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Getting it all out [Long post]This is a long post, so bear that in mind.
I've been holding this in for a really long time. The last time I got what was wrong in my head out was in my teens. I'm in my early 30's now.
I'm not normal. I know it. My friends know it. My family knows it. I suffer from a deep dark depressi... | self.offmychest |
just venting I'm studying something I hate to get in to university, a year late because of my shit grades, to study something else that I hate to get a job that I'll hate just as much. I need to start losing weight but I just... don't. I know I should, I think about it constantly, I think about a lot of the shit I shou... | self.depression |
I had a win today at the grocery store I am normally a very anxious person, but recently started on meds and DBT therapy to help with that as well as with my depression.
Today, at the grocery store, I walked out of the parking lot to get a cart, and noticed that there were no shopping carts left. I figured that I wou... | self.Anxiety |
Cycles. Vicious, vicious cycles. I'm hitting the highs and lows pretty hard the past year or so, harder than I ever remember and I'm waiting on something to pop and send me to the hospital. Not that I have time for the emotional breakdown that I need, but I can't seem to get hold of it lately. The relationship is teete... | self.bipolar |
I want to run away from home Ive told a bit about myself before.
I went at my mom about my school and how its ruining my life.
She said the sane thing she always does.
"I cant do anything about school"
Ik that killing myself is a bit extreme and goes too far but i have been thinking about running away from home.
S... | self.depression |
If I successfully killed myself a year ago what exactly would I have missed? | self.SuicideWatch |
Deep water - I'm terrified This episode has been more than 4 years. Maybe 5. Spiralling deeper and deeper. The self harm, the plans for suicide. The erosion of my relationship with my wife, my family. The disappearance of friends until at last I'm left completely alone. The exhaustion of holding it together and screwin... | self.depression |
I have my dream job (life) and I'm going to lose it [deleted] | self.depression |
Applied for a job last night, they called today but i missed it. i can't bring myself to call back. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
How do i ask anyone for help? I'm seriously on edge, my dad is constantly telling me to not do stuff and go study. I can't cope and I already have a suicide note prepared and I know where I will go when I feel like that again. I know I am nearing that point again. Can someone help and tell me how to tell them? I don't ... | self.depression |
I just need one big, breakdowny, world collapsy, cry [deleted] | self.offmychest |
there it goes again I just had like 3 weeks of feeling normal. Still had some kind of guilt for not feeling bad cause i managed to open up to some people and it felt weird that i felt fine after that, felt like lying to them that i felt bad in the first place. But now i feel it comming again, yet so slowly but steady a... | self.depression |
T minus 2 hours I'm done with life. Every day I exist in agony waiting for 8:30 pm to roll around so that I can take the medications that help me get a couple of fitful hours of sleep. I have tried showering, drinking teaz spending time with friends, laying under a weighted blanket etc, nothing eases the emptiness, lon... | self.SuicideWatch |
Most days, I feel like I don't deserve the good things in my life. I don't know where else to say this.
I'm 23, in medical school - which is a dream come true, and I love it here. I love what I'm learning, I love talking to patients. What I love the most is it keeps me busy - busy enough not to have to think, or be al... | self.depression |
Depression made me really dumb Last year i was one of the best in class, i could memorize anything and my logic skills here super high, i study med school, so you have to be smart here, i was, i really was. But then depression came and i become stupid, i cant concentrate so much, my logic decrased, my memory is shit. M... | self.depression |
. just why? give me a fucking reason. please. i do care but i can't do it anymore. there's nothing here for me. im not real. its over ok? just forget it. nothings helping this was supposed to be a good year. im not good enough ill never be good enough. gosh i wanna do it but i don't have the fucking tools goddammit
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My Girlfriend Tried to Commit Suicide Recently I just spent the last few days sitting with my girlfriend in the ER at our local hospital. I was working a night shift when I got the call that she was admitted, and I've never been so dumbstruck in my life. We have been together for 5 years strong, and she is the most ama... | self.offmychest |
I found out we have bed bugs and I honestly feel traumatized [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I did it I finished my last semester in college and I was worried about disappointing my family but i did it and couldn't be happier. | self.offmychest |
Random anxiety? Is it normal? I could be in bed watching tv, to eating lunch on my break or even having a shower. It's just out of nowhere and really inconvenient, but my heart clenches and my muscles tense up and I feel just an overwhelming sense of nervousness (sometimes to the extent that I start sweating).
