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There’s no point in living when you’re all alone [deleted] | self.depression |
Help. I spent last night in the ER with my 16-year-old who drank rubbing alcohol. She had another attempt in June. She sees a counselor and psychiatrist but they disagree on diagnosis. The Prozac isn’t helping the depression, although it helps the anxiety. Sometimes I wonder if it makes it worse. 😢 | self.depression |
I've shacked up with a gangster in a business venture already turning on it's head. Yet, I don't care. My knees are so weak for this dude, I literally couldn't care less that he's using me, withholding information from me, playing on my obvious attraction to him... All I want to do is write about this crazy stuff, engr... | self.offmychest |
27, never had a job, no prospects. None of my options will prevent me killing myself. What can I actually do? As in what are the actual steps I have to take to achieve happiness. I know what I'm told I need to do. Get any job, build a resume etc. But getting a job stacking shelves will only push me to killing myself so... | self.SuicideWatch |
Ain’t it funny? Isn’t it funny how you feel like you finally have reached the sun and it feels as if you are basking in its glory, and everything seems to be going fine and you stopped all of those little ticks you had. Then out of no where, for absolutely no reason, you get sucked right back underwater, you can’t brea... | self.depression |
Felt better on my missed dose of zoloft than when i got back on I just started taking zoloft 25mg, it makes me feel like shit, everyone tells me to stick through it. But on a day that I missed a dose I felt...good! like I actually got a surge of energy. Is it possible the zoloft was still in my system then? i guess, bu... | self.Anxiety |
Today's my birthday! ...and my evil ex decided today was a good day to apologize? Let's take you back to Summer 2010. I was a lonely soon to be senior in high school, and this guy reached out to me on Facebook. I recognized him from school and said, why not you seem nice I'll talk to you.
Ladies and gents, he was not... | self.offmychest |
Am I in love or lonely? Am I scared of love so I push other people away? [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Fuck it, I'm going back to bed. It's pretty much been my motto for the past 6-7 months. Stare at the computer for a while, try to find something to do, stare some more. "Fuck it, I'm going back to bed."
And that's after staying in bed so long that my back or sides hurt.
I'm due to go back to work in 11 days and I don... | self.depression |
Reasons why I shouldn't kill myself? I can't find too many reasons as to why I shouldn't kill myself.
I'm a entitled, irresponsible, lazy, useless fuck.
I've never had a job more than 3 months. I shit on my credit, which makes housing about impossible.
I'm homeless because my mom died and her house was given to her nex... | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont want to die. I just think it is the only solution at this point [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate self hating asians I don't really know how to say this. I'm an Asian American from NYC. There are a lot of other Asian Americans where I come from, so growing up I never felt like being Asian made me different or set me apart. It was just background noise to me. I never thought about it much. That's true for a l... | self.offmychest |
Getting help and where to go from there First time poster. Let me be up front, I don't know anything about anxiety from a medical/categorical view. All I know is that I *think* I've been living with chronic anxiety for a long time and it has gotten really, really bad with college.
First of all, some background just to... | self.Anxiety |
I am tempted to do something mildly unethical. Should I or not? Can stop thinking about it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
God she fucking ruined my heart. I NEED your words guys. I'm so fucking sad. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Behind my smile I am depressed
I am suicidal
I am not a threat to myself
I am on anti-depressants
They don't cure depression
They gloss over the core of the issue
The crushing weight on my chest becomes more numb
I can still feel it's there
Anti-depressants make it easier to smile
I still try to tell people
... | self.SuicideWatch |
Changing med times I take quetiapine every night at around 10 pm. I missed a dose last night because silly me forgot to pick up my repeat prescription so I'm running on 0hrs sleep. I'm exhausted and want to take my meds now (8pm) and then go back to 10 pm tomorrow but I'm wondering if that'll affect me negativly.
| self.bipolar |
Coke Can Panic I read a comment on reddit about a guy panicking over a coke can, getting frustrated and yelling at the can and fighting back tears.
