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Never posted here, just feel like I’m gonna explode with self frustration and internalized anger. I feel like I’ll always be that kid who got ostracized and mocked and ridiculed because I was different, smarter, louder, couldn’t keep my thoughts in my head, didn’t get things everyone else understood but understood things nobody else could. I’m 27 now (diagnosed at 24 after years of it being labeled ADHD) and I can still feel my middle school bullies calling f***ot (not even gay), every other insult under the sun, eventually shoving my main bully against a locker because it’s what I saw made it stop in tv and movies and he laughed in my face. By high school I’d learned to imitate and turn on the ‘social’ mode, my skills like being a great musician and being smart became more valued, I knew what things I would say that might be weird or inappropriate, and I was popular and liked by nearly everyone the time I graduated. And even though I learned the concept of roasting and making fun, it’s still a blurry line sometimes. Every time anyone insults me or slights me or anything, I go right back to that angry hot mode, that resentment. I got invited to a birthday party by the popular kids In middle school just so they could tell me to leave. So in high school, I fucked the girl who’s party it was, and told her boyfriend that she cheated on me with to get revenge. the guy who I mentioned earlier that relentlessly mocked me shot himself after his mom caught him doing heroine, and I genuinely feel fucked up that to this day I have that part of me that hasn’t really aged that feels vindicated. A lot of this stuff and other home issues caused me to develop BPD which has been a …. Hand in hand struggle on top of being an aspie. I’m finally getting therapy again after not having insurance for a while and giving the middle finger to every therapist and psychiatrist who actually wanted to help. But I’m still having a massive struggle with not taking things literally and personally, and not feeling like people are suddenly evil at the drop of a hat when they might have perfectly good intentions. People
Suck. They’re so confusing and hard to understand. I bet folks have just as much trouble with me thought. Really just hoping someone else could share a story that might make me not feel so hopeless and shitty and like i’ll never be normal. Hope you all are having a great day or night wherever you are
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This is what happened
This is my sister and I trusted her more than anyone in the world and that’s why I came to her first. [I am now in my school’s counseling center so I don’t freak out over it ](https://imgur.com/a/BinnulY)
Now I’m certain I can’t tell anyone else. If she doesn’t believe me no one will
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Hey everyone! I stopped taking fluoxitine in 2019 because I started to smoke marijuana. I didn't want any drug interactions. So I rarely took it since then. My depression got bad last month and I decided to quit my job to focus on my mental well being. My plan was to get back on fluoxitine for a few months and get back to work.
Unfortunately, I got sick about 2 weeks into taking my medications. I wasn't taking the full dose either. I am not sure if the medication made me sick. It seems like I have withdrawal symptoms but that's what confuses me. I had pretty much stopped the meds in 2019. I'm not sure why I would get these symptoms if I started the meds again. What's also weird is when I started fluoxitine like in 2017, I never had any side effects or anything.
Anyways, my OCD has come back. Not in full force like it was a few years ago. But I want to prevent myself from getting to that awful point in my life. I'm going to contact my doctor this week to see what she recommends. I've been feeling sick this entire month and it sucks. I'm trying hard to get back on my feet.
There are certain compulsions that interfere with things I enjoy and I have to do certain rituals before I begin doing whatever I wanted to do. For example, if there's a particular video game I love, I have to do a ritual. If that ritual gets interrupted, I have to wash my face because that's how I revert back from the compulsion. I know I'm pretty vague but it can be hard to explain. The compulsions come from smells. I have stomach problems too so I can be gassy sometimes. So in my mind, if I make any sudden movements, I actively avoid using my nose because if not, my mind will think I purposely tried to smell my butt in this case. Even if I didn't fart or anything. My mind is aware and pays close attention to any movements around the butt.
With that said, I do have other compulsions but that silly one is the biggest one. It doesn't just apply to video games. It'll apply to anything that I think I'll really like, something special, or to avoid "tainting" something.
I was hoping people can provide some tips and just some nice words I guess to help me get through this. It sucks because I was doing so well. It's extremely hard to just power through all these compulsions and stupid rituals. Right now I'm telling myself to just do it but when I'm in front of doing something, I cave to the rituals and compulsions.
Thanks for reading. I want to get back on medications again to return to "normal".
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I've always had such a weird and overly obsessive sense of satisfaction with anything to do with colour coding. I don't know why, but I love it and everything it stands for. Anyone else super weird about it?
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hey y’all. i’ve seen a lot of advice on adhd-friendly laundry systems, but i haven’t seen any that address the issue i have. my issue is the WAITING. you put a load in the washer, waiting like an hour (might get caught up on a task), move it to the dryer, wait more, then take out/put away. even with timers, i get so caught up on other things, so now it feels like this impossible daunting task. any advice is appreciated!! <3
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Hi everyone. I've been lurking here for a little while and I'm so glad I found this place. I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome when I was 11 years old but unfortunately I didn’t handle that diagnosis properly at the time. All I knew is that it meant I was different from other kids and that there was an explanation for my 'otherness'. My family never really understood it either and never treated me any different because of it. They accept me for me.
I'm 34 now and have only just recently started to come to terms with being on the autistic spectrum. None of my friends knew about it - I kept it hidden from everyone on purpose. I've lost several good friends this over the years because I haven't had the capacity to deal with it and be upfront and honest about it. It's thanks to this place that I've begun the process of realising that I'm not alone and that the fact that my brain works differently is OK.
Right now I still feel like I’m a little behind the curve in social settings. I tend to be reserved and quiet, and I know that people are unsure how to take me at first because of this. I’d like to be more confident in social settings and I’d like to teach myself some coping mechanisms for when things get a little bit too much. I could also do with learning how to deal with confrontation because I’m useless at that.
Does anyone have any self-help book recommendations that might help me on my journey? At this point I’m ready to devour everything I can so that I can build a better life for myself and those around me. Thanks!
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Alright, so, fun story: unmedicated ADHD in my 3rd year of college.
This semester of school was great, because all three of my classes were interesting! I got two As and one B! I'm so happy about it.
Next semester, however... I'm worried. I have not one, but *two* writing intensive courses (humanities and literature), as well as a boring ass speech class and Calculus 2.
On top of this, I'm going to be living 7+ hours away from my family for the first time and switching between two houses (one on weekdays, one on weekends).
I've no clue how to manage this. I'm scared that I'll fail, which I cannot afford to do, because I need these classes to graduate. Help?
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So I did a web search of good places to move to. I've gotten a lot of surprising answers, but they're not places I would consider moving to. Many of the places I expect are too expensive for me to move to. So, do you guys have any suggestions for places I could go for a better life?
EDIT: I currently live in a small town in Oklahoma. The scenery is amazing and the weather has grown on me (except the hot and soupy kind). Part of me actually wants to live in the city, but I'm aware of the risks.
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I have a lot of negative behaviors and ideas that are causing me problems both for me and my family. I know I need to let them go, but I don’t know how. Even though I know these thoughts are irrational and toxic, I don’t know how to stop them. Does anyone have any advice?
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i dunno, i feel so dumb at school
i sometimes feel like i cant even learn some basic things and sometimes i cant really focus on anything. And when i see that i cant remember those things that im learning... i feel nervous and then i cant focus even more because i feel so dumb and then i have these little breakdowns and im having tics and stuff. Im in high school and im also thinking about going to university but now i really doubt if im smart and good enough for studying at uni.
But the thing is, even when i feel so dumb I know somewhere that i'm not. Sometimes i even feel smarter than my classmates.... but thats maybe just a feeling :/
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It took me months to learn how to meditate and be good at it, but now I almost never do it anymore even if I want to I keep finding excuses not to do it.
Now it's become really hard for me and the fact i'm still getting used to the medication its only making it harder.
I don't like this because I knew it really helped me, but as always I stopped finding it interesting after a while. It really is something I want to keep doing everyday if i can
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Just started a supposedly "part time" job in retail that is actually basically full time for the next two weeks. I hate it. I find it devoid of any purpose or moral cause. I have scoliosis and my back kills me. My manager is extremely blunt and rude (and it's not because she's on the spectrum) and has no empathy and thinks every day I am not working is a day I can be working (i have a second job three evenings a week delivering pizza which I can tolerate and find mildly enjoy). I don't particuarly enjoy dealing with customers. Most of them are over fifty five or sixty, man y of them pensioners, and to be frank, they are so rude. I don't know what it is with old people but in my experiencce they are some of the rudest people. They don't smile. They don't even acknowledge the fact you've just said hello to them. They only speak to demand you give them a receipt or complain about the price. Customers have no idea that you've been working 6+ hours a day by the time you serve them and therefore are surprised by the fact you're not exactly looking enthusiastic about serving the eight hundredth customer of the day. My parents think I'm lazy but I know I'm not. I feel like I'm gonna quit but I can be stubborn so I might just hold it out even though my back is killing me just to prove a point. I could have just left the other day when I found they had accidentally paid me £500...but of course I had to tell them despite everyone else telling me not to and they say its a HR error. I hated my last job in retail and I hate this one but they seem to be the only jobs going. But then I see people who have done this job for years and I think if they can do it then so should I. I've battled mental illness and wanting to end my life and it doesn't get much harder than that
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I lost all feeling in my arm and it slowly went up to my shoulder. I couldn’t feel my tongue, mouth, or lips. I tried to tell my bf something was wrong but the words I was saying weren’t words. They sounded normal in my head but his face made me realize I was coherent. I eventually spelled out the words and it was horrifying.
Am I the only one? I didn’t even have a flashback I was just sad today.
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Like, I received a package, I’m not at home right now. And someone in my family opened it and is using what’s inside now.
I don’t want it anymore. I just want to send it back and get a new one.
I feel so awfully childish but it annoys me SO much.
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TL;DR: for those with an anxiety disorder, what meds have helped or exacerbated your anxiety?
