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anxiety is so much worse when i'm sick I just have an earache/possible ear infection. Not a big deal at all, except that those can cause *slight and temporary* hearing loss, and my brain is filtering out 'slight and temporary'. Losing my hearing is my no. 1 fear, and even this slight difference is killing me emotionall... | self.Anxiety |
Constant aching feeling in my chest again Can't get out of bed again.
Hearing a loved one murmur down the hall--"but she was doing do well, what happened?"
That hallway might as well be a fucking ocean.
What happened is I'm sick of it all.
Of going through the same cycles, of being too old for this. Of the constan... | self.depression |
My mind wants me dead. And I dont know wether to believe it or not. My mind is fucking broken. | self.SuicideWatch |
I broke down sobbing on the phone with my coworker, and I'm MORTIFIED It's been an incredibly tough week for me, so emotions are high. But I'm NEVER this emotionally vulnerable with anyone who isn't my mum or a close friend, and to make things worse she was working and so sat there on the phone listening to my sob fest... | self.offmychest |
Advice on how to manage my anxiety? I feel anxious almost all the time, about one thing or another, but those rare times I just feel relaxed and content never last long because I feel like if I'm not anxious about something something's wrong. This usually starts when school starts and backs off in the summer. School an... | self.Anxiety |
Decided to finally talk about my severe depression and anxiety Hey Reddit!
I hope I found the right topic for this.
So the thing is, that I have depression and anxiety.
This is a little sudden, hah?
I think so, too. I mean, I am on the internet, what is like the most dangerous place in the world, and I am telling of m... | self.depression |
Scared of being happy? I'm wondering if anyone else has felt like this. I've been depressed for so long that the thought of being happy seems foreign and a little scary. I just don't know what to expect should I get better (starting therapy and medication). It's almost like I don't want to get better in a weird way bec... | self.depression |
idk what i should do... i had two jobs (janitor and overnight Hotel FD) left my JAN job bc i thought my new job (stocker) was starting. needed to get another SSN card. took too long and i got put on hold until next week for the new one. i feel like crap. i am crap. FD job cut my hours to 16, used to have 25.
the money... | self.depression |
Relapse I am relapsing again. I'm in a mixed episode right as we speak.
It was triggered by a breakup this week.
I am feeling very apathetic atm. I just wish I were dead. 5 hours ago I was actually feeling cheery.
I am not steady on my meds atm. But I don't want to take them anymore, I'm sick of the shakes and tre... | self.bipolar |
I am tired of pretending to be okay I can't do it anymore. What I want is to just find someone who feels the same way about me but it's just not possible. I've spent forever trying to chase after people but it never works. My therapist told me to focus on being positive but everything just makes me feel as if I'm tryin... | self.depression |
In quiet moments I'm often overwhelmed with the fact of my mortality and unbelievably depressed at all I lack in this life and how frantic and impossible it seems to satiate this vague constellation of desires... Too little love, fun, accomplishments, creative enjoyment, sex, passion, shit all of it. Too much stress, s... | self.Anxiety |
(Really short question, might delete this later...) Does anyone else get stressed when they hear classical music? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I think I'm reaching a breaking point I've been wanting to die for 4-5 years now I just don't want to go on anymore. I could. I can definitely soldier it out. one foot in front of the other so to speak. I don't want to. I just have to plan it, I'm so emotionally drained I feel like a robot that knows it has no purpose.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dear Oregon, Get out of the fast lane. Thank you.
- California. | self.offmychest |
Doing much better. This is kind of just an update on my progress if you wanna hear about it. I stopped focusing so much on my love life so I can't get bombarded with rejection so often. I've decided that college doesn't really seem to be for me, at least not right now. I haven't told my dad yet so we will see how that ... | self.depression |
She'll eventually leave me. I don't think she's ever going to be able to put up with this illness. Even with therapy, even with medication, even with my effort that I'm starting to attempt in. I'm still going to have these up and downs for the rest of my fucking life.
I love her, but does she love me enough to stay? | self.bipolar |
Going off my meds I’ve already made the decision. I just want to know how to do it so that it doesn’t totally suck. Currently on 300mg lamictal and 20 mg celexa, my plan is to drop to 10mg celexa for a week, then completely stop celexa and cut my lamictal dose in half every week until it’s over | self.bipolar |
Getting nice abs is fucking hard. I know this isn't a big problem and that there are about a million other things that are hard but I don't feel like I can talk about this out loud because of how vain it sounds.
