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Can't do it anymore. Tomorrow is the day that I decided for myself, to end it all. When I planned it I still had a little hope that maybe it'll get better till the time comes but nah its just getting worst. What hurts me the most is that the only person I care about doesn't even care.. I poured my heart out in front of... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety: The Journey Outward Life is the greatest gift that we have received and we should be thankful every day for the opportunity to mold the world we live in. I believe that this a true thought in everyone’s mind at one point in their lives but often along the way many of us lose our way. It is never intentional ... | self.Anxiety |
I poked myself when a knife. I'm scared of killing myself. | self.SuicideWatch |
How to get over silly fear of allergy? Right now, I have a weird fear of food allergy. Whenever I try something new, be it medicine, food, dietary supplement, I honestly have it in the back of my mind that I will have an anaphylactic reaction to it. As far as I know, I’m not really allergic to anything except potential... | self.Anxiety |
I'm really confused First off, I tried killing myself but it didn't work, had 15 months of therapy and realized how relative everything is and how illogical being sad can be. I am someone that tends to overthink, reflect ALOT on myself and others to a point of near objectivity, have a thirst for knowledge (I want to un... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have had Anhedonia for 3 full days now I really don't know what to do, this is the longest I've ever had it and it's driving me crazy. I feel really agitated and can't sit still, that's all I feel, I still don't feel anything. It's so hard to explain because obviously I can't feel emotion but it's this weird agitated... | self.depression |
I try to practice dbt, I take my (four kinds of) meds regularly, keep social engagements, eat alright, exercise, and still my moods are crazy. It's mostly rampant anxiety. Ugh, this is exhausting. | self.bipolar |
I'm not suited for any career? I don't fit in anywhere, my talents are mixed and don't align with anything? I want to go back to school but I don't know what I want and I don't have the money to just gamble on a random degree? [deleted] | self.depression |
Short term memory loss... ....is fucking out of control!!! 😱😱😱
Been on Zoloft since I was 19 (more than a decade now) and I think it has wrecked my body in many ways.
One of them is my memory. I actually forget items in my hand and where I've reached in gym reps! Does anyone suffer from this stuff?
When my depres... | self.depression |
DAE work in mental health? I work in an inpatient psych unit as a mental health specialist. I find it fascinating to be on the other side. What do you think of the experience? Do you hear stigmatizing things from your other coworkers? Are you open with them? Just curious to hear your thoughts.
Just some thoughts | self.bipolar |
email/phone phobia Sometimes, I get scared about receiving emails or phone calls, other times, I get scared about writing emails or calling people.
I think it is because sometimes I have the desire to achieve something, so I get anxious, and this phobia gets real bad.
It makes my stomach twitch, breathe gets a bit dif... | self.Anxiety |
The only person that made me happy is now gone and I don't know what to do [deleted] | self.depression |
Sigh...I have everything I ever wanted, but I'm not happy, and in fact feel worse. Is this depression? I've never considered I could be depressed, until very recently after speaking to a friend about her depression.
For most of most of my life, from a teen to 33, I've had bouts of utter sadness/despair where I feel l... | self.depression |
Text therapy This is my first post on reddit. Sorry in advance if it’s a bit wordy. I don’t have an official diagnosis, but after a lot of reading about it, I am pretty sure I suffer from anxiety. I have always known there’s something not quite right going on for me, but never been sure what it is. I try to manage my m... | self.Anxiety |
Even if I'd improve in all aspects, that would never be a guarantee to get together with my crush. If there just was a guarantee I'd atleast know that my efforts wouldnt be wasted... | self.depression |
I feel like I'm living in the wrong timeline I work a really mundane job that doesn't test my intellect, I don't have a mother anymore and whenever I try to devote my time to actually working on myself or trying out a practical hobby I always end up giving up. I'm a complete failure. I feel like there must have been a ... | self.depression |
I legitimately believe I will kill myself after I receive a certain test back. So yeah tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I know that I will receive a graded paper in maths. Basically, this being my final year before university, every single grade counts tremendously, and I am convinced that I have done a very shitty ... | self.SuicideWatch |
idk why he's like this A while back my boyfriend and I were friends with a VERY toxic group of guys on PSN. This one guy, who we'll call Johnny, was the most crude, most loud, most annoying one out of the group would always say that he was depressed, lonely, suicidal, etc., but none of the guys would address it. There ... | self.offmychest |
What do you do to feel better? I've struggled with depression for a while, not much really helps but sometimes things make me forget, like playing PC with my friends, or getting lost in music.
