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I'm a piece of shit who cheated, and I'm a coward for wanting to take the easy way out I don't know why I'm here. My fucking head is spinning just sitting here writing this shit.
I'm a piece of shit. I cheated on my girlfriend. She's been across the country for two years, and I couldn't resist temptation, and I cheate... | self.SuicideWatch |
My Misanthropy makes suicide seem like a good option. Why keep living if most people are extremely hateful, hypocritical, and ignorant of things they can easily know.
source of why I feel like this: Being a transgender bisexual who's been abused to all fuck and seeing how most other christian's dont give a shit about ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can alcohol help with physical anxiety symptoms Lately I've been having a lot of physical anxiety, and I don't have medication, Im going to the doctor next week, but I do have alcohol. Would this help? The symptoms that are really bothering me are feeling like I can't breathe well and that my chest is tight.
I've tri... | self.Anxiety |
I once felt like a king I’m a military veteran struggling with survivors guilt. I was hot shit. Every troop I trained and prepared for the job we had to do did amazing. They were my brothers. Our time came around to deploy and we were stoked. It was gonna be my first deployment and I was prepared to take my troops with... | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish I had just one person I wish I had just one person, even if only online, to talk to. Someone to ask how my day was, and to tell me about theirs. Someone to discuss anything with. Someone to just talk with, about anything or nothing.
Someone to say good morning to and someone to say good night to.
I know this ... | self.depression |
I will find my way back you to and we will share the love that was meant to be. I will find my way out of this dead-end relationship/arrangement and back to you. We’ve crossed paths and had tried to develop a relationship but due to our worries and wounds, what should have been turned to what could have been. I’m so a... | self.offmychest |
Help! I have a date in 2 days & I need tips/advice to get over the anxiety that’s building up! 😭 [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
My antidepressant/anti-anxiety medication made me gain 44 pounds I'm 209 pounds/95kg right now. My height is 5.6ft/1.71m.
Before I took the medication I was 165 pounds/75kg.
I was wearing Large. Now I'm wearing XL and XXL.
I'm trying to eat less, I'm trying to exercise but this is killing me.
Ha... | self.Anxiety |
Tomorrow morning is my hearing with the University... If they kick me out I don't know what I'm going to do [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Any reasons to not kill myself I have almost ran out of reasons to not kill myself anyone have any good reasons not to.(I'm not excepting guilt trip family and friends stuff or things will get better) | self.SuicideWatch |
I can’t bring myself to open up to people but feel like I’m alone even though people offer help to me [deleted] | self.depression |
New job stress I've just been offered a new job and I'm so anxious about it. I feel so sick just thinking about it. It doesn't help that the induction is a week long stay in a hotel 2 hours from home with almost complete strangers. I need a better job for the money because I'm part time at my current place of work due... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone have advice on being less aware in a conversation I'm trying to be less anxious in social settings and a big part of that is forcing myself to make eye contact whilst having a conversation. I'm now finding myself only aware of where I am looking, how long I am looking at whoever I am talking to then I am th... | self.Anxiety |
I’m at the lowest I’ve been in a long time. I used to be able to talk to people before it got to this point, but it’s day three in bed and everything hurts so bad, I can barely breathe. Who do I talk to? What do I say? These people don’t know me well enough, or I know all that’ll happen is they’ll think less of me.
... | self.depression |
If I fail I die I am on a PhD at the moment and terrified. Nothing is going well and on one of my modules (I did receive an A for another but that was the easy module) I received the lowest pass grade there is meaning that I barely escaped academic extinction. There is so much pressure on me to succeed (although my par... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hella long anxiety attack Soooo I have really bad anxiety and it's been acting up since Saturday of last week. I haven't had an appetite and when I try to eat I nearly vomit. any advice on how not to be like this? | self.Anxiety |
A perfect night Me in his arms. Him resting his head on my shoulder while I browse reddit and play with his hair and beard.