I can n... | self.Anxiety |
Has anyone overcome bipolar disorder Long story short, in the last year someone very close to me has been circling the drain. although she is in treatment and on a plethra of medz things aren't going good . In the last year shes gone from petite to obese, dosent get out of bed unless basicly forced, burned down almost ... | self.bipolar |
I'm always suffering and I really can't do anything to stop it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
What jobs can you do with anxiety? hey everyone. I decided to look around for a new job and that's when I got my first panic attack. I'm getting pretty upset because every job I'm interested in has a medical check. And from what I've read if you take medications for anxiety you cant do those jobs. I literally will only... | self.Anxiety |
Uncomfortable. All the time. I don’t know how to explain it but I’m always feeling uncomfortable around others and alone. I feel physically uncomfortable too and this makes me irritable. Is anyone experiencing the same thing? | self.Anxiety |
I'm completely incompotent at my job and I want to die [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Vitamin B12 Deficiency Three months ago I had blood drawn and the doctor noticed my vitamin B12 was severely deficient. I started taking supplements after my appointment and they have helped. Do I still suffer from depression? Yes, but the daily suffering has lessened more than I thought possible. Is this the case for ... | self.depression |
I've seen a few articles on the front page about sugar, and as a guy that's addicted to sugar, it's got me thinking. I eat a fuckload of sugar, but thanks to my genetics I'm not really fat, but the stuff I've glanced from the front page (but not read because I'm lazy as hell) was stuff like sugar has positive associati... | self.depression |
What do I do if I don't want anything? It seems like the only thing I want is unhappiness and pain. I don't want to do anything in life other than sleep all day and listen to music. All of my responsibilities I neglect because they just don't feel important anymore, even though a small part of me is saying that they st... | self.depression |
If I am about to cry, don’t ask me if I want to talk about it, cause I won’t stop crying I’m wondering if that’s just me, I’ve always been like that as far as I can remember.
Latest example: this Friday at work I had a talk with my supervisor that didn’t go well. Without going into to much detail it was about my perfor... | self.Anxiety |
i feel like a failure I always had these big dreams in life, I wanted to do this, or become that. I was a hopeful kid, i loved life and i wanted to make everyone happy. Some shitty stuff happened and i became a suicidal 7 y/o. 10 years later, im better, happier, but a lot more cynical. I meet this guy. He was completel... | self.depression |
Anyone else fall into a deep depression after being social? I went to a haunted house with a friend saturday, which was fun but draining. The next day, I had to keep up appearances with the in-laws for our monthly gathering.
Today, I woke up absolutely numb. I can't smile, cry, nothing. This is one of the lowest poin... | self.bipolar |
Late by a minute I was supposed to turn in an Apes (Ap Env Sci) group project last night at 11:59 I was making some edits at the end and turned it in at 12 since my clock was behind by a minute. It wasn't accepted, I really don't know how to feel right now | self.depression |
Asking for advice I suffer little to no anxiety and am a super calm person during the day. I really don't even get stressed by things that I should. I usually get severe anxiety attacks at night, though and have had trouble falling asleep because of them. I can't seem to find the source as to why it being dark makes me... | self.Anxiety |
Support really scared Can any one give any support or advice on intrusive thoughts :( or if anyone can share their experience to make me realise I'm not the only sufferer please | self.Anxiety |
I'll be dead in 72 hours and nobody knows I have no clue what I can do in my last 72 hours besides messaging my friends. I just want to make people feel less guilty over my death.