I'm not expecting some miracle cures, just curious, what do you guys do to feel better or distract yourself? | self.depression |
Life Lesson Number 1: Life Sucks! I am telling this story to literally get it off my chest, because it has been very tight lately...
I am 19 years old, male. I come from a small town in Bulgaria, a country located in Southeastern Europe. However, I moved to the capital city, Sofia, 1 month ago.
Last year, I attended ... | self.Anxiety |
What’s so great about life anyway? So many people say “life is so great” and “I love life”. For me it’s just pain and struggle. So why do people put up with it? The cons are definitely outweighing the pros at this point. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I don't know who I am anymore [deleted] | self.depression |
An Idiot trying to buy Tickets So, throwaway account because I don't want my shame to follow me.
I am just sitting here reflecting on my total an utter idiocy, over trying to surprise my girlfriend for her birthday. I am honestly at a loss for words over how stupid and self sabotaging I have been. So it starts quite a... | self.offmychest |
The end of 2017 sucked My bank account got shut down, I lost my apartment, was informed my job will no longer exist by April, too sick to go to any new years parties, etc. How can I have any faith that 2018 will be any better when things that aren't my fault keep going wrong??? At this point I'm so paranoid that someth... | self.depression |
Anxiety- Do I look at going back on citalopram? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My anxiety kept me up the entire night before an interview for a dream job and i got it [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Trauma Hey. There is something really wrong with me. I suffer from depression and anxiety. I have tendencies to be really abusive. It always happens with romantic partners. I've never had a healthy relationship in my life. I get over depended on my significant other. I get manipulative, jealous and sometimes even contr... | self.depression |
Anxiety during Audition so hello everyone just few minutes ago i was in a model audition in japan. So first of all my background is chinese-indonesian i haven’t got anxiety in a while so i figure might as well try something ive been dying to try since i was a kid . well my agency told me to go cs i fit the “look” bc th... | self.Anxiety |
I just spent a whole year working on fixing up my depression, and one incident just pushed me back into the pot of boiling water. [deleted] | self.depression |
Why should I improve myself if I don't have a goal? People tell me to go outside or go to the gym, but why? What's the end goal? | self.depression |
High functioning High functioning for me, is like flowers for algernon. Where he gains intelligence but the experiment fails and he becomes aware enough to realize his intelligence is fading away but he can't do anything but ride it out and learn to accept himself.
It's also like watching a car crash in slow motion. B... | self.bipolar |
My EMOTIONS ARE BACK!!! So I've been under an incredible amount of stress lately from all sorts of things. School, work, fights with my parents, my car's parts all seemingly deciding to break down one after the other...
So, Wednesday evening I had a mental breakdown. I have an anxiety disorder, and I've been stressed ... | self.offmychest |
I'm feeling really fucking sad and really fucking angry instead of not really feeling anything at all. Is this an improvement or signs of worseing? [deleted] | self.depression |
Don't make friends on the internet. If you think that making friends via the internet is worth it, think again, because the people that I used to know in 2013-2014 became arrogant dickheads, and attracted to fictional characters. | self.offmychest |
Just failed a suicide attempt I feel as though I have nothing else to do at this point, I don't think I'm ever gonna get anywhere in life and I'm just terrified of the future | self.depression |
I think the window for us to one day get married has closed. My SO and I have been together for 7 years living together for 5 and we're in our late 20s early 30s.