Hey all,
I’m hoping to get some info to take to my GP next week. I have been working with a psychiatrist, but we haven’t been able to get my anxiety under control so I’m seeking a new doctor. I also have a therapist I see weekly.
I currently take Adderall IR 20mg, Zoloft 150mg, Ativan 0.5mg as needed. My doctor recently increased my Zoloft and that had no affect on my anxiety. I am hesitant to increase me Adderall, even though it helps my anxiety a lot. I struggled keeping weight on when I increased my dose to 20, and I have insomnia. It does feel like overstimulation/sensory overload might be a big factor in my anxiety right now. I had asked my doc about non stimulants but never made progress getting those prescribed, or even trying something like Buspar to help.
Since I’m going to be speaking with my GP I want a bit more info about my med options. For folks with comorbid anxiety, what med combo has worked for you? Have non stimulants helped your anxiety? An anti anxiety med? I have a lot of non med strategies to help (running and tarot reading are big for me), but my anxiety is so severe it feels like I need meds to get me back to a baseline.
I am only seeking to hear what worked for you so I can talk to my doctor - not asking for medical advice! Thanks for any insight!
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I woke up, had my coffee, and sat down to get to work.
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So far today, I have;
\-Scrubbed my entire bathroom-Done the laundry-Christmas shopped-Cleaned the entire upstairs of my home-Found a charger that has been missing for months-A bunch of tiny tasks that took less than a minute that I've been unable to do for weeks-Walked my dog-Organized my desk drawers-Way too much Tiktok
And now I am untangling Christmas lights while I watch a movie that I really liked in 1997 bc something randomly reminded me of it.
Trust the process, I guess.
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Also, notice "feed myself" is not on the list. Shoutout the the Italian guy I married who keeps me alive
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I (24 F) have had OCD since age 3. I was wondering, is hyperfixation a part of OCD? I know ASD and ADHD are known for hyperfixation
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I've been struggling with depression since I was about 14 years old. And my last extrem down was about a year ago. I was admitted to a psych ward for nearly a month. There they diagnosed me again with depression among other things and including Borderline. I'm better for the most part. I'm taking my meds and talking to my therapist regularly. I even managed to finally get a job and I am planning on moving out.
I don't know what happened today. Usually I'm a calm person and my emotions feel pretty dull most times. But an hour ago I just completely lost it over a broken alarm clock. I started screaming and crying and had this huge urge to hurt myself. I felt like I couldn't breathe properly. I haven't been able to calm down since then. I am just so furious and frustrated and I feel this huge amout of stess and anxiety. I can't seem to get my heartrate to slow down or stop shaking.
I tried guided meditation like my therapist recommended but it just made me more furious to the point where I started throwing things. It's night time where I live so I can't reach my therapist and I don't feel like adding the anxiety of making a phone call would help me right now so I don't feel like I can call a support line. Even if I called I don't feel safe doing it with my mother in the same apartment. Talking to her is not an option because she is a huge stressor for me. I forgot my emergency meds at my dads since I haven't used them in over 6 months.
So I guess my question is: does anyone have any tips on what else I can try to calm down so I can finally sleep?
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I (23F) work from home, and am home alone (with my cat) most week days while my husband is at work. I *know* I need routine, but everytime I try to start having a routine, I deem it pointless after a few because \~nothing matters\~ and then I'm right back here, struggling and accomplishing almost nothing.
I feel like I have the right tools to know how to build a good routine, but with no one around to keep me accountable, I really struggle to stick to it. How do I stick to it??
For background, if you need it, I haven't been diagnosed yet but I am very confident that I have ADHD, likely inattentive-type. I'm trying to get assessed but I'm in Canada and right now it's a whole ordeal to see someone who will help me with this. I feel like meds will make a huge difference in my life, but right now I just have to struggle through as best as I can.
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Hi I’ve been dealing with multiple obsessions for years and lately I’ve realized I have moral scrupulosity ocd I’ve been feeling intensely worried that I’ve lost so much empathy if not all and when something I’ve been morally against comes up Im afraid Im siding with the wrong thing (in my head because I get intrusive thoughts that I am) or like I can’t find it wrong I’m so scared of living in ignorance I often am afraid I’ll go back to when I was in middle and be careless or lose my empathy and adopt the ignorant mindset I’ve had back then or like I’ve been pretending to care this whole time and I’ve been the same person since then. Labeling this as ocd or saying the thoughts are intrusive feels wrong always and like I’m lying, I feel like I’m not doing enough to be a good person all the time there’s so much that goes on that contribute to this and makes it so hard and complicated for me to be sure of anything. It intensifies my other obsessions because I’m afraid if I have no morals I will act out and be careless and preform the other horrible obsessions I have im sorry for being so vague I don’t want to trigger others and also don’t want to be overly confessing I know this is probably already reassurance seeking as I want to know I’m not the only one with this but I want to reduce confessing because when I would confess before I would look for reasons as to why my obsessions are true in the responses others given me. Thank you for reading I hope we can all be free of our obsessions soon
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that’s it. the moment you say to your OCD , “i don’t care” that’s when it starts losing power. OCD is based off things that happened or might happen, LIVE IN THE MOMENT. have anxiety? let anxiety be there , but don’t let it stop you from doing things you want to do. just know you’re not alone, your situation is not unique and it will get better. (:
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I recently when to see a psychiatrist after fighting many battles within my self I was ready to face the reality. I was diagnosed by haveing serve depression. I try my best to not to think to much . But it is hard when you have to much in your plate and every seconds you think about them , I really don't know how to express my emotions . Every one say it will be just fine just stop thinking to much because everyone has problems but they don't understand that it is been months that , i had good sleep even though my doctor gave medicine to sleep it doesn't effect me only about sleep. I think I might be slowly changing letting go my past and living in present in the best way I can and giving my best efforts to the future. I just want express how I feel I hope know gets hurt reading this because I don't want that to happen. Some times mostly every time I feel empty but I am trying my best think it in a positive way at least I feel emptiness. I used to read books a lot but it stopped when the storm hit me hard but now I have start to read books again . Maybe in the future I will write a book about the real truth about depression and anxiety that I felt in my life , it is easy to judge by society because to some they think I am to sensitive and that is the reason for everything. I think I wrote a lot . To who ever who read this I can feel your pain , I know your slienty crying , I know you feel lonely even though you have your family it is hard sometimes in my case it is , I know your trying your best keep smiling and be positive and be happy because that is what your family expect from you . I know that this journey is super hard currently I am on it , so I hope you never give up even though time is to hard never give up on your self , fight with yourself and destory the inner demon that troubles you . Be positive it can be so hard by try it . Try some new hobbies , talk with friends if you don't have try to make friends , start to date if not download a dating app I am currently doing it I am not looking for someone to date but I need friend so talk with your family try to understand them maybe have a pet and finally eat well , stay well , we are in this together. Some might think I am crazy to wrote this but I really felt I need to say how I feel because the loneliness inside me is battling to be free . And if you ever need friend just drop me text . I am just one text away .
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Okay so, I think my OCD is messing with me from real events, I haven't had time to speak to someone about this professionally. But I feel like a horrible person. I can't help but think I deserve everything bad I've ever done before, but I should proceed with what this is about. When I(Now 23F), was 20, I had a hotel party for only my friend (C) and her bf, and I had no intention of inviting her guy friend who I had sex with previously, but he asked and I said yeah, because he was a nice enough guy. I was drinking at the hotel party, heavily, and almost blacked out but my friend and her bf carried me to my room, and they later informed me I got sick and passed out immediately after being flopped on to the bed. I remember being woken up by the feeling of someone touching me down there and doing stuff. I remember, vividly, it was C's guy friend doing stuff to me, and I just passed out again. I woke up, and he was naked beside me in the hotel room. I went to the bathroom, and there was evidence he did some stuff, and my brain was like you gave him mixed signals and you need to make this up to him. So, I gave him head, in his sleep, yes ik that's a horrible thing to do, but he woke up immediately told me to stop, and I did so. He went to the bathroom, and came out ready to have sex, but I had checked my phone and saw it was check out time, so I said no. He said, "That's what I thought the hotel room was for." And I said sorry, and we left and met up with C and her bf in the room beside mines. I told her the situation, and C basically discredited me, and said it was probably a dream.. But I was high off marijuana and I don't dream, not even about sex. Basically, we continued the summer as planned, and C told me how her guy friend made a joke about me saying I tried to sexually assault him, and i broke down, and began crying, and C gaslight me about it. I stopped being around C since she was clearly excusing his behavior, and condemning mines. But since, C's guy friend and I have apologized to each other with out admitting faults. I just feel like I don't deserve to live a life because of this, I feel so horrible about this, call me a monster, anything. I just wanna choke, and hurt myself. I'm so sorry.
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Does anyone besides me experience twitches in different parts of their bodies? Sometimes for example, my skin in parts of my legs and arms twitch without me moving it.....
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ocd thinking wants me to explain the reasons and it wants me to say why. thoughts?
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Hey! So, I have been going to a psychiatrist for the first time ever. I got diagnosed w anxiety and depression, but now my doctor is considering inattentive ADHD as a thing I may have.
I'm on zoloft right now, and it's been working wonders for my depression. BUT I still have horrible memory issues, forgetfulness, speaking/listening problems, inattentiveness...a whole thing. So, my doctor is starting me on guanfacine (because of my anxiety he doesn't want me to do stimulants lol). I've yet to pick up my prescription, but I was curious if guanfacine has helped anyone by itself? Thanks all :)
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Every time I seem to have something good my depression rears it’s ugly head and takes it from me. Or I let it is probably more accurate. I was seeing someone for about eight months and it was going great. She was supportive, communicative, accepting, everything I could have possibly asked for. And I did one thing for myself and left her because I don’t love myself. I hate the person I see in the mirror, all I’m ever trying to do is escape reality, and I keep losing my entire being to relationships because I was in an eight year long abusive relationship that I almost let myself be dragged back into but decided to say no and cut all ties. I can’t seem to bring myself to be angry at anyone, I just keep turning that anger in on myself and creating this self destructive loop. I don’t know what to do, I’m seeing two therapists, diagnosed with MDD, and feel like I’ve become a passive observer in my own life. I want it to end, I know I can change it and do things to better myself. I just feel so accustomed to this cold and lonely lifestyle that I know will end up killing me. I just want out. I want to be happy again.
