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Please tell me it gets better, I had a panic attack out of the blue today and had to leave work. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
We are not weak Last night in the middle of the night I woke up and immediate had a really bad anxiety attack. I felt so dreadful that I randomly burst into tears. I think it’s because I had a realistic dream that all my worst fears came true. When I woke up, it felt like nothing was real and I was just very scared and... | self.Anxiety |
STOP running that commercial saying "Nobody would miss you" if you killed yourself. I'm a mid 50's person with a failed marriage, working from home alone at my own online business, living far from where I grew up.
At this age, virtually NOBODY wants to make friends. About 80% are consumed with their grandkids/older ... | self.SuicideWatch |
13/M Really scared today So this is my first post on this subreddit.
Today I felt really scared. We had just come back from the movie theater, and I was feeling depressed. My little brother was making a racket, and I had to tell him to shut up like ten times. Anyways, it was a rainy day, and after we got home, I got o... | self.depression |
Spending the holiday alone. Happy Thanksgiving. I am spending mine alone again, because of Black Friday tomorrow. If you're spending the holiday alone like myself, a few things you can do to distract your mind from your loneliness:
- Watch a show that you wouldn't regularly watch, like a different genre. Or play a gam... | self.depression |
[NAW] Cancer sucks. I used to think that karma is a real thing, and that good hearted people are treated right by the universe. And then I found out about 2 weeks ago that my mom has cancer. And probably the best and most amazing person I know. And it's not fair. And I'm so sick and tired of all the looks and words of ... | self.offmychest |
Maybe too much? I'm a really sensitive person. I don't like to be this way, but I am and I've learn to accept that who I am (kinda) but oh my lord how I wish it could be changed.
Every single thing hurts me or make me anxious. An ignored text, a comment, a look. The worst part is that everyone could break my heart. N... | self.offmychest |
I missed a medical test for the third time today because of anxiety. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Mania and loneliness [rant] Does anyone else feel more manic when they’re alone? I feel like when I’m with my husband or around others I struggle to control my mania and be “normal” I slip up a lot and do a lot of things other people wouldn’t do but when I’m alone I’m like a completely different person. I don’t know. I... | self.bipolar |
After years of struggling with anxiety disorder, i finally got an anti-depressant and i am doing great! I recently got on Lexapro and my anxiety has been much better. I did not want to get on an anti-depressant but had to if I was to continue to be a pilot per requirement by the FAA. They only allow 4 different types o... | self.Anxiety |
Things just keep on getting better 👍👍👍 It's always good to know that when you think things couldn't get any worse life proves you wrong. | self.depression |
Sometimes it feels like having good times isn't even worth it, because once they're over, I'll feel bad again anyway I've had some genuinely great experiences these last weeks. I've been to a halloween party with some people I feel might become my friends. I've seen one of my favourite bands live and it was one of the ... | self.depression |
I have no control, suicidal thoughts are back It doesn't sound so bad. I had a dream last night where the relief of suicide would take me away from the apathy of everything. It feels like I physiologically sense that it is a good thing.
I have no self control. I don't face reality, I spend 10 hours a day playing video... | self.depression |
An endless game of catch-up Last semester in school, I became good friends with one girl I've had a couple of classes with before. At least once a week we'd have fun picking apart movies while figuring out homework. The thing that gets to me is that I've never had anything like this before. She's interested in being my... | self.depression |
Being a musician is a job, and a grind. The average listener doesn’t owe you attention. There’s this band I keep up with on social media who had a few viral songs in the early YouTube days. They made one album and an EP, and disappeared for years. They reunited 4 years ago and have since put out an EP and 1 song. The o... | self.offmychest |
I have so much to do I am so busy this week. I usually do things last second, but I don't want to do that this time. Pray for me or wish me luck. | self.depression |
How do you handle embarrassment? Specifically, going back to the scene of public butt sweat Long buttsweat-induced vent coming up.
My main source of anxiety is embarrassment. I find it very, very hard to go back to places where I have brought unwanted attention onto myself.
