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I’m still weird AF
INFJ
the RAREST personality type.
Anyone else just like dear god do I ever fit anywhere?
Just a rant.
I’m like not surprised with these answers I’m just annoyed!
More mystery. More rare. More “weird”. More non explanation.
Just what does it even feel like for a day to be NT? | ADHD |
For context, I was bowling at my league today and got very angry because for the second time in a row, my teammate wasn't there, so I had to face dang near 200 average bowlers alone again tonight. It's almost impossible to win games when you're the only one bowling, and I'm only an imperfect novice so I got pretty frustrated. I HATE losing.
Doesn't help that I wasn't bowling all that great tonight. Missing easy spares, my ball wouldn't hook, splits everywhere, so no surprise we got swept and would've gotten swept even if I bowled well. Couldn't do much right until game 3, but I'd say I mentally checked out by the second half of game 2 and was pretty much over everything and wanted to go home.
That game 3 is where the magic happened. I have a very bad temper, one that I'm not proud of, but tonight I got so angry that I started hyper-focusing and bowling well. I've hyperfocused a lot, but this time was different. It felt like ultra-instinct or something. I was in this really calm trance-like state where I wasn't overthinking at all and just rolling the ball without much thought, and it was WORKING. What's that about? Is that normal? I've been hyperfocused before, but this was on another level. | ADHD |
Hi!
As the title says, I went for the first time last week to a psychologist. She said that I have a tendency for OCD, as I told her about a period from last year. That period was filled with intrusive thoughts and compulsions + there are still some things left to discuss, as we did not have time in one hour.
However, she cannot say for certainty that I have OCD, because I did not exhibit these intrusive thoughts in the present for a loong time in the same manner than I did that period and I do not have the same compulsions.
However, after I left her office last week I've noticed my compulsions (like checking the bus stations, tickets, money, words etc. and one intrusive thought that I could kinda control) and up until that point I did not notice them.
I am afraid that I am making these compulsions up just to get a diagnosis, which is kind of stupid. Because I have some days where I do not need to check the bus ticket, and some where I have to FEEL and see it in my pocket a number of times.
Just needed to vent. | OCD |
I really want to learn Japanese, but I am trying to figure out the best way to do it (and keep up with it) It's hard to know where to start when learning a new language, especially Japanese and especially when you have ADHD.
If anyone else with ADHD that knows/is learning another language or developed a great routine or has any resources that helped them learn. I would love to know! | ADHD |
So i had my 3 month follow up today, my doctor upped my dosage to 30 mg XR and added a 10 mg instant release booster, for the afternoon. I told her i usually wake up at 5 am eat 3-4 packets of oatmeal take a shower and leave for work around 6:20 at the latest, usually taking my medication directly after the oatmeal, occasionally forgetting. But anyways she told me today instead of taking my medication right after breakfast i should wait till I’m about halfway too work, how does your guys schedule work in regards to your medication, and an afternoon dose? | ADHD |
my moral scrupulosity/harm ocd is so bad i keep compulsively turning down job interviews if the company is too unethical.
i tried asking for help in a local subreddit, explained that i have a legitimate psychiatric condition and would like suggestions on companies to apply for that have sustainable values (because although itd be feeding the compulsions, i cant wait to work), and i'm being downvoted to hell or made fun of. i don't know what i expected. healthy people dont understand OCD. its so fucked up.
please, if anyone even has kind words to say right now, that'd be so helpful. i feel awful and stupid and messed up. | OCD |
So I have suicidal intrusive thoughts basically suicidal ocd but I'm ot diagnosed yet so I have these thoughts of suicide that I can't control but like the last 2 weeks good then the last 2 days have been horrific the intensity has gone down but I can't get them gone uts really hard I think I just have to get through today cause I know it'll go it's just hard on the days where I ruminate and I'm stuck | OCD |
I'm even confused about those flairs, but that's another story, or so I think. Anyway.
Trying to organise my thought (oh and yeah, by the way, english is not my first language so sorry for that \^\^'' ). Right now, I study programming in Cegep (where I am, it's the equivalent of between ... high school and university I guess? ) and I'm becoming quite a mess with everything. I've always been daydreaming, as usual, and quite disorganised. Something's always been wrong with me and how I deal with my life. The kind of : ''There's always something with you, isn't it? Stop doing nothing and get things done!''. The thing is... I can't.
Let's start from recently. I finally got a job in my domain, and I really like it. I have a wonderful girlfriend who is so sweet and try her best to help me with my naturally low self-esteem and my depression (that last part looks like a rollercoaster, kinda unstable, but dealable... is that a word?). I'm now halfway throught my program. Everything seems not so bad. Keyword here is 'seems''.
It's soo difficult to resume all that, but I'll try my best.
Never had any problem with school grades before. I always had good grades, and my teachers always said that I'm gonna go far in life. So yeah, I was good. Never had to study, rarely opened a book to study, except maybe the hour before an exam. Same for all my assignment. ''I got time, it's gonna be alright''. Then, I finished at the last minute, but it was done!... Sometime late, but still done. It was different for my attitude. Always getting in fight, always reacting to every insults I got, often angry, and I was really stubborn. Couldn't control myself sometime. I was a lonely boy. But still, succesful in school!
That stopped. Suddently. Now that I'm in Cegep, my classes aren't so easy anymore. I can't just guess my way out. But I can't study too. Never been good at that. I open a book, stare at the page for 10 minutes, read the first paragraph, the second, then the first, because I couldn't remember it. Then, I realise my videogame is open, I got three Reddit opened, and a video on youtube. And then I'm on the floor, petting my cat. No study was done that day. It's the same for my assignment. Today I had the chance to start early my android app for school. I had 4 hours this morning just for that. But I couldn't I was starring at my screen, trying to decifer what I had to do. It seemed like that kind of big wall, indestructible. I felt bad. Then I realised that I didn't do anything at all. Then I cried. I wanted to do something so badly, but couldn't. I'm lazy maybe.
Now I'm with a wonderful lady. For the I don't know how many times. Cause I rarely stay in a relationship after 1 year. This time, it has been a little more than 2 years (thanks for bearing with me my dear!). After a time, I always wanted someting else, and I couldn't just continue with what I had. (Honestly right now, that's not what I wanted to talk about, but here I am. I'm gonna get to the point soon). But I feel bad for her. She always had to remind me a lot of what I need to do, or the activity that we planified for the night (I hate planning, don't know why, it just makes me nervous). Often, she realise I just don't listen when she talk. Even if I'm sure I'm listening, she makes me realise that, I don't often remember exactly what we're talking about. Distracted again, like she say. She's right by the way. My cat knows how to manipulate me (he's clearly evil in some way, but just too cute). Now she's writing everything on the calendar, so I won't forget... Except when I forget to look at the calendar (oupsiii).
My head is messy. It's less intense since I'm medicated for my depression, but still. That's why I still haven't got to the point with this post too. Maybe I'm writing all of this because I feel lonely, and often not worth it (even if those close to me say otherwise, still got my friend Low-Selfy). Anyway, some good people around me said once that, maybe there is actually something and I could look for help. That was four years ago. They told me it could be ADHD. There is some in my family after all. First time I heard that, I was not convinced. Honestly, I didn't even believe in that (please don't throw tomatoes at me!). But after all those years, my ''adult'' life is still so difficult. Yup, looking at you, late taxe report! Or every assurance document, or prescriptions, or missed meetings, or... Well. But this year, for the first time in my life, I decided to actually try for real to get answer. To take care of me. To make life easier to my girlfriend too. So I started to educate myself after hearing about ADHD again. To see what was the big deal with that.
Big, as I saw, was an understatement. Now I know it is a serious condition, and it's real. And it's not always easy to live with that. I've learned soo much in the past month and more. And I think, maybe I'm ADHD too, for real. But, I'm afraid. I'm afraid about having ADHD. I'm afraid about NOT having it. What if I'm really just lazy, and I'm just naturally bored by life. What if I'm imagining things. Is it true that I have those symptoms? I can go for 10 minutes thinking about all the things I do and tell myself ''it's clear you got it''. Then, the nex hour, I feel like I can't say that. I'm not a doctor. This is probably untrue. You just look for a reason for your failures. You need to accept that you're lazy and unthrustworthy for those Oh so simple tasks. It's your fault you never done all those so nice projects. It's your fault you dropped Cegep 2 times in a row, without even getting one dîploma.
I feel so bad about all of this. And I'm so confused about myself, what my real trouble are. My doctor recently say that I should really talk to a specialist about that (that's the second time she tells me). There is so much thoughts going on in my head, and I can't seem to even comprehend them. Life is already so exhausting without thinking about that. And I'm kinda sick of crying and feeling sad about answers that I don't have (I'm already an impatient guy, waiting for answers is so frustrating).
