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I was diagnosed with cptsd a bit ago one event in particular has always given me the most trouble. I don’t remember much, but I have one recurring image that pops up far too often. Its been the same image for several years. Anybody relate? Thanks for any input
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This is my first time posting on Reddit so excuse me for all the possible technological issues.
Disclaimer: I’ve never been properly diagnosed but I KNOW I have reading OCD. I relate to every single symptom and I know some of y’all are gonna come for me for this but this is not the point of this post.
Anyway, so I’ve struggled with reading OCD for as long as I remember. Ever since I was a little girl I was always the slowest one in every single class. I’m currently in 10th grade and we have a decent amount of reading homework (which is suffocating me) and I just need some help/advice from whoever deals/dealt with this or overcame it.
Basically, my issue with reading is that I feel the need to keep repeating the same sentence or phrase over and over and over again even if I understood the content perfectly (so it got nothing to do with attention span). Especially for textbook materials, I would read a sentence and then another. Then, my brain would tell me that “I didn’t read that correctly/perfectly enough and I need to reread it.” So I reread it. I reread it once, twice, three times... until my brain finally decides “okay you can move on now.” To try and solve the issue myself, I tried to visualize the meaning of the words in my head and while that worked for a while, it’s getting very distracting for me now. Also, I tend to get even more finicky towards the end of a paragraph or chapter (depends on the length of the material I’m reading). When I was in elementary, 10 pages took me an hr. Now I honestly can’t even pinpoint the amount of time it takes me to read 10 pages. It could be 30 min, an hour, two hours, who knows. Essentially, reading for school (or anything for that matter) is absolutely exhausting and at this point I just avoid reading as much as I can.
I’ve recently done some research and found out that there are other people like me (which I was very surprised) and I told my mom about this. Let’s just say she isn’t the most empathetic person and she just doesn’t get it. She would also sometimes make fun of my reading problem and just say things that aren’t exactly helpful whatsoever. My point is, to all those who might suggest “go see a therapist,” it’s not an option for me because my mom is NOT willing to pay for that.
So reading aside, this atrocious issue has been filtrating into my pleasure activities. When I watch tv shows now, I feel the need to keep rewinding until I understand it. Same problem as reading. I rewind, picture the words, play the video, rewind again.. cycle repeats for the whole episode. I can’t enjoy tv shows anymore and it sucks. It also takes me a long time to watch the shows. A normal 40 min episode can take me up to 2 hours, and then I feel guilty for wasting all that time I could have used for other more productive things.
If anyone, anyone at all, relates to this and/or has helpful suggestions for what I can do, please please please share your methods of combatting this. Thanks!
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This is something I've been struggling with for months now and it's persisted on and off for years. I'm just not interested in anything, on a good day an activity will hold my attention for 30 minutes at the most and then I'll be bored of it and move on. I find it a struggle to unwind and relax because I just don't feel like doing anything. Is this something my medication will fix? And do you have coping strategies for not feeling this way?
I'm not even entirely sure it's an ADHD thing either
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So I thought I was schizophrenic because I heard the voices, and they gave me the diagnosis of unspecified psychosis, but it turns out I might have PTSD due to childhood abuse. I'm still coming to terms with it and it does explain stuff.
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Does anybody else get horribly bored and at a loss for motivation between hyperfixations?
My latest hyperfixation was a Twitch streamer. I watched his entire backlog of VODS (hundreds of hours), and now I feel like I'm just waiting around for him to stream again or to start a new obsession.
I have a list of games I want to play, a bunch of shows on my Netflix watchlist, but I don't feel like starting any of them. I'm just endlessly scrolling on my phone until something inspires me.
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I’m PRETTY sure I have OCD — I’m not sure what type of OCD cause it’s become a mix of many types. Mostly health related — I spend most of my days thinking about myself and trying to disprove the fact that I have a serious mental health problem.
I took SSRIs for nine months a year ago and I noticed that my overall mood improved and thoughts became “less” harmful. I wouldn’t mind taking meds again but my libido was VERY low during the treatment. I wanted to ask if anyone recommends a medication that helped their OCD but didn’t affect their libido.
TIA ❤️
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I had a triggering experience about two weeks ago and I’ve been stuck in fight-or-flight, disassociating and I’m exhausted and scared. How do you free yourself from this pattern when you get stuck in a downward cycle of fear and isolation? It’s getting worse. Rapidly worse.
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My therapist works a day job and sees private practice patients in the afternoon/evening. I am her first appointment after she gets off work and because of this she's always driving during our appointments and calls me over the phone instead of doing a video through the telehealth system.
There have been multiple red flags with this therapist that have made me think of switching, but I feel like this is a big one. I don't want to get her in trouble but I also don't feel comfortable with this... am I wrong to feel this way?
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I feel like I’m at the worst possible point in my life.
I failed most of first year papers. Worked my butt off and i got into the course I wanted !!! it took me four years but I got there in the end.
Fast forward to a terrible year - me not asking for help when I should have - and thinking I could manage when I most definitely could not.
Now I’m here about to fail my degree I paid so much for and I just have no idea what I’m doing to do now :( I just feel so embarrassed and ashamed. I let my amazing supervisor down. I already feel like I’m so behind in every other aspect of my life. Uni was the only thing keeping me going.
Please just tell me I’ll be okay :(
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I originally developed OCD at around 8/9 years old although it got particularly severe when I was around 13/14. During the worst periods, I broke a silly rule and thought I was going to be literally arrested. For a little mistake. As a child. Many days coming home from school I was fighting with my mind and l waiting for the police to show up and it caused horrible anxiety. Did anyone else have this? I know looking back at it that it was incredibly ridiculous, but at the time it brought me grief.
I had other weird obsessions/thoughts/emotions too. I had anxiety that radiation was coming from my phone which made not able to go to sleep with it nearby. I consider moving the phone a compulsion. I also would check the corners of rooms for cameras and felt like other people were watching me/I was being watched. Had a panic attack in an almost empty restaurant and had to leave because of it.
On top of all of this was really bad contamination OCD. That was the worst part but that’s besides the point.
Years later, after lots of medication, my OCD is still present but has heavily improved and I am beyond thankful. Still, I want to better understand these types of thoughts and anxiety, especially since my brain has blurred out so much of my life from when my mental health was bad. Has anyone else had similar experiences? To anyone experiencing these themes, my heart goes out to you. 🫂
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I finished ERP with my psychologist in May, and I’ve been managing quite well anytime obsessions pop up. But sometimes I get a sudden cold flash of guilt and terror in my mind and body, with no buildup to it. Usually with things like “What if it comes back? What if I can’t get through it next time?”
And then I’m so tempted to do ERP right then and there to make sure it doesn’t come back, but then I don’t end up doing it because that feels like it’d be a compulsion.
OCD is a trip lol.
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I've seen this therapist for 2 years for depression before I moved. She never recognized my symptoms back then but I was recently diagnosed and now she says it's all there... and she's also an expert in ADD (not ADHD? Out of touch with new info?).
She has since sent me 6 emails a day for the last 2 weeks regarding ADD. It really doesn't help that some of the stuff is useless memes and mixed in are some legnthy "homework" for me to do. Last week she called and was upset I didn't respond to her emails. I really wanted to tell her she's no expert in ADHD if she really expects me to read all that useless crap. The worse part is now I feel bad because I'm not doing the homework that's supposed to help me do things.
How should I address this?
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Fear is the expectation of displeasure in the widest sense! In the narrowest sense , fear is aversion of death.
Every fear is fear of death,
Fear is the expectation of unknown , we fear only what is new. What has become familiar to us loses the capacity to produce fear. death too is to us the absolutely new and unknown for one should be able to die but once to be sure there are neurotics who die every day or at least play at dying.
Man endures everything, but not the unknown whose charactestic symbol is the dark faith fulfils a great mission by setting up a positive affirmation in place of the great question mark.
When a man fixed on any fearful idea life becomes hell, and it feels no one understands what this man is dealing with .. all of us have been in fearful situations but some people are daily living this hell,
Among the common fears people told me about :
- fear of rejection is big, when someone feels that no matter how he or she tries will be rejected, so the person becomes his own rejecter and he always pull himself back .
- fear of abandonment : a person with this fear he or she always pushing away people for his life because he has doubts about why people interested in him and he has shame persona based.
- fear of success : there's some people no matter what effort they take, they always fail because they fear Being successful that means unconsciously to them success is bad and dangerous.
