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I recently started to learn french but I gave up already after only couple of days. I always struggle to finish what I start and I feel really bad about it. I feel I’m wasting my youth and time doing nothing .
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depression
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I have Good friends, a nice and caring family. Now I want to start with how I feel with my friends I always feel like I'm always out of place and I never confide in them when I'm at my lowest Same goes for my family. For my family they are good to me and nice also but I also still for some reason just don't enjoy my time with them and I just am sometimes just completely ignored by them unless I shout or keep repeating I'm just so uncomfortable around them I just like to be alone I hate when they touch me I just hate everything i hate myself my low self-esteem I just don't want anything other than to be alone in my room I hate studying nor do I have any motivation for it either I'm just always so bored I just can't wait for the day to end just so that I can sleep. My parents even took me to a therapist when I told them about my condition which is overthinking it prevents Me from doing everything including my prayers I just can't do anything I'm nothing special I just want to stop existing it's so frustrating I always compare myself to others and my family is also so inconsiderate of me at some times including right now when they are blasting music from the salon which reaches to my room and of course if I say anything to them they would just look disappointed or frustrated at me I just hate it. I mean in terms of having family and friends I should be alright but my mental state is just utter shit I just don't even know what more I could want if I have what some people can't have
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depression
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I just realized that videos like "How to open a door" are real tutorials for me now :(
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OCD
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More specifically texting and stuff, because I've recently started online dating and I can't help but feel like I'm doing my best to inadvertently run the conversation into the ground, either asking too many questions or none at all. In addition, I can't help but worry because I'll be honest I have no idea how to act on a date... I kind of wish my speech class covered more things about adult life than they did. is there a good online resource that can teach you how to do behave in social situations?
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aspergers
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So recently I had two friends abandon me, over a misunderstanding (Still not sure if it was tbh) but I found myself getting incredibly hyper-sensitive and hating any meanness, even if it was super small thrown at me or perceived anger at me, I just couldn't handle it and lashed out and just wanted to be left alone but at the same time wanting to be honest about how I felt, but I don't have anyone to be honest with, and as well I feel awful if what I talk about, trauma wise or other mental illnesses that I have make everyone upset. Its just this weird feeling on not wanting anyone to dislike me even tho reality is some people just do.
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ptsd
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(Hi, I posted this in r/advice and got a couple messages saying I might find some more helpful answers here. I was diagnosed with OCD when I was around 14 (22F now) but I'm starting to think it may be an issue of comorbidity. Sorry in advance if this isn't appropriate for this sub but any advice would be appreciated.)
Hi! I need some advice/tips for uni/college because my lack of focus is really starting to affect my work and mental health.
My main issue is that I can't focus and I can't connect points in my head. I really struggle to explain it without sounding ridiculous but it's like a my thoughts just run into a brick wall or they just stop dead mid-thought and switch to something else. It always feels like there's a million different thoughts in my head at once, all going a thousand miles per hour, and it makes having a singular focus on something really hard. I It means I'm easily distracted by my own thoughts and my mind always wanders, especially during lectures or when I'm working on assignments. I tried removing all 'distractions' (phone, TV, etc.) but in the end I get distracted by my own thoughts. Or else I feel very fidgety and the constant need to move around, go for a walk, pace, etc.
On top of that I really struggle to verbalise my thoughts or explain myself on paper. This has been really frustrating because I know I have the information I need but I just can't express it. It's like my mind completely blanks on what I know. I know what I want to say but I can't articulate it. I've spent so many nights just staring at blank word documents, stressed and angry and upset with myself for not being able to write a single coherent paragraph. One time I sat through a 3 hour exam and 2 hour in I had nothing except scribbled notes about what I wanted to answer but couldn't put it into an actual formal piece of written work. After 2 hours and nothing to show for it I just turned off the computer and I cried. I've never cried about university or school work but I felt so embarrassed and stupid and was so ashamed of myself for not being able to do it that I couldn't stop.
I'm in my final year of uni now and I've scraped by with probably an average in the low 60s for most assignments. I want to do better but I don't know if academia is for me. I even struggle with reading (interpretating/misinterpreting essay questions, seeing double lines, missing words, rereading a sentence or paragraph multiple times to make sense of it). I don't know if that's because academic reading can be very dense but I really struggle with it. I know that if I do a reading (say a chapter in a book) then I know I'm going to have to read it at least 2 or 3 times to even know what it's talking about and then once more to actually understand it.
I'll finish my degree but I don't want the stress and shame that I've felt throughout my entire education/school life to stop me achieving good grades this year. It might be a bit pointless to try save my grades now but I want to do the work. I want my work to be of a high quality because I know it can be and that I can do it.
I've never actually told anyone just how much I struggle internally. It sounds like I'm making up excuses and it's really getting to me. I don't understand why I don't do anything. I want to do the work, I really do, because I know doing it now will save me the stress and anxiety in the long run, but even that is not enough to motivate me. Does anybody else struggle with this and have any advice or tips on how they motivate themselves to work? Or else how to kick the habit of procrastinating? I have a lot of upcoming assignments over the next 2 months and I really wanna do well in them. Any advice is appreciated and thank you in advance.
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ADHD
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I'm having a PTSD from my neighbor and his friends harassment. I'm a minority living in 99% white community HOA.
So I'm going for a walk around 8:30pm ~ 10pm (it's a desert, I can only walk during the morning or at night). The same neighbors open and slam their door as I'm walking by. They get in their trucks and do a sharp U-turn while I'm on the sidewalk as if they were about to run me over. Just going around circles in my block as I'm walking by, to intimate me. Turning on the high beams while driving by, trying to provoke me. Standing on their front door and staring me down as I'm walking by. Sending out HOA security everytime I go for a walk. Flipping on and off their outdoor light switch as I'm walking by their house to provoke me.
It gets even worse, so my HOA violated my rights and gave away my information without a warrant. So my neighbor cop does a background check and reaches out to my career/job. I started to get harassment at my new workplace, had a mental breakdown and lost my career. My neighbor cop ruined my life because he thought he had a "hunch" and decided to harass and intimidate me. Inciting panic attacks and giving me anxiety in my own neighborhood.
Now, I have a video evidence of this but I don't know how to pursue legal action. Do I sue the HOA for not protecting me from discrimination? Fair and housing act law. Thankfully, I found one neighbor who is willing to testify that some of the neighbors actions were ill intended.
I no longer live in that neighborhood but my career and my life was ruined forever. I developed a lot of mental illness from this, I'm scared to go outside and I can no longer live a normal life.
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ptsd
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Do you think vegans with ocd have intrusive thoughts about eating meat?
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OCD
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I’m glad I found this community. I finally feel I can relate to those around me after years of feeling like I had something wrong with me. I’ve struggled a lot mentally this year, but knowing there are great people here is something I can really appreciate.
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aspergers
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I just got a new job and I embarrassed myself by screwing up one thing really bad. Other than that I was fine, but ever since then I've had intrusive thoughts about embarrassing myself all kinds of ways at work and getting yelled at.
I'm trying to sleep right now but these thoughts are making me literally churn in on myself and get embarrassed even though it never happened.
What are some things I can do to ease it?
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OCD
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My OCD if you can call it that is episodic and comes and goes throughout the day. During said "episodes" I have chains of urges and thoughts about killing myself or others, and I worry about going through with these thoughts, and I often scroll online to see what others experiences are like. Once the episode passes, though I go into denial that it ever happened. The whole memory seems hazy and dreamlike and I wonder if I faked it for attention. During the 70% of my day without these episodes, I'm constantly wondering if they really happened, or if I'm creating these lies to use for attention.
At the time of making this post, I'm pretty sure I had an episode about two hours ago, and I'm in the denial stage afterwards, which is making me question it. I'd love to go get seen and get diagnosed. But I don't want to waste the money if I'm normal, as I don't have much. If anyone can reassure me that I might have it and should get scene that would be great. If I don't have it, then tell me I'm normal so I can know not to be. Thanks in advance.
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OCD
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For the past few years I've been struggling with my PTSD and recent events brought up trauma wounds. I somehow managed to pull myself together for a job interview in an industry I've been interested in and there are plenty of opportunities for career growth so I can build my portfolio/resume and start my own business one day.
An actual career seemed like a pipe dream to me and having an actual job seemed impossible with how the job market is lately. I've internalized things from my abuser and toxic situations, I've had my PTSD symptoms discourage me (I struggle the most with brain fog), but I fucking did it.
I still have more healing to do but this is one step towards feeling normal and proving things I've internalized wrong. I'm bringing a small notepad to jot things down so brain fog doesn't get in the way. I hope that's enough so I don't mess up tomorrow.
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ptsd
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Hi i made a throwaway account to post this here bc i don't want to post it on my main acc.
So I am not sure if this counts as depression but i decided to post it here feel free to remove my post if it doesn't fit here.
English isnt my first language sorry if i make mistakes
So The thing is i really hate myself and i think began around 7th grade where i was bullied everyday.
Im 18 now and to this day ive always hated myself. My appearance,personality,voice,name etc. I just really hate everything about myself. I'm 18 now and i dropped out of college after going there for like 3 days. Now i just stay at home and rarely get out of the house. I don't want to go outside and socialize (i don't have any friends anyways) because i have no confidence.whenever i daydream or fantasize about something I always think of myself as another person. I rarely talk because i hate hearing my own voice. I hate it when others call me by my name. I hate my appearance. I just wish one day i could wakr up as a different person in a different body. Id be fine with it even if my new body was fat and uglier. Im fine with whatever as long as its not my body.
