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I thought I was getting better I apologise for the long post but I need to get this off my chest.
I really thought I was getting better. Ive gone through so many low points and always came out of them. I always did so with the help of my family and best friend, J. Me and J are no longer friends anymore. We haven... | self.depression |
How do you tell a friend that you are having suicidal thoughts? I’ve been having them a lot the past few days now, but right now they are mostly passive. However they are getting more intense as well. I had asked a friend if I could talk to him about it due to making a safety plan. He said that I could, but I have no i... | self.depression |
I feel like I can't go on I feel like my depression, anxiety and whatever else is really getting to me. I am tired of dealing with my aging parents. My mom is driving me insane. They wanting to put my dad in an assisted living place. My mom can't handle his care no more. Now she has gone crazy. She telling me toda... | self.SuicideWatch |
[Possible TW] I don't know what to do or why this keeps happening. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Alright, I'm going up despite being on top of my meds. What? I feel like I'm spamming this sub, but here goes:
Yesterday I posted about how I was super stable and a bunch of people commented that it was actually probably mania creeping up and I think they were right. I'm going up despite being religious about taking ... | self.bipolar |
Don't care to live, don't dare to die I'm 29 years old, single, I have two degrees and despite that I'm stuck waiting tables for a shit pay. I've isolated myself from my friends and watch everyone around me surpass me in every way possible. I barely have money to pay for my food and rent. And in top of that, I lack... | self.SuicideWatch |
Friend believes that she is supposed to be dead. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to vent a little, sorry for this. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I think I lost my best friend My best friend and I have been having some problems. She has always been very jealous of other friends, and would pick fights with anyone I got too close to. She is very temperamental and would sometimes stop talking to me altogether and give me no explanation to it at all.
Ever since I ... | self.offmychest |
Failure checking in I'm 25 with no hopes dreams or aspirations. Should I know what I want to do with my life by now? I've never held a job longer than a few weeks, never learned how to drive or held a learners permit. I have no marketable skills I can't retain new information in example, hearing the same explanation ov... | self.depression |
Tired of roughing it alone! I’m 28, have had numerous relationships all of them short term except my first (5+ years). No one seems to want to stick around, and I have like one friend, but he doesn’t get it. My heart aches with the loneliness. I just can’t even...Maybe I’m just unlovable. Which makes the wounds all the... | self.SuicideWatch |
Goodbye everyone 30. Male. 3 kids to two failed relationships. Even with my kids i have nothing to live for anymore. Bye | self.SuicideWatch |
Don't even know what to do or say but I have to. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How to get professional help if I don’t have insurance? Title. I don’t have insurance and I’m having some not so good times, I want to seek help but I have no idea where to go or start. I do not have insurance and I’m currently unemployed, so I cannot afford insurance to begin with.
I’m stuck. | self.depression |
i am really inclined to kill myself hi. i am really inclined to kill myself because of vast evidence of reincarnation and other lives and stuff like that. i probably will some time soon tbh, but idk. i just kind of wanted to tell somebody. i have health issues that i'm pretty unhappy with right now so this is my reason... | self.SuicideWatch |
Thank you! Hello there, I just wanted to say a big "thanks" to the people here. I am currently struggeling with total loss of interest, I feel like I am distancing from those I care about. I am way behinde with writing my bachelors thesis and finishing my studies, as with my duties at work. Sometimes, I just feel like ... | self.depression |
I'm thinking about leaving my wife to make her life better. [deleted] | self.depression |
Toss a coin One thing I've noticed about having anxiety is that making the smallest of decisions can sometimes paralyse me with fears and indecisiveness. Of course, this isn't a healthy way to live life and I've adopted a classic solution which I thought I would share with this subreddit: the good ol' coin toss.
If I... | self.Anxiety |
Handwriting When Manic Do you guys notice a difference in your handwriting between your moods? I just realized recently that my handwriting while manic looks like the generic crazy person scribles, like barely legible. | self.bipolar |
I've started drafting a final goodbye letter Hey y'all hope you're doing alright.