Well, that was a long text! Didn't see that coming. Anyway, that's all for me. I needed to share this.
(Actually trying to see a psyco.... something to get answer, wish me luck) | ADHD |
I just got my ADHD diagnosis 2 weeks ago--haven't even had a medication consultation yet. But since I started this process my mom and I have been wondering if she too has ADHD, as she feels she also struggles with a lot of the things as me. She is hoping to have an evaluation done soon.
Last night, she came over to watch our 3 kids so that my husband and I could go to dinner. When we got home, she stayed for a bit, just watching TV and hanging out.
The entire time we were watching the show, she and I were googling people who looked familiar, what else they were in or just random things from the show that popped up or sparked a question that we were curious about. Like... through the whole show... To the point that my husband was commenting that he couldn't hear the show itself over us.
It really made me laugh, because we have done this as long as I can remember--discussing our theories, or why something happened, or weird details, in addition to looking up stuff like we were doing with this show. But my husband always gets annoyed at me for wanting to talk the whole time we watch anything. I have tried to explain to him that it is just my way of enjoying what I am watching, and also that it is something I'm used to doing, as my mom and I did it all my life.
All in all, it really just reconfirmed our suspicions that she could also have ADHD.
I just wanted to share this funny situation / thing I do that others may relate to. I hope this type of post is allowed here (also wasn't sure what flair to put on this??)--since having kids and now with lockdown I really have no friends and mostly just talk to family, so it could be nice to hear from others that might relate.
So, does anyone else do this when you watch TV or movies?? | ADHD |
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We're going through so many financial issues in my household, and the economy of the whole country I live in is shambles. Everything's going to shit, I'm really depressed, everyone in my house is physically sick, one part of my family doesn't even talk to us anymore because they hate us for some idiotic reason they themselves invented, my grandma died last year and it's gonna be another Christmas we won't share with her, and I don't even know if my brother will be able to come home to share Christmas with us.
I haven't had a nice Christmas since I was like 14 or 15, all Christmas since were progressively worse. We haven't had Christmas decorations since I was a child, so there isn't even any sort of Christmas spirit, it's just sadness, gray, colorless non-joy. It's just gonna be another night in which we sit down on a table, for once eat something that's outside our budget, and then we'll just say "happy Christmas" and keep going with our lives. No presents, no happiness, just another regular night with a label on it.
I hope you guys enjoy Christmas. | depression |
Hi, over the past few years I’ve been trying really hard to create routines and schedules to make my days more structured and make me feel less like I’m in a void, but I’ve been having massive trouble with it. I really want to try creating a bullet journal but I have trouble just planning out my days let alone sticking to anything I do make. Does anyone have any advice? | aspergers |
My child and I do not have to deal with our abuser (their father) anymore. I am so happy and relieved. A new chapter in our lives, right? I hope to spread this good news and good vibes with everyone and hope that life will continuously bless you. | ptsd |
Hello.
I was diagnosed with c-ptsd due to years of childhood trauma. It's easy to manage for me and at this point it's normal.
But I believe on top of this now, I have ptsd from being around several gun shootings. I am unsure of how to handle this. What triggered it again was witnessing and being extremely close to a shooting early this morning (2 am).
I am having a hard time trying to work through it right now. I have work I need to do and I can't even start. I know my next step will be letting people know what happened so work isn't the issue at the moment.
I just want to feel normal again, and I can't get there. I called my mother this morning and the moment she asked me what happened, I felt the same way I did when it happened. I started shaking and I could barely speak. I wanted to run away, but I'm safe right now so where would I run? I am venting and also looking for some advice.
Are there any coping strategies that you can recommend?
Thank you. | ptsd |
Mid 40’s and like title says I don’t care anymore. Dead end job. Pays well enough. Spouse leaving. Just got a dog, with spouse leaving gotta get rid of him as I don’t wanna lock him up.
Not going to commit suicide but have really high BP. Stopped taking BP medicine. Hopefully nature takes its course soon. | depression |
Like, not an overly inconsiderate way. I don't like to make people uncomfortable or annoyed by talking to loud or by explaining things.
I enjoy how being loud feels in my mouth or in my belly even if I'm being that loud, and if a friend of mine is receptive to a certain degree of loudness for it then I feel like it can add such a range of expression and have a fun affect. My niece is 5 now IIRC and if you give her a situation where she won't get yelled at for screaming at the top of her lungs she'll do it until she is out of breath or breaks out laughing from the sheer joy of the act, and I can relate to that a lot tbh.
I like how explaining things feels. I feel like whenever I am watching a a good movie or show, listing to a good album, or whatever else it may be I will not infrequently pause it to allow myself out loud to dissect why I think it was really enjoyable. I want to understand things, and even if "explaining" something and "understanding" it are different, usually it helps me understand something if I can explain it. Whenever there are multiple levels to appreciate something on emotionally, conceptually, or comedically, taking all that subtext naturally woven into that and pulling it up into plainly stated text can sometimes be cathartic or even exhilarating. | aspergers |
So I would love to hear experiences of people who have taken either/and/or both Concerta or Ritalin.
I've been on Concerta for about 10+ years and am at 72 MG currently. Due to available benefits plans, I might have to switch to Ritalin. I know there is an extended release version of Ritalin that lasts about half the time (6 hours) that Concerta is expected to last (12 hrs).
I've done a little bit of research, but most things online compare Concerta with fast acting Ritalin and not the XR.
I would love some perspectives. Thank you. | ADHD |
Hey all - so 36m here going (finally) through the full assessment after all these years. One of my concerns about meds is my exercise. I do around 5-7 high intensity gym sessions a week (too many at times but it keeps me regulated) and I wondered how you have got on exercising and medicating. What if any effects have you noticed, heart rate changes etc?
Thanks 🤘🏼 | ADHD |
I’m getting meds for the first time next week after being recently diagnosed at 30. I’ve been realizing that I chose not to go to college because I was tiptoeing around my adhd and knew I would do poorly.
I did terrible in middle and high school. I was a “gifted” student so the shame I recieved for “not living up to my potential” is something I’m in therapy for. So emotionally I’m working towards the idea but practically, I feel like I have very few skills that make a good student. So I’m excited by the prospect that maybe I can try some community college classes next year but also scared that I have no idea how to succeed. Most advice I read isn’t by adhd brains.
Any good student adhd-ers here that can give advice on doing well in college and building good learning skills/habits? | ADHD |
Hey, I just wanted to tell you thank you. Thank you for existing and thank you for just being there for me. I know I don't know any of you, and I know that we might even not be the same age, and we are probably not in the same country but here, I have found home. I can't believe how much progress I have made since February. I was in such bad place and now, still struggling obviously, but I know I have you. Millions of people struggling with the same shit as me, having the same triggers as me, the same thoughts, is horrible but at the same time so comforting. 6 months ago I never thought I would be here, writing this, but here I am, not just existing but living. Living a life that is hard but it amazes me every time. I'm so grateful for all of you, for the community and for me, because I'm amazing, and you are too. We are amazing people that deserve the freaking best. We deserve to live. We are us, this ilness is not us. We are much more than this. I know it. So please, go have an amazing day today and I hope you ERP that shit and FUCK OCD! | OCD |
Think of it like saying ‘you too’ to a waiter. but it’s day to day.
i was chatting with a coworker and as i went to do a task like three metres away, i say ‘see you’ because i was walking away, but i wasnt going anywhere????
like the whole thing of saying i’m good how are you to anyone you pass who asks you how you are.
any others? lol | aspergers |
I think I might have had a thought a couple years ago saying that "I feel more in my dick for guys than girls" since at that point I felt like my attraction for girls was already dead. But I just brushed it off and didn't gave it a single thought. Now I'm scared that it might mean I was somewhat aware I had an attraction to guys. I don't wanna be gay. | OCD |
hey so i smoke daily and i find that while i still give in to my compulsions when i’m high, they’re easier to handle and it makes me less upset dealing with them. does anyone else have this experience? | OCD |
Been dealing with constant thoughts about everything that I enjoy doing is pointless because I am going to die anyway and it also turns into harm theme because it will be like “why not end it sooner if you are just going to die anyway” I’m trying to ignore it but it will not stop! I just wanna enjoy my life again 😔 | OCD |
So I went to a therapist a few times and after talking to him for multiple hours he told me he doesn’t really n is hot to help me or advise me on what to do.