The worst thing is i don't want to love myself because the idea of loving myself is just really disgusting to me. I just really wish i was dead since me becoming a different person is literally impossible. Idk what to do. Idk how to get out of this endless loop if this keeps on going ill end up as a loser who has no job no friends nothing. Id rather be dead than ending up like this but im too scared to kill myself.
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depression
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People are scary, they can be so unpredictable and because you don’t know if what they’re thinking it causes a lot of anxiety. I’m ‘scared of the unknown.’ The darkness can’t hurt you, people can. So that’s why most of us are hiding in this darkness. Being an emotional unstable/broken person won’t help the situation. Because people can hurt you/break you mentally. But even though I’m scared of having contact, I want to reach out to people. I don’t want to be isolated from people and feel all lonely. I’m just scared of all the negative things that interaction with people can cause. I shouldn’t be too dependent on people, but having solid healthy relationships where I can feel safe with people would help me heal/have positive effect with my depression.
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depression
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Deleting this like on Friday man but to start I hate my life sometimes man, born without what I wanted, I got nothing now, no IRL friends since I moved, No friends at my new school since I came 4 months ago, No motivation to do anything, My legs are weak asf I can feel my bones man, I’m like addicted or some crap to coke (not the drug lmao) and other drinks, I hate my body, I hate my life sometimes, I have a bad dad, who’s abridge at times, I don’t wanna see him but if I ever try cut him out well.. he knows where I and my mom live, and trust me he is a violent person, and a very bad one, He used to hit me when I visited him through 2017-2020 November after my grandma died, and we moved, then he got a new partner (don’t feel any bad feelings to her) And then I got a brother, I like him, I just are too socially awkward to wanna speak to him though, idk why, then he hit me in Nov 2020 mic 27TH and then I told my mom, quickly said he didn’t so he wouldn’t go to jail, regret that. I feel bad for what my brother might go through so I wanna report him but there’s not much proof, and I’m afraid I’m gonna be a very bad person (self-destruction type stuff) when I grow up, I’m sorry for making this so hard to read but idk how to not, idk what to do, edit: screw whoever downvoted this
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depression
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I’m sitting here on the floor just staring at the wall completely numb. I don’t even really feel human anymore just an empty husk. My memory and all my life feel erased from the extremely bad memory and I can’t focus on anything at all. I can’t seem to do anything and there is nothing I WANT to do either. Exercise was the only thing keeping me sane and now I can’t even do that because of a heart condition.
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depression
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Hello,
For context, I'm self dx but I've scored pretty highly on the RAADS (higher than the mean of confirmed people on the spectrum) and though I've taken steps to get a proper diagnosis, it's pretty difficult to find someone who can work with adults here. If I do have ASD, then I'm high-functioning, but I do have my constant struggles with many things that make other people think there's something up with me (like having to mentally plan a drive because I get too anxious, not wearing certain clothes because I can't handle the textures, getting overwhelmed if several people speak at once, etc.).
I'm currently in the middle of a job hunt. I had a pretty sweet remote contract position that paid by the hour, and since I was locked in the middle of a pandemic, I was working my ass off (10-16 hr days), but the project ended and now I'm on the hunt for something new.
It's not uncommon to struggle to find a job, that part I understand. I've sent several (over 100 by now) applications the last couple of weeks and I've even managed to get a few interviews, and I think that I've practiced masking and refined my resume to the point where people in professional environments take me seriously.
The paradoxical part for me is that I often get told (and I have been told for since I can remember) that I'm clearly a bright person and that I have a pretty good background, but then I rarely manage to land any meaningful opportunities in which I can exercise and develop my skills. The hard part for me, I find, is getting my foot in the door, but once I do everyone's amazed at my performance (and how I've helped them be more efficient). I've been only in internships and contract roles, though, so I've never had the chance to stay somewhere for long.
Does this happen to any of you guys as well? If so, how do you deal with it?
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aspergers
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I am the most worthless waste of life to ever exist. I have absolutely nothing going for me, I’ve never accomplished anything, I’ve never help anyone or had any kind of impact on anyone or anything, and I know I never will. There is literally no reason for me to ever have existed in the first place.
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depression
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Is trying to get rid of ocd technically a compulsion and will lead to worse ocd ? My main compulsions are reading the internet. Telling other people. And rumination. Recently I have been trying to get rid of ocd and I came across this thought that trying to get rid of ocd is one big compulsion right ? If this is true it means it would be impossible to recover which pisses me off. What are your tips this seems like a paradox to me would staying off the internet and fighting thoughts technically be compulsions this is very confusing to me help would be greatly appreciated !
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OCD
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Hi there
After a long time of not being medicated, I have an appointment with a new psychiatrist coming up. I haven't seen him before but I suspect he will want to prescribe something. It will be good for my mental health but I am suspicious about the side effects. I was on Zoloft / Sertraline for a year about 5 years ago and it destroyed my sexual function (I'm male and had less interest in sex, less sensation, would struggle to orgasm - and when I did it was rubbish... which affected my relationships at the time).
I stayed on it as it worked wonders for anxiety and OCD. But eventually came off it as these sexual side effects were too severe and at the time didn't want to try any other SSRIs as all seemed to come with side effects.
I'm willing to try another now, but I was wondering if anyone has found an SSRI that gives them few sexual side effects?
I will of course be asking my psych this question but from experience their answer to this question tends to be 'try some different meds and see what works for you'.
Some context: I'm a guy & in the UK (i.e. not every SSRI available in the US is available here)
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OCD
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I feel like ill be ruminating and comparing things and my head and my head automatically says i like something when i dont like it and even when i say i dont like it my head just says im lying to myself when i actually am not
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OCD
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Hey guys and gals,
I was suicidal the whole time after stopping my medication and in constant fear and panic. But now I started to take them again I have no fear at all and am not overstimulated/depressed.
I also found a document that claimed that people with aspergers have a hard time regulating emotions and are prove to anxiety and sensory overstimulation whichs leads to constant fear and panicattacks.
I now use atypical neuroleptics and all my problems with fear, anxiety and also problems when communicating are almost gone... atypical neuroleptics are very successful in helping autistic people so please try to get this or any other medication.
Without it I would have killed myself surely because of depression, not being able to communicate at all, being overwhelmed and not being able to leave the house... Autism most certainly affects the brainstructure and brainfunction and is just hell.
Here the document: [http://mindsandhearts.net/wp-content/uploads/2018/12/Why\_do\_people\_with\_Asperger\_s\_experience\_high\_levels\_of\_anxiety.pdf](http://mindsandhearts.net/wp-content/uploads/2018/12/Why_do_people_with_Asperger_s_experience_high_levels_of_anxiety.pdf)
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aspergers
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Hello,
About 3 weeks ago i had a suicide attempt. I was saying goodbye to most of my friends and was planning to take my life that same evening. Most of my friends brushed it off but fortunatly my ex called me and calmed me down and said that even though she is mad at me, wants total distance and blocked me on everything, she still cares about me which was everything i needed to hear. That someone still cares about me.
Fast forward 2 of my closest friends think i did it all for attention. That saying that i was gonna commit suicide that i used it for blackmailing them. Blackmailing them for attention. They think i used them to get sympathy.
Ofcourse that is absolute not the case. I was going to my friends saying i need help because i might do something i regret because i needed help ASAP. I was almost already on my way to the train tracks. I messaged them because they were my closest friends and i trusted them. I wanted them to listen to my story so they could give me advice and make me feel my friends still care about me. But all i get is hummiliation about my mental state which makes me increadibly sad because these were my closest friends.
How can i make clear that i wanted help and advice and not to blackmail them? Thanks for all your replies <3
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depression
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Hi all! I'm working so hard on overcoming my OCD. But I'm still doing something wrong!!!
I know all we have to do is stop compulsions. All my compulsions are mental, and I know rumination is a compulsion.
I think where I'm going wrong is that my rumination - is figuring out how to not ruminate. I test out different 'brain modes' to see which one classifies as 'not ruminating.' I picture triggers in my head and visualizing myself in that scenario and not ruminating. You could view this as exposure exercises but I KNOW I'm ruminating when I'm trying not to. Like, I legit don't know how not to! I hired an OCD specialist but she's telling me I'm overthinking it. Then I'm trying to not overthink it and I'm putting effort into that and that's rumination. Plus I read Michael Greenberg's stuff on not ruminating and even though he provides a checklist of where you could be going wrong it's just made me more confused. His thoughts on having the problem in awareness but not giving it attention made me feel that there's a 'brain mode' you need to be in to do it right. I'm just sooo frustrated. Does anyone have any tips on what it means to stop ruminating??? I just feel like I'm going slightly wrong somewhere.
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OCD
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I was sexually physically and mentally abused throughout the formative years of my life (from approx. 5-19y/o before being kicked out of my house for standing up for myself) by mostly my father, and my older brother. Despite them still currently being a part of my life, I’m pretty confident I have irreparable resentment towards them. What disgusts me most is that I’ve mostly kept it hidden it from them all these years (told my dad, he apologized and said it’s normal practice in his birth-country, which I was gullible enough to just accept as being ok) and they think things are for the most part positive btwn me and them. Even when things today are happy/free-flowing around them I still have a constant underlying negative/hateful feeling towards them. Should I just cut ties with them from my life completely and move on? And tell them to do the same? I’m 27M and live in another city from them. I’ve tried therapy consistently and no reasonable solution has been attained. I feel that them being a part of my life is only causing me to both hate myself and hate them more and more. Internally I truly feel that the only reason I even visit my family still is because the family dogs live with them and I love the dogs very dearly (matter of fact, the only living beings that I can wholeheartedly say I love more than life itself right now...emotionally they’re my everything).
