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42M - Canada - Message me if you need advice [deleted] | self.offmychest |
So, here I am I don’t know how to feel. Unfulfilled? Saddened? Stressed? It’s more than that unfortunately. It’s a psychological impairment I can’t rid myself of, it’s every thought that plagues me. I thought I could get better. I tried.
I’ve been working on friendships and relationships, and I do quiet well for mysel... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lost, out of place and held back. Alright, it's 7:00 in the morning, and it would be pointless to go to sleep because if I did, I would wake up around 5:00 - 7:00 PM.
Anyway, I get thoughts of y'know.. killing myself at least like.. twice a month. I never act upon it. But I think a couple reasons why I feel like this ... | self.SuicideWatch |
[Hypochondria] Dealing with triggers. I've been much better for a long time, still an up hill battle but no where near as bad as it was... but whenever something new happens health wise its still a struggle to not let it get to me. Last night I experienced what I think was a brief episode of vertigo and I really am doi... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like anxiety is really affecting my marks. I’m posting this to vent and maybe get some advice. Sorry, I’m just really upset right now and I’m not really sure who to talk to.
In high school, I got really good grades. Not that I didn’t study or anything, but I enjoyed getting them and felt confident in myself. B... | self.Anxiety |
I'm a 23 year-old man, and I still get the chills (the good kind), whenever I watch/listen to the High School Musical 1 soundtrack. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Depression. I consider myself a little bit stronger than most people. Not killing yourself by the age or thirty after being depressed for the last seventeen years is something to be proud of. At least that’s my opinion. The problem is even if i make to 101....i won’t be considered a survivor seeing as how I’m a man and... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm such a loser No friends. Scammed twice this year already. One for a job and the other on an investment. No money. Can't seem to get myself out of my flat. Approaching 30 this year. What has happened to me.. | self.depression |
Thinking of going... and taking my motorcycle with me. Honestly i'm at the bottom of the pool. Rock bottom i guess. I feel it. I'm in pain again but this time it's different. I can't seem to feel connected to the world or the people in it. I'm in pain again because the same old demons are back to get me. Maybe this tim... | self.SuicideWatch |
All i want to do i curl up in a hole and die… i hate how it feels like everyone is leaving when i need them most. That dark shadow is creeping up fast and taking over agin. I’m scared and just don’t know who to turn to. I’m running out of options. | self.SuicideWatch |
My SO might move away We used to be in a LDR. Then he moved to my country and now he's moving back to his to study. I don't know if I can handle a LDR again, but I can't go on without him. I definitely cannot go with him. He might only be there for a couple of years. He says that it should help "motivate" us instead of... | self.offmychest |
There is literally nothing anyone can say to me that would convince me to not kill myself today All I've ever wanted is for someone to convince me that life is worth living. But NO ONE can fucking do it. Life is really that fucking bleak. | self.SuicideWatch |
Influx Wave Anyone else just been sitting down, minding their own business chillin', but then suddenly out of nowhere a tsunami of emotions tears through your body leaving nothing unturned. Then after its passed you wonder what the fuck just happened. yeah, that just happened to me and i just...dont know | self.depression |
Scared to quit a job for the first time [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My D&D GM sent me an email asking me if I'm ok because I haven't been to sessions lately for various reasons. Not sure how to respond. Should I tell him "No I'm depressed"? I feel kind of weird doing that. I don't really want to drag him down, but I don't want to lie either. The reasons I haven't been to sessions i... | self.depression |
schoolwork+anxiety I honestly hate writing essays because every single sentence that I write has to be perfect and if it isn't, I will just keep on rewriting it until I think it is perfect. I literally need to write my essays days ahead of the due date because it takes me so long. I don't even bother to proofread becau... | self.Anxiety |
im a self aware narcissist and i hate it i wish I didn't know. but more than that I wish I wasn't. i can see myself manipulating people in third person but I just can't stop. when I don't get what I want and things don't go how I want no matter how much I tried to set it up to be i get upset and lock myself away. like ... | self.offmychest |
Daily Ramble #1 Hello everyone. This is the first post in what is intended to be a series of random, daily ramblings in which I express my emotional state for the day, regardless as to what particularly crosses my mind--for that is the point. I have no particular expectations when it comes to what comes out of this thi... | self.depression |
Are hard drugs worth it? title. I've used ritalin, I drink a fair bit and I've used codeine a couple of times (half legitimate pain killing use half to kill emotional pain) and I want to know if it's worth it to use hard drugs like heroin or cocaine to make living less painful. I'm 17 (just had my birthday on the 16th)... | self.depression |
What’s the best and fastest way to kill yourself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Working in a toxic project/environment...had a good ugly cry at home...feels better | self.Anxiety |
Do any of you get short, but extreme bursts of euphoria after an anxiety attack? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
To help or not to help? Boarding school troubles I heard the girl in the room next door to me, who has anxiety and panic attacks, have a breakdown today.