What a wonderful way to be with the one you care about. :) I hope I always feel this way. | self.offmychest |
I'm 24 but I want to be 14 forever Dreams shouldnt be dreary ya know??? I'm too kool for skool broheimmmmian | self.depression |
Can’t take meds and I don’t know what to do [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm falling behind in everything, and I don't know how long I can hold out for... I've just recently been homeschooled (at the beginning of the year) and I think it's been too long of a wait for it to happen. I've always been at a public school my whole life until this year and I think I'm too used to that system. I've... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm tired of my dad saying sexual things about me The title speaks for itself. I’m afraid to leave my room when I’m visiting my parents because my dad gets drunk every night and will either try to antagonize me, or he’ll say something sexual about me (or criticize my sexuality). I’m not going to get into what he says b... | self.offmychest |
Hey, I don’t know what I’m doing. But I’m here in bed riddled with worries, regrets and fears. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Bipolar 1 and Schizophrenia According to two different doctors. I’m on Risperidone and Divalproex Sodium. I experienced two manic episodes that where several months apart. The manic episodes was due to trolling Facebook with my new found ideological belief. A belief that I was out to save the world. I was playing Metal... | self.bipolar |
Depression aside, I don't even remember the last time I was happy. [deleted] | self.depression |
Oh no, I'm worried that no one wants to be my friend, please help I'm a really shy and quiet person offline and they say I'm nice and I take care of my niece and nephew
I was just about to go to bed but now I feel bad from the anon message I just got on Tumblr https://hamsterrivals.tumblr.com/
they said that no one w... | self.Anxiety |
I feel selfish for having anxiety Does anyone else feel selfish for having anxiety?
Let me explain:
Sometimes I feel anxious for no reason. Literally, I'm just afraid that something *bad* is going to happen, so I start panicking; I am hypervigilant.
These feelings give me immense guilt because all I'm doing is worr... | self.Anxiety |
I buried a childhood memory of sexual assault, and now it haunts me. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
So tired... I promised my mother I wouldn't kill myself as long as she is alive. Big mistake. Now I can't help but wish she were dead. Does that make me a bad person? I don't even know if I care anymore. | self.depression |
I've never felt any worse than I do at this very moment. [deleted] | self.depression |
I can't fucking do this anymore I just wanna cry but I can't. I'm so tired of life now. Why is God/the universe punishing me this much? I can't find one reason to be alive. Nothing makes me happy, everything is falling apart. What kind of sick joke is this?
Btw I'm not suicidal. I promised myself that I would never d... | self.depression |
I hate how we human beings have to rely on other humans for our own mental health Be it for happy times, affection, comforting words, hugs, practical help... Your wellbeing relies on other humans, who are as helpless and limited as you, and have their own things to care about. There is no solution and I hate this with ... | self.depression |
How do you cope when a friend leaves you? Because they need space and to have their own time. Because depression is heavy, and they didn't really know what they were signing up for when they met you. Because you always need, and it's just too much to handle after awhile.
I don't necessarily feel sad and lonely. I more... | self.depression |
I don’t like how music goes in one ear and out the other. I can listen to my favorite song and once it’s over I actually forget if I listened to it or not because of how little attention I was paying to it. | self.depression |
It is so painful when I am asked about working I isolate or go places where people don't ask those things, or if they do I sometimes lie. I know I shouldn't do this, but I fear judgment because people just don't understand.
I've been disabled for such a long time and am still frightened to death of even taking steps f... | self.bipolar |
I didn’t end my life on Halloween as planned. I feel like a failure and am still thinking about doing it this weekend. I feel hopeless. | self.SuicideWatch |
im afraid of coming out and its hard to get help because of it recently its been really hard trying to fight these internalized homophobic thoughts. and whenever i do tell people im struggling i cant tell them exactly why. i cant tell them i feel unloveable and i hate myself because im attracted to girls. so they end u... | self.depression |
Does this exist? A practice that actually has both a therapist and a psychiatrist that interact? Or a psychiatrist that also does therapy? I have a therapist I have begrudgingly come to like a bit, but she thinks I need to go back on meds, and I don’t disagree. But I don’t want to do it because I am so damned sick of r... | self.depression |
Choking sensation over small things So, this been happening since I'm eleven, and sinceraly i don't feel like talking about what the trigger is, but it's something really small, an everyday thing, very specific.
The thing is, every time i come across that specific scenario alongside some other things, i get a weird sen... | self.Anxiety |
Leaving me stranded in dangerously cold temperatures in my pjs might have been the nicest thing he could have done for me. It really sucked. I thought i might have to go to the ER for frostbite, but some kind strangers took care of me and let me use their phone when mine was dead to have my mom come get me.
Normally ... | self.offmychest |
What to expect from a first time "Psychiatric Consult" referral from my medical doctor? Already on meds and done CBT. Hello,
My medical doctor wrote me a refferral for a "Psych Consult" to a local psychiatric office and I was wondering what to expect/where it goes from here.
The details are as follows, but I can prov... | self.Anxiety |
Freaking out over friend with Borderline Personality Disorder not responding [deleted] | self.depression |
It all just seems so meaningless For the past 6-7 months my life just seems so worthless to myself and everyone around me. I had a breakdown over during Christmas dinner with the family and my mom got angry for ruining Christmas and embarrassing her in front of everyone. I failed a college class last quarter and after... | self.SuicideWatch |
I told my boyfriend about my suicidal thoughts and cutting, not sure if that was the right decision. [deleted] | self.depression |
Should be dead. I know this is a pointless post and will only piss people off and weird people out (the two things I have any semblance of a proficiency at) but for some reason I feel the need to be a cunt here too.