Always being hungry, always tracking what I eat, worrying if I've eaten too many calories, fuck, I just wan... | self.offmychest |
Being born with this curse makes life a road filled with sadness, bitterness and pain. Hello reddittors... I am a dude from Badalona, Spain. recently 27yo. Never had any job, love, too old for university (I always wanted to go, but six years is too much), 0 networking, no money, uncapable to be productive in any way, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lakes vs Seas (with a twist?) If Black Sea is not a lake because it's connected to the Mediterranean (and therefore Atlantic)...why aren't the Great Lakes considered seas seeing as how they're technically connected to Atlantic also.....
Also why are they separate lakes....they all look connected to me on map | self.offmychest |
Synchronicities during Mania? I have had two psychotic episodes so far. During these episodes a lot of synchronicities, or meaningful coincidences, would bubble up. Anyone else experience weird events during these episodes? | self.bipolar |
When you want money to move somewhere new so you Google "how to become gay4pay" [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My emotions are plummeting. When i was younger I suffered from traumatic depression and I’d often cry myself to sleep. It’s been 6 years now, I’m in an amazing relationship, but I find myself crying myself to sleep again. I haven’t had a bad anxiety episode since last year and I’d like to say i’m doing pretty good. I’m... | self.Anxiety |
My life is too embarrassing and I want to end it When I was young, I was overweight and teased.
I did average/poorly at school.
I was made fun of and always thought I would do better in life at some point
I had no plans
I got irritable bowel that eventually got better
I got a impractical degree that led to a menial job... | self.SuicideWatch |
I had low expectations on a relationship...and was still let down The only fucking thing I wanted form a gf is to finally have special person with whom I would've been able to talk about everything that I keep in secret and to have someone who listens to me and really cares.
And this needed to be a loveintrest of mine... | self.depression |
I don’t even notice my negative though spirals anymore. After reflecting a bit, I’ve just realized that my negative thought spirals have been going by unnoticed by me, and they’ve literally just become a part of my life. That’s kind of scary to me because it leaves me feeling so depressed when I don’t identify them as ... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone have sleeping problems? So its been a year since I had a manic episode and since then i have been struggling to fall asleep early and wake up early. For example i try to go to bed at 11pm but stay up til 3am and then i wake up at 11:30am.
Is this common to have trouble waking up at a decent hour. It doesnt hel... | self.bipolar |
Why is it so hard to admit when you're wrong? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Nothing getting better. Hi everyone. Not sure if anyone remembers me but I posted here a little over two weeks ago. Thank you all so very much for the kind words and so many personal messages that I’ve still been working on replying to :)
I’ve given it some time and was hoping things would maybe get a little better bu... | self.SuicideWatch |
Looking for a new job/turning down prospects is severely triggering my anxiety. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My overly guilty conscience causes me anxiety…any tips? I have an extremely guilty conscience. Like to the point where I feel sick anytime I may have done something wrong or that looks bad. Part of this is good because I try to be the best person I can, but everyone makes mistakes and its hurting my life. I’ll give ... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling really worthless right now! No one talks to me. I've been ignored my whole life and I'm so tired of it. People have told me that I'm a piece of shit and I'm starting to believe them. Every day I have to put so much effort into being okay and I'm so tired. The only person that I want to be with hates me and neve... | self.SuicideWatch |
Wellbutrin and Tinnitus [X-post: r/tinnitus]
I have been very happy with Wellbutrin thus far. I have however noticed my tinnitus is rapidly getting worse. Both a [Google search] (http://www.google.com/search?q=Tinnitus+Wellbutrin) and browsing r/tinnitus suggest there is some anecdotal evidence the drug can be in some... | self.bipolar |
I feel like I just missed out on my future. I'm a high school freshmen. I believe I have had issues with depression and social anxiety (I have never got an official diagnosis, as I never talk to anyone about this kind of stuff) pretty much since the fifth grade. But I have never felt as hopeless and close to actually d... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't stand the idea of letting down my dad, but every time I try to be productive, I get massive panic attacks (x-post r/MMFB) My dad is awesome. He knows how hard it is for me to find work because of my anxiety, so he supports me financially (from out of state, no less) to make sure I have the things I need.
I don... | self.Anxiety |
Maybe you should stop trying. Maybe I should stop trying too. I think the problem with a lot of people with major depressive disorder is that we are fighters, hard-workers, and people who actually have to struggle and work sleeplessly to get what we want. So we think trying will do something, and always resisting. I se... | self.depression |
I have made concrete plans to cheat on my wife but really don’t want to follow through. I really need help.
