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What's the point in living if I'm bipolar? I'm bipolar and I don't see a reason to live. Cause of bipolar I wont live a full life. Wont be able to have the same relationships that normal people do, wont be able to experience the same things normal people do. I just can't find a reason to live. I can't even hold a fucki... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't feel happy about myself No matter what, I can't think of positive things of myself. People have said good things about me but I just laugh it off as a joke thinking I'm a worthless piece of carp. | self.depression |
Arrested by a bad cop So flash back to April of this year and I’m in my first manic episode. No one has diagnosed me yet, I just snapped and went to the hospital. Well while I was there things went wrong. I snapped again and ripped open the curtain of someone pushing out a baby and then was TACKLED by the cop there. Id... | self.bipolar |
Trigger Warning I’m really struggling at the moment and I can’t turn to anyone and I’m worried laying it all on my boyfriend will push him into hating me. I want to harm myself so badly and I want to hurt my arms like I used to but I can’t because I work in a school now so I just keep ruining my legs all the time inste... | self.bipolar |
Past My Prime I'm only 18, but I already feel like my glory days have come and gone. Back I highschool, I was pretty much the "King of The Nerds", as it were. I was one of the only upper classmen who was really into stuff like anime and video games, so all the younger nerds sort of looked up to me? I guess? I was the d... | self.depression |
Was given a work phone, it's causing me anxiety. I recently got a work phone given to me during my shift last week, we initially had radios that we would use so that when operations had issues we could go to the area to help fix/diagnose what's going on. They decided to give us phones so that we could be more reachable... | self.Anxiety |
Feeling suicidal Just lost everything due to one bad night of a bad decision | self.bipolar |
Am I depressed? Alright I will do my best to explain my situation here, I am 16 years old, from what I remember I have been depressed basically my entire childhood up until around 14,15. My current problem is that I do not know if I am depressed or what is going on with me, 99.9% of the time I do not really have any fe... | self.depression |
I need someone to talk to, I'm losing it! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
when you realise people who you thought were friends actually hate you :( [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing I used to enjoy, isn't enjoyable anymore... I've always struggled with anxiety and depression, due to the absolutely awful childhood i had. For a while there I thought I had everything under control..until July of this year. my whole world was flipped upside down again..and i'm at rock bottom. I have to force m... | self.depression |
I feel depressed and that I also have no one to talk because it's 'just some petty crush'. It means a lot for me to get some closure and advice right now. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Maybe if I run away, then everyone will miss me [deleted] | self.depression |
I don’t like it I don’t like it when people say I’m not alone. There are almost 8 billion people in this planet. And even if there were 100 billion, nobody would be like me. Not even an alien would be even remotely similar to me. It feels like everything except me is real and I’m not supposed to exist. Why do I like th... | self.depression |
I don't know how much longer I can deal with my problems. There is no reason for me to be alive, and there is never going to be. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
It’s the little victories Currently I work full time, take classes, deal with depression & anxiety as well as have a husband that is bipolar and has been rapid cycling since July. I struggled all semester with my coursework. I dropped two 3 credit classes (originally was taking 14 because I have no concept of sanit... | self.offmychest |
Got dumped. I wanna cut and I want to end it. My now ex girlfriend couldn't even tell me over a text that it was over and got her friend to tell me. I want to cut myself to oblivion to make myself feel numb. I want to die more now, I didn't think it was possible. | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know what I would do without my mother. I'd probably have to be taken to the psych ward if my mom ever dies suddenly. I don't know what I'd do without her. I'd rather die than stay with my Dad, and I don't want to piggyback on my sister. Maybe I'd just go homeless and starve in a corner somewhere in silence. | self.depression |
Nothing I do will be good enough. I am a stay-at-home mother. I cook the food from scratch. I clean the house do the laundry watch our son. Even when my boyfriend is off work I'm watching the kid. If I had a real job I'd be working 16 hour shifts. I'm exhausted. But if I try to talk about it I get told about I would ... | self.offmychest |
Anyone else feels like everything and everyone just annoys you? [deleted] | self.depression |
I want to end my life because my life as I know it is over. Two weeks and I’ll be 18. I’ve posted tons and tons of times about this. I’m so scared, and I can’t take it. I’ve lived as a kid, and I want to die as one... I’m sorry, I really need help, and many people say 18 is still a kid, and 21 is the point where you gr... | self.SuicideWatch |
What does your anxiety feel like? How do you know when it hits you? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
thinking that I might have bipolar disorder I originally thought I might have depression but I've been thinking differently recently. I'll have 2-4 periods in a year of being depressive and another of what I perceive as normal, but then within each period I'll have smaller swings between a strange state of being restle... | self.bipolar |
This world makes me want to die. The people in this world are terrifying and so evil. There is so much hate and violence out there and I find myself often thinking about killing myself partially to avoid letting anyone hurt me. I am so afraid of being attacked and raped that I want to kill myself before it happens. I a... | self.depression |
Dropped acid a few months ago and been depressed ever since [deleted] | self.depression |
Failed my final exam now I failed the class. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Thanksgiving should be a time for love But in my case, it's not.