- fear of intimate relationships : a lot of people are dealing with sexual shame without being aware of that, intimacy means pain and danger.
- fear of oneself : that's when a person is escaping himself all the time relying on drugs or some form of escapism such like porn. Working all the time. Gambling...
Those are common fears that I find with my clients .. hope this post benefit you guys .. for any questions chat me .. peace ✨
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Does anybody get intrusive thoughts that aren't bad or anything, but they still consume you and stop you from seeing reality? For example, the other day I had a thought that I could have a crush on my friend. Which didn't bother me much (which is great because a few years ago that thought would have made my life hell) but I keep thinking this thought and ruminating over it and I can't tell if it's true or not. How do I sit with this thought so I can figure out if it's real or not? It's kind of hard to sit with it and ignore it's implications because I'd like to know if I have a crush on them or not so I can choose whether to pursue it or not but I just can't tell.
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i had a sex dream the other night and woke up slightly moving my hips with my hand resting between my legs . in my dream i had orgasmed but i don’t think i did in real life, when i woke up o became terrified i had a condition called sexomnia. is what i experienced normal or should i look into it?
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I’m not sure if this is an ocd thing or a social anxiety thing or a low self esteem thing but does anyone ever feel super self conscious being around other people? Like I feel like everyone thinks what I say is stupid and thinks that I’m a “try hard” and just really shit or like they can see into your soul and they see you are a really bad bad person. Also feeling like no one wants you around… it’s real shit tbh
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Hello internet people 👋🏻 I’m in the UK and am trying to get diagnosed at 32, female probably inattentive.
I’ve had my gp appointment (8 weeks ago) and I’m trying to get them to refer me to clinical partners via right to choose. I’ve literally been on the phone every week to them, my gp needed evidence they’d had previous nhs patients and that took weeks and then my gp told me my referral had gone through and I called clinical partners who said they hadn’t received it. I also know that they will need confirmation of funding from my ccg before they book me in.
I’m getting very frustrated and losing faith in getting a free diagnosis so I think I’m going to go private with clinical partners with a gp referral. I am lucky enough to to be able to afford it if I dig into my savings.
My gp has been supportive but it’s stressing me out that nothing is happening to the point where I’m waking up sweating and thinking about it all the time.
Has anyone else just given up with the NHS and gone private?
Has anyone else gone through clinical partners?
What’s been anyone’s experience with meds following diagnosis?
Is this whole faff worth it?
Sincerely, someone who is getting v fed up.
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Normally there’s a trigger or I start thinking about stuff and it leads to me spiralling but tonight after work I went for a lie down and just lost it, uncontrollably crying. Why am I so broken and can’t this just end please. I’m so tired of living like this I just want to be content in life I’m not asking for much.
Wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. Literally fighting your own brain 24-7 with no hope it gets better.
Anyway just wanted to vent on here as I can’t bring myself to go to my one support person with yet another bad day/time.
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Ive been suspecting that I’m on the spectrum for the last 6ish months and with that I know that a lot of people on the spectrum eat the same food continually. However, I’ve noticed that if I continually eat the same food every single day (even if it was an established routine) I suddenly begin to grow so disgusted of the food to the point where I gag the more I chew on it. For example, I used to wake up and eat these frozen breakfast sandwiches for months, but then all of a sudden it was impossible to eat. I couldn’t even force myself to eat it anymore due to the amount of disgust. Is this just a me thing or can anyone relate?
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While studying In 2019 away from home i was struggling a lot, though a lot about suicide and ending up my life. Then i came back home found myself a decent hobby.i got busy in my life. Now i have job at school and few students also come at my home for studying. Sometimes i feel good and other times i just feel empty, want to cry but i just can't do it.when lying on bed it all comes back. It doesn't go away i guess. You just have to close your eyes and pretend it is not there.
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i know that my friends and family are trying their best to fix whatever mess i've become, but i really wish they'll stop whatever it is they're trying to do to help me. it's not like i hate their insentive, but i really hate myself for not getting better, ending up betraying their expectation. and i hate seeing their effort being wasted on someone like me, when they can spend their precious time and resource on something much better and much useful. unlike me who keeps on betraying their expectation.
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So, I'm currently twenty two year olds, go to university as a physics, have an apartment and work part-time at the moment, but the feeling of inadequacy still daunts me to this. I don't know how to shake this feeling off, even though I know I'm doing the best I can in life. I don't relate well to people and my now ex girlfriend would tell me physics and other related interests I had was boring. I just don't know how to let go of this inadequacy.
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I (45F) have PTSD. My ex was mentally abusive to me for way to long. I finally got away almost 10 yrs now. We have 4 kids together. After leaving him, I moved back home to a different state. He got temporary custody then lost the kids to foster care. It took a while, but after a lot of hard work, I got my kids home.
Flash forward today. I was doing great, for someone who has a lot of trust issues, until Covid. My oldest is on his own and my 3 youngest are living with my elderly parents to help out. I had to quit my job after Covid, which was fine considering the job really stressed me out. I don't have money issues due to my condition. My kids tried hybrid school but ultimately are online. None are doing well. I have tried but all it is, is fighting everyday. I know I'm not the only one in this boat.
The issue I'm having... My daughter (13)was diagnosed with Bipolar. She has fits all the time. I try to ignore it but her screaming and yelling everyday. I have her in therapy. She hates taking her meds and I'm exhausted. I don't know much about Bipolar. The thing I'm having problems about is she constantly cuts me down when she is angry. She says I'm horrible and nobody loves or listens to her. When she is happy she is a dream. She is very loving and is a nurse maid to my dad. As a result though, my ptsd has gotten so much worse. I'm having panic attacks and severely depressed. I still get them to their appointments and everything. I know she can't help her mood swings. I just want to know if her being disrespectful during her fits is normal. I am afraid that her screaming at me all the time is going to put me in the hospital.
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I am accidentally rude to friends and then they dislike me leaving me lonely. I try to be a good person and express my feelings but then things get messy. But if I don’t express my feelings it builds up and makes me depressed over time. I feel better speaking up but others feel worse. How do I get better at this? I want to express how I feel while still being nice to people and I keep messing up. I honestly hate myself at this point...
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TW: OCD, ED, psych hospital
I’m a teen, I have Anorexia Nervosa, Major Depressive Disorder, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My ocd has made it very difficult for me to take care of myself in the past few months. I don’t eat as much as I should, or drink many fluids. I don’t brush my teeth or bathe very often anymore. I just sit in the same spot most of the day. I can’t take care of myself anymore so I think going inpatient may be the best for me right now. My psychiatrist and dietician both brought it up and I’ve been looking at treatment centers and hospitals. Is there anything I should or should not bring? How is the food typically? I have Anorexia so I’m anxious that the food won’t be something that I can eat without anxiety. Any advice or tips would be helpful.
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I'm currently watching Castlevania, and every time I start a new episode I have to pause and act like I'm explaining the plot to a person who's never watched before - That's how I keep up.
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I've been having intrusive thoughts about my cat (I am 14 so the cat is safe because he has my parents and brothers don't worry about food or health or anything) And the other day I was looking at him and as I was looking at him I was thinking "Oh that's his tail there" and I'm worried I looked at his tail, I know I didn't mean to look at his tail, I know I didn't think about it that way, but I've been beating myself over this for over a week and I have my first therapist appointment in 2 weeks, I didn't mean to do anything I feel like shit man, why did I look at his tail, did I, FUCK this sucks
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So I take Adderall IR 5mg 4 times a day, currently Lannett genericbut sometimes Teva. My doctor has slowly been increasing my dose to see what works best for me.
Usually I take it about every 4 hours. Sometimes I can go as long as 6 hours between doses, other times it’s like 2 1/2 hours, max.
Does this happen to anyone else? And does anyone have thoughts on why this might be occurring?
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If you have pure O, would you choose to have outward compulsions instead? And vice versa.
[View Poll](https://www.reddit.com/poll/n3loa1)
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I can't describe what I'm feeling.
I've been doing a therapy since 2018 because of my panic attacks, suicide attempts and self harm but as the days go by, I stopped feeling like that. Since then, I stopped with my therapy because I can't even talk to my therapist, everyday it's like I can recognize myself, my own voice, my thoughts, if I look at myself in a mirror I feel an oppression on my chest, my heart beats really fast and I feel really scared, all I know is that I want to be dead.
I don't want to live anymore, not like this.
I've been writing this for the past 10 minutes and it just came out an awful thing, I'm sorry.
