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A couple years ago something switched in my brain and I had my first panic attack followed by a year of horrible anxiety and depression.
Now I still suffer from anxiety and depression, but not as bad.
When it gets a little worse I start having thoughts and feelings of how bad it was in the beginning and how terrified I am to go back to that place. In turn, I start to get those terrible feelings.
I know I didn’t suffer a horrible event like a lot of people on here, but I’m pretty scared.
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ptsd
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Hi guys, recently diagnosed with ADHD and am trialing vyvanse (It's great so far!)
My psych has given me 30x 20mg capsules, with the following dosage schedule:
1 capsule a day for 5 days
2 capsules a day for 5 days
3 capsules a day until I see him next
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My trouble is, there's 30 days between our appointments. As i've only been given 30 capsules, this means I only have enough capsules to last me 15 days. Does this look like an error on the psychs behalf or is this normal?
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I’m only doing this sporadically and in the interim while I finish college and go to law school, but frankly it is really fulfilling.
At the end of the day, it’s basically arts and crafts. Seriously. I was always so tentative about home reno because for whatever reason tradesmen in the US are such bullies that over inflate their worth and always find fault with something—even if they were the last person to do the job, seriously. But in reality all home reno is
1. Costly because of the human aspect—in that supplies are cheap but our time isnt.
2. Using skill to try and save time
3. Using sand paper to fix up what you couldnt use skill on the first and last go.
I’d had s mental breakdown and was struggling with getting out of bed or finding a place thatd likely take me for employment in the interim.
I started just doing home reno for neighbors and such. I’m p much a scab scab, but seemingly it still pays extremely well :y
I have wondered so much what somebody would do in my position if they werent privileged like I am and honestly this would be a good interim job while they get their bearings together.
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Hey guys, first post here
I am 22 and although I haven’t been formally diagnosed yet, I checked in with a professional and they said that I might have ADHD, along with GAD.
I started smoking green daily when I was 17 and it changed my life completely. Settled my brain down so I could finally talk to people like a normal person and bumped my grades up from a C to straight As. It ended bad though because it started making me paranoid so I quit.
Now my problems have started coming back up as in I can’t sleep or focus on school anymore and want to go for meds. I wanted to ask if there are problems with long term med use for any of you.
These issues have made a very weird person and I’m tired of being a slave to them. My few years on cannabis made me realize how much potential I truly have.
Thanks
(Yes I haven’t been officially diagnosed but the doc said it’s very probable, plus I thought all these symptoms I’ve had my entire life were anxiety or something, but after researching it seems more clear it’s adhd )
Edit - to long term users, also how has your life changed and would you recommend it?
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Anyone have experience with this? I have gun violence related ptsd and the past months fireworks have done off outside my window every night. I can’t eat, sleep, or work anymore. Just before this started in Feb I resigned the lease for my Boston apartment. Does anyone have suggestions for how to break a lease due to ptsd is that even possible?
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ptsd
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About 2 weeks ago I started taking around 15mg of focalin a day. It helps but I also get side effects like weird hot flashes, nausea, loss of appetite and feeling like I have a fever. This especially happens when it starts wearing off. I assumed it would go away once I got used to it, but that hasn't happened so I'm deciding to stop.
Do I need to taper or will I be fine just quitting cold turkey? What will my withdrawal symptoms be like, if any at all?
For context, I'm male and 5'10 134lbs
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Does anyone else have real event ocd that gets worse because it also attaches false memories to the real events?? Like the real events weren’t that bad but as soon as your brain recognizes it it attaches something illegal that you never actually did to the event?
I just realized this was happening today cus rn I know the false memory is fake but it felt real during the day. It’s also weird cus I knew rationally that it was fake during the day but my emotions just didn’t accept that.
Fuck me bruh
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I hate OCD. I wash my hands nearly every moment I do something. What really didn't help is that my really old dog who has loose bowels urinated on my floor. I disinfected the floor around 10 times, and my headphones accidentally fell on the same area my dog urinated on. Do I need to worry about my headphones being unclean?
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Help me, please, find a drug that can help me with my anxiety. I can get extremely anxious for the stupidest reasons and my anxiety spasms my muscles hardly which is really bad for me because I have a problem with my spine. I've tried 4 antidepressants: trazodone, Zoloft, Fevarin, mianserin. Mianserin causes horrible side effects to me, especially muscles weakness and things like that, I can't take drugs like this one. Other antidepressants I've tried don't cause such bad side effects when I take the minimal dosage, but I can't take them because of accommodative spasm - I can't look at displays or books on them. After that, I read on the Internet this: "One of the most common eye-related side effects of antidepressants and anti-anxiety medications is blurred vision. Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) like Zoloft, Prozac, Lexapro, etc. directly affect the pupil and ciliary muscle function of the eye and can make it difficult to focus on near objects." really need to deal with anxiety, because it affects my physical health, and it comes very often and spasms my muscles with bigger power. Also, I've read some books about stoicism, they are really helpful, but anxiety always finds things to worry about, even if I don't want to.
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The other day I was working on my car with my brother and he got a random scam text. It had a couple pretty brutal photos of a very deceased guy in it and I thought nothing of it. I’m 24 and he’s only a few years younger then me. Turns out that was the first time he’d seen something like that and its kinda screwing with him. I grew up alone on the internet, that’s what I thought was normal. Just makes me think about what I missed out on.
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My doctor and psychiatrist have both encouraged me to begin taking Abilify to treat my symptoms, as it’s gotten to the point where I can no longer work. I’ll be starting the medication in the morning and, I’m sure as everyone is when they’re starting a new medication, I am nervous.
I’m currently taking Zoloft 50mg. I would likely be at a dose of 75mg or 100mg if not for my terrible sensitivity to medication (my first two attempts on SSRIs straight up landed me in the hospital).
I have read testimonies from people with psychotic disorders such as bipolar and schizophrenia saying that Abilify has been a game changer for them, but haven’t been able to find much about Abilify being used to treat PTSD. My symptoms can be psychotic in nature but not fully entering into psychosis (so I’m told by my psychiatrist) as I’m still in touch with reality. My biggest issue is dissociative reactions to what’s now become most situations that are in any way stressful/new/stimulating. For that reason they’ve prescribed me this medication in hopes that it will help me regain some functional ability (concentration, attention, awareness, etc.)
Has anyone else taken Abilify to treat their PTSD symptoms or are there family members with loved ones who have taken it ? Did you find it helped regain some control?
Any thoughts or insights are welcome.
Thanks in advance.
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Hey everyone. Recently been diagnosed with OCD and Iv been on 50mgs of Zoloft but I am still struggling with earworms and ruminations over my last breakup (he was unfaithful and IV developed a fear of being around women) I still have quite severe OCD and will avoid things like Netflix, hanging with my female friends and having apps like insta and tok tok and will get panicked when other people are on it because he was also looking at other naked women online :/
Like I hate anything sexual and idk I get triggered at music in the car often Like I feel like I'm not living and I had to quit my job .
I just would love to know if anyone had gone from 50-100 and :
* How long till you felt effects
* How did you benefit from going higher
* What specific OCD symptoms were minimised
Xx thanks
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TW: I do self medicate with alcohol to some extent and it is not something I am proud of or recomend to anyone.
I drink when going out with friends but it's just not the same. I really enjoy drinking alone. It is the only time I can really enjoy the dopamine building. And I get all fidgety and happy and everything seems so positive. I feel I am the happiest in those moments. Like my thoughts are racing but they make sense and I can process every one of them.
Does anyone relate or do I just have a bigger problem than I am willing to admit?
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So I was playing basketball at the park. Up runs my 5yo son, with my wife not too far behind. We stop playing ball and I watch as my wife approaches the court. She tells me she lost the keys to the other vehicle and needs to use mine, so I give her my keys and off she goes.
Later she approached me and says she was embarrassed I just stood there when she arrived and that I didn't run out to meet her. I wasn't trying to do anything wrong and I just don't see how that's embarrassing. Am I way off base here? Stuff like this has caused marital issues in the past and in my view I'm just not even close to thinking I've had a miscue or that my Aspergers caused me to not realize my flaw. Just wondering what opinions are, I want to know if I'm an actual asshole.
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Life is hard.. and exhausting. I live the same day over and over again eat, work (bad paying job) lay in my bed.. feeling sorry for myself. I'm 18. Got no friends.. no nothing. Hate my body, hate myself hate everything about me. Dropped out the first week of college. Gaining weight too. Can't stand to look at myself in the mirror.. the first 2 real friends I had I pushed away. I'm selfish.. I hurt others I "manipulate others to feel bad for me". Its weird I hate being depressed but at the same I kinda like it. Death I welcome you. Not existing.. ahhh sounds peaceful
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I don’t want to live anymore but I am too afraid that my attempts might fail or if it would be too painful. I have gotten close to it and wrote some last notes twice for the ones i wanted to leave behind. I feel like I would give up almost anything for a shot to the head sometimes and at other I have the urge to study, clean my room and be productive and after about two months I finally cleaned my room to a reasonable extent and I don’t know anything that was thought this whole year and most of last year even though I have my mid term exams next month. I just don’t know what I can look forward to in life and I desperately want something that can motivate me to live.
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The question is are you sociable?
In other terms do you socialize?
How long for?
Online better?
In person?
When is it the cut off for you?
