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Don’t know where to go or what to do All I seem to do lately is think about ending it, keep thinking of scenarios in my head about how I’m gonna do it. I was recently on citralopram but they were sending me loopy so I stopped taking them and I’m scared to go back to my doctors as I don’t want to be on pills for the res... | self.depression |
Have the option of going on Zoloft. Anything I should consider? I've always been anxious, but I would describe it as "neurotic" prior to pregnancy - sometimes I would work myself up into a full blown panic attack but it was rare - like, once every year. Since having my son, it has felt very much like a chemical imbalan... | self.Anxiety |
Cant stop thinking about suicide. ending my pain I just cant stop thinking about suicide. Its practically all i think about now. Sometimes i get my mind to think about something else, but i always go back to how much i hate myself, or how lonely i am and how i want to feel love again. I feel like im in constant pain ev... | self.SuicideWatch |
One of my best friends killed themselves last night I apologize for the format, I'm on mobile.
I would just like to spread some words around, maybe find some closure or something I don't know.
She was one of my best friends. She was always looking to have a good time with friends and when she wasn't doing that she wa... | self.depression |
Finally gone insane, dont know what to do anymore, identity crisis - Trigger Warning Hi,
so basically what I was going through this year was just insane. First half Derealization/Depersonalization, second half Depression/OCD but feels like psychotic, because everything seems so surreal. I was diagnosed with OCD and ad... | self.Anxiety |
Bipolars couple - is it even going to work? So I've been trying to process this for days now, maybe you guys can chime in with... anything really. I just found out the guy I'm dating is also bipolar, and this made me wonder: I know how unbearable I can be when struggling with myself (still looking for the right meds, s... | self.bipolar |
Considering going to a mental health doctor. What advice do you have for a complete newbie in all this? (Better explanation inside) [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I hate food and my body I eat and I look and feel fucking disgusting. I had a delicious burger and 3 onion rings and 2 beers and I feel so awful. My gut is sticking out, I look fucking pregnant.
So disgusting.
I fucking hate myself.
I hate food.
I hate eating.
I hate my body.
I hate the way I look.
I hate the way ... | self.offmychest |
I just lost my best friends because I'm a fucking asshole. Backstory for those who give a shit:
A few years ago, I ended up with a group to play Dungeons & Dragons. It's been three years since then. I've grown to love them and they are pretty much my only friends in my life.
Then, they kicked me out. Not for no r... | self.offmychest |
don’t want to live anymore i lost everyone i care about and i would kill myself but i’m too scared to do it. but i can’t keep living anymore. i have nothing. | self.SuicideWatch |
Depressed, recently relapsed into self harm, getting slapped around by life every day. It just feels like life decided I was never going to make it years ago, and sometimes I don't know why I shouldn't just give up. Every tiny thing I try to do goes wrong so often it feels like a joke sometimes. This past week, I got h... | self.SuicideWatch |
is this normal pharmacy practice? Controlled Rx early pickups = no. I understand that one.
But what about filling a regular prescription and they "only have 7" out of 30, then 5 days later because you're going out that way anyway, you call to see if the rest are ready, and a different person tells you "it was a 7 day f... | self.Anxiety |
Is this fair or a mental game someone is playing with me? A "friend" just told me that an ex friend of mine (let's call him D-who refuses to speak to me) told him that I had done 'very bad things' to him, and then D told him all about these supposed things, but then made my friend agree not to talk to me about it.
So ... | self.Anxiety |
I fell for a girl and i just wanna let it go I just wanted to let this one out.
I met a girl in my first semester in college. At first i just thought she was cute but as i got to know her i found her to be funny and interesting and pretty much amazing. At the moment it didn't go any further cause she was in a commited... | self.offmychest |
Lately I’ve been deciding how I want to do it.. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm Very Afraid About Pretty Much Everything This will get very personal. If you feel like you might be triggered from a text post getting in depth about one's insecurities with no answer or conclusion, please stop reading. Also contains profanity, mentions of medication and self loathing.