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Quick disclaimer - there's no advice here. Just sharing an experience and looking to hear from others.
Okay so I find that my days pass really quickly. I never have enough time to do the things I want; it seems like there's never enough time.
Yesterday I took a day off my meds and the day was so slow. Sure, I was bored as heck and everything I usually find interesting on meds became a chore (video games, TV, etc) but that feeling of never having enough time just disappeared.
I definitely don't want my days to drag, but I'm starting to wonder whether I'm losing days because everything is flying by me.
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My daily attempt to Help, Inspire and Motivate those living with PTSD.
Happy Valentines Day, hope you're doing well, take care!
[https://youtu.be/A-NiYUzlx7o](https://youtu.be/A-NiYUzlx7o)
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I called my sister who lives 1,400 miles away from me last night to tell her that for the last few weeks I have been having intrusive thoughts. I suffer from PTSD that has cascaded to a gargantuan amount of daily fear. Dogs barking, people being nice or getting to close, it all creates images of death and violence in my head that I can't escape. laying on the floor doing yoga? can't do that because someone will come in and smash my skull into the floor. turning on the blender to make a smoothie? the sound of the blender is too loud and I am afraid that I wont hear people breaking into my house. I am paralyzed with imagined fear from my past. I think about how I want to be better and healthy for my son but I don't even have an image of myself that isn't obscured. I feel like I am loosing myself to the darkness. I feel that darkness is waiting for me at every turn. I am prepared to run, scream, or get down on the ground and curl up like a baby at any moment. It is like fighting an invisible monster. it creates images that only I can see and I can't explain so i feel like darkness is swarming in or that I perhaps am generating this much darkness that I feel almost drowning in it.
I know I need help but I am a single mom and I am afraid if I tell my healthcare professional that my son will be taken to his fathers house. which wouldn't be a bad thing if his dad wasn't a herion addict who lives like a pig.
I just want to feel like I am alive and breathing instead of allowing my body to melt between shades of darkness.
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So my girlfriend gave me a blowjob actually as an exposure but she’s been working hard on finals so I haven’t see her in about a week and I’m so very nervous to kiss her again idk what to do
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After a full year of agonising about having ADHD, I finally got diagnosed. Here in the UK for adults it is done so by using a questionnaire. I have had a diagnosis for dyslexia in the past through my university . The assessment for dyslexia tested my intelligence in multiple ways and showed me where I am strong and where I am weak. In contrast for ADHD, it was just a questionnaire. Don't get me wrong, I answered many of them but this is where I think those people who claim everyone is a bit ADHD might be right. ADHD for me feels like walking with shackles on because doing anything in life is always a challenge.
Either way I am at a very difficult crossroad of my life hence my post. I have to finish my degree and time is running out. I have been stuck at this final stage for now the third year but due some very understanding lecturers I have been given yet another chance to finish. However I really want to try and get medication to see if they can solve my problems. Many people here have said that medication has totally changed their lives and I can't let such a opportunity go by.
Unfortunately I have seen how much of a mental toll just the possibility of having ADHD had on me, but trying out different meds while having to finish my degree seems like another ordeal in itself. I have lot of stuff to do but I am thinking trying is futile since I need the medication. Likewise I also know that medication is not a magic bullet and may not even do anything for me.
I have read many stories now of how some people's lives changed massively after diagnosis and medication and I am staying hopeful. My life has been a total mess up to this point but everyone has given me many chances because they know that I should not be struggling this much. However given the amount of pressure on me right now and how much is resting on this (future wife, degree, career, job performance etc.) I can't afford to screw up.
So anyone with some experience what can you tell me to make it easier to actually get this done?
***tl;dr*** *- Just got diagnosis and really want to try medication. However worried about how long the titration process is and how it will affect me doing the important things in life such as finishing my degree and looking for a job. What shall I do?*
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Recently got diagnosed due to a really really bad experience with a date (lol) and now I can’t even go through the specific area of where this experience happened without having a mini episode (flashbacks, crying, a panic attack)...
I was wondering what is the best way to cope with this when I’m around that area? Do I just go there again and again till I’m desensitised or like.... I dont know tbh
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I can do anything I want to if I'm going to kill myself by next year. Because nothing really matters.
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It's weird, right? I don't get people who make claims about what someone has. Like, you're not them, you're not inside their mind, you only know what they show you.
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It’s even harder to type this but I need some serious advice from my fellow adhd peeps. I have severe inattentive adhd and currently on vyvanse with adderall as needed. I take frequent breaks from my meds and don’t take them on weekends, which doesn’t seem to do justice for me at all considering I’m on them for a reason. I cannot move from bed on most days and stop scrolling through my phone unless I take my meds and even then sometimes it takes forever to get in the groove and start actually working. Work used to be fun for me, I’m an extrovert and I love people and hospitality, it’s my passion. As of lately I am actually flunking at work and was recently put on an action plan. You would think that would motivate me more but it just discouraged me even more and I am not doing any better. I’m not sure what to do or where to start to just get up and begin a routine of just getting the fuck out of bed and begin my day. I am not a morning person and in fact waking up almost ruins my day. Anyone ever experience this feeling?
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Someone really close to me recently had a near-death experience where they lost consciousness, they now have severe anxiety when faced with things such as: being alone for a bit, going to sleep at night, and being alone with their thoughts, etc. because it was very recent. I want to support them with constructive consolation, can someone advise me things that are good to say to them, that will calm them, etc.
I am willing to go into any necessary details, please help me out here, I want to be as supportive as I can be for them in this situation.
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Hi. I love being a movie actor.
It's controlled chaos. Unstructured structure. It makes so much sense- and there's so much technical work going on. I love watching crew build the camera, light the scene, etc.
Anybody can do it. Get a good photo that looks like you and submit it. Show teeth.
I worked on the Adam Sandler movie last week, and it was like me. This was my first big production in a while. I kinda hope I don't get a job, so I can go back to full-time acting.
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I’m a sixteen-year-old who was diagnosed with OCD around four/five years ago. My symptoms (intense intrusive thoughts about killing other people by accident / being a pedophile or psychopath/ persistent and very upsetting mental images of rotting bodies, strange sexual encounters / paranoia of sexual assault that can only be ‘cured’ by doing painful head and neck movements) have lessened over the past three years I have been taking medication (Zoloft, then Prozac as I was getting extreme fatigue) , and the adoption of my dog has been incredible in helping me feel safe. I am of course very grateful and glad to be able to finally live a ‘normal life’, mostly free of the persistent intrusions, and the self-harm and suicidal depression that came hand-in-hand with them. However, over the past three months or so I’ve began to have an obsession with skipping meals everyday and going hungry to stave off a sense of impending dread. The thoughts are such that I can’t tell anybody I know in real life, as they will intervene and make me eat, losing all my progress. Is this something that can happen (dormant symptoms suddenly showing up again after years of successful medication) or is something else seriously wrong with me? I’m looking forward to my future and I love life, and I don’t want things to develop even further- it is a spur of the moment decision even typing this out, one that I will def regret. I know the best option is telling someone, but I hope you will understand that I cannot do that. Have a great day, everyone, and thank you so much for taking the time to read this . <3
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I mentioned PTSD flashback episodes in passing to someone the other day, and I realised I've never really spoken to anyone else about how they happen for them.
For me, physical symptoms start first - I get out of breath (and usually attribute it to being wildly unfit before I realise what's happening), and very, very shaky. The last before the very fragmented audio-visuals/panic sets in is the steady (but fast) loss of peripheral vision. By that point, I've clocked that I need to get somewhere quiet and free of stimuli.
I don't completely see/hear/feel anything that isn't actually there; it's more like a fragment of what it is to see/hear/feel, if that makes sense. Like instead of fully seeing someone I'm afraid of, I'll perceive their presence just out of sight, seeing the very bare bones of the familiar shape of them in unpredictable spots in my field of vision. My ears might prick up in anticipation of a sound I'm familiar with, but that I know isn't really coming.
All of this happens increasingly quickly, making the experience more overwhelming than it already was. And, of course, the adrenaline rush doesn't help.
I always know where I am, kind of, but I'm so wrapped up in flashbacks that it seems irrelevant - and I'm also not very convinced I'm somewhere safe, and not in all these traumatic experiences at once. The only thing that really grounds me in the full swing of an episode is physically making a rhythmic noise - that way, I know where it's coming from, and I know what it'll sound like so long as I keep making it. It doesn't dispel the episode, but it's the most I can do to help myself at that point.