I relapsed in cutting, so it's back to long sleeves for a bit, but I only have 2 days left of classes which will be really nice. I've been smoking 4-5 times a day now and drinking at night pretty much everyday. I've smoked 6gs in the la... | self.SuicideWatch |
After years of being rejected by everybody all I can think about is killing myself Honestly it sucks because I really feel replaced every time I meet somebody new. And it's always the same stuff or deal. I just don't want to keep living like this. I want to find hope or just some reassurance that everything will be alr... | self.SuicideWatch |
doctor's appointment? Helu all,
I am a 21 year old electrical engineering student in university. When i had initially started school, I was crazy anxious. I wasn't able to go to class, and only took certain hallways to walk to class because of a lot of things I was dealing with. In short, I failed a couple of classes.
... | self.Anxiety |
First time talking about my depression Recently I told my friend about my depression and although he tried to be supportive, he just doesn’t get it. He said that when he gets sad he just goes for a walk and that it always helps him clear his mind. But obviously being sad and depressed are two very different things. Doe... | self.depression |
I feel like I've tried everything and still can't find a pill that helps my anxiety Medications that I have tried in no particular order, over the span of four years:
Adderall XR, Ritalin, Concerta, Adderall IR, Strattera (currently taking), Vyvanse, Lexapro, Anafranil (currently taking), Intuniv, Catapres, Tenex, Ris... | self.Anxiety |
What's wrong with me wanting to date out of my race I told this guy I like white guys and he said I need to step out of my comfort zone and date different guys. Well technically I am by wanting to date out of my race. I'm not even attracted to guys in my race. | self.offmychest |
I feel like I’ve cycled through all of my emotions in one day... [rant] I’ve been in a depressed state the past few days, woke up in the same slump this morning. I was supposed to adopt a dog today, and even got off work early to get her. I arrived at the place only to be let down. During the 45 minute drive I was so t... | self.bipolar |
What has been your experience with mental health services? How involved did you get?
I've done:
Individual therapy, group therapy, med management, adult day support, case management.
I felt I benefited from these services. But I'm wondering how others may have fared. | self.bipolar |
I'm sad. I'm always sad. I've never really spoken to anyone about my depression, or sadness, or whatever you want to call it. Not seriously, anyways. Maybe writing will help.
I feel like I do a good job of hiding it. Smiling, laughing, but constantly on the verge of tears. I joke about it with friends, too.
"I wanna... | self.offmychest |
College essays It’s about the end of the first semester in my senior year, which means I need to start working on college essays. Looking back, the only thing I can think to talk about is depression/anhedonia and how it has changed me, for better and for worse.
Many recommend talking with your english teachers and pare... | self.depression |
I'm a burden to my family and everyone. I can't do anything right. I'm always disappointing people. I'm always feeling hopeless. I'm such a failure. Im just... Nothing. Ive always done things half-assedly. Just doing things because i have to. Im not smart. Im always causing trouble. My brothers and sister had excellent... | self.depression |
Everything's just been hard to deal with lately... I don't really know how to start this, since I'm kind of new to this subreddit, and reddit in general, but I guess I'll try to say this all without embarrassing myself or something of the sort.
Lately, I've just been having a tough time, especially since it's the last ... | self.depression |
It's Christmas and I just want to die I feel like shit and I just want to stop from existing. | self.offmychest |
Anxiety Behaviors Hello! Do you happen to know anyone who’s suffering from anxiety? I’m currently working on a research to better understand anxiety and the online behaviors of individuals suffering from it. If you happen to know one, don’t hesitate to message me, Thank you! | self.Anxiety |
What is your diet like? My therapist suggested cutting carbs.
