
- Would we be able to go on holiday together? How would that work to help him feel comfortable? ( I really like travelling)
- How would i know he is expressing himself and wants and needs in relationship?
- Can he understand a breakup, and how hard is breaking up ?
Marriage
- How do we establish consent and will he be able to understand the transition of celibacy/ abstinence to sex in after marriage? We share the same faith btw.
- Do I have to take on all or extra responsibilities in cooking and cleaning? Chores etc
- How do you ask about reproduction? And can children get Asperger? Is it hereditary?
- Can he understand divorce or will he need help understanding if that is the case?
- He works right now but I earn more, so if we get a mortgage, does he understand?
- I like fast paced communication but he speaks slightly slower than what I’m used to, this is me asking how do I be patient and not interrupt or speak over.
Society
- He has anxiety and I totally get that. But I’m conscious on how people will view us in public. What if people make assumptions about our relationship, or question whether I love him? How do you deal with that?
Are there any other important considerations I need to take into account?
These are questions I’ve thought about seriously. I hope I haven’t offended anyone or be considered insensitive , I genuinely just want to make an informed decision and gain better insight to serious relationships with someone with Aspergers.
Thank you in advance for answering and once again, I hope I haven’t offended anyone?
Thanks
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I've always been a self loner , socially isolated , with no friends who just spends all days procrastinating cause i realy dont see any hope in improving my life . Despite my bad mental health i made a promise to myself that i wont do anything rational to myself no matter what state , cause all my life ive been nothing but dissapointment to everyone and i still have 1 family member who cares about me and despite being a total loser i dont want to cause her any more pain .
In my school years ( im now 21 ) my mental started to become worse with every year . but when i was like 16 i started developing a crush . It seems like a harmful thing and i though about it same thing . So i started checking her social network profiles cause just seing her and imagining such person by my side gave me an opportunity to not feel like a worst person on earth but to feel smth good for once .And i never been in a relationship so i never experienced anything like ive experienced looking at her . I've always liked imagining being in her boyfriends place and being with her . But all these warm feelings is now replaced with total despair , cause i know that such loser as me will never be on her level , and yet knowing that , i cant get her out of my head . i think about her everyday , and everyday i feel miserable from it . Shes like a curse sent by god to serve as punishment for me . And everyday thinking and fantasising about her triggers suicidal thgoughts , cause i realy dont know how to get her out of my head . And everyday im angry at myself that i developed some feelings with total stranger with whom i have no chance with , and i made stranger a number 1 person in my life .
Sorry for long text , buti wanted to make sure all get it all out , and sorry for my english mistakes .
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Is it normal, to try and keep busy to avoid your mind wandering to the dark place where your trauma is on “repeat”? I don’t sleep well, so I stay up until I’m exhausted. I constantly have to distract from having an anxiety episode where I get on edge and become extremely confrontational.
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I feel like whenever it’s mentioned in conversation I want to tell every detail of what’s happened. Like every single thing that’s happened in my life from the childhood abuse up to my dad unaliving himself ( idk if I’m allowed to say the s word ). I just want to get it out but I don’t think it’s appropriate to trauma dump. Even though the people in my life still talk to my abuser. I just want them to know how awful she is.
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Nothing I tried worked. What have you tried. I'mm make a list and list ... sorry gotta stop talking out loud about list. I should write that down on a l... stop
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I'm 26 and was diagnosed with adhd 4 months ago. I've been trying to cope with the lost time. It feels like I'm grieving for the person I could have been and the life I could have had. My family is supportive but I get the sense they think I'm being dramatic or exaggerating...
I'm taking generic adderall and have been given 3 different manufacturers over 3 months. Each one has given me VERY different results. I had an extremely bad time with mallinckrodt. Teva was THE best one but pharmacies in my area haven't restocked. Par Pharm is practically a placebo. (These are my opinions on these, you may have different experiences.)
I'm trying to not mention it so much but it feels like it's all I think about recently, 'is this the adhd.. am I being normal.. is this the adderall.. should I explain myself..'
I guess my point is that it's at the forefront of my mind mostly and I know I'm talking about it at least once everyday. I don't want to be an annoyance to my family, I don't want to constantly think if I'm being myself or if it's just chemicals in my brain. Is this just a phase? How do you accept it?
I was never the most interesting person but I don't want this to be my defining trait. If anyone has advice on what helped get through this please talk to me!
*I go to therapy, I'm getting help, but I'm seeking advice from people with similar experiences.
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Everyday I just feel that I should for once make my father proud and kill myself. I wish I had not escaped to my neighbours when he tried to kill me. I regret surviving that day so fucking badly. I feel awful without him abusing me. I can't punish myself enough for who I am, unlike him. I guess it sounds ridiculous that I miss this but I can't help it
At the same time I hate myself for being like he was.
I even have similar illnesses and disorders like he had. People always told me that im similar to my father and every time I heard it I just wanted to cry.
I'm just so tired and so done. I don't think I've even ever been happy. Since I was born I was abused, my mom said that even as a toddler I was already abused by my father. I wish I didn't live at all because I don't expirience anything good in life, and if I do I just fuck it up.
I hate myself horribly and I'm very guilty for even writing this here. I know this is random and I'm sorry but I just can't keep silent about it anymore
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(Haven’t been diagnosed with ptsd yet but have nearly all the symptoms)
All my memories are either a birds eye view or from a third party view. I also when remembering something it’s kind of just I remember it happened but it’s not like a movie. I’m 14 so I do think it’s something related to the fact that I don’t really have a great relationship with either of my parents and they always were fighting. I also pretty much automatically forget or block out any fighting or talks with my father. It could just be how my memory is.
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My brother has ocd, he is 15 years old. And he said that he wanted to read. He said he wanted a book with pictures. I thought of Neil T Anderson Bondage Breaker, but I do not know if he will read it.
Can you recommend books for OCD sufferers? Would be better if it has pictures(even minimal pictures pr illustrations are fine)
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So my crush that goes to a different school walked up to me, arms open, expecting a hug and I put my fist up for a fist bump. I have a thing with touching. She looked at me weird and said some things that I didn’t hear because I rushed past her and her posse after. We’re also old friends btw for a little more context. Anyway, did I fuck up?
Edit: Sorry for my incompetence, I should have added more context I guess. She knows I like her because every other guy does. I should've noted that I'm one of like 6 other black kids in my entire school, and that comes with... stuff. So I wasn't having the best of days. Seeing the nature of the group combined with my nearly going insane from a long day drove me to infer that she and her posse were fucking with me.
After having to laugh at stupid jokes for so long and dealing with microaggressions all day, this happens. My decision wasn't thought through, and the setting of the situation did nothing but make me want to just go home and relax. I originally wrote this out of pure anxiousness and fear that I might have screwed up my superficial relationship with this girl, so I apologize if things seem different now. I still need advice as to how to avoid situations like this again, because this isn't the first time.
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Refraining from drawing or painting because destroying the canvas and tools
ends up being the preferred medium…
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All the time I leave my shoes tied and just mash my feet in instead of taking the 40 or so seconds to untie retie and get my shoes comfy feeling. Or like if I can’t get myself to brush my teeth the right way I just do it without toothpaste because sometimes I can’t get myself to do that extra step.
I want to force myself to do things and I know if I do it at least a little bit it gets me that momentum, which like is the hardest part of “getting the motor running” so that I can move on with my day.
Might just be anxiety, but I’m really trying to break out of the all in or nothing mindset that causes the waiting period( which is arguably worse)
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I really wish I can remove and erase memories of past events to messed me up mentally and made me depressed.
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i've been rejected over 15 times, my parents don't care about me, I have like no friends, and i'm clinically depressed and i have been for yearsand the best part is no one cares cuz i'm a dude(16m)
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depression
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If you look at my past posts, I’m having trouble with this. I feel like I should wash all my loads twice just to be sure.
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Last time I went to therapy I tried to overdose because it was too overwhelming it’s always too overwhelming tbh I want to go to therapy again so then I can get in a stable mental state because I don’t really think I’m okay you know? But like if I go back to therapy I don’t want to talk about it because if I do I’ll probably try to kill myself again so like what should I do? I also don’t want to get any of my family members involved in my therapy lesson because I don’t trust them and last time my dad went with me to the therapist office he said he didn’t believe me so any advice?
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Okay, so I'm in 6th grade in middle school, and it's been pretty rough ever since I started going to middle school. A quarter has passed already (gosh, time flies by so quickly lol), and I've gotten suspended from school like three times so far. I got suspended like 2 times last quarter, and suspended not long after the quarter ended. I'm not sure if I have ADHD, but I'm posting about this here because I think it could be ADHD.