That's me. I'll yell at the can and throw it and get frustrated that I threw the can and wasted it. Then I'll scream about something that happened 10 years ago and how it ... | self.bipolar |
I'm feeling lost I tried to kill myself last Sunday by cutting my wrists open. I don't remember what went down that evening to be honest. I guess I panicked after seeing what I've done so I went to the nearby hospital. Doctor stitched both my wounds and asked if I'll be alright and I said yes. But now with both of my h... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become? That's a line from my favourite poem. 14 Lines from Loveletters or Suicide Notes. It's a question that I've seen around a lot and I don't have a good answer but I have an answer that works for me at least.
When I got to my last year of highschool every... | self.offmychest |
We were supposed to be ride or die. You destroyed me, now I'm returning the favor. (I hope you read this, M.) [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Holy shit how many types of antidepressants do I have to take before I want to stop killing myself? I've been on a half dozen by now... none of them are working... | self.depression |
I don't want to see you. But cutting you off would just make things worse. Since the first stages of our friendship, I have never been able to tell if you are truly a friend, or just a critic. You poke fun at my makeup and clothes. You told me that my writing (my greatest dream, mind you) was a waste of time in college... | self.offmychest |
Humans aren’t suppose to live in a world like this. We ourselves are animals and we are programmed to live in the wild and really put in work for stuff. Now we have shelter, food, water and whatever we need whenever we need it. No hunting with friends or exciting things anymore. | self.depression |
Severe insomnia makes my depression worse, depression makes my insomnia worse How do i break out of this miserable cycle? I struggle to fall asleep and then wake up after 2-3 hours unable to go back to sleep. Its fucked. | self.depression |
Skipping a night of Seroquel okay? I’m a graduate student and I️ have to unfortunately pull an all-nighter. How bad would it be if I️ skipped the Seroquel for a day or two just so I️ can stay up late to work? I️ haven’t missed a dose since I️ started so I️ just want to be prepared for any side effects. | self.bipolar |
hate being alive Some days seem difficult to get through because everything seems so taxing. On these days I have moments where I want to die so badly and I dislike the fact that I have another 50 or so years to live. Just the thought of that wears me out. Everything seems like a struggle. Feels as if life is passing ... | self.depression |
I'm so lonely Loneliness kicked in and I haven't left my room for weeks, abandoning school work that are past due. I don't even know why I'm making this post but the sudden realization of my parents won't be with me forever and my boyfriend and I most likely won't last and my friends have their own issues made me incre... | self.depression |
I don't feel like I can wear whatever I want to. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Went to bed four hours early I'm such a fucking joke | self.depression |
The universe is forcing me to kill myself. I have been trying so hard to change my life. Nothing works. Its nearly over for me. What a sad story. If I don't find a job soon I will die at 26. Single since before I was diagnosed in college, unemployed for 2 of the 3 years since I graduated, and forever unstable. I have n... | self.SuicideWatch |
Swallowing/choking anxiety. Who do you see for help about this? Unfortunately over the past few years I've developed somewhat of a phobia to swallowing food. It started slowly, initially I had trouble swallowing saliva when 'stuck' in somewhere like a plane. But it progressed, to not being comfortable eating in front o... | self.Anxiety |
I feel tired and depressed all the time! Hi there everyone. I feel that I don’t have the energy to focus at school, I also feel depressed all the time which makes my time at school even worse, now I have to move a test about jobs to get more time to study and I just feel even more sad. I’m to tired to focus at what I’m... | self.depression |
I'm pushing 30 and I don't have much to show for it. Lives with parents.
Not broke but not wealthy.
Still an undergrad (will get a BA in history in a year)
No car. I have my permit.
10/hour retail job for the last 3 years.
Never been in a relationship.
I still really don't know what I want to do or any idea how t... | self.offmychest |
Advice needed Hi GAD/ mild ocd sufferer here.