When I was 18 I used to have... | self.depression |
My suicidal friend call me bloody useless how can I actually help her? I was on the call with her sobbing over her family situation I stayed silent I had no idea what I was supposed to say or do she ended the call - I repeatedly called back and sent her text messages to call me she replied by “useless” and “you’re bloo... | self.SuicideWatch |
How can I feel nothing? I need to find some ways of feeling numb, because I can't handle the constant changing between ups and downs anymore. I just want something to numb this pain. Please help | self.depression |
Need some words which may push me a bit up [deleted] | self.offmychest |
It's hard to end it painlessly Tried the soft-hang method with cord, constricted breathing and hurt, how can you want to die so bad in your 20s makes no sense but here I am. Family think I'm just giving up and running away from problems not realising what it is to have these mental oddities. To be honest it was as low-... | self.depression |
Just some truths about life. Note: I was originally going to post this as a comment but it felt a bit too long and too broad to just leave as a comment. So it's here now. Just saying cause it would sound wierd at some parts otherwise.
Were all going to die someday. Fact of life. Besides, when you're dead, you don't ... | self.depression |
Loneliness is starting to be a major factor in wanting to end things So continuing off of my previous post https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/7fch4x/something_has_got_to_give/ I have been having an increasingly hard time with the whole situation. I am used to near constant social interaction between work, soc... | self.depression |
I Hate the People Who I Live With
Disclaimer: Don't read this while eating
So I live with 4 others in an apartment. Because no one else could be bothered, I had to take this massive overfilled binliner out (this was stinking the kitchen out and had been there 4 days). This was nearly the same size as me (I'm a peti... | self.offmychest |
I don't deserve to live, but I don't know whether I want to die. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Terrified of summer So, I have what’s known as a “buffalo hump” and it’s basically a fatty pad on the back of your neck. It makes me incredibly insecure and when I’m in public I always worry about it and dress to cover it. Summer is coming and I’m so worried. There’s no way I’ll be able to cover it up. I’m already fat ... | self.Anxiety |
Partial reasons to depression Let me please explain myself/my situation with dashes or bullet points. Might make it easier to finally pin down everything.
- I'm an idiot. Not in the traditional sense, but an idiot all the same. I would like to think that I am capable of deep thought, but overall, I just can't seem to ... | self.offmychest |
I need some help Right now I'm sitting sobbing and making ugly noises in my room because I really don't know what to do with myself. For a long time I didn't want to admit it, but now I sort of have to. I know I need help and I have issues, but I'm in a position where I can't really afford it..hence why I'm here now. M... | self.depression |
HI THIS IS NOT VERY RELEVANT BUT I FEEL MANIC??? I WAS REALLY TIRED AND THEN I LISTENED TO LOTS OF GOOD MUSIC AND DANCED A LOT ON MY OWN BECAUSE ITS FUN AND EVER SINCE THEN I HAVE NOT BEEN TIRED AND I HAVE BEEN REALLY HAPPY AND I CANT SLEEP HELP AM I GOING INSANE I HAVE NEVER HAD THIS HAPPEN TO ME BEFORE??? THIS IS A S... | self.bipolar |
I just want to feel human again. I want to experience joy and anger and sadness. I want to be able to properly grieve for my grandfather, who passed away recently and I feel like a heartless piece of crap because I simply can’t feel anything. I keep waiting for that kick-in-the-gut feeling, but it never comes. I want t... | self.depression |
29 [M4F] Trust No One **WHO AM I**
My name is Andrew and I am a 29 years old attorney living in New York. Im awkward, have social anxiety, make stupid jokes and then question them hours later and I definitely am a nerd.
At the same time, Im a great listener and reader of people. After just a short period of time I f... | self.Anxiety |
I am being both mentally and physically abused by my mom. But I can't blame her, she is unable to control her anger due to some mental illnesses. I love her a lot but if this keeps continue, some day, I won't be able to stand this. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
The last 48 hours. The last 48 hours have been some of the darkest minutes I’ve felt in a very long time. I’ve been a long time sufferer of GAD and for the majority of my life post diagnosis, have been very stable.
