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I cant even explain why, the people I find in VR chat are diffrent from those I know in real life. I connect with folk more deeply then I ever have before.
The popuplar public areas are bad because of all the kids and people doing noisy annoying meme stuff but there are so many worlds where its just 5-6 people sharing stuff about there life. Its beautiful honestly. | aspergers |
I just want to be as straight forward as possible,so here’s some background info:
I am 16 years old, i take 10mg of Adderall IR daily for my “ADHD”, I’ve always been a perfectionist, but i’ve also never been good at things i try, i don’t do much outside of work and school, i constantly have extreme feelings of guilt about several things, and my parents got divorced when i was 13. I’ve also been having issues with eating where i will start to eat, and then have terrible intrusive thoughts and have a complete loss of appetite.
One day, when I was talking about these problems with a close friend, he told me about his OCD, which i had no idea about prior to our conversation. He told me about moral scrupulosity, and i felt as if it made sense for a lot of my issues. I talked to my doctor about (not a psychiatrist, but my doctor) it just for her view on it, and she said it wouldn’t be too far fetched of an assumption to think I had scrupulosity.
I just want to know if i should talk to a psychiatrist about this, or just give it time and blow it off as hormones.
I know i’m asking reddit about this, which may seem stupid, but i just want advice from real people who have OCD. | OCD |
I’ve been so lonely for awhile now and I’m starting to wonder if people hate or dislike or don’t want to be around me because I’m different, I’ve had PTSD since i was a kid due to molesting and abuse by my biological father and later my older sister (oddly enough I still enjoy sexual stuff) and because of that I act quite different and i feel like no one understands me, I end up feeling super alone and even depressed because, is this normal at all? (Btw i also have Schizophrenia, ADD, Paranoia, Anxiety, and depression sometimes) | ptsd |
So I had clean laundry that ended up on the floor. You know when you put the laundry on your bed, like, I’ll have to put it away before I can sleep! But then it ends up on the floor anyway..?
Well, it was on the floor for so long, mingling with the dirty laundry pile and being slept on by cats… Then one day, my meds were being particularly helpful, I ran a bunch of laundry! But then failed to put it away, and it became a pile on the floor again, this time a kept little further from the dirty pile.
Well yesterday, I put it back on the bed, hoping I’d put it away or something. And when I needed to go to bed, I put it back on the floor BUT as I was moving it I sorted it into categories! ONE STEP CLOSER! Baby steps! *Now there’s **sorted** clean laundry on the floor*. Maybe I’ll move just one pile up to the bed today and see if I can get it further sorted or put away.
**Tl;dr** When you’ve put your clean clothes pile on the bed, with the hopes you’ll sort it, and you’re moving it back to the floor again, sort it as you move it! Baby steps! | ADHD |
Title, basically. I’m on Prozac for my OCD and it’s completely changed my life, but I’m finding that it isn’t a cure-all.
When it comes time to organize my closet or clean my room, I find myself getting overwhelmed by just how much there is to do, and I end up wanting to just purge everything I own and rearrange the layout of my room.
It’s really frustrating and I’m not really sure what I can do to combat this reaction. Anyone have any tips? | OCD |
Hi, i'm 17 and i've been struggling with a lot a LOT of intrussive thoughts and it's been absolute hell from doubting if i'm sane to now doubting mi sexuality, it's always something that affects my identity. Thing is i was recovering from OCD and was feelin like i finally made peace with myself, like i'm finally the person i always wanted and was meant to be and was incredibly happy, but when going to masturbate i encountered and old video that brought me memories and i remembered struggling with HOCD a long time ago, i remember having fear of being homosexual and i used to think what if i like my classmate? and this thought would pop up suddenly with a lot of people and i felt incredibly uncomftable about it, and as i usally do with OCD i made things worse, i always tried to give me explanations like, no you don't like men it's something you just brought up because of the fear of being someone that you aren't and then i thought because if you actually liked a boy you'd fantazise about it or something and then i accidentally made up a fantasy to fuck my mind more, this fantasies were never something that i liked it just made extremely and just make me doubt more, i used tu jack off and ruin it to myself with mental pictures of men and tried to go for another one cuz i wanted to get it right this time but that always failed i just kept making those thoughts stronger. Back to the present remembering all of this has me absolutely confused, my mind tells me "what if you actually liked guys all of this time and those classmates you thought of were actually attractive to you" "what if you've been gay all along because when you were little some people thought you were gay" i have absolutely nothing against gay people and i respect them like i respect everyone else but the thought of having this life changing thing absolutely scares me, but then again i also thought that i was going to go insane at one point of my life because of intrussive thoughts so i don't know what to think. Before remembering i had no problem at all with seeing penis and men like nothing at all i already had get over it and even now with all this fear i now i like women, like i tried fantazasing about girls and then men to compare and i don't feel aroused by men at all but this fear and the doubt itself of what if am actually in denial just makes me scared | OCD |
Number one: I have been yelled at or fussed at by either my wife or my family every holiday of every year of my life that I can remember.
Number two: I have no reason to expect it to be any different in the future.
I don’t know why I still look forward to this time of year. This is small in comparison to what I am dealing with overall but just might be the thing that I need to go through with what I’ve been thinking about for a long time. | depression |
So I’ve got over thinking I’m doing harm with my body fluids or germ, but now when I walk somewhere that could have germs/body fluids or don’t clean things obsessively my brain tells me I’m doing it on purpose to get some kind of like pleasure from spreading it later, like I’m a predator. This of course causes me distress, and makes me clean my self and things. Anybody else go through this and how did you do exposures to get over this? | OCD |
I hate silence and i'm getting tired of my playlist, so if anyone wants to leave some music recommendations comment them, specifically sad songs :) | depression |
i have been diagnosed with ocd like a month ago and for past few days i have these scary images of vile creatures lurking in my bedroom and my whole sleep pattern has been disturbed , its just so scary that i cant control the thoughts just before i go to sleep and i seem to be pretty fine during day . i get so anxious . does anyone else have this issue | OCD |
For me its this:
\-No Jam, Mayonnaise or Ketchup. These are the worst. I have to wash my hands after touching just the jar or bottle of any of these, especially if they have been opened before. You cant put ketchup on my plate next to my plate otherwise I will not eat it because ketuchup could've splashed in it. When the tuna and sweetcorn has been eaten and the tupperware is in the sink to be washed, I throw it away because I wont risk using that container again because it could have leftover mayo. I will gag to the point of throwing up if there any ketchup in my burger which happens too often even though I always ask McDonalds to take it out.
\- I used to not be able to touch cheerios and would only eat cornflakes when I was about four. My dad refilled the cereal container that had a single cheerio lying on the bottom with cornflakes and I realised. When he poured me a bowl before school, I started crying because I was scared of the cheerio. He forced me to eat it and as soon as I stood up I projectile-vomited all over the floor
\- When I was 9/10 years old I didnt like to eat lunch or breakfast, only dinner. This lead to me being very underweight and my parents worried sick that I was anorexic. I also went mute sometimes. I put all the sandwiches my mum gave me for lunch at the bottom of my bag to the point that there were maggots at the bottom. My mum still does not know this.
\- I do not like the smell of boiled water because it makes me sick
\- I can't physically drink out of certain cups and also some types of water and especially in this hot weather (UK) it is making me very dehydrated. There is only one cup in the house my brain will let me drink out of at the moment and my siblings keep using it . I can't wash it because I don't like drinking out of cups that have just been washed because I am scared of soap in my drink. I also cant use the sponge if the last thing it was used to wash was a plate, not a cup. If the good cup is there I have to drink bottled water. When I was little I had to drink tap and bottled water mixed, a couple months ago only tap water and now we're full cycle with only bottled water. There is often no bottled water which means that I can't drink. If im really dehydrated, I will take a mouthful of water directly from the tap but I gag. | aspergers |
Hey! I first want to leave a content warning just in case!
I was wondering if anyone else has had this experience or if it’s common at all. But essentially I have quite a bit of trauma from my childhood as well as past abusive relationships that very much do effect me to this day.
One thing I’ve always been painfully aware of is despite this trauma I’ve always been way too willing to completely open up to someone and trust them within the first few times I’ve met them. Because of this I have been used a lot and hurt a lot so at this point I should be able to be more wary of those I meet. However I still continue this cycle of trust and hurt.
