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What are your favorite movies/TV shows/books involving bipolar disorder? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I'm still here. Daily suicidal thoughts for over a year. Staying feels like the right thing to do. Going often seems like the rational thing to do. It feels weird to be here. Not sure why I am, really. My troubles are 100% financial, but my financial troubles are the result of who I am as a person. To me, there is noth... | self.SuicideWatch |
i have something called post orgasmic illness syndrome and i really want to die it has made my life miserable please let me go nobody cares about me i feel like everbody secretly hates me i am walking fucking disaster i really wanna die asquerading as a normal person, day after day, is just exhausting. YEAH I CRY ALL ... | self.SuicideWatch |
It feels like no one actually wants to be my friend Maybe they've caught on to the fact that I'm broken inside and just want someone to talk to, but they always ignore that last part and probably only talk to me out of sympathy. Honestly what do I have to do to find someone who actually gives a damn about me? | self.depression |
i’m just so tired i’ve tried to kill my self 3 times before. the first i tried to just take all the pills in the cabinet but i threw everything up. the second i tried to stab myself to let myself bleed to death but i was too scared. the third i was trying to hang myself but the rope snapped.
i’ve lived with deep depr... | self.SuicideWatch |
smashed my phone. hurt myself. sick of this shit. Everyday stresses or problems with clients have caused me to run into the red, and now slight things set me off. Pacing around the room waiting for my antipsychotics to kick in. Hate this. | self.bipolar |
Any Bipolar Teachers? I am in my senior year before my credential at a decent school that cranks out some of the best teachers in my country. I just hit a mixed episode. This is my first "fall season" episode (mine almost always hit Christmas, or July when school is out), and I'm struggling to function and be "normal" ... | self.bipolar |
never be a girl can't get hrt, father is opposed, been transgender mtf for a long time but I cannot progress any further without hrt. I can afford it, but being I am not 18, I must have both guardians permission to go in hrt. I'll never be a girl, by the time I'm 18 it will be too late. I cannot stand another second in... | self.SuicideWatch |
This weather just triggers it Now, I know I have played before about having a traumatic injury occur in inclement weather, and how with the season for snow and ice returning, it has made my anxiety rise even more. But, tonight, I actually had to walk across a parking lot with snow, visible ice and black ice and I will ... | self.Anxiety |
Bit of rant I guess I don’t even know where to begin.
I feel as if I’ve been just a mere passive observer in recent years. I genuinely think I had a good life-at least for me-supporting and loving family, close group of friends, interests, and hobbies. But since the past several years I’ve been slowly losing grip on ... | self.depression |
Got 16 hours of sleep. Best sleep of my life. My parents didn't wake me up or anything, which I was pretty suprised about. This was the best sleep I have had in years, if not ever. I had like 4 or 5 different dreams. They had people I knew in them, some which I haven't thought of in years. For once, I feel like I have ... | self.depression |
it feels better to know ppl feel the same way i do ive come to feel so alone. i never could find anyone who feels the same way i do. but im happy i found this sub reddit because everybody understands. for me the only thing that understands and helps is usually drugs. my addiction has pushed me to the edge. ive been to ... | self.depression |
Anyone feel like they have nothing and nobody? That’s me. I literally don’t have anyone that I can talk to. I feel so alone. There are many nights where I cry myself to sleep or pop a few sleeping pills just to get sleep. I keep all of my feelings bottled up. It fucking sucks. I just go through every day feeling like I... | self.depression |
Guests for thanksgiving, house is a wreck, anxiety coming in strong Due to my depression I have little motivation to even get out of bed and since my husband works I don't really have to. He's currently away for work and will be for another few months. He usually helps me function and motivates me.
My dad, stepmom and... | self.depression |
I’m being abused. I need help with an abusive situation.
To start off, my father is legally insane. He’s severely bipolar and goes on psychotic rampages every few years. He currently has three felonies hanging over his head, if it wasn’t for his mental disease he’d spend the rest of his pathetic life in prison.
When... | self.depression |
Fears are worth facing! So today I have to fly all by myself. Panic disorder has made traveling tough in the past and today is my first time EVER traveling through an airport alone. I’m usually totally fine once I get past security, but when I have to wait in the long lines for security, I usually immediately start pan... | self.Anxiety |
I am more than these anxious feelings...just not today. Job interview today. A summer job. One that mostly high school kids do...I’m 25. I look in the mirror before I leave. It’s as good as it’s going to get. Which is not great. I am disgusting.