The first time I got suspended, was when I touched someone. The second time was when I pointed a finger gun (I made a finger gun with my hand like this: 👉) at another student, and I did it cause another student did the same to me and it was hard to resist the urge to do the same to that student. The third and recent one was when I said the word "Killer" (since I tend to do random things and say random things when I'm bored) when another student thought I said I was going to kill someone even though I said that one word instead. I didn't call anyone a killer, just simply said it.
A lot of these things I do are just because I was bored and just didn't have anything else to do and I have lack of self-control over what I do. Middle school also has been destroying my mental health because every time I get sent to the office, I end up hating myself and think I'm not good enough and my self-esteem lowers. I always think life is hopeless whenever I get suspended and I have even done self-harm one time because of how much I hated myself and slammed my head lightly while in the office.
Does anyone know how to stop getting in trouble at middle school so much? Did you also get in trouble a lot? If so, what did you do to stop your bad behavior?
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So basically I have problems to remember certain events, by example in school I have problems to remember what teachers said. Sometimes I also remember events that didn't happened. Can this be caused by depressions?
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depression
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I'm struggling to get myself together, everyday I'm waking up at like 2-4pm and staying up all night, not really having energy or motivation to do anything. Before the pandemic hit I had gotten myself into a routine and it was fantastic I was happy and getting all my work done, but it revolved around exercise (have physical condition that it helped with, kind of relates to my special interest). Since I haven't been able to go to my exercise spot (due to lockdown) everything kind of fell apart and for the last year I'm suffering and getting worse.
Any help or tips to get me back on track would be hugely appreciated, I'm willing to try new things, doesn't have to include exercise as I still can't get to my spot.
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Recently some people from my college added me to a Facebook group for alumni from my major. For context I started college 8 years ago and graduated 4 years ago so it hasn’t been that long in the grand scheme of life. Anyway, I’m kind of alarmed because I don’t have any memory of a lot of these people. People in the same year as me. People who had the same major and were in the same sorority (so I KNOW I must have been in contact with them at the time?). Even people who say they remember me fondly and stuff. When I try to think back about specifics it’s very fuzzy. I was doing horribly as far as my mental health goes at that time. Anybody else find that they’re super forgetful like this? It’s kind of alarming to be honest.
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I don’t think this will have much structure to it, more of a collection of my thoughts being written down since I’m finally in a calm enough state to sit down and vent.
I’ve realised in the last few weeks that I heavily rely on substances to escape my thoughts and trauma. It’s gotten to unhealthy levels. Along with depression and severe anxiety, PTSD feels like I’m very trapped in my own body, I can’t really use words to describe what or how I feel, just that I have this itching almost to leave my body and to somehow shut my thoughts down. Substances temporarily distract me from my own mental but it’s gotten to the point where I’m constantly fatigued, I can feel my body ache and no matter how much I tell myself I’m going to stop and try to live more healthily, I will always spontaneously decide to go back on that and attempt to ease the pain again.
I live an area where we have very tight COVID restrictions. We’re not allowed to leave our houses only to exercise with 1 other person, shop etc. Most days I’m sitting inside, doing nothing productive whilst my work piles up with no motivation to even attempt to do it. I’m waking up multiple times a night having constant nightmares.
My PTSD diagnosis is quite recent - within the last 6 months and I can’t help but to feel I’m stuck and not able to get a grip on how I feel.
I’m not too sure what the point of this post was, maybe I hoped it would make me feel better, or perhaps I’m looking for other people to relate. I can’t be too sure. I appreciate you if you took the time to read this far.
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I’m the most depressed I’ve been in a long time today. I don’t wanna eat or get out of bed or talk or anything. I just want to lay here and sink deep into the bed till it swallows me
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I was diagnosed with ADHD two years ago but am i medicated due to work reasons. It explained a lot but not everything. Some of my first memories were being young and screaming and stomping in the bathroom because I could feel my long sleeve shirt on my arms as I was taking it off to get in the shower. But something that has bothered me my whole life, aside from never being able to fall asleep, sometimes it’s miserable trying. If I thought about my breathing, it would go “manual” and I’d take an hour not being able to breathe without thinking “inhale exhale”. I’d warn myself not to think about breathing when I’d lay in bed, which caused me to think about it and start the cycle. That’s not what I’m asking about though, sometimes I literally feel like I can feel all my bones and need to constantly pop them all. It’s almost 4am and I feel like I can feel every bone in my fingers and toes and back. I’m literally itching for them to crack. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin because sometimes I realize my bones are there and it makes me so physically uncomfortable that I feel like I’m young screaming in the bathroom about my long sleeve shirt again. My fingers are going to fall off and my backs going to break if I keep popping them every second. Advice, answers, anything.
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Why try? Why not give up? What’s the whole point?
Why do i have to go through all of this? Why do i have to live a life that I didn’t choose? Why did i have to give up on my hopes and dreams, sacrifice everything? Why did i have to pursue what someone else thought was good enough for me?
Life isn’t a life anymore. I’m just surviving. My days are just going by, determined by someone else. There’s no drive to achieve something, to accomplish something. It’s just pulling through the day somehow. And then fade into nothingness. A new day starts with a question, i.e. why? Why did i have to wake up? Why go through that crap again? There’s nothing to look forward to, nothing significant, nothing meaningful.
Why motivate yourself to get out of it? What’s in store? Why even? It seems so easy to just give up and end it all. Anyway I don’t really do much for myself. It seems so much of a struggle. Not like someone is there to care for it. People may talk stuff about self love and all, and might use it to blame us. I guess they haven’t lived a life where they have never been accepted, been made safe, made felt loved, have had a home, after a very long time, but for a very short while. Or maybe they’re really headstrong. For them we are worthless imbeciles. Maybe so, and in that case I’m fine being that. I’m fine being made to feel guilty for not trying. No one gets it, how hard it is to try, how exhausting and draining it is.
It really hurts, you know, not to have a person who cares just for you, who is concerned about you, stuff like why you’re not taking care of your hair, teeny tiny stuff which your logical side plays down mercilessly. It hurts, when you know you have no one to run to, when you have had a shitty day. It hurts when you know there’s no one to hold your hands tight, to make you melt into a warm embrace when you have had a hard time. And this absence is something i have dealt with for almost the whole length of my existence. It hurts when you don’t have a safe home, where you can be weak, where you don’t have to be strong, practical, logical and mature. And you won’t have to feel guilty for feeling all of that.
It’s not like you have tried. You have tried, you have kept up your spirits after setbacks, but just to get pummelled down again. So much so that you break down, as it’s just you fighting pointlessly. You are trying to gain something meaningful and happy from something that someone else deemed as happy and fulfilling. Here you are, at a level more than decent as per the damned society, but it does not provide you the slightest amount of happiness. Your bank balance might be a source of practical comfort, but that’s as good as it gets. And it’s not enough. At the end of the day, you go to bed feeling unloved, uncared for, numb, tired, worthless, under-confident and undermined. And worse, you feel guilty for feeling all that. You are supposed to feel grateful, for whatever you have. It’s like an imposition.
Why try? To keep this life that you didn’t even want? To forget all of this shit, shit which happened to you even after you didn’t do anything wrong? After all of these sacrifices? All of these disheartening dips, not spaced with good times? Should you force yourself to be happy, just because people might die to have what you have? And what about you? Are you happy?
And, does anyone care if you are?
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At first I thought its the same love bombing scheme narcissist use. I literally hyperfocused on that shit for 3 days now. Consistently googling, staying up late in the night, thinking about it, talking to myself and trying to understand him.
I had a relationship with 2 narcs already and it was draining, painful and Im so glad I made it out!
ADHD got diagnosed while I was 7 years old because I had trouble with concentrating in school. I took meds, went to therapy every 2 weeks and it helped me a lot. Today I dont take em anymore and I dont visit therapy. I never really thought outside of my impulsive nature, multi tasking and concentration deficite ADHD would come with any other traits.
While googling the term love bombing over & over and making sure my dating partner doesnt love bomb me I stumpled upon "Hyperfocusing" and "Relationships" in a connection with ADHD.
I told him that I have ADHD and he said he has it as well. At first I ignored this puzzle piece because to me it had no weight. I never really thought my "disorder" (Im actually not sure if it is one -> I dont mean to insult you guys D:) has played such a big role in my life.
It explains my love life really hard. You probably know what Im talking about. Being over the top when you meet someone, being on fire, having this insane energy, trying to push things in a certain direction, phantasise over your partner & dreaming of a relationship. Heck thats why I fall for this love bombing shit twice -.-
In some cases the desire just goes poof, we ghost them because there is something we dont like and our imagination dont match and we move on. Or people reject us to the moon and we are desperately trying to understand what we did wrong! I mean we were honest right? :/
I want to describe what hes done that made me uncomfortable and triggered my ptsd with my previous abusive relationships:
"I always wanted someone like you and I finally found you"
"I have a very good feeling about you - rarely someone made me that happy"
"I felt safe in you arms"
"I wanna see you again"
"Will you promise to see me again on a second date?"