So I 24F live at home with my parents
Sister 1 is dead sister 2 married moved out brother3 moved out I’m the youngest
My friends were super toxic especially after my sisters death so I cut them of my only really friend lives 5 hours away
My parents are high maintenance dad doesn’t pay for stuff except for rent (I pay my part) groceries that he eats and that’s it mom goes to multiple doctors for multiple issues
Due zu religion and multiple reasons I can’t move out
I don’t think my life should stay this way but I don’t know what to do I work come home watch tv read sleep repeat my outlet is good but I’ve already gained so much weight any tips ?
Btw I take natural non pecriptive ani depression medication ( it’s weak but works for my mood swings ) | depression |
Hey everyone
So my sister has been missing for about two years. It absolutely sucks. What happened was I ended up doing ALL the legwork in my family to raise awareness, speak to detectives and do searches for her.
I am a chronically depressed person. Before my sister went missing, I was doing really well! However she was my absolute beat friend and on top of having no clue in the gosh darn world where she is, everyone turned on me; my father, my half-sister, my roommate, a good friend.
People either thought I was somehow involved in her absence or, couldn’t cope with my grief and became dismissive of me.
I live with my mom and grandma now and they are pretty bitchy with me. They assume when I lay in bed all day or am curt with them it’s because I don’t like/respect them instead of feeling rejected, Unconsoled and depressed about my sister.
Also the only thing in my life that’s going well is business but, I can only work so much. My other sister broke up with her BF of 5 years and got a new BF who she currently lives with in a WEEK of her break up.
And here I am , have been in one relationship my whole life which was FIVE YEARS AGO . Which I don’t understand because I’m fit and kind . As pretty as I think I am or people tell me, it doesn’t hold up when men wont pursue me or, reject me after a date or two.
Finally, I can’t seem to keep friends. A lifelong friend of my missing sister and I’s recently ditched me at a rave. Totally disrespectful and led me closer to committing suicide than anything. This is one of many times a friend treated me like a total reject loser piece of trash and wow, it kills me.
Just want to vent about my feeling of total worthlessness . All I can muster to do it drive and work. Taking trips out of the city to see where to move so I don’t have to kill myself to end this suffering | depression |
I have severe ocd that I treat with medication and therapy, but I am also a person of faith and find a lot of comfort in my faith. I can’t imagine there are many of us, but if there is any one in my same situation is there a song that especially speaks to you when you’re struggling?
(I know my OCD isn’t demon possession, I ain’t that kind of religious my dudes) | OCD |
I noticed this morning that my TOCD seems to be taking that Bad Chest Feeling that I get when I'm anxious and telling me it's chest dysphoria. Have these sort of physical sensations happened to anyone else? | OCD |
Hello,
I’ve been seeing this therapist for about three years now and I was diagnosed with anxiety. However after doing a lot of research over the last months I’ve realized that I may have ADHD. I have an aunt who has it and other medical issues. My brother also seems to have it too he can’t sit still and is very hyper. I’m 24 and my life is a complete mess. I’m always day dreaming and not able to comeplete tasks. My therapist gives me tasks and I tend to not do them because in my mind they’re pointless or takes too much time and I don’t do them. It’s hard for me to stay focused without listening to music or taking a lot of breaks and I’m always tired. I explained this to my therapist a few weeks back and took a test. However yesterday my therapist completely disregarded my issues with this and told me that the reason why I can’t do things is because of shame and she asked me if all I want out of this is to get on ADHD meds I didn’t really know how to answer that I felt sad after... I get my results back on Tuesday and I’m interested in seeing what happens. It’s just frustrating having something wrong with you and it just gets treated as anxiety or being lazy. When I’m trying hard inside I just can’t pull myself to do the smallest things. I am also a female and I’m not hyper in fact I don’t have energy at all and I believe this is why she doesn’t believe I have it | ADHD |
I usually typically answer with "good!" or something boring lije "I ate a sandwich today". I don't typically think about how my day played out, so it feels like if someone asks me this, I would have to collect myself a little first. | aspergers |
The more tuned into and aware I become of trauma, the more I realize how overwhelmingly large the number of people suffering due to it really is. You only see the ones with bad PSTD becasue they can't hide it anymore. But for everyone one person like that, there are 10 ready to snap, sitting in silence with clenched fists.
Trauma, PTSD, they happen. You can't stop that or make it not what it is. More and more I no longer see PTSD as the problem. I see the problem as the utter lack of real support, the culture of judgment, deliberate ignorance, marginalization, ostracism as the issue.
As more and more people are exposed to trauma via COVID, and all the fun times that come with it, I hope it becomes more normalized for people to be openly struggling. Either that, or a lot of people will eventually, quietly, implode. A few will explode and get all the attention, but many more will drown in silence, so mired in internalized views of their own pain that they'll balme themselves the whole way down.
If I'm going to drown, at least I'll drown self-aware. | ptsd |
Hello. Kind of new here. I'm NOT trying to get a true diagnosis. Well i think not. I just don't know where to go honestly. I was diagnosed when I was very younger. I don't remember taking a test or whatnot for it. I was very young. It is just over the years I am doubting it. I do want to plan to take a test see if my diagnosed is correct or not.
It just when I became more. Self-aware? In middle school, I got to meet more people. And see they talk, act, walk, eat, and etc... I met some people who had autism. Like it was obvious. Apologies if it sounds rude. And I was in middle school I learned about autism. At the time just learned I had aspergers. So I didn't say anything to anyone. Later on in high school. I learn there were different types? Levels? Scale? Apologies again. I learned was high functioning. I and some time in high school I told my friends was high functions. They were surprised. And didn't believe me. So kind of agree. But something must be true sense it is in my medical records.
It just. In college. I got to see all kinds of people. And so. When resigning to my college disability services. Because my mom and sister highly suggested it. Because I was somewhat had anxiety ( I'm just nervous a lot, not anxiety). But I got to get met more people with autism and other disabilities. I was wondering if i was cheating the system. And wonder if I was really misdiagnosed.
I tried to search online for those whose was high functioning, who was also diagnosis very young also. Like is there anyone who feels similar? Or in the same situation? Like the doubt? The guilt? Anyone? | aspergers |
So I have a couple of BFRBs that I do - I bite my cheek over and over again, mainly when I’m anxious or having an intrusive thought, but I also find myself picking at my scalp, even when I don’t have any intrusive thoughts at that moment, and it’s sort of a compulsion now, but not quite. I was wondering if anyone else got these and how to overcome it? Even if you haven’t overcome it I’d like to hear what you have to say about it. | OCD |
If yes, why do you think that is? Is there anything helpful you’ve read about it? | ptsd |
I've never felt such compassion and understanding in my life. I was able to talk about everything, everything, even the things that ashamed me most today, and I managed to put everything in perspective.
If someone can have such compassion for me, I feel like one day I can too.
I'm so grateful that I'm in tears. I can heal. I can get better and be in peace one day. I don't have to be afraid anymore.
Maybe I'll soon give myself permission to have dreams again, instead of just coping all the time.
Today I managed to breathe a little. | ptsd |
I’m just really scared and struggling again. It’s like the ocean. Waves come and go. | OCD |
Hi I am Autistic,I have ADHD and OCD, and I’ve been using diazepam a while ago but i stopped because it is addictive and has terrible long term effects. I can't live well without masturbation, it's the only thing that makes my repetitive destructive thoughts "soften". Does anyone else going through this ? or something like this ? | OCD |
Early 20s. Kind of seems better than dying at like 80 or smth. If im just working to try to make ends meet, if im just studying for a stupid fucking letter, damn, if i just wanted fucking stupid. All i do is stress and work myself sick. What's the fucking point of living if im just in pain. Fucking study my life away. Work my life away at a shitty job that can barely make money. I'm too stupid to go to grad school. I'm barely keeping up in undergrad. I killed my social life because all i do is suffer in vain in the work that will just result in failure. What's the point of 60 more years of pain if I can just die now and not have to give a shit about my lack of a future. | depression |
I know this is weird...but my ex who gave me PTSD locked me in a room for weeks and made me watch The Office...he didn't let me get up to go to the bathroom, close my eyes, sleep, look at my phone, leave, nothing. So now The Office TV show is a trigger for me.
My work has been getting more and more.....office-y lately. I'm really starting to struggle. They have office themed things and it's like office gif city. I can only handle so much exposure therapy.
I don't really feel I can tell anyone about this because 1. it's so personal and 2. it's so weird I don't think anyone would believe me and I would lose all professional credibility - they'd just think i don't like the show and am being selfish. Idk what to do.