I have been worrying about my health issues for 6 months. This ranged from heart attack worries to cancer worries. Lately my worries have manifested into mental health worries. I have realised the internet is my nemesis in this one. I wanted to learn more about anxiety but... | self.Anxiety |
Only using meds when needed? I had my major mental breakdown a year and a half ago. I’ve been on meds for about a year now and I feel like they’ve accomplished their purpose. Even though I’m not swinging high and low anymore, I feel numb to everything and I’m not enjoying life anymore.
I want to slowly go off my m... | self.bipolar |
My fear of flying is killing me I'm flying to my homeland tomorrow and I'm actually so scared. I just want to burst out in tears. I want to overcome this fear so badly and I just can't, no matter how many times I fly, I just can't get over this feeling. It's just so insane, that feeling you get in your stomach when you... | self.offmychest |
22F starting cipralex 10mg I have been to my doctor a couple times now regarding my anxiety. I am generally an anxious person, but I have felt lately like I no longer have control of it, and that instead, it has control over me. It is interfering with my social and academic life, and I can't control negative thoughts o... | self.Anxiety |
how do I? How do I really know if I'm depressed? Too scared to talk to anyone so going to someone about it probably won't happen. You guys are the only people I can talk to. | self.depression |
In 24 hours my family will lose 12k in income thanks to the GOP tax bill. We already live in my mother's basement. MAGA! For those of you who are unfamiliar with the scope of the new tax bill, this will profoundly effect graduate students. My husband currently receives a 20k stipend on which he is taxed for attending g... | self.offmychest |
Withdraw Doc confirmed I've been in withdraw from seriquil (sp) for over a week. Bumped up prescription but not quite to last level. I've felt miserable. When will the nightmare end? | self.bipolar |
I hate my adoptive sister So a bit of background, I was adopted by a family that knew myself and my older brother when I was 14. I'm now 21. This family has 3 of their own kids, and my adoptive sister is the eldest, at 29. When I was younger the age gap was quite big in respects of where we were in our lives, but now t... | self.offmychest |
Irrational feelings I’m going to college next year, and we have the financials figured out (no loans, yay!)
Yet, I have a really bad feeling that something is going to happen and it’ll all fall through and I won’t be able to attend school when fall comes. This fear has been keeping me up at night and I’ve been getting... | self.Anxiety |
Can't do job well because of anxiety I've switched to a new job about 6 months ago but until now i still can't get used to it. Anxiety is so terrible i can't get my job done well. Whenever my manager or colleague will ask me to do something i will always miss some details. I hear everything but I don't understand it co... | self.Anxiety |
I'm just wrong. Recently finished another pathetic attempt at romance, realizing that if no one seems to want me, it's probably for a good reason. Not even the whole mental health thing; I know plenty of people who have depression, anxiety, and whatnot, and they also are in fantastic relationships.
So. The *real* reas... | self.depression |
I live inside my head and I want out I'm finishing up high school and when it comes to grades that's going fine. I don't study shit and yet top marks just fall on my lap. I have a friend who I love dearly and a group of online friends that have managed to keep me from throwing myself out of my room's window. But it doe... | self.depression |
Happiness. Some thoughts I have been having. I told my partner "I'm trying to be more happy!" and he asked how I was going to go about doing that and I had no clue. I honestly thought he'd have some tips because he doesn't have a worry in this world. And then I thought "I have a mood disorder. How the fuck am I just... | self.bipolar |
I really want to kill myself, but cant work out the courage to. [deleted] | self.depression |
My anxiety is driving my relationship into the ground. I've been in a long-term relationship for four years now. We've struggled with communication issues often but fought hard to get better at it and make it work.
I used to be really bad with suppressing every little thing that upset me, until something would trigge... | self.Anxiety |
Severe depression ruining my life Don't know why I even bother writing anything, or doing anything for that matter as I don't feel any joy whatsoever and haven't felt any joy in years.