Does anyone else experience this? Is there potentially something else going on besides my ptsd? | ptsd |
Be honest. I don’t, but I have encountered Aspies who do. | aspergers |
I wish I could just cry to ease the struggle, just let it all out. But no, instead I beat myself (both mentally and physically) over some of the pettiest shit. Having trouble learning the guitar, telling myself I'm an incompetent sack of shit. Losing too much in Halo or any other multiplayer game, I throw a tantrum like a little bitch. I try drawing and painting, and everything I create looks more or less horrendous. Studying for university entrance exams feels less than hopeless sometimes, alas anger. "Well why do you keep doing things that make you angry?" Because almost EVERYTHING feels so fucking difficult and I'm going to get pissed either way. And if I keep doing the easier stuff in life, I'm not going to succeed in the things I WANT to be good at. I'm never getting anywhere if I don't do shit.
This has gotten to a point where I don't want to be in a Discord call with my friends while trying to actually do something, because after a while I notice I'm just having a furious monologue with myself, because my friends don't know what to say. And it feels so embarrassing. I feel like such an awful friend, because I know it affects them too.
I know I criticize myself way too much and I should be merciful to myself, but good God it is difficult. I know failure should act as a teacher of sorts and improving is a long journey. And I compare myself to other too often. I KNOW these things, but my irrational anger and impatience gets in the way of me trying to better myself. I still have to fix my sleeping schedule, work out more often etc. but it's a whole different thing to KNOW what to do than actually go and DO it. It's hard, it really is.
This post is all over the place but I just wanted to vent a little bit. It's been a rough couple of days. Thanks for reading. | depression |
Just once I'd like to feel loved, safe, valuable, a person instead of a thing, but my family and every relationship outside of it destroyed me beyond repair and I feel like they're all rooting for my death at this point. I'm a failed experiment, something that shouldn't exist, an abomination that the world constantly reminds me that I will only be hated and abused. I can't even live as a hermit because my mind is defective and my body is failing me.
I wish I had access to voluntary euthanasia and just stop existing altogether, but I don't even deserve that much... | depression |
I downplay my “traumatic” experiences and how much they affect me. I read stories of what other people have been through and see the experiences I’ve lived through as pitiful. Sometimes I feel like if I described the situations I deem “somewhat traumatic” to someone they would see them as horrible but I’ve downplayed them so much in my head I’ve begun to refuse that they should effect me so much. | ptsd |
Recently my housemate has been really triggering my contamination OCD and it's driving me insane. I already really struggle with it and with just life in general.
She keeps bringing up how things are dirty and full of bacteria. I manage my contamination OCD by being ignorant to how dirty certain items in my home are, but her saying this just pushed me over the edge and now I can't stop thinking about it.
I don't know how to bring this up with her without completely loosing my crap and yelling to be honest. Does anyone know a good way to bring up with something their doing something triggering, or have any resources I could send her to educate her on what not to do/say to someone with OCD?
I'd really appreciate any advice, I feel like I'm loosing my mind here a bit. | OCD |
Hello! I am a Male(19). I take Adderall XR 30MG. And I have some concerns I would like to talk about and give my own personal experience.
I started taking Adderall a few months ago and I have been dealing with on/off results ever since then. I heard that if you eat or drink acidic foods or drinks such as Orange, Apple juice, soda, or sweets right before or after you take Adderall, it affects how much the medication will work for you.
Is this true? Cause today I had apple juice, soda, and Subway today before I took my medication and the positive effects really weren’t there much.
What else should I avoid to keep the positive effects of Adderall? | ADHD |
Like a lot of you I'm a chatterbox and a bit of a social butterfly. But around my family I feel like a loner weirdo.
I think a big part is that our interests are so different, but maybe also my struggles are really different too? It might be that part of me is embarrassed to not be more successful at this point in me life.
How are you about seeing your family? | ADHD |
I’ve already posted this is r/AspieGirls and r/AutismInWomen, so sorry if you’re seeing this twice (or thrice).
I’ve been putting off emailing someone for weeks. I want to ask them if I can meet them to have a chat ant for some help with my mental health and some personal problems. They have helped me before and have expressed many times that they are always happy to help and that I can ask whenever I need to but I can’t help but feel a burden. Also, I just get anxious in general sending emails to people, especially people I look up to. Does anyone have any advice?
On a slightly separate note does anyone get periods of time where they feel down and on the verge of tears but also not like they want to cry. Like…my body just feels on edge and I need to move and I feel anxious and can’t do anything without a lot of effort? It usually lasts from a few hours to a day. I have some trouble identifying and explaining my emotions/knowing why I feel certain ways, so I haven’t described this as well as I would want to.
(I’m undiagnosed 18F, thinking of self-diagnosing) | aspergers |
My cousin was stuffing bags for her baby shower and got mad because i didn’t immediately start helping her. But like…she didn’t ask??? How was I supposed to know she wanted me to help?? | aspergers |
I find it super hard to pay full attention to absolutely anything ever and pretty much always I find I focus and process information better when I'm stimming or doing a puzzle on my phone at the same time.
But every now and then a unicorn comes along that manages to do the impossible, keeping me fully engaged even up to 25 minutes.
For me it's ASMR beauty videos, specifically facials. It's so relaxing, it feels like meditation.
What does it for you? What is it about them that holds your attention? | ADHD |
I literally only know a quarter of what I’m supposed to study. I didn’t sleep thinking that it’ll give me time. but I procrastinated through that as well. it’s stupid because If I study, I’m confident I’ll get good grades.
I can’t shower properly, I stopped drawing months ago and now I can’t do the most important thing I’m supposed to.
even my hobbies that I share with others (obligated to because I promised to do work like proofreading and translating) I can’t do anymore. the fact that I made promises used to make me do my work. but now, even that I can’t achieve.
my little siblings who are fond of me feel left out. they love me deeply despite me being neglectful of them. I can’t return a smile, I hate hugging and I don’t answer when they speak to me. we have only been living together for a year. and I have crushed their expectation of what it might be like living with their older sibling.
it’s been two months and I have not made a friend. I am kinda extraverted by nature. but I have forgotten how to approach people. | depression |
Now I've only been taking Elvanse Adult 30mg for about a week and I am due to have an appointment with my psychiatrist next week but I'm really struggling with feeling agitated and snapping at people all the time.
I just feel like my patience is non existent and I'm getting annoyed by things that wouldn't usually annoy me!
Is this something that usually happens when starting out with stimulants? Is there a chance this side effect will wear off in time or shall I see if my psychiatrist will be willing to prescribe me a different medication?
I know I haven't been taking this medication long at all but this side effect is making me hate myself and I feel like it's making me be an awful partner and mum to my toddler :( | ADHD |
One of the primary differentiations regularly identified between neurotypical and neurodivergent individuals is a capacity for 'social thought' as opposed to 'logical thought' (Hoss, 1992). Neurotypical individuals are often perceived by neurodivergents as being naively accepting of information that comes with alleged social 'authority' (whether that be from a figure of authority or due to its acceptance by a large number of people) and not questioning its validity (Qiang & Pickton, 2003), while neurodivergents are often seen as being overly analytical and rigid in their thinking, only accepting information judged as being 'scientific' or 'logical' (Kaduk, Renczi & Raghav, 2012). However, this notion has recently been challenged by a more nuanced perspective that suggests the difference lies not in a dichotomous 'neurological rift' between these types of humans, but instead is based on individual acceptance of neurotypical narratives based on psychological needs (Greco et al., 2020). To frame it another way, both types of people are equally capable of naive and unquestioning absorption of external narratives that circumvent logical analysis based on each individual's adaptation of social narratives that support their own worldview (Little, 2019). The primary differentiation is not that one is more 'logical' or 'emotional' as is often supposed but that individuals identifying with different neurotypes tend to be attracted to common social narratives (Lopez, 2018). For example, neurodivergent individuals perceiving themselves to be more 'logical' will often absorb narratives thematically associated with 'scientific' perspectives (Barnabet, 2017). However, this is not neurotype-specific, as many identified neurotypicals also absorb 'scientific' narratives as a means of reinforcing their own self-identity as more rational individuals. An example of the commonality of this confluence of perspectives is in academic referencing, where both 'logical' neurodivergents and neurotypicals wanting to be perceived as 'logical' will accept information with referencing, or with convoluted and lengthy explanations, as intrinsically having a greater level of validity and social value (Ridgway, 2017). However, these individuals are in fact just as likely to be absorbing fallacious data as anyone cleaving to other perspectives, if their acceptance is based on presentation (eg. referencing) as opposed to actual investigation of the data for independent analysis (Kramer, 1999). For example, very few people encountering a scholarly paper written in a similar format to this would check each and every reference, examining the motivations and capacities of each author (Kaduk & Boger, 1978). Instead the majority accept its veracity on appearance and internal consistency, meaning they are unable to tell which of the quoted sources are serial killers, and which are n\*zi death camp officers (datreus, 2021). Which is why constant examination of one's own perspectives and confirmation bias is essential, as well as remaining respectful when questioning divergent views, no matter how alien they may seem. Although neurotypes may see the world in quite radical ways at times, no type is 'superior' or 'inferior' and all can enrich and inform others. | aspergers |
Hi there I just wanted to know what I should expect with this process? I have been struggling with what I strongly believe are ADHD symptoms for 2 years now. I’ve always had struggled with it a little but since Covid I’ve had no structure in my life really so I feel like I’m just experiencing it on a whole new level. I just what to know what I’m going to be going into lol. Do they j do one appointment and diagnose you right then or is it a lengthier process? | ADHD |
Therapy & meds work! Yes I had some anxiety but I was able to de-escalate my thoughts & resist my compulsions. The intrusive thoughts died down and I was able to focus on my day. I’m really proud of myself because I struggled a LOT yesterday. I really need to stop underestimating the power I have over my ocd... | OCD |
Hello everyone
Does anyone used to struggle a lot more with facing responsibilities? Avoiding it to the max rate possible? And after medication, you can set up a day tuned on what once was a nightmare?