I came out as a trans individual in March, and found myself excommunicated from my family beyond my parents. I'm on rocky ground with them as well for "threatening us to get your way," referencing my blunt statement of "if I don't transition while I hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
[GAD] social media Anyone else here (w/ or w/o GAD) get scared/anxious about posting to social media? I don't get scared about posting to Reddit, but I often severely hesitate and have to talk myself into posting on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. | self.Anxiety |
I relapsed after months of not self harming My depression came as a wave. Like a fucking huge wave. My body was burning, I felt like I was drowning. I hadn't felt like this in a long time, and I had to cut to feel relief. I am really tired of life. I'm tired of being hardworking, resilient, calm and always happy. I'm s... | self.bipolar |
I understand why people cut now. Not that I've ever looked down, criticized, or hated them for cutting, I just couldn't empathize.
But right now I am in so much, so much emotional pain right now that I want some physical outlet to let it out, and I can't see any way other than cutting.
I understand now. | self.depression |
Serving time for a crime I didn't commit has left me contemplating suicide. [deleted] | self.depression |
All that anger,depression,hatred,pain someday is going to burst out. I dont know about you guys but im feeling like im close to absolutely break and loose my mind.I either kill myself,somebody or both and go full homicider.Do you have this feeling too? | self.depression |
I had an invention that you let China continue to mass-produce although mine was a bit different. I just wanted to let you know that Dog Moccasins made from plush nylon that slip on and lock around the ankle of the dog's paw to keep their feet nice and dry and glass-free is much different from the stuff with the velcro... | self.offmychest |
Why are people so selfish? I'm still here, but I no longer want to be. Ive decided I will do it before my birthday in June, so I have a deadline.
I tried to talk to my dad, and he just made it worse, telling me how much everyone will hurt if I do it. I asked him if he knew how much I hurt and told him the trade off w... | self.SuicideWatch |
In July last year I planned to kill myself at the end of January if life didn't improve. (It hasn't). I have been struggling with anxiety and depression since I was 10. I have been on and off medications and in and out of therapy.
July last year I was admitted to hospital due to mental health problems, I received a lo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Rapid cycling? Anyone deal with rapid cycling? I feel like my whole life is turned upside down after every shift. Any advice or even someone who’s experienced this would be awesome :) | self.bipolar |
Hangover anxiety Does anyone else suffer from extreme anxiety/panic attack after a night of heavy and even sometimes light drinking? I am slightly ok the next day if I stay in my house but god forbid I have to go into public...the numbness in my chest, and extremities is so intense and the feeling of a heart attack jus... | self.Anxiety |
If I had a gun I wouldn’t be writing this
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I don’t have the guts to hang myself
Shooting my self seems so much easier | self.SuicideWatch |
My daughter is so excited for a kindergarten program they are putting on for the families at school. Can’t throw it away—I have to attend. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I woke up at 4 am with stomach ache and nausea and now I'm scared Since I never had a health check there I just looked up how a gastroscopy works and I started crying because it's so terrifying. I'm terribly afraid of...