Why would I even bother being sober since everything a sober life would offer me is of no value to me? I've been on various antidepres... | self.depression |
Stuck in a sleepless cycle. So as many probably know some bipolar medications lead to weight gain and a chance of developing diabeties. Because of this I am on 1000mg of metformin a day. It works well but causes insomnia, like so bad I feel like crying or having a break down pity party, kind of ironic that I take a med... | self.bipolar |
What do I do I don’t know what to do. I just don’t. My girlfriend left me. My best friend splattered his brains all over his wall. My sister got in a car crash and is dying. My mom died from cancer. My dad packed up and left when I was little. I have no one now, and now I want to join my friend. | self.offmychest |
i dont even know anymore sorry this is so long.
i just need to get this off my chest and no one else will listen. this is going to be a throwaway account too because i dont want others to find out about this.
i'm so sick of this life im living. i wish there was some sort of restart button, where everything could jus... | self.depression |
Chest tightness that lasts for a few days after a panic attack? Does anyone else get this? Just making sure that I'm not alone here. I will often get what feels like leftover tightness on the left side of my chest after enduring an anxiety episode.
It's definitely calling my lifestyle into question though. I could cop... | self.Anxiety |
How do you get out of your own head? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Immediate feelings of guilt, shame, depression, suicidal thoughts? Anyone else? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Forced incest has me regretting everything and feeling like I should die. Please help me Once when I was 14 and she was 12-13 I decided it was an okay idea to place my cousin's hand on my penis for a few moments while she slept. I never did this again and I'm not sure why I did to begin with.
A year later I think I ca... | self.offmychest |
Radiohead(s) Since music is one of the few aspects of my life keeping me alive, I was wondering how many people here listen/like/love/would die for Radiohead? Their music articulates my depression to an astonishing degree and I presume so for others too but I just wanted to know for sure. | self.depression |
Fuck this I wish I had never been born. I hate my life. I am addicted to sleep because it's the only place I can be where I feel in control and truly happy. | self.bipolar |
I hate being a girl: Part II
*Exerpt from chat log with friend's replies removed because it was the best synopsis of whats going on I could tell*
...It's okay. I'm not even mad at you. I just didn't want you to misunderstand the point. I feel like I can't play by the rules nobody talks about and it impacts me and hur... | self.offmychest |
Ever wonder why we make things so hard for ourselves ? [deleted] | self.depression |
Has anyone tried intensive outpatient programs for anxiety? I was thinking of doing one. It's like rehab but for depression and anxiety. I'm not suicidal but I recently quit and I have been home for almost 6 months now and I still do not feel any relief from my medication or symptoms
I just want to see what the exper... | self.Anxiety |
u/IamCrocubot Go talk to your friend that you're ghosting u/IamCrocubot
Please reconsider what you're saying, there's no taking back such a thing. You can always seek to improve your situtation and make friends and just enjoy yourself. You've just got to stop and reexamine things from another perspective. You claim th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Where to start?! Hi,
I don't know how to start this thread, I'll try to be as honest as possible, maybe there are others like me :) :| :(
I never talked this kind of stuff besides with my wife and a close friend (but he died in a car accident ages ago).
I'm married with 2 children (4 years and 1 year old), I love my... | self.SuicideWatch |
To much stress As I progress in high school. Once I got to junior year I started to first have stomach pains (ibs), them tinnitus and later losing small part of my hair. And it has only progressed worse. I can't eat foods I like, it effects my athletic performance and I cant use headphones and go to concerts. Music and... | self.Anxiety |
Grieving and having heaps of regrets at what should be the happiest time of year I miss my mum and my aunt. My mum was mentally ill but I was really good at looking out for her. My aunt was the one who would look out for me a lot whenever my mum had to go to hospital. She died around the middle of this year of cancer. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
*not urgent* I don't know anymore First off I put not urgent so people who are in a much worse place might be tended to first.