Now I produce music for a living, and a lot of my work is done in Paris. The label that signed me flew ... | self.Anxiety |
Someone asked me how I was doing today Well Ill be honest. Ive slept 4 hours in 4 days, im in a manic state, Ive almost fallen 3 times already, I took a taxi to work because I don't trust myself to drive, Im out of Xanax til tomorrow and Im on my period. How are you? | self.bipolar |
It's just getting worse. I have bipolar disorder. I have been off of my medication for nearly 3 months now because of lack of insurance. I just got my medications yesterday but I am so depressed and so low I don't think anything can actually help me. And then on top of everything my cat got outside and is missing. I ju... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can I stop being a human? Nothing makes me happy anymore, I feel very unattractive, all my crushes throughout my life have rejected me, my dreams about singing died, all my attempts were laughed at or booed off. I can’t sleep anymore, I have too many thoughts in my head, I hate myself, I fear the future, and that makes... | self.depression |
My best friend's anxiety relapsed and he is starting to rely on tramadol instead of his medications. Please advise. As the title above, I need advise on this matter.
My best friend has recently discovered tramadol after his emotionally unstable girlfriend told him about using it every now and then. For the past week ... | self.Anxiety |
How to deal with people who can't seem to be bothered with you? [deleted] | self.depression |
No one appreciate my existence tho Can I just die? Coz everyone that I cherished leave me, no one value me as who I am. No one was there when everything was shattered. I don't feel love, maybe I am better be dead coz I am lack of capabilities livng in this world. Why would I live in the first place? What's the reason? ... | self.depression |
Does it seem like you're still invisible no matter how hard you try? I feel that I'm not even part of society anymore, like I lost my membership and can't even think about doing normal people stuff until I apply for it again. Like talking to women, normal people stuff, right? Feels like I'm not supposed to be doing tha... | self.depression |
I want to die. I want to die now. I’m a 17 year old girl, a senior in high school. I hate living, I can’t do it. I’ll never be able to explain all the things I’ve been through but I can hit the major points.
-I’ve had depression for so long that I don’t know what my real personality would be without it and that makes ... | self.SuicideWatch |
“Please respect our children, there is no nudity acceptable in the locker room” At a public pool? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
idk just some random thoughts im not going to kill myself, but i want to
it’s too much for everyone else, i don’t want to burden people even more.
i feel selfish even by thinking this
my family doesn’t care about my self harm and shit. (they’re still aware of it, and even threaten me about it)
not asking for sympat... | self.SuicideWatch |
Terrible anxiety Today my anxiety is at an all time high and I can’t fall asleep because of it.
I never drink anything with caffeine to it because I know how badly it affects me but today I had an iced coffee to help get me through my 8 hour shift. It didn’t have any effect on me The whole time I was at work but about... | self.Anxiety |
One year balance, advice on how to deal with negative online professional feedback Hey guys,
Big hugs for all of you.
It's been a year since I attempted suicide and went to intensive care. Had a big bump back on October but now am back on track trying to live my life as best as possible. Some days are better than other... | self.depression |
As a life-long superhero fan, the saturation of Marvel/DC blockbusters has turned me off entirely [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Could Lithium (orotate) and B12 together greatly improve anxiety/depression/OCD,...? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I can't can't continue. It hurts. It all hurts. The end of relationship is just the straw that broke my back. I've been abused, raped, and thrown away. I'm unlovable and I'm so tired. Tired of being alone. Tired of having to be strong. Tired of doing it myself. Tired of the constant struggle. I'm tired of always weathe... | self.SuicideWatch |
What's the point? My life will never be worth a fuck to me I want someone else's life not my dog shit existence. I'll never be anything I want to be, yet I can never bring myself to do it. I couldn't kill myself if I wanted to I wish someone could just shoot me in the head. | self.SuicideWatch |
Welcoming Newcomers & Free Talk Thread - November 13, 2017 Greetings & Salutations!