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I hope this is the right place to post this. I've had social anxiety my whole life. For the past few months, I've felt tired and kept making self destructive decisions in my life. I haven't felt this way since a very long time.
8 years ago, I stopped using heroin for the last time and have kept myself clean this whole time. tbh I didn't know back then it would be the last time I used, as I tried getting myself clean several times and somehow it was the last. The first few years was difficult because I lived almost in isolation in order to not relapse.
Few years later I went to a foreign country, made personal connections and for the first time I felt a lot of emotions. Movies could make me cry, feel happy or sad. It was a great feeling because, before that I've always felt numb and disconnected like I didnt really exist.
But more recently, I've stopped enjoying things again. I no longer feel entertained, I just lie down and feel useless, but I do not feel the numbness I've felt before. I can still feel sad. I don't want to not feel anything again.
I dont know what to do, I always wanted to contribute to society or be useful to anyone while I am alive. I want to feel more connected, I want to overcome my social anxiety and fears. At the same time I dont want to talk about my past or traumas in detail to another person, as most of them are very personal to me.
I need advice from anyone who can help.
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This seems like a dumb question but I've been on adderal for over two months now and I'm waiting for my a-ha moment. I can tell when I forget to take it because everything is more extreme. But I'm waiting for clarity/motivation/etc. that i thought would come with finally getting my adhd medicated. Did anyone else have this? I want to increase so I can get things done but am worried about the appetite suppression.
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Just wondering if anybody else has similar experiences.
I walked into the office this morning and someone was wearing too much cologne. I could taste it. My chest tightened and I had difficulty breathing, my eyes were burning, the tip of my tongue was numb like I burned it without the burning sensation. I couldn’t focus and I was highly agitated. I felt like I was being physically assaulted and needed to fight the urge to lash out. Nobody else seemed to notice (I don’t use fragrances at home).
Every time I mention something (trying to remain calm about it, sometimes days later) everyone looks at me like I am an asshole for saying something.
The strong pervasive odors like bacon, microwave popcorn (which nobody makes thankfully), and cologne/perfume have always offended me and made me a bit agitated, but this is the first time I have encountered it since my diagnosis and the subsequent rush of memories and emotions that has accompanied it.
Those types of odors that are strong and linger have always agitated me, but this was far worse than anything I have dealt with before. It wiped me out and I struggled to focus for the rest of the day, even after rushing to pack my stuff up and finding somewhere else to work for the day (I have a laptop thankfully).
The response I have makes me seriously angry in a way I can’t really describe. It is like they are forcing themselves upon me without my consent (which is likely what is driving me over the edge). It is like I am not able to ‘protect’ myself or ‘fight off’ the offender. The negative reactions of people (who aren’t the offender) to me mentioning something feels like people lashing out against the victim and defending the offender. It can get quite overwhelming and can completely shut me down. I lack the mental capacity to even find a solution while this is happening, which is just moving somewhere else.
I know this reaction is a bit over the top for what it is and relocating should be enough to not be bothered by it. I know it isn’t an intentional thing and people are nose blind to their own smells and products, but I don’t understand the need to use scented products like that in an office situation (in general really. Why do people need to know you are coming before you arrive?).
I thought I didn’t really have any triggers. I know the events were all in the past and that nobody has that kind of control over me anymore. Finding that I potentially have triggers is maybe the hardest part of the entire situation to deal with.
Sorry for this turning into a rant. It is getting me going again. Time to do some breathing exercises so I can hopefully sleep tonight.
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I’ve struggled with disassociation for some years but after breaking up with my girlfriend, although it hurts I can’t cry or even feel sad easily.
But to think of it, I haven’t cried for some hard things in the past too.
Is this pretty normal? I would appreciate your insight from your own experience.
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Hey everyone,
To give you some background, I use to work in a locked mental health facility for children and it wasn't the best run facility. I worked there a year and a half and I had my hair pulled, been spit on, punched, kicked, slapped, insulted, ect. There were periods of time where I would get hurt everyday at work for weeks. Not to mention hearing/seeing all the stories of what the kids went through and having to do "therapeutic holds" on children that are going through a mental health crisis. I ended up leaving that job shortly after I got divorced and I have a great new job that is way lower stress/anxiety/trauma.
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Well now here I am about a year later and every morning when I wake up I panic about having to go to work. I get so worked up I generally throw up every morning while getting ready for work and sometimes I have to pull over to throw up again. I have talked about this to my old therapist and I am finding a new therapist (just changed over insurance due getting a new job). I don't know what to do about this. The thing that has helped most is deep breathing exercises, but it usually takes me calming down on the hour drive to work to just get to a point where I can function. Any suggestions?
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I’ve been chronically ill for about a year. During this time, my kid has shut down and hardly talks to anyone. I’m his only parent and I’ve been chronically ill for about a year and it’s had a big impact on him unfortunately. Likely going to be having brain surgery soon, mostly confined to my bed due to dizziness and pain.
I was wondering how I’m supposed to handle my Aspergers child that doesn’t want to leave the house for activities with other family members? Should I “make him go”? I feel bad either way... him staying in his room everyday with his electronic devices...or seeing him get nervous because he doesn’t want to go anywhere
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Is there anyone with Racism themed OCD? I've been really struggling with this taboo theme & I'm finding it hard to function/find myself avoiding people out of fear of being perceived as racist.
I constantly worry that I'm being perceived as racist. I'm white, I consider myself to be an ally of BIPOC and to work on being anti-racist. Lately though, I get hit with a ton of intrusive thoughts about coming across as racist when I speak to a BIPOC, which causes anxiety, which my anxiety probably then appears racist to the other person. I can't imagine what BIPOC have to endure on a daily basis just because of their skin color, so I'm not trying to make this about me. I'm just wondering if I'm alone in this or if other people struggle with this OCD theme. To be honest, it's pretty severe and it's attacking my core, because this "theme" feels opposite to what I value (being an ally, fighting to be anti-racist & dismantle racism) & who I am. I can tell that other people notice I'm anxious, and I just hate that I'm displaying nervousness because I'm sure it makes the other person uncomfortable.
I know I'm coming off as anxious to other people. I know it because I'm trying so hard not to be perceived as racist, to get the interaction "right", that interactions just get weird, anxiety filled & awkward & I'm sure the other person is like wtf, this person is a racist.
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I've been trying to convince my parents for something, but they always say no because of my behavior. I'm posting here because I think I might have ADHD. A lot of the bad things I do are because of impulse control or just things that I do out of boredom. No matter how hard I try, I still can't behave at all and I'm naturally immature.
I often swear a lot because it is often my natural response to a strong feeling or reaction. My parents don't allow it and they dislike it. I sometimes will swear out of boredom, and sometimes when I randomly remember an embarrassing moment. (I tend to remember embarrassing moments and things I do a lot and I tend to dwell on them a lot for some reason)
I do a lot of other things that aren't allowed like not following directions. There are a lot of other ways I misbehave, but that's all the ways I can think of that I misbehave in right now. Does anyone else have a hard time convincing their parents for things because they can't control themselves? And does anyone know how to be more mature and less misbehaving? And in addition to those two questions, what was your ADHD like after puberty? I wanna know because I'm in middle school and haven't had puberty yet and I wanna know your experiences with ADHD after puberty.
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ADHD
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I showered last night then used the bathroom then lied in bed. I itched the back of my leg which may have touched the toilet seat idk but then i just went to sleep, I had to get up in the middle of the night and change my pillow case and feel like my bed is dirty, should i change my sheets or am I being OCD?
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OCD
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I created a pod cast called the DarK side of OCD on Anchor where I detail my story and my family members' fight with Pure O.
I looking for those of us suffering with aggressive thoughts and sexual obsessions, but all stories are welcomed.
Please send me a private message on here. Of course, your name will be withheld from all communications.
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OCD
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I was diagnosed with Asperger's when i was 14, got a small amount of help until i hit 18 of which it all collapsed.
24 and live with my mom (who is the best thing to ever exist, she is my rock) don't think I've left the house in over 2 years and feel relatively out of touch with myself and the world.
I resorted to a lot of risky stuff and threats to myself (often waking up in hospital) just to feel a sense of normalcy or at least the normal people would expect from me, It just seems that it's so easy to get lost and yet so hard to just... do something.
I don't speak out much but just want to say as I've
been reading through this sub-reddit and I'm just happy to see that I'm not the only one feeling so.. isolated?
Thank you.
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aspergers
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So I've always been really sentimental and I used to hoard everything. I've gotten better but I still could stand to let some things go from childhood.
My problem is I keep going on ebay to buy things I lost from my childhood. Small fisher price dolls, little toy ponies, cars, that kind of thing. A few years ago I threw out some picture books because there was a water issue in the closet where the books were so they got moldy. It was really difficult to let go of the moldy books (I'd been holding on to them for years even with the mold). What helped was that I promised myself I would replace the books.
Well last night I couldn't stop thinking about one book in particular. It was making me sick to my stomach that I threw it away. So today I found a copy on ebay and ordered it. But I don't feel better. I feel sick to my stomach and I keep asking myself over and over again if I did the right thing by buying it or should I not have bought it?