I went gluten free in hopes of gaining weight. She was stoked. Well, I haven't gained weight and I literally feel no benefits, so I went back to gluten and omg the pain. I thought I could still get away with small stuff like soy sauce and stuff but even th... | self.bipolar |
Feeling lonely and would love to hear about why you feel depressed and I’ll tell how I feel The title says it all. Just pm me if you’re interested | self.depression |
Problem at school I'm a grade 11 student in high school. I have a psychology class and every Friday we do this thing called Socratic seminars in which we sit in a circle and discuss some stuff about an article we had to read the night before. My teacher said talking in the discussion is a big chunk of our grade. We've ... | self.Anxiety |
What is a moveable lump and how do u know if a lump is? Cancer worry I know that if a lump is moveable its less likely to be cancer. I think mine is but im not sure, im worried. The lump is flat on top red its gone down over the past week it isint as hard not painful unless i squeeze it. Its nor deep under the skin it ... | self.Anxiety |
my new year's resolution for 2017 was to kill myself before the year is over well fuck me, guess i failed even at that | self.depression |
Working on the final draft of my suicide letter I'm seriously not looking for any support or PMs, just want help with format and errors please
My First and Last Letter: The History of my Depression
Sorry to my friends and family, and whoever ends up reading this. This is my first and last letter, a story of my depr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you ever feel like you wish you were born as someone else? I know its a little like thinking if only I won the lottery, except I'm talking about the birth lottery. [deleted] | self.depression |
have you ever felt like you're forced to play a video game even if you don't like it? i recently started playing dark souls 3, a game that i was never interested in but felt like i must play it otherwise i won't be able to move in life,i really don't like it but i keep getting that numb feeling that i must over come th... | self.Anxiety |
Alpha best friend issues (probably all in my head) My best friend for almost 13 years, has been my roommate for 2 years. I feel like he has changed since he moved out of his step dad's house. I feel like his opinion is always the best and he constantly uses the word "right" to make his ideas the correct ideas. Idk it's... | self.depression |
Im a 16 year old with extreme anxiety. My parents refuse to purchase any sort of medication because they dont believe in anxiety. This has been getting to the point where Im just miserable. Even though I want help, I dont know where to get it. What should I do [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
It's just so hard... I'm a senior.. high school. Everyday is a struggle of depression and subduing myself to my OCD's demands. I hate my family, I truly do. Imagine hearing the person you hate the most every single fucking day. Imagine being consumed by all this hate you can do nothing with. Imagine not eating or showe... | self.SuicideWatch |
Clock is ticking on the offer You get money. I get peace. The world is rid of all evil. Everyone is happy. Please, take the offer | self.SuicideWatch |
"Vacation" Good news is that I'm visiting family and seeing the eclipse. I have some work to do while I'm away but my boss and I agree that the work I've done so far can be published. The bad news is that my dad is being a grump (possible bipolar flare up) and I'm going to have to listen to a lot of opinions I strongly... | self.bipolar |
There is a big chance that I will become a millionaire in a year or 2 I got involved in Bitcoin 2 years ago, bought a lot when it was 500 600 dollars. And based on my bitcoin increasing from trading altcoins and the increasing value in general I believe I can seriously become a millionaire in a year or 2. I am depresse... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to be the most fucked up present to the people i know. I want to kill myself before Christmas and in the most fucked up way i can imagine.
Its still better than if i don't as that would lead to me physically hurting others, maybe even killing them.
If id do it, things would escalate. There would be worries ab... | self.depression |
I'm so damn alone and upset. This is my first ever Christmas alone. This has been the hardest year of my life so far. I'm struggling finding a job, the person I have strong feelings for doesn't want me (says he does but is taking his sweet time closing the deal), my entire family is incredibly far away from me, and I'm... | self.offmychest |
Finally numb to this. I am finally numb to it. And it feels good. It feels good to feel nothing instead of crying and just wishing to be dead, the mental agony I’ve experienced throughout my life is so very painful in a way I can’t describe. Me sitting down calmly and wanting to die is a lot better than me crying and h... | self.depression |
It’s the end for me. As I’m typing this, I’m contemplating another attempt, I’ll say something and someone will reach out, but then they leave the next day, I’m tired of that. I’m tired of all the pain and suffering, all the hell I’m going through, how much I’ve fucked up others life’s. People will say it’s okay and it... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dear Depression, I will ask you kindly to fuck off and let me live my life in peace.