Use this post to introduce yourself if you're new. Or maybe you're not so new, but haven't gotten around to introducing yourself yet in one of these posts. That's ok too! Either way, we'd love to offer you a warm welcome to our... | self.Anxiety |
My girlfriend made me feel so unloved on my birthday and I don't know how to move on. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I just yelled at my mom in front of the house keeper I’m feeling so many things rn! I’m so angry! I’m bursting out in tears crying hiding in my bathroom. I want to run away and just end all of this right now. I want to scream. I want to go smash the heads of every single person that has belittled me, insulted me, treat... | self.depression |
university and my parents are destroying my life I am in a seriously downward spiral right now in my first year of university. I'm living away from home which has been great - I really enjoyed making new friends and the freedom at first - until now. I was never good at math in high school, I got mid 60's in calculus. I... | self.depression |
Post gallbladder removal anxiety Hi all,
I had my gallbladder out a week ago. The surgery went fine and I was able to get through it with little nausea and no vomiting! (Thank you so much for antiemetic drugs and scopolamine patches!). While the surgery itself is healing okay, I'm starting to get worried and freaked o... | self.Anxiety |
Still here, still want to die I know i post here so often you could probably disregard everything i say as bullshit, empty threats but honestly im worried, i really do think ill kill myself soon. | self.SuicideWatch |
"Friends" Has anyone else just lost all desire to try with "friends" amymore? They keep bailing, so it must be you, but you haven't changed? | self.depression |
Does anyone else have so much they have to do that they just end up doing nothing? I'm under a lot of stress right now with going back to school, starting a new job and being a mom of 2 at the same time. I have to hire a sitter for my daughter, which means I have to post an ad and then actually *interview* people. In p... | self.Anxiety |
feeling weird lately i'm just having a weird time. i'm really worried i'm getting bad again. this is a fear i've had for a few months after being pretty stable for about a year (including ~4 months of UltraStability™ where i was just focused and healthy as fuck). i've just had this on and off feeling for like a month o... | self.bipolar |
The victim becomes the victimizer Well where to begin. I suppose the start is as good a place as any. This all began when I was really young. I'd say about 5 but I can't be certain. My memory from my childhood is hazy at best, probably the result of me repressing dark times. My sister was around 10 and she would come ... | self.offmychest |
All I want for Christmas is girlfriend who will love me. I know it’s pathetic, i know men shouldn’t be weak, but loneliness hits me hard during holidays. | self.depression |
It’s been 4 years and they still don’t like me. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Worried that sertraline (Zoloft) is making me feel worse I’ve been on Zoloft for about 3 months now, and it felt like it was working for a little bit, but over the past couple of days I’ve been having sudden feelings of complete isolation and general sadness (sometimes thoughts of suicide). I read online that Zoloft ca... | self.depression |
Nothing at all? I've been doing a lot of reading and can't tell what's going on. My meds were making sick, and I was going through what felt like a mixed episode (manic, yet depressed, suicidal, etc.). I called my Doc and he lowered my antidepressant (MAOI Inhibitor), after about 48 hours my mood changed, but now it's ... | self.bipolar |
JFC kids on discord So I hopped on a new discord server, expecting some cool people, it seemed ok for about 30 seconds, then I noticed that they had a roleplay section and t was constantly getting posts. I hopped in and found that they were all just doing sexual shit, and I wasn't about that so I hoped on out of that c... | self.offmychest |
Being a workaholic Ever feel like you work 40+ hrs/wk just so your so tired you cant find the energy to be emotional and make rash decisions?