And we just never talked about getting married ever. Not hypothetically, no offhand "If we got married we should..." type of comments. No daydreaming of it ... | self.offmychest |
I guess death isn’t such a bad thing, after all.(Just needed to get it off my chest after all these years) Im 16 years old finishing my first school, stepping into gymnasium soon (if i make it) ive had undiagnosed a.d.d for years.. depression ive had about 2-3years, and i feel like depression is apart of me....i dont r... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is this anxiety or something more serious .? Hyy I am 22, male..new here...I had dengue fever 1 month ago and got treated for it.i took a lot of stress for it. After few days I started feeling lightheaded,tightness in the head, headache, shaky, sometimes pins and needles, irregular heartbeat, chest pounding, jumping o... | self.Anxiety |
IT WONT GO AWAY! I have been in episodes back to back. I just feel like laying bed under the covers I can’t live like this I feel stuck. I have a 1 year old daughter I’m her main caretaker I have to get better! It’s so hard just feels like I’m sitting in this moment and the world is moving on. Help me help myself. Why ... | self.depression |
Is this where i put this? i'm putting it here anyway. Going to be 36 within the month, unemployed for 8 years, haven't had any type of relationship for 8 years, lived with my mother for the past 8 years. Have a highschool diploma and have no idea how to grow outside of myself. I am so alone, so saddened and have the ha... | self.offmychest |
SO with Depression Hi everyone my wife(31) and I (28) have been married 4 years, we don't have children. My wife has depression and an auto immune disorder. I do my best all the time to support her through finishing her bachelors and at home. after work i will cook, clean, Encourage her, and give her back rubs, foot ru... | self.depression |
Non sedating & non Benzo anti anxiety Meds that anecdotally worked well for you? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Missing memories My friend recently told me of something that happened in the past and it feels impossible to me that it happened. It's something simple and silly and doesn't really matter but it's driving me crazy that it feels absolutely false to me. He says I borrowed a game from him to play with my students at scho... | self.bipolar |
I took a math exam today and actually felt confidence for once. Since I've become depressed, I haven't felt confident in myself for years. Today I walked out of a math exam feeling like I was the master and that maybe I don't suck that much. | self.depression |
I don’t want to be here anymore I’m 24 years old and all my life I’ve dealt with my family issues. My dad died when I was younger and left me and my sister to take care of my mother despite her trying her best to take care of us. I didn’t go to college and I haven’t had an opportunity to meet someone that understands m... | self.SuicideWatch |
The thing I hate most is no longer enjoying things I used to love. I feel like I no longer have any hobbies. There is a whole bunch of things I used to enjoy not even that long ago, but when I do them now I still feel empty inside and I am unable to find any joy in them. I miss being able to read a book, watch a movie,... | self.depression |
Fantasize about killing myself Dont think I am suicidal, but the thought of just disapearing feels very good sometimes. Obviously I cant because of family but without the pain it would cause them and my will to live it probably wont happen anytime soon.
I think if I would do it id probably travel somewhere beautiful ... | self.offmychest |
Point in life? Things have been tough recently and I'm sure that I will end my life within several months. Just wanted to post this thought. Just an idea not a dark story or anything.
So you grow up, find a job, make a family, die but you pass on your genes to the next generation. Process repeats till humanity dies ou... | self.SuicideWatch |
New therapist yesterday and she says to get medication So I talk to my new therapist yesterday for the first time and she says I need to take medication. I’m only 13 years old and my mom says it will be too much for someone of my age. But the anxiety is too bad and I have told her but she still denies it. My therapist ... | self.Anxiety |
I can't get rid of my dark past and I am scared it might haunt me one day. In the past (1-2 years ago) I was really annoying and flirty. As a result I piss a lot of people off and have been ostracized in a lot of clubs because I was too flirty and annoying.