It's not their fault in any way, but people feel guilt anyway. Maybe it's the natural self preservation instinct to protect the genes of yo... | self.offmychest |
Prescribed ativan, but really don't like it. Switching to xanax? So, when I was younger (around 18-19) I started having problems with anxiety/panic. Went to doc and he gave me prozac/xanax. The xanax was a huge help during intense anxiety/panic attack moments. Didn't make me drowsy, confused, dizzy, nothing. Just t... | self.Anxiety |
Exhausted I've given up. I've tried meds with no success. I went to a therapist who was only interested in getting paid. She canceled our appointments because of her heavy caseload and left me with with no resources. I have no friends so I spend a majority of my time alone or with my boyfriend. My boyfriend is trying h... | self.SuicideWatch |
Really scared because I feel nothing (blunted emotions) I was a perfectly normal human until about 6 months ago when I had a very stressful time and had a "mental breakdown", had a really bad panic attack and developed hypochondria, ended up going to the ER multiple times only to be laughed at. Developed depersonalizat... | self.Anxiety |
Reporting of Criminal/Terrorsist Actions as "Possibly mental health related" DAE feel furious when the media makes speculations that a criminal or terrorist carried out their crimes because of mental illness?
I'm in Australia and a man mowed down some people in Melbourne. They are reporting that he "had a mental healt... | self.bipolar |
Ava Maria. I’ve not seen this but with Maria Bam bans ama happening tomorrow I think this is something we can all appreciate, aspire to, envy, and complain about. As a community!
https://youtu.be/AJaNJxyCaeM | self.bipolar |
ECT Tomorrow I’m going for an ECT consultation to see if I can start doing it. I’m bipolar type 1 with psychotic features and I’m always at least passively suicidal. Medications have not and continue to not work for me, though I’m scared if I attempted to go off of them I’d just get even worse. Lately it’s gotten to th... | self.bipolar |
Anyone else have anxiety about having/getting different mental disorders? I’m in class and we’re learning about schizophrenia and I just have bad anxiety now about it and having it. I mean I looked at the symptoms and stuff and I don’t have any of them I don’t hallucinate or hear voices etc. but still having horrible a... | self.Anxiety |
a Vent about ongoing anxiety struggle First time posting on here so sorry for the length of the post. I'm curious about others' experiences and how they deal with their anxiety symptoms.
For as long as I can remember, I dealt with a lot of social and generalized anxiety growing up but living in an old school household... | self.Anxiety |
Good book on change Hi all, one of my anxiety sources is change. Changes in routine or a general loss of control over situations really put me on edge.
I wouldn’t say that I’m a control freak, but I’m a rather particular person.
A friend of mine bought me a book named Who Moved My Cheese. It’s a great book and a qu... | self.Anxiety |
I’m starting to get to attached and I know it won’t end well. [deleted] | self.depression |
Going to accept my fate and finally make a doctors appointment [deleted] | self.depression |
How to cope with feeling worthless? Hey everyone,hope someone on here will be able to help. I've been suffering with depression/anxiety for a few years now. Often I feel fine and almost like a normal person for days/weeks. I have only ever been in a relationship once a couple of years ago but I would really like to fee... | self.SuicideWatch |
Same repetitive fucking post by probably a million people because this is the reality of being fucjing crazy I typed and retyped this post a million times. This is the last time. I have Bipolar 1 with psychotic features. I'm not on meds, I was diagnosed last year. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I love bipolar bu... | self.bipolar |
Shit that helps to wake your brain when you don't want to die 1. Buy Groceries
-Soup
-Veggies (broccoli, carrots) and dip (hummus)
2. Read a chapter of any book. Try something different than you've read before.
3. Do an activity
-Exercise
-Play an instrument
-Fuck someone attractive
If you can cycle through the... | self.depression |
Pushing emotions down need to sleep I keep pushing emotions down, I want to enjoy my day and life, so I ignore the sadness and anger. I am sad because my mom died Oct 2016, I am angry because my Dad remarried Jan 2018.
