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Anyone else experiments mostly (hypo)mania ? My first mania started in april 2017. Then I've had 3 manic episodes, and one depression of 2 months. I thought you're supposed to crash down after mania. | self.bipolar |
What gets you out of the house? My therapist has been pushing me to do something social the last few sessions and I haven't found anything interesting to get me out.
I feel like I'll only do something if it blows my mind otherwise theres no point to do it. I haven't found this and think I'm looking to far into it and ... | self.depression |
I feel responsible for someones death So this happened a few years ago i was home alone one night and on went onto my porch for some air then i saw this kid skateboarding in my driveway i was to tiered to care so i just went back inside thinking he would leave he did later on my mom got home and told me that a kid skat... | self.offmychest |
it's getting really old I'm 19 and I still can't drive. Got the permit and practiced but failed twice and lost the motivation, or rather I channelled what limited motivation I had into more basic tasks like waking up every day.
Never had any sort of job. Terrified of applying and interviewing.
Horrible social anxie... | self.depression |
What would old me have done? Missed on a chance to go out and have a fun time. But last night I said NO more. I went bowling with some friends of mine and met a couple new people. And overall I had pretty good time. It wasn't perfect but it felt so much better than sitting at home and ruminating At times it felt very n... | self.Anxiety |
I'm not that depressed that i'm unable to function normally, but sometimes when it gets too much it kicks in for a few days and in those even getting myself to brush my teeth is a struggle [deleted] | self.depression |
I have a deep feeling that I should stop taking lithium [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Depression or bipolar? Since last February, I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar II. I have been battling depression since my teens though (28m) and used to talk Zoloft and Abilify back then, but dropped it all before I turned 20. I’ve always been a very spontaneous person as well as being very creative (I write, play guit... | self.bipolar |
idk why i️ am still alive when the anorexia, depression and anxiety have already taken my life. | self.depression |
Fucked up my NS (Singapore) I am 18 and SPF rejected me due to anxiety. Got so upset i can’t tell if i’m in a state of depression because i was so excited to enlist after a long hiatus. As a Singaporean, its normal to have something to look forward (eg. primary, secondary, poly, and Ns). These days, i feel lost. After... | self.Anxiety |
Why should my baby suffer? I Work full time (minimum wage, but still), there is no reason i should be without food for my son or myself. Theres no reason our water should be shut off. There's no reason for anything bad to happen to us, we are good people, we go to church, we help the hungry homeless but yet here we are... | self.offmychest |
I dont want to be wageslave I don't want to be wageslave. Most people work their asses off and strugge to make ends meet. Life doesnt make sense if its only about work. Should i kill myself if i don't want to become a wageslave? | self.SuicideWatch |
need to get this out.. its a bit long winded So to begin I guess I should tell you that I work as a paramedic for the time being. I work in an area where our response area is responsible for about 250k people with about 15 ambulances on at a time.
The second part that I should tell before we get to it is that my dad ... | self.offmychest |
Anxiety relationship blues Anyone else a bit fed up of how their anxiety just seems to pop up all the time in the middle of their relationship?
A tiff can't be a tiff for me without me over analysing and going in to melt down. I know it's not healthy and I try to avoid it interfering but it's so hard. :( | self.Anxiety |
i keep putting my happiness in the hands of other people and keep getting destroyed [deleted] | self.depression |
Who feels like they're trapped in an internal and/or external prison? Some days I feel wholly capable of digging myself out of my rut, before quickly falling back into feeling completely powerless to do anything. Rinse and repeat lol | self.depression |
I haven’t signed up for classes next semester No point if I don’t plan on sticking around | self.depression |
Am I just lazy? Hi. I'm concerned about myself.