"My belly is full of butterflies"
"I fallen in love with you, something I thought that would never happen again"
Saying / writting those things after 4h caught me offguard and I tried to play it simple. I washed it off, said its a bit to early dont ya think?
However Im not that innocent either. I initiated a hug -> we then snuggled & cuddled and eventually we kissed. So maybe I gave him some comfort? Did I enlighten his inner flame? Some of the sentences he dropped happened before the intimacy just to be clear. If they would have happened after that I would be "fine" because then I would have a explanation.
My question is the following: Does his behaviour fall under the criteria of being hyperfocused on me or is he love bombing me? Should I give into my feelings? I feel the same actually. I really like him and I wanna see how things turn out but I need some evidence that hes actually not manipulating me.
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I’m realizing that it’s a compulsion to review all my emails, all the notifications from the various apps on my phone, seek various tips on Pinterest, YouTube, REDDIT, etc and hoard books and ebooks because I don’t want to miss out on anything and want be in the know about EVERYTHING. Driving myself crazy because I don’t know how to relax without info FOMO. All these subscription platforms with loads of content are making it worse...can anyone here relate and/or offer advice on how to not feel compelled to consume and bookmark everything I come across?
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Anyone else have this issue?
I tend to be extremely solution and optimisation orientated. As in, if I see a solution to a problem, I want to impliment it immediately. This causes issues as implimentation often involves messing with things others have set up (often sub-optimally) and as a result they get upset because I touched something they had worked on (even though I objectively improved it.)
Its frustraiting for me and for them.
Any solutions other than just "learn not to do that"?
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hey C:
so a few years back i had something bad happen to me (lol obviously) and ever since then, ive been physically incapable of sleeping, except in enclosed spaces (tents, cars, under bunk/loft beds which is where i usually sleep) its not like a insomnia thing where i can sleep but its hard, or i stay up for days. last time i was sick i was sleeping 2 hours a night and i tried sleeping on a couch and i couldnt, on meds after surgery that made me so tired i couldnt keep my eyes open i would sit on a arm chair and everytime i got close to sleeping id get a jolt of panic, etc etc
its kinda a ungooglable problem, cause only insomnia comes up and i dont think thats the same thing? (i could be wrong about that idk) and im not in therapy for complicated reasons so i cant figure it out through that, so basically im wondering if anyone else has had/has a similar problem? and/or has any advice
thanks :D
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I know most people here would say "Why would you want that, it's so bad it would ruin you're life" well guess what.. That's already happening.
I want that so I would have a reason of
how messy I am.
how easily I forget things.
how stupid I am.
how some people complain about me, mostly my parents.
and there are more reasons which i can't list
It would just be better for people to say "it's not you're fault" instead "why don't you focus" or "how can you forget", it would explain some of my marks, and what the f\*ck i do in classes because for subjects I don't like, it's beginning just now I need to focus a few seconds later the subject is already over and I missed it and there goes my mark.
This has been going since 4th grade now I'm tenth almost eleventh grade. and when an exam comes I need to study hard, I want to study hard but I get distracted everytime.
I know people would say "I hate people like this, they do not understand", I do not hope I have ADHD, even if I do, my parents won't believe me or even try to see what's wrong.
I don't want to have ADHD like who does, but I want people to understand that I sometimes can't control it.
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Today had two situations for me to respond to immediately.
My friend called me said he'd fallen off his bike and needed a ride to urgent care because he couldn't afford an ambulance. I immediately stepped away from my desk where I'd been failing to get work done all day and went into response mode. I grabbed food and a charging cable for him as I ran out the door. This was a thing to respond to in the moment right now. I felt super energized and focused. I found him and drove him to urgent care and he ate the dinner in the car. They scanned him and he had a fractured arm.
Got it wrapped up and I drove him home. Where I immediately became utterly ineffective again, drifting listlessly, my energy escaping me as I thought about due dates, long lists of boring work to be done, and doing laundry. But then some hours later the fire alarm went off at the house that neighbors our backyard.
We could hear the alarm. I was instantly energized and focused again, despite it being 2am. I got dressed and walked over to have a look. Nobody was home. I knew what to do. I called the fire department and gave them the address. A fire alarm without smoke could mean it is detecting a gas leak or carbon monoxide. Or the fire could be small. They showed up and thanked me for calling. (The house was okay. They didn't tell me exactly what it was but they turned off the alarm and left)
It occurred to me their job would probably be a good fit for me. They stay up all hours of the night keeping watch, and then respond to things that need immediate action.
I'm realizing I need something like that. I need something that's a better fit for my brain than doing computer work remotely. I'd rather put out a fire than stay on track for a deadline.
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ADHD
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I thought it was on the 8th. I could SWEAR it was on the 8th.
I have no idea why I thought that. I'm looking through every bit of information I have on it. They all say it was on the 27th. Of last month.
Why did I think it was the 8th??? why the HELL did I think it was the 8th??? I even remember initially thinking it was the 27th, "finding out" it was "actually" the 8th, and feeling relieved for the extra revision time. Where the HELL did I get that date? I can't find it anywhere!
How did I find out? I found an email in my inbox saying "good luck on your exam today!" sent first thing on the 27th.
**I HAD OPENED IT.**
FML. Just. FML.
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ADHD
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I'm very curious,
How many of you dropped out of high school? Why?
How many of you finished high school but didnt go to college? Why?
How many of you went to college but dropped out? Why?
How many of you finished college? Why?
I'm sorry if this may seem like an inappropriate question but I'm genuinely curious, as I'm thinking of dropping out of high school myself, what made you do what you did?
How did your parents react? How did close relatives (aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins, etc) react?
Was the decision easy or hard? Did people pressure you to continue high school or college? Where are you at right now? Did you get a successful job? Do you regret dropping out? If you could tell your past self when making these decisions something, what would it be?
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ADHD
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One of my therapists has been trying to get me to try EMDR and other similar therapies. I am terrified. So many people say they feel so great afterwards, but I'm not so sure. I feel like my extreme negative reactions to my trauma are keeping me safe. My trauma involves someone who I used to call my best friend. He is very charismatic and manipulative. I have thought about forgiving him hundreds of times since what happened. He's everywhere in my life and I have a feeling that he doesn't even know the gravity of what he did to me. If it wasn't for my partner who has kept me on course, I would have absolutely forgiven him. I'm afraid that if my traumatic responses are controlled, I won't be able to stop myself from going back to him. I'm not ready. There has to be another way to stop this from controlling my life.
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Anyway, thanks for listening. There's no one in my life I can talk to about this.
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ptsd
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I rear-ended a car and get this I wasn’t driving my own car. I was driving my dads car. I plan to pay him back as soon as I find out how much it was. No one was hurt thank god. I literally hate myself so bad right now and feel so stupid. I have decided to punish myself really really bad and it’s making me feel better. This is my third wreck and I’m so upset about it. I hope someone jumps me and beats me up so bad I can’t breath.
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depression
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Hey everyone! I just wanted to ask a quick question. In the past few months, I have suspected I have ADD. It started with a google search about why I feel like my brain is deteriorating and why I don't feel as sharp as I once was. Upon, my research, I discovered ADD (not that I didn't know it before, I just did a deep dive this time) and the sky cleared in a sense.
I've noticed I have a lot of symptoms (I'm a serial overworker, being in school full time and having two (kind of three) jobs, being easily distracted in conversations and other settings, doing the most impractical thing in a situation, not doing things in the most logical order, having *terrible* study and time management skills, having a really bad nail biting habit, as well as chewing my tongue my whole life, spending my whole life hearing I have bad writing and that I have to apply myself, obsessing over thing, anger and temper issues, etc.) and I was just wondering if anyone has any opinions about this. I am also a woman so I know it affects us kind of differently.
Basically, I want to see if I could have ADD or if there's a possibility I'm just like this. Obviously, I'm not looking for medical advice or anything like that, I just want to see if anyone relates or related prior to being tested). Yes, I have found a psychiatrist to test me in the new year, but I have hesitations because of the price point, of course, as well as doubts from my mom and a close friend. I also did speak to my best friend and a coach specializing in ADHD, who both said there was a possibility. Basically, I'm torn.
Thanks!
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ADHD
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I just repeat things over and over again. I have this thing where the next time I go drinking I actively avoid doing things that I know were annoying from before and an example would be me constantly talking about how drunk I am (which makes me cringe that I did that lol). But I noticed that it’s not the specific statement that’s an issue but instead just that I repeat things a lot even if I avoid saying some things, I just end up repeating other things lol
This happen with anyone else?
