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I've got my first therapy session ever tomorrow. I'm pretty worried and keep going over things in my head, what should I expect? | 2 | [
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How Can I Minimise the Pain of My Suicide for Family and Friends. Sorry for the really dark title.
Hello. I'm going to commit suicide on new years, and I'm 19. I have no problems in my life save for Aspergers related stuff, starting uni in December. I've really decided it's just the end of the road for me, I've lived ... | 4 | [
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It’s getting long. So for I’d say about 6-7years now I’ve been fairly depressed, no motivation, I just want to sleep, I only feel good when I have a task at hand... now it’s getting to the point that leaving work I get extremely down, very dark thoughts, and especially the passed year I’ve felt very very angry, and I r... | 4 | [
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Facing my fears. Today I decided to face my fears despite my high functioning anxiety and paranoia. I went outside. Watched my surrounding and it wasn’t that bad. I’ve always been feeling like everyones eyes are on me which makes me very anxious. When I watched the people around me it turned out that they weren’t ev... | 2 | [
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the other day my friend, who is in college, said "ugh I'm failing epigenetics" [her class] [deleted] | 1 | [
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Reached rock bottom. But after all this time, life found a way I can still feel it inside. It has always been part of me anyways. I've always accepted my depression. But I was still having this deep principle of always saying to everyone pitying me "It will go for the best one day, one way or another". I never believed... | 4 | [
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Disassociating I know that this is an involuntary coping mechanism that I developed but I hate it nothing feels real and it’s terrifying!!!!! Help!?!?! Idk if I’m dreaming or if this is real right now?!?!? This is just making me more anxious gdi. | 2 | [
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Vraylar Hey guys I posted this on another forum but I was just seeing if anyone has taken it or heard good word about. I’m on lithium for my bipolar 1 and it’s severe but I was wondering if vraylar is good too?! Stay strong guys:D -MTA | 1 | [
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What are your favorite distractions? Hello!
Long time lurker, first time poster. In the interest of staying alive until my new dosage of medication kicks in (and hopefully works), my therapist suggested I stay distracted.
So my question to you is, what are your favorite things to do to distract yourself? And if you h... | 1 | [
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Does it ever end? Something finally clicked with me recently and I realized this needed to stop. I've been putting myself out there more hoping to break through this.
For the past few years, the thought of talking to girls, going out to bars and other social events made me physically ill. I simply couldn't even imagin... | 2 | [
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I did something awful, and I want to end myself I am a kid, but please know that this isnt some kid messing around, i just really want to end myself or talk to someone
I have had a voice in my head for quite a few years, saying stuff like "you should hurt your friend" "you should kill them" and I knew that this stuff ... | 0 | [
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Going back to work next week and feeling extremely overwhelmed Hey all,
Big ole complaint here.
So I lost my job last month after only a few months just to go back to my old job (the one I had before newer job.) My manager is great and says he was thrilled to have me back and he just sent me the schedule for next we... | 1 | [
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Advice on overcoming fear of taking final step? This is a sincere request for help to gather the courage to finally end my journey. The longer I am around, the more debts I rack up, the more pain I cause to those around me, and the longer I prolong the inevitable. The people in my life know I will end my life at some p... | 0 | [
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My boyfriend won't marry me. I'm just needing to let this out. I'm going to try and accept that he won't marry me. 5 years into the relationship and I just bought us a house and he bought us farm land to carry on his families cattle business. He's always made the "marriage is the leading cause of divorce" jokes & t... | 3 | [
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Might die in a few hours My girlfriend might breakup with me tonight. I just can't handle it all over again. It's nothing I did. She's stressed with school/work stuff and wants to breakup with me over it... which is weird. I mean, you'd think she'd want me for comfort, but whatever. She's really been the light of my li... | 0 | [
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Sometimes I wonder if I abused my ex, too [deleted] | 3 | [
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My fetish ruined my long-term relationship. (or: How To Ruin Someone's Self-Esteem and Sexual Confidence by Not Admitting to Your Paraphilia)
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My Dad Touched Me (twice) As A Kid Ok so he did not actually know he did it. And I know hes not a pedo because I saw him looking at naked women around his age (gross) He sleep walks and has night terrors almost every night. My mom caught him twice. I slept in the same bed as them until about grade 2
When she confronted... | 3 | [
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I didn't kill myself I posted yesterday that I was going to kill myself. I went out into the woods to do it away from home and away from other people. But I just couldn't do it. I just couldn't work up the courage to do it.