Looking for help please - any advice/thoughts/experience/anything at this point is greatly appreciated.
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ptsd
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Took my last dose of adderall yesterday and had my refill appointment. Prescription sent to pharmacy everything seemed like it was going great. Called the pharmacy yesterday to see what time my prescription would be ready when they informed me that they canceled the refill because they no longer have a contract with my insurance company. The fact they didn’t even call to ask if I wanted it filled there still pisses me off because I would have paid the out of pocket cost for it. Skip to day I’m highly anxious and angry. Have called my providers office 3x and have been sent to the same ladies voicemail every time. No return call, nothing, even tried to bypass it by talking to the receptionist. It’s Friday they’re closed on the weekend so I’d have to wait until Monday to try again. I work this weekend (nursing on call) on top of working M-F and it’s a highly stressful job. I’m angry and just need to rant. Im going to try one last time here soon, hopefully it gets figured it but reading the reviews of the place they are notoriously bad at getting prescriptions filled in a timely manner if you call them.
Edit: not that anyone is going to see this bc by now this post is buried and never got any traction but my persistence payed off. Finally got in touch with the lady I kept leaving voicemails for, she was a total bitch and said it hasn’t even been 24 hrs so you shouldn’t expect this to be taken care off, even though it was of no fault of my own, but also that she had sent a message to the prescriber and he’s with patients blah blah blah. All I asked for was a call back to close the communication loop and ensure that I’d been passed along to the appropriate person. I work in the healthcare field as a nurse and part of my job is to make sure patients get timely refills it’s not hard and I always update the patients. I get it, everyone in healthcare is fucking busy but did you really expect me to not call back after I had left 2 messages 3 hours and 1 1/2 hours apart asking for a call back? I felt like I was very polite and tactful, even thanked her for her time but Fuck.
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ADHD
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Can someone please talk to me? I’m having Horrible flashbacks and they won’t stop. Can’t sleep.
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ptsd
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I’m almost 40.
In middle school and high school I hung out with a lot of the geeks, nerds, weirdos, goths, theater kids, etc.
I was often the friend in the group who had to stop the bully. For instant there was the time I came around the hall to witness and stop some bullies throwing a friend into trash can and at times though I was never physically hit I was called names, threatened, trash thrown at me, etc.
One bully was completely vile. His level of bullying matched his energy, explosive and constant.
I recall seeing his braces at times like Scott Farkus in A Christmas Story. Flickering with a cat like glee enjoying the punishment he was delivering.
I avoided him at all costs. Hated him. Loathed him.
We just recently caught up again. See about a decade and a half later we became friends online. I can’t remember but assume he friended me. I also can’t remember how it started, me writing him or him writing me but it led to getting a lunch after I confessed to hating him and him doing what I never imagined, apologizing.
The lunch we got was life changing. Over 30 years of age and as classic and beautifully cliche’ as one might imagine. He opened up about his world and environment at that time, which made me so thankful for my world and home life then. He talked about changing and healing, growing up and being a father now.
We didn’t keep up much but we recently spoke and I never could have imagined, ever, that my jaw would drop in how incredible he has become that I can honesty say I look up to him.
He is a pillar of mental health, a wonderful father, he had to work quadruple time to run his very successful business in 2020 and honored his employees better than the company I worked for. He is so humble and thankful, positive, polite and gracious.
I have had depression a long time, he can relate to it very much. I know this doesn’t mean that every story is like this. My main bully and I have never spoken and a quick scope of his online profile and I know we will never speak because he hasn’t changed.
I guess the point is, I can’t go back in to time, I can’t go back and tell myself to not wish and fantasize about his death so he gets what is coming to him.
But I can write here and say change takes time, little steps are everything, learn about boundaries, practice them and keep them. But it can happen.
He is the man I now want to become more like and he became that man through self actualization, honesty, therapy and love. He has now helped me with my own depression and given me hope far more than what his bullying did. Love and care can conquer darkness.
My hate carried a fire for too long, haunted by a ghost. Blessed by this man now.
You never truly know. Period.
What hell they may have faced or facing and though that’s not true for everyone and every bully for you who may need to hear it, you are loved and love yourself as you being alive is beautiful.
If you can’t be kind to someone please be kind to yourself and kindness will follow.
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Not sure if I used the correct flair but I just wanted to thank everyone for sharing information. I started taking Adderall about a month ago. I have gone up in the dosage once and haven't really noticed a difference. My psychiatrist and pharmacist never told me that there are things that can counteract/cancel it the medication. After reading in here about vitamin C (ascorbic acid) looked it up and realized I had been taking it with my bariatric multivitamin which has a crap ton of vitamin C (ascorbic acid). I usually just take all my meds at the same time. After learning this decided I'm going to take the Adderall as soon as I wake up then everything else an hour late so my body can absorb the meds. (Apparently it's an absorption issue so you can have the vitamin c as long as it's not an hour before or after taking the meds.) Thanks for being so helpful!
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ADHD
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Hello, all! 42-year-old male here. Diagnosed as a kid back in the 80's, was given Ritalin, and it didn't work, caused some side effects like racing heartbeat, flushing, etc. My mom took me off of it and that was the end of it.
I was put in the "gifted" programs at school, which did not work with my attention span so I got myself "removed".
I have made my way in life, often using the ADHD symptoms to my advantage, multitasking, school/work/family/other projects balancing at the same time. You know, being good at things that make other people crazy.
I started as an EMT in 1999 and have moved through paramedic, RN, MSN Educator, and now working on my NP.
I did, however, develop a decent binge drinking habit over the years as my coping mechanism. I came to realize that ingesting enough alcohol was the only way that I had found that would quiet my brain, at least for a bit, but at a cost.
I went to a great rehab program last year that was heavily based on psychology and digging into the issues. They knew me. They knew my type to a "T". The smart over-achiever who ultimately still has an ADHD kid buried in the middle.
So, the input I am looking for; I am not a fan of stimulants. I can do some caffeine but the "up" feeling is not great for me. Anxiety runs deep. I have been reading more and more testimonials of people my age who finally tried Adderall and experienced truly life-changing results with no "speedy" type of effects.
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Is this something I should try or should I just continue to push through and cope as well as I can with the constant brain noise, not being able to read texts (unless condensed versions), and struggling to focus on things unless they truly interest me?
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Thanks for reading this and for any input that you can give!
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TLDR; "gifted" kid is old now and wants to know if life can be improved by starting medication at 42 y/o without feeling an "upper" type of stimulus.
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ADHD
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i don't blame them. i don't even care about me. i would rather they be up front about it than just pretend though.
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depression
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if anyone here has dealt with or is dealing with EOCD, pls tell me your thought processes and any triggers or whatever you are comfortable with sharing.
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OCD
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This is gonna be long. I apologize.
I’m 28. I was born in the USA and lived there with my parents until this past September when I moved to another country permanently. Objectively, everything here is better than back in the US: my health is better, I’m finally working a fulfilling job I love, my boyfriend is here with me and we have a great relationship, I’m on the most thrilling and unbelievable adventure of my life, I have great friends here whom I enjoy spending time with and keep up with friends at home too, I don’t have to stress too much about money, I exercise and eat well, I’m finally getting over an unhealthy attachment to parents with whom I had an unhealthy relationship…
Everything should be perfect, right? So why am I fucking miserable?? Is it because I moved out of my parents’ AND to another country at the same time and I’m just adjusting? This is the first time I’ve lived without my parents, I’m working a job with late hours and I walk very long distances every day, so things like chores are really draining even though I’m in a cozy small apartment. Am I just ungrateful for this opportunity that some people could only wish for? I fucking cried in the gym locker room today because I missed my cat (left him behind to not traumatize him on an airplane to the other side of the globe). ??? Will things get better? I’ve researched culture shock and people say it can take 6-12 months to adjust—and I’ve only been here for less than three.
I feel insane because I am missing the familiarity of places that bored me and people who hurt me. Why would I feel like that?
I absolutely know that moving back wouldn’t make me happy—in fact it would almost certainly make me feel even worse to go back to an unhealthy attachment to parents whose mental health is questionable at best, working dead-end office jobs, worrying about violence in my home country, etc.. I just feel like something is wrong with me because I can’t appreciate this choice I consciously made to improve my life. Am I depressed because depression is what adulthood is supposed to feel like? Im so fed up with myself for feeling like this. Any advice?
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depression
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So obviously sexual topic warning
Im embarrassed talking about this honestly. Because it looks not serious compared to others.
but videogames are such an important part of me.
I woke up because of a bad dream where i was watching porn of anime and debating things about age etc.
I wake up scared crying etc. Abd i think slightly horny from that nightmare.
I play a song from a game called Undertale, then I remember that i lewded a character called Toriel before and what bothers me about it is two things,
1- i havent finished the game
2- her scenes are touching and i feel a motherly love from her that actually legit lowers my anxiety
3-And i dont want the hentai i did to ruin that
3-its anthraphomorthuc(however u say it idk) and i dont want to be a furry my brain says
But then my brain said man fuck ocd and I proceeded to well you know, to her. And i guess what bothers me is was that a compulsion or
Did i break free from one sorry its 4 am and i cant sleep because if so this might transfer to other ocd types and makes me feel extremely uncomfortable
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OCD
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After almost a year of fighting with doctors and trying to get a proper evaluation, I found a therapist who actually understands ADHD and is ready to help me with all my social issues, like standing up for myself, and helping me break the bad habits that ADHD causes.