Me well I socialize few far between. When I do it will be for 0-1hour.. My cut off when I do is when the topic is off a subject I'm comfortable with.
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I live in a suburb next to the city. My boyfriend and I planned to meet up with friends and see a show tonight. I typically go to work early so I decided to make some coffee so I can stay up. I have a moka pot, which is a stove top espresso maker. I put it on the stove, turn on, get ready. My boyfriend is rushing me out the door and we left to take public transit into the city. 4 stops in, I realized I didn't drink my coffee. Now I can't remember if I turned off the stove. We go back, my boyfriend is frustrated, and the stove is off (thank God). Now we're going to be late to the show.
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Title says it all. So many attention wh\*res claim they have autism when it's obvious they don't have a formal diagnosis and just read articles online, so they're appropriating our condition for attention and money. I see so many of them on Tik Tok but it's great to know that they're getting called out by actual people with ASD.
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Im beyond my breaking my point. No one cares. No one is listening. Im always crying. Always struggling. My life feels like a hellish nightmare from which there is no escape. I landed back at my moms house. She's always belittling me. Yelling at me when im down. She doesn't care when I say I'm hurting or I don't want to be here anymore. My sons father went and ditched again. I lost my job. I don't have a car. All my dreams I had to put on the shelf have all since been crushed and shattered. Im afraid ill never be happy or have the life I so desperately want. Im unlikable. Hell, im downright unlovable. The stress is aging me. I no longer feel beautiful. I look in the mirror and im instantly panicked by what I see. No matter what I do or how hard I try I always fall short.
How do I turn this around? How do I make things better? All my life has been trauma after trauma and I have never known comfort or safety. How do I obtain what feels so... damn unobtainable? Its not getting better... and everyone keeps saying g it'll get better.......
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I attended group therapy today. We talked about "safe" people (i.e. people you can talk to you about your trauma without feeling judged) and "unsafe" people.
I created a Facebook group message with my closest friends from my college years explaining to everyone what happened, how much all of their friendships mean to me, and that I feel safe with them. The only issue is that we were all friends 10+ years ago as freshmen in college.
I still love and respect them. I'm hoping for supportive responses from them
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Sorry if this triggers you.
I dont feel like myself I haven’t in a while, I am so close to ending it all, idk what to do, I’ll probably be fine, but I just can’t take this shit anymore
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Last week, I (28M) was finally diagnosed with ADHD-combined type. I was prescribed the lowest dose possible of Adderall (from what the doc said). When I was 26, I fractured my spine along with finding out I have degenerative disc disease and arthritis in the same spot (which is probably why I fracture it in the first place). Basically in non-stop pain since it has occurred. Anyways, I finally took my first dose today and my world has been completely different. I am able to focus more and I have accomplished more in an hour than I have weeks at a time. However, I am feeling 100x more pain in my back after I have taken the pill. Is it possible that because I don't have so many thoughts and stuff coursing through my mind, that I am hyper focusing on my pain now? Has anyone else experienced something similar?
I want to keep taking the medicine because I feel amazing in my mind but this pain is almost unbearable in back now. I have messaged my doctor to get medical advice, but I also want to hear from the community to see if there are other alternatives that maybe I'm not thinking about.
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i had a really bad trip, in it i got raped and killed, and i think about it everyday, sometimes i question if it actually happened and everyone is just lying to me because it’s easier, because i feel so dirty and used, and i can feel where they were and i see their faces when i close my eyes and i always think about it and no one ever gets it, when i talk to my friends they don’t really understand how extreme it was, how much i saw, how mych i felt, i could feel it all and see it all, i looked them dead in the eyes and saw them laugh in my face, i do question if it happened or not, it probably didn’t happen but i do question. it, i feel scared all the time, every time i go out i feel anxious, and again i don’t think my friends understand how anxious i get, and how scary it is for me, i feel like everyone is out to get me, the worse part is that i use to feel to free but now i live in fear, even in my bed room the shadows look like their faces and i see them when i close my eyes, when i’m alone i’m not truly alone it follows me, and no one will understand and that, no one saw what i saw, no one felt what i felt, i can still see it all picture clear
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I live my life turning every light off possible, avoiding mirrors whenever I can.
Cannot accept a video call, hate using a camera.
God I hate myself.
Even if I get in shape, idk if I will ever be content with myself.
Is there any point in trying to keep going
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Does anyone else get upset when they see people misusing OCD? Like things like “I’m so OCD” when people just like being clean and organized? I know it’s annoying but sometimes it actually makes me upset and kinda sad, sometimes I feel like maybe I’m being too sensitive for being sad about that but like I struggle with it so much and then people just throw it around like it’s nothing or like in a positive way when it’s not a positive thing.
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i need someone to talk to me. i feel like im drowning. and i don’t want to bother the few people around me. i just need a friend even if you never want to talk to me again. please help me.
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I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy in January 2019 and started on Vyvanse 20 mg shortly after. My dosage increased over time to 60 mg which I was on until last week. Having been on Vyvanse for a bit, I certainly built a tolerance over time, and I felt like it wasn’t working as well anymore. No sleepiness for the most part so still effective, but no kick in the ass jolt of energy like I used to get in the beginning.
I mentioned it to my Dr., and she suggested trying Adderall XR instead. She prescribed Adderall XR 20 mg for the morning, and another 15 mg XR for later in the day since it lasts less than Vyvanse.
From day one of trying Adderall I have not felt it work whatsoever. By everyone’s accounts, Adderall is definitely much stronger than Vyvanse. But even after taking both of my daily doses (total 35 mg), I feel absolutely exhausted and with debilitating brain fog. Two days ago I woke up at 8 am, took my pill and went back to sleep. I continued to sleep for another 4 hours until my husband woke me up.
Has anyone else experienced Adderall not working? Especially after switching from Vyvanse? Or could it be Vyvanse withdrawals?
For context, it’s brand Adderall, not a generic.
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I joined this forum recently as my OCD really began ramping up again. Originally a couple years ago I had POCD and so I went to a therapist for about 3 years and I was able to get things under control and I'm on Effexor 137 mg I think (which may be a little high). But then I met my current girlfriend and I love her a lot a lot. But Relationship focused OCD is absolutely destroying 1. My self image and 2. It feels like it's weakening my relationship. She's super supportive and is super kind about it! But I hate always asking her if "we're okay" and constantly apologizing. Oversharing is an issue too. I am conscious of it though. And because of all thst I'm like "oh no it's never gonna work out." Then I start catastrophizing. I mean OCD attacks our values and things we hold close. And I'm a fairly considerate person. So all that together makes me one ball of anxiety that's too nervous to hurt her feelings or make any mistakes and it's getting to be a lot. I've been trying to remind myself of past exercises I used to do with my therapist. I just feel extremely uncomfortable with myself and like I don't know who I am .-. And that I don't deserve this relationship etc etc. I think what made it go out of whack is we've been talking about moving in together etc and I'm currently staying there for a month as a bit of a trial run so I think it really just... set off my ocd if that makes sense. I'm thinking about switching medication or maybe a lower dose.
Sorry for the long ass post. I just needed to kind of get it out. Thank you for listening.
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CW: emotional abuse
My PTSD stems from an abusive relationship I had with an ex boyfriend over two years ago. During this time, he made me go vegan and would constantly monitor what food I was eating and would demand that I call him during meals. I was living in my university’s residence at the time and there weren’t many vegan options, so I ended up losing roughly 45 pounds and eventually lost my sense of hunger all together.
Since the break up, I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD and I’m now on two stimulant medications (Vyvanse and Dexedrine). These both also suppress appetite, and make it so when I’m hunger, my body confuses it with nausea. I’m also no longer on a vegan diet, and refuse to eat purely vegan products, as I did once and got triggered by even the taste.
I’ve talked with my therapist about my aversion to food (often eating 1-2 meals a day, avoiding food if I have to make it myself, willingly eating if I’m forced, food in my head being “slimy” and therefore inedible), but I was just curious if anyone has gone through something similar/had any tips for combating it?
I’m currently at my lowest weight (I can count my ribs), and I’m worried this might turn into a full eating disorder if I don’t come up with a solution soon.
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ptsd
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Hi everybody.
I'm not really sure how to explain this as short as possible, but I'll try.
I have been working at a Social employment facility since September last year. Here I was hired for the position of Quality, Health & Safety & Environment.
Now it is true that in recent months (perhaps already at the end of last year) I have had difficulty concentrating and have little energy. I get much less done at work than usual. and I mean A LOT LESS. Now it is also the case that I am the only official in this department, and I only give responsibility directly to the management.
For a few months now, I have been bothered by the thought that due to my low productivity I am not getting enough done, and therefore I am less likely to notice whether certain things are running safely and well at work. My job is, among other things, to carry out audits within the organization, as well as to carry out checks on occupational health and safety.
I was noticed yesterday that in one of our departments where a lot of wood is processed, there is a significantly high concentration of particulate matter. there are no legal requirements when it comes to indoor spaces and particulate matter levels, but the company adheres to the requirement that is also set for the legally existing requirements that apply to outdoor air and is the responsibility of the municipalities and cities.
After discovering these high levels in this department, I immediately made a report to our management, who will deal with this as soon as possible.
However, since yesterday I've been thinking all the time that if I hadn't wasted my time surfing on my phone, surfing the internet, being tired and just slacking off I would probably have thought sooner that we would have a particulate matter measurement done in the wood department.