We are reasonably close, but I don't know whether to go see if she's ok or just give her some privacy.
What would you prefer? Or what do you think she might prefer? | self.Anxiety |
University student, frustrated, depressed, going nowhere in life, not optimistic I'm 21 years old, studying statistics at university. I’ve been in school for the past 3 years, and due to mental illness and depression, I *still* have a few years left before I graduate. When I’m not living on residence, I’m mooching off ... | self.offmychest |
Have a feeling that i make all of my family members suicidal because of my depression. i feel numb I feel so Numb and tired 24/7
Why cant i just disappear?
My mum seems to be always sad, i just wanna leave this world but i dont want to make my family sad when i would commit suicide. | self.depression |
Support animal? I’ll try to get right to the point with this. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and insomnia. I am alone most days and am pretty much confined to my bed, no school, work, or friends. I’ve been seeing a therapist and considering different treatment, excluding medication, and have come to the realization... | self.depression |
Feel like I don't even deserve to post here [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Not me, but I think a friend of mine is starting to be depressed Good evening everyone, I think a friend of mine is showing signs os depression and I have no idea of how I should act with her other than being a good listener to whatever she has to say.
Let me just say that this human being is one of the kindest, most i... | self.depression |
im scared im gay... i dont want to come out because my family will hate me for it... a close friend of mine... i know he is too... but i cant tell him for fear hell tell everyone i know... im scared what do i do? | self.offmychest |
My Partner and I suffer but she's taken a downturn and now I'm concerned I should start by saying I suffer with depression. I still have times were it is worse than others but largely since my teenage years I've learned how to cope and manage things a lot better. Reason I mention this it plays into my problem.
For the... | self.depression |
Latuda is my wonderdrug It isn't perfect yet but after a year of hardcore trying and 3 years of meds in general I'm more stable than I thought I'd be. I'm not as depressed, my appetite is normal, my anxiety is more manageable. Pain in the patootie having to eat so much with it but otherwise I don't have problems with i... | self.bipolar |
I underestimate my anxiety I always think about situations before I go out somewhere. I think I'll being able to handle it well, but it turns out be pretty bad. I can't contain my anxiety,I start shaking and can't speak properly. It makes me feel like a child. The medication I'm on doesn't seem to do anything about it ... | self.Anxiety |
The past 4 or 5 times I've been to the guitar store I've had to leave because of anxiety attacks. So I've been playing guitar for a year now and it's helped me in general so much. I'll always look forward to going to guitar center or some place like that because it's fun to try out new guitars and new gear and it's usu... | self.Anxiety |
Mind if I speak for a moment, please? It's been quite a while since I've been on here. Things did get better for a little bit, but I'm starting to feel myself not being able to handle these emotions again. Anxiety, depression, and not feeling disgusted with myself.
It's been a few months now since I've cut my heart a... | self.offmychest |
What is bipolar with psychotic features? I always thought that it just meant bipolar I. Am I missing something here? Is it schizoaffective? I'm kinda confused... | self.bipolar |
Any suggestions on how to clean get the energy to clean your house? [deleted] | self.depression |
I have a really bad urge to slit my wrists and die right now I decided to go on midnight of New Years Eve, end this year but not start a new year. I've gotten drunk two nights in a row and honestly I don't know why I don't just go right now. | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else feel depressed when things change? Even what should be a happy change? Last night I bought a new car and I love the car itself! My old was was a beater and I'm getting rid of it. So this should be a happy time right?
Wrong. My depression has gone into overdrive. For some reason, I can't process any ki... | self.depression |
I'm poor and I am extremely jealous of/resent everyone else who isn't. My family is actually quite wealthy. 80k a year for basically a two person household, and we live in a super low cost area. Trips to Europe twice a year, expensive stuff all around the house, mother has the finest jewelry, you name it.