Because now I felt like I let 28 years of my life went by thinking I was somehow broke, lazy, or just with peterpan syndrom.
I can usually be patient because Im rational, but it used to be more of a struggle.
I still have problems with panicking around daily jobs. | ADHD |
I have done so much healing and feel like I can almost be a normal person. I didn’t think healing was possible and I never thought I’d be able to feel this way. I hope that it lasts. | ptsd |
Hello everyone!
I have been looking into ADHD as I have a feeling that I have some kind of mental capacity. It could be anxiety or ADHD, although I'm leaning more to ADHD. Ironically, my mom did make some examinations for me when I was young, but she never followed through since I was not hyperactive. I want to get the diagnosis because I feel that I am not making it in life. I have so many ideas and potential, but I am feeling I am falling through the ocean waves. When I was in school, the school actually wanted to withhold me for a grade, but my mom fought and taught me the school material I needed to pass. I feel my mom actuallly prevented me from figuring if I had ADHD of Asperger's or anxiety because she wanted me to be a extroverted sports player with physical and knowledge allocades-- the son she wanted. Ironically, I think she might have ADHD too -- we both always stop what we are doing to do whatever flcikers the lightbulb in our head. I have learned to work through with school by playing to my strengths and using games to study as well as competitiveness. Im 26 and I have never had a relationship, although I am not sure being gay affects anything. I have been late developmentally. While at parties I have always perfered to stay with the adults. I have noticed that with jobs I have a few week/months where I like the newness but then I get to a sort of complacency where I just go with the flow without really care about the world. If people go to the contrary of my thoughts I tend be very petty. I want to find out what is going on with me so that I can live fully. Any help appreciated. Sorry if it is just jumbles this is more of a stream of consicoussness.
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EDIT: I also can't keep my rooms clean. Like I want to clean but I just do not know where to start or what to do. Also, I can plan about everything but then not able to go on through it. Like I have a plan to lose weight and build muscle and can go through it for a few moments but that's it. I actually felt my best during quarantine. | ADHD |
I've noticed that I start off very passionate about a job and I'm hyper-focused on doing what I want to do in order to fix things.
But as time goes on, your job role changes and the things you focused on in the past no longer work.
Essentially that has happened where I work and the job has changed so much that I have ZERO motivation or passion. Everyday I come in and just trudge through the day hardly changing anything and bullshitting to my manager. The things they want me to do now aren't enjoyable to me and the old things I used to enjoy were done months and months ago.
If I'm not interested in something I just zone out and don't bother because my brain simply cannot focus on something I don't enjoy.
How do you deal with this? I'm just thinking of quitting. I feel bad that someone could replace me and actually do a good job for the company. | ADHD |
I was wondering if anyone else's obsessions have a "hyper-responsibility" element to them. I don't know if this is an official term, but I've seen the term used in some OCD websites and videos.
I have some contamination and harm obsessions. So as an example, I'm concerned that some of my germs or bacteria could get on me and spread to someone else, either making them sick or killing them. As another example, it can be hard to see something that looks "dangerous" in the road or sidewalk and not pick it up because, "what if someone is hurt by it."
So I was wondering if anyone else has gone through this and developed any ways to think about it. Most of what I read about Exposure and Response would be to just "ignore" the object in the sidewalk. It's just that you have to live with the uncertainty. Yet, this always feels so callous especially to me as the person struggling with this, although part of me understands there's not much choice. I'm just wondering if anyone has found any new ways of thinking about these things.
I remember one time as I was walking I went by this grassy area and I saw a cigarette in the grass. I kept walking a few more steps until I suddenly had the urge to pick it up. At the same moment, I imagined the cigarette somehow catching on fire, which lit the grass on fire, which then lit the building next to it on fire, and it would all be fault. I hesitated to pick it up and kept walking. I didn't get a few more steps until I saw another cigarette. Then I realized. There must be 1000s of cigarettes all over town as well as thousand of other dangerous objects. Should I spend all my time looking for these objects? Why am I only connected to the ones I see but not the ones I know must logically be out there? There must be broken glass all over sidewalks that could hurt someone, yet I feel no reason to go pick it up.
This kind of put in perspective, but it still feels hard. | OCD |
Today, 3 days before my 21st birthday, my dad told me to leave and never return to his home, along aside that he’s with held important information from me that I just found out today… here’s my story..
For the past two months I have been struggling to pay bills, and although I didn’t ask for (or wanted and you’ll soon know why) to help, my step mom noticed and she helped me by giving me money to pay off somethings. Well within this last week, she’s been picking at my skin and making me feel like a disappointment for not making it perfectly out on my own. Normally I’d bite my tongue and ignore it, but just yesterday she crossed my last line and I couldn’t take it anymore. I popped back at her and when she proceed to tell me I was nothing but like my biological mother (who is a drug addict who’s made a lot of bad mistakes and is sitting on her death bed rn) I got up and left. I had no means to talk to them again after this. This women tried to rip my eyes out of my skull on my 19th birthday, and last Christmas she slammed me into a semi truck. My last straw was broken and I wanted to not ever go back in hopes that my dad would see the pain I’m in. Well just that night, I came home to find my cat…my only best friend…had been killed. With that I had no choice but to tell my dad, for I live in an apartment complex and have no money to cremate him or no place to bury them. He told me to bring him this morning to bury and I did, with the plan to go and to leave ASAP. Well as my dad was digging he told me I needed to apologize to my step mom..with that I refused and everything escalated from there. He took her side once again on things, he told me that she didn’t have to apologize and that I was just playing the blame game again and that I was being an ungrateful child. Even though, all of this started because she was making me feel like a piece of shit once again and not regarding my mentality or emotions. Well before I left the last thing he said to me was to never come back…and on my way back home my step mom started blowing up my phone and harassing me. Within everything she had to say which nothing was nice at all, she told me that back in 2013 I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and that I’ve been nothing but the perfect victim my entire life. It’s now 2021…they have with held this information from me for almost a decade… they told me I was took out of therapy because it was a waste of money..and they did nothing to help me. I was told constantly that my feelings meant nothing that I was over reacting and ungrateful and even stupid… and After knowing this…I’ve come to the realization that after all these years of just wanting my dad because he up and left two years before “to make a better life for me” he never gave a shit in the first place. He found a new woman…and ever since then all this has been just a big fuck you. I’ve now learned that just because he’s your dad, it doesn’t mean he actually cares about you… | depression |
I had been taking 300mg Wellbutrin for about 3 years which was working pretty well to treat my depression. The last 6 months my anxiety has been getting worse so my doctor has been shifting my meds to address that. I tried adding 2 different SSRIs that were in effective and now am switching over to an SNRI. Because of the side effects, my doctor had me stop the Wellbutrin completely as I added the Pristiq. I’ve been off of it for a few weeks now and have never felt so exhausted. Has anyone else had this experience after going off long term Wellbutrin?