Advice?
edit/disclaimer: after reading this i understand some people may think this is trolling, but i assure you that I have diagnosed PTSD and I'm not trolling or making this up, this is a real thing and it really affects me so I'm genuinely looking for advice. thank you. | ptsd |
Hello, I'm 16, male. Been diagnosed with ADHD for >2 years now. I have used Ritalin for that period but it's "effects" are just gone lately.
I can't focus the same I used to when using 20mg of methylphenidate hydrochloride.
I am very prone to addiction soo I really don't want Adderall, unless the pills are counted by someone because I might abuse them.
Any tips/suggestions? | ADHD |
Hi. I'm a medical student who had some bouts of OCD before (thank God I fortunately had total remission of my symptoms with treatment).
I recently learned that olfactive sensory information does not go through the dyencephalon, which contains the amygdala. Since the physiopathology of OCD is related to somatossensory and especially visual information that passes through the amygdala and reaches the neocortex, I figured out it should be relatively uncommon for OCD patients to get triggers from olfactive cues, or at least those triggers should be significantly different or less intrusive.
I particularly had no obsessions with smells, and I would like to learn from any of you whether you do or not. If possible, I would like to write my final paper about this topic. Of course I am going to read scientific papers, but starting out with some empirical experiences could give me a better notion about the topic. Thanks in advance. | OCD |
Long story short, I got my borderline diagnosis yesterday (I definitely have borderline). I have my ASD diagnosis on the 14th of December (Getting the official results, not testing). Due to this, I mentioned to the assessor that I was suspect of myself having ASD. He told me that although people with ASD can have personality disorders, they cannot have Borderline, as it clashes with not understanding or picking up on non-verbal cues. (Since people with borderline tend to be hypersensitive to changes in peoples mood/body language).
Is it possible to be able to tell when a close family member or partner is upset and still be on the spectrum?
(I never have any idea what to do with the information when I know people are upset, I would say I struggle with conceptualizing/understanding both emotion and intent of actions… but I can pick up on it if I know the person)
I am a bit… confused to say the least? And so is my partner.
If anyone is diagnosed with both or well informed about mental health stuff, a second opinion would be highly appreciated. Thank you! My apologies for rambling, questions are welcome if anyone needs clarification on anything I’ve said. | aspergers |
I have this thing that sets me off. If I see an injustice that seems under-seen, I feel a personal responsibility to intervene and do everything I can to "solve" the issue. I don't know if this is OCD, and I don't think it fully is OCD...but I think the intensity of my desire to "Do Something" comes from hyper responsibility OCD.
For example, about 2 years ago I stumbled upon a bizarre animal cruelty cult on YouTube where people would film rats and mice struggling in traps. (More info in my profile if you want to look into this—I think it's still going on). I did everything I could think of to end it—I posted comments educating people on why this is wrong (and got called all variants of "special snowflake" for doing so), reported the videos multiple times to YouTube, posted on Reddit in hopes that more eyeballs would see it, and even tried contacting journalists. Unfortunately, nothing happened. But while this was going on, I was losing sleep. All I could think about was what those animals were going through, and that it was *my* responsibility to save them.
I eventually ran out of steam (you can only watch animal cruelty so much), but recently I had another trigger that seems more OCD than the rat one. I saw a guy profiled on TV with a pet iguana, who kept feeding the iguana insects even though they're herbivorous and insects can seriously harm them. I now feel responsible to tell the owner to stop feeding his iguanas insects. This is difficult because I of course have no way of contacting this person, and the TV show is not even in English (and my proficiency in that language is very limited). I've considered contacting the regional SPCA, but I think that's overkill.
Does anyone have a similar experience or am I the weird one here??? | OCD |
Hello,
I was diagnosed with once ADHD as a child, but I didn't receive any treatment and whenever I went to the doctor for this stuff (idk how they're called in English) I was always only given papers for school that said I have dyslexia (can't read properly), dysgraphia (can't write neatly and properly) and dysortografia (unable to understand some grammar) to get some stuff made easier (?).
I was for sure diagnosed with ADHD, my parents were told and everything, I just didn't receive any treatment from professionals or any help at school (I didn't even get any help with my other problems at elementary school, so I got extremely good at masking), I wasn't even properly educated on what ADHD actually is and was punished by my parents/teachers/adults for my ADHD related behaviour, which only made me develop anxiety about my ADHD.
Is it possible that I was diagnosed and then they changed their mind? Is that even a thing? Could they just forget???
I was like 8yo during that time, so I was told basically nothing, my parents were given the information and all I was told was the diagnosis, so I have no idea whether am I diagnosed or not at this point.
Should I try to get diagnosed with the ADHD for the second time now as a young adult, or is there no point since I don't show as many symptoms as majority of people with ADHD due to the environment I grew up in?
Should I seek help for the anxiety and other mental health issues first? Will my ADHD have more symptoms if I stop being anxious? (Like the impulsivity, being late,...)
Will my ADHD make it harder for me to get rid of other mental illness?
I'm sorry if I have stupid questions.
Thanks for reading this long paragraph and thank you in advance to everyone who gives me any answers.
Hope you have a great rest of your day.
Bye! | ADHD |
I'm a person that HEAVILY stims to music.
Not all music of course. But I tend to daydream and rock back and forth. Or jump up and down while flapping my hands.
The fake-tiktokers are of course, garbage. They overdramatise stereotypes for the sake of being "quirky". On the other side, these "counter tiktoks" are trying to say people with ASD don't stim at music, but stay the opposite; calm and relaxed.
I see the reason behind the second one. It's a prove that Aspies can def. often stay still. But...am I the only one finding the execution a bit concerning?
Like, some Aspies to stim to music. Heavily sometimes. But these videos always emphasise "REAL" or "ACTUAL" people with autism. Idk, maybe I'm nitpicking, but it just makes me feel bad about myself. And I'm officially diagnosed since years. | aspergers |
I am perceived a lot differently than I feel I am. People tell me I seem like I don’t know anything. Im quiet, rude, incompetent. It’s a horrible feeling that nobody likes me very much. I know I need to work harder than others at socializing, working, etc., but I just wish I knew these things about myself sooner. I don’t think I’m stupid though, I just don’t try very hard at work because I don’t see myself staying very long. I make excuses for everything in order not to take responsibility for my own problems. I just wish someone understood me and actually loved me for me. | depression |
I’ve been feeling bad for a while now and after talking to some of you in the comment and pressure from my mom I finally went to see my family doctor. So what I’ve been taking for a little depression turn out I have a severe depression, passive suicidal thought and anxiety. I’m starting some medication today. I don’t even know how I’m supposed to feel about this and I needed to tell someone so … thank you if you read this. | depression |
I’ve had it up to here. Things have been so shitty lately, my mental health has been on a rapid decline, I struggle so much with talking to people, just functioning as a normal human being. I have such a hard time getting out of bed to do things and so many of my hobbies that I enjoy just feel like chores now.
But of course it had to get worse, one of those accounts that post people at schools posted me (without my permission) on their page. It’s called (my school name)_weirdos, I’ve given up caring about what people think of me but it’s just a glaring reminder that people are fucking assholes and they’re gonna be assholes just for you being yourself. The school and the students at my school all preach good mental health and being kind to everyone but it’s a load of bullshit.
I got a major anxiety spike just seeing myself on the page, it makes me nauseous just thinking someone is photographing me without me knowing. To all the adults that said I should savor high school, no I’m not it fucking sucks. | depression |
I feel so pressured. My parents expect too much of me but they don’t want to understand why I can’t do all of it! I am failing my grades and they keep saying im just lazy and, im just ruining my future. I am in my 3rd semester of college and think i should take the next semester off! Im hyperventilating and I am always panicking because there is so much that is expected of me and im soo behind and I don’t know if i should take a break. There is nothing wrong with having responsibilities but i just feel like i am about to loose it, i keep getting reminded of how i used to be so smart and hardworking and i have just let all that go because i am so incompetent. | ADHD |
Umm so this goes to ask if others feel this. But I’m currently in Uni and I always notice my anxiety and brain get extra fuzzy towards the end of semester/beginning of a new one. I was curious if this was the case with others who have OCD because for me it materializes with my compulsions becoming more prominent and panick attacks happenings because the shift of order is a lot to handle. | OCD |
I'm aware one should seek a professional about health concerns, but if I'm allowed, I'd like to bounce some ideas around here. Really I'm very concerned and have no one to talk about this in real life, so it helps just to talk about it here. Another thing, I'd think this would be "on-topic" given there's a purported link between autism and this.
I don't seek a real diagnosis from anyone here, just some discussion, maybe some ideas about how to present my case when I see a doctor (hopefully soon.)