I just took my first dose of adderall today and honestly I don’t feel very different than how I normally do. I know it takes a little bit to feel a difference or maybe they just started me off on too low of a dose. But damn I have had cotton mouth so bad all day. I know it’s a side effect.
I was curious on how everyone’s else’s experiences were with taking adderall for the first time and how it’s changed for you over time?
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I'm scared that somehow my parents will know since they pay my tuition, but I think it's supposed to be confidential. To be clear, I'm not diagnosed, and that's only because the Asian community is hella weird about this stuff. If I go to the sessions, they will diagnose me and offer me a few sessions, but I might have to transfer to a psychologist outside campus to get additional therapy. I don't have a job, and I don't know how to seek therapy w/o letting my parents know. Also my parents are actually amazing, but it's both a generational gap and the fact that they don't know that much about mental health that I don't tell them. Also they get so worried even if I get a cold, and they are super caring, so I don't want to make them worried.
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OCD
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I started on sertraline (50mg) 12 days ago and it’s driven my OCD up the wall and I dunno what to do. Sometimes I can bat away a compulsion or intrusive thought like an annoying fly but other times it’s like a wasp that just won’t leave me alone. I exercise, I practice mindfulness what else can I do? Any tips?
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OCD
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For me I do and it bothers me all the time, usually its just with items related to my computer. Over time for each device I slowly start to accept them, (I can accept scratches on non computer related items easier, like my phone for example.) (My mouse for example, I just got it and the base of it is already scratched, which I know makes sense because it is smooth very soft plastic rubbing across a beaten up wooden surface, but I still can't accept them. This is the third day of obsessing about my mouse.) But I do still obsess about them at times. Can anyone help me with this? It's also not so much that I care about the scratches (though that is a part of it), I mainly obsess about how each one got there, and what caused it.
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I’m currently in the process of getting diagnosed, but I’ve always had troubles following conversation. I know I’m listening and I make the genuine effort to retain the information, but it won’t always stick. I interrupt people without noticing and I change subjects, I don’t mean to cut people off or make people repeat themselves but I can tell people are growing short with me. I really want to not do this, as this evening I had a heated discussion on something and I was already confused on what point he was making but I knew I disagreed but every time he re-explained he swapped points or I couldn’t understand. He went off about how I don’t ever listen to him and change points to irrelevant things and I’m just making having conversations with me frustrating. I’ve lost friends over this and I fear I’m losing him too and I get yelled at by my parents over this and I don’t know what to do anymore… I’m really trying. When I bring up my diagnosis and my testing, he just says I’m using it as an excuse. I really want to get confirmation that it is this, and not just a problem with me. Because I’ve tried everything to fix it, even to the point of not engaging in conversation just so I can focus on what they’re saying and taking a 3 minute gap to respond but then people take that as frustrating too. I feel like I annoy everyone.
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In the last few months my OCD has reached really disturbing levels!
I’m 36 and have had OCD all my life I work in a science lab and before I leave I check all the equipment but I just almost malfunction and get stuck checking the same thing, today I checked the same items for 45 minutes it took every bit of strength to break the cycle and leave it’s exhausting!
And the invasive thoughts associated with these checks I’ve probably died to every known disease twice over with failed checking attempt.
What coping mechanisms do people use?
I just want some improvement not asking for miracles here!
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So a little while ago I went to my GP after 6 months of waiting for the appointment to be evaluated for autism. From the stories I've seen here, I was envisioning worst-case-scenario as like, the doctor telling me "You're not autistic because I've seen you make eye contact" or something like that. But instead, she didn't even pretend to evaluate me or compare me to a list of symptoms. She just came in and said "You're not autistic because if you were, you would have been diagnosed as a child." Completely ignored me when I explained I have a deadbeat mom who *never took me to the doctor as a kid*, literally at all, and ever since I was 18 I've been playing catch-up with all my unmanaged medical issues (im 22 now). And plus that I've been chasing a diagnosis for years and been run around in circles because NO ONE is willing to diagnose adults.
Anyway, she told me I wasn't autistic because I would have been diagnosed already, and dismissed me after I waited half a year to see her. After she left I literally broke down in tears. Its been a little while since then so I'm not so distraught as I was, but I just want to be EVALUATED for fucks sake.
Anyway, if anyone knows of ANYWHERE in the Maryland, USA area where they diagnose adults, please tell me. Ive been searching for years.
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aspergers
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Does it still count as a genuine intrusive thoughts if it's something I'm making myself think? Like sometimes I'll see someone and I'll think something really mean or fucked up violently or like very specific sexual fantasies and it's like I'm the one who's making myself think it but I'm only doing it because I know it's not something I should be thinking. Does that make sense? Everyone always makes it seem like intrusive thoughts are completely uncontrollable and it makes me wonder if my thoughts are genuine because I'm the one who's making myself think it but it isn't something I like.
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OCD
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So I keep coming up with very unlikely scenario and keep worrying about them which makes me very anxious. I also see posts on reddit and stuff and get very worried about them and anxiously think about it. I also get anxious at the prospect of something like the reddit post happening to me.
But the problem is that whenever I face a hard situation, I know what to do and deal with it well, but I get very anxious while thinking about something else going through it and how to help them or just get anxious thinking about myself in that situation.
Please help
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OCD
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I have spent most of my recent years believing that I was cursed. I thought accepting that I am mentally ill forever, this way, by which I define myself as one with a borne-curse, would aid me to move on, like people who accept their disabilities and live with them this way.
But it set me apart. It made me feel lowlier, after all, there was two kinds of people - normal and those like me, ill.
Getting better suddenly turned from a goal to some hypothetical and impossible future. I ran myself into hopelessness and I became very depressed by other events too. I truly believed that what I have is untreatable, that what my therapy does is totally futile. I had forgotten how to be "normal" and felt subhuman. I found it hard to relate to people in my life, they seemed so different, not having to deal with what I feel on a daily basis. They could stand the challenge of the pandemic and the war we had - yet, I felt that I literally was born without that ability. I told myself that I was "fighting" while I was just complaining about my problems with other people and coping, rather than doing anything at all. I saw no point in medication, exercise, listening to my therapist's advice without some part of arguing, trying to be less passive and all that. Overtime that hopelessness was so powerful and depressing that I became suicidal and hated people and this world. I felt everything was evil and people were gullible. This is very prevelant on r/depression more than r/ocd but I see this here too. This feeling of hopelessness that this disease is a impossoble and permenant non-fightable curse or that the fight is futile or that we are different than "normal" creating an atmosphere where we are striving to be like them and are angry at ourselves. It is a very powerful emotion that controlls everything in your life.
At some point my head became so unbearable that I made a deal. I would take my life away on a certain date, two months forward and in exchange - I would do every one of these feel better things. Like eating more fruits while drinking antioxidants, making a new baseline for doing things rather than belieiving right off the bat that its futile. Just go one thing at a time, whatever it takes, but just do these things. I started exercising 60 minutes a week by just climbing my stairs in my house up and down twice a week. And I decided to actively do something against the way my life is structured. I did this for just a week or two when I realized just how much this hopelessness controlled me. I just did nothing because I believed nothing has any meaning or purpose. I felt OCD was this permenant thing like death. I thought that my life was over. Yet. Just giving up everything and looking at death itself - I thought, I would better myself out of spite - to prove nothing will ever make me happy and that my suicide is justifoed because for over a month I did everything. Because I was before the end of my existence, what did it matter to put in some effort? I mean for a decade I had time to do nothing, at least Ill try the very last resort.
And you know what? Letting go that "I cant be better ever" attitude has allowed me to feel free for the first time. I was before death and I had nothing to lose and could do anything. I felt I started having meaning. That betterings I was doing were working. I dove deeper into buddhism and started a community for people who want to quit my addiction (maladaptive daydreaming) and althought its been three weeks since - I no longer feel like killing myself. I feel like Im discovering my real self. The one who welcomes intrusive thoughts and lets them be, and obsessions sit, and compulsions questioned. I feel freer than ever before. Because I let go of the thought that I was cursed and different for just a bit - I unlocked the mending of my pain.
OCD *is* something to be dealt with. It is not this curse that is final. It sucks, but passiveness is going ti make you feel worse.
We arent some mentally ill people. We are people with a mental illness that can be fought against and we ARE capable of feeling everything "normal" people can, and do what they can do. The only difference is that for us it is a bit harder. But we are NOT. Less than!
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Obviously the Neonatal unit is absolutely immaculate and I feel super comfortable in there. But I'm on a ward with shared facilities and it's absolutely freaking me out. I probably wouldnt be so on edge if I didn't have to keep going back and fourth from the baby unit to shared ward as I feel like im taking germs everywhere with me. I have to use the hospital wheelchairs because I can't walk properly and I don't trust they haven't been cleaned. I keep noticing blood spots everywhere so I don't want to touch anything. I honestly didn't think that a hospital would feel so contaminated. I have to pump milk and cleaning my pump parts is just an ordeal because I feel they are never clean so I'm washing them for ages and stressing out.
I'm just venting. I can't wait to get home to my own place and not have anyone else's bodily fluids around me.
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OCD
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I'm an artist, and lots of people say I'm talented. No matter what people say, I hate my art and think I'm talentless. I go through cycles of artistic confidence, alternating between highs when I love drawing and lows when drawing makes me want to chuck my tablet out the window. For as long as I've been drawing, a major obstacle has always been that I get frustrated extremely fast when drawing, which leads to me giving up on the drawing and subsequently not drawing at all for days, even weeks. I'll inevitably pick it back up again but it's possible to immediately fall back into art block. I'm self-aware enough to know the ridiculousness of giving up on drawing after doing literally one (1) single sketch, but I can't stop myself from reaching that near-breaking point.