At what point did you stop feeling so tired? | depression |
i have OCD and i also notice really weird synchronicities. i believe that the universe tries to convey messages which is seperate from my OCD. but today i’m really anxious because my fears keep popping up. in person, social media, in my words i even accidentally said something when i was speaking too fast. now i’m really scared. | OCD |
I’ve been struggling with depression off and on for a good 12 years up to around 3 weeks ago I’ve had it under control. About 2 months ago I told a friend/ old coworker (I was told by a mutual friend that she liked me) how I felt about her and as always when I do that I was friend zoned. I got depressed but bounced out of it. Not quite a month ago I lost interest in a lot of stuff I’ve loved last week I started drinking more than I should to try to numb the pain I drank myself to sleep 4 nights in a row I was feeling better for a couple nights but yesterday was rough and the person I opened up to about it just had a beautiful baby and I really don’t want to take anything away joy away from her. I want a family like she’s beginning but I hardly have friends that care at all. I’m not suicidal but at the same time I don’t care to live… I just needed to get all of this shit off my chest | depression |
There’s just something about exercising and getting to forget about all of the other extra things that makes me feel better.
I played competitive soccer for my whole life until college, and when I got to college I started going to the gym and playing intramural soccer but it wasn’t enough, and it’s not the same.
Recently I took up rock climbing and joined the rugby team at my school, both sports that were completely unfamiliar to me before I started. I’m a natural athlete and I’ve gotten really good at both even as a beginner.
It makes me feel so good I can’t even explain it. It’s not like other things I use to pass time, because when I play sports I get to use my brain and my body together and I feel like a superhero—especially because when I learn new things and get better it’s so fulfilling. School is just as difficult as before and I’m still struggling, but now that I have something I love that takes up a lot of my dedicated time and energy, I’m pushing myself to complete assignments and sleep well and eat enough, whereas before those important things stayed on the back burner no matter what I tried.
Through these sports I’ve also met so many people with ADHD. It’s like pushing yourself mentally and physically is a magnet for some of us. Getting to be around so many people who understand and feel the same way I do is so refreshing.
Don’t get me wrong, my anxiety about school and my ADHD is still running rampant. That probably won’t change any time soon. But now I feel like my effort is showing.
Just wanted to share this experience with the crew. Love you all, hoping for better days ahead for everyone ❤️. | ADHD |
I played my friends piano like four weeks ago and ever since I’ve been constantly thinking about touching those keys again! I can’t just buy a piano, because GOD knows how much those cost. It being the Christmas season doesn’t help at all either, with tons piano pieces I end up itching to play. And all the video game/movie soundtracks (mostly Minecraft)? I’m getting off track. It’s whatever, I’m sure this will fizzle out eventually. | ADHD |
Hi, it's my first post and I'm not even sure how to get it out so I'm just quickly typing. Newly diagnosed and learning/working on it. I'm experiencing a shame/embarrassment that seems to be kind of common around here...anyway, I see no need to talk explicitly about my trauma here. I guess just know that it stems from events in my childhood and some later ones and I've had episodes for 20+ years that I'm just now learning to put words/context/definition to. I feel creepy/gross/ashamed even typing this out but I'm trying to be brave and honest here.
I really feel like what I'm about to type out is related to and/or is a trigger for my trauma experiences and otherwise is unrelated. But the ways that I'm being hypervigilant, my racing mind/rumination, obsessiveness...it all feels like the exact same patterns I've periodically acted out my entire life since childhood.
Anyway...my girlfriend of a couple years and I broke up briefly over the summer. In that time, we each slept with someone else. Now, 5-6 months later, I find myself obsessively jealous of this other guy and their brief fling, \*even though\* I also had a fling! I've never, ever, ever been one to care about this sort of thing or my partner's past, except this guy now. I feel like an absolute unreasonable creep.
They remain friends on social media and I find myself triggered from the smallest things, like a "like" on facebook or something. I ruminate or am hypervigilant, find myself obsessively checking her and his profiles...I've deleted sm only to go back...sometimes I'll check it 100 times in a day. I get nightmares and can't sleep and can't stop thinking about this guy, or them having sex, etc., even though intellectually I \*don't care\* (I think).
I've talked to her about it and told her how uncomfortable it made me that she was even friends with him on sm, but the reality is that this guy is part of her community and is always going to be around, social media friends or not.
I've always been confident as a lover/partner. Really want to get over this. I guess I'm just hoping someone can offer help/advice. May be hard to see how this is ptsd-related, but I'm honestly just falling back into patterns of hypervigilence/acting out that I've been in before (though in different/ways contexts -- still feels emotionally the same). | ptsd |
Was wondering if anyone could relate to this. What I hate the most about this type of depressive mood is that it doesn't just numb you to all emotions, which would be preferable. It's like the only part of my brain that gets activated are the part that tells me that I'm stupid/ugly/unlikeable. I can't even enjoy music or art or fresh air. Has anyone else experienced this? And secondly, has anyone found ways to mitigate this and find ways to boost your happiness, if only a little bit/gradually? All advice appreciated. | depression |
I was testing this for a few days and my psychiatrist aproved of it. It worked like three out of five times I used it. I wanna know if its gonna work for someone here
The first part is basically picturing with great detail the opposite of what you're worried is happening. Afraid the door is unlocked? Dont go check yet, try imagining with great detail the door being already locked. Imagine someone trying to force it open and it not working -cause its locked- and them going away.
Afraid the stove must be on? Picture with great detail that round thingy pointing up. It needs to be really detailed, spend time picturing it (that also helps calming down cause youre busy with something else)
I tried this for example when I was afraid there was something in my room with me at night. Instead of turning the lights on, I pictured the empty room. It takes a while but it works.
The second part is the most important, as soon as you feel a smidge better with picturing the opposite, you make yourself busy with something else.
I hope someone here can make use of it, please let me know if it worked. Hope you guys are doing okay
(Sorry if the flair doesnt make sense I didnt know which one to use) | OCD |
I used to be a great student, only bringing in A’s. But this year I’ve noticed that my grades have been heavily dropping. Now I get C’s and B’s, and my parents (who are immigrants and both went to prestigious colleges) are mad at me. I don’t know what to fucking do anymore in all honesty. Even when I try to study I fail, even when I think a test goes good I get a shit grade. And now it’s affecting me mentally. I’ve been feeling sadder and more depressed lately, and even my parents picked up on it. I guess they aren’t concerned enough to bring me to a professional or actually talk to me about mental health but they did comment on me seeming “slower than usual” and “more sad”. I seriously have no fucking clue what to do anymore, my life is falling apart. I get no joy from anything, i feel like I’m a robot who just does the same things everyday. I have no more emotions. I laugh and I smile, but that doesn’t mean anything. At the end of the day, I still end up on my bed kicking myself over my mistakes (mostly my shit grades). Does anyone have advice? I dont know how I can even make it anymore | depression |
1.TRY ALL SSRI max dose (luvox-lexapro-prozac-zoloft)
2.SWITCH TO A SNRI (cymbalta)
3.SWITCH TO TCA (Anafranil)
3.ADD NAC
4.ADD MEMANTINE
5.ADD ANTIPSYCHOTICS ( Aripipazole or Risperidone)
6. Quit all above use riluzole or cyclserine
7. Quit all try Ketamine or Trazodol
8. Add a low dose of Xanax or Klonopin
9. Beta blockers
Comment which step are you in? | OCD |
I just wanted to tell you all thanks. 42/m, just diagnosed with CPTSD in June. Joined up here & r/CPTSD because I wondered if all of this was in my head, doubted my diagnosis & didn't want to believe it, & felt like the only person in the world who was this messed up.
I've read your stories & problems & thought "Hey, that's totally me!" more times than I can count. When I post, I get immediate support that my family can't provide because they don't understand & thankfully don't suffer from this.
You do understand. 24/7, from all around the world, every gender/age group/race/social class/sexual orientation & any other group of humanity out there. I go to therapy 2-5 times a month as I can schedule or afford it. I come here 2-5 times a day, at least.