I pissed off a couple of people really badly by being really... | self.depression |
:) Last night when we were in bed, my BF and I were joking around and being weird as we usually do. I asked him something like if it would be easier for him if I was normal, and he said "no, because I fell in love with YOU!" We've been together for 2 years and this is the first time he's mentioned falling in love. Ugh,... | self.offmychest |
I didn't report a sexual assault, now my attacker is in the news Anon account, I appreciate that there is a place to get this out.
Several years ago I was working at a promotional event with some minor celebrities in attendance. While there, I asked for one person's autograph. This person grabbed me, put his hand down... | self.offmychest |
I am very new to this community and I need help with something I don’t know how to handle. Hey guys I’m caleb I’m new to this group (not trying to make this sound like an AA meeting). I thought I should join because there has been a lot I’ve been going through that really has left me in a shell it feels like to be comp... | self.depression |
Does anyone else have mostly manic/hypomanic episodes? I don't have very many depressive episodes, and when I do they're rarely long or intense. When they are they beat me down to being non-functional, I have no idea how some of you guys do it.
Anyways, I have way more manic episodes. I'd say probably 80% manic/hypoma... | self.bipolar |
I'm convinced I have cancer but know one takes me seriously, not even doctors. My symptoms feel so real to me. I feel like just giving up. [deleted] | self.depression |
Do you guys have tips on overcoming anxiety? I used to be a pretty social person until 2015, when I moved to a new county. Not knowing the language or anyone turned me into a really shy and closed person, and now, two years later a can barely text people without having to think about what I’ll sent for at least 5 minut... | self.Anxiety |
Me and my boyfriend of 8 months broke up. I got diagnosed in this relationship and I don't know how to deal with it. Me (22F) and my BF (26M) broke up two days ago after being together for almost 8 months. I am not going into too much detail but we still love each other, he just felt stuck in the relationship because i... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone know if there’s a good product for my forehead rubbing Not sure how many others rub and squeeze their foreheads, when they’re not feeling well ... it’s a habit I often do.
I was wondering if anyone has something similar to a compression vest for people with anxiety panic attacks ... but something that would wo... | self.bipolar |
How long should I wait before seeing a doctor? My worry is that my depression is returning although having experienced it for 5 years, I'm not sure whether my concerns are my personality or my illness. Sometimes the two become blurred.
In the past I've tried to nip a relapse in the bud but this time I can't be sure it... | self.depression |
Holding an unloaded gun to my head is pretty peaceful. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm ok. I haven't really been posting much lately. But some of you know where I live. And there are people here who post that I care about. I felt that I should post here in case the news today had people wondering if I was ok.
For those who don't know where I live and this post seems strange, ignore it. This might se... | self.bipolar |
my me too story Over the past few weeks, I've struggled with what medium is correct for sharing this story. I don't know how to get the feelings out, and I'm so scared people are going to tell me I'm lying because of just how fantastical it is. So maybe I should start by saying however crazy, this happened to me, and I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Dear Parents I get it. Dad
I get it now.
I get why you were always so mean and aggressive and never could say anything positive to me unless it was through humor.
You wanted me to be something. You didn't want me to be babied by mom. You wanted me to get out of that chair and go socialize find a better job go to school... | self.offmychest |
Validation on missing work It's been a long time since I posted here and I don't even know if I have under his username. I'm here today to get your guys opinion on my missing work. I used to suffer badly from anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I got it under control finally and was really great for a few years. Wel... | self.Anxiety |
Social media makes me feel worse - anyone else? Sounds silly but looking at pictures on social media (especially Instagram) of beautiful people and their fun lives sends me into a spiral because it just reminds me that I'm ugly and have no purpose and amount to nothing because I don't live a life like theirs..anyone el... | self.depression |
I resent my parents and have cut communication to minimum [removed] | self.offmychest |
College is depressing Zero friends, don't know anyone.
I can't stand that there's so many people.
So many people with friends and lives.