I will be visiting another country in two weeks time for two weeks. I visited a dating site and have been talking to a girl there. We have plans to meet and spend the two weeks together and basically have a wild... | self.offmychest |
1.5 months into mother's effexor treatment. Any anecdotes regarding antidepressant progress welcomed. So my mother has been on effexor for 1.5 months, and she only hit the therapeutic dose of 225mg 2 weeks ago. While her sleep has shown great improvement and her appetite has shown some as well, her mood hasn't at all r... | self.depression |
I think about suicide a lot, but I'm not 100% sure if I want to die. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
going to social worker soon how should I prepare for it?, my mind is blank, I see no future, im anxious, depressed, stress, no friends, no job, there is so many thing wrong with me I dont know where to start, does anything know what type of question I can expect on the first meeting ? | self.depression |
Depression brain = forgetfulness = formal reprimand at work Ugh - first notice at work. Not good.
I'm doing the best that I can. Have an FMLA that mentions memory problems, does that at all cover me? | self.depression |
A question that I want an answer on I had a really difficult year with all my friends and family, mostly my friends. Now I'm on break and I'm going back to school on the 3rd of January. I know a new year means to forget about everything, forgive people and start a new beginning. But, have you ever forgiven people so mu... | self.depression |
How do I become happy with life? It’s been years since I have felt anything beside a meh or sad thoughts I stay strong for my wife and kids but that is getting harder day by day....
I figured with time off from work that would help nope felt more lost after 5 days off...
Any advice would be great!! | self.depression |
Feelings of Anxiety DAE post
My anxiety for me isn't just a mental stress thing, but a literal feeling in my stomach that just grows and grows every day. The worst part is that I feel it in almost every circumstance except deep, intellectually engaging reading or immersive video games. I feel like I have a hole starti... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else's suicidal thoughts come in when you are bored? I have this problem in which when I am not constantly entertained, my suicidal thoughts set in. Does anyone else have this problem? How common is it? | self.SuicideWatch |
Psychedelic "reset" for depression in BP2? Anyone here have any experience with psychedelics (mushrooms, aya, ketamine) in the treatment of a bipolar depression?
I've been in my current depression for months. Was put on antidepressant (Wellbutrin) which hasn't pulled me out of it. Also had a short course of lithium w... | self.bipolar |
I need help. I know I do. But I don't have insurance. I looked into sliding scale mental health and can't even afford that. I'm hanging on by a thread. My husband would be devastated if I killed myself. I can't do that to him. I can't do that to my one year old daughter. Please help me. If you know of anything. Please. | self.SuicideWatch |
My friend is having a baby Ive known her since we we're in 3rd grade, we had a gap in our friendship where she kinda disappeared, turns out she was on drugs and now shes been clean for a year and a half. Shes engaged to a pretty nice guy, been together for a little over a year. She works at McDonalds and he works a min... | self.offmychest |
Update: New friend is suicidal due to worry about becoming I don’t have the health to be supportive but I care. Any resource suggestions? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Just don’t care today - cold and logical ... [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I got sexually assaulted at school and my boyfriend doesn’t believe me. 16 [F] I was 15 at the time this all happened. 4 months ago I got sexually assaulted and its all hitting me like a truck now. My boyfriend doesn’t believe me. 4 months ago I was friends with this guy who shall remain unnamed. It all began last year... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else Get so annoyed when coworkers constantly say "why are you mad" "you need to smile" "why do you seem so sad sometimes" "why do you look like you're in such deep thought" BLAHBLAH BLAH BLAH . I can't stand people constantly commenting on my mood. Mind your fuckin business like half the time I'm probably ... | self.bipolar |
Every day I'm getting closer to killing myself I have the method. I know it'll work. I'm just working up the courage now. Self harmed for the first time in forever and for the first time it actually felt good. I think this is it. I think I'm finally getting close to ending it. | self.SuicideWatch |
Rant about the ACA Okay so first, let me tell you about the Affordable Care Act (the ACA, also known as Obamacare). My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2011, right when some of the ACA was starting to take effect. She signed up for a plan, got some of the best healthcare in the country, and 5 years later she is ... | self.bipolar |
If I had a gun I'd blow my fucking brains out [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
That orange message-notification... It makes me happy, wanted, feeling like I belong. I love comments because I feel so alone in all of this. Even if the comment didn't help a lot, I feel like I'm not alone. Oh god I'm so miserable.