What have other people with (C-)PTSD found? No pressure, just curious!
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So at 18 years old, I was formally diagnosed with OCD. I have intrusive thoughts (mainly of being called a liar) and intrusive mental images (mainly of insects, sexual themes, and violent themes) that have corresponding compulsions. The symptoms can get so bad at times that I can't even leave the house because the intrusive thoughts are so strong (I currently haven't left the house in around three or four months). My doctor then started me on SSRI's to treat the OCD. After about two months of being on the SSRI's I had huge improvements in symptoms.
Then, at 19 years old, I was in an inpatient unit for a few days (for suic\*dal ideation) and they took away the OCD diagnosis. The mental health professionals there said that they had been observing my behavior and that I did NOT have OCD; I merely had "obsessive-compulsive tendencies." I had been on medication to TREAT OCD at the time. And the medication was WORKING. Why on God's green earth would they take the diagnosis away when I was ON MEDS TO TREAT it?! Now, what's so messed up about this is that my obsessive thoughts of being called a liar have prevented me from disclosing my OCD thoughts/behavior to mental health professionals for the past four years (I'm 23 now). Any advice for getting over this so I can get the diagnosis back? And and advice for getting rid of my obsession that I don't have OCD?
\*Note, I have not been back to that place. And, I have never authorized my records from that place to be sent to my new doctor.\*
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I haven't knocked on wood for a very long time, no matter what happens to me, I don't even think about it. Because every time I did, the devil heard me right away (apparently I was always lucky enough to knock into the woods of the devil’s affiliation), and he said, “Because you hurt my innocent woods when nice things happen to you, it may happen to you to destroy them completely...And I keep my woods as my children, and that's why it's best to give you no more reasons to knock on it at all, or that even if something close to that happens, I'll send a big accident after that, just in case, to keep my kids completely safe."
And so...you know the rest of the story.
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Hi r/ptsd. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow and I just want to walk in with some knowledge. Last week, toward the latter half of our session, I opened up about some stuff that had happened as a kid (I'm like 27 now). Ever since then, I've really been struggling. But I don't know if my symptoms are necessarily related to the disclosing of the trauma. I would love to get some opinions/anecdotes from other users if it's possible that talking about a long-buried trauma from childhood can kinda lead to regression or the reverse of progress in healing. Specifically, I've noticed that my depressive and anxious symptoms have worsened.
**Reasons for thinking that disclosing my trauma led to the worsening of these symptoms**
* I've never opened up about this to someone before. When I first tried to open up about it 2-3 months ago, I couldn't speak properly and my therapist had to help ground me.
* My therapist had repeatedly said before knowing this latest revelation that my childhood was traumatic and adverse. I still don't know if I believe that because I can't help but feel like maybe I'm exaggerating or being overdramatic. But maybe this latest revelation was the straw that broke the camel's back?
* My appetite/mood/happiness/energy have overall decreased this week. My irritability/fatigue/head-fog have increased this week.
**Reasons against thinking that disclosing my trauma led to the worsening of these symptoms**
* Before this last session, I had been struggling to deal with winter break from school and my therapist noticed that I had a history of struggling with too much free time. Maybe this is just a continuation of that adjustment
* I'm behind on my school work and that's weighing on me pretty heavily since I feel guilty/ashamed about that. When I've been behind in school, it's caused similar symptoms.
* I also don't want to discount the environment: we're still in a pandemic, my first year of medical school is officially going to be remote which sucks, and the winter sucks.
Given this list, I'm not sure what to think. Have people before experienced a similar phenomenon? Or am I over-thinking it and it's perhaps just a continuation of previously existing issues?
Thanks for your help!
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one of my biggest symptoms is compulsive skin picking (dermatillomania) and i physically cant stop and my parents nag at me all the time even tho they know i can’t help it and it doesn’t help with the fact i feel disgusted w myself. :/
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Before, I used to absolutely suck at taking naps, even if I was tired. I was a very light sleeper, so light to where small noises would just keep me up (barely audible TV, normal indoor sounds) and fuel my anxiety. I'd have to wear earplugs and do everything possible to keep things quiet.
Ever since I've been on Adderall, that's drastically changed!
I still occasionally get bothered by noises but nowhere near to that extent. The biggest thing for me is that I can LITERALLY TAKE NAPS and enjoy them too!
It blows my mind how even after my morning cup of coffee and medication, that I can usually take a midday nap if I feel like I need it. It's so backwards but I'm grateful. 🥰
I'd love to know what good/surprising changes you've experienced ever since hopping on the bandwagon
Cheers
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At times people just do not care or that they make assumptions. Over in the way that we all have Asperger's or Autism. As it may be for the lack of empathy and sympathy. As tried to explain one time to a boss at my former job in the late 1990's but she brushed it off.
Really it is about being in their shoes. If we are to understand why we have Asperger's. It is about taking the time there. To really put ourselves in their shoes and voice versa there. Glad that it is now really being put out there.
Because back then when I found out what I was suffering as a 22-years old in 1997, I thought it was maniac depression. Took me a very long time to seek the right medication and the right kind of psychology there.
People need to have open hearts and minds. When dealing with this topic as it can be very personal to those of us that have it. But it should not defy us.
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Looking for honest discussion, feels, and thoughts from ADD/ADHD folks who have been taking stimulants as prescribed for years. The official DEA description of Schedule II Controlled Substances is 'high potential for abuse which may lead to severe psychological or physical dependence'. Is long-term prescribed (monitored by a medical professional) use eventually considered abuse?
I've taken my med as prescribed and 12 years later I'm a psychologically dependent 30 year old software engineer. My Vyvanse dosage only increased from 30 to 40mg over the years. I've even disliked meds since they dull my personality and heightened anxiety. Sure they help me be a better 'societally accepted' person, but my real goal is to be in a financial spot to escape meds and purse dreams. As Dane Cook said, it's a viscous circle though, with ever increasing responsibilities, work levels, and natural aging fueling dependence.
TL;DR: I've taken Vyvanse as prescribed for 12 years and I'm a psychologically dependent 30 year old. The official DEA description of Schedule II Controlled Substances is 'high potential for abuse which may lead to severe psychological or physical dependence'. Is long-term prescribed (monitored by a medical professional) use eventually considered abuse?
Edit: Really appreciate the responses. Many folks are comparing ADHD and stims to other diseases and meds. Like insulin for diabetes and opioids for chronic pain. IMO, it's a tad apples to oranges. Maybe the risk of incorrect diagnosis with ADHD is higher? Maybe my depression/anxiety is causing my ADHD? Or maybe my ADHD is causing the depression/anxiety? Neurochemistry differences could do better or suffer more with a particular medicine like stims or antidepressants. I encourage you to tear down that opinion though. Valid rebuttals make me feel better as an ADHD person. :)
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Whenever I feel sad/depressed cus of something, my tummy feel pain/discomfort when eating which made me skip meals few times
Just want to be alone in the room all day but also wish at the same time for someone to come in know that i am sad and gives me a hug but scared that they think that I'm just overreacting or I can't give an explanation when being ask why cus it's hard to form my feelings into words and bring it out if my mouth
I'm grateful that there's music/ songs cus they helped me calm down and easier for me to sleep but I had to sit on the floor for a while before going to my bed. Is it weird that I feel more comfortable on the floor than my bed sometimes?
Even though now I'm feeling not as sad as before but sometimes similar things happen or when I'm overthinking.. my chest and breathing feels abit heavy, my back and jaw or sometimes my whole body feel heavy/tired, my inside feels shaky .
I'm not sure if this is because of depression or anxiety cus I hav also been worried alot about my future cus Im 17 but hav no dream jobs yet.
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I am so sick of always disappointing someone due to my lack of being able to keep a hold of my schedule. I am always trying to keep my stuff straight but there is always someone I am disappointing. I can't pull myself in multiple directions, and I feel like I am stretching myself thin. I am constantly letting someone down. I am tired, it's sickening, and I feel constant anxiety. I hate waking up in the middle of the night stressed out of my mind on what is happening the next day and trying to compromise something. I am sick of something always sneaking up on me and suddenly I am burden on someone else. I am sick of having so many miscalls cause it turns out I put my phone down to do something else and turns out someone was trying to contact me the entire time about a promise I made that I failed to keep again.
I wish I understood my own limits, cause I don't think I do. I seem to think that I could do it all when it turns out I couldn't and I am not the only one paying the price for it. I am trying so hard to prove I am reliable and yet time and time again I only show that I am not. I am constantly told that I need a system that works and no one seems to get it that I tried the system you keep pushing on me and it just doesn't work. I don't know what works.