I am a walking corpse. I am supposed to have starved to death in 2015, they were expecting me to. I hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm not as sad anymore, but now I'm just perpetually flat and indifferent. [deleted] | self.depression |
It's becoming too much to handle. Mom is handing over the keys to the house I grew up in tomorrow. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Starting medication whilst working Hello everyone,
I have been suffering for anxiety for many years. I have tried medication previously (fluoxetine) and had a horrible reaction.
My anxiety has flared up again to the point where it is taking over my life.
I do all the right things
- therapy
- daily exercise (I'm a gym ... | self.Anxiety |
Does anybody else feel shittier when they know how many people care about them? the context of this story would take up at least a small novel but i was just wondering if i was alone in getting fucked up and calling old friends telling them half truths in the hope of being put away somewhere and the next day getting a ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you talk when you're manic? My SO says when she suspects I'm becoming manic, all she has to do is listen to me talk and that confirms it. She says I talk faster and more (duh), but I also have a higher pitched voice during manic episodes, almost kind of silly and playful.
Does anyone else's tone change, and ho... | self.bipolar |
I miss dancing I danced ballet in a professional studio for 11 years and quit but continued dancing in high school for two more years. I quit ballet because I wasn't allowed to move up a level due to me having an injury and not being well equipped enough for the intensity of the next level. To be honest, I was one of t... | self.offmychest |
Unapproachable parents I've been trying so hard the past month to improve my life in lots of different aspects whether it's hygiene, my diet, how I think, how I interact with others, etc, but the same suicidal thoughts remain.
I sit in my room trying my hardest to distract my mind, and when I need help with something ... | self.SuicideWatch |
What will make me happy versus what will make me feel better right now When I am depressed, I often get bogged down in the large questions, such as "what will make me happy?" I feel lonely, so I need to find a relationship. I have financial issues, so I need to find a better job, or any job. Life feels meaningless, so ... | self.depression |
Sertraline and Propranolol Been prescribed 50mg of Sertraline and 10mg of Propranolol (6 times a day)
I started taking Sertraline, 50mg yesterday at 3:30pm and 50mg today at 9:00am
Currently shaking really badly, can’t stop twitching, my eyes are bloated and heavy, feel really depressed/upset, anxiety is 10X worse... | self.Anxiety |
you never know you never know the one always comfort you is the one who need it the most
you never know the one who have the brightest smile is also who always cry alone in his/her room
you never know the one who always seen the brightest is the one who always have suicidal thoughts
you never know he/she don't eve... | self.depression |
Anxiety with my girlfriend *big text ahead*
I hope this is the right place to post this. I was going to post it on r/Advice but I thought here would suit my problem better.
My native language isn't English so I'm sorry if I have grammatical errors.
I'm 17 and I have social anxiety. It affects my everyday life. I'm w... | self.Anxiety |
I miss the past. Too much. Even the awful parts. I miss my childhood so much. Those times were so easy and fun, and it's awful knowing those times will never come back. I watch childhood cartoons and occasionally play old video games, but it'll never be the same. It's the feeling of being in that time that made it so s... | self.depression |
Feeling like I need to be taken care of but too scrambled to know what that looks like Now that my wife's dead, I'm trying to discover who I am. I've been in a funk since summer. Today I thought... maybe I need to feel taken care of.
I take care of my son, who's 4. He's a better kid on his worst day than many kids are... | self.offmychest |
So depressed I really want to die recently, but I don't have the guts (i'm too scared of hurting my family and friends).
And it's nearly christmas, it's making me so depressed. I will have to spend time with my fucking family and hide my self harm (forearm and thighs). It's such a pain.
And I just had a fight with my ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Flashbacks. I was in a relationship with this girl my sophomore year of highschool (graduated June of 17) and I fell in love with her deeply nothing like I experienced before she was like perfect to me then she left me and we had a on/off again thing going on in the summer going to my junior year then when school start... | self.depression |
I’m becoming more okay with my appearance. I’m not the guy whose turning heads when he walks into a room. I’m a little overweight and average height. I used to say I was unattractive and hated looking at myself in the mirror.
Now I’m content with how I look. I’m feeling a little more confident even though my appearan... | self.offmychest |
Not good enough. I try so hard with people, I put so much effort in to showing I care and that I actually want to be friends with people, but they just never seem to like me. I'm always the one to start off the conversation, not once has anyone ever just messaged me asking "How was your day?", even though I ask people ... | self.depression |
It's night time again! The best time of the day!