I'm bipolar but I've been very stable for the last year with no episodes. I'm in a relationship that has been very stable until the last few weeks, I'm not having issues showing up for my student teaching on time every day, and I'm full time in a graduate program where ... | self.bipolar |
I'm so tired I feel like I'm that dude from fight club Literally my pattern is so fucked, 2 hours sleep then woken up by people then fights in this house. I feel physically sick I want to vomit but I can't relax in this house ever. I have aged so fucking much with stress :( I just want my own place and peace to sleep w... | self.depression |
Hanging myself tonight There's so many beautiful things in the world destroyed by a few overpowering things.
This is my 3rd and final attempt pills suck.. hanging please work.
I cannot function properly in public I cannot graduate high school I've had no friends and horrible depression and anxiety for years and have b... | self.SuicideWatch |
I tried to contact my friends to help me, but they couldn't, so now I'm venting here I looked up how to be happy right now, because I need to clean and do some college project thing before noon, because that's when my group will show up to talk about that same work I have been neglecting doing. It's currently six am, a... | self.depression |
i hate myself and life is meaningless i’m so fucking stupid. i never do anything right and i constantly mess everything up. i don’t have any friends or anyone who cares about me either. there’s no fucking reason or purpose anymore, not that there ever was but..... i don’t know. i’m sorry i just wasted your time. bye | self.SuicideWatch |
Unable to stop talking to myself- any ideas/experiences? Hey all- I know this has come up on here before, but I find that particularly in times of anxiety, I cannot stop myself from saying things out loud. They aren't even my thoughts, necessarily- they're just parts of conversations, random sentences, etc. I sound ins... | self.bipolar |
Advice, comments, or concerns about Latuda Hey everybody!
I've been in a deep depression for around 1 1/2 to 2 years. I started lithium last September which has kept me from having any mania/hypomania, and really helped with suicidal thoughts/feelings, but the depression is still there.
As a side note I also take vyv... | self.bipolar |
I’ve never had anxiety as severe as I have this last year. I’ve always struggled with social anxiety to some degree or another but nothing I really needed to take a medication to manage for.
However, last fall I took an incredibly stressful class at college. I have never felt pressure as high as I did in that class.
... | self.Anxiety |
TMI anxiety symptom So i've been worked up all week with my usual symptoms of anxiety because this weekend (tonight and tomorrow night) i have two events planned that normally i wouldn't do. tonight is a family outing and tomorrow is a work gathering. I do not want to do either for my anxiety's sake, i'd rather be home... | self.Anxiety |
I can't do this anymore I can't even begin to describe how hard it is for me to continue in the situation I'm in. Someone please just tell me it's going to be okay. I really need some help. | self.depression |
Weird feeling of losing a strong friendship so quickly when you break up I don't even know if this is the right place for this but it's something I've been thinking about and I want to see if anyone can relate.
I've just been thinking about how weird it is to have been in love with someone and break up then just never... | self.offmychest |
I've literally never heard anyone use the word 'pro-active' except when they're telling me things I already know about how much of a failure I am It's like a trigger. I just turn off and stop listening when I hear 'pro-active'. It's not hyperbole at all. | self.depression |
The Two Worst Days Of My Year I just started a marathon of How I Met Your Mother in the last week or two. It occurs to me now that I start one around this same time every year, but this is the first year that I've seen a lot more significance in it. I just finished watching Season 6, Episode 13 - Bad News; it was the f... | self.depression |
How do you deal with panic attacks in public? This is the first time I've actually posted anything, anxiety being the thing holding me back.
I've suffered with anxiety primarily during my sophomore year of high school (currently a freshman in college) and my method of managing panic attacks is mainly just to repress th... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else hate most people? I try to be social, but I can't help it - I hate people. It's like no one that I meet is interested in forming a good friendship. People are too judgmental, and it's fine to judge people, but they make their judgments too obvious and open. Most people that I know put themselves above othe... | self.depression |
You may not have just depression. You may be getting the wrong treatment. So I was depressed when I was 13 and have been since then. I received tons of therapy, but none of it ever really worked. Talk therapy just didn't seem to be cutting it.