Incidentally, I have looked and seen that before I worked here the measurements have always been too high, and therefore the correct actions were not taken before I started working here.
I also wonder whether I would have tested the room for particulate matter earlier if I had focused more on my work, and thus having more free time and maybe asking my co worker sooner to test the wood area.
It is also the case that not only I do the measurements, but a colleague of mine who is the manager of the technical service also performs these measurements, this is a kind of joint task.
Now I have read on the internet that people can develop certain illnesses from particulate matter like cancer, asthma, etc. But also that exposure to the particulate matter could reduce life by an average of 9 months.
So I feel extremely guilty, and I'm constantly in a panic. It feels like I have blood on my hands, and I'm constantly thinking about how I can make up for this. Maybe I can try to have more healthy snacks and drinks served in the canteen so that there is some compensation?
I just don't know what to do. I am comitted to working my but off, so i can fix and catch up on all the things i did not do. I have also stopped claiming travel expenses to work and back home since the end of last year. This is because I hope to make up for something I don't do or haven't done.
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So after I got off ps4 with my friends, I suddenly got this random wave of happiness and Motivation. The motivation gave me like some sort of Adrenaline against my ocd. To be honest it was one of the weirdest but best moments of my life. Have anyone else experienced this same feeling before?
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So I’m (24F) waiting for a psychiatry appointment to open up for the local Psych MD’s/NP’s in my area. My SO and I both think I have ADHD. Does anyone get more scatter brained when under stress? Anyone take anti anxiety/anti depressants and later diagnosed with ADHD or ADD? I have a lot on my plate recently but overall have a habit of losing, forgetting and blacking out dropping things somewhere never to find them again. I’ve had trouble focusing in school and exams although successful in my career now but taken a lot of repetition to get that way. I recent took a ADHD quiz online from a psych source and my result was “possible to most likely ADHD”. Basically I’m trying to come to terms with the fact I may have it but I’ll be happy to get on the right medication to live a more peaceful and organized life.
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This is the second time I post this in hopes that someone can tell if all this has to do with ocd or with something else like adhd. At least I want to know that I'm not the only one who do these things. Sometimes I feel like a freak.
I believe that one day I will be able to overcome most of my ocd tendencies but I feel that I will never stop seeking reassurance and trying to predict the future. I can stop my rituals, my weird organization habits and most of my obsessions and intrusive thoughts but this self doubt aspect of me it became a toxic habit and I can't control it anymore. I feel so ashamed but I do these things unsubconsciously and it's exhausting.
- I'm tired asking literally for everything a yes or no answer with stupid ways like looking in numbers etc.
- I'm tired telling to myself every moment that if x happens it means z.
- I'm tired self doubt every decision I make even for the food I want to order ans seeking reassurance in weird things
- I'm tired be so obsessed with future and trying to find a way to learn about it. I wasted so much time and money to fortune tellers, tarot and other nonsenses to make me feel a little bit hopeful and in the end I became so obsessed with somethings I heard.
- I'm tired doing stupid lotteries and lucky draws to choose from what book I read to what job I should do. I should never followed my parents to casinos, gambling games made my ocd even worse.
- I'm tired setting stupid programs and every five minutes change an activity even if I don't want because I must follow the order.
Honestly I feel so ashamed and stupid for so many things. I remember playing Pac-Man multiple times and kept up the scores because each one of them was a different choice. Or watching multiple YouTube videos and the total number of the day was a percent of something like how smart I'm. I try so hard to keep myself away from these compulsions but it is so difficult. I get so excited when I discover a new way to predict something its like a game in the start but sooner or later it becomes a sick obsession.
My days goes like this : I try to decide what I'm gonna eat today so I search for reassurances. If I see a certain dog in the neighborhood it means that my choice is right but it isn't enough I should find an another like what hour it is. If it is an even number it's no but if it is odd it's a yes. After a while I'm thinking to buy something I want but I know that I should not so if I arrive in certain place and in the meantime I have count 50 red cars I can buy that. Suddenly my overthinking leads me to self doubt and feel ashamed about something like my obesity so I start a set of questions like am I able to lose weight, will I find someone to love me the way I'm, or should I post on reddit for support, should I go to a doctor etc. Oh it might be a good idea to find reassurance on YouTube. If I watch 100 videos It means that 100% I will have success. If this store is open today it means that everything is gonna turn out great. It doesn't matter that I have made this questions thousand times in the past with different answers everytime.
Sometimes I don't follow what my predictions tell me but if something goes wrong, it only makes me do more and more questions. For example I wonder why a football team won the game because I said that if this wins it means that I'm going to be successful so I start to wonder if the team won because of me if I somehow make it happen. But I understand how insane and crazy is to think something like this and of course there is no way to control something like this and I feel afraid and ashamed that I'm getting paranoid and delusional.
I honestly believe that things get worse from the moment that psychiatrist told me 8 years ago that I have ocd because I started to read everything about it and doing more compulsions than I already did. I wish I would never learned about ocd maybe I would be able to overcome it now it got stuck in my mind that I will have this thing forever. Medication never helped on the contrary I became more manic and started doing all these sick rituals. My mom once told me that maybe I do all this weird games because I feel bored. And I know that this is not the case with ocd but when I have many activities or interesting things to do that make me excited I don't find the time to seek so many reassurances. But from the other side my indecision and my extreme anxiety prevent me from taking risks and keep me down to my boring life.
I wish I could go back in time when I was teenager. Yes I was shy and very insecure and I was doing some of those things but not like that, not for every aspect of my life. It's not helpful that a good friend of mine is a tarot reader because I became obsessed with this. Also it's even more difficult to cope with all these thoughts when you live in a very superstitious and religious culture and so many people believe in signs and omens and they cannot understand how damaging it is for someone with ocd.
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I've had issues with alcohol off and on for a while and it seems to be worse this time. I'm visiting family and friends in my hometown for the first time in 2 years, been getting really wasted, falling down, crying, maybe saying shitty things while blacked out, and being wasted in front of my mom too and breaking down and passing out on the floor. I feel so embarrassed and I feel like my friends don't want to be around me and I don't blame them. I wish I wasn't alive. I feel so alone right now.
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depression
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If so, how did you explain it and what was his/her response? If you dated them several times later, was there a really positive and helpful change in attitude in him/her towards you? If you’re already in a relationship with an NT who’s been informed about it - how’s it going?
I’m going to start dating for the first time pretty soon, which is why I’m asking.
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aspergers
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I tell my fiancé I don’t feel good or I am sad or depressed but there’s never a reason! He always asks me and I can give an answer. It’s so frustrating that I feel a certain way but never have a reason WHY.
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aspergers
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I was prescribed a 30mg daily dose of vyvanse a couple weeks ago by my psychiatrist, and I've barely noticed any difference at all and I don't know if I've just been thinking too hard about it. I thought I may as well make a thread here to ease my worries because my follow up appointment is a few weeks away and I'm going to ask my psychiatrist about it. There's pretty much no difference at all in my thinking or behaviour throughout the day after taking the tablet, except I've been able to read a book for the first time in a long time recently (but I'm not sure if that's necessarily the meds, that could be placebo.) I've been more willing to do tasks like cleaning, but that could also be explained the same way, or maybe I had a couple of lucky days. I don't feel super focused, either, just similar to how I am usually, and I've been zoning out during work and conversations as usual. For the first couple of days I had some transient nausea and headaches, but I've been drinking a lot more water now and I have pretty much zero negative side effects. People taking medications, how can you tell if it's easing your symptoms? And does it sound like I need a higher dose to be able to focus?
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ADHD
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I just cut for the first time in 108 days, it wasn't much, but I feel like more is going to happen in the next few days, and I don't even know why I'm typing this, but Im miserable, and I just feel pathetic, I lost all my friends earlier this year, and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I'm sorry for bothering anyone who reads this, I just felt like I needed to get it out
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depression
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Something traumatic happened to me almost 5 years ago. The event lasted about 5 months and has different parts to it. I go between thinking "it was nothing and I felt nothing" to feeling a profound despair, but the despair doesnt last long and is replaced pretty quickly with numbness; it feels like I can't access my true feelings of pain, for whatever reason, I can't access it. It's been almost 5 years and I've never written the words down. I've tried but I just don't feel comfortable and I write it in code, in acronyms, in a way only I will understand for fear someone reads my journal.
I had a therapist for a couple years but it doesnt feel like I processed it, at all. To be fair, she was a nice therapist but I dont know about her technique.....I didnt talk about the event often or in much detail. She made me say it out loud once or twice but other than that I didnt explore it much, spent a lot of time in silence, talked about how the event made me feel but never talking about the actual event itself. Some parts feel less painful than others, but even the "less" painful parts, I will never tell my family and I've told only a handful of friends. Always over text, never never in person actually vocalizing it.
I have crappy insurance and been trying to find therapists. Very hard. There's one of the few women (I have to have a woman therapist) that accepts my insurance, and I don't feel comfortable telling her this at all. We've had 2 sessions so far, 3rd next week, and I don't see myself saying anything. I just don't feel comfortable at all. She started talking about random crap like using a CPAP machine and testing the "alkalinity" of my body (thinks these things are affecting my mood), when all I want to do is find someone I trust enough to talk about these things that happened.