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ADHD
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I want to preface this that although I wouldn't identify as neurotypical I don't think I'm on the autism spectrum - hope it's ok for me to post here.
My oldest friend (also ex) and I have been fighting a lot in the last couple of years over "wokeness". She thinks I've been indoctrinated into a "woke cult" by my current partner, whereas I'm put off by the intensity of her obsession and resentment, which I feel can cross over into racism. The friend/ex has ASD (self diagnosed and only recently disclosed this to me, although she'd talked about fearing/suspecting it going back as long as I've known her).
When "Bad Art Friend" came out she felt like it crystalized so much of her pent up resentment about ableism, and privileged people playing "the race card" as predators and bullies. She says that she's found a lot of people saying similar things, and it's given her the courage and clarity to call me out on my ableism and demand an apology. She says that if I can't apologize without reservation, we can't be friends. Her biggest grievance with me is believing that I let her down last year, when she was the subject of a social media pile on, and in her view I was insufficiently supportive.
She claims that her resentment at ableism getting short shrift in intersectional politics, as it's practiced, is common among neurodivergent folks she's encountered online. She wants me to educate myself, and this thread is part of my attempt to do so.
Both of these people are incredibly important to me in different ways, and pretty much think each other is the worst (I guess that shouldn't shock me). Maintaining both relationships has been incredibly hard, and I fear I won't be able to do it for much longer. At least, I'm coming to accept that the survival of his friendship might be beyond my power to decide.
What I can control is my own actions. I want to do right by my ex, and by my partner, and just in general. I want to better understand what it means to be ableist, and not do that. And because, (SJW, guilty as charged) I do care about social justice, and feel pretty pessimistic about humanity's prospects if we don't find a way to have intersectional solidarity against oppression, I want to know if this is an important story that's going under the radar in the mainstream. Is there a widespread resentment among disabled people in general, and autistic people in particular, of the ways that "woke discourse" selectively elevates certain kinds of oppression? And a sense that BIPOC and trans people in fact take advantage of that recognition to bully people whose oppression is less "in vogue" (e.g. neurodivergent people, cis white women)?
I'd appreciate anything this sparks in anyone — personal feelings, anecdotes, tips for further exploration, advice, and reactions to any part of the above. It would all mean a lot to me.
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aspergers
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Dear redditors
I hope this is the right place for this
Last summer I learned that my mother had been raped, twice. She never told this to me or my sister and I'm not sure if even my father knows.
My mother was in a fight with my grandmother when she said she was raped. My mother does not know that I am aware of this.
I know that she struggles with depression and anxiety, I found a note (she writes down most things as she is kind of forgetful) where she had written she got diagnosed with ptsd and that she is on medication now.
There are times when I actually see she's feeling good but right now she is just lying in bed all day. I don't say this as an insult but I know my own struggles with depression and how hard it can be, sleeping most of the time is one of the best ways to "avoid life" in my opinion.
Our family doesn't really talk about mental health or anything actually. I have a very "bland" relationship with my parents. They support me and they want me to have a good life but fail to see past my own struggles.
I have been lurking around this forum a bit, trying to understand what PTSD is and how to help her with it, but as I've said before we do not really talk.
I just wonder what I can do for mom, and I thought this would be the best place to ask.
Thank you for reading this
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ptsd
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hello, I am undiagnosed, but I strongly feel I do have ADD, I want to get tested, but when I approached my parents about it they dismissed it as me being lazy, because of course parents refuse to believe there is anything wrong with their child.ugh. But they did come around to it eventually.
They then said if I do get tested, and I do have it, "what are you going to do? are you going to use it as an excuse for not working and relax?" of course not. but I would still like to know.
I am going to go get it checked soon, and **I was wondering how has being diagnosed helped you? any positive changes?** I really don't want to take medication, (I don't think its time for me to worry about that yet), so if there's anything else that helped you, advice much appreciated.
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ADHD
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My brain will just be like “oooo look at me! I can have that thought too! You are truly crazy as hell! See! Look I showed you!” 100000000000x a day lol 😬
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OCD
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(Before reading this, please understand that there are some words I don't dear to write because of my intense irrational fear. The name of the band, the song and the thing I fear are not what you'll read but I'll try to do my best I can to relate the names to what they are actually called. Thank you.)
So, it all started when I discovered the band "Japanese kaiju" a famous progressive death metal band. When I heard one of their songs I instantly loved it so I began to listen to them a lot, then one day I downloaded one which is "U-T-I-M-H-T 🔙" which is a song about 🖤🕳️s. I used to listen to this song a lot until one day I saw some news about 🖤🕳️s that left me quite scared, I stopped listening to the song because of the lyrical similarities, luckily the news were proven false so I was calm and kept listening to the song, then another day, another news with the same subject came in and made me feel scared again so I stopped listening to the song again, again, luckily it was proven by experts that it wasn't dangerous so I got calm again and came back to listen to them again, but this time a bit more careful of the song, this time I would stop it the last seconds before it ended completely, then finally another news came out which left me terrified but later they revealed it wasn't dangerous again and that was the last straw for me. I haven't heard the song in a very long time and I am afraid of doing it again, I have thought of deleting the song and even the other songs of the band from my Spotify, but I fear if I do that something worst could happen. I know it makes no logical sense but when you have 3 coincidences in a row about you start to question even reality itself. I needed to say this since I have recently discovered this subreddit but I'm also afraid this will lead to again one of those news. I feel afraid and sad because I genuinely loved the song, it had some sick guitar riffs and great drums sound.
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OCD
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So apperantly, according to some guy(s) on this subreddit, ADHD is caused by a lack of neurotransmitters. When there is an emergency, the sympathetic nervous system steps in and increases those neurotransmitters (and also adrenalin, which is also a neurotransmitter).
I feel the effects of this in my day-to-day life, obviously, but the truth is I very rarely felt real stress throughout my lifetime. Other than some spesific times when I had to deliver a speech in front of hundreds of people, I was always pretty chill.
Is this an ADHD thing? Definitely sounds like it.
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ADHD
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My snap was playing up so I deleted it hoping to redownload it but when I went to the App Store and searched for Snapchat it says opened when I don’t have the app on my Home Screen so I don’t have snap anymore can anyone help ?
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OCD
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I'm not seeking reassurance, I'm trying to just sit with with the thoughts. It feels like they're closing in on me. When I'm not analyzing my thoughts it feels like i just have this constant uneasy feeling until I give in and start ruminating. I know I'll feel better for a minute if I give into my compulsions, but it will cause it to come back full force eventually. It feels like a drug. I was doing so well. I feel like a failure. I don't want to like this anymore.
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OCD
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What’s everyone’s experience with dating? I’ve dated one person for 5 and a half years. We’re over obviously but do you date other aspies? I’d love to know
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aspergers
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Hi so I’m 21f, and I’m diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. I’ve been obsessing I’ve cheated on my bf and “don’t remember”. Because I used to play online games and talk to strangers a lot . Due to agoraphobia (fear of leaving house) and well just Loneliness. I honestly don’t think this life is worth living . I don’t have one reason to stay. Nothing goes good for me ever I’m always a burden regardless.
My family treats me like a burden and never believes me . My boyfriend does try , but that would only be one supportive person out of loads and years of trauma I could write a book about . And I’ll probably lose him too because I’m a failure.
Just thought I would vent before giving up
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OCD
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There’s a rave literally 20 minute walk from where I live and I want to go SO BADLY because I’ve been really depressed lately and the moment I decided that I wanted to go I realized… I don’t want to go actually. I can’t imagine sitting and listening to music for several hours. Like I don’t dance I can’t I have way too much anxiety about it so like.
What do you do? The first concert I went to I sat in a chair and listened to the music until it was over, then I went to poppy and.. stood there until the music was over. I have literally no idea how anyone does it! What do you do? Because I have no answers and I want to go but what’s the point? I don’t think I’ll enjoy myself.
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ADHD
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My medication stops my 'emotional' hunger/ craving stimulation from food but not my physical hunger.
Someone told that it's probably a sign my meditation dose isn't high enough.
For context I'm on extended release stimulant medication (Vyv).
During the day if im medicated, I don't get excited about food like I used to but around lunch time, my body sends signals that it's time to eat.
I'm curious to hear your experience with this.
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ADHD
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Hello everyone,
This is my first time posting in this group. I've been diagnosed with adhd at 29 and am realizing how I've pretty much had it my entire life. Since I've become a father of three the adhd has finally manifested in typical symptoms. I am struggling emotionally because I am starting to feel like a burden. My wife ends up having to keep me focused sometimes and it is negatively impacting my psyche. I am medicated and in therapy. Has anyone had a similar situation happen to them?