Does anyone know of coping mechanisms for frustration? Not necessarily for drawing but just in general, how do I cope with imperfection and failure that makes me wanna jump off a cliff? Would medication help?
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aspergers
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I feel so drawn to do things that I enjoy but struggle so much to get myself to actually do them unless I am hyper fixated on them!! I am an artist in art school and also a tattoo artist. I love what I do but it’s so hard to keep consistently making work with my ADHD. I want to create but sometimes feel like my art work meets my expectations when I am hyper fixated on it to a unhealthy amount. I tend to push myself and get start working on stuff but don’t feel as compelled to do it because I don’t feel as in it as I do when I am hyper fixated. I want so badly to make more and build a studio practice but I can’t really
control when my body decides to fixate and when it doesn’t. Let me know if anyone relates.
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ADHD
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I'm new here and hope this hasn't been asked to pieces, but ... what experiences do you all have with Paxil? Was it helpful? I've been on Zoloft for 13 years and am switching but second-guessing myself.
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OCD
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So today I was able to confess stuff that’s been making me feel guilty and the problems disappeared but now I’m paranoid there going to come back and I’m paranoid because I’m not worrying about anything because I got used to constantly worrying so I feel like something wrong or off because I finally just feel normal
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OCD
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I’m 37 years old and I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and bipolar 2. When I told my spouse and close family members, they were all very dismissive of the whole subject. Any time I bring up symptoms or something new that I’ve learned about either one of the diagnosis, my spouse will actually get annoyed, and will straight up ignore me or say something like “Yea, that happens to everyone.” He tells me I don’t try to control my impulses enough and it’s all about will power. Im at the point where I feel like I can’t talk about my mental health at all. I was relieved to get a diagnosis and feel like I have an actual explanation for the things I feel and struggle with, but my family makes me feel like I’m attention seeking. I know there are people who are just not empathetic and don’t care about something if they aren’t going through it themselves, but I guess I’m just baffled by the lack of empathy from people who have watched me suffer and struggle my entire life. Has anyone else experienced this?
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ADHD
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Hello, I consulted a new psychiatrist specialized in "EMDR,CBT" therapy, he diagnosed me with post-traumatic stress, the old one had not diagnosed me with "ptsd'. The old one also treated me with nearly 15 antidepressants with some positive effects but nothing extraordinary. Let's go back to the new psychiatrist who told me that the other one made a professional mistake for not seeing that I was in a state of post-traumatic stress. I wonder, are there symptoms that allow the psychiatrist to be sure that it is a "ptsd'" because sometimes,i think that maybe it's just classic anxiety and that he was wrong.
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Few years ago, i also had periods when I was able to block the thoughts that showed me the aggressor's face. They finally came back in a second and almost never left me again except under some antidepressant that reduced a lot of symptoms.
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The psychiatrist tells me that with the "ptsd" it is rare that the disorder goes away alone, in general it decreases or gets worse, he recommended that I do an "emdr" therapy, he also told me that it often only takes a few sessions of 90 minutes to treat the shocking event. Finally, he told me that he couldn't get me to cancel the event but that it is possible to change the emotions around it, what do you think?
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sorry for my english, thank you !!
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Ok so long story short over the last few weeks I’ve been TERRIFIED of being attracted to 12-13 year old girls. I’m 17 btw. So last year I remember being a dumb teen and going on a masturbation sub reddit. And there was a 13 year old girl talking about it. And I seriously for the life of me can’t remember if I was attracted to reading that post because of her age or not. I swear I felt like I enjoyed it more than older girls posts. But idk if that’s because it was closer to my age or what the heck is going on. I also feel like I slightly remember doing compulsions to explain I didn’t like the post for the age. But I’m literally so confused and can’t freaking tell and it’s making it so much worse. I can’t TELL. Can someone please help it’s driving me insane. I would’ve never worried about not being straight until this fear popped up and it won’t leave. Has someone experienced this? Like I can’t tell if this is a false feeling or what the heck this is
This is making me feel so anxious I’m laying in bed and can’t sit still. And I had the worst mental break down ever to the point I was almost shaking
Side note. If this is true. Could it be something I outgrew? Like I was only 16 for a few months at the time so could it be something I just outgrew?
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OCD
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Around 8 weeks ago my wife and I had a beautiful baby girl. I love it, it's great. But I'll cut to the chase, this has been difficult for me. When I see her struggling or crying, I get really bad PTSD like symptoms. My mind starts playing all these horrible scenes and images of her being hurt in various ways that I can't even write down. It's almost a thought like "that's probably what she would sound like if someone was doing _____ to her...". And I start spiraling. Sometimes I can brush it off, but many times I can't. Last night was really bad. My stupid fucking mother in law wouldn't stop shoving the goddamn pacifier in her mouth even though she was crying and really, really was not wanting/taking it. I almost snapped but luckily kept my cool and just picked her up and took her away. I'm heavy breathing right now just thinking about it. I promised myself I would cool it with the substances after she was born, and I've been doing ok, but far from perfect. Last night my RPM's just got so fucking high I had to have a swig of booze just to be able to chill down enough to fall asleep.
I wasn't abused as a baby, but later on in life. I've also been abused emotionally my whole life by the media and my parents failure to protect me from it as a child. A regular dinner table chinwag would often include all the horrible things my parents had heard about in the news. Even though we were only kids, my parents would talk about news stories about kidnappings, rape, terrorism, etc. you know, all that good stuff... it certainly doesn't seem like there is any shortage of that shit in the world. I often lay awake in bed at night trying to go to sleep, thinking to myself that there is some poor child out there in the world suffering at the hands of some demon and there's nobody to rescue them. I am sorry I am very aware that this is probably very triggering for y'all but I have to get this off my chest. I don't even wanna talk to my wife about this stuff because I don't wanna put this horrible poison into her head. But I have to do something. This is a cry for help. I can't just rely on substances to numb the pain everytime the pain in my head becomes too much. I've been battling with alcohol for years now as it is.
Any advice or suggestions are welcome and appreciated.
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Hello.
Today my girlfriend and I (and two other friends) were hiking a mountain in Italy, in the Apuane Alps. We were about to have lunch at a "rifugio" when we heard two people screaming from a nearby mountain. We thought at first that it was just some people being silly and screaming because they had climbed all the way up, but then we spotted two figures, around 300 meters away, plummeting down a very steep rocky side of Mount Sella. They were screaming while falling, then stopped vocalizing half way (probably they fainted or died), then crashed into a rock, making a thud so loud that it sounded like a demolition ball. We were like 99% sure they were dead. A few other hikers were there and saw the scene, and also more people came by, and we called the hospital helicopter. They came in like 20 mins and managed to retrieve the corpses a few hours later (because of the very remote location). It was a married couple, we later found out, 52 and 47 years old.
My girlfriend and I are a little shocked, cause of course it's not nice to see something like this happening...
What do you think we should be doing to avoid having this as a "trauma" in the future? Thanks!
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Or when there are occasional guests, but I’m only genuinely terrified when its family. Guests only scare me a tiny bit, but I think thats normal.
To preface, I very much doubt I have PTSD- But I’ve been desperate to find a group that this might apply to, to see what it may be.
The ‘traumatic event’ that this may have stemmed from, is not actually a traumatic event at all- but a very very stressful and horrifying beginning to life, that involved the police more than I can count on two hands. However, this was occurring more than 3-4 years ago, and only in the past year or so have I developed this fear. (Or at least to this caliber.)
Sometimes When my immediate family is talking normally: I get nervous. Have to put on white noise to calm down. Am essentially paralyzed.
Most times When my immediate family is talking aggressively: cover my ears, white noise, often have to also chant something to myself to lessen the noise. Am still paralyzed.
When my immediate family is yelling (doesn’t matter over what or why, has even been friendly yelling) I often begin to cry. I cover my ears, if using white noise I often hear things that aren’t there among the static (more yelling) and sometimes I can’t help but to hit my own arms to calm myself down. Its an impulse. I shake.
Once the talking stops I calm down almost immediately, the only thing lingering is shakiness and a fast heart beat for a bit longer. Aside from that, I am okay. However—
When my immediate family is home at all: I am fairly calm, but at times, I still find it very hard to leave my room out of anxiety. Sometimes it’s okay though.
When I’m in the same room as them, I can get tense, But I am NEVER even CLOSE to as scared as I am when they are in a separate room. It’s so odd and I don’t know how to deal with it. I’ve found I’m only ever productive when I’m home alone, which is a huge huge road block for me.
It may also be a form of misophonia, (or perhaps a merge) since I have a similar reaction to my family eating at times, but seems different.
I can’t go to a therapist or the like. I understand this is Reddit, the furthest thing from a therapist you can get, but doing nothing seems worse.
Edit: I don’t get it when there is someone with me in my room that I am comfortable with- not including animals
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ptsd
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Today is my second day on vyvanse, it's currently 9pm and the effects of the med wear off like 30min ago and Im super angry 🤩 The med just gave me secondary effects, it didn't help me focus or complete my tasks. Now Im just wondering if my ADHD is that bad that meds and therapy wont ever work. The older I get, the harder it is to deal with life and I really had high expections for vyvanse
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ADHD
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Not being able to have something you really want causes feelings of hopelessness and depression....