So the deal is I'm late 30s and have always been a thin guy, but am concerned about possible pre-diabetes or other circulatory disorder. Maybe even an autoimmune condition. I have noticed in just the course of a couple of months now, certain signs that align well with pre-diabetes or other disorders of circulation.
The first sign I noticed something was off, like a month ago, I suddenly observed dark spots on the creases of my fingers. Since then it has been happening sporadically, but is also associated with difference in the coloring in my hands (left turns pale, right is bright red.) I also have alternating cold and warm sensations, etc.
Another thing lately is--even for me, a perennially tired person--I just have less energy, drive, desire of any kind. I'm physically tired even at times when I usually have energy. Also have massive brain fog I can barely fight through, and haven't taken any kind of recreational drugs lately, either. These latter problems have been there in recent years, but it's all become "extreme" lately. There's also things like I'm noticing itchiness, and occasional pains in my extremities, which I had rarely prior to the last 2 months.
What's more, around the same time I noticed these things, I've observed I'm losing body hair in multiple areas. This seems to be indisputable, unless my memory fails?
I think some of this could be from anxiety, worsened because of social isolation recently, BUT I'm also getting plenty of exercise and eating healthier than usual. Something here does not add up.
There is a history of type 2 diabetes on one side of my family. Another thing, given the loss of body hair, there may even be autoimmune concern.
Anyone has these concerning signs themselves, or any other advice? I'm really getting depressed over it.
There's a chance my anxiety/depression may play a large role in this, but I still feel something is wrong here. | aspergers |
I know many people with ADHD can take forever to respond to messages, but I always respond immediately! Sometimes I wonder if this reflects poorly on me when texting certain people, such as having too much free time or being too “clingy” or desperate.
Do you take forever to respond, or do you respond as soon as you see it?
Are there any other things what you do or experience that is different from the norm or less common in regards to ADHD? | ADHD |
I posted late at night a couple days ago asking for some general advice (https://old.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/qti90n/questionsintro_from_a_curious_struggler/). Unfortunately my situation has changed. I broke my foot on a run, and the doctor has told me to rest my foot by staying at home on the couch (so I can elevate my foot). The typical recovery period is 6-12 weeks.
I’m really worried about boredom, lack of physical activity, and food issues. If anyone has tips on staying busy/sane despite being temporarily immobile, please let me know. I’m really worried about crashing back in to a dark place that I’ve worked hard to get out of for the past two years. | ADHD |
I cant find any reason to continue with my life.
Why should i not do it? (i have convinced my self that there is no reason NOT to do it)
I need reasons. (anything good in life, things that make you happy, etc)
Help. | depression |
Hi I need help. I literally feel nothing. I don't enjoy other people's company and I have really bad anxiety. Like if someone gets to close to me I get anxious,but when I don't have anything to do I feel empty, like I just lay on the couch and stare at the TV wishing I felt something which then gives me more anxiety because I'm doing nothing. Does anyone else have this or deal with this? If so what has helped you? Did ssri's help you? I do workout out atheast 3 times a week and I have a job. | depression |
Feel like I'm out here on my own grappling with intense feelings of failure and horrible low self esteem. I will trap myself in a cycle that goes as follows: Wanting to do a thing - maybe trying a little bit - convincing myself I can't do the thing and it was stupid - go off and do something easy/non productive/actually stupid - sulk and wallow, get sad and depressed - repeat.
I just want to do things. To be good at things. To be able to set goals and achieve them, to get enjoyment out of the journey. But it's all so overwhelming. If something doesn't continuously capture my attention I get bored straightaway. Everything seems to hard or too much effort. I'm stuck in this permaloop wasting time and life and its really messing me up 😭😭 | ADHD |
Yay. Trying to convince myself to stop picking on it (and I have no tool available either) and that it doesn't even have access to bloodstream, and even if it did it isn't going to give me some sort of deadly disease anyway.
Not too effective though. The surrounding area almost looks like a blister now :(
Fuck this bullshit. | OCD |
Feel free to tall to me about things! A lot of peope is passing through a lot | depression |
Hey guys, hope you are doing well. 4 months ago a marijuana edible trip sparked OCD about my sexual orientation which happened to be right when I was moving away from home to go to college (shitty timing lmao). For the next month or two it was practically the only thought on my mind and I would spend each and every day trying to solve whether or not I was gay.
I then found out that my symptoms were definitely OCD and stopped trying to solve my intrusive thoughts. It's taken a long time and a shit load of effort, but I've reduced about 50% of my anxiety from HOCD. I still get false attractions and intrusive thoughts, but they don't trigger compulsions and overwhelming anxiety.
Recently though I've been having a big issue with that seems unrelated to the OCD. I'll be going about my day and feel a general sense of something being wrong and I'll be on edge. Sometimes I feel hollow inside and lack motivation to do many things. I don't feel this way 100% of the time, but it comes in waves and takes up a significant portion of my day.
Another strange thing is I doubt or question what I am feeling. I can't tell exactly what I am feeling I just know something is really off and it's been making me research which hasn't helped. I can't tell if these are intrusive thoughts happening in the background or if its general anxiety/depression I've developed as a result of the sudden emergence of OCD months ago.
I should be seeing a psychologist soon but wanted to get this off my chest in the meantime. It is really frustrating because I have had great mental health my entire life until 4 months ago when this all happened. Thanks | OCD |
So my paternal grandfather died a month ago, he had a sudden and completely unexpected heart attack in the middle of the night. Technically he wasn’t my biological grandfather but I still considered him every bit the real deal. We were really close, we often discussed music and he’d come over at least a few times a month and we’d talk about stuff.
The reason I write this though is that even though we were close I don’t really... feel anything. Like I still don’t, at the funeral I cried but after and before it’s been like he’s not even gone. I don’t feel sad nor any grief at all. I almost feel angry at myself for being this apathetic to the death of a man that’s been so influential and supportive of me all my life but I just don’t feel... anything at all.
Has anyone else felt this level of just pure apathy when a close family member past away suddenly? It’s so weird and honestly makes me feel like I’m really unappreciative of the time we spent together and all the support he’s given me over the years. | aspergers |
Hi friends! I have PTSD and fibromyalgia (as many of us do, apparently it's a horribly common dual-diagnosis), and in reading about others' medicating habits, I read about a couple people SWEARING by magnesium glycinate and using nothing else.
Now, I am not ready to jump off my other meds or anything, but I am totally okay with adding supplements into my diet.
I just don't know what dose to start with or what a reputable brand would be. Can anyone point me in the right direction? Thanks 😊 | ptsd |
Anyone else take things that happen almost everything i do or ive done i consider its a sign from the universe or something its bassically with everything is it just me???? | OCD |
I realise this is a tricky subject and there are forums for this (although I find them a bit intense and often not focused on healthy coping mechanisms). It's not something that is really spoken about much and there is a great deal of shame.
I wondered if anyone else here struggles with taking their emotions out on themselves physically (self-harm) and they have any strategies to help deal with it? I absolutely don't do it for attention and go to great lengths to hide it from anyone. It mostly occurs because I feel so overwhelmed/sad/frustrated and I don't know how to constructively process that. I never want to take it out on others or burden them and I often can't find the right words and people misunderstand me, so I turn these emotions inwards.
Apologies if this is an unsuitable topic or offends anyone, I'm just looking for some suggestions from other people who have experienced this and found better ways to cope with difficult emotions. It's something I really want to overcome. | aspergers |
So I have ADHD, but I didn’t know there was certain types of it before I joined this subreddit, but I still don’t rlly know what they mean. For example what is ADHD-Pi? Or ADHD combined type? What types are being combined? Also how do you know what kind of ADHD you have? I’ve been diagnosed by my doctor, my therapist, I’ve been to neuropsych exams but I’ve never heard of this and google wasn’t that helpful | ADHD |
Whenever I talk to a person for a while it goes like
Me: Hey whenever I say something that hurts/makes you uncomfortable please tell me.
Them: Okay will do.
Later
Me: “Says something that makes them uncomfortable”
Them: Hey that made me uncomfortable.
Me: Oh sorry (instantly starts to hate myself a ton and becomes into a bad mood).
Them: It’s okay thank you for apologizing.
Me: okay sorry again.
This always happens and I want people to tell the truth but I can never handle it well. I always get in a bad mood and I don’t like it because I can never do that which most of my peers can do emotionally. Is there a way I can fix this? | aspergers |
In my job as a tutor/reading advocate/whole bunch of other stuff, I work with a 6 year old (let's call her G). G has ADHD but according to her teacher, the parents do not want her medicated for health concerns. Working with G in daily sessions is a hit or a miss. In rare times, she might cooperate and do her work. But most of the time G is too energetic and distracted so doing work is like pulling teeth.