I can't stop having angry thoughts and arguments with him in my head. I just want to sleep, but ca... | self.Anxiety |
I can't afford going home for Christmas, and I feel so bad, I'm so angry. Don't know how to deal with these emotions. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Been depressed for most of my life. I've been depressed for most of my life and for the last year I've been spiraling down into a deeper depression since my best friend left me. Now I spend most of my time in my room playing video games and watching TV by myself. The only time I go out is when I want to watch a movie o... | self.SuicideWatch |
How are you guys? How's your mental health? I'm keeping up pretty good, although I've had a sort of hypochondria for about 2 weeks now. I also suffer from somniphobia and anxiety (of course).
I have an important exam on May 2018 and I should study for it but it just overburdens me at times, you know. I feel like I'll ... | self.Anxiety |
How did you know you were depressed initially ? This past year I find myself wanting to stay in more and more. Things I found joy in in the past I avoid now. I really felt it today when I was surrounded by my closest childhood friends. In the past I'd jump mountains to hang out with them. Tonight I found myself real... | self.depression |
Everyday give rise to the question, "what is wrong with me" I went to see a doctor today, and then he recommended I see a psychologist. Psychologist then hears me out, reviews the list and thinks I have severe anxiety and moderate-severe depression. There are going to be follow-up tests to see if it might be hormonal... | self.depression |
Small Victory Saturday 2.10.18 Let's share our victories from the past month or so and celebrate together. Sometimes it's the little things like getting a full night's sleep without sleep aids or doing things others take for granted that are much bigger victories than we realize. What did you do that we can take a mome... | self.bipolar |
The feeling of nothing My eyes are strung open, dry and empty. People and things around me have become shapeless. I try to move, just a bit, but my body is sluggish and heavy. Layer by layer, my skin flakes off, while the gelatin muscles drip off my bones. I hear sounds that sound like syllables but i can’t seem to tur... | self.depression |
Nothing much to live for it seems So my wife (only of four years) cheated on me two days before Valentine’s Day 2018. At first I really wanted to just separate, but her attempts to reconcile made me want to stick it out. Well soon after she is suddenly not fighting for me, and is dating the s.o.b.
We all three went to ... | self.SuicideWatch |
DAE have a paralyzing fear of sleep? I hate going to sleep. But I love sleeping, I’m a high school student and I’m always tired. But recently (4 months-ish) I have this strong fear of going to sleep
I’m afraid of losing consciousness, I don’t like not being able to remember the hours I was asleep. I also am afraid I w... | self.Anxiety |
it's hard for me to take therapists and therapy seriously I do not know what to do with myself anymore. | self.offmychest |
Slept over 70 hours over the long weekend and I still feel tired [deleted] | self.depression |
It’s all my fault He killed himself, didn’t leave a note, he told his best friend it was because of me. I begged him to get help, but i wasn’t there when he needed me at the end.
It’s been three weeks since It happened and I can’t get out of this fog. Sometimes I can distract myself but then it all comes crashing back... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to go to work, and yet... Hey gang, first time posting here. Been dealing with anxiety and depression for a long time, but I'm broke and don't have insurance so I'm just kind of making myself deal with it until I can actually talk to a doctor and get a more reliable method of managing all this.
Which bring... | self.Anxiety |
My past and plan of action for the future For as long as I can remember I've felt emotionally flat. No real happiness or sadness just nothing I honestly feel I could see someone get knocked down by a car in front of me and I'd barely react.
I wasn't always this way I used to feel stuff as a kid but I think that's whe... | self.depression |
Being hyper-aware and struggling with overthinking Hello everyone,
I have reached a new and very unfamiliar place in my life and I feel very confused and lonely. Basically, I have been re-assesing my values over the past couple months and how to focus on being my own unique individual instead of relying on others for ... | self.depression |
Anxiety Wars: Return of The Stuttering I grew up with a bad stutter. Most of it came when I had to read out loud in class, got called on for questions. Often slipped out in conversations, usually in a group setting. Through seeing psychologists it was linked with anxiety. Though my stuttering whittled away overtime, sp... | self.Anxiety |
Sick of being Dom & Sub shit!! Sorry for posting that disgust things here..