I've been having mood swings the past few days and now I'm just plain depressed. I don't want to die, I just don't want to be here right now. I lost most of my friends recently, it was great... | self.SuicideWatch |
long vent ok so, do you ever feel only death can erase your mistakes?
i know it's a sick thing to feel, but i've made so many mistakes. i've hurt the people close to me (my mother, friends (??), a younger family member) just because (?) i don't know why. i don't know what i was trying to prove.
anyway, it just feel... | self.SuicideWatch |
Thank you all - my bipolar family! I post a “need help” on Thursday, about me having bad thought, a lot of you have reach me, on the post and also on chat, one have walked me thought that darkest time. For that, I’m greatly appreciated! Sometimes when we in an episode, everything went so dark, so fast, without reaching... | self.bipolar |
Sick of constantly wanting to die I mean, like most people on this forum, I want to die. Constantly. Even when I am happy I want to die. I am just sick of always feeling tired and not feeling like my life is mine. I work three jobs and am taking part in graduate school. I have a best friend, whom I love very very much,... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone have hypothetical arguments in their head ? I keep having hypothetical arguments in my head with people that currently aren't treating me too great. It's driving me mad and is happening all day. | self.Anxiety |
I think I have rheumatoid arthritis. I'm 19. I was already depressed. I had resolved to make it for at least as long as my parents were living though. Now that seems impossible. I'm going to be a burden now and live in pain. One of the things keeping me going before was a lot of exercise and lifting weights. It doesn't... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can anxiety medication be used long-term? Are there any anti-anxiety meds that can be used for a lifetime? | self.Anxiety |
Everyone is telling me not to start my anti-depresants. I finally got the courage to go to the doctor about being depressed. I was prescribed a low dose anti-depressant. All of my friends are telling me not to take them. When I tried to explain to my boyfriend that the waiting list for counselling is too long (12 weeks... | self.depression |
I have a long time struggle with anxiety and depression Early this summer, I went through one of the hardest times of my life. I finally got tired of all the things that have been plaguing me in the past and I (drunkenly) decided to try to take my own life. While I was sitting in my bed waiting for death to overcome me... | self.depression |
[General] How I felt during the start of my depression. Now getting help and encourage anyone who needs help to get it. I'm hopeless. Trapped not because there's no way out, but because I am out. Nothing to challenge, nothing to solve, nothing to break free from, yet still trapped more than ever. I feel a strong urge t... | self.depression |
I can't stop thinking that I'm fat and I hate myself for it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Just wanted to share my story for once with someone [deleted] | self.depression |
School is making me miserable and everyone thinks I'm a bitch for those same words I just typed. I don't care.
I don't care.
I don't care.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
I don't fucking care what the teachers are trying to force into my brain, I don't care about grades, I don't care. I hate this place, I hate the people in it, I h... | self.depression |
I am so fed up with this illness! I have bipolar disorder which means that once a year for about a moth and a half I go into very serious depression. Everything just seems hopeless and gray, like all the colour has vanished from the world. I have no real reason to be depressed, nothing has made me depressed, not the de... | self.offmychest |
im schlumpin and i have no reason to schlump [deleted] | self.depression |
I wish this brain zaps would stoppp ! So frustrating when these happen. I had a great day and then next thing you know I get a severe brain zap out of no where while at work. Then of course here comes the chest pain. And arm pain. And bad thoughts. Never fails. I just want relief. | self.Anxiety |
Possibly going manic, but I have no idea It’s actually making me kind of anxious. I thought I heard someone say they hate me, but it’d be uncharacteristic of them to say that, especially when I’m right beside them. I’m assuming it was a delusion/hallucination (I have audio hallucinations of my phone vibrating or wate... | self.bipolar |
My uncle just passed away all I feel is bitterness. For my aunt who is devastated, I feel terrible. I can't imagine what she's going through, my uncle has been the love of her life for 27 years. She was so happy with him and I can't imagine how she's going to move on without him. But my uncle, argh I'm so angry at him!... | self.offmychest |