Its almost as if she was fed three pots of espresso because this girl will practically vibrate in her chair and be unable to focus because of the energy. I tried doing exercise breaks yet no amount of jumping jacks, yoga or dancing will get rid of the energy (seriously I've seen this kid challenge the boys at high speed races for 20 straight minutes outside every day and never breaks a sweat). So the exercise breaks don't do much. I do a lot of positive feedback and rewards for focusing but she forgets right away or can't control that energy, which distracts her.
I can't talk to the parents as per school policy so all my concerns go through the teacher. She has the same issues with G and just advises the rewards & quick exercise breaks. G isn't behaviorally challenged or too far behind in class compared to her classmates so she tends to be overlooked sometimes. I was diagnosed with ADD at her age so I understand the struggle to focus (not the energy though). I just don't know how to do lessons with someone who is so wired they can't focus for longer than a minute. I was hoping for some advice. | ADHD |
[Edit: apparently, the incident happened on September 4, 2020. It popped up in my feed shortly before this post. So no, this isn't a new shooting, and in light of this fact, the title seems a bit deceptive. I'm sorry for that; I think the best way to rectify it is to tell you about my error, and that I'll be more careful about that in the future. That being said, it should have never happened and nothing has changed to prevent it from happening I stand by everything else. The kid survived and his GoFundMe is [here](https://gofund.me/72d77647). Back to regularly scheduled rage.]
(TW: children getting shot; kid is shown in bandages lying in hospital bed.)
This just popped up in my feed. Didn't even have to look for it. [Police shot an unarmed 13 year old autistic kid](https://www.washingtonpost.com/nation/2020/09/08/linden-cameron-utah-autistic-shooting/?utm_source=twitter&utm_campaign=wp_main&utm_medium=social) when the mother called the police on him for having a meltdown. As of this posting, he has not succumbed to his injuries.
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I am beyond sick of this bullshit. Obviously increased body cameras, accountability, and defunding the are good half-measures, but ultimately (read: *ASAP*), we need to disarm and ultimately abolish police. Autistic people (as well as, black, trans, and mentally ill people) have nothing to gain from their continued existence, and if the cops are doing it for a paycheck, then they need to do something else or literally nothing. They're basically an occupying army deployed against citizens of their own country (not implying that if they were deployed against citizens of another country then suddenly it would be okay; it's only more surreal).
If any of you are parents, relatives, or friends of autistic people: do *not* call the police if you want to see your autistic kid, relative, or kid alive tomorrow. Nothing says "you are loved" quite like asking someone to put a bullet in my chest. You should know by now that if the cops get uncomfortable, the bullets will go flying. Or you know what, maybe forget that last point, because there's a good chance you don't love your kid if you think their birth is a tragedy.
If you're still pro-police at this point: I honestly think you are beyond reason. I don't care if you're disgusted by this incident. Wow, you have bare-minimum empathy and the ability to literally perceive that things happen, congratulations on your achievement! You still don't have an issue with the system that induces these things to happen, and you never will, because you care more about the "order" of the status quo than the real peace and stability that would be possible if police weren't murdering people in the streets.
If any of you are police: fucking *stop*. Go be EMS or firefighters or boxers, or do literally nothing and bill the government for your living expenses. If retraining is an issue, the government has vocational rehabilitation services for autistic people (speaking because they wanted to recruit me). If you would need to learn math, I can help you, so long as it is in the pursuit of being anything but a cop.
And before anyone accuses me of being divisive: if minimizing and ultimately eliminating police violence is what divides us, then you deserve to be divided away from everyone else and shamed and mocked and marginalized mercilessly until you get on same page. Like let's pretend for a minute that I supported police: wouldn't it be better for individual officers to not have to be involved in violent incidents all the goddamn time? As much as I don't like them, they are people and can be traumatized and injured just as much as we can.
My views have not changed in response to this case; this case just pissed me off enough to comment.
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I'm sorry if this is a lot more angry than the types of posts/comments I usually write, but I was talking about this exact type of thing and then this pops up in my feed. | aspergers |
Will this ever go away? Will I ever feel the same? I feel like I’m going to lose everyone. I don’t know what to do. Every night I close my eyes I have a nightmare, I can’t stop it from happening. Now my body all together is scared to sleep now too. My condition is starting to really have a bad affect on my relationship with my boyfriend. I love him so much and don’t want to lose him. I always feel like he’s going to leave me, and then I get insecure I guess and somewhat lash out. It’s hard for me to talk about how I’m feeling because I’m scared it will turn into a fight. I’ve not been in a healthy relationship before and so this is new for me. I have tried so so hard to get through this condition without using prescription (nothing against anyone that does, I just grew up watching my mom use pills in not the best way). The last 7 years plus of my life I feel like a rollercoaster of emotions. I just need help or tips or something. My mind is tired my body is tired and I don’t want my relationship to end. This dude is my best friend. It’s just hard to explain what goes on in my mind and genuinely I don’t know how. I talk with my therapist about it a lot and she is wonderful but I need something fresh to try. I’m so tired. I just want to feel like myself again. I don’t have the motivation to do things I enjoyed like I used to. I go through spurts of energy where I sometimes get back into things but it doesn’t last long. I feel alone and like a failure. What if my boyfriend is better off without me in his life? Why can’t I just be okay? I’m sorry if this seems shallow or even just stupid. I just idk I just want to feel like me again. What if I’m just shallow and empty now I’m scared that I have nothing to offer anyone anymore. Crazy thing is I’m great at giving advice just when it comes to my life.. | ptsd |
So 2 years ago (I think?!) I started using the pharmacy at my University as it was the most stable place to get my meds as my job and place of living were fluctuating a lot at the time. My pharmacist is a bright and bubbly Asian woman who looks about mid 30s (likely older - we Asian dont raisin lol!). Here in Australia the chemist keeps the scripts as it’s a controlled drug. From the beginning, she texts me every time my next script is available for me to come and pick up. Although for the first while I would just pick up my meds and go, we started small talking here and there, she’d ask me about my exams, give me birth control advice and where to get the best coffee on campus etc.
3 months ago the pharmacy had temporarily different opening hours and was closed every time I tried to visit. I messaged to ask when they’d next be open as I really needed them, and she actually came to my apartment and physically dropped my meds off herself with no charge - like the whole thing, all of my meds plus delivery for FREE. Then last month, I had a decent chunk of my medication stolen (2 weeks worth) along with a bunch of my housemates cash. Given exams were about to start I was freaking out, I called the pharmacy in absolute tears, she calmed me down and walked me through what I needed to do with reporting to my psychiatrist. Luckily I tend to use a little under my prescribed amount so what I was actually taking vs what I get given is misaligned in a good way, and my script was due to renew the next day. She then EXPRESS MAILED (I live super close to the uni) my meds to me along with my birth control repeats I needed. This month she’s doing the same I don’t even have to go in.
God I am so grateful for her, she’s the kindest, most understanding pharmacist I’ve ever had. She doesn’t make me feel like a junkie, she makes me feel like a person. I see the way she treats other customers too and it’s exactly the same level of care and compassion. Honestly I don’t even know her name which makes me feel bad because she knows mine but I really just wanted to share how much I appreciate her and how much easier life is because of her compassion 😭💗 | ADHD |
Hi everyone, when remortgaging over the phone today I also took a quote on life insurance to cover the balance of the mortgage (last 5 years). So anyhow it was £5 a month for 5 years after going through the questions.
Then the crazy part. I brought up the fact I have ADHD as it was never asked initially (unlike cancer, heart issues etc) Once we got into my medical history I mentioned ADHD and selected the options for being on meds and that ADHD doesn't effect my day to day life or work. I was then rejected!
So yes it's saved me a fiver but I feel let down. Why have I been rejected? | ADHD |
So my boyfriend cousin has react had diagnosed herself with several autism because the dude she is dating says she is, it hard for me because I am aspergers and my mother in law who the cousin lives with says she has been acting how I do and now recently got a fear of foods and that I have, please don’t make fun of me but I can’t eat unbeard chicken or anything on the bone and any thing yellow other then cheese like I get really sick and start having a meltdown which recently she has been doing when last week she had wings on the bone and had yellow sauce from chick fil a. Added on to that I live with them for awhile so she aware of all the trauma in my family and my past life and she has recently started using it as her own and for her cartoons. I feel highly offended and feel like I am being mocked kind of like a stupid person for trusting her in the first place to where I don’t want to do holidays stuff if she is around, I just don’t know what to do? Any advice | aspergers |
I have long conversations with myself. I've found over the years that it's helped with my symptoms. Like, if I need to do something that I don't want to do, I always tell myself, "who fucking cares? Just do it". Then I'll start talking to inanimate objects like they're affecting my workflow (my MacBook has been dubbed 'The Fuckin Piece of Shit That Won't Work').