* going to the doctor in the first place
* not managing to not eat for 12 hours due to stomach pa... | self.Anxiety |
Question about medication - NOT diagnosis related, rather about acquisition I've been medicated properly for about a year, and while I still plan on seeing my doctors, it occurs to me that I should have some kind of contingency plan ready in the event that health care goes away. Are there legal sites where I can obtai... | self.bipolar |
How do you get past anxiety long enough to admit fault. I work at a restaurant and yesterday I took home $60 without realizing it. A guest called today saying her final credit card receipt hadn't reflected the cash she put in. I honestly never saw it. I told my boss there was no cash. I even said they could look at the... | self.Anxiety |
Being robbed and losing all the money for my family Christmas presents [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Looking for a long term friend male or female I’m 20 and I’m a dude so pm me I’m chill af [removed] | self.depression |
First bf, abortion, abuse. Past creeping in on me [deleted] | self.offmychest |
My boyfriend broke up with me because of my anxiety [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
How strong are my antidepressants? Hey,
So after months of feeling like my world wasn't worth living in, I've finally plucked up the courage to see the doc's. Just curious, how strong are my tablets?
I've been prescribed venlafaxine and Venzip XL both once a day.
Thanks for any heplp | self.depression |
I think latuda stopped working I started 40 mg latuda on top of my other meds like a month ago and it was great but eventually I could tell I needed something stronger so we went to 60 mg. Yesterday it's like a switch flipped and I went from fine, personable, normal to depressed and hopeless. What the hell. I've been o... | self.bipolar |
Freefalling in a void again - Not a f'ing poem [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My life is miserable and I can't understand why [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
too depressed to go to practice, but if I miss any more I might get kicked off the team [deleted] | self.depression |
Question for my fellow Bipolar Survivors I was wondering if others have this feeling deep inside that you are not like everyone else? I have had this feeling from childhood, and it feels like it's originating from my gut. I used to observe people having fun or interacting with others and wonder why am I not like this? ... | self.bipolar |
Getting real sick of the cashiers at work getting preferential treatment while us busboys get treated like shit. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
i still don't understand why things ended up like this. below is a bunch of stream of consciousness venting so i apologize if it doesn't really make sense. everything sucks right now and i need this shit out of my head before it gets to be too much to think about.
it's really fucking funny that no matter how hard i tr... | self.depression |
[Venting] Having a hard time coming to terms with having different needs than most. I'm having a really hard time today. I woke up on the wrong side of the world it seems; obviously this caused tension with the SO this morning. Now I'm at work, trying not to let the overwhelming feelings of self doubt flood in and caus... | self.bipolar |
Depression and suicidal thoughts making me sick I've never experienced depression like this in the past so I cant tell if this is normal or something else but can someone else please tell me if they've experienced it too. I feel like Im losing my mind more and more. My head feels like its going to explode, I cant eat p... | self.SuicideWatch |
anyone? I don't have any reason to have anxiety, I live in a pretty privileged family, ive had a couple ups and downs, a few bumps that might of caused it, but its only just developed over the last 2-ish years. I really dont have anything to worry about, my lifes pretty good, yet anxiety still lingers. It's gotten seve... | self.Anxiety |
i dont know how to meaningfully cope with these feelings. I'm getting overwhelmed and I don't know what to do. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I think I maybe racist So I was watching this movie 47 Ronin and I swear every male with a similar haircut looked the same to me. Even the women looked similar I couldn't tell some of the characters apart. | self.offmychest |
Valerian iteraction with kava I tried to take valerian for my anxiety and didnt work as much as expected from an axiety releiving natural medicine, plus it couldn't make me feel a high. So i found kava and managed to get some from internet. I tried it and really like it. I found that trying both together destroy the ka... | self.Anxiety |
A goodbye video? So I've ordered my choice of drugs to OD on from the dark web and and am now just waiting. Will be a benzo and alcohol overdose, up on a quiet hill that overlooks some nice fields, around 7am just as the sun's coming up. Hopefully it should be nice.