-Yours, Nina | self.depression |
Do your hands shake? My hands shake all the time. When I get into a stressful situation it reaches the point where I can't even write(which sucks, since I'm having big tests). But even in normal situations they shake, the fingerprint on my cell won't recognize my finger and I get paranoid that people will notice. Does ... | self.Anxiety |
I unknowingly created a fictional character in my mind to deal with anxiety. Is this normal? Whenever I have an anxiety attack in a party or any other social setting. This character materialises from my body, and tries to council me. It's really helpful. He looks like a guy from an anime I watched. He basically helps m... | self.Anxiety |
I want to cut up my wrists really badly I just want to get out all the bad feelings that have been festering inside me for so long | self.depression |
Suicidal Brother(I don't know what to do. Long Explanation.) EDIT: Tldr: My bipolar brother has started blaming me for all his hardships. True or not its real to him and has pushed me to a breaking point after years of being rhere for him. I have had the temptation of leaving him to his fate. I'm no longer sure if I s... | self.SuicideWatch |
Applying to university. i literally don't know I'm going to survive in society I'm feeling overwhelmingly lost, possibly more so than I ever have in my life.
I'm applying to universities, the deadline is tomorrow, and I can't think of a single thing to put on my personal statement/essay.
But it's not just that that's... | self.Anxiety |
My depression is like a dark cloud. That seems to defy gravity and consume everything around me, tainting what makes me happy, killing my motivation, engulfing me like a straight jacket sapping my energy.
I'm 36 male, living at home with my parents as their full time carer, as they both have mental illnesses yet stil ... | self.depression |
My school needs to stop boasting about their mental health services (rant). Yes, I realize that I go to a university that has 40,000+ undergrads and yes, I realize that it's that time of year again for seasonal depression. But I am so fucking sick and tired of seeing signs around campus and people telling me that "If y... | self.depression |
I’m not living a life Everyday I wake up, and it’s like I’m automatically on autopilot, I do the same routine without fail. But what for? The semester is almost up, but my hearts not in it. I think I want to continue but for who? Myself? Or my parents? I have a hard time balancing work, school, family & friends. Mu... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like just a hug from anyone would help. I know it won't really but sometimes it feels like all I need is someone to hold me for a little bit and it would solve everything. | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish i had super powers . . . [deleted] | self.depression |
Is it normal to feel suicidal if your'e disabled? Im suicidal because im disabled (autistic), im afraid of poverty. Because i think i'm unemployable, or atleast i can't get a decent education and job i think. Because its too hard for me. The other problem is that i have anxiety too. But is it really impossible t oescap... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why is my depression worst when I'm at my best? I've had a pretty awful year, but the last two weeks things have been going great for me. I've been getting a lot of recognition for being good at my job which means a lot to me, I've made a new friend who I really like, and I've actually been on a good sleeping schedule ... | self.depression |
Wanting to lose weight. I have gain a little bit of weight since starting Lexapro for my anxiety.
What is your experience losing weight while on anxiety medication? What do you do for workouts/eating? | self.Anxiety |
I always try to be nice to people, but they just treat me like trash. [deleted] | self.depression |
Update On Emotionless After Med Decrease I wanted to update you guys.
I talked to my doc and he said it was natural to go through mood fluctuations when decreasing meds. I don't think he understood that I'm not feeling anything at all but I will explain that further on my next visit. I've been emotionless for a coupl... | self.bipolar |
Always carrying anxiety in my stomach... no one should think about their stomach this much! I've never been diagnosed with any type of anxiety disorder, but I definitely know that I have it (I'm working on getting a new therapist but it takes MONTHS in the UK, so don't worry--I'm trying to find help!).