EDIT: No its not a cry for attention or likes or upvotes. I sincerely feel good when I... | self.depression |
Never-ending Guilt Trip I place the blame on myself for so much in my life. At work, at home, in my relationships...even when my dog is being a buttcheek I wonder what I did wrong to make him act like a brat. Recently I confronted my ex about something he did that made me uncomfortable and upset and I think maybe he ha... | self.bipolar |
The love of my life has thrown me away. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
i don’t know how to hold on anymore the past 6 months of my life have been especially terrible lately and not a day goes past without thinking about suicide
i’ve been talking to all my support networks but unfortunately i can’t get to see a psychiatrist for at least another few weeks and it’s gonna be even longer befo... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to hurt myself **warning for blood and self harm obvi**
I've self-harmed before but it wasn't very extreme. I mostly did it with scissors and I didn't really bleed at all it just stung. The last time I did it was sometime during spring of this year, idr but the times I've done it then were during some extremely... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else cry when someone is unhappy with you or after being scolded? I just got a stern talking to from my boss about a mistake I made and I managed to keep it together while talking with him but as soon as I got off of the phone I started crying and wanted to hurt myself. Ive been crying off and on for the la... | self.Anxiety |
My kids refuse to move out because they won't walk [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Is it worth it? Work, social life and money.
One of those three things I have.
Im a pretty seclusive person in general,
Especially since I've gotten sober 3 years ago.
It seems as if I've lost contact with everybody. When I was high on crank going on a 3 week binger it felt like I was hanging out and having sex with a... | self.depression |
TTW you think you’re not bipolar but then remember you went manic and got hospitalised couple of months ago #yep | self.bipolar |
Yesterday was my birthday My 26th, and I am already depressed about that, but my only surviving parent didn't even bother call/text/social media anything. All aboard the deeper depression train | self.depression |
Years of thoughts, I don't remember not wanting to die. Suicide has been a tango of thoughts all my life.
I guess you can say, laying thinking of my ex, one of my closest friends right now, my sir, this morning, is hurting me a bit.
I always knew, and still know, that one day I'll just drop off the face of the plan... | self.SuicideWatch |
I HATE THAT THE SMALLEST THINGS SET OFF MY ANXIETY BECAUSE IT FEELS LIKE I CAN'T HAVE A SINGLE NORMAL INTERACTION WITHOUT GOING CRAZY WITH STRESS AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM | self.Anxiety |
I may have bipolar. Now depressed and going through college final exams. Help? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I’ve just ended a 5 year relationship. When I was growing up I was always the one in a relationship. I bounced from one into another over the course of about 10 years. I’m now 30. Single, and smoking a joint half way around the world from home. I was always the one that was gonna do the normal thing. Get a normal job, ... | self.offmychest |
Oh boy, nothing makes me feel more like a useless piece of shit than being home for the holidays! Hahahaha if one more person finds an excuse to remind me that I'm a huge, terrible disappointment, I'm going to fucking peel off all of my skin with my nails and eat it. Hey, maybe THAT'S why i fucking hate being here, Mom... | self.depression |
I think my 17m son is autistic. He’s been working with a child psychologist since he was a few months old, and getting looked at by a specialist in a couple of days. I have no idea what to do or how to handle this. I’ve been holding this in for months now and I can’t anymore.
I’ve been evaluated for ASD myself, right ... | self.offmychest |
Coming to terms with mediocrity They say I have low self-esteem. I say: I have a realistic view of myself and my abilities.
It's not about comparing myself to other people. There is always going to be someone better. SomeONES. I'm probably not even average on most of the metrics that matter.
It's just... this is wh... | self.depression |
Am I a bad person? Recently one of my closest friends anniversary for his death came around and it sent me spiraling down.
I posted a message in hope he would some how see it but instead others saw it and for the last month all I have heard is how selfish I am.
This post is very personal to me and I can't understand... | self.depression |
I'm nothing without my medication I thought I was over it and could stay off my medication. I'm nothing. I can barely function. I've taken this since my birthday in March and nothing's changed. | self.depression |
Pretty sure I just had my first panic attack, and this sub has been extremely helpful. Okay so I would say I'm a little more anxious than the average person, but I wouldn't really think that I have anxiety issues. I have low self-esteem but I get myself out of the house and I have direct contact with customers daily in... | self.Anxiety |
My good days make me scared that I’m really just faking everything for attention. [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want to die Everyone keeps telling me that I can hang on.
Survive this.
But I don't want to goddammit. I want to close my eyes and never open them again.
Disappear from this world and never come back.
I just made 218 cuts on my legs. I'm lying on the floor, writhing in pain.
But I STILL feel lonely.