I wanted to ask, has anyone decided to leave a video... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else ever wonder if it is actually worth fighting anymore? I hate that even with meds and therapy I still have relapses severe enough to land me in the hospital. When I am stable, I still struggle with suicidal ideation and self harm on a daily basis. I have a "meaningful" career that is my default excuse f... | self.bipolar |
I discovered I’m bipolar and have been my whole life, and I’m completely panicking. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I know I shouldn't care I'm in a relationship and I love my girlfriend very much. However I still love my ex whom was a few years ago and my feelings havent changed.
Sometimes I feel like I made a huge mistake by trying to move on. She said she was wasnt ready for a full commitment so it was "dating" as opposed to off... | self.offmychest |
Does Gabapentin Help you with your Bipolar? I have been considering stop taking gabapentin because it gives me heart palpitations and due to the possibility of weight gain. I just got of seroquel and gained a lot of weight. I dont want to take another weight gaining drug again. Does it even help with mania or anxiety? | self.bipolar |
Seeking help today I've been struggling with lots of issues for a very long time and always thought people who sought help were weak... today I had enough and my own thoughts scared me. I usually have an attitude of "whatever" never taking anything seriously cuz life is a huge joke. But my dad and i argues this morning... | self.SuicideWatch |
I found something to help my anxiety, I think, and I wanted to share. Good morning, friends! Last night was a huge struggle for me. I climbed into bed when I suddenly just started fucking bawling. I decided to try and meditate and preform some deep breathing exercises and they worked enough to allow me to fall asleep. ... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like a failure because I still haven't gotten "over it"... [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I can't catch a break from myself Longtime lurker here. Im sorry for the lengthy post, Ive been needing an outlet and thought this sub would be the best place to vent.
Im 23/m and ive been dealing with depression and low self esteem my whole life. I used a lot of drugs through my early teens and into my early 20s, tho... | self.Anxiety |
DAE will be fucking lonely on new year's eve? My coworker asked me today about my plans for that day. I told him Im at work, but it's fine with me since I dont have any special plans anyway. "You have no friends, so you've got no plans, HEHEHE"
just fuck this guy. | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do I have to constantly poke people for their attention? Jesus H Christ. A relationship is a 2 way street is it not? It's freaking exhausting trying to maintain relationships while working full time. I feel so lost. Is this sort of loneliness inevitable? | self.depression |
I wish I had a friend to talk to. There’s been a couple times me and my SO have fought, and it’s been so bad where she didn’t want to talk to me for days, sometimes even a full week. And she’s the only person I can really talk to about my feelings whether it’s depression or loneliness or anxiety. And all those all only... | self.depression |
Opinions on Weed? I smoked weed daily in my teens but when my anxiety really began to manifest in my late teens, weed completely changed for me and made me super anxious and made me feel like I was going crazy.
I gave up for a while and now I’m back smoking daily , I’m 24 btw. I still get super anxious when I smoke it... | self.Anxiety |
I annoyed this person but did she hate me at the end? I had a last appointment to get travel expenses for my new job with my job advisor who I'd been going to for 6 months. I'd never really got on with her in recent times as I used to just keep my head down rather than saying hello to her and I always felt she hated me... | self.offmychest |
:) i just went to my first concert im quite happy.. elated.. well i dont even know the songs of these bands but i moved my body still (so fun.. ) front crowds are wild (they are hard fans and im nothing) . its fun to move along with the music - concerts are a totally different thing than just earbuds - the sounds n rea... | self.offmychest |
Deep, dark emptiness I have been in a very long relationship . We have had our ups and downs , but he's broken my trust many times ; I believe partially because we were so young whe we met. I didn't have depression or anxiety when I met him but now I do. Anyway, when he's away (like he is right now) I become extremely... | self.depression |
One of my best friends is a child sex offender. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Low self-esteem, high functioning depression or just need some self-validation? [deleted] | self.depression |
I crashed. The thing I was so scared of has finally happened. I have officially crashed and the burning will commence real soon. I should’ve known better than to expect any different this year. It’s always the same. I do so well in the summer then around this time of year all my hard work just goes to shit.