I've attempted to go back to college this ... | self.Anxiety |
My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me today and I think I can't go through this again since we already broke up once and those were the worst moths of my life. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I just really don’t want to be alive anymore it’s that simple Not in the mood to be grammatically correct so excuse this clusterfuck of a post......I’m 21 years old , behind everybody in life, have no car no money, no skills/credentials I’ve become stupid and inept due to lack or participation in my own life , kicked ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Depressed on New Year's Eve I wish I could stay alone somewhere and cry my self to sleep. I wish i won't wake up. | self.depression |
Not sure if I really want to just fade out [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Have any of you dissociated for months on a row? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
The love of my life left me Hi i can't say much right now, as I'm freaking out, but my boyfriend left me. It was completely random and he blocked me on everything. There was no closure and I am so fucking confused. I kind of thought he was losing love but I had no idea it would come down to him leaving me without any w... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am lost I fail every time I attempt to put words to how I feel and what I think. Self loathing, paranoia, self consciousness, hatred for the society I live in, loneliness, etc. It feels like I'm being attacked from every direction but it is inside of my head for the most part. Sometimes I can distract myself but most... | self.depression |
I have lost all my zest for life. I'm a 27 year old female and I've been struggling with depression my whole life. I've also struggled with drug addiction (more recently, abusing benzodiazepines which I have been clean from since September).
My depression has been slowly trying to consume me and eat me whole. Everyth... | self.depression |
Opinions on social media / messaging apps? I deleted Snapchat today because I found I was making my fluctuations in my mood a little too obvious, normally I can get it under control in person but it's hard when you can reach anyone instantly
However, I'm worried this will just leave me more alone
Thoughts? | self.depression |
Actually had a good birthday! I've been feeling really bad lately and it only seems to get worse. My birthday was on the 13th and I really wasn't looking forward to it at the time. I've been thinking about how people treated me that day. So many people said happy birthday and it felt really nice. The best part was ... | self.depression |
trying a different approach, or something I walked around like a zombie today. In a fog. Couldn’t make any contact with anyone. Felt nothing. I’m tired of figuring out why, what this is. Is it CPTSD, depression, is it something completely random I’m overlooking? Maybe it’s just January, with its grey skies and lack of ... | self.depression |
Forgetting how happiness felt like I was once a happy person. I had hopes dreams ans ambitions. I felt connected to the world and I had something to lookforward to everyday.
But things fell apart slowly. Right now all I want is to stop feeling miserable and sad. I don't want to celebrate life, I don't want to laugh, ... | self.depression |
I need help. I need help. I keep going through my everyday routine just to get through the day.
I changed my schedule at work so I dont have to work around other people.
I love my job, its a great support network. But its getting harder to want to be there.
Aside from my daily routine, I break down, or I self medica... | self.depression |
date next week Normally it wouldnt be a big deal for me. But before Christmas break one of my friends told me her friend had seen me around campus and wanted to get to know me better. I had a flight to catch the next day so I said "sure hmu when I'm back and we can see" without even asking for the girls picture. So she... | self.offmychest |
I feel so empty, i just want to die After years and years of abuse and lonliness i escape it to find love and they all hurt me instead and eventually leave me entirely alone. Its always my fault, they go because i tell them about the sexual assault or they go because i tell them about the MPD or they go because im tran... | self.SuicideWatch |
Difficulty working Does anyone else find that their anxiety goes out of control when working a regular 40h week?