The time where the world slows down, no one to fight with, no deadlines, no meetings, no quotas to make, no school to attend, no work to go to, no yelling, no crying, no anxiety, no responsibilities or obligations.
Just guaranteed 8 hours of sleep.
This may not apply ... | self.depression |
Im tired Thought i was doing better. Nope just flirting with hypomainia and a consistent inability to objectively evaluate or even remember my feelings and behaviors without someone prompting and reminding or telling me nope im still fucked in the head. On the plus side ive lost about 50 pounds. So i only have about 60... | self.bipolar |
My girlfriend of almost three years has left me and cut off all contact. My girlfriend and I went to separate colleges. We attempted a long-distance relationship, and then two months into it she told me she was now dating another guy. She broke up with me via text. This was more than a week ago and I'm still processing... | self.offmychest |
I don't know what to do. I have lost my girlfriend, I am losing my house in 1 month. I have pushed my entire family away. I have no friends, I have no job.
I have nothing.
I am scared where this is going to lead me.
I don't know what to do.. nobody cares about me. Encouraging words like "you can do it" don't do it f... | self.depression |
My ex gf is with a new boyfriend and it hurts my heart. I have no support system to turn to and my mind is in the darkest place it's ever been. TL;DR: I sabotaged myself with one of the best girls I ever met. I fucking hate myself, I'm the loneliest I've ever been and I have no direction in life. Moving to a new countr... | self.depression |
There's no point to keep on going. Everything feels dull and I don't feel like I could enjoy anything, I don't have anyone that I can talk or connect with. | self.depression |
I can't fucking win. I get promoted, so I now make a little more money, then I refer a bunch of people to my company, so i am getting a bonus for each of them. And I paid off my credit card.
And now this stupid GOP Tax plan is passed. So I won't get to make deductions like I used to, and now I am going to owe a shit t... | self.depression |
I’m crying alone at school for the fourth time in two weeks. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
How can I live if I don't have anything to live for? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm suffering from depression and anxiety for years, had suicidal thoughts in the past, harming myself, I got better for a while but after my break up I start having the same thoughts and I am afraid for myself. I don't want to die but the feelings and my thoughts are unbearable... I'm so afraid [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
The only thing I look forward to is sleeping/dreaming [deleted] | self.depression |
Zyprexa Anyone on Zyprexa felt lightheaded? I am going up to 7.5 mg. | self.bipolar |
All I'm trying to do is change the world, is that too much to ask? ["x-post" offmychest] #lamictal #klonopin #adderall If you don't think that one person-- or one group of people can radically change the world for the better nearly instantly, against all odds, then don't even bother reading this.
Tomorrow, I'm going t... | self.bipolar |
(((VENTING))) Aye this feels weird posting on a depression subreddit. I never would've thought that'd id have depression because I'm such a positive person and I always look for the good in stuff. But here's what's been going on.
I've been dealing with serious social anxiety since I was 13. Id always be amazed by peop... | self.depression |
What a great way to start off the year. Cried myself to sleep last night, wasn't on the agenda at all. Siblings treat me and each other like shit. It's driving me insane. 2017 wasn't a good year at all. I wish I could honestly just hit my siblings and show them their place. They're ungrateful, they fight with the whole... | self.SuicideWatch |
I think one of my main worries is coming true, feeling super anxious and could use some advice So this is all going to sound super silly, but one of my main anxiety issues is that i worry about getting sick before events that I'm really looking forward to. not like terminally ill sick, minor things like a cold or stoma... | self.Anxiety |
I'm so ready to die I'm so done I can't wait any longer this constant thought of killing myself is driving me insane I've been putting this off for eight years now. why can't I be happy? I should've killed my self way sooner I kept waiting and waiting but I still want to die. Fuck this shit o wish I could give my life ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Any health anxiety sufferers out there? My new obsession is pOTS. I’ve fully convinced myself I have it, and I’m a 25 year old male. | self.Anxiety |
My grandpa's ashes Recently my entire family decided to keep my grandfather's ashes at my house instead of throw them in the ocean. I didnt know this until I asked my mom today where they put the ashes (still thinking we threw them in the ocean) and she goes "in the cabinet behind you".
I can't stop thinking about it.... | self.offmychest |
I can feel a break down coming and I can't stop it I feel so frustrated and scared. I just went off lithium and went on latuda so I could try to have a baby and I feel more out of control and angry then I ever have.