I walk in to find that I went to high school with the program director in... | self.Anxiety |
I need advice. My folks are visiting tomorrow and I'm stressed the f out. | self.bipolar |
FEARLESS FRIDAYS MEGA THREAD. Here we discuss embarrassing stories, funny stories, WTF stories, and everything in between. Need to get something off your chest? Here's the place to do it. Not yet diagnosed and want to ask a question? Feel free to do it here. Pretty much anything goes in Fearless Fridays | self.bipolar |
I am become floor So, I turned 30 this year and I feel like I am way past struggling at this point. I often imagine killing myself, but, as of now, I'm still too chickenshit and don't want to be "that guy who killed himself in the end" to the people I know.
Apparently I carried around my depression for most of my life,... | self.depression |
I keep buying things online and the 5-7 days until arrival is keeping me from not killing myself. Anyone else do things like this? Not just with buying things, but with planning, so you're held more accountable for things like work where you have to show up? I've come down with a cold and I'm going to go to work becaus... | self.depression |
I had no idea that a unrequited love could break someone this much. It has been 6 months since I told him how I felt. After months of wonderful dates, sex and affection from him, I decided it was time to tell him. I was rejected once. Twice. I've lost count. I've tried to move on. I can't. I can't hurt other people bec... | self.depression |
I️’m at a loss in life and I’m done. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
This happened a while ago. So I was eating gum, and I always have trouble asking for a trash can for the gum. So I noticed they had food at the party, and I had a chip and dipped it into salsa. And I ate the chip and swallowed it with the gum. It was the the worst taste ever! Imagine mint and salsa. | self.Anxiety |
When the euphoric moments die off I've been feeling really good the past two days. Mostly because I've just been so distracted with school, my job, 2 new kittens along with my two cats, cleaning, etc. All the business and excitement of new kittens kinda brought on this euphoric state for me.
Then I send my SO a messag... | self.depression |
May become homeless and get kicked out of school I don't even know what to say about this. I moved to states with my ex girlfriend to attend the same university with her. I've always been attached to my family but being with my ex girlfriend filled that void. I recently broke up with her because I relationship was toxi... | self.depression |
Let it get on top of me, a late assignment I haven't started and quit my job [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Cynical, sarcastic assholes are the worst kind of people. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Scared of Failure. Tomorrow, I am taking my HESI exam. Which is basically 3 separate tests that you have to make an 80% or above on all 3 to even apply for the Registered Nursing Program. If I don't pass this, I will have to wait one more fucking year to even attempt to take it again. I know one year isn't much but the... | self.offmychest |
Does your heart have to race with anxiety? Don't get me wrong, sometimes my heart races when I am having anxious thought patterns. However, I feel like most of the time I feel so many other anxiety symptoms (including anxious thoughts) without my heart racing, then I even doubt if I'm having anxiety or if it's somethin... | self.Anxiety |
I just went to the therapist today and she really changed my perspective Long story short, I was hurt that someone I defended (I overlooked alot of his negative characteristics), spent time with, believed in, and trusted has drifted away. It hurt because I loved him. The time we spent texting, supporting and encouragin... | self.offmychest |
I am fucking up everything in my life, with no idea how to change [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Im done Anyone knows what pills i should buy to die during my sleep and never wake up? Im sooo done. I just dont want to wake up anymore. | self.SuicideWatch |
Wellbutrin (Bupropion) and Anxiety I have been taking 300mg of Wellbutrin for about 2 and a half years now but in the past few months (about 6) I have been experiencing anxiety like never before in my life. I don't take any other medications so I'm wondering if anyone has had experiences with Wellbutrin worsening their... | self.depression |
Some birthday thoughts (changed title to be more relevant)
I just turned 24. With this illness you dont really feel like everyone else feels at 24 (or whatever age) because you've already shipwrecked on hell island countless times, chances are you've been one with the creator and infinity, you've been reborn, you'v... | self.bipolar |
I don't think I am capable of living a happy life All of my life I have been miserable, and I always thought it was because of situations that would pass. But no, the common denominator is just me. I used to be fat - I'm talking almost 300lbs. For someone who is 5'3, that is not good. I lost most of the weight, I wear ... | self.depression |
Cancer free and it's finally sinking in. A year ago today I was released from the hospital after a stem cell transplant, cancer free. I had been going through chemo for over a year prior to that. I'm 34 yo. I have have two sons, a 9yo with autism, and a 2yo who was only 6 months old when I was diagnosed.