I'm happy and functional when I work 15h. I can manage 20h at this point. But as soon as I do 25-30 hours I start loosing my self care habits and spiraling out of control. My anxiety peaks and I feel exhaus... | self.Anxiety |
Well my sister died and I lost my virginity It was just awful. She died a week ago and ever since then i havent been the same. I just felt like ruining my life. I was a good kid who studied and didnt kiss until at least 3 dates. But now i gave my virginity away to my friend who i dont even like. Im a horrible person. I... | self.offmychest |
Quitting medication and sluggishness After tapering off of medication and going through some withdrawal symptoms I think I have a new problem; sluggishness. I have very little energy for anything and I'm wondering if this is normal. I'd ask a professional, but I don't have insurance anymore sooooo.... has anyone else ... | self.bipolar |
DAE have a constant feeling of forgetting? I always feel like I'm forgetting something, or like I'm supposed to do something. It's the same feeling of not doing an assignment you were supposed to do, or forgetting an important object when going out, except nothing's actually going on. | self.Anxiety |
That's all folks. I've made my mind up few months ago, been preparing for this moment for a very, very long time - it's not like a bad decision made in a rush - I'm not a desperate person who is looking for some attention.
The true fact of the matter is that, I've been reading about suicide behaviours and came across... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I not feel guilty for having anxiety? I'm trying to better myself but I'm scared of my impact on the people around me. This spirals into feelings of guilt which exacerbate my anxiety and delay my recovery/progress. How do I show myself compassion while accepting my condition may always be problematic for the peo... | self.Anxiety |
Scared of being gay, even though I'm not. To start off, I know I'm not gay. I'm straight and love women, and have always felt safe and comfortable around them. And I have nothing against other people being gay either. But recently I started developing a phobia if I somehow was gay and didn't realize it. Like how Mr.Gar... | self.Anxiety |
my bosses "help" got me fired from the best job ive ever had... :( During the hurricane that came through south florida back in september, I offered to stay at my office with my daughter. I WAS the CTO and it was my responsibility to keep our websites up. Thinking that the comptroller did his fucking job and had the ... | self.bipolar |
Managing bipolar without medication. Hi.
I feel like there is consensus that bipolar diagnosis should be treated with medication.
I myself got diagnosed bipolar, because of a full blown manic episode that got me hospitalized for 2,5 months. And then I got forcefed medication (even with syringes), and kept in a psych ... | self.bipolar |
I'm starting on Lithium soon- any warnings/glad tidings? Hey all,
I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder after 4 long years of suspecting that I had it. My psychiatrist has agreed to put me on Lithium, and I'm due to start on that very soon. From what I've read online, I'm getting some very mixed signals ... | self.bipolar |
I am scared of how bad my suicidalness and depression has gone. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Could beta blockers help with my tachycardia I think that stems from anxiety? So I'm usually always tense and on edge, antsy and waiting for bad crap to happen. My problem has been my heart racing and chest tightening and hurting, while I feel as though I'm not getting enough air. Usual panic attack stuff, however my ... | self.Anxiety |
It's all meaningless nothing really matter in the grand scope in ten years no one will care or even remember me but right now and pretty much everyday id just pain for me why should i keep punishing myself just to stop like 2 or 3 people at most from feeling bad for a coupllle weeks? im a fucking 43 year old trans wo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mother with depression. Father with unhealthy exercise addiction. Dysfunctional family. My mum's been struggling with depression ever since she had my brother, but she's been able to cope with it despite my dad's stubbornness. Last year, my dad started marathon running, and has been addicted ever since. This May, he ha... | self.depression |
Flu anxiety (health anxiety) So I was just reading about this flu season and apparently it's really bad this year. Multiple deaths, two young and healthy people have died, and it's really active. Obviously, as someone with health anxiety, that scares the crap out of me. What's worse after today I have two long travel d... | self.Anxiety |
School Shootings Here's the thing, folks.
If you haven't been in school a while, we do this thing called ALICE (alert, lockdown, inform, counter, evacuate) training. Basically, instead of teaching kids that gun violence shouldn't be this big of a problem and guns should be better regulated in terms of automatic or sem... | self.offmychest |
I feel like everyone can tell i'm not like them I've got generalized anxiety and I'm pretty awful at conversation and making connections because worry gets in the way. I analyze everything I said and did for a day, then I always conclude that it went awful. I decided last year that I would seriously work on it while I'... | self.Anxiety |
Back at it again and the days are so long I'm back in a depressive episode. One of my telltale signs... crying sporadically at work everyday. One tiny trigger and I'm trying to keep tears from falling and making sure no one is watching me fall apart. I love my job- it keeps me feeling normal and functioning- but when m... | self.bipolar |
I'm worthless Next friday I'll get the results of this trimester on high school and they are gonna be horrible. I might fail 7 subjects out of 10 and I feel so stupid. My parents will get furious, shove in my face that I'm the worst son and they will take away from me everything that helps me cope with everyday life.