It hurts to think that I want to give up and never talk about this event again, because it seems so hard to find someone I feel comfortable talking about this to. Should I even bother to keep trying? It just feels like I really need someone to help me carry this load.
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ptsd
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Hey all, my first post here
So I’m 20 years old and have always thought I had something wrong with me as I was always the ‘quirky’ shy kid. When I was with my last partner a year ago I came to the conclusion that I was almost certain I had adhd after reading about the symptoms and peoples experiences online. Naturally I saw a doctor and tried to get a diagnosis, even managing to find psychiatrist that could diagnose adult adhd (which my gp was having trouble finding?).
At the appointment with the psychiatrist however, despite me preparing a massive list of things to go through like I anticipated, we had a 10 minute or less conversation about my childhood and I was simply told I had depression and that was it. I didn’t even get to mention any of the non depression symptoms I had.
So after that I gave up trying to get a diagnosis. Worth mentioning that I was on antidepressants for quite a while and even managed to be prescribed very strong doses because they weren’t working to fix my issues (mainly to do with motivation).I stopped taking them several months ago however and I’ve realised they essentially did nothing- I wasnt depressed.
So in essence I’ve started feeling a bit hopeful at trying again and getting a diagnosis since I’m even more sure now that I have it since the plethora of adhd issues still plague me without depression.
Sorry for the info dump. I was just hoping you guys might have some advice for me to rekindle my motivation to actually see a psychiatrist that will hear me out properly this time.
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ADHD
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Just a while ago, I was like,, pretty empathetic and I used to get upset and sad when I used to see videos or news about people getting hurt, but now I feel like I don't really feel a thing or react at all, except like an "oh" or "that's really bad wtf". I feel horrible for that. I feel like an awful person. I want to have empathy, but when I see something bad happening online... my brain just kinda doesn't seem to care, or at least react. Is this normal or am I going crazy?? All I want is to be a good person. I keep checking my emotions and reactions to things but when I don't react, I start freaking out.
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OCD
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My OCD makes me check things are 'safe' repeatedly, for example, plugs being off, doors locked, windows closed etc. I have to constantly check and trying to leave the house is exhausting.
Recently I've stopped, and been forcing myself to just ignore the anxious feeling - I guess thats exposure therapy. It's been working, it's hard but I've been doing my best.
Every night before I go to sleep I check on my horses - this means walking across fields in the dark and rain with a torch even though I seen them in the daylight earlier in the day. Last night, I almost decided not to, but anxiety won, went out to find one of them having a colic attack - which can very easily kill horses if not caught early enough, thankfully I know the signs and knew what to do, but if I didn't have my OCD I may not have found her in time.
But now, my ocd has won, it prevented something bad from happening, so now my OCD is even worse and I can't stop checking everything, I was almost late to work this morning checking my front door is locked. I take pictures of things that trigger my anxiety so I can check their off throughout the day - eg, the cooker, this doesn't help, I don't trust the pictures?
I have the ocd voice in my head and then the logical voice so I'm basically bullying myself. I'm in the UK. My GP is useless and cannot help, I've been trying for years, private therapy is £80 a go, and I can't afford that, and finding someone who can actually help with ocd is few and far between.
I don't know what to do, leaving the house is a nightmare and then once I'm out of the house I find other things to constantly check, like my car handbrake.
I need help but I don't know how to get it
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OCD
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What tips do you have when the motivation just vanishes?
I woke up this morning in a great mood (pretty rare, I don’t sleep well) and actually feeling excited about getting a lot done today. I took my meds, jumped in the shower, and when I got out I literally felt all my excitement and motivation leave me. I’m trying to push on but I’m now in the depths of an ADHD fueled sludge. I also can’t find my extension grabber which is helpful for picking up and now I’m just tired and frustrated.
Vent: I’m so freaking tired of this happening. I want to do so many things and I hate my brain working against me all the time.
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ADHD
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I have been trying to get on meds that will help my ADHD, which has not been easy in and of itself, but everything is taking 4-6 weeks to see if it even works, so this is not ideal since I am in school and just got a new job. I have been thinking of quitting my job AGAIN because my schoolwork is suffering, and my mental health is taking a deep dive. I just keep feeling like I am failing repeatedly because I just can’t focus and get the things done that need to get done. It’s as if I can do one or the other but not both.
I feel horrible to quit and have another blip on my resume, but I don’t want to fail out of school again since I am so close to getting my associates. It is the disappointment in myself and from others, mostly others, that gets to me the most. I feel like I do nothing but mess up and let down the people I love because I can’t get my brain to function like a normal person. I feel lazy that I can’t work and go to school because there are so many who can.
It feels like torture trying to do both at the same time I go to work which is completely under stimulating and when I try to do my schoolwork I can’t concentrate on it at all and I dread the next day at work and get pulled down the internet rabbit hole to get some form of relaxation even though my brain is yelling at me you need to get this done or you need to go to sleep for work. Meanwhile I’m just stuck in this constant anxiety paralyzing me so I end up getting nothing done. Sorry have had a lot on my mind.
Just looking for help or someone to relate to or advice, empathy, or support something
TL; DR Meds not working, New job causing issues with getting school work done, thinking about quitting again. Looking for support empathy advice anything really
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ADHD
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I don't know if anyone ever tried to do this, but i'd like to share mine. Note that many of this hobbies have become a lifestyle and i still continue to pursue them. I really hope you guys would like to list yours too
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\-Kombucha/ Sauerkraut making (fermentation in general)
\-Soapmaking (i never buy cleaning products ever again, i make all my cleaning products now)
\-Mechanical keyboard (discontinued after i kind of found the penultimate keyboard)
**-Gym (i hope i didnt lose interest on this one, these 3 months have been excellent for it)\\**
**-Nutrition-conscious/healthy eating**
**-Intermittent Fasting**
**BOLDED because it's all one category i think**
\-DIY
\-Wet Shaving
\-Sports analysis ( i dream one day to have a side gig as a football or CS:GO analyst haha)
\-almost forgot about it, Stoicism :)
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I think some are still missing but it's enough for now. These hobbies keeps me going for it keeps my life interesting everyday. On a final note the reason i want to write this in the first place is that even though ADHD giving me so much trouble for so many things, i also want to say thanks to it because i'm able to explore so many unique things in the world to incorporate them into my life. I hope some of you feel this way too and care to share!
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ADHD
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Two formerly close friends made some awful comments about my rape / rapists that I'm still struggling with a year later. Has anyone else experienced this? It's so hard to understand.
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ptsd
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Are there any Irish people here? Got diagnosed recently and realised I’ve probably been suffering from OCD for the last 15-20 years. Mental health services in Ireland aren’t great, I have a psychiatrist who put me on Prozac and a psychologist who’s doing CBT with me but they’re not a specialist and I’m feeling a little lost and I feel there’s certain elements of thought challenging that might not be helpful but I can’t really tell because I’m not a psychologist obviously.
I can’t seem to find any specialists or support groups and I’m feeling very alone these days. I’d love to know if there’s anything I’m missing that would be a useful support.
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OCD
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Someone came over today that I used to be close with... But having them over made me realize how disconnected I am from people. How poorly I tried to keep communicating with them... I realized how disconnected I am from people like my partner and even my own child... That I feel nothing at all for them.
I realized that when you spend every day trying to go day by day... That when you spend so long just trying to survive that you lose touch of things that are key parts of normal society. Things like just talking with friends become so distant in your mind when you have to focus all of your energy on trying to seem normal to everyone else when in reality you are far from.
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ptsd
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My landlord is having the condo I rent appraised but I have contamination OCD and it's been off the charts because of the pandemic. I've been pretty good since I've been on luvox but this has triggered me through the roof. I don't know what to do. I really don't know what to do.
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OCD
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I’ve started taking Wellbutrin 2 weeks ago and I’ve started my period a couple days ago.
Usually I have mild cramps that last only a day, but this time I’m having very strong pain and it won’t go away. Ibuprofen isn’t really helping either. I haven’t had cramps this bad since I was a teenager.
Has anyone else experienced something like this?.
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ADHD
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Hello everyone,
I'm curious if anyone knows if there's any information out there surrounding this topic but this is definitely not a new topic. I'm curious if anyone knows if there is any like literature, or talk on the subject of parents who sort of vicariously live through their child's identity? Specifically ASK children's identities sort of being adopted by their parent(s) in a way that is almost used to make themselves perceived as a minority of sorts, as a person who's facing adversity due to the struggles of raising an ASD kid? The best known example would be like those super hyped up, relentlessly defensive, my child is SOOOO special despite all their 'pit falls', their kid is almost untouchable due to them being ASD, "don't you talk to my kid like that, they don't know any better" type of mom? They're an "Aspie mom!" They're special too, they struggle too! Their life is difficult too! Validate my life too! Type of thing?
It feels almost when watching these parents they're trying to over compensate so hard, and have married themselves to the identity of their child as ASD that's all the child really is front and foremost (preventing the child to just be themselves, they're not John who's ASD, they're ASD who's named John if that makes sense?)
Almost feels like if they adopt this identity as an ASD parent it will bolster and validate the "special and unique" difficulties they experience while raising their kid?
I don't know if any of this makes sense, or if it's just me. Just wondering if there's anything that discusses this type of theory or processing or whatever it'd be called? I'd like to read/hear more thoughts on it.