I just sat there for hours crying and thinking. To be honest I'm glad I didn't kill myself now ... | 0 | [
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I have a job interview in a few days and I'm already anxious aF I should be grateful but holy crap I can't do this. I keep telling myself that I can't "screw up" because not getting the job won't be the end of the world and there will be other opportunities but it's different when you're already in the situation and I'... | 2 | [
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Now what? Just like a lot of people here on this forum, it's harder for me to deal with life. Though of course, I'm not the most tragic person out there, I still live with a lot of pain and issues in my own right. I'm not here to be wallowing in self pity. I just want suggestions.
We all are interested in the diagnose... | 2 | [
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Had an interview for a new job and I am afraid that once I start it I'll be bored. Hey all, it's been a while (read that in the voice of the singer from Staind). I have posted here in the past talking about how my current job is really stressful and caused all sorts of anxiety and depression. My current job is always u... | 2 | [
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Idgaf So, i have been in a very long term relationship with this person and like all relationships its had its up and downs. Our child has a terminal illness. At time of diagnosis so was working from home and i was not. I convinced So to work outside of home, biggest mistake of my life. Allready going in had second th... | 3 | [
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Need to vent I’m currently seeking therapy and reconsidering meds even though I highly don’t like them but accepting them temporarily to help. Lately I’ve been feeling really depressed due to my living situation my family is very toxic and has affected my whole life emotionally. I know a lot of my anxiety and depressio... | 2 | [
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How do you deal with purpose? There isn't one singular purpose in life that's given to us. Sine I'm religious I feel like my purpose is following God's word and being loving, kind and giving. But I'm also very afraid since it feels like I have no purpose for some reason and I'm terrified of being alone. | 2 | [
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Technology is the only thing not making me want to end life Okay so I’m 15 and since age 11 I’ve been depressed.Back then it was mostly stuff at home but now it’s just living that gets me so numb inside (also school has been affecting me a lot since my final exams are coming up).
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i cant get away from it i hate that this is a part of me. i want to have a normal life, i want to be able to make friends and get a job and be successful. i want to feel like i have a reason for leaving my house. i want my loneliness to stop eating at my psyche. i want to feel like the things i do matter. i want to fee... | 4 | [
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Does This Sound Like Seroquel Binge Eating? For a couple years, while I was on 150mg or less, I didn't have binging problems. Recently, I got upped to 250mg, and I take my dose at 10PM and sleep at 11PM. There have been a few nights in the last couple weeks, where I'll be laying on bed ready to sleep, or sitting at my ... | 1 | [
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Will it ever get better ? Nothing but bad things happen to me i try to be positive but nothing good happens i can't see my daughter at all and she's going to be 7 soon every year that hurts my soul because my BM won't let me see her, i got chaptered out of the Army for my eye sight. Things go good for a moment and go ... | 4 | [
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What are you doing to get better? Should i try anti-depressants? So I've realized that I've been depressed for a long time, way before i had some tragic events occur in my life. But its definitely gotten worse since then. I lost my mom so suddenly 3 years ago and then my grandmother on my dad's side 8 months later. ... | 4 | [
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Why cant I just calm the hell down and do something productive with my life?? I need to do homework, but I can't and I'm breaking down again. I have so many fucking secrets and problems, all my reddit posts are on throwaway accounts and are nothing but complaining about how shitty my good life is. I have a school proje... | 2 | [
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Why I am not happy. Hello guys. This might be stupid or sad but ive been angry whole day when the schedule for defense was posted. Many students will defend tomorrow while I will be defending next week. It sucks. I hate it. Why do i get to defend for next week. Im overthinking and all that. Ive been in constant tension... | 4 | [
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At What point should I be upset when stranger talks to wife in the gym? As a person with social anxiety, I have an aversion for personal chit chat with strangers either with me or with my wife. So we were in the gym yesterday and this random guy chitchats with my wife-- as my wife is not the chatty type as well, I begi... | 2 | [
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I think i am having a nervous breakdown Medicines I am on for context: Seroquel 100mg, Klonopin 1.25mg x 2, Lamictal 100mg (recent addition)
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You cheated on him! I don't know how you're living with it. I know it was a one time thing but his fucking brother caught you! I hope to god you can reconcile this. Fucking live honestly! Own up to your bullshit. I wish I never found out. I know this has nothing to do with me so I won't say anything, I will take this t... | 3 | [
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To sick and broke to chase your dreams What if you’re to mentally ill and broke to chase your dreams. What if you get paid minimum wage at a shitty job. Can barely afford meds therapy and food. What about your dreams of traveling, buying new clothes getting an education, going out. | 4 | [
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I want it to stop I hate my life. I haven't been happy in years. I'm 16 years old, have been struggling with depression for my whole life, and have been contemplating suicide since I was 13.
