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I feel.... I don't know what I feel. This year has been many things, although I really don't know anything anymore. I feel like I'm going insane, although I feel content. I used to know what my emotions were, what I enjoyed, what I disliked, all of that. Lately it's just been a blur to me. I suppose if it's worth men...
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Help me with my secret santa Hi all, hope this is ok to post in here but I just got matched up with a redditor for my secrect santa that suffers from anxiety and sounds like they're going through a pretty tough time at the moment. They sound like they're a really nice person but just struggling hard and having never h...
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I just don't get it What's so good about being alive? Why are you all trying so hard to keep others alive? Why should they, and myself, have to keep suffering. Not everyone has good lives. Not everyone has people that care. I don't know if I can remember a time I've felt loved, and I'm more than positive others haven'...
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Anxiety I have really bad anxiety to the point where I feel like throwing up. Does anyone know how to build confidence or get over it
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me no think good no more my cognitive faculties have diminished over the past several months. my critical thinking and breadth of knowledge are the same, but my thoughts get mixed up. i'm suddenly dyslexic. i'll read a sentence and usually get a word incorrect. i've never had this problem before. i'll have a though...
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Help Reddit, please help...I’ve got no one else to turn to because I’m estranged from my family and my boyfriend of 10 years and I are going through an awful break up right now... I (26F) am in such a dark place...I have been for about 3-5 years since I went to graduate school as a first generation college student tha...
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Everything sucks I just want this to end Every breath is a struggle It’s all so hard to comprehend Grades, friends, family it’s all so hard to juggle I hide it behind fake laughs and smiles Nobody hears my pleas, I’m all alone It’s almost as if I’m on my own little isle I’m sitting here all by myself and I’ll I can d...
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I need help dealing with nausea tied to anxiety Whenever I get anxious over something I get such an upset stomach and I will puke if I'm exceptionally nervous for something. when I get into this mindset it gets impossible to eat. Each bite makes my stomach churn and I get "full" after a few bites. I can drink a fluid w...
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Nothing makes sense to me. I don’t feel like anyhing is right [deleted]
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I can't believe this decade is almost over it's been almost 8 years since I graduated high school and I wasted my time. I thought I'd be somewhere with my life at 25. Now I'll be 26 soon and I'm a nobody. I don't know where I'm headed. I'm such a loser. I don't know what I'm capable of. I've messed up so much by not fo...
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Psychiatrist won't answer my calls? I'm beginning to feel more depressed and I haven't been able to go to school all week. Is there anything she can do for me or is calling her wasting my time? Should I go to the hospital and they can give me something to calm me down or do you think they'll just admit me?
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Getting to a point in life before my father is gone [deleted]
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Love how people tell me to kill myself My brother tells me to kill myself, drop dead, cut myself, slit my wrists, hang myself, and no one would care about me if I killed myself. I’m m 14 he’s m 17. Only if he knew I cut and had suicide thoughts. I usually just ignore him or respond with “you shouldn’t joke about serio...
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Sometimes I wish that I could leave this earth without hurting others. I know it's their job to care but sometimes I don't know what to do. I just can not breathe and I don't want to do this anymore, play this twisted game. But if I end my life I will destroy someone else's. And I cannot do that. God why do people have...
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I'm a failure of a college student and I was meant to die poor and alone, it's all over , God has left me for dead . Goodbye piece of shit world
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Hey guys! You’ll never believe what I did today!! Despite anxiety lol...I gave myself my very first b12 shot into my thigh myself in the doctors office! (Under instruction and supervision of course) but I am so proud I just wanted to remind everyone you can literally do anything even if you cry before, after, or during...
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Can't get out of bed any more, can't get up to start my day, no reason to go on, nothing to live for, everything is stale and im on the edge. [deleted]
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What to do? Just made plans with a friend. Moments later I walk in my house have a conversation with my sister on which she criticizes me on something minor and it rubbed me the wrong way and now I'm considering canceling plans that are for like 30 minutes from now. Help?
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Terrible way of coping I know this makes me look like a douche, but can anyone relate when I say I cope by sexting online. It seems like a bad addiction to me, if anybody can relate, can you help out.
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Feeling the same It's been three days and I still feel the same. This time I feel like I'm going to be going through with it. Swallow some pills and cut my wrists. I don't even think I need a note. It's pretty obvious why this happened. If only I wasn't such a coward then this would be done...
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Sadness Feeling sad that due to my difficult pregnancy and severe post partum depression, I should not have another child. Feeling scared of getting my tubes tied because my grandmother died getting her tubes tied at my age. Feeling sad that my father won't apologize to DH so that my father could meet my 8 month daught...