I don't know how to feel better. I keep asking my mom if it was dumb to order it. I think I'm starting to annoy her, I do this all the time constantly seeking reassurance.
I don't know what to do.
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OCD
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My wife left me and took our kid because she claims I've not been giving her enough money to have a good life. The matter is currently in court.
I know I need to be strong. I know this is temporary and things will improve. But it's been 2 months now and despite my best efforts I ended up losing my job and m at home now. The entire day I end up spending on reddit Or youTube and feel more depressed at nights because I ended up wasting another day. Just when things feel like they are improving, I end up getting texts from her or replying back to her texts and things end up being bad again.
I know I should be looking for new job. I know I should be focussing on something different to keep myself occupied. But none of that seems to be working for me right now
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Hi so I am pretty new to this sub but I was diagnosed with ocd and started taking Prozac a few months ago. While it has helped a lot I still have a lot of issues around s*x mostly about contamination or stuff getting stuck in me and I’m just not sure if anyone has any advice if they have had a similar issue before. I was thinking of trying either exposure or cbt therapy but I don’t know that they could help with something so personal. I don’t really have a specific question just mostly looking for advice because I just feel kind of lost rn.
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I posted about this a little while ago, but I just want to be free of this false perception my ocd has created about daily life. I tried studying up on this idea my ocd keeps introducing but no one knows about it, it’s mad weird. It’s very hard to explain but I’ll try to put it as clearly as I can so let me know if you experienced this or can help. Almost a year ago, during group therapy, my brain presented the idea that the fact that we have to live day to day, live doesn’t make sense, because these big events in your life like buying a house, getting a girlfriend don’t exist and are made up because we only live day by day and only the activity we do day by day matters and is real. Some ideas is money isn’t real and the state of the world doesn’t matter because we live 24 hours a day, day by day these things we only think about dint actually experience in a sensory way. Another thing I get is that my ocd hates that we live day by day and thinks it’s monotonous and boring and that life was better before this idea was presented. While I know it’s false but it’s almost as if life is actually different than before and there’s a barrier to do big events in my life that I have a false perception of life and I can’t shake it. I think it’s ocd but I’ve never experienced this in my life. It’s scary but I try to manage it. Any responses will be greatly appreciated.
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I saw [this post](https://www.reddit.com/r/Meditation/comments/ohkw1j/pro_tip_want_to_stop_overthinking_during/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf) on my feed a minute ago and I thought it'd be great for everyone over here.
A lot of the people in the comments give super useful tips. There's one about focusing on your peripheral vision. I just tried it, and it helps!
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So I (21f) am autistic and also possibly have OCD, I have intrusive thoughts related to being abusive and other harmful events occurring. Recently I became hyperfixated on an old fanfic that a friend of mine wrote in the early 2010s. We were good internet friends and I even helped them write sometimes. I realized I haven't spoken to that friend in ages and wondered what they're up to. I reached out but haven't gotten an answer yet.
What makes me nervous is that they haven't posted on social media since early 2020, so now I'm panicky about not getting a response because I'm assuming all sorts of awful things. I know, realistically, they might just have decided to move on from fandom stuff, but IDK. I'm also really feeling guilty and alone for not better keeping in touch in the past few years, and worried that maybe I did something wrong to them, or that me enjoying their old fanfic is bad cuz they've distanced themselves from it.
These thoughts have gotten so bad that I can't sleep unless I purposefully distract myself by waking up and watching an episode of a comfort TV show. I feel like I won't be comfortable until I know something about where they are now. That's when I realized this might be an obsession and I'm curious how I can move on and stop dwelling on this.
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I have been so angry for the past few days. I deal with SI everyday and it’s way worse at night. I just lay in bed and think about how all life is entropy and how the future is a well of suffering and loss. I feel like I will eventually one day die to suicide. I have to stick around for now because I got myself a dog and a cat. I love them and multiple times I find myself thinking about the day I will find them dead, and having to put them in the ground. It makes me really sad.
I self harm every now and then when it feels overwhelming. I never go deep at all and it’s never my intention to. It’s just the physical sensation that gives me a feeling of relief.
Anyway tonight I accidentally cut deeper than I ever have before. It made me scared because I really barely felt any sting or pain at all. It’s like cutting through clay sometimes.
I just fucking hate the burden of being alive. Having to own possessions and buy wasteful shit just to exist. There is no escaping it I just hate it so much. I hate having needs.
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ptsd
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I cant even imagine a safe future for myself because it just gets corrupted and ruined the more I imagine it. I want to live a peaceful life and I fantasize about ot a lot but it always ends with more screaming and more pain and I just want the screaming to stop. I just want to have true peace. The worst part is I can't even let anyone see how bad I get because it just isn't fair to put that onto someone else. I'm so afraid for when I have to share a flat with my friends in college because I won't be able to hide any emotional breakdowns from them and they will likely be worse because I'm really paranoid about people hurting me while I sleep. I want to be safe from harm someday but I don't think that happens in real life. I'm so tired. I dream about horrible things. I just want to be safe
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English isn’t my first language. I don’t want to come off as self diagnosing, so to start off I’d like to say that what brought me here is research done due to find the possible cause of my struggling. I don’t usually look up symptoms or anything like that online. I hope I won’t come off as someone with no respect to people on here. I don’t know how to start explaining what I mean, so it might be random, but all my life I loved gaming. But lately I’ve been really struggling to do anything like playing games. It started with having a hard time reading anything in games because I felt an urge to read it perfectly so that I understand everything cause for some reason I would forget it easily (though it’s possible I only think I’m going to forget it), often a few times. I had to say it sometimes by just moving my tongue or tongue and mouth, or sometimes say it out loud. And do it as many times as it takes so that it feels alright and doesn’t leave me feel as it’s wrong to just leave it at that. And if it was wrong I couldn’t (and still can’t, cause everything I’m going to talk about still happens as nothing of this sort ever seemed to go away) even think about going further, I always have to „fix it” kind of. Also I have to walk a certain way in games, so that I don’t do sudden turns or something but that I go smoothly, if I don’t I have to go back quite a lot and repeat the movement, if I mess up repeating it I have to go back even more. It made gaming very tiring for me and it stopped being enjoyable. Because of that I went back to watching anime but the same thing would happen with subtitles, though it’s also about repeatidly saying the sentance a certain amount of times, the problem is that any number of times is sometimes good and it’s always just like - one more time - and never ending so I have to stop. I also feel like I stopped being able to read the subtitles and watch what I’m currently watching at the same time. Because I watch anime and I don’t know Japanese I have to have the subtitles. And even if I had dubbing I would have to repeat what voice actors say anyway, and I know that because it already happened with a movie as well. It makes watching anything not enjoyable and very tiring as well, it turns a 20 minute episode into an hour of sweating over repeatedly reading the subtitles. Not even talking about how much it took me to watch the movie I watched. I’m a very lonely person, I don’t do much. Playing games is my hobby. Or was. I can’t even enjoy the only last thing that would always make me happy. Same with anime. If not only that, the repeating etc started interfering outside of gaming and watching movies/series/anime as well. Just as with walking in games, I have to move my cursor on my PC smoothly, if I don’t, I do circles until it feels right. I have to open youtube videos and playlists a certain way. I have to end or pause music I’m listening to a certain way. I have to walk a certain way. Touch things a certain way, symmetrically if possible (for example I need to touch and leave my phone on the desk a certain way, symmetrically, before going to bed. I need to check the doors a few times, especially the bathroom ones, because I’m always afraid something is going to happen go my cat (as in something like him going into the toilet and someone flushing it). With doors overall it’s because I’m scared he’s going to be in the middle and I’m going to crush him. Because I love him more than I love anyone or anything in my life, I don’t feel very good lately and I feel like he’s the only one keeping me alive. I started looking for answers or anything online. I found out about OCD. What was surprising for me the most was that the washing hands was a thing. I was doing that since I was very young cause I absolutely hate the feeling of grease, oily things. I protect my stuff from feeling this way with all I can. Lately I’ve seen my brother play with my Nintendo Switch meanwhile writing something by his PC touching his gross oily keyboard I wanted to cry (I did a little). Also with checking stoves etc. I’ve been doing that for a few years now (I have a certain method of doing it), and also after stoves I have to check if the fridge and the cupboard with trash inside doesn’t have my cat in it, also have to check a few times, same with one more cupboard. Basically anything I feel like I have to do I do that automatically, not even thinking about it. Breaking out of the cycle feels impossible, though I tried. It takes me a few seconds to go back to doing what I feel like I have to anyway. Everything I’ve mentioned is getting worse and worse. I literally have skin coming off my hands because of washing my hands. This is it? What can I do? Please help me even if it’s not it.
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As I have been reading through past discussions on this wonderful subreddit, it is striking the level of intellect, empathy tempered with sometimes very cold calculation of outcomes, and other things that Asperger's people simply bring to the table that are rare among normals.
I have kind of nicknamed it the Sheldon Cooper syndrome.
Wouldn't it be lovely if there was a way that our little community here or Asperger's sufferers in general would be given deliberate opportunity to participate in public debate, help solve complex problems, and basically become a uniquely gifted / special needs think tank for the world.
I sat several times the last couple of days in stunned silence.... That rare silence that is both external and inside my mind.
Reading some of the topic statements and many many comments, I know that I am in the presence of truly great minds.
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I am in a bad place in life right now and after reading around I strongly feel I have it. However everyone is acting like they had ADHD and I am thinking that maybe I am just stupid and lazy. This sub has exploded in the last year or so but even before then people were saying there is an ADHD explosion happening.
Right now I am at very complicated crossroad and given my age it could make or break my life. This is why I am not going ahead with a diagnosis because I know I will let it dictate me for the rest of my life. Being medicated also sounds terrible. A lot of people have said they turned their life around after but I know that they lose their effectiveness so what will happen when I am older but have even more responsibilities? Even worse is if the meds don't do anything, then I am just SoL.