I'm 20 years old, yes I'm quite young I know, the whole shit started when I was a kid, 6 years old I guess, I discovered that I like to be tortured so I told my mom at that time " Would you like to torture me? " I don't know where it did c... | self.offmychest |
Always alone. Just once I'd like someone to be there. I have been through hell, Who in this subject hasn't? I'm ill and in pain and my parents call me all sorts of demeaning names and steal my pain medication which is all that is between me and blood cancer which doctors have been evil and cruel about because I'm broke... | self.SuicideWatch |
I damn need a damn brain transplant You must be wondering why and what I'm on about: please listen, I'm not your average or ugly person who who wish they looked like models or movie stars, this is a post from someone who has a real aesthetic problem. Every time I go out I realise that absolutely no one is as ugly as me... | self.offmychest |
I'm so unhappy with where my health is at. I'm overweight. I have constant headaches and my anxiety is through the roof. I had such a bad panic attack that I thought I was having a heart attack last week. I constantly have stomach pain. I'm so exhausted I can barely function. I can't focus. I have no motivation. I'm on... | self.bipolar |
Aversion to touch I’m generally uncomfortable with other people touching me, even if it’s something like a handshake or a hug from a family member. I also try to avoid touching other people at all times, even close friends, and when sitting with people I’ll make myself as small as possible to avoid contact.
I’ve been... | self.bipolar |
Do any of you have advice on how to deal with relationship anxiety? I'm male, 23, with a general anxiety disorder. Whenever I get into a relationship, especially at the beginning (first couple of months), I get huge bouts of anxiety and feelings that I'm not good enough for this person, or that I'll mess things up and ... | self.Anxiety |
I had the tie around my neck But I chickened out. I pulled it tight and for several seconds it felt tight and it was hard to breath. I felt pulsing in my neck but I let go. My 7 month old was sleeping in his crib that I was using to hold the tie up while I let it choke me and my 2 year old and husband was asleep in the... | self.SuicideWatch |
I saw a puppy die and I could've saved it. **Slight NSFL warning here. Please turn away if you easily get squeamish.**
This happened yesterday. I was on my way to work when I saw a puppy near our street. It looked sort of like a Mini Pinscher. It looked lost. It was friendly, curious, and well-cared for. Nothing about... | self.offmychest |
I try to find a solution but the results are so discouraging I search for posts on how to win back someone or gain their forgiveness but the responses are just people saying that it’ll either take a long time or they might just choose not to.
Why did I have to be so broken... why couldn’t I fit in? All I wanted was to... | self.depression |
I hate myself and want to die I've had inherited depression for my whole life but only recently have I really felt suicidal and I feel like I'm going to do it before Christmas.
I've fucked up my life so bad it would just be easier to kill myself than just wallow in this misery. I'm a relapsed heroin addict that lives ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else thinking they don't deserve love? Even though some of my friends tell me otherwise I still feel guilty of what I've done and unworthy of everything | self.depression |
Pretty much everyone has bailed on my birthday this year [deleted] | self.depression |
5+ straight days of essentially fully day long panic attacks I'm losing my mind here.
Background: I've had anxiety issues since ~2010, at which point I was put on Zoloft (~100 mg I believe). After a few years, they upped my dosage of Zoloft (to 150 mg) to try to help with depression. The Zoloft generally kept my anx... | self.Anxiety |
Living with a SO+ having BP I have BP1. My partner does not. He rolls over all the time to tell me to get off my phone and sleep. I have insomnia so you want me to just lay in the dark for the next 4-8 hours, bored out of my mind. He doesn't get it. Also being BP1, I have to get entertained all day long to keep my brai... | self.bipolar |
"If you think too much in the past you get depressed, if you think too much in the future you get anxious" . I CANNOT GET MYSELF TO DO ANYTHING !!