I don't want to do this anymore. It is fucking terrifying knowing that I'm on the verge of ruining my ... | self.bipolar |
I fucking hate below freezing weather. It's dark. It's deathly cold. FUCK the winter months. People die from these subzero temperatures every day in the U.S., it's so malicious and sad. Every morning is a dark, freezing piece of shit with awful drivers ruining the roads. It saps what little life energy I have left just... | self.depression |
Would you have made the (full)dive if you knew the risk ahead of time?(yes, SAO reference) I've thought about this many times and another post somehow reminded me of it. If you've seen SAO then you probably know what the title is referring to...if not, we're talking full VR that paralyzes the body and has the ability ... | self.depression |
I have no health insurance so I am unable to see a psychologist or psychiatrist. I have shared with 2 close friends and relatives that I am dangerously depressed. No one is taking it seriously - I think about suicide everyday. Every single day. Someone give me some guidance, please. [deleted] | self.depression |
I didn't ask to be born. Doesn't it bother you guys that you were brought into this world one day and you were just expected to go to school, get a job, and contribute to society?
And can I talk about school?
Why is it that I learn more on Youtube than at school? I enjoy learning off of channels like Vsauce and Asa... | self.offmychest |
Help for a terminally-ill friend I have a friend who was recently given a diagnosis for a terminal disease. The time horizon isn't great, but it isn't immediate, either.
He's deeply religious, and I while I think his scruples are strong enough to make it highly unlikely, I can't rule out that he'll commit suicide. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How could I 'hint' at being depressed? I’ve been coping with depression for a while now, but up until this point I’ve kept it secret because I don’t want to worry my friends and family, or be a stress on them. It’s been getting steadily worse, and I have an exam today I haven’t studied for, a paper due in a month that ... | self.depression |
What's the nicest thing anyone's ever done to help you cope with your depression? My room is constantly messy. About a year ago, my best friend started to get really into organizing. Not in a negative "your room is disgusting" way, but she kept sending me links to organizational tips and articles. I didn't really know ... | self.depression |
Practicum gave me a breakdown last night. Help me figure out how to get used to this and take on challenges... I feel like my one supervisor is expecting way more of me than I'm ready for, like I need to see how things are done not just in general but in this specific context since I'm pretty much just basing things on... | self.bipolar |
Sleep always makes me feel better but after 15 minutes awake is when the depression sets in again. Does this indicate any certain conditions or medicines? I ask because soon I will be treated by ECT for the first time and this is my last chance to discover a root cause for decades of suffering. In my mind since some p... | self.depression |
How many of you live by "just another month/year/day"? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Why am I even bothering to write this when I should just do it I've come to terms that I'm never going to amount to anything in life. The only major accomplishment I did was graduate high school and get my driver's license (At age 23). I'm 25, still in college basically in limbo from graduating, I have no fucking idea ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am very fucking stupid. So I got really in the spirit this year. Too in the spirit. My manic ass decided to just become one with Santa, and blow fucking like $2500 on everyone I love for Christmas. I told myself it would be fine.
[narrator voice: it was not fine]
So I’ve been stressing about how I need to pay $130... | self.bipolar |
Hi! My name is Shutterbirdy, and I have anxiety. What I DON'T have? Many people in my life whom I can talk to, that actually GET what it means. So here I am! My husband of nearly ten years (Already!?) has been encouraging me (read here "imploring" me) to talk. He knows the thought of meeting face to face with a paid st... | self.Anxiety |
I'm in a fraternity and want to leave but these guys are my only "friends" cause I've been around them for so long and I don't know what to do I'm currently in a fraternity and these guys are the people who I'm "close" with. I'm trying to get my life together and trying to stop having meaningless hookups, drinking exce... | self.depression |
Tell me something good Feeling kinda wobbly and could use some happy thoughts. | self.bipolar |
First part of my depression story I wrote a blog post to start talking about my depression story and the various events that occurred afterward. I plan on writing more soon. Let me know what you guys think.
https://afterthoughts.space/blog/2017/8/13/depression-and-nihilism | self.depression |
Surprised by my diagnosis and the great day that followed... Hello all. This my whole story as brief as I could type it... if its too much than please read the final paragraph as that it what I really want to share.
I am currently 24 and have a great job as part of a small but growing real estate team. When I was 15 I... | self.Anxiety |
Gabapentin for anxiety - how long does it take to notice an effect? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Abilify and Gabapentin and ADD New med regiment after being unmedicated (and unhinged) for 2+ years. Up to 10mg on abilify and 300 twice a day of Gabapentin. Anyone have experience with these meds? I've gained a little weight and my labido has noticably dropped. At what dose do I start to actually feel positive effects... | self.bipolar |
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