I am really terrified of a diagnosis as you can tell but it would explain so many of my failings in life so far. I'm just worried that everyone is now talking about it which makes me think that I am self-inflicting.
Would really appreciate some advice.
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ADHD
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Saw a similar post however this is more a service that is not as common in the group. Do you have any tips or tricks?
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aspergers
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So I’m 17 and I keep having POCD obsessions. Now I’m worried about finding 13 year old girls attractive. I was wondering if that age gap is even anything to worry about? The only thing fueling this is OCD and nothing more. But if it isn’t even anything to worry about maybe that’ll calm me down. So would 17 to 13 even be that big of a deal?
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OCD
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I've always been really into turn signals. They make a nice satisfying sound, they look fun and for some reason it just makes me happy and satisfied using them.
When i got my driver license i was so excited to use my turn signals, and still am tbh (been a few years). Also i remember playing GTA and being really disappointed that you couldn't use the turn signals in cars, i did end up finding a mod for GTA V that did it.
I've never rlly thought about the fact that this interest might be related to me being on the spectrum but the more i thought about it, the more i realized it prob is lol.
Is anyone else fascinated by them?
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aspergers
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It gets so hard to see a point in this, and everyday feels like a battle with myself. I find myself trying to fix something I cant touch. People will always try to help you but they can’t see your point of view. Everyone is selfish and it feels as if friends are just there if it’s convenient for them. I am cynical about everything. Having this clinical condition is the pinnacle of torture. Here I am writing this even though no one will care anyway. It feels nice writing your thoughts down though. Not sure if anyone can relate but I honestly think that you can die at any moment and be forgotten. Not even sure if my parents love me, maybe they just say it so I wont kill myself. Do people even care if you die? I feel like an alien, and there’s no one that can fully understand me. I’d like to hear from people who have the same struggle as me. Clinical depression is slowly killing me.
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Hi, I am anxiously waiting for my psych appt Friday. My Primary Care doctor has finally given me the boot and says she thinks a psychiatrist may benefit me more to find the right meds and potentially get a formal OCD diagnosis.
I guess looking to just vent and chat with others who are struggling or those who have found something that works to give me some motivation.
A few examples of what I am going through:
I have intrusive thoughts all the time, and since starting Zoloft I am having panic attacks and vivid nightmares all night, but don't wake from them. Just stuck in a tension and sweaty miserable existence. Zoloft was given for my anxiety, but she told me it could help with OCD tendencies as well. I have since upped a few times and now am on 150mg and buspirone when needed (as of today). And yes, I did take a buspirone today - its that kind of day.
Besides the bad thoughts, I am definitely a checker. For me its my lizard tank doors. I have left work to go back home and check. I have now created a "dance" check routine for all the latches and it helps, *sometimes.* Oven, hair straightener, and car locked etc. too, but the tanks are major for me.
I tighten the shit out of everything. I break most seals, or get stuff so tight I cant even use it again unless my boyfriend is home.
If one foot trips a little while walking, I have to do the same motion to the other foot. I also have to brush my shoulder on walls when I take corners, both shoulders.
I count only a few things, one that takes the most is the kiss pattern I have to kiss my cat before I leave the house. If someone else touches her before we leave I have to start from the beginning again. 20 kisses total, all in a very specific length with specific pauses and harder exhale breathes on her head between certain ones. This one is the most inconvenient thing I count. Thankfully my cat loves me. Oh and I have to pee directly before giving her the kisses, no other stops in the house. pee - kisses - leave immediately. If I forgot something I am fucked and I have to come up with pee somehow to restart my process.
I am very routine. If anything of my routine gets messed up I just think my body will break from tension. I just cant even explain how it makes me feel.
As of Monday, my boyfriends little brother moved in with us, because their Mom died. I am even more on edge now because I have been struggling so much *before all this change,* but its not about me at home because its about them (as it should be!!) but shit I am just struggling so much because my safe place has always been home, but now it is not **my** space anymore.
Also to add, I am not clean. I do not obsessively clean my hands. I hate showering. Is it normal to have so many OCD tendencies, but have absolutely zero of another?
Please share your experience. I feel very alone right now.
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[Wikipedia on photophobia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Photophobia)
Photophobia isn’t an actual fear of light, just an intolerance to it. It even lists ASD under possible neurological causes. Just wanted to share I finally found a word for this instead of having to describe myself as a “vampire goblin that hates light”!
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aspergers
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Sorry about the strange title I was trying to convey as much as possible as succinctly as I could.
After an absurdly long wait I’ve got into a psychologist, and the plan is to do ERP. We chose two areas/types of compulsions to work on, with goals attached. One of which is reading, which is definitely the one I care more about
When I previously dealt with compulsions around rereading I managed to get past acting on the compulsion but I never really managed to overcome the anxiety related to it. I could read, but I didn’t want to because of the anxiety so I ended up avoiding it.
I guess I was hoping to hear if it’s possible to recover something you love completely, because it would be incredible motivation but I don’t want to give myself false hope
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OCD
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I have an obsession over my Minecraft skin and my mind doesn’t seem okay that I have it help me
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OCD
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For the past 4 days, I haven't gone to school at all. I just stayed home. Now, I'm having some decent time at home, but just the thought of going to school is exhausting.
My mom is a bit of a judgy person, and I don't know if I should tell her. She might just tell me "too bad, you gotta go to school". I also feel terrible for not going. I'm ruining my grades and I feel like a lazy piece of shit.
I really don't know what to do. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing, I'm taking my pills, sleeping alright, exercising, eating. So I'm not sure if actually my depression. And it sucks because I blame myself for being like this.
I don't know if I'm going to school today. I might talk on the phone with the school therapist. We'll see. I need to take courage to tell my mom I'm not going. Is this cowardly? Am I just hiding and running away from my problems? Maybe I'm just lazy.
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depression
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I'm in the process of getting assessed for ADHD, having realised I relate to the diagnostic criteria, as well as the general broader experiences of other people with ADHD. Something that I'm finding a little difficult in terms of thinking about my behaviour and what I have difficulty with is that I find it kind of hard to figure out what's not a problem, vs what I've learned to cope with. For example, with time blindness - I'm rarely late to things because I'm so petrified and uncomfortable with the idea of being late that I go out of my way to be early. I can't really figure out in my mind if that's because if I don't go out of my way to be early, I'd always be late, or if it's just the way I am. By contrast, I know my excessive use of to do lists and reminders is because I know I will forget those things otherwise and I need them.
So I'm asking everyone here: what coping mechanisms had you developed before you knew you had ADHD? What did you do to make up for your difficulties with ADHD? How did you learn to compensate without knowing you had ADHD, and before access to ADHD supports & treatment?
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Does anyone feel these two themes are often linked for them? I often feel guilt/ shame for mistakes I've made (aka, Real Event) but once I begin ruminating on the event start getting overcome by doubts and "false" exaggerations. For example: I often think back to this very specific event where someone had crashed their bike and I didn't stop to offer help, feel guilty, but then start "embellishing" the memory so that the man in my memory suddenly had a bloody leg (instead of just a scraped hand) and was lying down crying (instead of talking on his phone for help) and the guilt just grows and grows, because I will be convinced that what I did was so, so much worse than I originally thought. I'm just looking for support as I find these situations really difficult to work through: sometimes I can tell that the memory is false, but sometimes there's just too much doubt. Any tricks for grounding yourself and learning how to trust the truth? (Often for me these false memories involve ethically dubious behavior, but nothing too bad—but other times they will really escalate until I am convinced I have done something truly terrible—and then there's a lot of guilt and doubt about whether I need to confess, make amends, etc.) Would really appreciate anything anyone has to share about this, thank you!
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OCD
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I had my weekly therapy session yesterday and it felt intense as usual. I am a month and a half in. My therapist started talking to the little girl in me as an actual entity present tense (which I had told her I feel like I am not grown but still the little girl in a very real sense)… and I can’t explain it well, but I felt like someone was actually seeing her for the first time. And I also felt like my personality split, not just me the adult and her the child but there was another presence- maybe a teenager. I felt so freaked out by this. Because the girl talked and I felt like I was in the back of my head giving space for her but also kind of telling her what she could and couldn’t say (filtering? Controlling her? Not letting her speak?). I felt physically different too and it was so tiring. I am completely weirded out with myself. Maybe it was just odd to have someone actually see the little girl and also she noticed the other “person” too. I’m really worried that I am not myself. I told my therapist, after I felt I came back to my body so to speak, that I felt crazy and really panicked about what just happened. I was hyperventilating a little and kept shaking my hands?
Is this familiar to anyone ? I feel so alone. And so very off my rocker. And sad.
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ptsd
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So à few months ago I got a new job and felt great, so great that I stopped going to therapy. Yesterday after a few weeks of making mistakes I got blown up on and sent home. I realized that I still need weekly therapy sessions because if I don't, than I just snowball until my mind is engulfed and eventually collapses. So now I may be jobless. I texted my boss after apologizing for my behavior and opened up about my condition, he seemed supportive but now I just feel really awkward.
Over the winter I spent time in outpatient after I got raped and was going to take my own life, it's been a long road since that shit happened to me in October and it's fucken hard to live with everyday. If I don't get the weekly help I need I just harbor everything until it collapses.
I don't know what to do now, living with the shit is all so new to me, it's awful.
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ptsd
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I have been off work now for almost three months after a severe breakdown. While I’m making progress it is slow, and is in very large part due to the fact that I am home all day. I have built a sort of routine for myself and my dog, and some days I can go out and do the things I want to do, like grocery shopping and going to the craft store. The only reason I’m able to do this, it seems, is because I go by myself.
I have been diagnosed with ptsd, depression, major depressive episodes, social anxiety, generalized anxiety and a panic disorder.