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sorry, I really cant do this at all, idk how to tell what I feel, just help
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I’ll try and keep this as short and sweet as possible.. I worked front line for COVID in a government position for over a year, about 6 months in I started experiencing symptoms of an Acute Stress Disorder, my mental health declined steadily until I hit rock bottom. Ideation and lack of will to continue on plagued me daily.
I left the job, and began the process of trying to heal. Unsupported by my ex employer who believes that it is still just a stressful job, despite my (and others) PTSD diagnosis.
I applied for benefits and was denied as their consultant did not think my diagnosis was valid, despite having all required medical documentation, paperwork, tests and forms.
My PTSD is triggered by feeling trapped or stuck, or like I have no control over myself. I am trying to get help but facing roadblocks at every turn. How does anyone deal with this? How does one actually get help or have their illness recognized?
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I have been diagnosed ADHD for decades but only started medicating in the last year.
I have now been diagnosed as being on the ASD spectrum, self diagnosis via tests first, then confirmed with my doctor who suspects Aspergers but is sending me in for a full evaluation with a group of specialists.
Finding the ADHD sub was what pushed me into seeking support for that and this group has really helped me get the ASD/aspergers support ball rolling and I am eternally grateful for all of you welcoming souls and your beautiful minds!
I feel like both groups are incredibly relatable but neither one feels quite right and as a result, I feel like I am full of s%$t and have no business being in either group as I have different struggles than both.
I was wondering if it is okay to discuss things in the r/ADHD or r/aspergers group openly or if there was a group out there for folks with both ADHD and ASD/aspergers?
And I am sorry if this is coming off weird... I have basically lost the ability to communicate effectively lately and I am trying to figure out how to human.
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Let's be real, guys. Falling asleep is fucking impossible. If it's not 10 million ideas and loud music in the back of our minds, it's unending stress and anxiety because of shit we haven't done.
I recently discovered an app called Headspace. It's all about meditation. It's got a section for sleep related stuff, and it's a total game changer. Once I get that app rolling, I'm asleep in no time.
Full disclosure - it's not free. But It's got a free trial, so give it a shot!
[Here’s a link. ](https://apps.apple.com/za/app/headspace-meditation-sleep/id493145008)
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I developed this sudden intense fear of heating things up. Like when I’m heating liquid in the microwave, I can’t stop thinking about it blowing up.
Or looking at hot things and thinking what if they malfunctioned and hurt me?
It’s really unpleasant and a hindrance to me. But I don’t know what it is let alone how to fix it.
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Hello all, I’m engaged to marry an aspie. I myself am highly sensitive, INFP/ENFP. I don’t ask him to do me favors or things for me. He’s very stubborn and I know he’s aspie so I’m sensitive to his needs.
This is going to sound a bit odd but I need to know what can I fairly ask for? For example, he doesn’t drink water and he’s been mentioning he drinks only sugary drinks so I’ve been saying I think a glass of water would be great to drink instead of his sugar drinks. Also he is trying to cut down on sugar but somehow has switched to orange juice. He’s been having some health concerns and some symptoms directly associated with sugar and has changed his diet on his own to help get healthier. So I wanted to help encourage him. He was the one who brought it all up first and told me he wanted to cut sugar mostly out.
So, The other day I happened to mention to him in a nice caring way “please drink a cup of water today.” He quickly replied “ok babe”. I was over the moon he said yes to a request. The next day I asked him did he really drink water (because I know he doesn’t) and he said no. I was so disappointed. (Since I’ve never asked him anything that he’s said yes to immediately or to be honest almost at all) and me knowing this is an aspbergers trait) I felt so cherished at that moment. He got so upset at me and said not to ever ask him to do things like that he’s a grown man. Then a couple min later he asked if I was going crazy to ask him that and to make a big deal out of water. Then I got upset. Next, he denied saying that he thought I was going crazy. Then apologized for saying it. Then he denied saying that he didn’t have the water, he actually did, he mixed it with his orange juice. It was just the most chaotic weird conversation and today he just moved on like nothing happened.
Anyway, my question is, in marriage we must ask our partners to do things. What can I fairly expect? I’m sincerely worried he’s going to say no to anything I ask later and don’t know how to raise the issue.
Thank you all.
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It looks like a little girl having a tea party with ghosts
Smiling subtly because she enjoys their company
“Would you like another cup?”
She’s asks the air
the sun in her eyes
Pouring the tap water directly onto the floor
It looks like
The same girl
Crouched under covers
a clenched fist
and a flash light
Laboring
to labor
her breathing
The heaviness of her chest
Muscles stiff
a mind filled half with memory and half imagination
Listening closely
For intruders
It looks like someone turned out the lights
it feels like
that
moment of panic
Between the brightness
barely visible
and the moment your eyes
begin to adjust
A brief but bewildering fright
Wondering wearily
if this darkness will last forever
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Find out why:
https://www.reddit.com/r/raisedbynarcissists/comments/f7d0dh/worried_for_my_mental_health_job_news_no_good/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf
My mental health is deteriorating to the point I feel jumpy and angry very quickly and everything would ideally end up with me wanting to call police and feeling assaulted because of the amount of gaslighting I get HOURLY.
Even without said abuse I feel like that when there's silence.
Not just by my mom either, it's the whole family. I can't even hang out because if I don't call back, they'll threaten to leave (I'm jobless, no way to pay the bills) or they'll hunt me down in the town (mom admitted this herself sadly).
My creepy theory is that mom IS trying to make me crazy so she can fullfill her threats of force commitment. This wouldn't be far fetched, consider the plot of the movie Gaslight (which she knows).
Please help me out, due to the reasons in the link above, I would not leave any sooner than maybe a few years and I don't think I can handle it, due to >!suicidal thoughts that make me believe this is the only way out!< as well.
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I have been wanting to work on my Youtube channel since the beginning of 2020.
I have recorded so many tech videos, I could have a two to three-page list of them.
And even though all I have to do is a simple cut and move around in video editing software, I procrastinate it and avoid it like the plague for some reason.
I need help and ideas, how do I trick myself into enjoying video editing?
I tried premier pro and it was just too much. I tried Davinci Resolve 17 and can sometimes work with it. I ordered a Macbook Pro 13 M1 a few weeks ago and returned it because of the high cost compared to value, but Final Cut Pro X just looked so much more appealing and had a simple interface with all of the complex stuff hidden, so it was easier for me to edit videos. But even then, it was difficult for me to enjoy it and do it.
But at least I was uploading to Youtube more often. But now that I returned it, and am waiting for the 16-inch M1X Macbook pro to come out so I can get it, I only have Davinci Resolve 17 to work with and I just can't get myself to work on it.
I recorded a bunch of videos about the M1 Macbook Pro and want to get them out before the new one comes out so I can get more views.
I also have a harder time getting myself to record videos.
I don't know what it is, or why. I just want to somehow trick myself into enjoying this just like I enjoy anime, video games, and using technology.
And it isn't the two-page list that's bothering me right now, because I'll get to that obstacle after I overcome this one. The problem is just getting myself to record videos and do simple edits which seems so easy and simple and yet, I can't do it.
Can anyone help me?
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I have been to so many psychiatrists, psychologists, counsellors, psychotherapists etc for coming on 18 years. I have even seen a hypnotist and I’m medicated. It feels like nothing works. And I read other people have had great success with erp but I just don’t know what I’m missing. Therapy always feels pretty vague and nothing really changes. I’m reaching a bit of a loss and wondering if I need to try connect with experts from another country or specialists or something as I can’t live like this. I have hundreds of ocd fears, bombarding me daily. Mainly pure o but not entirely as I have checking, contamination and other physical things such as picking . I conquer one temporarily for the next to spring up. I’m becoming paranoid and antisocial. HELP! If people have recommendations of people that are really useful that I could possibly connect with via Skype I’m really open to that.
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I don't mean to say that depression has a meaning or anything but always feeling unloved and hated kinda helps me understand and empathize with people who are actually unloved and hated. Wether it is someone who deserves the hatred or doesn't i can't help but just feel sad for them.