All of that studying for exams, and homework assignments/papers/projects
All of that pressure to network and I can't even do it because I'm a loser without friends.
What's the po... | self.depression |
QUICK fix for meds killing sex drive? Last night I️ hooked up with someone I’d been eyeing for the past two years, however when it was time for the deed there was one enormous problem.
My brain was ready to go, this was go time, but in the heat of the moment my physical downtown reaction was just “meh”.
I️ started l... | self.bipolar |
Is it weird to do this? I asked my friend if he was free and he said he's at another one of my friends house. Would it be weird to ask if I could come over? Should I ask my friend who I asked originally or my friend who's house is in reference? | self.Anxiety |
Just got fired.... Well. I got fired. I was late again. I’ve been late too many days, because i’ve been majorly depressed and this just makes it worse. No matter what i do i think about ending it all. Any advice from anyone whose experienced this? | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm at my wit's end I'm in a weird situation. I've gone to great lengths to prove myself an ally, I'll quietly sit there and then actively support POC and WOC in their endeavours or in protests. I don't want to make this about POC in general because I think it's ridiculous to judge a group based on one lone individua... | self.SuicideWatch |
The best I ever feel is flat,I haven’t felt happy in so long I’ve forgotten what it feels like | self.depression |
Worst year of my life This year was such a rough one for me. Horrible things kept on happening and started to suck the life out of me. There were too many nights where I couldn't sleep, thinking about what the next day will be like. I tried and tried but my grades were still not good enough. Disappointed my family and ... | self.offmychest |
New year same old me Don't think 2018 will be any better for me. I'll still be lonely, will have no one to talk to and afraid to leave my house. No one even knows me except my family. No one in my neighborhood knows me. I spent weeks inside my house. Hate this life 😢 | self.depression |
I turned 25 yesterday the same day I went to my least favorite class and subject which I spent a few hours in the class with a horrible teacher that kept saying it's easy and it's just simple when I couldn't understand any of it. I asked for some help from her afterwards and she got really mad at me and told me I sho... | self.depression |
I have been depressed and suicidal my whole life, I can't take it anymore. I think I am finally ready to just give up and kick the bucket. I don't even know what i'm trying to get out of this post. I've never been happy and I have finally come to terms with the fact I never will be. I guess I just needed someone to hea... | self.SuicideWatch |
I could use a friend So I've been feeling pretty bad the past few weeks. I think it has a lot to do with holidays being really rough for me and the weather, but I've been really depressed and suicidal. I could be surrounded with my loved ones and feel so alone and like such a disappointment. I feel like such a burden a... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone with Depression also suffer constant physical pain/chronic pain? I've been suffering back pain for several years now but it's escalated recently to where when it's bad, I suffer like nerve attacks that make my body/ mostly my left side twitch or jolt forward. Went to urgent care and going to see a doctor soon ab... | self.depression |
Why try when I'm going to end up dying anyway? I could try, try and try in life, and I *might* succeed.
Or, I could die right now and never have to worry ever again.
And if I do become successful, I'm going to die at the end of it anyway. Both ways I'll get the same outcome.
So why bother trying? | self.SuicideWatch |
Judgement Does anyone else feel paranoid that people have a negative view of them ? I can’t stop thinking that I’m unliked and made fun of regularly by my friends and co-workers | self.Anxiety |
They'll Remember Me None of my family members will change their life after I'm gone.
None of my coworkers will have any regrets.
None of my old high school buddies will lose any sleep at night.
None of the girls I've been with will reminisce over times we had.
But they will remember me.
They'll remember the news st... | self.SuicideWatch |
How fucking hard is it to show you care? I'm sick. I drove myself to the pharmacy to get meds for this nasty cold that was sprung on me over the last 2 days. You didn't even ASK me if I needed anything. I was sitting on the couch 15 ft from you wrapped in a blanket and trying to sneeze with Kleenex shoved up my nose.