I got one... | self.bipolar |
Finally accepting my diagnosis I am 31 and was diagnosed bipolar NOS about 6 years ago and today I am finally accepting my diagnosis. The last 10 years of my life have been a mess and today was the final straw that broke my denial-camel’s back. My wonderful, fantastic, accepting boyfriend of 1 year did something tot... | self.bipolar |
Is Depersonalisation Permanent, I hope not, and how do i deal with it OK I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH, i would like an answer from people who have had this, IS depersonalisation permanent, Can you promise me it isnt permanent, And Can i get some tips on how to beat This Horrible thing. | self.Anxiety |
Books make me realize I was the one who was wrong. :/ So I've always had issues with social skills. I'm a naturally kind person but over the years I got cold and callous. Ended up burning more bridges than needing to do so. Until a friend recommended me to read a book that helped him reconnect with an old flame. Dale C... | self.offmychest |
This is the message my friend sent me earlier She's been semi-supportive in that she offered me to come stay at her house for a week to get a change of scenery in January, but she was working at the time so I still felt quite lonely when I was there and she didn't really offer any words of support.
I didn't tell her ... | self.SuicideWatch |
'What's your problem?' asked my SO half an hour ago after I had a little meltdown. I don't know how to answer. I don't know what is my problem... | self.bipolar |
Experience with Citalopram? I was prescribed 10mg Citalopram today. Was wondering what are your experiences with it and how bad were your side effects? | self.Anxiety |
No validation. I lost a resentful but precious friendship that had caused me many nights of crying and sadness. I experience these feelings of sadness less now, but they still come sometimes, without my control, and I don't know how to resolve this.
I don't trust myself, so I'm asking you guys.
I feel that there's a... | self.depression |
I dream of the day I complete my journey to happiness [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
PSA: Although you might think reading the news in a mixed episode is a good idea ;), shockingly it's not! [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I’m a crappy boyfriend who doesn’t deserve who I’m with [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I seriously need some sort of help or advice [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else not fit the stereotype of “depressed person that wants to make everyone else happy”? [deleted] | self.depression |
no one in this world will EVER TRULY be able to understand my pain, and I need to accept that or I'll just hate every single human being forever [deleted] | self.depression |
Best friend in college told me she no longer wants to be friends after learning about my bipolar, and now tells people I have multiple personality disorder. Ever since I was diagnosed I decided to never tell anyone who I went to college with, especially since I had a manic episode when I was a freshman and unaware of m... | self.bipolar |
Work and stress has been making me self-harm more and more Just recently, I've been banging my head against the walls at work in private out of stress. These 8+ hour shifts have really been taking a toll on me.
I even impulsively banged my head against a flat surface when a manager was nearby after fucking up somethin... | self.offmychest |
I cant live like this... Going to work everyday, constantly being made to feel insignificant, wearing down my mind and body, giving out my personal information, being exposes to all kind of people. Just so you can have money in the bank to buy over priced things back from similar institutions that gave you the money in... | self.depression |
I would do a lot of things just to have a girlfriend cuddling right next to me and slowly dozing off as I run my fingers in her hair. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Cringing and a little worried Hey, guys. I smoked some pot this weekend and kind of had a breakdown. I'm not sure what I did or who I talked to. I'm worried. | self.bipolar |
PSA: New Content Warning/Trigger Warning System Hey everyone. There has been some demand for a content warning or trigger warning system. As such, I'm asking everyone to please make sure the title of their posts reflects any content in the post that might be disturbing. You can do this in a few ways:
Example 1: "I cut... | self.bipolar |
Helps me to write this down, but having a hard time now. Would like a reason. I used to be someone... So I'm still having deep battles with depression, it's at a landslide victory.
Summarized
Battle depression all my life, but last 2 years heavy decline. Last 5 months been solitary lifestyle.
Literally hand... | self.depression |
So embarrassing 🤦🏽♂️ Rode a high yesterday. Passed driving test. Someone I superliked on tinder right swiped on me.
Then I started messaging random people (acquaintances) but those people that I haven’t spoken to for a while. Especially those who knew about the “mad” behaviour in the summer.
I really hate when I... | self.bipolar |
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