But I, pers... | self.offmychest |
well I'm in for a lot of stress and anxiety untill my useless doctor gets back from his vacation the pharmacy didn't give me the prescribed amount of anxiety and ptsd medication when I went (my doctor prescribed an extra 2 weeks worth and they refused to give it to me) i have to go 2 fucking weeks before I can feel "no... | self.SuicideWatch |
What the actual F I spent hours and hours on work and made it very detailed for college, referencing all my work to government websites explaining everything in great detail. Only to scrape a fucking pass, honestly thinking about shooting up the school and killing the fucking shitty tutor. She such a fucking cunt, like... | self.depression |
She takes away a bit of her heart everyday Update: takes away a bit of MY heart everyday.
I don’t know how she does it.
She [30F] broke up with me [25F] 8 weeks ago today. It was so so emotional. And I still am. She told me I was her BEST friend. We were before we dated. We spent a lot of time hanging out. Laughing... | self.depression |
literature? anyone read any books on the subject of bipolar disorder that they have found beneficial? | self.bipolar |
lol why tf does smiling hurt like now I feel guilty for smiling. nvm the fake ones ish, but fuck. haha. ugh. why am I still alive. | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate talking on the phone, I'm pretty sure it's my anxiety kicking in. The awkward quiet moments drives me nuts. Anyone else experience this? | self.Anxiety |
If I had a gun right now I would pull the trigger smiling [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Cymbalta and anxiety? I'm not sure if anxiety is the right word. So I've been on Cymbalta for about 3 weeks 20mg. I was in a mixed episode and we made some big med changes. I was on lamictal and celexa and now I'm on depakote and cymbalta. I am taking extended release depakote at night and the cymbalta in the morni... | self.bipolar |
Kee getting bullied over my nationality. Been going on for a while. Feel like it’s weighing me down. Any advice/help please? So i’m Pakistani, born and raised in America, and in school i’ve experienced some teasing for being Pakistani. However, this one guy in particular keeps saying nasty things and making fun of me b... | self.offmychest |
200ft should be enough, hopefully. There is a bridge in my city that towers 200ft above the water at its peak. Apparently this should be enough to kill myself upon impact if I can get the angle right. I'm nervous I'm gonna fuck up and have to deal with worse disabilities than I currently have. I don't know why im putti... | self.SuicideWatch |
my cousin hung himself last night. he was 18. just graduating high school. he had two loving parents and a loving older sister and a large loving extended family. he had been struggling with depression for years now. he has been in and out of the hospital a few times in the last year or two, but he had never attemp... | self.bipolar |
Do any of you feel this? At night time when you feel like everyone around you is sleeping, you suddenly are wide awake with thoughts of the little petty things that you could do and get done while everyone else is sleeping. You get so stuck in your thoughts until you realize that you are manic and need sleep more than ... | self.bipolar |
Need someone to talk to Currently sleep deprived from paranoia. Almost certain that I’m hallucinating feel like shit just need to vent I want this all to just end | self.SuicideWatch |
Stop laughing on me Yes I know I'm stupid, yes i know im slow, yes i know im weak and yes I know this amuses you but can you just please move on. | self.depression |
I got sent to a psych ward on Saturday. I was sent because of suicidal ideation. I stayed for 5 days. They were some of the most monotone days of my life. I came in hopeless and thinking that all they could do is give me medication. I came out with a sense of hope but still with my depression around. I just needed to t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Getting closer and closer to the date I set at 15 When I was 15 I was horribly depressed. The only thing that stopped me from killing myself is talking myself into believing that because I was 15 I hadn't even given life a chance. I wasn't allowed to kill myself until I was 25. That would give me 10 years to figure out... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel as I have failed at everything in my life. I got fired today. My gf is saying she doesn’t want to live with me anymore. I am undereducated and have never been able to hold down a minimum wage job. I have ambitions and fantasize about doing something with my life but I feel as if I will either fail or I simply do... | self.SuicideWatch |
I need some some eyes on this So, I'm 19 years old, living at home, going to college with the potential of getting a really good GPA, transfering to an established university tuition free and landing a lucrative job. My parents are both supportive, and most of the time I wake up feeling fine. I have a psychiatrist... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am not meant for the world. I've tried a lot of shit to change this but then, I have dietary issues, mental issues, physical problems, sadness, and I've tried a lot but I couldn't just be better. I'm just not meant to live.
Even when I had a therapist. :( | self.depression |
Upper management will feel my wrath I’m a senior in high school and I’ve worked at my local Walgreens for over a year now. Like most retail environments there are often staff changes and loads of drama. For the first half of my time, I had the greatest assistant manager. She worked hard, respected my work ethic, and re... | self.offmychest |
Do you miss me sometimes too? I thought it had been two years since I last dreamed about you, but it’s actually only been about 6 months.