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ADHD
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Turning 60 was the only birthday I ever really thought about. I cannot see myself as “old”, but I obviously am.
Right after I had that BD, I was fired. The boss said for job performance. Too many mistakes.
I have been fired before. Twice.
My dilemma is, I know I need to find another job. I don’t want to go back to warehouse/distribution manager or supervisor. Especially in these times, with everyone so short staffed, turn over and massive hours.
I’m close to retirement, ideally in the next 5 years. I have never had a problem working. My attendance has always been near perfect. Never late. But due to my ADHD, the higher up I went, with more responsibility, the more mistakes, being off task, over analyzing… and with medication.
I’m struggling, my wife is struggling. I can’t find a way to say I’m not going back to work.
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ADHD
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I'm so tired of constantly failing, I've all the motivation to study to do better I give all the prep talks to myself, but I just cannot do it for the life of me. I start to read something then i get so severely distracted knowing I've no other option than to study, 25-15min method (pomodoro method) has not worked for me that much, music yeah kind of but even sounds make me sick. It gets annoying when I have all the motivation everything to get better and start studying despite anything it never works and i go into endless spiral of doubts and frustration. so does anyone have any solid tips for studying? instead of conventional methods? taking meds is impossible since I'm still living with my parents.
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ADHD
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After 8-9 months of suffering and despair with my OCD (seeing 2 psychiatrists, my doctor and multiple therapists confirming I am not schizophrenic or psychotic), today was the first day I was “okay” with the possibility I may become schizophrenic/psychotic one day. I have been playing with this idea & practicing my ERP/CBT for some time now, and today it finally paid off. I hope I have more days like this to come.
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OCD
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So a couple questions for someone with OCD that cause you to washer you hands constantly
1: What soap do you find the best cause I’m still trying to figure it out.
2: Is it normal to feel sick and sweat when you can’t wash your hands when you feel the need to?
3: Last one is it normal to feel like your an AH for washing your hands when you live with others?
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OCD
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When I have Intrusive thougths i squint my eyes to think about something else, sometimes when I do this, the intrusive though plays out whil my eyes are closed, due to this I keep my eyes closed and start shaking myself and this increases my intrusive thoughts even more. I was wondering if this happens to anyone else.
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OCD
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I have epilepsy and if you know about it memory becomes shut and I have found a pattern of traumatic memory being gone a lot of the time. For reference I started taking medication around **Four**th traumatic event.
Recently maybe because I am starting to get my life together little bit a lot of nightmares from my past keep coming back one by one. Sometime I develop actual fever just remembering them and my bed becomes wet because of sweat. Also, these nightmares that I have, there are 6 I can remember, were somewhat reaction to my own doing.
**One:** When I was going for admission in school as a kid I kind of behaved with the teacher in very bad way. I was in class 3 and this teacher took out the grudge on me so harshly I forgot about the incident but I remember being afraid of him always for some reason.
**Two:** When I was a kid I insulted one of my relative very badly and my mother was embarrassed and took me home. Later their was a function held by the same relative and my mother took me intentionally to harsh me in front of them. She was also treated badly at that function but I was shaking after they treated me in such a bad way.
**Three**: When I was teen my father thought it would be good idea to get help from my friends father to get something done which was kind of personal family matter. Instead he fought the friends family and made my life worse for an entire year. I was bullied an easy target from before but after that incident it was as if they put a wanted poster for me. Even my brother was hrashed and I could not do anything.
**Four**: After the incident from three I changed school in class 10. I thought this as an opportunity to make new friends. I started to be more frank and talking with friends. But I guess damage had been done already. I was bullied and locked in the girls bathroom. As a chance to make new friend I saw one another guy who was from rehab and other kids would resent him or glamorize him but I thought in some level I could relate to this person so I trusted him. But he too broke my trust which had impact for another year or so.
**Five:** This one is little bit different because might be the only incident where I did not ignite the fire. So some relative thought it would be nice idea to demean me in a function in response to what they got from someone close to me. For which my mother suffered but I was blank or skipping memory because of epilepsy.
**Six:** This is the one that is impacting me right now and cannot get it out of my head. So, in my teen age I kind of misbehaved to a person in their party after finding out what she thought of my mother. Later she and other relative who were not close to us ganged up on us and behaved rudely. My mother hold herself at the function but after coming to home she cried miserably. My brother also sufferered and hated me for doing that. I am currently in loop of this where i fantasize about outcomes but some of them are really dark and violent. I feel like I am trying to get closure from this but cannot.
Also, even if I have already gone through the process of each one of these they keep repeating in my head and its so pressure for me.
Lately I have started writing therapy which gave a lot of perspective and why I did what I did but still not getting complete closure.
**Parents:** My father is narcissist who has to have his way. Meat doesn't cook in the house just because of him. He cannot get to understand that other have other needs. There are lots of other things he overstepped at like forcing me to be religious. Raising voice without any reason. I have always feared of being like him. Dog in our house is kept caged just because he wants it that way. I feel like that dog somehow and wish it would be free. I always trusted my mother from childhood blindly because she was the one who could make me feel safe but lately I figured out she is also manipulative. I still wish she would leave my father but also I don't want her to live with me.
**Brother**: My younger brother is the only person I feel like left for me in this world. I care about what he thinks of me and try to be a better man. I think because he is small than me I always had soft part for him because no matter how abuse parents are my brother is still little part of me and I can see something he learned from me and I am proud of that.
**School:** Maybe because of how I was treated in family I started to get bullied in school too. I had this one friend who used to think he was my best friend but also wanted to control me in every aspect. I think I was afraid of him because I could see my father in him. Also, I did not wanted to look like fighting guy in front of girls but became looser instead. In high school, junior, I thought of putting myself as tough guy because nobody knew me and would not mess with me but that just put target on me. One day after getting bullied all day at school I came home and immediately started crying.
**Girls**: Maybe girls are the ones I always felt safe to talk with or be around with. There were girl bullies to in my life but most of them were actually nice with me. So, I used to treat them nicely and developed crush on some along the way. I still respect the girls talk with them but lately I think I am starting to resent girls of my own culture because of my mother and other relatives just like her but still I remember those really sweet girls who would laugh at my joke and treat me as a friend. I just wish to meet someone who I could hold close and promise to treat in the way I can.
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ptsd
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i need friends but in real life i can't talk, it's crippling
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depression
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Hello everyone. I came here looking for advice with my down-the-street neighbor. My wife and I moved into this home little under two years ago, so we have a vague idea of whos who on our block, however I have only interacted with this gentleman once before last night.
So, last night we had a small handful of people over for a BBQ, five of us and then my twins who are one and a half. My family owns a fireworks store so I thought it would be fun to end the night with some sparklers and TWO ground to air cakes. Both were I think, 16 shots. I lit both of them off and as soon as the second one finished this guy appeared and came up our back driveway and came into our yard cussing us out, called my wife a stupid bitch in front of our kids *SCREAMING* at us about his five tours in IRAQ and physically threatening me (I’m 6’5 and went into Dad protect mode.) He then stormed off.
Seconds later his wife showed up in our front yard half yelling at us half telling us she would calm him down. At this point he re appeared and started walking towards our front door. We had taken our children inside so I started screaming at him and cussing him out to get him to leave and he eventually did.
We called the police, who went and talked to him and said he had calmed down. It was an ordeal.
I’m asking for any advice with this situation. This guy was legitimately very scary because he was so worked up and I want to handle this situation with tact and be sensitive to his PTSD. Anyone else triggered by fireworks? Or know how to diffuse a situation like this?
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ptsd
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I do not have any diagnosis, however, my parents were constantly telling me that I have Asperger's since I was a small kid. I was a really weird kid tho (and now a weird young adult lol). So today I learned about this sub and RAADS-R and decided to take the test. My scores are:
Total score: 142.0
Language: 18.0
Social relatedness: 64.0
Sensory/motor: 28.0
Circumscribed interests: 32.0
What does this score mean? Where exactly on the spectrum I am? What conclusions can I draw from it? I am aware that it might not as accurate but still, I am curious about it.
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aspergers
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These don't happen all that often and I'm thankful. But when they do I end the day feeling like crap and wake up the next day feeling incredibly anxious about the lost productivity of the day before and how much it'll cost me in time for the next two weeks.
Monday was one of these days and I've kind of felt defeated ever since.
I'm a student, and my morning class is optionally online. Forgot to email my tutor to let him know that he needed to set the video and mic up until 10 mins before and he didn't see it in time. One class missed.
Wandered around the flat trying to make up for this with housework, kept picking jobs up and stopping them before I got any headway. Looked at the time, it's halfway through my double afternoon class.