I was always an emotional person and felt things stronger than other peopl... | self.depression |
asked my crush out via DM, had panic attack [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
How was your Christmas ? I got pretty drunk, vomitted, and passed out in the restroom. | self.depression |
Feeling do trapped in my 9 to 5 job and routine life [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I'm telling you because I can't tell anyone else Read it or not. This is what's in my head. I'm telling you, reddit, because I haven't told anyone else.
For the better part of 20 years, I have been struggling with depression. I learned early on that suicidal threats or actions get your ass hauled to the hospital, and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
i've been mostly okay There's a friend of mine who does SH...and I just
I've done it before too, but I still don't really know what to do. I'm just trying to be there.
I guess...I'm just reminded of how sad I can get too and I know I'm supposed to avoid this "negativity" but he's a person. He's my friend. He's a human,... | self.depression |
Classically Bipolar Week Friday I got engaged.
Sunday I went to inpatient for the second to worse manic episode I’ve ever had.
Monday I was accepted to grad school.
Wednesday I got out of inpatient.
Thursday is thanksgiving and we get to tell my family in person that we are engaged.
I’m feeling the chaos. Even man... | self.bipolar |
How to control myself from doing stupid things I'm obsessing over one person, I can't control it.
And then, everytime I don't get a reply, or something that doesn't suit my 'agenda', if I will, makes me so anxious. I feel physically sick, I can't eat and feel like I have no control.
I'm a smart person,
I will log into... | self.Anxiety |
Condescending Doctor Rant You go to see your doctor for whatever reason. They ask you mental health questions. You can tell they're just asking because they're required to. You answer their questions, maybe not being entirely truthful because you don't want to be judged or labeled. Don't you just love it when they ... | self.Anxiety |
Never thought I would suffer from this... how wrong was I? Help and advise is needed. Scared of calling my doctor Hi all. I’ve mainly read the thread Health Anxiety as I’ve always thought I was a hypochondriac. I’m not sure this is the case.
I’m not paranoid about ailments I have now, I’m just terrified of getting ill... | self.Anxiety |
(18M) Today I got fired from my second job within a few months. Mid September I got my first job, at a high end restaurant in the city. My girlfriend's father was my connection to get in. I was an expo, which is basically the guy who tracks food orders, preps plates, and runs them out to tables. More or less, the media... | self.offmychest |
Are my best years already behind me? I'm only 19, but I already feel like my best years are well behind me. My parents are getting older, my grandpa's about to die, we've gone from wealthy to broke in the past 10 years, I'm still failing in school as I always have, except now it matters. No matter how hard I try I can'... | self.depression |
I don't know if I am depressed or going through tough time... [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm drunk and crying because everything idk i just feel so nostalgic sad and everything. i was drinking i can't relate with my cousins so i drunk my guts out. rn i feel like as if i'm just a faded shadow of who i used to be; a confident happy person. i feel so lonely and regretful i feel so hopeless like i lost everyth... | self.depression |
If i said what i wanted to say So, i guess a bit of background, i have for years been part of a website that has dealt with suicide, by and large in the role of councillor. Despite my own issues and deep downward spirals i always gave help, rarely ever reaching out, but focusing on giving and giving.. There is somethin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Cymbalta withdrawl while on period as well? is this why i feel like i'm going "Crazy"? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Here goes nothing... Chapter 1: The Family...
I was raised in a "blue collar", white, middle-class, suburban household. I'm a male in my late twenties with an older sister and parents that are still married (miraculously). My upbringing was typical for the aforementioned setting with one exception; my sister went from ... | self.depression |
I did it!!! I'm on the way to the airport. I made it through my whole conference. I went to universal on my own yesterday and rode a lot of the rides. I had some butterbeer because all the food and drinks were free. They had so much beer and wine for free but I didn't drink any. I totally geeked out in Harry Potter wor... | self.bipolar |
I feel as if my “life” is going nowhere [deleted] | self.depression |
Worried about my husband. Just a vent post, feel free to ignore. (Apologies for formatting, I'm on mobile.)