I week ago I... | self.offmychest |
I'm A Recovering Shut-In Trying To Overcome This Anxiety I'm a young guy who doesn't handle anxiety well. My brain has always had an extremely stressed reaction to everything. Because of this, I tried to minimalise how stressed I could become, and ultimately became more and more depressed not going out much, not socia... | self.Anxiety |
Feels like I'm being pulled in two directions I'm having trouble focusing and articulating myself right now so please forgive me if this turns out being rather jumbled.
This last month has been shit. I've had practically no motivation and just taking care of myself has been incredibly difficult. I've been trying to s... | self.bipolar |
Advice? Opinions?
Sorry if this post doesn’t fit here, but I’ve been concerned about my mental health for a while now and I just want to hear some opinions on it – even if they are “there is nothing wrong with you, just go away!”. I don’t really know what I am looking for, but I guess mostly I just want to blurt out a... | self.depression |
Coping with Unjust World This is partly a rant just to make myself feel heard and partly a cry for help. I have been feeling torn apart by frustration and depression over the state of the world, and unable to cope with it in any way that left me able to feel anything. I've edited it to make it less politically charged,... | self.depression |
Im getting more and more anxious and depressed because i can't find a girl Been dealing with anxiety and borderline depression for 6 years now. I keep myself in such low worth because of my looks. Im a great human being other than that, I'm smart going through college but this just keeps me so low... I don't know how t... | self.Anxiety |
At the "prime" of my life but have never felt worse [deleted] | self.depression |
After 20+ years, I've realized we're bad for each other. I’m now convinced that we are bad for each other, and that it’s not going to get any better. As people age, they become more themselves. When I’m around you, I’m worse. When you’re around me, you’re worse. I make you feel bad about yourself. You make me feel bad ... | self.offmychest |
I survived a mini-stroke two weeks ago and I kinda wish I didn’t. [deleted] | self.depression |
Stopped taking my meds I have stopped taking my medication (buspar, seroquel, lamictal). I haven't told my treatment team, and I don't know if I plan on it.
I feel like I have been hit by a truck. I never stop thinking about suicide and my anxiety is so bad that I can hardly talk at most times. I don't know if I want ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Suddenly my dad wants to dad but I’m too hurt. My dad is a narcissist. He’s an alcoholic. He’s a conservative. He’s Mormon. He’s the city commissioner. But he’s never really been my dad. My parents split up before I can even remember and I always felt like he only wanted to be around me if it was convenient. But he’s s... | self.offmychest |
Is it possible to build tolerance or immunity to beta blockers (specifically Propranolol)? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My brother says things like "I have no will to live" and cries almost constantly. How do I convince him to see a therapist? My brother has a lot is certainly depressed. This week, he quit school, quit his job, quit taking his medication and has cried every day. I asked him point blank if he's going to kill himself and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
sometimes you have no choice but to let go [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
i dont fit in anywhere and i have no marketable skills and too many problems EVERY POST I MAKE IS DOWNVOTED AND CRITICIZED RUDELY HOW DO I GO ON
PTSD PTSD PTSD
SUICIDE IS A CHOICE IF NOBODY WANTS TO HIRE OR MARRY ME RIGHT?
22, male, severely isolated and depressed, shunned by all the terribly mean people i grew up a... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fuck, I don’t even know anymore I don’t even know what to do. I hate how I think. I want to be normal. I want to not obsess over everything. Nothing seems to work. I just want to be happy so desperately. I want friends. | self.SuicideWatch |
[Trigger warning] It's been a bad week, and next week will be worse When I get upset, panicked, anxious, nervous, or scared, I scratch myself.
This is a relatively new reaction, and I don't know where it came from.
I used to cut and burn myself, but I stopped a few years ago. Maybe this is a new way it's manifestin... | self.Anxiety |
I am currently in the ER for the 4th time bc of suicidal thoughts. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I Feel Stuck In A Time Loop [Long] I am not too sure how to word this all, and I am not too sure how it will come off. But I'll explain this as best as I can.