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Hypomanic sense of humor DAE get the phenomenon where you make up some kind of whacky scenario that is loosely based on something in your environment that, to your hypomanic mind it the most hilarious thing ever but when you try to explain why your crying at laughter to the song "burning ring of fire " because of Huuj-...
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went to the ER, have an ulcer. fuck anxiety. PSA: dont take anxiety lightly fuck your nonsense. fix anxiety. it will mess u up.
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I really want to end myself I live in a muslim country and i really hate this country , its been 8 years i live here. Theres no suicide hotline here and i rarely go to my therapist , so im not very helped, and suicide is considered haram ( a sin ) here. I have a family who are a bit muslim , and some of them dont accep...
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Anyone else get extreme rages? [CN: Rage/Anger issues, self harm, assault.] When I'm not in the middle of a bad upswing, I can usually control my anger. I at least can prevent myself from doing anything physical. But during ultradian cycles or mixed episodes, I just can't hold it back. Minor things like plans getti...
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I'm 19 and I don't know what to do with my life. NEED ADVICE. [deleted]
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Bipolar and Borderline? Last week I found out I more than likely have Borderline Personality Disorder along with my original diagnosis I got a few weeks ago of Bipolar II disorder (after my former therapists and my current psychiatrist thinking it was just depression/anxiety). I just started Zyprexa (my psychiatrist pr...
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15 y/o, my life fell apart. Should I do it? [deleted]
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You ever go to sleep and hope you never wake up? Well I do. Sleeping is so peaceful. It's the only time where there is nothing to cause me any distress, because I am unconscious. When I wake up I am reminded of all the things wrong with me. When I'm awake I have time to think and thinking causes anxiety and anxiety cau...
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I'm a survivor of sex trafficking. I want to die. I reposting this to this sub because I haven't managed to find a person to actually talk to and open up to. But yeah, I feel weak and like I can't manage things anymore. I just feel defeated. I'll start with the basics. I'm 18, I've been through a lot in my life and I ...
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Girl showed me cuts on her arms and said she wasn't gonna do it, should I trust her? So, there's this girl at my school who's often lonely, maybe has two friends, she's almost always alone at lunch and stuff. I have tried being friends with her once I realized she was lonely, but we never really hit it off. Today, she ...
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HELP i am an ANXIOUS MESS over the idea that someone i hate is going to take up the same degree I'm passionate about my future career as a lawyer, and I know for a fact that there's no other career choice for me. I am, however, also aware that it's a pretty common profession to get into. BUT I'VE BEEN SO ANXIOUS THESE...
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I️ wish she would see this and I️ wish she’d come back Say something, I'm giving up on you I'll be the one, if you want me to Anywhere, I would've followed you Say something, I'm giving up on you And I am feeling so small It was over my head I know nothing at all And I will stumble and fall I'm still learning to love...
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Emotional cheating *ANGST POST* yknow I once wished that i could fall so hard and so helplessly into a relationship that would hurt me so bad that I could finally feel something, like the very cliche to have love and lost is better than to never have loved and lost at all, 💁‍♀️ and I guess I got what I asked for becau...
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Anxiety is breaking me I can’t stop overthinking, which leads to panic attacks. I think everyone hates me, I feel like a terrible person, I feel like I’m not good enough. I feel like maybe things would be better without me around. I get so anxious that I scratch the top of my head and pick at my face, I’m on three diff...
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I constantly feel like I need to change/'improve' myself but I don't know what to do Most days I feel okay. Not really happy but just 'chill.' But some days I just feel so so bad and I can't help but feel overwhelmed by all my emotions. And it's those days when I feel inadequate and I feel the need to 'fix' everything ...
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I am tired of the exams. As far as I can remember exams are the only times when I am suicidal. The thoughts come in full force. There have been 3 times where I have had made full planes to end it all but stopped short because I wasn't ever sure how successful my method was going to be. I have been taking exams for fou...
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can't think of a title After 2 whole months of struggling to get out of bed, not wanting to be alive and nothing but nonstop sadness. I started feeling better for a week or two. It took so much work. Every last drop of motivation I had and here I am again. I'm sitting in class, holding back tears. I can't believe this ...
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I'm extremely depressed, my ex left me at the end of November, I don't do alone very well [deleted]
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I'm tired of being the older sibling. Throw away account. I really need to vent on this. You see, I'm the older sibling in the family and for whatever reason, everything is expected from me. Good grades, responsibility, take your brothers here or there. Whenever I make a mistake it is taken with extreme severity and Go...