Why didn't my alarm go off to let me know I had to get ready? Checked my phone, alarm was set but I forgot to press the last button to save it and turn it on.
Anxiety attack. Emailed my tutor that I was late, but I'd make it for the last hour. Started getting ready. Flatmate walked in and asked why I left class early so I explained. He reminded me that my class started an hour earlier than I thought and so actually I only had 20 minutes left and no way to make it in time. Three classes missed.
Got ready to leave for evening class. Took three times longer than usual because I kept forgetting where I had just left things. Left with plenty time to get there, somehow arrive late?
Evening class successfully attended, but brain fog prevented any contribution or learning.
Night class started in half an hour, same building. Go straight to class and waited outside. 25 minutes later, needed the toilet. Go to the toilet. Forgot what I was doing. Went home. Walked into the flat and remembered I wasn't supposed to be there yet. Four classes missed.
Tried to work to make up for it. Sat down to do it, got distracted, looked up at time. Bed time.
I hate days like that.
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ADHD
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I saw a man and it kinda looked like as if he suddenly vanished.
I started worrying that it could have been a glitch in the simulation system, if in case we are in one.
I wanted to find an other explanation about it, so I decided to take some pictures of the scene in order to show them to 2 friends of mine and find an explanation.
I started worrying that by taking pictures (if in case we are in a simulation and it was a glitch) I may have angered the Gods of the system by trying to uncover the truth.
I deleted those pictures some time later without showing them. What if I was too late?
After analyzing the situation I ended up finding more possible explanations and the man probably did not vanish. I cant confirm it and since I'cant confirm it I worry.
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OCD
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I know this gets posted here daily, but I just wanted to rant about the people with Asperger's are portrayed on TV. Shows like "The Good Doctor," "Bones," "The Big Bang Theory," and the recent Netflix series "Inside Job." Are the specific examples in thinking of.
First, they are *obsessed* with savants. But they don't even understand what a savant is. Savantism is intended to describe "Island of genius" in an ocean of disability. It's extremely rare, and very specific to one talent. But they are portrayed as just being really good at everything, with no downside.
Second. Many people complain that people with Asperger's are usually portrayed as having supportive families. I don't always find this to be the case, and it wouldn't really bother me if it was(maybe that would explain their seeming lack of negative consequences). Instead, they tend to have these groups of hyper loyal friends that bend over backwards to connect with them and have nearly infinite understanding of their foibles. To me, this is the most harmful part of the depiction because it eliminates *the most significant source of pain sure people with Asperger's.*
Seriously, if I had people in life like Sheldon's friends or Dr. Brennan's friends, then I'd barely notice my Asperger's disorder. The people in these shows have unrealistic levels of social support, nearly supernatural intelligence, and never seem to experience the social isolation and loneliness that is a part of daily life for so many of us. I'm not the type to feel offended, but I really wish people had a more realistic view of what Asperger's syndrome is like.
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aspergers
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My mental health has honestly improved so much during the pandemic. In saying this, I don’t mean to downplay others who are having a hard time. Everyone’s circumstances are different.
A huge part of my trauma history/ PTSD has to do with entrapment. When the shutdown began, I panicked and flashbacks increased significantly. I’d go for walks, find excuses for car rides, etc. Literally forced myself out of the house to prove to myself that I wasn’t trapped and everything was okay. Eventually, I started exercising—running, bike riding, etc and it made such a huge impact. I feel like I’m resolving a lot of that trauma. I get triggered, but whereas I couldn’t escape during the original trauma, I am able to physically get out and run until I am calmed down, then I can come home to somewhere that is safe. So basically, I’m playing out that trauma over and over again, but that physical ability to run and do something this time, is really helping provide a resolution stage. I’m not sure that makes sense to anyone else or not. Maybe it’s just me and I’m weird.
In other ways, the shutdown has allowed my family to slow down, engage in more self-care, exercise (which I’m now realizing is really important for me), and the less crowding/ more distancing is doing wonders for my PTSD/ hyper-vigilance.
Is anyone else finding the shutdown a reprieve? Or finding your mental health improving over this time period?
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ptsd
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Sometimes, I have obsessive thoughts about my weight and getting plastic surgery that last for 15 hours a day. How can I tackle this so I don't have this problem. I sometimes have trouble sleeping or doing any activities because of this, and the thoughts lead to suicidal ideation.
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OCD
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Hey all,
Since a smallish portion of the world falls into this category, it’s bound to be that a ridiculously small portion has OCD. Is anybody here agnostic or atheist that has had obsessions related to not being forgiven by a deity or cosmic force that demands utmost obedience? In my mind, it makes complete sense that if there somehow was any kind of deity that they could not reasonably look at what they created and think that it is at all easy to determine how the world came to be, and that the most pure logic prone would come to conclusions that the universe is born from chaos, and that even if that possibility could be ruled out, there are still thousands of religions one would have to sort between. Mainly, I’m just asking if anyone has had similar thoughts. Thanks guys, hang in there all of you!
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OCD
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…and boy, was it challenging to take that first step and actively face my obsessions instead of running away from them. But I’ve struggled with OCD since 2010 and it’s finally time to stop being a prisoner to my thoughts.
I’m proud of myself. Not gonna lie, I am nervous about what’s next, but I do know that my future self will be thanking me.
As Alegra Kastens (@obsessivelyeverafter on Instagram - phenomenal resource that ultimately pushed me to seek help) says, [“Let’s ERP this shit.”](https://alegrakastens.com/product/short-sleeve-unisex-t-shirt-lets-erp-this-shit/)
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OCD
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Why is it SO difficult for me to get over my OCD? I keep on having to check and recheck my Macbook for scratches! Tried seeking professional and taking some medication but they did not help!!! I keep on focusing on the worst-case scenario. I know this is not normal but I can’t seem to get out of this hellish pit no matter how much I try. Please drop some tips or words of advice.
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OCD
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I'm a 38YO female and was diagnosed ADHD about 4 months ago. Started dex, building up from 5mg twice a day to a 20mg twice a day.
Kept a journal about how I was feeling for a while but dropped off.
No noticable changes until I hit the max dose, both by myself and my partner - checked in with him in case he was noticing improvements that I didn't.
Once I got to max dose I started feeling a bit more "normal". Housework was less of a struggle, able to make appointments, less reactive etc. But the crashes were awful and were at the same time as my son's meds wore off so household was pretty shit around 5pm. Sleep, which has always been shit, got worse but settled to the usual crappiness after a while. Started to split 2nd dose so I could have a 5mg around 4ish which minimised the crash.
Social anxiety got worse - when socialising with people I've known half my life(if I didn't end up cancelling) I'd flinch if they laughed or there was loud noise. Retreated into other rooms and would read or scroll on my phone. Still struggling to leave the house, lots of click and collects to minimise my time in public spaces.
Self care is about the same, appalling. Shower 1-2 times a week, wash hair every 7-14 days, same clothes for days on end. Feel shit about it but not enough to do anything about it.
But in the last week or so it's like all those positives have disappeared! Dishes and washing pilling up, brain getting foggy, guilt over not getting anything done, sleep getting worse. And while I'm not actively suicidal, I'm feeling very ambivalent towards being alive, that I'm burdening anyone I actually reach out (vent) too and that I'm ruining my kids life by being so angry/sad/useless all the time.
I can't really talk to people in person much, it feels so much more exhausting that typing and apart from my partner, kids and shop staff I go weeks without seeing people.
I had started to see a psychologist, but she has been on medical leave and cancelled our last 4 appointments which I'm really struggling with. Managed to work up the strength to ring the office and they've transferred me to another one but next appointment is still another 6 weeks away.
I have a psychiatrist that I'm seeing this week for a med review, but I always feel like I'm being too vague and minimising how bad I actually am.
Am also looking at a potential (self evaluated at this stage) ASD diagnosis. Both my children have ADHD, one also ASD and the other is getting assessed soon.
Not sure what I'm hoping get out of posting, but at least getting it out has made me feel very slightly better
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ADHD
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I cannot stand fucking living anymore. I just want to die. I'm done with the world and everyone. Nobody fucking understands and I'm scared of what I'm going to do to myself
edit: not dead still alive. I'm going to try and get a therapist and have promised myself I won't do anything drastic.
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depression
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[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vtX6emk6U5k](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vtX6emk6U5k)
Somehow I am just finding this out. Well enjoy binging videos about him, as i have for the last half hour.
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aspergers
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I'm 21 years old, I've never had a girlfriend, I've never had my first kiss and I've never had sex, and there's this girl i like, she's gorgeous, she's so fucking funny, and she makes me feel like i can act as myself with her, and i want to tell her that i like her and that i want to be her boyfriend, but every time i try to tell her, i hold myself back, cuz i feel like I'm not gonna make her happy. I'm a dumbass, I can't pass the 1st semester of uni and she has this thing that pays your school if you pass everything (idk what it's called), I don't have any money, I can't get any job, I'm an ugly piece of shit, and i have a record of girls rejecting me since i was 10 years old (i think).