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hi i keep having intrusive thoughts about a scat fetish. i never watched scat porn nor do i really care for it. im not grossed out by it but im not into it either. but i randomly remember a video i saw over 6 years ago involving an animal and defecating, and got intrusive thoughts about it. now i think about watching my pets defecate and if im aroused or not by it, making groinal response and forced anxiety. when i get these thoughts i sometimes laugh because of how stupid it is to me, but i just wanted to share my intrusive thoughts that are pointless yet causing me anxiety
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I'm not good at it. I can't really do yoga and meditation classes. I'm not good at self defence classes either. Or even tai chi. I'm not very good at getting therapy because I'm triggered by seeing someone's ribs expand, like they're about to leap (for me taking in -exhaling large amount of air at a time equates to fight mode) . I have poor to zero object relations. My friends from the past have pointed, calling me autistic.
My boyfriend's I've had call me bipolar and worse, psycho as well as deranged maniac.
I'm 26.
Live with my parents and when I was 12 was a juvenile delinquent. I wish I could cultivate self agency. I cannot even cultivate a breath of air; I'm psychotic full out. So right now, for example: I'm home alone. I can't even inhale when I'm home alone, thinking my parents- will reflex at my inhaling despite them being wherever.
I have an older sibling that I wish still lived at home.
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everything that triggers your sensories is your paparazzi. We always try to avoid eye contact and dodge big crowds like there paparazzi.
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{Edit: I don't know if the people who have responded will see this, but thank you. There's this show on Netflix called "Maid", in which they illustrate how she falls into a dark place, a very deep pit, when she finds herself back where she started after so much effort trying to make a new life. I'm still feeling sensitive, still tearing up as I write this, but at least I'm out of bed.
Time gets away from me so easily. I thought I was getting on track in school, but then on exam day I messed up. Leading up to it I was conscious of each metaphorical domino that fell where I wasn't doing as much as possible to prepare, but it still felt like a lot to me. I've chained myself to my desk making my focus only school, and I'm still behind other students.
I don't know what will happen with the career path I had so much hope for, but I know I need some tools to become more resilient when I fail or can't measure up to expectations. I've read most responses as I was in bed, I hope it's okay to respond to reach out to some of you to prepare for future failure.}
Just what I named my post. I recently got medicated, and things seemed to be looking up, but I've messed up again. I can lose control/discipline, become apathetic at a bad time, when it has potentially ruined my life yet again/even more. For the past two days since I screwed up I've been crying and repeating to myself what a piece of shit I am. Over and over again. I'm tired of being a pain in the ass of excuses and misery for others because I can't get my shit together.
Also, I'm not the type to say this out loud, so the worst part of this is having to keep it to myself (besides now posting about this here).
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I have two very sweet rats that I’ve had for a year (I’m also a previous owner of rats, they make the best pets! Truly!) Everything was great as I have been seeing a therapist for OCD related issues. But I recently had a traumatic incident happen, and so I am back to square one with everything. For SOME reason it has really kicked in my harm thoughts towards my rats. Almost to the point I don’t want to go near them I’m so afraid I will hurt them. But I have no one else to take care of them for a breather.
I just feel like this has been continuing on for a month now and I think the best thing to do would be to re home. Luckily the lady I bought them from takes back the rats from those who it didn’t work out with. So I would essentially be giving them back. Which still would be sad for them.
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Whenever someone is talking to me I feel like I exist on a whole different planet, like I am an alien race. People can’t relate to me, and I can’t relate to them, like there is an invisible barrier separating us, or that we speak entirely different languages. There really isn’t any ‘common ground’ between me and anyone else. Paradoxically, I think I’d feel a lot less lonely if I could avoid being around other people. Only when someone is talking to me do I ever really feel lonely. And much to my displeasure, NTs love to talk...
...but I have nothing to say.
EDIT: Wow, I didn’t think this would resonate with so many of you.
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aspergers
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I’ve previously had intrusive thoughts (treated and resolved) but now have a low-level of ‘minor’ ruminations that are persistently annoying, however, over on r/decaf a consistent observation seems to be that rumination calms down after several weeks or months off caffeine.
There is also a kind of rebound rumination during withdrawal that can be pretty brutal. But that may be happening to many OCDers whose intake is fluctuating.
Has anyone had any experience with this?
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I recently got a new job at a different location in my company, in the women’s fashion business. My job is very customer facing. Today, I experienced a flashback at work while helping customers and decided to do something radical (radical for me): tell my boss what was happening. I pulled her aside and told her that sometimes I get scared someone will hurt me, or that my abuser will just figure out where I work and come through the door for me. She looked me in the eyes and said: “I would literally catch a charge if someone tried to hurt you. We love you. Go drink some water.”
We’ve known each other for a week. Maybe two. Not even long term partners of mine have responded to my panic attacks like this. I am so, incredibly thankful. I didn’t know what to say to her or how to say thank you, but I wanted to write about this moment.
Hopefully, there are more people like my new boss in my life and in all of your lives. I feel safe at work now.
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I saw a meme where someone put their trauma experiences into a PowerPoint presentation for their psychologist. I thought it was funny but also a really good idea. I always freeze up what I'm trying to talk about something and I leave a lot of information out. If I write it the person gets the whole story.
So I wrote in detail how I got to the point where I was raped and how it affected me. It made me feel really sick and depressed but I've never had such a detailed account of the event. If someone needs to know what I've been through it's way easier to link them to the document. Plus it feels real and not made up now. Like I've processed it.
I wrote about my most recent event. But could it be bad to go through every experience in this detail? Am I reliving the trauma instead of healing and moving on?
Sorry if I'm really clueless, I'm still learning about what can help the healing and what doesn't.
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In response to a person’s medication/skipping doses question:
My psychiatrist tells me that I can basically do whatever I want (within reason) so long as it works for me and that I feel good. She recommended experimenting to find what works best and to always report back to her if I change anything.
What I’ve found: No dosing is not okay for me. When I skip my meds, I become a literal potato. I can’t be bothered to get out of bed or sometimes even shower. Zero motivation, could nap/play video games/day dream all day. I get anxious, I overeat, and I generally just become someone that I loathe.
Partial dose: I am able to function, but I’m unable to prevent anxiety or intrusive thoughts at this dose. I’m productive, but only to a point.
Full dose: Necessary for me. Reasons I have taken less than a full dose: “I need to relax today!” “Maybe this doctor’s appointment would be better unmedicated…” “I’m done with work, so I don’t need my next dose just to chill or go out with friends.” I have learned that this NEVER serves me. I function and behave my best while medicated, hands down. Not taking it has never helped me to relax better or be better in any way.
I know everyone is different and faces different struggles, but maybe this will help someone similar.
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I know it’s just a seasonal spike. I’m on meds and it usually takes care of it. But the past 2 weeks I’ve just been getting steadily worse. I’m overwhelmed. Tired. Sad. I’ve got so many things to do and I hate the things I used to enjoy doing.
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depression
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I'm so grateful for this existing on here, it has taken a massive weight off my shoulders reading other people's experiences which I can relate to a great deal. I'm very thankful for people being brave enough to post about it and gives me a sense of relief I cannot explain
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Two nights ago I had a pretty uncomfortable conversation with one of my best friends. I’m not sure if this necessarily has changed our friendship but it just reinforces that there is a long way to go with society’s view of mental health issues - especially in healthcare where they are “supposed” to at least show some compassion in treatment.
But anyways, my friend is an ER nurse and no lie she works in a pretty rough spot. I know she’s got to see some shit every hour. I get that. I’m a school teacher at a rough school too. I get frustrated with shit. I know with my ptsd, I might have something in common with the harder students. So I keep an open mind and heart.
Anyways, that’s why it was hard when my friend started laughing and talking about one of the patients that came in. She gave me details, it was basically a man who was suffering at first what they thought was hallucinations/paranoia. Turns out he was a war veteran and experiencing severe flashbacks, talking to himself, screaming, flailing, you get the picture.
I was shocked at her tone and how she was laughing, I suppose out of shock herself because she had to help restrain the man and called the cops to transport him to a different psych hospital. At the end of her story, I just said “Don’t you think that could’ve been me? What’s so funny about that?”
I could tell immediately she was thrown off and she just started insisting that no, mine was different and blah, blah, blah. Like no. That man and I might have different symptoms/circumstances but we’re still in the same boat. How am I supposed to feel when a health care professional has that attitude - and when that person knows the delicate details of my own condition?
Sorry for this rant but I suppose I needed to get it off my chest. As I’m wondering how far we have to go in order to get people to understand us, have sympathy. We don’t choose our triggers, we can’t wish the trauma away. We can’t put a band aid on our brains.