I just quit being a paper boy interrupting my sleep haveway thru the nite after 4 months of it. With more sleep i feel more emotions around but now seem to have a hard time find... | self.bipolar |
Does Tylenol really decrease anxiety or do you find it makes you more anxious? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I don’t want to go to my friends place. I don’t want to answer my emails. I just want to sleep. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
i cant stop crying im a 23 male,and theres this knot inside me,i was just contemplating on my parents lives,both there fathers died when they were about 8 or 8 and my moms brother died as a gangster when she was in her early 20s and im just crying... | self.depression |
I don't know what I am doing on this Earth. Thinking about what I've done that was actually impactful in my life, anything that was worth it. Nothing is with me right now. The whole idea of 'starting a new day' but I feel like there's nothing foundational to build on. | self.depression |
Everyday I check here and UnsentLetters Hoping and wishing you would have something else to say. I leave so many notes hidden throughout the internet for you to find, I wonder if you’ve seen them and known it was me. I wonder why I do it. I wonder why I keep hurting myself like this. I thought I went through all the st... | self.offmychest |
Finally kms People only care after you've died. I don't have anyone to day bye to. So bye | self.depression |
Stomach pain with ZOLOFT 25mg Help Hi all I’m still struggling a lot of eating. I get stomach pain when I eat at night and start sweating. It makes me very nauseas as well like right in the middle of my stomach. Anyone else experience this issue? I keep thinking there is something wrong with me but my doctor said it’s ... | self.Anxiety |
I’m going to start outpatient care. I’ve been going through an extremely bad bout of anxiety/depression. In the past going on Prozac has helped and I was quickly able to get back to my daily life. This time that is not the case. I have gone up and down during the last 5 weeks having extremely good days and extremely ba... | self.Anxiety |
Stressing About My Best Friend Trying To Kill Themselves [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else feel like they fail at being human? I can't do anything right. And I have no aspirations in life that matter. I don't want to get married or start a family. I don't have passions for anything that I can get a decent job with. I think I'm always gonna be miserable. I can't even drive decent distances wit... | self.depression |
I can't remember my therapist's face? I wanted to make this post for a while, but decided to wait for a few more months and... nope, still happening.
I started seeing my pdoc and therapist at the same time, around last September. I only see my pdoc once per month, and each appointment goes on for 10-15min. It took a w... | self.bipolar |
Depressed without the mental aspect? So I just came down from a manic episode about 4 days ago. Physically I’m acting exactly like when I’m depressed, but mentally I’m not. Normally I constantly ruminate on negative thoughts, feel overwhelming hopelessness, and suicidal ideation. I don’t feel any of that, but I’ve been... | self.bipolar |
Anyone ever feel... weird after opening up to someone about anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Stuck in a rut I can't get myself out of [deleted] | self.depression |
Conversations With Anxiety About 4 months ago, I started writing out different scenarios in which my anxiety and I interact. Some of them are kinda ridiculous (humor is my coping mechanism) but I've found this very cathartic.
Here are a few:
Anxiety: Hey, so my mom kicked me out and I need to crash with you for like ... | self.Anxiety |
I Tried I took a bunch of pills last night because I was just so overwhelmed with everything. I realized it was stupid after I took them and I told my mom. She literally had to force her hand down my throat to get me to throw the pills up.
I'm kinda happy she did that, but also angry because I don't want to live anym... | self.SuicideWatch |
Lexapro and apathy Has anyone gone through this? I didn't realize how emotionally numb I was until yesterday when I received, quite possibly, the worst news of my life (mom + cancer). I feel guilty for not having the proper reaction. | self.Anxiety |
I'm afraid I'm going to get arrested About two weeks about I stole $100 from work because I was short on rent and afraid of being evicted. I intended to replace the money with my paycheck coming up but they found out this morning, two days before I could even come up with the money to replace it. I feel sick.
I've neve... | self.offmychest |
really terrible headaches that only last a couple of minutes? my anxiety is going crazy thinking that i’m literally dying
i sometimes get these super super terribly bad headaches where it hurts so bad i actually feel like i’m going to die from it. light hurts and moving hurts and everything hurts, but it’s only there ... | self.Anxiety |
Attempting to explain what my anxiety feels like, needed to share Everything hurts. My head, my face, my hands, my stomach. It’s all tense and tingling. Breathing in hurts, breathing out hurts. Thinking of friends hurts. Nowhere feels like home, everywhere feels hostile. I feel as lonely alone in my room as I do in a r... | self.Anxiety |
not worth reading just me writing how i feel Some of the only times I get really depressed is at night when Im alone, these always hit the hardest, my mind races from one depressing thing to another. I have zero self confidence and hate myself at least 25% of the time. I've never had my first kiss, and have never been ... | self.depression |
What can you do when you feel like everyone around you is miserable? I feel like I am surrounded by people who are miserable and I'm starting to think that has played a role in why I started struggling with depression in the first place.