Any sort of unwanted or uncontrollable stimuli can and does throw me into a tailspin, which is why being home and being alone are so critical. However, I am actively trying to get better. I am taking my medications, recording my episodes, doing breathing exercises, reading self help books, reflecting – the list goes on.
I am also trying to push myself a little bit to do things out of my comfort zone, like go out with another person or taking on side jobs. Those things have came back to bite me both times. I don’t regret trying and will continue to do so, but the former led to about a dozen waves of panic attacks and the latter I couldn’t fulfill with only 5% of the job left to do.
It is like being in the real world makes me shut off.
I don’t know how to combat this without reinforcing these problems when I give up (like being extra scared to go out and socialize with someone because the last time I had panic attacks).
I want to be part of real life but the only way I’m able to function is tucked away in my safe place.
Any advice is helpful and welcome.
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ptsd
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I often hyperfixate on things that went wrong, errors in judgement, or flat out mistakes.
I ruminate on them. The stress makes me tired. I feel demotivated in doing other things if the issues is big enough. Essentially I hyperfixate and I have to fight to draw my focus on to other things I need to do. This just of course slows me down and sometimes makes matter worse.
Anyone else? What strategies do you use?
* Procrastination - Bad
* More sleep - good
* Try to do yoga or meditation - good
* Bing in junk food - Bad
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ADHD
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So my therapist told me to just agree with the thoughts and let them be there and accept them, i just wanna know has anyone recovered doing that?
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OCD
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My first time seeing a psychiatrist was horrific, the first thing he recommended to me for depression was an expensive antipsychotic injection called “perseris” and it was one horrific trip that left me in so much pain for a week until my body adjusted to the meds but because I was at a high dose and wanted to come off the meds ASAP I had a difficult time doing that too because I wasn’t told or recommended to tapper from the 4mg dose, so I had rampant akathisia for an entire month, I could not sit still, it was scary and then after that my brain started to burn, it was like no other headache I’ve ever experienced that started and never stopped and still persists till this day, some docs believe it to be occipital neuralgia but I’m not 100% sure because it just happened after seeing a psychiatrist and getting drugged to death. I could have went into further detail but the moral of the story is that I’m scared of psychiatrists and don’t trust them and I have been diagnosed with PTSD from the experience, I don’t know when I’ll ever forgive that son of B*tch in Texas for what he did to me, I’m still traumatized 5 months later. If anyone sees a psychiatrist for PTSD hopefully this never happens to you, it’s truly been a nightmare
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ptsd
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I started 30 mg of Vyvanse 2 weeks ago. Had to be changed to twice daily generic adderall 15 mg. Getting something worked out with my insurance is the reason and I’m hoping this will just be temporary. Anyway, I noticed I was super tired about 3 hours after the first pill. I had my last dose about 7 hours ago and since about 4 I’ve been feeling bad emotionally and really tired. Is this just a break in period? Will it get better?
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ADHD
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Hi,
Title pretty much describes it. I'm 20 and in college. I've been worried about this for a long time and it feels like being more aware of the way these things affect my day to day life makes it feel worse.
I went to the doctor to address my concerns, told him about them, and he basically said "well some of those things could also be anxiety. I can see by how you're acting right now that you're definitely struggling a bit (I was very fidgety and physically closed off and looking around and stuff), especially with being in college. I'm gonna start you on 10mg adderall xr"
I was like "really? Why was that so easy? I thought it would take more than that" and he said something like "well I've seen a lot of people deal with this and have been doing it for 25 years and I believe this will help you. do you want further evaluation?" to which I said "I don't know, I guess not if you're confident in this" and he said he was.
I haven't picked it up yet bc they have to talk to my insurance but this seems odd? Why was this so easy?
Also, even if its not weird, is there anything I should know? I'm obv gonna tell him if I dont like how I feel on it but I've had some people tell me they feel incredible and normal on it and someone else tell me their brother feels terrible on it but takes it to help with school work, and someone else told me they took it at one point and then stopped, and has felt negative effects ever since (but those effects they mentioned were what I'm already dealing with before ever taking it)
Idk, I could just be overthinking this but I feel so conflicted and I'm not even formally diagnosed (as likely as it feels). Any advice would be great. Thank you.
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ADHD
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I’m not sure what to do or where to go, money is already hard enough so I can’t go to a therapist again but… I’m losing my entire will or spark of life everyday and I don’t know what to do. I have depression. It comes out as Irritability and Sorrow more than anything else but I have it.
My job is retail, online retail in a huge chain that constantly has been driving me to have anxiety attacks and major depressive episodes due to all of the personal attacks from customers. Customers threatening me, yelling and screaming, blaming me for everything, and then there are the managers and coworkers that put everything on me or call out and then put everything on me. There is so much more but…
Basically I am allergic to SSRI’s so I can’t take them, only medication that is barely able to help. I don’t know what to do because I can’t quit because then we can’t afford anything which then would make things worse and I’ve been applying to places for over a year and nothing. I can’t keep crying all day and keep having anxiety attacks all the time. My boyfriend has been so incredibly patient and supportive through out this and still has been but I just can’t keep doing this to him or me.
I’m not sure what I’m looking for here but I am so terribly desperate…
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depression
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Since quarantine started, the churches have all closed their doors, including the church where I was abused for 1.5 years when I was 12. This Sunday they’re having a service in the church parking lot and my mom asked me to go with her.
I’ve had problems with this church for years and I’ve been very open with my family about my grievances. First off, there was the sexual abuse. Almost more important than that, though, is that I was not the only case of sexual abuse of a child in this church. That I know of, there were three other girls in my age group alone (now 15-17) that were abused. Three of us were abused by the same guy, but the last girl was abused by a different guy. All of these cases went unreported and the guys faced no penalties.
My issues with this church are mostly involved with how they handled the knowledge of the abuse and what advice they gave to us after the fact. Personally, I reported my history of abuse to 4 leaders in the church on separate occasions. Under our safe sanctuary policy, they are all mandatory reporters and should’ve gone to the head of youth activities who would’ve then taken measures to prevent future abuse and report the incident to my parents. That never happened. (Important to note that I was the first reported case of abuse in the church.) Because no action was taken, my abuser went on to abuse at least 2 other girls (that I know of) and then there was also the separate case with the girl and a different guy. 5 years have passed since the abuse started and my abuser has never heard a word from church leadership about his behavior. (His mom knows and I’m sure she keeps an eye on him, but she only ever found out about the abuse because I shriek when I have flashbacks and I talk to my hallucination of him. She was there when I dissociated.)
Which brings me back to my problem with returning to the church. I’ve told my mom several times that if and when I go back there it’ll be because I’m ready and willing to, not bc my dad wants everyone there for Christmas Eve. She knows about a lot of the abuse and that it happened in several rooms of the church AND in the parking lot and the surrounding towns. I just don’t know how else to express to her that I never want to see him again or anything that reminds me of him. (He still attends and is well-liked in the church.)
How do I get this point across to her?
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ptsd
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Currently all alone in a new province came here in just left my family out west to work with my best freind I through just being arrogant an I guess a all around terrible person I got blacklisted pretty much from his buddys company he works for ... an the worst part is there was so much potential like 2 apartments worth of work anyways.
So now my best freind barely speaks to me I had a girlfriend an things were great she actrully had me move in with her an I fucking ruined everything in a fit of rage ended up trying to fight her brother and her freinds aunt after the aunt punched me in the face it was a horror show on the side of the road
I hit the aunt back can't belive I did that I was drunk and than her brother bottled me like 8 times than I GOT ARRESTED an went to jail for a month I have 0 contact with anyof them anymore and now she's dragging my name thru the dirt acting like I abused her it's a pretty small place around here....
So that being said I feel like public enemy number one I'm ashamed of my self at how I ruined everything my self literally entirely my fault it feels like so now I have nothing no freinds , no family, living in a hotel , and I'm just so sick an guilt ridden like my life is over here I think I should just fly back home when I can because the awesome life I did have here is over forever and I just don't think I can survive here everyon3 thinks im a monster
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depression
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I'm 23M and I just got diagnosed with ADHD and given a prescription for Vyvanse, but I still feel like I'm making up my symptoms for attention. If that makes sense. The thing is, I took an EEG brain scan that definitively showed that my brain was ADHD, but I suppose my anxiety is making me feel as if I am still making these things up. My parents don't really believe in mental health, and since I always had good grades and was naturally gifted they felt that there wasn't any way that I had ADHD. When I was really young I even had a habit of "f\*ing with sh\*t", as my parents so lovingly put it. However, I relate to the sub on nearly all fronts, and my psychiatrist even agreed that I had the symptoms. But I still feel like this is all in my head. Has anyone else had this? Does it get better?
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I was reading about OCD the other day day and it was pretty close to how I felt. I have always had odd habits/tics. Some examples are: for many years (like 7-10), I used to constantly count how many toes I had on my feet for fear that I had lost one; when I was around 11-12, I used to to do a little hum, almost like clearing my throat, multiple times a minute, just to test my throat; and last example that comes to mind, when I was 16-18, whenever I had water around me (glass or bottle e.g.), I’d pour a little in my hand to make them a little wet (during lunch for example, in one hour, I’d do this at least 6-7 times).
When I read something online that remotely applies to me, it will be in my head for months and constantly pop up. Before going to sleep, I like to think about football (soccer), dribbles I want to do for example, and while thinking this, I’ll dribble past a player, and as I run around him, something will stab me in my chest, and I’ll almost feel it (like a ghost stabbing me).
I haven’t been diagnosed or anything, but reading this the other day, I’ve been thinking about it since. I also have other peculiarities, like for example, in my desk, there’s two categories for items, the ones that belong in it and the ones that are there momentarily. The ones that are there momentarily (a lighter for example) can’t be put in the same place twice in a row, and I always put them in different spots everytime I put them on the desk, and the items that belong to the desk, I put them in the same spot every time, and if I don’t and I notice it, I can’t ignore it and I have to put it where it belongs.