A bit of backstory:
I suffer from severe depression and anxiety, and have done for most of my life (I am currently almost 30, and have had anxiety and depression issues for as far back as I can remember). Due t... | self.depression |
Life sucks. I didn’t ask to be born. I wish I didn’t exist. Been going through the worst depressive episode I have ever experienced in my 22 years. Began in October, and has just gotten worse since. Tried to kms 2.5 months ago. Weak attempt, tried slitting wrists (down the street ofc) with a fucking pencil sharpener bl... | self.depression |
What's the fucking point? I hate everything about the fact that I have been in college for 5, going on 6 years now because I majorly fucked up. I cannot do anything to please anybody, let alone myself. My parents are paying for everything because I don't have a job and I wouldn't be able to afford anything on my own an... | self.depression |
I wish I had a friend to talk to over the phone. I’m so sick of calling up suicide hotline and I’m pretty sure they only work for SH for the volunteer hours. [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want it to end. I've been suicidal for as long as my memory can go. No matter where I look in my life, I just feel pain, suffering, and anguish. My childhood can be summed up as follows: I grew up in a hardcore christian zealot household. They didn't believe in medicating so when I was diagnosed with ADHD, they ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is living really worth it? Why was I born transgender, if I had of been born normal, none of my problems would exist.
I tried to stab myself in the neck with a knife today, It's blunt as fuck, so that was pointless.
I still have a strong urge to just jump under a train or something, nobody gives two shits about me, I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Triggered permanent visual changes after panic attacks Several weeks after my first horrible panic attack, I started experiencing head pressure, then eye floaters (which I never ever saw before), then another week later, I can now see halos around lights and extra glare in the day time. I also had occasional racing hea... | self.Anxiety |
Trying to battle the urge to self harm. Anyone free to talk? | self.Anxiety |
Shit Fuck I don't know how to live my life. I just don't. I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't and will not kill myself but I fucking wish I didn't exist at all.
What do I do ?
I can't go on like this anymore. I just can't. | self.SuicideWatch |
Is it progress? No, no it's not. Today, after a couple months of suddenly falling behind in school, I had a realization: alcohol is my muse. After trying to quit drinking for the last 2 months i realized I cannot complete my schoolwork without it. I can only read, analyze, and write when sipping on what will probably k... | self.depression |
Isn't it beautiful the way we fall apart.. Why do I feel this way? This morning I woke up fine, everything was going great. I made our bed, I made breakfast, I made coffee, I made lunch.. yet something just clicks and I'm back where I started, wishing for a happier life I wish I could provide myself.
If only I wouldn'... | self.depression |
As someone who has never had severe anxiety before I just wanted to come by and say I get it now. That tight feeling in your chest. The sinking pit in the stomach. The inability to sleep.
My fiance has terrible anxiety and I always believed how bad it was but I never really understood it. Now I do.
Keep your head up ... | self.Anxiety |
2017 is the worst year of my life Hello everyone.. using a throwaway because people know my account. Sorry. Pretty long post.
2017 has been without a doubt THE worst year of my life. I have never been so down on myself ever in my 27 years of living. Dont get me wrong.. since 2014 my life has been a downward spiral but... | self.offmychest |
Opened up to my dad A few days ago I talked to my dad and told him how I feel, how I find no joy in anything and some days I stay in bed and do literally nothing and cant bring myself to even eat anything.
While not having to hide it from him anymore is a relief, I also feel very guilty. He always tells me how he fai... | self.depression |
I feel like I have no value. Never had a job, no driver's license, no friends, overweight and feel hopeless. Basically the title. I'm 22 now and just feel hopeless and that I don't have any value in this world. A few years ago I was hopeful I would be in a better place, but hardly anything has changed.