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I'm bipolar. So is my SO. Am I the only one who thinks this is really weird? I found out that my SO's mother put my SO on Lithium when he was ten. (I wrote about this in the past, but I've since deleted that account because it was discovered by a relative of mine, who I'm trying to avoid.)
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How do you resist the pull of your "safe space"? I believe I am doing much better than ever, but I still struggle a lot with this one. I feel so safe in my own room, especially in my bed, that I have trouble leaving and can't stop thinking about returning back when I do. On multiple occasions, I even spent an hour gett... | 2 | [
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My mind wants to kill me - Why do I keep having these thoughts, I am not myself anymore Hi,
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Just started lamictal (Lamotrogine)... What should I expect?! Pdoc prescribed me lamictal this morning for bipolar depression. Took my first 25mg dose about an hour ago. Guys, what should I be expecting? I know a lot of you here take it- is it effective for BP depression? Are there any side effects? Basically, if you t... | 1 | [
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If you have a job, what is it and how do you get through it with depression? I work 10-6 at a record label and am finding it extremely hard to wake up every morning. The job sometimes has events after 6 that I need to attend and I've been turning them down when I shouldn't be. | 4 | [
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I need help asap I've been stable lately but my sleep schedule's been fucked up. I've been going to bed at like 5 am and sleeping till 4:30 pm. Well last night I decided to stay up all night to fix it. I had some coffee. You can probably work out what happened. To top it off I missed my night meds. Guess who's feeling ... | 1 | [
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Admitting I Have a Problem Hello, I've been lurking this Reddit for the last week and a half. I like that you all have such a supportive and active community!
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my Ex girlfriend is the only person i know that hates me, and it's making me depressed She is the only person that i know who has any sort of ill will towards me. Im super depressed because i love her, and she hates me. I don't spend a single day not thinking about her. She's blocked me on everything, i can never talk ... | 4 | [
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mania is not Hypomania They are not the same. I see this used interchangebly all too often, I am guilty of it occasionally. There's a distinction in the words for a reason.
That is all, my friends.
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Can't sleep, having a panic attack, so here's a long work-related rant It's 4:18 AM as I'm typing this, and I can't sleep. It always takes me a long time to fall asleep, but I couldn't stop thinking and stressing about going back to work after the holidays. Before I knew it, I was about to break down and hyperventilate... | 4 | [
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Dating Does anyone else avoid dating seriously because they feel like even when medicated their disorder is too much to handle? Like when I’m medicated I’m much more calm but I’m so sedated I can’t feel anything other than numb for the most part emotionally. Whereas unmedicated I’m easily overstimulated and other hallm... | 1 | [
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Just coming to the realization that I’ve spent pretty much my entire life just riding it out. It’s bad and it’s worse and it’s better and sometimes it’s even good-ish, but I’m just exhausted. I just want to chill out and enjoy shit for a little while.
The fight is hard and long and possibly forever. Hang in there, guy... | 4 | [
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I hate being a failure I can already see how I will regret this. But I have to get it off my chest. I’m a horrible failure. Inhave accomplished nothing in my 21 years of life. Too stupid. Too ugly. Too incompetent for easy tasks. Always the one person who wasn’t able to comprehend the most simple shit. Since the day I ... | 0 | [
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Now that I'm self-aware, I feel like I want to give up. I need to write this up because I don't have anyone I feel comfortable talking to. My family isn't exactly supportive. I think they're hoping I get over my problems so I can a productive adult that they can be proud of, but I can't.
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I️ dumped my first boyfriend today, for a handful of small reasons, and I’m second guessing myself [deleted] | 3 | [
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Frustrated, but remaining hopeful I don't care about karma or upvotes, I just want this off my chest. I'm a 25 year old virgin who hasn't been in a relationship yet. I've only dated one girl so far (it didn't work out, she ended it). I can't begin to describe how much it sucks to hear my sister having sex in the room n... | 3 | [
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