My mom keeps yelling at me I was hooking up the Switch and my mom kept yelling at me ;-; here's a short video of part of it https://youtu.be/HC4L0Xso0-8
I lost track of the four wires I was dealing with cuz she kept yelling at me and now all of the systems are messed up but anyways
now she kept slamming droors while ... | self.Anxiety |
Please help, i have A constant fear of heart attack in last two months i became litteraly too aware of my heart. Litteraly everything i feel in my chest feels like my heart hurts. I have read some articles about heart attacks and while it seems that i have no reason to fear the attack, and nobody in my family had any h... | self.Anxiety |
Question So, I have never wished I was dead. I can’t even think about that without feeling horrible for the impact on my family and friends. However, is it bad/ a warning sign that sometimes I wish I just stopped existing with no consequences and the world would just change so that I had never mad any of the changes I ... | self.depression |
Did I deserve to be sweared at by my ex boyfriend for this? I just broke up with my boyfriend last night because he started swearing at me because I asked him (and I asked him nicely and cordially) to stop talking to me about how hot he thinks other women are. He then proceeded to curse at me, saying that he doesn't se... | self.offmychest |
How to medicate effectively with my doctor I’m currently taking anti-anxiety and depression medication prescribed by my doctor. It’s been pretty successful at helping me manage my anxiety for a couple of years now.
But lately I’ve noticed that it’s seemed less effective. I’ve had two relatively severe anxiety attacks ... | self.Anxiety |
Best friend told me that I never tried putting myself into her shoes and that all I did for her was not enough. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I don't want this be my last hope I have friends and family that don't care or listen to what I have to say. My last few therapists have just been terrible (one stood me up and the other didn't even ask me a single question before prescribing medications, and spent a total of 7 minutes with me). I feel isolated and hop... | self.depression |
Same ole shit add the previous post. Same ole shit as the previous post. (Can't edit typos in titles unfortunately.)
So, Thanksgiving is over and it's time to start thinking about December plans.
My parents have a fairly large house and holidays have always been hosted there. (The following sort of crap wouldn't be h... | self.depression |
My family is being torn apart and I don't know what to do. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone one lithium? I was just diagnosed with bipolar and was wondering if anyone has taken lithium.How was it? Any side effects or negative experiences on it? I’m a little worried because I have never been on anything before. | self.bipolar |
Been thinking about dropping myself head-first out of my third story window. I have thought about this method for more than a year. I read that a fall from this high would almost absolutely kill me. The only thing stopping me is the fear of surving with brain damage and other injuries. But even that may not be enough r... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm lonely and I don't know what to do about it. My boyfriend is getting busier and busier and hasn't had much time for me recently. It's made me see that I'm really relying on him for a lot of my social interaction.
I don't really have any good friends (besides him) in the city I'm living in. Everyone's moved away or... | self.offmychest |
How do you feel about mental illness on television? I was watching shameless today and [Spoiler Warning] it was talking about Ian's Bi-polar disorder and it got me thinking. When I see people on television with mental illness I can't understand why they won't get help, to me their illness is completely valid and should... | self.depression |
I need help :( I'm not sure If I have depression, but I feel really sad. My boyfriend broke up with me, because he went back to his ex about one month ago. I've been really sad and today is been a rough day... I just can't stop crying. I've been cutting my arm too and I never did this before. I need some friendly words... | self.depression |
My son tried committing suicide last night My son tried to commit suicide last night. He took a box cutter and sliced deep four or five times on one arm and three or four times on the other. Then he laid down in a bathtub full of water but then got out and went to his bedroom where he passed out.
He'd made an odd call... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've given up but I can't do anything about it. I've been trying for years now with various meds, therapists, and treatment programs, but nothing's working. I'm just so burnt out and tired of everything.
I'm too much of a coward to kill myself (which I absolutely hate myself for), but I definitely don't want to live e... | self.SuicideWatch |
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