If I'm up awake at 2am, you're there.
When I'm having a rough day at work & hiding out in a bathroom stall, you understand why.
When I have family & interpersonal issues, you get it. Nobody tells me anything here is my fault in any way, ever.
Thanks, everyone, even you lurkers who never post or reply. We understand that, too. | ptsd |
For those here that are taking medication or have taken medications for ADHD;
I have read how high vitamin C- foods and beverages, and in general acidic drinks, can interfere with the basic adhd medications. At first I was only aware of the vitamin C- connection (orange and grapefruit juice).
What are people's experiences here? How long do you usually space out the intake of such content around medication?
Further; How do you feel the quality and length of your sleep tend to affect the experienced effects of medication?
*When I tried to find information on this, all I could find was how the medication affected sleep - not the other way around.*
I am sorry if this has been asked a lot before or is against the community rules, I did check the list first. | ADHD |
My parents talk negatively about me behind my back. I'm the oldest of three siblings and thry have told me while we were talking (separate and different occasions) that my parents talk about me behind my back.
It makes me feel terrible, that my parents think of me like that, and my siblings know, and thry said (in a 'nice' way) that they know where my parents are coming from and they're not entirely wrong and no one takes me seriously.
My youngest sister is 11 and she parrots things mom and dad say. "youre 20 years old, gry a house", "why are you still living here", "stop buying shit online", "this is why you can't afford nice things", "you're poor", "get a bf", "get married", "get your driving licence". Etc.
It all piles up and I dont know how to talk to them about it. My parents told me its ok to live here, and im better to stay here until I can buy a house then waste money on rent. They say they're proud lf me whenever something luke that comes up, and I would've never guessed they talked shit until my siblings talked shit about me too, to my face.
I dont know how to bring it up to my parents, that its not okay to say these things, esp with my siblings in the room, etc without getting argumentative or start crying. Everytime I raise a complaint they always get defensive, or agree to me.. Then keep doing it again later.
Believe me, I would love to move out, but I dont have the money right now, and I woyldnt know what to do. | depression |
I'm not diagnosed with adhd but after reading through this sub and online I'm 95% sure I have inattentive add. Too many times when I'm in a conversation with somebody one of two things will most likely happen. Either I'll have a hard time staying focused and miss part of what they're saying; or I can manage to stay engaged and nothing will come up in my brain to say or the words that I'm thinking come out incoherent. A lot of times I feel like people think I'm stupid when I'm not I can't help this shit. Another common thing Ik we all experience is struggling to maintain relationships if I don't see one of my friends for awhile I have a hard time picking up the phone to call anybody even my family. I feel like a piece of shit a lot of the time for that too. How do I stop this endless cycle of sitting in my room all day trapped in my head? | ADHD |
I have been exploring Asperger lately and learn the term 'Masking'.
From my understanding, it's not being true to yourself when you are with someone in order to blend in. An example maybe is to tone down your thoughts when you feel that it can hurt someone even though it is the truth. I don't know if this is the correct example of Masking.
I would like to know more about this in a deeper level. I believe masking would be different per person and it would be nice to know how it affects you.
For those who feel that they have done this, can you site some examples on how you mask thing? If you weren't masking it, you would be acting/doing it this way. What is the effect on you when you mask - Physically, psychological, etc? | aspergers |
In May of 2020 I was in a car accident, it was bad, very bad. The highway patrol was certain they were going to see a corpse in my vehicle, that level of bad. But I survived with a few broken bones. Including several pelvic fractures, but I was walking within a week.
The first week after the wreck was awful. Nightmares, shaking, random crying spells and even the urge to take my own life. (That urge was beaten back and has never reared itself since, if I start to feel off, I call my therapist. Even if it's 2am on a Sunday.)
I slowly worked my way back mentally, I can even travel through that intersection without my heart rate spiking. Made a lot of progress. But sometimes it rears it's head. Two days ago I was so overwhelmed with flashbacks I had to pull over and was late for work. I've had trouble sleeping, every time I close my eyes I just see the grill of that truck in my drivers window again. I've talked to my therapist, but it isn't helping. Tried talking to my S.O. about it, but she isn't able to help either. It's 3:20am and I'm standing in the bathroom, fighting back tears while I write this.
I just want it to stop, I want my life back. PTSD, you can't have control, I refuse. I'm gonna charlie mike, fuck you PTSD, you won't win.
Thanks for hearing me.
(Side note, I'm not feeling an urge to die or inflict self harm. I'm just having a moment. Been texting my therapist for an hour. I'm being proactive to get through this.) | ptsd |
I have my triggers pretty well controlled, as in the majority of the time. Which I'm feeling good about. But I'm noticing I'm dissociating daily, I feel like this more days than not, particularly with family.
How can I make this stop? I really hate it. I was so proud of my progress but now I feel I haven't really made any 😔 | ptsd |
Hello guys, I was just wondering, does anyone else suffer from psychogenic non epileptic seizures as a result of their ptsd? I was just hoping I could talk to more people about my experience. | ptsd |
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I really want to get help but I can't afford it and I don't know what to do. I been struggling pretty badly for a while now and I think the cold weather is making it worse. I've never been to a therapist before but I plan to get a job so that I can start paying for therapy. But at the same time I feel like none of this is going to work. I feel like its going to work out in my head but not in real life. | depression |
Since my depression I can only see and feel the negative. What’s something that could still make you happy through these hard times? | depression |
* Second Sea Lord, 55, encouraged others with autism to join the armed forces
* Nick Hine said military could compete with adversaries by 'thinking differently'
* It comes ahead of 'neurodiversity network' initiative which will launch next week
>Vice Admiral Nick Hine has revealed he is autistic after being diagnosed 10 years ago and said that the military needs more 'neurodiversity'.
>The Second Sea Lord, 55, opened up about his condition as he encouraged others with autism to join the armed forces.
>Hine said that the only way the British military could compete with adversaries that have more advanced technology and larger funds would be through 'thinking differently' and hiring people with neurological disorders.
More:
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9354415/Second-Sea-Lord-Vice-Admiral-Nick-Hine-reveals-autistic-diagnosed-10-years-ago.html?ito=facebook_share_article-home-preview&fbclid=IwAR2teDWaeFnVr-A_RKyjVrRCeDNS4StXstuktnfc3ZYdzp2PXzkjrpfES8c | aspergers |
I would assume this an Aspie trait. But I thought I'd ask....
(I'm on the spectrum and mainly eat my meals in a solitary setting) | aspergers |
I have my results from my adhd computer test and I’ve had my wife and pcp look and both are amazed at how low my scores are but also don’t have a lot of experience interpreting. My test provider mostly just asked if I understood the test and followed the directions and then said I had ADHD and she was going to prescribe Adderall once my EKG came back. The front desk thought I took the test wrong and she mentioned she’s never seen anybody have to redo that many parts of it, I actually went over the allotted testing time bc I had to take so much again.
I can’t read them myself so idk what’s normal but the whole reaction from everyone has me kinda curious. | ADHD |
I know developmental delays can be a thing with autism and I definitly had those, to where I was in all the different kids of therapy (speech, pt, ot, play that I know of). They also considered teating me for autism, but decided against it for reasons I dont know. I do know I eventually caught up to the developmental milestones and started excelling at school, but I dont think I caught up with social ( I'd say I decreased, went from social and outgoing to quiet and less social with possible masking) or emotional maturity. From during this time I only remember 1-2 sessions and some everyday/school stuff. I also had mild epilepsy which may of been a cause but wanted to see if anyone else here had a similar therapy situation and got diagnosed later in life? | aspergers |
I’ve suffered with OCD since a child, I’m 27 now.
10-16 it was sort of there but manageable and didn’t bother me to the extent it does now.
16/17 time I was officially diagnosed and saw a therapist once and that was it (no idea what happened with that at all). I was put on Sertraline.
17/21 again became manageable but I had my first nervous breakdown at 21 where I was totally bedridden for weeks. I was put on Fluoxetine. I was put on some priority list with the NHS (UK) and there was still a 3 month wait even for a consultation. Parents funded private CBT treatment but sacked it off after a few sessions because I didn’t feel I was moving any forward with it. I’m not sure if this was down to the therapist or what, however the only technique I ever recall was wririmf the list of triggers and starting from the bottom up as a means of exposure therapy. My parents decided to privately find hypnotherapy treatment which did help to a degree, however again I felt this stopped quite abruptly for some reason.