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Hey guys! I’m currently having one of the worst attacks of OCD I’ve ever had, and just was thinking about all of you going through the same thing as me. I just want to tell you all to keep going, there’s been multiple times tonight I’ve felt myself wanting give up on life but I have a person that i love so much I could never leave them. Not everybody has this and it can be easy to give up, so I want to say I know how much you hurt and I know how hard it is to keep going but do it, there’s people who care for you and if you don’t believe there are, I care for you. Take care of yourselves keep going get professional help when your comfortable and it will get better. I’ve beaten it in the past and I will again and so will you. 🧡 you all.
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OCD
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I’m graduated from high school now but I barely even made it was always hard for me doing homework and studying, it always took the rest of my day at home so I usually just tried to do it at school, I always needed help the principal thought I was “making excuses” by having adhd besides teachers I liked and friends that I don’t have any more it was kind of a hell hole. When my parents had a graduation party for me I didn’t feel like I deserved it. Yada yada went on to try collage at at first I was excited but after a couple days I was always late (something I had trouble with in highschool) and got behind, started having trouble not thinking about other things in class and had a break down in the bathroom one day and just told my bf at the time to pick me up because I wouldn’t/couldn’t go into class. Not long after that he actually ended up breaking up with me and I ended up in an inpatient place for a few weeks and had to dropout/fail now I’ve just been trying to figure things out which is actually a lot more stress free than collage or school was for me anytime I have to go onto the collage website to make a payment or whatever I just straight up cry, have a bit of a breakdown even sometimes, school always made me feel so helpless and stupid and when I pops back up out of nowhere for a payment I freak out. I know that might be stupid and embarrassing but that’s what happens and I’m scared because what if one day I need school or something with a similar learning environment again? How could I ever finish it ? Is it possible to have ptsd with that sort of thing or am I just being dramatic or a baby thinking that?
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ptsd
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Hi, I'm a severe hypochondriac with anxiety, 2 years ago in 2019 I had a month-long panic for my health, which blew over in may of that year, Anyways after that I begun acting odd, I begun to have these thoughts of "you must move object otherwise you will get ill" or "do not open this or you will be called a schizophrenic (I don't have it) by everyone you know and love", the compulsions range from putting stuff in odd places, avoiding foods, avoid talking to certain friends, tampering with switches etc all in the name of "don't do those or you will fucking loose everyone"
I don't know really what to do now, resisting them is hard as fuck as they come back into my memories and ruin them, my doctor mentioned OCD at my last check-up and I can't remember anything else
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OCD
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Today is graduation for my university. Everyone is in their cars to stay pandemic-safe. But that means everyone is honking instead of cheering and clapping. There are also sirens which make it even worse.
I hate these loud noises. I thought I wasn’t affected by them too much, but when it’s 10, 20, 30, or even 40 different horns going off at once, it’s really overwhelming. I’ve shut all the windows but the sound still leaks through. I’m shaking as I type this. I wasn’t prepared at all. I need some voices of reason and grounding help, please. How does one deal/move on from this reaction? I’ve been in therapy and have done so well with coming to terms with all my other triggers, but I can’t figure out how to apply what I’ve learned to this new one.
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ptsd
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What is your opinion regarding Cranial sacral unwinding? Do you think is effective?
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ptsd
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I'd like your advice on how to selfregulate before and during work. Any tips and opinions are greatly appreciated.
THE PROBLEM:
I work irregularly & before and during work my mind goes through all times I have failed to go to work / have not been able to work properly as well as every little thing I have to do to get ready & every step to complete the work.
About 50% of the time that leads to decision paralysis and then I cannot even put on socks much less go to work. The times I do make it somehow is through sheer stubborness in my opinion.
I feel anxious and guilty no matter how it plays out and it takes far more energy than it should.
How do / would you handle this?
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ADHD
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The thought of being this way all the way up into old age is the most depressing shit ever...it's fucked lol, that's just torture. So YUP 20.....shit I'm so old now Jesus a couple years ago 25 was my cut off. But hmm 28 it is. That's the one...I keep bumping the numbers up..NO we're not gonna die old lol. Pls god, send death... something quick and painless tho...it has to be me. Just boom and we're out of here..fuck if I survive tho. Yeah just pull the plug.."puuull the pluuggg!"... sorry ik but seriously send me on my way
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depression
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I’ve had a rough day, woke up and instantly went to breakfast and had a panic attack cause it was packed, my mom was taking ***forever*** to eat.
I sat there for 20 minutes before I took my moms car keys and went to the car. I listened to my music for another 20 minutes until they come out. Then they had to go to the store to buy things for dinner and took forever in there.
We got home and I had to go give my brother his wii controllers back and ask him if he could take me to drivers Ed which normally isn’t an issue but he kept interrupting me while I was trying to talk to my grandma and just talking over me so I got annoyed then.
Then I come home to 40 discord notifications from 1 person wanting to play minecraft. So we get on voice call and for the first time ever it was like all noises were ear piercing. I ended up leaving the call and just saying to talk in game because I couldn’t stand all the little small noises in the background.
I’m doing my best to calm down right now but even Music is just loud and hurting to listen to.
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aspergers
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I recently got diagnosed with OCD but I always knew I had it but never knew that it had a name. I was also very embarrassed to tell my psychiatrist my thoughts and weird things I do on the daily basis - and here and there when I would tell her things I did I would sometimes add onto to the end "...but you know everyone does that" and she would reply "no, not everyone". And there were multiple of these responses. So here is a list of both things I did that lead to my diagnosis that I thought everyone did (most if not all of these things I thought everyone did).
Having the tags of the blanket face towards my feet
Using only a certain side/direction of my bathing towel
If I got a drop of food on my shirt I would change immediately
Wipe down every toilet seat (even in my own house and regardless I haven't sat on a toilet seat in years)
Rip off the first strip of toilet paper since it was touching the air
Repeatedly walking with my head down
Hearing the click of my door
Having my curtains closed at all times
Obsessive HATRED and I mean HATRED towards feet
Intrusive thoughts but really bad ones
Staying only in my room at my house because my room is the most "germ-free"
Sanitizing almost everything I touch
After pulling down my mask, I would have to put another one on
Hate being next to cigarette smokers
People who don't have a beautiful smell to them I automatically think are dirty
NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO BE ON MY BED - like I rest my head there. Once my dormmate put her feet on my bed and I literally threw up
Loose hair that isn't mine
Bathrooms - I hate them because they are never clean
Doing things in threes
This is all that I can think of right now. But am I the only one who had the epiphany that something that did was not normal?
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OCD
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It must be nice to have someone you can trust.
Someone to love, and cherish.
Someone with whom you share an unbreakable bond.
Some to grow with, and work with towards betterment for the both of you. Someone who works out there problems with you in a healthy way
Someone who doesn’t harbour resentment or anger towards you
Someone who’m with neither of you are opposed to.
Just someone who can work through all the brimstone.
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depression
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Hi guys. I just recently found out what I’ve been experiencing for years is OCD. For the longest time I thought I just had really bad anxiety. Anyway, my brother has schizophrenia and it’s caused my ocd to latch onto that. I’m terrified of developing schizophrenia or going into psychosis. I also suffer from bad depersonalization and I’m scared that I’m going crazy. I can’t stop thinking about it. I always listen for sounds that no one else hears (I hope that makes sense). All day long it’s like I’m checking if I’m hearing or seeing things. It’s getting really exhausting. Has anyone else gone through this? I’m scared I’m going crazy.
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OCD
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Yesterday, I was helping my friend edit his book about autism, and I got to a part where he talked about being left out. He basically said that it didn’t take him very long to learn that “wait your turn“ was code word for “we don’t want play with you.”
As an adult, he is very impatient. He insists on “getting there first” and can’t stand waiting in line (and I’m the same way, to an extent, but not as severe). And it’s because he associates having to wait with being left out so strongly.
I suspect this is far more common than people realize, especially when you think about how frequently autistic kids are excluded by their peer group. At times, I’ve wondered if this was the case with me because I recall a few incidents similar to this (eg, waiting my turn for the tire swing at the park and not getting it because the kids on the tire swing wouldn’t let me have a turn).
Anybody else here feel this way?