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aspergers
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Hey all, I'm curious as to how folks that struggle with staying focused on tasks that their heart is not into, but must be done, actually push through and work on said task? I guess this could be work related events/tasks if you need an example.
Also, how do you stay focused on a new hobby long enough to decide if it's for you? I've dabbled in a lot of musical instruments (guitar, drums, bass) but always stop after hitting a plateau. I go through phases where I'm super interested in one thing and then one day I'm completely uninterested.
I'd like to be more disciplined and learn new skills / gain new hobbies but I'm tired of starting things and never finishing.
Any suggestions?
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ADHD
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I have been to psychiatrists and counsellors. One of them diagnosed me with ADHD, and prescribed medication. My parents asked me to get a second opinion so I did. Rest of the psychiatrists/psychologists have said I don't have it, and my behavior and tendencies are par with "normal" baseline condition.
I have been diagnosed with other conditions though. Anxiety, Left-Right brain disjointment etc. I have been prescribed medications for these. However, my symptoms haven't gone and I feel defeated. I have performed those self-diagnosis tests and they all consider a strong possibility of ADHD.
Parents don't believe me anymore, and I don't blame them. They have been pretty supportive over the past two years, although they've been sceptical the entire time. I have resigned to the fact that maybe I'm making it all up to cover up for my lack of explanation of my symptoms.
I still can't concentrate on studies. I still forget to lock my dorm room sometimes. I still prefer scrolling on Twitter and watching YouTube rather than study for exams. I still haven't been able to finish Breaking Bad despite my friends begging me to watch it full. I still hate driving. I still haven't gotten myself to text my sister-in-law coz i keep postponing it.
Are there any other conditions similar to ADHD? Or could this just be plain incompetence? Idk y'all seem like the last resort at this point.
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ADHD
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Hey bud! You're doing great! I'm really proud of you. You're doing better than you think you do. Don't give up, because you're almost there. You can finish this chore/task or whatever you have to finish, you can do it! And if you can't? That's fine too, it's okay to take some time off. Keep going 💪💪
And ps, take a sip of water
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ADHD
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Last month I started Vyvanse. It has been very beneficial for to me. However, now that it is settling in, I'm noticing that I feel a little emotionally blunt. Although I do feel moody in the morning before medication, I have not noticed any other side effects with Vyvanse.
I also take an anti-depressant. I have been taking this for 3-4 months. I know that anti-depressants can be a cause of emotional blunting, too.
I figure the possible cause are 1) the combination is causing the blunting, 2) Vyvanse alone is causing it, 3) the Vyvanse helped and I can notice that the anti-depressant is making me emotionally blunt, or 4) this is emotional control? However, I am not sure how I should go about finding out?
The reason I suggest the last one is because I do feel emotions. I have a sense of wanting to have relations with people, and I have never really had that feeling. Before taking Vyvanse, I was usually going through a ton in my head, but I am much calmer now. This makes me think I am just not familiar with the feeling of not having a bunch of emotions, so I am confusing this emotional blunting as a bad thing. Does this makes sense?
Anyway, I am not asking for answers. I am just thinking out loud. I would be interested in what anyone else thought, nonetheless.
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ADHD
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I got diagnosed a couple months ago and have been on adderall ever since, and it has been a big game changer. I find myself so much more motivated and have a lot easier of a time reading and focusing. But I still have a hard time with zoning out during conversations. Does anyone have any behavioral tips for staying focused on what people are saying, even when you don’t find what they’re saying interesting? I’ve found that when I’m reading or working, the adderall is helpful but I do best when I pair it with other tools like timers, prioritized lists, working with other people, etc. For stopping zoning out, I don’t know any good tips beyond medication. Any suggestions?
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ADHD
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That's the tricky part of therapy that people don't mention as much. Unless you have the money to pay a bougie shrink to listen to you on your own terms (I don't), you're stuck with the rules of whatever mandatory-reporter provider you can find.
I talk to my therapist about stuff that bothers me. I vent about arguments, complain about my loved ones, general inquiries about the problems in my life. This is all well and good, but it doesn't feel like it gets to the root of anything. I can talk about feeling antisocial or uninteresting, I can vent about conflicts I am facing, but I can't tell my therapist that I've been suicidal for five years. I mean, I could... if I want to get thrown in a psych ward for the next semester. I can't tell my therapist that life will never be worth all the pain and work, I can't tell my therapist that I hit myself for losing or failing. I can't tell my therapist that I intake disgusting amounts of THC every day because the bliss of a high is similar to my memory of happiness. So then I ask, can my therapist help me? I'm certainly better off with therapy than without, but if I'm still unhappy then what's the point? I shouldn't make my parents pay for a person to make me feel slightly less suicidal.
I miss when I didn't fucking care and it didn't fucking matter.
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ADHD
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I just wanted to talk to someone about this, as it makes me feel better. So was wondering do you guys get annoyed by small imperfections like maybe a scratch on your phone screen, fingerprint marks on your devices. I annoys me when I see a small dent or scratch or something on my devices and I was wondering if anyone feels the same way.
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OCD
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Every single one of my relationships has ended badly, and they only lasted about 6 months at most. And all of my exes have said the same thing: I treated them like garbage, tried to ruin their friendships and subsequent relationships, and talked crap about them.
Now, I don't know how much of this is caused by (undiagnosed) ASD or if it's just that I'm actually a bad person. Have any of you had similar experiences? Or am I alone in this?
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aspergers
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I'm one of the adults that never got tested as a child but I finally got an appointment for next week.
Does anyone have any tips or advice? All I know it's that it's an all day thing, and they want to zoom call my mom to ask her questions about me (presumably about my childhood before I could be expected to remember).
Anything I should ask or request? I vaguely remember something about being scored for both male and female autism, but I don't remember it clearly. I'm 30F if that makes a difference.
Thanks!
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aspergers
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I have OCD and one of the things i do is brushing for too long and using excessive amounts of toothpaste. I am doing therapy but was just going to ask for any other advice. I brush for over 40 mins (i know thats really bad) and im concerned of my gums receding especially my molars. I have recently had a weird taste in my mouth and was concerned this was the taste of my tooth wearing away as my gums may have receded to the roots, im not sure though. I have been trying to decrese the time i do and have decreased by 10 mins so far. However, when i try to do less i find this hard. I try to say to myself beforehand that i am damaging my teeth and can see gums receding. However, i seem to get lost in doing my teeth and time almost flies by or i get really anxious by then end and feel the need to carry on. So any advice or help would be appreciated.
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OCD
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I have a good job. I'm going to college. I don't do drugs. I have a extremely high iq. Everything is going well. Except I have Aspergers but I'm used to it. Everything just feels so vapid and I feel like I'm not doing what I should be doing. I feel like I'm too smart for my own good cause I can't handle the tough truths that comes with recognizing how the universe, world, people's behavior, philosophy, ideas, etc all work. ( I don't know it all I'm just saying in general). I wish I could just be dumb and play video games all day then go to work. ( I'm not saying. People who play video games are dumb). I can't do that my brain literally will nag me if I try to do something fun because it is technically a waste of time. So I end up studying during times I should be giving myself a break. Idk I can't have a excuse to let loose because I'm too self aware and realize that letting loose is a waste of time.
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depression
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Hi, all answers are welcome :)
Backstory: I have an s/o living with me who has ADHD paralysis for basic things (like washing dishes, taking showers) and large things (like finding his own place, dealing with debt). I'm trying to figure out ways to gently coax him out of the paralysis without making it seem like I'm calling him "lazy", because I know that isn't true when he puts his mind to something.
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ADHD
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I’m reading book for my class about the Vietnam War told from the perspective of a veteran. As someone who’s trauma is ridiculously minuscule in comparison to the experiences of the author, I feel pathetic. I feel like I have no right to have PTSD when others have gone through unspeakable things like the events in this book. If I could erase my trauma for the sake of respect, I would. It makes me feel guilty for suffering when there are others who have suffered much worse. When I was 13, my best friend attempted suicide and I was blamed for whatever happened to her as a result. How can you compare my trauma to a man who’s entire platoon was brutally massacred by explosives? Who had to watch people he loved killed in gruesome ways every day? My friend didn’t even die. She survived with brain damage and amnesia, but she didn’t die in combat.
She didn’t even die, so why am I so traumatized?
You can call a veteran a hero. You can call a victim of assault a survivor. What can you call me? Absolutely nothing. I didn’t save anyone, in fact, I basically instigated a suicide attempt. I didn’t survive anything. My life was never in danger. I’m not a hero or a survivor.
I know that a person who drowns in 5 feet of water is just as dead as a person who drowns in 20, but isn’t the first guy a little pathetic? I mean, who drowns in 5 feet of water?
That’s exactly how I feel. I don’t feel worthy to relate to the people in this book. I feel guilty for taking my trauma for granted. Most of all, I feel weak.
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ptsd
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If I give myself an inch, I take a mile. I know it's necessary for my mental health and my relationships to give myself days off of work, but then I completely check out and it can take days of procrastination and getting in trouble at work before I can get myself back on track. Is the only way to sustain my motivation just to never take time off? Anyone else have this issue?
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ADHD
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I don't want to have to earn my place in this world.
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It is a cruel fate; life is what you make of it. And, for the people who cannot make much, we are condemned to a meaningless life. To make a living, to have an existence that pleases you and rewards you, to survive, you must achieve. Well, fuck me then.