I don't have a... | self.depression |
I feel like a waste of space. I have no idea which direction life is pulling me into, I'm going into debt and nothing I try to do makes me truly happy. It honestly feels like every time I try to something simple I just fuck it up. I haven't attempted or contemplated suicide but Its been looming in the back of my head. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Prescribed Cymbalta + Zyprexa and I don't think it was the right choice From research I've been doing online, Cymbalta on its own doesn't do much to prevent depressive episodes from bipolar and Zyprexa is the devil, leading to massive weight gain and potential diabetes. I've been wondering why my psych didn't prescribe... | self.bipolar |
I feel like I'm losing two close friends Just want to start this off by saying that this is extremely petty and uncharacteristic of me and it's totally understandable if you think this isn't worth anybody wasting their time on. I don't even know if everything is just in my head or if my suspicions are correct. All name... | self.offmychest |
Someone help me make sense of this (talk of self harm and whatnot) So for as long as I can remember I’ve hated myself, self harmed, had thoughts/plans of suicide. Well about five years ago I started hurting myself via cutting and I was found out and taken to a hospital. And at the time I had a friend who also self harm... | self.depression |
One of the worst feelings One of the worst feelings is when you get an answer wrong and the teacher calls you out on it. The same applies in the workplace.
It just happened to me however the story is a bit different but still applies. I answered a question and she replied saying it was too broad and basically made the... | self.Anxiety |
Has any of you found a job you can tolerate? I used to study to become a poker pro (big mistake), and that made my anxiety terrible. But then I found out about copywriting and decided to give it a go, and it was still too stressful for me; there was too much mental effort and the deadlines/being paid by the hour would ... | self.depression |
Don’t know what to do. The last 2 years of my employment I have great admount of panic attacks, medications to help me. It was all due to my job, we had a verbally abuseive coworkers who was the bosses best friend. The first time he started to yell at me for no reason I took a serious panic attack and was taken off wor... | self.Anxiety |
I cheated on my girlfriend I don't know why I did it. I don't know what was going through my head. I wasn't drunk and the relationship was going really well until a few days ago when I fucked it all up. All I deserve at this point is death. I want to take a cheese grater to my skin and bathe in boiling salt and lemon j... | self.offmychest |
Experience with having an episode after long stable streak and already on meds you like? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Social anxiety/ fear of annoying others? Hi, hope this is okay/ i've done this correctly!
I wanted to see if anyone else has similar experiences to me, and see how people cope with it?
So background: So I have quite bad social anxiety, and am currently trying to cope with this with a mixture of CBT and medication.
... | self.Anxiety |
why is it so hard to die? yesterday i tried to kill myself, hung myself twice in a row but there was always something wrong all i managed to do was bite myself and my whole body hurts but i didn't have the energy to try again. for Months i've been based on the fact that i wouldn't be alive this year i never even consid... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm just out of options really, all I feel is intense sadness all the time, I hate myself I suck at everything, and my whole life has just been sadness, angst and loneliness. I think I have some kind of high functioning autism, and although I seem superficially normal, if you scratch away at the surface you'll notice t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Some people don't take medication and that's ok, too [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I did it! My daughter is now 3 1/2, I live with my family, husband, daughter and mom in law. My mom is law is a total saint she’s absolutely amazing. These past few months I’ve been relying on her more than ever, my bipolar disorder has been acting up I’ve been cycling pretty rapidly. But today I feel great. Like almos... | self.bipolar |
I'll never find love. I am going to combine opiates and alcohol and ending it tonight I am an ugly mother fucker. I am short, I am balding, I have fucked up teeth. To put it straight, I look like a straight up goblin.
What's fucked up is I have high standards. Not comically high, I am not going for super models. But ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I quit my job today I just started working there a couple weeks ago. Lately I've been too depressed to do anything and work was too stressful, I guess. No clue what I'm gonna tell my parents. I need the money so I can afford to go back to college.. But to be honest, I don't know if I even want to go back. It was too mu... | self.depression |
Multiple plastic bags ... Is it possible to be "successful" if you use 3 garbage bags, tightly bound, each with its own binding or tape, so that IF you tear the first bag, you might not tear the second before becoming unconscious?