I just always found that my inner monologue is loud, so I might as well use it to be aware of how I am in every situation, but literally talking to myself out loud.
Everyone in my office is used to it now which is honestly hilarious. They'll even chime in like, "what's happened now?"
Anyone else talk to themselves? Does it help. | ADHD |
I need advice, pretty self explanitory from the title. My mom is coming to my house tomorrow and i want it to be clean for her. the mess is basically just trash and clothes and other small misc. items. ive kept it til last minute but everytime i try to buckle down and get it done i get distracted by something, focus on something that doesnt need to be focused on immediately or just get overwhelmed and stop. ive tried writing down a checklist but it hasnt really helped. | ADHD |
I don't understand why people lie so much. And I cannot figure out whether someone is telling the truth or not. So I assume everyone is telling the truth. I do this both in real life and online. The exception is obvious sarcasm. I know that apparently many people lie but I don't (except in rare circumstances where I have been taught to, e.g. telling someone their outfit is nice even though it's not) and can't comprehend the reasoning behind it. Especially lies like completely faking who they are, what they do/like or how they feel. | aspergers |
Firstly I apologise for formatting as I’m on mobile.
So at the recommendation of some super understanding people here, I went and saw Dr Joel Chan here in Melbourne, Australia. He feels without a doubt I have ADHD as well as some form of childhood trauma, and I’ve just booked in my psychiatrist appointment for May next year. I’m worried that I’m going to go through all this and find out that I don’t have ADHD and that I’m just a failure of a person. I don’t want to sound dramatic, it’s just been playing on my mind, especially considering how far away the appointment is. I guess I want to ask, has anyone had a similar experience? Feeling like while your life experience is like an excerpt from the ADHD medical journal but still feeling like you might just be making it up? Any insights are super appreciated! | ADHD |
Is anyone taking lamictal / lamotrigine for mood and anxiety problems? If so has it made your ocd much worse?
I went from ruminating several times a day to EVERY SINGLE MOMENT. | OCD |
Hi everyone, I'm new to this community and new to ADHD. After lifting the weight of crippling anxiety through therapy, my therapist and I discovered something...else underneath. It looks like inattentiveness/forgetfulness, and sounds like rejection dysphoria, but also leaves a trail of hobbies I obsess over then forget about. In my short time here on this sub I have found so much validation for some of the things I'm experiencing.
In January I will go have a psychiatric evaluation for ADHD and I am very nervous about what to expect from that visit and the tests for diagnosis. I feel confident that I'm on the right path, but fear of the unknown is the downside.
Beyond saying "hi *awkward wave* I'm new here," I would love to learn more about your experiences with diagnosis and any advice you might have for a newbie. | ADHD |
From birth until about the 7th grade, I only remember maybe 1 snippet from each year, and usually something negative, like someone bullying me in kindergarten, or a teacher telling me to stop coughing, etc. I have no memory or the slightest suspicion of anything happening in my childhood. Are there possibly other reasons for the huge gaps in memory? I do have trauma later in life/more recently. Do I just have a bad memory? My sister is always appalled because I spent all of my free time with her and I don’t remember any of it. | ptsd |
I'm currently waiting to get diagnosed as I think I have type-C and my new year leader has said she'll do anything possible to make my life easier for the rest of my time at the school but I've been in school for so long coping with it I don't really know what to request?
What do you wish you were given going through school and how it could've made your life easier?
(Year 12 in the UK doing 3 A-Levels; Maths, Physics, Geography if that helps whatsoever) | ADHD |
can i be a professional cricket at age 22..not play in acamedy a single day?? | aspergers |
Does anyone else get mocked by a political group, religious group, etc., because of what led to their PTSD. Most of my PTSD has been caused by girls in the public education system, and as a result many have mocked me, because it goes against what they believe. Has anyone else been mocked from some kind of aligned people for what led to their PTSD? Like someone with PTSD related to religion somehow being mocked for it? I haven't been blamed for what I went through, like some people have. O guess I just feel alone. | ptsd |
I hate this disorder so much. I was practicing ERP with my other fears, but this new one that popped up scared me so suddenly. I can never relax, man.
People be like "just don't think about it!" And when I told my mom that I wanted to be normal, she was like "well, what is normal anyway?" as if I was saying "I wish I liked the color red as much as everyone else" not "I wish I didn't have literally crippling urges to fix problems in my life to the point where I waste entire days and then am too tired to do anything else" but ok thanks mom lol. I know she was trying to be supportive but it really hurt. | OCD |
I have good days, and I have bad. However, there is always a baseline of not being able to remember things accurately, struggling to put together my thoughts, being unable to think straight, etc. Its effected every facet of my life. Work, personal, doesn't really matter - if I learn something new or something happens, more likely than not I'm not going to remember it correctly, or even at all. Even if I do, talking about it, or applying it later is almost impossible.
How the hell do you guys manage this? It's created a huge deficit in my life, where some of the problems are:
1. An inability to be articulate around complex subject matter. This has drastically effected my career, as I'm in a field that values people who can communicate their idea's adequately. Even trying to remember baseline terms is an issue. While working, it seems like it takes 2-3x more effort to get something done than others.
2. I suck at debating/proving a point/arguing/whatever. In my personal life this has created a rift with people because I'm unable to argue the subject matter. I try to develop my points around my understanding of the argument, but the wires always get crossed and I end up arguing something that isn't even relevent.
3. In a heated argument, I struggle to get my point across, and even when I can, it seems that other people can just throw out arguments without problem. Before meds, I used to just 'shut down', where I stopped talking. Now I can make it through, but even so my arguments are lacking (at best). A huge issue I've noticed is when someone is making their points, and I'm trying to think of a counter, my mind is going through 1001 different arguments at once and I end up not being able to make a single one.
4. The brain fog. Holy shit. Sometimes I'm stuck in a zombie-like state if I'm not doing every possible thing to combat it. It's absolutely exhausting. I need to eat right, exercise, balance my life properly, have good relationships, wake up right, get a good sleep, etc. This is a full-time job just trying to manage myself to the point that I can actually perform AT a full-time job. By the end of the day, I'm so mentally exhausted that I can barely pay attention when my partner is telling me how her day was. This only makes the above problems worse.
I don't know if these are items exclusive to ADD/ADHD. I've looked into it, and apparently this is common for people with something called CFS (Chronis Fatigue Syndrome). Apparently, there is overlap between ADHD and CFS. Somebody posted a really great video here about a month ago that I'm unable to find, where a Psychiatrist is speaking about ADD/ADHD and brought it up. | ADHD |
So recently I was looking through the driver's handbook for my area and it recommends that in many situations such as another driver turning right at an intersection, it is advised to make eye contact with other drivers. I have significant difficulty with making eye contact and apparently this is an issue common to other Aspies, so I'd like to hear your experiences: how do you cope with not making eye contact during driving, and what do you do instead? | aspergers |
I've been doing ERP to deal with my HOCD. I've noticed that my arousal during ERP sessions is different from the one I experience during (hetero) fantasizing. What's the difference and science between them? | OCD |
What things make you laugh and what kind of jokes do you tell yo other people (or yourself)?
For me, I think that I enjoy geeky kind of humor and if done properly, even a little dark humor, but my jokes are usually the self deprecating type of jokes or sarcasm (thing that's interesting, because people say that we can't recognize sarcasm a lot of times)
What about you? | aspergers |
Up until 3 months ago I never suspected I was an Aspie. I passed as an “Oddball NT” or just a plain “Normie” Everytime I thought of me having Asperger’s I compared myself to other aspies I encountered.
There was a girl I (admittedly) bullied who had Asperger’s. You could tell she was a little slow. She talked like a robot, couldn’t tell when she was being made fun of, completely inept socially, and had a small speech impediment. People used to call her “crackhead”. Hell I’m the one who gave her the Nickname. Literally no one suspected anything was wrong with me. I was actually popular in High School🤷🏾♂️But after losing my job to a meltdown, a trip to psych ward and a suicide attempt I found out I was on spectrum as well. (Along with 3 separate diagnoses)
Even though Asperger’s isn’t a diagnosis anymore is there a range of severity?From what I understand some aspies get diagnosed right away. Or some go undiagnosed for there whole lives (I.e. Kanye West) | aspergers |
Our restaurant is new and family owned. The only reason I even have this job is because the boss owes my step father a favor, and the only reason they haven't fired me is because his son is autistic too so he is very sympathetic to me.