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Trouble swallowing I currently have an issue where I'm having trouble swallowing food and drink. I feel like I'm aware of the whole process of swallowing and am nervous about choking. The constant worrying about it is giving me headaches. I believe distracting myself with a spare hand, looking upwards or slowly leani...
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Disgusted by people at clubs. Are any loyal people left? Hello, I’m a guy 24M. Who works as bouncer at club and used to party a lot from 19-21. I work at fairly nice club in my country at least one of the most popular if not the most popular. I worked every weekend from Oct to beginning of December. Before that i jus...
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How should I spend my last night? Tomorrow is my time
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Sick of social media. I'm just so sick of it. I was on the bus this morning and I saw this fucking kid using Snapchat and styling his hair up and all that shit. It's mainly Snapchat, and I'm part of a small minority at my school who actively shuns stuff like Snapchat and instagram. The thing is, I'm in the perfect age ...
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Angry / crying a lot lately. Not sure if it’s grief or change in medication. I’m just looking for advice, I guess. I lost my mother in August and I’ve been a mess ever since. I switched from celexa to Luvox a few months ago due to worsening ocd (intrusive thoughts). It was okay until I went to 3 pills a day. It made me...
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Need advice...should i move So I have been going to school in michigan and i am going to be a senior in college next year and to make a long story short I absolutely hate it there. I used to swim for the college I am at but quit because I feel like all the kids were selfish, egotistical pricks and after three years of...
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A farewell Thank you for your companionship over the past year. I have often written here about hard feelings: feelings of isolation, fear, shame, anger, confusion. I have been rewarded many times over by those who express feelings in kind. Outside of Reddit, I rarely find such frankness. I am grateful. Thank you for y...
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The worst thing with depression for me. The worst thing with depression for me is that I am at the stage where I am constantly expecting bad things to happen. I am always on edge, always wondering when the next bad thing is gonna happen. I get nervous when the phone vibrates, when I see new emails or when I get letters...
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Celexa (Citalopram) and blurry vision I've been on Citalopram for 5 days, and I am starting to have blurry vision. I've noticed it the last 2-3 days. It has been mostly noticeable at night, but it is more noticeable today during the day. It is just slightly blurry, and at night there is a bit more of a halo around ligh...
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The only thing left was the ability to laugh, and I lost it two years ago. Now I have complete anhedonia. Is anyone else completely unable to laugh (or smile) naturally? I'm unable to enjoy anything anymore.
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Is there any hope for single bipolar people finding and keeping an SO? Also, when is a good time to tell someone you are interested in that you have bipolar?
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Helping a Friend with Bad Anxiety Hi all, hope everyone is having a great day. I have a question that I was hoping you guys could help me with. I have a friend (20M) who often has bad anxiety. This doesn't stop him from doing things while he is anxious and a lot of time he doesn't even say that he is anxious, but often...
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I get addicted to people. It sucks. I know it's a personality floor, but I easily get addicted to people. Like, I've been seeing this girl for a few not-saying-it-but-it-really-is dates, and I am honestly the happiest I can remember being. But if I don't talk to her for a day, I start to get really down. It happens t...
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I don't want to live anymore but I don't have the courage to end it There's too many bad events that happened in such a short amount of time. I've never really wanted to live for years now but I never really thought about killing myself and just go along with life to just be alive. But right now I'm just sick and tired...
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Does anyone else like taking long walks while it snows? Everything is quieter.
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I act like such an asshole to my friends and act like I don’t know why they are the same to me I’m always starting drama and doing stupid things like starting arguments with people, I don’t know why I act like this and I hate it
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Give me a reason or motivation plz have one of my hardest phases rn, plz help me with motivation
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I dressed up in my dark, formal clothes and walked out of the house this morning. That person never made it back. It feels like they're gone. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but that person must have been buried alongside my brother. Whatever came back, it isn't me anymore. I left this morning, but ...
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Is this anxiety? I am sorry if this is a stupid question but every night when I go to bed I feel like I am going to either die in my sleep or I start crying because I start appreciate a lot more people in my life than how I do now. When I say I feel like dying I mean I feel like the next day or something I won't be ali...
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Need tips to manage depression at work There are a lot of days when I have to actively fight the urge to get out of my seat at work and run away into the woods. Since I cannot do that, I end up looking through Reddit or Facebook or something else that momentarily calms this angst. But I need to work !!!!! Does anyone h...
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Not sure how I should be feeling. I broke up with my ex and I was over him, like seriously over him it felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders because he was addicted to pain pills. I started talking to someone else and it seems like it’s going really good. I found out this past weekend that my ex overdosed and now ...