... | self.depression |
Feel guilty that my anxiety affects those I care about I'm hoping I can get some good advice for how to deal with this. I feel guilty that during a particularly bad episode I'm either easily irritable, negative or miserable to be around and I'm worried that I just make other people's lives worse off from it.
I have a... | self.Anxiety |
Diagnosed On Saturday I am new to this sub. I have had anxiety/depression for at least 16 years. I’m 22F, have always had issues with panic. I went to a psychiatrist because my last one couldn’t even help me (embarrassing) and he diagnosed me with bipolar within 20 minutes of talking to me. It was an hour and a half ap... | self.bipolar |
Today, I have accepted the fact I want to commit suicide, and one day likely will. This will be long. I don't know if many of you will read through this, I would like to hope some people will.
Ever since I was in sixth grade, I have been somebody who is mentally off. I would ponder about religion, about how I couldn'... | self.SuicideWatch |
This is the first time I will have ever told anyone this I am over 40 years old and have suffered from depression and anxiety my entire life.
I’m married to a beautiful woman, have a young son I love very much and make a good salary for what I do. I own a house, we have 2 cars and never have to worry about paying the... | self.depression |
I NEED help with my anxiety and depression I need help with my depression. I love God and he is the love of my life. I can't live without Him. He is my only hope. He's all I live for. Recently, some people fucked around with my faith. I am a freshman in college. I also was raised catholic, but I feel some guilt leaving... | self.Anxiety |
My relationship is crumbling and I can't handle it [deleted] | self.depression |
Suicide is the only way I'm too fucking angry. I'm too fucking incompetent. I'm too fucking lazy. I feel no joy. I feel no passion. I have no interests. I fucking hate everything and everyone. There is no joy. I fucking hate every facet of my being. I fucking hate every facet of this pointless fucking planet Earth. The... | self.SuicideWatch |
fuck this and fuck everything in this stupid world [deleted] | self.depression |
I don't feel like I have even a hypothetical chance to improve my existence Hello, people!
I am now at a point of life where I am completely stuck.
I am 23, currently doing my master studies.
Apparently, my life looks decent from the outside. But in reality, it is hell. I am at a point where I do not identify myself ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I sometimes ask these questions. What’s the point in living? Is it just a distraction from death? Once we die, that’s it. We’re all alone after that. Whats the point in working so hard at life u know? How come I can’t have friends and have a normal teenage life like everyone else at school? Why do i have to resort to a... | self.depression |
Suffering in silence is praised by our society It's a pathological meme that is having very real consequences across the world. People are dying becuase of this unspoken rule that suffering in silence is admirable. It is not.
I was watching a show where the presenter literally said 'She seems to be in pain but it kee... | self.depression |
Overwhelming thoughts. I get so depressed thinking about how I'm unemployed, don't really have any friends, never had someone to love deeply and all my time goes to watching my sisters kids. I want to find a job that pays well so when I'm in my 40's a decade from now I'll be happy. I talk to my Mom about wanting more o... | self.depression |
3 months on Buspirone, started at 5mg twice daily and now at 15mg twice daily with little to no effects Hello, my Dr started me on 5mg Buspar a few months ago and said we can go all the way to 30mg twice a day, we’ll after 3 months I’m at 15mg twice a day and I can’t say I feel any better than I did before I took it. ... | self.Anxiety |
I've been studying engineering for 4 years now and I'm barely halfway through my courses. I hate this place. I hate myself. I just want to stop existing. Firstly: yes, this is all my fault. I blame no one but myself for my problems. When I complain about professors and the system, I still fully recognize that thousands... | self.offmychest |
My life has taken some unexpected turns TL;DR Stuck with cheating fiance, just want to experience life and be happy, crushing hard on a friend, dont know how to get out of this situation.