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God, I know I am useless. I do not have an idea that will make me millions (or thousands). I do not have the patience for a slow and steady something-small. I do not have the resolve to "do what I have to do" and be miserable somewhere trying to do something I don't care about. I do not have the discipline to be a good subordinate in someone else's Great Idea. I am feeble and afraid and I have nothing to give. I do not want to put myself out there. And I am certainly no match for everyone else out there who is willing to put the work in.
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What am I going to do when my parents kick me out and I have to stand on my own two feet? There's nothing in this world that I care to do. I don't even know if I'm going to make it through my undergrad. I don't want it to be hard for the rest of my life, I can't handle it being hard for the rest of my life. I already find it hard with all my basic necessities taken care of. I am trying hard to find meaning in a life where nothing means anything to me because I can't *do* anything.
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I don't want to have to earn my place, because I have nothing to give.
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ADHD
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Hi all,
So a few mistakes I made at work has got me thinking about how my brain works.
I've always been inclined to attention to detail and make myself follow systems to ensure that I meet a good standard at work, however I have missed massive details and I sometimes think how did this even happen. Where was my brain at?
I just don't register things in my head sometimes. Sometimes when my manager talks to me I just zone out. Once when I was taking a driving lesson, I was telling my driving instructor one day "sorry I keep looking at the sky, so I keep missing things", and he's like why on earth would you look at the sky, look at the signs. Another example: there's a person crossing the zebra crossing, and my brain registers this reality very...slowly, and I'm thinking I should stop but thinking this very slowly, and so...I stop too late. And then my instructor asks well didn't you see that person, well yes and no I guess.
Even as I am writing this post, I'm running out of things to say as I've forgotten half the things I wanted to mention so I am ranting now.
Even when I am speaking, I just jump from one topic to another, and have to go back to make a connection with what I was talking about to the person who is listening to me.
I feel like a scatter brain.
When I am speaking at work there are times where I am really eloquent, and other times when I'm just speaking mumbo jumbo, and someone even said I was very eloquent. What they don't realise is that I have to turn that switch on in my brain in order to speak properly, and every time I need to focus I have to metaphorically in my brain turn a switch on and be like ok you need to focus now. Even when I am writing emails, I sit there for a long time pondering and struggling on how to orient my words appropriately. I guess my mistakes at work has made me feel very insecure as of late and scared I'll be exposed as incapable, unprofessional. I'm wondering if I am just a somewhat slow person or If I could have adhd?
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ADHD
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My best friend has OCD, and I thought that maybe I should understand how it feels to have it so I can be as supportive as possible.
I know it varies, and he doesn't talk much about it because he is ashamed of it, but I want to help him in any way I can.
Please, help me. Thanks.
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OCD
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Recently was prescribed 15mg twice a day instead of 10.
Can’t get new prescription for two weeks, and I have a big exam tomorrow. I’ve been procrastinating a LOT (my fault) and am going to the library soon
Can I drink coffee to “enhance” the adderall or is that not how it works?
I’m not sure if coffee would make the studying harder or if it would actually help boost the studying effects since I’ve never tried it. What have your experiences been and what do you recommend? I was thinking of taking a pill and a half since that would be 15 (my new prescription)
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ADHD
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Okay, new to reddit, but I’m really hoping that a community of people with as much experience as there must be on here might be able to help me out.
First of all, tiny backstory: I’m 41, live in the UK, waiting on the astronomical backlog of patients to go ahead of me before I can get an appointment for official diagnosis. Saying that, large amounts of reading, online testing, digesting the DSM et cetera, alongside talking with my wife and family, all lead me to believe with a 99% certainty that I am combined type ADHD. If not then I’m a whole mess in about 1 million other ways!
I have lots of issues communicating (I work in a technical field, and often have to deal with intricate details with regards to both technical and conceptual things); if I can’t explain something exactly as I see it then I will meander, reiterate, overemphasise, other things. In my personal life I find myself interrupting with my stories to try and show that I share their enthusiasm, All kind of normal stuff for ADHDers. However I’m also a business owner so I am often in a professional, and frequently consultative, setting, and the way that I have to explain things is probably, let me rephrase that, *certainly* off-kilter for neurotypicals.
I think I also have rejection sensitivity and anxiety, so people pleasing and explaining myself is second nature.
What’s a good way of explaining that I am going to be doing things differently because my brain won’t let me, as just saying I have ADHD “so I have to do this” is both not understandable to people that don’t ‘get’ ADHD, and also sounds like racing driver excuses.
Looking for some help here!
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ADHD
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I'm 26, diagnosed with high functioning Asperger's when I was 6. I've overcome many of the challenges my diagnosis imposed on me, but I feel like I'm hitting a wall. I'm becoming increasingly frustrated with my limitations in things like working, making meaningful connections with others, being able to support myself, etc. I plan to bring it up with my therapist later today, but would anyone here have any tips for accepting that I have limitations that may very well be with me for my whole life? I only have NT people to compare myself against in my day to day life, so I pretty constantly get angry at myself for not being able to do what they can.
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aspergers
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My PTSD is not combat related. I was almost str*ngled to d**th. I thought I would be fine to do fireworks with my family but the more I was out there, the more anxious and hypersensitive I was getting. To the point that I was shaking every time I heard a loud pop. I didn’t even know this would trigger a reaction, I thought I knew all my triggers. But now I feel unsafe
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ptsd
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So we autistic people see patterns and details so we are observant. And we can be observant by watching to learn we just may not pick up on it so quickly or some of us may figure it out by it being suggested to us.
But we are observant right?
So if NTs learn social cues by watching and observing
Does that mean autistic people arent observant? Im confused.
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aspergers
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I’m sorry, this is going to be a bit of a rant. But I’m so exhausted of this world being non-accommodating and non-accepting. I’m tired of being seen as less than for struggling with certain things. I’m tired of being seen as stupid for taking things very literally. I’m tired of being chastised by people all the time, especially at work. I started a new part-time second job a few months ago, and I’ve come to realize just how frustrating it is to live with my diagnosis. It’s a retail job, and with the nice weather and Mother’s Day approaching the store has been incredibly busy. We’re also short staffed and trying to hire people, so sometimes I have to run the store for a few hours on my own. This means I have to help all the customers, answer the phone, and take care of projects my boss wants me to finish on top of all that. I also have to open and close the store typically, which means counting the cash drawer, doing a deposit, calculating sales numbers for the day, all of that. When I have to do all this and focus on customers, my brain gets overwhelmed so I can only focus on those two things. When I’m overwhelmed I often become forgetful and multitasking is hard. I also feel like for only $11 an hour, this is a lot for a single person to handle. I forgot to do two different things as a result of this, resulting with being treated poorly by my boss and a particular coworker of mine. I tried to explain to my boss what was going on, but instead of helping and accommodating she’s instead giving my coworker more hours and me less. That’s definitely not helpful because I really need the money. I just hate how people toss us aside because we’re “harder to deal with” rather than accommodating. I was doing better with self-esteem, but with this it’s all gone down the gutter. It’s so hard to live with my brain and I wish I could just be NT sometimes, just because it would literally make plain old SURVIVING on a daily basis 100000 times easier. It hurts when the world you live in is designed against you and excludes you. I’m tired of being seen as a liability and an annoyance. I’m not feeling suicidal, just very very tired.
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aspergers
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If people dont tell me what to do I will just stand there. If somebody tells me what to do I'm usually capable of doing it just as good as other people or if I need to be taught I can listen and learn but I don't think I can ever do things on my own. If people dont tell me what to do I just do nothing and don't get anywhere and I just stay there the whole time. Am I robot or an idiot?
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aspergers
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so you know when you’re playing a video game, stardew valley comes to mind, where you really wanna get max profit and use all the time in your day to be productive with minimal effort or time loss. well i think i do this with my life. if i am not doing *something* i think i’m wasting my time. and usually that something has to be productive like work or cleaning because i feel guilty taking time to myself to do fun stuff. like i’m literally sitting on the couch reading with my cat curled up on my feet and i’m anxious that i’m wasting my time when i don’t think i have anything pressing to do today and also i love my cat and want to spend time with her. does anyone else feel like this?
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OCD
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i'm 31f, diagnosed with depression in my early 20s, but been coping since my preteens. the friends i have now are very few & far between & were made because they were friends with my sibling first, & my best friend & i have a tendency to be co dependent.
in the last nearly 10 years, i have been trying to meet & make friends on my own, outside of the same social circle that's been around for 15+ years. none of these friendships have lasted. not for lack of trying, but i find that a lot of times, depression is a major factor to my social issues.
i mask a lot, but it's sososo exhausting, & i am for the most part, open about my mental health. i refrain from trauma dumping or unloading depressive thoughts. the people i meet are generally aware and understanding or deal with things themselves, too.
a consistent pattern i find is that, when my mental health struggles "show" too much, these new friends are quick to disappear and i never hear from them again.
& i'm just at the end of my rope, i think. i'm so tired of this cycle, tired of depression meeting me at the end of the day, tired of all the psych/therapy, & meds, & masking, all the self care & regulating. & i super just want to give up.
how do you maintain any friendships?
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depression
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Good morning all,
I will try to keep this brief since we presumably all have diminished attention spans or alternatively, way too much to do.