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depression
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Yes i know is bad to pirate games i did like 5-7 maybe even less times but i did not know is such a Big deal.Ok so i use internet of my neighbour he knows it and i used to download a free game i cant afford and i was doing it multiple times so he got many times a notice if it will happen again he will have a problem . so instead of his internet i was using my hot spot from phone but when i came again to internet to have my zoom classes i didnt know it was installing and i will get neighbour into trouble and i will get fined or send to prison ! Help . What will happen now ? I realized it is bad now so i deleted everything. And i guess the neighbour iust will
Get the notice. My dad says i worry too much, more likely he will just have a notice or internet shut down for some time or nothing at all. My dad says not to worry and says is bull hit. But i just cant stop Thinking about it that he will or me will go to jail . And i cant get it out of my mind and calm down becayse i read streaming will
Not get you arrested but downloading yes.
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OCD
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Feel like not doing anything. Feel like I haven’t done anything in life. Even if I did achieve something, it felt like it wasn’t enough.
My lack of confidence stems from lack of doing.
I didn’t send that letter to the girl.
I never confessed my feelings for her.
Does it always have to be about a girl?
There’s more to life than love & romance.
If only I did this, if only I did that.
Regret, very heavy to carry..
How can we enjoy life? Even just a try.
School. Should’ve finished school instead of fuckin’ around.
I feel like I’ve enjoyed and fucked around in this life for so long that it’s time to get serious. I feel guilty for my actions and inaction.
What’s next?
Sun will come up. Days will change. But are still the same damn days.
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depression
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Idk why but self harming seems like it would relieve the pain for me, I don't wish how I feel on anyone, I feel like I should fight this alone as I would just burden everyone else, I feel like everyone would act like they care but when there at home they want nothing to do with me, I feel like telling people would make things worse because I don't know who would truly care, I feel like a mosquito sucking the life out of everyone else I'm around, a mosquito that should be squashed and thrown away, I feel like I'm nothing in this vast universe and that my problems don't matter as I'm so small in comparison, I feel like nothing I do in life would bring me success, I feel like I'm better off gone or in coma or something like that
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depression
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I am a project engineer for a construction management company, and the project i’m assigned to is finishing up. the building is now open and i’m the only one left on site trying to finish up the little bit of remaining work.
i’m REALLY struggling to motivate myself working alone. when i’m working in a team setting, it’s far easier for me to stay on task for the day and organized. do you guys have any advice for how to stay organized and motivated when working alone? I do take vyvanse which certainly helps (I feel extremely overwhelmed when I don’t take it lol but still need help staying on task even when I do take it.)
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ADHD
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I’m feeling like some of my thoughts are just uncontrollable at this point. These thoughts are so vile and disgusting I hate everything about them. I feel like I’m 2 people. A small part of my brain tricks me into thinking I enjoy these thoughts, as if I’m getting some sort of pleasure out of them, but I absolutely don’t want to. This has been happening for damn year 2 years. I’m 17 years old, shits been happening since I was 15. When I’m having these thoughts for a brief second I start thinking that I want them and I enjoy them. The best way I can describe this feeling is like being brainwashed for a split second and then snapping back to reality. In that split second I start thinking that I enjoy the thoughts, but I don’t. Does anyone relate to this? Or am I just losing my mind? Any sort of help and support is appreciated.
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OCD
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You know how a simple task such as “clean the house” is overwhelming because for us ADHD folk, it’s actually 2,000 different smaller tasks? This is how I feel now that I’ve graduated college.
TLDR: I did not think life AFTER college would suck more than college itself.
My parents keep hounding me to get a job, but “get a job” is more than one task to me. What kind of job do I want? Where do I want to live? Should I save money and keep living with my parents? Do I get a job related to grad school? Do I even want to go to grad school? How the hell do I do taxes if I end up moving? How does insurance work?
Don’t get me wrong - I’m not being lazy. I don’t want to leech off my parents. But this is the most severe adhd paralysis I’ve ever experienced in my life. I can’t move on or do anything related to my future. It’s lasted much longer than usual too - about two months. I’m so overwhelmed. I feel like a failure and a mooch. And even though I know it’s just imposter syndrome, I feel like I’m faking it all and I’m actually just lazy and too stupid to make anything out of my life.
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ADHD
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What does this look like for someone with ptsd who's working with a therapist? My friend says her healing will take a decade. Besides the regularly scheduled therapy session, what does this process look like?
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ptsd
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im 15
ive had ocd for a while but few of my ocd fears have come true
so im scared this ocd fear is also true
ive been getting thoughts like ive raped someone in the past and i makes me feel very guilty
i try to remember the past but i cant remember anything like that.
i feel like i have raped someone and i dont remember it,i feel like i while get flashbacks that willl remind me of what i did! im really scaredd! the guilt is killing me and making me feel like a bad person.
any thoughts?
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OCD
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Sounds ridiculous right? Why doesn't it sound ridiculous when you ruminate on the same topic 200 times even though you know you won't end up anywhere? :)
OCD is a liar, it's built on lies. That's all, just a gentle reminder, now go crush it!
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OCD
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If I ever find a nice quick way to die, I'll take that chance with no hesitation. Guns seem promising.
Lol not even total success could fix my issues. Not even God who unloaded millions of problems on me and thinks I'll pass. Shit hell doesn't even seem that bad anyways.
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depression
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Does anyone have ssri and wellbutrin combination for OCD? Does wellbutrin make the OCD symptoms worse?
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OCD
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Have had depression with suicidal ideation since I was 15y.o. (am currently 38y.o.). Taking lamictal and lexapro to manage moods better. Seems like I go through these cycles of increasing agitation until I have some kind of climatic, emotional meltdown in front of someone. Then feel embarrassment and shame and comfort myself with the notion of not living anymore. Things go back to normal-ish until next time I feel stressed and cycle repeats.
I dont want to die but it feels like everytime I go through this, it gets more intense and I dont want to hurt someone. So I both want to not be alive AND feel like I am taking responsibility for what feels inevitable and truly irredeemable.
I'm scared and just had another "rage attack" at my father-in-law whom my wife adores. So it feels like they will never look at me the same. Even if I go inpatient psych. which I might have to if outpatient appointment wouldn't be soon enough.
But, what's the point?
I am stretching my wife's love and support thin, alienating myself from everyone and would rather die when my son is 5y.o. and can have some idealized version of me in his memory then see me do something truly terrible and actually do more damage than if his father was simply absent.
Thanks for listening.
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depression
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I have an appointment next month to hopefully get diagnosed with OCD. It would explain so much in my life. But honestly I'm kinda worried that I wont get diagnosed, like to the point of wanting to cancel the appointment because I've convinced myself that I dont have it (less that a few days after convincing myself that I do have it and need help). I've told myself that I'm not anxious enough to have ocd, even though I legit spent a whole weekend on the verge of tears because I was scared that I was doing everything in my life wrong, and there have been countless other times that I have felt anxious or concerned by these thoughts that I have. Or I'll read different accounts of people with ocd, and convince myself that I do/dont have it because my experience does/doesn't line up with theirs. Indont have the compulsion to wash my hands, or constantly check that I did something correctly, but I will have other thoughts, (I.e. having a thought about being gay, or something else like thatand then having the compulsion to pray, asking for forgiveness for even having that thought) which leads to reassurance seeking. Anyone else have this issue? Or was it all pretty set in stone for you? The diagnosis seems to fit, but not fit at the same time, and I think it's just my brain messing with me. I've waited years to get diagnosed because I've been so unsure.
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OCD
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POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNINGS
Hi, I think its best if I give a little background first. So, I'm 19 and have been suffering with OCD since before my 13th birthday. It has been touch and go with several periods in counselling etc. I thought that was hard back then, but in reflection, its nothing compared to now.
The problem with my OCD is that what I experience changes over large amounts of time. It used to be rechecking but now its a small amount of physical compulsions, with mainly me factory resetting my phone daily. This happens if I get one of my OCD thoughts, I feel as if my phone is "affected" or contaminated by the thoughts in some way, as if it knows I have the thought.
But recently the worst has been my mental compulsions. This comes in the form of worrying I have said the thought out loud, and the fear that someone will hear or record what I have said, which leads me to turning my TV up when I'm in University to avoid all this happening.
I would be really grateful if anyone could give me any help if they have been through something similar to aid me in overcoming this.
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OCD
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this has been going on for years and i honestly don’t know what to do. the thoughts don’t stop and they keep getting worse and worse. everyday i think about how terrible of a person i am no matter how much i try and fight the thought. the longer this goes on the more i get used to it and the easier it gets and i hate myself for that. help me
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OCD
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[Here's last week's Solitude Project Saturday](https://old.reddit.com/r/aspergers/comments/lj1tp8/solitude_project_saturday_what_projects_are_you/)
**So, /r/aspergers, what projects do you have on the go right now? Any ideas on the backburner for one reason or another? Any ideas just in the planning phase?** Even if you are working on them with someone else, they still apply here. If you can mention the interest that you have that relates to the project, that would be great; it may help others.
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aspergers
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In the sibling dichotomy I grew up as the scapegoat, so of course anything that went wrong was my fault (whether I had control over it or not) and it bled into my adult relationships.
I have a guilt complex from hell. Anything goes wrong I get these unbelievable obsessions over what I did, what I did wrong. There are times when people will tell me I said nothing wrong, even if that is the case I don't believe it. My mind insists I have done something wrong and I have to break my back to fix it.
It's extremely distressing. It's like an intrusive thought just constantly ticking away in my brain and I can't let it go. Help please?