21-27 life obviously went on, I got a job etc and moved a few times.
27 (current) I’ve had another nervous breakdown and my OCD is just completely out of control. I’ve got a lot going on in my personal life and there is no real stability for my at the current. I’ve been in this state where I feel I’m suspended in time for 2 weeks now. I can’t eat, I can’t do laundry, I haven’t left my flat literally at all. Only once to get some mail from my pigeon hole.
The mental health crisis team had to come out with emergency Valium and my GP prescribed me with Fluoxetine 40mg, Propranolol 40mg and Valium 5mg. I was referred to a mental healrh rehabilitation centre to which I’ve had the screening and they’re putting me forward for a medication review and to start CBT as they don’t believe I’ve had a full course of it. The wait times are unknown.
I’m terrified that CBT won’t work and that I’ll truly never get out of this state of psychosis I appear to be in. I’ve been reading about TMS but it’s incredibly difficult to get it on the NHS and the cost privately is just money I don’t have. Im skeptical about CBT as in my mind, there is only so much a therapist can say right?
I want to end my life everyday. It isn’t because I don’t want to be alive, I just can’t take much more of this pain. I fear that I’ll never be happy again and that I’ll be in this paralysing state until I die. Even that, I worry that this OCD will follow me through into the afterlife. | OCD |
I have noticed that reading articles about specific examples of ocd intrusive thoughts has helped me finally feel that I am not my thoughts and that I am not alone. I feel if we start a list for people to place their specific (as detailed as you want) intrusive thoughts below, that some people will see them and feel they’re also not alone and there’s a reason why these thoughts are there and that reason is not because you’re a bad person. It’s OCD!!
My therapist told me, “bad people don’t feel guilty about being bad.” If you’re looking for help to stop intrusive thoughts, there’s your first sign that you’re not a bad person and those thoughts do not mean you are. | OCD |
ive already been dealing with a lot and well felt like giving up and well something just happend that really makes me want to and idk what to do | depression |
Iam diagnosed since 2004 but to be honest I never digged into it or told anybody. Usually after a while people would ask me and I didnt care at all. Since Iam older and I have to "function" more many flaws became apperent!
Exampels:
\- I cant filter anything at all. You cant talk to in the club! When I talk with someone I can alsways tell how many cars passed us and what people talked about behind us. And when to much is happening at the same time for example in gaming I cant talk at all only jibberish.
\- I am faceblind. I can read emotion but I cant remember the face. If I meet someone (expect best friends and family) outside their usual place like sport / uni etc. There is a very high chance I wont recongnize this person. If I dont see my gf for a month, I remember her already a little bit different than in the reality even tho we are 10 years together.
\- A little bit colorblind no big deal. | ADHD |
Please share your experiences, suggestions and other information. I'm at a bit of a loss right now.
So I'm pregnant, still within the first 12 weeks. And still on a reduced dosage from my last pregnancy as I'm still breastfeeding. I'm on 30mg a day (6 tablets). The brain fog is so bad I don't know if I'm awake sometimes. It's worse than before I was medicated. Except now taking the Dex are making me super nauseous to the point where I'm struggling to function.
My next appointment with Mr Dr is about 2 months away but im trying to move it forward as he doesn't yet know I'm pregnant again.
My question is, how did you go with being pregnant and having ADHD, and potentially how did it affect your medication if you still took it while pregnant.
Coming off medication is not an option for me. It's been discussed and decided that staying on meds is safer for me, my 10month old and my physical and mental health. | ADHD |
Tldr: I just want someone to hold me so I can lay my head on their chest and pretend like everything is ok.
I laid around the house all day yesterday and only talked to like my parents, a friend, and this cute chick that moved to freaking Arizona. So like I don’t really know exactly what I’m trying to say here but yesterday really sucked. I woke up this morning and I saw a message from that chick and she was like empathetic and we talked a little bit about dreams but like it really sucks because like I don’t have a chance in hell with this girl and I felt like she was the only person who actually cared even though I know she was just being kind. I’m currently trying to distract myself with laundry and house cleaning so that I don’t think about being lonely. | depression |
The best way to describe it is feeling like I exhaled in a way that my brain told me was uneven, then I start breathing extremely weirdly untill it feels even again. I don't know how to describe the breathing pattern exactly but it's like I'm stuttering my breath with a BIG exhale at the end in hopes of it feeling 'even' again.
Within the past month I've been doing it for literally multiple hours at a time and it keeps getting worse. Does anyone know how to help stop this? | OCD |
I've been having OCD over fearing that I have a cuckold fetish. I'm sure I don't but will the worrying ever end. It's been over 4 months. I've wasted a third of a year over these thoughts. I just want them to end. I can't even tell if I have a cuckold fetish anymore. All the overthinking has pushed me in sooo deep. I think I'm getting better but I don't even know. | OCD |
I never knew him. We have never met. He was a junkie and abandoned my mother and I. Even though it was not a direct "loss", is this a type of psychological trauma? I also never had any male figures in my life at all. When I was a teen I used to fly into dissociative rages where I didnt even recognize myself. I no longer do that and live a fulfilling life, however, I do feel responsible for my mom in many ways and I am completely intimacy avoidant. She had a horribly abusive childhood and was also completely intimacy avoidant after having my brother and I. Never once was in a healthy relationship. She was incredibly warm and loving and we are best friends. I couldn't have asked for a better mom. But of course she still had her own issues. Maybe some of this was projected onto me? I am trying to figure it all out. | ptsd |
Having ADHD and depression is not a good combination.
I've been fighting the urge to kill myself for months now and sometimes I don't see any further way out.
I feel useless, I study 10 pages in a week because after the second page I can't understand or concentrate but I absolutely love what I study.
I feel like I'm stupid even though I'm aware that I'm an intelligent person according to my school grades.
I feel like an asshole because I bought drums, an instrument I've always dreamed of but nothing I don't study.
My social life on the other hand is zero, nothing much.
I don't take medications and at the moment I'm still not diagnosed because Italy is very bureaucratic and closed-minded for these things.
Sorry if I just said sad things, it's a shitty time that many of you will have overcome, but how?
I would appreciate some comfort. | ADHD |
There's always more to be done. More shows to watch, more food to eat, more video games to play, more SOs to fuck, more alcohol to drink. Why would I go do literally the most boring thing in the world, until I absolutely have no other choice?
In other words: How do y'all make yourselves shut down at the end of the day? I've had success in the past with meditation before bed, and if I'm getting enough physical exercise I usually find falling asleep quite easy, but I don't always get enough. | ADHD |
Hi all, this is something I’ve been struggling with and I thought this might be the best community to ask.
My husband and I have gone through a lot of issues through our relationship. Lately things have been pretty good. However when things were worse and I was contemplating separation, the therapist I was speaking to asked if my husband had ever been diagnosed with ADHD. I started reading about it and it was like everything-all his issues and our problems-made sense.
I have breached the topic with him, and he even took a test online (I think it’s a score out of 100. I took the test as a baseline and got 12, he got 67 I think). Every time I mention it he says he will speak to the doctor, but he never does.
I’m noticing some of his old habits creeping in, and I really would like him to pursue getting tested for ADHD, but I don’t know how to get him over the hump. I really feel like him getting diagnosed could completely change our lives.
I would be so appreciative of any advice you can offer. Thanks! | ADHD |
Im a 25 year old female and pretty sure I have ADHD and am looking for a private ADHD assessment in the U.K. I contacted a few but most have said to me I need a report from my parents about my behaviours when young.
I moved back in with them since lockdown and we don’t get on and I don’t trust them. They have made remarks over the years that adhd isn’t real and just bad parenting and individuals. Due to all of this I don’t feel comfortable asking them to fill out this form? Is there anyway for myself to get around this so I can continue moving forward with getting diagnosed? | ADHD |
I know from a quick search that this has been asked before, but it’s always good to hear from new people/experiences.
I’m a “functioning” alcoholic, and have been since I turned 21 (now 27 years old). I drink about 12-14 beers a night. My OCD has gotten pretty bad lately (always comes in waves, as most people).
Alcohol always has the same cycle of effects for me: Slowly rids my repetitive thoughts and anxiety, but feels as if it makes it worse the next day, until I drink again.