Everyone loves the food. It is always busy. Everyone loves the atmosphere. We never recieved a single complaint about anything.
Except for me. They are constantly complaining about my "customer service," and no matter how hard I try to be polite and helpful they always find something to complain about.
The owners try to assure me that some customers are just assholes looking to complain about something, but if that were the case you would think we would get at least a few pretending they don't like the food.
It really hurts, knowing that no matter how hard I try to do a good job the only reason I haven't been fired yet is nepotism. | aspergers |
My abuser (m27) got married to the girl (f27) he was ex's with and was highschool sweethearts with wh I was also once friends with when me and my abuser were together.
He looked happy ngl I know its wrong to check on their social media but I can't help but want to find out if their lives are getting any worse than mine.
Summary: abuser is my ex of 2 year and a half, ended it last 2017 cuz of an ugly physical fight. He cheated on me, gaslighted me, hit me on the face, guts, head many times with his hands or an umbrella. Anyway, I'm not perfect. Never said I was, I was destructive and would always do something stupid when he does something wrong i.e. found out he cheated on me and threw money at my face and said he didn't love me anymore (we broke up for a week) so I went and slept with my college crush for kicks.
Anyway, I've also been dealing with childhood trauma besides this from my parents and I can't solely blame everything to him, I know that. But my abuser and his now wife has kept on bugging me since 2019. First, he created a twitter account to hate on me and in his words he has "no regrets" for it. Second, the girl created a fb page with me and his other exs calling us "bitches" when all I did was text him "Just wanted to say hi" one time (i was in a dark place ngl went thru something physically tormenting and thought he owed me comfort from all the shit he put me through). Then the girl or him idk kept on messaging me with multiple fake accounts calling me a bitch or a whore and texting me stuff like "I'm glad "current boyfriend then's name" broke up with you good for him" on my fb account. Also why I deleted that fb account. Third, recently they called me and texted me this January 1 to call me a bitch and a whore again. This time I replied cuz I was at the toilet pooping and I just got pissed off.
Additional info, i know the girls twitter account and she also tweets about being in a toxic relationship and not being able to leave just this January. Thinking about that, wondering how weird it is to marry someone you're toxic with. It baffles me. I know it's hard to get out of a toxic relationship, I was in one too but how idiotic of you to marry them even?
I forgot to mention when the girl and I were "close" I and my ex then told her about abusing me and she even told him "how low can you go as a human being?" So she knew about him abusing me. It's just shitty and I'm currently going thru therapy to help me from the flashbacks and depression. Idk maybe I just want attention or maybe I want to clear my heart from the stories he's telling people that I blackmailed him and stuff. I still don't understand why he hates me so much. I wish I could ask him, I really wish I could. | ptsd |
Hi everyone,
I have my GP ready to provide me with a referral for an ADHD psychiatrist, problem lies in the few that have responded to my messages are not taking on new clients or have a long waiting list.
Can anyone recommend any Telehealth providers that they have used to get an assessment?
I am based in a regional town, so for long term treatment this would also be more convenient than driving hours to and from a city.
Many thanks! | ADHD |
Last night was the worst night I've had in awhile. I do get nightmares normally, but I haven't had a trauma related one for two years. In my nightmare, my father (now deceased,) he was a bad man, and he was telling me to put my hair in a bun. I asked why and said I only do that for important things, but he got aggressive and was forcing me.
Putting my hair in a bun is something I did for ballet, I was in toddler ballet while being abused, and everything about it makes me nauseous, it's hard to think back and see that my fearful behaviors and struggles to do everyday things haven't changed much.
I woke up and immediately grabbed my remote, I keep it on my bed to do this because it is so often. I normally keep it on anything with people talking and light music, Hallmarks, Sponge bob. Once the TV is on, I might get up and put songs on, and I'll watch my phone with videos with people joking and being friendly.
I feel very alone. I wasn't myself today, PTSD feels like being a stone, your body and face is always stoic, but your spirit is never this way... It is distraught and always waiting on something that you don't even know what it is. | ptsd |
Hopefully soon enough I’ll get over my fear and just do it because god damn it needs to happen soon enough.
Fearing death but it also being the only thing you want to finally feel no pain is a CRAZY combo in emotions😂 | depression |
I tried to open up to my father tonight about what ive been through lately. Recently hes been stable and aupportive so i just though hed help me. I started talking and in the middle of it he said to stop. He knew all along but he doesnt want to know the details. He says it makes him too upset.
Like motherfucker it doesnt make me upset? I cant sleep at night anymore, i have gaps in my memory, i have hallucinations that im being attacked and have vivid flashbacks. I don't even feel safe in my own body anymore. I feel like i'm not even in my own fucking body anymore sometimes.
I just have no clue what to do anymore here. I need someone to talk to. Someone real who understands and has been there but no one really has. No offense to this subreddit, yall are great especially when im talking about stuff like this, but i would never talk in detail on here about what i went through. I had 2 brothers who lived it with me but we were in different positions and honestly the one im closest too is autistic and cant connect at all. Today we also tried to talk about it and he didnt offer any push back when i tried to say how futile it all was.
I am angry honestly. I always pictured that if i ended up in the ptsd hole bad again there would be someone to pull me out but there isnt. What do i even do about that? I have a life to live but its so debilitating that i cant even go to the corner store to pick up a drink without feeling like a alien. | ptsd |
2 years ago about my fiancé left without saying any word and blocked me and abandoned me. I’m in a relationship now and have been for about a year and lately when I feel like things are going to too good I start dissociating and break down sobbing. Sometimes out of no where I get the fear of him leaving and the heart break as if it’s actually happening. My family and friends don’t really understand how someone breaking up with you can cause ptsd but the way he did it almost feels like a death. I had no say, there was no communication or warning, and I never saw him again. My boyfriend now is very understanding but I just get so anxious and disassociate sometimes when my boyfriend does nice things for me cuz I’m scared it’ll all be taken away. | ptsd |
Meds have never really worked well for me. I finally found one that worked for me (even if they make me throw up) and I find that I can only focus on the tasks I WANT to do (writing, reading, working on personal projects) instead of the actual schoolwork I need to get done.
Does anyone else feel this way/any tips to combat it? | ADHD |
I’ve noticed my meds (addy XR) seem less effective when on my period. But I’m not sure if this is objectively so, maybe if other people were observing me they would see a difference. So what are your thoughts, do meds make a difference on heavy period days?
Personally, meds really boost my self confidence (I’m a college student) so I don’t want to skip them if I don’t have to but also meds make me have no chill, so if I’m not gonna get anything done today I might want the ability to just take a rest. Thoughts? | ADHD |
Hello, I have been on 450mg of wellbutrin and 225 of Lamictal for multiple years(since i was 15 and I'm 24 now), and I have been recently prescribed 10mg of Buspar in additionto those, and it has been really affecting me in ways I did not expect.
I have been feeling very energized in my everyday life but have been having trouble sleeping at all. I just will not feel tired even when taking a higher dose of my sleeping meds (0.5mg clonidine). I usually get around 3-4 hours of sleep a night at most when I was used to sleeping 6-8 hours.
I'm not sure if this is normal or not. I haven't had too bad side effects from the lack of sleep, so it's not that much of an issue currently.
I would just like to know if this is normal and will adjust in time or if I should talk to my doctor about it. | depression |
Combines my two favorite activities:
- staring at the ground
- repeating the same behavior 10,000 times | aspergers |
This past month I've been struggling with awful executive dysfunction it's spiralled into self loathing and depression. Everything in my life is a mess and I feel like I'm not ready for this uphill battle anymore. I can't even get the basics done because my mind won't stay focused for a moment.
So today I had some important deadlines and appointments coming up and I cancelled them last minute because the overwhelm is too much. It looks really careless on my part and I know its just going to make matters worse but I don't know anymore.
I am so burnt out and I can't commit to anything. | ADHD |
While in social situations, my mind is always hyperanalyzing the people around me and how I'm percieved through their eyes, so much that I've realized that I often forget, or simply am not able to smile. As a result, this often leads to people not wanting to interact with me because they find me a bit hostile looking.
Whenever I go outside it's like a switch is flicked within me that locks certain parts of me and I become a blander version of myself. It's easy and natural when I'm at home or with my best friends, but I have no idea how to stop these inner limitations while out in public.
Anyone else got something similar going on?
I should probably mention I've been diagnosed with social anxiety as well on top of my Aspergers. | aspergers |
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