I don't know what's the point of this post anymore, vent i guess.
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depression
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Horrible sleep schedule, nightmares, disassociation, irritability. I can see it alllll getting worse by the day and I’ve been in a good place but I’m not sure how much longer until my body cant take it anymore and I go back into a full swing ptsd moment. (I’m not even sure what to call it)
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ptsd
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Hi new member to this community, so not sure if this has been raised.
I have POCD with all the worst aspects of it, I have times when it's in control and times when it's not. I'm currently having intrusive thoughts every hour of everyday. I was doing ok for a while, but it feels like this bout has hit me when I'm going through a more stable period of my personal life.
Does anybody else find that when things are go ok it gets worse by 100%. Its like my brain won't let me be happy.
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OCD
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Could anyone please explain me why am i resistant to all kind of human made psych medication ?
Do anyone has an Idea ?
Its either not working, either having the whole list of horrible side effects .
Im also resistant to 5 years of intensive ERP therapy.
Im i an Alien specimen ?
Anyone in the Same situation ?
I feel im a freak
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OCD
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I know everyone has their preferences, I shouldn't force myself and thats fine. But I feel like there's a stereotype around people with aspergers loving science fiction and fantasy.
Don't get me wrong, the escapism aspect appeals to me. But I watched the new Dune film yesterday (no spoilers). While I thought from a cinematography point of view aspects of it were very well done, I struggled to tell the characters apart. Same with star wars. When they're unmasked I can, but to me a lot of it just looks like a load of people in identical suits fighting for various sides using terminology I don't understand and I find it hard to follow.
I kind of feel that way with LOTR too. The acting and scenery is incredible but the big fight scenes to me are more or less identical and there's too many characters and sub-plots. People say I should read the books to understand it better but I'm a very visual person and find it hard to understand what I can't see.
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aspergers
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Most of the time, when I say I have Asperger's on 7cups(venting/support website), the person stops talking to me immediately/blocks me. Literally just happened-hadn't been on 7cups in a long time and recently went on after accepting a low paying job in a new town- first person I talked to- when I said I fear that I won't get a good career because I am socially awkward. Has happened enough that I think the site is functionally the opposite of its actual purpose. It feels very insulting and definitely supports my decision to not announce my condition in my actual life. But why does this happen? I feel like literal sex offenders are often treated better than those with this condition.
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aspergers
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So it's very hard to phrase but I want to know if other people are like me. I feel like there is stuff I like and want to do and get better at but I generally feel unmotivated but mentally it feels like I am on that fine line where if I can just cross that like mentally I would go full hyperfixation on it but my brain just refuses to cross that line.
I suck at words so I hope this comes across properly.
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aspergers
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Hey All, I’ve been diagnosed with CPTSD. I’m a survivor of a an extremely abusive relationship from 18-25. When my nervous system is primed and I’m not myself I can be very challenging and confrontational with my partner. No yelling or anything physical but I question there motives and demand more than they are able to offer. When that state wears off I’m left with such immense guilt. After good therapy and medication these are few and far between but this month has been really rough on me and last night I had one of those outbursts again. My partner says she can’t trust that I’m actually me. That what Im saying is genuine and not just my trauma. These lucid moments are like torture as im aware of the damage I’ve caused and im still recovering from that slip back into panic.
How do you communicate after the fact with your partner or loved ones to gain there trust back that you are genuine. We’ve gone to counseling and I can see the toll it takes on her. Do I just let her go in order to protect her?
Anyone with experience would be great to hear your stories good or bad.
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ptsd
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I'm not okay. I'm not okay and I don't know how to pretend that I am anymore. I try, I really really really try but I'm not and I don't know how to make this go away. I want to be normal. I want to feel normal things, have a normal life, actually cook so I can eat something that is not pasta and do the fucking dishes after that. I want to not forget important deadlines. I want to not procrastinate doing my homework. I want to meet someone and instantly know when is the right time to say "Hi, my name is X". I want to think about something and only that. Not have 200 tabs open in my mind at the same time. I want to stop being so anxious. I want to be okay with loving more than I am loved. And I want to be loved as much as I love. I want life with me to be easy. I want to know when is the right time to leave and then be okay with leaving. I want to do my laundry and then fold the laundry and put my clothes in my dresser. I want to wake up at a normal hour and not stay in bed until I absolutely can't. And I want to go to bed when it is time to and not wait until I can't open my eyes anymore.
I want to not feel empty. I feel empty. My existence doesn't matter and yet every single one of my missteps seems to have catastrophic repercussions. I want to not be tired. I want to be okay with being tired. I just want to be normal but my fucking brain has been fucking up my entire life and I don't know how to deal with it. I just want to be able to spend a normal, quiet evening at home and not feel like I don't matter. I want to forgive myself and learn to forgive others. Please tell me that it gets better, that I won't be like this all my life, that someday, it gets sorted out somehow. It's so unfair that people get to go to the bathroom without torturing themselves for hours first. That they can embark on normal activities and not suddenly feel distressed, anxious and on edge for no reason. I want to be less dramatic and less emotional. I want to be one of those people who live their lives to the fullest and simply don't care. I want to be okay.
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ADHD
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i’m looking for a free daily planner that works on ios and linux that lets me set a “default week” so i don’t have to write the same damn thing every day but one that i can also add things in on a daily basis. I’m really struggling to stay motivated and i’m feeling super unproductive and i feel like this will help me a lot. thanks in advance!
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ADHD
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I've come to the conclusion that I simply can't function if I'm not on Paxil and seroquel. Is it a sad life to be on this meds long term? I feel sad that my brain doesn't work properly without these meds. Even while taking them I obsess a lot. It's truly a sad life, I've been unhappy since my ocd started and I've not much hope for a bright future. I can't seem to have peace of mind, I'm constantly over thinking and feeling suicidal
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OCD
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So a few minutes ago.me and my family had an argument. I wanted my brother to stop doing things, or letting my dog do things. Especially since we are trying to train her.
I brought it to my mom. Gosh she didn’t care. She says I can’t control him. So what. But when ever he dose something I don’t like, I have to stop and change?! Yeah okay. I want to tell my mother everything, but she acts like she doesn’t even care.
I’ve been in a mental hospital, I’ve overdosed. In the past I cut. What more do you want!? I thought being cause of my fragile depressed being that, maybe my family will be more general with me. BUT NOOOOO. My family really triggers me man. My mom told me that I’m just “victimizing “ myself. Which that’s something that I never want to do. Or make people feel. So I had gotten my diagnosis from my psychiatrist saying I have
Major depression
PTSD
Derealization
G. Anxiety
Some Panic attack
I hate when people are mad at me. Cause it Hurts to know I’ve done something bad. If I harp on a mistake, my mom yells at me and just say hurtful things. If I keep asking the same question, I just want reassurance not a lecture. Growing up with a thick sucked family as been hard being that out of EVERYONE I’m Aparently sensitive. I can’t even say that word till this day! I had to become mean for these people to even like me. All my life it was hard being myself. I’m trying so hard no to hurt myself. Just suck it up. I have shoes to finish. But man, I keep hearing a voice telling me to just die.
Honestly, I want everyone to pay for what they did to me. I want everyone to suffer like I did. And it’s too late to build or fix a relationship cause I’m 18 NOW. I’m sick and tired of everyone getting away with it. My mother doesn’t even know HALF the stuff my brother did to me. And she KEEPS SAYING FAMILY IS EVERYTHING. that’s a LIE. I get at the end of the day we are all family, but don’t take things to far. I try to forgive but something are hard to forget.
I’ve lost respect for my brothers, throughout life. And I’m tired. I’m so tired.
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depression
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I've really only ever been able to bond over shared interest, be it a game or work. I've bad a best friend when I was a child over certain games (TCG/MMO stuff). As an adult, I've made a good friend through work and we also play a FPS game online together. Probably my only friend for the last several years. It's one of my favorite things to have a playing buddy online, since it can be more interesting to team up and do things. Plus we can decompress or gossip a bit about work over the party chat.
We are below average skill players, and I have a slight edge. I'm younger and have been playing since a kid. He's a little older (could almost be my dad) and this is newer to him. The thing is, he is (maybe?) not a good friend. If he is disappointed in the way we're playing, he will become extremely verbally abusive and mean usually before he either rage quits or we start winning a bit. I am always having fun win or lose. I think my indifference to our in game struggles exacerbates his annoyance, but when I try to feign anger I come off insincere. A no win for me. I have a relative who also plays (has his own friend circle) and will once in a while try to include us, but it becomes awkward when the insults and negativity start up and I've heard that's why he doesn't invite us much anymore.