I start nursing school in a month, and don’t want my OCD to get in the way of my studies. I was thinking maybe if I quit, it will alleviate much of my OCD/anxiety over time. Does anybody else have any experience with this? Thank you!
Note: I know withdrawals can be dangerous, though I have quit for days/weeks at a time in the past, so I’m not worried about that part. | OCD |
Like I can’t tell when somebody is taking the piss or taking advantage, so in situations I just put up and shut up instead of actually saying something because I don’t know if I’m in the right or they’re in the wrong. This is why like when I return something, I get my mum to speak on the phone because I don’t know what to say or what to do and she always gets the job done, like she can convince people that somethings broken or defective when it’s not, to get a refund whereas when I do it, it’s just anxiety 24/7. | aspergers |
I feel filthy every time I have a tiny little stain on a hoodie, or drop of tea on my pants. Yet I dont mind getting dirty in soil and mud when I'm doing outdoors stuff. It's like even if I JUST washed my hoodie and theres a TINY stain on it and I'm only wearing it at home, I feel like my whole body is dirty.
I'm usually not cleanliness-oriented but my ocd is worsening so I think it might be getting to me | OCD |
Since I was 13 I've always had some sort of depression, I got used to living with it. It's horrible and I don't want it, but it's there and I'm scared to do anything about it because I don't know what it is to live without it anymore. It's fucking up my life on all levels. Just can't live up to expectations and I feel like the farther I'm away from society the happier I am, maybe I should just go live off-grid. | depression |
Apologies if this is a dumb question.
I'm worried about the pressure changes. If I have Adderall in my system, my blood pressure will be higher. With altitude increases and decreases over such a short period of time, could that cause any issues?
For clarification, this isn't about legality or anything. It's about safety.
Thanks for any help. | ADHD |
Some things have gotten better, some things worse.
I can say that from puberty until 30 was quite miserable. There were good and bad years, highs and lows. But overall things didn’t start to get better until after 30.
What got better was I didn’t have to deal with others, that I don’t have to be subordinate and mask to someone else’s authority.
However I started to learn more about the world in ways that I could not see with my naive eyes. This really darkened my soul, and it caused me to recoil from the world in profound ways.
Before I wanted to live a normie life, but now I want to stay away from people and all forms of hostility. I see that besides my (very old) parents, nobody loves me. People just used me, hurt me, betrayed me. And that is from friends.
I don’t know which I worse: the pain I felt from those who were my “friends” or the pain I felt from those who ridiculed me for being friendly.
I take neither now.
When I was a kid, I remember life being vibrant and fresh. Now I see the world as an ongoing battle, and it terrifies me. I hate it. There is no place for me here.
People have bullied me because I am an easy target. They do so causally. I just brush it off, block it out, and remain resilient. Sometimes I will strike back, but when I see they are hurt in the way they hurt me, it makes me feel bad. But I never got that sense when others hurt me. They did it to feel good about themselves.
What a strange phenomenon.
Mid-30s now and everyone I knew in the past I left them in the past. Now it’s just me that I look out for. I am free. | aspergers |
I'm almost certain this is a problem most share when it comes to mental health struggles, but I wanted some insight/potential advice from my peers. I feel unbearably lonely despite the fact that I have a wonderful support group. It feels strange, like the answer is so clearly in front of me, but the feeling of loneliness overpowers the reality of the situation. Thoughts? Thanks. | depression |
I’m posting on this community just because it could be the closest thing that relates to what I’m going through
I’m 16 and I count even when I don’t want to I still do. It’s always in the back of my mind. A lot of people do it because “it doesn’t feel right if they don’t” but me, it’s like I have no choice because my brain just does on its own. When I blink, I go to 6-8 then I go back to 1 and it repeats over and over. Same thing with breaths and steps I take. Any idea what this could be? | OCD |
anyone know a good place to go for ptsd. that takes insurance and is not a drug rehab? | ptsd |
Does anyone else go through “cleaning” phases? It’s embarrassing to say, but sometimes I go weeks without basic hygiene and cleaning. But sometimes, usually when I’m medicated, I get an intense urge to clean and will clean obsessively. I will clean everything and do a painstakingly thorough job. I have to go through every drawer, every bag and box… everything. I don’t have any control over it and it’s usually triggered by randomly picking something up off the floor. Sometimes it lasts for a couple days. Is this a hyperfixation?? It’s almost as if I’m trying to make up for the massive depressive/ADHD rut that I was just in.
Anyway, I’m finally cleaning my room after months of stepping over things and feeling like a pack rat. I’m hoping it’ll get me feeling motivated and “normal” again. | ADHD |
I have been carrying this PTSD and BPD for 7 years now. I usually never cared enough about my mental health but I acted as a counselor for other ppl who need help. When these both symptoms merge, I get confused .
My best friend who knows about my condition, shut me down last month cause she couldn't hear my venting all the time! Well, I can't blame her for that.
I have best friends according to my mood. They all are equal but noone knows eachother. I sometimes feel like using them, so I just pushed everyone out of my life in recent times and here I am sitting all alone. I have trust issues so I never open up to anyone even if they are my best friends. I just act accordingly. I am triggered to judgement and critism. But I never faced anything other than that since my childhood. Everyone around me used to judge me and our the blame on me instead of being accountable. This led me to a state where I am in rn, thinking that whatever happens to anyone around me is just because of my presence. It's worse when you are forced to believe that you're the reason for your loved ones pain even when you have nothing to do with the cause!!
My condition is getting worse day by day. Mood swings are taking over my days. They are very frequent nowadays. I tried consulting a therapist but it increased my trauma. For the past few days I am just blank, I don't know what is happening to me or what emotion I am feeling. It's so quiet in my world, everything seems to be still! Even now I don't know why I am venting here. But felt like doing. | ptsd |
this one's a bit weird. basically, when I love something, I really, really love it. this happens to me with music, especially. and since it seems like the only thing that distracts me a bit from the thoughts, I tend to talk about it more often than I realize, because it makes me feel kind of happy. I just bring it up all the time, somehow.
this may make me seem very boring to people, and I've even been told so. I'd like to stop this behaviour, but I genuinely don't know how. I am very much aware this can be annoying, because I know some people who also do that, but I try to be as patient as I can, because I know what it's like.
is this a common thing that happens or am I just being weird and childish? :( | OCD |
A post for us all to talk about our sensory sensitivites and the weird things that we find soothing.
Personally, touch and vision are the most senstive for me. Bright lights give me headaches, twisted socks drive me insane etc.
I LOVE sitting in the dark with a couple of candles and sherpa anything is like a drug. | ADHD |
Good morning or wherever you are in the world! May your Thursday be filled with happiness, joy and many blessings! It’s almost Friday so hang in there. You are very loved and appreciated so please send me any prayer requests! Be a blessing and encouragement to others around you today. This world is filled with suffering and pain, so build up others around today!
“Thou therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others also. Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier.”
2 Timothy 2:1-4 KJV
Gospel of the grace of God: I Corinthians 15:1-4 KJV/ Romans 3:25 KJV❤️ | OCD |
I wish I could be myself and not a weirdo at the same time.
I just can't seem to understand people and the things they do.
I sometimes sit in front of a mirror and practice facial expressions. Literally things as basic as how to look happy, sad, angry.
I do feel happy, sad, guilt, and all the other emotions a human should feel, but I have no idea how to express them.
I remember when my grandmother died. I felt like shit for a while, but I had no ideas how to show it. Cry? Just stand still? Say something?
Or the time i was with my friend when he found out his brother died. Do I comfort him? Try to cheer him up? I obviously felt bad for the kid, but I have no clue what to do.
I feel like a shit. People just assume I'm either just callous or psychotic. Why DO I need to study human behavior and psychology to understand something as natural as humans? This feels so unfair. | aspergers |
Was diagnosed persistent depressive disorder 3mos ago. Idk what to do anymore. | depression |
I'm 40'ish years old, and was diagnosed with asperger's a couple of years ago, but one thing I have never related to is stimming;
I went through a particularly dark depression recently, accompanied by bouts of extreme anxiety;
During this anxiety, I keep hearing the same song, over and over in my mind; It's actually been a lifelong thing; I always have something repeating in my mind, typically music.