Also, can getting REALLY DRUNK first help with this?
What about adding in some sleeping... | self.SuicideWatch |
Suicide is NOT a selfish choice! I just need to rant about this, and I usually don't talk about suicide. I do everything in my power to not think about it. But at times I'm very, very suicidal.
In reality, dying is the last thing I want. But when my mental/life struggles turn into an existence worse than hell, suicid... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you deal with a broken heart while being depressed? Usually a broken heart is something that heals after some time but it just feels like depression makes it impossible.
It hurts like hell and it doesn't seem to get better. | self.depression |
I'm afraid to talk to anyone about it because that will make it "real". I've been depressed and suicidal for a few years now, and I've done a pretty good job of hiding it. But I've been getting worse recently, to the point where it's having some serious impact on my ability to keep up the charade. I know I should tell ... | self.depression |
Hypnosis to treat anxiety Hey everyone! I struggled with anxiety for the past few years and have tried different things to help such as therapy and medication. I was recommended hypnosis so I booked in a session and gave it a shot. I saw some immediate progress and after a few more sessions I felt a lot better. It's no... | self.Anxiety |
I've been passively suicidal for 6 months. At this point, it doesn't ever stop. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you stay functional? Like most everyone in this subreddit I suffer from depression I've been dealing with since I was a child now well into my 30's. In spite of it have able been able to get things done like graduating from college even after loosing someone I loved. It was one of the hardest things that I've ev... | self.depression |
Girlfriend left me today. Can't stop thinking about my last attempt My girlfriend just left me today. I realize the reason is valid. Though it hurts, I've improved a lot since my suicide attempt in September. I'm not feeling great but I found something interesting today. When I tried to kill myself I was listening to m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Life Just Gets Worse The Older You Get Is it just me or does life just seem to get more and more fucked the older you get? More responsibility, more financial problems, more health problems, you start to look like shit, U start losing people (weather they die or just arent in your life anymore) etc. Its just crazy bro.... | self.depression |
I won't start a new year I can't finish. I have no family to speak of, I have no friends or neighbors and I'm tired of being alone. This isn't a reach for help or a cry of desperation, This is just a wasted life saying goodbye to you stranger's because she has no-one else to tell. Goodbye. | self.SuicideWatch |
Just did something really gay So I've been paranoid about my dick size for a while, never measured it right always had measurements way off, like when I used string I would measure up to like 6.75, using a straight ruler I'm around 6 if I have it pressed against the bone. Girth is around 5.5-6 when I measure and I neve... | self.offmychest |
I just need to vent dammit I feel so weird and yucky. I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of feeling crappy. I'm tired of being a recluse. I'm tired of feeling so damn confused. I don't understand my family. I live with parents and siblings, but I still feel empty. I have people around me, but I feel empty. And con... | self.depression |
Video games aren't fun anymore Help I need some new coping mechanism. What do you do? I've lost all interest in everything | self.depression |
Being alone Compared to other threads on here it's not the worst but idk what other board this belongs to.
Every night is same, end by myself having to go out my way to talk to anyone on a computer screen or like Skype or discord if I'm lucky.
I know few people through work my age kinda (I'm 20). Went to boarding scho... | self.depression |
This has been discussed before but I don’t remember the consensus. Thoughts on being on birth control while also being bipolar? | self.bipolar |
[Serious] How to deal with someone with bipolar syndrom Hello,
Reading blogs doesn't feel convincing for me and I wanted to ask you guys regarding this topic. My sister has been diagnosed about 1 year ago and it has taken a severe toll in her life (and my families as well). Without going too much into detail into her ... | self.bipolar |
I'm going to keep pushing to imporve and gain a better mental health. This was orginally going to be a post about how everything was going to change. How life was all of a sudde going to be amazing. I've made a few off these posts before and honestly no mather how determined I felt I would allways feel down. The proble... | self.offmychest |
How do I stop being scared to kill my self? | self.SuicideWatch |
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