Has anyone else experienced a sensitivity to Adderall over the span of being medicated? After scanning the r/adderall forums, its curiously devoid of this topic. I was diagnosed with adult onset ADHD in my late 20's and prescribed Adderall XR 10mg once a day - complete game changer.
I was taking the 10mg XR regularly for somewhere between 3 and 4 years with few complaints and even less side effects. At around the year 4 mark, side effects began to creep in; mania, slight anxiety, restlessness, etc. Moved up to 15mg, lather, rinse repeat.
I'm 35 now and the last year has had me all over the place with regard to dialing in my medication. The 20mg turn me into a frenzy by early afternoon. I tried the 30mg of Vyvanse which gave me anxiety to the tune of what I can only describe as an existential meltdown. Moved down to 20mg of Vyvanse, same response but lessened the anxiety enough to function.
Just going off of feels, It seems the medication has a delayed fuse with me. I'm going back to my Dr to see if I can go back to 10 mg (maybe 2 10mg a day?)
Thanks for reading.
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ADHD
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I was recently diagnosed with ADHD inattentive type. I was prescribed Adderall and it has dramatically improved my life.
One thing I’ve noticed is that I’ve had a dramatically lowered tolerance for bs. I have this friend who has gotten on my nerves before but recently I’ve just had enough. He clings onto me, he always has to do the exact same things as me and like the same things, he even tried to invite himself to a concert I was going to with a friend of mine. The point is I was very good friends with him before starting meds but now I can’t stand to be around him. There’s way more stuff but it would be like a novel.
I just find his behavior to be shitty and annoying. I feel like getting treatment for my ADHD opened my mind up to some things I wasn’t seeing and made me realize that this guy is kind of manipulative and that it’s not healthy for him to need someone as much as he needs me.
Has anyone else had a similar experience within a relationship after being diagnosed and started treatment? Or is this kind of shift something I should talk to me doctor about?
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ADHD
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My partner of 9 months (we are both in our 40s) is not great at communicating. Its ADHD, I get it and he has made improvements since we have met. We don’t live together and I told him that especially on the days that we don’t meet I would like a phone call a day. We rarely have long conversations so our calls usually take less than 5 minutes. I understand the difficulty with staying in touch when one has ADHD and I have been trying to be patient and understanding, but at the same time firm, as communication is important for me in a relationship and my take is that if he can’t do the bare minimum, then it is a deal breaker for me.
Today I tested positive for covid and I texted him in the morning. I feel rough and sick. Friends have been calling to ask how I am, checking on me, asking if I need any help etc. I know he had a busy day and we kept in touch over text, but because our texts are short and sometimes excruciating I don’t really engage much as I don’t expect him to respond much.
It really hurts that he hasn’t called to ask how I am doing and I would really like to hear from him. I always check on him all the time when he is unwell and offer to help. I don’t need any help, just for him to show that he cares.
I am trying to rationalise that it is ADHD but at the same time I can’t help but feel hurt. Is it that he doesn’t care or is it because he has a lot going on today (a lot of things planned but didn’t materialised because one of his kids was unwell, but he’s fine now) and I didn’t cross his mind?
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ADHD
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Does anyone else have days or moments where its like a switch gets flipped in your brain? Likw everything irritates you, nothing brings actual happiness or joy. You're just existing and in a pit of self loathing. But it can end just as sudden?
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ptsd
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It was our third session and I wasn't talking much because I am still very nervous and not used to talking about my feelings. After a short period of silence, it looked like he almost fell asleep and he told me my "tiredness and my montonous way of talking" would be "infectious", making it hard for him to stay awake.
Thanks a lot!
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depression
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Looking for any recommendations for ADHD coaching in Australia. Found a few websites that have various listings but it's hard to make an assessment of who is good without any reviews! If anyone can recommend a website even for me to start with that would be helpful.
Thinking of online coaching, via video
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ADHD
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I lost my grandfather last week and I’m struggling with really vivid intrustive thoughts and sensations depicting every aspect of the burial and his death. I know I’m not compulsing because as those things come up I really let it sink in and usually cry. These thoughts have been also linked to other metaphysical and existential obsessions about my own parents and people I love dying. This was my OG intrusive thoughts after loosing a baby brother at 7. I’m in recovery and haven’t compulsed in months and ERP has been a daily practice. I know grief is a king haul but any support for those with OCD who’ve also lost someone close to them.
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OCD
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TW: Sexual assault details
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Last night I went out with friends. It was supposed to be a celebration for my best friend's graduation. She asked for both of her best friends to come, so we did. I was already having anxiety because we were going to this fancy restaurant at night. The restaurant is in a nice part of town, but it's popular around Christmas time and not far from some very bad parts of the city. My parents warned us, but let us go (we're 18-20). The other friend and I drove together, and then our mutual best friend came with her sister.
We had a long wait at the restaurant and afterwards, Other Friend wanted to leave. We were seated on the second floor so she went down the stairs while Mutual Friend and I went down the elevator. I thought we'd all gather at the front of the restaurant (or outside) to say goodbyes, but by the time Mutual Friend and I got there, Other Friend was gone across the street and in the parking garage.
I ended up driving home with Mutual Friend and we waved at Other Friend as she pulled out (Mutual Friend and her sister had parked in a separate parking garage). I had wanted to walk out together because I know that the area is not great, but Other Friend didn't wait for us.
Today I got an angry text from my mom saying, "NEVER let ANYONE walk to their car alone" (I...hadn't wanted her to). Other Friend's mom told my mom that Other Friend had been accosted by a man in a ski mask in the parking garage. When the criminal couldn't grab her, he exposed himself while she was in the car getting ready to drive away. My mom said, "This is how people end up dead."
I felt awful. I started crying and panicking. I checked on Other Friend and so did our Mutual Friend. Other Friend is okay and talked to someone and is fine. I was so worried about Other Friend all day, and I'm so glad she's okay.
But something else stings, too. When I tried to tell my mom, six months ago, that her best friend's son sexually assaulted me numerous times, she said, "I don't want to hear it" and asked me to go away.
I'm angry, and I'm sad, and I'm terrified. The assault happened only two blocks from where I go to school. I'm angry that my mom would listen to my friend's mom and be concerned about my friend, but not care when I have PTSD and was sexually assaulted many times over. I'm sad that my friend had to go through it... because I know exactly what it is like.
I'm a mix of emotions tonight. Good thoughts are welcome.
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ptsd
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So Im sure you know the deal, you wake up and have about 30 minutes to get ready for work. Instead you spend 26 of those (or more!) sat scrolling through fb, reddit, whatever.
You don't want to, you want to leave and start getting up but your neurotransmitters aren't hitting that threshold they need to get you up and focused on the morning.
Well I'm sorry to say I don't have any advice for fighting this (and if you do please share!) but I have figured out a great way to weaponise this brain fault to help in other areas of my life.
As I write this I'm sat on a cycling machine in the gym. Normally I can't do this for longer than 10 minutes, not down to exhaustion but down to it being booooring.
Well guess what I can do with my hands free but my legs moving? You guessed it, reddit!
I've been here for 20 minutes and haven't even realised, I can barely feel my legs but they're just going. The memes and posts are keeping me trapped but honestly for once it's fine cause my outer world body is doing good productive work without me even having to keep an eye on it!
Mileage may vary but though I would share as I'm going to be taking advantage of this as much as possible for the future.
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ADHD
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Hello friends! New to this sub. My mom just called me and asked me if I would be able to maybe look into some help we can recommend to my (31F) brother (33M). I did some light browsing of other posts and so I want to give some background first.
I don't hang out or talk with him much at all, we aren't super close these days, but I still love my big brother, obv. He has ALWAYS been neurotic. He IS the guy who sweeps and mops his kitchen floor (and he has three small girls) every. single. night. And probably a few times a day too. He fidgets constantly, twitches his thumb or just can't seem to get a relaxed mindset. He is super high-strung and this bleeds into his family and his girls can get a little frightened of his actions and reactions. He is NOT like scary or abusive at all, just like hollers at them to clean their stuff up when they're literally 7 and 5.
He has recently started taken Lexapro (Escitilopram), as have I. We grew up together in the same household and so I know how big of dick our alcoholic father was (he's been sober almost two years now, yay!!!) and how that affected my life personally, even to this day. I believe the Lexapro has worked much better for me than the Wellbutrin I was on for the past couple of years. My anxiety levels are way more manageable than on Wellbutrin. I hope he's been feeling the same to some extent. In terms or like intrusive/obsessive thoughts, I do not know his reality with that. But he just is very controlling in a small house with 4 girls (including wifey), a dog, and a full time WFH timber salesman job.
I am not trying to ask for medical advice, as I see that's a rule-breaker, but I would like to reach out for suggestions of some other coping mechanisms that y'all may have found helpful for yourselves. I am asking for things like maybe a YouTuber who has good videos to help center the mind, toys or fidgeter things that can help distract from the constant moving of the mind, books, therapy techniques (I personally have found good success with EMDR), hobbies, forums, or literally anything I can throw his way. Thanks for reading and if I need to post elsewhere let me know too!