I have been with my fiance for almost 4 years. We've been engaged for a year and a half. He has cheated on me a few times and du... | self.depression |
I'm so stupid for falling for her... I knew it the moment I first saw her; I quietly acknowledged her beauty and I told myself to not even bother. There were many dozens of guys where we worked who were taller, more attractive and making at least 8-10x the amount I was making and I immediately convinced myself to stay... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone? Does anyone else get thoughts like, “I can’t wait to die.” But they won’t actually do anything to speed up the process?? | self.depression |
My aunt died 2 days ago . I am really sad. I got a phone call from my mother telling me that my aunt died after her body just completely shut down after 7 years of living on dialysis due to kidney failure.
She was practically like a second mother to me. My mom rebelled from my conservative grandmother for awhile, ran... | self.offmychest |
How do you guys survive mornings? Mornings are so mentally exhausting for me, for so many reasons.
Does anyone have tips or ways to cope with total and complete exhaustion? I’m tired of just hiding from everybody and crying. | self.Anxiety |
I'm just so fucking sick and tired of it all I am constantly getting suspended from school.
People are constantly insulting me on the Internet.
I bully people because of my own insecurities.
I get in fights with my parents every day.
I self harm.
I think about killing myself everyday.
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I don't like to drink, so stop telling me I should drink more often [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Lonely Little Boy I am a child of fortune, the son of a doctor and a registered nurse. I have been given everything you could want in life. I was loved as a child - my parents divorced, there was some strife, but nothing so damaging to ruin a childhood. But I cannot remember being happy for very long.
In college I hav... | self.SuicideWatch |
My psychiatrist upped my lamictal to 200mg. Lamictal helped tremendously on my old dosage. Now I feel out of control. Very hyper. Racing thoughts. Should I ask to be lowered to 100mg? Or should I ride it out? | self.bipolar |
All I Can Think Of Is Suicide I’ve been suicidal for about 2 weeks now. Not sure if I’m misusing the term but I’ve at least had suicidal thoughts every day for the past 2 weeks. I don’t think my life will get better since it’d take a miracle. There’s no point in me wasting anyone else’s time on earth anymore, plus I’ve... | self.SuicideWatch |
The one last thing I have is a false sense of pride and it's dying every day. [deleted] | self.depression |
i want to end it, but im scared of what happens next [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Am I the only one who finds solace in suicidal thoughts? Why is it that I feel this relief when I think of taking my life? Is it because it is the only thing in my life I feel I have complete control over?
It probably does has something to do with control, and knowing that the pain will definitely be over, I guess t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Genuinely tired of trying to be happy I honestly don’t even know where to begin. I look at my life, and it’s not terrible. It had its ups and it’s downs, but it could’ve been worse. I’ve got a job that I love, I love with 3 amazing roommates, and I have even been seeing someone! But now matter what I do, no matter how ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Heart cramp before panic attack Hello everyone, a few months ago I started getting panic attacks and the scarriest thing seems to be the chest pain, especially one at the beggining that seems the strongest, I have checked myself at the doctors and am physically fine. I'm writing here to ask what kind of chest pain do y... | self.Anxiety |
My ex girlfriend doesn't want me back. Feeling very depressed [deleted] | self.depression |
Light headiness and dizziness For the past few days I've been getting short bursts of dizziness (they last from 1-3 seconds) but today It has gotten a lot worse. Right now I'm getting the bursts like every 2 minutes. I don't know why this is happening and I'm scared. What's wrong? I've had anxiety (emetophobic) for 6 y... | self.Anxiety |
Advice on Sleeping with Anxiety? I know, I should take her to dinner first (bah-dum-tiss!). But in all seriousness, I find my anxiety worst at night and it's very hard, rather, almost impossible to fall asleep naturally. So I've been using gravol for the past few weeks.