**This issue has expanded during the year of COVID and my wife (NT) thinks it's a bit of a toxic relationship since she overheard him on accident (my headphones disconnected and his foul mouth started coming through the TV speakers). She wants me to address it or maybe even stop playing with him.** The thing is - I am not sensitive to it, and it doesn't really trigger any feelings at all in me. He just says these words and tomorrow he'll be online at the same time, same place and we do it again. He has never apologized. It's like it happens and then it never happened. I am literally the same person every time. I don't really care that he doesn't apologize or acknowledge it, since it has little bearing on my enjoyment of the game. The crazy thing is that he has been mostly very kind and inclusive to me at work for over 10 years, though we haven't been at the same office for 5 years. We are known as close and confidants of each other.
I don't know, I guess just looking for advice?
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aspergers
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I finally managed to find a somewhat decent job with a time work firm and was one my first work assignment. Until Tuesday it seemed like I had magaged it halfway and then from one day to another it all blew up. I had this job since the 10th of November.
I learned some new things this week but when I prepared the documents staples with the special paper for the scanner, I was later told I made some mistakes. But that was just mentioned as one of the fuck ups.
I didn't feel good this Tuesday so I finished work earlier and went to one of the test centers in order to get the daily corvid test so that I can ride the bus and rest at home. If I wasn't better in the morning I would call in sick and then go to the doctor. As I was on the way home I got a call from the center that the test was positive and had to come back for a PCR test.
They next morning I was so tired and weak, that I called in sick. I was reprimanded that I had only informed a colleague and that I should have informed her as the chef. I only had told my coworker that I would call in sick if I didn't feel better. Nice to see that chinese whisper still works so well.
I feel asleep fast because of Corvid. I felt so weak and tired... Hours later as I woke up I realized that I had forgotten to tell her that I was tested positive. I called and told her. She was to put it mildly enraged. It seems I hadn't really readed the Corvid information packet and what I was to do to if tested positive to her. I had readed it but I had forgotten about parts of it.... Another fuck up.
But as I was told not the reason that I was dismissed, not even because I was sick. Apparently my behavior towards my colleagues was not tolerable. I was wondering what exactly she meant. I didn't really talked that much to them. I told some anecdotes and jokes to seem sociable but other than that not really the talking type. She didn't tell me what situation exactly only that it wasn't tolerable. Then that I was dismissed. She also excused herself that she would now end the call because she was still enraged that I didn't informed her as soon as possible and that I had placed my coworkers in such danger.
Yeah from one day to the next it all got up in flames. I wonder sometimes really if I'm cursed because every single time something like this happens. It seems like I get the hang of the job, then bumm. Little mistakes piled up and in the end I'm some kind of uncaring monster. When I don't really talk and just do my work: I'm labeled as arrogant, thinks herself to good to talk with us, etc. When I talk and interact with coworkers: She only talks shit, she's weird, why does she thinks she is funny? I really need to learn to not to talk so much to coworkers. This people aren't friends or even acquaintances. This are strangers that just share the same workplace. Anything told makes the round all trough. You tell something and it comes wrong out somewhere. I am just so tired of this sh*t...
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ADHD
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Bro, I don’t wanna live anymore damn 😂😂😂 I been waiting for a truck to hit me for 5 years now.
Like this shit is so dreadful bro I don’t care about nothing life has to offer I just want to be dead 💀
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depression
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I recall that the post spoke about why those with ADHD are motivated to take action. There were four criteria that dictate whether we're likely to complete a task and we need one of them to be present before we are motivated to do anything. I \_think\_ one of the examples given was about only doing the dishes when someone was due to visit as that provided one of these four criteria.
Can anyone help? I thought I had upvoted and/or saved the post but I can't find it now and I would like to show it to someone as I thought it was spot-on and very easy to for neurotypical people to understand.
Thanks-you!
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ADHD
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hey everyone reading,
So I’ve struggled with OCD for as long as i can remember and I’m a 24 y/o female. Lately it’s been worse due to stress and i find myself struggling with ear worms. They drive me crazy to the point that i have trouble sleeping. I am currently not being treated for OCD but would like to soon. Has anyone had success with medication or a mix of that and CBT?? Thanks!
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OCD
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Hi! I've been dealing with daily nightmares since my trauma occurred. They continue to haunt me. My doctor gave me amitriptyline to help put me in a deeper sleep - it is helping but I am still getting nightmares every 3 or 4 days - especially after a trigger. Any advice on things I can do or medication I could request from my doctor to further decrease the nightmares?
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ptsd
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That moment when you finally realise that you are being purposely ignored by a bunch of useless people who don't themselves have any value of their own they seek pleasure by doing this .
Situation even gets worse when other people viz the whole world is on the same boat and you are on the other side alone , miserable lying all weak.
I have been forced to live a lonely life , loneliness deludes mind loneliness drives people crazy loneliness is like a mental prison.
I am not surprised that most of the people here are having suicidal thoughts it's completely fine to have this if your situation is same as described above.
Suicidal thoughts are now a normal thing for me and it's common for me to have them now thanks cruel world, thanks even if people like us die this cruel world will be more happy than before and indifferent to us
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depression
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I miss it. I miss the old me who was carefree, joyous and outgoing. Living life every day as if it were my last. I miss when the days were filled with fun, contentment and having a cup of tea with my friends. I miss it. Life was just normal. It seemed as if everything was falling into place but I guess life has different plans for me. Days now are filled with compulsions, stress and anxiety. Days now are spent being inside the house rather than being outside with my friends living life. What may sound silly and worthless to others has turned my life into misery, has made me mentally paralysed. I feel like a loser for suffering from this horrible disease. The disease that eats you from inside day by day, in and out. It's hard. It's hard to even talk about it to family and friends who do not support you. Suffering now seems like a friend. It talks to me day in and day out. It's been a long journey and I have managed to come this far with no support and help. I have no idea how far I can go.I feel lostI feel defeatedI feel hopeless
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OCD
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*I'm not sure whether this question has already been asked in the past(apologies if so).*
For me, there are probably 3 things.
\- insecurities grow the more you ignore them
\- false beliefs that go unchallenged make a hell of a mess
\- find activities that are good for you, and also relieve stress
There's probably more, but these seem to pop into the bulb most dominantly.
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OCD
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does anyone else tic when they get a particularly distressing thought? like for instance when i get an intrusive thought i’ll involuntarily shake my head or slap my arms. anyone else?
ps. also this might go without saying but pls nobody verbalize their intrusive thoughts in the comments its triggering for me<3
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OCD
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Hello! I was diagnosed with ADHD not too long ago and I’m under medication for it.
I’m in my last year of high school, my last day is on November 26 and I simply can’t wait to be done with everything. My classes are currently simply just going over subjects we’ve already seen to study for this big test that basically decides which universities we can apply to.
Thing is, school usually leaves me pretty exhausted, even if I don’t do much during classes, the amount of noise is stressful and it feels like an incredibly annoying routine that doesn’t feel at all rewarding, I have no more tests except for that big one that’s unrelated to my school and classes now are pretty much optional, but my mother makes me go to school everyday.
I really feel like I need a break, at least one day of the week when I can stay at home and work on my art, which is what I want to do the rest of my life. School takes a lot of my energy, so when I get home I just don’t feel like drawing and I can’t make advances on projects I’m trying to develop.
My meds only help by making my emotions more stable and I can be a bit more responsible with chores and other things… but my inspiration suffers a lot and I can’t work on my art the way I want to…
Does anyone know how I can make my school experience a bit less exhausting? Or how I can get my energy back after school?
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ADHD
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Y'all are consistently some of the kindest people I've ever spoken to. And this is Reddit so what's that say?
All I'm surrounded by in real life is neurotypicals. It's lonely being the only one I know who thinks and acts like me.
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aspergers
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Hello there. Here is a quick question for anyone who might stumble across this post. In my mind, the perfect reader is a hybrid Christian/OCD sufferer lol. Just so you understand both angles.
Over the years, my OCD has morphed and, like a liquid, taken the shape of my current life circumstances. When I revisited the Christian roots of my childhood and found solace in prayer, OCD attached itself to God and I developed what we call in the mental health community 'scrupulosity'.
After months of engaging in compulsive behavior to avoid 'sinning', I've finally recognized God would not demand such absurd and malicious tasks, and I'm beginning to challenge the thoughts and compulsions. But today, a neighbor I hadn't seen in months approached me and asked me to join him to a bible study.
Of course, the first thing I thought was: it's a sign that my OCD was God all along!
What're your thoughts?
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OCD
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