My coworkers are super negative and petty. If they're not talking about someone ... | self.depression |
Can anyone tell me what this is? This is what I'm doing that weirds the hell out of me.. this is what I'm doing that weirds the hell out of me. See what I did there? Yes, I'm repeating myself but not out loud and only to myself. Sometimes I repeat myself in a lower voice and sometimes in my thought. This sounds like ec... | self.bipolar |
Should i apologize to my boyfriend for how i treated him this morning? Last night we almost had sex but I got too scared and stopped and he got annoyed. This morning when he left for work he tried kissing me and I turned my head and yelled and told him to leave me alone. He just got really really quiet and touched my a... | self.Anxiety |
When you call all your ex lovers in the same night just to say what up | self.bipolar |
What are some little things you do to help yourself cope? I need some new coping strategies. Little things I can do to get my mind off of things. The unfortunate thing is that I don't have much energy, so even basic things like buying something for myself or doing yoga seem too overwhelming.
What activities help yo... | self.depression |
I miss you. I miss you. But i like being apart from you. I like that you are happier without me. I like that you don’t have to stress over our incompatibility anymore. I like that you changed me. You showed me parts of myself i had never seen before. You tore down my walls. Walls that my pride and fear had built up my ... | self.offmychest |
Lonely and Frustrated I'm having a lot of trouble breaking the loop of feeling lonely and subsequently working my ass off to try and meet someone. I've basically heard every piece of advice imaginable from people but it's usually something along the lines of "Just stop thinking about it so much" or "Don't worry about i... | self.offmychest |
My friend messaged me asking if I was OK This made me feel amazingly happy to know that I had someone who genuinely likes me and wants me to be happy.
If you have any friends that you know are suffering, but them up with a text just to see how they are doing. I have never thought of doing this until I was messaged and... | self.Anxiety |
Severe anxiety over "Small things", how to cope? Hi All,
I have to share as I am in a terrible place right now. Over the last 7 months, I have been having severe anxiety over things that other would consider 'little' or insignificant or simply 'made up'
I will take a situation and immediately choose the worst case s... | self.Anxiety |
My oldest, greatest, and only true friend has announced his next attempt. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My dad As I grow older, I realize that most of my problems are from my dad. A lot of things that he did, or is doing, is ruining my family, and he fails to realize it, and he will never admit to it. Honestly, I despise him. It's hard to write this down because one, I'm furious about writing about him because of how muc... | self.offmychest |
I'm a pathological liar. One of the memories that I can vividly remember from my childhood is my dad telling my mom that I was too innocent to lie. This was at the age of 7 but I can remember already being very comfortable lying before that. I would lie to everyone and anyone for no reason, including my parents. The li... | self.offmychest |
Starting to doubt I have bipolar? I'm a 26 year old woman. I was going through a really rough patch, considering suicide, etc. So I booked an appointment with a doctor. The doctor referred me to another doctor who discussed the possibility of having bipolar. At the time it made sense, I could see how I fit many of the ... | self.bipolar |
Give me advice! They replaced me at my job. I was the man in charge of one aspect of the company and they replaced me without saying anything. Replacement is better than me at the job.
I have a non-biological son who wants to be part of my life but I want nothing to do with him. My biological son is behind in educat... | self.depression |
Lost another pdoc... why is finding one so hard? Rhetorical question because healthcare is fucked.
Because I decided to go back to DBT, i got a letter saying my file has been closed at the clinic where I was receiving therapy and med management.
They have a policy that you can't see their doc if you don't see ... | self.bipolar |
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