Well, I'm a bit of a musician, so I learned to play the song on guitar & piano; I have found that playing music helps with my anxiety - likely due to bilateral stimulation;
Now I'm noticing that whenever I'm feeling heightened stress/anxiety, and that song starts auto-repeating in my mind (at high volume), my hands start to mimic the motion of the guitar/piano technique;
It's become kind of automatic and looks weird to my wife;
And it got me wondering, is what I'm experiencing, this automatic muscle memory that helps me with anxiety - is that similar to stimming?
What does stimming feel like to someone who does it more typically and pronounced?
Regards | aspergers |
I know I have a lot to offer to this world. As an individual, I am eloquent, inquisitive, creative, empathetic, and outgoing. I have also been described as an intelligent individual with a strong sense of self-awareness by my previous therapist who specialises in OCD treatment. But all these have been severely stifled by my Ocd intrusive thoughts that are bombarding me 24/7 (yes, sometimes during my sleep as well). Then, depression came into the picture. It has been a few years since I actually felt “normal.” I understand “normal” is an illusion, but you guys know what I mean - I want to be a functional, productive member of the society, and it is incredibly devastating to be fully aware of what hinders the realisation of such a goal and yet helpless in face of it. Now I am just a person with constant bodily aches as well as an astounding weight gain that seeks to further demolish whatever self-esteem that is left within me.
Sorry for the rant, guys. I always feel I’m a liability to my family, friends and society. I have been ticked off for seeking reass****** (I don’t want to type the full word since it will be flagged by the system) in my posts, when in fact, I just need someone to tell me that I’m really not alone - ocd is a freaking isolating condition. I will think things like “oh, that person managed to recover, but it will never happen for me.” The pandemic has everyone anxious about their physical health, and yet when it comes to mental health many just turn a blind eye towards it. It is as if my mental suffering is invalidated because they are invisible.
If I know that I won’t recover in my lifetime, then I am clear that suicide is the only option. Thanks for reading this post, and I hope that currently you guys are truly in a better position than me. I will try to reply to whatever response that is left under this post. But I hope I have the mental reserve to do so.
Peace out... | OCD |
Hi everyone, I am trying to look for a specific discord. My boyfriend was in this discord for his OCD and intrusive thoughts. He told me about it. He said it was run by a young guy, around 16, and there was only a handful of members. He read through the r/OCD obsessively so I’m assuming he got the link from here. He unfortunately died by suicide yesterday and I just wanted to be able to let his new friends know who were apart of that discord. Please please help! | OCD |
edit: tw: mention of attempted self harm
My \[27F\] partner \[28F\] has experienced some really traumatic losses over the past few years -a parent being killed unexpectedly in a car accident and being rejected by her remaining family for being in a relationship with me. She's been attending therapy and is currently transitioning to new meds, but has been suffering mood swings and anxiety and panic attacks that often break down into attempts at self harm and suicidal thoughts. I have to physically hold her back from grabbing a knife and hurting herself or trying to OD on meds, which scares the shit out of me for more than one reason.
She's a very private person who's had her support structure (other than me) fall out from under her. Neither her or I've ever dealt with anything like this before. I'm not sure if I can afford my own therapist, but dealing with all of this has been really, really hard and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I've only begun thinking about finding other people going through the same thing. Can anyone recommend online support groups for people going through this other than a subreddit? | ptsd |
how does ocd manage to tie EVERY SINGLE THING into ur theme… like how does that even logically work… i’m so shocked i could literally be doing ANYTHING and it will blurt out oh u did this because of x,y,&z… wtf… | OCD |
I keep seeing the whole Prince Andrew/Epstein thing on the news, tonight BBC (UK) aired an interview with a Lady.
She is a witness to the whole sex trafficking, and was trafficked herself, raped, assaulted.
Everyone around keeps pouring scorn on the whole thing because Andrew is a big fish. I couldn't watch the interview personally. It's sick that they even put it on TV, people's trauma is not entertainment.
Background: my PTSD is due to rape, assault, abusive relationship with a Narcissist.
Is anyone else bothered by the whole thing? People allege that she's lying, it seems that they're questioning EVERYBODY's story.. I can't disbelieve her, but I also want to believe 'innocent until proven guilty'. Doesn't help that Andrew refuses to answer questions and had that bull\*\*\*\*\* interview. | ptsd |
Sorry.
Ive had PTSD diagnosis for 15 years. I am not a military veteran. I am a gay trans man who grew up in an abusive religious environment and was repeatedly sexually assaulted.
There’s a thing going around my social media feeds that starts with “PTSD- sad but true” about spreading awareness of PTSD and then the rest of it is about suicide statistics for military veterans in the USA.
Don’t get me wrong. The way we treat our veterans is down right shameful (especially our homeless veterans). And our endless wars of the past twenty years have caused PTSD in many out of military personnel - and their victims.
But I hate this stereotype that the only real PTSD is military PTSD. It’s a harmful stereotype that prevents people from getting care and support. | ptsd |
some guests came to my house they have zero sense of awareness about personal spaces... i hope i will get better after a sleep because they triggered my ocd so bad and i don’t know if sleep helps or just make it worst good night everyone. | OCD |
So either I have a thing I want to talk about or ask, or i want to connect with a person (and it doesn't matter what we talk about to me), but either way, I know I can't just start with the point, because that's what I do a ton and it doesn't work, I gather. And I want to do it right, but it's really hard and frustrating and feels like a waste of time, and even a possible divergence from where I ever hope to get to in that conversation with that person. So how do you go from a to b in order to get to c? | aspergers |
So, I've struggled with depressive feeling for at least 2 good years now, I normally tend to feel really empty inside, like I can't feel emotions at all, however this is not true at all as I can feel sad, just barely happy... Yesterday, I watched a crime video on yt and after that I started getting these strange thoughts about killing loved ones and even urges, I couldn't sleep at all last night either, trapped on these thoughts and urge... I've dealt with intrusive thoughts in the past, as far as I know, I used to have them even as a kid, but NEVER acted upon them though as a kid I remember walking up to my mom and saying that I thought about doing a REALLY nasty thing and then started to cry, I just kept them hidden and could easily shove them aside, at least most times... I'm afraid I might seriously injure someone, I could NEVER bring myself to act on these urges never have I ever hurt anyone physically like that nor do I ever consider actually doing so I'd kill myself before I could harm anyone ever in that way, I've always been a kind and funny person, at least that's what people tell me. I'm too ashamed to tell anyone that I feel this way... Afraid that they might think I'm an awful person or even totally crazy and in the end those thoughts just combo with this emptiness and exhaustion... | OCD |
I'm (22F) tired of feeling and being useless just because I can't find the energy or motivation to get the f*ck out of my bed. I have all this energy but it's like I can't focus it on just one thing so it revolves inside me and it just drains me, so afterwards I'm tired of doing nothing so I can't do anything else. I'm currently getting tested to get a diagnosis or an explanation to what the actual heck is going on with my brain.
I'm being left behind, my classmates are graduating and I'm stuck on my degree thesis.
People just say that if I managed to get this far on my major I can't have ADHD. But I could have done so much better. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I don't know what to do. | ADHD |
I've been told numerous times (since I was 13) that I have a noticeable 'bounce' to my step that makes it look like my body is going up and down when I'm walking. I also have been told I have a stiff posture time and time again. Apparently it is a lot more common in people with disorders like autism or Aspergers syndrome. It got to the point I became very insecure about it. However, I have been also reaffirmed that it isn't that abnormal-looking. Just unusual in that most people don't have the same walking style as I do. Anyone else experience weird gait or walking habits? | aspergers |
So my son is 5 years old and has ADHD and is just very disruptive in class. That's not really the concern that we have because we were expecting that and so were the teachers who are actually really good.
The concern I'm having at the moment is he is having a lot of issues with making up imaginary friends and then spitting on kids to protect his imaginary friends. With Covid and everything going on you can imagine the issues we're having.
He is so close to being expelled from school and we're trying to figure out ways to work with him to help him to understand and I'm seeking out any kind of information of people that have dealt with this before and have found solutions with things that could have helped. | ADHD |
30 year old white male. Taking Adderall for the first time for ADHD. I've been told that it's meant to work right away and that it's meant to help focus but that's about it. What new behavior should I be seeing in myself? Are things just going to be clearer?
I need specifics on how this will start effecting me. I know everyone's different but there has to be some common things people noticing happening that change them as a person because of the medicine. | ADHD |
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