Like what am I supposed to do? We don’t know each other any more. I haven’t seen your face in person in almost nine years. I am married and have made my life better, but whenever t... | self.offmychest |
First post here, just wanted to vent some thoughts outta my head. [deleted] | self.depression |
I’ve lost my desire to have anything to do with him sexually. It’s not just him. I love him. He has an amazing you know what. And the last time I recall, it felt really amazing. I remember being into kinky stuff. And then after that, it disappeared. My drive. My desire. I don’t know what happened and it’s causing probl... | self.offmychest |
Pill box suggestions? I'm looking for a more idiot proof pill box, and was hoping yall would have suggestions. I currently have this one that holds both morning meds and night ones in the same organizer for 7 days. Morning is blue, night is purple. I fucked it up today and took the night meds in the morning. Anyone hav... | self.bipolar |
Do you get euphoric when manic? If you dont mind, tell us more [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Sometimes I piss people off just to get some attention. [deleted] | self.depression |
School is killing me please help I go to a famous high school for gifted students. It requires you to take an entrance exam on the major that you choose. Things have been going well last year, but now when I am in my second year, school just makes me feel so freaking depressed. I couldn't catch up recently in some clas... | self.depression |
I used to cry every night, now I don't. [deleted] | self.depression |
My dad, in his crusade to keep me out of the house, took me to a gigantic restaurant with crowds of people and blaring music. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Tapering off I was taking 100 mg of Lamictal and 50 of Topiramate. I noticed a lot of fogginess and lack of motivation even on my good days and other side effects, so I have begun the process of tapering off both medications starting yesterday.
I know this is not the right path for everyone, but ultimately I would li... | self.bipolar |
Tegretol xr? I need to add a mood stabilizer on to the Wellbutrin I already take, but I have issues with many medications. I am allergic to Lamictal, Geodone, and Haldol, and Seroquel and Respiridone caused me rapid weight gain. My doctor suggested 100mg Tegretol Xr. I am absolutely terrified of any weight gain. Has a... | self.bipolar |
I need help finding a therapist I posted a few days ago about how I was one disaster away from losing what bit of my mind I have left and that disaster has happen. I can't even sit here and do my work properly as all the problems in the world continue to pile up and I am unable to handle them all. I feel ill every mome... | self.SuicideWatch |
Processing You held a gun in your hand with the wide haunting look in your eyes. I could see the fear deep in them. You stood there in your underwear in the kitchen. Holding a gun in your hand. Earlier, you looked at me. Stared at me like I was there to hurt you. You looked at me with fear and told me I was lucky you d... | self.offmychest |
I’m about to lose my health insurance I am 22 and have been on my biological father’s health insurance since I was born. It’s government so it’s very good. He is legally required to keep me on it until I graduate...in May. (Long story. We haven’t spoken since I was six. This was part of the deal my mother negotiated. H... | self.Anxiety |
university makes me wanna die i am trying my hardest to keep up with studies and its fucking draining me out. i have no social life or leisure time whatsoever, just study all day every day. although i'm giving it all my effort i'm still falling behind and the stress is making me go insane. anxiety pills aren't doing s... | self.depression |
Wellbutrin side effects I've been on paxil (10 mg) for a number of years to manage my anxiety. I noticed that I'm pretty apathetic towards most things (not good in grad school), so my doctor prescribed me Wellbutrin (150 mg) to help. I've been on it for about a week and I've noticed the following things:
1. Tremor... | self.depression |
So scared. Hello guys. I posted here some time ago that I will be having a manuscript defense and I felt anxious and scared during those times.It turned out okay. Now my only problem is paper revisions.
I have to consult to my panels and ask them shits about how the paper should be written and all that. I thought fini... | self.depression |
I won't become anything in life, might as well just end it now so as to not struggle later. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I just saw stranger things 2 ending [mild spoilers] [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else find that therapy seems to have an overall negative effect on depression? I’ve been in therapy off and on for many years. About 7 different therapists. With most of them I felt like I was making good progress for a couple of months. Then it seems like not only am I making no progress, I start getting mor... | self.depression |
Found out Grandpa has cancer I found out yesterday my grandpa has cancer. Both of my grandparents don't have much time left and it terrifies me. I [20M] have been taking care of and living with my grandparents for the past 8 years. I do absolutely everything for them. I take them to their doctor appointments, driv... | self.offmychest |
I feel like everyone is just perfectly fine in life without me, when I do everything to lift their spirits and care about them. | self.depression |
Today, I found out that my depression is treatment resistant I've been on 8 different antidepressants and the such. Prozac, Paxil, wellbutrin, pristiq, viibryd, seroquel, abilify, and trintellix. It feels like the past year and a half or so has been nothing but pills. I've been depressed since I was around 9 or 10, and... | self.depression |
I can't forgive my mother....... My best friend of 25 years died and the first thing my mother said to me was "you know he is probably in hell"!