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ptsd
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So... my shower time has always always been my peaceful time, my me time... and I love me a bath too but that will be the post when I say "everyone... I built my own bathtub"
I finally decided that the old gross jacuzzi tub and the gross leaky corner shower had to go! Of course I couldn't just build any shower... and working at an interior decorating store and seeing a large chunk of the ceramic tiles out there available, I just didn't love any of them. But then I met epoxy... and epoxy and I had quite the relationship for a little bit until I finally decided to take our relationship to the next level. So my girlfriend (bless her soul for putting up with me) and I started making our own shower panels! Out of cement board and... epoxy! Well... after 2 years, we finally have an absolutely 1 of a kind 6' x 5' shower! With rain head, regular head and a tub fill (to come later) the rest of the bathroom still needs to be finished and again...it has been apart for well over a year! (We've been brushing out teeth in the kitchen sink!) But we are finally showering in the most spectacular shower I have ever seen in real life!
We definitly have a hard time finishing projects but I will add this... if its a project that absolutely needs to get finished ie: tearing your only bathroom apart!... it will get done! ... eventually :s
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ADHD
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I dont even enjoy my fixations. I don't have any hobbies I love or friends who share them. They're actively a curse that prevents me from enjoying anything except a narrow field of things that dont get me anywhere in life. I never learned how to enjoy anything else and so I never do now I cant learn routine or have any willpower to take care of myself. I just want to do nothing forever instead of even focusing on fixations
How do you turn your brain off and just live when you dont even care. I dont understand how nts do it and I would love to know if any of you do
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aspergers
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i’ve started taking zoloft to manage my ocd so it isn’t nearly as intrusive or debilitating as it once was. but some things still linger like repetitive intrusive thoughts and violent or sexual intrusive thoughts. but sometimes it’s things like this today. my mom is reading a book called “where the crawdads sing” and i read the title in passing today as i was leaving for work. for about half an hour on my way to work my brain kept repeating “crawdads. crawdaddies. crawdaddies. where the crawdaddies sing” and i couldn’t help but laugh at how ridiculous this was lmao.
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OCD
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I recently got diagnosed with ADHD, I tried getting diagnosed at 13 but they said "Oh you have it but we can't give you the diagnosis because you're depressed." I am still so bitter over that to this day. If I got the diagnosis at that age I feel like my life would be more put together NOW.
I am 21F, in college, struggling to get any work done. I want to stay home all day, cancel all my appointments and plans, and be alone majority of the time. I feel so lazy and pathetic when it comes to getting things done. Sometimes I forget I have an assignment due and do it completely last minute because that is the only time I am truly motivated to do my assignments and get them done.
I used to do well in school growing up. A and B student. As I grew older and older I found it harder to keep up with my grades and eventually experience burn out. I constantly experience burnout nowadays. I can't work more than 15-20 hours a week now. I can only take two courses at my community college. I feel so sad that I can't sit down and 8 hours of work continuously. My girlfriend does a great job going to her job, leading a game team, and getting her assignments done meanwhile I procrastinate my assignments (not even on purpose I have no idea why I do that to be honest), barely go to work. I work 10 hours a week right now which isn't much. I need more money to pay for things. I'm an artist and love doing art but I get paralyzed when I have work to do.
I can never do anything before any event. Ex: I have work at 3pm, I wake up at 8am and have several hours to do whatever I want but never do because I feel like I CANNOT relax. I feel like I have to be waiting until the time comes to go to work. It becomes problematic. Other people can fit in time to do things before they have to go off and do their task for the day and it makes me incredibly jealous.
I have a new therapist to work with me and I have a prescription for Adderall but haven't bothered picking it up because I'm too scared to start because of what my older sister has told me about people starting it. I really need medication and therapy but I'm too scared to start the medication as of right now. It makes me so sad and angry that that information is filled into my head and now I'm hung up on the fact that it can ruin people's lives. I'm sure that's not true and people have had success stories with ADHD related medication but I'm terrified because medication interacts with my strongly. The only medication that has truly helped me so far is Lamictal; that has kept me fairly emotionally stable these past few months I've been taking it but I still face so many other ADHD related issues.
What kind of job would suit my needs? I currently work at a vape shop right now. My boss is very sweet and incredibly nice. I usually get bored and have to find tasks around the store to pass the time. I like my work but I'm scared this won't stimulate me for long. I'm so scared for my future and my attempt in becoming financially stable. How do I even work past this? Any success stories with Adderall or any other ADHD related medication? How did everyone get past the work paralysis and freeze up? I really need some advice and help here.
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ADHD
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I've had a hard life. Especially in my childhood.
I know everyone has a different story. My story is a childhood of being told I was not good enough. Being told I was stupid. Then I was assaulted when I was still naive and did not understand the world yet.
EMDR showed me that my trauma was complex. In fact, so complex, it's almost incurable. I've made some progress- but when your childhood is a decade of being told you aren't good enough, being mentally abused, then physically by others- it's just, hard.
I'm never going to completely give up, but as a 30 year old man now, I know that I just have to make good with what I've been given. I'll always have to carry a childhood of trauma around with me wherever I go.
But EMDR has showed me that I can somewhat deal with the pain in a different manner, healthy, and more constructive. I try so hard to tell myself and the hurt parts of myself I am worth more than what I was given ages ago.
It's a bittersweet truth, but I've made some progress. I used to actively hurt myself because I was so used to others hurting me and telling me I was not good enough. I don't do that anymore.
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ptsd
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My boyfriend and I are both on the spectrum and have recently discussed the possibility of one day having children. We're both unsure of whether we want children or not but are keeping an open mind to the possibility. One of my main concerns with having a child is the very high likliehood that they will also be on the spectrum. Me and my boyfriend both suffered from a slew of mental issues growing up due to the feelings of anxiety and isolation that came with being neuro divergent in a world that wasn't made for us. I feel that we could be a good support network for a child with aspergers like us, but I'm worried about how things would go if the child ended up being farther on the spectrum than we are. I'm not sure if we're emotionally equipped to handle a child that's nonverbal or unable to understand the world in the way we do.
I'm not trying to be ableist or discriminatory, just more realistic to my own capabilities as a caregiver. That's why I'm asking: How does inheritance of autism work? Are you more likely to be in the same place on the spectrum as your parents? What are the chances of you being farther on the spectrum than your parents?
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aspergers
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after the worse ocd episode i’d had in months, i was finally starting to feel better. the past month and a half have honestly been pretty good, i mean the thoughts still came everyday but i was managing them well. that was until today when i had a thought and it stuck and now i just have a bad feeling i’m going to regress back to where i was. also i have no idea if this is ocd but i had a random thought about a certain thing making me itchy (related to my ocd theme) and now i’ve been itchy all over my body for the past 30 minutes so that’s super fun👍🏽
i hate this stupid illness that can’t let me have a break ever.
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OCD
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after learning I have ocd I can’t trust my own mind and thoughts because I don’t know how people without mental Illness think. I used to be religious and that was kind of keeping me going then I learned I have ocd and read about religious ocd i realized my thoughts were not real they are ocd symptoms. So after losing religion I’m wondering about the meaning of life and realizing there isn’t one. And as someone who is obviously not present in most social situations because of my ocd I have never had friends. We are social creatures and especially to be successful in the workplace and life in general you have to be able to speak with people and I have THE HARDEST FUCKING TIME making simple small talk. People may or may not recognize that I’m “not all there” but regardless, I’m 25 with no friends. Eye contact freaks me out. Impossible to talk to a woman. I want to die (because I can’t LIVE due to a lack of social skills) but I don’t really want to kill myself because it would upset my parents. Life blows if you aren’t social.
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OCD
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Hello
So I recently realized I expect everyone to be real and care and react as I do.
I am wrong
This is me.
If a friend needs something I'd help, materials, time, anything. I held my friends all on pedestials, fucking putting them up there thinking oh they enjoy spending time, being there and supporting one another.
I have a dream to make it big enough so I can help my family and my good friends. Turns out I think if any of them makes it they would not do the same. I really got fed up of it.
I once lent someone money, I never even cared to get it back cause that person was in a jam and I was happy to help.
I think I'm fed up of people and so called friends.
These are just people we talk to and fake personalities.
No one is real.
It's sickening
Seriously if everyone dies right now and I'm the only person alive I'd probably feel not as alone as I do rn.
So here's the start of fake me!
My heart is dead
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depression
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South Carolina, Anthem Healthy Savings Choice Plan, $3,500 deductible.
I used the membership card my psychiatrist gave me to get a free 30 day trial of 30mg Vyvanse. He told me to hold onto the card and use it again to pay $30/month when I get a refill if I decided to stick with it. The price was $350, with the card it dropped to $260 for the 2nd month.
If I were to get this refilled every month, I would almost hit the deductible in a year, not taking into account the visits to the offices. Even then, my Mother who is also on Vyvanse and the same insurance still pays the same after reaching her deductible.
What are my options? Changing our insurance plan isn’t an option. I’ve tried generic medications and they cause more side effects than I care for and didn’t help my ADHD in the slightest.
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ADHD
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its like normal tics except this unsettled feeling of dread behind every single tic. and this awful mental discomfort. today has just been one massive tic attack, i havent stopped ticking for 5 seconds since i woke up. i have the worst headache from jerking my head around every 2 seconds and when i cant get a tic right my body is almost in physical pain. its like a bunch of mini compulsions, but with the same amount of discomfort. i just want to switch my brain off today.