I constantly ha... | self.Anxiety |
Constant anxiety It has been almost 8 years since ive had a SINGLE day without a panic attack. I don’t think i can take much more of this. | self.Anxiety |
Would I still be this way if things were different? Husband and I are both dealing with depression. I have high and low points, but manage to somewhat function for the most part. I have a good paying job, a home, 4 dogs, and 2 good friends. My mother and I are close, and she's dying of cancer. My father is a story for ... | self.depression |
Panicking about therapy - group So I've just been diagnosed as bipolar and I've been offered therapy. Obviously the NHS is underfunded and accessing these is difficult. I agreed to the group therapy because that's quicker to get on and I've already been waiting 8 months for a diagnosis. I'm scared because I hate people... | self.bipolar |
anyone else truly wish they were just never born? i dont wish i was dead anymore.
i dont want to kill myself.
i truly wish i was never even born.
i really fucking mean that, and if there was a way to just go back in time and undo that, i would.
i dont know why i was brought here.
i wish my parents never met. | self.depression |
I hate this in side me... Although I don't hate myself. This has universally been the worse time of year for me. From the end of October to mid January things go bad and feel at my absolute lowest. For the most part I've grown to live with being somewhere on the spectrum of being suicidal... From bloody mess knife stil... | self.SuicideWatch |
My Mother who will never understand. I always tell myself that my relationship - or lack there of - with my mom is only temporary; that I the teenager who goes through moody phases and hormones ragging will change my mind and someday wake up with everything different. As a child I always felt what I was, a mistake that... | self.offmychest |
I don’t get why I have to be so alone It’s to the point where I just wish I’d do something permanent about it. What did I do to deserve this? I don’t have one single friend. No one wished me a merry Christmas. I’m the one who always has to do it. Why can’t someone else make the effort? Is it because I’m not worth it?! ... | self.depression |
There is no fucking hope, I cant keep going on like this, everything is pointless. I'm going away. My depression has destroyed so many fucking friendships, pushed so many people away because I didnt communicate and destroyed my relationship of nearly 5 years.
She wanted to fix things but I was too much of a coward to ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My wife broke my heart Seven months ago, I (26M) found out my wife (25F) was cheating on me. My wife and I have been together for over 10 years, married for four. Our son will be turning two years old in December. We met as freshmen in high school, and got married just after I graduated college.
I joined the military... | self.offmychest |
Worrying too much and over thinking with so much going on in the world, I'm constantly worried about me or my family getting robbed, killed, stabbed, etc...
I hate how I always worry and think about what would I do in those type if situations.
I don't think it's normal the amount I think about and i dont know what ... | self.Anxiety |
Anxiety manifesting as sensory overload? How can I help? I have experience with anxiety in general, and I do get very overwhelmed if there is too much going on at one time. I can't quite understand this situation though, and I want to know how I might be able to help.
My boyfriend has recently been getting overwhelme... | self.Anxiety |
What’s the point? I don’t know what to be career wise. I don’t know who to love. I don’t like the world. Wish I could explore it without interacting with people. | self.depression |
It hurts to much to be alive It feels like I can't get a break. My whole entire life he's just been constant non-stop pain and it doesn't go away. the last 3 months were the only time my life I was truly happy and now that's ruined. I don't know what to do, im hurting so much. I'm the type of person that takes my meds ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My bad relationship with my dad and my teen years that I feel ashamed for. [Triggers] My mom died I when I was 14. It feels like my dad went with her. Or, to be very brutally honest, I'm insane enough to wish he would have.