I have zero motivation I think. So I can get up, get dressed, clean myself, eat all that stuff. However, that’s pretty much all I can. Other than that I just sit on the in... | self.Anxiety |
Life is a synonym for loneliness This is my world view
* I don't want to be alive anymore
* Things will never get better
* People always lie when convenient
* Love is a made up concept
* Trust is begging to be stabbed in the back
* Friendship is temporary
* No one actually cares
* I can't be fixed
* Life is a synonym ... | self.SuicideWatch |
A pretty nice victory in my healing process I'm always pretty down on myself in the moments of anxiety. I always get angry when I end up avoiding things that are perfectly safe.
But today I looked at the big picture, and despite having a numerous list of triggers and fears, this year I've managed to travel to Rome,... | self.Anxiety |
I’m on cymbalta. For the first time in my life I’m feeling good!!!! I’m coping!!!! [deleted] | self.depression |
Cannot stop thinking Does anyone else have trouble with overthinking and if so have you found anything that works for you? | self.bipolar |
My roommate has forced me to go and get help After she was talking to my friend before university she is forcing me to go to the doctor to get help it is more work and more painful but it's really nice to see someone care for my life. I really don't want to book it but I'll have to also anyone reading this if you need ... | self.depression |
extreme suicidal ideation daily i'm kind of normal and functioning on the outside but its just a front
i think about suicide a lot and i think i'm gonna do it one day, not now or but someday | self.depression |
my boyfriend has to sleep with a fan on and i’m growing more and more resentful every night. We’ve been together for about a year and a half, and he slowly moved in over time until he was just sleeping here every night, which is fine with me. but he insists on sleeping with a fan because he likes to be cold when he sle... | self.offmychest |
Christmas is just around the corner.. fucking yay. I hate Christmas. I hate it so much. It's the time of year where my depression gets significantly worse. It's where everyone is all fucking happy but I feel like I want to close myself off in a dark room and not talk, see, or hear anybody. My parents want to put the Ch... | self.depression |
I keep hurting the one I love the most [deleted] | self.depression |
Someone followed me and yelled at me for taking a cupcake There was a speaking event at my university with a giant pile of cupcakes in the back. I stopped and took one on my way to work in the library. Unbeknownst to me someone followed me from there to the library. I turned around from getting a drink at a drinking fo... | self.offmychest |
I've lost everything, and have started rebuilding my life but I'm just so sick of it all. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I want to help my friend. Hello everyone. I'm sure there are plenty of posts out there like this but I wanted to try making one of my own. My friend and I are both very poorly off physically and mentally we have bonded a lot over the last year and she is a friend I could see having around for my entire life. So my frie... | self.bipolar |
Feeling like my life has plateaued. Haven’t accomplished anything since 2013 [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm gonna kill myself someday And that day gets closer and closer | self.SuicideWatch |
How to come down from extreme rage Right now I'm feeling extreme amounts of rage and I can't shake it off! What do you do to calm down when you feel like this! | self.bipolar |
Nightmares every night, what helps you? I keep having very vivd nightmares that prevent me from getting sleep. Honestly, I dread sleeping because of it and they affect my wake life as well. I know I need to sleep otherwise my episodes will be worse. Have you had this issue? If so, is there anything that helped you? | self.bipolar |
I’m just not happy anymore. I’m struggling with everyday life and I just don’t wanna do anything anymore. [deleted] | self.depression |
Anxiety and flatulence Since I was diagnosed with GAD I've been having constant gas. No bloating no constipation....just passing gas all day. Sometimes slight pain on right abdomen.
Tried to eat less fatty foods...took some activated charcoal, simethicone etc but with NO LUCK.
Should I get an gastroscopy or something ?... | self.Anxiety |
I've fucked up my life in so many ways that I don't even want to think about it I just want to get away from it all. Most of my problems don't have a solution anyway.
I don't want anyone to care for me after I die, I want to be forgotten, I want it all to end soon. I should never have been born in the first place.
I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
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