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I [25M] recently left a year long emotionally abusive relationship with my GF[28F], wanting to hear peoples thoughts on an aspect of it that was very physically painful and confusing [Long Post] **TL;DR;** : Ex-GF used to cut me and left me with a lot of scars. It was a complicated situation and relationship. Confused ...
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Im so scared right now that I can feel how Im slowly losing my mind...save me I just watched "Happy Death Day", its basically a newer version of "Groundhog Day" and its about a person whos stuck in the same day over and over again. The sole idea of that happening in real life is driving me insane right now and I dont...
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Who are you? With all the ups and downs I don't think I know who I am yet 34f. Am I the person I am on meds? I'm kinda dull, not very talkative. Or is this me being judgemental of myself because I loved hypomania so much? What are my values? How do I give and receive love? All these things are confusing because I hav...
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Intrusive thoughts TW: self harm I feel like all of my posts on here are Debbie downer or complaining. So sorry in advance I’ve been having intrusive thoughts lately even though my cocktail was working good enough. I’ve had the same thought for weeks now, I want to cut my right shoulder. Deep enough to hurt, but not...
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I am so drained My friend is suicidal and plans to go through with it. I have tried doing everything in my fucking power to stop him from doing it, but in the end I don't even think any of it fucking mattered at all because he's going to do it anyways. I hate myself, and I almost hate him. And I hate that I sort of hat...
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3 years ago I gave up on my dream Three years ago I started my career in IT as a Desktop Tech, even though I enjoy my job SOMEDAYS!!! Ever since I have felt stuck in life as if not be going anywhere. I miss the days before, college dreams and hope. It seems like a dream now, but I can’t even remember what it feels like...
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Managing without medication? First I'd like to say that I'm entirely new to Reddit and only joined to find forums for this. I have Bipolar type 1 and was diagnosed when I was 17, I'm now 22. When I was younger, I was on a combination of meds and they made things much worse. Now I don't have insurance, and am hitting a ...
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Lithium vs seroquil? Howdy all! I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about two months ago (on top of depression, anxiety, and ADHD that I take Adderall for), so I am still learning about what that entails, and am going through the pain staking process of finding meds that work. I started with Seroquil, and despite t...
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My anxiety is manageable but I feel like I’m seriously missing out Because I’m afraid to do so much I’m capable of
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Is my tingling scalp anxiety/stress or something more serious? The doctor says that my physical symptoms are anxiety. One day I got a tingling/crawling sensation in my scalp and it disappeared in minutes. However it felt wrong and that bothered me. A month later I got it again. Then two weeks later. Now it's always the...
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It’s time I am going to talk to my dad today about getting help. Wish me luck
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I guess ‘let’s at least remain friends’ doesn’t work for me. [deleted]
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paranoid about friendships? Especially newer friendships? A few years ago I used to always be very paranoid and anxious about my friendships. I would be constantly ringing and texting them to make sure they still liked me and that we were still friends. I was always afraid that I had done something wrong and that they ...
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Christmas hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. Not doing so great right now. Usually Christmas just passes me by, but this year felt different. For the first time I wasn't invited to dinner with my family. I got a couple of hallmark cards, just posted through the door, no attempt to even see if I was in (I sh...
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Is me or is it the jobs I choose Third job in a row should mean the problem is me right? I work my ass off. Always volunteer and am eager to help out on extra tasks. I am the reliable colleague. Until the workload gets too much. Then no other colleague wants to play their part as a team and take their turn. Nobody ...
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I think #metoo movement has gone off its rails. First, disclaimer: I'm not a mysognistic asshole. I think it's getting to a place where accountability is no longer being taken by many involved. Like the Salma Hayek thing. Whenever Harvey Weinstein treated asked her for sexual favors, that's absolutely wrong. But whene...
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Seriously, WHY bother? If I don't enjoy living, and I need to work a job I don't like to continue doing so, is there any good reason to continue? I've posted here before asking [Why bother with a world that isn't a meritocracy?](https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/7g0mnq/why_bother_with_a_world_that_isnt_a_me...
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Panic Attacks like clockwork? DAE get panic attacks so regular that it is like clockwork? This quarter, I found myself feeling immense anxiety over being a TA. I absolutely have loved being a TA in the past, but have felt incredible anxiety about it this time around. I worry that I am a horrible TA, that my professor ...
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I just want to feel loved My husband and I are under a lot of stress. It's causing stupid arguments between us and leading to a lot of anxiety in me. My mental health issues are flaring up and I have no one to talk to. He's mad at me right now. He won't talk to me and he went to bed at 6 tonight just to get away from...