My dad. He's had an alcohol problem for decades, before I was born. He was always a good provi... | self.offmychest |
repost, the last one didn't get any traction and i need advice nothing brings me happiness anymore, my grades are shit (might have to retake 2nd semester geometry next year. also i live in the US, 16, male), father died in 2011 and i don't feel like my mother really loves me (like she cares, but if given the opportunit... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm so done I have issues sleeping, eating consistently is pretty much impossible for me since I can't maintain an appetite at all, all I've done is keep on going back to cutting myself, I'm so incredibly stupid and I've attempted suicide 7 times and I just want to do it again. Finally get rid of myself, no point in me... | self.SuicideWatch |
please I don’t know what to do, every day is worse, I was okay for awhile too. Now I can’t sleep again, sleep was my only escape from this fucking place. Nothing’s distracting me enough anymore. Nobody fucking cares. I’m so tired. I want to be done. Please someone help me. Please something make me want to live. Please. | self.SuicideWatch |
18F I am so fed up I am so fed up with life.. my boyfriend just broke with me. I'm so lonely :( | self.SuicideWatch |
LF medication advice I've isolated myself since I was around 13, I'm now in my mid 20s. Throughout my teens I had such crippling anxiety, every second outside of my house would be so painful. I still get anxiety, but it's not as severe anymore. However I've just been so done with anxiety, so sick of the painful discomf... | self.Anxiety |
I'm a mess right now and I need some help. A few days ago I started hitting myself and this morning I put a gun (unloaded) in my mouth [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Just another generic meaningless post. well this is going to be a badly written post im sorry if you wasted your time reading this disgusting post ;(. im 14, hate myself, feel like a failure, lack motivation to do whats actually important, want to start cutting / self harm but am too scared to do it, people say they lo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Good day vs. Bad day Good day: Not necessarily "happy" but no noticeable misery. Able to look forward to doing something fun, can live in the moment and find small joys in life.
Bad day: Obsessed about my failures (especially relationships with family and previous friends and job experiences), overwhelmed by all ... | self.depression |
I just talked to my parents across the atlantic through a videocall and could barely try to fake a smile They asked me why I was sad and I had the worst feeling of my life. I didn't say anything. I'm a fucking coward. It really terrifies me to even begin to tell them I want to kill myself. I know it would hurt them ver... | self.SuicideWatch |
Has moving to another city made a difference in managing your mental health? I’m recently diagnosed bipolar II although I’ve dealt with it for many years before seeking help. I’ve been in therapy for a year and am starting medication in a week. I’m excited to start managing this illness, but I feel as if I’m in the wro... | self.bipolar |
I fucked up the most wonderful friendship I ever had. I just managed to dry my eyes after realizing I have lost someone I cared so much for...way more than I should.
First a few words about me, I'm M/22 and struggle with depression and co-dependancy for many years now.
Anyway, because I'm a needy co-dependant useless ... | self.depression |
What causes anxiety to arise when you were able to cope and function easily before? Back in college I was able to handle tons of tasks at once and just tackled them. It was easy. I was top in my class.
At some point after college things fell apart. So many things happened I can't really figure out the cause, which I h... | self.Anxiety |
Go shawty it's my 25th birthday and everybody forgot (including me, until an automated carrier message reminded me) [deleted] | self.depression |
In Pursuit of True Love I'm feeling a lot better today mainly because I have came upon a lot of conclusions about myself. I've been so emotionally closed for so long and I've been blind to it this whole time. Everything about me is lacking emotional expression even though I feel it on the inside. I am very capable of f... | self.depression |
No I’m not a depressed drunk, I’m a depressed person who likes to get drunk My family recently stated concerns to my sister in law that they think I get depressed when I drink. It really resonated with me, not because I think they’re right but because they missed everything I’ve been trying to tell them.
I’ve directl... | self.depression |
I never thought I would be the depressed teen who quietly sits with his headphones in during dinner out with the family [deleted] | self.depression |
Anxiety has ruined my life I have an obsessive fear that I have illnesses and disease. I refer to this as having 'health anxiety'. I always have a new symptom coming up in my body that i tend to google online to try and 'self diagnose'. I self-sabotage myself and it is almost like i enjoy feeling like this, but i do... | self.Anxiety |
Applied for the spring semester today! I took a semester out of high school, but had to leave because of my mind flipping shit occasionally due to my illness and "self medication." I've been more-or-less stable for a while now, so after 4 years I'm finally going back! I'm actually looking forward to something realistic... | self.bipolar |
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