... | self.offmychest |
9:19 am: good time for tequila. Well. The thing is, I abuse alcohol, for sure, and have wondered if my abusing of alcohol is considered alcoholism, but to be fair, I woke up at 11:30 pm so this is like my happy hour time.
My sleep schedule is fucked upppppp.
Everyone else is having their morning coffee. I'm having m... | self.bipolar |
I feel physically uneasy when I put myself in public situations am I the only one? [deleted] | self.depression |
Hello all, just found this and wanted to write my story Hello all,
Just a little about myself. I just turned 38 and am a male. All my life i have had self loathing and felt horrible about myself. And now i am about to begin another therapy to see if we can do something about it. I have a burn out and a depression at t... | self.depression |
My Memory and concentration is f*cked For last few weeks my memory is getting worse and worse, i am having hard time to concentrate on anything. I can't even think properly ,i am forgetting words while talking to someone, than i just stop because i forgot what i wanted to tell and it feels so frustrating and dumb . ... | self.depression |
Does anyone else have knee pain due to tension from anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Just a thought I’m not depressed I think, but i do feel lonely and negative most of the time. But i laugh and joke around so quick after crying & get happy when people talk to me or i buy/get stuff so idk. Idk if this belongs here so feel free to tell me to delete this post.
I thought about killing myself just no... | self.depression |
Feel guilty for being unwell. My wife always says she is there for me and will always support me but after 7 years I still don't think she understands or is understanding. Going through a bad patch at the moment, mood mostly down but can be changeable. When I feel shit and teary I feel like she gets pissed off with me ... | self.bipolar |
I'd like to cry, but I can't... I just lying there and exist. The depression comes back and hit me right in the face..
Self harm comes back, now in two forms... cutting and a binge-eating disorder at night.
I can't sleep, and when I do, I have so terrible nightmares that I wake up sweating and having panicattacks. And... | self.depression |
He raped me again last night. I have a noose tied and I'm ready to die. [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
looking for internships got me like a;lskdfj "I'm a great candidate except no I'm not, I'm fucking worthless, sorry I wasted your time."
I've never managed to hold down a job, and I'm 22 so that's pretty pathetic at this point. Alas. I can't give up now, even though I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to...
Anyway, best of l... | self.Anxiety |
My lies and problems have grew too much for me to handle [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else hate how anxiety makes you un-assertive and people pleasing in conversation I hate it like I feel like such a bitch in my mind I rly don’t give a F what ppl think yet around people I’m so incredibly tense, uncomfortable and anxious that my tone always takes on this pathetic,meek and disingenuous way. I... | self.Anxiety |
My girlfriend wanted to just be friends, but we just had passionate sex and it felt normal again. I'm so confused [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Its been three years but i still think and dreamed about her so i wanna share my story and i wanna ask how to end it all [deleted] | self.offmychest |
"If you are depressed and anxious, you are not a machine with malfunctioning parts. You are a human being with unmet needs." Thoughts? https://www.theguardian.com/society/2018/jan/07/is-everything-you-think-you-know-about-depression-wrong-johann-hari-lost-connections
This is an excerpt of Johann Hari's book Lost Conne... | self.depression |
Deadman walking. I’m done.. I’m not worthless and I can’t even explain.
I’ll swear by this tho:
I don’t have any violent or evil in me. I’m not a bad person. I would never hurt anyone.
Is there anyway to relieve loved ones? | self.SuicideWatch |
Quitting A Job So I know I want to quit my job tomorrow. Im working a PSW job since the end of October and now I know I want to switch fields. Was thinking of doing nursing and got this job for somewhat of an experience. I know this job is not as close to nursing in it's requirements but I'm not interested in doing hea... | self.Anxiety |
My doctor took me off of my 7th antidepressant today, didn't put me on a new, and just said to make another appointment so time inn the new year. Iv'e been feeling a bit more down recently, having a lot of trouble with college and people due to anxiety, and with the 2nd anniversary of my mum's passing coming up, with t... | self.depression |
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