I tried to fix my life when entering freshman year of high school and since my sleep schedule has always been moving in a forward fashion, my family thought it ... | self.offmychest |
All ready to go but haven’t found the right time? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
God fucking damnit I can't even fucking kill myself right, I spent an hour looking for bleach and I couldn't find it so I was gonna use toilet bowl cleaner and I fucking pussied out because it was opace blue and smelled like shit
Fuck this shit I hope I get hit be a fucking semi truck while crossing the street, hell I... | self.depression |
I hate being sad I cant handle being sad anymore. Why cant I just get hit by a train and end it all | self.offmychest |
I've fallen back to the pit. So long perfect streak of not cutting myself. I just relapsed. Fuckin hate my life man | self.SuicideWatch |
A day free from anxiety and depression! I know it will come back but this has been an amazing day I feel like my old self! I can’t wait to get more of these days! | self.Anxiety |
What happens after death? I wanna die. So badly. I've lost so much patience for things to get better. It doesn't seem like it will and these feelings are so intense, I don't know how much longer I can bear it. But I'm afraid of what will happen if I did it. What is after death? I don't expect anyone to have an answer t... | self.offmychest |
i cant take it anymore why the fuck should we live like this | self.depression |
I want to stop doing this... Hello Reddit.
I would like some advice on the cycle...
Have been getting therapy and I feel way better than before... But sometimes, when I feel that a problem arrises, I tend to talk to my close friends for advice, and sometimes I'm worried that I'm acting like a gossiper...
It's someth... | self.Anxiety |
I've tried the last two nights Today my ex boyfriend was like, have you thought of the possible damage you've done internally that you may not know about for years? So that helped. He moved out 6 months ago while we worked on ourselves and worked toward getting back together. I've set us back so far in the last two day... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hate Depressed for the last seven years without anyone noticing or caring,all i can feel now is hate,hate for being put in this shithole without any talent,looks or something that make this existence worthwhile,hate for others who i feel have everything that i lack,hate myself for falling in line and accepting it inste... | self.depression |
Anyone who has been hospitalized because they were considering suicide: what do they do? | self.SuicideWatch |
How much does Caffeine affect anxiety? I drink quite a fair bit of coffee, about 4-8 cups a day. How much does it actually contribute to anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
Minor Fender Bender, Incredibly Nervous and Can't Calm Down (kind of long, sorry) [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Jaw shooting pain Does anyone else get a shooting pain in their jaw underneath just near the ear on the left and right side?. Had it for the last week but tonight it’s been non stop on the right side and it’s driving me nuts. Don’t know how to stop it and wish it would go away. | self.Anxiety |
Being alone everywhere I go Greetings redditors,I am about to write a wall of text so brace yourselves.
Being alone is something I am sure all people experience at times but not for me.As long as I can remember I have always been lonely,not alone per se but lonely.Even from a small age I had a few friends but not becau... | self.depression |
I had a thought Two ugly people would produce an ugly baby. | self.offmychest |
Anxiety versus paranoia. Do y'all have either or both? Which causes which or are they independent? | self.bipolar |
Bipolar Disorder is composed of two souls inhabiting one body [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I always feel ugly when i go out with friends [deleted] | self.depression |
I am done with this life. I have had enough of everything. there is nothing in this world I want anymore. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
How does it feels to love and be loved? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m 23, and feeling overwhelmed by life. Here’s a dump of my thoughts, any advice or guidance would be amazing. Hello reddit, I needed somewhere to go to put my thoughts about...Just about everything on paper, and this seems like the place to do it.
I’m a young guy making his way through the world. I’ve based all my... | self.offmychest |
Anyone else think people only talk to you so they can mock you later? I always feel like my conversations aren't really genuine. I think that most people just keep me around to be able to tell their friends what a loser I am. "You'll never guess who I talked to today" sort of stuff. I look like a freak and everyone kn... | self.depression |
im a shitty person I came across this subreddit looking for a way out.
A jist of what happened. Me[24m] got bored over break and talked to a trans girl online and ended up sexting. I had a gf [22f] who I want to marry while this happened. I have insecurities of attractiveness and this person made me feel like I was ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Kevin Spacey Kevin Spacey gives all homosexuals a bad name. He didn't come out as a sincere gesture, or to inspire other homosexuals. He came out in a wuss attempt to divert attention from the controversy. Well, at least it will be easier for me to watch him in his villainous roles now. | self.offmychest |
I just got dumped 😭😭😭 I just got dumped by my bf over text message. He said there was literally nothing I did. That I am wonderful and that I am an amazing person. He said that he is not over a gf from a couple of years ago.
I was doing so well guys. I was riding a nice steady high dealing with him. I was getting ... | self.bipolar |
Not sure if that's the place for this But I want to share something that's fuckin me up.
I got involved with a friend. We are very much alike and we've been attracted to each other for a while until we finally hook up. Now here's the deal: I have anxiety and haven't been able to talk to girls for a long long time, star... | self.depression |
Haven't posted here in a while...think I'm just venting because i know some here will understand. think i came out of a hypo episode and now i'm just mad all the time. First of all, now I'm pissed off that for some reason in my title it kept capitalizing every damn first letter of every word.