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my ocd has been taking very werid themes lately, like what if i would kill a child if someone i love asked me to, or what if im not a pedophile but have some pedophilic attractions. If i talk abou the details of these obsessions i probably would be considered either insane, on drugs, or should be thrown in an asylum. Im not sure of anything anymore, it keeps coming, i just obsess about weird and stupid things all the time and like im not sure how stable i am anymore, last week i thought about smashing my head into the walls until my brain gets enough damage to never obsess again, now i feel like i may need to concentrate all my issues in a part of my body and cut it, so my stupid brain will work with this metaphor and i will be free of ocd. Sometiems i really think that i should be famous just so i can confess to like millions of peopleabout all this nonsense that happens in my brain, i feel obligated to tell everyone. One day im sure about everything the other day im questioning how moral i am or if im attracted to people i never felt attracted to. Its crazy, im crazy, i dont think im still near the point of being able to return to normal, i feel like im just disfigured, shattered and rearranged randomly, i casually get thoughts about throwing myself right off the window or shoot myself, im not sure anymore. I think im about to go officially insane, like at this rate i will soon lose any kind of logical thinking to determine my morals and what should i do in terms of morals and behavior and stuff, i seriously feel like im holding myself back from just bating myself to death or stab my brain until it stops
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I’m 33, and I have no post high school education or job experience. I’ve only just this year gotten off of anti-anxiety meds that have made me a zombie for the last ten years, because they thought my inability to function like a normal adult was due to depression and anxiety, not (as it turned out) ADHD. I’m on 54mg of Concerta a day, and I’m still just lying in bed the whole time. 17 years at most until I start to physically decay, and I’m still incapable of getting myself out of bed until noon.
My parents are in their 70s. They’re in pretty good health, but at that age things can just happen. I could lose them almost any time. I don’t have any friends; never been able to force myself to put in the effort to maintain them. I have a sister, but we’re not close.
I feel like everything I’ve ever done was a mistake, the people who matter the most to me could decline and die at any moment, it’s too late to fix anything, and this is going to end with me old, alone, and with nothing to look back on.
I don’t know what to do.
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ADHD
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My wife has bad OCD, 8 or 9 on a scale of 10. She is very control in every aspect of my life. At least it feels that way. She is medicated for it, but it doesn’t make much of an impact. Well it may make an impact because she may have a 10 out of 10 otherwise. She refuses to go to any meaningful therapy. We have tried counseling before but only make it a session or two before she won’t go back. I feel like I either have to live in her world and do things the way she wants them to be done or we can’t be together. We are in are early 30s and have been together since we were 13. We both feel like 75% of us would be missing without the other person, but I don’t know how I can continue to go on for the rest of my life with this kind of unhappiness. I don’t want a divorce, and we have young kids, so I don’t see it as an option. OCD is the only thing that holds us back from having a wonderful marriage and a family. What should I do?
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I posted in here about a month ago about how my new doctor had undiagnosed me with ADHD, said it was just my anxiety, and listed a bunch of other crap reasons why I didn’t have ADHD (like how I did well in school). I was able to find a new provider online, got re-diagnosed, and am restarting my medication. Trying to function the last month has been hard, but I’m so happy to have found someone who listened to me and didn’t dismiss my feelings. And thank you to everyone who commented on that post. You really helped validate my feelings and make me feel like I wasn’t crazy.
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ADHD
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I am no longer human, just a fat emotionally destroyed shell that anxiously goes through life. Everything makes me depressed. I can't go outside, I can't do anything. I hate everything.
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depression
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I feel like it's tough to explain what ADHD is to neurotypicals especially because then the person's gonna say, "oh, I have the same symptoms too! It's a normal thing that happens to everyone!"
So do suggest to me some great ways to explain what ADHD is to neurotypicals, so that they can understand it better.
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ADHD
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Boredom is intolerable to me, but I can't figure out what to do to give myself a boost. Most days, I end up trying to numb the boredom by dissociating, scrolling for hours, or re-watching old shows. I end up feeling horrible by the end of the day.
Does anybody have any ideas on what to do on days like these?
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ADHD
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Before the pandemic and before my pregnancy/labor, I used to feel generally fine about seeing people. Well, i am ok about seeing people if they are up for it. Not everyone is, and not everyone who wants to socialize with me are very healthy for me, so i just keep my life work and family for now. But I've also socialized a few times since last year (i think, everything is a time warp) and when it's a good positive visit, I get super down when I get home. It used to be that I felt super inspired and happy and energetic. Not anymore. I stopped seeing a counselor due to the pandemic and honestly idk when i even would now since i have the baby and work. I have to get food on the table and hang out with baby and husband. Does anyone else feel like this? I'm not sure if it's a pandemic thing or a baby thing. I feel like it's both. Going to work is okay. Going to see family with certain time limits is usually ok, but really crazy that the high of seeing friends I love just drops like crazy after. Starting to make me want to avoid things just because I don't want to feel that drop. In the meantime I may need to reach out to a counselor again.
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depression
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Whether it’s at the ER talking about why I’m su*c*dal or dealing with my own therapist attempting to treat me, as the past six months have gone by I’ve come to terms with the title.
I have false memory OCD. They all know my issues are deeply rooted in the never-ending loop of reassurance and logic yet flood me with it anyway. I’ve been trying to be patient with it as much as possible because of course medical professionals aren’t all well-read in every single little mental health issue, but damn is this getting exhausting. If it weren’t for the phenomenal resources posted to the internet for free by specialists and survivors, this all probably would’ve been chalked up to general anxiety by my docs irl and I would’ve probably ended it awhile ago.
I’m not really sure what my point is with this post, but I just want to end with saying thank you to the people dedicating time out of their lives on here to reach out for advice/giving advice to those struggling. It can really be life saving.
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TW: childhood abuse/neglect, arguing
I will refer to my guardians as my parents in this text for simplicity’s sake.
I have lived with my guardians since I was seven years old when I was taken from my biological parents because of neglect and abuse. One of my triggers is yelling and arguing. Since everyone is stuck at home right now, my parents have had more opportunities to argue in front of me and get mad at each other. They argue a lot so I spend most of my time upstairs in my room (I’m in high school), but they get mad at me when I spend too much time up there. They argue all the time and sometimes I can’t run away. I can’t get away from it when we’re trying to eat dinner or I’m working in the yard. It sends me to a bad place and I usually end up crying. I don’t know how to stop myself from spiraling out of control in these situations.
It’s really frustrating not being able to control a melt down. I’ve asked them before not to argue in front of me but they usually just get upset when I say so.
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ptsd
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Let me preface this by saying ***this is not me asking for things to bring up to my doctor. Do not tell me what I or others should say to my/their doctor.*** I only made this post because I feel like this would be somewhat relatable to y'all and because I'd be a lot less mentally constipated (for reasons stated below) if I read more anecdotes where y'all had an easier time getting diagnosed in one fell swoop.
On September 1st, I got a referral from my GP to get diagnosed for ADHD. (Now that I'm looking at the date, holy shiit it's been a boiling hour. Whoops!) I still have the list of referrals with me—luckily I didn't lose it, but I may as well have.
I think the main thing that's holding me back is the off chance that I do get told by the doctor that I don't have ADHD because of who I am:
1. a woman (20F). Neurodivergence in general is missed in women and girls. We typically don't show the hyperactive, stereotypical traits of ADHD.
2. Asian. We're stereotypically smart, hardworking, and more reserved. Not the spitting image of ADHD.
3. quiet and socially awkward. This kinda ties in with the first two points.
4. used to do well in school. High school was when my grades started going south. Started failing a class every year or got close to that, but no one knows that. Not even my sister or parents.
As you can see, I don't really display the traits that fits the public perception of ADHD, and seeing all those posts where people had to go through several doctors for a proper diagnosis discourages me. What if I have to go through the same, too? It would clearly take an even *longer* while, seeing as I originally planned on getting a referral in May, and then finally got referred on September 1st, and I still haven't scheduled the appointment.
It's probably not as bad as I make it out to be. I live in a progressive, urban area, so the doctors are likely to be more open-minded as well and I won't have to get second, third, or more opinions to finally get diagnosed. But there are other things I'm kind of worried about.
I originally stressed over having a Vietnamese doctor or a Vietnamese interpreter (kinda lost fluency over the years) since my mom would be tagging along and she's not at all fluent in English. I also considered having my sister come along as well, since she can also vouch for me and she's better at me at Viet. With this in mind, I stressed over the fact that at some point the doctor would have to ask about how I was doing in school and *I haven't revealed to my sister or parents that I have a fuucking 2.65 college GPA*. (And this is only community college! I feel like dissolving into the ground for achieving a new low.) While my parents are pretty relaxed compared to the stereotypically stricter Asian parents, no one wants their kid to be failing something as easy as community college, and I don't want my parents or sister nagging at me endlessly.
Then I came across a comment on this subreddit where someone said adults didn't need to have their parents come along to vouch for me, and that I could just vouch for myself. Cool, nice, but what if the doctors think I'm bullshitting just to get my grubby hands on Adderall since that's a thing non ADHDers do? So yeah I really want my mom to be there to vouch for me, and maybe even my sister too. Sure, it'll look suspicious to my mom and sister when I lie and say my grades are going well, but if I say I'm doing well in school, the doctor'll be more likely to brush it off... I think I'll just write on a piece of paper how bad my grades are going and hand it over to the doctor when they ask about school haha.
Anyway, I'm going back to my general practitioner this Thursday to ask for a referral list with more Viet doctors on the list, or some that have Viet interpreters. (In an area with a high Vietnamese population as well so I hope the list isn't too small.)