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It just bothers me.. It bothers me that you can have fun unless you drink and act dumb with other people. It makes me sad that i rarely get invited to parties. So I just sit home alone. It just bothers me.
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Does anyone else believe in luck? I can't help but feel like the concept of luck exists and that everything I do is destined to fail just because I'm the one I'm doing. I'm highly superstitious (which comes with its own problems) and I can't seem to break out of thinking like this. It feels hopeless to try and hope for...
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Been doing okay lately, but now experiencing a set back at 3am [deleted]
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Can i just keep trying to live my life and when everything goes to shit, just give up and die? Like fr though.... Why the fuck do i gotta live? I never asked to be born. I was thrust into this stupid excuse of a world and now im expected to live in it? I been in and about depresion for the past 4 years now. 4 years as ...
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I don't really want to die, but after having suicidal thoughts all my life, I know that's how I'll go. And it may happen soon. Title is self explanatory. I don't have a particularly difficult life, but I cannot stand myself. I've been weakwilled for as long as I can remember. Anxiety, anger and loneliness have always b...
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Not sure what to do. Hi, I don't know what to do, ya know. I sort of want a quiet place...you think it'll be quiet on the other side? Sometimes I'm so tempted to just get up and end it right then and there. Fear of the unknown and thoughts of my family stop me dead (haha) in my tracks. I just want everything to...
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I‘ve been having thoughts about suicide, but lately I haven‘t been able to tell whether they‘re just obsessive thoughts or actual suicidal thoughts. [deleted]
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No meds work for me Long story short - 2 weeks ago I got into a mental hospital into the worst unit, where you just sit in a hallway from waking up to going to sleep. Thankfully im in a better unit now, I can have my phone n stuff. Ok but basically I started taking escitil (lexapro) just from regular psychiatrist, aft...
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I Should Be Happy So, I know I should probably see a professional. However, as a college student still residing in my religious,conservative parents' house and under their health insurance, asking for this would backfire. My parents are good people with good intentions. But to put it bluntly, they don't believe depre...
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Is this normal? Will it eventually go away? Is there anything that can make it go away without just "thinking positive, get yourself to do it, focus on the goal"? [deleted]
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If I take 13 mg of klonopin and a ton of booze will I end up in the hospital, the morgue, or just late for work? Currently taking .5 a day. [deleted]
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First time going to therapy. Any advice on what to do in advance to facilitate it? English is not my native language so excuse me if I make any mistakes. I've always struggled with self-esteem problems that have affected every single aspect of my life. From relationships (manifesting as jealousy, abusive/controlling...
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I didn't choose to be born and I'm afraid to die....that's the shit I live in every day.
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Honestly getting worried I'll never find anyone to love 22 and in college. I haven't gone on any dates.. and the pool is suppose to be huge in college for dating but fuck.. I mean I am just so single. The only gf I did have was back in highschool and I'm sure she's well moved on now, (cannot text her fuck that lol), bu...
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My (25) (now ex)Gf(23) with depression asks for space I had like a huge block of text explaining everything, but I feel like people have heard most of it before. I think the long and short of it is this. What felt like suddenly in an otherwise healthy and supportive relationship, my girlfriend dipped pretty hard into ...
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I'm doing the best I've ever been doing, so why am I more anxious than ever? Hi /r/Anxiety, About a year and a half ago, I was not in a great place: I was in my mid-20s, living in a large, expensive city that I'd grown to resent, I'd just gotten laid off from my job, I was in a weird transition period in terms of my f...
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How long have you taken melatonin, if you're taking it? I just took one tonite and it said not for long term use. My pdoc said to try it, but I didnt really think about long term use. Probably because I just assumed it would be another thing that didn't work... I'm only taking 1mg to start, not sure how long before ...
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Online Therapist A while back, I posted on the Anxiety forum about how great Anxiety coaches are. I gave references to websites that offer some really great resources, and counselors. The I thought to myself, “Why aren’t I doing this?” Over 18.1% of Americans struggle with Anxiety, 350 million people suffer from depres...
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If I still feel suicidal a week from now, I am going to go through with it. I’m so sick of feeling like this every night. Nobody makes me feel better. I hate my girlfriend, she doesn’t understand me and she doesn’t even try to understand my thoughts, emotions, dreams and aspirations. I feel like a fucking failure c...
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I really want to feel small breasts Every GF I've had was average or a little chunky. I've always been turned on by small boobs, and man how I wish I could just have a girl with them.
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