But anyway, life.. hasn't... | self.bipolar |
Forgot to hide my depression I've been depressed for basically my whole life. Recently it's gotten bad again. I've gotten pretty damn good at hiding it from the world. Until last night when, at a holiday party at my own apartment, I drank too much, basically started crying at the dinner table, went upstairs, blew chunk... | self.depression |
My mother wants so bad for me to "get better" and I just fucking can't [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Can't Eat Around Others Recently when I go to school I cannot eat at lunch with my friends or around anyone really. I lose my appetite and sometimes feel naseaus. This is odd to me because I am perfectly fine in most social situations and I can talk and act normal without anxiety but all of a sudden I can't eat aroun... | self.Anxiety |
I think this will finally do it So I guess this account has become my ventor for my low key fixation on an old ex (officially 4.5 yrs ago since we stopped seeing one another exclusively, 2.5 years since we last spoke) and tonight, for no good reason at all aside boredom, I went an looked her up. Lately I have just been... | self.offmychest |
I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to talk about my depression and I'm anxious as hell I'm 30 years old, and for a long while have had symptoms of depression (ten years on and off). I've put them off for so long, dismissing them as nothing, thinking that depression is something that happens to other people, that I was ju... | self.offmychest |
People with anxiety/ptsd, how do you get to sleep? I’m struggling with my sleep so much I need some advice. Any time I lie down to go to sleep my brain keeps overthinking about past traumas or just being stressed about everything and no matter what I do it won’t stop. I get so stressed and often have panic attacks all ... | self.Anxiety |
Just leave me alone for 5 minutes. My grandma passed away this morning she was bad ill and we knew it was coming. My husband is treating it like a fucking vacation because he gets 3 days of bereavement plus his normal days off. Making plans on what he wants to do later in the week and what not while I'm just trying to ... | self.offmychest |
Me being honest. I miss the 2013 version of myself, she was doing marathons, fit, insanely funny and fun to be around. This person i am now? She's serious, rigid, hardened by trauma, cries every night, lonely, damaged from
a stroke, traumatized by cancer (i'm in remission luckily), and doesn't create art anymore. I'm o... | self.depression |
My girlfriend is the only thing keeping me from suicide She's the only one that cares, really. She makes me feel loved, and cared about, something my family can't do. I love her so much, and the thought of her crying herself to sleep every night over the loss of me breaks my heart. As much as id like to escape this wak... | self.depression |
I can either have a great new years or stay at home I can either stay at home and drink wit my parents friends which will be shit or I can ride my bike about 4 hours to get to the city where my friends live. Part of that ride includes going over a fucking mountain. Plus, just took a ritalin pill so I'll be fucked after... | self.depression |
Putting pen to paper I am a dead man walking
I’ve been dead since the moment she met me and made me not want to die
Stopped me from pulling the trigger
Stopped me from drawing the knife
Stopped me from tying the noose
Stopped me from stepping off that ledge
Stopped me from everything fading to black
She stopped me ... | self.depression |
Social anxiety, or I'm simply more comfortable when I'm not around other people? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Scared of trying effexor Zoloft put me in an ugly mixed state last winter and I'm afraid of that happening again. I'm afraid of the nausea. I'm afraid of the decreased appetite and weight loss. I don't know enough else about it to be scared of anything else. I simply don't know much about it. Please help me understand ... | self.bipolar |
I don't think I can keep going anymore I don't know what to do. I can't get to a place that's quiet. I feel dizzy and numb. The air always seems bad. The furnace downstairs, they leave the door open all day and night because of the fumes. Mybapartment is rightbabove it and thei air always seems bad in here. Opening the... | self.bipolar |
I just got engaged We've been dating for over two years. We've known each other our entire lives. I never thought anyone would love/care about me enough to look past my bipolar II, ultra rapid cycling, OCD etc. I'm extremely lucky to have found someone. Just wanted to share the excitement.
Thx guys - | self.bipolar |
Anxiety because of my coach I'm a student and my extracurricular activity in school is judo. I really love the sport loads. But recently, for almost every single training, my coach comes to me and yells at me when I do something wrong. I usually try my hardest to pay attention when he teaches but sometimes when I do it... | self.Anxiety |
Always liking people who don’t like me back? Don’t know why but it seems to happen over and over again. Always into the people who aren’t into me, and feeling like I don’t measure up to their standards. | self.offmychest |
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