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aspergers
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Hello Reddit,
I'm pretty convinced I have OCD of some form, and anxiety to some extent as well. My OCD revolves around:
The number 4. Constant self reassurance where I have to complete the same ritual which consists of clenching my hands together over my head and rapidly letting them go and tell myself "It's okay" while nodding my head. It used to be 4 times, then 4 x 2 times, then 4 x 3 until I realized 3 is a bad number and then 4 x 4. Eventually I realized that 4 x 4 x 4 was better, and then 4 x 4 x 4 x 4. I'm trying to control it by taking deep breaths instead, but I have to take several of them.
I also seek reassurance through my family and friends more than often. It's usually just the feeling of wanting them to agree with me. Not on a discussion, but if I say "My room isn't messy" I can't let it go until they agree with me. I'll keep rephrasing or asking, sometimes several times before they agree.
Intrusive thoughts revolving around sexual taboos, which I can't get out of my head no matter how hard I try and it makes me anxious and stresses me out.
Checking more than usual. I will check the stove at least 4 times, the same with the freezer or the fridge. I have to turn the lights on and off 4 times if I've been to the bathroom.
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The thing is, some of these are NOT consistent. I've found that my behavior correlates really well with stress. If I'm stressed out, whether it's because of a relationship, work, school or anything else, I suddenly need to reassure myself more than usual. The intensive checking isn't always prevalent as well, I can go to public bathrooms and not have to turn the light on and off several times.
In short; my behavior is a bit inconsistent. And I don't think I have "a lot of OCD" but it has definitely "worsened" over the past couple of years. It started with, as I said before, 4 x something, then 4 x 2 etc.
I'm in doubts of whether to seek help and get an actual diagnosis. I think part of the reason I don't want to, is because I don't want to be put in a special box or something. I also don't feel like my symptoms affect my life drastically. I can still function, but it does drain me. Especially when I'm stressed, let's say when I've finished an assignment, other than being perfectionistic with it, I always have to do the "4 x 4" ritual where I nod my head. I usually do that a few times, so that I do the ritual 5 times 4 x 4. Sometimes I get a headache from it, and it's not very nice.
Yesterday my brother was diagnosed with atypical autism, and it was in the light of my parents suspicion of his autism that I brought up my concerns about OCD and anxiety. My parents have long told me that I don't have anything (I haven't specifically brought up OCD or anxiety) but they keep going on rants about how society has a mental illness for every behavior.
Has anyone had any type of experience with these things? If so, please let me know.
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OCD
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Hey all,
I have ADHD-PI and, especially over the course of my adult life, have been ruminating about the past a lot. This tends to happen to the point that it interferes with my mind and I have to stop anything that I'm doing. At its worse this could stop me for an entire morning/afternoon. I also keep replaying the same scenarios in my mind with variations added in every time. Does anyone have any tips or techniques to help deal with/limit this?
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ADHD
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Does anyone struggle with their obsessions involving computers? I get obsessions that I left my computer at work unlocked and that my clients and or coworkers will get on it and look up innapropriate things. I'm having a hard time getting over this. Any exposures you'd recommend?
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OCD
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Which I thought others might relate to and get a chuckle out of.
I am re-watching the matrix for the first time in a good while, and in the scene where Trinity tells Neo to trust her ‘because you’ve been down that road before, and you know where it leads...’
I mean, to be fair, the movie does cut to a shot of a deserted city street receding into the distance. But this is the first time I realized that this... might... be... a... metaphor 😅
Maybe she doesn’t literally mean that he has been down this actual physical road before.
Similarly, a little while back - my partner and I were watching ‘portrait of a lady on fire.’ There’s a scene where the main character is examining an oil portrait of the woman she is falling in love with, up close with a torch, indoors, at night - then she touches the torch to the portrait’s chest, setting her heart on fire! Obvious, right? Perhaps even a little heavy-handed?
Nope.
I turned to my partner and said - ‘that seems really unsafe!’
😭😭😭
Cheers
Theo
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aspergers
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My 8 year old son was diagnosed with adhd about a year ago. He acts pretty good at home, but at school he is aggressive to teachers and other students. We've tried 4 stimulant medications at different doses and haven't had much luck. I feel so bad for him when we give him a drug and send him to school, then he gets into trouble for acting out and being aggressive, hitting and yelling. I feel the medication is making him more "wound up".Looking for any advice or support from someone with a similar experience.
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ADHD
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I finally got prescribed my first ADHD me at 35yo. It's come with a host of side effects, some rather alarming, and I'm unable to determine whether it's helping, and now after a month I am feeling like the side effects are still very present and also my ADHD seems to be getting *worse*. Initially, it seemed like I had a little more steam when actually doing a task. My mind was able to focus on the task and what should be done next. That stopped after the first week and I've done been dominate by physical and emotional side effects: irritability, sadness, weird penis function urinating and having sex, painful orgasm, insomnia, nausea and vomiting, headaches... and still lots of radio chatter when I'm trying to think, still avoiding tasks from anxiety, still unable to read a few paragraphs without losing myself. On top of this, my current(non-medication prescribing) psych told me she thinks I haven't given it a chance... Yo! These are bad side effects and I've been dealing with them for 5 weeks trying to look up and stay motivated, but it's like all my problems are still there *plus* all these side effects. She only seemed to take it seriously when I told her I've read some side effects can persist long after stopping strattera and in rare cases some side effects *never ever* go away and become a problem for life. Some of them are side effects *that I have!* That worries me. As it is, I am only sleeping maybe 4 nights a week. I can't function like this anymore and have to stop taking this medication. She said I should finish the bottle that I was prescribed and then think again... I don't want to risk it, honestly. I feel dangerous on the road with my irritability and I have to drive for work, which I haven't been able to do much because I'm not sleeping.
My primary care doctor prescribed me and I have a non-medication psych working with me, so right now it's up to me to decide what meds to try. Any recommendations from people who didn't find strattera to be effective?
Anyway... just looking for advice. I'm feeling really down emotionally and that's not normal either, but it's also that I really want to fix this.
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ADHD
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Are there any workbooks y’all recommend? My new therapist suggested we find an adhd workbook.
Preferably something for a lower budget as I haven’t been working lately.
I’m writing this sentence because the bot deleted my last attempt at this post because it wasn’t 300 characters. I only had one question but I want the answer
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ADHD
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This past year I spent my first semester on campass being repeatedly assaulted by my ra and it ultimately led to me dropping out and returning home. Ever since then I feel like I see him everywhere. When I see something vaguely his height behind me out of the corner of my eye I think it's him or late at night in my room I see passing shadows and all and suddenly it's him. Have any of you dealt with this? How did you cope, and do you have any advice?
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ptsd
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Hi,
I'm having a month's break from therapy and I would like to find a technique or somatic therapy (it can be verbal too, but not only) that can help my body process all the anxiety and give a break to my nervous system. I'm not sure if that's scientific, but I've had good experiences with an experienced acupuncturist in the past when I was in a severe crisis. I'm having continuous panic and anger peaks these months and I think my body needs a break.
Could someone please share with me some techniques you have tried and were useful? It could be conducted by somebody (such as a body manipulation technique) or something powerful I can do at home alone.
Thanks
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ptsd
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What requirements are needed to assign a theme?
Is it possible to have multiple? I feel like my OCD presents itself in a multitude of ways.
How did you all recognize what theme you suffer from?
Is there a helpful resource that explains them?
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OCD
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It's gotten so so so fucking bad the past week or so, I really wholeheartedly believe it's gunna make me go insane, someone on Reddit even said that I need to seek help before I go crazy,
I'm too aware of my own consciousness and just cannot take my mind off of solipsism, it fucking terrifies me endless amounts, it actually has become a physical sensation to me, during a panic attack I can actually **feel** how isolated and alone my consciousness is and it makes me absolute fucking petrified, this is pretty much every day all day now.
I really don't know what the fuck to do, I'm convinced that it's so bad that no doctor or medication can stop me from being so terrified everyday, I think I've just simply realised too much about how weird and fucked up consciousness is, and there's no going back, my brain is irreversibly fucked up and I'm just doomed to have constant panic attacks every day now
It's literally unbearable, the panic attacks are so bad that during one I feel like I'm going to end up thrashing around and screaming on the floor like a madman because solipsism fucking freaks me out so bad
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OCD
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I saw some people saying they had intrusive sexual/romantic thoughts
I think you should try quitting all consumption of sensual/pornographic and romantic media for a few months porn is no good for the brain it's like having a meth addiction perhaps masturbating much less as well will help gotta detox the part of your lower brain that's in the gutter/in a romantic fantasy land
It might help some of you but it's been proven porn causes anxiety messes with confidence and shrinks the brain it's reversible though
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OCD
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