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OCD
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i feel like a loser seeing other guys my same age hanging out with their group of friends having fun. my family knows i have a hard time in public spaces and they force me to go outside, i guess they’re trying to help me but it’s just so hard :/ and it’s also so painful and heartbreaking how they try to cheer me up and have a good time with me while i’m on the verge of tears and panicking at all times. i ruin their moods and happiness and i can see it in their faces.. yet they still try to make me feel comfortable.
i hate myself and i hate my life and i hate that i’ll never be a normal person and i’ll never have any friends or any meaningful relationships. i’m a fucking failure and i’m embarrassed of myself. i can’t even make my own family happy. Fuck
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depression
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i know something is wrong, everything is telling me, my past is bad and i had a rough upbringing, i know it wasnt easy and yet for some reason i cannot remember my childhood at all, i have rare memories of school and whatnot but so much memories of my home life is missing...
my brothers remind me of most things and i believe them, because i cannot tell by myself. does anyone else who went through trauma experience it this way? its like i have a block on my memories and feelings.
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ptsd
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im just venting here lmao i forgot my s/o's birthday because i somehow wrote down the wrong day??? and i've missed the mark by like twenty days. and she didn't say anything because she didn't want to embasrass me or something?? but i said happy birthday to her today and it was super awkward lol i hate this shit my rsd kicked in really hard too
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ADHD
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I’ve gone the entire season with my best foot forward. Went on meds. Got a dog for myself finally. Did a bunch of things to turn stuff around. It’s been months since I’ve had any major issues from my trauma. I’ve felt better than ever. I mean besides the never ending hellhole that is depression but hey. Not flashbacks. Not the panic, right?
Well all my hard work feels for nothing because it’s back and it feels like my meds aren’t working. I’m half tempted to go back to weed at this point. But I’ve been doing so well... I just feel broken about this.
I need something to pull me out of this mess. My old coping of crocheting isn’t working the way it used to. What’s wrong with me. I just feel like a mess.
Well thanks for listening. I just had to scream into the void you know.
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ptsd
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Hello!
I am about to start meds in the next few days, so I hope that will help. However, I have been increasingly aware of the fact that I feel the need to respond to everything said in my PLC (for those of you who aren’t teachers, that’s a meeting amongst all the other teachers on your grade level and subject. Ex: I teach English I and am part of the English I PLC). I’m the team lead, so it’s important that I facilitate the meeting but I know I need to shut up more and I’m pretty sure it’s annoying my coworkers.
I keep trying to remind myself to stop and it’s like my brain won’t cooperate and just slow down. I never say anything offensive or inappropriate, it’s just that everyone always hates that one coworker that won’t shut up, you know? I am good at holding back questions in big staff meetings because I KNOW how much that sucks for other people. Small meetings where I’m more comfortable are the problem. Suggestions?
TLDR: I am the head of my team at work but I feel I speak/blurt too much in meetings or in our group chat and it might be wearing on my coworkers. Starting meds soon to help. Suggestions on how to stop this/be more mindful in the moment in the meantime?
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ADHD
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I mean, I enjoy reading a lot on my own time. I take notes on various subjects ranging from Ornithology to Retail History to Anthropology on a daily basis. None of this is school-related. This never feels burdensome. It never feels like work. It’s pure fun. I read, mark the most important and interesting facts, and retain nearly everything.
On the other hand, the majority of college courses I’ve taken over the years (and I’ve taken many as I’ve been a student for over 10 years now) have been a struggle. The Zoology classes I loved involved rote memorization of hundreds of facts a week. In itself, that’s not too bad but combined with 2-4 other classes requiring the same or nearly the same level of study, it’s simply overwhelming. Most people are incapable of retaining the thousands and thousands of facts they’ve “learned” in college. I know. I’ve asked former students. I understand that “learning how to learn” is important too and that research and critical thinking skills are often employed by professors; yet learning to separate the wheat from the chaff is also of value. You can’t know it all and must therefore choose what to hold onto skillfully.
I currently only take 1-2 courses at a time and I’m able to keep up quite well. I recommend doing the same.
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aspergers
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*This is not a harm post* I'm okay and in a good place. I started having issues with intrusive thoughts about two years ago. I made an uphill battle and fought this with everything. I kept reassuring myself that I was not a killer, I was not schizophrenic, I was not (insert whatever here). I kept ruminating, trying to convince myself. I started reading, researching, and of course obsessing. I stumbled across some information that truly helped. The fear of uncertainty, everything i was battling was based on uncertainty. I couldn't think myself out of this. I gave up and let my brain go absolutely crazy. I think the most important step was to agree with the thought. I simply acknowledged that I was whatever my brain was telling me. I knew these were lies and that it didn't matter so I gave in and accepted all of it. I know this may be a "duh dummy" moment but I couldn't get clinical help, other than medication because the provider I have to see didn't think it was OCD.
TL/DR: I gave into my thoughts and accepted them. They don't irritate me nearly as bad.
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OCD
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TW; csa and sexual assault.
I cant seem to get to sleep. I try to sleep and my mind won't stop; i just keep thinking about my anxieties. It's like there's a weight on my chest. I feel like I'm on the verge of a panic attack the whole night and if im not it's because im actually having one. Even when my mind and body are tired and i truly want to sleep. I can't. I was molested multiple times by an older guy when i was about 8. It happened when i was suposed to be "asleep" and i just can't stop the flashbacks. There were times when i would wake up naked and i was too young to understand. I'm just so tired. I feel disgusting and dirty every single night. Im tired of having to wait for my body to force itself sleep. I can't get sleeping meds because my therapy is canceled because of the virus. my urges to self harm are spiking. i just want something to make me feel better; i just wish this feeling would go away. Its so embarrassing; i know people who have gone through so much worse. People whos assault or trauma were actualy bad and i can't seem to get over mine. Im 16 and I'm still so chained down by it. I don't know what i can to do to calm down or get myself to sleep.
What do you guys usualy do to get to sleep?
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ptsd
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A lot of my ‘ADHD habits’ tended to lead to bad sleep hours and disturbed sleep. I was also wracked by nightmares a lot.
And of course all symptoms of ADHD get much worse when you add sleep deprivation into the mix.
During the pandemic I went to my hometown, and to make sure I wasn’t carrying Covid back home I got a fitness tracker that measured SPO2.
On the first day itself the tracker told me that I was dipping below 70 percent every night. So I got a sleep apnea test and yep, I had sleep apnea.
I was recommended a CPAP machine and it helped a ton. It did not cure my ADHD unfortunately as I had initially hoped, but definitely helped in a lot of other ways, most notably daytime sleepiness and
But I still could not break the cycle of waking up at night.
Here’s what helped:
I started taking magnesium at night. That somehow let me sleep a bit sounder. I would continue to wake up to drink water because of my mouth drying out. Then I discovered a technique called mouth taping.
It sounded like a nightmare initially because you use medical tape to cover your mouth. I was afraid I’d find it difficult to breathe.
But that was not the case. A few nights on and I no longer had to wake up to drink water, or drink copious amounts before bedtime and end up needing to pee.
For the last month or so I’ve been getting refreshing 7-8 hours of uninterrupted sleep very consistently.
Still struggle a bit with going to bed, but when I do, it’s 8 solid hours unless I set an alarm.
Just wanted to share in case someone else finds themselves in a similar situation.
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ADHD
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Hello there
first time poster so sorry if this goes on
I do believe that I have ptsd. I have never told anyone about what is going on so its technically undiagnosed
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lets start from the beginning
On the 17 of December 2018 the bodies of two Scandinavian women where found to be decapitated in Morocco by isis. I vividly remember reading about it in a news article on it (thanks Microsoft news app). morbid curiosity got the better of me and I read more articles. Than I stumbled across a video I never want to see again ill spare you the details. thankfully the 3 people directly responsible had been arrested.
Since that night when I try to go to sleep this stupid memory keeps poping back into my head and I keep replaying that video over and over again and some times during the day. this has been going on once or twice a month since December 2018. For the past 2 weeks its happened every night, Last week I decided to search the article again to see if theirs been any update within the court case and found that the isis members where handed a death penalty, I was hoping that this verdict would bring me some closure but hear I am, still unable to sleep and having panic attacks during the day
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I don't know what I am going to get out of typing this maybe just putting it out there will help
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ptsd
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Over the last few years I’ve become a pretty laid back, generally emotionless guy when I used to be the opposite as a kid/teenager. I was very loud and attention seeking, trying (and succeeding 😏) to be a class clown and also really angry a lot of the time deep down.
I started titration on extended release Ritalin (xaggatin XL) and now I just wanna do stuff like hug my mum and give her kisses on the head, which I’ve never ever done in my life and I can’t recall her ever doing. I recently confessed my feelings to a coworker despite knowing it wouldn’t work out right now, right person wrong time kinda thing. She felt the exact same way about me but we agreed we’d just be friends because we both know how it’d end up. I cried in my bed for the first time in YEARS when we got off that 5 hour long phone call. When I’m on Ritalin my feelings for her are amplified tenfold.
Is this normal? I’m still making the same mistakes at work, forgetting to do stuff and coming late because I’m so unorganised etc. There’s been 0 change to my adhd symptoms even at 54mg, I just feel the emotions I feel like I’ve buried
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ADHD
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First and foremost I'm not asking anything about dosage or how I should take medication, I'm following my doctor's instructions to the letter on that.
My doctor started me off with 10 mg twice a day and yesterday was quite the ride because I haven't taken stimulants for my ADHD since I was a kid. My question is how long before the initial side effects start to wain? I read 5-7 days but I thought I'd double check with the community here and get other people's input so I have a well-rounded experience base to pull from
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ADHD
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