Humans hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
Took a whole bunch of pills. Will probably die soon. Ama? Haven't written a note or anything. Was thinking about doing this for a long time, and I just did it I guess. I don't have any friends or anyone worth contacting. Good bye and good night if I don't reply again. | self.SuicideWatch |
Horrible day.. quit my job on the first day. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Wanting to seek help before it's too late I'm just wondering if anyone here has experience with getting help with depression/suicidal thoughts while on government healthcare (USA).
A little bit of my story:
I've been *sad* as far back as I can remember, but I've never been to a doctor or psychiatrist about it. My p... | self.depression |
I can't do anything I'm supposed to I just find new ways to fill the void instead of trying to fix all the problems in my life. | self.depression |
I know that I would not be sad if my parents died. Is this crazy? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I need to get my shit together badly, but I just end up feeling worse all the time because I never can, and I don't know if that's a real problem or I just lack willpower and I'm making excuses I just started high school and I feel this a lot lately. I have a high functioning autism variant that I did a lot of work tow... | self.depression |
I'm sorry my love I'm sorry for the heartache I put you through. I keep telling you that I don't want depression to define me, but I feel it's no longer doing that; I just feel like I am depression. I'm sorry for the argument we just had, I'm sorry I tried to hurt myself even though you begged me not to. Whilst I was d... | self.offmychest |
It's ok to hate most white people: Online dating experiment I made an online dating account across various platforms. I used a 10/10 white male model. However, in my bio i wrote about white supremacy and "looking for my aryan queen: No POC. I wrote things that were ostensibly rude and misogynist ,too, like " Please do... | self.offmychest |
Oh no. My superpowers are gone. Just got over a month and a half-long bout of hypo/mania, with a whooole lot of drinking and a whoooole lot of somehow avoiding being hungover. (We'll skirt around the fact that I probably shouldn't be drinking to begin with, for now.) That was definitely the longest episode I've had so ... | self.bipolar |
i always just think about everything in my life that's happening, and i want to cry. but i can't. the title says it all, there's so much shit happening in my life right now, shit that i've messed up in. and i want to change, i've been trying to. it just doesn't work because, one, my dad calls me an idiot, criminal, and... | self.depression |
Help with reoccurring depression and anger towards some people?! This will be a long read but I would really appreciate it if anyone could read it and give me advice, I’ll try to go into detail and explain everything so you guys can get a clear understanding of what happened, please don’t judge me to hard because I pro... | self.depression |
I keep feeling this sense of impending doom and I have absolutely no reason to. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm just done I thought I was getting better at controlling my suicidal thoughts. But today...today I'm just done. I feel so alone and so much is going on in my head that I just don't want to live anymore. | self.SuicideWatch |
I have an issue, I can't seem to fix it I have a major issue with myself. It's present everywhere in my life but it tends to really show itself with school. I have a procrastination problem, if it could even be called that, seeing as half the time the stuff never gets done. I know I have an issue with this, and I know ... | self.SuicideWatch |
i can't stop thinking about her... ill never get to see her again and it's all my fault I should have said something she was the only friend I ever had and now shes gone... i just wish I could have told her all the things I felt when she was around :,( im going to be with her again soon I just need to let the medicatio... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am a good person and I still want to die. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Doom Does anyone else's anxiety get worse when things seem to be going well? I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop and the longer it takes the worse its going to be I feel. Sorry if this doesn't make sense. | self.Anxiety |
I just fucking lost faith in the only person I thought understood me [deleted] | self.depression |
Considering Suicide as an Option Relatively new to reddit, and understand this isn't a place for professional help, but thought I'd post this anyways. A bit about myself:
- 24yo
- financially stable
- healthy (long distance) relationship - more than willing to support me through depression treatment (therapy, etc.)
- ... | self.depression |
After planning things the entire year for my friends, I had a very lonely 21st birthday. Where many people even didnt bother wishing me. Its not just that, i have never gotten a birthday surprise in my life and despite of planning things the entire year for all of my friends, none of them did anything for me. | self.offmychest |
I try to ignore my suicidal thoughts but they always come back stronger. [deleted] | self.depression |
lifes kicking me in the shins i dont even know how to start,
in the past year i thought things were going up but the past 3 months have been a repeated beating.
i took over a head chef job 8 months ago and put my own menu on and stuff and it feels like im drowning in criticism,
my girlfriend of 2 years came out of the... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to reassure, you’re not alone. And you’re worth every bit of clear happiness you want. I saw this on another social media platform, and it really hit me. I feel like someone else might feel good too.
“Dear person reading this I hope your day has been going well, if not, I hope it gets better. You are an a... | self.Anxiety |
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