I have racing thoughts at night and usually bad ... | self.Anxiety |
How to remove the mark of neck that is done by hanging? I tried to hand myself few days ago and I still have the mark on my neck so how can I remove that mark?
I wanna remove the mark so badly and try hanging again to end my life. | self.depression |
I hoped New Year's Eve would change something, but it' still the same [deleted] | self.depression |
Depression and grief I am a 28 yr old M, who has been diagnosed with treatment resistant MDD from the age of 16.
Recently, I was attempting to get into a ketamine study in a NYC hospital and was asked a number of questions about my background. One item which came up that I have not thought about in a while was the spe... | self.depression |
I am going to write a book about my life. I feel motivated to write my book during my hypomanic state which I am in right now. It is about my experiences and life since I was diagnosed. I was diagnosed in august at 18 years old. Is anyone else thinking about writing a book about their experiences? | self.bipolar |
Anxiety Diluting Fond Memories I would always tell people that I loved my college days (graduated a couple years ago) and that I met some of my best friends there. But, lately, as I've become more aware of just how much my untreated anxiety has impacted my behavior I can only seem to focus on the bad moments. I've real... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone realize how depressing it feels when people say Norway is the "greatest" country? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
"We can't afford to have you be depressed now" I do a fairly good job of masking how I actually feel, I think. But sometimes I fall for the oldest trick in the book. Someone in my family will ask me how I'm doing. "No, really. Are you okay?" They know I'm depressed and want to act as someone I can vent to.
"Sure," I t... | self.depression |
Goddamn it I saw my rapist today At my place of work. It's been three years since the assault and this was the first time I'd seen him. He made eye contact with me and smiled like he knew who I was, like he remembered me. I gave him my best dead eyes. He was in the store for so long that I was up to a full fledged pani... | self.offmychest |
I have had a desire to kill myself for about a year, I think of ways to end it, and have almost acted on it [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Totally Random Question Do you ever see a positive aspect of being bipolar? Because I do, but I feel that's also super weird to do so.
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Why can't I stop hurting people? I'm fucking useless. This is going to be a long post.
I can't stop hurting people. Every time I try to date someone, either they have to leave because of my problems or I end up pushing them away.
Firstly, many of my relationships have ended after they witness my first breakdown (whet... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone here made it through graduate school? I'm currently in my first year of college and doing well, but not without some bumps in the road. I missed about 40% of my classes last semester but thanks to that manic work ethic I somehow caught up and ended with a 4.0
For years I feel like my life has been one long loop... | self.bipolar |
Feel like I've wasted my life Before you ask, I'm 33. I'm morbidly obese, female, pretty shitty job, no friends, haven't been in a relationship in 10 years. Have bad social anxiety and depression, I'm so quiet I feel like I have no personality or anything to talk about with anyone. No hobbies and I struggle to find int... | self.SuicideWatch |
I cannot live with who i am and who I have become It is really going to be a struggle to write this as I have never confided this deeply into anybody. I have tried talking to therapists but it is hard opening up to them when so much my life is so shameful.
Right now I feel as though am at the crossroads. I cannot log... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do I need a reason to be depressed? I tried to explain to my parents that you don't need a reason because it's a mental disorder so I get depressed no matter how happy I am or can be. It's still there and it lingers. But they seem to think that there must be something bad happening in my life to warrant having depressi... | self.depression |
I’m only at peace when I’m alone and when my eyes are closed. When my eyes are open, that’s when reality sinks in, and I’m really uncomfortable around people :c | self.depression |
Thinking the world is all wrong? (tw: self-harm) Everything feels wrong or off. I don't trust what's going on. People seem strange. The nighttime feels like it's evil. I have weird thoughts that include self-harm. I want to slice down my legs in a perfect straight line, and down my wrists. Racing thoughts. I can barely... | self.bipolar |
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