I feel like the process is simple but my mind is just making things 10x more difficult. I'm mentally constipated every time I think about this. At the very least I'll come out of the doctor's office with an anxiety diagnosis if not both ADHD and anxiety.
Has anyone else procrastinated their diagnosis like I have? Also, this turned into more of a rant, whoops.
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ADHD
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Didnt know to word the title but... I feel like I'm trapped in a constant cycle of 'fresh starts'. Like, I'm constantly convincing myself next time will be different. Or tomorrow is the day I finally organise my room and my life and suddenly everything will be in order. Or this journal/hobby/idea/routine/whatever is going to be the one I stick to forever.
I know deep down that this isn't going to be the case but I still find myself trapped in this constant cycle of turning over a new leaf then inevitably just falling back into the same old patterns. How do I stop myself thinking like this??? It's actually kind of exhausting.
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ADHD
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So iv had hocd for 5 months and my brain got used to it, the first month was hell crying everyday I couldn’t eat or sleep I felt dead inside but anyway I feel like I can’t be in a relationship because I’m left with these thoughts and doubts because what if I’m faking it what if I can’t catch feelings and feel the crush feeling I did with boys before iv lost feelings for someone iv liked for 2 years so how am I supposed to be normal ?? Also with harm ocd aswell when I’m pissed off it’s like I feel this volcano building inside and about to irrupt I feel so angry like I get shaky and I never used to be like that but over the tiniest thing i just get angry quick so I get scared because what if I snap and pick up the nearest thing near me and use it on someone
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OCD
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Hey everyone,
I woke up feeling gross and sexualized and it makes me so uncomfortable. I can't describe the feeling but it's similar to feeling exposed and I feel disgusted and sexualized. I grew up being groped and sexualized as a little girl so, sometimes, even being in my pj's makes me feel gross and sexualized. I woke up today and felt disgusting. I feel gross. Can anyone relate?
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ptsd
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I’ve been going through what I’m sure is real event OCD but I’m not 100% certain. Every so often I get episodes about it, it starts when I see or hear something that reminds me of it, and I get this intense feeling of guilt and the need to pace around the house and think about it, I get intrusive thoughts of it and get really uncomfortable and ashamed. I get a compulsion to search through my memories to get certainty of the situation and every so often I remember something else about the event or a memory where I was worried about it, but then I remember something that just makes me feel worse. Whenever I’m actually able to talk myself down from the anxiety I just feel it again the next day. I don’t know for certain if this is OCD because I get worried being in public and how people would feel about me if they knew.
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OCD
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So I’m 17 and I’m obsessing if I’m attracted to 12-13 year old girls to the point I had a mental breakdown last night so hard I almost started shaking as I was crying. Which is honestly dumb because 13 to 17 isn’t the worst age gap. It’s a little weird of course. But to save myself some worrying should I tell myself “let’s just wait till I’m 18 and we will go from there?” Because it’s honestly pointless to worry about this at my age
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OCD
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hello... 20F
i was recently diagnosed with OCD and i’m taking medications
i always have a lot of intrusive thoughts about my childhood. specially when i think about sexual experiences. what is happening now is: when i think some specifics memories, i feel like i’m remembering the feeling that i have when i was a child.
i don’t feel any bodily responses, so arousal or anything do not border me because it’s not about that. it’s like i can feel what i was feeling at that time but without feeling...
like, if i think one day i was super happy, i can remember the feeling but do not really feeling in my body, so confused.
can anybody help me with that?
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OCD
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Hello Redditors who might suffer from both ADHD and depression. How can you differentiate between the two? I'm having second thoughts about my ADHD diagnosis as Concerta makes me in my opinion happier or do ADHD meds make everybody happier? And I don't mean high happy or manic. Just contentment and overall happy mood?
I've read that Concerta can be used for drug resistant depression also so I'm wondering maybe Concerta is treating just that?
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ADHD
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God! I hate the sound of people chewing!
my therapist said its another symptom of ocd so does anybody else have this issue???
now im generally a calm person (other than anxiety taking over my life lol) but hearing people chew makes me fuc**** RAGE! The sound of cats licking themselves, dogs drinking water, its all so gross!
for animals its a bit different but for people i dont understand why they cant just chew with their mouths closed?? and im not talking about having a health issue that prevents you from it, im talking about people that just chew openly bc they can. it makes them seem immature too
UGH
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OCD
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Hi, thinking about getting therapy for my ptsd that was triggered by an assault but I’m really scared that I’m gonna get judged. Has anyone got any experience with therapy and is it as scary as I think it’s going to be? Thanks x
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ptsd
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I am a writer who is currently writing a character with PTSD from military service and I was wondering if anyone would be willing to share their experiences with me and answer a few questions for me. I do want to make this as accurate as possible and I had a feeling some of you here might be willing to help.
Thank you in advance
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ptsd
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Most people will never understand. Its incredible how narrow minded our species is. This obviously includes myself. I’m as rigid as anyone else believe me. But wow...
It should go without saying but life isn’t the same thing for everyone. There’s just unimaginable things that can happen to somebody. And I mean anyone. The guy you think is the happiest person on earth, the dude you think is the shittiest piece of filth on the planet. This realization has slowly formed like rocks in the earth’s crust but now I know the truth. And as someone with a peculiar mental disorder and years of insecurity and abuse... it feels like some people are just doomed to play a certain role
It’s something I’ve always wanted to point out. I’m a struggling individual. A very fucked up one tbh. I deal with a lot of heavy issues about mistakes I’ve made. I Obsess over my character and stuff. To an insane level. I’ve taken myself prisoner I think. On many levels.
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My loved ones and friends know about it they just dont tell me like the same way you can’t tell someone they have bad breath without hurting their feelings. I’ll never know if this is a reality or not and dont know if i want to know! i hate it here!
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OCD
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Don't have a romantic relationship, partly because I have no interest, also because I hate kissing and foreplay. There could be more reasons but can't think of more at the moment.
I find kissing to be very gross and unnecessary, I understand that people kiss due to emotions that drive them to do it but I can never get into a mindset where I am uncomfortable with it. Feeling like this can make things awkward, I'm assuming that many people like kissing and would feel rejected or sad if I were to say that I don't like kissing.
Kissing is dirty, bad breath, wet, noisy, just plain unpleasant.
Also don't like flirting and role-playing, don't know why but they both make me feel very uncomfortable in the same way, makes me feel disgusted and get repelled by it, feel the same way about the rituals and natural flow of romantic motions... Too grumpy to conform to natural social motions, I take things way too seriously haha
In the past I kissed etc. Out of obligation but I just couldn't pretend to like it to the point where the other person was convinced, they always would have to ask for affection from me.
Maybe I'm incapable of having anything more than just a friend or room mate?
Ah well, not much point to this post anyway, thank you for reading haha
Question: should this be marked as NSFW?
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aspergers
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Long story short: she has ADHD in her family and knows the signs. We have been working for over a year together and I have been quite open about my therapy, etc - but never told her I have ADHD. Today I drove her car back home and noticed some red lights almost too late, drove one time WAY too close to the side of the road - stuff I normally do while driving. She asked me: "You sure you havent been diagnosed with ADHD?" And yeah, I didnt want to lie longer, so I told her. For me it has been freeing, because I have some more mental problems and I am ALWAYS thinking: "Maybe thats the way I am? Maybe thats not ADHD, but one of the other illnesses? Maybe I have just to "suck it up"?" When a person who knows the signals from her family and knows me well notices my ADHD, then I can be sure it IS responsible for a lot of problems. On the other side: I am a bit afraid to be trated as "ill" or "disabled" from now on, so: Just make sure to think about it a lot before you tell somebody in your professional environment. It can be very freeing, but also a big stigma.
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ADHD
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Hello all,
Recently been diagnosed with ADHD (last 18 months) and obviously still learning about it and of course learning about myself.
One thing I’ve noticed is if I pick up momentum with my studies or something I’m interested in, I’m absolutely unstoppable - almost obsessive. Because of this I have had bouts of success academically.
However, if my momentum falters even in the slightest, the knock on effect from tasks-to-task is quite drastic. To the point where I’m now sitting in my room with a deadline tomorrow totally unable to put pen to paper (or hand to keyboard.)
I’d like to deal with this as rationally as possible - not necessarily looking for sympathy cos the deadline isn’t going away any time soon lol.
But if anyone can relate to this I’d appreciate a response because I’m really struggling to justify it. My diagnosis was recent so on some level I guess I don’t believe it?
And if anyone has any tips to pick up momentum, or get the ball rolling when your in a rut - that would also be class.
Thanks Reddit!
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ADHD
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I’m a first year student in college and I’m really struggling with time management and academic stuff in such an unstructured environment where I actually have to focus and sustain concentration on large amounts of reading and writing. And when I say struggling I mean completely not turning in assignments that are worth 30% of my class grade because it’ll take my 10x the time to do it than normal people.
After weeks of trying to get someone willing to see me, I finally found someone. From the beginning of the appointment they ONLY mentioned my anxiety and depression (never once mentioning ADHD or being willing to talk about my struggles with academics) that I was diagnosed and medicated for over a year ago. Yes, it’s part of the problem but if my depression and anxiety has gotten better with zoloft but my issues with focus and concentration haven’t, then just maybe there’s something else wrong.
I’m literally so mad because it’s taken so much to admit that I need help AGAIN only to be diagnosed with the same thing I was a year ago. I got prescribed just a once a day 100mg dose of SR (not even the extended release) Wellbutrin which is WAY under the typical dose for my age, body size, and severity of symptoms.
Oh and the old white guy made me feel super uncomfortable about my queer identity and told me that I should start drinking alcohol since it’s a “social lubricant” that would help me with my social struggles.
Why can’t I find someone willing to help or even listen to me :(
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