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OCD
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Does anyone else have really bad obsessions over having a wart? I recently got one (at least I think I did) on my thumb and obsessively treated it until I actually made it worse. I also went to the doctors to get it removed and ended up passing out from the pain and the overwhelming feeling. Am I alone in this? I'm just so worried that it will contaminate other areas on my body even though I have it covered with three bandaids.
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OCD
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Its all a mind trick. It feeds on your fears and anxiety and makes you question if you secretly like it even made worse by the fact that you can get groinals from it(if you have a sexual theme). I have HOCD and sometimes POCD and TOCD and its hell but just remember who you are before all of this happens even if there were a couple instances in your life that were questionable just ignore it and move on. And if you have a diffucult time getting back to your old self just train yourself. Find good distractions to this like exercising. Its all just paranoia and completly irrational like for me with HOCD and POCD which are the polar opposite yet when 1 happens the other vanishes almost entirly.
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OCD
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I get so overwhelmed by social interaction and having to keep up with relationships and trying to keep people happy. It’s exhausting. And I feel overstimulated by the world and life sometimes. I just need a break from the world. The entire world. Everyone and everything.
Edit: I just want to say thank you so much for this subreddit and community. I have never felt so accepted and not judged in a social group. You guys understand and put things into words I cannot. I am so thankful I found this sub.
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ptsd
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i feel compelled to touch things a certain way, if i don't i feel extremely uncomfortable. now whenever i touch things or people my hands get shaky. i almost can't hold things in my hands or pet my kitty because i'd spend a lot of time trying to get the annoying sensation off my hands. sometimes this is tied to other of my obsessions, for example "grab this plushie by the throat to prove you won't become a killer" but most of the time it's just the uneasy feeling in my hands and the invasive urges of touching stuff.
i'm also a bit scared because sometimes i feel like i must touch people in inappropriate ways and i would never do such a thing, but the discomfort is still there and it makes me feel super guilty. is this my ocd?
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OCD
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Am i the only one who can just sit or walk forth and backward and talk for 5 straight hours or more with imaginary acquainted people whose opinions on you you’d like to control in a way that you wanna seem intellectual and, like, cunning, or dominating? It fucks right in the head after realizing how much time is passed.
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OCD
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I really dont know whats happening in my head. I've been depressed since couple years. I trained boxing for 3 years, i literally got up every morning at 4 am to run. I cant believe i was that motivated. In period of 2 years i gained 20kg and i didnt feel like doing anything and it was my lowest point in my life. Since then i started exercising again, and now im almost back at my old form, but sport doesnt help. Whoever said that exercise helps, thats bushit. Yes i may have more confidence and shit, but still there is a storm in my head. This year it has gotten especially worse. Like sometimes i feel like i can do everything, i can achieve all my dreams and after few hours i think im nothing and i literally wanna kill myself. I get shivers all over my body and shits weird.honestly i dont know why i wrote here, i just wanted to get it out. Sometimes it feels like the only thing that can fix my brain, is a bullet in it. I know i can get help, but at the same time i dont want help. I cringe a lot talking in real life about my "feelings".
Why was i born like that. Anyways, if u read it that far, thank you.
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depression
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I’ve had thoughts that should bring me distress cause if I feel distress it’s a very very clear indication to me that I don’t want those thoughts so why am I not feeling worried why am I not freaking out am I accepting or whats going on very worried
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OCD
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Sometimes the tunnel vision is intense and I can experience just following one thought after the other in one long stream. If nothing interrupts me, an entire day can have passed, and I'm hardly out of bed or having eaten anything.
Does anyone else lose hours if they let themselves fall into the tunnel vision/hyper fixation?
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aspergers
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Despite being on medication, I have peaks of anxiety hit me, usually at work, about my life and the direction it is going. Im 34 next year and I feel I can't go on knowing I'm pretty much aging from this point on. I have no girlfriend and no house of my own. I see university couples clearly having a healthy sexual relationship walking around all the time and I want to ignore their happiness.
In my 20s I always took my youth for granted. I was interested in women but I almost never tried to date anyone, thinking I still had plenty of time to figure my shit out before I got into my 30s, 40s etc. The only times I did try and pursue women I got rejected, then all of a sudden I was 26,27,28 and running out of time.
I keep fighting this notion that I'm going to be a middle aged virgin with no partner. I read other articles and forum posts on attracting women and it only makes me more angry when they condescendingly go on about "well women pick up on your insecurities easily and that's not attractive" Like, what am I supposed to do, just forget I don't have anxiety, depression and a learning disability?!
I'm going to grow old alone, but I would rather off myself then see that day. Why can't people just see that dating for me is impossible when there are so many hurdles that I can't overcome?
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depression
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I recently started taking Adderall but I noticed my depression coming back after a few days. While I'm able to focus more and get more done, the waves of sadness keep stopping me. I'm on antidepressants already and I think maybe it's interfering with them. I was thinking about adding Wellbutrin because the doctor mentioned it to help with sexual side affects. I'm hoping this will help the depression too.
Has anyone here has success with Wellbutrin or any other antidepressant to combat depression while on Adderall or any other stimulant? It's not when I'm coming down of the med either, it's soon after taking it.
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ADHD
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A little background:
I’m mentally exhausted. I’m sleeping terribly because of hypomania and my OCD is very much heightened. I’m on a slow taper of Lamictal and am up to 50mg. I feel like it’s helping a bit already which is encouraging. Bad news is I am considering stopping Adderall for my daytime sleepiness (due to an unrelated issue)/ADD. I do not think it is helping the bipolar symptoms.
The stupid story:
I’m a graphic designer and I’m in the middle of recreating my custom-designed resume in Word. The ONLY reason I even attempted this is ATS (applicant tracking systems) programs parse .docx files much better than .pdf. Problem is Word is really not made for any sort of complex design. It’s been a terrible project because I always obsess about little details. The original was created in InDesign and it was super easy to make.
(Before anyone asks, I did try to convert the .pdf file directly to .docx. It technically worked but the formatting was a disaster. I tested it on some ATS software and it had no idea how to read it.)
Now I know more about Word than I ever wanted to know. The resume is just about done and is formatted perfectly. It looks exactly like the original; that’s pretty crazy for a Word document. There’s no issues with parsing the text. To prevent someone accidentally messing it up when I send it out, I’ll set everything to absolute positions and lock the document. It turned out really nice.
But holy fuck. Getting to this point was miserable. I spent 6 HOURS fiddling with this stupid fucking shape to make it perfectly symmetrical. In any Adobe product it would take me 2 seconds, but again, Word is not made for that sort of function. There’s a bunch of preset shapes that are really easy to use, but I needed a very specific custom shape.
Part of the issue was that I’ve never used Word for this sort of thing before (why would I when I have InDesign?). But I’d say 70% of the hold up was that the process was extremely fiddly.
The worst part is none of it needed to be done. It was a total waste of my time. The shape was a small enough detail that literally no one would notice a slight misalignment. I kept telling myself to just drop it but I couldn’t. I knew it wasn’t perfectly symmetrical and it was impossible to continue the project until it was fixed.
This mostly uncontrollable urge to make my work absolutely flawless seems like it’d be an amazing quality. But it’s honestly more of a burden than a boon. It can be helpful because my work is always flawless. And I mean that in a purely methodological/technical sense, not necessarily the design; I find ways to improve my old designs artistically every single time I create something new.
Writing essays was the same way. I did the draft, editing, and revising one paragraph at a time. It was super inefficient but I never got below a 95% on my college essays. My first writing class I never got below a 98%. But I hated every single minute of the process. Even though I tried, I couldn’t move on from a paragraph if it wasn’t totally done. Which meant my essays were often late.
I’d trade technical prowess for efficiency most of the time. I work very, very slowly because it all has to be perfect. It’s even affected my job performance. My old boss told me I had to focus less on making things perfect and more on getting stuff done. But I genuinely couldn’t do it. I quit for an unrelated reason but I know she was getting frustrated.
I wish more people saw the true manifestation of OCD. It’s not a cute disorder that makes you like cleaning; it’s a disruptive and frustrating illness that causes illogical impulses.
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OCD
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When i have intrusive thoughts, it's usually stuff i can cope with, but it gets really bad when i start having thoughts in other people's voices. It doesn't even matter what they're saying, it just always makes me feel horrible for some reason
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OCD
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So I foster kittens constantly and I keep them in my bedroom. As you can imagine, having 7 kittens in one room requires a LOT of upkeep and cleaning. There’s always stuff like litter boxes and water bowls, but little things like litter in the carpet and empty food cans stack up over time. This is where my fixations come in. For the first time, I can actually be proud of the random cleaning I do every night. Because it’s actually important and a lot of people would skim over the less-noticeable stuff. As long as I keep up on the essentials, I can let my brain focus on whatever it wants for the night without feeling guilty anymore. Because hey, i DID that. I vacuumed my entire room. And yeah it wasn’t a super pressing issue, but the cats aren’t trying to eat the food crusted to the carpet anymore. My room still might be a tornado, but one more thing is done and that’s one more thing I can be proud of. And I’ll leave the next thing for tomorrow night. :)
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ADHD
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I have really bad OCD & anxiety, I take lexapro do the CBT, it helps but noticed something that works super well is masturbating everyday. I know its super wierd, but I have a lot of jealousy OCD about my GF, but when I masturbate I basically have 80% reduction in OCD thoughts for a few hours if not more. If stop masturbating regularly just feel more anxious etc. Anybody notice this?
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OCD
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ritualizing, doing compulsions, it is always better to stop when you realize.
OCD always wants more certanity more effort.
2 rules in this game to win:
Do not resist your obsessions, give them space.
Resist your compulsions and ignore them.
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OCD
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