She was a good mother but WTF! How could something like that pop out of someone's mouth? I just don't know how to really forgive her. I have said I forgive her in my mind but ... | self.offmychest |
2017 changed me When I was in a relationship through most of this year, I was miserable. Heartbroken. Always hurting. And then we broke it off. I became way more self confident, posting more selfies, enjoying myself more. I certainly do still have episodes of depression and anxiety from time to time, but 2017 has shown... | self.depression |
When you're trying to muster up the will to drive home for Thanksgiving break I've spent the last 3 days telling my family I have something to do at school before I can drive home. I spent those last 3 days sleeping and listening to music in bed. I told my graduate lead that I couldn't go in for research because I wa... | self.depression |
How do you deal with guilt after a conversation? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Everybody is entitled to their opinion. It is a human being's indomitable right to maintain their personal opinion on a creative work. End of.
Even if you think someone's opinion is "wrong," just remember - there is no "right" and "wrong" - only opinions.
Do not listen to upsetting opinions. Certain opinions can make... | self.offmychest |
SSRI nosebleeds My dr is tapering me off of klonopin and wants me to start on an SSRI at the same time. I have had horrible experiences with SSRIS and usually lose scary amounts of weight from the nausea and diahreah. Last week she insisted I take Zoloft. I figured I will try to fight through the nausea and have been s... | self.Anxiety |
I think i have to go on antidepressants and I have no one to talk to about it [deleted] | self.depression |
Awkward situation Hello everyone, I always have been a loner growing up. No friends, only child, single parent home. Being a male with only a father, I didn’t know how to interact with females when I went to college. Ha, did I mention I was obese and short growing up and Hispanic. So I decide to lose 100 pounds to be a... | self.offmychest |
anxious about moving to a new city. I've been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder recently and I take meds for it. However, I do still have quite a lot of these random episodes where I get super worked up and anxious to the point of feeling sick. I'm 23 and need to move to a new city to find a job, my employer isn't lik... | self.Anxiety |
I loved my Prius but some guy totaled it and now I’m stuck with a stupid shitty 2009 Nissan Versa bc it’s all i could afford. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My boyfriend's job search is triggering my job-related anxiety from last year First time posting here - not particularly looking for advice or anything, I just need to rant about this and don't want to stress out my boyfriend, and none of my friends would understand. Apologies if this isn't the right kind of post for t... | self.Anxiety |
Slowly I'm getting there I want to post this for everyone who needs this. I don't care if people might think it's annoying. If this reaches only one person truly, it's already worth it.
I'm 21 years old and I always thought I would spend my life unhappy. I was never a happy kid, and I didn't grew up in a happy house. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
BF's anxiety making him Aggressive I've been with my boyfriend for about 18 months. When he's calm, we are a fabulous match. He's loving, attentive, and we have very similar sense of humor.
But, he has very severe anxiety about a lot of every-day activities (driving, parking, talking on the phone, using the stove, e... | self.Anxiety |
I wish something had happened to me It might be an awful thing to say, but I wish my life had been terrible. I wish I had been raped, or abused, or bullied, or had anything happen to make me so hopeless. But I come from loving parents, I had friends as a kid, and I have a good life. I’m just built wrong, and I have to ... | self.depression |
I think I was sexually assaulted by my brother Something has just cracked back into my memory and I've been thinking about it all week now. I would love someone to talk to because I don't know if its worth going to speak to a specialist or even a big deal. I'm a 25 y/o male who does find it hard to talk about my feelin... | self.offmychest |
I'm depressed because I'm lonely. And I'm lonely because I'm depressed. It's Catch-22. Fuck this shit.
EDIT: Does anyone want to talk? Maybe we can be a bit less lonely together. | self.depression |
I think I know a killer and I don't know what to do. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else just bored of life? My life is OK. I've got most aspects under control and other than a void inside of me my emotions are most often under control as well. I feel like I can rationally look at the world
My problem is I'm so bored of everyday life and routine and there's really no way out of it, it's how so... | self.depression |
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